#but this is a cas post and i haven't watched the show in years so this isn't like. a cited essay lmao just ramblings

[f-t-e]

I started watching SUPERNATURAL in November 2020. I know, I know. My partner and I had been isolating alone since March. The timing felt right. I went though a wild amount of upheaval and trauma over the next year and SPN was there for me through it all. It was THE show at THE time and it kept me afloat when I needed it the most. Since November 2021 I've written just about 110,000 words of SPN fanfic, a number that seems unbelievable to me, and that too has been a real blessing to my creative life, no matter what haters say. (why didn't I write my own novels in that time? Because I have a hobby, Karen, and I love it.) And I've read about 500000x that much fanfic, which has been the biggest blessing of all. (ETA: oh right, if you want to read my fic, you can find my stuff here, I wrote a fic where Dean reads books. Lots of books.)

I know I'm a nobody in this fandom but I thought on this, our #DestielDay, I would submit my own humble rec list. I've curated this very deliberately: every fic here has just about 4000 hits or less (most under 3000) and all were published in 2020 or after. So, sort of a rec list for some lesser known and newer fics, something you maybe haven't stumbled on yet. Especially thank you to @jewishcharliebradbury, her rec lists gave me a place to start back in the day and I have tried to model the depth and quality they brought to their lists. I tried to link to everyone's tumblr, but if I missed one, let me know.

Most of all, thank you to everyone who has EVER created something for this fandom, from 2005 to 2023. I am so thankful and, honestly, honored to be among your number. You're not supposed to be cringe and say a show saved your life...but SUPERNATURAL saved me, it really did. See y'all when the movie/reboot drops, to quote Ryan Gosling in The Notebook: IT WASN'T OVER, IT STILL ISN'T OVER. And I'm glad.

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Finale Fix-It & S15 and Beyond

What The Moon Was Saying by Amiril (@runawaymarbles)

This is hands-down one of the coolest “Dean Rescues Cas from the Empty” fics I have ever read and the concept is brilliantly structured to mirror the literal and metaphorical things Dean needs to give up and let go to get free. Every scenario is very satisfying and they make sense, is there any better feeling? Dean is very open in this, but in a believable way that still has edges. And, oh, the reunion is so good. Plus all the family stuff. Just excellent, exactly what you want in a fic like this: lovely, well-written, smart, fulfilling, all the pieces clicking, the show but better.

Awake and Annoying by skycruise

I love the use and passage of time in this one, it has some real impact, and I love the way Dean gets into the Empty (so smart, fits just right) and what I REALLY love in this one is the way it lets Dean be really clear-eyed and honest about his relationship with Sam, both the strengths and the weaknesses. And the last line, very clever and moving inverse of one of fandom’s favorite things. 

Living the life you chose by allthismusic

THEEEEE post finale Sam Winchester-Outsider-POV this fandom needs. Sam is absolutely awesome in this, the most believable, loving, realistic mix of “I knew all along” and “I had no idea” versions of Sam, landing somewhere I think that’s really true and in character. It fills in and develops so many gaps and silences in what the show let Sam know in the absolute best way. Best Brother Sam is a weakness of mine and he really shines here, there for Dean in the best ways but also coming into his own, I love it so very much. (this author also has a very great 2022 Big Bang fic, hugely recommend that one too.)

your ear to the wound that whispers by EmandFandems (@lazarusemma)

Who doesn’t love a HANDPRINT FIC?!? And boy this is such a good one. It follows Dean and his thoughts on the handprint from the first touch all the way to fixing the finale and it simply buzzes with longing and desire, tenderness and rawness. It’s great insight in lot of ways into Dean’s journey. It’s short but fulfilling and oh that very perfect last line. (this author also has a lot of great Jupernatural content.)  

Somewhere Off in the Dark by magickastiel 

Another awesome fic that traces Dean’s shifting/growing feelings for Cas from when he shows up in his hotel rooms to a HEA fix it after canon. Dean, again, is handled so deftly in this one, his confusion and sorrow at all the times Cas is slipping away from him all the way through the things he won’t let himself know. He feels really true in this one, sharp and tender in the best Dean ways. Also it has an agonizingly romantic end, you love to end up there.

Pins and Feathers by theskywasblue (@buttherewasnogod)

This author has so many freaking good SPN fics, omg it was almost impossible to pick just one to include on this list. Go treat yourself with their entire list because there’s so much good stuff there! But this one, oh I am a sucker for a finale fix-it that lets Dean be this tender. While I LOVE fics where he just jumps right into Cas’s arms (and write them lol) I also feel like this is so true to Dean too: that “maybe I misunderstood, maybe I shouldn’t say anything, maybe he doesn’t still –” And on top of all that, it’s a “they go the beach” fic and it gets the details of it so right, sand in your toes and all. Tender, amazing slow-burn, real, hot, full of heart and longing and everything unspoken and just waiting. Very satisfying!

i loved you first by kalmialatifolia

A set of four short fics that create an entire world of feeling and emotion. These feel like little whispered stories told under the covers, very atmospheric. There’s one very sexy one, a haircutting one (so good) and they’re just intimate. All together a great set and did I mention they’re in the “Cas saves himself” genre which is mmmm an underrated treasure.

no other faith is light enough for this place by anonymous 

A fix-it fic that has a particularly unique and beautiful visual of both how and why Cas comes back. The mechanics behind it are fairly standard but the way this author creates the visual of it, the sheer emotion and force behind it and how it happens, it really stood out to me and stuck with me. It’s Dean being brave enough to really feel and the way that just blossoms – lovely, aching, full-tilt wonderful.

 no proof, one touch by TakeThisWaltz (@watchinghimrakeleaves)

One thing I absolutely cannot get enough of is fic where Cas is hiding out from Dean in heaven. It just hits. And the only thing better is Dean chasing him down and the WAY he does it in this fic, methodically and – well the method (sobs) it is so endearing and OBVIOUS and gives Dean a chance to shout in all the best ways. This one is just real sweet and kind of goofy and if they have to be in heaven, I want them to still be these same two dorks.

Stay by redbrickrose

This is a post S15x18 from Cas’s POV and I think it’s very true to where he would be in the moment of getting yanked out of the Empty: resigned, hesitant about what he has in front of him, still a little in shock. And then. And then. Sweet and simple and Dean gets a chance to say, say, say it. This author has a good post series AU and a lovely little spate of S15 codas, all good. And then wrote this in real-time in the week after 15x18 Despair and right before 15x19 Inherit the Earth aired (could you just sob over the possibilities?!) and then hasn’t wrote anything since and that’s a shame but, like, yeah I get it.

like a one-two punch by Muir_Wolf (@muirmarie)

Don’t you love a short fic that feels like it’s a whole novel? This goes AU after 14x20 Moriah but it is a truly delightful twist on how Chuck could’ve reacted there and it makes Dean sharp as a knife, which is one really resonant image woven through this fic. Great imagery here and so many clever solutions for the lazy plotting of S15, including simply one of my all-time favorites in any fic ever solutions to Cas’s deal (genius) and getting rid of Chuck. Brilliant like a puzzle box yet still full of so much fucking joy.

maybe i like pleasure pain by tothewillofthepeople (@kvothes)

The fact that this was written in October 2023 and is so agonizingly good fills my heart with joy and tells me Destiel will never die lol. Cas, in particular, is great in this – he’s having a hard time adjusting to being in a body and with all the fuzz of the world. I love fics where Cas struggles with coming back from the Empty and this uses a really unique approach to it: Cas facing sensory overload and not knowing how to feel but wanting it all. Lovely, hot, Dean is just right in this too.

Earlier Canon (pre S15)

Proverbs 13:12 by starlingcas (@angelcasendgame)

Many might say I am biased because Renu has beta’ed everything I have written in the SPN fandom and they can read my brain and make everything I write better. But it’s not just that. Renu has done something beautiful and delicate in this fic, which is about Dean and Cas getting trapped in a net together (forced proximity trope, yes please) and weaves a web of its own; pulling you in just as they are pulled together. This is set mostly in early S14 (before fixing the finale in the most heart-healing way) and captures that feeling so well. There’s so much that’s unsaid between them yet still conveyed and Renu absolutely nails that, along with the tender longing that was always there. This is a fic to relish.

you may tire of me (as our december sun is setting) by deludedfantasy

You know how the show just sometimes is like “uh so anyway uh then Cas…uh…left.” and it just doesn’t make one lick of sense? FINALLY FINALLY a fic where Dean says “I’ll go with you,” and then goes because he actually would do that. This is a post Tombstone fic so it is exactly where/when he WOULD go and it is tender and hesitant and aching in just all the ways it would be between the two of them at this time. It’s about needing to keep someone in sight, it’s about having another chance to say something so important, it’s slow and soft and just right for the characters in this place. I could read this one about 100 times.

the anatomy of flightless birds by cowlovely (@dollhousemary)

This fic is basically the way you feel when you get all cozy and snug underneath your favorite blanket. This is a domestic-life-in-the Bunker S9 fic where everyone behaves like they are in character and not just like they have to get Cas off screen because the writers panicked. You’ll just want to curl up in this fic and savor it the way you wrap your fingers around a hot beverage on a very cold day, there’s no better way to describe it.

virtue by JenTheSweetie

I think I’ve read this about 100 times and it still gets me everytime? It’s a five things fic about Dean and Cas hooking up and it’s all you’ve ever wished for. This is set in an amorphous S8 and it is not just agonizingly hot but also romantic and very funny. It feels really in character! Sam is hilarious, Dean is clueless but bowled over and letting himself be swept up, Cas is delighting in every second and smarter than he lets on and it ALL feels fated and lovely and sexy and just splendid. (this author only has 3 SPN fics but they are all so good and if you try sometimes, well you just might find is an absolutely brilliant deconstruction of Dean learning the differences between “needing” and “wanting.”)

