#but they broke up in 2016 and i was heartbroken

[svt-nari]

nari's love life !

nari started dating after they debuted. It was obviously against the company rules, but what were they gonna do about it? kick her out? she's pansexual and so far, has only dated people with the same life as her (idols), because they can understand each other's schedules and make it work better than with someone who's not a part of this life. right now, she's currently in a relationship with a male idol.

2015–2016 › seulgi, red velvet

— their friendship started when nari ended up confessing her undying love for red velvet's main dancer on a live.

— may I add... while she was completely wasted.

— she was saying how much she loved watching the older woman dance and how much talented she was.

— then, seulgi approached her on a music show the next day.

— didn't really date, but they were tied to one another, if you get what i mean.

— a sort of fwb kind of relationship.

— then nari confessed.

— and they decided to not keep on with this relationship.

— and then, nari was left heartbroken, but at least they are still friends.

— they joke about it from time to time.

2016–2017 › jayb, got7

— they were friends way before they started dating.

— nari met him because of her friendship with got7's maknae line and ended up befriending him due to bambam introducing them.

— started dating because jaebeom showed her a song he wrote for her, confessing the feelings he had.

— it also became a part of one of got7's albums.

— dated for almost 9 months then they broke up.

— she had a really good time with him and can't really complain, same as him.

— he wrote various songs for her just as she has written lots of songs about him.

— remain as friends and they support each other til this day.

2017 › wheein, mamamoo

— after her break up with jaebeom, she wanted to date women again.

— didn't go so well.

— her and wheein were friends for a long time before they dated.

— but they couldn't really understand each other and talk while they were together.

— the relationship ended after three months.

— and their friendship too.

— both parties don't really speak to each other anymore.

— it's awkward at gatherings when they are both there.

— nari tries to avoid wheein at all costs.

2018–2020 › baekhyun, exo

— got close because of a collaboration they did together.

— started dating after a couple months of knowing each other.

— their relationship consisted of spending quality time with each other.

— her first ever long-term relationship and her first public relationship.

— they dated for 2 and a half months until they broke up.

— happened during the pandemic, they slowly distanced themselves.

— especially due to their different life rhythms at the time.

— then nari broke up with him after a fight they had.

— he was devastated and literally tried to gain her back at all costs.

— going as far as posting some cryptic stuff on his social media.

— hinting that he missed someone so much that he thought his heart was going to stop beating.

— and then deleting right after.

— he still loves her, but she moved on.

— and for good.

obs.: some speculate that the album bambi has something to do with nari.

2021–present › seungcheol, seventeen

— okay, how to start?

— they've been friends since forever, basically.

— cheol has had the biggest crush on her ever since they met, but he didn't do anything due to their teamwork.

— he supported her through her every relationship, and she's forever grateful for that.

— nari takes great care of him. she just wants what's best for this boy!

— they started dating after a drunk confession on cheol's side.

— she was a bit hesitant at the start, but she knew that what they had was way more than just a friendship.

— then, after overthinking she just said fuck it and kissed him.

— all the members LOVE to tease coups for it.

— they NEVER will tease nari because of their relationship.

— just their big and scary leader who turns into the biggest softie whenever he sees her face.

— they've thought about going public but decided on letting people find out by themselves.

— which is slowly working since they don't really hide much.

— they've been together for a long time now and expect them to be like this forever!

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[moonshynecybin]

I just saw your post about vale and Marc out with friends in the fco au and you said they hadn’t slept together since the photos, at what point in this universe do they sleep together again?

if we check the lovely timeline that bestie @kingofthering made we can actually assign the EXACT date of july 1, 2016... right after the their date to a fancy gala in paris.... which is a level of specificity i DO find funny. like pencil that in my guys. tarps off lets go.

but: to enter my mind palace!!!! essentially. to set the stage as it were. marc spends the preceding weeks to their gala date going absolutely ham on the gay chicken of it all... letting his freak flag fly. he is OVER being sad about this (he is. so sad lol) and has decided well. if im going to have to pretend to be dating the man that broke my heart that im still in love with. i AM at least going to shamelessly take advantage of this situation. like a true slut <3 and basically he finds escalating excuses to have category 5 PDA events with vale. again: it is jogging across the paddock to neck after a podium. it is tucking himself under vale's arm ANY chance he gets with the most smug little twink face on. looking up at him under his lashes. shirtless vacation pics on vale's yacht where he spends a LOT of time doing a corny silhouette sunset kiss pics but he keeps forgetting to take the pic because his tongue is physically in vale's mouth. and at the beginning vale WAS initially like. damn marc's not engaging with the acting part of this :( and NOW hes just soooo confused and horny bc marc is SENDINGGGGG IT. two steps from dry humping and absolutely obsessed... wet dreams level 5000. marc looking at vale like what? this is what we're supposed to do :) (HE IS HEARTBROKEN!!!!) so all of that is going on pre-gala. they are KEYED UP lmao

and then they have a lovely date that uh. doesnt feel like pr at all. its lowkey. theres not a lot of cameras. they arent the most famous people there so they get mostly left alone for the first time in literally fucking MONTHS. and they just get to. enjoy each other's company. people watch. be a little cunty while people watching which is one of the great love languages. goof off. scarf down expensive ass food. do dumb bits and be annoying. like they make each other laughhhhhhh and theyre in PARIS and the eiffel tower is lighting up and marc's head is on vale's shoulder and its SUCH a good night and its. they almost feel like its real. like this is what their lives could actually be like. and marc's heart is in his throat and suddenly theyre outside of vale's hotel room door and no one can see them so they dont have to pretend. but vale kisses him anyway.

#and then marc FREAKS in the morning of course :) #motogp #callie speaks #asks #rosquez #forced coming out au #its late and im feeling corny. lets ride.

[lenaperseveranceoxton]

Broke: "Blizzard scrapping PvE is a good thing, actually! We need to focus on the small percentage of players who actually like playing Competitive for more than just the XP or cosmetic weapons! The game's competitive spirit is definitely why everyone fell in love with the game in 2016, not the lovable characters and universe! An Overwatch Esports program that people will definitely tune in to for more than just Twitch Drops? We're so back!"

Woke: "More Overwatch comics? You mean the natural habitat of Emily Oxton (née Overwatch)? Splendid."

I am salty. I am heartbroken. I am in serious need of more content of my British lesbians to make up for the time I have spent being in love with this damned IP for all these years.

