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just-my-type-x · 1 year

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could you please write about colby and reader where reader falls asleep on colby during a movie night kinda thing where their friends are there too

Late Night In

We all sit in the comfy, red chairs in the movie theater, while Sam, Colby and Nate share the snacks and drinks they brought from the kitchen.

"I can't believe you made all", Colby pauses and moves his hand around the theater where we're all gathered, "watch White Chicks", he laughs and i chuckle, chewing on some sour patch kids.

"And i can't believe this is your favourite movie of all time", Josh turns his head around to talk to me as he's seated in front of me.

"Y'all just expected from me to only watch hot guys on the screen", i shoo them with my hand and start the movie, while Colby dims out the theater lights

"Oh what i'll do for a Chris Evans movie", Kat sighs and we all laugh

"Get out", Sam tells Kat and she throws a popcorn flower at him, making all of us giggle

The movie follows its course and i chuckle like a little kid at almost every scene, feeling great when everyone laughs every now and then. Colby puts his arm over my shoulders and brings me closer, kissing my temple. I inhale his scent and i smile, looking up at him and giving him a quick kiss on the lips. He smiles back at me and i intertwine our fingers together, kissing the back of his hand. I turn my attention back to the screen and laugh loudly along with our friends when the girls try to make some pants fit one of the guys that's disguised as their friend, their struggle and grunting making the scene delicious.

Colby starts playing with my hair as he pays attention to the movie and i make myself comfortable, getting closer to him and resting my head on his shoulder. He kisses the top of my head and holds my hand with his free one, squeezing it gently as a comforting gesture. His fingers twirl strands of hair and move my hair around in a chaotic pattern, but gently enough to make my eyes feel heavy.

The next scenes become blurry one by one, feeling unable to keep my eyes open. I fall asleep soon after and i feel Colby's lips on top of my head and he rests his cheek on my head as he continues watching the guys and girls on their get together at the beach. Sam, Kat, Josh, Seth, Kris and Celina all laugh at what's happening, making Colby shush all of them.

"Can you be a bit more quiet?", Colby asks, smiling. "She's been really tired lately"

"Oh, shit, sorry" Kris says and watches the two of us. "I wasn't prepared for so much cuteness, Colby, why are you doing this to me?", she laughs, the others joining her too

"Oh, look at you two", Seth whispers and Colby chuckles

"I don't know about y'all, but I've already picked a tuxedo for when I'll be your best man", Sam slurps on his white claw

"And i have a dress in mind", Kat doing the same

"I'm so happy to see you all so supportive of us. She's the best girl i could ever ask for and i feel so lucky. Having you all get along so well feels rewarding in a way", Colby's smile makes his cheeks hurt and he caresses my shoulder, while glueing his cheek back to my head

"She's a great match for you, man. You're so much more alive since her, she lit that spark back into you", Sam winks at him and Colby agrees, nodding

"That's so true. I have no words to describe how much i care for her"

"You don't need words, we can see it clearly. Anyone can, actually", Celina points out

The movie finishes and i feel Colby shift in his seat. I raise my head and groan when i realise i fell asleep, leaving everyone else watch a movie that i picked.

"Good morning", Colby jokes and he gets up, holding me by my hands to get up too. I stretch and yawn, picking up the popcorn bowl to take it back to the kitchen. "I'll take it back, you go upstairs and get ready for bed, I'll be there in a minute", i give him a quick kiss while thanking him. I pass by the living room to go upstairs and i see everyone chilling there.

"I'm so sorry i dipped while watching the movie. I know it was my pick, but i hope you at least enjoyed it", i smile in resentment and hug Kat, using her as a pillow until i reach the bedroom. She holds me by my hands and smiles.

"We loved it. Kris actually learned how to make the same voice as the white chicks", Kat says and we all laugh at Kris' attempt to speak like one of the disguised men. "We had a really interesting conversation with Colby, by the way. About you", she whispers so no one could hear us. I frown, waiting for her continuation. "He's crazy about you and he loves you a lot, y/n. Everyone can see it, you're the best thing that happened to him and we're glad to have you as our friend too", she squeezes my hand and we smile at each other.

"Good, because my feelings are the same, i love you guys a lot", i hug her once more and call it a night, bye bye-ing everyone until morning. I get changed in my pj's and get in bed, Colby following a few minutes after. I extend my arms in the air as he gets on the bed and he crawls in my arms, his head on my chest and his arms around me. "I love you, babe", i caress his hair

"I love you too, princess. But sometimes i wish you'd really understand how much i actually love you", he raises his head to look at me

"Oh, i think i know", i smile and he raises an eyebrow, before his eyes grow wide

"Did you hear us in the theatre?"

"Oh, no, Kat spilled everything", i laugh when he rolls his eyes

"I should be careful what i say", he jokes and i hit him playfully

"You better not mess up with me", we both laugh and Colby comes next to me, switching off the lights.

I hope no one got mad at the group of friends i chose

#colby brock #colby brock imagine

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da-proti-toku-grem · 3 months

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for the kiss asks: bonace + 4 (since bojan keeps getting hurt/sick 😅)

First time writing bonace let's go! Hope you like it :3

Send me a Ship and a Number and I will Write a Kiss

4. … where it hurts.

The ping pong game between Bojan and Jure was getting interesting. Bojan had started winning, but Jure quickly caught up and was about to beat him.

Jan was watching the match and counting the points. Basically playing referee so that neither of them complained about the other cheating – although it doesn't seem to be working very well, he thought to himself.

Kris and Nace, meanwhile, were sitting on the sofa near them, trying to have a conversation above the shouting of the others.

It was Jure's turn to serve the ball. If he scored just one more point, he would win the match.

The blond hit the ball agilely, but it seemed to take an unexpected curve, heading straight to Bojan's face.

As is normal for all human beings, our reflex when something is rushing towards our face is to cover ourselves from it. However, Bojan's reflexes were much quicker than his brain, which seemed to forget the fact that he still had the paddle in his hand, hitting himself in the eye with it.

Bojan let out a pained grunt and the room seemed to freeze for a moment.

"Oh shit. Nace!" Jure quickly called him, leaving the paddle on the table and hurrying over.

Before his brain could register what was happening, the singer found himself surrounded by his four bandmates.

"I told you someone was going to get hurt!" exclaimed Kris, but he sounded more worried than angry.

"Sorry, mom," Bojan tried to laugh, but the movement gave him a twinge in the eye.

"Okay, okay, let me take a look," said Nace. "Yeah, it looks like you've given yourself a black eye. Janči, can you get the first aid kit, please?"

As quickly as he could, Jan brought the kit and took out everything Nace needed to clean the wound.

"I don't think it's serious enough to have to cover your eye with a bandage or something, but we need to clean the wound so it doesn't get infected," the bassist spoke again softly. "It's going to be a little uncomfortable, but I promise I'll do it as gently as possible, okay?" Bojan nodded.

"Let's put the stuff away, guys," Kris said, turning to Jan and Jure, who watched intently as Nace gathered the necessary things. They started gathering their things and exiting the room, leaving the other two alone.

Bojan hissed a little at the first contact, but Nace's hand that had been placed on his head, holding his hair back from falling on the wound, kept him grounded.

When Nace finished and removed his hand from his hair so he could put the things away, Bojan couldn't help but miss the contact. He didn't know exactly what it was, but there was something truly warm about Nace's presence that was always so comforting for the singer.

"Do you feel better?" Nace asked then, giving him a soft smile.

"Yeah, th-" he started, but then got an idea. "Actually... Can you kiss it better?" He asked with the best puppy eyes he could – considering he still had a black eye, after all.

Nace chuckled. "Really?"

"...Please?"

"Yeah, okay."

He got a little closer and left a kiss on Bojan's eyelid, really careful not to touch the wound directly.

The younger hummed happily.

"Better?"

