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weizhiyuan · 4 months

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I did something silly….. I made QL guess who!

About a year and a half ago I had the idea for a custom ql guess who game but I had no one to play it with so I just put it to the side until I (hopefully) would. Fortunately that day came this weekend when @pondphuwin and I got to play a few rounds (they beat me 4:5 actually lmao)!

Some of the questions we asked were stuff like “is it from gmmtv,” “does your show have a branded pair,” “is there a love triangle,” “is there a debate over whether your show is a bl or not,” and more personal ones like “am I crazy over one of the main actors,” “do we have beef with the way this bl went,” “did we watch this live together,” and so on. Rlly fun stuff!

Since this is a custom guess who I had to make all the pieces manually. At first it seems fine and easy bc there’s already official posters right? But the difficulty is that almost every poster is a different size. So I figured out how to get the proper guess who face piece measurements and manually resized each poster to fit, with a slight gradient in the background where the remaining space isn’t covered by the poster. You can see those gradient bars on the top and bottom in the closeup of the last twilight piece, for example. Also it’s just really funny to hold mini posters of qls lmao (using my hand as a reference)

There’s 190 ql poster pieces in total (based on approx. how many I’d seen as of the time of printing) (yes I will add more as time goes on) and they were all put on one big google doc that covered about 10 pages and looked like this!

After I had them all set I printed them out on cardstock so they were thicker & more sturdy and then I did a lot of cutting. And since both players need the same posters I had to cut it all twice

Are there easier ways to do this? Maybe. I’m not sure. Honestly I just did whatever like this is my own gay little art project lol

Once I had them all cut and held them in my hand I felt quite proud of my work and now that I’ve actually played it I really do

Here’s just like a pic I took when we were playing a round. Since there were so many, after every round we took out the two qls we just selected and replaced them with new ones and we never ran out lmao. It took quite a bit of effort but it was totally worth it hehe

#next time I wanna do it with actors hehe #might get working on that later #but yeah this is so silly and fun and idk fellow ql watchers u might appreciate skdjdjd #it was fun to choose which posters to use too #the only thing I didn’t have time for was the bigger face cards & designing the backs but I will do those too later lol #b.txt #idk what to tag this as #I’m just gonna tag some of the qls u can see in the photos ig lol #it’s relevant…..#last twilight #bad buddy #utsukushii kare #bed friend #pit babe #me when I had two shows open left and one of them was pit babe: does ur show have omegaverse… KDJSJDJ #cooking crush #until we meet again #ok I rlly don’t kno what 2 tag this as so I’ll leave it here lol

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lovedrruunk · 30 days

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‘Awkward meetings ❀⋆.ೃ࿔

Venture (Overwatch x reader)

Authors note!! ＼(＾▽＾); second venture fic!! Tbh I just rlly rlly rlly hated my last one so I’m giving it another go bc I’m actually just so in love with them.. If you see me pocketing the HELL out of a venture mind yer damn business. also im having a pretty tough time coming up with scenarios so id rlly appreciate some ideas!

This was new. Sloane wasn’t nervous; they weren’t the nervous type! They’re bold, and fun, and eccentric (in a good way!) and they most definitely weren’t nervous! So why was it that each time you came around they seemed to trip over their words?

“Young love…” Tracer and Angela couldn’t help but smile, looking at the two of you from a distance as they were enjoying their coffee in Gibraltars HQ lounge.

Any regular person would call them crazy for seeing anything romantic about your awkward short interactions, but knowing both of you when you’re apart tells them everything they’d need to know.

“Yea!... I like your nails! They look… aesthetically pleasing…”

“Oh, thank you! Yea um- painted them myself!”

“Really? Wow! That must’ve taken like… a billion years!”

“Haha!...Yea!”

In the distance, both women were heavily facepalming. They couldn’t help but cringe at the conversation, and as cute as the two of you were, awkwardness had its limits and you two seemed to hit it a while ago.

Sloane didn’t plan on the conversation going this way, they promise! It’s just each time they try talking to you their palms start to sweat and their knees start to wobble and the only thing they can focus on is your face and your voice and trying to think of the right joke to make you laugh and suddenly all those late nights of coming up with scenarios in their head of what to say to you while giggling and kicking their feet are left completely forgotten. All the diary entries describing exactly what they would say and do in order to at least be your friend have now gone to waste.

To be more than an acquaintance to you, that's all they’re asking for, they’ve lowered their standard and yet they couldn’t even reach it!

With a heavy sigh, they turn to look at you, wanting to give the conversation one more try. “Look… I’m really sorry for how lame I'm being. To be honest, I just think you’re really cool and it feels like I have no idea how to approach you!” They smile as they feel their nerves calm now that they’ve confessed to their nervousness. You feel a weight lift off your shoulders, and you’d be lying if you said you weren’t happy they had decided to break the ice first.

“Oh gosh okay, I’m so glad I’m not the only one who felt that way!! I’ve always thought you were cool and funny, honestly I just really wanted to get to know you.”

At this point, you were both smiling and it seemed like the heavy atmosphere had completely vanished now that you were both being transparent.

In the background, Tracer and Angela celebrated quietly, proud of the two of you for finally being able to act normal around one another. You two spent the next couple of minutes warming up to each other as you laughed and joked making plans to hang out, a warm feeling now in your chests.

“Y’know I don’t even know why I was so intimidated in the first place…”

“You could sense my gay agenda.”

#I DONT LIKE THIS ONE THAT MUCH EITHER EURHEHH #guess ill have to try try try again...#venture x reader #overwatch x reader #venture overwatch

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erin-bo-berin · 2 years

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i have a request for dustin’s sister! maybe reader and steve used to date during his douchey phase, and they had a bad break up, but he falls completely and irrevocably back in love with her while they save hawkins multiple times, and dustin finds out and he’s super protective, ‘cause steve broke her heart rlly bad once, and maybe steve sees that he rlly hurt her previously, and then it’s fluffy because reader finds out and they get together because she assures him he’s changed and she’s proud of him? i’m very sorry if this was confusing, i had legitimate brain rot when i sent this in,,

thank you! i love your fics so much! <33

Thank you for reading! I love you 🥰

Also can you imagine protective Dustin? That’s so sweet 🥺 I had to use this gif cause I imagine the reader overhearing their conversation and is shocked to realize that Steve has feelings for her because she thought it was a one sided thing.

Take Care Of Her

Steve Harrington x Henderson!Reader & Dustin

“Absolutely not,” Dustin said firmly, arms crossed.

Steve looked at him, exasperated and bewildered.

He’d thought he’d do the gentlemanly thing and ask Dustin’s permission to date you, his older sister—again.

Steve had actually dated you once before, back in high school during what he, not so fondly called the Dark Ages. That would be when he was King Steve, grade A asshole and womanizer. He treated hearts like they were made of plastic or some other material that was a whole lot more durable than the glass they usually are—especially when it came to women. He did whatever he pleased not caring who he hurt in the process: bullying, leading girls on, dumping them, you name it.

He wasn’t proud of those days.

Especially since you had been one of his worst victims.

You didn’t fall to his feet when he first perused you and it intrigued him. In fact, he loved the chase. You were a challenge and it was something different than having girls throw themselves at him. But, you eventually wore down and he won you.

He just fucking sucked at keeping you.

Unfortunately, you fell hard for him while at the same time, Steve was growing bored. He’d got what he wanted, but it wasn’t satisfying anymore. He ended up dumping you, breaking you heart into a million little pieces.

