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doyouevenshipbr0 · 30 days

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u know what. im in the mood to piss ppl off. heres my ranking of the 10 strongest waterbenders in atla and lok (not including avatars, and im not including anything from kiyoshi or yangchen’s era. i havent read those hehe. sowwy. strictly going off the shows).

now im doing this bc waterbending is by FAR my fav form of bending. and in MY OPINION!!!!!,,, people overlook some pretty important facts and feats and decide based more on who their favs are. this is my opinion anyways so im sure i inevitably did that too! but anyways. here we go.

10 strongest waterbenders:

honorable mentions: kya- listen. she is my GIRL. and also she is very strong, but at the end of the day, shes a healer. she has very little combat experience, and she was up against some real monsters in tlok. and shes known to be a great healer, but we dont even see that much of that. for this reason, she cant be top 10:/. eska and desna- they are GOOD. and their synchronized waterbending is super interesting. unfortunately i just kinda think everyone else in the top 10 is stronger. and i feel like the reason they are so strong is because they’re a unit. if they were separated, i have doubts.

10. tonraq- right off the bat im wondering if im going off biases LOL. but i love him. i love his style of bending. he is arguably my fav waterbender to watch waterbend. but unfortunately, in most of his fights, he’s kindaaaa getting worked (im on s2 of lok rewatch now. so i may be forgetting some stuff. but the big fights that stick out for me are him vs unalaq where he gets worked and him vs zaheer and korra where again, he gets kinda worked.) very clearly strong, but does not have all that much to show for it in the show. but he fights with all the big shots for a reason, and he led the water tribe army or something like that. so. hes good.

9. huu- i honestly don’t remember a whole lot of him, but swamp style of water bending is super interesting, and he clearly does it the best. i know we dont see a whole lot of him, but i cant overlook that he is THEE swamp bender.

8. pakku- obv. hes a member of the white lotus and was the master waterbender of the northern tribe. a slayer for his time but i do think he is outclassed by most waterbenders we see in tlok. cannot deny his strength tho. he was the goat at one time for a reason!

7. hama- as far as we know, she is the first blood bender. aka the strongest aspect of waterbending. she is a LEGEND. but again, i think she was a master for her time, but would have trouble holding her own in modern day bending esp without a fully moon.

6. ming hua- the way she uses waterbending as an extension of herself is clearly masterful. and i feel like we never see anyone utilize waterbending anything like how she does. unfortunately, she cant be any higher bc we dont see any extraordinary sub-water feats (healing… i think???? don’t remember lol. bloodbending, spirit healing). but clearly, she was an insane threat to everyone around her.

5. unalaq- so like. MAYBE he should be 4, but i really hate him lol. but i cannot deny he is an EXCEPTIONAL waterbender and pretty much no other waterbender (that we see in s2) can even TOUCH him. hes got the spirit healing, and hes got the skill. somethin somethin vaatu vaatu. idk. i hate him and i dont rly like this season lol. moving on.

4. katara- ok. she was the best in atla. no ifs and or buts. HOWEVER. she gets outclassed in lok and i think we know why. BUT. she was a complete prodigy as soon as she started training with pakku. there was no extension of waterbending that she could not do. she clearly thrived learning waterbending how she did, in such a fast paced, high pressure, and high stakes situation, and thats not even HER PRIME! she was waterbending for under a year when we see her. and we still got the greatest waterbender of that time. there was no one like her, and no waterbender could hold a candle to her by the end of atla. and once again, was only 14. only waterbending for a year. whos doing it like my sis?!

3. tarrlok- unfortunately for katara, the bloodbending family, without a doubt, outdoes her. bloodbending without a full moon? done and done. sorry! i believe katara COULD bloodbend outside of a full moon given the extensive training tarrlok and noatak were given but unfortunately, we will never know, so i cannot in good conscience put her any higher than 4. tarrlok was a master waterbender in itself and pretty much a master blood bender.

2. yakone- he bloodbent. a whole courtroom. with his mind. we dont see anything else from him, and we really dont need to. sorry. it is what it is.

1. amon- he bloodbends with his mind. and learned to take away someone’s bending ability with blood bending. katara, the best healer in the world, could not restore korras bending. granted, she was probably going about it wrong, but the point is, she couldnt do it. taking away someones bending with bloodbending just takes the cake. that aside, even in a combat setting, when he wasnt even trying he was wooping on all other benders of all kinds bc he was controling their movements w his mind. imagine him openly using waterbending AND having his mind control technique?! he would be unstoppable. im ngl i dont love how lok handles waterbending/bloodbending in general. i kinda think they made it TOO strong with little reasoning). also we do see him do an awesome lil water tornado at the end. so. not that we needed that, but its a cute lil cherry on top to his waterbending. hes the strongest waterbender. sorry!

want to finish this by saying had katara learnt to bloodbend outside of a full moon, she would be number one. and i do believe she could have learned. but she didnt. so she cant be first.

#personal #atla #avatar the last airbender #avatar #lok #the legend of korra #legend of korra #tlok #waterbending

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intrasport · 7 months

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i dont even think anymore that there could be bad music. thats definitely like a main difference music has with the food analogies i make a lot. a person likes a food because they try it and either like it or dont and its not a conscious effort its just taste buds and how your body just reacts to it. and it can be mental too like going into trying a food and already feeling averse sometimes feels like its pushing me to just not like it either way.

i think music can be like this. going into a song thinking it wont be your thing and then you just dismiss it. maybe under a different mindset you could have had a different opinion. like maybe your Music Taste is wired in some ways, idk, idk if theres any biology behind that, could be interesting to look into. but you dont really 'decide' if you like a song or not.

i think its common to maybe like listen to a song and thats how you make your deduction and then you declare if you liked it or not just... based on the experience you had. but its not really a Conscious Decision its just what you feel like. But arent most decisions like this? well some decisions are based off of obligation or necessity or something like that and of course others on subjectivity or some other factor. but like what REALLY is thee reason you end up liking a song. Oh my god whats the reason anyone likes anything.

OK well related to the food analogy, there can be objectively bad food, like food that will actually poison you or make you sick. but this isnt most of the food you eat so you dont really have to consider it that much because generally youre dealing with food you think tastes good and food you think tastes bad (and sometimes food you NEED to eat regardless, for diet or health maybe but this doesnt work for music... theres no parallel for that i think...)

and then yes obviously music is subjective so what would really constitute as objectively bad. maybe music that is actually offensive, i think one could argue. other than that its all just very possible for a to like a song as much as it is for another person to dislike it, and sometimes in thee realm of public opinion you might see some songs be criticized more than others but thats just divisiveness, really. and some that seem like they are overwhelmingly liked. but it basically doesnt matter.

there is too much nuance to this that has to do with individualism and like separating yourself from biases and understanding like. why does music even exist and how does it affect people as a whole but also you but also others. <- and basically i am jsut saying shit now but yeah thats basically it for now.

#but whatever #this isnt thought out and i wrote it on a whim #Part of a bigger argument essentially Eyeroll Emoji #soapbox

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jemmo · 2 years

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i would sell literally all my vital organs to know what was actually going on during that performance at the music contest tho.

bc by now we are all familiar with the fact that both pov’s are biased. and we saw how it was for pat, it was like pran was staring into his soul, right?? like its the most i’ve seen pran actively flirting with him, singing their song, looking into his eyes. and maybe that portrays how pat sees that song now, bc its always been special, but now he knows why its special. he understands the connotations in the lyrics and the facts those lyrics were penned with him. its like when you listen to a song for the first time and it doesnt affect you, not until you experience something new and suddenly the song makes sense, the lyrics capture what was happening in that moment and how you felt and its like you suddenly hear the music. i dont think pat knew pran liked him until the kiss, but if he was to have any inkling, it’d be in that moment bc the meaning of that song, as a song that pran is singing to pat, is as clear as daylight.

and then there’s pran, and im still not 100% sure. bc to pat, the way pran is looking at his is sweet and pure and has the tiniest undertone of flirting, but is that what pran is actually feeling?? bc where is he at this point, pats been acting kinda weird and he’s fresh off him confessing he likes ink. idk, i kinda get this vibe that this is a goodbye, a way for him to try and move on. he’s been smacked in the face with the fact him and pat will never be, not just because of family circumstances but bc pat does not like him that way. and he’s seen pat with ink twice having fun with each other and being playful, and i think that may have made him finally resign himself to the fact that its not happening. will never be. and its finally time to try and get over it. so he plays their song and sings his heart out, and with his eyes he says goodbye to the part of him that loves pat. like i imagine if this was from pran’s pov we’d see much less of a sparkle and shine in pran’s eyes, and we’d focus way more on pat’s eyes, and more importantly we’d focus much more on him occasionally looking at the side to look at ink, we’d concentrate on them two standing together. and then he goes over to wai, his friend, and has fun. he lets his guitar solo go wild and he gets a small smile on his face. and its the smile that from pat’s perspective is him having fun with someone else thats not him, but to pran its him finally letting off a piece of his load and trying to have fun. and there’s a line at the end of part 3 that was the foundation for this, its when his friends say cheers after winning and pran says ‘thanks to you guys. it was so much fun’. i just really feel like he’s trying to take his mind off pat and find happiness elsewhere, with his friends.

and thats where this point of dramatic irony is born, bc just as pran is trying to say goodbye, pat has finally arrived. he’s trying to let go just as pat is grabbing on. and we’re never gonna see their actions or the looks in their eyes from a neutral perspective. we’re always gonna be the opposite of neutral now, we’re always gonna have at least some idea of what’s going on with both of them, be it through actually seeing their pov or basing it off their previous pov. and by knowing both, we cant see reality, we can only see the heightened versions through their eyes.

thats legit masterful.

