#also this article actually came with a bunch of pics

[emeraldspiral]

Who wants to see some old cringe selfies of vintage millennial fashion?

So, the backstory behind most of these pics is way back in 2010 I got a job at Target for a few months and during that time most days I had to wear a red top with khakis as my work uniform and I very quickly started to get bored with the monotony. So I decided to do some bathroom photoshoots of the different outfits I had at the time besides the red tops I was wearing every day. I pretty much don't have a single one of these articles of clothing anymore, except for a couple of necklaces. Most of these I think I got rid of because I gained a lot of weight after I got a car, if not because my tastes evolved or they fell apart on me.

This first collage is a bunch of all black outfits.

The scarf I'm wearing in the first one was a souvenir my sister got me from the gift shop at Alcatraz when she was on a school trip. It's got a fake stamp printed on it that says "Rejected: Too Cute".

Second outfit, I think I got from Forever 21, both the dress and the thigh high boots.

Third outfit was probably mostly made of JCPenny pieces. I used to wear it to a lot of job interviews, not that it helped because the job market sucked almost as much back then as it does today. Also, those heels were from Payless and although they were cute, they were absolute murder on my flat feet. I held onto that tie for a long time with no shirt to wear it with because they don't really even make women's blouses anymore that button all the way up and even when they do, I can't wear them because all button-up blouses gape on me. Also, can't really find vests anymore, for that matter.

Fourth outfit I think I got from Value Village.

First outfit bottom row came from Kohl's and I bought it after only looking at the hanger and not the actual tag, but despite the dress being an XS and me wearing a medium at the time, it miraculously stretched far enough to fit, so I kept it.

The off-shoulder top I got from a local retailer that is actually still in business today with a handful of locations that have shifted to different suites around town over the years, but never shut down.

The velvet outfit I believe was either a hand-me down or an old church outfit that used to be knee length before I cropped it into a hi-low skirt.

All of these outfits by the way I wore in my late teens and early 20s to school and walking around town before I had a car. Nothing I own now or have ever owned is a date outfit because I don't go on dates.

First outfit in this teal/turquoise set is probably my most cringe. That headband was really ugly with my short hair, and I don't think that long top over a short skirt and cropped hoodie combo was a good look.

The top from the second pic came from a gift shop at Niagra Falls from a school trip I went on my junior year of high school. It originally had black felt ribbons, but the first time I washed it I didn't realize the ribbons weren't sewn on, so they came off and got destroyed, so I replaced them with turquoise ribbons that were sewn on.

Third top I'm pretty sure came from Gottschalks before it went bankrupt and got replaced by a Forever 21, if that doesn't carbon date me like the fossil I am.

The top in the first two pics on the bottom row I used to normally wear with a pair of black jeggings. Hear me out though, these were not yoga pants with a fake denim print slapped on top, they actually had texture like real jeans and I think a button and zipper even. The pockets were still fake, but they were actually sewn-in faux-pockets like they have on normal pants, not a print. They were basically just very thin, very elastic form-fitting jeans I wore so I could have a smoother silhouette under long shirts. I actually still own the necklace I'm wearing with that top, but I never wear silver anymore, so it's getting donated soon.

Last dress in the teal set is another piece I got from the same place my off-shoulder top came from. I might've even gotten them at the same time.

First top I got from a specialty online goth fashion shop. I actually didn't have my own credit/debit card at the time because I was still in high school, but my sister told me if I gave her money and she didn't think it was cringe/inappropriate for school, I could show her things I wanted to buy online and she'd get them for me. So that star top was one of the things I got along with the goggles and fingerless gloves seen in other pics, and an assortment of other accessories from when I was deep in my Hot Topic Mall Goth Invader Zim-core aesthetic phase.

The corset I'm wearing in the next three photos had no boning in it, so it wasn't uncomfortable to wear, except for the fact that it didn't stay in place or hold its shape like a corset should. I got that corset from a local retailer that closed down, in a mall that has since become a dead mall.

In the middle row, I believe I got both the top and the cardigan from Forever 21.

The brown outfit in the middle of the middle I think I got from JCPenny, except the green top, which came from Forever 21. Shoes might've come from Payless. That was my second go-to job interview outfit and I miss it a lot. I tried looking for those pieces on Poshmark once so I could recreate it. But it turns out the brown top and skirt actually came from the junior's section, so there's no way even the largest size I could find it in would fit me now.

I think the silky green skirt and the green sweater in the next couple of pics also came from Forever 21.

The butterfly top on the bottom row I think came from the same store where I got my corset. I don't wear heels anymore, but I also don't wear converse anymore either because zero arch support is just as uncomfortable as heels on my flat feet. I don't wear headbands either because they aren't comfortable anymore. Every one I try just squeezes my skull too much.

The green bustier-looking top is another one of my most cringe outfits because it was constantly rolling up.

The next top after it is also pretty cringe, cause it's just an unflattering shade of neon green.

The last outfit was one of my most frequently worn from late high school and throughout college. I used to wear it with a pair of dangly guitar-pick shaped GIR earrings that my sister got me when she went on a trip and got to visit a Hot Topic before we had one locally. At some point I swapped out the GIR earrings for a pair of zipper pull earrings because my sister told me the GIR earrings don't go with the rest of the jewelry I wore with it.

The navy crop jacket was another Forever 21 piece, and I think I got those agonizingly painful booties from there too.

Then there's my Butch Girl Style Icon Dib Membrane shirt that I had to alter to fit right because it only came in a men's size.

The next outfit below was a hand-me down velvet shirt/jacket thing that I turned into a dress.

Last outfit is probably my oldest. I think most of its components I got as far back as middle school, and I think they were hand-me downs even then.

I used to love that purple cardigan until it got stretched the fuck out in the wash. I think it came from the same place as the off-shoulder top and the teal dress.

The next top I believe was another Gottchalks piece I might've had as far back as middle school. It used to be a hideous brown/olive green until I dyed it, but it was already getting threadbare even then.

The purple cowl-neck outfit I think I also got from the same place as the purple cardigan.

Last outfit is another one of my most cringe outfits with yet another overlaying piece that rolled up all the time.

Closeups of some necklaces I wore in some of the above pics. I actually still have the black flower necklace, but that's another one that's getting donated soon because I don't wear silver anymore. I totally forgot it used to have another black chunky chain attached before I removed it. The soda tab necklace I made myself and painted with nail polish. I actually made several necklaces and bracelets out of soda tabs, some of which I handed out to my friends.

Bonus:

Me in one of many iterations of a black belted jacket I've worn throughout the years. I don't have this specific jacket anymore, but once I started wearing them, I've never not owned a long, black belted jacket as my main staple piece of outer wear. So I've never really escaped my Zim-core roots.

This pic was taken by somebody at my college paper. They saw me waiting for classes to start and wanted a picture of me for an article on fashion. I got a few copies to show my family, but they also posted the article online. Not a lot of people saw it and there were only a couple of comments, but none of them mentioned my outfit and one of them said something to the effect of "None of these outfits are in style and the writer of his article has no business giving out fashion advice cause everyone knows Alaskans are always 5-10 years out of date on the trends".

#fashion #millennial fashion #vintage fashion #2010s fashion #early 2000s fashion #2000s fashion #invader zim #scenecore #mall goth fashion #honestly #i kinda miss that haircut #i had it for many years #grew it out and cut it several times #and i don't think i've ever really been satisfied #with any haircut i've had since changing it

[endtimesbeacon]

Anyone Know What Or Who This Flying Light Being Is?

Anyone Know What Or Who This Flying Light Being Is?  Looked Pretty Real. Was Floating Around on Telegram.

See video. Pretty dramatic. The Lighting in Coordination with the Sun and Clouds Makes it Look Pretty Real. We Are Supposed to See More in the "Spirit Realm" or Higher Dimensional Beings Going Forward, Including Angels and Other Created Beings ("Aliens")

- There are TONS of different space ship pics and videos floating out there online.  Telegram channels are a good place to find a bunch. - Don't forget, we have a Space Force.  Now how did we go from rockets to flying saucers, TRB3's., portal opening ability and travel in seemingly a couple decades?  We didn't.  We had a "Secret Space Force" for many decades prior, a faction with good guy aliens and another faction with bad guy aliens.   - So the concept here is that we fell from Eden.  Eden was simply in a higher dimension.  We fell to a lower grade dimension called 3D earth where there's a lot of ugliness and evil.   The spiritual cosmic guys have been saying for a while that there is to be an ascension of Earth.  But they also say that those who took the "Mark of the Beast" 1.0 shot will stay in a lower dimension while others will ascend into "5D", as fits with the Book of Revelation.  - As mentioned in Matthew 25, there is a separation of sheep and goats.  Sheep are good. Goats are not good.  (So stop slandering sheep those of you out there who use "sheep" as an insult - sheep are smart, the only follow their master's voice; you using sheep as an insult have the wrong animal).  What's the dividing line?  As many spiritual types, cosmic types and cosmic Christians says, the dividing line is:  those who are in service to others vs. those who are in service to self.  It is said that if you are 51% in service to others and didn't take the Mark of the Beast, then you will ascend to 5D, or the good place as mentioned in Revelation.  - Other Bible scholars who actually study the original words and the original Paleo before it was corrupted my "modern Hebrew" and the Jesuits and whomever else,  at least as reported, say that the Lake of Fire, the 2nd Death is having to go through many cycles of death, dying over and over again, being reincarnated (you know, like Elijah to John the Baptist) for another 26,000 year cycle or some amount of years like that) so you learn the lessons in your spirit to choose good and not evil.  So death and hell are thrown into the Lake of Fire.  The Lake of Fire then would be considered more inline with the concept of "tried by fire", experiencing all sorts of intense and dramatic things periodically to make a deep impression learning lesson on your spirit, so eventually you'll choose good and choose God.  Jesus came to break us out of this cycle and save us from having to go through another 26,000 year or however long that cycle was.   These concepts do have good logic to them as opposed to going to hell to be tortured and slaughtered forever and ever because you were not spiritually mature enough, or just too spiritually young.   It will be interesting to see more information about all these topics as the rest of the 777 books of the Bible are released.  Read the full article

[all-or-nothing-baby]

GUESS WHAT?

