Tumgik
#I'm just upset about this and how rude some people on the internet can get without even realizing
stormblessed95 · 1 year
Text
I'm Stepping Away For A While...
Over the past week, and then some, I have been called a multitude of names in an effort to make fun of me and rude names including wh*re, p**sy, bitch, a liar, a fake, etc. I've been told I'm a fake/bad ARMY, a fake jikooker, etc. Ive had people call my friends deragatory names and misgender them. And I've also had someone in my DMs try to gaslight me into believing that this was not harassment or Bullying, but that I should apologize to my followers for threatening to block people and that people were just expressing strongly worded commentary over how my actions hurt them. And that I needed to take responsibility for creating the drama at all. And none of that is okay, and honestly it's been a lot. And the way people just brushed over the name calling and harassment regardless of if they disagreed with me or liked me, that was a lot too.
Blocking people to curate my space is not harassment or bullying or disrespectful. Its simply protecting myself and trying to curate a safe space for me personally. Nor have I ever started a hate campaign to try and drive another blogger off the platform. And if a post of mine encouraged people to send messages or hurtful asks to someone else, and I KNEW about it, I would've said something and asked them to stop. Sharing an opinion or disagreeing with someone is not me sending anyone hate. Nor would I ever want that for anyone regardless of any disagreements we had over whatever topic.
I've lost quite a few followers over the past week, people believing things that are being said and that's fine, i was never here for the numbers anyway. Id rather you unfollow or block me peacefully if you dont like me or my posts. Some of the people engaging with this hate against me were honestly surprising. But it is what it is. But I don't feel safe in this space anymore. I honestly haven't for a while. Blogging isn't as fun anymore. I don't want to post while it feels like a chore. And that's not because of anyone or anything in particular. I opened this blog because it brought me joy and it was fun. And it's really sad that something that brought me happiness is no longer doing that for me. It's not just all this drama either. It's probably been awhile coming, making my timeline posts for longer posts felt more like something I had to do for you all instead of something I wanted to do for me. And that's not what I want for this space.
So I'll be stepping away for awhile. When or if I come back will depend on if I can get that joy back for doing this and I feel like this can be a fun corner of the internet for all of us together again. And also for if I feel like I can do this without it being so mentally draining and just not good for my mental health like it has been lately.
I'll leave my blog here and my masterlist because I know that a lot of people enjoy the archive of some past content I have cataloged there. I don't want to take that away from anyone for that reason alone since I want people to be able to access that content if they can't otherwise find it. I also want the option to be able to come back to this blog again at some point. So I don't want to delete it or say I'm stepping away permanently, nor do I want people wondering what happened to me or anything. I just need a break. I do apologize for all the post series I have started that are remaining unfinished now for a little while.
If you want to unfollow me knowing that I'll be absent from here for awhile or for any other reason, that's totally fine. Honest. No hard feelings. I wish you well and hope everyone will continue to do well and enjoy the next few months of music, content and love from the members. Maybe I'll try to be back in time for JJK1 whenever that happens.
Again, this is just something I need. I'm okay, I'm not hurt or upset. I just need a break. I appreciate you all understanding. I'll still be in this fandom and be ARMY for life. I'll still be around for the next day or so. Thank you for understanding. I do love you guys and hope to back as soon as I'm able to.
Tumblr media
156 notes · View notes
juanarc-thethird · 1 year
Note
How does Ghira and Kali react to hearing about Blake winning a pageant? And then how would they react if they found out she only did that to sleep with Jaune?
For the people that don't remember the first post, here it is Part 1
----------------
*Incoming video call sound*
Blake: Hello?
Kali: *Happy* Hi sweetie!
Ghira: *Happy* How have you been, Blake?
Blake: I'm fine. I don't want to sound rude but why are you guys calling me?
Ghira: Your mother and I stumbled upon a nice surprise this morning.
Blake: A surprise?
Ghira: You see, when we went to the park to walk and we found a kiosk where they sold-
Kali: *Showing a newspaper on the screen* You won Miss Argus!!!!
Blake: How did you guys find out about that?!
Ghira: That's what I was going for. At the kiosk we saw your photo on the front page of the newspaper and we bought it. But I must say, I didn't know you were into beauty pageants.
Kali: Of course she is interested, she is my daughter after all.
Blake: Actually, I'm not interested.
Ghira: You are not?
Kali: But I saw the replay on the internet. You looked so happy and you moved like a professional. As if it wasn't your first time doing this! How can you move like that without being interested in it?!!!
Blake: Simple, I did it to get fucked.
Ghira: Excuse me?!!
Kali: Huh?!!!
Blake: Sorry but I have to come out clean. I mean, just look at him! *Pan to Jaune who is training outside in a sleeveless shirt and holding his sword* Isn't he beefy?!
Ghira: *Upset* Blake! I remind you that you are talking to your parents. Kali, say something.
Kali: Yes, he looks very beefy.
Ghira: Kali!
Kali: Relax, Blake is at that age.
Ghira: She is an adult, she must behave like one.
Kali: Oh, you didn't tell me that when I snuck into your room after I turned 18 so we could f-
Ghira: *Blushing* *Ahem* That's different.
Blake: How?
Ghira: It was different time back then, ok! Besides, that's not the point I'm trying to make, what I mean is that a woman like you should act more appropriately.
Blake: *smiling* Dad, I'll tell you this with all the love and respect I have for you…. *Serious* I will not stop fucking him.
Ghira: What?!
Kali: Oh my~
Blake: Do you know how many girls have thrown themselves at him every time we go to a new city? Too many! Luckily he has rejected them all, but what will happen when he no longer does? What will happen if another girl is the person who dominates him? I can't let that happen.
Ghira: But there are other ways to do it. Can you just talk to him or maybe go out on a date? Those ideas sound better than just fucking him the first chance you get.
Blake: Didn't you see his body?! I have to fuck him!
Ghira: But-!
Kali: Ghira, I think I understand how our daughter feels. First of all she is not living the life of a normal girl. She is trying to save the world. You and I know that this is dangerous, and at any moment she could lose her life in the process. If you and I were in the same situation, I would do anything to be able to spend every second with you. Your daughter is doing that. She is taking action when she can, because tomorrow may be her last day with him. You understand it, don't you?
