#i dont want to anything anymore

[owocontroversy]

what do you do when someone you thought was a close friend really wasn't a close friend at all (and you cant confront them because they dont know you know) and all the earth shattering love you felt for them turns to earth shattering hate in a fraction of a second

#and when you thought the person that was the problem really turned out to be your friend in the whole mess #i dont know what i dd wrong #i really dont #what even is the point of life anymore #genuinely i dont want to #i dont want to anything anymore

[robotpussy]

#polls #personally i dont like it but thats only because i dont like fandom. the type of stuff that gets the most attention #in fandom usually just annoys me idk. how to explain it in a way that wont come off as me saying #fanfic or whatever is evil its just the fact that it just bombards alot of the conversations? #i prefer it when the thing i like has 10 fans and theyre all on one message board or forum #like for example mtvs downtown is getting popular but apart from annoying #'me and the mid nerd guy i copped by being weird and sexy' posts its not awful.... #but then smth like... clone high or smth i suddenly cant remember ppl just got so annoying abt that show?? #like i cant stand it i dont even bother watching it anymore plus its just weird to me now like i can't watch it regardless #im just rambling but personally i do not like it. like i dont want what i like to get a revival #i dont want anything new! i just want to enjoy the thing and move on 😭 #fandom seems to prioritize shipping and memes over evaluating or simply just enjoying something! #this goes for anything. music film tv books....

[kiwi]

Please don't do performative activism. It does more harm than good. :(

do you have any actionable suggestions or are you pretending that sending anons telling people to stop posting is activism? or are you just trying to get people to stop talking about palestine? im busy doing real life fundraisers and info campaigns, politely go fuck yourself and get offline. go do something real in your community.

#i fuckin hate being online anymore. tumblr activists are so myopic #if you dont say anything you get dipshits in your inbox. if you say anything you get dipshits in your inbox #idc. we're making real life changes. be miserable and sanctimonious online all you want

[mfdragon]

You guys seemed to like my Lino-Maru art, so I will GLADLY give you more!!! ✨

#one piece #one piece admirals #kizaru #borsalino #sentomaru #look at them; have you ever seen anything more blessed than this? #I have this exact relationship with my uncle who I love very much #dont worry Maru secretly likes the affection; he’s just a big boy with a job now so he doesn’t “ want hugs” anymore

[obihoe]

anyways, orochimaru really stays winning huh .. i think its quite funny the way he's the only villain on naruto who isnt primarily motivated by some kind of tragedy, he just mainly wants power and knowledge and immortality and he's the most sicko freak of them all, there's no underlying altruistic intention or anything to his actions. its all personal gain-motivated but then at the same time, he's also the only one who just gets off scot-free? lol. he's the only one out of the villains who ends up successfully reaching his goals. obito (dies), madara (fucking explodes into an alien and dies) as well as the other big villains, they all end up failing and/or giving up on their goals. orochimaru doesnt manage to attain sasuke's body i guess but .. he at some point just decides that he's done enough evil shit now and then he gets back to konoha and has a chill life there lol.

#posts #orochimaru #like its orochimaru goes crazy apeshit but then at some point he himself just gets bored of it and then stops #LOL #no dramatic conclusion no alien explosion or anything like that #just gets gesurrected and goes u know what :) i'll rather watch sasuke now #i dont want to keep stirring up shit anymore and this war here .. idc abt that either #and then thats it LOL #sasuke ... ur impact #u should stab more villains to death and tell them theyre cringe and they'll end up reformed when they get resurrected

[skunkes]

(trying to be) happy to be here

#a doodley #1st pic is from last yr #im an easy crier and lately its bc i hate the way my life is going but then i think abt how one day ill be dead and i wont be able to #draw anymore or look at birds anymore or eat things i like anymore and it also sends me into insane crying hysterics #i want to live so bad.... but idk... i shld make the best of what i have. and try to cope with what i have (hence the images) #bc like idk. i want to leave so bad but my parents will be gone someday too so why am i in a rush to not see em...idk. #i dont knowwwwwww chimp image #copium. i have to find anything to be excited about. trying. #sorry its those nefarious 3 am thots -_-

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[puppyeared]

man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!! #and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

[emilylprentiss]

jemily + work song by hozier

#criminal minds #emily prentiss #jennifer jareau #jemily #criminalmindsedit #jemilyedit #tvedit #tuserkei #userkayjay #usercats #userjean #cargopantsprentiss #cm gifs #i really dont remember who to tag for - im trying to remember who ive seen reblog my jemily stuff before fjdksf sorry?? #ALSO this took so long to do and GUESS WHAT i still dont really like it #i realized i didnt want colored text until it was Too Late so here we are #will i ever like anything i make?? probably not #im posting this at 6 am bc i dont care anymore gosh diddily DANG IT ill take the 10 notes and be happy I GUESS #*mine

[lucalicatteart]

A new sculpture! Finally... I feel like I never sculpt anymore since I'm always sick or have some 500 other things going on or projects to finish, but I'm trying to schedule time to do it more often this year hopefully..! Just a generic fantasy creature as usual, but did try making the eyes a little more sparkly this time.. hrmm..

