#anyways all that to say that in contrast

[jahiera]

it does make me a little sad that feasibly emrys and astarion probably can’t spar often… their fighting styles are too different. when sparring is a STAPLE of my cliches.

#I mean I guess they could but it would be soooo…. #well maybe compelling. in my head Astarion strikes always to kill / no dallying / less flamboyance than one would expect with him #I have NO idea where he learned to fight honestly in his 200 years but I can only imagine that with what his lifestyle was like #there wasn’t actually much room for egregious flamboyance or ‘showing off’ — strike to kill. end the fight fast #I’m sure he knows a few cool knife tricks but I just see him as a bit scrappy in real combat #leaving as little room for error as possible not because he’s concerned about show or technique but that pure survival drive #a bit desperate a bit unrelenting. ready to be as cruel and brutal as he needs to to Live and Win. #anyways all that to say that in contrast #Emrys fights very… honorably? for lack of a better word. #very much the Mighty Glacier trope. #she’s burly and immovable. she doesn’t bother with tricks. she just strikes hard and true and to the front #never to the back. #And I think that scrappy cheater vs bulldozer to the front…. #it COULD be fun in a fight. but it would be more fun in a REAL fight than a spar. #Where would they fight! I don’t know ❤️ #bg3 spoilers #ish?? #not really #oc. emrys

[theladyeowyn]

Joyce, Jim, and their kids.

#strangerthingsedit #stranger things #stedit #stranger things spoilers #joyce byers #jim hopper #jonathan byers #will byers #el hopper #joyce x hopper #(kind of?) #* #that scene in s1 of hopper reassuring jonathan and telling him that joyce is strong #in contrast to lonnie putting him down and saying that joyce is 'fragile' ... actually something that can be so personal #anyway. all i want from this show is for this to be made official in the final season even though i don't dare to hope

[blorb-el]

Calling golden age Clark an anticapitalist/socialist paragon is only true for prewar golden age Clark (1938-42). The instant the US entered the war and the character started to be used to sell war stamps, he couldn't act as anti-authoritarian; destroying a car factory for its use of unsafe, inferior materials (action 12), trapping a mine owner in his own mine to force him to improve conditions for his workers (action 3), or tearing down tenement housing in order to force the government to build better, safer apartments (action 8) are all actions that would be seen as actively traitorous in the wake of Pearl Harbor. The Superman office contributed enthusiastically to war propaganda in all the forms of media the character was appearing in (comics, newspaper strips, radio show, and the Fleischer animations). By the end of the war Superman the Character was firmly established as Establishment. Postwar golden age Superman is still devoted to doing the right thing, of course, but now he helps raise money for charity, donates his time and labor to build orphanages, that sort of thing. He's not trying to tear the system down... much as I wish DC would let him try.

Instead of Siegel's original justice cryptid, the furiously kinetic Champion of the Oppressed outsider Superman, postwar to modern day we get a Clark who shifts back and forth on the spectrum of establishmentarianism depending on the writer, but who is generally not allowed to act directly against institutions (Wolfman, Morrison, Waid, Byrne, and Maggin for example all have WILDLY different takes on the relationship between superman and Authority). My personal favorite Take is that Clark as a person is not establishmentarian, but the establishment of superheroes and their conduct codified (or calcified, if you prefer) itself around him and his personal conduct. Both in a Doylist sense and in the continuities where he's the First Superhero a Watsonian one. How does your behavior change when you know people are looking to you to determine what's right and what's allowed for themselves? How does that constrict you, when your actions are dissected and taken for justification? That's why I always think of him as a person whose natural inclination is to be chaotic good, but who restrains himself into being lawful good. Clark would sure LIKE to Solve Capitalism. But he both can't, and will never be allowed to... and that tension, far from being a bad thing, can fuel a good interpretation.