#bad buddy #patpran #srsly tho how am i still coming up with analysis and theories its already tuesday #and i still havent processed that single ep let alone braved a rewatch to recontextualise ep 1-4 #the sheer amount of stuff that can be thought about that can be read into and you will find something of real substance #like get this on the gcse eng lit reading list bc its a dream to pick apart #made by jemmo

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antiloreolympus · 3 years

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8 Anti LO Asks

1. It doesn’t really make sense for a long term comic such as LO to have such a drastic change in the artstyle, and even more you can’t really call it an improvement when all the interesting parts of the art style are now gone and all that it is now it’s just some basic same-face and body art style with barely any backgrounds. RS is incredibly talented for illustrative artwork and it’s really a shame she’s not doing that anymore and instead has left it to her team, with leaving them very messy sketches. The artstyle in the beginning had life and glamour and now it’s just very dull and boring. That’s not an improvement

2. I genuinely can’t think of any man in LO that’s even half way decent. Poseidon maybe? Hephaestus? Those are the only two I can manage, meanwhile the rest are either Rachel purposely ruining them because of her own biases (Zeus, Apollo, Thanatos to an extent) or are “good” men who are just creeps who disrespect all the women around them and are super creepy and obsessed over a literal teenager who acts like a child (Hades, Ares, Hermee, Eros, etc). The women aren’t much better either.

3. About Perse making Hades childish: (this is no way defending him, just some speculation, and tbh I doubt that RS has thought this through haha) I wonder if he becomes a horny teenager around her because she’s a goddess of fertility? Would that have any affect on him? Doesn’t excuse his creepy ass behavior, but could explain it a bit, I guess?

4. Okay so I'll be honest I dont really see any reason to 'simp' over Any of the LO characters?

Also, not to start sh*t, but - I think part of the reason why some of the LO fandom does not like Zeus (and perhaps gives Hera more leeway - at least in terms of cheating) is because:

Mythologically Zeus is a known cheater / rapist (Io for example, or Semele)

They see Hera cheating a Zeus as okay (its not) because he's been known to cheat on her in the past / fans see Hera cheating on Zeus with Hades as 'justified revenge' for what he's (Zeus) put her through

I'll be honest I dont really see Zeus (or Hades for that matter) as good rulers because

Despite other deities (like Eros) doing 'acts of wrath' - they get away with it because they often have someone to back them up (like Aphrodite offering to sleep with Zeus to get her son out of trouble) - but the one time Persephone does something wrong (an act of wrath) - Zeus wants to give her the Prometheus treatment - mainly so he can feel like an in control king whos subjects respect him

The reason this sound so odd is because of RS writing choices. Zeus is a grade A d*ck who is willing to destroy a 'young girls promising career' because she made 1 mistake that one time. But at the same time the act of wrath is framed oddly because Demeter doesn't want her daughter to get in trouble so she covers it up (its like the equivalent of hiding a murder from the cops).

Zeus wanting to Prometheus Kore seems overly harsh because she is a Child. (Well a teenager) - so it adds to the "Zeus is a d*ck" card, because she doesnt have the life experience to "get away with" stuff like the other deities because she is young AND sheltered.

Like again, the whole concept of Human Laws applying to Gods is so confusing:

Would Zeus have been this harsh if Demeter had simply come forward in the first place about Persephone's murder rampage? Why did she blackmail / get other deities involved to cover it up? Is Zeus THAT much of a d*ck in Demeters eyes that she knows he would harshly punish a child for something "she didnt mean to do" (killed mortals based on a feeling?)

Why is there a motherf*cking trial in the first place? Do All the other deities get the right to a fair trial or is this a special case? (Like can any deity just offer to sleep with Zeus and he'll let them off the hook?). If the other deities had commited the same crime would the trial / punishment be the same or does Zeus just have a rage boner because he was lied to? If thats the case then why are the other deities taking Persephones side during the trial? (Ares I can maybe understand cause hes the God of War and stuff but everyone else is taking Perse's side because their either her personal friend or family member (Hecate, Hermes, Demeter, Hades etc).

Why are there certain laws like "Zeus cant get to Persephone because she has clemency in the underworld" but other deities - including Leto, Demeter and others (like Perse's nymph family) can just stroll into Hades house? Why is Hermes still on house arrest? Why are Hades + Persephone throwing a house party when shes on trial for scythe crimes??!!!

Why are the gods bound by such petty squabbles?

The way RS set up the governing "laws" in universe just doesnt make a whole lotta sense. Also, sorry this got ramblely.

5. Tbh i don’t think that Hades acting differently when he’s with Persephone is a bad thing, as a concept. But there are many issues with this such as the fact that Persephone is barely legal and Hades act like an actual child around her. Obviously when you’re with someone they are going to act different than they do when they are at work. The problem is that Hades essentially goes from the “cold-scary king” to a 17 year old hormonal boy when he’s with Persephone. And him making out with her in a middle of a store or them golfing with diamonds or him making out with Persephone again in front of his workplace is not exactly acceptable behaviour from a king. If Hades acts all lovey-dovey with Persephone when their at their home together it’s different, but when they’re at a public place they can’t really do that. I would say that he has to keep a status about him but from what we’ve seen all the citizens of the underworld hate him and don’t respect him at all, from yelling at him to actually fighting with him, so idk how much status there is actually attached to him

6. I swear, the majority of the “cute” HxP moments in LO just seem like a single father dealing with his hyperactive 8 year old over the supposed future intimidating rulers who Rachel is obsessed about talking and drawing their sex life. Is it really that hard to depict Persephone even acting like a smart teenager at the very least, as opposed to an airhead grade schooler? It doesn’t scream cute to me, it seems more like a father/daughter relationship. It’s just weird.

7. i mean, i have a LO oc who's persephone's brother (fertility god) between demeter and zeus. dude got thrown into tartyrus to cover up the affair and now serves cronus. he was the god of summer, and my reasoning was demeter's seasons/harvest + summer thunderstorms. wrote a whole minific i will never post about him and persephone realizing everyone around them are assholes and healing together. so the mistress-of-zeus oc isnt that weird.

8. I’m not a Zeus stan by any means, but I do find him one of the most interesting characters, and one that RS has, in her attempts to make him be the worst ever to make Hades look better, actually way more interesting and compelling than the majority of the cast. He doesn’t lie or whine to the audience he’s some good person like Hades when he’s not, he owns that he’s a dick and doesn’t bullshit the audience into thinking he’s someone he’s not. RS tries to show us he’s a “bad” king, yet we see no proof it beyond what, he wants to uphold the law P broke and doesnt kiss Hades’ butt? That’s not a bad king, it’s a good one that he doesn’t let family ties or lust cloud his judgement, unlike Hades or Hera, for example. I don’t condone his cheating either, but it’s not fair to hate him for it, but love it that Hades cheated on Minthe so he could get into a teenager’s skirt and praise Hera for sleeping with her brother in law while punishing Zeus’ mistresses because she’s being a fake “loyal” wife. Just because he’s a deeply flawed, even a bad person doesn’t make him a bad character. Hades and Hera and even Persephone are awful people who do worse than Zeus, yet they’re loved and praised for it, all while being written with the depth of a puddle.