The amount of times your little brother had caught you crying in the months that followed was absolutely pathetic. But, he never teased you. He hugged you and let you know that it would eventually be okay. That life would go on without Steve.

It eventually did. Until he showed back up in your life after you’d gotten over him—or at least you thought you’d had.

Steve and Dustin had formed an unlikely friendship after things started going haywire in Hawkins. First, an unassuming pet Dustin had found had turned out to grow and run off, turning into a creature from a whole other dimension.

The shock on your face had most likely been comical when you’d first found the unlikely pair—your brother and Steve. It was awkward at first and you were stiff, not sure how to act around him.

But, he’d changed. He wasn’t the old King Steve, the one who seemed to care about no one but himself. He was helping your 12 year old brother, after all, who at the time he didn’t really know. That was pretty selfless.

When you’d had a moment alone from Dustin, he apologized about what had happened in high school and how much he had hurt you. You’d shrugged it off, telling him it was fine.

Deep down though, the spark of feelings for him had been lit.

Summer of 1985 came and somehow you ended up back in the “saving the world” business with Dustin and Steve. Along this time was new friends Robin and Erica, but you had to admit that you had the worst luck when it came to being stuck with your ex-boyfriend.

When Robin had found out, she had teased you relentlessly about being stuck with the two exes, constantly mentioning that you two were idiots if you both couldn’t see what she did.

Once again, you had been stuck with Steve as you, he and Robin were kidnapped by Russians. Steve was tortured, making that well deep down in your heart that was starting to fill with emotions towards him, starting to overflow. You had been concerned and worried, probably more so than a friend should’ve been.

Things were a mess after you’d been tripping on drugs they gave you. You very faintly remember him kissing you—on the lips—but it was never mentioned, so you figured it was the drugs playing tricks on you.

That tiny spark from before had caught fire, turning into a low flame. But still, you’d refused to admit it.

Five months later and of course, shit got weird in Hawkins again, cause when does it ever not?

The universe shoved you and your ex, along with your brother back together to fight a new villain from the Upside Down. This one was bigger, badder and so much more vicious than you’d ever experienced.

As if the constant being around Steve hadn’t been torture enough, you’d all but written your feelings for him on a billboard for him to see when you instantly went diving after him when he got pulled into an underwater gate to the other dimension.

You didn’t hesitate and went in after him, panicking when you found him being strangled and attacked by demobats. You fought like hell to get them off of him and he was pretty impressive himself, taking a bite out of one then slamming it to the ground, stepping on it and pulling it apart.

He had been badly injured and you tried to help him later after he had a bout of dizziness from the blood loss. You tore material from your shirt, wrapping it around his torso tightly to staunch the bleeding.

He had been shirtless and mere inches from you as he’d peered at you, gratefully. You hadn’t been this close to him in years and you could no longer deny it.

That flame had turned into a fire that burned bright and you’d fallen once again for Steve Harrington.

Which is why you were now huddled on the stairs, listening to Dustin’s and Steve’s conversation below you in the basement. You’d just been on a return trip from the kitchen to grab a bottle of water, when you’d heard what they were talking about: you. You’d frozen and hadn’t moved as you continued to listen to what they were talking about.

“Why not? I didn’t have to ask you for your permission to ask her out,” Steve said, “I could’ve done it anyway, I just wanted to be a gentleman about it.”

“You broke her heart when she was sixteen, Steve,” you heard the gruff tone in Dustin’s voice, “Why do you think I’d let you do that again?”

“Because I’m not that same guy,” Steve said, “I was a complete asshole, I know it. But I’ve fallen in love with her, dude. I mean it’s kinda hard not to when you’ve been through all the shit we have, but still. I wish I’d taken the time to get to know her in high school. That’s my biggest regret.”

Dustin sighed heavily.

“Come on little bro, I think he sounds genuine, what about you?” you finally spoke, making yourself known as you came down the stairs.

They whipped around, looking shocked to have been discovered.

“You heard?” Dustin asked.

“I heard,” you smiled faintly, glancing at Steve.

“Fine,” Dustin relented, “But if you hurt her again, I’m coming after you,” he grumbled, jogging up the stairs, leaving you two alone.

“You really aren’t the same guy,” you said honestly, looking at Steve, “In case you were still hesitant about it. That guy from high school would not do half the shit you’ve done in the last few years. Help my brother, love and care for a group of kids, risk your life for his loved ones. You’re nothing like him anymore, Steve.”

You’d never seen Steve look so shy, you didn’t think he even knew what shy was. But he tentatively reached for your hand, pulling you to him.

“I was an idiot, Y/N Henderson and I realize it. I fell irrevocably in love with you and I really hope you feel the same because I want you to be my girlfriend. If that’s okay with you?”

He bent, studying your face. You were grinning, nodding your head.

“Completely fine with me,” you chuckled.

You reached up to him, finally being able to kiss him after dreaming about it for the last two years.

“Keep it PG down there!” Dustin hollered from upstairs.

You broke away, bursting out laughing.

“He doesn’t have anything to worry about,” Steve whispered to you, “Because this time, I’m going to take care of you.”

#steve harrington #steve harrington fic #steve harrington blurb #steve harrington fluff #steve harrington x you #steve harrington x fem!reader #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x henderson!reader #stranger things #stranger things blurb #stranger things fic #stranger things fluff

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krashoutluv · 3 months

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What are your thoughts on Jason from Three Jokers?

particularly for me, his emotional dependence is so big just because he confused things with the Barbara

3 JOKERS SPOILERS !

tldr; i ramble a little abt how i hate modern Jason fucking Todd and highlight how much justice this comic did for him

and how modern writers are just trying to turn him into a batfam insert of deadpool

Yes! I dont think Jason had 100% feelings for Babs, like he said, he thought it could work. It definitely came from a moment of weakness/vulnerability, its often that Jason doesn’t get cared for too often, not in the way he needs. So when Babs let out a hand for him, it hit him HARD. Especially with just being traumatized by the last two jokers, I think its pretty obvious he doesn’t need someone to clean up/watch after him but like need someone to generally emotionally guide him.

my personal pet peeve with most modern Jason Todd canon ships is the laziness of it(b4 i get criticized i think ANY ship with ANY CHARACTERS can be good as long as the writings GOOD and makes SENSE) . GOD NO- i dont ship jason and babs, but they still put an odd amount of effort into it, to at the very least actually flesh out their characters.

Jason doesn’t need a character that fixes his mistakes when he’s overly impulsive, or babies him, or fixes his mistakes with a veil of ‘Your so dumb but i secretly care about you!‘ because then it leads to most of lazy writing where he does something stupid but his gf is here to fix it! so its ok! NO!! HES NOT LEARNING ANYTHING!! YOURE MAKING HIM LOOK STUPID AND MENTALLY BRAIN DEAD!! anyways sorry.

Jason needs someone to break him out of his cycle of impulsiveness and self-destruction, not have him indulge in it.Jason needs to go fucking soul-searching or something im so tired of his ass— REALISTICALLY I COULDN’T DATE COMIC!JASON IF HE DIDNT CHANGE,, HE WOULD FRUSTRATE ME RLLY BAD.

ahem. anyways. I think Jasons note shows a lot about his character and something that the modern writers ignore a lot. Jason CAN change, he just needs a reason, a solid reason to. He doesn’t have to put down his code, or the guns, he just needs someone solid to really make him think about himself. “All I need is one chance to you I can be better. And I will devote my life to making you proud. Happy. Loved.” WHERE IS THIS SWEETHEART RN?? I SWEAR EVERY OTHER WRITER IS MAKING HIM A EMO FUCK-BOY WHOS BRAIN MATTER GOT SUCKED OUT THROUGH HIS COCK?? ahem sorry.

