oh my fucking god i feel. SO stupid rn at How i didnt make the (super sane very normal just absolutely. Yes. Surely) connection earlier but uhh
so anyway im now like 89% certain that whatever the "traces" of the narwhal that remain on ajax and facilitate their (ever-growing) innate connection are like. an actually fundamental aspect of it (them?) more or less.
why? because if you consider its pov just for a moment. the narwhal was literally about to depart teyvat for good. it had nearly finished consuming the primordial sea and preparing to breach surface to finish the job by eating the french for the leftovers their human bodies were made from. its an interstellar voyager it does not linger on planets it devours. it goes glug glug and it leaves.
and like if it wasnt for traveler intervening its confirmed through narzissenkreuz and renes world formula that teyvat wouldve just been destroyed. no one could have stopped the narwhal not neuvillette not focalors not anyone.
so what was the one other thing it did right before going for that french brunch? calling for ajax. getting them reunited in the primordial sea. like all the possible implications aside bc theres many different ways to speculate on the exact reasons why and the nature of that link. the point remains.
it wasnt leaving teyvat without finding him.
like the narwhal is about to fucking Dip from this cringe planet and whatever part of it that ajax carries within himself his narwhal Absolutely wanted to be reunited with. what the fuck am i supposed to read from that. hoyo???????!??! answers?!?!?!
and its not only the calling from the narwhal side itself either bc this is ALL coinciding with the growth of a 'restless power' within ajax and his vision malfunctioning (the things celestia is literally confirmed to harvest energy thru to repair its damaged authority) and his connection with the narwhal reaching an actual conscious level (arguably subconscious n emotional too bc i find it Curious his mood is poor right as the narwhal is repeatedly described as positively malding to the point its boss fight mechanic is literally a rage meter). ajax' power is growing. his destiny is starting to shift and something is drawing him to fontaine... right as the narwhal is getting close to finished with the primordial sea. funny how it overlaps eh. how it aligns 🤨🤨 why are they orbiting each other like this (they should kiss)
(& not to even Mention how ajax just Happened to get that absolutely exponential and borderline unbelievable feat of power spike in extending his foul legacy endurance as massively as he did. while. within the primordial sea. with his narwhal. who had at that point all but incorporated the power of that sea into itself. i s2g if childe was getting passive home turf co-op bonus exp with a 4x multiplier automatically the whole 40+ days 💀💀)
Favorite part about Death Note is that Light gets the Note and IMMEDIATELY becomes a serial killer fascist with a god complex.
No build-up, no Fall From Grace, no slow corruption of a good boy gradually becoming a monster. Just-- SPEED RUN STRATS. And I love that for him.
Tbh, I think there are a lot of folks (especially boys) from my high school days who would have immediately become monsters if given the power of life and death over every person around them.
It's kind of like how when people have apparently casual ableist beliefs, and you push them to elaborate on that just a little bit, they'll often end up openly saying stuff like "well, some people are just too disabled to be worth the resources it takes to support them." - Which is... eugenics. It's just eugenics, justified by the myth of scarcity. Now these folks almost certainly won't call it eugenics, or even think of it that way. But that doesn't make it NOT a core belief of the Nazis.
In a similar way, Light seems like a nice and well-adjusted boy with strong beliefs. No harm in that.
But to paraphrase Lindsay Ellis in her analysis of the Game of Thrones ending, "Power doesn't necessarily corrupt. Power reveals." [I think she was quoting someone else when she said this. It was someone who wrote a biography on LBJ. Whatever. Lindsay said it and she's smart as hell and I recommend her videos.]
And 15 minutes into the Death Note musical, I'm already thinking about how so many beliefs "casually" held by well-adjusted, nice people immediately reveal their monstrousness when talked through to their natural conclusion.
And I wonder how many of those people, given the power of life and death over everyone around them - the power to take their ideas to their natural conclusions - would also immediately reveal how their lack of self-reflection has laid the groundwork for them to become monsters.
So what do you do when your favourite rapper makes a catchy song about the hardships of life that you want to love but upon release can’t connect with at all and after a few listens almost outright dislike because none of the pain and hardship life has put you through has ever made you a better person or given you the energy/motivation to do better and it actually just did the complete opposite and you’ve lost out on precious years of your life and so many opportunities while trying to process the trauma and undo the damage
But everyone else seems to love the song to the point that you start to wonder if maybe you’re just a fucking idiot for not being able to make something good out of said trauma and hardship instead of just being filled with crippling anxiety and depression and bitterness and grief and rage
I think it’s time for my ‘Mary would’ve been a deadbeat mom’ truthing hours
if John had died and she had lived, I believe 100% she’d’ve gone back into hunting 1.) to avenge John and 2.) because it’s all she knows and it’s the only community she has left. I think Sam and Dean’s life and childhood would remain mostly the same.
if neither of them had died, I think we would’ve seen a domestic, basically single dad John raising his normal sons the best he can bc Mary would be off on hunting trips (like she was when Dean was a baby and she saved Asa Fox). I think she would’ve tried to give up the life, but would be trapped in the same cycle Dean was: if I don’t hunt these evil things who will?
I think no matter how hard Mary tried she was never gonna be able to give up hunting and no matter which scenario plays out, Sam and Dean don’t have their mother in their life growing up. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk
Would LOVE to know if there was a single scene in your mind when you decided to write The song remains the same!
Aaaah 🤩 Snape’s Worst Memory! I wanted so much to write the version of that scene if Lily and James' places were switched, and James was the one that had been Snape’s friends all along.
In fact, the fic was supposed to end right after this scene, but then James&Lily’s relationship changed a lot while I tried to make sense of who was Lily if she had befriended Sirius... and then you got those extra chapters!
Sharing the link to this specific chapter (rightly named "The Worst Day") if anyone is curious to see how it played out:
Okay, okay, I get that a lot of the Emperor fans like to say that the Emperor is the Phantom to their Tav/Dark Urge's Christine, but consider...being the Sarah to their Jareth soundtrack wise?
i was tagged by @kimchokejin , thank you sweetheart, i hope you've been well and i'm sending you a big hug 🫂💗
You can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs then tag ten people! no skipping!
get ready for some ✨️kpop love-related songs✨️ cause that's the playlist:
love killa by monsta x
atlantis by shinee
feeling like i do by ateez
inception by ateez
wow by skz
gunshot by kard
serendipity by bts
libidO by onlyoneof
dahlia by gidle
euphoria by bts
heart burn by sunmi SORRY I'M INCLUDING THIS ONE CAUSE SUNMI
no-pressure tagging some of my lovely moots, hope you've been well lovelies 🫂: @singingtillthemorn, @ki-limepie, @seoksao, @wistfulocean, @aprylynn, @cordiallyfuturedwight, @kirbwoo, @konanhihi, @starlostjimin, @rachanun. 🌸