#sculpture #fantasy art #fantasy creature #art #elf #lol what are the tags I should use... I still never know.. EVIL social media.. hate the idea of tagging anything ever anyway. but alas.. #I also would ideally like to start selling them again and open up custom commmissions and stuff again once I can hopefully get paypal #stuff sorted out. and find like.. a good way to do things.. etc.. I did still want to sell them through auction instead of agonizing #over setting prices being afraid they're either too high or too low. So being able to just be like. Here. this is $50. or more. or less. #negotiate. the worth is whatever you feel like it is so i personally dont have to make that decision. etc. lol... But etsy doesn't let you #do auctions or like pay what you want type stuff so.. then I was thinking ebay? but idk.. ANYWAY.. I want to set things #up so I can sell stuff again hopefully. I still haven't fully recovered from the costs of when I had to take my cat to the vet and put #them down last year and etc. So it'd be good to sell a few things. perhaps.. maychance... perhamble... so on and so forthe... ANYWAY #I was going for whiter more milky sort of hair that blends in closely with the skintone but after the paint dried it seems more yellowy kin #of. which is fine. But just not exacltly like my mind vision lol.. #Also it's like... wow... someone with face spots and elf ears and a half open mouth with a gap tooth and wavy hair and kind of downturned #eyes... revolutionary... never been seen before... every sculpture I have ever made surely doesnt look licherally exactly like this... LOL #but maybe it's just a style. so what. People have their motifs lol.. Im just getting back into sculpting. I shall sameface in peace. huzzah #Just like the only thing I ever carve out of avocado pits anymore is eyes. Because that's just whats fun to do. I'm going to accumulate lik #25 similar avocado eyes and have nothing to do with them. I was thinking of stringing some together into a necklace of eyes or something li #like that but.. hrmm... ANYWAY.. Love to do the same things repetitively. :3c

[grzybjek]

Stuff that I wont finish and doodles that arent worth posting on instagram. Enjoy these tumblr i love tumblr

#i literally can post whatever I want and i dont feel anxious about it #i love sharing my art even if its unfinished ans i dont like it #i cant bring myself to finish anything recently by thr way. im awfully art blocked #i literally think everything i make recently is so bad and i struggle with the simplest drawings. idk what to do anymore honestly #but i had fun drawing these things today #not to mention like other 30 sketches i made today that are just outright BAD and i hate them

[ganondoodle]

in light of the news that riot games is letting go 11% of their workers (over 500 people), including long time workers responsible for big parts of the best lore in the entire league ip, AND cutting down LoR AND abandoning Riot Forge (the best idea they had in years lol)-

i stopped playing league a long time ago for multiple reasons, but one of the big ones were my annoyance with the increasingly shit ass monetization (thats only getting WORSE and MORE exploitative) and my frustration with its constant boring ass design decisions (like every new champ being either sexy girly girl that looks like all of the rest of them or sexy guy thats also starting to have the same problem plus all skins putting female champs in just another dress no matter how monsterfied the male champs were-) with my only interest in it being the lore and the attachment i felt to certain characters

im not even really interested in arcane anymore .. i was looking forward to it bc i like fortiches work alot but given how riot immedaitely wanted to make it canon (a dumb and stupid idea) after the first season was successful, which already made it less enjoyable for me, this is just ... idk, what does it matter

these news together with how bafflingly badly written totk was and its subpar quality (especialyl for that PRICE) that made me fear the future of loz yet it was still wildly sucessful (we deserve better than this!!), the recent commercial success of the plagiarism pokemon slavery/trafficking game and the general situation of the games industry, with AI rampant and CEOs sucking it up to shareholders only, constant massive lay offs everywhere in every studio

i have little hope left there will be new, good, games from big studios .. what an exhausting shitty world we live in

#ganondoodles talks #random #personal #save me good indie games #good indie games.... #good indie games save me .. #im well aware that there are more important things than video games #but this just adds to the oeverall exhausting feeling of everything everywhere in every industry and every part of the world getting worse #like fuck #cant soemthing good be happening for once #maybe less death and destruction #both literally and in an artistical sense #genuinely not looking forward to anything anymore #im not gonna dare to hope for a new good loz game bc hell it will be years and totk was a grim view into the future of the franchise #i dont want to be disappointed like this again- #i wanna mention again that i set my expectation extremely low for totk- all i wanted was a sequel to botw- or just a good game #and my god was it not #dont try to argue with me #im angry and tired

[beaulesbian]

Trigun Stampede s01 || Vash + the reflection on his glasses

(edit: added one i missed)

( @crazymadredfox​ thank you for the mention of this part!)

