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cevansbaby-dove · 4 months

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Loves like the devil part 4

Warnings smut smut and more smut! Enjoy. 🥵

Time skip:two months.

You and chris haven't seen each other in a few months and your missing him badly you miss how he kissed and touched you, how his hands felt like they were all over you.

You even had some dirty dreams of each other hoping one day you'll see him to make them real.

I get home from work when chris texts me.

Chris-Hi princess did you get off from work?

Y/N-Hello handsome, yes i'm home just about to get a shower and wind down for the night

Chris-good to hear um are you sitting down?

Y/N-No...should i be?

Chris-

Y/N-Oh i know that smirk....is it sexy?

Chris-yes and I'm looking for a girl to be in an ad with me for it...how about you?

I sit on the chair with my mouth open. "shit! do i want to know?"

Y/N-Sure when and where?

Chris-LA in a day. See you then sexy.

I smile at his text. "oh shit is it a porn thing!?" i gag. "god i mean...i have had a one night well twice time with him..damn"

I pack for my flight thankfully i am off for three days. I text chris.

Y/N-do i wear jeans and a shirt?

Chris-you can but it won't be on when i see you again. 😏

I giggle and grab this dress and set it out.

I get everything else done then head to bed feeling excited to see chris again.

I wake up and get ready to head to the airport and send chris a text.

Y/N-On my way. 🙂

Chris-see u soon princess.

I smile at his text and then see my bff Lauren texted me.

Lauren-hey bff hope your having a good morning so far talk on my break.

Y/N-Hey bff sorry um im on my way to LA to see Chris he asked me to be in a ad with him....he said it'll be sexy..

Lauren-don't say your going to hook up with him 😒

Y/N-jelly? okay then yes it's a sexy ad like i said i can't wait to see him, oh the plane is taking off talk later love ya.

Lauren-love ya too bff talk later.

i smile and then look out the window and see the sky.

After five hours of being on the flight i land in LA and see a car for me when i grab my stuff. "Miss L/N?" i smile. "Yes that's me" The man opens the door. "i'll be taking you to Mister Evans" i step into the limo and say. "thanks"

The man drives us to what looks like a set wow it's fancy. I step out after the limo is parked. "wow" i look around and hear people talking and Chris say behind me. "Hello Princess"

I turn and smile and take off to his arms. "Hey" i say as i crash into his arms hugging him. "God i can't believe i'm here..with you" Chris kisses my lips softly then pulls away holding the flowers to me. "For my princess"

i take them. "thank you Chris i love them" I kiss him once more and chris says. "Come on this is what i wanted to show you"

We walk into set hand in hand and i look around in awe. "is that the girl Evans?" I look at a man who is with blonde hair and a suit and tie. wow fancy.

Chris talks to him and says. "ready?" i nod. "sure nothing new for me" i say with a wink. Chris laughs lightly and says in my ear. "Once we get to my hotel we'll do more" I bite my lip.

We heard Frank yell action, and we were back into acting mode. Chris kissed me and then I pulled away looking at him. I pushed his jacket off his shoulders as he watched me with dark eyes, the eyes I had seen before, the eyes I loved.

He then ran his hands up my back to the zipper of my dress and unzipped it slowly while the tip of his nose skimmed my neck and his breath on my neck caused goosebumps.

I leaned back giving him access. He slid my dress off my shoulder, and I smiled as he did. I then backed away and sat on the bed as Chris took his shirt off and crawled over top of me removing the dress off of me and I moaned as he did.

He hiked a leg up around him and he looked down at my calf and noticed my tattoo I never had when I was with him. He traced his fingers over the tattoo, and I smiled at him.

Chris started kissing me and I moaned as he was grinding slightly into me, and I arched my back slightly.

He moved his lips down to my neck and I moaned as he did. I then rolled us, so I was on top of him, and he smiled at me.

I leaned down and skimmed my lips along his jawline up to his lips and kissed him again.

I felt his hands grip my ass under the blankets. I flipped my hair as I sat up a little, but I placed my hands on Chris's chest and started grinding on him as he held my ass, and he moaned out. I leaned down and kissed him again.

"AND CUT!" Someone yells. i look at chris and smile. "is that visit still on for me later?' i ask as i get off of him. Chris smiles. "yes"

We do more for the ad and then head to his place. "So..do we have to talk?" i ask leaning on the wall to his bedroom. Chris smirks. "not at all" He picks me up kissing my neck. "hmm chris..." i say as he walks into the bedroom.

He sets me on the bed and says.

"I have missed you." Chris said, I pulled him down to kiss me again. Once our lips broke apart Chris moved his lips to my neck, my shoulder, my chest and down my body.

Once he reached my panties, he hooked his index fingers in the sides and slowly slid them down.

Before I could even think about what he was doing I felt this lips on my clit and I was arching up.

I looked down and caught his eyes, they were dark again. This man only wanted me, I only wanted him. I reached behind me and took my bra off and Chris growled and shit that was hot of him to do.

I started grinding my hips setting a pace with him and he placed a hand on my stomach as his other hand took 2 fingers and slowly inserted them inside me and started swirling them, hitting my g-spot.

"Hmm...fuck don't st...stop" "never my love' he said as he kissed my chest.

"Chris please..." I moaned out and he leaned down and kissed my neck and I spread my legs and he slowly entered me. We both moaned as he bottomed out in me, filling me to the hilt.