I really love how much DC actually puts details into Jason in this comic. Ex. Jasons helmets abilities being highlighted, “Helmets registering multiple security doors opening across the facility.” OR him saying the chronic pain management book was helpful. SORRY— I REALLY ENJOY DETAILS LIKE THIS. It just makes Jasons technical skill and such more obvious then whats normally stated. Also Jason tracking sea water off a wrench to the Aquarium— where is this skill in more modern comics?? I swear they make Jason a braindead wannabe deadpool sometimes i swear to fucking god. Also him shooting the shark tank so it eats Gaggy— I DIE FOR DETAILS LIKE THIS.

They don’t even get rid of his humor in 3 jokers either, he still has a really well displayed personality and his banter with Batman is really bearable for once, it makes sense and its well written. I slightly dislike how hard Babs is being on Jason but i’m not 100% sure what Babs is like. I haven’t read comics centered around her, so I don’t mind it. Also dont mistake this for me disliking babs for rejecting Jay— thats not what i mean at all. Just her constantly saying how he’s a criminal and focusing on getting him in prison like he’s an opp was confusing 2 me..

anyways stop trying to turn red hood into the batfams deadpool challenge!!

inbox is open 2 yap or requests sum!!

#jason todd #jason peter todd #skullkidwithsunglasses #i ramble about comic jason hehehe #red hood

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messycunt · 1 year

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":D! Thanks! I would love to see how the dorm heads interact with the vices! Or just more of how the whole savannaclaw octovilline (sorry if I spelt them wrong :<) ppl work out, cuz they can’t be milked? (Right? I mean other animals have milk ig but,,,,,) jamil and kalim s little dance routine together sounds so cute! And Ruggie is the secret third thing? :o (I don’t know what that is sorry if I’m being stupid lol!) and lilia and mal! Cute! Is it too much to ask if you could give a little description of what they would look like, like fur colors and stuff, also are they like, centaur like? Or like satyrs? Or like just have the animal parts? :)"

the ruggie thing wasn't anything deeper dw about it

cw: just a short ramble and some hcs so nothing rlly, I typed these on my phone so srry if they came out funny, not proof read

so first off for the nondairy farms(enclosures?) they work as follows:

Members of them still perform at shows and are rented out for parties and private occasions the same and their added exotic factor from not being as common as the more domestic hybrids makes them more lucrative to do so with.

but as far as looks I've stated before that I imagine them being a little taller and more built, around 5 or 6 inches specifically, and they just have tails, ears, horns and a patch of fur on their back!

ok here r some character by character hcs for their looks as well as some other miscellaneous stuff

Riddle:

Soft white and red pelt, small horns.

Small and delicate looking he's actually rather hot headed and hard to work with, wish good luck to his handler they need it.

Doesn't do shows often but when he does he shows up and shows out.

Trey:

Thick dark green pelt, large horns

Not one to enjoy the spotlight and therefore doesn't participate in shows

Would rather spend his time in the kitchen and the fields or showing kids around when they have scheduled field trips coming up.

Like I said he enjoys working with kids when he has the chance and his brotherly personality makes him perfect for it.

Cater:

Shaggy ginger and white pelt, his horns are smaller than treys but still big.

Get's rented out often and looooves having his picture taken, he's very photogenic you know

Amazing temperament, maybe too lenient at times, you could tug his tail and not get much of a negative reaction.

Ace:

Short full ginger pelt, medium sized horns.

A bit of a trouble maker and hasn't had the chance to feature in any shows yet

Deuce:

Short white and deep blue-black pelt, medium horns.

Likes helping out the best he can but between me and you.. he's not that good at it.

Trey has him help collect eggs from the chicken coop from time to time.

He just wants to make everyone around him proud!

Kalim:

Stark white pelt, stubby horns.

Popular as far as rentals for parties go

He prioritizes fun over everything else which usually gets him caught up especially when it comes to real work.

Jamil:

Corse black pelt, medium large horns the tips of which are black too.

Him and Kalim come as a packaged deal so you can't have one without the other as far as shows and the like goes.

Vil:

long blonde pelt the tips of which are purple, elegantly curved horns.

To put it nicely; he's a cunt.

Does shows often and barely anything else unless it's extremely high profile.

His time and effort are expensive you know.

Rook:

blonde pelt that is meticulously trimmer(under Vils request), large horns.

He is an enigma in every sense of the word, hard to read but overly friendly

Strongly attached to his handler regardless of if they feel the same.

Epel:

Shaggy but short pale lavender pelt, very small horns(HE'S STILL GROWIN' OK)

The prissy image vil forces him uphold makes him sick but playing quiet and polite when he isn't breathing down his neck isn't too hard.

Idia:

Yes his pelt is made up of unnaturally blue flames too, larger horns but they just make him clumsy.

Sorry I love him but no idea why they keep him around he truly is good for nothing.

Ortho:

you remember those zoomer robot cats and dogs from a few years back? he's like one of those but bigger! and also a cow.

he's all shiny black blue and white plastic baby

good temperament I'd say, Just don't talk shit about his brother.

Malleus:

Deep green tinted black pelt, HUGE fully black curled horns.

Very busy with shows and events.

He's elusive and seen as scary and untouchable to most but really a big sweetie for the most part.

Lilia:

Sporadically trimmed black pelt that has pink streaks like his hair, cute small horns that he probably paints pink to match(I imagine their being like horn polish of some kind yk).

In a word; Silly.

He's great with kids and treats Malleus like a big toddler sometimes.

Sebek:

Uneven pale green pelt, medium large horns.

Never gets booked for shows or contests, not that he's undesirable or anything he just refuses to put himself in a position where he will be Malleus' competition.

SIlver:

Mid length silver-white pelt, small horns.

Has been in a show or two and found they're not for him.

Prefers helping out around the farms when he can.

12.5.22 - more

#twst #req!#wrk!#hybrid au!#riddle x reader #twst trey x reader #cater x reader #ace x reader #deuce x reader #kalim x reader #jamil x reader #vil x reader #rook hunt x reader #epel x reader #idia x reader #malleus x reader #silver x reader #sebek x reader #hcs!