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

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spearxwind · 3 years

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Part 1: Hey! I love your art/OCS and your blog has introduced me to your friends who also have awesome OCs. This made me notice that Tumblr and Twitter seem to interact with original characters differently. I'd love to meet people and friends who'd like to interact with my OC doodles, but Twitter feels like a difficult space to get interaction, despite more artists moving over there. Whereas years ago, I had ask blogs for my fan-made and original characters which received plenty of interaction.

hi! yeah, from my experience twitter is a lot more eh... hostile when it comes to looking for interaction. it's a site that runs on people making short slapstick posts, with very limited characters, so people generally cant even talk a lot about their ocs in the first place. twitter also hides long threads, condenses them in your feed so you dont really see them

most artists have moved there bc of the nsfw ban, and generally twitter has a lot more users, so its a lot easier to find an audience IF, and only IF you already have a couple people to spread your posts around, bc twitter doesnt have the same kind of tagging system as tumblr does

ive definitely found more artists to follow through twitter but because of the super fast paced nature of the site (and also my short attention span) i dont really have time to get to know about peoples ocs at all

to answer your questions though:

1. posting on tumblr now gets me a LOT less interaction/notes than it used to. legit. i get maybe, 100-200 notes tops on normal posts when years ago i used to get twice or three times that. i get SOME more on generally popular ocs/designs bc people are like oohhh ahhh aesthetic but yeah. HOWEVER, it DOES occassionally get me curious people asking questions about my ocs which is ultimately what i really want. posting on twitter gets me a lot more attention (i mean, fucking compare my latest art, 340 notes on tumblr versus 4k total on twitter) but all the interaction with that tweet is people going 'oohh ahh thats so cool!!' but on tumblr SOMETIMES MAYBE i get questions going like ‘so based on ur last art, does oc do X’ or i get anons saying funny shit and its rly nice, i dont rly get that on twitter a whole lot

2. dont fucking know how i drew in my crowd. i wish i did though so i could avoid it lmao. ii know back in 2015 i racked up a bunch of people/notoriety bc of httyd2 and i kinda rode that out into dragons and then creatures and then edgy stuff. i also am usually the one going out to people and going ‘wow ur ocs are sick bro can u tell me about them pwease’ especially on here bc again, its so much harder to do that on twitter

last notes:

- ive seen ppl on twitter make side accounts specifically for oc talking. i myself have a personal account where i just go off abt ocs on occassion, but its also my private account that maybe 4 friends have total, i dont allow random people in. i rly wish i could do that on here though o

- on twitter anything you post will be gone from peoples feeds in 24 hours roughly. thats just how it is. you dont see people retweeting things that are super old unless the artist themself rts it and gets it circling for a day or two more. and yet without doing jack shit i have posts of mine circulating here on tumblr for fucking years, inexplicably. people are still reblogging my httyd posts, and following me for some very specific fanart i made in 2017 and i am like.why are you here. how did you find this

- i HAVE seen my shit stolen/ripped off on tumblr a lot more than twitter though, but i think thats just because its easier for ppl on twitter to slip under the radar if they never interact with u. who knows though i havent exactly studied this

idk if any of this is helpful but its my personal experience. im just rly biased towards twitter i hate it. i wish i could leave but 99% of my client base is there so i cant -_-

#ask #advice #legally can i tag that? idk #long post #as an extra sidenote. ive personally stopped sharing so much of my oc stuff on both sites because of the theft #im just so tired lol #but i used to share so much on tumblr. just make big huge posts about my ocs with their info

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sailorhyunjinz · 2 years

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Hey Cherry.. can i make a little confession? So im 18 and im a virgin, never had a bf and never been touched before and like i do masturbate quite a lot.. but the thing is is that i never fingered myself and only tried putting a tampon in once but that failed.. point is ive never had something in me and im so scared of doing it idk what to do.. like i really wanna know how it feels and also wanna start using tampons but each time i try i just chicken out and end up on the verge of tears (wish i was joking).. any advice?

WELL FIRST OF ALL DONT CRY, WE'LL SORT THIS OUT

being a virgin and not having any dating experience at 18 is WAAAAY more common than you think. we tend to get quite caught up in what we dont have instead of what we do and so it just seems like everyone is in a relationship and fucking whenever youre single but NAH THATS FAR FROM THE TRUTH. especially at a younger age since I MEAN YOURE 18 YOU ARE BARELY LEGAL AND SO most of the things you thought you should be doing like having sex and stuff is actually more suited for people of a bit higher ages? LOOK, everyone matures in their own unique ways and some are ready to smash earlier on but theres a mental process that also goes into being in a relationship or being intimate that no one talks about and that needs some level of personal understanding of oneself in order to achieve,,, this just sounds like an essay rn BUT BEAR WITH ME

ok now for the tampons and the fingering. hmm,,, if you do want to try penetrative masturbation,,, is that even what its called,,, you just need to make sure that you are wet. like do not under any circumstance try to shove your fingers or anything else for that matter up your coochie without being lubricated or wet enough. it shouldnt hurt an excessive amount and,,, i mean this is different for everyone tho depending on how tight you are but try to loosen but a bit by a) being lubricated b) being comfortable, i would say that like,,, a middle finger,,, should,, be able to fit without any pain AND IM SAYING PAIN, you will feel a bit uncomfortable at first cause lmao at first i was like "w-h-how is this even,,, gonna,, make me cum?" and you wont have any massive orgasm,,, IF YOU EVEN ORGASM AT ALL,,, most people with vaginas cant orgasm vaginally, like the vast majority of vaginas cant,,, OR MAYBE NOT WITH FINGERS,, some can orgasm vaginally but with either a toy or a partner cause sexual experiences and preferences are so so so different from person to person.

as for the tampons,,, LIKE WHY DO YOU EVEN WANT TO START USING TAMPONS? is it cause you genuinely feel like it would be a more comfortable option for you and your lifestyle idk either you sport a lot or just hate the feeling of a wet pad or is it because of this whole "i need to prepare myself for when i lose my virginity" bullshit cause trust me,,, tampons do not prepare you for a dick. THOSE ARE TWO DIFFERENT FEELINGS MY BOO. im no expert in tampons,,, i barely use them myself cause idk,,, they uncomfortable (in my humble opinion) but im sure you can like lubricate the edges of it? but make sure that you apply a TIIIINY bit on the tip and thats its water soluble,,, u dont wan vaseline or anything giving you a nasty vaginal infection so,,, just reevaluate why you are taking the desicions you are taking? im sound very deep rn and this is already too long but why are you doing or thinking the way you do? is it curiosity? is it a will? or is it a society that has shaped your thoughs for you based on biases and expectations~?

#anon #Cherrymail🍒#also this is very long im so sorry aaaaaa-#but thank you for being so honest and sharing this i hope i help atleast somewhat-

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bladekindeyewear · 4 years

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HS^2 bloggin’ mainline 2020-08-23

More homestuuuuuck

I’m a little tired today so I don’t expect much intelligent analysis out of myself, but if anything classpecty happens I doubt I’ll be able to help myself regardless.

oh, always

(EDITS: added note on horn colors, link to ask on potential Blood powers reference)

> CHAPTER 12. Really Convoluted Metaphorical Horseshit

cuuute

In the bowels of a different ship, at a moment in time that is not pinpointable in either direction from the previous interaction, another Dave raps quietly to himself.

another dave raps quietly to himself. i am glad that phrase exists it brings me joy

(LATER EDIT: A friend on Discord pointed out that throughout this entire update, Karkat's horns are #FF0000 red. They were normal candy-corn colors in previous glimpses at the ship crew, though they used a dark single-color shortcut typical of old Homestuck at one point... but THIS time it stays STARK red even when we zoom in close later. Is this just artistic liberty? Did Karkat color his horns for fashion? Does this happen to red-bloods like the Sufferer after a certain age? Just how much time has actually passed, here? We might have to wait for the commentary for this one.)

KARKAT: I WAS SAYING I THOUGHT WE MIGHT GO, I DUNNO, ANYWHERE ELSE ON THE ENTIRE SHIP WHILE THE CLOTHES WERE WASHING. KARKAT: SEEING AS THIS DECREPIT MACHINE WE WERE SO BLESSEDLY PROVIDED WITH MAKES A WHIRRING SOUND SO PANCHAFINGLY ARHYTHMIC THAT IT THREATENS TO ERADICATE THE ENTIRE CONCEPT OF TEMPO FROM THE UNIVERSE.

Karkat really has chilled out hasnt he? like this is surprisingly level for him, and that fact is hilarious.

KARKAT: AND YET SOMEHOW BASICALLY ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED SINCE WE STARTED THE LOAD IS THAT YOU’VE BEEN USING IT AS A FUCKED UP BEAT TO WHISPER TO YOURSELF ABOUT FLOWERS TO.

oh gosh that’s why he’s rapping

> ==>

DAVE: kanaya was telling me this kids story the other day about this dude who didnt cherish a flower enough until it peaced out to do flower stuff idk its not pertinent to the story DAVE: except the flower was a person DAVE: because it was a metaphor

Oh right, coming back to the Little Prince stuff I was too lazy to metaphor-deep-dive into, and literally asking the same questions we were asking about who the Little Prince’s story applies to mapped here if anyone at all, like Dirk and such, or what biases were in the retelling of it and the way Kanaya phrased it. So now we’re practically mocking it by deep diving it here, hence the last page’s “DAVE: i was just thinking through some really convoluted metaphorical horseshit”, which means we’re both about to further explore AND shit all over the existence of this story metaphor until it doesn’t mean anything and most of the meaning we drew from it earlier is made a joke~

well, not “we”, cause I was too lazy, so... y’all

DAVE: anyway what goes down in the story is that once the flower lady is out of the picture DAVE: the main character goes around making all these connections between her and everything else in the universe until every damn thing feels like a symbol for how much he fucked up and how much he will never see her again KARKAT: THIS SEEMS PRETTY FUCKING INTENSE FOR A KID'S STORY DAVE: yea thats pretty much what i said