Ghira: *sighs* I guess... Just keep it PG when you talk to us. I don't want to know about my daughter's sex life.
Blake: Oh thank you so much! You don't know how much it means to me to have your support. Now, if you'll excuse me, Jaune went off to take a shower by himself. So… bye! *Hangs up*
Ghira: Good God, what are we going to do with that girl?
Kali: We can only hope for the best…. and maybe some grandbabies.
228 notes · View notes
This might be controversial but I'm saying it anyway: we need to stop blaming healthcare staff for poor care even when it seems like it's genuinely their fault, because despite what it seems, 90% of the time when doctors dismiss you, nurses are rude to you, and professionals 'don't know enough' about your conditions - these things are caused by systemic issues and not personal failures. They do care, they've just been broken by the system and unfortunately - despite their best effort and then some - they don't have endless patience and smiles left in them.
Let's use an analogy more people will relate to: say you work in a restaurant. Your manager has, for some reason, booked the restaurant out at double capacity. There are people who booked weeks in advance queuing for their tables, and there are walk-ins, too; not just people looking for a nice time, but road-tripping families with hungry kids who can't find anywhere to eat, people who have been sent here because the place they booked at unexpectedly had to close. They're hungry and many are in a bad mood.
If you're good at you job, I'm sure you could manage - despite the stress and vitriol - to handle things in a friendly and apologetic way. I'm sure you'd be able to politely turn people away with recommendations on alternative places to go, apologise when you were late with meals, and still do your best to refill cups and take payments with a smile.
Imagine your manager starting booking at double-capacity every single day.
Imagine watching this become standard practice throughout the city, then the region, then the country. Nobody has anywhere else to go. Let's pretend most of these people have no kitchens and can't cook at home; you are the only source of food for these people, and they need to eat. Every day you spend 10 hours dealing with hundreds of people sobbing, fainting, wasting away in front of you, but you still only have 30 tables and 4 line cooks. Every day you go home knowing you managed to get some people fed, but others are still waiting. You had to go home knowing they might be dead by tomorrow, but if you didn't leave, you might be.
How long do you think you could stay kind? Keep smiling? Keep empathising? All of these people, you know, have every right to eat. They need it. They come here because it's where people come for food. It's your job to feed them. But how long do you think it would take for you to start feeling like people are entitled, when they raise a hand and ask for more water? They're thirsty, and they've waiting a long time. They deserve that water. But do you not think that in your head you'd be screaming, you're thirsty? I haven't had a drink in 8 hours! there's a line out the door of people collapsing from dehyrdration! You're lucky to even have a seat! Do you not think that when someone came to you and said, please, do you have a seat, I haven't eaten all day and my stomach hurts, that you would think about the chaos inside - the chaos they can't see, the starving masses they can't see, the dying and dead they can't see - and tell them to go home and deal with it? How much sympathy could you have, knowing you had barely enough food today to keep everyone in the building alive, and people are complaining that it isn't enough? You know it isn't, but all you have.
Can you image going home, opening up your phone, and seeing an internet full of people talking about how mean you are, talking about their bad experience, saying if they hate serving me so much, why do the job? Would you think of quitting? Would you think of quitting, knowing they wouldn't replace you, and then think of all the people who would be getting one less drink, one less seat at the table, think of the colleagues who'd get one less break, ten more tables to wait?
The point is, you have a right to good healthcare, and the staff trying to give it to you are just as upset that they can't. Try to have some empathy. Your health issue is probably the only one you've dealt with today; the doctor that's telling you it's probably not a big deal has probably just seen ten people with a worse problems, and that doesn't make yours matter less, but she's been given 8 hours to help 100 people and you can't blame her for lacking patience when she knows her next ten minutes could save or doom a life. The nurse that rolled his eyes when you said you were in pain has seen so much pain today. He's jaded, broken, traumatised, a shadow of the genuinely good and caring person his is at his heart. Do you think you would be kind, patient, taking your time, empathising with everyone, if you'd been through the kind of abuse and trauma they have? No offence but some of y'all can't even be kind to people talking about their problems online without telling them to stfu until palestine is free
Please can we stop blaming each other. I know how easy it is to blame the person in front of you, especially when they're rude or dismissive and when you're suffering. I'm not saying it's okay or that you should be okay with it, and I'm not claiming that there are no genuine bad eggs in medicine, but let's not have patients blaming staff and staff blaming patients. Give people grace. Let's support each other in our shared suffering instead of lashing out. The healthcare system is abusing all of us. Stand together. Support the strikes. Empathise.
(note: I am England-based, this is about the NHS but could apply to many healthcare providers. I am also not a healthcare worker, but have friends who are, so that's the peek I've had behind the curtain)
18 notes · View notes
a4wsome4fu0ck · 5 months
Note
Scared to send an ask here tbh cuz idk who may be looking into this account so I'll stay on anon. I would skim through this account sometimes to see whats been going on and if any improvements have been made. And it seems there have been some, but not enough. Unlisting the videos seem ok but it kinda defeats the purpose if shes making it worse by changing the descriptions yet again. And her live streaming is kinda weird idk like youd think someone thats in a situation like this would STAY AWAY from the internet and actually take a break but she just refuses to stay off the internet and claims that streaming is a break. Sorry but thats not a break Mel. And you cant be upset when people go to your streams asking where your apology and response is cuz youre the one thats being active and doing other things and putting this situation to the side all cuz you wanna animate. Like be fr 6 animations youre working on???? And knowing you youre putting blood sweat and tears into them so I highly doubt you even have a sentence of that response typed out. I understand that its a lot and you need time. But youve had enough time to say just something ANYTHING about it. It sucks cuz this whole thing wouldve been over with years ago if she just moved on properly. I dont mean to sound rude when I say that but theres just no other way to word it. And tbh being nice to her isnt gonna do much cuz itll just show that all she'll get for this is a slap on the wrist. I agree that harassment and stalking isnt good. Dont do that. But you dont have to walk on eggshells when talking about this. Hell she didnt so why should anyone else. Be stern. Be mean if you need to to show how severe the situation is
As for my own lil message to Mel cuz I owe you some words at least. I am disappointed. I really thought you would at least say SOMETHING about this but idk. But I just wanna say that I'm sorry. Sorry that you got cheated on. Ofc its a horrible thing to happen to anyone but at the same time it was not that big for you to be making death threats to them abt it. That you constantly bring them up in conversation. Its not good, and I hope you can move on from that and give yourself that peace of mind at least. As for other things, I'm sorry I unfriended you and blocked you outta no where without saying anything. But I honestly didnt wanna start any problems I hate confrontation and conflict and all that. I did it because I found out what you did. To your past friends, to Orange, and to me. And I didnt like it at all. So I left. Sorry but I wasnt gonna be fake and stick around like I didnt know anything
Sorry for putting this on here and in your askbox. I've mentioned before on my own account that I dont wanna talk abt it. But I did now because I do want her to get better and be better. Not for her fans or anyone else, but for herself. She is talented, and when drama and shit isnt involved she is a genuine cool person. I hope this all works out. It needs to be over with already -🍇
There’s no worries with staying Anonymous. We understand where these emotions come from, and we all hope that Quartelz takes a step and is able to apologize, but also improve herself.