I mean, seriously. The last time we see Lena chronologically, she's depressed over Toronto, and Emily texts them IMMEDIATELY KNOWING how they cope. To think we're likely never going to get more text messages between them or the messages between the agents as a whole... It all hurts a ton. Don't let Emily fade into obscurity again, Team 4. I beg. :(

Me sneaking out of Team 4 HQ with the post-story Lemon Tea wedding cutscene:

#overwatch #tracer #lena oxton #emily #lemon tea

[moirtre]

*    10 : 09 PM .    POSTURE:    jan. 13, 2016.

CHARACTERS:    melanie bae & yoon yeeun. WORDS:    739. WARNINGS:    swearing.

Easily attached. Those were the words noted by Yeo Joo-eun in Heri’s file after her 6-month trainee evaluation. Always a half-step behind, Joo-eun pitied the fourteen-year-old whose bold features never seemed to match her muted nature. Uninteresting, at most. Those were the words remarked by Jeong Ka-rin to her creative director when Heri broke down in the practice room at sixteen, heartbroken for reasons other trainees would’ve been overjoyed. 

Disappointment always seemed to hang over Heri’s head. Following her like a shadow, reminding anyone who glanced at her of the muteness that defined her personage. That muteness, somehow, never attacked her talent. Everyone knew Heri was talented— quite so. She was known for her voice, effortlessly high with a natural airiness. For her ear, musicality is embedded in her every thought. And for her kindness, like snow with its beautification of everything it covered. If it were not for the permanent sadness stitched into the creases of her eyes, Heri could have had her every wish. But self-sabotage never allowed for many wishes. 

Within the group, Melanie was regarded as Heri’s direct opposite. Where Heri seemed to dampen with melancholic disappointment, Melanie blossomed with poise— the same elegant poise that escaped Heri the moment she debuted. Jae-jin, the girls’ manager from the beginning, liked to joke the two were yin and yang. Melanie, known to scoff at any comparison between herself and Heri, liked to make the point that yin and yang were direct opposites, equal opposites. And Heri was never Melanie's equal.

No one quite knows when ‘Heri and Melanie’ became ‘Heri’s obsession with Melanie’. but sometime between their debut and Melanie's first solo project, Heri's eyes gained vitality. The muteness that dominated her bold features grew lost in a glaze of enchantment. For the first time, “possibly in her life” (Naira was known to scoff at any mention of Heri), Heri allowed herself to be. Casting a wish as blissfully as the white snow cataloged on gorgeous winter days.

“It's like she puts you on a pedestal,” Juniper mutters half-heartedly. Melanie's eyebrows raise, making eye contact with the group's leader through the mirror. 

“And you don’t?” She speaks with a laugh, drawing an unimpressed stare from Juniper. 

“Personally, I think it’s cute. like-” she pauses. “When was the last time she looked like- I don’t know… like she didn’t dread her existence?” Juniper giggles at this, deep dimples appearing in her pale, apple cheeks. 

“Can't remember.” 

Melanie hums in affirmation of her point. A brief silence enveloped the two girls before Melanie spoke up once more. “Apparently she’s pretty good at making songs. like, producing them.” 

It is Juniper's eyebrows that rise this time, surprised brown eyes watching Melanie and anticipating her next words. 

“Jae-jin told me they’re giving her a chance. She might end up producing something with Carter for some kids’ show.” 

“So they're like… testing her.” Melanie nods, “Yeah, Carter gets to evaluate her, see how good she really is—” 

“Potentially make her cry.” 

Juniper interrupts, adding in the thought with a brief chuckle released from Melanie.

“He's excited about it for some reason. Don’t know why, really.” 

“Mels,” Juniper begins, sending the golden-haired singer a deadpan look. “Because he can be an asshole to her and get paid for it.”

She nods, slowly, pensive in her agreement. “He's mean for free, getting paid for it? That’s like- the perfect scenario for him.” Juniper mutters, shifting in her position perched on her closest friend's bed sheets. 

“How do you think it’s gonna go for her?” Juniper speaks up quietly, almost as if she was afraid of posing the question. Her gentle fear is validated through Melanie’s casual scoff accompanied by a roll of her eyes.

“Honestly? I don’t give a fuck.”

Juniper's eyebrows shoot up in surprise once again. Despite her increasing awareness of how much Melanie resented the group’s second-youngest, the depth of her disdain for Heri never ceased to catch Juniper off guard.

“I want her gone. If Carter can’t manage to do that, I’ll go to Trenton— shit, even Ka-rin if I have to."

Juniper breathes deeply, fear creeping into her eyes as she takes in the words of the woman she’s looked up to since she first entered the company. In that moment Juniper understood the depths of Heri’s reverence for the group’s most popular member.

And Juniper knew better than anyone else that when Melanie Bae wanted something, she would get it.

#‎ ‎ ⋆⠀⠀ʬ.ʬ.⠀⠀٬⠀⠀(⠀⠀&.⠀⠀)⠀...⠀TRANSCRIPT. #fake kpop group #fake kpop idol #fictional idol community #fictional idol group #fictional idol oc #fictional kpop community #fictional kpop idol #idol au #idol kpop #idol oc #fictional kpop group #fictional idol addition #fictional kpop company #idolverse #kpop au #kpopidol #kpop oc #oc kpop group #oc kpop gg #oc kpop idol

[twicesserafim]

After Breakup Jealousy

Third Person Pov:

Sana broke up with you a little over 3 weeks ago because you guys had distanced, which was true but the worst part of it was that you were a member of twice and you're currently on tour, with Sana.

You made solo music as well, kinda of like nayeons solo thing but it's been since the beginning so 2015-2016 ish. You always preformed one song at the end, half of the time twice was on stage with you, the other half of the time they weren't.

In this case, they weren't. Honestly, you blamed yourself for part of you and Sana breaking up, you would say that you didnt give her enough attention or more like, you let her go. And you both just gave up on fighting so you let go.

Which is where a song in your new album came from. It was a heartbreak album, you were already writing it before you and sana broke up, because your concept was always stages in a love story/love life line.

(The song you're performing Be alright by dean lewis the acoustic guitar version, you were singing but also playing the guitar) The song was about cheating but half of it still applied to Sana.

The lyrics were translated from english to korean on the screen back stage where the members were watching, you and sana had a 3 year difference, you were still the maknae.

All of the members cared for you, a lot. they still saw you as a baby, they weren't mad at sana because it wasn't her fault but they couldn't exactly say they were happy with the situation.

The last minute of the song, your voice got a little shaky but you kept yourself together, blinking away a few tears that were in your eyes. all of the members felt bad, it was obvious.

