#and okay yeah maybe that’s the case

[onlythebravest]

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#some more whining from me #I had a really bad day and I’m so not in the mood for food #I just want to eat some ice cream and drink some soda (and water) and have that be enough #but if i do that my grandma will have so many opinions on it and tell me to eat multiple times #and if I still don’t eat then tomorrow if I so much as mention that maybe I have a headache or am tired then I’m gonna hear about it #that it’s because i didn’t eat properly today #and okay yeah maybe that’s the case #but I’m 27 years old I can decide this for myself #I can make the not-so-great decision of not eating dinner bc I don’t think I can amange after my bad day #it’s not like I’ll make the same decision tomorrow regardless of how good/bad day that is #but I guess I’m gonna try and force it just so the day doesn’t suck even more #god I wish my place was ready to be lived in

[safetydance]

Detective Pikachu Disco Elysium crossover

Thank you @brainrotdotorg for this brainworm and the dialog in the second pic

#my art #Disco Elysium #pokemon #Detective Pikachu #crossover #disco elysium spoilers #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #pikachu #he's cute but he probably smells SO BAD #kim only tolerating harry climbing on him after he's bathed #also Kim meeting this pikachu that can speak to him and just being like yeah okay this is fine #lets solve this case and maybe we'll find the missing detective along the way #I feel like Harry would figure out on his own that HE is Harry after a bit then it would turn to figuring out how he got like this

[cuppajj]

one bite couldn’t hurt

#im honestly p good at not giving games money especially if you can grind for the same thing manually #*looks at guild wars 2* #so maybe I’ll be okay #and I need my money for uni too so LMAO #yeah but yall are telling me I can play the game without paying for anything so. if that’s the case then i can grind. im v good at it #*looks at guild wars 2 again* #i sure hope this isn’t the beginning of a new hyperfixafion. I’ll let you know #cjj sayeth #this IS your fault btw #(and also the fault of really good character designs in that game)

[iobartach]

been thinking lately 👀 ;

of the idea that miguel is not using his full strength? like if i were to put an arbitrary figure against it, let's say he uses about 70% of his full potential, on average? maybe less? for reasons that may revolve around, or relate to... him being not so keen to lean into the more spidery aspects of his messed up existence? because he, perhaps, still wants to approach things with a human perspective?

this is on my mind so much

#hc #put the humanity back into this spider guy! i beg of you! #i just. yeah. i love the thought of conflict with himself? #he's not out here celebrating the fact that he's living proof that his own gene technique worked well #nor is he exactly about that woe is self pity biz. #yep he knows he's several kinds of fucked up biologically speaking #and in my specific mig's case - technically dying at an accelerated rate :( - BUT #he gets on with things. he endures. he seldom complains. #could blame that on alchemax maybe? but idk man i just-- #he tries. and that's huge. <3 #okay i'll shut up now hytjuhygt

[cinna-bunnie]

thinking about older women

#hey auntie 👉🏾👈🏾 #some of them b dancing on that line and i am looking respectfully (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) ♡⁠ #many such cases... giggling at how often w how many ppl aksjak family friends.. or it be ur own family 💀💕 #someone's mom would joke about snatching me up like 😭😶‍🌫️ ma'am first of all .. would #and the touchy prima (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) ♡⁠ yes please put ur hands on me i am so comfortable with physical contact (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) let me hold ur hand ♡ #🚶🏾‍♀️ being hot is nice sometimes #the forbidden fruit... hey tía (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) 👉🏾👈🏾💕 #some of the exchanges I've had were so 😵‍💫😵‍💫 ma'am.. i got a lil crush on u. #← not my actual family. i do not have one. engaging in one from this perspective is a lil different yfm 🚶🏾‍♀️u don't have to get it #or maybe u do idk im zooted rn and feeling rly gay abt aunties and older women in general okay 😩💕 #i need to go sweet talk someone's tía i know she's looking beautiful tonight 🚶🏾‍♀️ i see u girl. i love ur hair your nails are beautiful #i love your color coordination you have such good fashion sense (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) ♡⁠ #ur earrings are so pretty i love your necklace i love your bracelets (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) lemme go help y'all cook or I'll make the drinks whateve #let's talk.. ♡⁠ #Lupe... what are you up to these days 😩💕 my favorite. a family friend #i kinda see family friends as family too sorta bc my fam was p small when i did have one so a friend would be a basically auntie #but also not.. technically. so ╮⁠(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠╭ idk. they r tías 2 me though and i love them. #they r so nicey 2 me ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ ♡⁠ #she wanted me to say her name n talk to her in Spanish a lil bit and she ate it up 😵‍💫 (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ she loved the way i say her name #i had such a crush on her omfg. low-key but not but yeah but respectfully..