I hadn't felt this with anyone since Chris, I never wanted to feel it with anyone but Chris.

Chris started thrusting long and slow thrust as I wrapped my legs around his waist.

I went to put my arms around his neck, but he grabbed my wrists in one of his hands and pinned them above my head and I smiled, he liked to be semi dominate.

"Come on princess, I want you to cover me like you did that first night, all over me." Chris whispered in my ear, and I released all over him and he then released inside of me coating my walls,

I felt him coating me and once he fully released, he leaned down passionately kissed me and rolled off of me.

We rolled to face each other, and I propped myself up and looked at Chris and he did the same.

"So...is was what round...three right?"

"Four, we had it in the shower too after that night" I giggle. "Right i forgot" Chris smiles and touches my face lightly. "I love hearing you laugh. Your like a drug Princess."

I blink. "a good drug?" He nods. "A very veryyy good drug" I lean to him kissing his lips. "let me be in control please master" Chris kisses me back. "hmm i don't know...i don't let many girls be a dom..."

"Chris...please?" i bat my eyes at him.

"aw no no not the puppy dog eyes princess please" I push him on his back then climb on top of him running my hand down his chest. "I won't ask again Mister Evans"

A/n:happy new year you lovely horny girls, hope u enjoyed this.

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#chris evans x reader #chris evans x female reader #handsome daddy #chris evans #chris evans x you #chris evans smut #chris evans fanfiction #Loves Like the devil series

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cloneenthusiast · 1 year

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Despite everything.

#the bad batch #star wars #tbb crosshair #crosshair bad batch #tooka #loth cat #kitten #bird's art #yeah....#everyone deserves to be loved unconditionally #featuring Spits the tooka!! cross's lil devil #also for the sake of characterization #this is a private moment between him and his kitty cat #inspired by a personal experience #not to toot my own horn but I am proud of that second expression #idk if i'll capture it like that again fsghjk #tooka series

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stanperformanceunit · 9 months

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My problem is that I hyperfixate on dramas I really like but then when I finish them I feel empty inside until I find a new to drama to hyperfixate on...

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gunsatthaphan · 5 months

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"I might have to cancel our agreement."

#pit babe #pit babe the series #pit babe ep2 #babe x charlie #pavel naret #pavel phoom #pooh krittin #thai bl #bl drama #why do I like them wtf is wrong with me #i dont recognize myself when im watching this show #dkjhfkd #help #charlie is such a little devil child I love it lmao #also cant believe we have daddy pavel back dkjghf feels surreal

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somnimagus · 1 year

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i come to you with more doodles and yet more special interests to add to my pile

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[Man with Eyes under the cut]

did not have the strength to finish the dmc2... experience... but love that 99% of cutscenes so far were eternity-long silent closeups of him Staring and nothing else

#devil may cry #dmc #the sheer campiness of dmc is so endearing #like 5 seconds into dmc 3 i knew this series was about to permanantly bond itself to my soul and it did #and speaking of being irreversibly changed-#drew these while absolutely jammin to a mashup of devil trigger and love shack by the b-52s. on loop for days in fact #bonus song rec right there #my art #my doodles #fan art

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red-moon-at-night · 11 months

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An Analysis of Haruka’s MVs: Distance and Disability

Hello! I’ve recently fallen down the rabbit hole that is Milgram and I have been itching to make some completely normal and sane analysis posts. My silly alternate title for this was gonna be “Things About Haruka’s MVs That Just Make Sense: A Hyperfixation-fuelled Analysis”, because honestly my autistic brain has been having a field day over here.

I am in awe with just about every single music video in this project; the animation is incredible and each one packs so much carefully laid out information. But I have been rotating Haruka’s in my head constantly since I first watched them, and I have a lot of Thoughts. Not about whether he’s guilty or innocent/forgiven or unforgiven. Not about whether or not I can justify his murders. Just some straight up imagery and symbolism analysis, through the lens of disability.

Haruka’s disability has not been specified, but I am confident we can at least say he is neurodivergent. I feel like the cultural differences in names for several things e.g. ‘learning disability’ vs ‘learning difficulty’ will just invite unnecessary drama, and is a little pedantic. What does matter here is that Haruka's experience as a disabled person is heavily intertwined within his story and his motives.

So, without further ado... let’s get into this!

Trigger warnings/TW: I will be discussing ableism, eugenics and harm towards disabled people. Everything else will be related to the music videos ‘Weakness’ and ‘All Knowing and All Agony’, so any triggering content within them may also be mentioned. Read at your own discretion and stay safe!

Disability: some brief (important) historical context

It is only within the last few decades that those who are disabled have been ‘seen’ for the first time. A modern society is (ideally) expected to be built to include and accommodate for disability, and to acknowledge disabled people’s existence. But for many countries (even the ones making steps outlined above) this is still not the case. For a very, very long time, globally, that has not been the case.

For most disabled people, society makes it very clear that they are a burden to it and are better off not existing.

I’m going to make this section as succinct as possible because...it’s heavy stuff. But it’s important, and I want you all to get the gist of what I’m saying. The weight of it.

