#Tried to make this pretty but idk lol

[fiona-widdershins]

NICK & CHARLIE // HEARTSTOPPER

#Heartstopper #heartstopperedit #tvedit #heartstoppercentral #cinemapix #cinematv #smallscreensource #mlmsource #dailynetflix #dailyflicks #userstream #userrjoana #useraurore #tuserlucie #tuserpris #tuserrishi #OTP: I love liking you #Nick Nelson #Charlie Spring #Stuff I Made #Tried to make this pretty but idk lol

[inkskinned]

you're grabbing lunch with a nice man and he gives you that strange grimace-smile that's popular right now; an almost sardonic "twist" of his mouth while he looks literally down on you. it looks like he practiced the move as he leans back, arms folded. he just finished reciting the details of NFTs to you and explaining Oppenheimer even though he only watched a youtube about it and hasn't actually seen it. you are at the bottom of your wine glass.

you ask the man across from you if he has siblings, desperately looking for a topic. literally anything else.

he says i don't like small talk. and then he smiles again, watching you.

a few years ago, you probably would have said you're above celebrity gossip, but honestly, you've been kind of enjoying the dumb shit of it these days. with the rest of the earth burning, there's something familiar and banal about dragging ariana grande through the mud. you think about jeanette mccurdy, who has often times gently warned the world she's not as nice as she appears. you liked i'm glad my mom died but it made you cry a lot.

he doesn't like small talk, figure out something to say.

you want to talk about responsibility, and how ariana grande is only like 6 days older than you are - which means she just turned 30 and still dresses and acts like a 13 year old, but like sexy. there's something in there about the whole thing - about insecurity, and never growing up, and being sexualized from a young age.

people have been saying that gay people are groomers. like, that's something that's come back into the public. you have even said yourself that it's just ... easier to date men sometimes. you would identify as whatever the opposite of "heteroflexible" is, but here you are again, across from a man. you like every woman, and 3 people on tv. and not this guy. but you're trying. your mother is worried about you. she thinks it's not okay you're single. and honestly this guy was better before you met, back when you were just texting.

wait, shit. are you doing the same thing as ariana grande? are you looking for male validation in order to appease some internalized promise of heteronormativity? do you conform to the idea that your happiness must result in heterosexuality? do you believe that you can resolve your internal loneliness by being accepted into the patriarchy? is there a reason dating men is easier? why are you so scared of fucking it up with women? why don't you reach out to more of them? you have a good sense of humor and a big ol' brain, you could have done a better job at online dating.

also. jesus christ. why can't you just get a drink with somebody without your internal feminism meter pinging. although - in your favor (and judgement aside) in the case of your ariana grande deposition: you have been in enough therapy you probably wouldn't date anyone who had just broken up with their wife of many years (and who has a young child). you'd be like - maybe take some personal time before you begin this journey. like, grande has been on broadway, you'd think she would have heard of the plot of hamlet.

he leans forward and taps two fingers to the table. "i'm not, like an andrew tate guy," he's saying, "but i do think partnership is about two people knowing their place. i like order."

you knew it was going to be hard. being non-straight in any particular way is like, always hard. these days you kind of like answering the question what's your sexuality? with a shrug and a smile - it's fine - is your most common response. like they asked you how your life is going and not to reveal your identity. you like not being straight. you like kissing girls. some days you know you're into men, and sometimes you're sitting across from a man, and you're thinking about the power of compulsory heterosexuality. are you into men, or are you just into the safety that comes from being seen with them? after all, everyone knows you're failing in life unless you have a husband. it almost feels like a gradebook - people see "straight married" as being "all A's", and anything else even vaguely noncompliant as being ... like you dropped out of the school system. you cannot just ignore years of that kind of conditioning, of course you like attention from men.

