#Look at her. They give her anxiety!

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

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" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

#kaeyachi randoms #kaeya #kaeya alberich #this is actually shorter than it originally was can yall believe? #kaeya with anxiety truther there i said it #kaeya cant stand being IDLE #get it? get it? #you see that is a play of words in reference to when he is stood idle on our screens. he is one of the more verbally impatient characters #and we also see it reflected on his actions both in fighting and at work. he has a speed boost bonus and if he isnt teleporting he is #actually moving so fast that he seems like it. this is what i also concluded that results him in large amounts of free time that only amber #seemed to be hardpressed about. the people of mondstadt find him reliable and approachable despite the lax attitude and frequent nights at #angels share. we also had lore tidbits before of kaeya straight up saying he finished all his work and jean saying that he also did the #backlogged ones. It is actually insane that we hear him relaxing frequently and i bet its not because of the lack of horses COZ LOOK AT HOW #BUSY THE OTHER CAPTAINS ARE. Also id like to think that he is a toned down noelle and that is why jean told him to watch over her training #give us noelle and kaeya interactions pls i kinda need it tbh #to all those that reached this far into the notes i actually have more to say so get ready #if it wasnt clear the only day he was late was when crepus died. everything fell apart for him that day so i can see some obsessive need to #just keep running around and doing things as efficient as possible. I also think that he found the knights slow and inefficient in several #occasions and he is willing to put them in the line of fire just to get their hearts pumping with adrenaline (and fear lol). idk kaeya is #just so anxiety-coded. impatience-core. Mr. dont waste my time type of guy. and also wow look i found a way to make his idles become angst #silly me ehe #oh youre still here? how about i tell you that kaeya-efficiency-alberich probably knows where everyone is at any time of the day? #can we honestly please give him more free time i need more of him tbh #fun reminder that bro is working around 3-4 jobs casually lmao #i also just realized that the notes is a whole nother post on its own #AND THE ACTUAL FUNNY PART IS I CAN STILL ELABORATE MORE ON THIS LMAO #wait let me add this one tiny idea too but he thinks time is so valuable. bro lost 2 dads and lost time with his bro + he significantly #lessened his time at dawn winery for quite some time. i can see why he is extroverted now.

[thychesters]

Luffy is like staring into the sun.

At least, that is what Zoro thinks the first time he sees him. But then, his first coherent thought had been it’s too bright upon their initial meeting, looking up from glowering down at the ground to raising his head and squinting at a too big, self-congratulatory smile and do you want to join my crew?

Then it had been simple enough to blame the harsh sunlight blinding him, framing Luffy’s profile and that bright grin, and he’d bitten back the hell I will one minute and had a sword and an oath clenched between his teeth in the next.

And so Zoro follows the sun.

He follows and his skin reddens and blisters and peels; it splits at the seams and bleeds as he burns, and still he follows. It aches and cracks, and still he reaches out, twining his fingers through promises and a loyalty that will not bend.

Luffy curls a hand around his jaw and it’s a different sort of burning, flaring up into his eyes and down to his very marrow. And Luffy asks, where will you go? Nowhere, Zoro says as the words gather in his throat, raw and parched, and he chokes on them, anywhere.

His touch is a balm as fingertips skitter across his skin, soothing and pressing and digging and prying, and Zoro thinks he would burn again and again, blinded by the sheer brilliance of it all.

And then it’s dark out on the open sea, some nights, and then others too many stars dot the horizon, gathering up above them like they’re spilling out of the slit open belly of a giant, and Luffy tilts his head, blistering heat where he rests against his shoulder and looks at Zoro and says, I think I know where, and would you come with me?

And Zoro is a drowning man with a lungful of sea water, salt gathering with blood at the corners of his mouth and asks, of course, and where?

Luffy smiles and it’s a gathering of starlight and the sun, and it makes Zoro want to shove his fist into his mouth and shatter every one of his teeth, and Luffy would just laugh and bite down on his wrist and lay claim to his pulse point, like he doesn’t already live inside its every thrum.

No telling, he says. Will you still come with me?

