#he suffers so much in my hands

[viperra1]

tw: blood, suicidal ideation (? probably ? it's Boone we're talking about so. yeah)

so make it one for my baby and one more for the road.

#i love him. he's my blorbo #granted that man has seen so much trauma and did participate in genocidic mission but he's a blorbo still #i think about his responce abt bitter springs where he goes like. no. i would've only needed one bullet to make things right that day #and. well. i'm. uhhhhh. i think about this response a totally normal amount #also little bitter springs easter egg: his hands here are covered in blood. thanks y'all just know that i suffer from this agony as well! #fallout new vegas #craig boone #boone #fnv boone #fallout nv #fonv #my art #fanart #fallout

[finngualart]

im gonna write my thoughts about this in the tags

#look it makes me real nervous when actors interact with fanart i made #i feel a little less nervous when it comes to mr o'neill bc its clear he enjoys all this and shares fanart that is much hornier than this #i made and posted this drawing nearly 1.5 years ago so my man must have dug a bit to find it <33 #and of all art i made of izzy i kind of wanted him to see this one the most #bc i love this character and i see his suffering and i want him to be freeee #and this was an exploration of what that sense of freedom would look like on him #(also an excuse to draw his chest hehe) #hope mr o'neill appreciated it!@!!!!! #despite the initial shock of seeing his name pop up in my notifs #im so pleased haha #i love him1!!!! #ofmd #izzy hands #con o'neill

[artbymyth]

“Everything in him recoiled. The water was cold against his legs. His body had gone numb and yet he could still feel the wet give of his brother’s rotting flesh beneath his hands. It’s shame that eats men whole. He was drowning in it. He was drowning in the Ketterdam harbor.”

#kanej #kaz brekker #illustration #six of crows #soc #leigh bardugo #shadow and bone #I love him so much #he’s a rat bastard #he’s the smartest person in the room #he won’t quit #he’s trying #the slat fight scene lives in my head rent free #it’s my favorite bit of showing his full character the ‘look no hands’ #giving ‘I’m still standing’ by Elton John #I love characters that brush the blood off their face and still get up #all that to say is my head I love to imagine him happy #but in my art he must suffer #oh also peep Jan’s stolen tie pin

[jazzzzzzhands]

i broke my ankle today! so ofc i must project myself onto Wally as usual! i dont know how to use or draw crutches!

#im so much faster crawling around than on those dumb crutches #im used to crawling around at work! #ahahahaha these are so funny to me! #i also dont know to say ow when hurt! or scream or gasp! #i was just like oooh i broke it..... #im so so sorry for puppet booty.... #if this gets taken down for ONE lil ol buttcheek i SWEAR #wally darling #jazzdoodles #welcome home #whps #meme #i forgot the cast in that one but ok its before he was casted up #also also its the other foot oops #its my left foot #but im right handed and plus i drew it on my left if that makes sense??? #projecting myself onto wally is so so so much fun! #if i must suffer than so shall he!! #out of love!!!!

[arsenicflame]

i want to see izzy suffer SO badly, i want to see him hurt, put that man through hell

#nothing brings me greater joy in life than to torment my boy #(and then kiss his little head and wrap him in a blanket......) #s2 arc where my boy gets tortured <3 #literally there is nothing better than absolutely destroying him (and then gently nursing him back to health) #fndkdkkd sorry im thinking about him and im going to make it yalls problem <3 #sometimes... i want him to have a soft life only...... and sometimes i still want him to have softness in his life but it to be given after #he has suffered SO MUCH. break him down so he can accept love + kindness..... #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #why yes i am IMMEDIATELY using my tone indicator banners to post dumb shit what did u expect from me <3

[e-adlirez]

On the Twelfth Day of Christmas

12 Geronimos and a tiny little Benji :D

I didn’t think I’d be able to finish it in two days, but here we are :D a little project where I interpreted the artstyle designs of twelve Geronimos in my artstyle :D

We have in order

2000-2005 G

TV show G

my G :3

@skrunklymice’s G

@toastypencils’s G

@2deadkat’s G

@ratonahat’s G

@thisispoggers’s G and Benjamin

@glitchygorge’s G

@agcnt3’s G

@soda-gremlin’s G

and @alloutblue’s G :D

Behold, closeups :D Merry Christmas, Geronimo Stilton fandom

#geronimo stilton #drawing #art #I somehow finished the draft yesterday walking around in a mall and outside on a family outing #all while I didn’t get enough sleep #I dunno what I was on #anyway deadkat’s g is looking at a picture of toasty g’s kornelius #he gets the appeal #agcnt why did you make G so pathetic ratman /affectionate #pog’s benji dropped his koupen-chan plushie so glitchygorge’s g is handing it back haha #my g is prolly telling the og gs that his creator struggled with drawing him specifically for hours for some odd reason #i dunno why drawing him there after having drawn the ogs was a nightmare but it was #i took a break from drawing the piece for over a week because i was struggling so much :’D #thank god i got back to it tho #if i could add more gs i would but my canvas size is already at a3 when it started out as a4 #and this is an a3 cut along the long side because i have plans to do the same thing but with theas #will my suffering end #probably not :D #anyway crimmus #christmas #fanart fanart

[sukugo]

This idea is eating my brain. Sukuna being a shameless insatiable freak towards Gojo and an in-denial thirsty freak towards Itadori.