[gregoftom]

pretty sure i’ve seen romance movies with scenes like this

#tomgreg #where do i even start with t his horseshit okay here we fucking go. #so tom's first instinct is to go to greg when he's on shaky ground with shiv. the only way he feels safe is to have GREG with him. #who tf would want greg as an attack dog??!?!? lets be fucking real. when he says that i think he means just a dog. just someone loyal. #who loves him and won't dick him around. i think he's pretty tired of it by now. #he wants an alliance with like. ok in this show who would you pick to ally with. i love greg but he's abso useless in terms of skills that #would keep you safe. if anything TOM would keep HIM safe. in fact tom himself says who else has taken care of you. literally spells it out. #he even says greg is a joke; will fail; will fuck up; so what use does he have for tom other than companionship. other than love? #a dog might do tricks for you but your main reason for getting one is usually love. right? at least it should be. it would be in tom's case. #and don't even fucking get me STARTED on ''do you wanna come with me? ...sporus?" like girl. #you know what you told him about nero and sporus right. and now you're saying to him; yeah i was talking about you. #you and me. you're my favourite and i wasn't joking when i said i'd marry you. #the whole while tom is asking greg to be his attack dog his fuckin. eyes and expression we get it you're in love with him. like it's ridic. #and all this coming with phrasing it sounds like they're fucking ELOPING. I HATE IT!!!!!! SHUT UP! stop saying that fucking shit god. god #they are so annoying. anyway #the way tom's voice breaks as he says he has things to do [what things. will i find out later.] and the deal and!! #what am i gonna do with a soul anyways... i have you what do i need it for. and as that paragraph said somewhere. he castrates his soul. #then they giggle and are fucking annoying and greg'S HANDS LOOK LIK EHE'S ABOUT TO IDK. HUG TOM? AROUND THE MIDDLE MAYBE #or do something else. and then they just hug instead and i fucking. ugh. i've had enough tbh good fucking bye

[mangora]

Some people say that they don’t like certain TD characters because they were being mean in episode abc or are a bad friend to xyz and like, yeah, okay that’s not good morally, and while I personally love immoral characters I can understand why they come across as fully unlikable to some people. But also, I think it makes sense that they’re mean. If a grown man made me sleep in a cabin with no AC in the dead of summer surrounded by bugs (or monsters) for several months, and only let me eat dirt and mashed potatoes, and had me do life-threatening stunts every few days, and let my peers humiliate me on international TV or humiliated me himself, and I was surrounded by people I either clash with or would inevitably be separated from if I befriended them, and I couldn’t participate in any of my hobbies during this time or leave this shitty camp, and I was contractually obligated not to leave and even come back several times if requested, and I didn’t even get out of school for this, and I almost died several times, and my home life and mental health probably sucked even before this, and all my relationship/friendship issues were immortalized on network television forever, and I likely didn’t even win the show, and I didn’t get paid for this otherwise, and I was also 16 during all of this…then yeah, I’d probably get pretty mean too.

#and the award for the longest run-on sentence goes to: #alex’s td rambles #also I think this goes for them just generally being emotionally distressed. like yeah of course they are #you tried to explode them and kill them with sharks and then made fun of them in front of millions of people #like idk. maybe I’d start freaking out and mistreating people around me if I was constantly on edge also #not saying it’s okay but there’s definitely a reason like these characters arent innately evil they’ve been pushed to their limit #in most cases

[oifaaa]

Cass, Steph, Bruce, and Damian are the only bats that remember Tim exists, smh.