Let’s highlight a piece of history regarding IQ and eugenics, surrounding the publication and subsequent worldwide reception of ‘The Kallikak Family: A Study in the Heredity of Feeble-mindedness’ by Henry Herbert Goddard in 1913:

“In 1927, it was used as evidence in the case of Buck v. Bell, which culminated in a Supreme Court ruling that the involuntary sterilization of ‘mentally defective’ persons was not unconstitutional in the United States. By 1938, thirty-three US states had passed laws allowing for the forced sterilization of women with learning disabilities and twenty-nine had made sterilization compulsory for people who were thought to have genetic conditions. Many European countries followed suit: Denmark in 1929, then Norway in 1934, and after that Sweden, Finland, Estonia, Iceland, Czechoslovakia, Yugoslavia, Latvia, Hungary and Turkey.”

— Limburg, J. (2021) Letters To My Weird Sisters: On Autism and Feminism, p. 126

This history of a ‘sterilization law’ includes Japan, who between 1948 and 1996 enacted the Eugenics Protection Law which “authorised the sterilization of people with intellectual disabilities, mental illnesses or hereditary disorders.” According to the government, about 25,000 were sterilized.

SO. It’s important to bring this up. To establish how much disabled people are not wanted, just from their governments. Let alone society. To this day, disabled people are hidden away from the public by families that are ashamed of their existence.

Japanese culture values collectivism, and maintaining the harmony of a group...to the extent of excluding those that don’t fit into the mould. That are different.

The question is: where do they go? The ones that are publicly rejected?

Haruka and The Curious Case of Distant Waters

Okay that’s enough of the heavy real-world stuff! Time to delve into some...*checks notes*...heavy fictional stuff. Fun!

Haruka’s MVs prominently display themes of distance and separation through the motif of water, specifically being submerged underwater.

The name Haruka reinforces this concept as the specific kanji used (遥) translates to ‘distant’, ‘remote’ or ‘far away’. As there are many, many kanji choices for the name (including but not limited to: ocean/sea, eternity/permeance, clear/distinct/obvious, and spring/growth/cherry blossom) it feels like a particularly cruel and intentional choice to go with that one.

Through the exploration of this motif, we can see the extent in which Otherness/the state of being ‘Other’ drives Haruka to great lengths to close the distance and escape it.

What I noticed throughout both MVs (particularly AK&AA but note the beginning scene of Weakness), is that whenever Haruka looks at himself in a reflective surface (e.g. the vanity mirror, the fish tank), water either begins to rise and overwhelms him, or is already there and he appears submerged:

I think this is the “All-Knowing” part of AK&AA. He knows he’s different, and he knows there’s a huge ocean between him and his peers, his family, everyone. A disconnect when trying to listen and understand, but also when trying to be understood by others and listened to himself.

You know when you submerge your head in water, and your hearing gets all muffled and incomprehensible? And have you ever tried speaking underwater? You can’t, because if you open your mouth you’ll drown. It’ll just come out as bubbles rising to the surface.

I also think the bubbles symbolise rising tension, between what he wants and what he currently has. Bubbles are everywhere in these MVs, even in places where they shouldn’t logically be? Such as this scene, following the line “don’t wipe me out, don’t wipe me out”:

Immediately pans up to Haruka gasping for breath, droplets of water rising from...somewhere. For about a split second, and they’re gone.

This boy is really going through it. I’m getting an ‘emerging from the ocean before I drown’ vibe from this one folks. When the line that follows this scene is “I can’t stop, I can’t stop”, what I’m REALLY hearing is “I can’t stop (killing) or I’ll drown”. This is his lifeboat, pulling him out from the depths of being neglected and hidden away, into the spotlight.

Some interesting images from Weakness in relation to that (of spotlights):

Anyways, onto the next point:

Blue to Orange: Water to...Nectar?

So, the orange liquid. It’s clearly representing blood, but I don’t think this is just a “danganronpa pink blood” situation of censoring/getting this video onto youtube without restrictions.

I think it’s most likely honey, specifically nectar.

The etymology of the word nectar shows its compounds translate to “death” and “overcoming”. Nectar is also called the drink of the gods, so it would make sense for it to be a ‘death-defeating’, immortalizing liquid.

For Haruka’s victims to contain nectar is very interesting. It reinforces that necessity to kill, to take the life of another, to sustain himself. To overcome the ‘living death’ he is experiencing by being hidden away from society.

This is his means of escape from drowning.

However, as we all know, things don’t turn out great for him. By the end of AK&AA Haruka is rejected once again by his mother, after which the door is shut (the light with it is gone too) and we’re met with this imagery:

The nectar floods the room, engulfing him much like the water from earlier.

There are many things we could take from this. One being that the nectar-gathering/killing-spree has clouded his vision; it’s so sweet, so sickly sweet and he’s addicted to the taste of attention, even if it’s very bad attention.

Who else has honey imagery in their MV again?

Oh, right.

Anyway, the nectar/honey situation could also be representing submerging into an even further level of distance. All that murder is gonna push people away, despite his motive being to close the gap between him and normal people. The 'ocean’ has lost clarity and become a maddening, delusional substance. After all, there is a type of honey literally called ‘mad honey’ known for its medicinal and hallucinogenic properties.

That’s enough about honey, though. Let’s move onto less unfortunate... oh, sorry, what was that? *checks notes*...Ah, yes. I meant to say, let’s move onto even more unfortunate symbolism:

The Necklace

So, this necklace. Haruka steals it from his mother’s belongings, and is his only material, physical connection to her. It is taken on the declaration of “making (her) love me again” and getting her attention once more, now he is no longer a child but a teenager closer to adulthood (at least, that’s what I consider the ‘shirt with a vest sweater and tie’ to represent. child him = the blue polo, teenager him = this one, adult him = an amalgamation of his teenager clothes).