"so let's talk boundaries." he orders more wine for you, gesturing with one hand like he's rousing an orchestra. sir, this is a fucking chain restaurant. "I am not gonna date someone who still has male friends. also, i don't care about your little friends, i care about me. whatever stupid girls night things - those are lower priority. if i want you there, you're there."

he wasn't like this over text, right? you wouldn't have been even in the building if he was like this. you squint at him. in another version of yourself, you'd be running. you'd just get up and go. that's what happens on the internet - people get annoyed, and they just leave. you are locked in place, almost frozen. you need to go to the bathroom and text someone to call you so you have an excuse, like it's rude to just-leave. like he already kind of owns you. rudeness implies a power paradigm, though. see, even your social anxiety allows the patriarchy to get to you.

you take a sip of the new glass of wine. maybe this will be a funny story. maybe you can write about it on your blog. maybe you can meet ariana grande and ask her if she just maybe needs to take some time to sit and think about her happiness and how she measures her own success.

is this settling down? is this all that's left in your dating pool? just accepting that someone will eventually love you, and you have to stop being picky about who "makes" you a wife?

you look down to your hand, clutching the knife.

#writeblr #this is a mashup of like 3 dates i accidentally went on lol #by that i mean that i was out with a woman on a date in 2 of these situations #and a man just. joined us. and we were too awkward to say anything while he tried to ''date'' me #& one was a longterm friend that i was like. you what???? #like he's nice he's a doctor and my mom was SO happy she was like raquel think about it #''it's a perfect love story you grew up together and reconnected as adults and like the same things and he's friends with ur brother #and his sister is one of ur close friends!!!'' #yes but alas. he is a boy . she only likes girls. can i make it any more obvious #anyway im tryna write about like the force of male attention being actually incredibly ingrained to women like we are SUPPOSED to like it #it's seen as the only important thing #even if ur gay #and it's a nuanced thing idk #and while rn i i.d. as lesbian #like .... it wouldn't be UNTRUE to say i am probably like ''cusp bisexual'' bc i CAN experience attraction to men bc like . #sexuality is fluid... #don't tell straight ppl tho bc they do not understand the concept that ppl don't necessarily need a solid everlasting label #they're like GET in the BOX #if ur gay & in boston i'm 30 and pretty please come kiss me. #(i usually only date older ppl sorry in advance tho)

[autiacorart]

i was asked to give connor this and here we are

#dbh connor #dbh #detroit become human #hank anderson #i'm sorry i can't draw hot men but i'm trying rly rly #thanks for the idea more excuses to draw connor #i freaking love bryan's face he's so pretty and yet so like regular looking idk how to explain but he's so pretty #but also looking like a regular guy you could meet everyday #i have no idea how to draw him i tried many times and he's impossible #idk i hate pretty men they make me feel things bc what are you pretty for #lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God sees you. Here more than anywhere.

#if i knew how to edit videos. i would make a video essay. there arent enough terror video essays #title it. the cruel apathy of god in the terror. or the uncaring eye of god. or something better haha #what would we learn? probably nothing #anyway. this looked better before i tried the shadows but idk i gotta practice shadows #the terror #amc the terror #james fitzjames #in my head i call him jammy fitzjammies #also i can't draw that dumbass hat lol. it makes me sad bc i like those hats #the thing is. sometimes i try to make the colors look realistic but choosing pretty colors is the better choice

[pup-pee]

no1s mad i drew more konbart right?

last drawing is nirvana au // also i gave up on the 1st drawing mayb? i might return 2 it

#i realized im starting 2 feel insecure bc ppl my age r drawing muchMUCH better than me so i tried 2 do things i dont usual do kinda idk #trying 2 prove im not *that* bad @ art lol #which means i tried 2 draw kissing y tf did i try this I DONT I #USE TONE INDICATORS U BITCH! #nirvana au #nirvana!kon #kart #konbart #my fujcing wifi freaked out on me & i drew all of these #so thats fun!! #also i worked on my sketchbook bc NOTHING WAS WORKING sts yestefay was so boring :( #my sketchbook is exploding its more junk then sketch #my junk book #puppee art #i love nirvana!kon oh how k love them so theyre so pretty ((imo)) #i drew like 3 sidelrofiles im dying #ALSO IGNORE HOW LAZY I AM DRAWING SUPEEHERO SUITS LOL #IDRC…IDK…I DIDNT WANNA DRAW THE FLARES OR THE PATCHES PLSSSSS #ive drawn sm kon in the last like week? #bc of etsy its honestly great i have like a lil collection of those ty cards i make #uhm #i need 2 stop rambling gn #y am i saying gn???