Dick will act super friendly towards Tim, but it's only because he feels guilty about not knowing this stranger that definitely acts like he knows him. The dude kinda looks like the stalker he put a restraining order on a few years back?

Oh fun it's my turn to be super confused friend why would dick not remember tim? - he is literally the reason why tim is here at all it's all dicks fault he could of just ignored tim but nooo - like dicks really put up zero fight tim was like hey I know who batman is and dick was just like chill guess your coming home with me- dick half of gotham knows who batman is just take the kid home!! I swear batman puts up a bigger fight against adopting random teens

#ask #anon #wait maybe people dont know the reason #why i say jason doesnt know how tim is? #okay just in case #the reason why thats my hc #is bc the titans tower fight is ooc and no longer canon anyway #and i use that as an excuse to say tim just hallucinated the whole thing #bc thats just something tim does alot #he hallucinates #hes fine #he also has just a vendetta against jason #bc jason died #like a bad robin would #so yeah my hc is jason doesnt know who tim is #tim hates jason with a passion #its not a memory thing #its a jason was never introduced to this kid #and this teen is really hostel towards jason #so he never got to learn his name lol

[moonchild-in-blue]

Can someone please either validate me or send me to the Corner of Shame? This is very silly but I'm wondering.

So. I was talking to my sister the other day about movies and such, and she told me of one she recently watched with this one actor. And I casually mentioned how much I hated him. Not in a "he's a bad actor" or "he's a bad person" way. Nothing to do with whether I find him attractive or not. Just in a "he looks the most punchable guy on earth and I have this irrational rage against him" way, to the point that I just can't watch movies with him without being annoyed.

My sister looked at me like I was crazy because, "what do you mean you hate the guy". And I told her yeah? That's normal? Don't you have at least one person you can't stand for no reason?

Sister was like 😬😬😬 No??? Which is wild to me, because I could easily name 50 (which I did - not 50 but we were getting close to 20 before i got too annoyed lmao).

Now she thinks I'm slightly insane (/j) (I made myself angry and may have referred to a few individuals as "stupid" and "obnoxious"), and I kinda don't believe I am the only person alive who feels this way. But also she's an incredibly empathetic extrovert, while I'm a very low empath socially anxious creechur so. There's that?? I guess ?? Idk.

Can anyone relate to this? Or am I the weird one?

Also wait. Little disclaimer: I am not generally a violent person AT ALL. Do i get annoyed and angry easily? Yeah. Do I feel like bitch slapping someone right across their stupid face? Yeah, sometimes, sure. Do I do something about it? Not really.

I can be real bitchy and extra sarcastic and petty SURE, but that's the most I'll do if I am legitimately angry. Mostly I just go to my room and cry 🥺 (crying when angry yes it me). So yeah. Before yall think I have unsolved anger issues.

#if you're curious. the guy in question is Thimothée Chalamet #look. from what i've seen he's good at his job and he seems a genuinely nice guy #nothing against him at all like. you go timmy 🙂👍 #i do however have an illogical boiling rage against him #i don't know what it is but i genuinely feel like punching his face everytime he pops up #maybe in another universe we were arch enemies. maybe i was his school bully. maybe HE was my school bully idk #obviously i would never do anything like that but if there's one person that looks like it could use a wedgie is him #and don't get me wrong. i DO feel about about it cus it's not like i'm choosing to be irrationally angry #and this goes for a bunch of other people #i just!!! 😡😡😡 #seeing him (as in his vibe and general presence. nothing to do with physical appearance) #is the equivalent of trying to use cling film while it keeps sticking to itself #you know that one family guy scene with Peter and the cling wrap?? YEAH. THAT. genuinely so annoyed #i've always assumed this was a common thing. as in. there's always at least one person that gets on your nerves for absolutely no reason #but i guess maybe not???? *am* i a hater??? #and btw this ONLY happens with either celebrities (in various degrees) #or people irl i've had some close proximity to <- and in this case it's always justified. i don't generally hate irl people out of nowhere #(okay there is ONE person in specific BUT i do feel slightly justified IMO. and in any case i always make sure to be as nice as possible) #(because poor girl didn't really do nothing wrong. i just have never vibed with her. i tried!! but yeah) #idk where i'm going with this lmao i might just ending up deleting it #whatever. don't worry guys you're all safe i love you very much and wouldn't slap any of you (unless asked you little freaks 👀) #darya talks to herself