A few were bitting their bottom lips, inside of their cheeks and some even pouting at the sight and the lyrics. You acted as if everything was okay, even the members were shocked, they couldn't see your face when you were singing because you barely looked up.

You didn't look like you were crying. You didn't look heartbroken, you didn't look upset. you just looked like.. you. Once the song ended you went backstage. You could feel everyone's eyes on you.

Tzuyu was very rarely touchy with the members, you were like her. But the thing is you two are the same age and have similar heights, you're taller by a little more than an inch.

You two weren't touchy but you were each other's source of comfort. So tzuyu immediately grabbing your wrist and pulled you into her lap. Tzuyu wrapped her arms around your waist.

Resting her head on your shoulder. "you okay? how're you feeling?" "i'm okay" "you sang moral of the story yesterday and you sang be alright today, i don't think you're okay" Tzuyu mumbled as you sighed.

"i could be better, but i could also be worst." "when was the last time you slept?" "uh, few days ago, i think?" You felt a glare coming your way so you turned your eye and met Sana's eyes.

You looked away, turning back to tzuyu. You were both saying this quietly so none of the members could hear plus they were having a conversation of their own. "up thinking about her?" "mhm"

Tzuyu just nodded with a slightly sigh, she pulled you off her lap, laying down on the sofa, patting the spot beside her, you lied down beside her, tzuyu just held you, rubbing small circles on your back.

Until the two of you slowly drifted off to sleep. "guys.." Mina whispered as she pointed to the two sleeping figures on the couch above them, sana scoffed looking at the two of you.

"you aren't aloud to be jealous, sana. you broke up with her." "i know okay? i know. i broke up with her because we distanced but it does not! it does not mean i don't love her, more than anyone or anything in the world."

"then why break up?" "i dont know. i felt like we would've been better off as friends but you can't be friends with someone you're in love with" "at least you know, but it seems like it's too late, she seems pretty into tzuyu"

"yeah, the only person she was this touching with was you when she liked you and when you were dating" "well don't point it out? i'm talking to her when she wakes up." "don't even try, they seem so into each other."

"no. i'm not losing her" Sana mumbled as jihyo let out a sarcastic chuckle. "you already did." those words made sana's heart sting. She glared at jihyo before just grabbing you and pulling you of tzuyu. Pulling you to the changing room and locking the door.

"sana? i can't do this right now, im still like half asl-" "do you like tzuyu?" sana cut you off as you rubbed your eyes in confusion, "what?" "you and tzuyu, are you guys like- together? do you like her?"

You looked at her with so much confusion causing her to slowly get frustrated, "just tell me, are you and tzuyu a thing? do. you. like. her." "what? no?" "to which one?" "both!" "then why're you so close? you slept on the couch together while cuddling"

"maybe because she was the main person that was there when you broke my heart. You were the one the broke up with me. why are you jealous?" "i'm not jealous?" "still the same as you were, huh? you're always denying that you're jealous when you obviously are"

"i'm not jealous, y/n" "okay then what if i-" you got cut off by sana smashing her lips against yours, "mm?!" you yelled, you couldn't help but melt in her touch, you were so used to it.

It took a few seconds, neither of you dated to pull away but air was a problem and you guys had to split. "i'm sorry" she whispered, you could feel her breath fan against your lips since she was resting her forehead against yours.

"for what?" "breaking up with you and getting jealous of how close you were with tzuyu, and just- everything. i love you, so much, take me back? please?" you just nodded as sana pressed her lips against yours again.

"you better not do that again because next time, i wont take you back as easily" "i'm never doing that again" "promise?" "promise."   

...

A/n:

idk i don't like this but wtv

[golbrocklovely]

when we’re talking about the 2016 rn (refering to anon) i wonder why he didnt have serious relationship since 2016? was that relationship SO serious to him that he didnt want to be with someone else or anything? Its actually kinda sad to see this tbh, because that means it really hurt him somehow.

Also im so sorry his grandpa died, i can imagine, my grandma almost died because of sickness and i cant imagine lost her absolutely. hope that man will be okay soon, hope he knows people are here for him💜.

(this is a bit of an older ask, from a couple days ago)

sorry for the delayed response :)

with colby's past serious relationship, it's hard to tell what happened or how things played out bc he mostly keeps that info to himself; which is totally understandable. he's let slip some things, like how he was very needy and depended on her a lot and how he wanted to be with her all the time and overall - he was just too much.

the worse thing he's ever said about her is that she was a bit flaky, and in reality he only implied it. he's mostly blamed himself for things falling apart or that it was just draining to be that in love with someone.

this is all my assumption, so take what i say with a grain of salt. i'm just basing my opinion off of things he's said and also a lot of old tweets from back in the day (some of which have been outright deleted but i saved lol): i think he fell madly in love with this girl, and just depended on her too much. i think he came across as needy and clingy, and she pulled back. she didn't love him as much as he loved her, and then eventually things ended. and he spent the next year just being heartbroken and trying to move on. then by 2018, he tried dating again (and by that i mean putting himself out there, not really having any serious relationships), and it went south once again. and he became bitter to love and dating and everything else. which is why he said the infamous quote of "all the girls in la suck". and i think only recently has he "tried" to dip his toes back into actual dating, and not just hooking up. but even then, he's not really trying.

i think his past relationship really hurt him. bc, while i don't think he wanted to marry this girl, i think that's how much love he had for her. hence why he said in his deep q&a "i only want to fall in love that deeply again with someone like my wife". i don't think he wanted to marry her, but i think he saw a future with her when she didn't feel the same way. and when they broke up, her reasonings tied with his past self esteem issues, it all just became a lot for him to process. i mean, he only recently just started to like being by himself and alone alone (ie solo vacations). respectfully, he has a lot of dependence issues. i don't know if that's bc he doesn't feel like he's enough, or if it's something else entirely. but it's clear that he's been hurt a lot in his life, and it effects the way he goes into relationships.

and i'm in the same boat as him lol

i hope in the near future he allows himself to open up to ppl. i know it's hard, but holding that area of his life back and blaming it on work or whatever other issue is never gonna fix what happened. you also can't allow your heart to grow dark. i think he has a lot of love to give, and he shouldn't hide that in fear of getting hurt.

as for his grandfather, he seems to be a bit better now (according to what he posted yesterday), so that's good. obviously the initial shock is a lot. so i hope he eventually goes home to see family and is around them for love and support.

and i pray that next year is nicer to him.

#ask #personal #cb ll

[piratefalls]

top 9 books

saw @wellhalesbells post and thought she needed to know everything about what i read. because that's what friends do. these are in no particular order.

