#i don’t want to exist

[angstyastro]

Was having a weird wave of anxiety yesterday evening and after much help from bf was finally able to chill out but now it’s 6:20 am and I am tired. I just

#I don’t wanna work today #I don’t want to exist #just bed #and bf arms #please and thanks

[just-hyperfixed-ok]

Saying goodbye to these cuties this week I can’t believe it 😭

#derry girls #james maguire #michelle mallon #erin quinn #orla mccool #series 3 #clare devlin #goodbye #i don’t want to exist #i don’t like it

[musicslut2001]

I don’t want to feel anymore

#pretty #so hot 🔥🔥🔥 #hot as fuck #small girls #amazing body #skinnyyy #fed up with life #cba anymore #kmn pls #kms fr #alt aesthetic #alt makeup #altfashion #alt girl #alternative #i wanna be alone #i don’t want to exist #smoke a joint #smoking #weed #pretty girls #soft grunge #hot girsl #brown hair #lgbtq #pansensual #lgbtqia

[try-and-try-and-try-again]

I am very not ok.

I’ve been having so many meltdowns and keep getting scolded for crying and then just get left to it until I’m too exhausted to cry/scream anymore and stagger to bed where I lie face down for the rest of the day.

I still can’t sleep, still don’t have a treatment plan, have not seen a doctor in over a week despite asking multiple times and being told they’ll see me.

I’m in agony.

A really loud misogynistic man has been admitted who assaulted another patient last night and I am actually terrified of him. He keeps shouting after me and I’ve been blanking him/can’t even look at his face so he probably hates me.

One of the women has taken to pacing up and down the corridor all the time to try and lose weight and I can’t block out the noise and it’s triggering memories of all my EDU admissions. This morning I asked the nurse if she could ask her to stop/do it somewhere else because it was triggering me. The nurse refused and said she needs the exercise. If I don’t like it go to the lounge (but the shouty misogynist is always in there). I lost it after that.

I’ve kind of gone mute now. When the staff do checks and ask if I’m ok I physically can’t speak so they just shrug and walk off.

#personal #psych ward #hell #mental health #i don’t want to exist

[mindmythorns]

holy fuck I’m depressed today

#I don’t want to exist #I don’t want to be a person

[astral-catastrophe]

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#Always hated my birthday #I don’t like it #Don’t have a good reason too #I don’t want to exist #So of course I have to have been born on a day that a lot of people dislike #Like. I’m not celebrating the fourth but people take it the wrong way when I say I have plans #Like bitch. It’s my birthday and I wanted to have fun but you went and fucking ruined it for me #My mom just asked why I didn’t want to do anything today #Well people give me shit for celebrating my birthday on this day because it’s the fourth. Also everything’s closed #So I can’t even do anything fun #No. Nothing fun. Just make people angry when I say I have stuff planned for today #So this year I didn’t plan anything

[stonerbabydollx36]

the feminine urge to block everyone in my town and act like i don’t know any of them 🤩

but i could never cuz then i’d have to still see them and then explain that my bpd made me block everyone not just them and then i’d have to go through unblocking them cuz it’d make me feel bad 🙃

#bpd problems #bpd thoughts #bpd mood #bpd memes #bpd things #bpd #i hate it here #i hate my brain #i don’t want to exist

[dead-memories-linger]

hello, i am back.

i wanted to get better, that’s why i deleted tumblr. but then i realized (like i have oh so many times before), that i can’t.

i feel so lonely.

i feel like no one understands me, or even tries to. i guess i’m not worth the time.

so that’s why i’m back here. you people understand how it is. and it’s comforting to know that other people do feel the same.

and it’s nice to see people who are being true, not all that fake, happy bullshit.

#emo blog #mentally drained #i don’t want to exist #mental illness #what is this feeling

[usedtobemygirl]

waking up feeling anxious and depressed and abandoned and unloved is just an everyday occurrence

#i don’t want to exist

[tha-menace-rojas]

I think being alone is best for me. It’s best for everyone.

#tw sui #i’m not okay #i don’t want to exist #i wish i could disappear

[selfsolace]

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#i’m so depressed #i wrapped a belt around my neck last night just to see #it was a prank calm down #i think i’ve eaten one meal in the past week #i don’t want to exist

[gl1tt3ryb0n3zzz]

i feel like i’m suicidal most of the time or i just get the feeling i don’t wanna exist but most of the time i’d be too scared to go through with it so i feel like it’s not that deep. i’ve only actually come close a few times but yh. it’s tiring just not wanting to exist most of the time 🙉

#tw bdd #vent #4norexla #@na vent #$h tumblr #$hblr #$elf h4rm #$elf harm #tw sh in tags #tw s3lf harm #tired of existing #i dont want to exist #i dont want to be here #sad thoughts #trauma #tired of being tired #tired of being alive #tired of this shit #tired #mentally tired #i dont wanna eat #i dont want to do this anymore #i dont wanna be here #i don’t want to exist

[i-could-be-so-much-more]

It’s so fuckin unfair that we have to just continue existing and working and doing things when we’re on our periods! Where is the justice, I’m in pain, I feel sick, I’m angry, I want to peel my skin off and throw it at people, I should be allowed to stay at home and wallow in self pity!

#periods #mensturation #pms #I want to scream #I want to fight all my coworkers #They’re all soo annoying #like why are you doing that #Why are you speaking #Stop trying to talk to me #I don’t want to exist #Just for a few days

[nostalgicria]

Books are so much better than real life.

#i don’t want to exist #only in fiction #i kinda hate this life

[babyanasthings]

Have been alive for 22 years just to realise nobody really never needed me. They just liked that I cared for them and they never had to care back cuz I thought it was meant to be.

#depressing shit #don’t wanna be here #its depressing #mentalheathawareness #suicidal #please end me #please end the pain #i cant anymore #i don’t want to exist

[stuckinapril]

I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point

#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on #Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that #It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely #Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the #Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing #I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the #Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to #be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr #I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com. #I refuse #I will do whatever I want forever etc