#all this bc i saw a take essentially saying clark fights systems and bruce helps individuals. and i'm like. #i fucking wish they'd let him fight systems. but they don't. he can't. to say that's the fundamental difference is an artificial distinctio #between bruce and clark for the sake of differentiation when really they're very similar. i get it contrast is interesting but #Actually They're Both Firemen #clark kent #golden age clark my beloved #superman #meta #anyway. im far more familiar with early superman than modern superman but part of that is bc by reputation he's swung more #into establishmentarianism which makes me either snzzzz or actively Seethe depending on the skill of the writer. so additions welcome

[absolutely-not-my-main-blog]

Everyone says they love a devastatingly painfully slow burn romance until I, It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia—

#macdennis #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #text #pay no attention to the tags behind the curtain hashtag normalcore hashtag silly #meme #anmmbposts #*girl who still has faith in them and trusts the structure in spite of it all* #*girl who has thoughts on the tragedy of stagnation in the sitcom format and parallels and contrasts to waiting for big mo in the themes of #change and what must happen first in order for such a lasting change to occur* #meant to say waiting for g*dot but anyway #ignore my tags look at my post #it wouldn't be the gay gay*ss love story for the ages without the excruciating wait because of who they are and what the show is #and what they're trying to break and subvert #as long as there is eventually follow through which i again do still have faith in/think they're legit building towards even if it feels #like a tease because of how many ways other media has burned us but they still have time to make the build up mean something

[imminent-danger-came]

YOU think MK is a selfless forgiving good boi mc. I think he's self-centered, but that doesn't devalue the good deeds that happen as a result. We are not the same

#like to me. everything for MK is motivated by himself like #Protecting the city? That's what a good hero would do #And he wants to be a good hero and to protect *his* friends #Crying in 2x10? It's more about him failing as a hero/successor than it is about the innocent people in danger #to me anyways #Like any time he's ''seeing the good'' or ''forgiving'' an antagonist it is literally just him like #Saying the things he wants to hear/believe #Like #If Macaque isn't a bad guy then he can help and if he can help then maybe we can win #It's about the personal reassurance #Like. ''Forgiving'' DBK? Well that's easy. If DBK is a ''good guy'' now then he's not a problem for MK to deal with #And MK fucking LOVES not having to deal problems #Like it's easier for him to just ignore past history than it is to deal with it #4x14 is the ultimate example of this for me like #MK see's that Azure's crying and is then willing to be all like #''You still can. You're the only one who can'' to try and help #And it's like. Sure. MK doesn't *not* want to save/help Azure #But at the same time #Wukong was able to stop him so easily. In contrast to samadhi fire Mei where MK ran directly into the fire #Like the moment MK sees himself in you it's over okay #He's gonna be like ''you're just like me'' and self-centered about it #And it worked for like #Mei and Macaque and Azure #But it didn't work for Spider Queen #you know #lego monkie kid #lmk #lmk MK #lmk rant #For the love of god stop making MK Steven

[llumimoon]

quick doodle of regular <3

#dndads #dndads s2 #normal oak #technically. not really #perfectly regular au #cal draws #not gonna bother doing all the big tags i dont feel like it #im tired LOL #anyways this will make ablot more sense very soon #(i am working on a comic abt regular) #hes just my little guy! made me feel better to draw this #cant wait for regular to speedrun teenage angst at lightning speeds #sorry abt the bad contrast with the words #it looked better when i had my brughtness up when i drew it but oof thats kinda hard to read #it says [...you too huh?] #its not rlly important i kisy put that there to fill the space bc i was too lazy to crop the canvas

[widevibratobitch]

when i say i am obsessed with him

#'indescribable insolence' <3333 #dumas writing aramis in '20 years after': #i am going to create a character that is so egdy sarcastic provocative and irritating to everyone around him #and im gonna make stirring shit being an asshole and gruesome murder his favourite hobbies #and he did just as he said. bless him. #most character ever #and what makes him even better is the contrast between 20YA!aramis and t3M!aramis. its hilarious. #my man really went feral. midlife crisis some call it. i call it character development of all time. i call it serving cunt. #aramis as a musketeer a soldier a man in a profession where you're literally paid for killing people: #sweetness and mildness personified writes poetry and theology essays in his free time never gambles dreams about dedicating his life to god #aramis as a priest: whooo boy i hope i get to fUCKING KILL A PERSON TODAY >:D #anyway. i love him a normal amount or something. #the three musketeers #alexandre dumas #anyway. i reread this scene and the charenton battle today because it's definitely in my top 3 aramis moments #also the english translation on the gutenberg page omits two lines of dialogue that i remembered from my polish translation #and it goes something like #de Chatillon says 'i think you're looking for a fight sir' to which Aramis basically responds with 'oh nooo you *think*? Imao'. iconic. #(and its even funnier cause that makes athos immediately go 'aramis stfu plz' and aramis just goes 'no <3' im obsessed with them) #vingt ans apres #do i have a #twenty years after #tag?? not sure tbh i think i dont but tagging just in case ig