I'M TRANS, BABY!

if anybody is interested in me waffling on about it, you can read more below the cut :)

otherwise, i'm still cassidy, still any pronoun you like bc i just really don't care and WISHING EVERYBODY A VERY HAPPY PRIDE! 🌈🌈 🌈

so, i've known forever that i'm a boy/man but have always vehemently stuck my fingers in my ears/head in the sand, as i think a lot of trans folx do—especially those of a certain age. i'm 40 and was born in the 80s, grew up in the 90s, and things really were very different back then.

i've also always known i was queer. my first kiss was with a girl—as were the next few— and i thought (even though i'd always felt i was a boy, like my brothers) that seeing as i was in appearance "a girl", that meant i must be a lesbian. then i realised i liked boys, too. so... bisexual? then i met a (closeted) trans person and fell for them. so... i started identifying as pansexual, which felt right for me.

then, at 17, i was in a relationship with a straight guy and fell pregnant...

at this stage, i started hiding all my queer tenancies, believing that i had to be a woman to be a mother. i didn't really have queer friends (i'd met the trans person through work) and wasn't on the queer scene, so was pretty naive about things.

so i threw myself into being the girlyest girl: through make-up, fashion, studying girls behaviour/mannerisms etc and copying them (which i'd always done to some extent).

this lasted through two more relationships, the latter of which gave me another child. only after this relationship broke down (6 years ago) did i let myself to begin figuring out who i was. i didn't have to pretend for anybody else's sake anymore, which had been SO exhausting (i totally think it contributed to the breakdown i had at the end of that last relationship. pretending to be somebody else [even when you're alone!] for literally years upon years, is the most draining thing e v e r).

slowly, i allowed myself to just be me. i came out 2 years ago as nonbinary on here and to my friends and some of my close family, to mostly kind and understanding reactions—which i know, sadly, certainly isn't every queer person's experience. i know just how incredibly lucky i am for that.

and, really, it's just grown from there. more thoughts and memories of the way i was/felt as a very young child have been returning, things i'd pushed down and just not allowed myself to feel or think about for all these years.

i started reading articles and watching YouTube videos of trans people's stories, people's instagram pics of their transitions... and finally allowed myself to remember who i am.

i'm cassidy and i'm a trans man :))

i've only come out to 2 my wonderful friends here on dumblr™, which was actually a while ago (you guys know who you are and how much ily) and two people in meatspace, very recently: another dear friend, and my mum; both of which were just fucking awesome and both their burning questions were "ooh, what are you going to change your name to?" lol.

thing is, i don't even know if i'll ever come out fully or transition, let alone change my name. it's so early tree me to know anything rn other than I'M TRANS. one thing i keep coming back to when i think about transitioning etc is "how can i rob my kids of a mother?". the idea of living as a man is SO incredibly new to me, that i don't really have any answers yet.

but i also know i don't need to have answers yet—i'm still busy asking myself all the questions!

the one thing i do know though, is how incredible all of you here are. and that's why i wanted to share this with you guys. you are the bestest of friends and closest of confidantes and the most friendly and accommodating bunch of absolutely wonderful misfits anybody could wish for.

so, if you've read this far *standing ovation*

and HAPPY FUCKING PRIDE!!! 🌈 ily all! ❤️

#coming out #trans #transexual #trans masc #trans stuff #queer #queer stuff #queer community #trans community #trans flag emoji #lol #happy pride 🌈 #pride #pride 2021 #💗💙🤍

[makorragal-312]

As a queer 911 watcher, Buck stan, and Buddie shipper, let me just say this...

FULL DISCLAIMER: THIS RANT MAINTAINS POSSIBLE 5B SPOILERS AND THIS IS LITERALLY JUST ME VENTING WHILE TRYING NOT TO CRY SO BARE WITH ME. 5B OPTIMISM IS APPRECIATED.

These last couple of weeks, especially as a bi Buddie shipper, leading up to the upcoming premiere have been both exciting and stressful.

I would always turn in to Oliver’s lives to see what he would spill about 5B and get excited and anxious whenever the latest info came out about Buck, Eddie, and by extension Buddie’s storylines in 5B. And whenever I wasn't satisfied, I would just head to Ao3 and read some amazing Buddie pics to ease my mind.

Needless to say, I was more than ready for what 5B had to bring...

But then THE ARTICLE came out and everything went to ABSOLUTE HELL.

Now, unfortunately, I’m no stranger to queerbaiting (I think my icon says it all) and anyone who has experienced this knows just how much it can fuck you up as a queer viewer. So going into the Buddie fandom and falling in love with this amazing duo, I tried to tread carefully. But the more I watched their interactions and moments, the less worried I became about getting queerbaited because Buddie honestly felt like a slow-burn with all the evidence to back it up.

So when I saw the excerpts of THE ARTICLE pertaining to Buddie, my heart just dropped and all the emotional turmoil, trauma, and gaslighting I experienced came to the surface, along with a bunch of anxiety. You honestly mean to tell me that I’ve been reading into things too much when LITERALLY you’re giving me a bi-coded Evan Buckley, romantic-coded moments between him and Eddie, and expect me to see them as just platonic?

Like honestly, FUCK THAT.

But after seeing some optimistic tweets and posts from 911 fans and Buddie shippers alike, I just pushed it to the side and went with the theory that the writers were just toying with us so that we would be shocked when something actually did happen between Buck and Eddie. So I let it go.

But then, literally 25 minutes ago, I went to the 911 hashtag on Twitter.

Again...like a FUCKING idiot.

And saw something with Buck that sill has me reeling.

Now, out of respect for anyone who either hasn’t seen this spoiler and doesn't want to be spoiled, doesn’t want to relieve the spoiler, or just loves the cinnamon roll that is Evan Buckley, I’m not gonna type out what I saw. But let me just say this: I honestly didn’t expect seeing that to hurt me as much as it does right now.

And I know that Oliver said that Buck was going to do things we weren’t going to like (also, DO NOT IN ANY CAPACITY GO AFTER OLIVER. LEAVE THE MAN ALONE), but not something that butchers five and a half seasons worth of character development for Buck. Like, 5B hasn’t even premiered yet where I am and I’m literally seeing that my comfort character is being fucked up.

There are so many other things that I want to say, but they’re just getting lost in the newfound anger. A small part of me is telling me to go through with watching the premiere for Eddie, Christopher, Buck being in the room and everything else...but I honestly don't know if I can. All I can do now is hope to God that there is someone in the writer’s room who knows what they're doing and actually does damage control with this whole Buck mess and doesn't butcher any other character and their storylines.

Now there’s a good hour before premiere, let’s see what happens.

EDIT: I watched it and I regret everything that has led me to his point...

#911 #911 fox #911 on fox #911 spoilers #911 5b #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #eddie diaz #edmundo diaz #911 buck #911 eddie #buddie #buddie 911 #like I want to watch the premiere #but at this point im just scared to #like I know there are things to look forward to #like buck being in the room #christopher and albert #seeing maddie come home #but what's the point if the whole time im just gonna be thinking about the writers possibly destroying buck #like this isn't even about buddie at this point for me #what's the point if buck isn't the buck Eddie is in love with #like honestly #in what universe would buck ever do shit like that #I need to apply for therapy just for that bullshit alone #5b better be worth my fucking while #or im gonna fucking riot #I already had to go through this bullshit with voltron and klance #there is no way in hell im going through this again with 911 and buddie #even if they don't get together by the end to the season

[reality-maybe]

4 - 8, 17, and 39 for the soft asks. 💌 I appreciate you.

Hi Joy! I always love answering your asks

4. october - what month were you born in?

it’s in March! 3/6/99 baybeeee 😤. I had such a good one birthday this year thanks to you and a bunch of other mutuals and people in my life, so thank you! 🥰

5. caress - do you like to snuggle?

YOS. all the time. Every time. I will snuggle for hours, I love the warmth and physical intimacy of a person I’m that comfortable with. It puts me at ease. And the feeling of someone snuggling against me helps me fall asleep quicker. I really need it again 💕

6. ivory - describe your pajamas?

Right now im wearing galaxy and Avengers themed pj pants! They have a bunch of symbols that represent the Avengers and they’re black blue and purple and have a bunch of stars on them. And it’s got kind of a silky feel to them. I love them. I’m also wearing a 2XL sky blue t shirt that I got from the thrift store. Where the left pocket would be is a little embroidered Grim Reaper, he’s pretty cute! There’s a pic of him lol

7. golden - favorite stationary product?

Oh I love this question!! I have a lot of stationary lol. My favorite one in terms of “general coolness” is this one pencil that I got at the Smithsonian Natural History Meuseum. The bottom half is a pencil and the top half is a little container that has a bunch of tiny precious gemstones! It’s a nice little thing to shake and stare at sometimes lol. It’s pretty useless for writing but it’s still my favorite stationary thing!

8. freckles - most-worn article of clothing?

Ooh…this one’s a little difficult! Probably my old faded Queen t shirt! The fadedness of it adds to the style I love it! I was staying at my friend’s apartment during a pretty difficult and lonely time in my life when my whole family came down with severe Covid, and another acquaintance of ours was staying too, she was moving out and was going through her things and asked if I wanted it!Of course I said yes, Queen is my favorite band 👑❤️ OR it has to be my red and black American Eagle flannel I found at another thrift store. It’s surprising what you can find on a budget!

17. cupcake - are you a good cook?

I like to think I am! I love cooking, it’s one of my favorite ways to pass time or relax honestly. It’s a great little creative outlet for me I love taking regular recipes and adding my own little twist on it, and I love making new dishes! And I love taking pictures of the food I make! Here are a couple things I made ☺️ in the last pic my younger sister and I dressed up like a waiter and chef and made a really nice dinner for our parent's 25th anniversary!

39. Sweetheart - favorite mug/cup?

Ah I’m actually drinking some hot chocolate out of my fave mug right now! It’s a simple white mug with a dumb little red reindeer…at least I think it’s a reindeer. It has a tiny chip at the back and I have no idea where I got it but I love it so much ❤️

Here’s the prompt!

#Thank you for the ask! #these asks are super sweet <3 #joyandeggs #rECH

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

Hi. Maybe you don’t give your reasoning, but if you do, why don’t you think L is F’s father? I dk if it’s one thing/event? Is it how it was presented? Is presented? Do you think it’s serving a purpose? Was serving a purpose? A lot of people do explain it with B not being the mom so that excludes L more easily. Like I said, I dk if you discuss these things, but I’m of course interested in your thoughts if you do. Thank you!