[bereft-of-frogs]

I wrote a longer and more overwrought version of this post when I was slightly drunker (yay distillery book club) but the shorter, more sober-clarity version is: it's so ridiculous that about 50% of my current fandom experience is based on things that are now 25 years old (thanks for the reminder, lucasfilm) and yet I'm terrified of being left behind because I 'can't move on' from something that is now barely 5 years old

you could probably attempt to make some sort of sweeping statement about this, like the lifespan of media now versus the early 00s, but what it's really about is my own issues with abandonment which is affecting both my ability to move on (I really struggle with the 'crew breaks up between installment thing', always have) and also the general fear of behind left behind, rather than any real trends in fandom as a whole

ok I think that's enough for superb owl sunday

#anyway yeah in case you were lost i just can't engage with jedi survivor content #and it's honestly less about like my own writing #because as mentioned idk i'm still having a lot of fun with the prequel trilogy/JA fics lol #and more that i start to feel guilty because i have to skip fics and gifsets #i can't always follow people back who follow me #and i hope no one takes it personally #or as a statement of quality of jedi survivor because i'm actually ok with like 99% of the plot!! it looked good! #it was also just that i maybe let fallen order become a load bearing wall in my emotional health by accident #whoops #it just twice now has helped me out of some pretty rough patches and....i think it *is* the emotionally mature thing to...stop #to just let canon keep going but hold myself back at a certain point #okay now for real that's enough for superb owl sunday #is this reassurance seeking? yes but it's less so than the earlier draft so send post #anyway

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is wishing desperately for physical and emotional connection but not pursuing it because it has romantic connotations and you dont want romance. Its knowing that your friends in relationships will never be the same with you again.

please don't cut yourself off from physical and emotional connections. i promise that things will be okay. yes, you will lose some friends - but you can always make new friends, even new friends already in relationships, and it will be okay.

#caelan-yeah #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod axel #like i just want to be totally real this sounds like a trauma-based fear response #of 'i need to cut myself off or i'll get hurt' #when it is normal to to experience some conflict in any relationships - friendship included #and in this case your conflict seems to be 'my friends have other relationships they are prioritizing' #and like. it's hard but *they are allowed to do that* #you can communicate with them though! #you can say 'hey i feel sad lately because it seems like all of you are hanging out with your partners and not me' #'could we hang out more? maybe we could set up a regular hang out time?' #and maybe that will help! and if it doesn't - you can try expanding your friend group #join an interest-based group like a club or class or community org #talk with people #it sucks when you feel like you're starting from nothing but i promise it will be okay

[catastrxblues]

hi so i just finished bridge to terabithia and now i’m unwell and my eyes are red because i’ve been crying before i’d even reached 20 minutes of it for i actually knew what was going to happen and by the time i reached an hour something something i just straight up sobbing screaming into my pillow. and now it’s 12 am and i’m still thinking about them. because god, look at them, how they were, the little world they lived in, wouldn’t you just love that, to run away, to escape, to grasp that childhood naivety and innocence that you lost a long time ago, to feel the sun in your skin and the air in your lungs and to paint fantasies and laugh and play and run hidden away from the world and find an old run down tree house and decided to make it your own little shelter and pin up canvases on the worn wood and paint and let your creativity goes wild and have someone understand you and gets you and do it with you, and wouldn’t you just love to have something so constant, so sincere, so genuine, so pure, so real, that there wasn’t anything else. if i knew i was going to cry this much, if i knew how much space this movie would make in my life, i wouldn’t have started this movie tonight. i would have been in peace on the floor of my room, not realizing how badly i actually want something like this even though i would never unironically admit this to anyone in my life or even myself when i’m outside of the familiar place of my mind, for that matters