And Zoro burns and it rages in the pit of his belly right into the raw skin of each scar, into his fingertips as they dig into Luffy’s scalp. How dare he have to ask, grin with the knowledge that he already knows the answer, and Zoro turns to follow the sun and says, yes, says I wouldn’t be anywhere else.

#zolu #or however you want to interpret it i suppose! #roronoa zoro #monkey d luffy #one piece #roses are red / violets are blue / i want to set myself on fire when i look at you -- zoro probably #(sanji: ok do NOT say that usopp: stop chopper's turning the infirmary into a burn ward. you're giving him more anxiety than usual.) #the first few lines were originally written for another wip i have but i'm bullying myself into getting further into the story first #since i'm only on episode 135 now but i'm!! impatient!! #so maybe that'll come along eventually! who knows! not me! #i wanted to try something different and write something a little more poetic with them but at the same time #neither of them are poetic at all #like why use 20 words when 5 gets the point across #sometimes love is stored in a burn. or a stab wound. #(well i already used that for that last fic with nami but that was more. her and zoro being bros. it's different here ashfjksdalgs) #pardon the typos rip #and if anyone would like this tagged for anything please let me know #kate writes #**

[dolls-self-ships]

toying with some redesigns AGAIN plus an alastor

tag list 💕 @shiny-self-shipping @menshusband @westiefromtheeast @bat-anon @sunflawyer

#idk I just want them all too look more creepy #like actual demons #seeing everyone’s really cool re designs on tik tok are just scratching my brain right #the more unsettling the better #self shipping #self ship #self insert #hazbin hotel #redesign #hazbin hotel self insert #alastor #also considering giving Charity a third eye that’s covered by her bangs ???? maybe???? aaaidk #I also thought maybe her having future vision would be neat #but idk #like she’s able to see every possible outcome of a situation but can never be sure which one is right so it gives her constant anxiety

[wormshirt]

The Doctor needs one of those classes they give to expecting/hopeful parents but for humans. Get their ass enrolled in a parenting course. And everytime they get a new companion he has to retake the course.

#doctor who #dw #the doctor #inspired by the deleted scene of her just pushing amy out of the tardis doors into space #while amy was having an anxiety attack. YOU CANNOT DO THAT! #they have access to all of time and space the doctor has to be able to find a human parenting/caretaker course #bonus points if he ends up taking one for human children. #imgine youre travelling with the doctor and he leaves and comes back one day and says they enrolled themself in a human management course #and youre like 'oh thank god finally' #and then she just starts bubble wrapping the entire tardis and locking off entire rooms and giving you coloring sheets and stim toys #when you get bored #and starts taking you to like. fucking parks to play with other humans. #and starts carrying like fucking snacks like lunchables and shit everywhere and giving them to you at regular intervals #and you're like 'hey what the fuck.' #and you ask them what the hell they're doing and you find out they were learning to care for human TODDLERS. #and you're like. jesus fucking christ. explains so much. mildly disconcerting how much stayed the same though. #and so obviously you ask 'do you see me as a child?' and the doctor is like. ah. interesting question. #you know what else is interesting. OOOOOOO TELETUBBIES LETS LOOK AT THE TELETUBBIES OOOOOO EDUCATIONAL GAMES OOOO!!!! #LOOK AT THE SMALL HUMAN ON THE SCREEN WHICH PAIR OF SHOES MATCHES THE DRESS??? CHOOSE FAST!!!!!! #this could also open the door for an amazing bit though #where you start doing all of the same things back to the doctor and it works even better on them than it did you. #turn their ass into an ipad kid. they start arguing too much put his ass on minecraft pocket edition. #she just sits there for 1-3 hours. dead silence. you walk over like. 'hey. um. you good.' #no answer. you look ove rher shoulder. she has recreated ancient rome in minecraft in exact replica and is the reigning emperor. #they are roleplaying the roman senate with sheep and villagers. okay. can you please save the world now. please. #this is not to infantilize the doctor. he is old as shit. they are an adult. but by god can they be easily entertained. #not to mention that a key factor of the doctor IS their eternal childishness. #but they ARE a fully grown adult. beyond that even. ancient 'were you alive to see the dinosaurs grandpa?' ass motherfucker. #they are just also a masive loser. who would love minecraft pocket edition and lunchables. probably. who doesn't though. #bangers

[rambler-in-limbo]

does 80 have any hobbies? she is really interesting and i would love to know more about her

If scaling buildings and standing motionless while watching the rabble counts, then I’d say that’s it.

