#is it a fix it if its still sad?

[tielmamon]

They stiffle another set of giggles as Jaskier and Ciri hide behind a few trees, spying on Geralt and Yen as they navigate their complicated little partnership once again. The young warrior bites her tongue, beaming at how Jaskier pitches his voice a few octaves higher, trying and failing to mimic Yen. In her opinion, she's say he sounds more like he's been kicked in the balls than anything else.

"You're unbelivable!" He shakes his head dramatically.

"You're delusional!" She almost coughs at the gruffness of her own voice.

They smile and for once in a long, long time Ciri feels...light. She feels like she's actually 15 and not the continent's number one target or the actual harbinger of the apocalypse. She sees Jaskier smile as bright as sunshine, in Geralt's words though she might just secure her death if she ever told anyone that. Not for the first time, she feels an immese wave of gratitute towards him. This silly man who always tries, no matter how grim and depressing everything gets, to make her smile. To reassure her, to talk to her as simply her- not a witcher in training, not a novice mage, not a future queen-to-be.

Once upon a time, she might have hated him for speaking to her like this, like she was a child. Now? She finds herself deeply comforted by that, by him and his words.

She suspects Geralt felt a similar sentiment when he and Jaskier travelled together.

In the distance, they see Yen reach to cradle Geralt's cheek, the other leaning into her touch. Such a horridly cheesy scene to witness, Ciri thinks with a hint of fondness and alot of disgust for her parents-of-suprise. Another quip forms on her tongue but just as it escapes, she turns to her companion and-

Oh.

His face falls, demeanor more serious and...sad. Ciri, with creeping concern realizes that his eyes turn glassy. Jaskier's eyes stay glued on the pair, in a way that is tired. Like he's seen this moment a thousand times before.

"I forgive you...for your various foolish words and deeds. For your lack of faith and hope. For your obstinancy. Doggedness..." This time, Jaskier says these words in his own voice, slightly shakey and whispered. At this point, Ciri is no longer looking at the pair infront of them. She's seen the same forlorn look on both of her parent's faces before, when they were hopping between homes. Everytime Yen looks at Geralt when he doesn't let her in the house. Everytime Geralt reads another letter tacked on the door smelling of lilac and gooseberries.

Everytime she asks Geralt why he stopped travelling with his bard after decades of companionship.

Heartbreak. That's what Jaskier looks like, Ciri realizes. Suddenly, she's overcome with the urge to hug the man beside her, comfort him like how he has to her. The two kiss and she doesn't dare look at Jaskier when they do.

"Jaskier?" She notes the heavy pause before he eventually answers.

"Yes, dear?" He's smiling again, she can hear. How real it is, she can't say. Reaching for his arm, she squeezes.

"Let's go. I'm bored." She hears a chuckle before she feels him get up. They both can't help but glance back at the couple once more, now in an intimate embrace. Ciri pushes the bard towards their cottage, ignoring the sniffle she hears or the quick wipe of hid cheek disgused as a scratch.

"Come on, you deviant." They walk back to the cottage in silence.

Part 2 (x)

#geraskier #the witcher #jaskier #cirilla of cintra #geralt x jaskier #geralt #little fix it #is it a fix it if its still sad? #sad uncle jaskier #sad niece ciri #the pining was so strong during this scene #fanfic

[skin-slave]

I wanna say something and all I ask is that you read the whole thing before burning me at the stake.

There are always horrible things happening. There are always ppl who are suffering and dying. There are always corrupt politicians. There are always human rights violations. There are always tragedies. There is always misinformation and exploitation. War is always looming on the horizon or busting in the back gate. The world is always fucked up.

That fact does not mean that the lives affected matter any less than our own. It does not mean that we don't do what we can to help. It does mean that we cannot afford to put our lives on hold while a horrible thing consumes us.