8 notes · View notes
Hi. I'm going through withdrawal. It'll just be a few days. Only my shrink and my best friend know and I just feel really alone right now. I had this story published in a big magazine and it got all these negative reviews and that's all I can think about. I was happy earlier and now everything feels like shit and I know I've just gotta live through this but it's hard to do alone.
i'm so sorry, sweetheart, and i'm really sorry it took me a few days to answer this. i was going through a difficult time of having to ration my own medication until i could get my refill, dealing with some withdrawal and misery in the process, so i totally get it.
i totally fucking understand how hard it is, but do you think you can try opening up about it a little more, talking about it more, to more people? i think sometimes we wind up a self-fulfilling prophesy of isolation, where the sickness and the shame drive us to hold it all in, and then people don't understand or realize because we're not talking about it, and then them not understanding or realizing makes us feel more isolated.
i usually hate talking about it all myself, it feels stupid and exhausting and drag up all my shit up and vomit it all over the floor where people can see it, but fuck, you gotta do it sometimes, you know? i can bottle it up like a champ, but it's not good for you. now and then you gotta take the initiative and start telling people what you're feeling and thinking and let them see you and support you. sometimes it's a choice, to be not so alone, you know?
i'm not trying to criticize you at all, hon, i understand how you feel, and i'm so sorry people were so rude and shitty about your article. i think you're doing pretty amazing, going to therapy and getting your writing published, even just being able to reach out to me to say how you feel.
and if all you can do is reach out anonymously and tell an internet stranger how you're feeling, that's still a win. don't let it not be a win. but i think it can be rewarding if you can try to open up to your friends too. and, honestly, if you know that they won't support you or you can't trust them with this, then consider getting better friends.
it's okay to feel bad, to be upset and feel alone and like everything's wrong. emotions just do that to you sometimes, especially when your meds have gotten fucked up. but a lot of the time, the instinct to curl up on yourself and keep that all secret and safe and comfortably isolated can be the worst one.
i really hope you've gotten your meds sorted out by now and you're feeling less shitty, sweetheart. sorry if this ramble doesn't help at all or doesn't make sense, and please take care of yourself. <3
5 notes · View notes
tame-a-messenger · 21 days
Note
No offense but what is wrong with that other anon? I wouldn’t even call what we say about not getting damangela “bitter.” We as fans of their dynamic are just sad/upset we don’t get to see them often, that’s very normal in my opinion. If we were setting strikes of not watching any videos unless it has them in it or constantly degrading the channel that would be what’s weird. Also, I think it’s been clarified enough times that we don’t hate Smosh for not putting them in more videos, just disappointed, not with them more the situation. The only thing that comes to mind when making a comparison maybe is when your favorite tv show character starts getting less and less scenes or they get “unalived.” You’ll still watch the show but be a little upset your favorite thing about it no longer really is a thing. And if they end up bringing back the character, you’re filled with excitement and happiness and you can fully enjoy what you’re watching with your all. I don’t wanna speak for everyone but I’m sure that’s how a couple people feel. There’s absolutely NOTHING wrong with that. So anon if you see this, please understand that we’re not doing anything that is harmful at the end of the day. It’s completely fine to miss what you enjoy most and still try to find joy in the other parts of it.
(holy shit this ask is old)(I'm so sorry Anon)
(This ask was during the Drought™ about another Anon that was being rude and saying it was 'weird' that some people were starting to feel a bit bitter about the lack of Damien + Angela)
This is pretty much how I view Smosh content, and just anything on the internet.
I love videos with them in them, but I'll still watch almost everything Smosh puts out!
3 notes · View notes
chaosjester666 · 3 months
Text
Tumblr media
Hah seems like I can actually call the cops on my mother and Karen of a grandmother for what they did to me as a child, no matter what they say
Cause let's be honest, when your ELEMENTRY SCHOOLER child comes up to you to play because the father is in a diffrent state and only gets seen on holidays/school breaks and your reaction is a "later" and when your kid comes back 20min later and asks again and you tell them "later" again and then they come back in an hour to ask only to be told "if you ask one more time I won't play with you at all" and so you have scared the child away from asking only to never play mother or just telling the child a "no" or "I'm busy" when playing FUCKING SOLITAR grandmother and this happens so many times that the child stops asking and even to this day even when board games are bought the child will not ask for fear of being told no
As well as the child only being allowed the TV when their shows are playing which is only in the morning and then promptly being left to entertain themselves despite the fact that multiple teachers has mistaken the child for having adhd/autism and the child being quite bullied and the only friend they will have for the next 3-4 years being toxic but the child can not tell because for once some one actually wants to play with them
And then you give the child a phone so that when they are with the Father (who actually plays and makes an attempt at hanging out) and suddenly the child has access to entertainment at all times and suddenly the phone is the child's only form of entertainment and is the child's only safe space due to the constant reinforcement that they are not allowed to lock themselves away into their room to calm down or for a matter of fact be allowed to be upset with the adults so ofcourse the child gets attached and develops Nomophobia(the fear of being away from one's phone) and becomes overly attached to the internet
And due to the child being constantly ostersized and isolated at school despite informing the parents only for the parents to leave them at the school the child becomes overly attached to people who will actually hang out with the child causing the child to not notice the fact that those "friends" are toxic and manipulative which then causes the child when it goes into middle school to become a slight people pleaser towards friends which only isolates the child further until the child gives up making friends and finally sees that all prior "friends" were toxic and is finally able to see what true friendship is
Not to mention the fact that the child becomes so used to bottling up negative emotions that it worsens the child's anger issues (which only got so bad due to the fact that the parents refused to get the child therapy or actual outlits and would instead cause the child to lash out only to punish the child for having those feelings) and it eventually gets to the point that the child is nolonger able to properly express emotions
Not to mention the child's other traumas of therapists(due to the mother's therapist trying to force the child when it was still in kindergarten-3rd grade to explain why they would cause the mother emotional turmoil despite not hearing the child's side), expressing negative emotions, fear of that if they tell the truth they won't be believed or they will be punished(turning the child into a compulsive liar due to said fear)
And the parents wonder why the child is cold, sarcastic, rude, closed off, 'disrespectful'(how can one be disrespectful when they were never shown what respect truly looks like), untrusting, self isolated from family, emotionally manipulative(subconsciously), a compulsive liar, has severe anger issues, mildly depressed, paranoid, does not go to the parents for help, hides illness until it is so bad the child can not function(only to be called a liar and only wanting to get out of school or for attention), out of touch with feelings, and generally unable to reach out to family about issues. It's all because of the emotional neglect and border line emotion manipulation.