[silverwhittlingknife]

Hey I was stalking ur page just now and tripped over the “dick and tim and food” posts and it made me think of how, during the “Robin in keystone city” arc, pizza is brought up at least twice, and both times tim specified that he doesn’t want pineapple on the pizza. BUT iirc tim normally enjoys or at the very least tolerates pineapple on pizza, and I wanted to know if you thought maybe tim was avoiding pineapple pizza bc it’s a tim and dick thing for him and he’d miss his brother or something

Or maybe I’m just being weird or something idk

HEADCANON ACCEPTED I LOVE THIS

(the context of the panel is that dick ordered pizza, and alfred told him that he could've made food, so dick is saying "uh huh but i bet you wouldn't willingly make anoudille and pineapple pizza though" and alfred is all "no i would NOT and i can barely tolerate that you're eating it in front of me")

anyway so YES clearly tim can't eat andouille or pineapple pizza without Dick!! it'd be lonely

#i guess the alternate possibility is that tim doesn't actually like pineapple on pizza #but pretended to dick that he did early in their acquaintance and now it's too embarrassing to say he doesn't actually #but i do think of tim as someone who's very hung up on little symbols #and he would totally have a bunch of nostalgic feelings about some food item & decide not to eat it out of loyalty #ijust in general i tend to think of both dick and tim as very past-focused characters #which is not the usual take on dick esp. now when it's more popular to contrast him 100% with batman #where it's all 'bruce is past-focused and that's BAD and dick is future-focused and that's GOOD' #but some of the comic moments i always think of are dick going 'don't you REMEMBER' to bruce in b 416 #and then tim going 'i remember it all' in lpod and 'i want him to be the batman i REMEMBER' #like. they're both sorta very invested in the past and in preserving what was good about the past #and then r0 is just dick and tim telling each other their backstories & prodigal is all about dick's memories #and dick and babs have a bunch of fights about whether dick is too nostalgic for the past in nightwing #anyway i think my point is that dick & tim would separately ascribe emotional meaning to some random pizza they ate together #and then be unable to discuss it w/anyone including each other bc they're repressed #ask tag

[staarry-skies]

— usagis jealousy during bmc, and if it really is just that? a meta

(read more bc i anticipate this getting very long)

before we talk about bmc lets set the stage a bit: usagi has just defeated the dark kingdom no more than a week ago (its unclear how much time passes btwn the two arcs but i can’t imagine its longer than a week, or even a couple days, as we see usamamo exchange their keepsakes at the end of act 14, something they promised they’d do the next time they saw each other during act 8, which means that this must be the first time theyve seen each other since defeating the dark kingdom, which again, i cant imagine took longer than a couple days) which means she has just experienced: watching her boyfriend die in front of her, being overloaded with a host of tragic memories from her past life (one of them including watching her boyfriend die and killing herself), her boyfriend getting brainwashed, having to kill her boyfriend because there was no getting through to him, killing herself due to the aforementioned trauma, and finally finding out her friends died— sacrificing themselves for her to bring her back. so thats all Crazy we can agree that is crazy for a 14 year old girl to go through? right? okay? good.

now that we’ve agreed on that can you imagine a little girl falling out of a large portal in the sky then threatening you with a GUN (fake sure but she didnt know that originally) and demanding you hand over the overpowered magical artifact you JUST endured all that trauma trying to protect? and then that same girl brainwashes your family? obviously usagi isnt going to trust chibiusa right away. i mean look at what she’s working with, and then when she tries to bring up these concerns no one believes her. i mean sure WE as the audience know chibiusa isnt a threat, and the others think she isnt because they cant see a little girl as particularly threatening but when you look at things from usagis perspective, then OBVIOUSLY she’d be suspicious— i mean she repeatedly refuses to answer any sort of questions (obviously this is not chibiusas fault, shes a scared child and the questioning terrifies her further, but again, think about this from usagis perspective). and again id like to reiterate that all of this is directly after the dark kingdom, usagi hasn’t had any time to heal from those fresh fresh emotional scars Of Course she’s a bit irrational.

now, to the topic at hand, was usagis jealousy really just that? regular jealousy at seeing mamoru spending time with someone who isnt her (even if the person in question was a small child that logically posed no threat to her relationship)?

