#and i remembered it three days ago

[theellipelli]

planning for the future

#please know that this was all written and thumbnailed in june #and i remembered it three days ago #and decided to finish it #anyways. #so flower husbands amirite #they are the pinnacle of a couple doomed by the narrative #they know each other through a hundred lives and only fall in love during the one where they can never have their happy ending #they still have an iron grip on me #as you can tell #scott smajor #jimmy solidarity #mcyt #traffic smp #trafficblr #comic #3rd life smp #life series #art #digital art #grian #gtwscar for like a single panel #also ignore all the inconsistencies this was all done from my memory of 3rd life #i know grian isnt in the bunker but i dont care enough to fix it #also literally just ignore any typos i beg of you #cw blood #cw corpse #cw death #long post

[keymintt]

as i stand plainly in the shade, unseen

#art #painting #oil #oil painting #coyote #coyotes #traditional #traditional art #scopophobia #my art #oil painting i missed youuuuuu #i started it a few months ago but i finished this bad boy in like. three days ghlfdhgl #the power of remembering there was a Deadline you wanted to submit things to lol #i'm not holding my breath that the phx art museum is going to accept me for the Big Emerging Artist Award but. gonna shoot my shot! #anyways i love you coyotes my favorite transgender allegory animal #greatest hits

[fooltofancy]

Hi!! How about Summer Shells for your favourite love interest from the latest IF you've read?

it's just field of asphodel in here rn, tbh, and i am nothing if not predictable.

#don't talk to me about chitons i don't wanna talk abt chitons #fields of asphodel #hades #vindraws #thank u i needed to take a break from the thing i was working on and i remembered i STILL HAD ONE MORE ASK #blessed #this palette did my psyche good also thank u #goddamnit i read this like three days ago but i have no object permanence and forgot his crown is sans leaves #TOO LATE I MERGED THE LAYERS we all go down together #brainless brainless flat

[pizzazz-party]

me and my 90,000 dollar/bell sword.

#started picking up animal crossing again. #i bought it once two years ago then went Nah. but lately im having fun with it #im on the third house loan now. i dont even remember asking tom nook for it. i woke up with a new loan one day and a new room #p #(​yes i bought the hakama clothes. dont look at me.) #edit: it was three years ago yikes #pizzazz plays animal crossing

[pacific-coast-hockey]

Adam Raška, Zachary Émond, and Ozzy Wiesblatt at Silicon Valley Pride 2021

#san jose barracuda #zachary émond #adam raška #ozzy wiesblatt #rasky rocking the sharks-flavored pride flag cape KING SHIT #the fucken archaeological dig i went on to find these photos my god #the backstory is i remembered two days ago while driving that a couple barracuda had gone to sv pride a couple years back #and went WAIT WASN'T ONE OF THEM WAS OZZY- #and had dig through three separate twitter accounts before i found the tweet from the sharks bc the sharks don't know how to tag #and then it was ALSO rasky and émond!! who is currently down in wichita sorry king #very sad that i'm missing warm ups for the cuda pride night bc i would love to take a sign that just says bisexuals 4 adam raška fanclub #and see how he reacts to that lol

[ode-to-fury]

I just love the fact that genuinely - genuinely - Gale does not listen to the words that come out of his own mouth sometimes

#god hes such a Character #bg3 #gale of waterdeep #like off the top of my head i cant remember #but there have been multiple instances where he says something #and I like just look at him for a sec #cause he just- doesnt seem to realise hes going against what he said like three days ago #sometimes its heartbreaking and sometimes its funny but its still a thing

[solarisgod]

WE GOT A PHONE INTERVIEW FOR OUR CO-OP TERM PLACEMENT THIS WEEK

#[ ✨ : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ] #[ I THOUGHT THE THREE SLOTS WERE FILLED 'CAUSE WE SUBMITTED OURS AT THE LAST DAY OF THE SUBMISSIO NDSJGBDSJNKGSDJ ] #[ we've never done a real interview before. we had done a few practices yes but we don't remember how it goes ] #[ as the practices happened several years ago so 😟 ] #[ I'm so ???? NERVOUS especially it's a PHONE interview so it's just. it seems so much harder to manage than in person?!??!? ] #[ I have to see the expression and body language etc!!! ] #[ I'm too autistic to handle phone interviews adnnskfsfns ] #[ but hrgrhgrrgrgrghh CHIMERA CLUSTER GONNA BE GETTING THAT BIG W ( HOPEFULLY ) ......... ]

[crybaby-bkg]

it is truly so insane how reading motivates you to write so much more

#wasn’t there disc horse about this a while ago??? or am I remembering wrong??? #and I don’t mean this in a shady way but seriously!!!!! #I haven’t had any motivation to write in so long #but I’ve knocked out two (soon to be three bc the last book just arrived) books in less than a week #and I feel as tho I can finish my novel in the next two weeks!!!! #idk if it’s bc of inspiration or just excitement to be able to submerge myself in creativity again #but it’s genuinely so fulfilling #find yourself a good book (preferably a series) and I’m very certain #that it’ll help you work through your writers block 👍🏽 #possibly downside tho: you’ll be so enraptured in reading you wont wanna write so you can keep reading ALSJDKDJD #—in store chit chat! 🍫 #okay on to the final book for the day ☝🏼

[identitty-dickruption]

one of my lecturers commented "I would be interested to pick this back up in class discussion" under my mandatory post to the reading forum..... kill me....