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sttoru · 7 months

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hi anya.. i saw you talking abt being good at giving advice to ppl, so,, wld you mind giving me some advice..?

rant: i've been an anon for this person for a while and, not so long ago, i came out of anon to talk to them on priv, bcs they said they wouldn't be active anymore, and they told me i could talk to them on priv, if i wasn't uncomfy.

i did take up that offer, bcs i rlly wanted to keep in touch. but, they make 0 effort to talk to me. i'm always the one sending the first message. they never reach out first. and every conversation consists of like, 3 messages from each of us, talking about our lives, then we don't talk for months until i reach out again.

now, they announced they would be active again, and they're back to posting, but they just won't send me a message. i don't know if i'm being pushy and annoying by wishing they would talk to me. idk if i'm uninteresting, or if they're anxious or forgetful, or what.

it's just been very one-sided and instead of making us closer (like i thought it would) it feels like it's driving us apart. the last time we talked was in march. when i sent them a happy birthday message. i haven't send anything ever since. and neither did them (as always). i saw them as a friend, but i don't think they care about me at all.

anyway: what do i do?? do i try and talk to them about it? (what if they're just busy and i'm overthinking??) do i ignore them forever, just as they have been ignoring me? do i send them an ask instead and act like i've never been out of anon? help.

haiii anon! im glad you decided to reach out to me w this ^_^ thank u & i hope i can be of help with the following advice below ! (i actually typed more than i intended bcs it hit home hehdnsnsnd)

first of all; i applaud u for being brave & coming off anon to keep in touch with that person! a lot feel too uncomfy to do so even if they desperately want to keep in contact with someone, so i feel proud, if i can word it in that way ahsha

soooo let’s start;

if i read this correctly: when you actually begun to reach out privately to that person, you are always the first one that tries to strike up a conversation. you feel like they could be uninterested in you & don’t consider you a friend like you do.

i’m sorry to hear that— especially the ‘reaching out first part’, because it can be super uncomfortable and could understandably make you overly anxious (like thinking they aren’t interested, are ignoring you on purpose, don’t want you talking to them or they’re uncomfy talking to u etc etc. it can cause a lot of anxious thoughts. that i get & it can be extremely upsetting).

this is also a huuuge problem i’m struggling with. you are NOT pushy or annoying for wanting them to reach out to you out of their own initiative. i think every one who struggles with this can agree with me and guarantee you that.

why? because feeling like your friendship is one-sided is not how most work out. that’s how most friendships FALL out instead, like you had stated yours was at the end.

march is a long time ago. the fact that they are active & posting means they are on their socials & are checking their dms etc etc. to say that they’re forgetful is really doubtful, because march is MONTHS ago & i’m sure that if they cared about your friendship — they for sure would’ve thought of at least reaching out to you once in all those months (as harsh as that might sound).

but, they didn’t — it shows that this is indeed very one sided. of course, as a busy person myself i could look at the other side of the story as well: maybe they could be busy or they could be anxious about reaching out first too!

i know people who do, at least. but the difference is that those people i know (who are anxious of reachig out first) always make an effort to keep the conversation going once i msg them. they are interested, send me random stuff & the convos can go on and on without stopping for hours because they put effort into continuing the convo i started.

now that is considered two-sided to an extent as well. but reading that your convo’s are short & usually only 3 messages back and forth — i’m… feeling a bit iffy. if they were anxious about reaching out first, but were still interested in talking with you, they would at least make the effort to appreciate you starting the convo & continue it. so, i personally don’t think they’re forgetful or anxious.

that rules out any more possibilities to be honest. the moment you said that they havent ever reached out first made me already go ‘well…’ in my head. and its been months since you last talked. if they wanted to continue your friendship like you want, they would’ve put in the same effort as you (or at least tried once or twice to show their interest). judging by your explanation of the story, i don’t think they want to put effort in talking further with you.

which—is not your fault, maybe not even theirs. some friendships aren’t meant to work out. maybe they aren’t feeling it? maybe they don’t feel the ‘click’, you know? once again, not your fault at all! it happens to me every time — and it even happens to the best of us.

as someone who’s been in this situation for over ten times in different ‘failed’ friendships, i say let them go. maybe see where it leads you. i don’t think they will reach out to you first since march was the last time you talked without you taking the initiative, but just let it go. if they at least want to keep the convo or spark between you alive, they’d reach out themselves.

as anxious as one can be about reaching out first, if they desperately want to feel a connection between the other person, they would find a way to do it. like maybe a simple ‘hi’ in dms or indirect post on dash.

but it’s also valid that you want to continue what yall had. if you choose to want to reach out again; here’s a different & more positive solution / piece of advice:

send them one message filled with your worries and feelings about your situation. don’t make it too long (could be a bother to read, might make you seem a bit too desperate to them?) — but also maybe not too short.

this could be included;

• ask them how they’ve been lately.

• out your feelings about the situation briefly (abt reaching out first).

• simply ask for a clarification. don’t demand it! ask if they maybe would like to continue talking.

wait & check their response to that message and be critical! if they ignore completely, red flag. if they’re dismissing your feelings, red flag. if they say ‘i forgot’ or ‘i was busy’, understandable, but see if they actually make an effort to reach out to you afterwards. if not—stop putting in the effort and let go (saying this in the nicest way possible. it avoids any more heart break / anxiousness, i promise)

though, it may also be your last message to them if they say that they don’t feel the same (aka dont wanna continue talking), so maybe prepare yourself for that too.

anyhow! it’s ok if friendships don’t work out, once again, don’t blame yourself! it hurts, of course, but once you get through the heart break — there are many more possibilities for you to make friends out here.

remember, relationships are the most healthiest when there’s good communication between both parties.

xoxo

#sttoru responds.#keep me updated!! (if u wanna) :)#am always here for u anonnnn i feel like u r me and i am u

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dendrosys · 1 year

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the Columbina brainrot was rlly getting to me so i decided to mix up something quick.. @eujean @just-haunter-thoughts @maehemthemisfit

They say the people in my homeland do not believe in tears, a stereotype carried to legacy by outsiders and traveling Snezhnayans alike. They joke and say our tears will freeze before they leave our eyes, that the part of our brains that let us cry was frosted over. They don't know about the warmth that keeps us able to weep for our many lost ones, the joyous flames in the campfires we hold to stay alive. Blaming them is hard though, even I have only seen her a few times.

For years I’ve traveled as a Fatui footsoldier, never ranking up, just moving posts. I wasn’t useless, they just spent so much time moving me around and adding me to new teams that no one ever thought to put me higher. I’ve seen my teammates come and go. Some die on the field, some get too injured to keep working. Some run away and never come back. Somehow I ended up getting invited to funerals for all of them. Often I didn't attend, here and there a teammate that I really cared for would succumb to one of the three fates and I’d consider it, but it always ended up being ‘It's better that I don't go’.

Inbetween moving periods I had a week to rest, and it was during the rare occurrence where I actually considered attending a funeral. I counted the Mora I had stashed in my pocket, just enough to buy something acceptable to wear at a funeral. Guess it couldn’t hurt to go once.

The funeral was held in the home of the deceased, it was an open casket ceremony. I don’t think I ever saw one of my teammates' faces before that moment. Uncovered, without bandages or masks, the two of us didn’t look all that different. White faces, thick eyebrows, high-bridged noses. It almost scared me how close to a dead person I looked myself. I backed away from the casket after being told the ceremony was about to begin. A woman on the shorter side with her eyes covered in silk and body covered in a puffy black overcoat, many sizes too big for her, stood beside the late soldier. Everyone seemed to be familiar with her, faces brightened and conversations came to a halt. A warm, serene aura flooded the room as she opened her mouth and began to sing. The other guests around me mouthed her words in unison, hands clasped together and eyes closed. I closed mine too.

‘O’ spirit of the dead

Hear the Damselette sing

Let her chorus ring

Through your hollow head

O’ spirit of the dead

May you find your way

May your loved ones pray

That you may be gracefully lead

Into the heavens

Into the Tsaritsa’s arms

Into the heavens

Far from here’

As the song ended and I opened my eyes again, I realized I had been mouthing the words as well after all. The lady, the “Damselette” in the song, gracefully made her way down to me, gifting me with a soft hug. I had another realization then, I had met The Damselette once before. Years and years ago, at the only other funeral I’d been to. She sang that same song at my brother's funeral, who died to probably much of the same fate as the person this funeral was for. Nothing much about her changed from then to now, at least as I could remember it.

