#in different words of course

[rohirric-hunter]

I finally got a half stable job, part-time retail, but they handed me my schedule today and I nearly threw up. Two years ago I bit and clawed my way out of retail specifically because I couldn’t bear to work that kind of schedule anymore, but after eight months it’s the only job I can get and I gotta have money, but I get actually nauseated every time I think about it

#orientation was earlier today and it was just red flags so many red flags #nothing unusual for retail but like i havent worked retail in two years #i finally got away from all that #also the specific position i was hired for was 'head cashier' #which at this company doesnt mean i will be cashiering #it means i will be standing around criticizing the way the actual workers cashier #this is what they told me when i asked what the job would entail #in different words of course #thats not a real job #i made a deal with myself #3 shifts #3 normal non training shifts #if it is anywhere in the realm of as bad as i expect it to be ill quit on the spot #but right now im just hyperventilating and crying #the problem with the schedule is that i have both closing and opening shifts #not consecutively which makes it better than most retail #but like #i cant do that #i have to work either in the morning all the time or in the evening all the time #i cant do both #nobody can not really #its not sustainable #and im sorry but its not like a job where that needs to be the case #its just fucking retail #they could easily give people regular shifts and they choose not to #why do they choose not to! theres no reason!!! #i gotta go calm down but theres no way to calm down #theres no proper distraction #ive applied to so many warehouses and construction companies and what have you #and they wont hire me! i get no interviews!

[panrao]

Spoilers, it's dysphoria

#panrao #my art #sir crocodile #crocomom #crocodad #dadodile #one piece #monkey d luffy #tony tony chopper #my take on the mama or dad conversation #luffy has trouble understanding gender and the intricate meanings different words have #He considers Crocodile very much male #but also calls him mom since to him it's the most literal meaning he can think of #he doesnt mean it in a demeaning way but since he gave birth to Luffy=mom in Luffys mind #Croco quickly clears up any misunderstandings about his gender #with his hook lmao #Luffy only gets away with it because Crocodile has a soft spot for him #of course all very much headcanon and not canon (yet..)

[scribefindegil]

As much as I adore conlangs, I really like how the Imperial Radch books handle language. The book is entirely in English but you're constantly aware that you're reading a "translation," both of the Radchaai language Breq speaks as default, and also the various other languages she encounters. We don't hear the words but we hear her fretting about terms of address (the beloathed gendering on Nilt) and concepts that do or don't translate (Awn switching out of Radchaai when she needs a language where "citizen," "civilized," and "Radchaai person" aren't all the same word) and noting people's registers and accents. The snatches of lyrics we hear don't scan or rhyme--even, and this is what sells it to me, the real-world songs with English lyrics, which get the same "literal translation" style as everything else--because we aren't hearing the actual words, we're hearing Breq's understanding of what they mean. I think it's a cool way to acknowledge linguistic complexity and some of the difficulties of multilingual/multicultural communication, which of course becomes a larger theme when we get to the plot with the Presgar Translators.

#imperial radch #also a great example of the 'you don't have to be Tolkien' phenomenon #if you want to think about linguistic differences by building all the languages in your setting #and being able to explain what those differences are through actual texts in the language in question #that's AWESOME #but it's not the only way to do it #it's also interesting because of course this style only works in book form #everyone's speaking different languages but in a written account they're all 'translated' for you #but of course if it was a TV series they would all have to be speaking a language the audience understands #(or you *would* have to go wild with conlangs) #and i think that's really cool as well-- #how for a series where song is so central we don't actually hear any of the actual in-universe words or any of the music #it's all been filtered #and again you know this is happening but seeing the examples of how real songs--the shape hymns and 'L'homme Arme'--are presented #makes you a lot more viscerally aware of how limited your perspective is #it's good #ann leckie i love you

[otaku553]

Outfit breakdowns for all of my Kirby hero of yore ocs! I don’t know if I can count Galacta (or Papi) as ocs but my interpretations are rather far from the source material at this point ^^;

First is Galacta, the Hero of Heart, who is the hero among heroes of the four of them. The most honored, the most gallant, the light and hope of Halcandra.

