#i could barely think

[vizthedatum]

You could be doing everything in your power to help yourself: therapy, medication, boundaries, trying to stay well nourished, calm and non-reactive

And then the reactive emotional abuse begins

And they attack you

They attack you and the whole atmosphere changes

You stay calm

Until you break (they know your vulnerabilities plus if they’re upset, you’ll just blame yourself anyway)

They’ll say then how emotionally unstable you are

How you’re always in a crisis

If you’re their ex, they’ll videotape the reaction to you breaking down from their abuse

They’ll seem like the calm and rational one

And you’ll feel like a monster who couldn’t “be kind and hold their emotions”

#healing #love #trauma #neurodivergence #harm #abuse #domestic violence #queer #prose #reactive abuse #emotional abuse #narcissim #codependency #covert narcissist #narcissistic supply #heartbreak #they did it over and over #when I asked for breaks they told me I wasn’t allowed to have boundaries #I could barely think

[angel-derangement]

I did some studies of some glassware pics after a very long drought of no drawing at all. pls enjoy

#depression has kicked my ass this past year. could barely draw at all #i think I might try and focus on just doing photostudies for a few months just to make things

[vagueconfusion]

Feeling real ridiculous for not having realized that Baron's "stark father" was the Nightmare King until now

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #also #love cassandra's gender situation going on here tbh #hell of an episode. i am totally normal about it (they are in fact. not normal about it at all.) #am willing to explain my thought process here if need be #there is a slight temptation to write something about the possible relation between cassandra and baron now though #did cassandra know that was where baron was like she could always summon kalina? #the creator and creation (the thing you made at your worst) #father and son (you can barely sustain yourself. let alone others) #you were once a god and then you weren't and you made this being and now you are a god again and it still exists #hmmmm #hm! #things to think. thoughts to ponder. #sorry i keep adding tags. i keep having Thoughts

[crow-cap]

#idk. thinking about zoro being Hatted and what circumstances would need to arise before that could happen #this isn’t finished it’s not that polished I just threw some filters at it and now I’m running away #but the CONCEPT. man I will probably draw more like this #so many ideas. so little time #started reading one piece a month (??) ago and I’ve barely made a dent in it #SO LITTLE TIME #I will become so powerful this summer after exams are over #zolu #(?) #op #one piece #monkey d luffy #crowcraft #zoro #roronoa zoro #luffy #the colours on this one are a bit dark but it was more experimental than anything #I tried out some screen tone brushes and a heavier ink one that I used to use #and the colours aren’t as weird as I usually go for #it was an experiment! these guys are rapidly becoming my new test subjects for drawing ideas #I don’t have a caption for this. I might just leave it blank #does zoro ever get the hat put on him?? I don’t think so but I also know jack diddly about later one piece lore #REGARDLESS #ok bye bye

[gideonsgirldick]

I just realized that The Locked Tomb series would be waaaay more popular than it is right now if one or both of the leads were male cause people go nuts for hogwarts esc houses, enemy's to lovers romance, and lore as deep as my fingers in your mom.

Someone please talk to me about this I am genuinely out raged.

#the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #harrow the ninth #nona the ninth #like its litrually a recipe for success #houses with specific personality traits that are easy to attach and easily marketable #enemys to lovers #the lore oh GOD THE LORE #girlies should be going nuts for it but for some reason everyone hates women and thats the true tragedy here #and lesbians. they also hate lesbians #maybe its for the best. they could barely handle Catra so i dont think theyd handle Harrow very well #both a blessing and a curse. not popular enough to be able to buy merch at a convention but at least we arent getting garbage hot takes like #the she ra fandom did