I'm sure that, if your parent/sibling/partner/best friend had a medical emergency, you would gladly do whatever you needed to do to be there. I'm sure that you would sacrifice sleep, skip meals, call in to work, and be by their side until they were stable. You can afford to do that when those emergencies are infrequent and relatively brief.

You cannot do that with the world's emergencies. They are not infrequent. They are not relatively brief. You have to sleep, eat and shower. You have to pay your bills. You have to survive.

Daily life goes on.

It feels unjust. Of course it does. How can you possibly go about the mundane like nothing's going on? You Don't. You go about the mundane like there are horrible things happening. You make the adjustments you can sustain without sacrificing your well-being. You make drastic changes for as long as you can, when you simply can't take it anymore, and then you step back, take a breath, and go grocery shopping. You have to. If you don't, you won't survive the horrible thing.

No one who is going thru a horrible thing wants you to self-destruct. There's so much good you can do over the course of your life if you maintain that life. Adding your name to the list of casualties will prevent all of that good from happening. You have to survive.

And that includes the things that seem optional, bc those things aren't actually optional at all. You need to laugh. You need to watch movies and love your pets and go for walks. You need food that tastes good and clothes that make you feel confident. You need that show you'll regret not seeing. You need to get takeout and take naps. You need to have the weight lifted frequently, so you can heal the parts of you that get worn.

If you aren't living as well as you can, while making adjustments you can afford to make, you will not survive.

Please survive.

#zesty take #i guess? #idk i just feel so sad #theres so much guilt going around #so much judgement of ppl for continuing to live #the horrible things are constant and overlapping #if we waited until they were over we would starve in every way #survival btw isnt just breathing its living as well as you can #if you only chuck gas in your car when you abdolutely have to and put off the maintenance and cobble it together when it needs a real fix #it may still turn over but it will not be able to function well #pls do not buy into the bullshit that gas is enough and if you do any more youre selfish or evil or whatever #it is not true

[sadisthetic]

jaya....? (sike. its skybound bad end au. in which jay fails miserably but “nya” never dies. can you imagine?)

#jay walker #ninjago jay #ninjago nya #technically delara. #ninjago #jaya #lol.................. #skybound #my art #im not that satisfied with this piece but man. the concept tho #CAN YOU IMAGINE? IT REALLY SAD. IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY. #imagine being the guy who fucked up so bad. everything was your fault. youre the cause of everything that went wrong #all your friends are dead. youre still trapped in a prison of your own making #and you cant fix anything anymore. its too late and you dug too deep into your own grave #but worst of all shes still in front of you #the reason why you made a whole mess of things #the girl you still havent gotten over #but shes also gone. shes right in front of you but thats not her. YOU did this to her #she stands before you as a symbol of mockery of all your failings and mistakes #like its really funny to her #like you couldnt be any more pathetic #:)!!!!!!!!!!!!! #normal about skybound??? nope!!!!!!!! im not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob: #BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY. #THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM.. #grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM. #I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much... #GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE.. #i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

[sad-leon]

!!!important question how does shadow leo meet splinter!!!

>:) the angst is here

Leo totally passes out from exhaustion and pain

Splinter is having an entire breakdown

Mikey and Raph are very confused

:D fun times

#shadow leo #sad•leonart #rottmnt leo #rise leonardo #rottmnt au #i still dont know how to draw splinter #april and usagi are throwing their own little celebration part (its just a sob fest) #FUCK #I FORGOR LEOS FACE SCAR ON THE LAST PAGE #DAMMUT #im not going back to fix it #but hopefully i wont forget it in the future #I FORGOR ON TWO PICS?!?! #i need to stop drawing when im tired #asks #anon

[babacontainsmultitudes]

*staring wistfully out the window* Can this season please just end with Nicky and Taylor about to go on a road trip together or something... I feel like they deserve that much...