Otherwise I’m not sure what she gets up to. Always staring, that one.

Always watching.

Few doodles and unorganized tidbits about her below the cut.

She’s an anomaly and a half, obscenely tall and possessing the incredible ability to transmogrify her own appearance.

Her most common body-altering change is what I call “weaponized arm hair”, in which hardened spikes protrude from her arms as a defense mechanism. Mostly to ward off the very few threats she faces.

However she’s capable of much more than that, like giving herself new body parts entirely.

She likes music a whole lot. Social events with loud music playing attract her like a moth to a flame. She’ll listen from out of sight.

And maybe dance a little.

#more stuff about her down here that don’t have doodles #her name comes from the TV screen that appears in game when you hurt Peppino 80 times #she Whar and Erm have a thing going on if you catch my cold #the only sound she emits is a faint white noise that you can hear in your head if you make eye contact with her #she does not need to eat or drink but does so because she enjoys it #that feeling you get when you think you’re being watched? it’s her. she’s watching you #it’s like a real affliction she gives off to people she looks at that aren’t looking back at her #anxiety debuff #sorry this is so messy I’m recovering from withdrawal #my art #ask #not goin in main tags bc :agony:

[absurdumsid]

HI SILLY CREATURES ON MY PHONE !! GOOD EVENING !?!!! IM BACK IT WAS FUN IM SORRY I COULDNT BLOG DURING IT (I WAS BUSY.... UM. ADMIRING SOMEONE TEEHEE) ANYWAY !! I WILL PWRHPAS DRAW TOMORROW !?!?!!!!

thats from my calmer playlist lmao i just realised i rarely post songs from those playlists

#was actually very overstimmed at one point and started yelling randomly ermmmmm. that was weird. anyway #had FUN actually it was very fun #surprisingly #sid rambles #wouldnt do it again but that was fun !!!! #the finding out two of my friends had gifts for their dance partners was so very funny to me we just all Had Something to give em #<- mind u two of us have crushes on our dance partners (the other one im not sure hes rlly vague abt it lmao) #so that was fun !! #we all like figured out our own times to give em #I WAS GIVEN. THE OPPORTUNITY TO HELP HER WEAR IT (my gift was a necklace !! insanity) #also we took pictures together #maybe ill show em #but i will be censoring them #maybeeee tomorrow. im tired #and hungry #why am i hungry #probably because im tired #sorry for pining on main #<- implied + tags are very much just me pining #look its not my fault shes pretty. and shakes from performance anxiety. and is so much taller than me. an #ok #too much maybe yea ok yep mhmmm #gnight silly creatures thats all the pining for tonighfhfbcndnd

[goldiipond]

whoah. creature

#skye's doodles #OGH i love her design so so much. skrunkly unlimited #also i got a new pen i kinda prefer my rough pencil lines but the pen looks nice too <3 #also pens give me anxiety because they are permanent. i accidentally smeared her nose and yelled #the owl house #toh #vee noceda

[howdoyousleep3]

i spent my morning at the DMV and it was the absolute worst way to spend my morning, 0/10 do not recommend

#personal #I’m just here to ramble to get it out lol #I got there when it opened and it was a TWO hour wait #my anxiety was already high for some reason it’s been out of control recently #so I’m already just…shaking going in lol #and this woman cuts in line ahead of a huge group of us and I was next so I had to go in and say ‘excuse me we’re all in line too’ #she was so nice but I was so nervous my tone was mean 😭 #we waited in dollar tree #(their fall and Halloween decor is on POINT it’s so cute btw) #oh yeah— we meaning me and the beans lol they were with me #and they were being such troopers right until we went inside since we were waiting outside #I miss my que because of it and the girls are screaming and crying and I have this huge stroller and everyone is so obviously annoyed at me #and THEN I give a bean my keys to try and calm her down and she takes them and #sets off my car alarm #and this woman comes in yelling about my car and I have to say ‘YUP THAT’S ME I’m not going to turn it off I’m almost done here thank you’ #😭😭😭 #and then my picture!! I obviously look like I’m having a mental breakdown in it #I look like a thumb 😭 #but it’s done #I have my new license with my new name #it is done lol #I def went to try car to cry 😭 #I wasn’t mad at the beans though I felt bad for them 🥺 #ANYWAY #Imma go eat a salad because my tummy hurts 😭

