actually i had a different point in mind for the previous post but i lost it on the way. my point--idea?--theory?--was that john isn’t actually all that different from the other lyctors/lyctor candidates. his relationship with earth (not alecto, though) is the same, or at least a variant on the same theme, as the other lyctors with their cavaliers. the love in tlt is so possessive, so codependent. i thought that already when i’d only got through most of gideon. the relationships are consuming. they chew up their component parts into a joined mush, or they want to so much that it’s an effort to prevent it.
and john was first and he had that with earth. and genuinely. i think if somebody placed many of the lyctors in the same situation, they’d also lash out with all they had to avenge their cavaliers. otherwise they wouldn’t have been able to become lyctors. the difference is, john had so much more power to put into his revenge quest. and that doesn’t, of course, excuse it or make it somehow not petty and counterproductively vengeful. but it means something, i think, that john is not actually meaningfully apart.
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the way that one line from the new epilogue in an astarion romance is going to HAUNT me
just. what a profoundly intense thing to confess to someone.
like, just these six months of newfound happiness with you exerts a force on his heart equal and in direct opposition to two centuries of endless torment, the gnawing hunger and exploitation. this flashbulb-bright fraction of his long life holds the same gravity to him as years upon years of darkness and suffering.
in all likelihood, he hasn’t even known his lover for as long as his worst memory lasted, that year sealed away to go mad from starvation and sensory deprivation, yet he still tells them this brief time has been so fundamentally and powerfully important that the weight of even that unimaginable hell is vanishingly small compared to this present he has now and the future ahead of them both.
how am i supposed to act normal about this.
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⚰️ A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on august 1st!
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I love how every time this big scary intimidating former bounty hunter who supposedly terrifies everyone he meets has been shown without his helmet, he's just a slightly pathetic [affectionate] little meow meow underneath all of his big scary armour
Awwwww, big scary Mandalorian, what are you gonna do now....
.... cry? 🥺
You don't look so scary now, you sad little cat [affectionate]
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another important thing that the terror tells you is to never believe that you're as unworthy as your mind thinks you are because here is captain crozier his self esteem so low it would be enough to break antarctic ice. meanwhile three separate men are so psychosexually obsessed with him that one of them decides to stage a mutiny about it
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on it boss 🫡
THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL OMG
^ this immediately came to mind lol but yours is amazing tysm
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They are my roman empire
Someone asked me for the details in this one…so here you go enjoy the pain🥲
I wish I had the time to draw more again but university is forcing me to actually work…so here you go, enjoy our tragic love bugs
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