#but it did nothing for me otherwise

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[buttercupshands]

just some LoV sitting in the long lost bar in Ultra Impact in clothes that they didn't wear yet

#not art #bnha #ultra impact #shigaraki tomura #dabi #toga himiko #mr compress #twice #there's not enough space to put Kurogiri in there :( #I can do it but I'll have to make a sacrifice #just watching them talk is relaxing #like... they're all fine and I can literally fill the table with sushi #league of villains #got UR compress really recently #and it was raining Muscular and the other Compress before that #I have nothing against LoV rain but it was unexpected #I still wait for a day the final SR Dabi drops on the acc #for me to have a Dabi team just for fun #I think I have enough Dabi-themed memories for that #if not LoV centered once will come in hand too #I love the fact that LoV gets as much as 1-A and Pro Heroes #like accesories or ur and sr types of the characters #got second copy on Toga off the Valentines recruit #love her to bits so it was so sweet #still no other UR Tomura tho #and I keep trying every banner he gets a chance to rerun #I love the coat one but the variety of UR Tomura's is just... #I did get this one at all at least would've probably just gotten mad with the game otherwise #but I'm chill with this since I do have them #AND they have fillers

[stygianheart]

I think one of my “favorite” things is when people misinterpret what it means to be aroace. Watching people so clearly not understand the complexity behind the spectrum of aromatic and asexuality and then proceed to say they “stand with” aroace as an ally is so hilarious to me. Especially when they use this to start bashing on a perfectly fine ship, especially because said ship gets in the way of theirs.

Aroace does not mean no attraction. The plastered poster face for it is people who don’t feel ANY types of attraction, but that does not mean everyone. Aromantic people can date and fall in love. Asexual people can fuck. Aroace people can do both.

Yes, aroace rep IS needed. But we still have it via Luffy—just because Luffy kisses someone (hypothetically) doesn’t mean we just yeeted the aroace label off of him. He is STILL aroace. You know who else is aroace? Bon Clay, for one. Zoro as well. Yet I don’t see people screaming that shipping Zoro with someone completely erases the aroace label, now do I?

Ugh, I’d totally make a whole ass essay about this, but it’s half till midnight. It’s just. Been on my mind for a few hours and I need to say a little shit

#iykyk #zolu #I got so worked up reading that one post lol #as someone who used to not ship zolu because Luffy felt aroace to me I found it hilarious #while also quite insulting #says someone started bashing on a ship that’s done literally nothing wrong #plus they also started bashing on zonami and said it’s because Zoro’s canonically gay #like ??? no??? he isn’t??? #“never explicitly said but heavily implied” is ridiculous really #Zoro is Zoro. he is a fictional character who is up to interpretation until the original creator states otherwise #also the “straightwashing Sanji” comment had me dead I’m sorry #like did we WATCH the same anime/live action? #sanji’s been straight from the start. if anything opla made him less straight with all those soft looks he was giving Luffy #like dudes bi at most #but truly Zoro is so aroace to me #that dude has nothing on his mind but being the best swordsman #booze #and making sure his captain doesn’t die like #seriously. people need to understand that aroace is much more complex than they think it is #oh and yes #we definitely need more non-dating aroace rep

[willyhoos]

a very self indulgent twipri au i made... vampire!zelda x vampire hunter!link..

in which a rancher from ordon is suddenly afflicted with lycanthropy, and hunts down the cursed hylian queen who is absolutely, DEFINITELY responsible for it...

(spoilers: he's Mega Wrong)

a bit more info about the au below the cut!

"Link, go assassinate the Hylian queen so we can go back to living normally." instructions unclear i have fallen in love with her

midna is somewhere probably maybe once i figure out what to do with her .