Romance at the Motel 6 by shelia_amour 

This fic makes me feel like Stefon from SNL. This fic has everything: Cas and Sam pretending to be married, just the right amount of jealous Dean, Dean randomly pretending to be married to Cas, Dean realizing maybe this isn’t so fake after all, motel vibes, Cas in Dean’s clothes, Cas getting bee slippers. If you are not sold on this already, we are very different people. So good, aches just right. (set in a kind of “whenever” of canon, but I like to put it somewhere in S8.)

que sera sera by Purple_Starflower (@hauntedpearl)

The epitome of how fanfic unfolds for us all the things that COULD happen. You can’t PROVE to me Dean and Cas never snuck off to snuggle and feed Dean’s touch-starvation early in S13. I had to check when I finished because I just couldn’t believe this fic was under 4000 words because it feels so full of touch, longing, the things unspoken, and all the ways Dean was reaching, reaching, reaching. The best kind of ache, and everything by this author is lovely. 

the hard edge that you’re settling for by lesspopped (@trekkiedean)

This is some S10 Demon!Dean that made my stomach hurt and my heart ache and I absolutely loved it and I absolutely hated it and it all felt so REAL with who Demon!Dean was and could have been. There’s a TW for mildly dubious consent in this, but to me, Cas was so agonizingly true to who he was/where he was at this point in canon too. This fic is gloriously, claustrophobically intimate. I say unbearable because as a reader you know that this closeness, this intimacy, is what Dean wants/craves/deserves but can only give himself as a demon and the author does an exquisite job at getting all that across. Hurts so good! 

four of swords by sundryvillians (eurythmix) (@perenial)

Can the world ever have enough post 12x12 fic? The answer is, of course, no. Dean and Cas bake bread and in the soft space of creating something with their own hands, get so close to the words Cas said. It’s about healing and anger and making something just because you are so tired of everything breaking. If that alone isn’t enough to convince you, let me also throw in this is another one of those “possible off-screen moments in canon” that gives them something honest and tender and raw and it feels so very possible. 

Fifteen Prayers From the Faithless by koyas_cat

Short, achy, that sweet sting. A set of prayers for Cas from the beginning to the end, full of all the things Dean doesn’t let himself say outloud and just reflecting the changes in their connection over alllll the years. So good.

#spn #spn fanfic #destiel fic #fic recs #destiel day #deancas fic recs #supernatural #destiel #happy anniversary #don't forget you're here forever

[astaraels]

i was tagged by the lovely @callivich for some fandom asks, let's fuckin goooo

What’s a fic you’ve read more than once? Cold Feet by aeli_kindara; In a Haze of Smoke & Fire by IanRightsOnly; please don't say I'm going alone and broad-shouldered beasts by biblionerd07; Cooperative Gameplay and Bright by grayola; to think that we could stay the same by teatrolley; love, let your hands be tender by sadwhales; to stop our hearts from drowning by enbytim; Redheaded Stepchildren by ZebraWallpaper (there's a lot, I know)

What’s a gifset you always have to reblog? anything with 5x10 i'm a slut for love and violence interplay

What’s a headcanon you can’t stop thinking about? honestly when/if ian and mickey do eventually end up with a kid (it would happen completely by accident, of course) they're the biggest girl dads ever.

What’s a fanart you love looking at? this one is g o r g e o u s

What’s an idea you’d love to create if you had the time/inspiration? well, i'm currently working on a soulmates au fic that's canon-adjacent of seasons 1-5, so that's been fun! (featuring romantic and platonic soulmates because i refuse to write only the romantic kind :p) i'm also fond of writing character study fics when the mood strikes. i haven't been motivated to write fic and post it in nearly ten years, but i'm very happy that shameless and gallavich have helped me knock some of the rust off the old writing skills.

What’s an underrated trope or concept you’d like to see more of? SHOTGUNNING. where are all the shotgunning fics. also nurse!mickey (I read a fic with this once and it's a crying shame there's no emt!ian/nurse!mickey fic--at least none that i've ever seen...)

What’s your favourite season? And has this changed after multiple rewatches of the show? i've only watched the show through once but honestly s4/5 are my favorites, but i have a special place in my heart for s1 and s10.

What’s a plot hole you wish had been answered or resolved? I mean the fact that they managed to convict mickey of attempted murder and debbie of statutory rape is insane. (the age of consent is 17 in illinois! and it's literally sammi's word against mickey's AND debbie's! but it's fine, just fine, everything's fine...)

What line/dialogue/description from something else (a poem, a book, a tv show, a movie, or something else) do you feel describes Ian and Mickey’s relationship? these two are the most siken-coded ship since dean/cas. in particular: little beast, saying your names, you are jeff, and wishbone. I even named my gallavich playlist on spotify after a siken poem, and half the chapter titles in my long fic will end up being from his works as well....

What do you think is next for Ian and Mickey post-finale? i think things are gonna go okay for them! i think that they may make their way back to the south side, but in a house of their own not too far from the other gallaghers. i like the idea of them ending up with a little girl of their own but i can also see them just being cat dads and being the best uncles to ian's siblings' kids. i would love for them to reunite with svet and yev later down the road, as well. there's endless possibilities <3

#gallavich #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #shameless #tag game

[mittensmorgul]

Your posts about The Winchesters is making me consider getting involved in the community again. I'll be honest, SPN's finale hurt bad, and I haven't engaged in or even re-watched an episode of Supernatural in two years. It took a long time to appreciate the experience and not feel like i'd wasted YEARS being so invested in something that felt like a slap in the face at the end. I miss the community; I miss talking about it, being excited, etc. But I got in the SPN tags for the first time in two years today, and seeing Dean, Sam, and Cas's faces on my screen again felt like seeing old friends:'-)

Aw, heck, well... welcome back :')

I still haven't rewatched 15.20, and I don't know that I ever will. But for the first time since it aired, watching The Winchesters 1.13 actually... let me feel even a little bit okay about it.

When The Winchesters was first announced and we learned the premise of Dean telling the story to us, I was wary. If it had started off with "so I'm dead and in Heaven and learned this stuff..." I probably wouldn't have watched, just because of that. I do NOT wanna hear about Dead Dean. I still cannot reconcile the Dean in 15.20 with the Dean from the entire rest of the original series. 40 minutes of just completely erasing all character growth and then pinning him on a rusty receipt spike was NOT the culmination of 15 years of him struggling to be free, you know? I would've noped so hard on watching him tell stories from Heaven... I really didn't want to engage with more canon that insisted that travesty actually happened.

Many of us cling to our Chuck Won theories-- that Chuck's power transferring into Jack transformed Our Jack into some weird God-Chuck-The Sequel. That Chuck The Guy was just a puppet for the actual Cosmic Power and it still had its own agenda but now there was nothing for Dean to fight back against he just... gave in to its demands and played out the story Chuck had always wanted him to.

Detour time: I've spent the last few days (while being stupidly sick and not particularly coherent as a result... hooray cold medicine brain) trying to assemble all the times Chuck talked about his writing process, what he wanted from his story, and giving up quickly because it's just so much... but I recall him saying something to the effect of "that's where I went wrong, when I tried to write myself into the story." And I think that was his failsafe-- he spent all of s15 waiting for Jack to turn himself into The Perfect Receptacle for his power, to put on that little show on the beach and take on all his power so Sam and Dean would believe they'd actually won. Making everything that happened afterward just... them thinking they were making their own choices or whatever, when they'd completely dropped their guard and all Chuck had to do was throw the Random Bad Vampires at them that Becky complained about way back in 15.04. And they'd never see it coming.

So... Dean telling the story here? I still held out hope that it would take place BEFORE the events of 15.20, when he was alive, and that the goal was to tell a DIFFERENT story from the one Chuck wanted to tell.

But the way it was all set up in The Winchesters left us open to question everything we saw, everything we were being told by Dean as the story unfolded. We had to think about it week to week, and the payoff to that? That Dean has been dead and running out of Heaven specifically in search of a world where maybe his family actually had a chance to be happy? When he was supposedly in HEAVEN, also known as PARADISE, where everyone is supposed to finally find peace and happiness? Well, that right there SCREAMS "hey, so maybe paradise isn't what it's cracked up to be... maybe something is really, really wrong in Heaven, with "Jack," with the whole concept of "peace when we are done."