I don't know if I've ever answered this in full anon, so I'll do it now (but under a read more - this is quite long and very close to my boundaries in terms of talking about this).

I came into the fandom at the beginning of 2015, so the first thing that's affecting my understanding of what's going on was the two month break in the OTRA tour. After their Dubai gig (and some family time in Dubai), Louis went back to the UK and played in a football match and then did some writing and rolled some joints in endearing ways in photos that were sent to the Sun. Then after being seen either out or in the studio every day, until late April, he went MIA for just under a week. There were sitings of him in LA (one was someone in fandom who said their friend had seen him and Harry, but another was a complete random on twitter). Then he was papped at the airport, carrying the psychopath test on 3 May 2015. It seemed like he'd got there earlier and this was a very public arrival.

The other airport pap pics that seemed really significant was 2 June 2015, where Louis was papped at LAX. 1D had been in rehearsals for their next leg, which started on 5 June in Cardiff. He then took photos with the Chimpanzee from the Steal My Girl video and flew back like 36 hours later. They ended up adding songs from 4 in the European leg, but not straight away.

This (and a bunch of other stories I was telling about Harry and Louis being happy together, which included snoppy/Basquiat shirts, Barcelona coin braclets, the AIMH tweet on a flag, and a whole bunch of other stuff that I've now forgotten) was the context that I experienced the People article of July 2015.

I feel like all the weirdness around that is pretty well covered. The close connections with 1D's team. The way they never seemed to own the story. I found it weird and stressful, but I never really thought that it might be true and that was mainly because of the timing.

They announced that Briana was 11 weeks pregnant, which meant she would have conceived 9 weeks ago (pregnancy is counted from someone's last period, rather than conception). That seemed to me totally bizzarre, particularly as paternity could only have been confirmed for 2-3 weeks at the time of conception (here's a post I wrote about that in February 2016).

I actually think it's even more unlikely that the People magazine at 11 weeks would have happened if Louis had knocked someone up now than I did at the time. First because we now know that the end was in site at this point. 1D's management and label would just have had to keep the secret until the end of the year and then it wasn't their problem. That seems to me to be a huge extra motivation for all involved to keep it quiet. Second, we've seen how effectively Louis' personal life can be kept quiet, when they want to.

There are two things I want to bring out about the timing. First the person who owned Eli the chimpanzee knew Brett and when Louis went to LA in early July, he took a photo with Austin Clark. Obviously looking back that becomes the trip where Louis was going to talk to Briana about being pregnant. And if it was, it's so fucking bizzarre that it would be so widely publicised.

The second is those two airport pap trips are one of the many reasons I don't think this whole thing was planned in advance, and why I think this wouldn't have happened if Briana hadn't got pregnant. Louis arriving in LA so late gave them very little options in terms of the story. I think Briana was further along when they announced, but they couldn't say that, because then Louis wouldn't have been there for conception. But if they were going to do it they needed to do it then, to avoid running into the roll out for MITAM (why did they feel the need to do it - that's a whole different question). In addition if having Louis prettend to be a father was planned months in advance, then they wouldn't have had to cut into rehearsals aLnd delayed performing new songs. I don't think what happened is consistent with some fans theories of something that was meticulously planned months in advance.

So that was my position all the way through the pregnancy. I never took the possibility that there wouldn't be a denial seriously, mostly because it was so incredible to me that a boyband member's unintended pregnancy would be announced at 11 weeks.

I was really shocked when the birth took place, and shocked again when the birth certificate was released (I still remember where I was when that news came out). The messiness of it all and the ways it was possible to still believe that Louis wasn't the father despite what was happening is reasonably well covered. I doubted a lot and was on an emotional roller coaster that year. The one thing I held on to was that the story was that Louis hadn't had a paternity test. That just obviously wasn't true and I found it really interesting that they were telling it.

But I was super anxious that Louis might be the father all through that year, and spent a lot of time trying to make sense of it all. Until December 2016, when it became clear why nothing made any sense. And I was reminded of how much I don't know. But in addition to all that existential stuff, I also realised that Briana and Freddie had come to the UK in December 2015 to be seen by the fandom and not to see Jay (this is clear from their travel details).

And that was what settled my anxiety and uncertainty, and made me relaxed in my belief that Louis wasn't Freddie's father. If Jay wanted to see her grandchild, then I was convinced that Louis would and could have organised that. And everything we knew about Jay suggested that she would have wanted to see her grandchild.

Now I'm not here to argue that logic - I probably was more certain about that than was justified. I don't know Jay - and obviously a lot was going down that year. In general, I think that things are probably far messier than I could possibly imagine, and that makes certainty a little absurd.

But for me that meant that I was no longer keyed up and anxious, and was sort of calm in my belief that Louis wasn't the father. As time has passed, and options have been cut off, I've also become more accepting of the idea that I might be wrong and Louis might be Freddie's father. I don't think he is, but whatever is actually going on doesn't stress me out anymore.

#If I was going to advocate any particular belief in this fandom #not on the grounds that it's correct #just for people's well being #it's the belief that Briana is Freddie's mother #it just makes the whole thing so much simpler #and explains why the thing is sustainable long term #and is heaps less damaging and distressing to imagine

[goodgirlgrow]

Also, quick question. We’re you into this before meeting your feeder, or did he introduce it to you? Thanks!

Short answer: I was into it before me met:

Origin story (TW/CW: ED, abuse): Christ, I hope this helps someone.

I’ve been into feedism since before puberty. There are hazy, weird memories when I was like age 4-5 of playing with dolls. I just remember making all my dolls hate one doll and turn on her. I know a lot of the time the doll was me 🙁 she would become “pooey.” Like she was a piece of shit person, nothing about literal feces. There was some slow process that led to her achieving pooiness. When I was about 7 or 8, and my home life became just horrible, is when I started playing out things with myself. Drinking lots of water, bloating, pushing my stomach out. Becoming “pooey” turned into me pretending I went to a party and got pregnant and was then fat. Again, I was 7/8 yo. I would stand in front of the mirror and act this out. At some point I read an article in Teen Vogue about a model that had beat anorexia and become a plus size model. That cemented to me that fat was something that “wasn’t normal” but also neither was thinness? I think reading this also imprinted “you can be fat one day and people will like it.” Then there was a period where I would push my stomach out and see if people would notice. I’d go find my mom and say I wanted to cuddle and place her hand on my belly. Some time after that, I developed a penchant for eating cookie dough and drinking OJ. I was 9 and going through puberty prematurely. By the time I was 10 I looked like I was 14. Chubby. Big boobs, 34C. My doctor, not knowing I had a bush and a monthly period, encountered me and said I was overweight and needed to diet. Classic. Around 10/11 I started being sexually abused, etc, and once I had reached 12 I was purging every single meal I ate. There was a blank time between 10 and 12/13 where I can’t pick out feedism memories. But when I started to actually masturbate etc when I was 12/13, I always had one hand on my stomach. My eating disorder had matured to just outright restriction, and over the next few years my weight would go from 97lbs to 105lbs (at 5’6”.) until I was 15. The entirety of my eating disorder I jacked off to feedism. I found Dimensions Mag and the Weight Room. Fantasy Feeder. YouTube videos. Sometime around 15/16, I became less sick, and stayed more between 107-112lbs. I started to have regular sex partners, aka boyfriends then. Basically every time I’ve had sex since I was 15 I have thought about feedism/wg in the privacy of my mind while my partner did whatever they did to my body. It wasn’t until I was 18 that I considered actually indulging my feedist desires. I posted some really sad, skinny girl belly pics. I was a whopping “healthy” “recovered” 115lbs then. I remember talking to a few people on FF then. Finally, at 22, I posted actual content on FF. I actually gained weight. I think I gained 15, 20lbs before I stopped and went back to 115lbs. Then I was a full-service sex worker for while ¯\_(ツ)_/ and then in 2016, someone whom I had kept in touch with from my 2015 FF days told me to post on Curvage. I had gained 45lbs unintentionally. Honestly, I was completely fucking depressed then. I had been prescribed a psych drug and it totally fucked up my brain. I would secretly buy scratch off tickets and shit lol. I would drive to Walgreens and buy a bunch of garbage food and eat it all and then burst into tears bc none of it was a conscious decision. Basic dopamine shit. Curvage helped a lot—I could remind myself of the beauty I saw in fatness, that plump ripe forbidden fruit. Part of my recovering from that was getting in-shape again. I wanted getting fat to be my choice. I thought being a BDSM play toy was the answer to all my problems. I had a long, crazy relationship with my one and only real Dom. Together we lived out almost all of our fantasies. But it just wasn’t it for me. I went on and off Curvage in 2018 between seeing him, still just not knowing what I wanted. Being a gym bunny wasn’t it for me, just a new form of ED. Being a pain slut got boring. I had done everything I could think of except giving in. So when January 2020 came around I did. And then my feeder DM’ed me and that was that.

[moon-forest-princess]

An In-depth Elven perspective on Mind Power Subliminals (p1)

I felt lead to talk about the controversial subliminal creator known as Mind Power. This is a post to address anyone who may have been curious about the Elven Light Path but was turned off to it by Mind Power herself. Even if this post just helps one, that is a great thing. I also have suggestions for alterative Elven subs you can use and other resources! If you want them, just lemme know!

(sorry for the length of this, it ended up being WAAAAAY longer than I wanted it to be, so I split it in two parts! I wanted to fully address her actions that I've seen, from my perspective as an Elven soul).

TL;DR -- Mind Power seems to be a shady person who speaks with self-assumed authority about a people she is not a part of, because (as far as I can tell) she wants a bunch of devoted followers at her whim. But she does NOT speak for the collective.

-- If you are unfamiliar with what subliminals are, they are essentially a psychological tool to help you achieve goals for yourself. They are videos with silent or quiet affirmations covered by music. Creators of these videos typically post their subliminals to Youtube. I wrote about them a bit more in my last post here, but there is also another explanation here.