#dndads #I relistened to the episode today lol #they make me sad alright!!! #'There’s no fixing this' MAN. #nick foster #Yeah Hermie can go along too lol father son brother uncle road trip #nicky freeman #taylor swift dndads #dungeons and daddies #Also since it doesn't really feel worth its own separate post atm I was thinking earlier #About a Treasure Planet AU with Taylor as Jim... Love that for him personally... #No eleborate thoughts on the matter tho #Still thinkinh about Iron Giant AU with that family too lol #All the moreso now

[druidonity2]

Sketch of Anduin's trauma.

#world of warcraft #anduin wrynn #varian wrynn #Do you ever see pictures of you from your past #when you were young and happier #and wonder where they went? #what happened to you #I need you back with me #I need you to help me #Wish you could reach out of the picture and tell me kind words that would fix everything #But you are me and I am here and sad and broken and I can't talk to you as you once existed because all that is left of you is me #Wondering how you would handle this pain but you arn't a different person and you handled it like i did which was bad #Its weird to look at pictures of me as a kid and I was sooo good at smiling into the camera and showing teeth and i just looked so confiden #And now i just. hate pictures taken of me. My smile doesnt include my teeth #and it is still my true smile #im told its not but it is #anyway #wanted to work on this more but i couldnt figure out how i wanted shalamayne to rest in mawduin's arms #Or if prince anduin's hand rested over mawduin's face or under it

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

life sucks and then you die but at least theres fangames for homework

#am i tagging this. i guess i am. #ieytd #dr zor #agent phoenix #gamer studies #i picked up a pen (art) #its not going good. it was going really bad then i fixed part of it then i broke it again in ways that i don't understand to this day #its really sad and im losing my mind but i've also lost all energy to think or care. so it is what it is (<- still malding)

[jacqcrisis]

I think the fact he can't give Karlach a hug bothers Ronan a lot. Can't give her a chummy pat on the back. Can't rest a hand on a wound to heal it. Can't help file her horns into something more acceptable.

What a terrible curse to be afflicted with. How is he supposed to foster comradery in his fellow travel companion if he can't put an arm around her shoulders while they walk and talk (well, she talks and he mostly grunts)? He's burned his hands so many times trying.

#its a good thing he has fire resistance #which is the only reason when he has to cast guidance or a touch healing spell #he doesnt lose hp in my brain #he does it really fast and hes got innate resistance to heat #there was a dialogue option i didnt take after you fix her engine with the infernal metal #where its like 'i still cant touch you' #which i didnt pick because it felt like a romance option #but ronan is thinking it in a platonic sense #like i would imagine lae'zel usually gets mad at the friendliness. and astarion has voice lines about not touching him #so i assume he bitches every other time ronans getting touchy thats not on his terms #and then karlach he cant touch. so all hes got is gale who i imagine is jazzed about getting a hug #or a congratulatory pat on the back whenever he does a spell real good or informs Ronan about some magic bullshit he doesnt understand #ronans got serveral stick figure drawings lamenting not being able to give his barbarian pal a hearty embrace #sad dragon man #bg3

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

One day, you comes across the staffbot in the abandoned theater.

There is a fine layer of dust to them, just as there is on everything else in the room. You are hesitant to even walk in, at first. You climb the stares from stage right, approaching with enough time to let them back away if they wanted to. They don't. You come up so you are face to face with them. Though frozen in an empty, static pose, their eyes are dusky, lifeless. You stare for a while. It's odd, seeing your reflection like this.

You take the time to lower their suspended hands to a more relaxed position. You straighten their hat and adjust the front of their vest, dusting off the shoulders. You stand, looking at them for a while.

You don't check as you leave and carefully, noiselessly, close the door behind you, but you know their head turned to follow your silent departure. Both you know it will be a long time before you return. Hopefully, they do not blame you. No one ever likes coming to a silent theater to look upon the long-cold corpse of themselves.