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #plot twist he COULD be admitting angsty stuff but he’s pushing the less oof truths forward instead on purpose #raph: hey leo what do you want for dinner #leo: *about to bare his soul on all his internal torment but pivots* I’m afraid of snakes #(no but fr Leo’s stripes being technically more pink instead of red is cute ngl) #(a very reddish pink to the point that in certain lighting it looks red but at the base they’re p pink) #(i also am very fond of the idea that Leo doesn’t just have questionable taste in fashion he also just loves Raph a lot and looks up to him) #but yeah I think that something like this would be 99% Leo admitting to unimportant things or admitting to how much he values everyone #like they all KNOW Leo loves them and he’s talked them up enough for them to know but it’s different when he’s like #‘I just wanna read my comics with you guys around - it’s my favorite place to be’ #or again just random bs that doesn’t REALLY have a lot of weight like #‘I like using my portals to prank random people around the world’ #‘I’m worried about being a bad influence on hueso jr’ #‘sometimes I kinda wanna see hypno’s plans succeed’ #‘it’s been way too long since I found this out and honestly it’s embarrassing but I actually don’t have a di-‘ #SORRY COULDNT HELP MYSELF #(<-but did u know that that pink rather than red observation actually ties into this headcanon as well if u know about red eared sliders)

[magnus-rhymes-with-swagness]

running around in circles. nimona and ballister. do you get it. she wakes up from a nightmare and immediately calms down when he comforts her because she trusts him. he quite literally jumps off a balcony because he knows she’ll catch him. she tells him what shapeshifting feels like. lets him bandage her leg. he’s absolutely overjoyed when he sees her again at the end. he goes from rejecting her to accepting her to begging her to come back to rejoicing when she does. not only does she come back to life but she comes back to HIM. to her HOME. SHE FINDS HIM AGAIN IN ANOTHER LIFETIME. SHE GOES BACK TO HIM ON PURPOSE. DO YOU GET IT.

#nimona #ballister blackheart #ballister boldheart #nimona movie #nimona netflix #nimona 2023 #nd stevenson #my words #CHEWING ON PLYWOOD #sorry i’m incapable of talking about nimona in my inside voice it will happen again #all she ever wanted was a home and a friend and he was just that 😭😭😭 #they trust each other so much…… #i like the book ending too but the movie ending is just so much more soft and forgiving #how could anyone say it was anti-climactic there was literally adrenaline pumping through my body #heart pounding edge of my seat every nerve set ablaze barely keeping it together #anyway nimona clearly Did Something to my brain lmao #go read it and then watch it you won’t regret it!!!!!!!!!! #this is scheduled btw (i Think i have the best posting times for this fandom figured out) #nimona spoilers

[fuumiku]

Laios: Dog stan, raised by dogs, attempts to dog behavior at his boyfriend Lycion: Only is in it for the wolfman swag, no dog society rizz, doesn’t understand and doesn’t care

Nothing as fierce as wolf girls when they have creative differences… Can the divide between wolf roleplayer and wolf cosplayer be breached?! Truly the height of narrative themes that laicion offers us

#The irony of Laios asking someone to learn social cues… #Dungeon meshi #laios touden #lycion #This is unironic btw I will go down with this ship #Could be a part of cringetober tho yay #If my handwriting is hard to read lmk #This was supposed to be a quick sketchy comic dammit #Also no I don’t think baring your neck means I love you romantically in dog but close enough #Laios would so want Lycion to bite him tho lol #Laicion #dunmeshi fanart #fuumiku art

[bandaidfingers]

House Atreides and House Harkonnen character design lineup >:)

something I’ve been wanting to do for years

#I think Alia looks so funny there. especially since my Jessica is like solidly an act I Jessica like she doesnt even know Alia yet. that’s #just some random toddler with a knife lol #dune #house atreides #house harkonnen #I was making myself laugh so hard while drawing the baron also because he’s so wide I could barely even fit Piter on the page with him #the Feyds and Rabban were drawn on a seperate page in my sketchbook