#tloz #zelda #loz #link loz #zelda loz #my nyart #so . #my first au huh #poor zelda isnt evil btw . much like in twipri shes kind of Stuck in a very very cursed kingdom with not much she can do #she was probably very confused when meeting the ~hero of legend~ and he says hes here to kill her #she was like WE ARE SUPPOSED 2 BE BESTIES!! AND ALSO SOULMATES. why are u calling me ebil :( #especially because she feels horrifically guilty about not only the state of her kingdom #but also like. shes a vampire. She Eats People #so for link to call her a monster... she kind of agrees i guess #but no she had nothing to do with links curse lol. #he just assumed she did... and she politely told him otherwise #he does not believe her #and of course #when he DOES fall in love with her #he assumes hes being enthralled or something and is like YOU CANT FOOL ME !!!! YOURE INTENTIONALLY POISONING MY MIND...... #he just outs himself like a giant doof lolololol #anyway #also. ik. the elephant in the room. #i have no idea how midna plays into this... she'll find her time... maybe

[chirpsythismorning]

You basically sabotaged the whole day.

Seconds after El literally just got assaulted…

But no Mike’s hung up on Will moping being the cause of the day sucking even though Mike looked pretty much unbothered in all those moments he’s referring to

#byler #mike was literally forcing a smile in all of those scenes #you cannot convince me otherwise #we didn’t get a close up of him looking at Will at all like 'this bitch'... #there was nothing blatant that set up this sort of reaction from mike seeing as he did not give us the impression he felt this way #NOTHING #all we got was mike faking (shitty knock off) without any insight into his true thoughts in those moments #why would will moping be the cause for such anguish to him? under these circumtances? #why were they too terrified to give us a close up of Mike in these scenes…? #why?!? #answer: #‘it’s a tool that will help us later’ #mike gave off such im unbothered this is fine vibes when will looked off at angela (el) #the fact that we didn’t get a shot of mike at all while will was staring off at her at the rink... #?? #the fact that Mike stood up instantly when Will spoke not even directly to him… #????? #answer:: #mike was staring at will #hope this helps 😚 #basically will going to get the painting in his backpack for mike teas 🥺

[theamazingian]

sonic frontiers was a pretty massive let down for me, the whole package screams rushed, but the updates have been really interesting and add more stuff than you’d expect. really, really hoping the final update puts a satisfying button on the story, that’s probably what let me down the most

#don’t get me wrong #the character interactions are a treat #but otherwise the ancients and their plight did nothing for me #sonic #sth

[mengyaos-defence-attorney]

MianMian leaving the cultivation world can be summarized as this

#nothing but respect for my queen #she was actually the smartest character #several others would be way happier if they followed her lead #mianmian #meng yao #wei wuxian #jin zixuan #jin guangshan #nie mingjue #wen ruohan #also I did this on my phone in two hours please be nice #no clue if this has been done before but it wouldn’t leave me otherwise

[sciderman]

dr peeper blocks ur peeper

😔

#sci speaks #found that one out the hard way #guys i'm telling you. please quit all fizzy drinks. full sugar. sugar free. zero calorie. all of it. quit them now. #they bring absolutely nothing but misfortune to your body. #my dad earlier this year: stop drinking artificially sweetened drinks. they give you cancer. #me: hahaha yeah whatever old man. #the doc: you have a tumor on your right kidney fam. #me: a. #me obsessively reading all the studies that yeah. #there are studies that show a correlation between diet soda intake and kidney abnomalities in afab people. #look upon me and do not make my same mistakes #drop that dr pepper immediately!!! #i have such a healthy diet otherwise. it is the soda that did this to me and i know it.

[greenerteacups]

What do you think as Hermione's career would be post battle of Hogwarts? To me her being minister for magic really doesn't make sense. She does not have patience or tact to wade through murky waters of politics 😭😭

So hard to say! The Trio are so, so young when we leave them, I find it almost impossible to project their futures farther than a few years out. The job that suited me at 17 would be radically unsuited to me now. That's why of all the Trio, Ron's ending strikes me as the most realistic — he jumps straight into the save-the-world business again, burns out, realizes he's actually Done The Fuck Enough, Thanks, and pivots into a low-stress career where he gets to see his family a lot. Feels accurate! The others are weirder to me because they do seem to just... pick a lane and stay there.