Oh holy shit. That’s yet another way to put it. Are we doing a whole moral takedown of the Light aspect today? cause it sounds like we’re taking a dump on the Light aspect and RoboRose getting too obsessed and immersed in it, which would be excellent

DAVE: but i guess its not so much what the story was technically textually about but more like the version of it kanaya internalized and then told me when we were talkin about how she misses rose

exactly

DAVE: so like now im taking the story she told me she was projecting her feelings onto and projecting my feelings on top of that

yes absolutely, you just rephrased it a different way with that exact same bias

DAVE: this is just one big game of emotional projection telephone so feel free to go paraphrase it to roxy later and make it about whatever fuckin thing youre currently missing

perfect. i need an emoji for that Italian thing for when you pinch your thumb and forefinger together and kiss it

ah this’ll do:

its like the expression “choice” but in nonverbal form

[...] whatever fuckin thing youre currently missing KARKAT: YOUR ABILITY TO GET TO THE POINT DAVE: gotem DAVE: anyway you’re not gonna have to miss that skill of mine for long DAVE: get ready for this shit because i am about to slap you with the point so hard youll fall ass first into the washer DAVE: just scrambling around in there getting all sudsy DAVE: but your brain is gonna be so blasted from the mindfreak of a point im about to make that there wont be anything left to clean

Anytime dave is told to get to the point he is contractually obligated to spend at least 20 seconds talking about how he’ll get to the point in a way that is not getting to the point

DAVE: so its genuinely cool that kanaya can go around creating meaning that may or may not be actually present in every little thing DAVE: connecting every feeling she has to the idea of her wife existing out there DAVE: so i told her she should keep that shit up DAVE: but im having the opposite issue where im struggling to find anything to be that kind of tether because every single thing i could possibly consider about what it is were doing just reminds me of yet another thing to be afraid about

Great examples of Light being good and bad! Attaching strands of connective meaning to everything. --though, in Dave’s case AND Kanaya’s case you could argue it’s both bad in terms of effects. That it’s great for Kanaya to care, but that she should be able to divest herself and live on her own terms without idealizing Rose literally everywhere she looks, personal growth which would be useful in helping bring Rose back to her in the first place. The struggle they’re looking forward to is largely philosophical, not just physical, and until Rosebot acknowledges that she was wrong it’s not over.

DAVE: everything fuckin sucks huge cosmic donkey sack and im terrified KARKAT: OK, SO I FEEL LIKE YOU SKIPPED A COUPLE NECESSARY STEPS IN YOUR POINT CLARIFICATION PROCESS.

Pretty sure Dave was on the same page as most Epilogue and start-of-HS2 readers. This situation is pretty bleak to dump our heroes into, no matter how much we believe will be resolved in the long run.

DAVE: ok but were you going with sweet or savory please give me that much at least KARKAT: YEAH IT WAS GOING TO BE SUNDAE-BASED. DAVE: nice KARKAT: YEAH. KARKAT: DO YOU WANNA WATCH MORE GBBO AFTER THIS? DAVE: absolutely

--ah, Great British Bake-Off, can’t say I’ve indulged

do they still have that?? did they save it from old Earth? or did they go where unflooded Britain used to be and say hey, new show reboot

KARKAT: GREAT. ANYWAY, LIKE I WAS SAYING, FOR THE LOVE OF SWEET HUMAN CHRIST, PLEASE BACK UP TO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU’RE ACTUALLY SCARED OF. KARKAT: ALSO COME HERE, IDIOT.

That last line is like, exactly as fucking sweet and awesome as we imagined their relationship to be. :)

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OH MY GOD THAT’S ADORABLE

DAVE: ok yeah this is a better position to unleash all my inner fears n anxieties from

indisputably.

DAVE: those times its like my mouth was saying words about the situation wherein our friends are AWOL and maybe dead but my brain wasnt fully letting me experience the emotion that goes along with them DAVE: man its like i cant even start genuinely thinking about how afraid i actually am for rose and john without my brain flippin its wad and whiting out DAVE: like haha fuck i hope theyre ok DAVE: now i better make a fuckin joke before i succumb to the gaping mouth of despair waiting for me to fall in it as soon as i look down and acknowledge that its there ogling how juicy my ass looks as it trembles with terror

I really hope that the writers of HS2 know full well that this feeling? the one Dave is describing here? is what many of us who got way overinvested in the well-being of Homestuck’s surviving characters felt reading the Epilogues and Homestuck^2. So I really hope they’re working through it in a way that will result in a preponderance of GOOD THINGS happening and hope-filled situations. Cause that “can’t even think about X” feeling is too familiar, and if they understand it as well as it LOOKS like they’re getting to, I’d really like them to give us a helping hand healing.

I think that’s what they’re going for? Seems hopeful for me to think so, but they HAVE been doing better as HS2 has been going forward, from an emotional standpoint anyway; definitely better than the Epilogues. And I’ve worked through some of that stuff with the help of that, because it’s MUCH easier nowadays to think about Homestuck without my gut clenching.

DAVE: i guess im just fucked up about how to worry about dirk and be angry at him at the same time DAVE: because if i get as unholy pissed at him as i sometimes wanna be i also gotta admit to myself that maybe i coulda done something different there

Mhmm, Karkat’s potentially a pretty good person to speak with here since he’s done so much work trying not to feel responsible for everything that’s ever gone wrong.

DAVE: also like DAVE: and this by the way adds a whole other layer of guilt on there that i dont really know how to fuckin reckon with but DAVE: even with all the shit hes pulled and the fact that we are more or less heading toward having to take him down DAVE: whatever that is gonna mean and whether or not he planned it like that DAVE: i just DAVE: me and him had come so far with each other and it was really cool for a while to have him and i DAVE: ugh DAVE: i dont WANT to hate him

Yeah, Dirk and Jane’s heel-turns were really shitty for anyone who was a fan of them in the fanbase, as well.

KARKAT: WELL THEN QUIT FUCKING PICKING AT THE SEAM ON MY SHORTS AND SPIT IT OUT. THEY'RE BARELY HANGING ON TO THE DEFINITION OF "SHORTS" AS IT IS.

That is an adorably real boyfriend-laying-in-boyfriend’s-lap thing to do

DAVE: the part i mentioned before about how we really have no goddamn clue how long this trip is even gonna take DAVE: i cant help but feel like its barely getting revved up DAVE: and for me and roxy and jade and callie and kan thats normal shit at best and boring at worst but we all have our immortality to thank for that DAVE: we can just dick around in space for near-eternity waiting to catch up to our friends who may or may not be our enemies now and itll be fine DAVE: i mean no itll be categorically miserable DAVE: but well survive it KARKAT: HOLD THE FUCK ON. DAVE: but you KARKAT: DAVE. DAVE: no lemme say this

Oh god damnit. Karkat’s limited lifespan. As if we hadn’t ALREADY covered a nauseatingly extensive gamut of disheartening topics of conversation. We really have to confront every shred of misery in their past, present and future one after the other after the other in the Epilogues and HS2, don’t we? >:(

I guess it had to be discussed, though.

DAVE: we dont talk about it much and i got shit to say about it DAVE: its not like i never thought about how youre mortal before but i just thought wed be able to figure it out before it mattered DAVE: come up with some kind of plan DAVE: i was just distracted being happy with you i fucking guess and so i didnt think up a way to fix it DAVE: and now thanks to dirk we have to work it out right the fuck now DAVE: because i cant spend this trip just sitting around watching you get old and die

Jesus. I mean, WE know(?) that it’s not gonna be THAT many years, but THEY don’t know that.

Unless it really IS going to be that many years and HS2 is going to shamelessly take a fucking sledgehammer to our feelings for no goddamn good reason. Which it won’t! Right??? >:T

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Dishwasher ding

> Dave: Grapple with the clean, soggy consequences of the passage of time.

Hey, don’t make it a metaphor here. --though, fuck. I suppose we are dealing with everyones dirty laundry. God damnit. SURE, deal with it all story but then GET IT OUT OF THE WAY AND PUT SOME SERIOUS FUN AND LAUGHS IN HERE so we don’t feel like we’re wading through an entire garbage dump!!! *click*

Karkat’s eyebrows-only mouthless frown is really cute.

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okay Karkat explain the nope you’re lodging

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*put*

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*foot*

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DAVE: ok go on

I mean I at least appreciate the time investment in adorable boyfriends. That’s definitely something of SOME good value they’re giving us in exchange for this misery

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That Karkat image makes me wanna do that red-shaky-gif-thing with it

KARKAT: IT'S NOT LIKE I'M NEW TO THE PARTICULAR MOOBEAST WRANGLING EVENT OF SOMEONE I PREVIOUSLY LOVED BRUTALLY TURNING ON ME AND LEAVING ME TO TRY AND CRAM MY FEELINGS ABOUT THE SITUATION BACK TOGETHER ALL ON MY OWN.

True

KARKAT: HE DID THAT ON HIS OWN. AND WE MADE THE CHOICE TO GO AFTER HIM ON OUR OWN.