[sea-jello]

Day 21/October 21: Day of the Departed || Reminisce (??)

GRAHH ITS STILL THE 21ST SOMEWHERE i’m apparently using morrotober to try new things this one’s a new lineart brush that i’m sorta warming up to and the POSE and the BACKGROUND and the LIGHTING i’m surprised i finished this at all tbh. and also new morro design

bg lineart and sword vs neither plus the green ghost fog thing i do basically if you zoom in really really close the lines aren’t smooth on the lineless bgs but icba the pedestal can be chipped or something. i kinda like without the sword and fog cause it gives him a more isolated feel yk (that was my original idea lmao)

this one’s my attempt at funky mannequin hands

#i was sorta going for a reminiscey vibe #if you squint he’s looking at the sword #at least that’s what i tried to do #i’m pretty sure reminisce is looking back on good things tho so maybe not #i just now realized the sword would make more sense facing the other way but whatever we ball #alo if you see this these were the hands i wanted to do w your dtiys but i couldn’t figure it out so i stuck the sword onto him lol #SPEAKING OF HANDS I DID THEM MYSELF WITH NO REF AND IM KINDA PROUD OF THEM #LOOK WHERE WE ARE NOW IMPROVEMENT BABY #at least i hope these things are kinda one and done #I ALSO DID THE POSE WITH NO REF although that one may be evident #i actually did everything other than the bg with no ref #i was coloring the bg in the dark so i hope the colors aren’t too wack i just eyedropped and prayed #the texture is weird idk how i did that #deadass i think i was coloring for like 5 hours straight #i actually kinda like the fog thing the outline reminds me a bit of the preeminent #ninjargon just says morro if you want to know about that #ninjago #lego ninjago #morro ninjago #ninjago morro #morro wu #morrotober 2023 #morrotober2023 #morrotober #ninjago dotd #day of the departed #i had more doodles and a comic for previous prompts but i got intimidated by the comic and got stuck doom scrolling instead #i’ll finish them when i have the time #and pick my ass up to tackle the comic #maybe i’ll just post it for myself instead of morrotober

[backformores]

@kpopcreators event one: favourites favourite artist's title tracks + favourite bias → le sserafim's sakura

sources.

#lsf #sakura #miyawaki sakura #le sserafim #lesserafimnet #kpopedit #lua gfx #tuserose #danablr #usershri #userrsun #gtkm2023 #so this took me like 3 weeks to make and many days of spamming skyes dms w multiple variations of all of the above HGKSDLHGSKLDGHS #please dont let this flop i will never make gfx again LMAOOOOOOO #idk if the prompt i picked makes sense but its a two in one LOL #i pretty much just wanted to make a gfx for lsf's title tracks and then i was like well what if i include only sakura #and then the problem was how tf do i make this prompt not a paragraph long LMAO #i tried to make all the panels kinda match but like clearly u can see where i started and where i ended 💀💀💀 #oh yea in case ppl wanna see what resources i use when i make my gfx since i source free stuff alr (besides kpop related images etc) #we dont stan using pinterest reposts and google images in this household

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

Edwige did not need to slay these looks as hard as she did yet she chose to anyway

IL SUFFIT D'UNE FOIS // ONCE IS ENOUGH (1946), dir. Andrée Feix

#pls i am so gay #i am looking with unabashed lust #her little eye roll in the top right gif too sksksksk i had to include it ok #i was watching this film last night and i realised it was the first time i acc was looking with definite lust and not blushing about it lol #listennnn the pill is making me weird okay #pls if she tried to bite any part of me i'd totally let her #anyway ignore these gay ramble tags okay :P #edwige feuillère #film #il suffit d'une fois (1946) #andrée feix #vintage #she's just so pretty in this idk 🥺 #and she's so funny #i adore this cast idk they just made me laugh a lot

[moonviewer]

gift art for @luminluma's dreamscape warrior OC Luma!