“So many deaths around you… and yet you only now come to see them go?”

I gulped, feeling a feeling I hadn’t felt since I lived with my family. Guilt. Shame. I prayed a silent prayer that no one else heard what she had said.

“I’m sorry. I–” “Nono. It is okay Yulia. You’ve been out battling. I am proud that you fight for our nation.”

It’d been so long since I heard someone call me by my name, I nearly didn't recognize it. The Damselette reached her hand up to my face, caressing it like an aunt caresses her niece that she hasn't seen in so long.

“Just be sure to attend when you have the chance, okay? Avoiding funerals will not spare you from one of your own.”

I was in awe, she saw through me so easily. I nodded silently and watched her go around and visit the other guests. I left the house, the warm aura of The Damselette slowly freezing back into cold air. As I walked to my sargeant’s office, I wondered when my turn would come. How many of my own teammates would become part of my silent parting choir? Would any live to see the day? To even hold a funeral for me? Regardless, I knew the Damselette would be singing from afar. And the memory of her voice is what keeps my tears of faith running down my cheeks, warm and sincere.

#Columbina #columbina genshin impact #fatui #fatui harbingers #this is so bad guys im so sorry but i had to get it out of my headdd

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itsjustnobody0 · 2 years

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Chapter 4.

Hi guys and welcome back! I hope your enjoying this story so far!! Already on chapter 4! God it’s been rlly quick since I posted the first chapter. Speaking of the first chapter here’s the link to it in case you haven’t read it:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

TW for chapter 4-

stealing

Swearing

Self doubt

Hights

Climbing

Sleeping

Screaming

Nightmares

Food

Locking yourself in a small room

Starving

Death

Hugging

It is literally just the word being mentioned but I’m giving the warning in case it is like really triggering for some people. Enjoy the chapter. Ciao bitches.

We got back home and I had a wardrobe full of new clothes and paint. I also had some got some fake plants and other things to add to my room. I wasn’t going to use much of it. I liked the plants and decided to name the fern Roderick (If you know I love you). I had stolen some spray paints without anyone noticing, I had walked out at the exact time as someone else to make it look like they had stole something when the alarm went of. I had done things like that before but I don’t normally steal from actual shops. I didn’t bother painting the white walls I just got my spray paint and started spraying it on the walls. Once I had done I had a massive green dragon in the wall and other doodles on the other, I was very proud of it. I had been spray painting since I was very young and I had a black mask with a bit of spray paint on it, I had wore it while painting as I didn’t want to inhale the fumes. I sat on the bed I had and chilled, I had hidden my spray paints so I couldn’t get them taken off me. I wanted to speak to Ranboo again but I didn’t want to bother him and he probably already thought I was very annoying. There wasn’t much I could do, I didn’t own a phone or any devices, I had forgotten to buy scetch books, I did have a couple of books that where in the closet when I first came here but I had no idea how to read. Suddenly there was a knock on the door. The person walked in without waiting for an answer.

“What?” I snapped, I didn’t need people talking to me unless it was Ranboo.

“Hello to you too.” The woman said quietly.

“Who the fuck are you?” I demanded

“I’m Niki, I work here.” She explained politely, suddenly I kinda felt bad, I knew I shouldn’t have snapped at her but I wasn’t going to apologise

“”Oh h-hi. I’m Y/n” I said

“I know, I just wanted to introduce myself and say if you need anything to just ask. Don’t worry if you get lost, it’s a pretty big house, just ask anyone for directions, they’ve all been in the same situation as you so no one’s going to judge you.” She smiled at me

“Thank you.” I said gratefully.

She was about to walk out then she saw all my spray painted walls. Her eyes widened but she didn’t say anything. I went back to lying on the bed. I hated being there, I felt trapped. I just wanted to get out, feel the rain on my face and the breeze in my hair. I sighed. I got up of the bed and walked to the window. It wasn’t massive but it was big enough to climb out of. Maybe if I wanted to escape. Then I decided it wouldn’t be bad if I went for a little stroll, a walk maybe? I left all my stuff in the room and climbed out of the window. I hung off the window sill and looked round, there was an unstable looking drain pipe I could climb down, I decided to go for it and I slid down it. To my suprise it stayed firmly connected to the wall. I hopped of and saw a boy, he had brown hair and brown eyes, he was wearing jumper with bees on. He kinda stared at me.

“The fuck do you want?” I snapped

“I want to know where the fuck you’re going.” He said

“Well why don’t you mind your own business Bee Boi.” I sneered.

He laughed and I joined in. His laughter was sweet and infectious.

“Oh well, just be safe. I can tell your not running away, the amount of people I’ve seen try it not hard to figure out. Make sure your back in an hour because then they start looking for you and then they call the police and that’s where it gets hard to get out of.” He explained to me

“Thank you so much.” I smiled at him.

He smiled back at me and then j started walking down the street. He seemed nice. I wondered if he knew Ranboo. I had no plan of where to go and I’d never been around here before so I wasn’t sure where to go. I found this park and walked into it. It had a lake in it and a play area for children. I started walking round the lake, I found this shady area a way off the path which had a big tree. I climbed up the tree and I found a platform, really large. I could see the lake from up there and the sunset was reflecting off it. It was so pretty. I lay down from a bit and drifted off to sleep. I woke up and the sun was pretty much almost set. I went to look down at my rust then realised I didn’t own a watch. Shit. I had no concept of time and no idea how long I had been out. I almost fell down the tree trying to climb quickly. I got to the ground and started sprinting back the way I was sure I had came. I found the house and climbed up the drain. I had left my window open enough from me to get into. I quickly shut the window and collapsed onto the bed, exhausted from the running. I heard shouting from downstairs and it brought back memories of things I wanted to forget. Suddenly someone barged into my room. I jumped of the bed as a reflex, I fell onto the ground and I quickly stood back up.

“Jack!” I exclaimed

“WHERE THE HELL WHERE YOU?” He shouted.

That shocked me, a lot. I hated being shouted at, it was triggering. I grabbed the closest thing near me and threw it at him. I ran past him and found the bathroom. I ran in and locked it. I was surprised there was a lock on the door, I would have thought Niki and Jack would be more weary of the kids they had here. I sat down on the floor and breathed heavily. I wanted to cry but I wouldn’t do that, not today, not ever. There was a blurry window on the bathroom wall and I could see it was dark outside. I was super tired even though I had slept in the tree house. I found two towels in a cabinet I put one down at a pillow and put the other one over me as a blanket. That was the 2nd most comfiest sleep I had ever had in the life. I had bad nightmares, they were about my past, there was shouting, sometimes at me and sometimes at other things. I wasn’t sure how long I was asleep but I was awoken by a soft knock on the door. I looked at the window and it was light now, meaning I had been there all night.

“Y/n, open up.” Said Jack.

“FUCK OFF!” I shouted at him through the door.

“Y/n please, I’m sorry.” He tried

“ARE YOU FUCKING DEAF? FUCK OFF!” I screamed.

I heard footsteps walking away from the door and I sat there. I wasn’t going to give up but there wasn’t much I could do in the bathroom. The widow didn’t open and there wasn’t any food in here, I was super hungry as-well. I sat there and I could smell the smell of pancakes baking made downstairs for other kids, they were probably being made by Niki. I then heard another knock on the door.

“Hey Y/n, let us in please.” Someone begged.

“Who’s us?” I called.

“It’s Ranboo and Tubbo.” Ranboo’s voice said

“Tubbo?” I asked, I had no idea who Tubbo was.

