#I'm gonna be real here I was also remembering that one scene in Ocean On Fire by theninjamouse where Grillby kissed y/n with a marshmallow

[mmalakite]

Me after finding out that Grillby's flames canonically go uncontrolled when he's flustered, and that he can toast marshmallows with his hands. (shout-out to Bunny, cause I also would have asked Grillby to toast me a marshmallow in his mouth 😇)

#I'm gonna be real here I was also remembering that one scene in Ocean On Fire by theninjamouse where Grillby kissed y/n with a marshmallow #In his mouth #Aheem #Grillby #undertale newsletter #grillby x oc #undertale x reader #self insert #malakite roses #my art #Undertale

[tarisilmarwen]

Rebels Rewatch: "The Wynkahthu Job"

The space = ocean metaphor really getting stretched here.

Hoo boy, here we go.

Hondo's converted the Imperial shuttle he stole into his new pirate ship. Mostly by way of strapping cargo crates to the top like it's a minivan lol.

Love how literally no one but Ezra is happy to see Hondo.

"But it all worked out in the end right?" It in fact did not work out in the end my love, you lost the Phantom and nearly fell to your death in a gas cloud.

Azmorigan wiping his earwax off onto the door panel, gross.

Yeah no I'm with Hera on this one I wouldn't want to work with him either.

I SHOULDN'T LAUGH BUT HONDO'S BLIND JOKES ARE ACTUALLY KIND OF HILARIOUS.

Right so, Rebels kind of leans into this whole aesthetic of depicting space with ocean and seafaring metaphors, which I guess ties back into the whole idea that Star Wars is Space Fantasy, not science-fiction, imbued with the romanticism and swashbuckling adventure of weekly serials. We have knights and princesses and pirates, the most iconic weapon is a sword (Ezra's first lightsaber in particular is kind of akin to a rapier, and his fighting style evokes fencing), we have ancient wayfinders (bo-rifles and Lasat culture) and migrating pods of whales. And now we have a shipwreck being slowly drawn in by a whirlpool.

It's a pretty cool reoccurring element.

Ezra still looks a bit uncomfortable with Hondo's affectionate shoulder wraps.

I love that they brought AP for this mission, he's always hilarious.

Oh good we're at scene the first of my least favorite part of this episode, Ezra randomly being an ass for no real reason. It's especially jarring and grating after the maturity he showed last episode so frankly I'm just kind of going to wander away from that plot thread and ignore it whenever it happens, it's dumb and I refuse to entertain it.

There isn't even any real lesson learned??? Ezra never apologizes for being a shit and Hondo proves he is actually a good and loyal friend by coming back for the finale so what was even the point of this contrived piece of conflict? Nglh.

"This is your plan!" "I have factored that in. Without me your chances would be almost zero." <33333 I love him.

Hondo and Azmorigan play off each other hilariously.

Keen-eyed can spot Melch running around the corridors in the background.

I'm remembering why I tend not to like stories centered around or heavily featuring Chaotic Neutral characters, all the times Hondo's double-crossed someone gets very tiring and hard to keep up with.

"You attacked an Imperial ship." "We do it all the time." "Exac--Really?" I DIED. I LOL-ED AND I DIED.

That sighing eyeroll from Ezra in the background there ha ha.

I really am going to have to refrain from quoting Hondo every single time he makes me laugh, but this line about how they used to get none of the truth is hitting me right in the funnybone.

The gag with the door is great too.

Oh! The whole nautical swashbuckling adventure vibe I mentioned? Yeah, now they're gonna fight enchanted skeletons. In the form of the sentry droids.

The cable ziplines make this feel a little like a heist movie.

Ignoring this whole exchange...

Oohhh they are taller than Zeb, that's scary.

AP-5 FORGOT TO INCLUDE THE SENTRY DROIDS IN HIS SCENARIO CALCULATING LOL.

Hello Darktrooper precursor.

AP-5's sullen disappointment when Ezra tells them the first sentry droid got blasted lolol. AP you could have saved everyone a LOT of headache by just forewarning them about the droids.

This whole exchange. <333

Ezra that "I'll catch up." was dangerously close to "I'm right behind you." and also the last time you used that phrase you found Maul lurking in a pit. Do not tempt karma like that.

The sentry droids show a remarkable amount of strategic intelligence shooting the cable out rather than continuing to fire at Zeb and Ezra.

Worried Sabine be worried. :)

"It's okay! Zeb's got him! [Ezra]"

*raises eyebrow*

Interesting specification, Sabine.

This bit is pretty awesome.

And wow that was a quick climax.

Eyyyyy Melch is fine! And taught Hondo a lesson hopefully, lol.

This episode frustrates me because on the one hand it is HILARIOUS and I love the spacemariner and swashbuckling aesthetics of it but on the other hand *gestures to all of that*. With some tweaking this could have been the funniest episode of the series but as it is it just winds up landing as a mixed bag.

We're back to form next time, though, and we really don't stumble again for a good long streak. We're also going to start running into more and more episodes I've already liveblogged through. As I said previously those recaps will likely be shorter, unless I find something I really want to ramble about.

#star wars #star wars rebels #rebels rewatch #liveblog #ezra bridger

[ellieandallthingsfuzzy]

Midnight Delusions

Summary: You hear a violent intruder in the middle of the night and take it upon yourself to protect Luke, but when he wakes, he realizes that the intruder you had killed was never real.

Warnings: Blood, panic attacks, intense descriptions of anxiety, psychosis

   Blood stained your hands and fingers as you scrubbed furiously with the already soiled sponge that did nothing to lessen this mess.  You cried uncontrollably as you scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed, struggling to keep your sobs at a low volume lest you wake your husband sleeping in your shared bedroom. 

When you went to wipe away the tears clouding your vision, you were even more horrified at the realization that you've just smeared more blood across your face. You pulled back in an instant, swallowing back a scream. Your hand trembled violently in front of your face. Dripping ominously. 

You scrambled to wipe as much off on your clothes as possible: you'll burn this shirt and pants the second you finish dealing with this crisis in the kitchen. 

You grabbed yet another fresh towel from the linen closet and plopped it onto the nearest puddle, soaking up as much as you could and squeezing out the excess into the sink. Your panicked breathing only intensified the longer you worked and you were racking your brain, trying to remember how you got into this mess in the first place. You scoured your own memories and cried harder when the floor only seemed to bleed more, trapping you in an endless cycle of hand mopping pools and pools of infinitely generating blood. 

A broken sob escaped your throat right before Luke approached from behind with tentative movements.

He took a second to take in his surroundings. You on your knees, crying like a banshee and surrounded by countless soaked wash cloths. The first look on his face was confusion followed immediately by concern.

"Hey, what's going on?" He asked in his signature soft voice, sliding in beside you and putting a hand on your shoulder. He squeezed lightly, which was enough to pull your attention to him but not enough to pull you out of whatever fog your mind was in. So you could only stare back with wide, guilty eyes as you retracted into yourself. 

His worry only worsened at this. 

"Sweetheart, please tell me what you're thinking right now. What are you feeling? You can talk to me, I'm always here no matter what." 

Halfway through his words, you shut your eyes tightly. Hanging on to each syllable, wanting to dive into his lap and cling to him like your very life depended on it. But you also couldn't contain the horror of such a gruesome scene, and you couldn't understand why he didn't seem to notice the ocean of red surrounding you both. So you continued to stare with wide eyes, letting out little involuntary gasps every once in a while. 

He said your name with a cautious tone, leaning closer so he could better see your face. Your horror got worse. 

"I-I-I was protecting us, p-protecting you!" You finally managed to squeak out. 

"What?" His brows came crashing together. "Sweetheart, there's no one here."

"Not anymore. I killed him!" Your voice was barely above a whisper. "I killed him because he was gonna kill you and I didn't know what else to do!" 

He shook his head slightly, searching every detail of your face and eyes. 

"You have to believe me, Luke, I'm not a monster! I-I'm…I'm not a…m-monster. I was protecting you! I was protecting you please believe me, I was protecting you!" 

You gasped and wheezed and struggled to compose sentences that made sense. Your voice got higher and more shrill with every word and you even grabbed onto the sleeve of his robe, not realizing how tight your grip was until his neckline had been tugged practically all the way down his chest. 

When you showed no signs of pulling yourself out of this rambling, Luke moved his hands to cradle your face, gently forcing you to look at him. He tucked several unruly strands of hair from your forehead and cheeks and shushed you with the soothing voice of a siren. It was a light sound, a calming 'sshhh' emanating from his lips. His nose was nearly pressed into yours as you finally started to calm your breathing. You focused on matching your breath with his, just like he'd taught you. You grabbed his wrist while several more silent tears rolled down your cheeks. 

He said your name once more before going on.

"Baby, there is no one else here. What do you think happened?" 

You frowned. 

"Wha-what are you talking about? His body is right there!" You went to point at the beaten corpse splayed out in the area between the kitchen and living area, except…

He wasn't there. 

Your eyes got wild again, immediately thinking he was still alive and stalking you. Stalking Luke. So you shot up out of his grasp, careful not to slip on the blood.

But the blood was all gone. The place was spotless. The only evidence of the scene were the soap soaked towels laid haphazardly all over the tile floor.

You froze, turning frantically every which way. You were panting again, trying to stave off the panic bubbling in your stomach. Your chest. 

Usually, Luke wasn't one to grab you roughly and without warning but you were starting to seriously scare him. He was still trying to piece together what exactly you were talking about and so far, the only thing he could gather was that you thought someone was in your hut and trying to kill him.

He spun you around to face him, making sure to keep both hands on your shoulders 

"I-I was protecting you…" 

"There's no one to protect me from. I'm safe. You're safe. My shining star, I think you may be having a flashback…" 

"I'm not!" You yelled, pulling yourself from his grasp, or trying to at least. But his hold on you was strong and he was determined to not let you lose yourself in whatever madness affected you on this night. 

"He was here, he is here and he's hunting you!" You tried to pull away as you spoke. "Let me go, please! I have to keep you safe please!" Your begging only increased when he tightened his hold so now you were stuck in his one handed grasp, desperately trying to pull away so you could chase the shadow man trying to kill your husband. 

"I have to keep you safe! LET GO!" 

Your struggling reached a fever pitch and the worry lines on his features were worsening. His hold remained unbreakable as your ranting devolved into incoherent babbling mixed with panicked sobs and begging him to let you go so you could go after that man…

Even after realizing that there was never any blood, you were still so convinced of your eminent danger. 

Luke's heart broke as you finally gave up and started crying like a newborn and refused to look at him. You tried to bury your face in your arm as he reached out with the hand that wasn't holding you. He cupped your face again. You tried to shake it away but he just moved on to stroking the side of your head instead, slowly bringing you into his chest at the same time. 

The shame came crashing down all at once. He was right. No one was here, and you were freaking out over quite literally nothing. 

But you were so sure, you were so sure! It all felt so real, the plunge of the knife into his skull, his body going limp underneath you as you straddled him. The dark relief that flooded your system followed promptly by the rising franticness when his puddle of blood seeped out and grew into a great cinnabar red lake. He bledel more than what was in his body but you were too out of it to question it.

It was so real . It felt real. But even though you didn't want to believe him, Luke was anything but a liar and he could never fake any sort of reaction. Tonight, his certainty cemented your psychological downfall. And all you could do about it was cry and cry and cry and hope he didn't stop loving you because of your apparent insanity. So you cried some more into his chest while he continued to stroke the back of your head, even slowly swaying you to and fro, almost like a mother rocking her babe. 

Soon, he started to hum despite your cries. Singing occasional lines about how it will all be okay. About how he will always keep her safe. He did this until your crying, after what felt like hours, finally died out into occasional whimpers and sniffles. You clung to his robe the entire time until your knuckles were whiter than a piece of paper. 