I wasn’t sure if this was an opal or pearl/mother of pearl, but I’m leaning towards opal from the other depiction of it in Weakness:

Opals are fun because they can symbolise both good luck and bad luck, usually to do with whether it’s your birthstone. There’s something to be said of Haruka’s belief in his ‘misfortune’ and the superstition surrounding these gemstones.

But they are even more interesting for the powers they supposedly have; in medieval times the opal was considered the ‘patron of thieves’ for their ability to grant the wearer invisibility.

There is a deliciously sad irony to Haruka’s theft with that titbit of information.

Now, if this isn’t an opal, and it’s a pearl/mother of pearl there’s still some fun interpretation to be had! A little less sad, even. Pearls invoke strong imagery of the sea, of purity, and of a connection to the maternal. If this is the last thing he has relating to his mother, I can see this necklace representing a lifeline when he’s deep in the ocean. A reminder of why he’s doing all of this killing, and who it’s for.

His mother’s attention (or the idea of having a mother at all, any mother) is his driving force in life.

Speaking of that...

So We Really Need To Talk About That Fish Tank: AKA, Why Haruka’s Mom Wins ‘The Worst Parent of The Year’ Award

This fucking fish tank.

Okay, I’m gonna start by saying: I don’t think this is reading too far into things. When it takes an animation team months, sometimes years to create a 3-5 minute music video, and one as detailed as this...you don’t just wing it. There are storyboards, there are key frames and there are choices made down to the smallest of details.

From the sheer volume of animal/insect/fish décor that resides in the Sakurai household, you bet I’m gonna pay attention to what type of fish are in that fish tank.

For one thing, they live in saltwater. This is a marine tank, aka the harder choice of aquarium to have. I mean, way, WAY harder. For the experienced only.

These fish right here? One is a clownfish, and the other is a yellow boxfish.

Boxfish are a nightmare to keep alive. This article goes into more detail than I will, but all you need to know is: if there was ever a fish out of all the fish you could possibly want in your tank, this is the one to avoid like the plague.

They release deadly toxins when stressed, as a survival instinct. Boom. All your fish are dead. They need to eat a shit ton of food, but are notoriously clumsy swimmers and slow eaters. Boom. Starving, stressed out boxfish. Boxfish either dies from starvation or dies from stress and toxins.

For Haruka’s mom to have not just one of these fuckers, but a tank consisting ONLY OF MULTIPLE BOXFISH AND CLOWNFISH...

This is a high-maintenance tank. And it shows how much time and effort, how much care she puts into the things she loves.

How neglectful she is as a parent of a disabled child in contrast.

There’s something about the last scene between Haruka and his mother that reinforces this for me:

Haruka’s relationship with animals and himself: AKA, “why don’t I just become the damn fish tank?”

Let me backpedal a little bit. This subheading will make sense in a minute.

So, like I said earlier we have a lot of décor in this house relating to insects and fish. We also have a lot of pets. Both living and dead, taxidermized creatures in one household, proudly on display.

I think this may have created some confusion for Haruka regarding the value of animals being alive or dead, as in his perspective his mother values both equally. The fish in a tank may be full of alive creatures, but they’re still on display as if it’s artwork. Isn’t breaking the glass of a framed picture of a fish equal to breaking the glass of a tank with a ‘picture of living fish’?

(This isn’t to say Haruka is clueless to the impact of his actions, nor to justify any harm to animals. I just find the train of thought to be intriguing.)

So when considering these ‘objects’ are proud trophies of his work:

This is a carefully arranged display, which by the way, doesn’t contain a single fish. In fact the only piece of that moment visible here is the...large piece of driftwood? Okay. Keep that in mind.

We proceed into Haruka’s mother opening the door and seeing her son, for the first time in any of the MVs. Note the way they composed this shot:

I’m obsessed with this scene. The blue eye framing Haruka, with a literal fishbowl effect on him...

He is the goddamn fish in the aquarium now. His mother’s full attention is on him and him alone, with only the dead animals, the books, the lamp and the driftwood as window dressing to this wonderful display.

Doesn’t it just scream “Look at me! Look at what I did, mom!” to you?

That blue spotlight is on him once more. He is not just drifting deeper into an endless ocean, but contained in a vessel to be stared at.

One Last Observation

I didn’t know where to fit this in but I think the end feels appropriate.

His clothing here:

Is a frankenstein-esque mash up of clothes from his younger years. He wears this throughout AK&AA, and as I mentioned before it signifies him as an adult. However, I should clarify what I mean here as Haruka says “he thinks he’s 17″ and “doesn’t care about his age”. So... not an adult, but on the cusp of adulthood.

But I think he actually does care about his age, and quite a lot too.

This outfit feels symbolic of refusing to let go of the past, and of himself as a child. He’s literally grown out of his clothing, but he still clings onto it. He’s attached to the past because it not only contains his happiest moments, but the change from being loved to becoming neglected.

As a disabled person, you’re often treated with a lot more forgiveness when you’re younger. That is to say, some people don’t realise that children with disabilities grow up into adults with disabilities. There is a point where even support from medical and social services drops off like a cliff edge once you turn 18.

The ill-fitting clothing in this context becomes more than a reflection on Haruka’s feelings, and extends to reflecting society’s feelings on disabled adults ‘refusing to grow up’.

