#do I hate regrets? maybe.

[tobeconquered]

I am once again asking you to ignore my descent into madness 🫠

#acgas 2020 #siegfried x audrey #audrey hall #siegfried farnon #all creatures great and small #my art #I can’t stop drawing idiots in love idk #should I have been working? yes. #do I hate regrets? maybe.

[theheirofthesharingan]

“Tell me, father, which to ask forgiveness for: what I am, or what I’m not?

Tell me, mother, which should I regret: what I became, or what I didn’t?”

- source

#i realized i almost never do anything with itachi and his parents so this one post is dedicated to them #the regret of killing them would have killed him before his actual death #what kind of child he was to raise a sword against his own parents? #his parents weren't even angry that he'd betrayed them at last #all the nightmares that would have followed him in which they hated him for everything and he would have no defense #who held him when he cried thinking of his mom? who comforted him when he choked on his tears thinking of his father's last words? #who was there for him when memories of his family became too much to handle and he would just collapse unable to breathe #maybe just maybe when the first symptoms of his illness showed he thought #that it was just one of his regular coughing fits that came with the onslaught of the memories of his parents #did he ever want to crawl back to sasuke and tell him how miserable he was and how much he missed their parents #where did the strength to be entirely indifferent and inhuman composure come to him #how much practice did it take? how many days? months? years? #did people around him ever suspect how much he was suffering? #all from thinking about his dead parents whom he killed #whose blood never left his tiny fingers and soaked into his flesh and blended into his own #how much misery was encapsulated into those expressionless features that never gave away even the slightest hint of pain #itachi uchiha #uchiha itachi #itachi #mikoto #mikoto uchiha #fugaku uchiha #fugaku

[rebouks]

Wyatt couldn’t sleep. He’d tried his best to play it cool with Brynn and failed spectacularly, the past week having been a rare highlight in his otherwise deplorable life.

But happiness was a foreign and elusive concept, one that caused uneasiness instead of contentment. It didn’t feel right, like he hadn’t earned it, like he didn’t deserve it. How could such a wonderful feeling create such a twisted knot in the pit of your stomach?

Usually, when Wyatt slept with a woman, he didn’t feel much of anything; he’d make himself scarce the next morning, or drive them away on purpose for his own entertainment-.. and yet, with his nose nestled in her hair as she slept, he realised he didn’t want Brynn to go home.

He actually enjoyed spending time with her. She wasn’t annoying or high-maintenance, boring or stupid, and she didn’t expect anything from him, nor he her. It was terrifyingly easy.

Wyatt had never been in love before; hadn’t even come close. Not once could he remember having loved anyone or anything, familial, platonic, nor romantic-.. not properly, anyway. Not without condition, doubt, or backlash; but for some inexplicable reason, Brynn had captivated him completely.

She was soft and compassionate yet rugged and unruly, so tenacious – albeit somewhat assumedly – that he couldn’t help but admire her. She was beautiful too, and Wyatt didn’t throw that word around lightly. Hot? Sure. Gorgeous, pretty, sexy? Sure. But never beautiful. That was reserved for more; someone unique, someone he didn’t want to let go, someone he didn’t want anyone else to touch…

No, he definitely didn’t want Brynn to leave at all.

But leaving she was, and Wyatt had no choice in the matter. If she wanted to stay, she would. If not, he could only hope that she’d return one day… He’d thought about asking her not to go, but he didn’t want to beg. His father had always instilled in him not to beg for anything in life, it was demeaning and pathetic.

He’d also said you ought to take what you want by force, but Wyatt was choosing to ignore that part. It wouldn’t feel the same unless she chose for herself.

Whether he wanted to admit it or not, Wyatt was a little worried. He’d tried to ask Brynn about her life back in San Myshuno more than a few times, but she clearly didn’t want to talk about it, expertly shrugging him off every time he broached the subject. He couldn’t tell if she was nervous, ashamed, or if she truly believed it wasn’t worth talking about.

She was so good at hiding certain things that it was damned near driving him insane, and despite their rapidly growing intimacy, he wasn’t much closer to figuring out what was going on.