-- If you are unfamiliar with the Elven Light Path.... this is living as an Elven Soul. It's more than just a physical/fashion aesthetic. It is taking on the thoughts, lifestyle, mindsets, and wisdom of the Elves. It is NOT a religion or cult. It is appreciating the beauty of this world through the visions of the next. While most who follow this Path are spiritually awakened to their Elven higher selves, non-Elf identified souls may freely follow this path as well.

SO....I've been using subs actively for about 2 months, but have been using them on and off for the past yearish. In this time, I had heard of two controversial sub creators who have since left the community: Rose Subliminals and Mind Power.

I had never "researched" much about them but had been hearing more news about Rose and her actions since there were some more recent developments this year with her. There's a gaggle of YouTube videos meant to 'expose' both these channels, but I take them with a grain of salt. While I don't necessarily doubt the allegations, many of the videos seem to lean on common conspiracy theories (eg, illuminati) and mystical suggestions for entertainment, based on some serious claims vs just looking at the situation for what it might be at its bare bones. I just go by screenshot conversations from the actual accused and whatnot. Regardless, a number of people claimed to have had a bad experience with Mind Power's videos (from general discomfort to claims of hospital visits) and also claimed that she was "not a good person" and also that she "wanted to control everyone" (in her own words).

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As I was looking through Google images for the thumbnail pic that I used in that previous post I linked above, I came across THIS image:

And it piqued my interest. I had missed the entire Mind Power saga. I was not really active and paying attention in the subliminal community until very recently so I wasn't actively around when Mind Power had her videos still up.

Clicking the image link here, it led to a blog post. Originally when I read the post I thought the best possible thing: that maybe she was working with someone and knew they were putting negative things in their affirmations and was trying a tactic to scare away people from using them. Then I read more of her posts and realized she was being serious. So then I thought, the next 'best' thing: There are kids/young teens in the sub community and maybe a lot of the comments on her videos her these younger users who just didn't quite understand the Elven Light Path and she was fussing about it. But no.. the truth is much worse.

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So, I had no idea that (a lot of) her channel focus was apparently on the Elven Light Path--the path I walk--until I came across this blog post...but right away I could tell her perception of this spiritual and lifestyle path was severely skewed.

From what I can gather from her blog, Mind Power (AKA Asherah Aphrodite) is what some on this site might call godkin (Idk if she'd identify that way... probably not). She claims to have been offering the traits and powers of the Elves through her videos to help "turn humans into elves". With secret powers and gifts FROM the Elves.

To quote her directly, here is a small paragraph about using Elven subliminals from the article that Legolas meme image accompanies:

"This is completely changing from human to Elf. This is Elven immortality. This is being part of the Elven family. This is giving up your humanity. Do not use the Elf series unless you are serious about the Elven path. We would much rather have less people using the Elf series. It would be fine if only a few of you used it because we would be a more solid and dedicated tribe. Don't mess with them. They are not tolerant and forgiving towards humans who disrespect them. Have you read the folklore stories of what they do to humans they don't like?"

After reading this, I realized she was simply outside trying to define a group she doesn't even understand.

Yes, the Elven Light Path is a real lifestyle that goes beyond just dressing elven and being obsessed with LotR, but for many, that is how it starts. And that is more than okay! All journeys must start somewhere. If someone DESIRES to be elven and actively seeks out these sort of videos, it is a sign that they already have a connection to the Elven and Fae.

In truth, we elves would ALWAYS rather have MORE people walking the Elven path, than LESS. Even those who do not identify as elven themselves. We are not a closed club or sorority group that has to audition only the "best of the best" to be accepted in our little exclusive "tribe" as she calls it.

The Elven Path is a path for every and anyone, all who wish to explore it. It is simply about living and seeing life through the eyes of the Elven and connecting with your Elven self. The more you follow this path, the more you become aligned with Elven energy. Being Elven is NOT "giving up your humanity". It is heightening it. Elevating it. Elves are humans. Humans are Elves. There is an innate connection that only differs in frequencies, spiritual maturity levels, and physical form. Those of us who have become awakened to our higher Elven selves and claim to be Elven Souls only recognize this truth and strive to live it. But we are still human and recognize this as well. Regarding her point in the first quote about Elves not being "tolerant and forgiving toward humans who disrespect them" while, this is certainly not an exaggeration, it is not the only truth. Yes, many people have had contact with dark or demonic energies that show their wrath toward humanity, and these people record this experience through fear and lack of understanding, often as a Fae or Elven encounter. I mean, it's like when you're a kid experiencing your first thunderstorms. You may be terribly frightened of them and hate them.. but once you learn what thunderstorms are, what their purpose is, how they work, and the actual threat level.. you realize that, while the fear is valid, it is not needed. Once you understand, you are no longer afraid. Or at least, you know you don't have to be as afraid as you were. The same goes for adults who have experiences with the supernatural and no way to explain or interpret it. Human nature has the flight or fight instinct and this is grounded in fear to maintain survival. But with wisdom and understanding, we combat this instinct. Also.. I gotta point out that many stories about Fae and Elves in history are simply just... works of fiction meant to scare children or entertain adults (but often inspired by Elven/Fae energies).

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PART 2 HERE

#mind power #mind power subliminals #subliminals #subliminal videos #subliminal community #elfkin #elvenkin #elven soul #elven awakening #elven light path #elven light #spriritual #spirituality #my ramblings

[szynkaaa]

The Boy Movie Timeline or Why Did Brahms Have a Beard And How Long Did It Take Him to Grow It

Again, I apologize for any spelling and grammar mistakes in advance.

Malcolm comes by weekly to deliver groceries. For the sake of simplicity, let’s say it’s a Monday, he delivers grocery every Monday.

**** Week 01 ****

Day 01 - Monday

Greta arrives at the manor, bumps into Malcolm who was delivering grocery and showed him the way to the parlor to meet the Heelshires

Day 02 - Tuesday

The Heelshires goes on vacation

Greta does not follow the rules, including throwing leftovers away. We know that Brahms is watching her all this time - he knows PBJ is her favorite, since he said later he made her her favorite

Makes me actually wonder if he made the sandwich because he watched her doing it or if at some point he fished out the leftover from the trash like the hobo he looks like

I’m personally leaning toward watch-and-then-do, I think that despite living in the walls he is being well-fed by his parents, and he has his own little food storage in his lair, he never needed to resort to fishing leftover out of the trash

Brahms “okay-I’m-hungry-but-I-have-standards” Heelshire

That being said, in the first week not too much happened. Seems like Brahms is biding his time and watching, gauging what will happen next. And clearly he had enough food for a week in his storage to feed himself.

Moved the blanket off the doll, that’s pretty much all the shenanigan he did iirc

Goes without saying, but basically all ten rules have been broken here lmao

**** Week 02 ****

Day 08 - Monday

Malcolm drops by again for his delivery + Greta’s paycheck Malcom asked her out  

Greta agrees to go out with Malcolm. We learn that sound is amplified and from the doll’s room, you can hear everything. It’s not clear however, whether it’s just what is being said in the guest room to the doll room (Brahms’ eavesdropping on everything) or whether the majority of the rooms - if not all the rooms - in the house are amplified.

I personally think that everything in the house amplified in some way, maybe some rooms more than the others. Brahms most likely has very good hearing and knows all the sounds and creaks in the house well enough to realize if something is ever off. Plus he’d need to be able to hear everything in case there is the risk of his hideout to be discovered I assume.

Greta gets locked in the attic overnight

Day 09 - Tuesday

Greta is let out of the attic, Malcolm comes over bla bla bla

He also rings the phone once but doesn’t say much beside some heavy breathing.

Must be hard to breathe under that mask lmao

Confirmed here that the reception there is shit and there is no TV or computer and stuff

Day 10 - Wednesday

TL;DR Brahms made her a PBJ sandwich as an olive branch. Greta starts to do take the rules serious and follow the instruction

Day 11 - Day 14

Mr. and Mrs. Heelshire writes the goodbye letter to Brahms

**** Week 03 ****

Day 15 - Monday

Malcom says that he came earlier than usual with his food delivery to check up on her. In the previous scene we hear the phone ringing but Greta decided not to pick up - safe to assume it was Malcom to check up on her. We don’t know whether he showed up a day or two earlier or just earlier in the day. My assumption would be he simply showed up at an earlier time than usual.

Malcolm brings in the post - including the goodbye letter from the Heelshires

Greta’s chalk experiment

Brahms only moves the doll after Greta says that she will have to leave if Brahms won’t show any signs that his spirit is there. I guess that is another nod toward that Brahms as abandonment issue?

Sometime during the day or night Brahms goes and collects the letter and learns about his parents’ passing.

Day 16 and 17 - Tuesday to Wednesday morning

Cole shows up and that’s where everything pretty much goes south

So basically the whole movie spanned across 17 days. We know that on the morning the Heelshires were leaving for vacation Brahms threw a tantrum - it’s not explained why. I personally think is because he doesn’t want his parents to leave him. They did say that they haven’t gone on a vacation in a long time. The way Mrs. Heelshire breaks down and says “Mummy has to go now. You have to be a good boy because you promised us”... oof, it hits hard. It shows that Brahms has been emotionally abusing his parents and the mom sounded like she was at her wits end and just so done with everything (in a very bad way).

Parallel to that scene, during Greta’s escape, Brahms’ voice starts to crack when he says “I’ll be good, I will” and shouts at her to come back. I’ve always felt in this scene he seemed very desperate to keep here there. He didn’t want his parents to go on vacation. Then he finds out that his parents are never going to come back, Greta is there now in their place instead. The news of his parents passing at that point is still very very very fresh.

Now for the reason why I spent 3h this morning putting the timeline together: Brahms’ Beard xD

Tried to find some shots that gives a better angle on just how much beard he has:

The last photo is taken from this article about the cgi mask. I’m 99.99% sure this is James Russell’s face and they were testing a bunch of different masks on him (the eye color and shape of the ear matches) soooo this photo is pretty good reference on how much beard Brahms had under the mask xD

This is where I had to google a lot of things because ya girl does not have a beard so I had to educate myself there. Each beard grows at a different speed.

Based on the volume of his beard, my guess would be that it did take Brahms good 2-3 months to grow the beard? Meaning that well before Greta accepted the job, our boy was already too lazy to bother shaving his beard. He’s living behind the walls and everyone thinks he’s dead, there isn’t really anyone he needs to impress so really, who cares what he looks like. Mummy and Daddy want to see him wearing the mask all the time anyway.