I don’t blame Haruka for holding onto his childhood like this. He’ll be even less publicly visible and seen once he is no longer a pitiful child, but a ‘weird’ adult in ill-fitting, children’s clothes.

#milgram #haruka sakurai #analysis #weakness #all-knowing and all-agony #symbolism #disability #*drops this onto the fandom like a ton of bricks* hi i'm new here pleasure to meet u #oh man I finally finished it... this is a very (and I mean a VERY) long post asdfghjkl #I'm pretty happy with how it turned out though! I got most of the things I wanted to say and point out down #believe it or not there was actually MORE I could've said but I think tumblr may have crashed on me if I did that lmao #particularly to do with Weakness as I focused more on AK&AA here. but anyways #I love how morally grey everyone is in this series! It makes for some really fun analysis!#it's so so nice seeing a disabled character in such a position too and not just 'is a cinnamon roll' or 'the devil reincarnate' yknow #I debated leaving in the real-world history stuff but I think it sets the tone of my analysis pretty well and shows the importance of--#--haruka's disability not as a justification of his actions but as a vital backdrop to his environment and struggles

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genericpuff · 6 months

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And with that, 2000 years of history and 10+ years of an animated adaption later, Attack on Titan is over.

I wasn't planning on making an essay post about this but like all of my essay posts, it got crazy out of hand, so here we are. I have a lot to say on it and the more I wrote, the more I realized exactly what the Attack on Titan finale was about. It's cathartic. It's also kind of a big shitpost but not for the reasons you might think.

Spoilers for the Attack on Titan finale ahead! CW: DISCUSSION OF WAR AND GENOCIDE AHEAD!

Now for anyone who knows what I'm about to talk about (and anyone who follows my stuff here), I'm sure you're wondering , what side do I fall on in regards to Attack on Titan's ending? Am I about to talk shit about it? It's very divisive and somewhat inconclusive. It followed the exact ending in the manga which, while expected, was still disappointing to many who had hoped the anime would take some other path.

But I have to ask, could there have been any other way?

Eren committed mass genocide, bordering on extinction of the entire human race. There was no way that he was gonna come out of it redeemed or as a hero, and he knew it. He went straight up Walter White core here and like Walter White, he is not a hero.

The fact that the Marlayans have been constantly going to war with other countries using Eldians as their personal soldiers goes to show that for countries that seek out conquest, there's no target too small or insignificant that can't be marked as an "enemy", and we see that reflected in Eren as well, in his pursuing of "freedom", an ever-moving goalpost that can never truly be satisfied.

The Jaegerists were hellbent on creating a new empire on the bloodshed of Marley - 'an eye for an eye', so to speak.

Nothing was ever going to truly satisfy either 'side' in the conflict of humanity vs. Eldians because such conflicts' origins have been obfuscated in hundreds of years of history, propaganda, and generational trauma that has repeated itself for so long that many don't even know what they're fighting for anymore, aside from one thing - that they don't want to suffer, that they shouldn't have to suffer for the actions of their ancestors, that they want peace and happiness but don't know where to start with taking the first step.

I think people are disappointed in this ending because, let's face it, it's anime, and it's an anime adaption that took years to finish. We always want to see some kind of vindication from stories like these, but I think in having vindication, it ultimately removes the point altogether of what's being said.

As much as we may try to fight it, try to deny it, the course of human history travels in a circle. Conflict will always arise. History is written by the victors, and those victors will be seen as heroes by whichever side they're fighting for regardless of what heinous acts they may have committed to justify their salvation. And after all of that conflict, regardless of the result - time goes on, and new conflicts arise.

But I don't think that means we have to succumb to grief and suffering and that's a point that I'm seeing missed in a lot of the discussion around the finale. There's a very powerful scene between Armin and Zeke, in which Armin talks about how he was born to run up the hill with Mikasa and Eren. He recognizes fully that if his life isn't meant to be long, he can still cherish those small moments that he thinks back on fondly, the moments that defined his life with the people he cared about.

And that's really all life is. Small moments and experiences that stick with us until the end. The very act of being born in and of itself is a cosmic miracle that gives us the chance to experience things that bring us joy and stay with us forever - however short or long that 'forever' may be. We take these small moments for granted when we're comfortable, but we look for them the most when we're suffering.

If I can relate all this to another piece of media that says the same thing - albeit with a much brighter ending - FF XIV: Endwalker also asks a similar question to Attack on Titan - is the only meaning in life to suffer and die? Of course, by its end, we learn that while death and suffering is an inevitable part of life - not something that should be avoided - it shouldn't persuade us to give in to fear and despair as a constant state of being. And I think Attack on Titan goes for a very similar approach, albeit slightly more as a cautionary tale - a nihilistic reminder that ultimately, the losses and victories we find in our current point of history are still just that, a single point, a blip that will be forgotten until it's ultimately repeated, and there's no escaping that.

It cautions us that freedom cannot exist without constant vigilance for war and conflict. It cautions us that our values and core beliefs for attaining freedom, love and happiness can be twisted into a weapon to cause harm, vindication gained at the cost of another. It cautions us that when left in the wrong hands, power can and will be abused by the ignorant while propagandizing itself as "the greater good".

So why not just find the joy that we can? The friendships, the little moments, the things that bring us happiness even if only temporary. Conflict is inevitable, suffering is inevitable, but that doesn't mean life isn't worth living. "Happiness" is not a tangible end point - it's the side effect of living a meaningful life that's true to yourself.