He couldn’t exactly keep an eye on her either, not from here-.. besides, he’d told himself that following people probably wasn’t the best idea, even if he didn’t necessarily think it was a big deal.

Wyatt sighed deeply; his head pounding. Why had he let her get under his skin? Why didn’t she want to stay? What the hell did she have in San My that she wouldn’t have here? Who the fuck did Gael even think he was? The pathetic fuckwad. She clearly didn’t like the guy all that much, why would she rather leave with him?

Unless-.. what if Brynn meant more to Wyatt than he to her? He doubted she was that good an actor, but he’d found it rather difficult to think straight recently.

Sweating at the thought, Wyatt realised he might have to be a little more honest if he wanted some answers…

Shit.

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#ts4 #sims 4 #simblr #ts4 story #sims story #forever in between #fib #wyatt shaw #brynn franz #awwwwwwww shiet #do u think he wishes he'd told her to fuck off?? #😅💀 #s'too late now pal #u done gone caught the feelies #rip #ALSO.. i wanna point out here when he says he doesn't think he deserves it.. it's because he didn't like work hard for it ig #not because he has feelings of self doubt or hatred #fine line maybe but it's a big difference! #we know by now wyatt isn't one for regret or hating himself so idk i wanted to make sure that part was clear #u guys sick of prose yet?? ahaakjsdkj.. we'll be back to normal for the most part soon #unless everyone prefers it ig? i could always carry on with both for other chars n stuff #idk #i'm rambling #byeeee

[add1ctedt0you]

Underappreciated how much worse is for jc that he couldn't kill wwx

#He couldn't kill him or save him. He can't hate him or forgive him #IT'S WORSE #'jiejie jiejie sorry. I couldn't kill your husband' s murder. a-ling sorry. I couldn't kill your father's murder' #THE REGRET #'if I took action before maybe jiejie and her husband would be still alive and jl would have an happy family...' #DO YOU UNDERSTAND IT??? #mar!nonsense #It's about what you think you should do/what others think you should do/what you want to do/not knowing what's right and what's wrong #Most black/white takes I see downplay mdzs's characters grief and tragedy imo #jiang cheng #mdzs #Also. I've seen people liking the takes that jc killed wwx because they want wwx bitter and resentful. Girl. HE'S bitter and resentful #He's just repressing everything. He's such an unreliable narrator #to each his own obv

[lokh]

LISTEN... for all that shuro is frustrated by him he really Gets who laios is. it's because he understands him so well that he felt bad about being frustrated for so long

#i went back to read from ch 72 and like. the number of times that hes like #thats not the laios i know #and..... and hang on i think im having a moment #maybe his frustrations ultimately lie with himself.... #HE couldnt save falin (something he expresses shame n regret about all throughout) #HE didnt believe in laios (a sentiment expressed near the end) and so things went wrong #hes the one who doesnt measure up (to his dad and maizurus expectations)..... #maybe he feels Hes also the one whos doing smth wrong for being so frustrated w laios #and for being apparently unable to communicate his own discomfort... #hes too good at making himself small... 😔 #<- asian style babey 🤪 #if white people get to project on laios to justify hating on shuro then i get to project on shuro LMAO

[itsafternoonpast5]

thinking about their friendship so hard

#camp camp #cc #David #jasper #fanart #DUDEEE nobody gets them like i do theyre so good #theyre so tragic.. they never truly got to know each other. the last time they ever seen each other they were angry with the other :( #but there’s so much regret that comes with it too. they never got to talk it out. be on good terms #they could see each other at any moment but they other doesn’t know #they call each other best friends yet we never really see them being best friends.. but maybe they get each other like no one else does #their personalities did a complete swap with each other - they understand how the other is thinking and feeling. #David hated the camp but after one good thing he loves it. viseversa with jasper #when they last saw each other they were clouded with their views and didn’t try to understand things from their lens #yet even if they didn’t - they still understood each other. if you get what I mean #theyre foils. but so is max and david and that’s what makes both relationships compelling for me. theyre so similar to each other #no wonder david is so attached to max. he sees himself in him and he sees jasper in him too #i know jaspers just a character to show how bad the camp is. but there’s so much depth to him too #he has a lot of missed potential.. i hope he’s in season 5 at least. id like to see him again #srry for the character analysis im insane #jaspvid