[skrunksthatwunk]

say what you will about that era's character models but y3/4/dead souls majima's crows' feet are top notch and they should be brought back

like here's him age 45(ish)

vs 55

they fucking ironed him out. he's got smoothed

#only included y7 models bc the earlier games could be excuses as him being younger but all the kiwamis and such smoothed him out :( #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #majima goro #he's old let him be wrinkly. i think theyre so cute #if you see kiryu and majima side by side in y3 (<- saw the gifset comparing their yk2/y3 arena fights again) kiryu barely has any #i think it's a cute contrast between them is all #especially for majima who barely ages at all #i should note that i actually really like this era of models in general. they scratch an itch for me fr

[surii]

THE UNTAMED (2019) 1.14

#the untamed #mo dao zu shi #theuntameddaily #theuntamededit #cdramaedit #cdramanet #cdrama #tvedit #chewieblog #bia.gifs #comes out of a hole and provides this #just so i could see if i could still gif lmao #man i forgot how many steps there was to this i was crazyyy #anyway i think i still got it lmao #i think ill gif a little here and there again #dont know what tags are good anymore so bare with me lol

[amphibianaday]

day 1458

#amphibian #salamander #axolotl #SMALLER #i think this is the limit though. i could barely see it under the pen while drawing

[palarien]

tfw ur favorite disciple is probably dying in the abyss u pushed him into :(

#experimenting with colors (ˉ▽ˉ ) #I do enjoy thinking about that weird moment where sqq had to deal with loss??? for like a second #It barely measures up to Binghe's 5 year relationship with sqq's corpse but yknow #the way sqq completely glossed over his bingheless life post-abyss #when in reality he radiated overwhelming mourning widow energy that everyone could see #svsss #shen qingqiu

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: dismemberment / ]

I think a lot about how Leo’s rescue could have easily ended in him losing a leg as the portal snaps shut on the Krang still clutching the limb, or, alternatively, only having Leo’s right arm make it out, still held dearly in his brother’s hand as the rest of Leo is left behind. (The latter hits even harder, as it directly parallels his future self in the worst of ways.)

I think a lot about how so many things could have gone wrong during the course of the movie with even a little bit of a change, but it really is harrowing how much of a coin-flip the entirety of the Prison Dimension rescue was.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #dismemberment / #if literally any part of the prison dimension rescue was different it would have ended Very Badly #mikey came in clutch for doing the impossible in the first place #raph grabbing leo and not once letting go was vital #and donnie directly hitting the krang was essential #hell leo having the ability to reach out at all in the state he was in was a miracle #listen I think about the prison dimension a lot if you couldn’t tell #for the next tags: #strangulation mention / #physical trauma induced mutism / #potential death mention / #potential sibling death mention / #barely it mainly focuses on if he lives but / #I also think about how Leo’s trachea could have easilyyy given out as Raph (krangified) was choking him #can you imagine the last words raph hearing from his little brother being I’m sorry? #he’d likely live as the hamato bros are built different but imagine if he straight up can’t talk again after #the bros having no idea what Leo’s plan is but they suddenly feel him disappear with the portal #or also #imagine all he gets out in his hoarse voice is to beg Casey to close the portal before his family HEARS the sudden silence like a knife #even if he gets saved his voice may be wrecked or even gone for good #what am I writing wait- #also for my point on leo losing his arm paralleling his future self #imagine fate being a thing in this world but a VERY situational thing #imagine it makes it so that leo has to lose a limb #but not just that - it also ties his presence directly with the Krang’s - so if the Krang’s somewhere else…so is he

[gallusgalluss]

bugsnax spinoff game where you play as a snak and have fun and explore a Very Normal snak world

#even tho these are the sloppiest doodles on earth im postin em here instead of my sideblog cause i just think they're charming lol #it could be like a pmd thing where the snak u play as used to be a grumpus #like a broken apart grump wakes up as a tiny lil kweeble. u are what u eat #kinda messed up! but hey! it's bugsnax! #art #cluck cluck #(bro i barely use this tag lmao) #drey draws #bugsnax