#and I almost cried

[demigods-posts]

just imagine percy at fifteen years old. feeling like his life is slipping through his fingers. feeling like he's running out of time to give his life purpose outside of being a child soldier. feeling like the only control he has over is life is by pushing people away. is by running away. so when annabeth calls him a coward. he can't help but agree with her.

#i was listening to non-stop from hamilton and was st that part that's like: #'how do you write like you're running out of time' #'write day and night like you're running out of time' #'everyday you fight like you're running out of time' #'are you running out of time' #and i almost cried #because that song is his song #driven by the predetermined grief of himself #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #pjo text post #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #percy jackson angst

[wil-fae]

I had more ideas, so today is more streamer tim and jason (help me with what their twitch users would be, begging)

#jason starts all his streams that way #while also blasting some random music #its also just heavy breathing no intro #the tim one came to me after i saw a reel of someone cutting a snorange #which is a snail orange #and i almost cried #so i think he deserves it too #it's def been clipped and shared everywhere #dont mind the usernames on the last doodles #some of them (wont say who) is criminal #dubious even #duke's username is so weak but i took a friend's suggestion and ran with it #cuz it was better than anything i had #but jason spent like the next 20 minutes ranting abt the gun #he named her n everything #tim drake #red robin #jason todd #red hood #alfred pennyworth #dc #dcu #dc comics #dc fanart #batfam #fanart #fan art #art #doodle #my art

[somewhat-exhausted]

went into the the newest episode of Loki being like ohhh yeah buddy, in ep.3 they dressed up in period suits and went to the world fair and it was lovely and fun and quite enjoyable outside of the demon clock (she makes me uncomfortable and I want to kick her) I can’t wait to see what’s happens in this one!

and I ended it like oh. oh no. oh my god. what. no. please send help. what the fuck just happened. jesus holy shit. oh no.

#loki #loki spoilers #loki season 2 #hey at least there was no sylvie and loki kiss because for a minute there i thought there would be #and i almost cried #but anyway #the way my jaw dropped #at the end #i’m so shook #fucking marvel and their cliffhangers man #ughhh #now i have to wait another week #mcu

[disco-tic-wonderland]

Oh no… If Harry fails the red encyclopedia check on Kimball, and simply comes up with ‘Hey aren’t Seolites all good at pinball?’

Oh man. So. That stereotype is likely why a junior officer Kim was put on the pinball squad in the first place.

It’s crazy how much racism is presented in fridge logic form. It hits so hard. The shit this man puts up with every day of his life. I just wanna hug him.

Fun fact: look up Seolite in fayde. I’ve been breaking my own heart all morning lol. I was trying to figure out if there were inconsistencies in Kim’s telling of his own background. I keep getting a Feeling about it. He says his grandparents are from Seol, but that both his parents are half Seolite, also his father wasn’t in the picture, but *also* that his parents were killed in the revolution…so he didn’t know his mother either? And he says he’s only a quarter Seolite, but with two half parents, is that correct? In his position, I think I’d tell half-truths as well, or whatever I needed to say to get racists off my ass. It is canon that Kim messes with racists by playing into stereotypes, and bless him for it because he’s so damn funny about it.

#there’s one instance where fascist Harry says something racist and Kim looks at him quote Almost Sadly #and I Almost Cried #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #disco elysium meta #also the Very Interesting line from Shivers begging Harry to make it right after the failed authority check in the church #makes me think that not just Harry but literally their partnership is what’s going to be instrumental in keeping revachol alive #also a Very Very Interesting line where Harry still tries to tell a furious hurt Kim that he spoke to the city #and if your rep is higher #kim doesn’t just dismiss it as crazy talk but INSISTS upon hearing it #which is #INCH RESTING #Mr Rationalité is taking your hunch about the end of the world seriously for a moment #this gAME #I am obSessED

[hold-my-dr-pepper]

"go buy this thing!! now!!! go!!!" please stop i am begging you i am BROKE and BUSY please stop pressuring me to buy your shit i am going to cry stop please

#i got so many car ads that were like “YOU SHOULD BUY A CAR N O W !!!” #and i almost cried

[yepthatsacowalright]

I was watching a Bacon_Mom Minecraft stream the other day and she said something about how sometimes you have to cheat by going back and forth between Creative and Survival modes, but it’s okay, because sometimes you have to switch back and forth between creativity and doing what you need to survive in real life, too. I am still staring off into the middle distance thinking about this.

#she also read the beginning of a book she wants to write about how she got into playing minecraft to spend time with her son #and i almost cried #best most wholesome wisdom-dropping minecraft streamer out there <3 #minecraft #twitch #bacon_mom

[nocanonhere]

“I will never forget you - that I promise. And if you ever feel differently, there will be a place waiting for you in the heavens.”