He wants Gojo. He pursues him without relent. Sukuna wants to wreck the man and paint him red all over. He wants to taste his heart and know if he is as sweet as the desserts he gorges himself full with.

Sukuna wants to pry Gojo open and eat him out clean. He wants to climb over him and crawl inside of him. Their bodies becoming one and no one can ever tell where Sukuna start and Gojo ends anymore.

Sukuna desires that more than anything.

But he cannot understand why he sees himself doing it in the body of the brat that once caged him.

Instead of imagining his own four arms bringing Gojo towards his end begging and moaning for mercy he would never receive, Sukuna fancies it to be that of the annoying mouthy fool.

Clumsy hands and eager fingers. Unable to control the strength they possess that they break Gojo in. Cracking bones. Shattering spirits.

Gojo will be quivering. The brat will whimpering. Sukuna will be feasting.

The sweetness of their despair and richness of their blood sit heavy on his tongue. Salty tears spilling from confusion and frustration just makes his mouth water for more.

But what Sukuna craves more from their joining in his fantasy, was the forbidden taste of desire for the impossible and unthinkable - desecration of something sacred and twisting of kindness so profound.

Sukuna wants Gojo through the Brat. It is driving him insane.

SCREAAAAAAAMINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

SHIT THAT'S SOOOOO GOOD OH MY GOD. AND SO SO SO CORRECT

it's a mix of his desire to break yuuji (derogatorily) and break satoru (affectionately) and it mixes up into this absolute mess of feelings for all of them involved and fuuuuuccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

#f.ask #as the kids say nowadays: YOU COOKEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #fr going insane oh my goddffddddd #like. everytime ive read this since u sent it ive been like 'holy shit' #like gjdfhgksdhkfjrhgfisjioddshiuohdsfuighfksdhjkdfhgsdfdsgs #and it makes so much SENSE. #sukuna wants satoru more than anything. he's the strongest. he wants to break him more than anything. #taste him more than anything. #but at the other hand he DESPISES yuuji. #wants nothing to do with him #wants nothing more than the boy to suffer. and what better way than to make HIM violate the people he loves so much. #his beloved teacher who yuuji loves. with his OWN hands. there is nothing that will crush him more than that #but that comes with facing that he needs to be joined to the boy who has caged him. #the boy that makes his entire being quake in disgust. in absolute disdain. #obsessed anon im OBSESSED #jjk #sukugo #sukugoyuu #anon i love u #bc sukuna HAS such convoluted feelings about yuuji. #vs the clarity of his desire of gojo #love it love it love ittttttttttttttttttttttttttt

[cienie-isengardu]

Mortal Kombat 1 Behind the Scenes AU: Get. Lost

[Cage’s Mansion] [Waiting for Liu Kang] [Special Bonus] [Grandmaster’s commentary] [Climbing scene] [Madam Bo’s Inn] [Cage’s Mansion 2 (fire extinguisher)] [Medic] [Shang Tsung’s sad face] [Smoke’s Fall] [Scenography (1)] [Scenography (2)] [Show off!] [Favorite brother] [Climbing on the wall (nonsense)] [Tomas’ commentary] [Perfectly fine] [Sexy, sexy man~♪] [Brothers between filming - Scenography(3)] [Wrong team!] [Since when you two are friends?!] [I like being evil sorcerer more] [I forgot my line, sorry!] [Read the script Kuai!]

#mortal kombat #mk1 behind the scenes au #sub zero #bi han #kuai liang #scorpion #tomas vrbada #smoke #mentioned harumi shirai #look i'm here for aro ace bi han #you can pry it from my cold dead hands #but also i'm here to make pyromancer kuai liang miserable as much as possible #so here is a lin kuei rule the younger son of grandmaster can't marry or date before the heir and bi han is dodging this duty for years #and will do it for as long as possible XDD #so yes i'm making kuai suffer for bringing his beloved harumi he loves since childhood and giving him aro ace to the core older brother XD #i guess their dad was kind enough to lower the bar and allow kuai to ask out harumi when bi han will date someone #instead of waiting for bi han to actually marry 'cause the poor boy may never have a chance otherwise

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[lady-tortilla-chip]

Oh there is something so fucking good to me about Damen killing Auguste for glory and on behalf of his kingdom and father whereas Laurent kills Kastor on Damen’s behalf because he understood Damen couldn’t do it himself.