Second is Nebula, the Hero of Dream, who is a laid-back, mostly relaxed figure who is calm and kind. Though they can often be found napping in various locations around town, in battle, they are a fierce warrior, and are very protective of Galacta.

Third is Papilio, the Hero of Soul, also known to many as Lio, or by their personal name, Anax. They are the smallest and the youngest of the heroes, a prodigy with the blade, and known as the fastest and most light-footed of the heroes.

And finally, the Hero of Dark, whose true name is only known to their friends. They are the quietest of the heroes, and wield a spear, though most of their powers are long range magic.

#kirby gijinka #kirby oc #heroes of yore #I have been having So much trouble naming them. my god #nebula was the easiest name because I wanted them to act as a foil to galacta but also a close friend who grew up in similar circumstances #their names are quite similar because of this: they both have three syllables and end with an a #but put emphasis on different syllables: gaLACta and NEBula #then papi is based on of course papi from the light novels #I wasn’t sure if I wanted to rename them but I definitely wanted their name to be a bit longer and have more gravitas #hence the genus papilio which also matches the naming pattern for morpho #the other name anax is based on a specific species of morpho butterflies (or subgenus? I forget) called anaxibia #the hero of dark is still a bit up in the air but I think their name is Koilos #based on the Greek word for hollow and also based on the deer genus odocoileus

[ahxiang]

WEN KE XING COSTUME APPRECIATION (insp)

#word of honor #priestnet #wohdaily #wohedit #immortalwanderers #shan he ling #wen ke xing #cdrama #cdramaedit #shl #woh #asiandramasource #* #*gifs #*shl #FINALLY DONE WITH THIS SET #i'm so proud of it def one of my favorites ever #i've worked on this set in five different states over the course of a year it's gone everywhere with me absjskal #anyway i love wkx's hanfu sm!! #tyk #1k

[chill-vibes-but-rainbow-panic]

I love characters not being able to tell they're being deceived by a shapeshifter!

Love the audience not being able to tell they're being deceived by a shapeshifter!!!

#Don't get me wrong; zero shade towards my shapeshifters who are very 'obviously' shifters (Jake; Amethyst; etc.) #But smth about those where you realistically *couldn't tell* you're dealing with a copycat just hit different for me #Of course they tend to have obvious visual e.g. tells for the audience; but those often either don't exist within canon or I can ignore #And when even *we* can't tell? Even better!a #Also Spy counts as an honourary shifter. Because what is shapeshifting but making a disguise out of your flesh and blood? #If you can't shapeshift naturally; store-bought is fine #In hindsight I think that's two words but I am not rediting the image so I'm spelling it like that in my own tags too #shape shifter #my little pony friendship is magic #changeling #thorax #darkwing duck #camille chameleon #team fortress 2 #tf2 spy #pokemon #ditto

[amphibious-thing]

Tell me less about how we don’t know how they would identify today (a statement that can be made about literally every historical figure) and more about how they expressed themselves in their lifetime.

#I think this is one of the big issues with how we talk about queer history #like yeah of course the culture d’Eon lived in influenced her understanding of gender #sure if she was a millennial she might use different words to describe herself #but isn’t the point of studying history to learn about how people lived in the past #not how they might have theoretically lived if they were alive now

[brainworms-all-night-long]

Just, Sonic being reminded of little Tails whenever taking care of either of the shatterverse foxes.

Sonic being reminded of the feral, scruffy, starved and tiny child when stopping Mangey from biting someone, when he grabs him and his hands wrap around his torso almost completely. Or when he sits late nights outside by a campfire (because he failed to drag the fox inside the workshop just yet.) trying to fight off the endless knots in the years neglected, messy fur.

Sonic getting flashbacks once he runs by a crater in the sand on the beach undoubtedly left behind by a failed bomb crafting test and later finds Sails quietly trying to get all the gunpowder and grime out of his fur. When he sees the light shining in the fox's eyes as he's fired up to help out on a mission and Sonic knows there's no convincing him otherwise.