Attack on Titan is over. Some will argue the ending was the only way, others will argue that there could have been another way and that the anime adaption had the chance to change it but still didn't for reasons beyond their comprehension.

But isn't that the whole point? We'll argue. We'll bargain. Many of the arguments made will reinforce our own beliefs further rather than sway us. Many of us will insist there had to be another way, just as Armin insisted that this couldn't have been the only way, that humanity must have had another option. Meanwhile, many of us will acknowledge that at the end of the day, this is the story Isayama wanted to tell, and regardless of whether or not it makes him an idiot toying with his audience and admitting defeat by lampshading it in the penultimate scene of Eren admitting to his own idiocy, this was the power given to him and he used it in the best way he knew how.

Much like in any conflict, there's one thing that unites both sides - the human need for joy, connection, and freedom.

We might not agree on how Attack on Titan ended, but we can agree that it was a hell of a ride, and I hope we can all agree that it was worth riding, even if it wasn't satisfying for everyone in the end. It brought many people together regardless of their backgrounds, experiences, and differences, and connected them through something they all loved for over ten years. And despite how big a part of our lives it was, life will still go on, and we'll move on to other things to watch, enjoy, and argue over. Isayama will move on to whatever awaits him next, knowing fully well that his choice was his own, that he created the series he wanted to create regardless of how people feel about it. We'll all look for our own forms of joy and happiness as life moves on around us, as conflicts come and go.

Isn't that really what freedom is at the end of the day?

#also ok i know this turned into a philosophical post but like #i'm still just talking about fucking anime #so please for the love of god i don't want to be seeing anyone using this post as a way to play devil's advocate on real actual war crimes #human conflict in and of itself is an enigmatic inevitability but blatant actions of genocide and colonization are not #and that was made VERY clear by the end of the series through eldians and marlayans putting aside their differences to take out eren #also ymir being in love with king fritz was a bit of a weird thing to do but that's for another post #i think it spoke more to her just being that desperate for connection that she fell into an abusive relationship #but idk it could have been executed better esp because a lot of the 'romance' in AoT is weird #still i really enjoyed the finale tbh and i don't think we're supposed to be left feeling strictly one way about it #the fact that we're arguing over whether or not the finale was good is literally just proving isayama right ngl LOL #attack on titan #attack on titan finale #attack on titan spoilers #shingeki no kyojin #shingeki no kyojin finale #shingeki no kyojin spoilers #essay post #long post #tw genocide #tw war

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dmc-questions-anon · 26 days

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#I adore Dadgil to death and would love to see the more complicated sides of Dante and Nero's relationship explored #but the twins are my favorite dynamic in the whole series #their conflict is what got me interested in DMC #I'd have Vergil and Nero in second place and Dante and Nero in third #Me having a decisive ranking on a poll? More likely than you think.#Devil May Cry #DMC #Dante DMC #Vergil DMC #Nero DMC #Polls

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bonefall · 7 months

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NGL: Stuff like Brambleclaw being a terrible namer is like. really fun but also kinda hits with the 'he;s not some meglomaniacl villain hes just a shitty guy'. like. you could see squirrelflight finding that really endearing. IDK if this is some mastermind shit, or if i'm just reading wayyyyy to into this, but i like how you give characters that are pretty bad dudes very humanising qualities. Especially when they're silly/cute. Kinda reminds you that like. theyre like. a person. well. cat but yknow. and they chose to do bad shit, with influence from their past, rather than being inherently terrible. 👍

YEAH MAN, that's what I'm SAYING

Abusers, ideologues, and other terrible people are not masterminds. They aren't born evil. They're not inherently smart OR stupid. They can love, they can be funny and polite, they do things they believe are justified and want to be good people. They don't think of themselves as villains.

Evil isn't complex. It's really, really not. I feel like that's the #1 cause of confusion when I get a question like, "Why does this person do this malicious act, when it's bad/inconsistent/mean?" The answer is always simple;

They wanted to control someone.

They wanted something and didn't mind who they hurt.

Spite and short-sightedness.

Look for anything deeper and you will not find it. Heroics are complex, being a good person is ongoing and changes over time. We're in a constant state of growing. Malice is childishly simple; it feels good to get what you want.

With Bramblestar especially... it always goes back to what I said here, when talking about the idea of an Evil!Bramble. He's a person, and you ruin everything that's so interesting about him by stripping away that nuance. Squilf and Bramble loved each other, truly, and legitimately. He can be charming. He can be nice. He still hurts her. Reconcile with this.

He is not wiser for what he went through, as a child. His pain doesn't make him better. Man's just a jerk... that's it.