Linden Hills by Gloria Naylor. I wouldn't say it's a re-telling so much as it takes a lot of cues from Dante's Inferno, but it actually kind of blew my mind when I read it my sophomore year of college. Excellent commentary on what success looks like and how far we're willing to go to obtain it.

I'll Be Gone in the Dark by Michelle McNamara. I'll be honest, it had me checking the locks multiple times at night. A lot of true crime novels really just read like a thesis, but this almost felt like fiction. I couldn't stop reading, even if it did scare the shit out of me. I'll always be heartbroken that Michelle never got to see how her work helped find the Golden State Killer.

Coming Out Like a Porn Star: Essays on Pornography, Protection, and Privacy by Jiz Lee. A collection of essays and testimonials written by people in the industry and their experiences as performers, including advocacy, mistreatment, and how and when they tell the people in their lives that they're adult performers. It adds humanity to the subject where simple research does not.

I'm Judging You: The Do-Better Manual by Luvvie Ajayi-Jones. If you like judging but also want to learn how to do better, this is the book for you.

The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller. I realize this is kind of a polarizing book in the sense that you either really like it or you really don't, but I read the Iliad in college, was bored by it, and despite knowing how this book would end it still kind of broke me.

Red, White & Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston. This should go without saying, but, I also don't generally re-read books. I really don't. I picked this up again because of the movie and it hits different after four more years of life under my belt. Is it still escapism wrapped in a lot of idealism and wishing for what 2016 could have been? Absolutely. Do I care? Not a bit.

Anger Is a Gift by Mark Oshiro. I actually met Mark at the cursed Tumblr Con (yes, I went, it was an experience) and listened to him read Garfield fanfiction and laughed so hard I cried. He's a lovely man, and this book hadn't yet come out, but it stuck with me for weeks after I finished it. Excellent YA novel, wonderfully diverse cast of characters, tackles complex issues beautifully, absolutely recommend.

Beauty Queens by Libba Bray. A group of teenage beauty queens stranded on a lost island? This book is the perfect amount of chaotic. Just read it.

Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay. As a person navigating the world in a fat body, and one who loves Roxane Gay, I just really loved this book. It covers so, so much, and it was both hard and liberating to read it.

Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro. This book devastated me. It's absolutely not what it seems. Go into it knowing nothing about it.

Authors I love in general and couldn't just pick one book: Tess Gerritsen (author of Rizzoli & Isles), Jonathan Tropper (messy people and messy family dynamics), Christopher Buckley (top tier political satire). They're all auto-buys for me, along with Roxane Gay. I also enjoy Edith Wharton, but that feels a little bit niche lol.

#i read a couple of these in college and i still think about them from time to time #about me #books #I LOVE TALKING ABOUT BOOKS

[bisluthq]

ugh nat i need help. i totally cant get over swiftwyn, like ever since they broke up I’ve been more heartbroken ab it than I think they themselves are lol. Idk I think it’s just that they were such a perf couple and they seemed like such soulmates. like all the music she wrote for and with him, the way they looked so good together, and just the fact that they seemed so emotionally connected on so many levels. like they’re still my couple goals if I’m being honest lmao. idk I just can’t get myself to be happy over TK bc I’m missing swiftwyn. Like it’s literally just so sad. their relationship is literally my Roman Empire lmfao

honestly i think i need to separate myself from tay but like i love her music too much and it doesn’t help that i know the lore behind all of her songs. they were just the dream couple and i soooo wish they were still together

not to be one of those “love isn’t real” bitches but like that’s how I’ve gen been feeling for the past 6 months

idk i think it’s all the fact that I don’t know these people and will never receive closure because I’ll never know what happened. but idk it just hurts me on such a deep level for some reason lmao

pls help, even if you can provide any advice or closure would be appreciated like i feel crazy and don’t know what to do lmao

Okay SO I think you've analysed it very correctly - you're mourning something that existed in your head and it's difficult to get closure on something that's not yk real. For Taylor and Joe, breaking up was the result of falling out of love (which is normal but sad). For you, you're having to break up with Swiftwyn without ever falling out of love with them because, as you rightfully point out, you don't know them and weren't involved. You loved the concept (that's all other people's relationships can ever be if we're not somehow caught up in the middle of it). You don't have to stop loving the concept. It's not that different from idk The Doctor and Rose together or Meredith and McDreamy or idk that gay Supernatural ship.

So my advice is take a deep breath and allow yourself to still like them as a ship from when they're together. Them being broken up in 2023 doesn't mean you can't imagine 2016 them when Delicate comes on (if that's what pops into your head), same as you can picture Jake and Taylor when ATW plays and same as you can rewatch episodes of your favourite ships even when the couple later breaks up or idk the show ends.

Because we're operating with the concept, not with real life.

Now here's where it gets tricky though. We are liking concepts but dealing with real people - that's where liking celeb couples gets weird. So while it's perfectly okay to listen to Delicate and imagine the dive bar or look at the potato quality pap shots of them or whatever, what's not okay is harassing them or the recurrent "DAD COME BACK" jokes (which mostly stopped now that TK is around, which goes back to how this is concept not real life). Because like... they're real people who just got over each other and that's sad and I can't imagine dealing with my own issues and having strangers "mourning" it for me or telling me who I should date next. People are mad weird.

As for "love isn't real" - well, Hollywood love isn't really. The Notebook doesn't happen irl. I mean read this interview from Goldie about Kurt. Kurt and Goldie broke up/took separations in both 2000 and 2004. Then they realised that even though they pissed each other the fuck off, they're better off staying together, and here they still are now. One day, maybe they'll take another separation and stay apart after that. Who knows!?!?! NOT THEM. So certainly not us. Love is incredible and magical but it's also going to have ups and downs and require work and compromise and if the bad starts outweighing the good then it's time to find something else.

[a-bit-too-much-of-a-pokemon-fan]

Hey folks, for my benefit more than for anyone else--as this whole blog is--here's a timeline of my spring 2022, pieced together from screenshots and memories: (it gets personal and heavy at the end)

12/30/2016 - I ambitiously start a new save on Pokémon Platinum Version, my first time playing it not as a child. I immediately put it down and don't pick it up for seven years, when I take...

4/23/2022 - My first screenshot (shitty photo) of my actual first adult playthrough of Platinum, showing a Lv. 27 Luxio named Alpha. I must have started a couple days prior. (Alpha is currently chilling in Violet as a Lv. 100 Luxray, only ever used 2 rare candies)

4/29 - I defeat Cynthia by the skin of my teeth.