Sonic being reminded of the early days, when both him and Tails got mostly used to each other, but not quite, as he reaches out to Nine just a bit too quickly, or touches him without warning and the fox flinches. When he sees the same heartbreaking disbelief in his eyes as Tails still sometimes has when giving him an earnest compliment. When he has to remind the other that there's no secret criteria he has to tick off every day to deserve love.

Sonic getting to raise Tails all over again man.

#sonic prime #prime bros #Yooo been thinking abt this concept for over a week and it's finally in words!!! #Of course Sonic knows neither of the foxes ARE Tails #just #they're far too similar in some aspects #this is the times that he's reminded that they're his brother just in a different font #the text is the same but its differing presentation matters #he's done all of this already #and somehow #he still doesn't know if he's doing it truly right #sonic the hedgehog #prime sonic #miles tails prower #tails the fox #mangey tails #mangey the fox #sails tails #sails the fox #miles nine prower #nine the fox #silly brainworms

[yardsards]

whoever popularized the obsession with "growth mindset" in education owes every disabled kid an apology letter

#eliot posts #like of course it is important to build confidence in kids and a belief that they can improve #but the whole like #''you MUST believe that you can do ANYTHING and if you bring up any of your limits you just have a Fixed Mindset and are Wrong'' #that's. that breeds so much fucking ableism in teachers #seriously the teachers who cared most abt that mindset shit loooved to pretend my disabilities didn't exist #and shame me when i admitted struggles and acknowledged my limits #it's the same as that ''you're not disabled you're just differently abled :)'' nonsense #i'm fucking disabled! it's not a dirty word! it's not shameful to be unable to do shit or to struggle more to do shit! #ALSO iirc the studies that ''proved'' the effectiveness of mindset interventions in schools were EXTREMELY limited #and didn't stand up well to replication. and overall just suffered from publication bias #*shaking my fist at carol dweck*

[front-facing-pokemon]

#alt with eyes hidden under the cut #cofagrigus #their eyes are shiny. made of plastic. so they're looking a little bright. apologies for this #so. generally when i have quarrels about the pronunciation of a pokémon's name (since i don't watch anipoké) #where someone else and i pronounce the same pokémon's name differently. which doesn't happen very often‚ since typically i talk about #pokémon mostly entirely in text. because most of the communication about things i like happens in text. and the pokémon games #are not voice acted. so pronunciation of their names is sparse and sometimes limited to anipoké but even they're inconsistent i think #but whenever i have quarrels about the pronunciation of a name. someone else and i pronounce it differently. i go to pokédex 3d pro #on the 3ds. because every time you go to a pokémon's dex entry‚ the pokédex guy says their name out loud #i basically treat this as gospel for how to pronounce pokémon names. i've been proven wrong a lot but i've also been proven right a lot #and this guy. oooohhh this guy. before pokédex 3d pro i pronounced this guy's name as though the F-slur was right in the middle #only recently did i learn that it kinda sounds like “grievous‚” [kʰɐ.fə.'gɻiː.gəs] #at least. that's how the pokédex 3d pro guy says it #whereas i had been pronouncing it [kʰow.'fæg.ɻɪ.gəs]. so. you can see the issue that arises with that pronunciation #a lot of these pronunciations that i have to double-check just live in my head. and it's only when i say them out loud that i realize #how i'm saying them. like how i pronounce “centiskorch” as [sɑ̃.t͡si̠.skoʁʃ] for some fucking reason. my brain sees it and is like #yeah that's? a french word? even though it looks nothing like one #i also tend to pronounce “grumpig” as ['gʀʊm.pɪç] because of the “ig” at the end. i guess. german instinct #of course these are pronunciations i never say out loud but the first time i Have to say this pokémon's name out loud i'll go #oh yeah! it's not pronounced like that. i should probably not say that #and then i do not. just a fun little story about my twisted and fucked up mind. a little peek into my enigmatic brainspace #jesus christ these are some of the longest tags i've ever written. i'm gonna stop