“Bee Boi!” A sweet voice said, Tubbo’s.

“O-oh.” I stuttered

“Please let us in.” He asked.

“Is it just you guys?” I checked.

“Yeah.” Ranboo told me

“Promise?” I asked

“Promise.” Tubbo confirmed.

I keep towards the door and slowly unlocked it. I let them in and then quickly closed and locked the door again.

“Y/n, you know you can’t stay in here forever, right?” Ranboo asked me nicely

“And why not?” I demanded stubbornly

“Your going to starve to death.” Tubbo said

“Good.” I said quietly, they both looked at me with wide eyes.

Ranboo slowly approaches me by scooting across the floor, I felt his long arms rapping round my body in a comforting manner, he was warm and he felt safe. I hugged him back and tried so hard not to cry. Tubbo came towards us and hugged me aswell. I let out a slight giggle, I didn’t normally like physical contact but this was nice, comforting. We all pulled away but they sat closer to me this time. I put my head on Ranboos shoulder and held Tubbos hand. I hadn’t known either of them for very long but I felt like they were my brothers. It was probably because of my lack of human contact for the past 2 years. I hadn’t talked much until the past two days. I didn’t need to speak, people I stole from didn’t need to know I existed.

“Why are you in here anyway?” Ranboo asked

“Jack screamed at them? Did you not hear?” Tubbo explained

“No I kinda taught myself not to hear screaming.” Ranboo told us

“Oh, I kinda wished I had been able to do that.” I said

“Me too.” Tubbo agreed

“Y/n, what do you say we get out of here, get some snacks, then go watch a movie in my room?” Ranboo asked

“You have a laptop?” I replied

“Yeah!” He said

“I have this memory stick, im not sure what’s on it, could I plug it into your computer?” I asked him

“Yeah of course you can!” He agreed.

Tubbo and Ranboo got up and they both helped to pull me up. I giggled a bit and then we unlocked the door. They both held one of my hands each and we walked to Ranboo’s room which was just down the corridor and opposite them room I was staying in. I went in with them and Ranboo went to get snacks while me and Tubbo sat down.

We heard a knock on the door and found it weird, why would Ranboo knock on the door of his own room? I got up to answer and deeply regretted it when I saw who it was. I went to slam the door but it was caught by Jack.

“Y/n. I wanted to apologise for screaming. It didn’t just upset you it triggered multiple people in this house and I should have known better than to shout.” He apologised

“Wowwww. You’ve managed to figure out how much of a bitch you are.” I sarcastically gave him a round of applause.

“Language, Y/n. We don’t use those type of words in this house.” He told me sternly

“Oh whatever. Fuck off.” I rolled my eyes.

“Jack just give them time. It’s hard being in a new place.” Tubbo pleaded

“Ok Tubbo, you and Ranboo are incharge of Y/n. Don’t let them do anything bad or it’s your fault ok?” Jack said pointedly

“I don’t need looking after.” I complained “I’ve been on my own for two years.”

“Yes, I know. I believe that’s the problem.” He sighed

“Ok bye now!” I tried shutting the door but Jack held it open

“We need to talk about the walls of your room.” He told me

“Ok. Later.” I said trying to get rid of him.

He let out a sign in defeat and left. I breathed a sigh of relief. I hated being bugged like that, I hated people to be honest. I’d been able to talk to no one for over two years I didn’t want people to start annoying me now.

#sbi #sbi x reader #sleepy bois inc #sleepy bois x reader #gn!reader #x reader #ranboo #tubbo #jack manifold #niki nihachu #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #philza #technoblade #niki x reader #jack manifold x reader #ranboo x reader #tubbo x reader

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dammarchy211 · 1 year

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Dam you silly goose! You forgot about Cher in your transgender PN villain post!!!! Give the details of her transfem swag NOWWWW!!!!!! /lh

Oh!! I didn’t include her bc I didn’t feel like it!! /hj

(But in actuality I Almost put a tag on the last post saying I almost included Cher, but shes not entirely a villain and I don’t rlly feel like it. But I didn’t feel like putting that tag either—)

SO.

Cher probably has the backstory I have the most Difficult time deciding what I want for it, so it’ll be kinda vague on that part</3. I DO know that she probably came out when she was like 8-10, and started to transition when she was in high school ish. Probably not rlly medically but at least socially. She’s the type where she never really felt like a boy at all. And an Idea I had for her backstory (that I’m still actually not solid on), is that her parents were really neglectful, and instead of being dismissive they more just outright ignored her, so she was kind of just left to her own world as a child. She’s a very out and proud trans woman, which in part is a reflection of her transformation from meek and ignored child, to whatever the fuck was going on with the hex Hellcat, to someone who’s confident and solid in doing what she loves and presenting herself how she likes, regardless of any anxieties she may still have!

#cher is the transfem autistic swag ever #thedamtalkingtag #psychonauts oc #psychonauts original character #cheri bellum

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 2 months

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HEY HEY HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARI MY SWEET LITTLE BELOVED HIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's way many exclamation marks jfc anyway HOW ARE YOU???? how is uni treating you? are you sleeping are you eating yes this is a mandatory regular checkup. no arguing. other than the checkup i wanted to inquire u more about haikyuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!

i saw that u finished s4 too so now that we're both all caught up i think we need to do a final round of favourites!!! i'm pretty sure i also saw a kita mention hihihi he's was such a sweetheart. and the miya twins were so funny???? but i'm still staying very very true to my beloved kageyama/hinata duo THEY'RE SOOOOOOO GOOODDD WAAHHHH i'm so upset that it's over:((( i mean yeah the movie just came out but that's only like an hour and a half:(((( i need more A LOT MORE i think i'm actually gonna rewatch it again now................. lmao but the dub version this time bc i've seen some clips and it's ridiculously funny hihii

OKE WAIT ALSO BOKUTO?????????? HE'S SOOOO??????? i love him he's also a big sweetheart he dug himself into my heart + i realllly love the bokuto/kuroo duo too they're so fucking silly together<3333 AND i already said that i like tsukki but i need to say that i LOVEDD how cocky him and kageyama were in the final season i'm so proud of them OKAY THAT IS ALL FOR NOWW I HOPE YOUR DAY HAS BEEN GOING WELL MWAH MWAH MWAH LOVE U<3333

- @catchuuu

MICKEYYYY MY MICKEY i am sending u so many sunny vibes ☀️☀️☀️☀️ they r heading ur way 🌻🌻🌻🌻☀️☀️☀️ (also there can never be too many exclamation points silly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

no but we’re soulmates fr i was also gonna send u another ask abt ur hq faves >:33 I MISS IT TOOOO I WANT ANOTHER SEASON :(((((( rewatching in dub is a good idea, i remember watching a couple eps and liking tsukki’s performance :33 he keeps calling kageyama “my liege” LMAO i love them so bad…

NO BUT MICKEY I NEED MORE DETAILS ON UR FAVS likeee if u had . to narrow them down ….. maybe around five ……. 🤔🤔 who would ur faves be. impossible task but !! i just need to know ur Absolute Favorites for science …..

as for the ones u already mentioned <333 OFC I LOVE THEM ALLLLL kagehina are so charming….. i genuinely think it’s impossible not to love them. they’re so good. i LOVED seeing their dynamic grow and shift!! :((( our lovelies …. i’m so fond of both of them. hinata our little orange and kageyama our little blueberry 🍊🫐 <- they r friends :3