When he felt it was a good time for it, Luke pulled away just enough to be able to look at your face. You glanced up quickly through your lashes but had to avert your gaze. His face fell slightly but he palmed the side of your face nevertheless. His thumb rubbing ginger circles in the space between your eye and your hairline. 

"I really thought you were in danger." You rasped. 

Even though it was all a hallucination, Luke heart swelled at the same time as it broke. You thought someone very dangerous had invaded your home and your first instinct was to make sure he was safe. He: the wise and powerful Jedi knight who saved the galaxy from the dark hold of Darth Vader and the emperor by saving Darth Vader himself. The man who could take on an entire army without taking a blaster shot wound once. The man who was so in tune with the force that he was so in tune with you. It would take death itself and his mother so bring him down and even then, you were sure he'd come out of that even stronger. 

You still wanted to protect him knowing all of this. Knowing he could snap you right in half with just a grip that was a little too tight. It happened once before on accident in a moment of intimacy. He'd gotten a little too worked up and carried away and you ended up with a sprained wrist. 

That was when you realized his true strength. 

"You protected me." He said in a tender voice, eyes filled with potent love and admiration. 

Another year rolled down your eye. He wiped it off before leaning down to kiss away the rest of its salty trail. 

Finally, finally , you reciprocated his hold and grabbed the wrist that was holding you. You shut your eyes, leaning into him as his kisses peppered your whole face until he managed to coax a small smile from you. 

"There she is," he lightly beamed. "Come on, let's get you to bed." 

He started leading you away with a gentle hand on your lower back. 

"Wait, but what about-"

He shushed you again with a light voice while still leading you away. "You let me worry about that. I'll get this all cleaned up and then I'll come and hold you for the rest of the night. And even for the rest of tomorrow if you so wish." 

He held you all night, every night anyway. But it was still nice for him to say it out loud. 

You only mumbled an "okay" every so often as he talked you through him undressing you and wrapping you in his own robes, old white ones he often wore while working on his homestead back on Tattooine. What felt like a whole lifetime ago…

He wasn't super big or buff or anything, but you were a pretty small person so his robes on you almost resembled a dress than a shirt. He helped you slip on a pair of loose bed capris since he knew you hated sleeping without some sort of lower covering. Then he guided you into bed, smoothing out the pillows and everytime before taking a seat right next to you, taking another long moment to stroke your hair. 

"Luke…" your voice was so weak. So defeated. 

His chest ached at it. 

"Yes, sweetheart?"

It took you a long time to finish your thought. You were almost ashamed to even vocalize it, but he was so safe and comforting and you felt so alone in this. This craziness. This hopelessness. 

"I'm so scared…" you finally whispered. You buried your face into the mattress as you shuddered a few more times. 

This wasn't just you declaring your fear. This was your confession to your insanity and he knew it. 

He leaned down to give an intimate kiss to your head, still stroking your hair. 

"I know you are. I will always be here to hold you. I know you're afraid and I will protect you with the force and with my life. No matter what, I will always take care of you. I need you to remember that anytime you lose yourself. Remember my vow." He kissed your forehead. "I will always be with you. Death won't even do us apart." He then missed your eye, which was closed in embarrassment. 

But he felt your fear and tension slowly deflate until you could no longer fight off the much needed sleep clouding your head. 

He made sure you were out peacefully before going to pick up all the lathered towels from the kitchen room floor and mopping up the excess soap and water with fresh dry ones. The process took no more than ten or fifteen minutes and when he was done, he eagerly returned back to your side, slipping in behind you and snaking his strong arms around your stomach from behind. He gave a firm squeeze, earning a little moan from you in your sleep. 

He spent the rest of that night with his head propped on his elbow as he stared at your fragile form, his free hand continuing to rub your head for an indefinite amount of time. At some point, it was more so so comfort himself than it was you. 

He wouldn't tell you, at least not now, that he was also scared. Not of you, and of what you were capable of.

He was scared, no, he was terrified of what you may have to go through. He was terrified that you were cursed to live the rest of your life in crippling terror, always paranoid something was out to get you or him. 

He didn't want that life for you. You deserved so much better, and he hated that your own mind was driving you to madness. 

This wasn't nearly the first time you've experienced something that was never real. But this was the worst it's ever been. And he was afraid you'd never know peace again. 

That was why his resolve to stick by your side only grew stronger and stronger. You were capable, yes. You were strong, you were resilient and you were stubborn as all hell. No matter what, you always fought for the ones you loved and you always fought to understand them as well. To learn. To love. To cherish. But he feared your illness would be too much for you, and be was more than prepared to be strong and saner for the both of you until the end of time.

At some point in the night, his head dipped to rest on top of yours. Only then could he no longer contain his own cries. 

He held you tight as his own tears wreaked havoc on his system. He was silent but he shook with the grief, trying to lessen the shaking by squeezing you even more. You'd sometimes squirm slightly in your sleep but you always ended up somehow even tighter against him. 

"I will protect you no matter what. I love you more than anything, light of my life. I will never lose you, even if you lose yourself." 

#luke skywalker/reader #luke skywalker x reader #luke skywalker x you #luke skywalker #luke star wars

[joemuggs]

Albums of 2023 part 2

And so, on from part 1, we continue. This is more dreamy synth-dub that sits perfectly next to the Harrow album: Richard Norris is another artist with an extraordinarily long and illustrious career but who also has never lost the exploratory urge and total delight in sonic finesse.

Honestly Uruguayan-in-Ireland Lila Tirando a Violeta is right up there with the very best of the "deconstructed club" generation - dark, gothic, complex, VERY WEIRD - and this collab with Berliner Sin Maldita is up there with her best. It's really, REALLY intense!

Just impossibly beautiful elegies from ambient harpist Mary Lattimore which builds towards the final track collaboration with Slowdive's Rachel Goswell that is so lovely it will single handedly bring back swooning as a popular pastime.

Officially an EP but there's enough here to cement Nia Archives's place as a heavyweight - add "Off Wiv Ya Headz" and that Jorja Smith remix, and she's had a humdinger of a 2023....

Saw some discourse suggesting that Burna Boy is resting on his laurels here, but I don't hear it. Maybe it's the fact that the cover looks dashed-off? But musically, this bangs: it expertly joins so many dots but keeps his voice and personality right at the heart of it.

I mean come on there was no way a collab between Earl Sweatshirt and The Alchemist was going to be anything but good, right? Just purest essence of deep and dreamy stoner hip hop. Yet another small (27min) but beautifully formed album - definitely a trend there.

Feels kind of (literally) sacrilegious to say I prefer Cleo Sol's more personal, less scriptural records (e.g. Rose in the Dark) - and this is, top to bottom, a gospel album - but the conviction to her performance and the whole realisation of it here is still really magical.

From Coventry via Skopje, man like NOT_MDK's first album in 23 years, and he's zooming into the deep flows that join grime and dubstep into the longer, deeper electronic funk continuum... These tracks are so crisp and crunchy!

She's from Turkey but Ahu's been plugged into the London Plastic People / NTS / etc scene for years - file this with Yazmin Lacey and similar LDN soul-jazz, also it's very Boho and vibesy and incensey, definitely one to light your best candles for.

Can't remember who put me on to this, possibly Radio 3? Anyway if cold wet misty Scottish hillsides are your jam Claire M Singer has you covered - these slower-than-slowly unfolding organ-led pieces practically smell of wet moss, and are extremely beautiful.

He's lent vocals to a who's who of electronic music, but it turns out Paul St Hilaire's own studio craft is the equal of just about any of them - this is just a stunning, ocean-deep album of dub abstraction and subtly potent lyricism.

Icelander Eva Jóhannsdóttir aka EVA808 has already made a name in the dubstep/grime world but this is her really spreading her creative wings. Mad psychedelia, elemental abstraction, movie-theme composition - there's not much she can't do. Big things beckon!

There's still SO much to say about amapiano, and so much incredible UK, SA and wider world stuff last year (this isn't even the only great DJ Maphorisa album - he had THREE out in 2023, including a mini album with Shino Kikai and a 25-track one with fellow originator Kabza De Small!!). Suffice to say this has gorgeous songs, primal grooves, endlessly sophisticated mixdowns and bass that'll take your breath away.

Just gonna link to my review for this one (it's got the music embedded) - but TL;DR Darren J Cunningham aka Actress is the holy prophet of the era of enshittification, yet for all that his music is constantly "off" and made for a world that is "off", he alchemises it into real gold.

Yeah I'm going to be THAT space-jazz hipster and say this is the record I wish Andre3000 (who is on it, and Carlos Niño co-produced his album) had made. It's just a more lavish, free, FUN way to cavort with the five-dimensional fractal machine elves.

Zoning in on the platonic breakbeat mathematics that underly Jersey / B'more club Chicago hip house, UK rave, trip hop etc, Bored Lord could seem arch or retro if her beats weren't so gloriously functional and bumping.

Fed up of generic records? You will never EVER find another one that sounds like IFS MA. Polish abstract slightly Autechre-y footwork / drum'n'bass with Japanese rapper MA sounding like a cyborg beat poet Taliban Trim and I.... 🤯

Every man jack and their dog are doing high bpm retro rave lately but you can trust Meemo Comma to put a fresh and uneasy twist on it. These tracks will get you proper buzzing up loud! I got to DJ for her live performance of this at Spiritland earlier in the year, hearing them on that system was a real treat.

You get a twofer with this one. Phil Kieran's ode to Belfast is gorgeous in studio form here, but he also recorded and released a version with the Ulster Orchestra that single handedly revivifies the idea of electronic music done classical style!

Two true underground troupers teaming up here - Jordan GCZ from Juju & Jordash and David "Move D" Moufang with some otherworldly good-dream ambient, deep house and space-soul jams heavy on the Fender Rhodes, fuzzy reverberation and sensually sweeping portamento.

My musical safe place for so much of this year. Brooklyn "electronic jam band" Purelink somehow burrowed into electronic music history and found the softest, happiest, warmest fur lined chamber and then invited us in. I cannot emphasise enough how LOVELY this record is.

More modular synth grooves from E Ruscha aka Secret Circuits, but no over-indulgence here and the grooves REALLY DO GROOVE. Trippy as a weasel circus and twice as funky.

Talking of trippy, here's Optimo Music's second acid-drenched entry, from the man formerly known as TB Arthur and the mighty Magda trading as Blotter Trax, it's a kind of parallel universe early 80s alt disco where everything gurgles and melts.

More from South Africa - King Mzaiza Sound via the reliably tough Parisian PSSNGR label - not 100% sure what you'd call this though it definitely has some gqom sonics, some trap drums, and some strident rap vocals... It's HARD AS NAILS is what it is.

EVEN HARDER - Nyege Nyege brought us a sampler of this (and I don't use mental health language lightly) FUCKING MENTAL shrieking, raging, solvent-huffing sound from São Paulo stewarded by the young DJ K, and it's extremely funky and scarily thrilling.

OK there we go, part three is here.....

#music #acid house #alt disco #dub #modular synth #psychedelia #South African music #amapiano #gqom #rap #stoner rap #hip hop #odd future #ambient #electronica #Japanese music #polish music #experimental rap #grime #drum'n'bass #footworking #deep house #breakbeat #rave #jungle #soundtrack #belfast #london #space jazz #Icelandic music

[theburntatlas]

I'M BACK! (Again)

He still looks like megumi, But he's cool as fuck! I never can remember his name though...