With Hermione, you could spin her a couple ways. You could say that she leans into her bookish side and does research or teaching, which is not my preference for a couple reasons (namely, I don't think Hermione would like academia as a profession; she finds her classwork interesting and enjoys intellectual validation, but she'd be stifled and wasted in a DPhil program, and she'd be infuriated by the administrative politicking of your average higher-ed faculty). You could say that she gets disaffected with politics and ends up as a barrister or a lobbyist of some kind, but if anything that requires more political finesse, because you don't actually have institutional power, you're just handling the people who make decisions and trying to persuade them of your goals. This is not Hermione's preferred method of influence. She's not even particularly good at persuasion, she just happens to be smart enough (and right often enough) that people take her ideas seriously.

Or you could say her brashness fades with the years into a softened flavor of tell-you-like-it-is honesty, which some politicians actually do successfully trade on; as we see in British politics today, you don't have to be all that charming or clever to get ahead, you just need to be really driven and well-connected (which Hermione completely is; she fought shoulder-to-shoulder with the first postwar Minister and her bestie, the Literal Messiah, runs the Auror Office.) But I don't know if Hermione especially wants to be Minister, after the war. She's just watched years of horrendous bureaucratic incompetence plunge the country into a violent civil conflict. She's had not one, but two Ministers of Magic try to bully or shame her friends into complicity with fascism. Her view of government is... likely extremely dark.

But Hermione also isn't the kind of person who sees her life as a quest for happiness. Babygirl has a savior complex that makes Harry look selfish. (She basically kills her parents — yeah, obliviating is a form of murder, #changemymind — "for their own good," and justifies every batshit, vindictive, mean-spirited move she ever pulls on the grounds that it "helps" one of her friends.) She is a mean, lean, dragon-slaying machine, and she needs a dragon. After Voldemort, the Ministry is the no. 1 threat to muggle-borns and non-wizarding Beings. As a war heroine with basically infinite political capital, I'd be surprised if she didn't try to do something there. That said, Hermione is so vivacious and dynamic that she could potentially grow in a hundred different directions; it's possible that all of this, while true of her at 18, becomes completely inaccurate by 22. That's why I'm not too fussed about any particular fanon interpretation.

#greenteacup asks #sidebar: I know Minister “of” Magic is an Americanism but mea culpa #Someday I might actually bite it and pay someone to britpick Lionheart but I can't do it now #because I have a ban on editing published fic unless it's finished. Otherwise I'll never get around to writing the actual ending #I have a Process #is it the best process? likely not! but it makes the words go. so here we are. #I also think the fact that JKR is Gen X makes a difference here. careers worked differently in the 80s and 90s than they do now #i.e. we have the gig economy and a lot more mobility and EXPECTATION of mobility in your early life #that means career changes & professional pivots through your 20s and 30s are increasingly normal #and in fact have always been normal — but the image of the 'true' or 'ideal' career has changed #so we look at those careers and go hm. really? none of them changed? #none of them even went to uni? do wizards... just not? #but again. I believe the epilogue was written almost completely without consideration as to what happened between the BOH and then #I really believe that JKR did not know what happened to Harry except a wedding and 3 kids. because that was the whole point #I don't think she even knew what his career was when she wrote that scene #It existed to marry everyone off and do a quick munchkin headcount #because of the understandable temptation as an author to keep your hand on the wheel. but it didn't even matter! #the epilogue changed NOTHING! it was the most useless chapter in the series! I just — GOD #you can absolutely accuse me of being sour grapes about my ships getting nixed. I AM sour grapes. I AM a hater. #AND I have plot/theme/craft reasons for disliking it. #I'm not objective. I just want credit for being a sophisticated hater. my grapes may be sour but they're still artisinal.

[skunkes]

the way I've been raised has shown itself in a recent awful experience I had and the realization won't leave me because I'm not sure what to do about it.

I don't like feeling anger/upset and it's rare for me to feel it anyway but it's led to me being unable to tell what's worth getting upset over anymore. If my wants upset somebody, then, well, maybe I shouldn't have them? What is so serious that I need it to go completely my way...? What desires am I allowed to have. It's not that serious, it's okay if not, you can't always get what you want....

every time I feel Upset I am later wracked with guilt because it wasn't a big deal and I was just being selfish... What IS a big deal then? How can I tell? Its admittedly never a big deal... But I keep being upset. And stepped on....