I hope at least he has a decent bear care routine. Again, long beard =/= bad hygiene. Brahms takes care of his hygiene and this is the hill I will die on. Probably orders his socks by colors if he would lead a normal life.

Ending this post with some pic of James Russell with a stubble because who hasn’t imagined shaving the beard for Brahms (I know it and you know it and Brahms’ knows it too):

#The ham talks #brahmbling #brahms heelshire #brahms #the boy #the boy movie #brahms the boy #the boy 2016 #james russell

[maxortecho]

Is RNM purposely trying to lose fans? Why isn't there an announcement for the new season? It seems the excitement is dying out but that's just me. I've seen more popular shows being cancelled so I'm surprised it got picked up again. Happy for Echo but still surprised.

It is what it is. They’re in the middle of making the show during a pandemic, and that’s with a new showrunner and a lot of new writers.

During the S1-S2 hiatus, we got 1) a lot of bts pics and comments from Carina, and 2) NYCC where the bulk of our spoilers came from.

But Carina was very into the social media identity, more than most bts people, and also very into fandom stuff.

NYCC is to sell tickets to an audience, and to do interviews with the press. The point of press interviews being that those journalists will gather material for several shows, in one place, to later tease in their articles when those tv seasons actually premiere. Like, just because those interviews get uploaded to YouTube for the fandom to watch, doesn’t mean that’s the purpose of those events. That’s just a nice side effect.

So this time around there isn’t Carina, which means less direct interaction with fandom; there isn’t a comic con, so no one behind the show has to organise a bunch of spoilery talking points to meet a deadline, and no one is paying them for that responsibility either; and there’s a pandemic, which makes all of the bts and filming stuff much more difficult and time consuming. I imagine it’s been a stressful season to do.

In terms of no air date yet, I would think that’s related to not being 100% sure how other shows currently, or about to be, airing will play out (eg will there be any covid disruptions that unexpectedly affect airing schedules). Again it is what it is and not a big deal in the grand scheme of things imo.

Yeah the fandom is kinda dead, but also the show isn’t airing and doesn’t seem anywhere close to it. The show will advertise itself when the season is closer to airing, because that’s how it’ll maximise on reminding people it’s time to watch. There’s not really a point to advertising now and then again in say 4 months if it doesn’t really make a difference.

While fandom engagement is nice, ultimately what the show cares about is viewership numbers. Getting the necessary viewing numbers is important; whether or not our fandom is talking about the show or writing fic during a hiatus isn’t actually relevant if they maintain viewership (especially when so many of us in fandom are overseas or watching online anyway and therefore not contributing to their profit).

Sorry this is very long but I’ve been thinking about this recently.

#mo talks #anon #rnm asks

[literaryeagle]

For my sixty-ninth Evangelion book review, here is Eva Extra 04. The first three issues of Eva Extra were free magazines to promote the Evangelion: 2.0 movie, and then the fourth magazine (shown above) was sold in Japanese theaters when the movie came out. Eva Extra 04 collects some of the material from the first three issues and also includes more art, plus it comes with additional goodies and is all packaged in a plastic slipcase and folder. I'll show you some of that stuff later in this review.

By the way, there were more issues of Eva Extra after 04, to promote stuff such as the Evangelion: 2.22 DVD/Blu-ray, and the Evangelion: 3.0 movie. Some of them were magazines, and some of them were videos instead... and nowadays Eva Extra is a mobile app that has content from the previous issues plus keeps adding new stuff in order to promote the upcoming Evangelion: 3.0 + 1.0 movie. Times sure have changed! Anyway, even if you already have the mobile app, hopefully you will still enjoy this review to see what the physical magazine and included goodies are like.

This magazine is not available in English or French (although there are a few bits of English text here and there), but there are plenty of pictures. Most of the illustrations are in full color, and there are a few sketches as well. Eva Extra 04 starts with foldout pages of Asuka, Rei, and Mari, all drawn by Kazuya Tsurumaki. Here is what the Asuka page looks like:

Keep reading for the rest of the book review, plus a few more pictures… actually, more than just a few pictures.  This post is going to be image-heavy!

After the three foldout pages and the title page, the magazine has a two-page spread called "Playback Evangelion: 1.0", which summarizes Evangelion: 1.0 by showing a whole bunch of small screenshots from the movie (although most of them are not in chronological order). Then it proceeds with the main topic, which is promoting the Evangelion: 2.0 movie! There is a two-page spread with the movie's English title, Evangelion: 2.0 You Can (Not) Advance, and then Asuka, Rei, and Mari each get a page with screenshots and a small quote. For example, here is the Rei page, which shows her saying "Oishii" ("Delicious") in reaction to some soup that Shinji made:

Next, there is a beautiful foldout page of Evangelion Unit-01 drawn by Ikuto Yamashita (the art on the front cover of the magazine is a shortened version of this picture). This is followed by several pages of sketches and screenshots of the Evangelions in this movie: Unit-01, Unit-00, Unit-02, Unit-03, Unit-04 (Since we didn't get to actually see Unit-04 onscreen, the magazine simply shows a picture of an explosion!), Unit-05, and Mark.06. Here's a piece of a page that has Unit-01 sketches accompanied by some pretty shades of purple:

Many of the screenshots in this section are arranged in very cool and artistic ways. For example, check out how these screenshots of Evangelion Unit-00 are displayed in shapes that give a feeling of movement and speed:

Pretty nifty!

After the pages devoted to the Evangelions, there are three "About Evangelion: 2.0" articles that were originally published in the previous issues of Eva Extra. These articles are accompanied by some photographs, and screenshots from the movie. Here is a small sample of screenshots, showing Rei, Shinji, and Kaworu:

After the "About Evangelion: 2.0" articles, there is a two-page spread with a colorful sketch of an explosion, and then several pages of screenshots. Some of these screenshots are set up in artistic arrangements, like the Unit-00 screenshots I showed you earlier. This two-page spread makes me think of stained glass windows:

The magazine comes to an end with another quote from the movie, and lyrics for "The Final Decision We All Must Take", plus a few pages of credits. But wait, we're not done yet! Now it's time to talk about the extras that come with the magazine. First, there is a flyer advertising some Evangelion-related stuff on both sides. I'll show you one of those sides, which is an ad for the Evangelion pachinko game "~Saigo no Shisha~ The Beginning and the End" ("~The Final Messenger~ The Beginning and the End"):

Oh wow, that's Evangelion Unit-04! Usually that Eva gets blown up before we ever get to see it in anime form, however Unit-04 has appeared in a few video games such as this one.

As I mentioned at the beginning of this review, Eva Extra 04 is packaged in a plastic slipcase and folder, so I'll show you those next:

If you open the folder, you will see four clear pockets. The pocket on the far right is for holding the magazine, and the other three are for holding large postcards that are included as bonus items:

Each of the card pockets actually contains more than one postcard, so now I'm going to take all the cards out so you can see them. Here are the first four cards:

So in the above photo, the images in the four cards are (starting with the upper left card and moving clockwise): A screenshot of Unit-01 that was used as the cover for Eva Extra 01, a picture of Asuka drawn by Kazuya Tsurumaki (the same illustration as the foldout page shown earlier in this review except the background is different), a pic of Unit-01 drawn by Ikuto Yamashita that was used as the cover for Eva Extra 04, and another screenshot of Unit-01.

Okay, now here are the next four cards:

In the above photo, the images in the four cards are (starting with the upper left and going clockwise): a screenshot of Rei that was used as the cover for Eva Extra 02, a screenshot of Mari that was used as the cover for Eva Extra 03, a picture of Mari drawn by Kazuya Tsurumaki, and a pic of Rei drawn by Kazuya Tsurumaki.

Overall, Eva Extra 04 is a nice souvenir of the Evangelion: 2.0 movie. Even though I usually prefer Evangelion books that contain mostly "new" illustrations instead of mainly screenshots, a number of the screenshots are arranged so stylishly that I still find this magazine very enjoyable to look at. The foldout pages, spiffy packaging, and included postcards are pretty cool as well.

Now that Eva Extra is a mobile app, I guess owning the magazine is kind of unnecessary for many people. However, if you would still like to add it to your collection, you can try checking websites that specialize in selling used Japanese books, such as Mandarake.

Well, that’s it for my sixty-ninth Evangelion book review. I have plenty more Evangelion books to discuss, so keep checking my blog for new reviews!

#Evangelion #Asuka Langley Shikinami #Rei Ayanami #Shinji Ikari #Kaworu Nagisa #Mari Illustrious Makinami #Evangelion Unit 01 #Evangelion Unit 00 #Evangelion Unit 04 #Spear of Longinus #book review

[moduinne-and-redjamie]

Here We Go Again (its a long one)

You know in school when they said “ignore the bully and they’ll go away”? Yeah, that’s a load of bull. It never worked in the school yard and it clearly doesn’t work on SM either. 

It’s come to my attention that this guy is at it again, accusing me of another secret identity (seriously, I can’t make this shit up). As if I have time to have kids home 24 hours a day for months, run a household, make videos, and still have a SM presence AND keep track of secret identities??? I mean, it took me 2 days just to find the time to write this. I should be flattered they think I have impressive super powers. I’m not going to focus much time on that, I mean, he’s been proven wrong the last time, he said it about me and my sis before and we proved them wrong. They said they had the IP dress of the person “pretending to be Jess” so my sis offered her’s up proof on twitter for the whole world to see, and they didn’t come back with anything because they don’t have anything, and when Jess posted pics of her place, it’s proof she’s lived in Europe and we don’t, also Bernie-whatever-her-name-was attacked me and my sis on SM and even her friends told her to step back form us cause they knew it wasn’t true-oh yeah, and she’s been blocked off Twitter because of her vile harassment. If there was any sort of proof that I have another SM identity, show it, but you can’t, cause there is none. I’ve never been into crazy conspiracy theories. Most people with 2 brain cells aren’t. 

Everyone knows I used to be a shipper. That was never a secret. I never hid it and I never cared to. I shipped from 2015-2017 or 18 ?-whenever the video of Sam and Cait came out saying they weren’t together. I was never an extreme shipper by any definition at all. 