Yes, and you’ll possibly convince him more of that over time, though not in this short conversation

KARKAT: I WAS FOLLOWING YOUR LITTLE TRAIL OF COOKIE CRUMB FEARS UNTIL IT LEAD TO THE BIG SNACK FINALE OF WORRY ABOUT MY FRAGILE MORTAL MEATSACK. KARKAT: IF I HAVE SOMEHOW NOT BEEN CLEAR ABOUT THIS WITH YOU YET, LET ME GO AHEAD AND RECTIFY THE SITUATION RIGHT THE FUCK NOW. KARKAT: HANGING OUT WITH YOU ON THIS LONG TRIP TO WHO THE SHITTING FUCK KNOWS WHERE IS QUITE LITERALLY THE HAPPIEST I HAVE EVER BEEN IN MY ENTIRE MEAGER EXISTENCE. KARKAT: I'M SO ABSOLUTELY BLISSED THE FUCK OUT OF MY MIND TO BE ABLE TO LOOK AT YOUR STUPID IMMORTALLY SMOOTH HUMAN FACE SKIN EVERY DAY AND NOT HAVE A COMPLEX ABOUT IT.

D’AWWW

And with that darkly angry expression too, that’s PERFECT

I mean it’s true. What exactly would they be doing DIFFERENTLY on Earth C other than enjoying each other like this? It’s pretty fucking great.

...hm. Isn’t this journey-not-the-destination stuff pretty Breathy? Karkat’s proving more balanced by the moment.

KARKAT: AND I'LL BE STRAIGHT WITH YOU. IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVEN'T BEEN EXPERIENCING SOME COMPLICATED GUILT, MYSELF. KARKAT: THE FACT THAT I'M HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE JUST FUCKING CHILLAXING AND BEING IN LOVE IN SPACE IS A CLEARLY INCONGRUOUS WITH THE REASON I'M ACTUALLY HERE CHILLAXING TO BEGIN WITH, AND I'M NOT LETTING MYSELF FORGET THAT, EITHER.

Pff. He feels guilty for ENJOYING IT so much. <3

KARKAT: BUT I RESENT THE IMPLICATION THAT MY HAPPINESS IS REGISTERING FOR YOU AS YOU HAVING TO JUST "SIT AROUND AND WATCH ME GET OLD," BECAUSE I KNOW YOU KNOW IT'S MORE THAN THAT.

I’m glad Karkat knows that DAVE knows somewhere in him that it’s more than that, because yeah, if Karkat thought he DIDN’T know that at some level that’d be a reason to take MUCH MORE SERIOUS offense.

KARKAT: LIKE, JESUS, DAVE. YOU KNOW I'M AFRAID FOR YOU, TOO, RIGHT? KARKAT: OR DID YOU FORGET THE WHOLE HEROIC DEATH THING? KARKAT: I WORRY ABOUT LOSING YOU FAIRLY FUCKING REGULARLY.

Hah!!! Point taken. Karkat must view Dave as practically more fragile than HIM.

KARKAT: ONE: WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH HELLACIOUS PANWARPING TRAUMA THAT I REFUSE TO NOT ENJOY THIS SHIT WHEN I FINALLY FUCKING GET IT, NO MATTER HOW LONG IT MAY OR MAY NOT LAST. KARKAT: TWO: IT'S NOT LIKE WE'RE DOING NOTHING. WE’RE MOVING. WE’RE WORKING. WE’RE HEADED SPECIFICALLY TO A PLACE WHERE WE WILL UNDOUBTLEDLY ENDURE YET MORE FUCKING HELLACIOUS PANWARPING TRAUMA. KARKAT: AND THREE: WE'RE DOING THAT BECAUSE WE HAVE FRIENDS WHO WE CARE ABOUT THAT NEED US. THAT IS OUR FOCUS, HERE. NOT OUR FEAR. IT'S ABOUT THE PEOPLE WE HAVE TO SAVE. KARKAT: SO DON'T FUCKING WORRY ABOUT ME, DAVE. I'M FINE.

Okay, this is great and wholesome. I am now retroactively GLAD that this topic got brought up. :)

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Dave is still afraid. There is a part of him that will always be, he thinks. He has accepted this about himself. There is another feeling coursing through him too, though. It’s something he's felt before, though never quite so intensely. He looks up at Karkat and understands, viscerally, the simple power his words have. They pump through Dave’s own body, alive and warm and true.

He wonders if Karkat realizes it, or if he’s just, as always, saying what he feels as he feels it. Dave doesn’t attempt to dissect it further. There will be time for that later.

Every really loving moment like this is sort of undercut by the fact that it’s also, in some senses, part of alt!Calliope’s narration and, by extension, her fanfiction.

EDIT 2: There's also either a hint to potential Blood powers or even an explicit Blood power use here that I didn't recognize. I'm leaning towards it's-laying-the-groundwork-for-future-use-of-Blood-powers-but-isnt-magical-in-this-case.

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Smooooch!

That was nice. Still gonna wait on doing any commentary til next time or a Bonus update or two, cause I’m beat. See y’all next time!

#Homestuck #hs2 #Homestuck Liveblog #upd8 #Homestuck^2 #spoiler #spoilers #Breath and Blood #Light and Void

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voicesordoctors · 4 years

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voices or doctors?

Coolieo its perfectly fine to argue i need the input anyway its how gw made the government so its how im gonna prove him wrong

WanK

ANYWAY

How can you prove mental illness exists? How do you go about finding it and defining it? obviously any hallucinations, delusions or paranoia. (all of which tie in together in some cases) and at that point how can you differentiate between the 3. one is more obvious, where the other 2 are more similar and harder to understand, out of a human tendency to want to be right (and should be listened to [self righteousness{non biblical). So these things should always be taken into account when thinking deeply on a topic. (hello hackers) Believe it or not all people to a degree are paranoid.

So in my opinion, the spectrum has already been exhibited with the facist, bigoted, racists & ignorant mindsets, leading to a set of ailments that i’ll get to later. One of the main symptoms include objectification, which in close to any setting comes from a subconscious (or conscious) sense of superiority in a more “official” setting. Subclasses to this mind set can come in the form of sexisim, transphobia, homophobia, xenophobia or racism(the difference being one is alienation} and the other is just outright hatred or bigotry) or its just an unknown stupidity (ignorance). And with this level of objectifying life, you're probably worrying about this depictions sexual orientation (depending on youre nurture.vs.nature.), but that’s neither here nor there because people like this are in literally ALL WALKS of life. (scattered, with pockets based on a persons nurture).

This leads to the concept of the roboticism of life {plutocracy}. A persons nature, and the repetition we face as people. It starts in school oddly, but even before that, it starts at home and comes from work on a day to day and is sorted into a classification of wealth with an added life experience, varying from person to person (nature vs nurture & the side effects of each) that being said, im going to talk about the design of a fast food restaurant.

All the food in the warmer will last you 4 hours and all the food on the table will last you 2 and get used in 3. So already you’re thinking bad food, and yes) (but no this is just some of the timing you have to take into account for while making the food. the things defrosting will be done in a half hour so you have to know when to; put them in to take them out, to put them in to take them out, to do the dishes, to put it in the food (every shift, everyday for the same ~24 people (at most). (But that's me, that’s my understanding) after this you go home to what is probably the most human activity we indulge… assuming you have a life outside work. DEEEEEEEEEPRESSSION maybe you’re psychotic idfk.

If you’re born in the 20’s, life is all about improvement across the board…. BUT classism (to generalise sexisim racisim(of the time) and essentially ableism, reread if you didn’t catch on). This objectification of the day affects not only the wages but the jobs allowed to A class of people as compared to B class of people. Affecting not only the nature of the problem but what becomes the nurture of the problems solution (the up and coming nurture in order to make progress. But that is gradual and very slow being only 100 years in on this discovery, it's already been cemented in and throughout society and our patterns of thought. So as you can imagine our sciences as well as our laws are and may be racially, sexually, or even mentally biased. But what is that?

We all know the countless lives dedicated to activism, but even that is left to interpretation: (tomato/tomoto) nature vs nurture can be implemented here too. (in a way, but even that's a psychotic way of classifying people). So instead do you know why they say tomato and you say tomoto? Or are you going to stand strong with tomoto, no matter the weather? Well that can be put on a scale!!!!!! the psychotic scale. ~<<--dilutions--schitoo--psychotic--sociopathic--psychopathic--toxic personality--major depressive-- types of anxiety--retardation-->>~

(all with a scale to themselves leading into the next) all of which struggle with empathy, for an opposing opinion. With this i think it can be proven that people are all either retarded or robotic. A good example is psychosis is technically catatonic schizophrenia. (psychosis can be based off a disagreement between the doctor and patient and can come near a catatonic level (where catatonic schizophrenia is catatonic.(and thats it? . That's a little hypocritical if you think about the doctor doing the study but that's widely ignored. (to simplify human classification of class of insanity) {psychotically of course.}

Here we dip into a few odd controversies.