#talkys #this is what led to me Staying for as long as i did #there would be issues but if I brought them up i wld then be made to feel guilty for feeling that way #but i cant reverse that bc well!! its true like is it really a big deal? life isnt that serious I dont need to get upset... #i get upset at something my parents do and in the end i feel ungrateful and selfish #i really cant tell anymore which is why i Stayed as mentioned above #in the sense of well yeah the way im being treated doesnt make me feel good but why do i need to feel good? #isnt that selfish...isnt that asking too much...isnt that making yourself out to be Better Than... #i really dont know. i get so ready to give up my position on anything because I dont want to be selfish #and because im no better than anyone else #my mom caused some drama on my birthday wrt my sister's family and it led to me not being able to go to the duck #pond on my birthday... which is the only thing i really wanted to do on an otherwise uneventful day #i was meant to feel shame abt it because well we can always go any other day!!! relax!!! #and it is true....! #we can go any other day why did i get upset? its not that serious...nothing is that serious...i feel so guilty + spoiled + selfish #i just felt humiliated for wanting to go in the first place. and for getting upset that we couldnt go. like a toddler. #*not that i actually get Toddler Level upset...but it always Feels like i did...ykwim #i just dont understand......idk if i can Repair this....

[fromzeepewithlove]

so we can all agree that totk as a whole is zelda designers flexing, yeah? yeah.

#it’s GOOD ARMOR #reminding me of hs when i did nothing but draw his armor sets 😭 #my art #totk #tears of the kingdom #charged armor #still trying to figure out how i like rendering digitally and otherwise #and How i like stylizing #this was fun tho :) #also me???? back from the dead????? Rendering An Image???????? #i couldn’t believe it myself.. wouldve done a double take if i allowed myself a Single Thought during the 6hrs it took to draw this

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

You know, I'm glad that some of us take the step to embrace things that we like even if they're "cringe" or "objectively bad"

But perhaps we could take the next step forward and embrace the idea of reading into books/shows/movies/etc even if they don't seem deep. Perhaps we could understand that the two kinds of media aren't either "shallow and meaningless so you're weird and brainrotted to read into it" or "incredibly and profoundly deep in every way so if you don't analyze every single angle of the thing then you're brainrotted". Some media is deeper than others, but all I propose is that no matter how deep it seems it's acceptable to dig into the thing and take the media seriously instead of just assuming that because of ____ thing (such as target audience or how cringe it is) the media not deep and will never be deep and everything good about it happened on accident.

#fandom wank #i just be ramblin #I'm not putting this in any tags #I'm just frustrated that Sonic Prime is going to be remembered by the bulk of its fanbase/people who watched it as a shallow stupid badly #written kid's show where the only thing good about it that we can even consider was created on purpose and is deep is Sonadow #I'm frustrated that when people learned that sometimes the death note creators did things because it was cool and not because they were #planning for it to be some great symbolism that so many people jumped from 'death note is a masterpiece and every bit of it is meticulously #thought out the curtains are never blue' to 'pack it up guys! the curtains are just blue! Everything good about death note like that #profound relationship I like and the neat symbolism completely happened by accident and Ohba sucks as a writer otherwise' #I'm frustrated when I see people talk about 'a kid's show' as if it's not gonna be deep at all or written well *because #it's a kid's show and then turn around and complain that said show sucks and isn't deep at all (even if that's how they're choosing to look #at it and they could see the care put into the story if they didn't go into it assuming that it will be lesser and shallow and dumb based on #what it is) #I guess it's also just getting me on this random Wednesday the idea that the bulk of one's viewers determine the legacy of a piece of media‚ #no matter how close or far away they are from painting the media as it actually is or tries to bw #It's also just bleak (especially from a manga/anime standpoint) that if your work is considered profound and intellectual‚ then any reveal #of something not being deep is grounds for people to completely swap how they think of your work and how they see you as a writer #And any work that's considered 'not actually that deep' from the getgo ends up with people only engaging with it seriously saying stuff like #'I know nothing about it is purposeful or deep but I like it' #and just ends up with prevailing opinion putting down anything percieved as 'good' or 'profound' about the work as a complete fluke

[breezy-pup]

Thinking abt how both Atsushi and Dazai fail to understand how important they are in eachother’s journey towards the light but especially dazai.