#it’s the way they both took something from the other #but where Damen took (unaware and uncaring since he didn’t know Laurent or much beyond his own prejudices against Vere) Laurent’s home #Laurent ended Damen’s suffering under the wrath of a man who didn’t love him as brother and saw him only as an obstacle #it’s !!! just!!!! #it’s the way Laurent went to Damen and they both understood each other better than they ever had before #because how they wore that weight and guilt #regardless of reasoning #the had the blood of each other’s family on their hands #ooobskfjekleiflwlakrf #damen x laurent #my feelings are so big rn oh man #captive prince

[0rchidm4ntis]

At least the moon will keep him company in the dead of night

#micas art #twst #twisted wonderland #malleus draconia #a little bit of context for this: #this is based on my headcanon that malleus suffers from insomnia #there is something weirdly isolating and lonely about the night #when the world gets quiet and cold and dark and you feel like the only moving breathing thing in it #what could he do but wait for it to pass on his own? #its no ones burden to bear but his own and hes not some child who needs to be coddled to sleep #(but maybe. just maybe on the nights where it gets particularly bad he might crave a soft hand to gently comb through his hair) #(hes seem lilia do it countless times for silver when he was little. the memory always makes his bed feel a little bit colder) #also for anyone curious (and bc im unsure i drew it very well) the flower is a white chrysanthemum! #i definitely need to practice flowers more #but uwauuuuughkg this piece was so draining to work on. it gave me so much trouble and im still not completely sold on it #still hope it will resonate with people and that you can all enjoy it!!

[skitskatdacat63]

Notes:

I think I definitely like the original versions more than the edited ones. I'm more happy with the grumpy Fernando one, whereas the bratty Seb one made me want to cease painting forever. So hopefully he looks good?????? I'm sure I'll soften on it, but yeah, not TOO pleased with it right now. His facial expressions are so cute and dynamic and unique until you have to try and paint it and then you dont love him anymore(kidding ofc, how could I ever hate my beloved boy king 🥺)

Anyways, these are them:

#the caption is a multi-pronged reference so if you get it you get it 🤭 #hint: the quote is both a translation of a vettonso thing but its also not...exact. i added a little spice to it #so yeah translate all of that first(the first part of the quote wont work in google translate tho) #and then also the rest of the caption is both a reference to a real life thing but also me making it AUified !! #hehehe let me know your thoughts 🤭 was so fucking pleased w it when i first told C about it #ngl putting that quote was the main thing pushing me thru finishing the seb one #im like CMON YOU CAN DO IT!! IF YOU FINISH IT YOU CAN PUT YOUR SILLY LATIN JOKE!!! YOU LOVE LATIN!! #anyways i drafted this before i even really started the seb one #and my god LOOK AT THEIR HAND SIZE DIFFERENCE WOOF WOOF WOOF #did you guys notice...seb's ring...his wedding...ring? 🤭🤭🤭 #wanted to add one to nando but his left ring finger isnt really visible but just so you know hes wearing it #I have a lot of thoughrs about rings and ungloved vs gloved hands grrrrrrr #theres a lot of meaning in it to me and it adds to their characterization so ill try and make a post abt thay sometime ! #anyways pls enjoy the fruits of my labor..... #vettonso so good it makes me PAINT TWO PORTRAITS #i think before this au i was kinda trying to get away from painting csuse it stressed me out too much #and then the vettonso brainrot is so horrinle that im willing to paint for like...an undisclosed amnt of time #undisclosed not bcs im being secretive but bcs i have no idea and irs 6 am and i have school JSKFLVL #okay bur yes yes please enjoy. and enjoy my suffering as a purveyor of vettonso 🥹 id do anything for my lieges #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #catie.art. #boy king au

[cadrenebula]

First of all, Happy New Year. Second typing is a little rough on the hands right now. (Dry skin from too much washing and sanitizer.)

Hoping to get a chance to be a bit more creative this year. Or I'm at least try to be. Since April and Sept were like my peaks. (Vierapril and FFxivWrite) That's assuming life doesn't throw me anymore curve balls like last year.

The last couple weeks have been me doing events last minute since the holiday crazy was over. XD (I never want to see another Fall Guys run in XIV ever again.) Still playing some Disney Dreamlight Valley when I am too tired to think. So I had the Winter Star Path to do on there too besides XIV events.