I feel like they were really paid for the battles and then were like "I'm bored..." when forced to do slice of life Kind of sad they didn't do anything cool with the sung's new appearance either..

but this scene is so pretty I'm like WHAAAAAAAT?!?!

but I was also sad that this scene didn't get a cooler version than the in manhwa version I thought he woulda been even crazier here

But GOD I loved reading SL more but having this as a like "Oh yea btw this is how the fight goes" is so good to know cause the choreography isn't good at telling me "oh actually he feinted here" or where the attack came from or reactions but then it moves on to the COOLEST FUCKING THEME EVER?!?!??!! LIKE LISTEN TO THIS!

Fuuck I love this theme so much

There was this too and I was thinking how like sick it is to watch magic be represented in animation THEN THEY HIT ME WITH HEALING MAGIC BEING BUBBLES?@!!?!!? WHAT THEFUCK!??!?!

this entire fight scene gives us so much fanservice and not like female I mean FIGHTS dude the tiny worldbuilding to make the characters and magic seem just a BIT more real, but I was only seeing "When an ugly dude calls you twin." all the time so I wasSo pissed

EVEN THIS TOO!! HE HAS FIRE MAGIC!! HE FIGHTS USING ALL HE HAS!!! HE WILL BEAT HIM!! HE MAY FAIL STILL BUT THE SERIES FORCING HIM INTO A CORNER TO UP THE STAKES WAS STILL THE COOLEST THING EVER

I don't really get why he gets faster/Stronger after the quest but I just put it up to "Oh I'll have to be serious then."

IT'S HERE!!!! ANOTHER TIME HE LOSES AN EMOTION!!

NOBODY TALKS ABOUT THE MOTION HE MAKES WITH HIS DAGGERS EITHER!! LIKE!?!?!?

THE FACT HIS INTENT MAKES HIM FEEL LIKE HIS FEET ARE IN AN OCEAN HE CAN'T ESCAPE!! LIKLE?!?!!? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO HEREILOVE THIS STUDIO FOR DOING STUFF LIKE THIS!!

#1 I told you he looks like megumi #2 HOLYFUUUUCK THE FACT HE CHANGES COLOR IN THE DOMAIN ASWELL?!?!! I wish more people talked about all of this

I hate sjw's sharp chin actually I wish it wasn't like that because they look really stupid in these scenes I can deal with it it's just stupid

ALSO!!!!!! INJURIES!!!!!!!! INJURIES BEING AN ACTUAL PART OF THE FIGHT!!!!!!!! which also reminds me

I don't know whether to hate the fact that TWO hits is all he's landed on SJW Assassin's are people who hide to deal BIG damage at the enemy in one strike, i.e a headshot like a sniper, a back stab, etc etc.. all of that! So just one strike making him in such a dangerous state that he needed to heal is an either really dumb detail or a really thought out one

BUT THIS?! WE DIDN'T GET THE SCENE OFH IM KILLING THE DUDE!! LIKE!? oh and that one girl retired and we're gonna see jinho next ep BUT JOKES ON YOU I'VE STALLED SO HARD I ALREADY WATCHED IT!

this was my favorite part of it UNTIL

THIS FUCKINGSCENE!? LIKE WHAT?!?!?!?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!

#solo leveling #MEGARAMBLINGS #I am really so fucking happy I've got to keep saying this the studio wasn't the best but Holy DAMN did it have attention to the detail

[antonhousehold]

so let's love

summary: sometimes, katsuki let his insecurities get the best of him. and sometimes, you get hurt because of that.

song: so let's love - day6 (click the song, its totally worth it!)

warning: angst. bakugou being toxic. reader is touch starved. yelling and cursing. insecurities. reader is in love with bakugou but he's afraid!! no fluff end!

reader: gn!neutral (or i tried to be neutral!)

note: this is my first time writing angst, so im sorry if is shitty. also, i would like to let know that english is not my first language, so im sorry if i messed up with the grammar and stuff like that!

loving bakugou was kinda... hard.

sometimes he's sweet in his own way. you remember the times when you fell asleep in his arms. the way his heart almost ran away from his chest. the warmth of his body against yours. it was simply beautiful.

he was beautiful.

everything started when you met him in that street. the sky was pouring and some thunders were lightning up the clouds. the city was dark and the stars were the only ones in the scene. he was smoking a cigarette and the smell of the tabaco and the rain was a very unique fragrance to you. you tried to cover him from the rain with your umbrella. gladly, he didn't stop you.

«have I seen you before?» you asked. those vermillion eyes were as deep as the ocean.

«i think so, [name]»

you remember the first time he asked you out in a date. it was simple but nice. just like him.

you remember the times when you were with with him in highschool. the way his words were harsh towards everyone. you thought he overcome that.

«i told you before, dumbass. i can't stand when you touch me like that in public! it makes me look fucking weak!»

we sometimes fight, and get hurt by each other's sharp words

«i didn't even hug you! i just leaned on your body. i can't help it, I'm your partner!»

«my partner would fucking understand and respect my boundaries! or are you too dumb to actually get it?! »

and you tried to be understanding about him. you tried to give him the space he need it. you stopped showing affection towards him in public. it was kinda hard, but if this was the best way to keep him happy and comfortable, you were completely down for it.

then, in your shared apartment, he started to accept your love. you believed in the soft kisses, the hugs, and the fuzzy feeling of his words in your heart. You wanted to believe in the memories of happiness and beautiful moments that you locked in your mind. the promises and the not so often sweet words. it made you feel special. he always made you feel special, or that's what you wanted to believe.

i can't possibly erase all the wounds you left in me

everything was going on very well, at least at the beginning. until those ethereal moments started to get serious. katsuki realized how much in love he was with you. how his heart almost ran away from his chest every time you looked at him.

it was overwhelming.

so he started panicking. you were just too good to be with him. he didn't feel worthy of your love. why would you even love someone like him?

i'm too afraid that you might leave me

«hey katsu, wanna shower together? i thought it was a good idea since both of us are exhausted»

«shower first. i'm not joining»

sometimes, he just didn't even consider your dates or plans with him. every time was the same. 'i have stuff to do, maybe tomorrow', 'i need to study for this test, i'm not gonna throw my career just for you'

you just wanted a little bit of his love.

you know me, please hold my unstable heart

«can you stop looking me like that? it's giving me goosebumps»

«i'm sorry»

it was hard to him as well. every time he saw your disappointed face and the teary eyes of you, his heart sinks. he didn't want to hurt you, but the feeling of loving you were scarier than hurting your feelings.

saying harsh words was so much easier than accepting the fact that he was feeling vulnerable when you were with him.

«i'm not gonna go to that shitty party. go by yourself»

«it's going to be so much fun! come on, grandpa!» you tried to play it cool. you just wanted a little of him.

«are you deaf? im not fucking going. i have stuff way more important than getting drunk with you»

i want your love, please love me. that's all i wish for

«why the fuck are you so clingy around him?!! do you like him or what?!» he asked once you walked through the door.

«what? what are you talking about?»

«don't play dumb with me. answer the fucking question!»

«i don't even know what are you talking about?!» his eyes were staring at you so furiously, that you even felt the goosebumps in your skin. bakugou always looked scary when he was this mad.

«i'm talking about that shitty extra!» he pulled out his phone and let you see the bright photos of the party night that was all over his social media.

even one word, i need to say it carefully. even this sentence with a trembling heart..

in fact, you were with that green haired boy, hugging him and smiling so softly that bakugou wanted to throw up. it was totally disgusting. 'how can they be so lovey dovey with that piece of shit and bitching all the time with me?'

«why are so mad about it? you hate when i touch you or kiss you, then why are you so obsessed when i show affection towards someone else?!» this whole situation was getting on your nerves. it was hard to keep a conversation about this with him, because he'd always yell the same thing about you.

«because you're my fucking partner!! i didn't expect you to be such a whore just for a damn hug!»

his words got stuck in your head as he started walking near you, just to look at your eyes with those deep vermillion eyes. for a moment, you thought he wanted to cried, but his screams blinded his emotions.

his scent stills reminds you fo cigarettes and rainy days. thunders and fire. it was hard to keep all those emotions in your chest.

i thought we were still fine, but i was wrong

«what the fuck is wrong with you, bakugou?!! you don't want me to even look at you but you get jealous when i have a good time with my friends. what the fuck do you want from me??!» you tried to fight the urge of crying. your eyes were begging to let them cry, but the knot in your throat was suffocating you at this point.

«i want you to fucking LEAVE! i'm so done with this shit. i can't stand you anymore. i don't want your shitty 'affection'» he yelled. you jump in your place of how unexpected his words came out. «i don't think i ever loved you! you're so fucking annoying with the same shit. 'please katsuki, love me please' so damn annoying. you wanna know what?! nobody wants your fucking affection, not even me, get over it!!»

we were shaking as much as we could. we were getting that cold

the words he said, the way he screamed, everything felt so out of him.

you felt your hot tears walking down your face so painfully. even felt your blood run cold against your skin. there's no way he was your boyfriend. katsuki was a jerk, totally, but he would never hurt you like that. he's not your katsuki. something happened to him.

you tried so hard to believe that he didn't mean those things. you thought it was just another fight, that tomorrow everything will be normal again. nothing changed, it wasn't real.

«i-i know you didn't mean it»

«i did. fucking leave. take your shit out of here soon»

i'm incomplete. i'm only complete with you

you know me so please, hold my unstable heart

«this is my apartment too»

«then i'll leave! throw all my stuff. enjoy your apartment, you can be free again»

he walked to the door with his phone and wallet, leaving the place with a heavy silent. you stared at the door, expecting to see him trying to apologize, but that didn't happen. you even imagined everything was a really mean joke, that he didn't mean something like that. you can't lie of loving someone for almost six months.

you tried so hard to keep him happy. you tried everything, but at the end, he didn't even love you as much as you did. all your wishes were just a pure thought of hope. it wasn't real. you just wanted a little of his love.

a last kiss.

a last hug.

a last minute of his life.

i want your love, please love me. that's all i wish for

so let's love more in the future

#bakugou angst #bakugou x reader #bakugou headcanons #bnha angst #bnha fanfiction #katsuki angst #bakugou katsuki #bakugou #boku no hero x reader #katsuki x y/n #katsuki bakugou angst #angst #dekubaku #my hero academia #katsuki bakugō #katsuki x reader

[ae0nx]

FRUITS BASKET S3 EPISODE 12 RECAP!!!

...Do you think we'll get a Fruits Basket Another adaptation or OVA or something of the sorts? 🥺

Anyway, I'd like to start this off by shouting out whoever writes the episode descriptions on Funimation who started off the description of last week's episode as:

"Kyo finally tells Tohru what he should have told her in the first place"

🤣Damn straight.

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We get three 'I love you and I want to stay with you, if you'll keep me's during this episode. (Four if you count Haru's declaration that he'll love Yuki forever lol) And they're all so unique yet fitting to the pairing involved...

SMOOTH OPERATORRRRR 🎶

Why did this scene make me blush so hard! It had no audacity to do that. I loved it.

Personally, I'm really glad we got this Machi and Yuki moment separate from Kyo and Tohru's moment in the previous episode as while I already love Yuki/Machi together, I do wish we got more moments over the course of the series to get to know them together and their natural dynamic as friends (without the awkwardness and uncertainty).

But, I mostly just love how this isn't an actual confession in the traditional sense of the declaration of feelings but it's more so an almost spiritual, mutual understanding and probably lands this pair as having the most natural progression of a relationship in the series.

They cute.

And Yuki really can't help being a Disney Prince, Gods bless him.

Ahh... these two...

...Just gonna note down what Akito says about her feelings for Shigure:

'I want to permeate his body, get into his cells, into his bones, invade and infuse them. Saturate his entire being with my own. Fill every corner of him with my scent, till he can't even breathe.'

😳...