[strawglicks]

guys flint does not hate cosmo he dislikes the satellite investors .

as a matter of fact they LOOK UP TO cosmo but unfortunately their conflict with the satellite investors causes cosmo to hate their guts LMAO

this idea brings so much potential for funny shenanigans n whatnot but i keep seeing flint and cosmo portrayed as hating each other but thats just not true . flint does not hate cosmo at all, its his assistants they have an issue with . why exactly is unknown (pls build on this clash crew im so curious i wanna see more of satellite investors vs flint its so funny to me)

#toontown #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #cosmo kuiper #plutocrat #flint bonpyre #firestarter #satellite investors #hi i just have to quickly save the fandom from falling into a mischaracterization of flint #flint and cosmo and the SIs are so funny and have been one of my FAVORITE dynamics since i FIRST got into ttcc #and i cannot stand by and watch a key part of it be erased . #i will say MAYBE at some point #considering flint hates being walked all over and cosmo yells at them a lot #MAYBE they would snap at cosmo at some point . but it would be followed by IMMEDIATE regret. #it would be pent up anger from like. the satellite investors. that they let out on the very wrong person #do u understand. #flint would NOT fucking actively challenge cosmo in an argument of any sort #bc theyre afraid of him and also look up to him . the last thing they want is to start shit with him #unfortunately they DO end up starting shit with him bc they cant keep their mouth shut abt their dislike towards the SIs #anyway ramble over .

[dizquized]

FOR YOUR OWN SANITY, do not look in the tags, dont do it. its not worth it. a demon possessed me or something, i dont know.

#alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #alastor the radio demon #WHY IS IT LIKE HTAT #every time i see his fuckass bob i break down cry-laughing #EVERY TIME #i legit cant stop myself from just falling to the floor because his haircut is just that bad #hes supposed to be like a super powerful demon #but he chose THAT haircut??? #he put all his points in Vertical and tries to fake horizontalness with his coat and also by folding himself so he's as flat as a table #he knows he is horizontally challenged #he also put all his points in 2014 uber duber scary oc #but he skipped past the haircut one #like #do you not see yourself in a mirror? do you walk past reflective surfaces eyes closed? #maybe he doesnt allow photos or videos because he saw his haircut once and he legit had no idea it was that bad #he doesnt allow photos or videos because he doesnt wanna get embarrassed more than he already has with that stupid bob #its so bad like actually #he can apparently shapeshift (unsure tho) which means that haircut was a conscious desicion #he CHOSE the “kick me!” sticky note life and he better regret it soon #anyways rant aside #yeah alastor's pretty cool #he's very fun to draw (from the front and the front only) #its honestly so fortunate that most times hes facing the camera #which is funny considering his hate for modern technology #yet he very often is facing towards the camera with his bigass smile #ok i think im going off topic oops #hazbin hotel #hazbinhotel #hazbin alastor

[pansyfemme]

im hoping after this semester ends i will just cease to exist. just straight up disapear into the atmosphere. not so much die as just like. never have been a person to begin with

#god. #sorry to make weird vent posts i will regret in the morning or if anyone so much asks me how i am doing i will break down crying but yknow #sometimes i want to message all of my friends horrible things and do embarassing things in public just so everyone will hate me enough to #not give a fuck if i just disapear forever maybe #not that i could ever do that. the guilt of saying anything bad to my friends would kill me first. honestly the guilt of admitting that #thought is already bad enough #vent tw #sorry

[chippuyon]

There’s something about Rei basically telling his father:

“YOU can stay miserable, I actually have a family who I love, peace✌️”

Like Rei is living his best life with his husband and daughter doing French Toast at the other side of Japan, while Suwa will stay miserable by his own volition lmaooo

For realll he's living the life.