Dean... is still looking for something. Something is desperately missing. His whole family is supposedly in Heaven with him, and yet why is he running through the multiverse looking for something? What could be missing?

We were *told* in 15.20 that Cas was there in Heaven, but *we never saw him there.* We were *told* that Heaven was "fixed" and all was well there, but *we did not see any of that.*

What if something very much larger is very much not right, and Dean is still looking for something? He looked so dang sad in the Winchesters finale. SO dang sad. And he was very pointedly behaving very carefully toward Jack. Like he knows he's breaking rules, or possibly even testing boundaries a little bit here... and I like the wide open possibilities of what that could mean.

I really think Dean's role in The Winchesters is effectively wrapped up. I would love to see a continuation of the series just for the characters we've grown to love there. But I do firmly see it as its own thing, adjacent to Supernatural and built from it, but with the potential to be whatever it wants to be in the future, and I love the possibilities inherent in that.

But for Dean himself? He absolutely built a high dive platform for himself to dive back into his own story from here, and I would LOVE to watch that unfold, as well. And to me, that feels like Jensen's intent behind all of this.

Will it ever happen? Golly I sure hope so...

#the winchesters #spnwin s1 spoilers #spnwin 1.13

[syrena-del-mar]

Get to Know Me Tag Game

Tagged by @shouldiusemyname - It's been ages since I've done one of these tag games, so thanks for adding me into the fun!

I use the brackets to talk way too much, be warned.

RULES: bold the ones that are true & tag 10 people to do it.

APPEARANCE

blonde hair // I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // I have one or more piercings [Currently have 5-6 on my ears... probably going to self-pierce some more in a couple of months] // I have at least one tattoo // I have dyed or highlighted my hair [I've dyed it most colors you can think of and used to self-bleach... now I usually just dye it different shades of brown, but I miss having dark red] // I have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup [I used to post music-inspired makeup looks pre-pandemic oops]// I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look // I prefer Nike to Adidas [I'm more of an adidas or converse type of person]// I wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES & TALENTS

I play a sport [Tennis and Krav Maga... does that count as a sport?]// I can play an instrument [I was a trained pianist for about 15 years and a trained drummer for about 10 years... though I haven't touched any of my instruments in about 4/5 years...] // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe [certain staple foods, not just on a whim though] // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami// I prefer movies to tv shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year [Do law books count?] // I enjoy spending time with friends // I travel during work or school breaks [Only back to the homeland] // I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIP

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year // I have a crush // I have a best friend who I’ve known for ten years [I count them in one hand] // my parents are together // I have dated my best friend // I am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // I have a long distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

AESTHETICS

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sun rise // I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching // I have attended a bonfire // I pay close attention to colors // I find mystery in the ocean // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favorite season (CA tends to have blended winters and autumns so yes... I am that crazy person that decorates as if I'm in some weird neighborhood competition for the holidays)

MISCELLANEOUS

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // I am the mom friend [I am more of the dad friend... I'll always be here for you but I'm not always the easiest to contact] // I live by a certain quote ("It's not an end but an and") // I like the smell of sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities [Not as an adult, but as a teen I'm pretty sure I was VP or Pres of about 6/7 clubs, I swear I burnt out early] // I enjoy Mexican food [Specifically Yucatecan/Southern Mexican dishes, which is hard to find in the states] // I can drive a stick shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed // I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least 3 dogs [I own 7!]

Now onto tagging! Sorry if any of you have already done these. @sunshinechay @a-slut-for-vegaspete @feelbokkie-main @nodtnutthasid @saturnskyline @elfenphoenix and anyone else that feels like they want to join in.

#tag game #get to know me #steph rambles

[swannscroft]

Genuinely curious, why do you hate Peggy so much?

assuming this is about my post about laughing how captain carter died in mom (which i put in the anti peggy tag, not her tag) i really can't stand hayley or peggy at this point. i'm tired of marvel including her in places where she's literally not relevant, when there are like 1000 other marvel women that could be introduced to the mcu.

to preface, i used to adore peggy. she was my favorite marvel character hands down, i had the 'i know my value' quote as my senior quote in the yearbook, religiously watched agent carter, etc. i even met hayley at the first comic con i went to:

i had been so excited to meet her and cosplayed as sharon carter from ca: the winter soldier, and got a photo with her before her panel. (this was like the same month civil war came out) almost the entire panel hayley talked about how steve/sharon was disrespectful and basically did nothing but bash the character i was cosplaying as. i felt really insecure after her panel, and even heard some people make funny comments about my cosplay (while it wasn't hayley's fault that those people were rude to me) but there was no reason to bitch about steve and sharon that much, rather than just talking about what she enjoyed about her own show. it ruined my first con experience <3 she's also said ugly things about emily vancamp/sharon carter at other comic cons. as well as said poc need to 'wait their turn' for representation.

and as far as peggy goes, literally everything about her in the mcu was based on other characters in 616 comics. the writer's of ca: the first avenger talked about how there was barely any source material for peggy and so they took from sharon carter in the comics to flesh her out. peggy is also partially based on the character cynthia glass- who was the agent involved with project rebirth, who steve called his first love, and was also a nazi spy. in 616 (before the mcu changed it) peggy was a blonde chick who fought nazis, and was really just backstory for sharon carter. here's cythia glass compared to mcu peggy:

and here's peggy before the mcu changed her look in comics:

in the comics, she didn't found shield (she wasn't even a shield agent) nick fury founded shield, she wasn't the love of steve roger's life sharon carter was, and she sure as heck wasn't a super soldier/captain carter. and that's not even mentioning the things that she did in the mcu, she hired zola and other nazis, let them rise to power, and probably knew about shield doing horrible things like they did to isiah bradley and ava starr. and she shot at steve after some woman kissed him?? and what they've given peggy in the mcu has destroyed sharon carter's character in the mcu, when she's been the love of his life in comics for 60 years:

and all of this has led to emily vancamp/ sharon carter fans being treated absolutely horribe by mcu fans. not sure if you know how bad it was when civil war came out, but emily and other fans were both getting death threats because steve kissed sharon. (hayley's comments at comics cons helped fuel this) i even remembered getting hate from other peggy stans bc i simply liked sharon and didn't hate on her. (and i'm not even getting into steve's ending in endgame and how they turned sharon into a villain in tfatws)

tldr, i used to love peggy until i picked up a comic book. she literally had no relevance before 2011. i'm so fucking tired of marvel bringing her back and giving her traits from other characters in the actual source material. we don't need more peggy carter, she's already had her time to shine. i want other women that haven't even gotten their mcu introduction yet (or have been treated badly) to get the respect they deserve.

#there are threads that explain this better but anyways... #crowe talks #anti peggy carter #anti captain carter #anti hayley atwell #sharon carter #agent 13

[youchangedmedestiel]

Confession time

It has been 6 months (more or less) since I joined Tumblr and AO3 and I finally told my friends. I couldn't not tell them because it has become a big part of my life now, especially writing fanfics. A year ago I wasn't even writing a single word in my native language. And NOW I can't stop writing. Like it's a new hobby. And I think I just can't live without it anymore.

It took me a long time to tell them because I was scared of their reactions to be honest. I know they are open because otherwise we wouldn't be friends but still. I was scared they find that ridiculous or worse that they didn't understand how important it is for me and how much it changed me.

And man, they reacted sooo well. One already read fanfics since high school and loves Dean and Destiel. Plus I already send her some of my fics. The second one hasn't watched SPN and doesn't know a thing about Tumblr and fanfiction. And the last one is a Sam girl and is not really into reading fanfiction but still wanted to read what I wrote about Destiel. So I picked one, that wasn't easy to choose but I did and I hope she likes it or at least doesn't throw up while reading it.

Anyway, their backgrounds might be different, but all of them found it awesome and asked me why I haven't told them before. And I told them that it was also because I had to process the whole thing on my own, because it FUCKING changed me and the perception I had of myself. But that's also why I had to tell them, because it changed me that much and if they didn't know about it, it's like they would know me anymore.