So first, it’s important to define what an “extreme shipper/troll shipper” is as William Shatner (WS) has said…

I totally agree with him.  I am also FULLY!!!! against doxxing (yes, you know who you are)

Now look at any of the tweets that this guy has shared of mine?  Did I once do anything WS defines as extreme? Nope! Even in 2016, I said I “HOPE” they would get married one day. That is the definition of a “wishful shipper” NOT an “extreme shipper. Nice try guy. Notice all the dates are form 2015, 2016 - 4 to 5 years ago!!!! OMG it’s beyond ridiculous. 

Therefore, I’m not an extreme shipper. In fact, I challenge anyone to find ONE tweet, comment, ANYTHING that I have sent to Sam/Cait their SO, or anyone involved in the cast and crew-guess what, you would never be able to because I never have-not once.  Theres a lot more about this bullies lies below 

Here’s another thing, I’m am not a WS fan, he does his thing and I do mine. I don’t care much either way. If he wants or anyone wants to believe crazy proven wrong conspiracy theories, go right ahead. People who know me don't believe the lies and anyone who does I just don't care about.

BUT I will defend his and other’s right to defend themselves when they’ve been attacked 

See, I even blocked this person who kept insisting I was wrong for defending WS. 

Now to this tweet by Nancy, sure, seems “nasty” BUT what I find interesting is how this guy takes EVERYTHING out of context. This tweet is in response to an Anti-shipper meme that was making its rounds around SM to shoot shippers (before Sam and Cait’s denial video) Now, as I said with WS, everyone has the right to defend themselves if they’ve been attacked. And being threatened to be shoot someone is very extreme. But hey, there are some antis that are very extreme and are trolls. And I don’t confuse them with regular respectful antis or NTS 

I couldn't find the meme, but this is the pic and they wrote that they would shoot us if we said Sam and Cait were together. Talk about extreme. 

This one actually made me laugh!!::: this guy says: 

The guy admits he has no idea what I’m talking about, but somehow uses it as an example of “extreme shipping” (how one can square THAT circle is beyond me-if you don’t know what I’m talking about, how is it extreme?) What’s most interesting is that that tweet is talking about a video that non other than his friend WS shares of NANCY talking about being a respectful shipper (you know, not sending Sam and Cait and their SO hate, doesn’t mean you have to like them, but don’t send them hate, the key-don’t send them hate!). The video was taken down with our YT page, you can type the link into your browser, and see that it isn’t there anymore. 

Here is what I was responding to; you know, what rational people call “context”: 

he even thought it was funny that Nancy called him “Shitner” because in the video she mentions stands AGAINST attacking him

Oh! and this LOL:

“Here’s Nancy tagging Julia on a meme of calling Anti-shippers cows.  I didn’t notice Juila disagreeing” 

oh my. She isn't calling antis cows anymore than Joey is calling Monica a cow! Its a line from friends about OPINIONS and how their moot vs. what Joes thinks “moo”! Goodness gracious. And me not responding means what? You know, it likely means that I didn't see, cause this is one of my favourite lines from Friends LOL Are you tired of being wrong yet? 

Let’s move on to this “ship on” tweet. Oh yes, LOL Again, doesn’t meet WS’s definition of extreme. But also, let’s see what the Straz exec says during the time I wrote this tweet. 

 “”fun kind of fantasy world...go on with your bad self”...so yes “Ship on” was in line with what the Starz president said. If it’s aggressive or harassment, then its an issue, Again, non of my tweets were aggressive or harassing. 

Let’s see what Cait has said about what crosses the line. 

Did I do what they define as “crossing the line”? Nope! Nothing abusive towards anyone from me and definitely NOT anything sent to Sam/Cait or any one associated with them. 

There is nothing wrong with shipping properly. Even Elle magazine is a cute shipper article after Sam and Cait went public about not dating.  

https://www.elle.com/culture/celebrities/news/gmp30165/sam-heughan-caitriona-balfe-outlander-pictures/ ). 

Are you going to now accuse Elle magazine of harassment? Please. I agree with WS, it’s when it gets into harassment of them that it’s a big problem. And I’ve never once done that. I’ve been incredibly vocal against it. 

That’s what I find so hilarious about this. All my tweets form when I used to ship fit perfectly with WS’ own definition of respectful shipping AND Cait's, as well as the Starz exec during the same time period! How on earth is the extreme?? Well, its not. 

Here’s another one he shared-of course out of context again LOL, but here's what I was responding to

Again, I was not rude to this anti troll at all, even though she did insult me. Again “ship on”...there is nothing against shipping as WS, Starz, and Cait has said, harassment is wrong. 

Now, I came into shipping in 2015, I used to follow Puffy but stopped when she sent Sam and Cait hate. So why bring out a tweet with me laughing in response to something she and Nancy said is beyond me. I mean, if it would prove I was an extreme shipper, then he would have shared the whole context right? But he didn’t so I guess it doesn’t. I can’t even find that tweet myself to put the context up. 

The tweet about stalking? Yeah, I’m against stalking-always have been. Somehow that makes me an “extreme shipper”??? I’m against calling hotels to see if Sam’s there and who he’s with-you know who you are. I’m against standing outside people’s apartments to spy on them. I’m against taking pictures of people on the beach and trying to pass it off as Sam-ahem…you know who your are. I’m against stalking where people’s family members are buried (we all know who did this) And, like WS, I’m against doxxing (which extreme antis aren’t). I’m against ANY type of stalking.  

So lets take a look at the context about me saying getting sources from stalkers is wrong. In 2016 neither Cait nor Sam had gone public about any relationship then.  So how did they get the information about Cait's relationship for two years (before she even stated Outlander at this point) and Sam dating other women? Sam didn't go public with any relationship until Mackenzie. So any info would have been from “other sources”. Being against stalking is extreme??? Wow. That’s a new one! LOL. And this is the context of the tweet. 

So really, I challenge anyone to share a tweet or comment or anything harassing/insulting that I have ever SENT to Sam/Cait their SO or anyone in the show. Go ahead! Find one tweet or anything of MY comments that fits WSs definition of extreme/troll shipping. I dare you, go ahead. While we’re at it, any tweet or comment about them lying and being together AFTER their video. Go ahead. 

WS is not extreme so neither are my tweets.

This is the BEST he had to offer about me being an “extreme shipper”?? This the the most “extreme” I get? 

Seems like a bunch of malarkey to me.

Oh! and here are some other tweets from Nancy and me about NOT sending  Sam and Cait and their SO any hate. You don't have to like them, keep that in your own space,  but don't harass them-ever! 

In 2015, intrusive trolls were sending Cait congratulations on her “engagement” to Tony---in 2015! LMAO. Where would they even get this idea? I have no clue, because I never stalked anyone. 

#Julia LeBlanc #and that's that on that

[harlot-of-oblivion]

A Rose of Unconscious Beauty (Part 6)

All work and no play make Dante a dull devil, but when he finds out about his brother's flowery friend he sees an opportunity to cure his boredom. Well, that and his curiosity about what kind of woman catches Vergil's attention. So, he decides to spontaneously visit your garden to see what all the buzz is about.

Hope you enjoy these two finally meeting! And gardening puns...just all the gardening puns. 😆❤

Here’s the link to the list of all the flowers featured in this part. 🌹🥰🌹

Chapter 1: Meeting Dante

Life has been pretty good for Dante since he got back from his little foray into hell. He may still be in quite a bit of debt, but that never stops him from living life to the fullest. For the first time in a long time he does not feel so alone in the Devil May Cry shop. There is just one problem that plagues him now as he leans back in his chair, feet propped up on the edge of his desk as a huge overdrawn yawn escapes his mouth…

He is bored.

Very, very…BORED.

The occasional odd job usually keeps him entertained, but business has been slow recently. There is only so much games of pool and swimsuit magazines before Dante is positively itching to fight something…anything. Nero has taken advantage of this dry spell and is finally getting hitched to Kyrie. Even Vergil, who he annoys into fighting sometimes just for sheer fact that it relieves his boredom for a while, has taken to disappearing from time to time.

Oh yeaaaaah. The mysterious flowery friend.

Dante ponders the potential of that whole situation giving him something to do besides sitting alone in his shop. He did not think it strange when Vergil started to go out more…in fact, he is proud that his brother is finally embracing his humanity and making this world his home. But when his cranky brother came back to the shop with pretty little blue flowers wrapped around his beloved Yamato…well, now that just piqued his curiosity. He tries to goad Vergil into telling him where he got the flowers or where he has been disappearing off to lately, but that conversation usually ends with him being stabbed a lot. Dante got his answer one day when Nero asks if he knew this florist that his old man just recommended to him. It all just suddenly clicked. The constant visits, the soft cloud nine smiles, just the overall secrecy…

Vergil…has a crush.

Just the idea of his brother being head over heels for someone has Dante shaking his head in wonder. Vergil has already left the shop, probably visiting his florist friend if Dante had to guess. It happens to be the day that Nero and Kyrie are supposed to meet their savior of flowers. He wanted to tag along to see what all the hype is about, but Nero absolutely refused to let him. Usually, that is not enough to deter Dante, but then his nephew just had to sick Kyrie on him. And how could anyone say no to her? So, here he sits…extremely bored and very curious.

I have to know if it’s true…if my dumbass brother really is lovestruck…

A sudden idea pops into Dante’s head as he takes out his cellphone and begins to text:

Dante: Hey! Gonna see your old mans flower girl today, amiright?

Nero: NO. Forget it.

Nero: Im not spying 4 u

Dante: NO ONE said ANYTHING about spying!

Dante: Just a couple of pics!

Nero: NO U CREEP

Dante: OH C’MON!!!

Dante taps on his screen vigorously as he provokes his stubborn nephew to reply, but after a few minutes of continued silence he gives up. He rolls his eyes as he groans in mild irritation and drops his phone onto the desk. His nimble fingers stroke his scruffy chin in thought, wondering if there will ever be an end to this torturous boredom…then it hits him faster than the Devil May Cry van. Nico! Dante snaps his fingers and nods his head in approval at his own ingenious idea. He snatches his phone back up and begins to text again:

Dante: Heyyyyyyy

Nico: Wat

Dante: Wanna help a friend out?

Nico: Lemme guess

Nico: U want me to spy for ya, right?

Dante: A couple of pics is NOT spying

Nico: Yeah yeah whatever

There is a long pause and Dante almost thinks his last-ditch effort is a bust. Until…

Nico: Mayyyyybe I’ll do it

Nico: Wats in it for me tho?