You just reminded me I forgot to talk about THIS line which is genius??? This is the first and last time Rei calls him father as an adult. Aside from the literal reason that he's not Rei's "Boss" anymore since he's quitting the org, it's also his bittersweet way of acknowledging that the man before him did raise him to some extent. He's saying farewell to both the org and his biological ties to his father, without denying that either were a part of his history.

#do you think his father checks on him #and realizes how much he choked the life out of his son #do you think he'd be regretful that he let his heir go #or maybe some tiny part of him still cares #maybe a tiny part is happy his son escaped from the cycle #i still hate the bitch but emotional complexity is fun #chip answers #buddy daddies #buddy daddies spoilers

[demigod-of-the-agni]

call me insane, but if Jenova (and to some extension, Sephiroth) can appear as anyone you know, fear or love, what are the chances that Cloud kills someone else in this scene

And Sephiroth hugging Cloud? it's just that other person slumping over him as they die

#no because GENUINELY why would seph tell him to get more angry after getting stabbed?? because he KNOWS he goaded cloud into making- #-a bad decision. one that cloud is going to REGRET AND HATE HIMSELF FOR #i think he realises what's happened almost immediately. just the overwhelming sense of “oh FUCK”. HIS LIPS ARE TREMBLING HE'S GONNA EXPLODE #this is going to be a major turning point in the story. i just know it. maybe this isn't as yaoi as se made it out to be #i literally do not know who it could be. im too scared to think about it #bro really attacked tifa/tifa-lookalike i am CONVINCED cloud at least attacks and wounds someone he loves AND THIS MIGHT BE IT #im just going to pass away when we get to this part..... goodbye #cloud strife #sephiroth #ff7 #ff7 rebirth #ffvii rebirth #ff7 rebirth spoilers #agnirambles

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Since we're talking about Grandfather Spider can we Girls please just take one single moment of the day to remember and think about his, "I am beyond angry with you, but I could never hate you." quote to Grandmother Raven please. Please. Please can we do that? I will become sick as fuck if someone doesn't acknowledge this with me

#that was one of the most powerful fucking things ive ever personally read #can we please applaud the emotional maturity and intelligence on spider's part here please. to be able to tell and admit the difference- #-between feelings of anger and resentment and flat out hate #there's like not even really a word spider could find that could sum up all his negative feelings other than 'anger'. its not just anger- #-its so much more than that. but its not hate. he doesn't hate her and never has hated her #also the acknowledgement that things (at that point in time) between them are still Not Okay #like. they're not fighting any longer. they recognized their harmful actions but those feelings still havent gone away theyre still hurt #i think the ending to their arc was very decent because it still gave them room to grow in peace #they're not okay RIGHT NOW but with enough work maybe they will be. it will take years and years and years but maybe it will be okay. #“hey look im not all that comfortable with you yet but i recognize your regret and willingness to work on us so i can do the same for you”- #-hey what if i died right now. what if i died from that right fucking now. #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #grandfather spider

[lambjock]

i have too many thoughts on the deleted jackienat scene for a girl who's supposed to be enjoying her birthday lol. i think at the root of it all, it's highly likely that when the actresses breathed life into the characters, and scenes got improvised, some things just stopped making sense for characters to do. including good things, like with jackie's 'i love you' to shauna! and i think this is the case for natalie looking at jackie with hatred before leaving her out in the cold. maybe at one point in her early stages of characterization it made sense, but clearly the people on the show didn't think that way anymore at some point, hence the cut. also ngl people taking this deleted scene, which for all we know didn't even make it into the final script, as some sort of 'gotchu' for jackienat enjoyers ( romantic or otherwise ) is weird as hell to me. like, it was removed for a reason.