Dazai doesn’t understand that without his guidance and invitation to the ADA Atsushi would have ended up as a criminal or dead. Dazai doesn’t understand that Atsushi goodness doesn’t come from learning to empathize with pain due to his abuse but instead comes from waiting to help other people just like he was helped.

#when dazai said that hell raised Atsushi right in that one chapter that’s dazai misunderstanding his importance to atsushi #beast literally shows that the headmasters abuse did not raise Atsushi right #and that without the proper guidance would have ended up as nothing more than a killing machine #they make me so weak #they are not just mento and subordinate they are best friends and you cannot tell me otherwise #dazatsu #dazushi #dazai x atsushi #Bungo stray dogs #bsd #i would make a whole post analyzing thier relationship but idk #atsushi nakajima #dazai osamu

[mummer]

barry being obsessed with going all YourFaveIsProblematic on 'great men' as a way to justify himself because if they could do bad things and still be regarded as great then so can he. he’s “doing” the “work” of “bettering himself” and berating sally for being drunk because it “sets a bad example” and hiding guns behind live laugh love decor. He’s literally putting on a wholesomecore front lol, he’s play acting as a ted lasso type and using lib therapy language which is indistinguishable from when he’s using evangelical language which is all utterly meaningless and he uses it as a violence. Ha ha ha

#he’s so fucking evil lol #meanwhile his child is experiencing Room #barry #barry spoilers #it’s endlessly funny to me that he managed to trick half the audience into actually thinking any of his efforts to be a better person were #real or meaningful in any capacity. it doesnt work. world’s a black hole sorry like what did we expect #it’s so fucking patriarchy bro like it’s so fucking fathers #he’s a sitcom dad! #and the great men thing is so. Yeah. YEAH. This society does valorize violent men lmfao #it’s almost like this world was built on violence and as much as we like to pretend we abhor it it’s baked into the structures of our lives #it’s a systemic problem you cant just change. There will always be an angry man in your house #of course he can still be the hero! literally nothing in the world has ever proven otherwise!!!

[alexjcrowley]

Saying Swiss Army Man is about gay necrophilia is like saying Oedipus Rex is about a guy who fucks his mom. You're only technically correct.

#it's called reductio ad absurdum you dumb down a concept until it looks ridiculous #which is totally fine for jokes and laughters but for the ones out there who blatantly made fun of the movie without even watching #like this shit is so cringe a farting corpse oh my god this must be the worst movie ever #FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU #YOU THINK YOU'RE COOL BEING DETACHED AND IRONIC ABOUT EVERYTHING WHY DON'T YOU TRY TO FEEL SOMETHING FOR ONCE #TE LET YOURSELF BE TOUCHED CHANGED TRANSFORMED EMOTIONALLY BY THE CONTENT YOU CONSUME #I know Oedipus fucking his mom is the supreme meme I love it too but seriously read it #As someone who had tl study it believe me read it #I am not the joke police I just don't like when people are serious about dismissing pieces of media because oh no cringe alert #Allow yourself to be vulnerable and to be open when you consume something #Oedipus Rex was just the best metaphor that's why I quoted it #Oedipus Rex changed me and keeps changing me everyday believe it or not there's nothing I wouldn't give to have his strenght #He had the courage too look at himself in the mirror I never did #I feel like I am having a mental breakdown over Oedipus again I'll switch back to SAM #Swiss army man is a masterful lesson in life and art don't let some assholes make you believe otherwise #swiss army man #paul dano #daniel radcliffe

[klaineownsmysoul]

I'm re-reading The Hunger Games trilogy and I've just passed the point in Mockingjay where Finnick dies and it pisses me off now just as much as it did the first time around. I hate it. I hate a) that he died and b) how he died. I always skip that part of the movie because I don't want to watch him die. It was completely unnecessary and he deserved better, especially considering how much more broken he is in the book as opposed to the movie. The stakes were already as high as they could be; killing him didn't raise them any higher.

He was used and abused by the Capitol just as much as anyone else and deserved a life with Annie as much as Katniss deserved hers with Peeta.

Did I mention that I hate it?

#the hunger games #mockingjay #finnick odair #justice for finnick #he did not need to die and nothing will convince me otherwise