"Yes," he smiled. When Nace was about to turn around to grab his things, Bojan spoke up again. "Well... Can I get another one? It still hurts a bit around here."

"Where?" Nace turned to look at him again.

"On my lips," he smiled cheekily.

"You're impossible." Nace rolled his eyes fondly, but he left a tender kiss on the other's lips nonetheless.

"Thank you, Nacko." Bojan kissed his cheek, practically beaming with happiness as he took his jacket and headed out of the room, leaving Nace alone.

He's going to be the death of me.

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#yeah. i took inspiration from that story he posted the other day lol #joker out #bonace #nace jordan #bojan cvjetićanin #the others are also there but i don't want to spam the tags #ask #mine #maca writes #kiss prompts

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shadyruinskryptonite · 5 months

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Titan Bending Chapter 7

Warning: Violence consistent with cannon, NSFW so MDNI, language, major character death (both consistent with canon of both AOT and ATLA as well as diverging from canon), so much trauma literally everyone is so traumatized, very much slow burn, a little enemies to lovers, SO MUCH ANGST, hurt/comfort, hurt and delayed comfort, AFAB reader

Chapter Warnings: fear of horses, graphic depiction of Eren after failed tests (a la S3Ep1 Smoke Signal), death, titans killing people (pretty par for the course but still), loss of entire village, it’s implied that the reader is short (I try not to give these kinds of descriptors so that as many people as possible will identify with it but I’M short and it just fits so well, apologies in advance)

WC: 3967

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When Hange said we’d be taking a field trip, she failed to mention that it meant that the entirety of her and Levi’s squads would be going into hiding at a cabin in the woods. It’s not a bad place to stay, it’s actually rather cozy even if it does mean we’re keeping tight quarters. Tight quarters aren’t all that bad though, it means that I’ve gotten to know each of the kids quite well. They don’t always get along, but it’s more in the family sort of way than like they don’t actually like each other.

Every day they remind me more and more of the Gaang.

“We’ll discuss your complete and utter failure at a later date,” Levi’s voice cuts off my thoughts. “Eren, Hange is anxious to get started on today’s experiment.”

Good, that will give me a chance to clean while they’re all out. I think I’m the only one whose cleaning Levi actually approves of.

My thoughts make me giggle to myself and I notice Levi glance in my direction despite no one else seeming to notice.

God, is there anything that little shit doesn’t notice?

As everyone heads out to the clearing, Krista, or rather, Historia and I stay behind to keep working on the house. As per usual we finish in no time - even the bottoms of the tables and the walls.

“Your cleaning certainly makes up for anything else Captain Levi might not like about you,” Kri- Historia remarks. I laugh at her observation.

“You think so? I don’t know, it seems like he’s always scrutinizing me more than everyone else so I wouldn’t say it completely makes up for it. And besides, it’s like he checks my cleaning more thoroughly like he’s waiting for me to make a mistake,” I lament.

“Honestly, at this point I think he just expects a lot out of you,” Historia counters.

“Oh really? How so?”

“Well,” she begins, “you are able to clean at a level that no one else physically can so you’ve set the bar high there. Then as far as performance goes, your waterbending has proven more than once now to be faster than ODM gear and, frankly, watching you maneuver looks like when I’m watching him so I think he just expects you to perform like him at everything now.”

Her description gives me pause.

Is it really possible that I’ve been reading him wrong? No, right? While sure he may have this arbitrary set of expectations, he surely is also waiting for me to fail. He’s called “Humanity’s Strongest Soldier” so he probably just views me as a threat to that title.

Unaware of my internal dialogue, Historia continues, “plus, you take care of all of us like a mom, which I’m sure he appreciates.”

This catches my attention. “You think? I don’t understand, why would that matter to him?”

She giggles, and I can see why so many of the boys pine after her because it’s truly a beautiful sound. Her little laughter alone makes me smile before she says, “I think he cares about people more than you give him credit for. I’ve seen him hold dying soldiers’ hands and promise not to forget them and when his squad was killed by the Female Titan, he collected all of their Wings of Freedom patches. Rumor has it he keeps those patches in his desk.”

I feel an immense sense of guilt wash over me. I stand there, pensive, lost in my thoughts for a moment.

I wanted to crack him, figure out how he ticks, and I thought I had but it seems I didn’t even try. I can’t believe I was so shallow…

In the distance, Eren’s titan lets out a scream that sounds more like a platypus bear caught in a trap and I swear I can hear Hange shrieking.

“Should we go check it out?” I wonder aloud.

“We might as well, Hange probably wants to work with you too,” she says with a playful elbow to my side. I throw an arm around her in a hug as we head out.

When we get to the clearing, Hange is tearing Eren out of a sickly looking Titan. His face is gone. The sight is repulsive.

Historia goes up to where Levi and Armin are standing, and I head towards Eren and a seemingly livid Hange.

As she spouts off whatever, I hear Moblit accuse her of having no compassion to which I frown.

She just gets carried away.

Walking up to them, I call out “ya know, I know he can heal himself but that looks pretty gnarly so I can try to help. We haven’t tried my healing on him yet.” This seems to perk Hange back up, and she nearly throws the poor kid at me, much to Mikasa’s chagrin.

Instead of going straight for his face, since that’s the worst, I go for something with lower stakes - his arm. As I begin healing he lets out some guttural noise and I stop in my tracks. Not only does it seem like it’s hurting him, but it seems like it’s making it worse as I see the spot now starting to bleed where it didn’t previously.

“Huh! Fascinating! Perhaps try a different spot?” Hange inquires over my shoulder.

“What?! No! Clearly that’s hurting him. He can heal on his own, I just wanted to see if I could speed up the process but clearly that’s not the case so no, I’m not going to torture the poor kid!” At my response, I can see Hange almost get angry with me. Just as she’s about to order me to try again, I speak up saying, “remember our agreement Hang. I won’t do anything that I don’t agree with. And I don’t agree with hurting this boy just because you got carried away with an experiment.”

She comes back to reality and her face immediately takes on a bit of guilt. “I-I’m sorry,” she admits quietly.

I put my hand on her shoulder, catching her off guard, before I say, “It’s alright, everyone knows how into it you get in the moment.” I smile at her before it’s her turn to catch me off guard, capturing me in a tight hug. I smooth down her untamed hair and hear Levi calling from the cliff, stating that he and Hange’s squad were heading back to Trost and for the rest of us to return to the cabin.

I bid Hange a farewell before realizing that everyone besides Historia and I had come here on those horse…things. Eren was in no position to ride alone so he was placed with Mikasa, leaving a horse for Historia.

“I, uh, I’m good walking,” I say while rubbing my neck. All of the kids just stare at me a little.

“Just hop on with someone,” Mikasa says like it’s the easiest thing in the world.

“Oh, no, I wouldn’t want to be a bother,” I say with a nervous chuckle.

“Have you never ridden a horse?!” Connie cajoles.

“No! I’ve never ridden a ‘horse,’” I say in a mocking tone. “I’ve ridden an OSTRICHhorse but those are far less…intimidating.” Eying up one of the horses, I decide that they are, in fact, terrifying.

Now it’s Jean’s turn to tease me. “Ahhh come on, they’re harmless! Plus you won’t even be riding alone!”

“Easy for you to say, you’re already half horse anyway!” I retort, drawing unbridled laughter from all of the kids and making Jean blush.

Sasha approaches me on her horse and I take a step back. She gets down and sweetly says, “I’ve been riding my whole life, if you’re safe with anyone on a horse, it’s me. So, you just get up there first and then I’ll join you. You don’t have to do any of the work, just enjoy the scenery!”

I blink at her for a few moments, but I can tell she’s being completely sincere. “You just wanna get back so we can eat lunch,” I joke and her mouth waters slightly. I continue, “but…I’ll give it a try.”