5/6 - The ~Breakup~ to which I allude often, which is pivotal in this story, happens

Also 5/6 - I buy Pokémon Legends: Arceus as a treat. I play it quite a bit and--despite its faults--enjoy it quite a bit too.

5/9 - I buy the red and black DS also as a treat, realize it looks like a Sinnoh Pokédex, and pop Platinum in. My in-game Pokédex reads 119 obtained. Bipolar manic response to intense emotional distress kicks in. I think, "You know what, why not catch 'em all? Better yet, why not make a Living Dex?"

5/11 - I catch 19 Bidoofs to fill slots in the PC where mons i can't possibly catch would go so I can actually track who I still need. Out of spite, I name one "MANAPHY." Pokédex reads 155 obtained.

5/16 - Pokédex reads 183 registered. I've caught almost every Pokémon possible on one cartridge of Platinum.

5/20 - Content to move everything forward to White, I pick up my playthrough of White that I abandoned in freshman year of college when my Gold DS broke. I'm 7 gyms in already, time for the home stretch.

5/24 - I beat White. Hell Yeah. This will become my Living Dex save until October.

5/28 - I move all my Pokémon forward to White and document everything in my save. Pokédex reads 185 registered. Play clock is at 159:35. I reset. Time to Nuzlocke.

6/1 - First photo evidence of my Nuzlocke, showing me in a very dire spot against an enemy ace trainer's Luxio.

6/7 - A screenshot of PL:A in the Basculegion quest. I guess I'm still playing this here and there.

6/21 - I beat my first ever Nuzlocke. Play Clock at 141:31.

And that's how I played 301 hours of Pokémon Platinum Version in the span of two months. That's 12.5 days, or 20.3% of all the time in that span. That doesn't even count the time in White or P:LA. Keep in mind that for April until the breakup I had four classes, and from then to September I had an internship that demanded 20 hours/week (quite a bit of the grinding in the Nuzlocke happened on the clock). So it's not like the only thing I did was play Pokémon.

You know what? I'm not embarrassed. I was heartbroken. I was lonely, home for the summer, away from all my friends and almost every other distraction. I needed something to fill the gaping whole in both my heart and my schedule. Pokémon was there for me. So was my family, and so were my friends (digitally). I wasn't alone, especially not with all those damn Pokémon I caught.

If anything, I'm proud of myself. I've been to incredibly dark places. When I was younger, it got so bad I did something that leaves scars on me to this day. This time, an older, stronger, more hope-filled version of myself channeled my manic energy and overwhelming emotions into something entirely harmless: a video game. Better yet, I made personal achievements out of it. For the first time ever, I had completed a regional Dex, and I attempted--AND WON--my first ever Nuzlocke.

I joked that I switched mains in Smash Bros from Samus to Pokémon Trainer because I played a debatably unhealthy amount of Pokémon. The debate is in why I played so much. Was it unhealthy when it kept my emotionally stable? Was it unhealthy when it might well have prevented more self harm? I think not. You hear that, kids? Playing Pokémon for a fifth of your time is healthy in all situations forever. Obligatory /s.

#(self harm) tw #personal #not tagging it any more because this actually really is for me. I just need to say it.

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Re your tag post. I think Louis' film and the way he kept insisting since 2016 that the band breaking up took a toll on him now has actual evidence with footage of 2015 of him being like that helped too. Because a lot of people now think they broke up back then. He keeps saying his mom was the only source of support and the one making him feel like he could do it and shouldn't a partner help with that too since he was not publicly single back then. It helps that people believe Harry was the one bringing up the hiatus so Louis feeling that sad and heartbroken by a choice made by his own partner = they were never together or they broke up somewhere in 2015.

To be fair Louis also wants you to know he’s a dad so

#but also the way they completely removed his relationship out of the way #like he was with this girl for literally ages during the band #then the 2015 happened and then they were back together #and still they don’t mention it #and isn’t it a bit weird? it’s a documentary to show your journey along the way and the journey along the way was with her #so why didn’t they add Eleanor? fan service because there was already the kid? #she didn’t want to be involved? #it was clearly intetional to let us know they broke up before the movie was out #because she was never in the footage they took #which again… weird hahaha #casella di posta numero 32

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A little venty ramble thing :P ..

(Tried to go a little in depth with this, but that's not something I'm super great at sooo, apologies if it sucks x"D

With Benson being a sad, lonely, stressed out park manager who was always bad at love, meeting and having a lunch date with Pam was the bright light that he'd always waited for, she COMPLETES him, she UNDERSTANDS him and knows what's it's like to work a lot and manage a team, because she goes through it too (like for instance, when she told him that her life is just work work work) She's the key thing to calm him down and soothe his mind when he's at his limit !!

All those times that he had failed at love due to girls losing interest and dumping him, he felt as though this was his first real connection with someone, as they had so much in common (a love for hot wings, being workaholics, and even having matching clipboards..🥰), and spending time with this special girl was the first time in so long that he felt genuinely happy and in love

And in Rigby's graduation special, he was so excited to finally be able to go out with her. He went searching and searching to every place he could think of, so desperate to find this young scientist that had stolen his heart, but to no luck. He was so devastated, so heartbroken when he thought he his one true love was gone forever, that he turned to hot wings (the Big 50 bucket even) to ease that pain.. And when he arrived at the house and said to himself "Time to rebuild the wall around my heart.." ,saying that he broke down that wall of loneliness that surrounded his heart and opened up his heart to her, something he rarely did with anyone, and by "rebuilding that wall", it's something he would never do the way he did with her

But his sadness ends as she surprises him at the house, and she warmly shows her affection towards him by giving him a super awesome clipboard that she spent all day to get, and asking him out 💖 That just shows how much she really loves him..