#my art #gift art #very pretty oc #tried to make her look very magical #ive been trying to finalize my style For Reals lately #do ythink this style is finally unique enough to call my own?! #i think theres still some small details i'll have to work out eventually before i understand Fully how to do this style tho #for example i need to try this with a background next #after years of trying out so many styles is it finally paying off?! #its like i combined every element of each style i liked most into 1 #into my very own!!!!! #but idk i say this everytime tho lol i hope this is finally the one for reals

[av3ryjay]

Woah my first real post

My art :)

#original character #oc #oc art #character art #original character art #digital art #he’s from my novel #that I’m writing #it’s called what makes a saint #I’m pretty new to digital art so I’m sorry in advance lol #I am still learning #it wasn’t yellow like that before I tried to post it idk what’s up with that #first post

[funkytoesart]

.

#Not to be dramatic lmao and it's probably just burnout but i am SO tempted to quit making BTCT altogether :/ #I've been working on it for like... idk 2.5+ years now? and i'm just... t i r ed #also it's not like i'm even monetizing it atm. I'm literally just making it in my spare time (for free) and #I don't suspect it would do well if i Tried to monetize it again #and it's far Far too time consuming to continue if i choose to not monetize it #which is why lately i've been feeling like it would be better if I just.. quit making it entirely. #which would suck bc i love the story and the characters but at the same time i feel like it's just not worth continuing? #idk maybe i just have a case of burnout and imposter syndrome lol but #it feels pointless to continue? #I want an art career. And I need to earn more money. #but... i've kinda lost hope that it could be by/through making webcomics #or at least this webcomic #funky's personal tag #i say all this as if i'm not Just About to wrap up the first season production lol #i have like 1-2 more episodes left of season 1 to finsih #maybe i'll just finish making season one and Then call it quits #although season 1 ends on a cliff hanger so that would probably be pretty mean of me LOL

[the-drunken-huntsman]

I know you did Vilkas, but Farkas is not a carbon copy of his twin. He is gentle, Kodlak describes him as too softhearted in him journal. So, cuddly friend-shaped Farkas?

"Some people don't think I'm smart. Those people get my fist. But you, I like."

Farkas moodboard

#i think i'm gonna go back and add quotes to all my moodboards now oops #moodboard #farkas #asks #also idk if i got the cuddly part arcoss but i definitely tried to make his softer than his brother's #more colorful pallet and less angsty werewolf imagery ya know #i hope you like it though! #well 'more colorful' its still pretty muted but vilkas' was bw so it counts lol

[hollowfairybabybat]

my talent is if theres any angry tones in convos in another room i can tell without hearing the convo fully lol also walking v v v quietly but i scare ppl sometimes with that one accidentally

#my fathers on the phone angry but was pretty sure then paused my vid to listen more n yeah lol angry which makes me uncomfy even if its not #at me lol i grew up with my mother mainly n her being angry meant it was gonna b my problem if she saw me n sometimes even if not #but also why im so good at walkin quiet but its bc i walk a weird way sometimes where i just kinda roll how i walk? so no noise #idk how to explain ive tried to teach someone too n they couldnt get it but i can also make it down most staircases quietly once i learn #which method 2 use n im pretty good at doors even if they make noise lol im v good at being quiet sometimes i think its maybe part of why #now i need noise im in control of but idkkkkk

[girlwithfish]

thinking abt my ex saying I can leave whenever I want and I pretend I'm trapped and he "doesn't know why" I want to slap him so bad I can't believe this clown just gets to live his dumb life what a foul person lol

#him taking my keys and it turning into a physical fight if i tried to get them back . him taking my phone and physically blocking me from #leaving or forcing me into rooms or trapping me in rooms or the closet etc etc :) U r literally a bad person and the str8 up denial makes me #sooooo mad. ur pretending ok classic gaslighting💀its almost comical #when he trapped me in my own home on thanksgiving lol #remembered when he tackled me onto the bed and got on top of me and was pulling my hair and hitting my face once all bc i got mad when he #snatched my phone out of mg hands pretty aggressively #Like wow it is literally like umm fucked up and #i hate that my mind just cycles thru the same handful of memories that i have and can recall like most of #Nd i fele weird abt how theres so many mroe memories i just dont remember anymore or are buried #but its probably for the better that i dont remember more bad stuff #idk. #idk why the trauma has been kinda difficult for like the past 2 days #i blame it on this dream i had abth im on monday #i dont dream abt my ex often either so its like . ok

[skenpiel]

i've been occasionally seeing you post about pokemon and i'm Curious,,,,,,,,,,,, what starter did you pick? and what's your team like!!!!