obviously i dont think so, but let me prove to you its not just simple irrational jealousy but also usagis ptsd and specifically her abandonment issues that are what cause her to react in the way she does.

again, id like to remind the jury of the shit usagi has just gone through and how that all has caused usagi to develop some very serious abandonment issues. we see usagis worst fear(s) represented in nightmare sequences a handful of times throughout the series. exactly twice actually, once in infinity and once in dream and each have the shared theme of her loved ones leaving her in some way. in infinity they turn against her and berate her before ultimately dying, and in dream they’re simply dead. again both times it is very clear that the root of what she fears is abandonment.

these abandonment issues however, first begin to present themselves in arc 2. we even get a nightmare sequence in arc 2 similar to those of arcs 3&4. most interpret this as usagi just being jealous usagi. however really look at it, its not that she’s just afraid of mamoru being taken away by chibiusa, she’s afraid of them both abandoning her. look at what she says “wait! where are you going? dont leave me behind!” (or “wait! where are you going? dont leave me here!” in the eternal edition, i prefer the crystal translation simply because it makes it more explicit her issue is them leaving her alone) if it truly truly was an issue of jealousy why would she be afraid of them both leaving her behind? why say something like that? wouldnt it make more sense to say something like…. i dunno “chibiusa? dont take him from me!” instead?

once again, everything she goes through in arc 1 is a big contributor in this, however recall arc 2 begins with the senshi being picked off one-by-one (all except minako), and usagi can do nothing but watch and it eats her up inside. she quite literally begins to lose everyone dear to her all over again even while the last time is still so fresh in her mind.

and during most of this what does chibiusa do? she stays secretive, doesnt give usagi any information even when usagi tells her she cant trust her if she doesnt. (again i wanna reiterate that this is no fault of chibiusas however its not usagis fault either) so of course usagi begins to register chibiusa as a threat, and again with the information she has + her inarguable connection to the black moon clan this isnt a logical leap in the slightest.

thus when mamoru begins to spend more time with chibiusa instead of her it causes two things to happen. a) usagi is left without the emotional support she desperately needs in all of this (through no fault of mamoru, he completely misreads what usagi needs in this particular situation, he thinks that by helping with chibiusa it’ll ease her stress to have one less thing off her plate, however of course we know this does the opposite) and b) she begins to register chibiusa as a genuine threat to mamorus safety. usagis terrified of losing him all over again when she just got him back. look at this scene, i mean really truly look at it. look at what usagis saying, this doesnt sound like the ramblings of a jealous girlfriend it sounds like someone who’s terrified of losing their most important person all over again. “stay here with me. never go away. ill do everything i can to protect you…” (or “…i wanna be with you. dont go away. ill protect you with everything i have” in crystal, here i prefer the eternal edition again bc i think it more explicitly defines usagis problem) these lines just don’t make sense under the simple jealousy interpretation, what does protecting him have anything to do with envy at the time hes spending with chibiusa and not with her? nothing. shes not upset at that, she puts emphasis on protecting him because thats the true root of the problem, shes afraid of losing him again to yet another supernatural threat after the crystal.

and to close out id like to show everyone the viz dub version of this scene because i think it sums up my points incredibly well, as well as making it abundantly clear what the root of usagis problems Really are, specifically through the inclusion of the line “i wont lose you again”

#sailor moon #bishoujo senshi sailor moon #bssm #pgsm #pretty guardian sailor moon #sailor moon crystal #usagi tsukino #sere.txt #sere stfu #i will defend usagi tsukino till the day i keel over and DIE #like listen do i think jealousy was part of it #eh maybe a little #but i think that jealousy was mostly due to the aforementioned IssuesTM #because we see usagi actually jealous in arc 3 #and shes nowhere near as explosive and irrational #she keeps it to herself mostly #granted this is also later in their relationship and a whole year later #but still its such a stark contrast #and when usagi admits to being jealous #thats all she says that she was jealous #none of this: please dont leave me ill protect you #type of stuff #anyway ill shut up now #i probably shouldve added this to the meta LOL

[commsroom]

Jacobi and Eiffel both externalize all their problems, but Jacobi projects his own flaws and failures to be other people's fault, while Eiffel thinks his redemption/solution is only in other people's opinions and out of his control, discuss.