I fully believe they love each other intensely and kinda, weirdly violently and I definitely can understand why people like this pairing, especially as there are real life couples that are just like this. I just would've loved if they acknowledged that their upbringing in such a toxic environment has negatively affected the way they express their love towards each other and that maybe separating for a while and trying to understand who they are without each other and the curse would be great? But, whatever, I'm not a therapist.

Considering Akito's final decision to stay as the head of the family (albeit to take responsibility) and Shigure being a bit put off by it and the scene ending with that off-key background music that always plays whenever 'God fucks shit up'... In my opinion, this might be the saddest ending for an 'endgame-level' romantic pairing in Fruits Basket...

Two positive notes: Akito looked pretty and she gets Outfit Appreciation - 5 stars! It was pretty and gorgeous but also ha da slight edge of boss bitch to it. Also, Shigure being the only one at the party left behind to love Akito fully and wholly is sort of romantic?

BEST COUPLE OF THE YEAR.

YES - MY BIAS IS SHOWING. EAT MY SHORTS.

but, ALL THE GROWTH SHOWN IN THIS CONVERSATION WAS EXPONENTIAL.

Kyo planning his future and going beyond and being hopeful about it. Kyo not wanting Tohru to just give up everything for him. tOHRU'S FUCKING DETERMINATION NOT BEING HIDDEN UNDER A VEIL OF NICETIES?!

:))))))))))) 😁

I don't think I've ever fully stanned a heterosexual couple this hard in ANYTHING. (Heterosexual assumedly cos Tohru's definitely bi in my HCs)

I dunno.. I don't have much to say that hasn't already been said in previous recaps. They're great and their progression has been written so well! I feel like they have the most casually natural 'I wanna stay with you, if you'll let me' mostly because they've been in a relationship together since the beach arc (whether they know that or not) and the easiness of their dynamic has been pretty solidified between them. But, also because they are the best written and detailed relationship in the series. It just feels natural and without question.

Also, that slightly blurry/sun-dappled flash forward we got to married Kyoru was gorgeous and I definitely wasn't expecting it! (I kinda thought Tohru's sweat drop was her crying and I got worried for a minute lol)

Kiss kiss, fall in love :)

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Yuki's goodbye to the curse was, of course, the most gorgeous of the goodbyes. Very fitting.

We haven't heard Kyo say 'yo' literally since his first introduction in the series and I dunno, it was nice to see how unburdened and less angry he is in general. So refreshing!

Momiji and Kagura conspiring to pick on Kyo cos he's the reason for both of their own heartbreaks. Yes. >:))

It was really nice having Aya there just being dramatic Aya, you could tell that the zodiac felt more relaxed by his Aya-ness

:3

It's interesting that when Akito was remembering her greatest hits of times she traumatised the zodiac that her moments with Kyo weren't there... You could argue that Kyo's trauma was more so tied to outer members of the Sohma family and the institution/culture behind the curse but... I dunno, there were some moments...

I dunno why but I genuinely find this screencap scary and it's a curse to my eyes so now you guys have to deal with it. That's all.

It's funny, Shigure's explanation of 'why he is the way he is' is pretty much the same as Loki's explanation as to why he's the way he is in the Loki show and yet I'm still here saying fuck Shigure and stanning Loki. I'm an impure human who will only submit to Gods. I guess lol

Ending the episode on Kyoko's thoughts during her death was definitely jarring but it was also definitely needed - just to reassure the audience! This is definitely Lydia Mackay's best performance as Kyoko, the emotions in her voice really pierced through me. And her sharing Ocean Heaven with Katsuya was beautiful but WHY WON'T WE EVER LOOK UPON KATSUYA'S FACE?!

It's cool tho. <3

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Man... do we only have one episode left? What do I do after this? Lol

Also, it's a nice touch that the first episode of Fruits Basket is 'See You After School' and (assumedly) the last episode of Fruits Basket is 'See You Again Soon'. It's the uncertainty for me 😭

See you next week!

#fruits basket #furuba #fruits basket season 3 #fruits basket 2021

[bigskydreaming]

Well now I'm curious. Are there any crocodile shifters in this story? Is that the Alpha Pack? And does that make Jennifer a sea witch? I'm invested and I want to know more!

Also, random questions about your Beacon Bay story: is this on an island or a peninsula or something? Is the Nemeton a lighthouse or something similar, really leaning into that whole beacon metaphor? Is there a star-crossed lovers thing going on here at all (*cough*scanny*cough*)?

Sadly, no crocodile shifters in the actual story, though it was more written as a series of shorter episodic stories that I bounced around between. And the crocodile shifters are just sitting there ripe for the picking, its just I didn’t have need of any in the story and/or characters they matched up well with. The Alpha Pack isn’t really a thing here, mostly because I was like “I am Deucalion, the Demon Dolphin” doesn’t really have quite the right ring to it and also he’s just honestly not my favorite villain, he’s too ridiculous. Its like calm down dude, who do you think you are, Death, the Destroyer of Worlds? Oh wait. Awkward.

But now that I think about it, I hardly ever got the urge to use Deucalion as an antagonist? Just running through my WIP files real quick, and off the top of my head, my villain breakdown in TW fics was:

Lightning Crashes: the nogitsune, Jennifer, Kali and Theo

Where Wild Things Are: Peter, Matt and Gerard

Beacon Bay: Corrine, Peter and Theo

Loki’s Get:

Ouroboros Dreaming (Jackson’s Story): Peter’s ghost, metaphorically

Fenris Waking (Scott’s Story): Peter’s ghost, less metaphorically

Hel Rising (Lydia’s Story): Peter’s ghost, least metaphorically. Also, Hell. But mostly just the suburbs of it.

Born to Run: Jennifer. (That random The Most Dangerous Game rip-off with Scott and Jackson. Making the bad guys hunters was like, eh, so I went with necromancy instead).

The Forest or the Trees: the Nemeton. Like, the tree itself. Also, demon fruit. Look, its that AU where Scott’s a druid and Danny’s a werewolf, the tree wants to kill Scott, its a whole thing.

So, My Step-Brother’s Probably A Werewolf: The deadpool. Basically a S4 AU where Dr. Geyer and Melissa have a whirlwind romance and Liam’s trying to figure out why the fuck his new step-brother is so weird.

Forgetting’s Just Another Way of Saying Fuck You: Theo and the Dread Doctors. This one was that one S5 AU I was writing where the Dread Doctors used their forgetting/mind-wipe powers to make everyone forget about Scott, except they ironically forgot about people outside the town, meaning Isaac, Jackson and assorted others still remembered him. Aka that expansive headcanon that was literally the exact same thing as Season 6′s ‘forgetting Stiles’ plot, only posted about a full year before S6 even started shooting BUT I DIGRESS. (I’m just saying, it was a pretty specific plot, only using the DD instead of the Ghost Riders, but whaaaaatever). LOL.

So the only times I’ve ever really used Deucalion beyond peripheral werewolf politics in Where Wild Things Are is in that one Scydia I was writing, Kingmaker, and also an unwieldy behemoth that somehow got to six chapters without a title, where like, when the Alpha Pack came to town in 3A they used their werewolf memory-sucking mojo to steal Scott’s memories and thus make him more susceptible to Deucalion’s recruitment pitch while everyone else was like nuh-uh, THEY’RE the bad guys. 

(Oh and also he did show up in one part I wrote for this Leverage meets Ocean’s Eleven mash-up, with a cast of Scott and the Chimeras. Remember how way back before Eichen House was introduced, Chris made an allusion to there being a werewolf jail they could use to deal with werewolves.....so like, imagine if Chris had caught Scott in S1 but couldn’t justify killing him and then enter werewolf jail and Scott being like mmm, yeah, this isn’t working for me, I’m gonna jailbreak, who wants to come, and then he and random other characters from throughout the series just go around robbing the various douchebags of the series in ways that were mostly just an excuse for me to ‘practice writing action scenes and also heists and also I was bored.’ Also, there’s a distinct presence of multiple unnecessary car chases as apparently most of the times I added to this file came smack dab in the middle of my Fast and the Furious phase. I regret nothing. Also, everything.)

Anyway, as for Beacon Bay, no, Jennifer isn’t a sea witch in it mostly cuz she isn’t in it, as I’d already used her in a few other things and I wanted to give Corrine a whirl as the prime bad guy. So she’s like, an assassin witch for hire. Also, three thousand years old, and as mentioned, like....she’s Circe. 

Malia: Ugh, shut up, mom, nobody cares that you’re famous.

Mason (raises hand): I mean, I care, a little bit.

Liam (not helpfully): He asked her for her autograph.

Malia (to Scott): You see? This is why people should have to be over four feet tall to sit at the big kids’ table.

Brett (also not helpfully, but then, he isn’t trying to help, he doesn’t do that): To be fair, Liam’s the only actual Smurf present. Mason’s just Smurf-adjacent.

Mason: *beams*

Liam (staring at him in betrayal): How was that even a compliment? Why are you feeling complimented by that?

Mason: LET. ME. HAVE. THIS.

Anyway Part Two: the Anywayer.....I did not actually ever have any plans to make the Beacon part of Beacon Bay a literal lighthouse, as the town was less a point of interest for other supernatural beings because of Nemeton-type shenanigans, and more just purely because Peter’s a magical artifact oriented klepto who hooked up with Circe and then stole all her shit when sneaking out in the middle of the night and eighteen years later she’s still pissed and Peter’s just not home at the moment. So she’s like, “eh, I guess I could settle for just wiping this entire town off the map in the meanwhile. I needed a new hobby anyway.”

Anywayest, the conclusion: And yes of course it was Scanny. When, where faced with the possibility of Scanny, do I simply...not do the Scanny? Its like you don’t even know me right now.

[halinski]

I have so many questions about your WIP folder... like, "BOTTLE"??? and are "BO" and "BOTTLE" two different fics? Also "16. Dreamcatcher!Derek", I'm very intrigued... And since there is a blue moon this month "41. Every Once In A Blue Moon"? (Ignore me it that's too many questions)(though I'd love to know more about your poems, too)