#Sparkpelt deserves that scene from God The Devil and Bob #Where Bob finds out his dad isn't in Hell #And it INFURIATES him #If you haven't seen that scene btw you should. I really love that series #Especially if you're religious OR are like me where you aren't but are still fascinated by more human takes on biblical figures #Btw just... as a side note I am intrigued by how many of my followers are christian. It surprises me? I love you guys tho but like...#I really don't hold back in my critique of hierarchical religion #I'm glad that I am respectful enough to not alienate you guys though #I'm glad you're finding something meaningful too #I am an A-A-A-ATHEIST though with a hard ATH #I just never thought I would have so many religious people following along #OH BTW I hope all my Jewish followers are having a meaningful and somber Yom Kippur*#Bone babble #* = edited I'm an idiot

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hischughes1386 · 15 days

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the devils losing their last game is probably a net positive because it gets them better draft lottery odds but it put me in such a godforsaken foul mood I am so unbelievably over hockey and I hope not to think about it ever again

#I have never been so disheartened by this team #and that’s including the first few games of the devils rangers playoff series #I don’t want to think about hockey for the next year. I’ll rejoin you all for the 25-26 season #i love this team but I hate feeling like this #nj devils #nhl #new jersey devils #devils #hockey #njd

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charmophron · 5 months

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I need like ten essays on luffy's canonical plot armor and how it changes one piece from a very bleak series into a goofy ass shonen and his uncanny luck being due to the nika fruit

kidd and law out there losing limbs and getting lead poisoning meanwhile luffys main character ass is rediscovering mythological sky islands and overthrowing governments

#one piece #monkey d luffy #gear five spoilers #seriously i love the concept of if you remove luffy it's a real depressing series #and like. his good luck is bc of the devil fruit? in series plot armor???

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cevansbaby-dove · 4 months

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Loves like the Devil part 3

Pairing:Chris Evans X Reader

Warnings: this is another smut chapter (not sorry 🤪) So if your under the age of 18 please do not read!

After our shower I'm looking around for my dress. "Chris where is my dress?" He says in the kitchen. "wear one of my shirt princess" I fold my arms over my chest. "no thanks daddy"

I look around the bed. "hmm" Chris brings some coffee and hands me a cup. "Here drink up"

I place my hand on my head. "coffee? ugh i need water" i sit on the bed and chris sets his cup down and says as he digs through his suitcase. "headache?" I nod. "yea"

He pulls out some ibuprofen and hands it to me. "I'll get water" He walks back into the tiny kitchen and gets a glass of water and then walks and sit by me and hands it to me. "here"

I take the water and pop the pill into my mouth then drink water to get it down. "ah much better thanks"

He smiles at me making my heart race. "So when does your flight take off?"

I look over at him. "uh..i think it was noon?" i grab my phone and chris says as he kisses my neck.

"we have time for round three then right?" I bite my lip. "Hmm chris i don't know..." I gasp when his hands moves up my inner thigh. "I bet we could make it quick...and rough."

I giggle. "I need to be able to walk sir" Chris grabs my chin forcing me to look into his blue eyes. "Are you turning me down princess?" I nod. "another time?"

Chris smirks. "come on i said i'll be quick.."

I let my head fall back as chris goes back to kissing my neck. "lay down" he says in his deep boston accent.

I do as he says and Chris pushes my legs apart. "there it is" he says looking at me with a devilish grin.

Chris starts kissing my thigh working his way to my clit, he softly licking my folds but then, he sucks on my clit.

I gasp again, and throw one of my legs over his shoulder without thinking. I moan again, a little louder than before.

He keeps sucking on my clit and licking my folds, getting me really close to my climax already.

He keeps doing that for what feels like hours, until he suddenly inserts one finger into my entrance.

I moan again, still trying to control myself, but it's getting harder and harder to keep quiet.

Before I know it, he pushes another finger in. "Oh God..." I whisper underneath my breath, rolling my eyes back and arching my back.

He starts to move his fingers in and out of me, in a perfect pace, still sucking on my clit. I don't want to orgasm yet, I really want to cum when he's inside of me himself.

"Chris... I-I'm really c-close..." I stutter, still underneath my breath. He doesn't respond, and starts picking up a faster pace. "I-I can't h-hold it any l-longer" I add, a little louder this time.

"not yet princess not yet!" he says as he stands up removing his fingers.

Chris discards his boxers and lines up. "you ok?" I nod looking at him. "Yes daddy please...i need you so badly"

He kisses me hard and then pulls away from the kiss and says. "you ready?" I nod. He says. "I need your words princess please"

"yes daddy i'm ready please..."

Chris slides into me thankfully it's not painful being that i was already wet from his fingers.

He moves at a slow pace as he kisses my neck. "fuck you feel so good around me"

I moan. "hm chris let me..cum please fuck" He moves a bit faster making me yelp. "what was that!?"

He stops. "did i hurt you?" I shake my head placing my hands on his chest. "No i'm ok keep going please" He moves again but much faster. "Shit y/n not going to last...long"

I moan out loud again, placing one of my hands in his hair again while the other one scratches over his back. I feel Chris's cum filling me up at the exact same time.

He growls, and God, it's hot. we ride out our high before chris pulls out kissing my forehead. "god i'll miss you"

I say as i try to catch my breath. "Maybe we can see each other sometime soon...god that felt good"

Chris smiles. "oh yea? Well i'll give you my number so if i come to Orlando we can meet up there"

I nod sitting up. "that would be great!"

Half an hour later i get my things and walk out of his hotel room.

My heels hit the floor as i walk out of Chris's hotel room. "oh god i feel like I'm dreaming" I say as i walk to my car and drive away. "Did i just have a one night stand with Evans?! wow!"

i look at my phone and see my bff calling me. "shit!" I pick up. 'uh morning bff"

"hey was getting worried when you didn't text me when i got home everything ok?"

"yes all good just driving back to the airport then it's back to Orlando for me, by the way thank you for letting me drag you along to the con! it was so much fun being able to meet you again"

"aww! bff you're welcome! i am glad we went it was fun being with my bff is always fun, oh did you go see Chris?"

I nod as i drive. "uh uh.." I smirk. "He's super sweet bff pure heart of gold for him."