#my posts. #yellowjackets #im tired and its my birthday so maybe this doesnt make much sense but #i have lots of thoughts i cant stop thinking abt this scene #a mix of good and bad tbh #but mostly watching people act as if this completely destroys jackienat is hilarious to some degree #since a huge part of their appeal has always been how similiar they are. that's what jackienat is founded on #and with that similarity comes a hatred especially since both girls have a self loathing streak #so regardless whether people view this as a huge characterization moment for nat or not doesn't change this #people seem to forget how much natalie genuinely hated lottie and was jealous of her as well! it doesn't mean she loved her any less #natalie at her core is a teenage girl like the rest of them. she has flaws and pettiness and does things she regrets. a *lot* #but on the other hand she'd do anything for travis. that's who she lives for. and the only one who helped her save him was jackie #jackie might've stolen him away for the night but the others were gonna take him away forever #which is something natalie would hate more than jackie fucking him. hell in the show she even says she could care less about the sex #she just wanted travis to be *alright.* #had natalie been in the cabin when jackie was calling the girls out for what they did last night you KNOW she would've sided with her #would she have cared about the highschool drama between shauna and jackie? who knows. #but no matter her personal feelings on jackie they had a mutual hatred and disgust for what happened during doomcoming #and i think that would've mattered more to nat at the time. in a swarm of angry feral teenagers the only one she could trust then was jacki #of course these are just my personal opinions which im purposefully keeping brief lol #but like. i just have too many thoughts on this it would take an essay to iron them out so here's this i guess!

[werewolves-are-real]

See my problem. Is that I would LIKE to meet people, either to get a partner or even, like, friends. But I do not have a car, and would need to walk 2+ miles to any mildly-public area (and even that would be like... a library or something). Which is hard when I am already constantly exhausted/in pain.

And then I try to imagine explaining that yeah my main hobby is writing about fictional relationships & obsessing over the original Star Trek. My second hobby is video-games, sorry if you were deceived by the fact I'm skinny & wear dresses, I'm just a nerd.

And yeah also I have nosy pet parakeets you gotta just deal with. And yeah I'm converting to Judaism (hopefully soon) so my Saturdays aren't free (so fun right now, especially, btw!)

And then I decide taking a nap sounds better, actually. And I look online and see stuff about how you gotta get out and meet people!! :) Here are some ideas for how to do that (all assuming you have a fucking car and, idk, money?? and also pre-existing friends?) and then I just feel mildly homicidal.

Anyway I'm turning 29 next week and when I am 30 people will be officially wondering what is Wrong With Me That I'm Alone, I think. Exciting 🙃

#last time I almost-dated someone was when someone at synagogue introduced me to his son #who was... 17 years older than me #and kinda off-putting in the sense that he was the sort of anime fan who only seems capable of discussing anime #I took one look at him and immediately understood that if we dated we would subsequently get married #and I would be apologizing for his social manners the rest of my life #so I turned him down #and now I regret that bc idk!!! Maybe I'd have liked him! #And at least I'd have a Person! #and not be sadly alone on weekends trying to convince my parakeets I'm not going to murder them when I get close #:( #I live by Chicago it should not be HARD to find stuff to do #but the idea of having a car with my money+hate of driving is #hahahaha #no

[ghostradiodylan]

#I hate this #make me stop #i’m so ill #the quarry #dylan lenivy #rip dylan #absolute shitpost #dylan regretted letting ryan set up his out of office reply while he was temporarily deceased #I will do anything that isn’t work you guys #making jokes about things that hurt me #could have done this with Emma or Abi too but we’re on a dead Dylan jokes kick sooo #I’m so sorry Dylan #I promise I’ll build you back better #does anyone else get legit dismembered? like by the actual wolf? maybe Jacob by Nick?

[getougender]

ok enough time has passed that it’s started to sink in and i’m sad about gojou now

#riko.txt #on one hand. sad! well theres other sorcerers #but on the other. pov you are in high school and you watch your teacher get slaughtered by a thing wearing your classmate’s face #he died protecting you. he can’t protect you anymore. the title of The Strongest falls onto the shoulders of a nervous seventeen year old #he’ll die next #it’s only a matter of time before you die too. #gojou satoru #jjk leaks #gojou isn’t the last resort but jfc. what do you do now #being prepared for the possibility vs thinking it’s over and then seeing him get CUT IN HALF are totally different #he dies with regrets!!!!! he couldn’t save megumi he couldn’t beat sukuna and now his students are next #maybe they’ll save megumi. maybe sukuna will kill them all. either way he won’t be around to see it. #i hate it here