hahahaha, the questions are appreciated :D i actually think that i once posted a thing like this and that exactly this one and the blue moon one where asked for lmaooo but yeah you guessed it, BO and BOTTLE are essentially two different versions of the same fic, one further written than the other, and the other containing more of the initial outlining. It was basically inspired by a story I heard at work (and no longer 100% remember) but it was about finding romance via letters in bottles in modern times or something? I think there was a person who regularly found letters and decided to reply to people who had added an address, and so i naturally wanted to sterek it, like i do with basically everything, and I started writing a fic about Derek living in a basically deserted light house and finding the letter that Stiles addressed to his mother and threw into the ocean. I had a whole long storyline planned out for this! I believe there was even bottles with letters Derek had written to his family that came back to him and he stored away forever to be unread (until Stiles comes along ofc). But another version was that Derek never did anything about the letters, just read them, and there were ofc a bunch of sad ones. (Derek stored the all ofc). there’s diff save files with diff versions (and i believe two different files that have the initial idea i screamed at someone while at work) and in one version I’m pretty sure Stiles was a mermaid like Ariel that collected bottled messages and then found Derek through his letters (who once again probably lived in a lighthouse by the ocean) but that was like at least 4 years ago if not more and i hate mermaids now so that version is absolutely scratched lol I didn’t get really far with any version in written word though and I doubt I will ever really finish it? I mean who knows... but I could totally get all the way into my feels again thinking about it if i let myself... You’re in luck my friend, bc Every Once in a Blue Moon actually contains a part of a poem (i was gonna write a long story poem that would be split upon the separate scenes/parts of the fic) and the fic actually starts with this: //Where wolves run, hunters lie Chasing, chasing Till they all die/ I'm a wolf, my pack is dead My eyes are blue I should have died instead/ To all the mermaids of the sea I'm waiting here Come and take me// as you can see, this too contains mermaids bc i started writing this yeears ago but I’ve decided to transform this fic and actually did continue writing a bit (or well, mor accurately, planning) and it’s now just titled Evil in a different file lmao bc the mermaids are gonna be evil and will represent Kate bc why didn’t i think of that in the first place? as one can see in the poem, it includes a young and pretty suicidal Derek and he goes back to his family’s old vacation home that is now destroyed, and there are memories, good and bad, in particularly one of Peter’s first son, a little boy, completely human, which had perplexed Derek. It includes Derek asking the relentless ocean and horizon /why/ things happen and never getting a reply, and basically him giving himself to the ocean, to the mermaid that impersonates Kate (bc ofc Kate already happened and everyone is dead) and she makes him see her and the torture again (I live for angst, forgive me) BUT then in comes Stiles and saves Derek from drowning and helps him heal. This is kind of a mixture of an au, a different world, with canon as we know it in TW and last but not least! Dreamcatcher!Derek ahhhh This one has always been in my head more conceptually than actually formed into words. It’s basically Derek after the fire and stuff, where he kind of just gives himself to supernatural powers (do we see a theme here *ehem*), he basically kinda loses himself to his nightmares, becomes so used to them, lives in them, he kind of transcends into the dream world? I had a few rough years full of nightmares every night so this idea was just very deep for me back then. And then Derek would go around to other people’s dreams and fight the monsters in the dreams. He was just like an instrument then, helping other people to get some rest, while he worked restlessly. I guess it’s based kinda on lucid dreaming, breaking free from your body and reality. For Derek it’s like... yeah nightmares are /horrible/, he knows best, this is why he does this, but for him personally... they’re better than real life. So he just kind of gives his physical body up and retreats to his mind. This is where Stiles finds him (*hint hint*). Aka Stiles is having nightmares, and Derek comes to him to save him. Of course, Stiles being Stiles is very aware of the shadowy figure that pops up in his dreams and changes everything, and Stiles being Stiles he starts chasing Derek, and Derek is so confused bc most people don’t interact with him in their dreams, certainly not the way Stiles does. So then basically Stiles is the one who catches Derek and brings him back out of the dreamworld, back to real life, back to himself. ...and they live happily ever after in every universe <3 hah sorry if this ended up way too long XD i guess i’m happy to share my ideas bc they might not ever present themselves in fic form ahhh so THANK YOU for getting back into these and letting me amuse myself haha

#wip meme #tag game asks #theladyandthewolves

[tintin-is-my-life]

- FANFICTION - 2nd part

An Unexpected Meeting

At that moment, Kathrynn had just woken up. She was determined to get out of the hold of which she was trapped. She shouted to Sakharine's attention:

Sakharine ! I'm talking to you, who do you think you are? You are on my boat! You have no right, especially not to command my crew or even to corrupt them for whatever reason !

LET ME OUT OF HERE!

At that moment, the door opened. Thisis Tom, come to put Kathrynn back to sleep

She barely had time to slip behind the door When Tom entered the room, he saw it was empty. But, he soon realized that he had been the victim of a ruse, since without warning Kathrynn came out from behind the door and knocked him out with a punch in the face.

He gave the alert:

Haddock has escaped !!!

Once again he received another punch,this time from Allan.

You idiot !! Said Allan.

Allan, then took all the necessary steps to find Kathrynn But they still had to warn Sakharine. And he was afraid of that, after all the blunders they'd just committed.

Kathrynn tried to find a hiding place in the meantime, because all the exits had been made. So she went into one of the holds. She barricaded the door. Then, when she turned around, she saw... Tintin, still asleep.

Kathrynn: Who is it? I don't know him...He's in really bad shape ! I don't know why they did this, but they're gonna hear me upstairs!

She took off her chains. And laid him down on the floor, resting his head on his coat.

Ahh, he's waking up ! She said.

Tintin: Mmh

Kathrynn: Sir, are you okay ?

Tintin: Mmh, my head...

It hurt a little bit all over. And he was still bleeding from the many blows Allan and Tom had dealt him.

Kathrynn: Let me help you up !

Tintin: Who are you, by the way ? he answered.

Kathrynn: I'm the captain of this ship ! she said.

Tintin: I see ! Is it because of you that I'm here ? You're on Sakharine's side, aren't you?

Kathrynn: Not at all ! I too was a victim of that scoundrel ! He corrupted my entire crew and had me locked up in the hold. I managed to escape and I had to hide. That's when I found you. She turned back.

Tintin: I'm sorry if I've offended you...

Kathrynn: I probably would have reacted the same way. (^-^)

Tintin: By the way, my name is Tintin. What's yours? It seems to me that you haven't told me your name yet...

Kathrynn: That's right ! My name is Kathrynn Haddock!

Tintin: Did you just say "Haddock"?

Kathrynn: Uh... yes, is it that important?

But Tintin doesn't have time to answer. There's a voice behind the door.

It's Allan's: Found ! It's not a very clever hiding place.

Kathrynn: We have to get out of here before they can get in !

When Tintin saw a few things, he exclaimed:

I've got an idea! We're going to use this to get out!

They opened the porthole, and threw the rope that allowed them to reach the porthole on the top floor. Allan and Tom managed to get in shortly afterwards. But of course, the hold was empty.

Where is your radio room? We've got to send a signal to the authorities before we leave ! Said Tintin.

In the meantime, Allan and Tom went to warn Sakharine about what had happened.

Sakharine was desperate. How could he trust two such idiots, he thought.

Then he came out of his silence:

Sakharine : How could you let them escape?? I want you to find them ! Both of them! If you kill, Tintin it's not so bad but I want Kathrynn ALIVE ! I've got some business to attend to with her. I have vengeance to exact!

Right, boss ! They exclaimed.

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While the whole crew was on their heels, Kathrynn and Tintin managed to reach the radio room. Kathrynn left Tintin and went to prepare a rescue channel. But suddenly, while Tintin was busy sending the distress message, he was interrupted by Tom who was passing by. Tintin knocked him out with a punch. Tom had time to sound the alarm. But Tintin didn't have time to finish his message. Shortly before, he had discovered the destination of the boat. He was on his way to Bagghar to get his hands on the third boat and thus on the third and last scroll, that of a certain Omar Ben Salaad.

Tintin is pursued by several men, but they are not fast enough to catch him. Kathrynn was able to reach the rescue channels but she was also spotted. The canal is ready. Tintin runs with all his strength, despite his injuries, to join her. They finally manage to escape, but Sakharine won't stop there.

At dawn, we find Tintin and Kathrynn on their small canal in the middle of the ocean.

Tintin takes the opportunity to ask her some questions about the Unicorn:

Tintin: So, are you a Haddock?

Kathrynn: Yes !

Tintin: I thought this family had no more descendants?

Kathrynn: Yet, I'm way ahead of you!

Tintin: Can you tell me what happened, then?

Kathrynn: This is going to sound strange, probably, but I don't remember anything ... at least not yet...

Tintin: What do you mean?

She takes her head in her hands.

The story I was told got lost in my head... It's as if that memory has been taken away from me...

Tintin: It will inevitably come back to you one day, don't worry ! (^^)

Kathrynn : Still, I'm sure this story has something to do with this Sakharine. There's got to be something, otherwise why else would he have chosen my boat, my crew?

Tintin: I think you're right! I have that impression myself...

A few hours later, the canal fell victim to the shooting of Karaboudjan's plane.

Tintin and Kathrynn protect themselves with the hull of the canal. Fortunately, Tintin still had a weapon (the one he had stolen from one of the sailors).

He only had one bullet left. He had to be well concentrated to hit his target.

Shortly afterwards, the seaplane landed. Tintin hit him. As the pilots didn't know that he didn't have a single bullet left, Tintin took the opportunity to put them under control. They too, had a gun, but they didn't expect Tintin to arrive, so they were not suspicious.

Now, Tintin and Kathrynn have a way to reach Sakharine in Bagghar and prevent him from stealing the third scroll.

But, on the way, they hit a real storm and the plane crashes in the desert.

Everyone is safe except for the two pilots who escaped with parachutes.

Tintin and Kathrynn continue on their way in order to find a way back to civilization.

But of course, it is unbearably hot and after a few hours they faint. They are found in the night by an army commander and one of his troops, and are brought back to the command post.

Tintin has been awake for a long time, but Kathrynn is still in a deep sleep. Tintin is at her bedside. She seems to be having a rather agitated dream. Then suddenly she wakes up.

Kathrynn: I remember everything!

Tintin: Really ?

Kathrynn: Yes! My dream reminded me of a lot of things. But there's one thing that still intrigues me. In my dream, the pirate was wearing a scarf over his mouth. I couldn't see his face.

Suddenly, one of the soldiers comes into the room, it's hot outside, he's wearing a scarf and he takes it off when he comes in. And then Kathrynn has a flash. She sees her ancestor take off the scarf of Captain of the Pirates, a man named Red Rackham, with a sword.

And now she sees his face.

Kathrynn: That's impossible !

Kathrynn: What's going on ? Said Tintin.

Kathrynn: So that would be his real reason. The treasure is just some kind of bonus for him. What he wants most of all is revenge.

Tintin: ?

Kathrynn: You're not going to believe me... Sakharine is the true descendant of Red Rackham ... Well, the captain of the pirates who invaded "The Unicorn" at the time! And just as my ancestor defeated him, and Sakharine is his descendant, he wants revenge for the bitter failure of my ancestor, Sir Francis Haddock.

Tintin: How? But it's unbelievable! At the same time, it would explain a lot.

Kathrynn: Indeed. We have to leave for Bagghar soon!

Under no circumstances will I let this Bashibouzouk steal the treasure of the Knight of Hadoque!

Tintin: Let's go without further delay!

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When they reached the heights of Bagghar, they saw the port where the Karaboudjan was moored.

We are on the right track. There it is ! Said Tintin.

And they entered the city.

A few minutes later, Tintin gave the alert. I think we're being followed !

What do you mean, we're being followed ? Said Kathrynn.

Indeed, two people seemed to be following them, quite closely too.

Tintin and Kathrynn took them by surprise. And there they discovered... the Dupondt. The latter had received the distress message Tintin had sent from Karaboudjan. They had come to join them in Bagghar. And they also had the wallet that Tintin had had stolen and in which he had put the scroll.

Now we're on equal terms. He says.

When he looked up, he discovered that posters were being put up on either side of the city gates. Bianca Castafiore, a famous Milanese singer was giving a concert tonight in the palace of Omar Ben Salaad. Palace in which the third and last "Unicorn" was located.

Tintin and Kathrynn were present at the concert. They're pretty well dressed. They took the time to buy Moroccan-style clothes, perfect to blend in with the crowd.

When they sat down in the distance in the hall, they saw The Unicorn well exposed in a display case by a bullet.

I wonder how Sakharine could break that glass and take "The Unicorn" ? Said Kathrynn.

Tintin didn't have time to answer, so the diva entered the scene. She had short blond hair and wore a long pink mermaid dress, which ended with small ruffles. She began to sing. Honestly, her singing is unbearable. She sang almost out of tune. But Tintin and Kathrynn tried to bear it. Looking around, Tintin noticed Sakharine, who was watching the scene from a balcony. He had one of the best seats, at the same time, he was the one who organized everything, which Tintin and Kathrynn didn't know.

Towards the end of the song. Bianca went higher and higher. Tintin understood pretty quickly what was going on. Sakharine had organized this concert himself, because only the voice of the famous Bianca Castafiore was powerful enough to break the glass that surrounded the caravel, glass by bullet moreover. Then Sakharine's falcon flew towards "The Unicorn" and then broke the mast and stole the parchment that was hidden there.