I did not mean to go on a rant about my shitty child hood but then again my parents just got mad at me for wanting to buy a game with my own money and then drawing me into a fight about how I act all while I have a migraine, my head is fuzzy, my face is going numb, I feel like I'm going to hurl, my legs are trying to give out, and I'm overheating so yeaaaaaaaaaaa
2 notes · View notes
petitprincess1 · 1 year
Note
Do you think Stella should or shouldn't be seen as misunderstood and hurt?
Why do I feel like this was sent in annoyance and/or anger? Might just be me. Anyway, just a smol disclaimer:
I can say Stella is a bitch and also wonder about her reasoning for acting this way, as well as knowing more to this, at the same time. They are not mutually exclusive.
(Also, do not worry, anon. I'm not upset with you. I just really wanted to say that.) I've said this before and I'll keep saying, I know a bit more than most people here do because of Viv's Patreon. Which sucks because I really wouldn't mind talking about this, but I won't (unless I can super trust you and I know you). And, yeah, you don't have to believe that I am. That's fine. But I'm not one to like spreading misinfo.
So, trust me, Stella is kind of an asshole. Does that mean she's irredeemable or doesn't deserve to have more development? Of course not. I think everyone is waiting for more development. But some people are just too impatient and would talk about how underdeveloped Stella is rather than.....waiting to see what happens in the next episodes!
Plus, I think what pisses me off the most with most that say Stella is "badly written" or is "hurt" is that we've seen her being abusive BEFORE THE CHEATING HAPPENS! So, what's the reasoning there? Why was she being rude and talking shit about Stolas then? You can't sit here and pretend that people have NO REASON to dislike Stella. Like, really??
Plus, I still think some of them wouldn't be so upset if Stella were a man. Not all, but some. Even then, I doubt anyone would be as vocal saying how hurt Stella is and that the writing is bad...if she were a man. Can you imagine how quickly the internet would call that person a clown? Again, not all of them. Mainly the ones that hated Stolas to begin with.
(Also, no, I don't think Stolas is that much of a victim either. He did cheat, regardless of the reasoning, and should get consequences. Doesn't mean that I can't realize that his reason is a teensy bit more understandable.)
17 notes · View notes
katzirra · 6 months
Text
Aggressively rubs my face, complaining about anything in life feels so tedious compared to what's going on in the world. World events and disasters and genocides and just fucking everything make you feel so small and worthless. Like god damn I feel guilty for thinking how stressed I am because HAHAH COULD BE WORSE, BITCH. WHICH is kind of a weird thing the internet really uh, perpetuates. Which is kinda what people get at when they say take care of your mental health.
Like I'm staying as up to date as I can but it's... wow it's hard to stomach, and it's hard to know what to do when you're in a financial spot lmao... Fucking god damn. Like carrying on like normal is really hard because there's that thought in the back of my mind right now about how upsetting it is realizing so many people can't do that. Will never do that again. It's like tv static in my head lately low key saddening me more and more.
But yaknow that just sounds like I'm complaining about a world event, but it's not. It's just...a profound sadness. Saturating things. I find myself just kinda sitting lately unsure what to be doing that feels... productive in this time. Not really feeling, uh, creative or happy. I dunno. Low simmering fear as well tbh.
That wasn't the topic I was planning to post about uh... FRIVOLOUS UPDATES I GUESS... I USE TO DO THOSE, YEAH? IDK WHO CARES ABOUT MY PERSONAL LIFE THESE DAYS TBH LOL
Taking a break from Xig because I'm just ..out of it and need the expectations off me for a second.
Having anxiety even checking my art blog because people weirdly correcting me/giving me a compliment that's shorter than a correction and making me come off rude telling them I'm not wrong makes me anxious as hell :))) so I end up avoiding my own haunts!!! How fucky is that.
I am almost done with my small sketchbook?? I was fixing a few pages up before hitting a few dried out Copics, which lead to me checking all of them to see who I needed to fix/replace and uh... relocate them in my office. Which became redoing my pen pouches and seeing if those got fucked up. Hopefully I'll finish that and start scanning. 2018-2023... with huge gaps in there lol...
I miss doing art I liked. Its kinda stagnant atm so I might take the rest of the year to do studies on angles and shit tbh. I need something. It all feels same same.
Uhhh figuring out some dental stuff - bought myself a bougie electric toothbrush and I think my old one's timer was fucked up and making me brush too long?? Which is bad!!! So this new one already has my teeth feeling better 👏 mom's genetics have me terrified!! My teeth feel better after two brushes??? insane.
Getting bloodwork done Thursday so hopefully figuring some shit out about my weight and health :))) I'd like to lose the like 20-45lb I mysteriously seemed to gain over the past few years??? Uhhh??? And figure my periods out, money has just been BAD since Hannibal's surgery....
Having panic scares about if my job is going away in December or not and hating every job listing I see online so I gotta look for whatever listing sites exist outside indeed. Also something this decent with the same pay :)))))) so that's on my todo list... again.