AAAA AND !! bokuto!!!!! he’s so charming too!!!!! i never fully got on the bokuto train but i understand why ppl love him so much…. he’s just a big ol sunny boy !!!! his depression spurts are so funny LMAO but he’s also so kind and sweet :((( loveeee his dynamic w kuroo ofc…… AND TSUKKIII him and the troublesome senpai that follow him around and improve his life 😒😒😒 whose advice he truly appreciates even tho he’ll never admit it 😒😒😒😒 such a little loser boy. ON THAT NOTEEE mickey i’m so overjoyed u ended up liking him he’s maybe my Fave overall….. but i can’t rlly say for sure…… i knowwww i’ve already mentioned it before but 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 the ushi block changed my LIFE i still think his character development is crazy good like wowow. AND I ALSO LOVE HOW COCKY HE GETS he’s such a cutie :333 him and kageyama are suchhh a good duo i love them i do….

but okokokok. since my lovely husband asked i’m gonna Try to narrow down my favs….. 😥😥 still ended up with like seven guys BUT i tried my best ok….. here they are <33 our meowmeows <333 i am cradling them gently in my arms.

<33333 i get sooooo happy just looking at them OUR SILLY LITTLE GUYS :((((((( no but. overall i’d say my Absolute Favorites are kuroo, daichi, tsukki, ushi aaaand noya !! kita and oikawa being super close behind :33 (tsumu is on thin ice.)

daichi is just Mommy i’m sorry. not rlly though. he’s soooo sugucoded cmon now :(((( i just think i’m weak for reliable polite motherly men with dark hair who r Fake as Hell <33 one of my fave scenes in the show is when kuroo and daichi are shaking hands all smiley and polite and BOTH of them r just thinking ”he’s the crafty type, huh?” PDHFKDJ THEY’RE SOOO SILLY…. i just love him so dearly :((( he’s so sweet but when he gets angry he’s Terrifying and that contrast makes me so weak. he’s also so funny i adore his interactions w the other karasuno senpai….. our little honeys……….

AND KUROOOO tbh same as daichi….. i’m just extremely weak for his character but ALSOOO gojo voice 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 AND he’s silly and goofy 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 i’ve said it before but he truly is the stsg lovechild how could i NOT adore him. and!! i lovelovelove his dynamic w kenma!!!! the childhood friends trope stays 🔛🔝 they’re the cutest . also he’s canonically a kitty cat !!! i love nekoma <33333

i’ve already said enough abt tsukki i think LMAO but… he’s just suchhhh a little loser AND he appeals to my guilty pleasure when it comes to anime…… Mean Blondes With Glasses. 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 no but he’s just so wellwritten and cute he’s my little guyyyy he makes me so happy :3 LOVE his dynamic w yamaguchi and hinata and kageyama those are his silly little idiot loser friends and he loves them very much.

ANDAND AND :3333 NOYA :33333 ohhhhh mickey noya is my special little guy Ever i need to know more abt ur thoughts on him…. i didn’t think i’d end up loving him so much but he’s just ??? easily the coolest character ???? while also being sooo charming and sweet and funny . his saves are always so epic and i love how he’s always keeping the team together. he rlly is their guardian angel ☹️ a little ball of sunshine but he’s also so confident and comfortable in himself and HHHH . i just love him sm!!!!

and ushi <333 our autistic king he’s so funny and cool and cute. karasuno vs shiratorizawa was my favorite match btw like the differences between them…. the different dynamics……… the crows vs the eagles 😵‍💫😵‍💫 hinata from the concrete .. vs ushi up on the mountain top ….. they make me insane. i think characters who are fully sincere in everything they do are SO charming and that’s literally ushi,… he loves volleyball and he’s never mean for the sake of being mean he just wakes up every day and chooses to speak Facts. he’s charming!!! that One scene where he borrows tendou’s shounen jump just to read the adverts…. 😭😭 he’s the funniest man alive . i loveeee him i want to kiss his forehead and tuck him into bed

and then oikawa obv …. little loserboy…….. he’s a hater and he’s pretty and he’s trying his best :(( hardworking characters . are also so so charming. he has so many great moments and banger lines… that whole thing abt talent vs instinct ……. he rlly is so lovely BUT he’s also just . Funny. shows up to matches just to hate on both sides . realest guy alive

AND FINALLY (needed to rant a little abt all these guys they mean the world to me 💔) kita…. + atsumu………. tsumu isn’t my Absolute Fave or anything but he’s cool and funny and sweet :3 AND HE’S A FOX I LOVE FOXIES……. (on that note i Still haven’t gotten to ur ask abt knight!sugu n brat!reader :cc I PROMISE I’M GETTING TO IT THOUGH WAIT FOR ME MY SWEET) also LOVE his last words to hinata in s4. how one day he’ll set for him. it’s such a fun twist to the kagehina dynamic where they vow to fight against each other but end up on the same side… meanwhile tsumu looks at his opponent and just goes I’M gonna set for that little guy one day. anyway enough abt tsumu we neeeed to talk abt kita bc he stole my heart…… he’s just such a good character to me he’s so charming (ik i’ve been saying that for Literally Everyone BUT IT’S TRUEEEE i know u’ll get it mickey)…… that scene where he cries :(((( bc he got a jersey :(((((( he’s such a sweetie AND LEAVING A CARE PACKAGE FOR TSUMU WHEN HE GOT SICK he’s just so caring?????? (again … one thing abt me is that i like Motherly Men) he loves his teammates sm he’s such a good captain. i did in fact Cry when he praised them after the match . inarizaki stole my heart a little . silly little foxes .

………… ok that’s all i think PHDKDBDBD …. i . love them a bunch :) BUT I LOVE U MORE MICKEY ty for checking in <333 uni is being nice but i got knocked down by a sudden anxiety wave so i’m just kinda waiting for it to leave :’3 BUT i’m doing fine overall!! how r things on ur end ?? is spring treating u kindly?? r u taking care of urself properly??? <33 i hope so!!!!! the sunny vibes r still heading ur way…. 🌻🌻🍊🍊☀️☀️ getting closer …… have a cute little picture of hinata as a treat :33 ILYSMM

#AND PLS DO TELL ME MORE ABT UR HQ FAVES <3333 neeeeed to see u rant abt all of them ik u have a bunch of thoughts stored up…#ON THAT NOTE i still haven’t read ur oikawa fic but!!! i can’t wait to!!!!!#like i said .. the early spring anxiety came for me so i’ve had some trouble focusing but i rlly am so excited to meet ur oikawa :33 #i knowwww he’s gonna be the most charming little pretty boy <3333 #WAIT ALSO i have ofc read ur rb of the sashisu fic and i am kissing u silly #gonna respond to that properly but i hope u know how much u mean to me T—T #talking to u is so fun mickey #wishing u all the goodest hq vibes i hope hinata shouyo himself shows up at ur doorstep and gives u fresh oranges 🍊🍊🍊#I LOVE U ALWAYS <33 hope ur day is going well so far!!!!#ask tag ✩#mickey !! ✩

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charlotteiscrying · 4 months

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you never made me cum. not once ever. i really wish that was a lie. i faked it every time. i don’t even feel guilty anymore for it. but i’m glad, so mf glad, i left it with you believing your dick is just THAT good. because you’re pretty awful at fucking. you always ONLY do short, fast strokes, which prolly do feel the best to you, but they feel the worst to the girl. maybe that was on purpose though, i keep realizing more and more that you only ever cared abt yourself. i didn’t have the heart to correct how you fuck. i really tried to give you tips, tried to tell you what i needed you to do. the longest you ever ate my pussy was for five minutes. it takes me 15 minutes with a mother fucking vibrator to cum, you never even got close.