i've said before i think the most interesting thing about jacobi is that the finale is the start of a character arc for him, not the culmination of one. and i think this is a big part of that. in things that break other things, he says, "it wasn't anybody's fault. everyone was doing their jobs right, but it just... two guys died. good guys." and i think that line makes a lot of sense if he actually was at fault, or at least feels that he was and can't admit it to himself. in dirty work, he realizes he blames himself for maxwell's death. and then: "i was wrong and people died. and the only thing i can do is not be wrong again."

it creates a perfect loop from his recruitment to where he's at in the finale: two people are dead, but he survived. he's out of a job. what now? i think that's an interesting set up for how jacobi's storyline post-canon could mirror and intersect with lovelace's - they're both people who have been blinded by hurt and anger and desire for revenge, and have had to step back from that ledge. they've both lost "their" people - the only survivors of their respective missions. i don't believe jacobi will ever willingly stay in contact with the rest of the hephaestus crew, but lovelace...? narratively, it could work. "i've got this friend" about lovelace in the finale is an opening. if jacobi's arc so far is a loop, and he's finally open to change, then he and lovelace could also share a thematic link re: breaking cycles.

as for eiffel, i would go so far as to say he completely removes himself from the equation. he projects his desire for redemption onto other people - people like hilbert, who absolutely don't share that desire - but he doesn't want to be in the story. it wouldn't matter if someone told eiffel he was a good person - he wouldn't believe them - and when people do call him out, like in shut up and listen, he takes that as confirmation he's irredeemable and everyone is better off without him. both jacobi and eiffel are treating themselves as passive actors to avoid accountability, in some way, but what eiffel really needs to accept is that he's the only one who can live his life. he isn't a uniquely bad person doomed to harm and failure; he's just like everyone else.

(maybe worth noting in eiffel's view of himself as a bad person vs. the antagonists of the show, including jacobi, is how eiffel sees it as an inherent character flaw that he doesn't want but can't escape, while "let's go be monsters" etc. is an active choice and rationalization from someone who signed up to be the bad guy, who decided he could compartmentalize and live with that.)

another kinda interesting place i'd say jacobi's worldview clashes with eiffel's is that they are both centered on people first. unlike maxwell and kepler, i don't think jacobi really believes in his own version of The Big Picture - he just believes in people who believe. it's progress for the sake of progress, but the nature of that progress isn't his to define; he's not even pretending it is. "because people like me - and people like him - make it possible for people like maxwell to do their jobs." and where eiffel's perspective necessitates recognizing the humanity in everyone, jacobi rationalizes his actions through a strict us-versus-them mentality. so much of how he operates is explained by that line: "there aren't sides. there are just people you'd do things for and people you'd do things to."

#wolf 359 #w359 #like you're sending me a little essay prompt. i love that thank you #it's enrichment for me #focusing this mostly on jacobi because i talk about eiffel's issues all the time and uhh #i'm unlikely to post about jacobi unprompted. so. #also the line where hera tells jacobi she's never met anyone who worked so hard at being inhuman. yeah. #i swear i have thoughts about all aspects of this show and its characters #i even have thoughts about riemann #but i will keep posting about eiffel and hera anyway. it is my nature. #and it's kinda funny to me because jacobi and eiffel are two of the characters with the least narrative significance to each other #but even so there's a lot you can say about how their contrasting worldviews explore the themes of the show #gold standard character writing. #asks

[soldier-poet-king]

tell me why the first ep of the opla has me in NEAR TEARS it's just smthn about the /genuine-ness/ of it? the lack of tired snarky fourth wall breaking jokes? it's an objectively silly plot about pirates and friendship and it is played completely straight and it is SO refreshing? for things to be allowed to be genuine and full of heart? these actors giving it the gravitas of shakespeare?

there's a time and a place for meta humour ofc, but recent trends spurred on by a franchise which shall remain nameless have resulted in so many movies/books/shows that are completely soulless because they can't take themselves seriously. there always has to be a joke, a snarky remark, a fourth wall break, god forbid we experience emotions deeply and genuinely and guileless-ly. idk if it's a reflection of societal fear of vulnerability or simply a cash grab in appealing to the lowest common denominator by avoiding strong (and therefore possibly alienating) emotion

either way, this is such a breath of fresh air?