So if you don't know how to talk about it to your friends but want to and you need inspiration then here below, this is what I sent them to explain. It might not be everyone's experience though but there this is mine:

"I should tell you because it's been 6 months now, so I've had plenty of time to accept it. You know how abnormal I am about Supernatural and especially Dean and Cas. Like, it never did that to me with any show before and when I say THAT you don't know what I'm talking about because I didn't tell you. The THAT: I created a Tumblr account, where I follow people, people I don't know follow me and I post stuff on it on SPN, on Destiel. I also created an AO3 account. Where I read fanfics but not only. Hold on tight. Me, who didn't like French or English classes when we were at school. You know me, I've never been literary, let alone in another language. But now I write fanfics in English and I LOVE it. It's my new passion, it's become a big part of my life and I think it helps me on a daily basis, I'm sure it does, like it helped me a lot especially when I had nothing to do all day when I was unemployed and it still helps me. Because it's a way of expressing myself and when I'm inspired it's an incredible feeling, I've never really known that before (except maybe when I was drawing) and I can't live without it now. I spend a lot of my free time on it and it's still not enough, which is also why I get frustrated when my weekends feel too short. It's because I'd like to take more time off to work on all the fanfic ideas I have. Because I can't always write between my evening shower and preparing dinner because it's too short, sometimes I need to take time to be able to sort out my ideas. But sometimes it just comes to me, like Saturday morning when I was just waking up in bed, I wrote a few hundred words because an idea popped into my brain. So I wanted to tell you because it's important to me. It may sound ridiculous to some, but I don't care because the feelings it gives me when people like what I write or comment that the characters sound like themselves or that I've made them cry make me happy (yes, I do like making people cry, apparently lmao). Yesterday I wasn't doing too well, I couldn't get any work done. I must have PMS going on or some crap like that, I felt empty and I didn't feel like doing anything because I couldn't see the point, whatever. I wrote a few cute words about Dean and Cas, my loves, and it made me feel better. It's kind of magical. I feel like my writing has improved a bit in 6 months. I don't think I can live without writing anymore anyway, and I never thought I'd say that one day. Here you know everything, it frustrated me that you didn't know, because it's cool to share it with strangers online but if my friends don't know about it, it doesn't make sense 😘 especially given the role and place it has in my life."

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #supernatural #spn #when I say destiel change me #I'm not kidding #and I finally told my friends #they know now how much it changed me #now that I acknowledged it #now that I accepted it #now that I owned it #that's the first time I'm sharing this much in here #but maybe it can help someone who knows #or maybe it can help me to know i'm not the only one #writing fanfiction #fic authors #fanfic writing #my destiel fanfic #my personal experience with destiel #my personal experience with spn

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hello dear mutual! I have a question. I'm no longer in the fandom but I like watching from the sidelines. there was a poll asking if destiel will still be made canon and my question is: how. isn't the prequel planned about the parents? I would love an explanation cause I don't understand. thank you so much!!

Hello there friend!! I'm happy to explain, I love rambling about this batshit show so much!

So yes, the prequel is about the parents, but I'm not sure how much you know about it so here's a little primer: from what I've seen, it's actually Dean telling the story of how his parents met and fell in love, presumably while he's up in Heaven post-finale (y'know, where Cas is also supposed to be). Jensen and his wife Daneel are executive producing, and the prequel is being showrun by Robbie Thompson, known for writing such episodes as Goodbye Stranger (the crypt scene my beloved!!!!!!), Meta Fiction ("What makes a story work? Is it the plot, the characters, the text? The subtext?"), and Fan Fiction (the musical ep! With Sam teasing Dean about destiel!). So from the get-go everyone was like 👀 because Robbie has always been a destiel-positive writer! Plus, apparently, Daneel's favourite character is Cas, so it would make sense for them to bring Cas back if they (and Misha) wanted!

Please bear in mind that I haven't actually watched any of the prequel, i've just been living vicariously through my dash. People who have actually watched it/know more than me please feel free to add on/correct me!

So, to my knowledge, the reasons people are thinking they might make Destiel canon in the prequel are (in no particular order):

a) A few weeks ago there was an episode that had Gabriel (as played by Richard Speight Jr) as the MOTW and also had a background cameo from Rob Benedict in a very bad wig (unclear if that was Chuck or not), and there have been quotes from (i think) Robbie saying that they're only having cameos from OG SPN actors if it's relevant to the story they want to tell (and since the Rob cameo was not explained or plot-relevant people are thinking they're possibly going to do a Chuck won scenario? It could turn out that he was never actually defeated in 15.19 and now Dean has to show up to fight him again (and get Cas back?? maybe??))

b) In that same episode, there was a scene where Mary and John look at a picture of some dude who'd given them a clue or talked to John or something - it was Dean! So he's alive again, briefly, in the 70s. Could be time travel, could be he's escaped from Heaven. So if Dean is around in the show, whether just as narrator or as a character in the story, he has the potential to go rogue and look for Cas, or be telling the story to Cas up in Heaven. In either case, there is the potential for canon destiel, if they (Jensen, Daneel, Robbie, Misha, etc.) decide they want to do that.

c) Jensen has said various things at cons recently which are kinda 👀, including that he'd have been happy to keep going on SPN for another 6 years, and, most recently (this weekend), which I think sparked the poll you were talking about - that if Dean and Cas reunited Dean would say "Hey, can we talk about that goodbye a little bit?" and then joked that nah, it would be more like "hey, buddy, good to see you, old pal" but THEN said "I don't know, maybe we'll get to see that, that would be interesting" (Here's a gifset of him saying that if you're interested)

Also this:

[ID: Tweet from Toni @JensFloofHair.

JENSEN WANTS TO FILM A NEW ENDING FOR SUPERNATURAL, THE ONE HE HAD DREAMED OF. ABOUT A 2 DAY SHOOTING, HE SAYS.

Misha: I mean, you have the Impala.

Damn right, nothing stopping them!!

#JIB11 /End ID]

It's no secret that Jensen Did Not like the finale, apparently Eric Kripke had to talk him into it and he still makes salty jokes about it even now. Add the fact that he got someone else to film the confession for him because he wanted to have a record of it, and has said they cut out key parts of his performance in that scene (which is why the editing of it is so janky). So it's possible that he intended for there to be actual reciprocation in that scene and, well, now he's got the reins. He could do it if he wanted!!!

d) The prequel finale - airing next Tuesday, Jack help us - is titled "Hey, that's no way to say goodbye". Which was already kinda 👀 before the con this weekend, but combined with Jensen saying Dean would say "can we talk about that goodbye a little bit?" is um. Look I don't wanna get my hopes up. But also........ 👀👀👀

I think the prevailing theories at the moment (from what I've seen on my dash) are that either:

a) They're baiting us to keep interest in the prequel (I trust Robbie but I don't really trust Jensen, so this seems likely)

b) They really are gonna bring Cas back, either as him being the one Dean is telling this story to up in Heaven, or using that Rob Benedict cameo to retcon the finale and make the show about breaking free of Chuck's control for realsies this time (which hopefully means Cas actually showing up and not being explained away in one line like the finale)

Like I said, I don't wanna get my hopes up because I don't quite trust Jensen. But. Given Robbie Thompson showrunning and Daneel loving Cas and Jensen dropping all these maybe-maybe-not hints. If they DID make destiel canon. I would not be surprised.

Well maybe a little bit but in an "I can't believe I was right" way.

#my asks #artie talks #spn #jensen #bts #spn prequel #this got long lmao like i said i love to ramble #i tried to cover all the points! let me know if you want me to elaborate on anything though #personally i think that if they do decide to bring cas back they'll have him do a “hello dean” or something in the prequel finale #to hook people for the next season #or if they cant get misha for whatever reason this season they'll have dean show up and mention off hand that he's looking for cas #im leaning very far toward “oooooh i think theyll do it” but also. ive been burned before *tjlc flashbacks* #ill never trust a showrunner again #unless robbie does make destiel canon in which case im gonna marry him #also i think this is my first time talking to you hi hello! you activated my hyperfixation trap card i hope i dont scare you off 😅 #my dms are open if you wanna chat more! #meta #destiel

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I just have to get this off my chest because it's been bothering me ever since I saw a particular post about Danneel (I'll mention below) earlier and all of the ridiculousness I've seen this weekend about J2M as well:

Holy fucking shit. I knew with Jibcon being this weekend that there would be so much drama happening (like always) but I can't believe some of the takes I've seen from what these guys have said. This, to me, is an all-new low for this fandom.

First of all, while I am not a Jared fan (I don't hate the guy, I'm just indifferent to him if that makes sense) and while I have repeatedly claimed that I despise 15x20 and Dean's death, when I read his answer to that finale question (I haven't watched the panel yet but I plan to), I did not automatically take it as him saying that Dean deserved to die or that he deserved to live a half life or any of it. Do I agree with his opinion (at first mention I mean)? No, but it's just that, his opinion. Since the whole DenCon 2021 disaster, I've actually done a deep dive with this guy and I have come to appreciate his opinions on things related to the show and industry, even if I may not necessarily agree with him all of the time. I don't think he's an evil guy or sitting around hatching evil schemes to screw over Jensen, Misha, Dean, Cas, or their fans or anything like it. The guy's human and he has opinions, just like every other human being on the planet. Can we please try to come from that perspective when we hear something he said rather than running around screaming "FOUL!" before the guy is even finished speaking? I'm guilty of making that mistake in the past but now I try to come from a more objective and compassionate perspective when I hear something, and then look into it for myself. And each time I find that his words/intention consistently gets misconstrued and painted in a light that was never there in the first place. Which brings me to my second point:

When it comes to Danneel, I am not per se a fan of hers either, I am also rather indifferent to her as I am to Jared or Misha. I don't hate her and even though I don't condone any of what could be characterized as "bad behavior" from the past (i.e. her old tweets and responses to people), like Jared for example, she is also another human being and like any other human being, people do change and they do grow as they get older/have more experiences. She may still behave in a similar manner (though we haven't seen this publicly that I am aware of) or she may not (when you have kids, things tend to change your perspective usually), either way it doesn't matter when it comes to what I'm about to mention. Criticize the woman or don't criticize her, love her or hate her, whatever your reasons, can we PLEASE stop with the bullshit? And what I mean by the bullshit is this:

Jensen mentioned that he was tired in his solo panel today because Danneel wanted to stay up the night before because she hadn't been to Rome in 11 years. All of a sudden, antis (and one severely worrying individual in particular who apparently has a hard time distinguishing fiction from reality when it comes to this couple aka one hgcowboy - you know the one): DANNEEL IS ABUSING HIM BY DEPRIVING HIM OF SLEEP!!!! HOW DARE SHE!!!