And there, everything followed, Sakharine, who had long since noticed the presence of Tintin and Kathrynn, pointed them out to make them take the blame for him and thus save time. The Sheikh's guards approached them. Tintin and Kathrynn defended themselves and finally managed to escape to pursue Allan, Tom and Sakharine, who were fleeing by car with the scroll.

Eventually they caught up with them. And fights broke out. Punchings broke out as well.

With all this, they finally made it to the harbour.

As they fought, Sakharine noticed the scroll the Dupondt had returned to them. He knows that Kathrynn has it on her. Sakharine provoked Kathrynn. Tintin was in a bad position at that moment. Sakharine pointed a gun at him and then he said to Kathrynn :

If you don't want him to die, give me the scrolls !

A serious look on his face. Then she turns to Tintin. She closes her eyes. Tintin is always ready to take the slightest risk, but right now, it would be too stupid to die for a simple scroll, even if it leads to a magnificent treasure. Kathrynn decides to give the scroll to Sakharine, who is more than happy to receive it.

Sakharine : There you go, I've won !

I wouldn't speak too quickly if I were you, said Tintin.

And as if for fun, Sakharine shot Tintin, but fortunately he didn't manage to touch him.

While Kathrynn and Tintin protected themselves from the bullets, Allan and Tom had time to start the car to return to the boat.

They watched the car run away with an awful feeling of failure.

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Tintin and Kathrynn had sat on a café terrace waiting to find a solution. All his emotions had made them thirsty and they needed a pick-me-up, without alcohol of course.

Kathrynn: We have to find something, we can't let them take my ancestor's treasure like that! There's got to be a way! We've got to catch up to them!

Tintin: I wish I was as optimistic as you are, but there's no hope left! They're too far ahead of us. And we have absolutely no idea where they're headed.

Kathrynn: I think you're more optimistic, but we can't give up at this point.

Tintin: I'm more of a realist, if you don't mind.

Kathrynn sipped her mint tea and thought. There had to be a way to catch him. Then suddenly she had a click.

Kathrynn: OF COURSE ! Tintin, did you use the radio to send a message?

Tintin: Yes, I did... He replied a little desperately. Wait a minute! You're right, I know what radio frequency they're transmitting on, which means, if I give that frequency to the police, they'll be able to find the boat wherever it is!

Kathrynn: We need to find a plane !

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A few hours later, Tintin and Kathrynn found themselves in the port of Brussels, accompanied by a few policemen ready to trap Sakharine and his henchmen. Sakharine came down the gangplank and ordered Allan and Tom to keep his actions secret. Then he went to his car, where Nestor was waiting for him. Sakharine got in, but Nestor didn't have time to do the same. Just as he tried to open the door, the car was lifted into the air by a crane operated by... Kathrynn, who was enjoying herself. She placed the car near the crowd of five policemen, including Dupont and Dupond, as well as Tintin. They approached the car to put Sakharine under yoke, but they saw absolutely no one. Until Sakharine came out of the front seat and yoked them in turn. He threatened them, then shot them, wounding one of the policemen in the leg. Sakharine took advantage of the policeman's attention and fled. Meanwhile, Kathrynn had come down from the crane, thinking she would be more useful on land. She came face to face with Sakharine, who pointed her gun at her, a finger to her mouth to tell her to shut up. Allan and Tom, who had noticed that the situation had degenerated, got out of the boat discreetly and positioned themselves behind the policemen and Tintin so as not to be spotted. They pointed guns at them and Allan ordered Tom to tie them up so that they couldn't bring in more reinforcements.  Tintin, also tied up, was forced to follow Allan and Tom, who of course pointed a gun at him. They joined Sakharine and Kathrynn on the deck. Kathrynn was stunned to see that Tintin was now Tom and Allan's prisoner.

Sakharine spoke up:

Good ! I hadn't planned any of this, but I figured we could settle the score here after all. He said, looking at Kathrynn, and ready to draw his sword at any moment.

Red Rackham ! Kathrynn said

Sakharine : I am delighted to see that you have finally understood! It would have been much less fun to kill you without you knowing the whole truth! I tracked you down by documenting myself on a boat I had discovered a long time ago at a flea market in Russia. "The Unicorn", of course! So I swore at that moment to avenge my ancestor for the humiliation Sir Francis had inflicted upon him. The treasure is only a bonus on top of that, but it is also a real pleasure to see me get the treasure that has been in your family for generations.

...

So here's what I propose: Let's fight here and now to end it all in good faith! Only one of us can win and it will be me! You are obligated to accept. If you don't, I'll order Allan to pull the trigger and you can say goodbye to your friend. Ah-ah-ah-ah! Tonight I will finally restore my ancestor's honor! He said with determination. What is your answer?

Kathrynn: I accept, of course ! she said, looking at Tintin.

Tintin: Kathrynn, it's much too dangerous.

Kathrynn: If I do nothing, they'll kill you! I have to do it!

Sakharin: That's enough, let's get down to business !

Allan and Tom held Tintin firmly in addition to his bonds so that he wouldn't come and interrupt the fight. Sakharine, quickly drew her sword stick. And Kathrynn armed herself with a piece of piping she'd found on the deck, it was it or nothing.

Sakharine warned her, and Kathrynn tried to avoid the blows. It was a tough fight. Kathrynn was fighting with all her strength, for her ancestor, for Tintin, but also for herself. Suddenly, Sakharine succeeded in disarming her. Her weapon fell a little further. And soon after, Sakharine pierced it with her sword stick. With the shock, Kathrynn coughed up blood, and her eyes began to water in pain. The blade was still in her body. Sakharine moved the sword to cause her more pain, then pulled it out with a violent kick to knock her down. Kathrynn fell to the ground.

Tintin: No! Kathrynn !! He shouted in fright.

He wanted to join her to help her, but Tom and Allan stopped him.

Tintin: But let go of me at last!

Tintin tried to fight back but nothing helped. To calm him down, Allan hit him in the stomach. Next time it's a bullet in the head!

Kathrynn was bleeding a lot. She still had enough strength to get up again, but Sakharine stopped her by pressing her foot on her back, which made her fall back down. He grabbed her by the hair and whispered in her ear:

So, how does it feel to lose?

Kathrynn: Ahh!

Then he turned her over to make sure she was on her back. He kicked the hand that supported her wound and put his foot in its place, making it suffer even more. She could no longer move, and fainted a few seconds later.

Sakharine raised her head and smiled: Ah ah ah! I hope you are proud of me, dear Rackham! My revenge is finally accomplished!

Tintin was totally impotent, he had tears in his eyes. Kathrynn... He had never been in such a situation before. He had always known how to get out of danger. He felt awful. Even in all his adventures, he'd never experienced such violence as he did now. Sakharine was a more fearsome man than all the bandits he had known before and would do anything to get his way.

Moments later, Sakharine ordered Allan and Tom to let Tintin go, and Tintin rushed to Kathrynn. He took her in his arms. A bond had been created between them, something Tintin had never felt before. Feeling Tintin's touch, Kathrynn managed to open her eyes. She looked at him and smiled at him :

I'm glad I was able to live this adventure with you... she whispered to him.

Tintin saw the light go out in her eyes. He couldn't stop crying. He hadn't told her anything, but he was beginning to have feelings for her, what he didn't know was that she too...

Tintin gently laid Kathrynn's head on the ground and gave her a kiss on the forehead. Then, with clenched fists, he stood up looking at Kathrynn's inert body.

You're going to pay for this ! He shouted to Sakharine, who watched the scene with an amused and cruel look.

Tintin heard a noise behind him. He barely had time to turn around when he saw Sakharine pointing a gun at him. He didn't have time to react, Sakharine touched him on the head.

The end.

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Basically a review of OP episode 503 ig

Currently rewatching post-war arc (in the dub so I don't have any screenshots for u guys sry) and theres a few things id like to point out.

During a conversation Dadan once had with Garp, they were talking about Roger. Garp said that even if they were facing powerful enemies, he would never run away because he wouldnt dare leaving his comrads behind; it wasnt an option for him. Obviously we see this in Ace. But ALSO, isnt this what he did with Katakuri? It was a little different cuz of the setting mostly, but he separated himself from his crew to fight off katakuri, and lied to them about being okay so they didn't worry (he was already getting his ass kicked by then, so he just made that stupid smile and told them not to worry (or smth like that, I can remember the exact line) (that smile was so gross and fake cuz he fucking sucks at lying). Also he said roger destroyed a buncha soldiers cuz they mouthed off his men. That's what Ace tried to do but instead he died. :(

"The pain he went through just made him hold on tighter to the ones he loved" -Garp, about Roger. "Despite his flaws and his bad reputation, his crew still trusted him completely." -also Garp, about Roger. These both sound a lot like Luffy AND Ace.

When Dogra got home and told everyone about Sabo's ship being shit down and him dying (which we all know didnt happen, thank fuck), (by the way the absolutely lost looks on Ace's and Luffy's faces with the sudden silence hurt like a bitch), Luffy started crying and said "WE SHOULDNT'A LET HIM GO, IT'S ALL OUR FAULT". Which fucking says something about him (thinking of episodes 913-915 when he goes fucking berserk, but before that he learns that Kaido probably killed Tama and he says "I should've escorted them..!" (*ugly cries*)). Ace also reacted pretty similarly-- "Sabo...why didn't we go back into town and bring him back here?! We're so stupid!" And he gets mad and asks where he could find the bastard that killed him (obviously not getting a good answer since it was a fucking celestial dragon ugh). That is what Luffy does, in present time. He results to anger first, not sadness. Not sure when he learned to do that but I'm 99 percent sure it was from Ace. Also the blaming himself thing? High chance thats ALSO from Ace. Who else would teach him that self hating behaviour?!

Dadan pins Ace down to stop him from going after the Celestial Dragon to calm him down, telling him he cant do anything, he's not big or strong enough to do anything and he'll be killed as soon as he tries anything, especially since it was the whole country -the whole WORLD- that killed Sabo. He can't do anything. And then they tied him to a tree outside to let him cool off. Oh yeah then he also told luffy to stop crying like a little girl or else he'll- (and he didn't finish the sentence). ...Ok maybe thats why luffy started being more angry than sad.

This is where things get a little more :( . Ace reads the letter Sabo sent them before he died. As he reads, he walks to the end of the forest, to a cliff overlooking the ocean. And starts fucking bawling (btw the voice actor who had Ace's childhood part did not do a very good job, no where near as in character and real as Coleen Clickenberg did with all of Luffy's crying scenes. She was spot on.) ...do you see where im going with that? He isolated himself before letting himself feel sad. It was all rage and then calm beforehand. Y-you see where im going with that. Dont make me say it.

"How's Luffy doing, is he any better?" "Well...he hasnt been eating much, but he still eats twice as much as we do". Oh look, That's what happened after Ace died too. There's a behavioral pattern that hasnt gone away. Not sure why it wouldve tho.

Luffy is mopeing, lying on the ground in a similar setting ace was at when he cried. Hes thinking about some of the things Sabo said, like how theyre gonna sail the seas together, and he clenches his hands into tight, shaking fists. After Ace shows up and hits him, and talking abt some other stuff I don't feel like relaying, Luffy tightens his grip on the straw hat and tells ace, whimpering, he wants to get stronger (and stronger, and stronger, and stronger and stronger and....) And he wants to be the strongest in the world. "And then, I'll protect everyone. I won't lose anyone I care about". He gets stronger mainly to protect the people he loves. And then he asks ace to promise he won't die. To which he hits Luffy again and tells him he should be more worried about himself dying first. And then the famous line that hurts like a bitch- "I'm NEVER going to DIE!" And then this hopeful music comes on (fucking damnit funimation, u gotta do this? Really??) Also he says he wont die as long as he has a wussy little brother to protect. ...FUCK. Ok, the fist clenching is a thing he does all the fucking time, usually when he gets mad. This was different because he wasnt mad, he was sad. He clenched his fist because thinking about it hurt. Which, huh, sounds a lot like his whole episode after waking up from his 2 week coma on the polar tang. To try and stop the mental pain of those horrendous memories, he resulted to physically pain. He hurt himself. So, He clenches his fists in times like these to fight off the mental pain and the urge to cause himself physical pain. Guys, our boy is bad at emotions, help him. ....ok this paragraph is longer than I anticipated so ill dumb down the rest of it ig. Next part, him asking ace to promise he wont die. The music, the body language, the over change in mood- this comforts him. He stopped hiding his face and silently sobbing after ace said this. OH YEAH! didn't he tell jinbe not to die when they parted ways in Totto Land? And then, hes missing still in Wano and we see Luffy is worried....but convinced Jinbe will show up. Again, this comforts him. Hes nervous cuz someone KOFF KOFF ACE broke that promise once. But jinbe is his crew mate so he trusts him, thank god.