I'll be done with the Heavensturn in the next day or two. \o/

#ooc #My thumb split by the edge of my fingernail #The back of my hand hurts when I wash them #Wouldn't need to scrub my hands so much if people would stop being gross #money is already nasty #an then people lick their damn fingers to touch it an hand it to me #like please stop doing that #one person even moved the mask he was wearing to do it #trying my best not to get sick cause customers are so inconsiderate #but my hands are suffering something terrible for it

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[her-midas-touch]

Our analyses for fanon mike always hit so different I swear.

Like, reading analyses on will’s pov is so interesting and we kind of have a clearer idea of what’s kinda going on his head, from that special link established with mike in s1 with the “it was a 7” moment, all the tender moments in s2 (I keep realizing how many indications we got of mike’s feelings in s2 it’s unreal), to him struggling with how much he truly lost out on due to his disappearance and possession and struggling with that hurt and getting left behind in s3 (byler angst ahhhh) and in s4, all that tentative hope he built up just sort of being repressed just to act on his love for mike by pushing him towards el when their relationship in s4 was already on somewhat shaky ground.

But fanon mike? Oh, the reasonings and dissecting his actions is on a whole different level.

From his distress in s1, the queer-coding, even ted’s subtle homophobic comments (You see what happens michael?), to lucas’s whole accusation about him liking el because she’s the first girl who liked him and didn’t find him gross which struck a nerve with him, the jump scene, to the survivors guilt and ptsd in s2, where he was repressing so much emotionally (though he was more open with will about that in the crazy together scene) and that scene with hopper where it’s clear all that fear and anger and guilt is just unleashing itself at once, to s3 where he’s projecting and struggling a lot more especially towards the end (I think about hopper’s letter and it flashing back to mike in the end when he looks back at the byers house and it says something about being afraid of things changing).

Especially mike’s reaction after admitting he loves el to everyone. He’s just so taken aback. Like, a heat of the moment thing, and the thing is, it isn’t even a complete lie because a part of him does love el (or care, shall we say) but it feels like the consequences of his admission are just sinking in when el says it back and kisses him and mike looks…..shocked and frozen and just kind of terrified (No smile afterwards, didn’t close his eyes, nothing to indicate anything???).

And then there’s things like lettergate which just make it sadder if you consider s4, and mike actually struggling more evidently with those feelings. There’s the airport hug, all kind of influenced by this newfound awkwardness between them and mike’s possible jealousy with the painting especially cause he’s clearly noticing will the whole time and even admits it (though he frames it as will sabotaging el’s day by being a douche……projecting so hard). But yet he still owns up for his mistakes and they get to have these moments and then there’s the monologue where mike is literally bracing himself for the “I love you”—

Oh. The Mike Wheeler angst that we’ve picked up from all the subtext and clues is just—it’s so interesting.

#byler #mike wheeler god that boy’s mental health is just #I’m concerned for them but like in the best way #and at the same time here I sit on my “mike wheeler is getting vecnaed in s5” chair giggling maniacally #I love him and he needs love but he also needs to just feel it out and hurt #will on the other hand deserves so much love (though I’m braced because I’m expecting the suffering)

[felinelord-bowbeforemepeasant]

Okay we need to stop talking about dazai for a moment and start talking more about sigma (yes I know dazai death shock you but it isn't confirmed that he is dead yet and it maybe the same trick that asagiri pull in chapter 101)

Just look at this

HE SAID "this very may be the final decision I make in my life" CAUSE HE KNOW THAT WHEN HE TOUCH FYODOR HE WILL OR MAYBE DIE AND POOR BABY HAND WAS SHAKING TOO

AND THE WAY HE SAY HE NEED TO TELL THE AGENCY HE HASN'T OFFICIALLY JOIN THEM YET AND HE ALREADY SAY HE HAVE TO TELL THEM AHHHHHHHHHHH

we need to give more credit for sigma he is so precious

( asagiri you better let him join the agency after this)

#bungou stray dogs #bsd #sigma #bsd sigma #bsd fyodor #we need to start talking about sigma #he know that he will die by fyodor yet he still do it because he want to tell the agency #asagiri you better let him join the agency #my poor baby hand was shaking #and the way he said “ this will may be the final decision of my life” he was ready to die for them #we need atsushi and sigma reunion #don't worry sigma will live he just fained from information overload #but dazai im not so sure #but i guess he will live #or maybe asagiri will pull an uno reverse card and shut our hope into the abyss #asagiri love to see us suffer #asagiri love his plot twist or uno reverse card so much #there still “the order of the tower clock” arc calm down asagiri won't kill dazai yet #or maybe he will #idk he like to mess with us #there are a post say that we are falling for the same trick in chapter 101 #just a thought #just a post