Box spring is busted on my bed, so hopefully I don't have to replace the mattress just yet because of the previous point AND THE FACT I JUST STARTED GETTING TO SAVE FOR MY PC..... first world problems but fuck, dudes. Vakarian is fucking suffering sometimes... :(( but we'll see because MATTRESS PRICES.......!!!
I cleaned my office and room and that made me feel like I've accomplished something for myself so that's... something.
Trying to focus on things. Depression cocktail is going on..... money, job, housing, health, the world... it's all so much all the time, man.
4 notes · View notes
divinamour · 1 year
Note
everyone jumping to defend you and make you feel better about yourself either don't know about how you treat people you don't agree with or don't care enough to hold you accountable. look how you responded to a very non-threatening message asking you to treat people better on a website we're all trying to coexist on. being rude, insulting me, telling me to go fuck myself, when all i said was that your actions are harmful to others and you should work on being a better person? protesting too much
Oh, you're serious! Okay. I could address this seriously and in a multitude of ways. That said, I'll address it in four :
First: Don't mention the people I write with, or the people that commented on that post. You're not dealing with them, you're dealing with me. Your beef is with me, keep your focus on me. Diverting from your original goal will only weaken your position and weaken my perception of you as credible.
Second: I responded to your 'non-threatening' message the way I did because I thought it was a goof, and a gaff! When you show up in my house with vague, far-reaching statements about me 'making people feel unsafe' I can only assume you're goofing with me! You haven't even offered any sources of me actively hurting people, making them feel unsafe, or whatever else it was you said I did. I'm not gonna hold you, chief, I immediately erased the bulk of it from my memory after I hit 'Post Now'.
That said, I'll treat your anonymous, cowardly messages with more gravitas going forward because you're not goofing, not gaffing, and are clearly on the hunt for my attention here. I'll give you what you want in the form of my attention, but I can also promise you that I'm not going to magically have a change of heart and 'better' myself because some scared weakling on the internet thinks I need to be nicer to... you know, whomever the fuck I've upset by walking around with my shirt off and my caps lock on.
Third: If my actions were harmful to anyone, they can come tell me face. to. face. Come in my IMs, add me on discord, find my mom on facebook and ask for my phone number (she's given my phone number out to people before, I fucking can't believe her...). You want me to respect you, and not just 'yell at you, and tell you to go fuck yourself'? You're hiding behind a grey circle with sunglasses on, you don't even respect yourself enough to stand behind what you're selling. You're a snake oil salesman for the modern era, and your claim is weaker than ever because of it.
Lastly: I'm still sensing a warm, wet sensation around my genitals that I can ONLY assume is your puckered, pouting mouth. I urge you, nay, I implore you: To get OFF of my dick.
Thank you, and have a blessed day in the embrace of the lord.
7 notes · View notes
its-deputy-caleb · 2 years
Note
Hey just umm why do you like Far Cry 6 so much? 😅 I thought it was terrible and I don't know why you would leave your other fandoms for it
I'm not trying to be mean or rude, just curious thx
Hi anon, I’m just gonna go on a small tangent here so I can explain some things and maybe get some stuff off my chest. Hope this is okay <3 and that people will read this and support or at least understand where I’m coming from
Firstly, I just want to note I’ve always loved Far Cry! It was one of my first proper fandoms I ever wrote for or became a part of. I never really left it and its probably always been and will continue to be my favourite game series. So I just wanna be clear I have never ditched a fandom to write for FC6, I’ve liked Far Cry well before this blog existed.
Secondly, I actually loved Far Cry 6 just as much, if not more than the other games and its quickly become one of my favourite obsessions.
I love the characters so much, I love that there was a character (Dani) to play as with the third person cut scenes and the interactions between characters. I love the missions and the scenery, the photo mode is just amazing and I think the game is gorgeous (along with its characters). The setting in Yara, the scale of the map, the customisation and choices in vehicles/weapons/outfits are some of the things I love as well as Ubisoft’s attempt to be more inclusive with female and queer characters.
And not to mention how cute the amigos are!
I know Far Cry is infamous for its villains— I get it, the Seeds are hot, Pagan is a legend and Vaas and Hoyt are totally insane and everyone, including me loves them. But for me personally, since I didn’t connect w the villain as much this time I ended up loving all the heroes/anti-villains in the game. I have some obvious favourites but I’ve never been bothered by the fact its the good guys that I like more this time. That doesn't mean I found it disappointing at all.
One thing I try to do with all games, but Far Cry especially bc its my favourite, is to not compare it or play with any expectations. FC6 is not the same as FC5 or 4 or 3 and that’s perfectly okay— it’s not supposed to be. I think comparing it to everything we loved about the other games means you’re never going to like it. I know there will always be folks who don’t like it, hell there are games that I didn’t enjoy, and I am mutuals with ppl that love it.
All I want to say is I personally ended up loving 6 because I knew it wasn’t the same as the other games. I just played it for how it is and I loved it. Simple as that.
People should always play games they enjoy and love regardless of popular opinion. If you like the most popular game on the internet rn, that’s awesome! But don’t shame people who enjoy the less popular ones at the same time— I don’t think its fair.
Your opinion and feelings on a game aren’t always shared by everyone— if you didn’t like a game, that’s perfectly okay. Not everyone is going to love it and if you have genuine critiques I also think that it’s great that you picked up on some of the flaws and errors that every game is going to have.
Personally, there are some parts of every game that I dislike more than others— far cry is no exception and I know they all have their weak points but that’s okay! I still love all of them and I adore replaying them again and again.
But its not up to you to tell everyone you hated a game. In doing that, you may ruin or upset it for others. There is always going to be someone, whether they have an online presence or not that really really loved a game you didn’t. Those characters, story-lines and game play are just as special to them, as those comfort characters in a different game are special to you.
Just because a game isn’t to your liking, doesn’t mean you can discredit those folks who love it.
And with that, I know there’s a pocket of people who really loved Far Cry 6 just as much as the rest of the franchise (myself included) and I am more than happy to keep writing for those characters knowing that only a small group will like and reblog because it makes me happy. 
Thirdly, to your final point about leaving fandoms anon.
Personally I don’t really leave fandoms. Just because I don’t interact with content as much or reblog content doesn’t mean I’m not apart of those fandoms— I’m just someone who hyper fixates and I like to focus on one thing at a time (something I’m sure everyone understands)
But there is another layer to it all and I won’t sugar coat it. I am brunt out.