when a girl squirts, that’s just liquid coming out, there’s no orgasm. that’s why i’d always stumble over my words when trying to explain that squirting is different than cumming. one time i tried to say that you hadn’t made me cum, you looked at me like i was insane, and you told me that you knew as a fact i had already came. when you would eat me out i’d tell you omg do not stop doing that, you’d immediately stop, or you’d do it for 15 more seconds, assume i’m good, then stop. the times id tap out were because your dick was hitting my cervix. that is the one thing you do have going for you, your dick is huge. but size really don’t matter if you don’t know how to use it. none of this ever mattered to me, because sex is just skin deep. you were so much more to me than just an orgasm. so much more. it didn’t matter if you’d made me cum because i knew that night id be asleep, held tight in your arms, and i knew that i loved you, and you loved me (that’s the first time ive said that in past tense, i’m proud of myself).

i tried so hard to explain what i wanted. what i needed you to do to make me feel good. “can you go slow this time ?” “no i don’t like that.” “will you eat me out just a little longer ?” “no my tongue hurts.” “i cum harder from my clit than from my pussy,” “no you don’t dummy i fuck your pussy not your clit.” “you should tie me up, you should come over one day n just start fucking me don’t ask just do it, i want you to dominate me i want you to tell me what to do,” “are you sure you want that ? i don’t think you’d like that.” you’d always complain abt giving me hickeys, kissing my neck, you straight up refused to suck on my nips after i got them pierced, bc you didn’t like how they look. you’d say they tasted like house keys. welp, your sweaty hairy unwashed ball sack never rlly tasted all that great either. but i never complained. when you’d say “i want you to suck my dick but ik i smell,” id say “omg come here rn you DO NOT smell, n if you do ill suck it up, i want you to get what you want i want you to feel good.”

the amount of times i woke you up by sucking your dick, even though i had explained to you multiple times that i was raped in my sleep, that’s a lil triggering for me, i really don’t wanna do that. you’d ask me about twice a week to do that for you, so id do it. i did lots of sexual or even non-sexual things i neverrrr wanted to do, but i did them bc i wanted you to feel good. id do absolutely anything for you. and i knew from day one that you wouldn’t do absolutely anything for me, yet i didn’t care. ig i’m stupid. or way too hopeful. i’d suck your dick for hours. gagging n struggling not to puke while ur pulling on my hair n pushing my head down, i loved it. i loved making you feel good. that’d turn me on more than any shape or pattern your hands tried to draw on my body. you never once traced big circles on my back. you’d never play with my hair. you’d never kiss the back of my neck, you’d never take even 5 mins before we fucked to just touch on me, to actually try to turn me on.

i did bring that up once. i told you i wanted you to take more time to turn me on. it turned into a huge argument about me lying n how ur ex faked it n how ur mom faked it and on and on. all i wanted was you to say oh that’s easy ! i can touch you more. the same way i said oh that’s easy ! i can put my sock on your dick ! all i ever wanted was to please you, if you ever had actually cared you woulda spent a lot more time focusing on pleasing me. those few times you put a vibrator on me, those were amazing. the last time you fucked me, on my bday when i flew out to you, that was the best you’ve ever fucked me. you listened to what i asked you to do, you went slow, you touched on my body, you kissed my neck. it’s pretty fucked up, the very last time we fuck is the best it’s ever felt. and i still didn’t cum. i went to the bathroom n finished myself.

at least i know damn well that i’m the best you’ve ever had. or will ever have. you’ll never find another girl who can fuck like me, ride like me, deep throat like me. but don’t you worry, i also know damn mother fucking well that you’re not the biggest dick i’ve ever had. or will ever have. i love the fact that for the rest of forever, ever single time you beat your dick, i’m who you’re thinking about. you’ll probably still watch all the videos we made. and i know im the last girl you’ll ever film with. good luck finding another girl that’s down to have threesomes with you, that you actually wanna be with. there’s a huge difference between a freak and a whore. i’m the only girl you’ll ever fuck who’s a porn star. i’m the only girl you’ll ever be with that’s hot enough to work, and make BANK, in this industry. i’m the only girl who will ever let you use me how i like, and i know AS A MF FACT i’m the freakiest girl you’ll ever get with. i love the fact i fulfilled all your fantasies, i gave you something you’d only ever dreamed of. i love that you’re never gonna feel that again, from anyone, ever, because i know i’m NEVER EVER touching you, or your dick, again. i am the only person that will ever make you feel like that. even if you get back on the pills, no amount of fentanyl will ever feel like my throat, my socks, or my pussy. i just hope you got all the freaky puss you need outta this life. and i hope that subpar motodyke coochie was worth never feeling me, my throat, my pussy, or my ass, ever again.

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fae-queen54 · 10 months

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does anyone else have a hard time coming out to their long time friends? like i had an easier time coming out to these two freshmen that my sister is friends with than i did with my actual friend group. and i cannot for the life of me tell if that’s rsd or me telling these queer kids i’m a safe person. bc like those kids are ab to hit high school since they’re incoming freshmen and there’s a lot of homophobes and transphobes where i go to school. but i legit had no anxiety or anything telling these 14 yr olds “i’m gender-fluid and bi, he/she/they/it” when they asked my pronouns after telling me theirs. i haven’t even come out fully to my best friend bc i get scared that she’ll try to invalidate me. my friend hasn’t even done that to anyone in front of me at least so idk why i’m scared.

btw it’s so cute to see queer kids unafraid to tell people who they are. like they just proudly told me and didn’t even look scared bc adults were around. i rlly love that they aren’t afraid to do that like i am. even though i’m barely three yrs older it’s amazing to see queer youth being proud no matter what. bc when i was just entering hs i was so afraid to say i was queer. these kids have been out and proud since they were 12-13. and they’re not afraid to admit labels change. like so many people my age are afraid to label themselves bc they think they’re stuck w it. it’s so shocking to me bc my friends aren’t older than these kids. but when these kids told me who they were so proud i just wanted to cry. bc they weren’t afraid. like my friends and i are hardly closeted when we’re not around our parents but like i don’t admit i’m queer until like months into forming a friendship. and it’s never been how it was with those freshmen. it’s always been a passing comment like in response to another passing comment like “imagine being pan and having no pull” and responding “ab as bad as a queer girl having no pull?” like i think the one time me addressing my sexuality has ever been the entire focus was when i first came out and that’s only bc it was a heat of the moment thing at a hoco dance. i’ve never introduced myself like “hi i’m noah, i’m gender-fluid and queer/bi/whatever, these are my pronouns” like those kids did and i want that! i want to be that proud, that unafraid of others opinions, that out and open ab myself and my identity.

#lgbtq #genderfluid #rsd #audhd #queer youth #rejection sensitive dysphoria #also i am having a crisis ab my sexuality again #bc multisexual labels can be confusing when you don’t know which one is for you #like i identified at bi when i first came out but like #omnisexual also kinda fits #pan doesn’t rlly bc i kinda have a gender pref #like non-men are rlly hot #and my ex-bf has made me have rlly high standards for cis-men bc of how many 🚩he had #as far as my bio goes i’m sticking w queer for now bc some people use that for liking whoever they end up liking

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