[trolls-poppy-specialist]

okay now I need a fic compilation of what were to happen if carmen were to be sick in every episode of the series

like, getting taken by VILE or some team red comfort (especially with the introduction of dadowsan)…

#carmen sandiego #carmen sandeigo netflix #carmen sandeigo #carmen sandeigo 2019 #carmen sandiego 2019 #team red #zack #ivy #player #shadowsan #and team red will give her one #carmen deserves some break time even for a criminal in the run from countries’ law enforcement; ACME and VILE. like how does this lady not #have a compromised immunity from her supposed sleep deprivation and meltdowns from her also supposed PTSD and anxiety #relatable characters 2024 #she’s probably passed out and become delirious from a fever in front of shadowsan #who knows what goes on #team red convincing her to rest but she’s like ‘I have a world to save’ is so relatable 😭 like she’s so caring for others she sometimes #forgets about her own mental wellbeing #maybe shadowsan tries to talk to her about it #i love the idea of shadowsan checking in on her mid mission when she looks sick #and then maybe she’s so off her game that she gets herself a concussion or a twisted or BROKEN body part #then she gets so disappointed in herself but her team’s there for her. they get how traumatised she is and how she doesn’t want anyone to g #through what she did. Especially her old vile teammates; despite having to battle them (and her internal demons) she still deeply cares for #then because they were her support in her teenage years #they’re like ‘it’s okay you’ll save the world someday. we can tell that you tried. sometimes your body needs rest days and this is one’

[eternallovers65]

Jamie Lee Curtis' ability to make me feel nervous, like on the verge of anxiety attack should be studied

#since i was a kid she always had that look at would give anxiety #and now seeing her in the bear is actually nerve wrecking omg #thats a bomb ready to explode #the bear fx #donna berzatto #jamie lee curtis

[aq2003]

my verdict on ark is that dt is like. the only celebrity voice actor in it that is doing a really good job but i forgive it bc the rep is pretty good

#episodes 1 and 6 were the best 2-4 were kind of boring 5 was good for the meiyin content #the art/animation are pretty good (like it's a cut above tlovm/invincible standards) #However i think the characters are a little underutilized. like rockwell especially what the hell is his deal i want his backstory so bad #i also want to know more abt the past connection between rockwell and meiyin. he was part of the rebellion and BETRAYED her #can we delve deeper into that.. that kind of drives me crazy can we see more between these two #also i'd like it if the show focused more on helena's personal struggles and flaws. i LOVE the look into her backstory on earth #like w her wife and her mom. but i'd like to see more of like. how that backstory affects how she views the world #they do this really good w the side characters meiyin especially i just wish . like.!!! helena struggled w anxiety/depression #she was so dependent on victoria for like any sense of stability can we like. See More Of That #can we see her and meiyin be codependent toxic yuri . for me. for fun #overall.. i think it's alright of a show 7/10 i need to see more of it to deliver my verdict fully #cuz in the next time trailer there's bits of rockwell backstory and Please Give It To Me

[iamreadytoforgiveyou]

anyone notice kiawentitio /katara/ in interviews is just idontwanttobehere man that would be me if i were famous.. she be rep the introverts in hollywood i feel bad for that kid talking to strangers when irather not would drive me crazy

#kiawentiio #atla netflix #that poor kid tho she always looks so mentally not wanting to be here vibes with her body language reminds me of my days in school where yo #gotta give reports #as someone with anxiety being a celeb would kill me

[starpros-sunshine]

I love caffeine because headache go poof but also why does the beverage make me sleepy