This blog is my happy place, and my safe space to share content w my followers. I open requests because I want to interact with people and I also love writing and feeling validated and connected with others in a fandom.
However, writers and artists alike aren’t here to pump out content. I can’t and shouldn’t have to write fic after fic because its what people want or expect. There is almost a hundred asks in my inbox, and whilst this is okay— lots of them don’t seem interested beyond stating their request without saying much else. 
As a writer it can feel discouraging and lonely even. I love writing but I’m someone that values appreciation and connection over any amount of likes, asks and reblogs. And it’s why I have moved away (not left!!) but moved away from bigger fandoms.
I would honestly rather write for a less popular game with small amounts of mutuals/friends where I feel loved, valued and appreciated than to feel pressured to work on head cannons every day.
My blog has always been my space, my escape, and I will always move to a place where I am happy. Right now, it's Far Cry that makes me feel that way.
Sure, Far Cry 6 is far from perfect but I love it sm and that’s all I’ve wanted this blog to be about— video games that make me happy :)
I hope this answers your curiosities anon, and thank you sm to the folks that took the time to read this ilysm <3 Hopefully everyone can be respectful of my choices. We’re all here to have fun online and to act like adults about it.
35 notes · View notes
wowbright · 2 years
Note
What happened? You okay?
Thanks. I'm okay.
OK. So I tried to write a kind, thoughtful response to this and my phone deleted almost the entire thing. So I'm going to try again, not sure how well I will do.
I had a friend on the Internet. I liked that friend. But it turns out we were probably incompatible. This friend is somebody who seemed to need a lot of external validation. I am a person who is happy to offer support, but if you ask me for my opinion, I am going to be honest. Not to be mean, but because I'm really bad at lying.
Anyway, this person did something that I thought was rude. Initially, I said nothing about it. But this person came to me looking for support. They suspected that I had thought they'd been rude, because I had unfollowed their tumblog, and they asked me about it. They wanted me to tell them that really they hadn't been rude, that what they had done was totally understandable, and that if I had been upset by their behavior, I was wrong to have been upset.
(Keep in mind throughout this whole thing that I am not a mind reader. When I say that this person wanted something or thought something or said something, it's all my perceptions. They likely perceive the situation otherwise.)
Anyway, I did not say or do the things that this person wanted me to say or do. This person felt betrayed. They said they did not feel that they could trust me any longer, and they did not want to continue our friendship. They blocked me on Tumblr, which I wasn't thrilled with, but fine. I am nothing if not loud about people being free to curate their own Tumblr experience, and if this person needed to block me to feel OK on Tumblr? Then that's what they needed to do.
The thing is, it should have ended there. But it didn't. Because, on and off in the weeks/months since, I would get messages from other friends. “so and so seems really angry with you. What happened?” “So and so says you betrayed them/have it out for them, and I want to get your side of the story.” and finally, the one that bewildered me: “so and so says you are stalking them on [other platform].”
first, let me say that whenever this happened, my response was something like, “thanks, I appreciate your concern, here's my side of the story, but also, in the future when this person says negative stuff about me, I'd rather not know about it.” because really. I have enough problems. This world has enough problems. I don't need this on top of it.
Second, the first two questions did not shock me, but the last one? That was a little bewildering. So I did some thinking and maybe I figured it out?
In addition to both being on Tumblr, this person and I are also on at least one other platform. On one of these other platforms, when you log in or have the platform open in your browser, other people who you are “friends” with or in a group with can see that you are there. You don't have to interact with them, you don't have to be checked into the group that you share with them; but if they look, they will see your icon.
So I guess, every time I went to this other platform, this person thought that I was there to see what they were doing?
This is how illiterate I am on this other platform: When I initially signed up, I somehow was able to figure out how to post and reply, but then I went away for a while, and when I came back I couldn't figure out how to do it anymore. I don't know if it was just me forgetting or the platform changing. Anyway, I literally didn't figure out how to do it properly again until last week.
Yesterday, I went into a group where we are both members. I reacted to a noncontroversial, neutral-type post there with a pretty neutral reaction on my part (I think it was a thumbs up or a smiley face?). To be clear, the post was not by this person. I am not stupid. This person blocked me on Tumblr, I'm not going to go try to interact with them directly on other forums.
Anyway, this was the first time I had interacted on that forum in a while, due to just having overcome my platform illiteracy. Sometime later in the day, when I went back to this platform, I noticed that the group where I had reacted had disappeared from my groups. Had the group been shut down? I asked around. Nope. I had been kicked out of this group.
Oh well. Was I miffed to be kicked out of a public forum (because it had been public up until then, hadn't even required an invitation or  an e-mail address to participate) without any warning? Sure, for a while. Hence my flailing of last night.
But look. It’s not going to kill me. It’s an internet forum. Sure, I like chatting and listening on the Internet as much as the next person, but I also survived the first two decades of my life without ever doing that once, so again, it's not going to kill me.
Is it shitty? Yeah, I guess. But honestly, most of the shitty feelings I feel in relationship to this whole debacle are probably my past traumas being dragged up by this, as much as the situation itself.
The 12 step group I used to belong to has a saying: “detach with love.” Here's how I interpret that. Sometimes, people I care about are going to have strong feelings. It's up to me whether I want to share in those feelings or not. Someone can be angry at me, lash out at me, whatever. It's up to me to decide whether that anger is justified. It's up to me to decide whether or not to also be angry at myself.
And it's also up to me whether to be angry back. Like, maybe the initial flood of adrenaline etc. isn't up to me, but the decision to stay in that anger and brooding is up to me.
And I don't want to stay there.
So my focus right now needs to be just about anything but this situation lol. Sure, I can grieve it. But I can’t live in it.
With that in mind, if anyone reading this thinks they know who I'm talking about, I have the same request that I have shared privately with people: Please don't share with me what this person is saying about me unless it is truly a need-to-know situation, e.g. they have doxxed me, they are threatening me in a way that is truly concerning, or, conversely, they have gained a completely different outlook on the situation and want to reconcile.
Thanks.
19 notes · View notes
mickstart · 10 months
Note
hi!
I was reading your blog and I’ve seen the deconstruction burger thing before on the internet, and I do it too, with sandwiches and fruit and pizza and well, everything I eat. I do some things other people post about frequently too, I have hyper-fixations, (I love formula 1 as well) I get upset about certain things that most people don’t and most of everything goes over my head and I don’t love being touched.