"-But whoever did it, they must be opposed to freedom." The whole freedom thing? That runs through Luffy's blood and spirit.His brothers fought for it, his dad is the man who strives to give everyone freedom basically, and Luffy himself has seen enough of the OPPOSITE of freedom to be so, so much more than just against it. Hence why he of course was so eager to free the slaves in Sabaody, the kids in punk hazard, the toys in dressrosa, the country of Wano from Kaido's tyrany. The apple doesnt fall far from the tree huh.

I dont think Luffy would remember his promise with Shanks if it werent for his brothers putting feul to his dream. It was a stupid bet at first; he just wanted to beat Shanks, right then. But after meeting Sabo and Ace, he found the opposite of freedom and human rights. And then he wanted, REALLY wanted, to become the free-est man in the world; the pirate king.

Last one i promise ok? This one is less connected to whats going on in the episode at this point, but something I noticed (its so obvious everyone has seen this ok) was when luffy cries, his posture is always open. He doesn't curl in on himself like many people would do (I know I would, lol). He doesnt hug himself, protect himself. He's just, opened up to whoever is watching, literally. This has a little more to do with something I haven't talked about much in this post yet; his self-destruction issues. I said he tried to hurt himself when he felt mental pain, which is definitely similar. But he cries and doesnt try to protect or comfort himself, like he doesn't have that programmed into his mind. Reminder that he only wants to live because of his dream, and if he doesnt have his dream, he wants to die. (Whoa.). Ok, so no self preservation mechanism at all rlly. Hes basically ride or die. So, when things hurt so much that he cries, he has no hope left. He just kinda...dies inside. So this was mildly different after sabo died. Yes we saw him just standing there, sobbing. But the next day he's still crying, and instead he's laying on the ground. I saw that and the voice in the back of my head told me he wanted to be a part of that lifeless dirt beneath him. Then, Ace walked over. And his words made him feel the hope that I told you about earlier, and he sat up into a sitting position. And HUGGED HIS LEGS TO HIS CHEST. There's some self preservation! Some hope! Some will to exist, to live! Something we saw none of as he sat in front of his brothers corpse, shutting down. He sat there, open to his enemies, incapable of protecting himself. Practically anyone couldve killed him right then and there. I think he mightve liked that, at that moment. Like thank god he has that stupidly good luck cuz if he didn't I swear someone couldve thrown and axe or FUCKING ANYTHING AT THAT MOMENT and hed be dead becuase he never physically or mentally prepared himself. On purpose.

Our poor boy needs some fucking attention and therapists. (Insert my rant post about how jinbe is on the crew primarily for anger management and therapy, not just being a helmsman.) Ugh, smh ugly cries

Aaaaand thats about the end of the episode. Theres so many little tics and peesonality traits that you notive thru this episode, and I only noticed them cuz im rewatching this part of the show for like the third time. I don't react as much as the first time of course but some things are definitely sadder after knowing what's going on and what will happen later on.

Moral of the story (post)? I think luffy is almost equally as alike -if not, more similar to roger as ace is. Also, high key genuinely think Luffy met like NO ONE but Garp before he met Shanks and his crew. What the fuck was his first like 5 years of being alive like? (He wantd to be a pirate cuz Garp didnt want that. Rebellious baby asshole. And then shanks made things worse, in a good way for luffy. And then ace and sabo made that worse thing worse for a good reason. Luffy lives...for those influences. And that is fucking it. Why.

Oh thanks tumblr for moving my picture to the bottom of the post u fucking idiot

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[peachymess]

1/2 Peachy I would love your opinion on a post I came across. Spoiler warning.... The post goes over Armin's crying scene, they say that Armin was actually moved my Yelena's words and how Armin has changed for the worst over the years. How he just wants to sit and talk etc...ah I wish I could link u the post on this. It's in the Armin tag and it's a recent post. I would love your feed back on that. I'm just kinda paranoid and worried for Armin, I could see him actually being moved by those words

2/2 to find the post the title is “Armin was pretending to fool yellena”?“ I kinda worry for him, I seen a lot of theories that he’s faking it or that his emotions were real but what came out of his mouth was a lie. I also saw your post that another Anon asked over Armin’s crying and that could also be it. Reading your post I kinda got reminded of how Armin has lied to Bert on Annie and also lied to the female Titan of crushing his best friend to distract her.

Hi, anon. I’m sorry; I really wanted to write a thorough meta for this, but I simply don’t have the time. I got this on my way to work yesterday evening, and today will consist of packing until I’m picked up to head to the family cabin (no net there; only on phone). I’ll be staying there till the 22nd of April, and I’ll be busy until the 25th. I would have saved the asks and replied once I’m back, had the topic not had a, probably, short expiration date. Meaning, I assume you’ve probably either landed on something, or there’s just a few days until a new chapter might give further answers, by the time I can actually get to it. However, if, at the end of April, you still wonder, feel free to ask me again about this topic. You’re right, I already gave a general reply, and I’ll give another. If I write another, deeper diving meta about this, it will only be to build up under the thoughts and arguments I have already given. Because, short answer to all of this is: I believe Armin is faking it, in hopes of getting an upper hand out of it. Armin has faked stuff and played on emotions like this before. He lied about Annie to reach Bert (and Reiner’s) emotions twice, he played on Eren’s trust in him during the Return arc - so that Eren wouldn’t catch on to his plan of self-sacrifice (if you don’t remember, Armin knew Eren wouldn’t go along with the plan if he told him the planned endgame, so the moment Eren started to ask himself what Armin was getting at, Armin pulls the “I’ll back out before I get too hurt, I promise; would I ever lie to you?”), he withheld the planned endgame from Jean and Mikasa for the same reason (aka, he knew their emotions could get in the way of them allowing him to sacrifice himself), he woke Eren twice from titan from by appealing to their dream (emotions) - the second time even when he thought he wouldn’t see it (read: he thought to himself “if this plan works, I’ll probably never see the ocean”, and then stabs Eren in the neck and says “Eren, wake up, we’re going to see the ocean”; lied). He also sweet-talked Annie into helping him, by talking about good vs bad people, and how she’d be a bad person to him if she didn’t help him - because we’re all human, and we have an instinctual need to be liked by others (especially if we like or respect the person in question, which Annie did). Armin also lied about his best friend been crushed under her foot, to (among other things) save Jean’s life; by faking his emotional distress over seeing his friend dead - as in, using emotional manipulation. 

My point is, Armin understands people’s emotions very well, he analyses situations well. He knows how to use that to his advantage. If he is faking it with Yelena, it would not only be “in character”, it would be textbook Armin. Even more textbook Armin, than him being generally moved to tears by words. I haven’t looked into what exactly it is Yelena says yet, but by word of mouth, she talks about their work being remembered past their own deaths (among other things). Armin doesn’t want/need to be remembered. You have to think about what his goals and desires are. He doesn’t want bloodshed. He would want every single person to live, if there was a way for it. Even if what they do gets remembered for centuries, do you think he’d be happy if what they did, was to commit genocide? 

Again, I don’t know Yelena’s stance in detail, nor her words to Armin, but I know their positions pre-116: opposite sides. Words will not sway Armin from one to the other. He has an analytical mind, and he has thought about both sides already, from many angles, I am sure. He has picked the side he morally believes in. And because he has thought about it thoroughly, I doubt that simply phrasing the (in his mind) “wrong side” in a certain way, will suddenly convince him to agree with it. If people, words or emotional appeal would convince him, don’t you think his best friend would have been able to get him on board these past 4 years? Armin and Eren are torn because their morals have garnered considerable distance to one another (or so it seems), and Armin will rather uphold his morals than break bread with someone over a treasured friendship (and before anyone goes after Armin for that, remember it takes two to tango; the exact same could be said about Eren).

What more, think about the story aspect of this. Firstly, what was the point of the scene? What was the point of showing Armin getting on Yelena’s good side? Either it’s to show Armin’s development into being a Zeke-follower - but if that isn’t it (which I don’t believe), then the point was that Armin having Yelena around his little finger, will become an asset to him later. He can use it to influence her choices/actions, to free his friends, etc. Where would the story take him, if Isayama makes Armin suddenly side with Yelena? It looks like a dead end to me, especially this late in the game. What will happen next, if Armin goes over to Yelena/Zeke’s side? Eren is gonna throw Zeke a curveball, which means the parties will split into three (if not more). This would leave Armin (still) opposite to Eren, but also opposite to Mikasa. Which would make it finally easy(er) for Mikasa to go against Armin over Eren. And after Mikasa reluctantly sides with Eren to take down Armin, who becomes a side of his own, then what…? We return to Eren vs SC, just like before? A dead-end loop. Of course, there’s a lot of room here, and I honestly won’t pretend to know what the future of this story holds. I will, however, trust my knowledge of Armin enough to say I highly doubt that Armin is being moved to tears over some fanatic’s words. It’s all about motivation here. I already mentioned it, but that’s because it’s such an important thing to look at. You cry when something resonates with you. What about Yelena’s words, would resonate with Armin’s ultimate goals? 

… Because his goals are the same today, as they’ve always been: as much peace as possible, for the smallest price possible. I’m still eager to hear him talk about his dream (ocean, northern lights, etc.) again, just to see where his stance is on that now (it’s the only part of him I won’t confidently guess at), but that’s somewhat irrelevant right now. The point I’m trying to get to is this: Armin hasn’t changed for the worse. He hasn’t changed at all. What has changed, is Eren’s opinion on Armin and his ideals. Before, Eren admired him, now he’s impatient with him. I don’t think I heard anyone talking about Armin’s morals changed, before Eren brought it up at the round table. Because Armin hasn’t changed; what Eren said, he said (either) because he’s convinced himself of it, and (or) because he wanted Armin to start doubting his own mind/motivations. Armin’s strength is his mind, and as long as he thinks he can trust his own judgement, he will be solidly in place (as he has been for 4 years). Topple that confidence, and he might finally, possibly be susceptible to manipulation. That would be to Eren’s great benefit. I think that’s part of why he said it. But he’s wrong either way. And I think that went over parts of the fandom’s heads. 

Because whether Armin has Bertolt’s memories or not, he is still himself. If all the shifters were just an empty shell of the shifter that came before them, then Bertolt wasn’t himself either; he would in turn have been the shell of the previous one, who was a shell of the one before him, etc. Even with shifter influence, that function only works, if it’s at most partial (except for, possibly, exceptions under special circumstances that Armin don’t meet). Look at all the shifters; there is enough evidence to say with certainty, that they are to some degree their own person, with wishes and feelings connected specifically to them. Things from previous people might be added, but not everything from the pre-shifter holder is taken away. Just look at the BRA chemistry: Reiner and Bertolt are friends, and Annie is going “meh” on the sideline. Fat chance the original colossal, armored and female had the exact same dynamic as the BRA trio had pre-shifters, yet they are the same trio before and after becoming shifters.