I PICKED CYNDAQUIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my team changes a lot cause 1. i get bothered if All my pokemon (including the ones in my pc) arent the same level and 2. theyre all underleveled as FUCK. but mainly i keep a farfetched and poliwhirl as my tm/hm slaves and then i just kinda, pick whoever else is in need of exp. currently its just my misdreavus and then some low level gastly and paras i caught cause they know hypnosis and stun spore and i am getting SICK and TIREDDDD of hunting for raikou -_-

#I LOVEOPKEMON I CANT BELIEVE IT TOOK ME TWO TRIES TO FALL FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!! #even though im bad at it. so what im having fun -_- #i love cyndaquil btw hes a quilava now and his name is echidna ^__^ #they all have silly stupid names btw so i cant say them without being embarrassed. lol #anyways HI TORI I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!!! lets talk about pokemon more when ive gotten a little bit further cuz im trying to. exp grind for th #pokemon league rn -_-; #idk how im gonna make it. my highest level pokemon is entei and ho-oh at 45 #and ho-oh is 45 when you CATCH it....... all my other guys are like below 35 Sweats #ITS GONNA TAKE SO LONGGGGGGG but i want raikou i want raikou NOW #its an ugly as fuck puppy doggy tiger thing. why is it so UGLY!!!!! #note its actually not that bad its just Erm im kinda pissed at not being able to catch it #i used my masterball for entei...... getting ho-oh was pretty easy cause i could just reset when i ran out of ultra balls #but. i cant fucking DO that with raikou cause the motherfucker RUNS AWAY #'legendary dogs' more like legendary PAINS IN MY ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! screams and breaks stuff #HEHEHEEE i love u tori so much TELL ME ABT UR TEAM TOO BTW!!!!!!!!! #i forgot which one it is ur playing Um sorry !!!!

[itsnahhhh]

my prettiest specialest boy!!!! 💖💖💖

i did a little doodle of him that spiraled out of control (the two little ones at the bottom) and then realized they were wayyy too small to post anywhere :/ so i redrew it bigger lol! i have some mixed feelings about the final result, but i still really like it! i think my big issue is that i need to figure out how to render hair lol

anyway, the differences between the first three pics are just the hair color. it’s pretty subtle, but the first one is more white, the second is more blond, and the third has a rainbow-ish filter thing on it (i wanted to make his hair kinda iridescent or something? def something i’m gonna play around with more in the future!)

there’s also a lil close up of the face in the bottom row bc i really like how i did the sparkly freckles 💖

#my art #original character #my oc #procreate #oc: juyun #i think i might start tagging my ocs like that? #idk #i see other people doing it and so i feel like i should too lol #anyway he’s the god of beauty (at least in his original iteration) #so i feel like i gotta get better at making him pretty #he must be PRETTIER #he’s also kinda pathetic 💖 #like he tries to come off as beautiful and mysterious #then maybe he’ll go for flirty and seductive #then beneath that he’s just a silly lil dork and a sweetheart #and below THAT is a v sad and insecure lil guy ;; #he’s kind of one of my fave ocs if you couldn’t tell… #hes the type of guy where someone compliments him one (1) time #and he’s like ready to propose #also hes very queer #if you can’t tell lol #hes pan and genderfluid (he can like shapeshift. of course he’s genderfluid i mean come ON) #still debating if hes transmasc tho… #idk i feel like it kinda fits his backstory #but i also worry that bc hes so feminine that it’ll come across as me being ignorant or mean #but like. you can be transmasc and still like being feminine yknow #then again hes not the only transmasc/trans man characters i have #and they aren’t all feminine so idk #im probably overthinking this lol