reheated waffle house grits save meeeee... save me reheated waffle house grits...
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Idia: (hiding behind a rock)
Ortho: Brother what are you doing?
Idia: (shakeing) quick Ortho hide before it sees us!
Ortho: (panicked) what is it!? an Overblot???
Idia: even worse
Ortho: (confused) what could be worse?
Idia: (pointing at a Pink Sheep) it's obviously an Harem Protagonist stay away or we'll become friends with this Normie
Ortho: ... I'm more worried about you then usual Brother
The Sheep: (behind Idia) bääh
Idia: (jumping up) run!
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I got too deep into the Schema Theory while writing the paper for one of my exams and it got me thinking about Apollo's coping mechanisms yk
Basically the gist of this theory is that, in the eventuality that their primary needs are not satisfied during their formative years, a child might develop a bunch of different behavioural schemes in their adult life (which are too many to be listed here oh my god) that are a direct reflection of how the parent failed them during childhood
For example, one of these schemes is emotional deprivation, which is a person's tendency to emotionally distance themselves from other people due to the fact that they believe they won't be able to comfort them, and it's a scheme that's formed due to the guardian not satisfying the child's emotional needs. Basically it's formed through a "If my parent couldn't do it, then how could others?" sort of mentality
Another one, which I believe is very relevant here, is the sense of failure, which originates due to the guardian's immensely overbearing nature and the continuous dissatisfaction with the child's efforts. As an adult, the child in question believes that they're inept at everything, even if evidence points to the contrary, because of the fundamental belief that they hold that they're a failure
(Does it remind you of anyone?)
Now, these schemes tend to go hand in hand with modes, which are essentially coping mechanisms that the person uses to deal with whatever life throws at them and whatever negative emotion these schemes bring on. One of these modes is the *squints* scheme overcompensation? Anyway what it says on the article I got the info from is that basically people who use this coping mechanism tend to do the opposite of what their behavioural scheme tells them to do. If they're ashamed, they put down others. If they feel like a failure, they boast. (Again. Who does this sound like.)
AT FIRST it seems like a good coping mechanism but it's actually not, because the overcompensation leads to this vicious cycle where the more a person overcompensates, the more the scheme worsens. In Apollo's case, the scheme we're examining here is his sense of failure; in his overcompensation mode, to avoid feeling incompetent he tries to constantly put himself in the spotlight, drawing attention to his talents. However, he does it in such a ridiculous way (perhaps actually in some form of self-sabotage?) that the people around him insult those talents, call him a failure, and thus worsen his feeling of worthlessness.
(This might be tied to the punitive scheme as well, maybe? Considering how keen Zeus was on punishment, Apollo might've developed this scheme as a result, though over the centuries it could've shifted its focus from everyone to just him idk. The change between "I'm punishing everything and everyone for being so stupid, even my own son + this Ptolemaic god who breathed wrong in my direction" to "Actually I'm chill" seems pretty suspicious to me tbh)
ANYWAY all of this is to say that everything he does is so intrinsically tied to the damage Zeus did to him that it hurts. All his behaviours all his coping mechanisms. Everything
The arrogance is not just a façade he built over the years to hide his feeling of unhappiness and guilt!! It's quite literally an abuse response!!!!
And yeah maybe Leto was the one who spent the most time with him and Artemis and who took the most care of them so technically she should be considered his figure of attachment instead of Zeus but then again. How much time did Apollo spend beside her compared to the time he spent at Zeus' side, after the twins became Olympians? What do a few moments with her in a year do against entire centuries with him?
Leto's influence never really mattered. He was doomed since the beginning
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(another) Thing that annoys me about the Cap movies:
We never got to see the scene where Steve & Co found out about the torture and mind-control used on Bucky.
Because that should’ve been super important!
It would have vindicated Steve’s faith in him, proved Bucky’s victimhood and innocence, and turned Nat and Sam 100% around on whether or not Bucky was worth helping (whether or not it was worth them apparently wasting years of their lives helping Steve to find him).
They’re supposed to have been:
A) hunting down the remains of Hydra for years,
B) familiarising themselves with all the Hydra info Nat dumped at the end of of CATWS, and
C) hunting for Bucky-related information specifically amongst all that.
Meaning they absolutely cannot have avoided finding, for example, all the places Bucky was tortured in, the specialised enhanced torture equipment (impossible to mistake for that used on a non-supersoldier), cells he was held in, all the specialised physical restraints, tailored for an enhanced person with a cyborg arm, documentation of his torture, witness testimony from surviving Hydra mooks at the Triskelion, etc., and seeing it firsthand.
And for some of that time, they know Hydra had access to a magic mind-control stick, courtesy of Loki, and an enhanced person who can control minds (Wanda).
So even if Steve didn’t find evidence of Bucky’s mind-control early on in his search, he and Natasha definitely do know that mind-control is possible (especially Natasha, given her roots in the Red Room and the fact that her bff was mind-controlled.)
Even if you ignored Nat and Sam’s personal backstories, which preclude both of them from being dismissive of a victim (a veteran who suffered a fall, a mind-controlled Russian ‘assassin’), it doesn’t make sense for Nat and Sam to still be trying to suggest Steve step back from helping Bucky, the way they do in CW.
They cannot still be ignorant of what was done to Bucky, when they have been specifically investigating what was done to Bucky, and all that information has to have been impossible for them to avoid!
Instead of which, the movie just skips right over the reveal to Steve and Sam of the mind control (going straight from ‘scene of mind-control’ to ‘scene of Steve being skeptical (which he shouldn’t and wouldn’t be)’ to ‘scene of talking about trigger words already’). Casually implying that either Steve and Sam already knew about it, or that Bucky has just explained it to them...
But only off-camera.