Like, are you fucking kidding me? I may be indifferent to the woman or give two figs about her really but how do you get from Jensen being tired from a late night out with his wife to her ABUSING him? And this is characterized as intentional sleep deprivation? Obviously this person (hgcowboy) has never been psychologically abused like this (which is obviously a good thing) nor has she ever spoken to someone who has been through such an ordeal (I am someone who has been through that for example); that's more than evident from this commentary she posted.

1) Danneel wanting to stay out late because this is the one time she's been to Rome in 11 years (and obviously the first time with their kids) is NOT abuse. Have you ever had kids? Have you been married with said kids? There is nothing wrong with Mommy and Daddy having a night out, especially in a place that Mommy doesn't always get to visit (which is why I'm willing to bet that Jensen agreed to stay up despite his early schedule the next day). It doesn't matter that Jensen had a con the next day. The circumstances being what they are change Jensen's usual schedule. If he wasn't married and dating someone instead or took his mom there and she wanted to enjoy a night out or Daniela did as Jensen first joked, is that abuse, too? Simple answer: no. Can it be inconsiderate if (and that's a big IF) that person's intentions were purely self-involved? Sure. But NOT abuse.

2) Jensen is a GROWN ASS MAN. He can make his own decisions. For example, he said yesterday that he likes to go on the Tower of Terror ride (or whatever they call it these days) like JJ, but Danneel doesn't like the ride. He still makes the decision to go on that ride no matter that she doesn't like it. HE MAKES HIS OWN CHOICES. He could have told Danneel no about staying up but he didn't. He chose to go anyway, knowing he had an early morning. That's on him, not her, no matter the reasoning behind his making the decision. He is responsible for himself. Stop pulling shit out of thin air to justify your hatred and jealousy, seriously.

3) As an abuse survivor, I am flat out asking that hgcowboy: can you please stop fucking throwing the word ABUSE around because you're insanely jealous of the woman who Jensen took with him to Rome and it's not you? Like seriously "Sleep deprivation IS abuse" - perhaps learn what actual abuse is and stop throwing that fucking word around (especially in this fucking context) for your own reasons and so you can keep your ongoing fantasy that Jensen is going to leave his wife for you for whenever the next time you meet him is (if you actually met him as you claimed). This is not the first time you've done this when it comes to the topic of Jensen and Danneel, and it needs to STOP. Every time you do it to justify your hatred and jealousy of a woman that the guy you're obsessed with is married to, you do harm to actual abuse survivors such as myself. Abuse is a serious subject and that word should not be thrown around lightly. Idgaf if you hate Danneel, you want to keep that toxicity going (as all hatred is), that's your business, but stop fucking using that word and STOP acting/saying it like you are an expert on the matter, like you do on everything else you talk about like acting, the industry, branding, Jensen's mental state, Danneel's mental state, their kids' mental states (remember that disgusting post you made about their youngest daughter because you couldn't distinguish a joking story from actual reality? saying she was a sociopath in the making? because I sure do), and psychology (spoiler alert on that one: you're not). Because from that statement alone, you clearly don't know what the fuck you're talking about. And it is absolutely disrespectful and damaging to the abuse survivor community when you say that shit and put it out into the universe. You really should be ashamed of yourself.

And those who have actually experienced abuse in any form know exactly how serious that word is, the kind of impact labeling a situation or event as such actually has, and would never use it so disrespectfully and so casually. Like I said, you ought to be ashamed.

Now for those who say Jensen was name dropping when talking about being a producer, did y'all actually watch the panel where he talks about it? He was stating how hard it was to actually get a project onto the air, no matter what the circumstances, i.e. having names attached that were highly successful. Where is the name dropping? Where is this him being so arrogant that he made himself sound like Thee Producer? Have y'all not learned by now to watch the panels for yourselves and not 100% trust the tweets that come out of these rooms? Meaning that their interpretation or translation and context may not always come across in their tweets? How many times does this need to happen in order for you to finally get it? And you guys say you're the critically thinking ones? Yeah, not so much.

Have your opinions, express them freely on your blogs or chosen social media, love/like or hate/dislike who/what you want, but for Christ's sake, can we please inject some rationale into this fandom once and for all? Not everything these guys say is meant to be taken literally or to be a sign of them being in a hostage situation with their wives that only you can help them escape from (looking at you blogger I mentioned above; just admit you're obsessed with Jensen and that's why you hate Danneel so much and go). Perhaps not all is right in the Jenneel world, perhaps there really is a separation on the horizon, perhaps there isn't, either way, it doesn't matter. It doesn't give you the right to throw that word around so casually. And you obviously haven't learned since your last claim of "abuse" that people were doing to Jared when a fan told him not to cry or she would start crying (not meant in a negative or demeaning way to him at all) in a panel a year or so ago. It's clear that you do not understand what that word means. If you truly care about the abuse survivor community, you'll stop using it for your own justifications, fantasies, and anti blog discourse.

And while we're at it, let's all just admit that half of the shit that's said about these guys (and their wives) would never be said to their faces. I seriously doubt you would say it to anyone's face if you had to look them in the eye and say it. You don't have to like these guys or these women, you're free to have your opinions and express them, but can we seriously stop with the exaggerated speculation and outlandish analysis of each word that comes out of these guys' mouths about every single aspect of their lives? We are not inside their heads, their homes, their marriages/relationships, or the inner working of their careers. Does that mean that each individual hasn't done something worth of legitimate criticism? No. They're human beings on a very public stage. Each one of them has done or said something that is not desirable and perhaps has caused you to un-fan them so to speak. But does that mean all of this fighting (i.e. Jensen fandom vs Jared fandom & Jared fandom vs Misha fandom) and toxicity and drama and spreading of negativity needs to continue? No. Why can't we just enjoy what we enjoy about this series and/or these guys and leave it at that?

It's just beyond frustrating. I swear, if I could make my own tag for this show and Jensen on here, I would. Tumblr has to come up with a better filtering tag system than the one they currently have in place.

Just had to get that out. Done.

Edit: I don't usually include names in any of these posts but after the person named here came at me the way she did, accusing me of shit I didn't do, and sicced her followers on me for no damn good reason, now Idgaf.

#anti jared hate #anti danneel hate #anti jensen hate #anti misha hate #anti genevieve hate #anti hate everywhere #anti antis #and STOP throwing the word ABUSE around #you should be ashamed of yourself hologramcowboy #spn fandom bullshit

[he-is-lightning-in-a-bottle]

Nice to know another fellow Supernatural fan turned to gay Asian dramas as well 😂😂 I love that! I haven't been this excited about a bl since...well this may actually be the first time! Kinnporsche is actually really good!

Yesss! I've been watching BLs since early in 2018 or so, and they have come a really long way. Ironically, my very first BL was a censored Chinese one (Advance Bravely), but I fell in love with all the fanfic tropes brought to life on the screen. I didn't even know what BL was at the time, but as soon as I posted about it here literally dozens of people let me know about the genre. Apparently we're all zealots when we fall down the BL rabbit hole.

I only sporadically posted about them on Tumblr because we were getting so much content from the spn fandom.

Yet the true turning point for me when I decided to post about them more freely was the night that the Supernatural finale aired, November 19 2020. Everyone here was mourning that finale (which I still haven't watched) because of how dirty it did Cas, and particularly Dean. Yet that same day the finale to I Told Sunset About You also aired AND IT WAS GLORIOUS. Literally some of the best TV ever with beautiful cinematography, A+ acting, amazing lead chemistry, and it told the story of two queer boys finding their way into a romantic relationship with each other. It was just so... hopeful. I thought it could be a salve to the fandom that had been so gutted by a horrible ending. So I spammed my dash with ITSAY posts, and that's all she wrote.

I love the same things about BLs that I do about kdramas -- fun tropes I'd previously only read in romance novels or fanfic, and contained plot arcs (a series usually runs for a single season and has a beginning, middle, and end). Short run times (a whole series usually takes only 2 to 4 months to air, at most) mean that I will LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO FEEL BETRAYED BY A TERRIBLE ENDING EVER AGAIN. A few BLs do have bad endings, but 1) I'm spoiled about them by the fandom before I start watching them so I can just choose not to watch it, and 2) the fact that I only invested a few months of my life (at most) into the fan experience greatly lessens the size of the wound from any perceived betrayal.