Dante only has to think about her prize for second before replying.

Dante: I’ll let you check out my guns

Nico: Ive already seen my fair share of muscles

Dante: Im talking about Ebony and Ivory

Nico: U GOTTA FUCKIN DEAL

Dante clenches his fist in victory. Nico tells him to hold tight while she finds a good hiding spot and the perfect angle. So, he grabs the nearest swimsuit magazine to read while he waits for Nico’s sneaky photos.

He only has to read a couple of pages of articles and check out a few curvy ladies before his phone vibrates. “Well now…let’s see what we've got,” he announces aloud as his hand instantly picks up his phone and eagerly opens up the message. Here she is! is written below two pictures of a bubbly woman with a bright smile and lively eyes. In one photo she is sitting down at a garden table, and in the other she is standing by a bed of flowers. She is wearing white summer dress and has a white flower in her hair. Dante chuckles in glee because now he understands why his brother has fallen so hard: the local florist is a total babe!

Dante is about to get back to his magazine when another text from Nico comes through:

Nico: Yoooooooooo

Nico: U didnt tell me that Vergil was gonna be here!

Dante: Im not my brother’s keeper!

Nico: Im NOT about to get stabbed if he catches me

Nico: Im out

Dante: WAIT

Dante: I’ll sweeten the deal!

Dante: If you get a pic of them together

Nico: DANTE

Dante: Then I’ll let you check out my guns

Dante: FOR A WEEK

A very long pause follows and Dante thinks that Nico is still going chicken out despite his sudden add on to her prize when her response chimes in:

Nico: U better hold up your end of the deal, Dante

Dante: Nicooooo u know I always keep my word!

Nico: Cuz if u dont, I’ll run u over with the van

Dante: No u wont

Nico: VROOM VROOM BITCH

Dante’s amused chuckle echoes throughout the shop. “So, that’s where you’re running off to,” he comments to himself. “The secret garden.” As he waits for Nico’s next photo, he starts to wonder what kind of a woman catches the eye of his broody brother. I mean…sure, you’re a cutie, but Dante knows that Vergil is not so easily swayed by looks alone. Of course, he could be reading into this too much and you’re actually just a really adorable friend…which is why he has to see both of you together. If Vergil has that soft smile on his face and if you show any sign of reciprocating his brother’s feelings…

His phone vibrates and Dante immediately opens the message. How's this for ya? reads Nico’s text along with a bunch of laughing emojis and a video clip. He arches an eyebrow as he presses play. He sees Nero, Kyrie, Vergil, and you all walking together by a bunch of flowers. He cannot make out the soft conversation of the group, but he does hear a lighthearted giggle as you do a twirl. Dante squints his eyes when he notices your hand reach for something in your dress…then his eyes widen as you throw petals into the air. The distinct growl of his brother comes through the audio and Dante nearly chokes on his own laugh. Some of the little pink flowers you threw…are sticking to Vergil’s hair!

I’m totally saving this just for the look on his face!

Dante kicks his feet off of the desk and he leans forward in his chair, never taking his eyes off the screen as Nero and Kyrie step out of frame. He tilts his head when Vergil kneels and you start to pluck the flowers from his hair. Dante has to rub his eyes to make sure he is really seeing these events correctly. Things get really interesting when you move in closer. The awkward expression on his brother’s face is pure gold. But what really has him pressing his nose to the screen is when Vergil stands up and you both just stare at each other. It is like a scene cut straight from a romantic movie. Dante has never seen his brother look so…totally in love. And you are mirroring the exact same expression.

Jackpot!

The video starts to shake and he hears Nico quietly cursing up a storm. The screen is a blur for a moment before it just totally cuts off. Dante is still for a while as he takes in everything that just happened. He honestly did not expect Vergil to be bitten by the love bug. A genuine smile curls on his lips as he thinks that maybe you are exactly what his brother needs to finally let go of the past and start living. But he cannot be the helpful little brother that he is without at least meeting you first. The genuine smile turns mischievous as Dante texts Nico about happened after the video ended and where exactly is this secret garden in the city...

(A Week Later...Reader’s POV)

The late afternoon sun beats down as you wipe the sweat from your brow. You examine the rambling roses you are currently pruning, checking to see if you missed anything before standing up and stretching your legs. Sweet basil, it’s hot, you thought, taking off your gardening hat and fanning your face as you pocket your pruning shears. You think about Vergil and how he always seems to keep cool while wearing a long blue coat in the summer.

The power of Sparda must also include internal air conditioning. You giggle at your own quip as you put the gardening hat back on your head and decide to take a break. As you walk through the multitude of flowers you search for any sign of the Son of Sparda among the flora. He has not called to inform you that he is stopping by today, but that does not necessarily mean he will not show up unannounced…annoyingly startling you before buttering you up with an offering of beautiful blooms.

Vergil has been regularly visiting you in your garden now. Sometimes both of you read and drink tea under the fruit trees, other times you have to work and just let him read in peace while frolicking about your garden. Every now and then he insists on looming close behind you, claiming that he wants to observe how you arrange bouquets and care for the flowers. There are a few times that you somehow rope him into helping since he is so inclined to learn and you must admit…seeing a tall and imposing man handle tiny flowers carefully is so endearing, making you fall even harder for the handsome devil.

You step through the backdoor and walk into your kitchen, heading straight for the fridge and swiftly open the door. When the cold air hits your face you sigh and just stand there for a moment to cool off as you reach for a bottle of water. You close the fridge and head to your office to check the status of a shipment on your computer while you guzzle down half of the bottle. The flowers for Nero and Kyrie’s wedding are well in supply, but you ordered some extra ribbon, wires, needles, and other miscellaneous supplies. It is a little stressful that you only have so much time to pull this off, but that only pushes you to do your utmost best to give them the best flowers they have ever seen. All seems to be order, you mentally note, finishing off your water bottle as you tab out of the website.

Time to get back to work! You go back out to the garden, grab the garden hose, and turn on the outdoor faucet. You adjust the nozzle on the hose to spray into a mist and set off to water some flowers. “Alright, my darlings!” you say cheerfully as you step up to the first section of flowers. “Who’s thirsty?” You happily spray their petals with glistening droplets as you hum softly. One of the many reasons why you enjoy gardening so much is just how tranquil it can be, your mind slipping into a peaceful state as all your worries just drift away and you feel like a flower basking in the warm sunlight.

Although, you do find yourself ceaselessly daydreaming about a certain white-haired gentleman while gardening lately. You cannot get the feel of his slicked back locks out of your thoughts, yearning to do more than just pluck petals from his hair. You wonder if the bergamot scent is from a cologne he is wearing or the constant cups of his favorite tea. And the expression on his face after you picked the stray petals from his hair…cheeks slightly blushing as his gleaming silver eyes stare straight into your soul. The very memory of it has you shivering in delight as you turn around to water the next section of flowers.

“Holy hollyhock!”

The sudden appearance of a man in a long red jacket standing in your garden has you jumping back in surprise. Your foot steps on the garden hose, making you lose your balance and start to tip over. Thankfully, the stranger has quick reflexes and quickly leans forward to catch your fall. “Whoa! Easy there!” he exclaims as he sets you upright, doing his best to avoid the misty spray of the hose still clutched in your hand. That is when you notice his distinct white hair swaying in front of his blue eyes. And his face…if it was not for the slight fuzz of a beard or the care-free expression, he would be the spitting image of Vergil. Which can only mean…

“You must be Dante.”

“What gave it away?” he asks, dramatically holding his hands out to the side as he nods his head in confirmation.

“You wouldn’t be a Son of Sparda if you didn’t scare your local gardener to death!”

Dante tilts head at your answer and smirks as he examines you from head to toe. “I dig the overalls,” he comments as he gestures to your attire. You look down at your green gardening overalls, the phrase "I like big buds and I cannot lie" imprinted on the front surrounded by large colorful flower buds.

“Thanks!” you laugh, turning off the garden hose. “I’m Y/N! I don’t recall Vergil saying that he was going to finally introduce me to you.”

“So, he’s told you about me? Did he mention that I am the better-looking twin?” he jests as he takes a step back and strikes a charmingly rugged pose.

“Uh, he mentioned that you are a demon hunter, a foolish buffoon, and…whoa!” Your eyebrows shoot up as you closely examine his coat. “Your jacket does look really expensive!”

Dante rolls his eyes as he relaxes from his over-the-top stance. “He just can’t let that go, huh?” He shakes his head and lightly chuckles.

“So…what brings you to my garden?” you inquire kindly, not letting his surprise visit distract you from being hospitable. Dante did not mention his brother being present here with him, so you hope that Vergil does not mind you being friendly and helping his brother out if he needs it.

“The girls keep telling me I need something to brighten up the shop,” he explains as he scratches the back of his head. “So, I figured some flowers from my brother’s friendly neighbor florist might do the trick.”

You smile sweetly. “Okay! Do you have any kind of flowers in mind?”

“Well, my mother’s favorite flowers were-”

“Burgundy roses!”

Dante quirks an eyebrow. “Did you just read my mind?”

A giggle escapes your lips as you shake your head. “Vergil told me that his mother had a modest garden herself, and that she grew those roses a lot. Don’t worry,” you affirm as your hand sets down the garden hose. A big confident smile spreads across your face as you twirl in excitement, pausing to strike your own cute pose. “I got you covered!”

He nods his head in approval. “Right on.”

You make small talk with Dante as you lead him to the rose section of your garden, asking if by “the girls” he means the other two demon hunters that work with him. He confirms your guess and grumbles about how unfair it is that you know so much the crew while he knows next to nothing about you. That is quickly remedied though as he bombards you with the oddest series of questions…most of them involving strawberries and pizza. When you tell him that you used to work at the local pizzeria and bakery in your home town he enthusiastically asks if you made the pizzas. You laugh at his boyish glee and inform him that you sometimes helped with the pizzas, but you mostly baked the pastries and desserts.

“Here we are!” You point to a bush full of the dark reddish-purple roses as you step through the various buds and blooms. “Roses of unconscious beauty!” Dante studies the rose bush as you approach it, lean in, and inhale their lovely fragrance. You breathe out in delight and start looking for the best blooms for a bouquet. “Aren’t they lovely?” You look over your shoulder and see that Dante is barely paying attention. His blue green eyes gaze distantly at the rose bush, reminding you a little of Vergil’s silver blue eyes when he recedes into his head. You wait a moment before deciding to coax him out of pensive stupor.