But I’m a 22 year old, I feel too old to actually do something about it, people my age don’t get diagnosed with autism really, but sometimes I feel so far behind from everyone and I’ve always felt a bit out of place, my parents and my few friends say I'm quirky or peculiar, but yeah, I don’t know, I don’t even know why I’m sending this. I guess, I thought I would like to know where to begin you know?
I hope I’m not rude or disrespectful.
I loved Without a Hitch by the way, it made my whole year last year!
Thank you and please don’t feel pressured to reply?
Hey! Sorry this took a while I wanted to like, gather my thoughts so I could try and point you in the right direction? First of all, it sounds like you're questioning whether you have autism and for me that meant I sought out a diagnosis. I think before seeking an autism diagnosis it's important to consider why you need or want one. Any reason is fine, there's not a wrong one! If you want answers, some sort of peace with yourself, access to specific support that is gated off, or just to know, it's all good. But it's also important to know that because an autism diagnosis can be so difficult to access, and in some countries and areas even result in a loss of autonomy, it is absolutely not required unless you want or need it. If stim toys or weighted blankets or specific free to access autism information sites like the national autistic society help you, use them.
This isn't to discourage you, more to reassure you that you don't have to like Get A Certificate to relate to autistic experiences and take advice and tips and use them to help your day to day life! But if you do want this question answered then the diagnosis process can be very lengthy for adults depending on where you are in the world. I can only talk about my experience in the UK but it took a year from my first discussion with a doctor to my diagnosis, and that's pretty fast honestly. It absolutely does happen though, don't let your age discourage you. I was 22 when I was diagnosed! (Fuck. That feels like yesterday.)
If you're at university your best bet would be to talk to your mental health team. They fast tracked the diagnosis process for me. I brought it up with the counsellor and I did several questionnaires the main two of which were the autism quotient test and the empathy quotient test (aq and eq) and then when those results indicated autism as highly likely I was sent to my GP with those results to ask for a referral to the autism diagnosis team. (The gp told me there was no adult autism diagnosis team in our area BC GPs can be fucking incompetent so we had to go back and forth a few times telling them how their own damn service works)
If you're not at university and you're in the UK then raising this with your GP is probably your best bet. (not all of them are as useless as mine I promise.) Wherever you are in the world your doctor should be able to tell you how the diagnosis process works there. It can be highly localised. Not every country is using the same diagnosis protocol and not every local authority has the same procedures. If they don't, the aq and the eq are online and you can take them and print them out to go back to the doctor with. They're official screening tools. They can't give you a diagnosis but they can indicate how likely it is that you are autistic.
Honestly my first recommendation would probably be to take them, or at least the aq, if you're curious and want to have an indicator. I had to take them with my mum there to give me an outside perspective, as many questions ask for them so try having a friend or family member with you when you take it if that feels comfortable. Also, if you can, take that person with you to the doctor to advocate for you! Doctors take outsider testimony about autism more seriously in my experience.
This is a lot of information, I'm sorry about that! Grappling with the question of autism and the way it impacts your identity can be frightening and confusing. I highly recommend the national autistic society (UK) website as a more organized source than me that can give you more information and advice on how to proceed if you're questioning.
Sorry for this massive rant. Basically, you are not alone, and you can have answers to these questions. Where there was once a huge confusion and a sense that I just didn't belong on this earth with real humans there is now a comforting knowledge that there is nothing wrong with me.
3 notes · View notes
keysimash · 11 months
Note
Hello!!
I do not want to be bothering or rude, I am just curious if you’ve had time or energy to continue Leave, I still love the story so much and am looking forward to find out how it goes!!
But if not it’s ok, I just hope you have a nice day no matter what!! <3
Short answer , it's not discontinued but idk when I will work on it again. Sorry to be a disappointment
Long answer you probably dont want to read
I hate it. I can't even read it. I like my story, I like the plans I HAVE for the story, I just.... cant read my own writing. And this isn't some kind of compliment fishing either, it's gotten to the point I dont even like getting nice comments about it on my ao3 inbox anymore.
I sit down to work on it and I just... can't. All I can think about is how cringy it sounds ... and how bad it is, etc etc
Logically I know I'm actually a pretty good writer. But all I see when I look at this shit is mistakes.
And I come across in my writing as... way too emotional and earnest? If that makes any sense. I've mentioned I never made a plot outline, that shit is sooo obvious when i read it. And how I changed the plot three or four times. And how I changed the plot every time I got upset.
I used to not give a fuck about appealing to other people when I wrote because I didnt have anyone whose opinion I cared about reading it but now I feel like I have to write it not shittily or I'll disappoint everyone and myself. And I'm not capable of writing it not shittily right now because I would
a) have to build off the disjointed skeleton I've already made that's got plot holes and mischaracterizations
b) start over from scratch
And I can't do it right now! I cant!
I keep thinking about how my best friend told me I shouldn't put vent art on the internet at all. I feel disgusting now almost. Like people that take pics of their cuts and post em. I know shes full of shit but I cant shake the feeling. That it's my fault if I trigger somebody. That by writing anything that isnt a joke or fluff I'm doing something gross and self-masturbatory and harmful. "If you interpret the characters in a way the author didnt want you're just wrong..." that's what she said.. Its kirby and Meta knight and magolor for gods sake. What am I doing trying to make a gritty realistic darkfic... from a kids game.... cringe.... (only me tho. Nobody else counts)
Even my other works for other fandoms, it almost feels like they're on a timer as soon as I post them. I go "I like that, that's good" and post, and then a few days later I'm like "oh . That's shit now" and it has nothing to do with engagement or anything, its just like an arbitrary switch flipped in my brain
The only time I was writing well and writing consistently... was when I was being abused... I feel like I've lost my spark ... because maybe the only time I can make anything good is when I'm under so much emotional pressure I feel like I'm about to snap.... but if that were true I should be writing right now haha.
And I can sit here and know all these things, that when I'm stressed my thought process goes all stupid, that I'm actually a good writer, that I'm not hurting anybody by the fic I post, that writing something shit is better than not writing anything at all, but it doesn't do anything to change how I feel.
But. I did say it's not discontinued, didnt I?