Basically, I love BL and kdramas so much, they're basically the only media I consume these days unless something from the west seems particularly awesome (like Heartstopper or OFMD). I also love how the fandom for BL and kdramas is literally a fandom for those entire industries, instead of just a single particular show. We all jump from show to show as they air, watching multiple shows at a time. And there's so many shows to chose from, you really can prioritize only watching the shows that resonate with you. It's like a banquet hall of tables filled with food to feed our queer little romance-loving hearts!

Before I discovered BL, I felt like I was starving eating only the queer content scraps we get in the west. I invested in shows with ships that never went anywhere like Sherlock and Merlin and Hawaii Five 0 and Supernatural and Vikings. Every couple of years, I'd find a new show to feed me slightly better queer scraps because of queer showrunners and incredible storytelling like Hannibal. I very very occasionally gorged on the few shows with actually positive queer content like Queer as Folk and Black Sails and Sense8.

Imagine my delight when I realized that countries like Thailand, Korea, Taiwan, and Japan were literally churning out legitimately queer shows in quantities I couldn't keep up with even if I'd wanted to!!!

I am simply so full and satisfied these days. And with shows like Kinnporsche and Not Me stretching the very definition of the genre this year, I feel like we're only going to keep getting a better variety of shows to indulge in.

#supernatural #spn #kinnporsche the series #not me the series #heartstopper #ofmd #our flag means death #i told sunset about you #itsay #asian gay dramas

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Characters that the fandoms love but for me are "meh" or disliked

This is probably gonna be controversial but that's okay lol, we don't all have to like the same characters. This is obviously my opinion and some of these have been years, my mind isn't going to change lol I'm not going to tag any of these characters but just the shows lol.

Oh yeah… spoilers for these shows: Once Upon a Time, Stranger Things, Pretty Little Liars, Supernatural and The Vampire Diaries.

Killian Jones aka Captain Hook (Once Upon a Time)- MEH

I remember rewatching this show a long time ago and I haven't since the last season aired but I was meh on him even then. He was another white man added to the show that everyone was like "Oh he's so hot" and I was like meh lol, he's a good looking man but he doesn't do anything for me personally. I also liked Emma with many other people than Hook. I was officially done with him when he killed Merlin while was the dark one, I loved Merlin and I was very upset by this. Not to mention, how he was saved from the Underworld, with actions he did himself, and Robin Hood died! I was so pissed. It's been a long time so I'm sure there are plenty of details missing but I remember instances because I know I didn't care for him. Sure, I'm glad Emma loved him and all but he just wasn't my bag.

Castiel (Supernatural)- Strong DISLIKE

Honestly, a lot of this is because of the fans. I know people are like "just ignore them" and I normally would but I feel like a lot of stuff that happened in Supernatural that I felt was out of character or out of left field happened because of the loud fans. Supernatural is always ALWAYS going to be about Sam and Dean, everyone else are supporting characters and that includes Castiel to me. The way this fandom would treat any other character, especially women, especially if they or Dean showed any interest in each other, in favor for Castiel just really irked me. I didn't mind him in the beginning, and he had a really awesome intro. I liked that he basically learned about humanity and empathy from being out in the world and being with Sam and Dean. I didn't mind the bond he had with Dean because I thought it was necessary for Dean to have a best friend that wasn't Sam since we all know their relationship is very complicated, beautiful and toxic at the same time. But in S6 and S7, I was getting annoyed with Castiel, I don't think he's always as funny as people try to make him out to be and I was really getting sick of him trying to be God. I was actually quite pleased when I thought he sacrificed himself in S7 and then we were introduced to Benny... I was like "oh great" but because Castiel was a fan favorite, he came back. I'm not sure if that was always the plan or what but I was irritated. Don't even get me started on D*stiel. Long story short, I don't like it, I could get into that in an entirely different post but I don't think I will. Jensen Ackles who played Dean has stated many times that Dean was not in love with Cas and he did not return any feelings that Cas might have and that Dean was straight and the way the fans treated this man and his family was wild to me. How would anyone but this man who's been playing this character for 15 years of his life know? He was directing episodes, I'm sure he had a lot of input.

Lastly, I plan to rewatch at some point but I was not really feeling that last few plots with Castiel and Jack, it just didn't work to me. But we'll see if that changes, not my dislike of Cas. Not to mention, while I felt bad that Cas "confessed" and then disappeared... though I low-key laughed at the absurdity, it meant nothing to me. Also, D*stiel is not canon because Dean never said anything back, regardless of what any translations said, he does not return any "romantic" love. Also, Cas didn't say he was in love with Dean, just that he loved him, so if a fan who had no idea of the internet fandom was watching, they'd probably just think Cas was just saying that he loved him as a brother/best friend as we've been shown their relationship was like.

In the end, I felt Cas overstayed his welcome and honestly, he was always just meh to me but the fans really made me dislike him. People are worried that the Duffer Bros might listen to the loud fans and change their plans in S5... I hope they don't because I saw that happen in Supernatural. Just because there are SOME fans who are loud does not mean they speak for everyone.

Steve Harrington (Stranger Things)-Meh

Hear me out lol, I know he's everyone's favorite... I don't hate Steve or dislike him, I just don't like him as much as everyone else does. I think he's fine but I do think they focus on him way too much. I was actually expecting him to die in S4 when he gave that little speech too Nancy because that's usually the speech a person gives before they sacrifice themselves. I like his friendship with Robin and Dustin. I think it's very sweet. I'd like to see him bond with the other kids if I'm honest. But I'm not interested in them trying to bring him and Nancy back together romantically and it's not because I dislike her, I like her fine. I just don't care about them as a couple. I also don't find him hot at all lol. Just not my bag lol. He's fine but I'm just meh on him.

Billy Hargrove (Stranger Things)- Strong dislike

No one will make me like this man. I think Dacre is a good looking man but he's also like... too pretty... and also not my bag lol since I see people praise his looks a lot. But also, Billy was abusive and racist and the fact that people love to tell me (a black woman who has seen and experienced racism) and others that he wasn't... towards a black character is wild to me. Billy was racist towards Lucas. His speech to Max was racist. Not to mention, he was abusive. Yes, he was also a victim of abuse but that does not give you the leeway to be abusive in return. I will never go for that shit. If he was a victim and handled it differently, then I'd feel more empathy. Thank you for your sacrifice and thank you for saving El but nah lol.

Aria Montgomery & Ezra Fitz (PLL)- Dislike (Aria) and Hate (Ezra)

I dislike both of them lol and I hate them together. I will never be behind a minor and an adult relationship, especially not a teacher and student. I was never on board, this was never cute and the fact that they tried to get me to root for this couple? AND they got married at the end??? WILD. I feel like I liked the idea of Jason DiLaurentis and Aria together but I think that was short lived. And the fact that they tried to make it seem like her dad was in the wrong for not liking this relationship... wild lol.

Elena Gilbert (The Vampire Diaries)- Started out as meh and ended up in dislike

I'm not sure if people still like her as they did in the past or if people are becoming hip to how awful she became. In the first few seasons, she was annoying but I was alright with her. I even didn't mind her chemistry with Damon... but I never shipped them. When she became a vampire, I started to hate her. I already was always mad at how Bonnie was treated in favor of Elena and it didn't help that Elena was so fucking selfish lol. When she became a vampire, she was unbearable and once her and Damon got together, I no longer liked them. I liked the idea more than the couple. Even when she was gone she still loomed over the show... just ugh.

This might be a little controversial but eh what can you do lol. This is what I got right now lol and it's very easy for the fans to make other people dislike a character so stop telling people to ignore it... if you're involved in the fandom and on the internet, you can't ignore it. You can block and block but it'll still be there.

Everyone is free to like and dislike whatever and whoever they want, but remember you are not the only person who exists in the fandom and you can share your thoughts and analysis all you want, but attacking people, calling them names for whatever reason because they don't like your fave character or fave ship... lol like stop.

Anyways, you can share your thoughts but my mind has been unchanged on these characters for ages.

#stranger things #supernatural #pretty little liars #the vampire diaries #ouat #once upon a time

[letsabandonthisworld]

thanks @skateyoulater for tagging me!!!💕

❥ name: malin

❥ sign: taurus

❥ height: 178cm

❥ time: 21:02

❥ birthday: 21st of April

❥ fav band/artist: could never just choose one😅 all time would probably be Twenty One Pilots, Troye Sivan, Mitski and The Neighbourhood

❥ last movie: the new avatar movie actually, went to the cinema with my parents yesterday :)

❥ last show: just watched Wednesday a couple minutes ago

❥ when I created this blog: ehhh i think around 2018?