#fran liveblogs #opla liveblog #anyway contrast this with the mario movie i watched on the plane yesterday #which was like. fine. #that's really all i can say abt it #it had a few fun nods to the game #but it also refused to take itself seriously. so many moments of gravity undercut by out of place humour #on the other hand. i finished wyrd sisters today #and discworld is ENTIRELY meta humour #but sir terry was SUCH a talented author #that he could create a space where meta humour and genuine emotion and gravitas could exist side by side #and it WORKED. it WORKED WELL #like. consider. feet of clay can have me bawling and laughing only pages apart #most discworld books can #the sheer silliness of the shakespeare parodies in wyrd sister transforming into a reflection on the nature of theatre and art and stories #and reality. and what's the most real. in the sense of people's hearts #like. damn. discworld really has it all #anyway. opla is so good. i would die for luffy. HIS HEART IS SO BIG

[crossbackpoke-check]

Substance, Shadow, and Spirit [remixed, abridged] by Tao Yuanming

#liv in the replies #patrice bergeron #boston bruins #brad marchand #do you ever think about how brad marchand said that when bergy retired he would retire or are you capable of normal thought i'm not at all #please say a gratitude for both my sanity& y'all that this poem (which has been saved in my camera roll with the vague idea of using it for #??? ​long) & not one of the poems i had saved for carey for a really long time & remixed & everything with another poem until i found a poem #that absolutely murdered me in cold blood but there is an alternate universe where i did& then had to explain my unhinged thoughts to you. #anyway how are we feeling about bergy retirement. pspspspsp sara & luna are y'all doing okay like. the doc title for this one was #patrice the hockey player means a lot to me but patrice the person means so much more #which is why the end line of the other poem was so *%"@^)! (you love / what you are) because patrice does. like he is a whole ass good huma #& now since no one asked i need to tell you all the details about everything also y'all please clap i made an edit with NO baby pictures #although i did find one & save it & minimal genres of photo i always use in edits because they're my taste & aesthetic but anyway. #when i saved the first photo and marked it as one i wanted i accidentally wrote “how will he know they love him” which is not the line but #makes me feel feral about patrice & the rest of them all had hurtful names too but also. the third picture is literally a CELLY like brad #just scored a goal & he is clinging to bergy for dear life with that shit i saved that as “oh the agony on his face for unendurable” #& yes it is one of my cliches to have a draft day picture but in my defense the lifelong bond that patrice has/d with boston deserved to be #there even if i put in the love story & YES that picture is from the 2011 playoff right below it shared joy & pain & i couldn't tell you #when the brad marchy photo for together forever is except for the fact that i saw it & just the gut punch of oh my god the way he looks at #things men will praise you for is the stanley cup. duh. but i love the contrast of “some deed” being the stanley cup but then #bergy's choice to do noble deeds (ends up still earning praise &that's my note to his efforts outside of hockey we love a supportive captai #should also mention the first two i came up with & had the photos i knew i wanted for were the first and last one alskaldk but i KNEW i #wanted chara somewhere in the paragraph about leaving & then while i was looking found the one of bergy playing tuukka on accident & yes #i do have to make goalie jokes every time. no reprieve . no dice/no deal/no goal goalies have no rest/reprieve etc etc the one that killed #me though was looking for a patrice award pic & i wanted basically the one that i got for “how will you know any will praise you” & instead #also got the picture of patrice winning the some community hero award for charity work that he does & i love him mama & of COURSE that puck #is from bergy's 1000 game who do you think I am (if you guessed sleepy and emotional about patrice you'd be right) and ALSO please be ready #for all the patrice posts/bruins posts that have been sitting in my drafts to be released on this occasion of patrice retirement #I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT TUUKKA ALSO RETIRED THAT’S WHY HE WAS ON WISE OR SIMPLE NO REPRIEVE AND THAT LATE OR SOON WAS ALWAYS GOING TO BE #CHARA BECAUSE CHARA LEFT FIRST TO GO TO THE CAPS AND THEN LEFT IN RETIRMENT HE LEFT SOON BUT NOT FOR REAL THEN LATER LEFT FOR REAL (RETIRED)

[wonder-worker]

J.L. Laynesmith taking the 'Buckingham Did It™' route for the murder of the Princes in the Tower AND the rumors of Edward IV's bastardy ... I have to laugh