For instance a man can never be a woman even if they're trans because of the difference in nurture leading to the chosen nature. (A technical delusion)

Or how S class white people will never fully understand the difference between the 20s and today due to a complete removal from society leading to technical schizoaffective disorder or any level on the psychotic scale.(little has changed) it's a work in progress. But that's ignorance.

Or how black america may not see this existing ignorance causing them to be ignorant to the blatant stupidity. (alquada, black panthers, among PLENTY OF others) being the basis of activism in the 20s starting both a nature and nurture as a reaction to the existing nature and nurture. Or you're a sociopath. (you dirty animals)

To understand that, let's go back to objectification, and add an extremist point of view to it. So scientifically all ailments cause these 2 things on different levels and with different emotional responses. But, who's to say emotionally and mentally manipulating people is how you decipher their psychotic behavior? (that's hypocritical) so, the ableist thing to say would be to say that retards don't have emotions (shown in this scale). But in reality we don't all have down syndrome…. So in the case the person is unable (due to human self righteousness) or are unwilling to see the other opinion, then either they don't care or are <-objectifying--biggoted--ignorant-> (applies to: ableism, racism, sexisim).

Indicating either a near robotic hate or zombie like stupidity. Causing mainstream thinking of tomato vs. tomato. Ultimately being insanity, because that level of objectification applies to any one of these things. Both in behavior and treatment received so is it normal to react “psychopathic-ly” to a doctor? (entailing manipulation… (technically)... See you can't walk into a doctor’s office and expect them to call you normal. No. first they want to know your anxieties, to best sort you for a proscribed doctor (specialist). Thus a type of treatment entailing how you're spoken to what you get to eat, see, hear, feel, ect. Because depending on who you are you might do what they do to you… to them. That's scary, more for the patient than the doctor{if you ask me}… but that depends on the person's nature vs nurture) If they have that emotional response to it, that disproves the existence of a psychotic level but its considered manipulative.

Ideally thats how it works but the problem is not all physicians specialize, and the way its taught is all comparison work (rather than behavioural analysis)

~<-dilutions--schitoo--phycotic--sociopathic--phycopathic--toxic.personality--major.depressive--types of anxiety--retarded->~

{objectification is still the topic}

Id love to go on and talk about the prohibition or the end of slavery or begining of womens rights but thats all old news at this point in time. All we can do as a people is remove this ignorance of nature vs nurture. (Any black lined information the government holds from the people is being left unincluded)...idk what tags i need

#lgbtq #blm #rightwingpigs?

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cheekbites-moved · 5 years

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based solely on the possibility of playable zelda & the whole thing with link’s hand in the trailer, people are speculating that link is gonna die & like! if that happens i will go feral cause thats my SON who has gone through ENOUGH as it is,, but also i dont think solely based on really mostly that whole thing with his hand, that it means he’s gonna die?

a few reasons i doubt this:

i’ll get my most biased reason out the way first... link dying, after everything the players experience with him in the first game, would be nothing but dissatisfying. killing off main characters just to pass that title to another character rarely ever works. especially not in a case like this where we’re already attached to this link because we played as him for an entire game. having gone through everything he goes through in botw 1, only to have him die ultimately just for the sake of zelda becoming playable, wouldn’t be dark, interesting or a Shocking Twist, it’d just.. suck. & it would seriously ruin the whole game for me if it happened.

ok now that’s out of the way, here’s other reasons it would be bad to go that route:

link in botw is established to be INCREDIBLY POWERFUL. i mean it seriously gets to a point where he is the definition of op in the game. he takes out every blight that took out all the past champions, he can counter a guardian laser with a damn pot lid, there’s one memory where he took out MULTIPLE SILVER LYNELS with presumably JUST THE MASTER SWORD and he can defeat calamity ganon quite quickly depending on the circumstance once you go to that fight. & like, yeah, he lost in the past but? he is still incredibly powerful & idk how he could be reasonably defeated in this game without it somehow seeming odd given how powerful he’s established to be in the first game.

it’d be a crappy thing to pull on zelda?? she waited 100 years not only for him to just awaken, but also to reunite with him. it would be seriously crap to make her spend all that time waiting for him to return only to have him die once she is finally able to go on adventures with him once more.

the most crucial point, though, is that link is not being consumed by malice. if he was specifically being overtaken by malice, it’d make sense that he might die (though honestly i really wish they’d go a ‘corrupted link’ route instead cause that’d be far more interesting, especially since we missed out on the other champions being corrupted.), but he’s not. he’s being overtaken by the magic of the hand that is sealing this game’s enemy away so...

what i think would be far more interesting would be that link is consumed by this magic, and somehow has to take that hand/spirit/whatever’s place as the one sealing this enemy away, or alternatively maybe just keeping it at bay since we do see the enemy awaken within this small teaser.

since we have such little info, idk how it could actually work or how it would potentially be executed, but i’m just saying that’s a far more interesting route to go than just.. killing link off. especially because if this would make zelda playable in his place, it’d be an interesting parallel to the first game cause they’d have reversed roles. zelda, the hero, having to save link, the one burdened with keeping the darkness at bay until the hero can come help him defeat it for good.

idk! i could very well be wrong. we have a significantly long ways to go until the game comes out. i’m just saying like.. i think killing link off just to make zelda the playable character, if that’s even the route they’re going we don’t even know yet, would be a crappy move in general. but, even more so cause there’s other interesting possibilities that could make her playable without going through such a cheap route.

#legend of zelda #loz botw #botw #botw 2 #botw theory #mine #long post//#death mention//#text heavy//

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god my fuckin temperament is too weak to handle thinking about inguinal hernias anymore today. this: http://transhealth.ucsf.edu/trans?page=guidelines-testicular-pain is still the only link i can find that has any confirmation of it as a danger to trans women who tuck. but it doesn't go into detail about how the actual hernia is occurring and what the relationship is with tucking. but at least it confirms a correlation so i know that it is in fact a danger and not just wild speculation or something based solely on one person’s experience, which may or may not reflect the rest of the community. from what i can guess its probably like? pushing the testicles into the inguinal cavity is distending it and weakening the muscles, which is allowing the intestines to slip through into the cavity. i wonder if theres like, something in this to do with like, physical exertion, bc it could also be that tucking is creating a weakness that is getting exacerbated by a moment of physical exertion? or maybe by moving in a way that like, affects the muscles in there? idk. there really isnt a lot of info about this and im not a doctor so the best i can do is speculation. but i dont think the idea that tucking is distending the inguinal cavity which is weakening the associated abdominal muscles is too extreme of a jump. this is one of those times where i really really wish there was more medical information and research about trans bodies, bc most of what there is is sporadic and incomplete and the rest is sourceless uhh, whats the word, when its just based off a persons experience being recounted without any like, reliable research or info. starts with A. im very tired lol. point is i wish there was more info out there cuz there really isnt a lot and im scared ppl are going to get hurt bc of that. this is also like, opening my eyes a lot about how uncertain the information i have in general about like, my body and the bodies of other trans women. bc im finding inconsistent info about things i thought were facts, like for example tucking has always been held up to be perfectly safe, but ive never been able to do it without it hurting, and apparently like?? the whole ‘hrt will turn you infertile’ thing might be inconsistent too? apparently it happens to some but not others. and the thing about like, ‘you WILL lose the function of your dick’ (with the implied ‘but thats a good thing’ that has always pissed me off) and my dick still works, it works differently and i cum and orgasm differently than i did before hrt but it still very much works, it just seems to follow different rules? and i still cum and i can still get hard, both of those things were supposed to stop happening but they didnt. it just like.. went through a process of being reprogrammed so it behaves differently now. cuz there was a period where i couldnt orgasm and i couldnt cum, but then i could again, and now my orgasms are totally different than they were when i was pre hrt. instead of it being like, sudden and intense and overwhelming, it builds up slowly to a peak, then gradually declines from there and leaves you feeling warm throughout and very very soft. and my hen leaks precum constantly when im aroused, and then when i cum it shoots a little bit out then like, leaks goo for the next half hour, not a little bit either. its a mess.

there was something else i wanted to say here but i forgot it. all in all im just. mad that the only ppl who care about the health of trans ppl are some doctors and trans ppl themselves. and that information about our bodies is inconsistent even between professionals. i cant be sure that my doctor actually knows how my body works and whats best for me. it makes it so much harder to trust doctors and feel safe when i see them. what a nightmare. i want to help ppl. i want to find and compile info about our bodies to keep us all safe but i can barely look after myself and i cant commit to doing that. i have to focus on myself. so all i can rly do is like, give advice and try to warn ppl of potential dangers and do what research i can. which is what we’re all doing. the danger is when personal biases conflict with caring for the safety of other ppl, which is the root of all the problems with trans medical stuff i think. whether its doctors enforcing their biases on trans ppl thru medical advice/medicine, or trans ppl themselves giving advice that is warped by their personal beliefs. it leads to misinformation and inconsistency and thats dangerous. that means people getting hurt. so i have to be careful when i give advice to be aware of my own personal biases. such as like, i hate tucking, but i cant tell ppl to just not tuck bc its not my body, i dont know if theres a way to tuck safely or not, so instead i have to tell ppl to be careful and to be aware of potential risks, and to listen to their body bc pain and discomfort are important indicators of harm being done. but im scared that will be lost in the tide of ‘tuck or you arent a real trans woman, you need tucking to pass, it cant hurt you’ that has been spread among us for a really long time.