#bridge to terabithia #how am i supposed to recover #i wasn’t planning to write a paragraph about it but yeah i kinda love this movie i guess #i needed a good cry and the universe didn’t stop me from choosing this movie i don’t know if that’s nice or simply mean #i was going to watch la la land after this but that’s not gonna happen now #i’m not reading back what i wrote otherwise i would just delete it because i’d think this movie deserves better more coherent thoughts #and i’d say that i’d just rewrite it tomorrow but then i wouldn’t #because nothing would ever beat the “everything i create has to be great or nothing” in me #and i never am proud of what i made unless it’s supposedly only for my viewing #so i actually don’t know if what i just wrote make sense but yeah #my eyes feel so weird right now #also the ending was definitely up to interpretations!! (spoiler alert* just in case) #i myself personally like to believe he dreamed up the last 30 minutes of it and didn’t even go to the museum #and so he’ll just wake up definitely shocked but then still find leslie in her house who was just about to meet him so they could go!! #and because the rope was cut off by the lightning from last night they decide to build the bridge so everyone could cross safe and sound!! #i like my ending better they really should change it #but no all and all the end was really beautiful #even though it took me maybe even an hour to get through it because i keep sobbing and have to repeat over and over to hear what they said #yeah okay anyways sorry for the rant<3 #i’m not sure what this is #but glad i could get it off my chest #let’s see how to tag how to tag #movies #just #childhood #whatever <3 #nadirants

[indelicateink]

things that probably happened after the laudanum and arsenic kicked in

maybe

[somebody attacks lestat, something something memory is a monster]

Per Claudia's hobby of recording the dying words of her victims, lestat's final words are, "Mets-moi dans mon cercueil, Louis, Louis."

[something something louis changes out of bloody fancy dress clothes to put on new clothes to get blood on while disposing of bodies]

also over here in justfuckmeupsville i'm noticing louis folded lestat's left arm in to cradle lestat in his lap (lestat's arms had fallen out to the sides when he was on the floor)

something something somebody puts lestat in his coffin. somebody puts him out with the trash.

IWTV: ["'Claudia had wrapped Lestat's body in a sheet before I would even touch it, and then, to my horror, she had sprinkled it over with the long-stemmed chrysanthemums.'"]

In Louis's initial fantastical retelling, he drove them to the boat, but I mean he is not looking super together there, was he too distraught to be the one doing the driving, who knows

#iwtv #interview with the vampire #iwtv amc #some days i even wonder if antoinette was there bc it seems her purpose in physically being at rue royale #was to be the one to kill claudia #bc wouldn't that put amc!lestat on the same level as armand? wanting claudia dead to hold on to louis? #it's...kinda important to his future characterization that he never y'know #tried to murder his daughter (though he ofc acknowledges the colossal fuckup in creating a vampire child) but #okay yeah i'm digressing here #maybe memory is a monster there too maybe not season 2 come through with answers! #daniel molloy is on the case

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya is rather touch averse, cringing away from casual contact people give him under the guise of being distracted or idle movement. He's used to it, the Ragnvindrs and Adenlinde got him used to frequent affectionate physical contact, but it can still be entirely Uncomfortable if he's touched by someone outside those he is close to or someone he's otherwise Allowed to touch him.