#about me #gale dekarios #bg3 Gale #god gale #i know i said i wasn’t gonna get emotional about him ascending #but i wasn’t expecting him to say this #and then at the party #he says you can be his chosen #if that’s what you want #and i almost cried #i need access to the galerian weave ASAP #I’m a sorceress i need alllllll the access #since my Tav is an elf and Wyll is human #i imagine she’d be very fucked up about having to bury Wyll #i think she’d stay with the kids for a bit #but tbh imma go live in the heavens with Gale #sad besties for life #I’d come visit my children of course

[bugeyedfreaks]

Omg I forgot to mention that Blossom is and always has been my favorite PPG and she's the glue that holds them together for sure, thank you for sticking up for her and having good taste :)

Of course! I will always stick up for the best PPG of them all! 💪

#oajsdfoijasoiroiajsr oh boy that reminds me of a fun fact: when i met cathy cavadini and told her she was my favorite ppg #she also said that i had good taste #and i almost cried #validation from mom 🥹 #so yes this applies to ALL blossom fans and we appreciate the best of the best 💖

[jonny-b-meowborn]

I often think about that episode from The Good Place where Eleanor meets her mother again, and it turns out she's actually a good person now for her new child. I often think about Eleanor breaking down in disbelief, because if her mom can be better for Patricia, she could've been that for her. And I think about how my mom is so much better now, she's changed so much for me and my siblings, she's a better person and parent. But doesn't that mean she was able to become that earlier? She's good to adult me, why couldn't she be good to puppy me all those years ago? If my mom has truly changed, then that means she was always capable of change, but puppy me just wasn't worth changing for

#god that episode gets me #i havent watched that show in ages but ive seen it three full times so its deeply engraved in my brain #and im just. thinking about it #mostly cause yesterday in group therapy we had a lil meditation session about connecting to our inner children #and i almost cried #because that puppy needed her parents #and her parents became better only when he didnt really need them anymore #sigh #bee buzz

[mike-wheeler-hater]

I burned my tongue so bad I can barley taste anything

#it was a spoon full of hot food #at I couldn’t spit it out because my mother was right there #it would have been embarrassing #and i almost cried #it was so hot #byler #tagging byler because why not

[spoopy-fish-writes]

Wow. My family tell me that they’re proud of me and that I’ve done well. So easily. Horrifying

#my grandmother apologised for the fact that my mother was making me clean up around the house when I was on vacation and my grandmother #hires people to clean around the house because she’s too old to do it herself so us cleaning was pointless and excessive anyways #and I almost cried #mortifying #spoopy fish rambles

[thewomanwithmissingfingers]

#music #was on the train when i heard this recently #and i almost cried #winter

[unoficialy-married-to-ace-austin]

thinking about the time I watched Alex Shelly wrestle and he high-fived me on his way to the ring

#It was my first wrestling show #and i almost cried #i was so fucking excited

[swarmkeepers]

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#sola said #I’m aware that this is one of those ‘most people can just do this and it’s not a cause for celebration’ things #but this is the first time this quarter that I have actually done the 10am due date readings and response the night before instead of #the day of #and i almost cried #turned in my project an amount of time late that is a) under an hour and b) explainable by time zones too which is a lot better #than I thought I was going to manage #on god I’m going to get my academic life back on track #like fuck man I would like to not be tired all the time and to not cancel on things I would like to actually be at and to engage with my #whole brain but also #I would like to scream into a void for a little bit. and I’m working on it #don’t reblog

[bluebayard]

I know stairs are scary. My aunt's house has a nightmare half spiral staircase. Halfway through, the stairs start getting smaller on one side.

NIGHTMARE STAIRCASE AUGH WHY

#in long beach theres the queen mary right the historical ship #and in the isolation ward theres a list of everybody who died riggt #and the number one cause was Stairs and i was like THATS STUPID. ITS JUST STAIRS #before going on the murder staircase and almost eating absolute shit #and my sister being like OKAY NOW IMAGINE THIS MOTHERFUCKER ACTUALLY ON THE WAVES. ITS NOT SO STUPID NOW IS IT LANCE #and i almost cried #answered asks #IN SHORT. HATE STAIRS

[sennamybeloved]

today i realized how horrifically insecure i've become about my interests, and how sad that is making me.

i was thinking about how i used to be able to make 2000+ word long posts on a selfship amino community about my league of legends f/os (despite no one there knowing who they are), or how i could write paragraphs to people about my special interests, or how i could make giant comment threads on my spam insta about whatever the fuck i wanted to, or how i would come to this blog in late 2020 - early 2021 and spam post about lucian and senna for HOURS.....i'd go on and on in the tags about their stories and how much i loved them and i'd make like dozens of posts a day and i was so happy!!

but i barely touch this blog (or my spam insta) because i just... feel so embarrassed about everything that makes me happy. i have it in my head that everyone who sees my posts is silently judging me. not because i selfship or whatever, but because i'm too talkative or too passionate and have the tendency to overexplain and repeat myself. i just feel like too much. and i wish i didn't.

i miss being able to infodump to people who wanted to listen, i miss being able to post what i want on my social media platforms. i miss being able to enjoy things without getting so sad. i don't know what my deal is but it really sucks, and i hope i can find a way to overcome this soon. i wanna take my passions back. i want to take my special interests back, i want to take my selfshipping back, and i really, REALLY wanna take this blog back. i just wanna take everything back. i miss being able to be myself.

#deep deep sigh #i didnt even mention my lovely best friend who used to let me talk to him for literal hours about lucian and senna #and recently he asked why he doesnt hear about them anymore #and i almost cried #because it made me realize he does care #but im too ashamed of myself to see that #SIGHHHHH #i hope this is an 'it gets worse before it gets better' moment cause i have been trying to change this thought process cause this is #pretty sucky #lotus vents #sorry for the negativity but god #i miss just being able to be myself #self ship community