#im crying really am

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[nyxofdemons]

THE WAY THAT THEY INVENTED ROMANCE WITH THIS SONG???? HELLO?????

#'i don't know why you waste your time on me' 'baby; all i got is time!' OH MY *GOD* #WHY IS THAT THE MOST ROMANTIC THING THATS EVER HAPPENED #im screaming and crying knowing no one else will ever have what they do #like i am so serious ive never REALLY cried at this show before but this song got me so bad #theyre so fucking cute. im going to lay on the floor and be overwhelmed by yearning #mine #fave #<- yes im tagging my own posts w this #helluva boss #helluva boss spoilers #fizzarolli #asmodeus #fizzmodeus #helluva boss fizzarolli #fizzarolli helluva boss #asmodeus helluva boss #helluva boss asmodeus #e: mammon's magnificent musical mid-season special

[underfell]

KO-FI DONATION DOODLE REQUESTS

I AM VERY NEW TO THIS, I've always managed to handle things myself in my personal life but it's different this time.

I'm pretty nervous doing this because it's hard for me to admit that I need help and ask for it in the first place.

This is temporary as I find financial stability, literally anything would be tremendous help for me.

Thank you for taking your time to read this, for sharing, and for enjoying my art.

#i like want to cry because that how anxious i am about doing this #sorry that this is such a IRL post.. i wanted to keep this blog and UF out of reach of shit like this but it really came down to this #LINK ADDED IM SO … EMBARRASSED

[byunbaekhyunie]

@monwillica & @merrybaekmas asked: which EXO member is most like you?

JONGINIE

#kai #jongin #kim jongin #exoedit #kpop #kpopccc #mgroupsedit #malegroupsedit #* #neox #gifs #exoask #i really could keep going he is just like me i am just like him fr fr #here are more random traits we share: being bad sports / hate running / not wearing socks with shoes / infj / blood type a / maknae / #being good at drawing / we have many similar habits and i think also very similar temperaments and senses of humour overall i see myself a #lot in him we're siblings #also im sorry abt the one of him crying i know it ruins the silly goofy vibe of the set but our sensitivity is a key similarity

[tianhai03]

the look he gives you when he thinks you're looking to play and he figures he's got some time to kill

#seeing those gifs really got me. i looked at my canvas. zoned out for about an hour. and then this appeared #i have so many homosexual things i can say abt him but it's past bedtime for me so im gonna go before i sit here until 3 am <3 #devil may cry #dante(dmc) #allyart

[faggyangel]

crowley finds absolution through his love and desire for aziraphale, there is no sweeter innocence than their gentle sin, his love for aziraphale is stronger and more faithful than heaven's devotion to god, he worships him, aziraphale is the last true mouthpiece of god, if god speaks, it's through aziraphale. if there was anything truly Holy, it's aziraphale but crowley is a pagan of the good times, he was born sick and aziraphale is the sunlight, he's the giggle at a funeral, he is the closest thing to Heaven crowley will ever get or would ever want to get. in the madness and soil of this earthly desire, within this love and sin, he is clean and human and holy

#i'm not kidding i'm physically sick i am shaking and crying and throwing up #i tink i hauuve covid #good omens #i cannot believe they really put hozier's take me to church on his goddamn playlist i am Not Okay im nfnnfejaoon #aziracrow #crowley tag

[glaasshouses]

@brybarian - Noah for Liquid Death

#IM SORRY I WAS PHYSICALLY NOT ABLE TO WAIT FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO POST THESE #I AM EXPLODING #wont be able to think about anything else for the next few days thaml yew 4 asking xx #screaming crying throwing up #bad omens #noah sebastian #brybarian #also yes the quality is actual ass i just learned how to save instagram pictures for this lmao #no clue if theres a way to get better quality pics but who cares #also the fucken gender envy is REALLY REAL w these i-

[saewokhrisz]

bro is pondering!!!