Pam softened the heart and soul of a once grumpy, angry manager, and by doing so, gave him the little push he needed to being a better person

Just thinking about these make my heart ache like uugghhhh I will defend these two till the day I die 💕💕😩💖

(Also wasn't planning on bringing this up, but just needed to get it out) I'm looking back at all the hate Pam received after Fries Night, and even though I feel that this was a completely pointless breakup episode(And I overall pretend it doesn't exist because of that), Pam breaking up with Benson possibly was the biggest mistake of her life. She didn't want to do it ! You saw how heartbreaking It was for her! I mean, for all we know she could've been forced(probably by Langer) to do it or else! That wasn't her fault, and she just. Didn't deserve any of that hate.. 😤 (but that was way back in 2016 so what am I to do about it ahahaha 😂😭)

ANYWAYS, THEY'RE HAPPY TOGETHER, THEY GOT THEIR HAPPY ENDING, AND THEY LOVE EACHOTHER VERY MUCH (AND ARE OBVIOUSLY CANON)

#regular show #pamson #text

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Kathniel breakup sad that Daniel Padilla and Kathryn Bernardo had broken up They've been together for 11 years as a couple and 12 years as a love team Missing them so much it hurts that they broke up as a love team even though I thought that they would get married and be happy for the rest of their lives I will not see them again together when I saw Kathryn statement and post on Instagram I was crying and heartbroken I hope to see them again but as friends Not as a love team and not as a couple I love them both so much praying for healing to all the Kathniel Fans and joy for the both of them even if they decided to separate ways chapter closed I hope this helps as all to move forward with our lives I won't be entertaining questions regarding this anymore thank you for understanding I've been in showbiz for almost 21 years now 12 years as one The half of kathniel And 11 years as someone who loves Deej even behind the camera I didn't grow up in this industry constantly being controlled and dictated on I was lucky to have had the best guidance and support system when I started my career and I've continually worked hard to earn people's trust but since I became older I took upon myself to take charge of my life the projects I worked on the way I dress the people I surrounded my self with I've always tried to be my own self I was encouraged to think for my self and decide to myself even when it comes to love especially when it comes to lose I promise not to lose myself in this industry so I've always been as authentic to you as I can be I know what you guys are thinking right now I'm well aware of the rumors and speculation going around and as hard it is to put it in to words I want you to hear it straight from me it's true that Deej and I have decided to part ways what Deej and I had was real it was not for show we were together not because of the cameras not because of the fans not because of the money that comes with a successful love team we grew up together dream together and saw many of that dreams became a reality still together that's half of my life that I would never regret and would never trade for anything in this world these are 11 years of that brought me joy adventure and the feeling of being home Years that thought me the real meaning of unconditional love he knew me more than anyone else he was my first boyfriend he was my comfort zone he was my person I will always have love for him like any other relationship we've tried to make it work wee been drifting apart for a while now and now we ultimately had to accept that we can go back the way we used to be it just won't be fair to pretend that everything won't be the same these past few months have been tough for us but thank you for giving us the time that we need to process the pain and finally face the elephant in the room our love story started with respect and ended with respect Kathniel we know that you are hurting right now and trust me this also hurts us both more than you can imagine the last thing we want is for this family to break apart with with Everyone taking sides please don't Deej and I will continue to support each other as we try to heal and and move forward from this we will continue to love you and make you proud but we hope you understand that this is something we really need we hope you can join us in the healing process and not let those precious memories go to waste Kaya natin to Deej you gave me 11 beautiful memories and that kind of love I will cherish I will be always grateful for you that is the statement of Kathryn and for Daniel this is what he said about their breakup and that is the statement of Daniel Padilla about their breakup thank you for making me happy from 2016 until 2023 thank you for everything Daniel and Kathryn I will miss you both so much I love you both Daniel and Kathryn

#kathniel breakup #Daniel Padilla #kathryn bernardo

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How An Obsession with Josephine Baker Became a Broadway-Bound Musical

According to her producer, Deborah Cox was born to play Josephine, but the recording artist knew she'd have to earn it.

BY MARCUS SCOTT

MAY 06, 2016

It’s a late Thursday afternoon and hours after news broke that Prince had passed away in his home at Paisley Park Studios in Chanhassen, MN, at the age of 57. Like most of the world, Deborah Cox, the critically acclaimed Canadian R&B singer-songwriter and Broadway actress, is devastated. Across social media, Cox expressed that she was both “speechless” and “heartbroken” at the loss of the legendary rock musician, and when asked about it, she reiterates the significance of having theatre-makers revisit the stories of legends, past and present. Cox has grown rather adamant in recent months, especially as she prepares for the “first very first orchestra read-through” of a new musical, Josephine, which premieres at Asolo Repertory Theatre in Sarasota, FL through May 29. Cox will play Josephine Baker, the world famous cabaret showgirl and Jazz Age fashion icon, notorious for her salacious gowns and show-stopping dance.

“She transcended race, she transcended gender. These icons, namely Prince, he was so androgynous and transcended sexuality, as well, and so brought so much of what is [considered] ‘taboo’ to his music and back then, Josephine Baker was breaking down barriers and doing the same thing. As a woman, which of is unheard of in her time, to be [that] fearless…it’s an honor to be performing at the Asolo doing this show,” Cox says. “This was a great vision that [producer] Ken [Waissman] had and it’s been a long time in the making and its ready now.”

Known for her opulent mezzo, Cox eventually expanded her horizons beyond the recording studio and made her Broadway debut in 2004 as the leading lady in Elton John-Tim Rice’s afro-pop musical, Aida. The Grammy-nominated singer returned to Broadway in the 2013 revival of Frank Wildhorn and Leslie Bricusse’s Jekyll & Hyde. Now Josephine, a project that has been in development for seven years, is likely bound for Broadway. The story focuses on Baker’s run as the star of Folies Bergère in Paris, her affair with Swedish Crown Prince Gustav VI, and her civil rights activism. With the piece, Cox originates a role for the first time.

“The idea of originating a role, it was so tantalizing, I had no choice. I literally just had my daughter like three months before and got this amazing Roberto Cavalli dress, got this little short wig and flew to New York. I didn’t rest on my laurels as a recording artist. I get it. I have to earn it,” Cox says.

“It started out where I had this idea long ago,” says Waissman, who saw Baker at the Palace Theatre two years before she passed away in 1975. “I read this biography by her [friend and former] manager Stephen Papich. Eventually, I decided to go forward with it as a musical, and then of course putting just the right the creative team together— Ellen Weston and Mark Hampton as the book writers—I put them together, they didn’t even know each other, I thought they would be a great combination. Finding composers took almost three years, really.”

“Then, we started to develop it. It’s harder to develop musicals today because nobody is in the same place long enough,” Waissman says.

Waissman declares Cox was born to play Baker. He knew it the moment she sang one of his favorite show tunes, “Look To The Rainbow” from the 1947 musical Finian’s Rainbow—the show that first inspired Waissman to become a producer at the age of six.