i feel like this is like, tied to another big problem which is the like, necessity and obsession with passing. which are two very different things. necessity is like, passing to be safe, which i feel like has room to accept that tucking might not be totally safe and comes with certain risks, because it isnt about affirming self worth or identity, only about staying safe. then obsession, which might not be the best word but it will do for now, by that i mean ppl who feel they Have to pass at all costs, bc they think that if they dont they arent a real woman or something like that. they tie passing to self worth and identity, if they dont pass they are worthless or incomplete or like, inferior to cis women, and they will do anything to pass, with little to no regard for personal safety. they will do risky things like skipping meals or tucking unsafely bc they want to pass at any cost. but they spread their perspective on this through advice to other trans women, telling them they need to tuck and they need to wear makeup and they need to do voice training and get implants and srs and all manner of things or they are a trender. a faker. they put insecurities into other trans women and bully each other to propagate their personal biases and force other trans women to conform. most trans women pre hrt are extremely vulnerable and lost, which is when these obsessive trans women give them bad advice and twist them to their world view. that happened to me. i got sucked into that when i was trying to figure out my identity and needed validation. luckily i got out of that and i know better now. its really fucked. ive talked about like, versions of this idea before. that there are two kinds of trans ppl, those who love being trans and those who hate is and want to be cis. and i think as im getting a bit older and learning more and getting further thru my transition im starting to put together a bigger picture of the interplay between all of this stuff. like, the interactions between cis society and its expectations of trans ppl, how trans ppl deal with those expectations and how they deal with living and moving in a cis society thats hostile to trans ppl. this is all one big mess. and thats not even touching on the interactions between terfs, transmeds, and the various levels of trans communities both online and irl. its an absolute nightmare. and then as well there’s like, further interactions with like, nb and gender diverse ppl, gay vs straight trans ppl, intersex ppl, exclusionists, and the mess that the current lgbt+ community online is. i could write a book about this. im living in a nightmare. a massive roiling chaotic community thats fighting itself and the world around it and trying to survive and destroy the parts of itself that it thinks arent ‘valid’. which sounds like a metaphor for my experiences as a trans woman. god and theres more i keep forgetting. im so scatterbrained tonight. i havent had enough sleep to be trying to talk about something so complex as this. and im destroying my hands by typing this much. time to stop. i can sort all this out later. what a mess.

#hashtag blogging with aggy #transgender

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menalez · 2 years

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hi! so this is gonna be a long ask, if you dont feel like replying or dont really know what to say no hard feelings!! okay so idk if im asking for advice or just your personal thoughts, but i love your blog and ive seen you giving very insightful smart advice/opinions before and i like your vibe in general.

so here goes nothing: ive been working at a new place since june (supermarket) and i like most of my colleagues. a few weeks ago a new guy started working there (im from germany) hes black around 30 years old and immigrated tho i dont know when/from where and his german is pretty good and i thought he was very nice and polite. Now some time around last week two of my colleagues (both female) have talked about how he wont ever listen to them and gets mad/feels personally attacked when either of them criticises him/tells him to do sth differently/corrects him/orders him to do sth, and how they are pretty sure its bc theyre both women since he has no problem listening to literally any of my male colleagues. I have personally never really made that observation (which also makes me question what theyre saying bc id like to say im pretty good at picking up chauvinist patterns by now lol), especially since im way younger than my colleagues (men who dont respect women tend to respect women younger than them even less i think) and it happened many times that he asked me if he could help me with anything when he had nothing to do/asked me stuff about products or whatever when he didnt know/took my advice when i told him about a way to do sth more efficiently etc.. And here comes the main reason im questioning what theyre saying: when they talked about it they said a few times how "the men here [europe] respect women but they [men from majority black countries] dont" and how they [black men] are "naturally more aggressive" and arent used to having to listen to women. So after the racist things theyve said im unsure if hes really a misogynist uncomfortable with listening to women, or if theyre just racist and thus are micromanaging him/criticising him/ordering him around a lot more which in return makes him not want to listen to those two female colleagues of mine. If i knew for sure hes just a misogynist ofc id go cold turkey on trying to be nice to him/making smalltalk/offering help and whatever but in case im wrong and his hostility is just the result of racism i dont want to take part in lowkey bullying in the workplace and make him feel alienated. but then again if my two colleagues are correct i dont want to play nice with a misogynist. Do you see my struggle? its not even like i could do much in either scenario bc out of the three days of the week that im working, im only sharing one 7 hour shift a week with him. so yea like i said, idk what im really asking for here i mainly wanted to get it off my chest and hopefully youll tell me im not absolutely bonkers and overthinking stupid shit lmao <3<3<3

first off so sorry for taking some time to respond, i saw how long ur msg was and wanted to sit down properly so i can read it n respond.

tbh, if i knew someone and talked to them frequently and didn’t notice such a trend, + the people who pointed out to me start spewing racist things,, id be more inclined to trust my own experience. i guess you’d just have to keep observing and see if there’s any truth to their statements, but it seems you’re already leaning towards their statements likely being based on their own biases towards him due to him being black. especially if they said that black men are “naturally more aggressive”… that to me isn’t even subtle. maybe if possible u could try to see how they interact w him and how he responds, ig thats the only way you’ll know for sure. but definitely if he’s good w u and it’s been going well with him, i say keep being the way u are bc it’s never great to have bad relationships w any coworkers

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jaeyooniverse · 3 years

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Heyo, fantasy friend here! Oh roller skating at the park sounds like a lot of fun, how did it go?

Yeah... a pretty big chunk of the groups I'm into are getting to an age where the members have to start enlisting 😔 I've temporarily lost three biases to the military already and the time is coming when another (Youngbin) is going to have to go as well :( this is what I get for biasing mostly older members... At least enlisting earlier means they'll be back earlier though 😭 small comforts

It is super neat to figure out how things tie together! I love seeing the connections between things that seemed entirely different before and how they affect each other, it's really exciting 😄 ooh what kind of project is it? I imagine you use programming quite a lot especially with the AI stuff so good luck on that 💕 I'm cheering you on!

Ah I see you have a mindset kind of like mine 😂 I love learning so much and I would study everything if I could, it's too bad there's not enough time to learn about everything (not to mention the amount that would cost in tuition!) I think that's the one thing that would tempt me to seek immortality... imagine having unlimited time to discover more about the world and how it works, and people and how they work, and to explore places and ideas and skills... man it would be so cool!!

Omg that picture is so pretty!! It sounds like it was really awesome 😄 now I'm remembering the time I went camping in a redwood forest with my family and we hiked up to a waterfall, I had a lot of fun on that trip and the forest was beautiful 😌

There are a few tricks I use to stay cool but I think the easiest one is to take a cold shower and then not dry your hair afterwards (obviously dry it enough that it doesn't drip everywhere, but like... as little as possible), the water will cool you off and then since your hair is wet it won't act as insulation to keep your head warm, and as it evaporates that will also keep you cool! Another one is to use ice packs, those can help a lot.

Tbh I think the fires are a lot more dangerous than the earthquakes at least in my experience, I've never been in an earthquake big enough to cause any damage but there have been some really serious fires in my area that affected a lot of people including ones I knew so that feels like a more immediate danger to me - idk though, every place has its risks and benefits and I'm willing to put up with it haha

Hm I think I'm most excited for the music but also the MV, it seems like it's going to be really cool! I'm obsessed with aesthetics so I can't wait to see the whole thing 👀 and I bet the gifs and edits everyone's going to make will be amazing as well!! If there are any particularly awesome shots in the music video I might even draw something based on it, I haven't really drawn in ages but maybe this will be the thing that gets me out of my rut 😌 I'll almost definitely be making edits and/or moodboards though so I'm excited to do that as well!