I put my foot in the stirrup and hoist myself up, clutching the little knobby thing on the saddle as if my life depends on it. Sasha gets back up with ease. She wraps her arms around me to grab the reins and I’m struck by the intimate possibility this has.

“Damn, at least take me on a date first,” I say with a wink over my shoulder at her. Sasha, Historia, and Mikasa laugh, but the boys just chuckle, with seemingly all of them blushing.

Then suddenly we’re riding, and the fear returns and I stiffen up. Over my shoulder, I hear Sasha reassure me, “relax, you’re totally fine. Horses can sense fear.”

“Oh yeah, that’s REAL reassuring.”

It’s a short ride back to the cabin and as we continue, I do start to loosen up. I even go so far as to pat the horse’s neck. At one point Connie and Jean decide to try to make Sasha fuck with me by challenging her to a race and then taking off, and while I can tell she wants to join she refrains.

“Thanks, Sash. I think going full speed would traumatize me.” She just giggles at me.

We soon arrive back at the cabin and when we do, the boys are bickering about who won. I simply roll my eyes and laugh as I feel Sasha slide off of the horse’s back before she helps me down. As I’m walking inside, I hear Jean stop arguing with Connie and call out, “Y/n! Tomorrow: you’re learning how to ride a horse even if it kills you!”

I try and fail to hide my distaste for the idea, thinking that it just might kill me. But, reluctantly, I agree shooting back, “Are you going to be the one to teach me Kirstein? Since you’re more at one with the horses, I mean?” I smirk at him as he stands there sputtering to the sound of Connie’s laughter.

With the departure of Levi and Hange, we had to be extra vigilant on watch. I had one of the earlier shifts along with Mikasa. After we were relieved by Sasha and Jean, we return to find Connie also awake. While Mikasa just stares at him, I can tell something is wrong.

“Can’t sleep?” I inquire softly.

“Uh, yeah, you could say that,” he responds.

I shoo away Mikasa to get some sleep and offer to make him some tea which he happily accepts. We sit in silence for a moment before I ask, “so, do you want to talk about the nightmare or would you rather have a distraction?”

He stares at me surprised for a moment, so I explain, “this isn’t my first rodeo. I’m pretty sure everyone I’ve ever been close with has been plagued by nightmares, myself included.”

He smiles slightly as I can tell he’s pondering what he needs. After a deep sigh, he just softly says, “it was about my village.”

I sit quietly, waiting for him to continue. As he stares at his tea, I cautiously say, “I’m sorry Connie, I don’t know what happened in your village.”

It’s almost as if realization dawns on him, and based on the pain in his eyes I quickly add, “-you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to, bud.”

“No, it’s okay. I didn’t know that you didn’t know but it makes sense,” he begins talking and it’s clear it’s hard for him to talk about, but it also seems like he needs to talk about it. “After Annie attacked and we captured her, there was a supposed breach in the walls. Titans wiped out my entire village, but,” he trails off.

I reach over and put my hand on his shoulder, overwhelmed with sadness and empathy. He takes a deep breath before continuing, “but there’s something strange about it.” I furrow my eyebrows, searching his face and only finding confusion.

“Strange how?”

“Well, there is no evidence that they were eaten by titans. Neighboring villages, yes. It’s clear that titans killed everyone. But mine is like they all just…vanished. And there was this giant titan too. Looked like some kind of hairy beast. Clearly an abnormal. I think it has something to do with it. The weirdest part, and the worst, honestly, is that there’s one titan that seems like it can’t walk just stuck on top of my house. As weird as it sounds, it looks like my mom and I know it sounds crazy but I swear on everything that it talked to me!”

I can only hope my face doesn’t betray me as he’s telling me this, because I AM shocked but I don’t want to freak him out or worry him more.

I muster all of my composure to respond, “I…I’m sorry Connie. I believe you, and I’m sorry that people have made you feel crazy for what you experienced. That sucks, though. I wish there was something more eloquent I could say but it just truly sucks. When tragedies happen, people often say things like “you’ll be okay,” and shit like that, and while that’s true that eventually you will be okay, it doesn’t make the right now any better. So I guess the best I can do for you is recognize that yeah, what you’re going through is unimaginable. And you’re allowed to be sad, angry, confused -- all of it.”

I see his eyes get glassy, and I rub his shoulder again as I pour another cup of tea for the both of us. Not wanting to make him speak before he’s ready, I speak again saying, “ya know, I think you’ve made Ragako very proud. Even though war isn’t a glorious thing, you’re definitely the hero of the village because you’ll keep their memory alive.” I smile as I finish, and by now the tears have spilled over so I pull him into a tight hug.

After we stay like this for a moment, he shakily says, “thank you, y/n.”

I smile again and assure him that he doesn’t have to thank me. “I’m glad you felt comfortable enough with me to tell me.” I chuckle a little before continuing, “and actually, if there’s anyone that even sort of understands what you’re going through, it’s probably me.” His eyebrows furrow so I give him a sad smile and add, “my village was actually attacked by the fire nation about 10 years ago. So, yeah, I don’t get it, but I know the feeling. So if you ever need to talk to someone, I’m always here for you, Connie.” I pause before smiling wider and saying, “plus, I barely sleep so there’s a good chance that I’m awake whenever you might need me.”

“I-I-I’m sorry. I…I had no idea,” he stutters out.

“Oh no, don’t worry about it I know that you didn’t know -- no one here knows that about me, actually. Not even Hange, come to think of it. But no, I didn’t tell you for you to feel sympathy or anything like that, I just wanted you to know that even though this is a unique situation you’re in, you’re not alone.” I patted him on the shoulder and he smiled back at me.

Finishing his cup of tea, Connie yawns and I bid him a goodnight before he has to take his guard shift.

Smiling at our interaction, I finish my own tea and clean up before I slip out unnoticed to get some training in.

It’s probably not my brightest idea to go out on my own right now, but I’ve been fine on my own before so I’ll be fine now.

I return as the sun is rising and slip back in just as I had slipped out, only a few people are awake now.

Jean confronts me, “Where were you?” It almost sounds like he’s trying to scold me like a parent, making me laugh.

I walk up to him and ruffle his hair, which clearly flusters him. “Just getting a workout in, that’s all.”

At our conversation, more people seem to stir. Jean grunts and grumbles out, “just making sure you weren’t trying to skip out on your riding lesson.”

Fuck.

I sigh and exasperatedly say, “are you really going to go through with this?” to which I’m met with all of the kids nodding in excitement.

Huffing, I say, “aight, let’s just get this over with then.”

I can almost feel their excitement in the air, and while I’m putting on an annoyed face, I can’t begrudge them the fun they’re having with this. The joy quickly melts into a dispute about who has the most well-mannered horse for me to practice on. I let them go for a moment before I ultimately made the final decision.

“How about I just use Sasha’s horse since I’m already familiar with it?” I ask.

This starts a new round of bickering about who should be the teacher because “Sasha can’t teach if she’s not on her horse but Jean isn’t a good teacher and…” so on and so forth.

From over my shoulder, I hear an almost imperceptible, “why not Eren or Mikasa’s horses? Since neither of them are here.” I turn and smile at Historia, who made the suggestion. Knowing I’m the only one that heard her, I clap my hands loudly and declare that it’s settled, I’ll ride whomever’s horse is the calmest between Eren and Mikasa.

To make the final decision, I’m given two carrots and told to try to feed them both and whichever one I “vibe” with the best will be who I ride. Sasha shows me how to feed a horse and I’m horrified that it has to be from the palm of my hand.

Connie, getting a kick out of the situation, mocks me and points out, “oh come on, you mean to tell me you’re not afraid of basically ANYTHING but you’re afraid of horses?”

I grit my teeth because I know he’s right. Putting on some fake confidence I approach the horses at the same time, because they’re next to each other.

Damn, even Eren and Mikasa’s HORSES are in love.