[shakingparadigm]

this is random but one of my favorite ALNST joke OCs is a girl who had a massive crush on Ivan and was able to date him for a little while because he felt bored enough to accept her. what follows is the most excruciating insanity inducing half-relationship in existence (they lasted 3 weeks before she gave up trying to understand him)

#her name is saya!! saya ng #she had the biggest crush on ivan and when she asked him out he said yes in the most casual way ever that she thought he was joking #the whole time they're “together” she's nervously looking away and blushing while ivan's eyes are trained on that gray haired boyfail there #whenever she'd ask to do couple things with him like hold hands or eat together he'd comply for a little while #but then he'd say something important came up and that he had to leave #she understood because of course! he's a top student surely hes busy no worries #he always seemed to have a wall up. smile never faltering but never fully genuine either #he always looked at her like he was seeing past her and not like he was looking at her person #he was a good and charming conversationalist but even though she got to spend more time with him #it never really felt like a “relationship”. more like two people roleplaying the actions of a relationship #because ivan was so closed off #she started noticing till more all because ivan kept noticing him #and she noticed how he seemed to change when he noticed till. like tills presence was enough to rewire his brain #she quickly realized she was nobody next to him and broke it off #anyways she got sent home because she wasn't good enough to graduate (she wasn't particularly good at anything) #she watched all her friends (dotori/acorn #round 3 and 4 kids) #die on screen #and when she's sent to a different singing competition she loses and dies #her name saya ng combines to make the word sayang #which in my language means: a waste #okay. this was supposed to be funny but now that im saying it #it low-key sounds kind of diabolical #by the way this idea is inspired by the Patreon info about ivan #(he CANONICALLY would accept anyones confession if he was bored enough. V and Q said that theyd tire of ivan being so closed and mysterious) #imagine being in the “recovering from dating ivan” club #alnst #random

[fortyfive-forty]

grabbing fistfuls of my own hair rocking back and forth repeating to myself like some kind of fucked up wizardly enchantment you should care about womens sports because its literally the same fucking sport why do i have to bend over backwards to convince you to care about womens sports like at an abstract level it is the exact same fucking thing and yet you cannot bear to possibly watch it unless you think the women are hot or there is some sort of social gain why is it so hard for you to care about womens sports when they are literally doing all of it better than the men

#i stand by my belief that womens sports are more entertaining anyways but i know that is somewhat personal preferences so ok! fine! #but they are the same then! #obviously yes there are legit differences in ~style~ and such based on the way different sports have evolved #ex: female basketballers are statistically better shooters than male basketballers #but like the sport itself is practically identical so why is it so fucking impossible for some people #to get interested in a sport they claim they love #just because women are doing it #i'm not sitting here like 'mmm how do i convince people to watch women's sport' like a legit plot #i'm just baffled i really don't understand #i mean i do understand of course but i'm just tired of it being this way lol #i want to talk to more people who have the level of brainrot i have about women's sports and it feels like everyone i know well #is just not that interested in the women even though they're interested in the men #of course there are people online but i get self-conscious and i don't know anyone well enough to truly go to the depths of my own brainrot #this is just a combination of genuine frustration but also my own loneliness lol #< wayyy more dramatic than it actually is for the record i'm not like lonely lonely #i just want someone who actually understands why i go nuts over this and who i feel comfortable spamming about it 😭 #blah blah blah words

[bonefall]

Tbh the whole 'bloodclan bans families and hates Cat God' thing really reminds me of the anti communist bullshit I was fed in highschool history class.

Every day I count my lucky stars that I got educated in a well-funded school in a blue state. My teachers were shockingly good in hindsight, I didn't get half of the same propaganda some of my friends in other states got.