Armin has tried to talk things out with the enemy before. He tried to talk to Bertolt in the return arc, he tried to talk to Bert and Reiner when they were running away. He generally wants to understand the enemy, and for them to in turn understand him. He believes that if they can find common understanding, they can find common ground. Him wanting to build bridges with the other countries has nothing to do with Bertolt’s memories, and it is not something he “wouldn’t have wanted before”. Remember how upset he was when he shot the MP lady? She was an enemy, but he was still so distraught he puked and cried his heart out. Remember in the return arc when they blew Reiner to bits (one of several times, lol)? Armin looks at him, tears in eyes, and expresses that he is heartbroken that it had to come to that because there was no room for talking. He explicitly mentions how he regrets that they weren’t able to talk it out. Armin Arlert has always wanted to pursue the most peaceful solutions! This is not new! And I was going to dedicate a large chunk on my meta just for this, but sadly, I don’t have the time. I have talked about this many, many times; talked about how he’s not a pacifist, as some claim he is, because he is not - but that he, instead, feels like they have a duty to make sure the violent option they choose, is still the least violent option. He would let a thousand men die if it meant saving the rest of the world. But not before he is confident that there isn’t a way to sacrifice only a hundred for the same outcome! 

1. Zeke and Yelena’s plan is to kill probably several thousands, to save the rest of the world. Armin thinks they can save the world by sacrificing considerably less than several thousands. That is why, no matter how pretty Yelena makes it sound, her plan will never move Armin to tears. 

2. Armin’s morals have not changed; he’s always wanted to save as many people as possible and to get as far as he can with communication. His first line in this damn story is about how if you abandon arguments and resort to violence instead, it means you’re in the wrong. 

3. … Yet he’s not a pacifist. When there is no other solution, he will restore to violence. Eren forced his hand with Marley, and what did Armin do? He didn’t stand passively by; he did the only thing that was left to do to proceed: blow up the harbor. When Jean was about to get shot, what did he do? He shot that MP in the face. He doesn’t like violence, and he wants to avoid it as much as possible, but he recognizes that if communication doesn’t get you all the way, violence will cover the rest. However, he feels that they all have a duty to exhaust all possibilities before turning to violence (”the end justifies the means - if you were mindful of the means”). That is why he and Eren now differs: Armin feels that Eren is no longer attempting to look for less horrific means, and instead going for the first thing plan that comes to mind. And it’s making Armin question his morals; if Eren truly cared about everyone, would he not also - just like Armin - desire to spend at least some time to think and analyze, and test the waters of less horrific plans? Eren, on the other hand, seems to feel pressed for time, and has no patience for Armin’s “lingering”, and thus grows angry and refuses to put himself in Armin’s shoes to try and understand why he “lingers” against the enemy. Pick what side you want, but Eren is wrong in the way he sees Armin. And the fandom should realize this and not so readily take his reprimand of Armin as facts. Armin has not changed. … but I know I’m seen as biased in Armin’s favor, just like that post you read sounds to be biased against him. And since I have no time, I’d encourage you to seek out @momtaku; she’s given good, believable, objective analysis of Armin before and I trust her to treat him fairly. She writes metas a lot more than I do these days, so - though with fear of sending too much work her way - I’d suggest you ask her what she makes of the scene. Either way, that’s enough of my rambling. I hope that no matter what, anon, you are able to de-stress somehow. SNK makes me worry a whole lot too, but Armin stepping away from his greatest strength (good judgement) at the last hour, is not one of those worries.  

(PS: I didn’t read that post you talked about, I don’t have the time, but if there is a fair point in it that I don’t cover, feel free to ask me about that part specifically. Also, had I read it, I would have sourced it and tagged the author so that there is no shade). 

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[incaseofjeon]

hellooo i just finished reading lucky strike and i really like your writing!!! it's the second thing of yours i've read :) for some reason i can relate a lot to JK?? in his decision to run away i mean HAHA really interesting style too especially at the beginning, when i was starting to get into the plot. i look forward to reading your other stuff! :) a few questions though (and i'm sorry if this has been asked) but 1. what was jimin's power?? 2. what are your fav books? yay! thanks!! -c

omgg THANK YOU SO MUCH ;A; im so so so happy that you read that fic and enjoyed it ahhhhdhsfjds ;__; though ohh i wonder what the first of my fics you read was 👀? hahfbds

and im glad you found his character relatable ;;;; when writing it his story was also the one sort of closest to me personally? so im really glad that other people found him relatable too ahhfjddsj so jUST. thank you!!! thank you so much, for reading and for taking the time to tell me this T–T im really happyy

as for your questions! here ill put them under a read-more bc i just know im gonna get rambly omfgdf

ok so, jimin’s power - I’M ACTUALLY SO GLAD YOU ASKED, because it’s a part of the story that almost no one’s asked about even though it’s kind of a big deal for jimin. which is….jimin doesn’t have a power lmaO. almost everyone in that au has superpowers; its the norm to have one, but fic!jimin just..doesn’t. it’s something he’s probably felt odd about growing up; in his growing years he probably tended to feel like he had to work extra hard to be sort of special or noticed and stuff T-T that’s also part of the reason he originally was drawn to jeongguk in school after the dictionary incident - by that age he’d kind of started to guess that he wasn’t going to develop a power, since it’s really rare for it to develop any later than teenage years, and jeongguk was the first person he’d known to not like his own power ;; so to jimin it was kind of eye-opening to realise that the power he’d always been upset about not having could possibly bring harm as well as good ahjsbdsjhd..so yeAH!! im so so glad you asked this omdfd i feel like..im finally doing fic!jimin justice in telling his unwritten story T–T

and MY FAVOURITE BOOKS. omfg there’s so so many im just going to list as many as i can think of off the top of my head:

1. The Raw Shark Texts (by Steven Hall)

this one is one of my all time favourites, and a HUGE huge huge inspiration in writing that’s left an impact on me for a really long time ;; IT’S SO UNDERRATED but it’s super gripping and interesting and experimentally fresh, and has really well-written themes of like love and loss and unfaithful memories and losing memories and a lot of cool internal/mental things like that! the ending is super cool to me, too ;;; the writing style is like nothing ive ever really seen anywhere else and is just super compelling in the way the author selects and arranges certain simple words in un-simple ways? and there are many parts of this book that are ambiguous in what exactly happened; that’s exactly why i love it? idk i jsut - i get super super excited about this book pleasE READ IT 

2. The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake (by Aimee Bender)

actually, i have loved about every single thing by aimee bender that i’ve read, but this is the only novel of hers ive read so far so i’ll go with that hjsbdjhsf…her short story collections are super lovely too, some of my favourite short stories by her are Job’s Jobs, Appleless, Death Watch, Motherfucker, I Will Pick Out Your Ribs (from My Teeth), and Faces. Aimee Bender is really one of my favourite authors ever, she has a really distinctive style and flavour thats creative and poetic and charmingly matter-of-fact all at once, that makes the most mundane stuff seem magical and the most magical stuff seem mundane. like. idk. IM REALLY IN LOVE with her writing ;;;;; ahdsbfjhbfds please check her out if you can!!!

3. A Wrinkle in Time & its sequels (by Madeleine L’Engle)

this whole series is just..really lovely in its ideas and hopeful and really gave me a huge sense of wonder the first time i read it? and there are some scenes in it that were just so beautifully magical (even though it’s actually sci-fi) and moving that i’ve never forgotten them to this day ;___; even though i first read it when i was 11 lmaO. but really, this is so soso osos o lovely idk if youve ever read it but i hope you have/get to read it some day abfdf

4. The Tale of Despereaux by Kate DiCamillo

jhasgfjhs kate dicamillo is another of my all time favourite writers, i grew up hunting library shelves for her name lmao her writing is just..really beautiful in its ideology and style? there’s something very pure and innocent and whimsical and so so poetic about the things she writes and the way she tells stories, i always tend to read her stuff in one sitting bc it’s just so hard to stop ;;; i love her work so so much 

5. Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

i actually…can’t remember the exact story of this anymore BUT I DO remember that when i read it, i was completely blown away by the power of the writing style? bradbury’s writing is just…really distinctive in a heavier kind of way? like it’s poetic but kind of grips you around the heart idK im not sure how to explain it. i’m always stunned at the way he chooses his words and crafted his world in this book ajhsfbjd i love it sooo much ;;; i want to reread soon sdhfds

6. The Monstrumologist series (by Rick Yancey)

THIS ONE IS SO UNDERRATED i love it omg..it’s more gory and dark than most the things ive mentioned but the gore never feels like..needless? idk. i just love it so much and the kinds of ideas like the blurring of lines between man and monster, as well as the changing relationships of growing up - the book series just handles that so so well and with a really exciting gripping plot too ahdgsd i love it i love iiit. my fav book in the series is probably the lsle of Blood; there’s a line in there about a plate that haunTS ME ALWAYS 

7. Skellig and Kit’s Wilderness by David Almond

david almond is another writer i grew up reading ahhHH it’s honestly been too long for me to exactly remember what i loved about these 2 books - BUT I LOVE THEM

8. The Seas by Samantha Hunt

i actually am reading this book literally right now, so i havent reached the ending and im not sure if ill still love it as much as i currently do by that point, but so far i definitely am loving it SO much!! the writing and metaphors and characterisation are so damn beautiful and interesting and the writer has a lovely flow and really fresh way of arranging words and delivering ideas ;; it’s just really prettily and freshly and creatively written ;A; plus, i have this…Thing for the ocean so i love that a central part of this book is about the sea ahhH 

9. Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami 

I WISH I HAD MORE HARUKI MURAKAMI THINGS TO TALK ABOUT but this is the only of his books ive found so far - and I LOVE IT TO DEATH. i actually read norwegian wood and the particular sadness of lemon cake in the time period when i wrote my latest fic (thought you knew) and they really ;;; damn, a double whammy of inspiration omfg. norwegian wood is just…really really interesting and deep and real without being too heavy-hearted in the way it talks about things like relationships, devotion, alienation and loss? idk, it’s just- i love it so so so much, especially the ending paragraph ahhhh

10. Cathedral and A Small, Good Thing (by Raymond Carver)

THESE ARE TECHNICALLY SHORT STORIES, not books. but i just love them so much i have to mention them ;;; i honestly love raymond carver and his way of writing a lot, he just..he says so much with so little? he’s a huge inspiration i look up to like crazy especially when it comes to crafting dialogue ahhh. i also really love his poem Hummingbird!

11. The Devotion of Suspect X by Keigo Higashino

idek where to start with this one..THE PLOT IS JUST. FUCKING BRILLIANT and it’s a really interesting take on the idea of devotion, especially devotion to..um..unhealthy kinds of levels? idk. it’s just….so well thought through and super cool i was Mind Blown™ when i read it kasjndskdf

12. Bunker 10 by J.A. Henderson

this is another one in team BLEW MY FUCKIGN MIND ahhh ;; i read it super super long ago but the plot is so so good? it’s the kind that’s a bit confusing at first, but then everything gets revealed and i’m completely shook and eye-opened and want to read it again with the new knowledge, you know what i mean? just- i cant remember what the writing style was like but the PLOT and setting was soo so so cool T—T

and that’s…all i can think of at the moment ajhbfjsdhf IM SORRY YOU PROBABLY DIDNT EXPECT ME TO BE SO EXTRA AS TO GIVE SUCH A LONG ASS REPLY but im just…..very very very passionate and invested in the books i love, ok. im so. akjsfbjhdsf

anyway yeah!! thank you so soso soso SO much for reading my writing and liking it and making the effort to let me know ;;;; im really so happy reading and replying to your message, it means so much to me T-T i hope you have a great great day ilY anon c!!!

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