They eat simultaneously, but Eren’s seems a bit gentler and nuzzles me a bit which, while terrifying, melts my heart a bit so that’s the horse I choose. Now for getting on it. I didn’t struggle too much since I had gotten on Sasha’s yesterday, but I’m actually putting my feet in the stirrups to ride today and they BARELY reach. I try my hardest to focus on what Sasha and the others are saying about how to hold the reins, but when they tell me to keep my legs straight I can’t help but laugh out loud.

“What option do I have?! My legs are too short for me to have anything BUT straight legs! How the fuck does Levi do this?” Everyone finds this hilarious, and while I wasn’t intentionally making a joke, I have to laugh along with them.

We begin moving at a snail’s pace and after about 20 minutes, I’m gettting the hang of it. Then Sasha suggests we go a bit faster.

“Just bring your heal back and kick right where the leg and stomach meet, it’ll tell her to speed up,” she instructs.

“Oh hey now, let’s not do anything brash,” as I say this, Sasha makes a noise and speeds off. Not a problem in and of itself, but it makes me jump and kick the horse and against my better judgment, we’re now speeding after her. Running towards the woods at break-neck speed, I realize I’ve made a terrible error. Then Sasha is yelling next to me to turn, I hear the kids screaming to turn from behind us, and I pull the left rein hard. We make a tight left turn just before the treeline and as everyone is cheering, I realize this isn’t so bad. Calling at me to pull back on the reins if I want to slow down, I do so and we grind to a trot.

Everyone approaches me, beaming with pride, and I have to admit, “ya know, that wasn’t so bad. I hate to admit it, but I’m glad y’all forced me to do this.”

Returning to the cabin, Sasha and Jean take lookout and the rest of us start prepping our food for the day. I don’t know how much time passes, but eventually out of the corner of my eye I see Eren emerge.

Smiling, I greet him, “well, well, well. Look who’s out of hibernation!” He and Mikasa proceed to argue about him resting when Connie brings up wanting revenge on the Beast Titan. Silence falls over the room before he suggests that he and Mikasa go relieve Sasha and Jean. As the four of them switch off, Historia makes some comment about someone named Ymir and I can tell it’s a sensitive subject. As Eren turns to talk to her, I take some of the vegetables over to a different table to give them privacy. Just as I do, Sasha calls that Hange and Levi are returning and to meet in the main room.

That’s convenient, at least I can keep working while they talk at us.

I remain seated as everyone enters, and although I smile brightly at the sight of Hange I can tell something is very wrong. No one bothers to sit down before she announces that someone named Pastor Nick was murdered.

I’ll have to ask about what the religion is here. I didn’t think they worshiped, well, anything.

Everyone reacts other than Levi, and in an effort to be less judgemental after what Historia had said about him, I fight the urge to judge him.

It’s so hard though when clearly everyone else cared about this man and the little shit has the audacity to stand there without an ounce of care in the world. It’s like someone just told him that taxes are due in a month.

No matter my opinion, no one else seems to care about Levi’s apathy so I decide to let it go as Hange tells us about her theory that he was tortured, and by another branch of the military at that.

I don’t know if I’m happy or disappointed to hear that other governments are just as corrupt as the Earth Kingdom.

“This was my fault, I should’ve been more careful,” Hange laments. Hearing her say this -- hearing her speak without her normal excitement in general -- breaks my heart.

“...how many nails was the good pastor missing?” Levi asks.

Why that little -

“How many? You saw right?”

I’m gonna fu-

“All of the nail beds I saw were empty,” Hange responds, surprise still laced in her voice.

“People who talk, talk after one. If they don’t, ripping off more won’t make a difference.”

Oh. OH. He’s got a good point. Shit, I hate to admit that. But wait, I know how I know that but how does HE know that? God, he could’ve phrased it differently at least, Hange looks like she’s going to cry.

As all of us sit with our own thoughts, a girl that I recognize from Hange’s squad comes in and gives a note to Levi, stating that it’s from Erwin. I don’t know if I imagined it, but I swear there was a flash of worry on Levi’s face before his features shifted ever so slightly into determination. When he speaks, his voice is subtly deeper and sounds more commanding.

“Get your gear, now. We’re leaving. Make it look like we were never here.”

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cozy-kitty-corner · 7 months

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SBI Whumptober day 5 - betrayal + “you really thought I cared about you?” in which Phil… well, he has a very bad day. @goddessoftechnology I’m really freaking proud of this one so I’m showing it off like a cat who leaves mice on your pillow

Philza thudded onto the ground, wheezing. “Kristin?”

The croaking of his voice was agony in his throat, but Kristin mattered more, especially when there was fire licking up the sides of the concrete chunks littering the ground.

Only silence answered, and despite himself, Phil’s wings fluffed up in panic.

(He’d never really been able to hide his care. Especially for her.)

Then, blessedly, a sound. But- it wasn’t Kristin. It was Razor, the lead villain, stepping up into a large rock in front of him. Shit.

Phil pushed himself up, panic shooting through him.

“Where is Lady?” He practically snarled the words, but the villain only chuckled and waved a beckoning hand to somewhere behind the blonde.

Philza’s heart sank as rocks shifted behind him, fearing the worst.

So he was caught completely off guard when his lover Kristin walked into his field of view, completely unharmed and- and obviously smiling under the veil hanging down from her beautiful black hat.

Philza knew his face was horrified under his own veil.

(Maybe he should have expected this. After all, good things never really happen to Phil, especially not when those good things bear the moniker ‘Lady of Death.’)

Kristin moved to stand beside Razor, which- no. This couldn’t be happening.

“Well hello, Philza.” Phil’s blood froze. His heart stopped.

“W-what are you doing, Kris? Why are you there?” He shakily stood, obstinately hiding behind the wall of denial until it was shattered in front of him.

“Oh, you can’t really be that stupid, can you? I’m a villain, Phil.”

No.

No no no no no no no, she couldn’t be! This was Kristin, he knew every one of her tells when she was stressed, he knew her laugh better than any other sound, her smile was practically imprinted onto his brain. Philza knew her.

(He loved her.)

The avian collapsed onto his knees, his wings fluffed up and tucked close to his back in distress.

And it was only then that he realized chirps had begun to spill out of his mouth.

He forced them back enough to speak.

“But- what about everything we did? All the time we spent together? Doesn’t that mean anything to you?” His tone verged on desperation, but he didn’t care. He couldn’t care, not when everything he knew and cared about was being methodically torn to shreds in front of him.

Kristin scoffed, paper thin wings shifting behind her. “You shouldn’t be *this devastated. We were barely friends, why are you-“

“Because I love you!” Phil slapped a hand onto his mouth in horrified shock at the shout that burst out, tearing up his throat.

For a moment, everything was silent.

Then, horribly, Kristin started to laugh.

First it was a giggle, but it quickly escalated into full blown laughter, as she doubled over.

Phil fought the urge to hide from the world behind his wings, only watching as silent tears ran down his face.

Finally, Kristin straightened, out of breath. “You actually *fell in love with me?* I didn’t think my acting was that good, but if I achieved that level, without even trying? Maybe I should have been an actress.”

Phil shrank in on himself slightly, grief flooding his senses.

“Did you really think I cared about you? At all? You’re even more of an idiot than I thought.”

Against his will, a broken sob slipped out, and Philza crumpled the rest of the way onto the ground.

Kristin and Razor only turned and left.

And Phil finally, finally, broke.

Heaving, hiccuping sobs stole away his breath, and tears blurred his vision and streamed down his face.

He curled into the fetal position, and his wings wrapped as tightly around him as possible.

He stayed there until long after the sun had set.