#One of the coolest things that we did in my high school history class was #My teacher actually taught us the dawn of the soviet union and the rise of stalinism #AND THEN pulled out a book they had to read in their college course! #Which taught the SAME story from the other side. Exactly as a teenager in the soviet union would learn the story #It blew my third eye RIGHT open #And I think it became downright formative because I've never been able to look at the concept of history lessons the same way #Both the American story and the Soviet story framed their home nations as the righteous entity #And I guess the narrative concept of 'framing' had never felt SO REAL before #Same events just described differently... how much can change from wording #And later that year when I learned about the american whiskey rebellion I thought of a farmer uprising in the soviet union #Yknow. Thinking about it. I wonder if this at all contributed to why I made the Educator role... #Tomorrow's history is today's politics lads. Don't forget that. #And they will laminate the shit and the mud along with the truth. #Bone babble

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

donna "it was never that far from the surface mate" noble not having a worry in the world leaving 14 and yaz alone in the living room at night to finish their movie while she goes to bed entirely unaware of the tragic lesbian romance of the century that those two concluded about an hour before donna re-met the doctor

#rose having pried into the situation and gotten like a hundred 'it's Complicated's from yaz looking at them like.................. #donna meanwhile 'that boy is gay and that girl is a lesbian it's just two homos being homos you know' #rose 'i dont think those are the words you want to use mum' #'what is it offensive?' #'well yeah but thats not what i meant' #in the end donna is right of course she neednt worry #in the end rose is ALSO right of course theres gay drama going down 100% #i just think it's interesting that like. youve got all these different interpretations of the doctor right? #theyre like this whole spectrum of things. theyre the light and every colour is a different doctor but they all exist next to each other #simultaneously #and in this specific setup the way that donna is both right and not #and the way that 14 exists and 13 exists and theyre not the same person but also they are #its very holding two things at once #wait does donna know abt yaz bc of the metacrisis thing? i dont really understand the memory sharing #however if she 'cant remember' bc it's like 'looking into a furnace' im just gonna take that at face value bc it fits my purposes better

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[waterberry-strawmelon]

just gonna go ahead and say this in advance—

if Riz does indeed come out in junior year, and he says, “I’m ace” or “I’m asexual” when referring specifically to his lack of romantic attraction, aromantic people are allowed to be upset about it.

#because yes of course some people irl say ace to mean both bc that’s how they personally identify #but in fictional media the distinction is necessary. especially with how few canonically aromantic characters even exist in ANY mainstream/ #popular media. #I assure you I’m not invalidating anyone who is ace and they mean that to include lack of romantic attraction. #But to look at this from a MEDIA PERSPECTIVE its irresponsible to do this w/out clarification that they also know the word aromantic exists #because otherwise that’s just a conflation of asexual and aromantic without any nuance #and an erasure of aromantic people who are not asexual. #Plus—name a single fucking time a character in mainstream/popular media has said the word aromantic. #Because I can name several instances where they say asexual. But I can’t think of ONE where they say aro or aromantic. #(Maybe that Isaac kid does in season 2 of Heartstopper? But I haven’t seen it so I’m not 100% sure.) #anyways. #the way this fucking fandom—and ANY fandom with a canon aro character—discusses the aromantic spectrum #is blatantly just to remove their own personal guilt for shipping that character with other characters and erasing their orientation. #because yes aromanticism IS a spectrum!! But when people talk about fabriz and say ‘he can still be ace!’ (Which is aro erasure) or #‘he can still be aro!’ They never SHOW riz still being aro or having any kind of complex relationship with romance. #I’m angry and I’m allowed to be. #I get that a ship you liked may be hard to let go of or something #But I’d be much less mad if all the fabriz fans said ‘yeah I know Riz is aro in canon and he and Fabian would never get together. #I just like to imagine it sometimes in fiction/fanon!’ Then that would be a WHOLE different conversation #Because then they’d at least be acknowledging that riz doesn’t feel romance in canon. That fabriz is something that actively #Goes against the canon characterization of one of those characters—and that’s fine. Just fucking ACKNOWLEDGE IT. #But most of these people either WANT fabriz to be canon/believe it WILL BE canon #OR I guess feel uncomfortable confronting the fact that they ARE erasing riz’s aromanticism so they don’t even acknowledge it at all. #fhjy #fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 #riz gukgak #aromantic riz gukgak #fhsy