❥ what I post: my current hyperfixations, we went from anne with an e, the 100, and reddie to mdzs, tgcf, svsss, and woh to now all things thai bl

❥ other blogs?: i have an aesthetic blog @forgedbydreams but i haven't used it since 2021, and my old teenage blog @neil-minyard (ca 2013-2017) 💀

❥ do I get asks?: no lmao

❥ followers: 86, i've always been more of a passive reblogger :D

❥ average hours of sleep: i try to get 7-8 hours on a normal weekday, during holidays it's more around 10 hours tho ngl

❥ instruments: not really, i played a little bit ukulele during high school but never got fully into it, i'm just more of an arts person than a music person

❥ what I'm wearing: big sweater and knee high fuzzy socks, it's a no pants kinda night😌

❥ dream trip: currently saving up for a thailand trip (hopefully i can go next year if i have enough money)

❥ fav songs right now: very influenced by my kpop playlist oops

ตัวเลือก ตัวรอ (Can’t Have It All) - Tilly Birds

Die Sterne von unten - Yukno

Hurt - NewJeans

Miss You - Oliver Tree, Robin Schulz

Böse Geister - Yukno

Come Alive - Jackson Wang

Ballroom Extravaganza - DPR IAN

Champagne Cool - Jackson Wang

POSE - Kino

Stranger - Jeff Satur

mon amour - Gemini

Boom - DPR LIVE, DPR IAN

tagging the group chat so you guys see this 🥰

@hello-n-goodbye @neppu @ieroween1031 @chimerasinourskyline @first-kanaphan @alt-drama @jimins-crooked-tooth @sunflower-lychee

#ask game

[mlobsters]

supernatural s12e18 the memory remains (w. john bring)

now mr ketchup has orders to kill sam and dean, will he do it or does he too decide to acquire some free will. the power of banging mary compels you!

is this like, a black philip costume? i still haven't seen the witch. but some day

DEAN I've been trying, Sam. The GPS on his phone is turned off, and there's nothing in the system about some weird guy in a trench coat getting arrested or turning up dead. SAM Right. Dean, it's Cas. I mean, this isn't the first time he's dropped off the map, you know? And whatever's happening, he'll be fine. He always is.

with his history, might also be a concern that he's not off making very bad decisions but hey ho

s12e18 / altered carbon s1 - antonio marziale as isaac bancroft

hey, cute sad boy with the curly hair was in altered carbon

DARYN Black Bill.

hey, i was close!

DEAN I already figured out a way to kill it. SAM How did you – you don't even know what it is. DEAN The Colt. Dusts anything. Work smarter, Sammy, not harder. SAM Oh, don't do the hot coffee thing.

dean's sure on a mission to get this waitress. and annoy sammy as a bonus

everybody's happy, taking the win

s12e18 / the magicians s3e1 ryan mcdonald as bacchus

upper midwest stereotype man was bacchus in the magicians!

and his character led to this delight (post) (they were drunk and trying to be "fun" enough to be admitted entrance by bacchus. srs nerds not allowed 😔

KETCH It's clear. Onward. Now remember your orders. By the time we leave, Dr. Hess wants to know everything about our "friends" the Winchesters – their allies, their habits. How does Sam get his hair so shiny? How many ratty flannels does Dean own?

hokay. tone, who needs tone. hodgepodge of cliches slammed together. but understandable that everyone is jealous of sam's luscious locks

DEAN So goat dude is just a dude? SAM Then who's the monster? Sheriff Bishop Moloch. God of sacrifice.

LOL so i played an absurd amount of nethack, a text based turn based roguelike thing which has a funny mashup of d&d/folklore/myth etc so i know moloch from that - where it was a background bad guy god and his realm was the underworld (checking results from last years nethack tourney and people that i knew back in 2006 are still playing)

is that supposed to be blood? is he dead again?

peppy jazz moment, again, who needs tone consistency? uh oh, mary and baby dean, is mr ketchup feeling something?

ok so uhhh i guess the writer had a completely not peppy fun spy moment in mind for this scene

ok, no dead dean, just bleeding with a tbi, no big whoop

PETE Hunting people. Killing them. The family business

so dumb and i laughed so hard

SAM Colt. Dusts anything.

cute

DEAN Next time you hear me say that our family is messed up, remind me that we could be psycho goat people.

also cute

this talk of legacy (and the music) sure has me thinking this is episode they carve their initials into the table. you WILL feel some feelings. let's talk about them dying and their memory fading away

we're gonna show you them as BABIES (with knives), FEEL THE FEELINGS. i was resisting until they intercut sam blowing off the bits as a baby and a grownup. brute forced a few tears out of me. (jensen mentioned he was able to snag the chunk of wood from the table after the show ended)

the music was less schmaltzy than swan song, where the baby clips came from, however that did make me cry because i stupidly watched dean beaten to a pulp via lucifer!sam tell sam he's not gonna leave him and then the big montage of clips of sam and dean that brought sam to the surface with just wind as the soundtrack (sidenote but they used the demon growl sound thing with lucifer!sam in that scene that was azazel/whatever demon prince they whacked/also in title credits s2 at least)

anyway, they finally leaned into the ketch being creepy, listening to their conversation with the bug he planted and creepily staring at the family photo i guess HE STOLE? the one dean's managed to keep track of through going to hell and being a demon etc etc. all right

this episode was all over the place.

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 12x18 #spn clip #spn musical score #spnhiky #hiky #the magicians #ryan mcdonald #bacchus #altered carbon #antonio marziale #john bring #christopher lennertz

[aclaywrites]

It's okay maybe you haven't watched the show then, but Cas made this big declaration of love to Dean! There was very overt subtext for years before that and most (even straight) people who watched the show, easily picked up on that. You don't have to watch the show or even like it, though, that's fine

Thank you for your reply! I haven’t watched the show at all and am completely ignorant of anything I haven’t gleaned from people posting on here. I’ve seen the gifsets of the ‘overt subtext’ and we’re gonna have to agree to disagree on that one (I will say that no gay person I’ve ever talked to thought it had gay subtext). And I’m serious in asking: the big confession of love (aka the meme where we now all get our world news 😂) didn’t actually happen on the us showing of the series finale, the I love you was a subtitle of a dubbed episode shown in another country, right? To me this says it’s not canon because if the show wanted that to be their big finale, it would have been in the US version. It wasn’t so long ago that they didn’t have gay people in mainstream shows, so it was a deliberate choice to not make it happen. Again this is my understanding and I appreciate your clarification.

[liopleurodean]

The Road So Far: Season Four

Well that was a ride.

Friendly reminder to check my tag #ashla chick flick moments to see my live commentary on every episode of Supernatural up through season 4 (so far), as well as the other 3 season recaps.

With that out of the way, let's talk about season 4.

Can I start with the poetry? If you gave me enough time, I could write a whole essay about the symmetry in this season. I mean, start with the obvious -- the titles of 4x01 Lazarus Rising and 4x22 Lucifer Rising (and don't get me started on comparing Dean to Lazarus, one of Jesus' closest friends. If you haven't read that story, please do. It adds so much). And I mean, all of the episode titles are on point this season. At least one Zeppelin song, a Peanuts reference, a Sesame Street reference (which I mentioned in my post about the episode, 4x18 The Monster at the End of This Book).

This season really highlighted how Sam and Dean have evolved in just four short years. Obviously there were extenuating circumstances to make them that way, but I feel like both characters were really stripped to their cores to see what makes them tick, and it's so fascinating to watch them react to what's happening around them. Dean is finally coming to see that his life actually has meaning, while Sam is falling apart from the life he never wanted. It's plain to see that neither of them wants to keep hunting, but season 4 has also provided plenty of evidence that hunting is undeniably in their blood.

It's also interesting to see how Azazel's plan fits into the greater storyline. I think I mentioned back in season 2 that his whole plot didn't make much sense on its own, and it's gratifying to see everything fall into place.

Once again, it feels like the writers are forcing Sam to be the main character, even though this season definitely has more Dean-centric episodes and Dean gets a lot more development and limelight. It's almost funny to think about.

Before I forget, I suppose I should pick my favorite episode. I do have to say, while this was my favorite season as a whole, none of the episodes really stand out to me as amazing. 4x06 Yellow Fever is a fan favorite, and I'm no exception, 4x17 It's A Terrible Life was incredibly light-hearted, which was much needed after On The Head of a Pin. 4x13 After School Special gets an honorable mention, but it's not on the same level as the other two. My all-time favorite episode remains to be 1x12 Faith, which surprises even me because I'm generally not a fan of overly emotional and heavy media. I tend to prefer more lighthearted stories, but Faith really hits. I've already said that 4 is my favorite season, even if the individual episodes were a bit lacking. I think I preferred the overarching plotline of this season over others; it had much higher stakes and I was much more invested in what was happening. I really felt more emotional about certain plot beats and the characters felt a lot more real. I sped through this season pretty quickly, at least in terms of how many watch-days it took (as opposed to total elapsed time since the last season). It helps that I was on a road trip, so I got a lot of time in the car, but I think I would have finished quickly anyways because the story was so riveting.

This season we got to meet Cas! I have to admit, he wasn't exactly what I was expecting. Then again, neither were Sam and Dean. I feel like I simultaneously know so much and so little about Cas compared to the two brothers, but that'll change as I get deeper into the show.

While I'm not a Destiel shipper (I know. But Dean is Ben's dad and I will fight you) I can definitely see where they're coming from. I'll probably keep making comments on it as I see it, because it really is an interesting take that could add to the show. As it is, it's exciting to see Cas evolve into a member of Team Free Will (and I'm honestly a little surprised that it's happening so quickly). Even though most angels are pieces of crap, it's still fun to see a new player on the field.