#dream smp #fanfic #dsmp #sbi #sbi fanfic #ao3 writer #writers on tumblr #philza #superhero #superhero au #Kristin Watson #sbi whumptober #whumptober #whump prompt #whump writing #whump #whumpblr

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millenniumdueled · 5 months

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you mentioned a bunch of people you have crushes on the other day. how do you feel about each of them?

mmmmm i'm going to just go in the order i mentioned them in that other answer guess...? which isn't!!! any particular order... um

i've had a crush on téa since middle school, though it took me kind of a while to realize what i was feeling...? she's so beautiful, and smart, and talented, and ambitious. she doesn't take shit from anyone and isn't afraid to speak her mind.... i feel like she's going to be famous some day.

i feel like i definitely don't spend enough time with bakura... i don't really know why not. sometimes i get awkward when it's just the two of us hanging out... probably because i think he's so nice and gentle and i worry i'm dragging him around too much without making sure he's really having fun... he's kind of weird, he likes a lot of dark things, and i can't help but find it really. cute... and his passion for tabletop gaming and rpgs is so endearing...

duke is just kind of um. well. he's really hot?? he's kind of walks the line between "pretty but masculine" and "handsome but effeminate" really, really well. he's also really confident, and he has this whole playboy schtick but he's actually a really sweet, gentle guy... and he's already invented and published his own game even!!! he's passionate about alot of the same hobbies and styles as me... and he's the only guy friend i have here in domino who i know is bi too...

honey is just?? one of the most beautiful people i've ever met, inside and out. she's so generous, and caring, and she has such an amazing smile and laugh.... i feel like.. i could fall in love with her. but she doesn't do relationships, and i can respect that. just being her friend is more than enough, spending time with her is like hanging out with the sun herself...

and joey... is the greatest guy of all time ??? he's my best friend in the entire world (besides my other me, but that's different). he's stayed by my side no matter how bad or weird things got... it's so hard to believe we've only been friends for a couple years. i feel so comfortable and familiar with him, like he's been there my entire life... he makes me laugh and smile so much. he's probably one of the strongest people i've ever met... and he has such a big heart. he's saved my life in so many ways, over and over and over again. i'm just thankful to have a best friend as amazing as him and... that's already more than i could have ever wished for

kris is really attractive too, like wowww.... he's also so generous and really fun. i'm sad his blog disappeared again... he's the only person who's actually beaten me at duel monsters, so he's one of my favorite people to play with :p

oh. boy. i said kaiba too, didn't i. hahahahaaa that's... really embarrassing. well. umm.... i feel like he's come so far since i met him!! i really.. hated him at first. he hurt my grandpa, and he tried to actually? kill my friends...??? but once i realized how much pain he's gone through, and how hard he's worked to give mokuba a good life... i could say i'm proud of him. i'm excited to see what he does with duel monsters next, and i'm excited to duel him again some day. and maybe even just, you know.. hang out again..... the beach party was really fun

and jasper!! i dunno! we aren't super close or anything, but they are.. very attractive... and i'd just kind of like to get a little closer maybe!!

#answers #oh boy this is so long...

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tysonfurybattlepass · 10 months

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Do Lancer! (and Jigen if you want to?)

lancer!!

first impression- oh a Creature of some sort indeed we love to see it

how i feel now- screaming and crying and throwing up and falling down the stairs and wailing because i cant give him a fruit rollup irl life is so fucking cruel and he is just such a good kid i think he deserves lots of snacks and positive words from the people he cares about

favorite moment- i mean he’s objectively the funniest character in the game. all his moments are top tier but i think the one that got me most was the susie fight. it’s not my favorite per se because it was like the second most distressing and upsetting thing to come out of that chapter BUT. it said so much about lancer as a person that he’s so mature and so brave and still refused to hurt anybody because he really fucking believed that if he took enough of the blows from both sides that nobody else would get hurt. shit fucked me up man, he’s too young to have that kind of weight on him.

idea for a story- oh so many. i think, though, that in my “city of the dead” fan chapter, lancer and ralsei would be the main characters because i would love to see them get the spotlight. lancer plays a pivotal role in that narrative because his empathy and genuine nature are what finally allows leo to both be vulnerable and to face the hurt she’s causing on her crusade to liberate her darkner army through the roaring.

unpopular opinion- i am about to be burned at the stake but uhhhhh lets just say 10 to life for spade is on the table in my opinion. i would know, i do combat sports competitively so i’m fully aware of u.s. legislature regarding what constitutes assault and/or battery outside the context of a sanctioned event.

favorite relationship- i mean obv his friendship with susie is so important both narratively and for them as people but i also really like that he and kris seem to be tight too! lets not forget that kris laid down their life for him when it came down to the wire. and now, lancer feels content and safe to hang out with them in their pocket for adventures! i think thats wonderful. weird fluffy ipad cousin

favorite headcanon- buppy lancer my beloved. sorry he is buppouy. even if it turns out the blue hood is actually just his head he’s still pippiy but just with a weird head. also left-handed <3

#i’ll do jigen in a reblog for the sake of ease #deltarune #jordan talks

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ask-the-rpg-3 · 1 year

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Some more not correct quotes

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Mado: Did you just call me a shrimp, you asshole?! I'm still growing, dammit!

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Mado: Are pigeons drones?

Sunny: What? No, I'm trying to sleep.

Mado: Think about it. How come you've never seen a baby pigeon? And why do you never actually see a pigeon nest? Because they're DRONES!

Sunny: *Crying* Please let me sleep...

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Chara: *Takes a sip of milk and gags*

Chara: Oh my god, is this expired?

Chara: *Takes another sip of milk*

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Mado, holding in their laughter: Hey, how do you ask a glass of water what it’s doing?

Sunny: A glass of water is an inanimate object. Therefore, it's incapable of having a thought process or understanding basic human language.

Mado:

Mado: Water you doing?

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Sunny: Why were you up yesterday until 3am?

Kris: How did you know I was up until 3am?

Mado: We could hear you clapping to the FRIENDS intro every 25 minutes.

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Chara: I feel so burnt out.

Mari: Don’t worry, it'll be over soon.

Chara: Are you gonna... assassinate me?

Mari: Well not if you’re expecting it.

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Mari: I know this isn’t going to end well and I don’t care. So don’t you try and stop me, Chara!

Chara: I wasn’t stopping you. I was asking if you had a spare camera so I can record this.

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Sunny: What are you doing here?

Kris: I could ask you the same question.

Sunny: I live here. This is my house.

Kris: I should probably ask you a different question.

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Mado: Let me copy your homework.

Kris: I was gonna copy yours.

Mado: Well, shit.

Kris: Guess I'm not doing it.

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Mado: Treat spiders the way you want to be treated.

Kris: Killed without hesitation.

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Sunny: There's nothing worse than people using big words they don't understand.

Kris: I photosynthesize with this.

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Chara: Given the circumstances, I will let you hug me for four to five seconds.

Mari: Forty five seconds?!?

Chara: No! I said four TO five seconds.

Mari, hugging Chara: Too late.

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Chara: You played me!

Kris: Like the cheap kazoo you are!

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Sunny: Can we go to a haunted house?

Chara: What’s wrong with the one we live in?

Sunny: Wh-what?

Chara: Goodnight, Sunny.

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Mado: Your future self is talking shit about you right now.

Sunny: Jokes on them. I'll ruin their fucking life.

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Sunny: What are you guys doing?

Mado: Like in life in general or-

Chara: Not much. Why, what's up?

Sunny: I dunno, I’m bored playing AC.

Chara: Assassins Creed?

Sunny: Animals Creed.

Mado: Assassins Crossing.

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*Everyone is playing a board game together*

Mado: I will put 'A' down to make 'A'.

Chara: I will add onto your 'A' to make 'AT'.

Kris: I will add onto your 'AT' to make 'RAT'.

Mari: I will add onto your 'RAT' to make 'BIOSTRATAGRAPHIC'.

Kris: *flips the board*

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Kris: Remain CALM! *slaps Mado multiple times*

#sock talk #incorrect quotes

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karamell-sweetz · 2 years

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hey i would love to hear you rant about the balance in utmv and why it sucks

kris you are my sole enabler. thank you.

short version: the balance doesn't make sense and is overused.

long version: below. might wanna strap in, i don't know how long it is...