"that's all? you two just talked all night?"

I bite my lip. "uh..maybe we did more than talk..."

I hear Lauren gasp. "WHAT ARE U TRYING TO TELL ME BFF!"

I laugh. "chilax bff um...we i mean chris and i might have had a one night stand.."

She screams. "NO WAY! YOU HAD A ONE NIGHT- oh my god why would you do that!?!"

"What!? Bff come on it just happened...."

She sighs. "i know but...you couldn't tell him no?"

"My god Lauren if i knew you were going to be like this i wouldn't have told you!"

"hey bff dont' be mad at me please i'm sorry i just asked why...I'm sorry"

I i frown and turn into the parking lot. "bff i'll call you later i have to get on my flight, love ya."

"ok bff you better tell me more wow! love ya too talk later and bff i didn't mean to be upset i still love you"

"i know Bff it's all good talk later."

"Okay Later"

I smile and hang up and get to the plane.

three hours later i arrive in my hometown of Orlando Florida! I grab a taxi to my apartment and see i got a text from chris.

Chris: Hey princess did you get home safe?

Y/n:Hi daddy yes i got home safe

Chris:good girl oh i have a pic that made me think of you...

Chris:

y/n:Aww!! I love that! thanks daddy 🥰

Chris:you're welcome princess anyway we can chat another time it's what six pm?

Y/n:yes it's kind of late but i have work in two hours so i have to get ready for that.

Chris:ok talk another time then have a good night.

Y/n:Goodnight daddy.

You get ready for work and then head into the ER and start your shift, man meeting evans sure has made something about you different, what could it be?

a/n Was it really a one time thing with him? or will you two end up more than fuck buddies? part 4 will have what your looking for very soon.

Taglist:@cutedisneygrl @nicoline1998enilocin @armystay89 @patzammit @k-slla

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First of all Willi is gorgeous.

And now to my little ramble... it's the eye contact for me and the parted lips and the small eyebrow raise which you can barely see but I see it all too well! The way he dropped his gaze to his lips... He looks hazed and and lost in Focuses eyes or actually his presence, he is so I love with Focus and you can really see even if they have like 2 minutes of screen time all together

Focus not breaking the eye contact while having the biggest smile on his face. Tell me you are whipped without telling me you are whipped... and that small and slow blink... I can't do this

I know that Willi can kiss but I still had to pause when he kissed Focus because damn boy... I never kissed anyone so I won't talk about kisses much but that FELT deep! If I'm being honest Willi probably has one of the best kisses in Thao bl industry I said what I said

Between that hand that was on Focuses neck that moved to his leg and that other hand on his back I don't know which one is driving me more insane... Or perhaps it's the the fact that Focus is actually sitting on his lap??? Or or the fact that Focus had to groud himself by putting his hand on the wall???????

This one is just a gif I have nothing to say about it I have so much to say but I can't put it to words

Just gonna say holy shit Focus... But also his abs.. he looks amazing which isn't a surprise if his partner is Willi who love gym. I also wish we got more of this cut because Willi was about to put his head on his tiny waist and I just love seeing that

My God Willi that hand of your... that had is... from touching the lower belly to climbing up to his shoulder and back... there is something just so attractive about it and it's making me go insane. I am also not sure why they made Willi so wet they just started the activity he shouldn't be sweaty already but who am I to complain Willi looks even better

THE BITING?!?!?!?! THE BITING?!?!?! He was insane for that and I love it even more but not only the tiddies but the collarbone later...

I wasn't gonna include this gif but I had to when I rewatched it. The fuck me eyes Focus is giving and the parted breathless lips but also the moment he felt that Willi will pull him in he was ready.. Parting his lips even more and closing his eyes even before their lips touched. And the strong pull that Willi did on the back of his head which took him by surprise by what I see... I am not sure if that hand flying to Willis upper hand was scripted or not but to me it's more like Focus was trying to find balance after the neck pull...

Now this part was actually amazing, Focus being breathless and throwing his head back as Willi is kissing his way down?! And Focus flexing and moving away from Willi's lips????? That is some amazing acting! It's so realistic

And finally the collarbone biting while Focus has his hand pulling on Willi's hair and then Willi getting ready for another kiss... damn I was so not prepared but I enjoyed it. Willi can deliver amazing NC scenes hopefully this post won't get reported I spent over am hour on making this post

#this series is a whole mess there is too many people but i will watch it!!#i will watch it for my boy Willi #and i knew he was gonna be great #the way Willi was looking at his eyes but then dropped his gaze to his lips and than back up #but also he is so gorgeous that 1st gif has me swooning #but he is a devil and i knew it #ever since TTWE i have been following him and im glad to see more of him #but the way they kissed here was just wow...#i was UNPREPARED #but also fully into it #i know my boy can because he did a number on Art in TTWE before so i knew he can kiss but i was still taken a back (in a good way)#i love him and i will watch it no matter how bad it is for him and him alone if i have to #but also... Focus i see you i see youu.. keep up with good work i like you now #this was a very nice scene #Willi NEVER disappoints on an NC scene he is just that good and dedicated #beyond the stars #beyond the star the series #willi arawill #best anavil #focus poonyavee #thai bl series #asian bl #bl series #thai bl #and now i shall see how long it will take this to upload its currently 1:22am so how long do i have to say up this time Tumbrl??#edit it took 30 minutes to uploaded which is fast actually...#beyond the star

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