Cox’s career as a recording artist launched while singing backup for Celine Dion. In 1995, after being “discovered” by music mogul Clive Davis, Cox signed to Arista Records. She’s racked up 12 number one hit singles. Cox is set to perform in the U.S. premiere of the musical theatre adaptation of Lawrence Kasdan’s 1992 Oscar-nominated film, The Bodyguard, in the role Whitney Houston originated at the Paper Mill Playhouse. While Cox has met legends like Houston, even recording a duet with the R&B icon, she says her obsession with Baker began with the viewing of The Josephine Baker Story, a 1991 biographical HBO drama film starring Lynn Whitfield. When the show was announced, she said she was terrified because she wanted it so much.

Nevertheless, she says this has been the most challenging role she’s taken on in her career.

“I’ve having the best time of my life because I am actually using all of my talents,” Cox says. “I’ve never been in a role where I danced, sang and acted. These dance scenes are completely different than anything I’ve ever done before. I’ve been in Pilates, ballet, gymnastics and African dance just to think and be like a dancer for the last six months. Singing is what comes the most naturally, but being able to use all of these muscles, I feel like a kid again; totally uninhibited. It’s also an emotional boot camp.”

#Josephine Baker #Deborah Cox

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everyone needs someone to love them, the one with eyes of green

#p #pd liddle was the lead vocalist for one of my favourite bands of all time- dry the river- #but they broke up in 2016 and i was heartbroken #imagine my joy at discovering he is doing solo work now #and its this beautiful and heartbreaking #yes i cried the first time i listened to this song #Spotify

[averagewriter-inthedark]

A Broken Promise | Natasha Romanoff Imagine

My marvel Masterlist

Pairings: Natasha Romanoff x Black Widow!reader (romantic), Clint Barton (platonic) Yelena Belova (platonic)

Content warnings: major angst. Mentions of violence, blood, and death. Dreykov and the Red Room. Spoilers for Black Widow & Hawkeye

Premise: It wasn’t easy in their world, but that didn’t mean things were impossible. Unfortunately for them, the dream was too good to be true and it always ended with a broken promise.

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“Did she suffer?”

“No. It was quick.”

“That’s good,” was the reply after several silent minutes. She remained staring out the window with a cup of coffee in her hand while her eyes watched the life of the city in front of her play like a movie. It was a gloomy day, matching the tone of her emotion—with grey skies and drizzled rain.

Clint had arrived just ten minutes earlier not even bothering to knock. He thought to arm himself—unaware what her reaction would be when she saw him, but the man decided to leave his bow and arrows in the car. The moment he stepped through the door it was as if she already knew he would be there.

There was no reaction from Y/n. All she did was sip at her coffee while continuing to look out the window. It was only seconds later did the words ‘Did she suffer,” leave her lips. Once he her the answer it was like that was all needed to be said. Y/n didn’t make any move to get up from her seat, nor did she say anything else.

Clint carefully approached the area she was at, stopping just a few steps away from the sunroom. “Y/n—.”

“Don’t Clint,” she cut him off, accent thickening. “I do not want to hear it.”

The man sighed, knowing this was going to be harder than he prepared for. “Please just let me explain.”

Y/n wasn’t having it. “What is there to explain, Clint? Nothing. She is gone and there’s nothing left for us to say or do.”

It had been only a month since the final battle against Thanos took place, claiming the lives of Tony Stark and Natasha Romanoff. A former Widow of the Red Room, Y/n L/n long retired from the world she used to know once she helped Natasha free the remaining Widows in 2016.

The two had knew each other for a long time. First as students together, then as friends. And eventually something more than friends had blossomed between the two. Natasha claimed Y/ns heart long before the Widow even realized it. With her gorgeous hair and dazzling eyes, and aura that reeked confidence it wasn’t hard for Y/n to fall for the woman.

Natasha and Y/n had a pact. A pact that involved helping one another regardless of the circumstances between the two. They had had ups & downs in the relationships which resulted in the two separating after Natasha joined SHIELD. An act that had Y/n angered and heartbroken, feeling betrayed Nat would be so willing to join another espionage when they finally had a chance to be free and have a life together.

To the former Widow, it was like Nat would rather stay in the life she fought so hard to leave behind than be with her. So when Natasha came waltzing to her almost a decade later after no contact it was not a happy reunion.

“Y/n, please,” Nat pleaded to her. “I know you and I have had problems and are not together anymore, but this isn’t about us. This is about stopping him from hurting more girls—so they don’t end up like us.”

Y/n narrowed her eyes, still reluctant, “This isn’t about us, huh? Aren’t you on the run, Natalia? Funny how the people you left me for end up being the reason you’re a fugitive.” Natasha stiffened, nose flaring as she tried to keep her emotions contained.

“You’re seriously going to bring this up—.”

“You promised me, Nat!” Y/n had finally broke. “When you got me out and we did what we did in Budapest you said that was it! We would finally be free and have the life we always talked about.” Y/n paused, turning away so the woman couldn’t see her eyes water. “We’d get that house in Ohio with a bunch of dogs and cats—maybe adopt eventually. That’s what you told me, Natalia.” Y/n turns back to see the redheads glossy eyes were matching her own. “That is what you promised me. But no, that was just a broken promise wasn’t it?”

Natasha was at a loss for words, unable to form any that would be the right thing to say. Her jaw was starting to hurt from how hard she was clenching it. “I’m sorry, Y/n. I know I broke my promise to you—and you can hate me for it, you can blame the Avengers if that makes you feel better.” Her eyes flicker to the ground, “But I did what I felt was right—what I felt I needed to do. After everything I did to get out I needed to clear my ledger. I hope you can understand that.”

With an unhumorous laugh, Y/n stalked toward her eyes void of emotion now. “No matter what you do, what you call yourself, or how many people you save,” her voice was low, almost taunting to the avenger to let Natasha know how much pain she had carried over the years. “—you’re always going to be the killer he made us be. That ledger will always be red—because you just fill it with different hue now that you’re on the ‘good side.’ Is that really being a hero if you’re still eliminating enemies and threats just like you did before?”

Y/n knew she put the nail in the coffin with her harsh words—but she didn’t care. Nat abandoned her without a second thought, and she was going to make sure she understood. Nat kept her face blank, not allowing Y/n to see how the words were affecting her—but the woman could read her like a book.

They could never hide from each other. No matter how much they tried.

“I will help you on this little quests, Natalia,” Y/n finally said after a minute. “But this little pact we made—that’s been going on and the reason you came to me, it ends once the job is done. After that you are out of my life for good.”

Nat knew she was serious, the look on her face said it all. So they shook it out and made the deal—even if both of their hearts were breaking.