⚠️ the following statements are all /lh and are not intended to offend anyone. to anyone currently writing/making something involving the balance, please keep going, i'm sure it'll be great! i'm just getting tired of seeing it over and over again (so i decided to start the revolution /j). ⚠️

❗️also, slight tw: slight mentions of sewer slide, slight mentions of body horror❗️

first of all, the whole fgod error thing is okay. it's a cute concept – actually, maybe all of the "error's broken and bleeding bones" and "error flung himself into the void to escape it all" is more disturbing than cute, but you get what i mean – and i will respect this. i'm pretty sure that 'healing what has been broken' was the pioneer for destructivedeath and errormare — and this i can acknowledge! i just want to let people know that i am getting tired of seeing the same thing over and over again... which is why i'm writing a rant.

my first gripe with the balance: it exists. the whole shtick with the balance is that it's a limitation of sorts, a rule of thumb for ink and error to follow when they're doing their little multiversal god things. now tell me: if the multiverse/doodle sphere is a representation of the creative activity of the entire fandom...... why does it have a maximum capacity anyway? technically, new things are being created every single second of every single day, so if they were to come into existence at the same time then i think error would be rendered immobile at this point, according to the lore of the fgod au.

it'd be like: "*clenches soul area* aw crap. ink's making another useless au again *drops onto the floor* aw crap and another one *writhes* why the heck are there so many aughhhhhhh"

this leads to my second gripe: in a lot of these kinds of fics it's shown that ink is the creator of all the universes.

now that's fine and dandy, but canonically ink doesn't create shit.

he's the multiversal protector, meaning that he just makes sure they don't die. it's not like he himself made the characters within them suffer (in fact i'm pretty sure he doesn't really care for the people anyway, so the existence of the council is just. clever but strange), that's our fault because we made the au, not him! so really if we want to make error suffer less then we're going to have to leave the fandom for absolute dead or sth,,,,, which at this point is sort of impossible. (personally, i have been stuck here for around five years now and i always come back no matter how hard i try to leave.)

oh and i know that he can make living things like gaster blasters and stuff, but he's still the multiversal protector so that shouldn't mean that he can make whole aus on the spot. and i also know that this is an au in itself, but this is sort of a really important detail i think? i hope nobody's sleeping on this.

a third, sort of minor gripe: the concept of sides is also really strangely handled. ink's little council thing is fun tbh but everyone's such a shallow bitch and it's frustrating (which is sort of the point ig but it's worse when that's how they're portrayed in EVERY. SINGLE. BALANCE. FIC.) and i know that there are insiders like blue and idk fresh ig...... but this isn't a spy mission? just communicate with the other side? nightmare's gang is the only redeemable thing about this au because their dynamics are so cute (and i'm a murder time trio + cross fan so i just think it's neat), but even they're kinda shallow sometimes. and also (thank you for this one kris) i thought that positivity and negativity were meant to coexist? there's absolutely NO reason, NONE, why the council couldn't just. get the other team into the meeting and talk it out with them?! it's so easy to solve your problems?? just use your tiny pea brains a little??? my frickingh god???? like literally all of this could have been solved if y'all just TALKED for once oml.

and now for my fourth, final, and largest gripe of all: IT'S SO OVERUSED. i'm not even talking about the balance itself, the plotlines for this au are all copypastes too! for example, error having to sit down with ink and tell him about the balance? ink getting upset about his ignorance? heard it at least five times, honey. what next, are they going to go and save the multiverse from your oc character who just so happens to be messing with everything? and maybe you'll become friends...... oR sOmEtHinG mOrE?

(great bricks, if i see the phrase 'friends..... or something more????.??.????' one more time i am going to rip myself apart.)

i will acknowledge that there are some original things out there, but most of the premises are still the same. and in most of these ink and the council are absolute jerks for no reason at all. please. please please please i'm so tired. if i see one more thing about error jumping into the void istg i will jump with him. (sorry i ran out of steam here but you get what i mean right? the balance is everywhere!)

anyway tldr: screw the balance. it doesn't make sense and it's been milked to hell and back.

thanks for your interest in my (maybe unpopular?) opinion. you are free to disagree (or join me in the revolution!)

ps: im sorry this is a long-ish post. i had a shorter version that i put on my wattpad but it didn't sound very persuasive so i wrote this chunky thing.

pps: i might have gotten some things wrong (i've been stuck in rhythm game hell for about six months now) so feel free to correct me about things! (*´-`)

#utmv #karamell yells #screw the balance #undertale au #can't believe my first two posts about my favourite fandom are part of my screw the balance agenda #man.....#if only i had more things to talk about

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memento-morri-writes · 2 years

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Tag Replies for @rose-bookblood

Since I’ve been neglecting your replies, and they’re all in the tags, meaning they won’t show up when I reblog, I decided to put all my replies in one post to avoid spamming you!

Replies (and links to relevant posts) under the cut!

from this post (X)

Yes!! I have a slight addiction to masquerades, so I absolutely needed to include one in ATQH!! (It’s my secret life goal to attend a masquerade ball irl. I have a mask, actually. I juts need to be invited to one.)

It is in my plans that eventually Hermes and Fallon make up, but it might not get shown in the book. They do care about each other, and Fallon never intended to end on bad terms with anyone, but Hermes betrayed her trust and lied to her (even if his lie didn’t hurt anyone), and she already has trust issues. Also, like I mentioned in the snippet, Hermes only revealed his lie because he found out that the lie had more truth than he thought. He found out that rather than being an orphan as he always thought, he actually had a family, or at least a mother. And of course Fallon’s jealous of that, because more than anything she wishes she could have her mother back.

(and ofc, I’ll add you to the taglist right now!!)

From this post (X)

Agh, to hear that my silly little writing made you tear up... that means a lot to me! It means it’s working!! And please do read those excerpts!! There’s actually more than that, and you can find them under the tag “excerpts: atqh” (X), or on my content masterpost (X). There’s also the snippet tag (X) for shorter stuff. I just linked the angsty stuff, lmao. But those are the most fun, right?

(also, you should probably be worried about my plans for Kris. Just because the story is done at this point doesn’t mean it’s all happily-ever-after...)

In reference to this post (X)

Yeppp. Kristopher’s entire family sucks. I just want to punch all of them. (and so does Fallon...) Especially Pierre (his father). Because the main reason his brothers are so shitty is because their father took them under his wing and taught them how to be Class A Assholes.

And, yeah. I also feel really bad for his sister. But, like I said, she’s the only family member Kris invites to the wedding (or even tells about it), and she and Fallon get along like a house on fire, lmao. Kris light-heartedly regrets it, because they get along so well, and it’s a little bit of an “oh fuck, now there’s two of them” situation, cause his sister is also very smart and headstrong like Fallon.

She would totally help Fallon get ready for the wedding, since Fallon doesn’t have any family left, and they’d just chat and it would be really sweet. She would totally wind up telling some embarrassing shit about Kris, lmao. But more importantly, I can totally see her telling Fallon how happy she is to finally see Kris happy and not miserable, and it would just be so cute. Ugh, I’m getting emotional about this.

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THANK YOU for caring so much about my little WIP. ATQH is my passion project, and the loml. It’s been a constant hyperfixation since January, and I can’t wait to see where it goes. Your interest in it means the world to me, and seeing your tags makes me happier than you can possibly imagine, and I hope you continue to enjoy it.

You have my full permission to scream at me over ask, DM, in the tags/reblogs, wherever. I will never, ever be mad at someone for being excited about my WIPs. <3

#Morrigan replies #writeblr love #nice comments #Rose 🌹#wip: atqh #WIP love #(i need a tag for people saying nice shit about my stuff #but idk what it should be #happy tag #?