#screaming! wracked with anxiety! #I think he thinks I misinterpreted the entire reading and honestlyyy I cannot remember exactly what the reading said #or what point I was making #I wrote the response two days ago and read the thing three days ago #yikes!!

[heybaetae]

those translated posts you see from random dudes in the military who claim they know a tannie and are blabbing their mouths on the internet about them, no matter how polite they say they are, i’m just like okay well everyone in there is a damn snake huh

#a few weeks ago when namjoon reposted someone’s story bc they took a group pic and that dude gained a bunch of followers…. #oh that guy knew what he was doing #i’m sorry i just don’t trust a single fucking person they’re in there with lmaooo #remember when dudes were GIVING INTERVIEWS days before they were about to enlist with jin oh my god it made me so sick #these ‘friendships’ are barely three months old how tf do we know anyone’s intentions

[yooniesim]

some ppl that work in healthcare... really shouldn't work in healthcare.

(heavy heavy tw for medical situations & death/child death in tags, do not read if you're sensitive to it... I'll delete this later just had to vent)

#ceci speaks #nonsims #delete later #was just thinking about all the terrible things ive heard while being a hcw #from fellow hcw #and reporting it never helped because it was all shitheads all the way up #then i see more assholes going into that work and its like #really #ive experienced so much death since covid started and truth be told #it messed me up pretty badly and changed me as a person #im not the same person i was four years ago #and i wonder #would it affect you the way it affected me #would you change and grow some empathy if you had to see that many people suffer and die #even with some of them being terrible people it still hits you somehow #you think youre tough and youre hot shit when youre in school #and a couple years later youre not even blinking when youre trying to get blood out of a dead three month old #but when you go home you hyperfixate on the fact that it could be you or anyone you know at any time #i remember the christmas i watched three people code and die the same day #and the baby that already had rigor in their little feet bc theyd been dead in the crib way before they were even brought in #im not even a nurse im in lab for gods sake #but lab and rad dont escape this shit either #and i think if youre already a person with low empathy #the trauma must turn you into some of the people i worked with that just hated everyone they came into contact with #being cruel to patients or discriminating against them #why even go into that work if youre that kind of person #and i dont mean hcw have to be angels #its a difficult and grueling line of work that is underpaid and understaffed #but how hard is it to not be fucking evil #dont become a hcw if youre a discrimatory evil fucking piece of shit is what im saying

[tibli]

Beloved Husk

Here I stand in her scorched remains.

This is not the first time, nor will it be the last, and her vacant body has acclimated to my presence.

No longer do her damp, wooly tissues squelch beneath my feet-

they have long since dried out, compressed into a single mass of dull, cotton-candy pink.

In some places, her flesh has completely burned away, leaving nothing behind but blackened, splintering bone. There is no ink in the world rich enough to match the soot that clings to her skeleton.

Sun rays filter through her blown, empty eye sockets, and the daylight is no less beautiful for its thoughtless transgression.

How dare you illuminate her suffering so callously! You have made her into a spectacle- a cadaver to be prodded and studied, rather than a soul to be mourned.

My cheeks are wet, but I can't be sure if it's from grief, or the ever-present haze of smoke. The cause doesn't matter- I am weeping all the same.

#poem #poety #body horror #for anyone wondering- this is about the immediate aftermath of my house catching on fire on mothers day earlier this year #we were living in a rental house up until our house was rebuilt and we were able to move back in #the house didnt burn down per se- it was still standing. but the kitchen was completely destroyed as was most of the living room #i refused to go into the house for a little while at first because i didnt want to look at it. but i eventually did go in #and this poem is kind of a symbolic recollection of the various times i'd gone inside before they started repairs #this has been my home since i was three. although my room was opposite from the kitchen and unscathed bc my door was shut #there were still a lot of sentimental things that were destroyed. #and since the house was built so long ago it looks like a completely different place now #its not the same. and thats been kind of hard for me #i thought i was over it but my dad watched this show with a house fire scene and i had to leave the room bc i was remembering all of it #this was my way of getting some of that grief out #im not much of a writer so this probably sucks but i dont care. and maybe someone else will find some value in it

[dontmeanyoudontmissit]

.