And yet, Sam is still salty and scornful of Bucky’s innocence (even when they have just seen mind-control happening, Bucky is suffering amnesia of WS acts in front of him, apparently just told him about mind-control, and then proves that he has his pre-war memories).
So they imply the content of skipped scenes but then have characters act in ways that are... irrational, given the skipped content??
Makes no damn sense!
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you've heard of "no sleep, go for days without sleep." now get ready for:
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Every Universe
"I love you." She uttered, barely above a whisper. "I love you in every universe."
"Do we end up together in every universe?" He asked.
"No," She replied, and the painful memories of those life times flashed behind her beautiful eyes as she reflected to the 'back then's. Yet, she smiled, "But I love you anyway, how could I not? My soul yearns for you, even before it had come to know you. It remembers, I remember."
"Does it hurt?"
She was silent for a moment, "A lifetime without you hurts more then a lifetime when we are not together."
"I love you." He blurts out unthinkingly, desperate. He reaches out for her hand, taking it and holds it in both hands in a grounding grip.
She looked down at their hands and smiled, relishing in the bitter sweetness. "I know." She confesses quietly. She held his hand tightly, trying to ignore the buzzing within her body- threatening to tear her apart atom by atom. "But you aren't mine. Not this time."
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putting too much faith in the make-believe
Jon/Martin, rated T, 47K words, 8 chapters, complete.
Summary:
When Martin needs a fake boyfriend to bring to his family reunion, Jonathan Sims is the last person he would have expected to volunteer.
Will our two unlikely co-conspirators keep up the act long enough to make it through the weekend, learn to confide in each other, and... maybe even develop some real feelings along the way?
at long last, my jonmartin fake dating au is finished! read from the beginning here or read the new chapter here
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When I watched the "The Ultimate Enemy" as kid I was, 1) really sleepy as it was 1am or smthn at the time 2) was so in shock about Danny's ghost getting ripped out and him DYING that I cried myself to sleep and had NIGHTMARES-
I thought I imagined that episode for fucking YEARS AND YEARS!!!
Like legit, I would always be like "huh that dream of Danny Phantom I had when I was a kid was pretty fucked up, glad it didn't happen in cannon!"
And the day I found out it was actually real and not a thing of my imagination was when I read a fucking fanfic mentioning Dan-
It's my favourite experience with the show just cuz of how deep rooted it became in my psyche
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it’s 5am i have not slept i have a hot take
i see antis argue sometimes that you CAN portray “problematic” things in fiction, as long as you show they’re bad/don’t romanticize them.
first of all that’s super subjective. second of all.
have you ever read major character death. have you ever read hurt no comfort. have you ever read, like, mindbreak.
i’ve never seen anyone complain about a fic that is graphic torture and nothing else, or like, a mental health ventfic with a dark ending. and i think about that quite often, the different standard we have for sex.
yknow? it applies in other contexts too. have you ever noticed that when people argue fanfiction is a lesser form of writing or otherwise bad, they always bring up sex? “the odyssey vs your 200k destiel omegaverse mpreg” “the great gatsby vs your slowburn stucky hs au where the climax is a full chapter of smut”
it’s a trend i noticed. it exists outside of fanfic too! original fiction circles have this whole thing about not including sex scenes bc The Plot, or dismissing erotica as a less serious, or maybe just lesser, form of literature?
and maybe, just maybe, that’s bad. to some degree i think we put sex on too high of a pedestal. it’s just a thing people do. and, i dunno, i write a lot of angst and whump and what-have-you. i like exploring trauma and recovery, it’s literally a thread somewhere in 90% of what i write. maybe all of it, in some small capacity. i don’t have encyclopedic knowledge of my own work.
so i’m not directly affected by this, but i do think it’s hypocritical, and i do think it’s strange to impose limits. you can create, but only within these boundaries, defined arbitrarily by me. like, okay jan. sure.
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Went skimming thru late trimax For Reasons, got caught up reading the Legato fight, realized things about the fight that I never had before & went WOW, I kind of want to write an analysis post right now!
Felt the same kind of insanity grip me, however momentarily, that fueled all my analysis posts however many months ago. Too tired to actually word things coherently right now, but...
I May or may not have a full(ish?) analysis of the Legato & Vash fight a la style of This post analyzing the Trigun: Multiple Bullets fight that got unexpectedly kind of popular. People seemed to really appreciate that one, & I even had some ppl saying it could be cool if I did that for others?
So. Legato fight. Maybe. Feel free to remind me later if u see no mention of it again for over a week lol
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anyway supernatural season 2 episode 12 "night shifter" do you remember her.
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When I was still a little girl who smiled up at the sun and the moon, thinking of them as her parents, and who, like the earth, gazed up and stared as if the star would burn out and the moon would drift away faster if she didn't, I wanted to be like my parents, but now...
I no longer want to become my mom. When she looks at me, she thinks about how she could have been different — after all, she grew up impoverished, while I am growing up nourished. She loves me to a certain point, and I reached that point when I hit puberty. I reached that point when the training bras my mom bought me when I was eight no longer fit. I reached that point when I "bloomed into a young woman," as she would constantly say.
I also don't want to be like my dad. He initially wanted a boy, but now, as I sit in my room all day long to avoid him, he acts like he always wanted me as a daughter. He pretends as if he never told my relatives that he wished I were a boy to even out the family. He pretends as if he didn't try to fit me into a masculine stereotype, and when I decided that I wished to be more masculine, he tried to shut it down, as if nothing ever happened, as if I were still a little girl.
A girl who thought that her parents were eighteen and her sisters were six, despite her also being six. A girl with flowing ginger locks, a girl with a constantly dirty face, a girl who had the brightest but most awkward smile, a girl who just wanted to be held, held in a hug between her parents till she fell asleep.
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