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babydinojojo · 10 months

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The Monster inside of me

Where do i begin with this. Krisy cheated on me with someone she dated for a weak in real life. What happened next, was crazy. I have never seen ANYONE lose everything in a span of a couple of hours. All i just did was take a ss to the chat and sent it to Brayden, Paola, and Pierce who all hate Kris for their certain reasons. Im just shocked at what transpired in the next two hours. Let's see, the screenshot was sent to the GSA chat, and everyone saw, and Krisy resigned on the spot and then deleted the server, and the boyfriend broke up with her, after their first in real life date BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!

There is so much evidence against her it's not even funny about her being a legit shitty person. I've taken a lot of screenshots of our chats together; I have a shit tone on my phone currently sitting there. Not only that Paola and Brayden have their evidence and there is a chance that it will get sent to her aunt and it can get Krisy in major trouble. Damn, I mean if I'm being honest here, I knew she was cheating but its online relationship so whatever happens is fair game. But what I didn't expect was to end up nuking her reputation over this, she actually lost the ability to be president of the club. But it's really hard to feel bad for her you know, she put herself in this situation and i have a serious feeling that it's about to escalate when school starts back up for them. I mean ngl I have Brayden's, Paola, and Pierce's back incase Krisy tries to start shit, too be honest her i did something extremely dumb and it involves Life360, I actually obtained her location and her uncle's location through it, i mean it is doxing but at the same time it isn't, its wrong nonetheless, I won't be giving it out to anyone if anything. I got more common sense than that to do it.

Well, the past couple of days have been chill i went to the movies with mom and dad and went to outback, but a few days ago I met a girl named V. I know i just got out of a relationship with a cheating partner, but man... She is just... V I don't know what to say about her, she is just so nice, she's just so adorable bro oh my god, like wow... she's just a nice person to be around and to hang out with, she likes stuffies just like me, she has some squish mellows she sleeps with every night 25 of them. That's crazy because i just sleep with the bear facing me. But Jesus Christ that so fucking cute bro. Yesterday we started to ramp up with the flirting, and with some today... we talked about what we would do if we hung out in real life. But yea we chatted and flirted and everything Hehe, gosh this is making me smile, just thinking about her does Hehe. But there is one problem, i need some time to heal after what happened with me and Krisy, and i don't want to rush things with V and Me, I mean yea i have a Crush on V, but at the same time i need to take some time to heal emotionally...

Lately I've been thinking about a sadistic monster growing up inside of me and it is getting angrier and angrier every single day, Krisy was its first victim and rightfully so, it destroyed her status and reputation and her relationship she was only a week in cause her boyfriend or should I say ex-boyfriend legit does not trust her anymore. I legit do not fucking care about Krisy and she can go die for all I care, I hope she... Jordie go away please... Jordie calm down... shit he came out of me again... I don't want to hurt anyone with him please... There has to be another way we can get rid of him... I don't want him here... especially If and ONLY if I date V. I don't want it hurting her... I would never be able to forgive myself if it did...

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galaxybaiibee · 10 months

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Times Are Changing

Monday, June 19th, 2023

A few days ago I found out from my mom that my best friend's mother has uterine cancer. We have been best friends since pre-k literally. That is where we first met. Since then, we have been inseparable up until well she moved to Seminole, Florida and then back to her hometown (Because Seminole, Florida was a place they didn't care for). I am a bit shocked she did not tell me about her mom having cancer. She often calls me a lot. There have been many times I have called her on my own time (Me calling her and not the other way around) and it would just go straight to voicemail. With that being said I have gotten used to her calling me. Most times she calls me and is having a rough day so she will call to vent. I don't think she realizes that I never get to tell her all the shit I deal with because she's always venting to me. Now that she has a kid too, her life is a bit more hectic (phone calls always consist of her sounding stressed). I feel for her but I also feel for me because I never get to tell her much of what is going on or not going on in my life. To be totally honest, I just feel like what's going on or not going on in my life is not of importance to her.

Actually, it seems like everyone has their own lives lately. I don't hear from my sister anymore and I used to hear from her on a regular basis. Then it became here and there and now I just don't hear from her much anymore. Ever since she started working and met her new friend, she has been hanging out with the friend and the friend's significant other. Heck she even went as far as asking me if I were going to be at her house a while the one time I stopped by to give the baby his gift I got home while I was out at Kolh's. I said "Why do you ask?" She said "Because I was going to just go to Marlton real quick." and I said "Oh no Kris...I only came by to give the baby his gift and see you guys real quick." I was enjoying my time holding the baby and he was smiling and smiling and babbling/cooing at me. Unfortunate for me and the baby we couldn't spend more time together. I am going down to the eye doctor to get my glasses and then I am going to stop by her place (granted she'll be home and not running out to get her friend). My mom said to me the other day at Father's Day "Your sister don't even know you exist anymore." That kind of hit home for me. I have been all in my emotions lately since May. Feeling them much deeper. It feels like all of my friends are like too busy to make time to hang, heck even talk. I only hope God will give us a baby(ies). I will need a best friend in the end - I can't do the world alone, God forbid. I don't think my sister is intentionally not messaging - She just has a more fulfilling life. I only hope my persistence in applying to jobs that pay more will pay off for me and my husband's future.

What also hurts too is that my in-laws make me feel like I am nothing...I know it can't be intentional but some things are questionable. It was me who picked out my father-in-law's Father's Day gift. It was a painting of a Formula F1 Racecar. My husband handed it to him and he said "Oh thank you Bri.." I was standing right there too. Like um hello? Whose idea was it to take my parents and his parents on vacation Memorial Day weekend and pay for the house we got to stay in - MINE. His parents do not give me any credit where it is due. They are SO QUICK to point the finger and point the blame to me but never give me credit where it's due. I wasn't surprised his dad only thanked him. Ask me if I care though. As much as I get hurt from all sides, I still want to be around from time to time. You just have to know when enough is enough and to just have your space.

I just found out that my best friend told my sister about her mom having the cancer but not me. I assume she tried to tell me by calling me but there might have been days where I didn't want to take the calls because I was having a rough day mentally. I have been having rougher mental days more than I ever have experienced in my life. I have to take some time for myself just to clear my mind.

I applied to a customer service position in Ramsey and I am hoping to hear back and hope that the company is interested in interviewing me but quite honestly I also just don't want to waste time. It seems like a lot of companies want people to available ASAP (So essentially you have to be out of work). I have a job, but I feel like I could be doing so much more and making much more of my life. I push myself to always better myself. I hope this goes somewhere otherwise I have to just take a back seat and let life be the way it is.

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nightcoremoon · 2 years

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the kardashians were actual children when mommy started dating an olympic star and daddy started supporting uncle sports star in his legal battle about when he killed those people. the limelight destroyed them and kris let it because hey it’s more money and fame. scott gained a bunch of weight from the stress of that stupid fucking tv show and everyone belittled him over it even though khloe wasn’t exactly skinny herself (good job everyone, you perpetuated radical feminism’s double standard against men). kim got a law degree that I’m totally sure she earned through hard work & sacrifice & didn’t just have it handed to her like every single other celebrity with a degree has done (except for people like dexter holland and brian wecht who are literally actually scientists but honestly the offspring and ninjasexparty aren’t celebrities they’re musicians; very very different) and she’s gonna do to north west what her mom did to her, perpetuating the cycle of abuse. doesn’t help that kanye is a fucking freak (even if he turns out to have a mental illness it doesn’t excuse his childishness and actual murder threats like it’s a key and peele sketch except serious). everyone thinks that zoe kravitz is a nightmare with two celeb parents, but lenny is actually a talented (oh wow kanye learned a nonstandard chord progression good for him nobody else has ever done that in the history of rap music, a tribe called quest who???) musician and bonet actually worked at least a day in her life as an actress and not just pretending to be a stupid bimbo with a big ass as people film her walking around a gaudy mansion. I don’t know or care enough about khourtney to say anything negative about her but I’m sure bad shit exists.