If its stressing me out so much well why dont I delete it, well the answer to that is I HATE HATE HATE when authors delete their good shit.... deep down I know a lot of people love my stories and that they have some worth... that's why I haven't deleted them all...
I love writing, still.... writing for cotl feels less bad than kirby cos.. it feels like its expected to be edgy and dark, so I dont feel bad about what I write until later at least... but I still love to write and create....
I just need some time... I miss writing kirby stuff but I just can't face my own writing. I cant face myself. And it order to start writing again -- I think that's my problem. I would have to forgive myself for not being perfect. I would have to admit that , like my writing , its okay to love myself/my writing even with the manymanymany .flaws.
I can't. Not right now. Maybe later tho
I didnt have that last revelation before. Not until I wrote everything out. When I was trying to explain all my feelings to someone else , I ended up explaining it to myself. This post was long overdue anyway
Sorry
6 notes · View notes
chubbybubby · 2 years
Text
I deleted a reblog of a fat character I like because I went to look on the person's blog again just to browse casually and they actually seem like a bit of a dick
But something they vagued I want to ramble about because I've seen it as a point before. Essentially people draw fat characters, make a point to emphasise in text they're fat and how much they like them being fat, like that's the focal point of the post, and then get upset that a blog with kinks specifically about being attracted to fatness would like it and share it.
Now don't get me wrong, when a real fat person posts a lewd image of themselves that isn't making a point to sexualise their weight and/or they ask for fat kink/fetish blogs not to interact, I totally understand and I think it's important to be careful how you sexualise real people who are fat because you shouldn't just immediately fetishise a real person's existence without their consent. For the record, I don't go around just applying my kinks to real life people unless they're actively engaging with those kinks too.
And to be fair, even with fiction, if someone draws a fat character and makes a note like "fetish blogs DNI" then okay who am I to argue...
But...well, sure my blog indulges in the explicit kinks indulging fatness or weight gain, but I also just think fat bodies are more attractive, and if you draw something that points out the fatness of a character being like a focal point to the art...is it really so surprising to see someone like me also enjoy it?
I've faced internet people making rude comments to me about my kinks in the past, trying to criticise it, blah blah blah, and listen, I get it. I know about the issues that are in the feedism community, I am aware of the more toxic side of things and why people might have a problem - but for the record, I am a fat person myself who, yeah, has some kinks related to eating and gaining, but also just thinks fatness is and can be sexy, and the things that result in being fat can be fun to play around with. Like people will sexualise working out and talk about that being hot, why can't I be silly about someone overeating?
(I don't care how anyone sexualises a fictional character either but I gotta say too I am EXTREMELY tame in terms of these kinks compared to a lot of people out their with similar likings so like chill out a bit, not everyone who likes feeding or weight gain or tummies is on the furthest end of the spectrum)
This isn't really a post to make a grand point or commentary, it's more a specific ramble to exist in this specific void of the internet. I just think it's weird how reactionary people get to see someone like me interact with their work, when especially they haven't made a point for a kink blog to not interact - because yes I won't if there's a note on the art/post. Like yeah I've got this weird little kinky corner of the internet, and you're allowed to be weirded out or uncomfortable by it if that's the case, but I do also just think tummies are neat outside of kink-a-roony-toonies, and I like to see squishy bodies because hello that's what I look like how cool.
Anyway...make vagues if you feel so inclined, I'm not saying you can't complain, I just also wanted to go on a tangent because it's just funny.
4 notes · View notes
danniswrites · 4 days
Text
Tumblr media
Hate Speech Kills
It is time to take #toxicspeech seriously when #onlinegaming and report #bullying when you see it in chat while #gaming. Don't ignore it. You might save a life. #hatespeech is never okay and leads to #abuse.
I included a lot of links, so scan through and find one that interests you, but I hope you will read them all. Bullying and abuse go hand in hand, and if we all speak up, we can make the Internet a less toxic place. Knowing something more about the problem than your encounters with rude people is a good start.
Gamingaddiction is a serious problem among adolescents
https://ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9961121/…
Here is a study on trashtalk and abuse in #worldofwarcraft. Warning, there is bad language from examples given.
Gaming Companies Need to Do More
Please do more to stop this. Gaming should be #safeforwomen Please report abuse in your games! https://tcjournal.org/vol8/jackson/
@blizzardentertainment If enough of us stand up to #bullying we can stop this.
Why I Am Posting About This
I am a 65 year old woman gamer. I play World Of Warcraft among other games. I was in World Of Warcraft Classic Wrath Of The Lich King this morning. Was in a pretty good mood.
I am getting used to a new server. You see, I was on Myzrael, but WOW is coming out with the Classic Cataclysm Expansion this month, and they are consolidating servers. So I got free transfers for all my toons from Myzrael to Atiesh, and my first day on Atiesh was pretty pleasant. After all, the guild that I'm a member of moved there and they are a bunch of really nice people I've known for years.
So, I was moving some things around in my bank when I noticed LookingForGroup chat was getting really raunchy. Someone started spouting obvious hate speech against women, using the phrase Be A Man repeatedly and saying things from tell her she's fat to things I cannot repeat here. I was very upset and still am. I feel that there should be protections for women like me, women who were abused and trigger on things like this. It's not enough to be able to /ignore the person who's talking. It's not enough to get a free addon to mask comments like these from my chat. People like this should be stopped. Bullies run in families, yet they are often admired because they are perceived as strong. Read this article for more info. It's eye-opening.
So, bullying in schools is breeding psychosis in children. Who may grow up to be social problems. It's not just a problem in gaming, but in schools and workplaces. They need #mentalhealth care. And, the problem may push depressed teens into suicide. We need to all stand up and make our voices heard. This is my problem, and I am going to own it and speak up wherever I am online. I hope this post inspires you to do the same.
#hate speech against #Women #minoritiesmatter If you like my graphic, please post it on your social media. Find it on Canva here, this link brings up my free template.
You may alter it in the template. I want to make a difference, and so can you! Photo by Khoa Võ: https://www.pexels.com/photo/unhappy-thoughtful-teen-girl-arms-crossed-in-rainy-day-5430077/ Description for speech readers: Sad woman viewed through rainy window with text: Hate Speech Kills. Report It. Speak Up. Online games should be fun, not traumatic. Report abuse. You might save a life.
0 notes