Speaking of, let's talk about Chuck. I've already had a lot of the show spoiled for me being on Tumblr, so a lot of the plot twists won't be as twisty to me. One of said plot twists is the fact that Chuck is God. Now, obviously I already know this, but what I don't know is why he's acting the way he is. Is he lying? Was his memory actually wiped? If so, by whom? Lots of fun questions, and I can't wait to see them answered.

And with that, I think it's time I wrap this up. I'll start season 5 hopefully sometime this week. Carry On!

#ashla chick flick moments #supernatural #season 4 #the road so far

[taperwolf]

Goodbye 2022

It's the season for retrospectives, and I wanted to take a few moments to mention the things that were new this year and which feel like I still want to talk about them.

Modular Synthesis

Now, I've been thinking about and talking about building my own synthesizer for years. Over that span I've learned a lot. I've built devices where I felt like I was just snapping together pieces, like the Gakken SX-150 kit, an Arduino MIDI player using an audio playing shield, and various Teensy Audio library devices like a basic polysynth or the T.Chordstrum; I've made various sound toys and effects from parts and schematics. But this year, building one module at a time, I filled up a homemade Eurorack case with 16 modules, comprising a complete modular synthesizer. First some passive modules, then a cheap FX unit; an oscillator, an oscilloscope, amplifiers, hacked children's toys, and the homemade equivalent, in three parts, of the most popular Eurorack module in existence. I've actually used up all the room in the rack, and I've even had to take modules out to put different ones in a couple of times.

It's a working system that can stand alone or work with my other instruments, and while there's a laundry list of further work to do — a bigger case, a dozen different modules to build, and turning this all into actual music — getting to where I am really is an accomplishment, and I'm really happy with the work I've done.

(I also should mention that I owe a lot to many designers and engineers — both the pioneers of analog synthesis in the 1960s and 1970s, and more modern ones. All these modules are based, in whole or in part, on their work. Specifically, without the direct designs — and generosity in making those designs available — of Matthew Scala of North Coast Synthesis, Kristian Blåsol of SourceryOne, Kassu of Kassutronics, and musicdevghost of Voxmachina, I'd have nearly nothing in the case, and without Dieter Doepfer coming up with the Eurorack standard, I wouldn't even have the case. There's probably a dozen more people who deserve credit as well.)

Anime

I'm a big anime fan, or at least I'd describe myself as such, but I haven't managed to watch much these last few years. I've had problems with time and attention, and haven't really followed things outside a narrow band of franchises I was already a fan of, or adaptations of manga I'd already read.

So My Dress-Up Darling came as a surprise.

It's an odd show to talk about, or recommend. It seemed set up as a fanservice-y, by-the-numbers hetero school romance comedy. Unpopular boy meets popular girl! She manic pixie dreams all over him! He dresses her up in cosplay! The premise seems set up for drek. Instead, I think it's the series with the most heart that I've seen in years.

I'm being worse than usual at describing why; I've written and deleted several paragraphs that ended up as overly detailed character or plot summaries. Maybe it's just that, while comedy can't treat its characters with dignity, this show treats that its characters love what they love with respect.

Cooking

Turkey, roasted in a brown paper bag. The method came up in a @docholligay post, which I'd reblogged while tagging about commercial plastic oven bags being... adequate, and I sort of got challenged into trying it. Now, two roasts later (admittedly, scaled down to just the turkey breast, since we're a two-person household), I'm not planning on cooking turkey in any other way ever again. It turned out to be phenomenally good, for very little effort. It just takes saturating the bag in canola oil, slathering the meat in mayo, and throwing it in the bag with veggies and seasonings. The recommended cooking times had the meat well over the recommended minimum temperature, but still with crispy golden skin and full of all the juiciness you could ask for.

I imagine that putting more thought and effort into seasonings and vegetable accompaniment — really, I just threw in a chopped onion, a bag of baby carrots, and some red potatoes, and sprinkled the whole thing with Montreal Chicken — could even improve things; I'll have to look into that for next time.

And?

I'm probably forgetting several things I should mention, and likely actively repressing a few others. I live a pretty insular life; I don't often get a lot of new experiences, and I tend to chew on ideas and plans long enough that they can lose a lot of flavor. Even getting out to the Makerspace once a week can sometimes be too big a hurdle. I take care of my wife, I go out shopping, I clean things and do laundry.

I do at least have the Makerspace to go to, to show off the toys I make, see other folks' projects, bounce ideas off of people. I'm active in my weird little corner of the Love Live! fandom, running an archive and database of otherwise unavailable character interactions. And I've got this handy void to scream into.

I'm going to consider goals and resolutions elsewhere, and probably offline; it seems like a good quiet occupation for the new year.

#personal #retrospective #2022

[thetiredstuff]

Jensen saw meisha comming - did the face by saying that he hoped it will be jared... He literally was akward bc he knew it was meisha... This is how you queerbaited yourself into that sick non existend ship

Hi anon! sorry was all out of spoons to reply earlier but i'm here now so let's get to it because so much to unpack!

Okay: must be absolutely awful to be so miserable that you have to spend your time leaving nasty anons to people that don't even interact with you. I have the majority of you guys blocked, and I am extremely careful with tagging anything so that you guys don't see my negativity in your beloved tags.

You literally sought me out to be annoying for no reason other than spreading your own misery. What a sad existence that must be.

There is a mountain of evidence that says that things are not going well between j2 which i'm guessing is why you're here trying to placate your feelings by idk trying to stomp on my happy ones? Which, I am so sorry for you, are (again) unfortunately for you, not working because I just find this very funny.

When I started watching SPN and started watching bloopers, interviews, and panels, I wasn't on Tumblr in the beginning. I had not idea about any of these ships and what antis were and all the hostility that is in this fandom.

And my very first panel I ever watched about SPN was the 2017 jibcon panel of Jensen and Misha after YouTube recommended it to me after watching a blooper. And I didn't know a thing about these guys, I think I either just saw Cas or he still had to be introduced. Anyway, I remember thinking, after watching that full panel (which is truly a delight I recommend watching if you haven't) that while I don't like to use "gay" as a the descriptive noun because it always feels very sterotypical and prejudice and just wrong, this panel seemed very gay to me because they literally showed their underwear. to one another. on stage.

At the very least they seemed like they genuinely liked one another, and that was after having watched one panel almost four years ago.

And while I didn't fully bought into the J2 fallout theory, it would be remiss of me to still deny it when the evidence is literally a mountain high. I could add some photos etc. not to mention the whole social media meltdown of jp but we both know that you would then come up with pictures of Misha and Jensen where "Jensen was annoyed". Potato, Potatoe except, ya know, one lived with the other during the last three years of SPN ... after the J2 fallout theory started circling around.

But "J/2 lived together as well!" Yup, you're absolutely right! Never claimed they weren't friends. In fact, I very much bought into their friendship and brothers united act, although (laying all cards on the table) I never liked jp from the beginning because I very quickly caught up to his numerous tweets and posts that doxxed people on social media and that is something that I find absolutely appalling no matter who you are. But besides that, I bought into the friendship ... until around beginning of 2018 when Danneel and Gen hadn't posted about one another or shared a photo of each other for a while even though they normally were very consistent with that.

And eventually it all just kinda came crumbling down and then jp had a huge "Et tu Brute?" meltdown on Twitter, which is again appalling behavior towards a former coworker/friend.

It's been a long time coming, jp's awful behavior with no consequences whatsoever. But I'm a big believer in karma, what goes around comes around. It'll take a while but it'll happen eventually, and I believe that enough people who have been close to him for years are sick of it. Most of all Jensen so it seems.

In all truth, if Misha and Jensen aren't friends: so be it. It would be unfortunate because I always like it when actors who work together are also friends, but it is what it is. But at least Jensen isn't actively fed up with Misha. You'll claim otherwise, totally fine but seems like Jensen has had enough of jp's appalling behavior, which should have been confronted way sooner.

As for your queerbaiting comment: there were a bunch of LGBTQ+ writers on this show who queerCODED the text and SUBtext. But you'll wave that away. Cas literally confessed to Dean that he loved him. By that definition alone we were in fact not queerbaited because Cas came out as queer.

Besides that: it is also very weird and appalling behavior to take pleasure in people, of whom a lot are part of the LGBTQ+ community, being queerbaited when queerbaiting is a disgusting thing. And we should all, no matter who you ship or love, be appalled whenever a network, movie, series, studio, decides to queerbait.

While you make fun of us for having been "queerbaited" (although that literally did not happen: as in Cas is literally queer and Dean had a ton of queercoding for his bisexuality), it says more about who you are as a person:

You may call yourself an ally of the LGBTQ+ community, but no ally would ever take pleasure in someone else being even potentially queerbaited.

#anon #ask #destiel #i love my husbands #cas #is queer #just like #dean #is #bi!dean #spn #supernatural #jp #j/2 #cockles