#cant believe i missed this one when i specifically rewatched the whole season for this :') #trigun #vash #vash the stampede #trigun stampede #trigunedit #mine #gif:trigun #so i thought the reflective effect appeared in more episodes but it was only episode 1 #and then it kinda reappears when vash is not vash anymore in eps 11-12 #the first episode had a lot of bright lights (desert sun and then the lights from the plants) #which made the reflection seem natural to happen but it was interesting it happened quite a lot as a storytelling tool almost #like it helped to push across this introduction of vash bc at first we dont know anything about him (first time fans like me heh) #so they hide his eyes in important moments including his first appearance #and it goes possibly for how that reflection is how vash doesnt know meryl or roberto yet so it takes a while for him to trust them #and see whats their deal #i like that 7th gif with comparison of rosa beside vash.. you can see her go on a whole journey with just her eyes #but vash's thought process is hidden until the last moment where he doesnt want to fight the julai guys who want to take him #the last one is so creepy.. he's an empty husk! there could be pain or numbness or multiple other emotions in his eyes #but the glasses put them behind a barrier and only the movement tells us more that hes floating there trapped emotionless #its so sad.. uff i love this show

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Drafted on 3/16, doodle to test paper overlay

#queued #kris #ralsei #could be kralsei if you want it to be #not sure what this means if it means anything at all #truthfully i just was aiming to draw a cool kris #but apparently dawntheduck's brain associates ''cool'' with ''twilight princess box art'' #because after stepping back i think this really just looks like link from tp #how many times have i mentioned twilight princess in a deltarune post #it has to have been at least twice now right #perma wolf link brainrot holy crap #anyway i needed to test a paper texture for a poster i was working on and i settled on this one because i liked how the pencil looked on it #future dawn; i dont like how kris' mouth looks anymore but oh well lol

[realbeefman]

i'm a cis woman, but in the past few years i've developed a habit of headcanoning any male character i relate to as a trans women, beginning a fic trying to explore that, and then miserably falling short as i can never figure out how to end the story. i've recently joined a new fandom and started my most recent attempt at writing this ever-elusive character interpretation i've been trying to explain for years. and it occurs to me that maybe the reason i keep trying to interpret these characters i relate to as women and failing to, is because i'm trying to project the wrong experience. because i think that conclusion i can never fully bring myself to write isn't one about coming to terms with womanhood and embracing that identity, but about coming to terms with being a man.

so tldr im a trans man and this is a coming out post.

#shaking a little bit writing this but like. i dont know. #ive felt. alone a lot and ive been very scared of actually doing anything to make myself happy for a lot of my life #and ive felt a lot of shame about particularly. i dont know. #i feel a lot of shame in general #but about my gender. about feeling like i cant transition because i dont want to do it the way you see in media #and that its cool for other people to be gnc and trans and present however they want but #that itd be wrong for me. that id be faking #and i dont know i think im tired of running from it #im acting like this is some terrible truth. like this is an unspeakable evil i would inflict on the world by doing something that could mak #me happy. make me feel comfortable #i dont want that shame anymore #i never deserved it #anyways. i like the name angus. please call me angus from now on although autumn is actually still fine i do fw that name. always have #but i need to say this and put it out into the world and not take it back #this is my experience. this is my starting point. and fanfic and writing have been a big part of that #anyways. shoutout to #james wilson #most recent blorbo ive tried to trans the gender of. i think ill be able to finish this fic though lol. #trans #coming out #fandom #fanfic #personal #queer #lgbtqia

[shakemelikeasnowglobe]

Do I understand brocedes? NO

Do I want to understand brocedes? Also No

Do I still stand mesmerized like an ipad baby watching cocomelon to every single brocedes dramatic tiktok video ? YES absolutely and it destroys me every time

#formula one fandom #formula 1 #lewis hamilton #nico rosberg #brocedes #i know they were like best friends #but then there was a ugly crash #and now they dont talk to each other anymore #but also they live in the same building in monaco apparently? #which what in the fanfic is that? #i dont want to dig deeper #i fell like if i know anything else it will lose its magic