“Flower for your thoughts?”

Dante blinks and shakes his head. “Sorry about that. I was just…remembering something.” He walks over and stands next you, a small grin appears on his face as he peers down at you. “These would look nice on my desk. I’ll take ‘em.”

“Alright!” You reach into your pocket, taking out the pruning shears still stored in there and begin snipping some select roses, carefully removing the thorns before sticking them in another pocket until you can properly tie them together.

Dante quietly watches you for a few moments before he crosses his arms and leisurely leans back. “So…you and my brother.”

You snip a third rose as you glance over at him. “Me and your brother…?” you repeat, hoping he will expand upon the conversation he started. Dante just continues to gaze at you inquisitively. Your brow furrows in puzzlement as you wonder what he is trying to imply…until it suddenly hits you.

No way. He can’t be…

“Are you…Dad-terogating me?”

“Am I what now?”

“You know…that thing fathers do when daughters bring home their boyfriends.” Your voice drops as you do your best impersonation a stern father figure. “What are your intentions little girl?”

“Oh man,” Dante snickers. “And what if I am?” he counters with a puckish smirk.

“Well, Mr. Sparda,” you begin with a cheeky grin, turning to him while you clutch a thornless burgundy rose close to your chest. “I only have the best intentions towards your brother, Vergil. They include smiles, laughter, and a healthy dose of poetry with dash of tea…Oh!” You dip your hand into the front pocket of your overalls. “And lots of flower showers!” Your grin turns cheerful as you toss pink hydrangea petals high into the air.

Dante stares at you closely for a moment, totally unfazed by the petals scattering around him before he chuckles softly. “Well now…how can I argue with that? My party pooper of a brother needs it.”

You giggle and go back to snipping more roses. A fourth one is freed and you begin to remove the thorns from the stem. “It’s sweet of you to look out for him, you know,” you point out with a genuine smile. “You’re a good brother, Dante.”

He smiles back and is about to respond when an awful hellish screech fills the air. Your head snaps over to the direction it is coming from, but you already know what those sounds mean. Dante casually looks over as well, but he does not look as concerned as you. His face reminds you more of the neighborhood kids when the ice cream truck drives by. “Looks like our flower pickin’ is gonna have to wait,” he surmises as he struts briskly towards the commotion.

You pocket the pruning shears and the rose in your hand as you hurriedly follow behind him. The screeching is now really loud and as you step into to a clearing you see the familiar forms of demons just beyond the gates of your garden. Even though you live in a city known for its constant hellish attacks, the sight of their malformed bodies never fails to freeze your blood. The closest one, resembling a large corrupted bat, flies over the gate and hovers near one of your apple trees. It shrieks as its throat starts to glow red. Anger floods through your body when you register what it intends to do to your lovely fruit trees.

“Oh, no you DON’T!” you shout as you run by the gardening tools still laying out, grabbing the garden hoe as you pass by and rush towards the bat-like creature. It swivels around just as you draw your makeshift weapon back and swing up at it with all your strength. The hoe connects and a pained squeal rings out as the demon is knocked back a little bit away from the apple tree. You let out a shuddering breath, quickly realizing that perhaps smacking a demon with a gardening tool was not the best idea.

Multiple gunshots startle you out of your internal dread as they streak up at the bat-like demon. It shakes violently before it drops to the ground and disintegrates. You turn around and see Dante holstering two guns behind his back before giving you a round of applause. “Not bad! Very inventive use of…” his hands pause as he inspects your tool curiously.

“It’s a hoe,” you bluntly inform him.

“Really?” Dante puts his hands on his hips as he circles around you, shielding you from the oncoming demons notice. “Well then…you really know how to handle a hoe!”

You snort and check your tool for any signs of it being broken or bent. “You know what they say…a dirty hoe is a happy hoe!” you joke, flashing him the disgusting bloody residue on the tip. Dante hunches over as a hearty laugh burst from his lips. You feel a sense of accomplishment at making such a clever gardening pun, but it is short lived as a series of terrible growls and roars remind you of the current danger. “Umm,” you mutter softly, “as much as I would like to give more demons a good hoeing…”

Dante reigns in his boisterous laughter and nods. “Yeah...get yourself to safety.” He runs and skillfully jumps over the gate. Before he goes to deal with the demons, he looks over his shoulder at you. “Even though I’m not a hoe I can still get rid of these nasty weeds,” he quips with a wink.

You laugh and shake your head at his own gardening pun before retreating back to your house, sighing in relief as your backdoor comes into view. When you are a few feet away from safety, a low rumbling growl reaches your ears, making you stop in your tracks. You still have your garden hoe, so you hold it up in defense as you scan your surroundings for any immediate threat. It is quiet for a moment…then a series obscure red streaks zoom around you. Your eyes try to track whatever is circling you, but you cannot see what is stalking you like prey.

Your body is quaking now as you turn around to glance behind you. A lizard-like demon with a vicious red blade protruding from one of its scaly arms is leaping through the air straight at you. Your instincts kick in and you raise your gardening tool up in defense, even though you feel certain that it will not enough to block that sharp blade. A series of tumultuous emotions sling around your mind, but one strongly overtakes you as the image of Vergil pops into your head…regret.

I didn’t even get to tell him that-

Before you are able to close your eyes and brace yourself for the deadly impact, a sudden blur of blue spheres pop up and knock back your scaly assailant. A familiar form clad in a blue coat suddenly appears next to the demon and proceeds to hit it with a series of slashes. When he finishes his ruthless onslaught, he turns his back on the demon and dramatically sheaths his sword. Just as the hilt of the sword slams into the case, the demon convulses in pain one last time before collapsing on the ground.

The regret you felt earlier fades away as your devilish rescuer turns towards you. The usual scowl on his face is now even more severe as he scrutinizes your appearance. He may be fuming with rage, but you do not mind, nor do you care. “Vergil!” you cry, trying to thank him for saving your life, but you feel so overwhelmed that no words come out. All you can do is smile gratefully as your eyes well up with tears, so happy that you get to see the man you feel so deeply for again after all.

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[kaheyama]

tableware from the kitchen cabinet (650)

for todobakumonth2020: day 10 - [social media]; cyberpunk au

humour; social media

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@food12345:⠀K finally made zaru soba again. It was a bit on the bland side though, maybe we’re running out of ingredients? Rating: 8.5/10 #itsbeenawhile #workhasbeenbusy #kwasaway #buthesbacknow

@forkontable:⠀WAIT WHO’S THAT FIGURE IN THE CORNER IS THAT K?!????!??!!! @plate12345:⠀@forkontable it has to be right? it doesnt sound like s lives w anyone else @imasplayd:⠀Is it just me or does the person in the bg look rly familiar @food12345stan:⠀@imasplayd I WOULD JNOW THAT TINY WAIST ANYWHERRE I CNT BELIEVE K IS PRO HEOR BAKUGOU KATUKI!!!!! @food12345stan:⠀@food12345stan KATSUKI*** BUT U KNOW WHAT I MEAN IVE BEEN SAYING THIS FOR AGES @kandsbestcouple:⠀guys i think @food12345stan is right if you look closely you can see some green and orange?? that’s literally ground zero’s colour scheme @12345food:⠀I can’t believe @food12345 just revealed themselves. I CANT BELIEVE IT’S BEEN SHOUTO TAKING PHOTOS OF THE FOOD GROUND ZERO COOKS FOR HIM THE WHOLE TIME IF Y’ALL NEED ME I’LL JUST BE IN THE CORNER SOBBING

“What the fuck is this?”

Katsuki comes into the room and throws his phone at Shouto.

Shouto catches it, takes one look at what’s on the screen and chucks it back. He doesn’t want to think about that right now. He’s in mourning. He’s sad.

“Oi,” Katsuki juggles his phone before finally getting a good grip on it, which serves him right. He really has to learn to stop throwing shit at Shouto and expecting him to just catch it, especially if it’s something important like his phone.

“Fine, let me read out the headline for you. ‘Pro hero Shouto has been running a social media account documenting the food his partner Ground Zero makes. But no one knew it was him—until now.’”

Upon hearing the very words Shouto himself read hours ago when the article first came out, he sighs and hugs his pillow closer to his chest.

All of his efforts…

An entire year or so of content, suddenly much more public than he wanted it to be.

“Shouto!” Katsuki’s voice is sharp, and Shouto instinctively looks up.

“I’m sorry,” Shouto says, and man does he sound a lot worse than he thought he was. In fact— Is he actually feeling tears starting to well up?

He brings up a hand to wipe them away from his eyes, and when he pulls his hand back Katsuki is already by his side. He cups Shouto’s face and squishes his cheeks. Shouto tries to pout which he’s sure just makes him look more ridiculous, but strangely, it makes him feel better.

“Hey, hey. You know I’m not bothered about it right? Just would’ve been nice if you let me know, you know?”

Shouto nods, head still in Katsuki’s hands.

“And, I don’t mind if you want to continue running it. The page, I mean. I had a look through it and you seem to have a lot of fans?”

“Yeah,” Shouto smiles, “they call themselves ‘Tableware’. And they say they’re from ‘The Kitchen Cabinet’.”

“Um… Okay…” Katsuki appears very sceptical, as if he’s now questioning his decision of letting Shouto keep the account. “So do you wanna stay in bed or watch a movie on the couch?”

“Movie!” Shouto leaps up and starts heading towards the living room, Katsuki following close behind, “I’ve been waiting for you to get back so we can watch a bunch of things.”

“Alright, sounds good.” There’s a brief pause, and then, “Also, eight-point-five? Seriously? I come home straight from work to make you a delicious fucking meal, still in my hero costume, and that’s how you repay me?”

@food12345:⠀Since I’ve been exposed I may as well accept it. Yes, this is Todoroki Shouto. Yes, I will continue rating Katsuki’s food. Here’s a pic of him furiously cooking because ‘no food of his will get lower than a 10/10’. #imnotcomplainingigetmoresoba #donttellhimthat #waitifialwaysratehisfoodlow #evenifitsreallygood #willhehavetocookitagain #hm

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