They completed the mission like they did back in the day and Y/n even met Nat’s ‘family’ she was assigned to in the 90s. Yelena and her got along great and promised to keep in touch—with Y/n telling the blonde to come to her if she ever needed anything. The job was done after that, both aware Ross would be there second and Y/n had to leave otherwise she could be arrested for aiding and abetting a fugitive.

“How long do we have?” Y/n spoke when the two were finally alone. The air was tense, almost solemn—the two knowing this would probably be the last time they ever saw each other. Time was running out as it always was in their world—never knowing if that day would be your last or you’d be luckily to see tomorrow.

“Ten minutes I would say,” Nat said, biting her lip. “You better get out of here—if he sees you then we might get matching cells at the Raft.”

The comment had Y/n chuckle, glancing at the ground before letting her shoulders deflate. “I guess this is it.”

“I guess it is,” Nat repeated, face falling with sadness. Y/n couldn’t help but admire her. The sun was reflecting off her face making her green eyes sparkle like emeralds. Her braided messy hair framed her face beautifully. She was committing the picture to memory, knowing this was she’d ever get to—if they stuck to their deal.

Nat’s voice brought her out of her daydream. “Thanks for all your help, Y/n. I know it wasn’t easy coming back—especially with how things ended between us.” Nat took a small step forward, clutching Yelena vest in her hand. Y/n gave a small smile with a shrug.

“I’m happy I did,” her tone was honest, trailing her eyes over the damage of the fallen Red Room. “If it means no little girl will have to suffer what we did, then it was worth it.” Her eyes go back to Nat, smile falling. “I am sorry for what I said—and for letting my anger overshadow the importance of what needed to be done. It was not fair to you.”

Nat shook her head, “No, no I understand. I hurt you, Y/n, and you had every right to not want to help me—and say what you did.”

“That doesn’t make it right.”

“Maybe,” Nat gave a shrug. “But if the roles were reversed, who’s to say I wouldn’t have said the same.” The sound of approaching sirens filled their ears, possibly within five minute radius. Both Widows stiffen, frowns forming at what was to come. Nat feels her eyes water, “I am sorry for leaving you how I did, and for not coming back to you after everything was done.”

“I forgive you,” Y/ns voice cracked, feeling her veins fill with sadness yet gratitude by the redheads words. “I’m sorry it had to be like this, Natalia.” A tear threatened to escape her eyes, mirroring Nats expression. “I only pray you know what you’re doing—that you believe in it and that these friends will take care of you. Because I fear you’re going to get yourself killed sooner or later trying to save them. To be the hero you are—and I love you too much to see that happen.”

Nat nodded, the tears she was trying to hold back cascading down her cheeks when she closed her eyes. “I understand, Y/n.” The sirens got louder, “—and I love you too—.” They got louder. “—I never stopped. And I promise I won’t be dying anytime soon—that I’ll come for you once Ross gets over this and I can be free again. I promise, Y/n, I really do.”

Although her heart filled with hope, Y/n just gives a sad smile lightly shaking her head. “I’ll hold you to that.”

Challenge filled Natashas eyes. “I’m counting on it.” The two finally dropped everything and collided in an embrace, both holding on to each other like it would be the last—aware the sirens had grown louder and were fast approaching. When they pulled away—staring into each other’s eyes, Nat hesitantly leaned it to place a soft kiss to Y/ns lips.

Y/n returned it, pulling away after a few seconds. “Goodbye, Nat.” Natasha watched Y/n step away and race to the jet where the others were waiting for her. Before hopping on, Y/n turned to give one final glance to the redhead who’s captured her heart and soul. Nat smiled despite the tears running down her face, gently lifting her hand to wave.

Y/n returned the wave, stepping in the jet and closing the door behind her but not without committing the last image of Natasha Romanoff to memory.

She never came back like she promised.

Y/n waited, hoping there would be a knock at the door, but months became a year and then eventually two. Then, in the blink of the eye Y/n woke from a nap to discover five years had passed.

Five years. And not only that, but Natasha was gone. The moment she turned on the news the coverage was on every channel. People returned from being dusted—videos of the events that took place in 2018 playing out in front of her, and Y/n realized she was amongst the millions to blip away for five whole years. What was a simple cat nap that felt like five minutes was half a decade.

All she could think about was Natasha. Did she blip? Was she okay? Did she look for her if she didn’t dust away? Millions of questions had racked her brain and all she wanted was answers.

Then the coverage of the Avengers came on. Y/n had glued herself to the screen to see the scenes unfold. The compound was practically obliterated with only destruction and dust in its wake. The first reports were Tony Stark had been among the fatalities—announcing the Earth had just lost her best defender.

But there was nothing on Natasha.

At first it gave Y/n hope that she survived. For days she continued to watch for updates, even tried contacting Yelena to see if the she knew anything. But there was nothing.

Until one day there was. And Y/n felt like her entire world crumbled around her. The marble stature she had been made into was fractured.

Clint coming to her weeks later didn’t surprise her. The two had met only on one occasion and after that anything Clint heard of about Y/n came from Natasha. The redhead always talked about her, and Clint knew how much the woman meant to his friend. So seeing the former Widow in front of him not wanting to know about what happened to the woman she loved broke his heart. All he wanted was to give her some closure—to know Nat did what she did to bring Y/n back.

So she could come back to her.

“I know you loved her, Y/n,” Clint sees her shoulders stiffen. “She loved you too—.”

“No, she didn’t,” she cuts him off with a strong voice. “If she did she would’ve come back to me.”

Clint squeezed his eyes, feeling his heart clinch from having to remember Volmir. “She did what she did because she wanted that, Y/n—she wanted to bring you back. That’s all she thought about for five years and when she found the chance to bring you back she took. Not caring about the costs—.”

“And look what happened,” Y/n finally stood from the chair making Clint take a step back. When the woman finally turned around, he could see the tear stained cheeks matching her hollow eyes. She may have not aged in five years, but the lack of eating, sleeping and constant crying was enough to give Y/n the appearance that she did.

“Y/n…” Clint looked at her with sympathy, but the woman shook her head.

“I told her,” Y/ns voice was hoarse, and Clint could see her lip quiver making him hurt for her even more. “—I told her, Clint, that she was going to get herself killed if she went back to them. She would be the hero she was and die because of it. A-and I was right.” A lone tear fell from her cheek. “She promised she would come back, Clint. I thought we’d finally be happy.”

The mug in her hand nearly shattered from the force she was clutching it, but Y/n never broke completely. She was seconds from losing it but doing everything to prevent it.

Trying to keep the last piece of marble from fracturing.

“Natasha said she would come back, just like she did the last time. But it was just another broken promise in the end.”

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