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mountmortar · 2 years

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see i have many reasons i think kris and silver would’ve started out absolutely hating each other but i think the main one is that throughout the entirety of the game kris’s love of pokémon is both noted by npcs and expressed by her excitement when it comes to pokémon-related things (via flavor text) and the minute she gets to olivine city she’s confronted with silver saying “boo-hoo! just let sick pokémon go! a pokémon that can't battle is worthless!” and while i can look at this line of text and understand the logic behind it (it’s a very cold way of thinking but it’s logical nonetheless) and understand why silver is saying it (because of the current environment he lives in and the environment he grew up in)—kris can’t. she as the johto protagonist was literally just confronted with the sick miltank on the route leading into olivine and her first action was to help it by feeding it berries. and silver, who made it to olivine city first, was confronted with a sick ampharos and went “lmao fuck that.” like fuck all the insults and shoving he did before i think THIS would be the moment that kris goes “fuck this guy IN PARTICULAR” and starts flat-out hating him. to her that’s just an absolutely horrible thing to say from some jackass she barely knows!!!! and she would be right for thinking as much!!!

#i don't care about anything i'm literally just here to talk about my blorbos from my video game #but anyway. it's kind of why i Can see them getting into actual fights after a pokémonbattle #like cmon they're ten and silver is a jerk and that's really all the ammunition a ten year-old needs to start duking it out w/ someone #but in MY opinion based on the perception of kris i get from the implications in the game #there's no way it ever starts out based on something like 'oh maybe if i'm nice to him. he'll get better :)'#like no first silver gets at least three-quarters of his shit together and starts acting better. THEN the friendship factor comes in #like how he's still shoving her in the rocket hideout but then he's telling her #'you keep at it until then' in victory road and encouraging her when she goes to rematch the indigo league #because at that point he DOES have at least three-quarters of his shit together. and maybe the c #camaraderie (i'm not retyping that whole tag) that begins to grow between them starts there #because they're at a halfway point between being rivals and being friends instead of outright hating each other. yknow #anyway.#you keep at it until then

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mymarifae · 2 years

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like i am so so so so so so so so sick of seeing fanon interpretations of mrs. holiday where like. like.

- she’s an actual piece of shit. she’s hard on noelle, but i can guarantee you it has never once veered into the territory of abuse because rudy would have been out with noelle in tow instantly. being a parent is hard and even when you have your child’s best intentions at heart, you can fuck up and make things weird and complicated and create an air of resentment and that’s not the same thing as abuse i’m so tired

- i thought it was clearer that she pushes noelle the way that she does because she sees noelle’s inner strength, just like queen did. and just like queen, she underestimates noelle’s ability to utilize it. that was supposed to be the takeaway from the whole “Queen functions as a parallel to Mrs. Holiday (while also being very much her own person).” thing. in her mind, she’s just trying to help noelle live to her fullest potential. she’s already lost one daughter; she’s not about to lose another one. she wants to know that noelle can take care of herself, that she has the confidence to take care of herself. she like, already does, but mrs. holiday is wrapped up in expectations and has not seen the way noelle has grown up over the years, and she still treats her like a defenseless child

- but this isn’t an area that just mrs. holiday falls short in. rudy does the same thing. he coddles noelle, which isn’t doing her any favors - and it probably really frustrates mrs. holiday because noelle’s never going to be Capable if he keeps babying her

- in reality, they have both contributed to this kind of, like... self-fulfilling prophecy for how noelle presents herself. yes, she’s naturally kind and shy around people she doesn’t know well, and she’s easily frightened. but for one, she likes scary things. she likes horror movies and like even though kris’s pranks startle her initially, she always responds with a big smile and a hearty laugh. from the way rudy talks about her defenselessness and fear in chapter 1, i don’t think even he is aware of her interest in horror and the way she actively enjoys scary things.

- kids hear the shit their parents - and other adults - say about them. “noelle’s a sweet girl... a little shy, but just give her time.” “noelle’s so polite.” “noelle is a pleasure to have in class. she’s such a hard worker!” “do be careful taking noelle trick-or-treating, okay? you know how skittish she can be.” agreeable noelle, demure noelle, timid noelle, noelle can’t stand up for herself you know, oh dear sweet fainthearted noelle...

- kids hear that shit ^ . those off-hand, thoughtless remarks become an expectation hovering over their heads. they adjust how they behave, subconsciously or consciously or a mixture of both. they internalize, and they repress. noelle is no different. by treating her as a delicate, fragile weak flower, both of her parents have taught noelle to be afraid to express herself more genuinely. would either of them be actually angry with her if she stood up for herself the way she stood up against queen? most definitely not. but noelle doesn’t know that. they’re both just... expecting her to have such a specific personality. it’s hard to go against that.

- parenting gets really complicated. parents won’t always do a perfect job. even the really, really good ones. like look at toriel with kris - toriel is kind of the “perfect mother” and yet she’s making all kinds of mistakes with kris and is actively, unintentionally, contributing to a lot of their problems, like their struggles with imposter syndrome. this doesn’t make her an abuser or a bad person. it just means there’s a disconnect between her and kris and she’s not fully understanding what they need. this happens with teenagers especially. it’s a realistic reflection of the tension that results when the baby you’ve been raising for years wakes up one day and is suddenly no longer a baby, and is instead growing into a brand new person - a stranger. someone you have to get to know all over again

- the holiday family is contending with the trauma of losing dess. she’s been missing for years and has probably been presumed dead (though noelle has not yet lost hope). rudy is sick and is only getting worse. mrs. holiday is the mayor and appears to work tirelessly to keep hometown as safe as fucking possible, so that no one else has to experience the pain of losing a child. it’s no wonder things aren’t exactly hunky dory at the holiday home

- AND ALL OF THAT ASIDE. what’s with the obsession with transphobic mrs. holiday “headcanons” like i 🧍🏾‍♀️ ? man. i get wanting an outlet for like your own experiences but i’m kind of deeply unsettled by shoving transphobia into a world where that isn’t... a thing that occurs. even if you’re doing it based on your own experiences i kind of literally don’t care. can i just exist in my little fantasy world where canonically no one is transphobic in peace for one fucking minute

- and if you ask me she and rudy are a t4t couple anyway wdym she’s transphobic towards noelle she’s a trans woman herself h

#WHATEVER. YOU DON'T FUCKING UNDERTALE MY PAIN #except michelle #i just feel like the people who jump to making mrs. holiday an abuser don't understand what being a parent entails.#not. that i'm a parent and fully understand it myself but after lots of conversations with my own mother who made a TON of mistakes #and was also struggling with things like money and work and severe ptsd after her first very very evil husband #she didn't always get it right! she did the best she knew how to do in those very unfair circumstances. i understand that now that i'm older #and now that i'm also removed from the situation we were in. in the moment i didn't. and tbh..? i also didn't make it any easier on her #it's just like.. parenting isn't a clear cut 'treat your kid like xyz' . it's fucking complicated. yeah sometimes parents are pieces of shit #who don't care about their kids. and sometimes good parents who love their kids so much do shitty things #you aren't obligated to forgive your parents btw. that's not what i'm saying. if they hurt you - even if they are good people - then like #it's up to you whether you want to forgive that or not.WHAT I'M SAYING IS is that the holidays' situation is so nuanced #and jumping to making mrs. holiday an abuser and an evil person feels so wrong. because that is so clearly not the damn case #idk. i appreciate that deltarune makes an effort to have a discussion about these difficult parenting situations. it's a personal thing #it just means a lot and is also what i was trying to capture in berdly and giselle's relationship. it's a topic i always wander back to #sometimes things that look irreparable..can be repaired. and sometimes those reparable things are the ones that can't be #anyway boy i sure do love hiding a secret second essay in the tags of an essay post

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