Hope you have a good day! 💖

it went okay! i was scared i was gonna get caught in the rain bc the sky was kinda gray on my walk over there but it didn't, and the weather was pretty nice overall! i'm still learning so i was pretty much just going around in circles the whole time 😂 but it was fun ^^

aah pls i don't want to think abt it,, the thought of youngbin leaving,,,,, no😭😭😭 and yeah at least the sooner the go, the sooner they come back but..i'll miss them nonetheless :')

exactly!! i think thats what i like about math like so many things are connected, and it branches out into other disciplines like art and science it can be really cool to see the endless possibilities & connections 🤩

the project is about truecasing, which is basically (to my understanding) getting the program to return the proper casing (uppercase, lowercase, etc.) of a given word based on context and probabilities. it's helpful to use on text that might have misspellings or things that are typed all uppercase or lowercase (like texts/messaging). it seems pretty interesting! tho i did almost fall asleep when I was doing the reading last night, but i'll blame that on the fact that i was tired out from skating 😂😅 and yeah there's a lot of programming and i told myself I should do a lot of practice over the summer at the end if the semester and yet..ive barely done anything. which is why I was excited when my professor mentioned this project bc I really need to get back into things. thank you for cheering me on!! im rooting for you as well 😚❤❤

there's soooo much out there i really wish there was more time to study all the things we want freely (and without the pressure of doing it for a grade) and ugh yeah tuition costs...imagine how many more people would have degrees and just more knowledgeable about anything if higher education didn't cost so much. i feel like it really comes down to money 😭😭 like people don't get the highest education they want bc it costs so much, even if you want to study on the side you might not have time bc you have to work and earn money like.. we are not living in a society that properly promotes self-enrichment im so sad</33

ooh the hair trick sounds nice! i guess I've kinda done that before? and it was extra refreshing bc I washed my hair with mint shampoo so it felt really cool 😆 we don't have any ice packs but I bet those would be helpful maybe we should get some lol

yeah ive heard that most earthquakes aren't that dangerous but little kid me didn't understand that there could be non-threatening earthquakes 😂 oh the fires can get so bad it's scary 😥 i hope you stay safe out there <3

the mv does look really cool omg the shots are so beautiful! thatd be so nice if it'd give you some inspiration to get out of your artist block! honestly same here I havent drawn in so long I really want to get back into it. I can't wait to see what you create! 🥰

have a lovely day my lovely fantasy friend ! ♡

#asks #fantasy friend 💙

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blackmagistertd · 7 years

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Fanfic author interview

i was tagged by @ocegion and @genevievedarcygrangerwriting !! ty :u

1. What inspires your work most? (The show it is based on, the actor who portrays a certain character, maybe the character itself…? It could even be an experience.)

usually it’s stuff that i personally would like to explore more, i.e., a relationship dynamic, or a character’s personality outside of what a fandom strips them down to, which is usually one or two basic traits - and people aren’t like that. so my work is usually spiraled off of my love for characters, along with storyline ideas that fascinate me, which is... anything really lol

2. What is your favorite fandom to write for?

honestly i’d say the walking dead? which sounds biased i know gjkhgfdjh but for real, there’s a treasure trove of things to explore. and tbh, the fandom itself is SUPER interactive - idk if it’s because the crowd is older, but everybody is extremely willing to speak. my comment:hit ratio is the highest out of any other fics LOL

3. Which perspective do you prefer writing in? (First-person, third-person)

third, usually. First just feels... idk, amateur? for a fic, anyway. idk why but it just isn’t as good. i DO have a homestuck fic i was working on thats in second person tho gdfkjghdf 4. Do you prefer writing reader fics or OCs?

uhhh neither, but if i had to pick i’d probably go with ocs. ‘cause yknow, all characters are ocs in their own right, and it’s easier to meld an oc in than a reader who only possibly has a chance of connecting to the story.

(also. the y/n shit makes me want to d i e)

5. Do you prefer writing longer works or one shots?

uhhh both? one-shots, i think, are good for breaking a writer’s block, or preventing one. i like not having to rush a longer fic, but there are some things that just don’t need it. & one-shots help at least me not get so burned out on a long fic that i write non-stop.

6. Do you take requests?

oh god yes absolutely.....

7. Do you enjoy getting random Asks?

GOD YEAH i swear i don’t bite & im not trying to be an asshole gkjdhfjk i’m very lonely so ppl sending asks really makes my day

8. What inspires the names for OCs (or extra character names) in your works? Do you pick them from real life or just select them at random? A mix?

extra characters sometimes come in from other fandoms, LOL. but mostly it’s just sort of, i have an oc and i pick a name that fits them and bam there they are 9. If your story(ies) have OCs, are their appearances based on real people or celebrities? If so, who?

not really. i’m pretty good at character design even if i’m not so good at putting it down gkdjfh so my ocs are usually all original

10. How long have you been writing fanfiction?

hhhhhhhoooooo........ maaaybe since 2012? ish? yeah i think 2012 was when i started getting into writing fanfics instead of original works, bc bandfics

i’m tagging uhhhh @hatterized and anyone else who wants to ?

#ash speaks #text #tag meme #ty!!! i love talkin abt my own writing #nontwd #kind of?#personal

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deveharrington · 5 years

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Getting ready to move on part 2: My Deve fitness experiment :-)

My stance: I don't want to make him feel bad about how he looks, I think everyone should be able to look in the mirror at themselves and say and believe that they are sexy, beautiful, healthy, everything!! etc. My issue is that I don't want him to automatically make the association between “good health”/”physical fitness” and a body (well, just the top half) that he sees in magazines that have those headlines.

(The argument is meant to be in line with him saying his orange juice alcohol drink is the “healthy” option but idk if this is a joke that is just flying over my head or lmao.)

I want him to feel sexy and comfortable in his skin, etc. I just cannot (for now) escape the insinuation that he feels that he must also gain the approval of 4927054897059179751 audience members just to feel good about himself, feel powerful or healthy is what I mean. + I think we would see different behaviours (different exercises + routines + proper form) if he were truly interested in strength and fitness or demonstrating inner strength + basic fitness knowledge but that is really just my assumption based on my experiences.

When I say he looks bad I’m talking about the “rockstar” delusion, crowd pandering, young band that only accentuates his own age, and big sad frown - and still, this is only my perspective.

Seeing those Deve workout videos only motivated me to go to the gym and do the same routines properly, because I also wanted to experience it from his perspective. I wanted to understand, to see what he sees, feel what he feels from these routines, but sadly, we do not have much to go by other than intense cardio routines (which??? are good for weight loss but actually not good for building muscle if they are all he is dong but again I guess we cannot see the whole picture).

Disclaimer: I myself am not a professional trainer nor nutritionist, this is my perspective from my own experience.

Disclaimer: Deve is not being the most efficient person at the gym and maybe actually this is just my own personal issue with efficiency or something lmao and no he doesn’t need to be kicked out of the gym or anything.

My point (reiterated): I don't want to make him feel bad about how he looks, I think everyone should be able to look in the mirror at themselves and say and believe that they are sexy, beautiful, healthy, everything!! etc. My issue is that I don't want him to automatically make the correlation between “good health”/”physical fitness” and a body (well, just the top half) that he sees in magazines that have those headlines + when in reality there are some things that he is doing that are not efficient, some things are dangerous or signs of bad habits (I mean the poor form), even the choice of routine and exercises doesn’t make sense to me (and I don’t mean competing with a younger “partner”).

To take it to an extreme: I wouldn’t like him to automatically assume “health” from his appearance (the top half) or latch onto that as an excuse to ignore or justify the other issues potentially going on (mental, emotional etc).

The theory: his routine is not efficient (his buffed up upper body indicates isolation exercises and nothing else, though we’ve never seen him do these exercises, not that we need to. Just pointing that out in contrast to the evidence we do have).

Why do such intense cardio when there’s no need to lose weight? But I could understand it to keep his heart healthy, and I could also understand that perhaps he is doing it for endurance purposes (for his “touring”). But then why not strengthen your legs if you will be on them + “dancing”/”prancing” etc. for however many hours?

1. My conclusion after doing the same routines + my usual routine: I ended up proving my initial theory, though I was open to any possibility. Perhaps I am biased because when I first started at the gym, I realized that to do the compound strength training exercises I was interested in doing (deadlifts + barbell squats etc), I needed to strengthen my legs (as well as other areas I never even though of such as the chest and back).

2. But there is also no need to have a goal of doing strength training to also understand that your legs are still the foundation of your every day life, walking, lifting, etc. That is why I still assert that his main focus is not strength, and that is fine.

3. So, going off of that, to try to understand Deve’s fitness on perspective, my next train of thought was: maybe Deve embodies that cliche of the person who is not interested in doing deadlifts (an excellent full body workout that could exercise BOTH his legs and arms at the same time) or any compound exercise?? because perhaps they look “too easy” and are not so impressive on a video? To me, it falls in line with him being all about performance, looks, etc. ?? perhaps even gimmicks (because I swear he once said he was doing Crossfit and boy if I am remembering that correctly...... then the jokes write themselves) but really this just based on assumptions and my observations.

4. **** But, as I thought about it more + returned to my personal routine because I could only be aimless with poor form for so long, I realized that personal health + personal body image are just that - VERY PERSONAL so I don't actually want to go any further in extrapolating any meaning ... because....

5. **** When I was trying to be as nonsensical and aimless as Deve is in the gym.... I had a sudden flash of insight......... maybe it just all means nothing. It’s just that, aimless or just to get the body moving but not towards any specific goal and thats fine.

6. I want him to feel sexy etc. if we can coexist and I can laugh at him feeling himself within the fake “rockstar” context then good for both of us :-)

7. ???? going forward: I basically confused myself and will just return to my normal routine lmao!!!

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