#my post #history media #this was in her book 'Cecily Duchess of York' which I have ... Thoughts on #I really liked it overall - it was meticulously researched and gave me information that I hadn't previously known about Cecily #However this often contrasts with Laynesmith's own very evident biases assumptions and conjecture #and the effect is very jarring #This becomes slightly more pronounced after 1464 and actually ridiculous after 1483. #She also suggests that Henry VI may have genuinely died of a melancholy-induced stroke like Edward IV claimed which is just...lmfao #I don't know what to say at this point lol #To be fair she does specifically note that he died shortly after Edward arrived in London and that most contemporaries believed #it was far too convenient #which is far more acknowledgement and culpability than she gives Richard III whose culpability for the 'disappearance' of his nephews is #literally never touched upon - the blame is conveniently dumped on Buckingham #honestly the whole Deal with Buckingham is so odd. dude was a political neophyte; was given a primarily ceremonial role by Edward IV #throughout his reign and was younger than Richard (who was a seasoned politician). What makes you think Buckingham of all people #was some kind of political genius and making decisions over RICHARD of all people lol? #anyway #This book was pretty decent with Margaret of Anjou which was great #it was less decent with Elizabeth Woodville which was not so great :/ #some of the assumptions it made (for Cecily's benefit naturally) were so weird #and the way she 'reassessed' Elizabeth's role in 1483 was very distasteful #I might make a separate post on that because it was very annoying #(also claiming Henry Tudor landed with 'a small band of Lancastrian exiles' - yeah no. the majority of the 'exiles' who supported him were #Yorkist aka Edward IV's supporters who opposed Richard. because this was very much an internal civil war between the dynasty #and Henry became a claimant only after being chosen by Yorkists after the October risings made clear the Princes were dead #the claim that challenged Richard's was Elizabeth of York not Henry's. let's not twist words here) #(ALSO I'm sorry but William Stanley certainly did not choose to commit his troops to Henry Tudor because Henry was 'his brother's stepson' #he did that out of loyalty to Edward IV and his children as Henry was the chosen claimant of the Yorkist faction #hence why he may have betrayed Henry VII in the 1490s for Perkin Warbeck who pretended to be Edward's second son. so jot that down) #you really see these small minor details which are very much chosen purposefully and paint a very different picture lol

[verflares]

i wanna transplant a lot of how ive written botw/totk link into my og one i think..... mostly just because writing for him last year made me realise how much i enjoy seeing how far you can go with using minimal dialogue + actions and expressions over words to convey thoughts and feelings, both from that pov and from others

#from links pov i also think its fun to give him both this rich and simple inner world and contrast that with his 'dialogue' #eg link understands why he acts the way he does but obviously other characters esp those who dont know him well #will have difficulty parsing his actions. as someone who is also selectively mute and understands Myself but not others #i Get Him. its not perfect writing but any means but its fun to see how far u can go without sacrificing straight up dialogue. idk #also the hound/wolf metaphors. where would i be without you. that goes without saying #anyways everything i have rn is basically jsut 'this would be cool' and not much else LOL but isnt that what its all about really... #personal.txt

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[strdstysyrp]

"we want more weird queers" there are weird (/pos) queers. everywhere. there's the transhets, the cisgays, the aro/ace cishets, the aspecs who are involved in kinks or anything related to sexual acts — especially the aspecs who are involved in sex work. there are cis people who use pronouns that aren't associated with their sex. there are trans people who use pronouns associated with their sex. transhet t4t exists, it's somewhere and everywhere. transfem butches exist. fem transmasc exist. alloace people exist. alloaro people exist. queerplatonic relationships exist between various people of the entire fucking spectrum. don't forget about the trans queers who don't wanna go on hrt or get top/bottom surgery, who want to present themselves in their own way. the queers who look wildly different from their past selves, the queers who look the same. there are so much of us here, and we all exist on a spectrum. we are hiding but we are also open.

there are so much more of us here. support the weird queers that already exist. please.

#i already said this on a discord before. #but it surprises me and pains me greatly to see queers who aren't accepted in their own community at all just because they were “too weird” #or some bullshit like that or contrasts that. #it doesn't matter if they're “too weird” for you; support them anyways. #we are human and we are exploring in any way possible and thus this includes identity (queer or not). #i have so many words i want to say that aren't included in this post but i am way too brain foggy right now. #but yeah. #- 💨 #🫐 - ramble txt. #transgender #queer #lgbtqia #trans