#hc; kaeya #//Mentioned before; but am Elaborating on other aspects since Aven get brain juices flowing for this #//Unlike Aven; he's FAR more tolerable of people who touch him unprompted. & more willing to indulge for himself outside his comfort people #//Unless he himself had actively given the indication he doesn't want it; in that case THEN he's likely to anger & retaliate #//But yeah; his response is usually Discomfort & trying to get away from it one way or another. Can tolerate it to appear friendly; sure #//But would rather not want people to touch him so easily. Is decently okay with brief touches tho; like shoulder pats or the like #//Will actively lean into it & encourage further touching ONLY as a means to an end; adjusting any wandering hands only when going too far #//Esp if he can use that like a carrot on a string–if they concede to what he wants; they can touch him more. Maybe MORE than just that too #//He won't initiate any touch unless he deems it Absolutely Necessary; WILL internally scream if they Immediately reciprocate the contact #//Uses it as a 'reward' sometimes; a little pinch of the cheek; a hug; getting right into their space; if he sees they'll react favorably #//Maybe more if they have connection enough; like Huffman or one of his longer-running liaisons. Is p ok w/ sleeping w/ them as reward #//Sometimes he forgets some people don't like that he does this; like Rosie. Tries the tactic to get a favor then Remembers #//Absolutely apologizes; feels mortified when she scrutinizes him for it. Esp since she'd be one of few ppl who KNOWS just how Averse he is #to it in the first place. Him slipping up like that in front of HER is smth he'd STRESS over. She could hold over his head for all he knows #//How can he even joke abt it? Worse if she asks abt his way of doing things or indicate she doesnt Like that he uses himself as bait #//Has absolutely accidentally tried to seduce/bait sb like that who he absolutely should Not have. Like Jean. Ended up playing it off like #a joke between friends; but damn near had a panic attack from the guilt the moment he was safely in his office. bc Jean is SPECIAL to him #could he treat her like THAT? How could he almost let her SEE that side of him? His casual charm and facade are ONE thing #//But him actively doing something like THAT; esp for Jean of all people; is COMPLETELY off-limits; no matter his feelings #//Actually; especially BC he harbors feelings for her. Ppl like Lisa on the other hand; he is VERY comfortable doing this with/to #//She GETS the flirty habit & dishes it back without losing image of him in the way someone he regards at Jean's level possibly could #//And as far as Lisa knows; it's Only a playful habit; not a means to an end. The ones who prolly Know might be certain folks in the church #//But that's just bc he gets frequent checkups after every lil Rendezvous of his. Which is why he's got dirt on Every Single Person There #//Except Barbara; but he absolutely makes SURE she's not the one he's dealing with whenever he goes. Wants to spare her his messes #//Damn; veered a little but it's alright. 'A little'; HA. Nah; my tags are but the cluttered corkboard of my thoughts jhdbfjdf #//Diluc; Addie & Jean are the people he most Fears finding out abt his methods. Doesnt wanna THINK abt how they'd feel/regard him after tha #//Knows for SURE it'd be painful if the way they treat him changes even a SLIGHT. ESP Addie; he can bear the other two; but Addie??? #//Nah; he'd be fucken DEVASTATED. That's the ONE person he knows hold true unwavering unconditional love for him; no matter what #//To do anything to damage that? He'd be so fucken GUTTED. He expects everyone to get fed up with/disdain him at some point. But not HER #//Keeps this shit on the down low by always having dirt on the people he gets Involved with; if not using keeping it up as an incentive

[yinyangbuns]

sometimes i forget that wwx was like. canonically eaten alive by corpses. like. that’s a thing that actually happened. why do we never talk about this. wh

#mdzs #mxtx #mo dao zu shi #danmei #wei wuxian #wwx #lyly chatters #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #gdc #i’m just like #i #i forget okay #my brain just goes ‘oh yeah he. died’ #but no he canonically got torn apart and eaten by his own corpses and was still alive when it happened #so he probably felt it happen #maybe he lost consciousness from the effort of destroying the amulet #which is really best case scenario #but if he DIDNT?? #that’s so #ow #no words

[lesbianjudasiscariot]

important aspect of haterism is remembering a hater does not care about you

#like if hater post targets you/something you do just laugh at yourself and move on #you don't need to write a whole paper about how actually its okay to like/do something #it is never that deep #idk i'm not a professional hater but even when i make posts i'm not like actively fuming about it #sometimes yeah posts lean into like full on middle school bully territory but in that case just block em i guess #maybe i'm just to chill for this #but if an inconsequential mean-spirited post actually hurts my feeling i just scroll past it #once again my tags are like 3x the length of the actual post #peace and love #♡