#I know I'm likely catastrophizing and also that a day or two won't make a difference #But I noticed a lump a month or two ago and then dismissed it as not a problem #I cannot remember why I did this. Like did it go away? Did I forget? #Either way I noticed it again today. Spent twenty minutes trying to reach my doctor's office #Before I was fully losing my mind (it's terrible on a good day to keep hearing 'we have a patient portal!' and 'we do urgent care on week!' #Once a minute.) And had to hang up and roll into work 30 minutes late #Just tried to call them again and they are at lunch #Like!! I just want an appointment and for someone to tell me it's not cancer or do a biopsy if it is #Because the internet suggests it could very well be cancer!!!! #And I'm limited on what else it could be based on symptoms so like. I'd like to speak to a fucking doctor #So I can know for sure #Either way I'm starting to investigate a new practice because this one has reassigned me three times in 1 year #So I want to try to find a place that is more stable and doesn't have 20+ minute wait times to speak to a human #Update that I called again and had to hang up after 20 minutes waiting for someone to answer #If the bridge weren't an issue I would show up in person #Anyways I'm now hoping to get through at another place and switch PCPs because this is unacceptable #Even the 'are you sick and need to get in today' option had a 10+ minute wait #Why even have a phone

[sherokutakari]

Guess what idiot missed their jury summons

#THEY SENT ME A PIECE OF MAIL NEARLY A MONTH IN ADVANCE #BUT DON'T LET YOU CHECK YOUR INFO UNTIL THE DAY BEFOREHAAAAND #HOW IS MY ADHD ADDLED ASS SUPPOSED TO REMEMBER #anyway it was 3 days ago #abd i forgor #hopefully of the three options #jail fee or reschedule #they uh #take pity and go for number three #🙏

[elijah-inmymind]

hi!!! i want top surgery!!! my parents are helping me with some of the cost but i’m poor!!! here is my gofundme!!!

https://gofund.me/b5f3e092

please donate if you can, like i said i am getting some help from my parents which i’m extremely lucky to have but even with that help it would take years for me to save up the remainder of the cost by myself. plus accounting for recovery costs like time off work, rent, potential complications, any unexpected costs, i just want to give myself the best chance i can of going into this prepared.

if you can’t donate then do not donate!!!! i know how hard life is rn for so many of us, take care of yourself first. just reblogging or sharing this post would mean a lot to me.

i just booked my first consultation with my surgeon for May 2025 and i’m so excited!!!!!

#el has a life #el is trans #trans ftm #trans positivity #transmasc #gofundme #ftm top surgery #fundraising #happy rant incoming #i’d like to give a particular shoutout to a trans man i met at a three day long camp like 5 or 6 years ago and haven’t spoken to since #who within 20 minutes of me posting this link on my instagram story immediately donated $20 #every other person who donated so far has been a close friend or family member and i’ve been brought to tears by their generosity multiple #times already #(hi irl friend. yes over u too lmao) (ily) (💕🤘) #but it just really touched me that this man who i knew for a total of three days YEARS ago would help me out like that the moment he saw it #it’s just a small private little moment of trans solidarity that i hope i remember forever #i love being from the country with this flag 🏳️‍⚧️

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

#delete later #i have three medical appointments in the work day in the next three weeks #one on Thursday then two mid/late January and i know that its good bc i need these appointments but i get so #anxious that ppl ay work are mad at me for having so many #im also scared about thirsdays one bc its for my ankle and hand pain and ironically the hand is way better and the ankle is also #more stable. something clicked again a couple days ago and fixed the pain in half of ky foot. no idea what happened there but #the click itself hirt like a bitch which is new. most of my pain doesnt start with a click and most clicks are painless #so fun #im just in a permanent state of being afraid i wont be taken seriously. my physio wanted a scan on my foot so om gonna #relay that but like idk what theyre gonna say. also if they do want to swnd me for a scan that's gpnna be ANOTHER appointment #so fuck me i guess. at the very leasy its not like severe psin any more so they wont send me to a and e for an x ray like they did #with my hip that one time. that would fucking suck to explain tp my manager #hey julia im fine but ive been sent ro rhe hospital for a scan so i guess ill be back when im back? #fuck me im anxious. and i hace so much apprenticeship work tp do i want to scream #also was distracted by my aching hands bc often they just ache abd successfully triggered myself so bow time to play what #is actual acge and what is remembered ache oh joy #one of the other appointments is gender clinic appointment abd im hoping to get referred for top surgery now ive been on t #for 9 months. waiting list gonna be like four fucking years but debating saving like mad abd going private bc jesus Christ #i cant bind bc of sensory problems and constantly aching ribs and last time i taped i ripped chunks of skin off so kinda #think i shouldn't do that again but like it sucks. not as bad now that my voice is dropping abd shit but still not fun #we'll see!