#like a sedatove #seditve? #sedative. #how do you spell that #sedative? seditivum? is that even the right word? #actually no I need to look that up now #tranquilizer i'll just call it a tranquilizer #It's funny i think because I have a friendish classmate acquaintanceship with anxiety and she doesn't do caffeine after 3pm I think it was #and every time I drink something caffeinated I get a lecturer on how that's bad because caffeeine is evil and makes you nervous #and how it's bad for your nerves and all that #and if she has mercy on me and doesn't give me the lecture I get a critical look or two #and it's fascinating that it seemingy doesn't enter her mind that that is just not the case for me #believe it or not but when your head hurts for about 50% of the time when you're awake and caffeine stops that #then your association with that particular alkaloid isn't stress #and also it just makes me...sleepy is a word but that doesn't really put it right but you know when you're very relaxed #not because you have no stress but because your body just. shut. yanno? #i like that

[vole-mon-amour]

got reminded tlou2 exists, watched that scene with Joel and Ellie where she says she's not sure if she'll be ever to forgive Joel for not letting her die in that hospital, but that she's like to try to forgive him.

still crying as I'm thinking about it.

joel deserved fucking BETTER & it still feels as if Neil just wanted to shock the audience and fuck with the gamers. it wasn't in the game's best interest, but in his own ego. it's so unnecessary brutal & i never ever want to see anything other than the museum chapter again. tlou2 is not really canon for me. first game? yeah. second one? screw that shit.

genuinely wishing to see how many people would choose to kill Abby if there was such an option. good game, my ass.

#the last of us 2 #the last of us #it also makes me think of losing my dad and the complicated relationship that we had #what ellie went through with her grief while dina was also acting kind of like an asshole #don't @ me i don't remember the game much #i hate it and it gives me anxiety #and to force **** on the players #my goodness what a bad choice it is #i would kill her at any given second #anti tlou2 #i look at that grey haired and bearded joel and he feels so cozy and so warm and so lovely #he was supposed to live and live and live #there were many better ways how to execute the ending of the first game #but neil decided he wanted to do it for funzies so the players screamed a lot about it #ugh

[vitamin-zeeth]

Crazy that this haircut has increased my confidence by about a million it's almost like having fun with your appearance and doing what you want with it makes you like yourself more. Idk maybe that's just confirmation bias

#i said yes to a spontaneous event today without thinking guys. i felt like i could actually take doing work and it wouldnt be hell on earth #i talked to people i didn't know after the event and i felt good. i got the phone number of someone i havent seen in 5 years. #i genuinely want to and will follow up with her and keep this going. i didnt suffer anywhere near as much anxiety in general. #i talked to people and i look back on those conversations and don't cringe or wish theyd been different. i felt so much less awkward. #idk man i think i just feel so much more myself its wild how somethinh as simple as a haircut can do that for you #if youre reading this hi this is your sign to get the haircut you want dress the way you want and do hat makes you feel yourself #take the dive its worth it i promise. even if the bleach gives you minor chemical burns on your ears. #wet floor sign

[da-proti-toku-grem]

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#gonna whine and be annoying in the tags again 🙂 #i've only slept like 3 hours total in the past 2 days #i usually don't sleep much but it's getting worse lately and idk why bc i thought it was bc of school but apparently not #i've slept so little that my eyes burn like when you've been crying the whole day #i feel like shit and i don't want to do anything rn #and on top of that i'm omw to the psychiatrist for the first time ever and i have to see her in 10min #and my social anxiety has gotten so much worse lately that i think that i'll cry my eyes out the moment she asks me one question #i probably won't bc i'm so sleep deprived that i don't think i even have the strength to cry #but the fucking pang on my ches and the lump on my throat tell me otherwise #i've become so familiar with these anxiety attacks that i look completely normal rn sitting in the back of the car #so my parents probably think that i'm just texting someone or something when in reality i'm here typing this and thinking that #i want to throw myself out the window 😀👍 #oh and on top of that i'm also on my period bc of course 😀 #i'm wearing my comfort hoodie but i'm wearing it so much lately that atp it's not even giving me comfort :/ #oh well gotta go now...... #venting #maca speaks