#drew these ALSO With my left hand cuz boy am i!!! in a lot of pain !!!!!!! #i feel obnoxious a bit saying it every time i post art i did with my left but i also wanna make it known cuz its really challenging and #im proud of myself for it #if theres a will theres a way you cannot stop my creative genius #anyways !!! i love pewter !!! give him his boyfriend back please im still crying #aitsf #pewter #ai the somnium files #my art #fanart

[captn3]

until next time.... stay fresh [plain text: until next time.... stay fresh]

#splatoon #splatoon 1 #wii u #memo's constellations #inkling girl #memo's agents #memo agents: 3 #technically. its the splatoon 1 promo inkling but based off of my 3 design #sad im probably not gonna get to play splatoon in its last moments #its okay though #god. the 3ds and wii u era was fucking awesome #im gonna miss her #triforce heroes‚ splat1‚ pushmo world... god. god #i listened to noteblock's 3ds settings remix and it actually made me cry because triforce heroes showed up in the background #and then it hit me how long its been and how much these two consoles have meant to me #the 3ds was really my gateway into art #thank you colors 3d. ive made it so far because of you #man. something about the online services ending the same day as the eclipse over here. #and the wii u was technically also my gateway into art with splatoon. it made me draw so much more #do you know how much splatoon ive drawn. that game changed me. that game makes me who i am today #thank you

[cobaltfluff]

so i started playing persona 4

where are the QoL features

#persona series #art tag #ACK I FORGOR TO COLOUR THE BITS BEHIND HAIR nvm #i have no idea how to tag this!! #i fear what original p3 might have been like #i feel like a fake gamer man #like how did you guys do that #i feel like i would have given up if it was the first one i played #i am too stupid!! #im glad i have played through 5 and 3re #i am somewhat used to the flow of the game and the ability names #otherwise i would be STRUGGLING for my LIFE i tell you #like to be fair i dont think it's a huge world #BUT LIKE PLEASE IM LOST IN MY OWN HOUSE #also these protags are basically my OCs at this point #i borrow their canon personalities #and reshape them into something i like more hehehehe #edit: im crying im getting lowkey flamed on tweeter dot com #i just meant it as in joker spent a lot of time in tokyo!! one year changes a man!! #I KNOW inaba is small!! but QoL additions are always good!! #i get the appeal!! that you use your brain!! #you spend enough time to know the place!! but it's called QoL features not NECESSARY features!! #im cryin the boys ate just bantering #you can even read it as yu being like LOL you're a city boy now huh?? hahaha #now i really am fighting for my life and mental

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[kadens-a-bee]

SKID PUMP OH MY FUCKING GOD

#THEYRE SO SAD #THEY NEED SO MUCH THERAPY AND HUGS #IM LOSING MY MIND #they started out so so silly and then pelo really hit them with the parental issues beam #AAAAAAA #bro when pump answered the phone at the beginning thinking it was his parents :[ #youre gonna see me on the news #AND JACK AND JOHN ASSURING THEM THAT THEIR PARENTS ARE PROUD OF THEM #I CANT WITH THIS SHIT MAN #CRYING ON THE FLOOR RN #i set up my drawing notebook so then i can doodle this episode when its done and now here i am screaming in the tags of a tumblr post #spooky month #spooky month spoilers #kaden speaks

[aphoniaa-two]

my dumb ass forgot to take my iPad charger to college! ft. 100 adopts sneakpeek and potoo dragon

#art #procreate #digital art #artists on tumblr #sketch #drawing #dragon #dragon art #wings of fire #wof #this is a cry for help #100 adopts is an insane task #like im gonna finish it because im so far done with it #but repetition really screws with creativity #AND #i don’t have time to give these designs the pizzazz they deserve #ADDTIONALLY #i am struggling with colors #this is what i get #for never studying color theory

[dizzybizz]

hi, sorry not sorry for these

#im very excited for ep9 :) take these angsty sketches in the meantime #well more so hurt/comfort- #i might go back and add some thoughts about these- we'll see #just thinking really hard about them comforting eachother and all #giving hugs... bringing tissues and a glass of water... listening... oooughhhh #i think they both deserve a good crying sesh #i was listening to the cutest mf music while drawing these- does it show #i am so so normal about them #buddy daddies #rei suwa #kazuki kurusu #fanart #my art

[kiviniik]

curious bugs ready to be best friends

#kiv.draws #pokemon #golisopod #joltik #my art #theyre so funky i love it #i think the joltik is too big but eh #dont really care #its cute #i swear if this doesnt appear in the tags again #ill cry like the little baby i am #also first completed drawing since i started having acute arthritis! #im in so much pain rn #hey quesalupa #this is for you