#small moments #short fanfic tidbit #fic tidbit #story tidbit #fnaf fanfic #fnaf x reader #after everything was fixed #readerbot au #repairbot reader #staffbot readre au #tw dead body #tw death mention #imagine a distant slightly slowed or out of tune but still soft and sad but soothing music box lullaby over this ok #thats the vibe #how could one ever explain what its like to meet the death of the best friend youve never known #to come across the only one that might have been like you long after they are cold and still #a loneliness untouchable unknowable i think #you leave flowers beside them. fix their hair and lay their head more comfortably #and then you must carry on #and so you do #sad fic #hurt no comfort #sort of #idk i just been having some vibes n brain itch #rlly wanna get back into writing #ok goodnigt now lol love u guys

[reubyarty]

[ Tojoctober Day 30: Monster ]

#100/10 shite quality pls click to look at these #im too lazy to fix them because i had big brain idea then went ??????????? how??????????????? #half assed attempt today :(( only one more valid day of tojoctober to go im so sad #sorry not sorry but its a nishiki kinda day #also still not 1000% sure i know how to draw nishiki but im getting there #tojoctober #fanart #fan art #portrait #reubyarty #my art #reus art #rgg #yakuza #like a dragon #ryu ga gotoku #龍が如く #sketch #sketches #nishikiyama akira #akira nishikiyama #nishiki

[handsomegentlebutch]

My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.

#butch speaks #it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head #when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god #the words came naturally to me #but they meant nothing #i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away #i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred #i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake #i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex #fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic #i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun #the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun. #not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO #the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love. #he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like #he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever. #he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer #then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there. #he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did. #but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there. #that wasnt for us. #my family wasnt even THAT catholic #i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group #i was an altar servant and in the choir #i even used to speak/understand a little latin #imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao #grateful to have grown up poor in that regard #hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually. #fucking hell. #i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.

[creaturefeaster]

the panic this document enduces in me when look at how much i need to edit is unreal...

#this is an older document that. has gotten spruced up now #but its still such a fucking mess #but im trying to go thru and revise the things that have changed since i last touched this #and its. a lot. BUT!!! #I've been inspired to do it because i think id like to share the full timeline at some point with you guys #sad thing this is only the top part of the timeline it keeps going and going #ive fiddled with maybe an 8th of it and tha workloads only gonna increase as i shift things around and find old plot holes #but i wanna try so hard to actually finish fixing this for real x_x #the spacing in this timeline is smth that I'll never be able to make sense of #its chronological to each point along the line #but some of these events are either hours or days or even weeks between each other and like #i never put down ant indication of exactly how much time passes between each point #thats something else i have to fix ough.... #brambleramble

[science-lings]

I love that Phoenix's type is just 'guy/girl that starts out/appears perfectly nice but turns out to be/ ends up as the worst most nasty evil person who hates him specifically' no wonder this guy has given up on romantic relationships he has the worst luck.

#i mean in canon he has had One relationship when he was 21 and that fucked him up for life #but i like to think that it just keeps happening over and over again #at least edgeworth gets fixed and iris wasn't that bad but still the whole situation was so fucked up #why is he a magnet for toxic people he's just some spikey haired guy who wants to be nice to people most of the time #either Dahlia messed him up forever or he just keeps falling into toxic relationships and both of those options are so sad #anyway building on my aroace!phoenix bc of trauma headcanon #dahlia really said 'no one could ever love you' and phoenix was like 'okay what if I just never love again' and he did #putting the ace in ace attorney #local lawyer is deeply afraid of love but keeps falling into it bc its in his nature and it only ever hurts him lol #phoenix wright #ace attorney #asexual phoenix wright

[trashcreatyre]

Making acrylic charms for myself btw, I'll post them when they get here whenever they do :)

#i just have to finish the second design first lol #but the drawings for the first one came out really good!!! #very excited!!!!!!!!!! #i may be sad that my rouge phone charm broke and fell off and got lost before i could fix it #but!!!!!! #ive wanted an excuse to make some for a while and since i have ideas :)))))))) #i am kinda tempted to order the designs separately bc this second one is giving me some trouble #but!!! im gettjng somewhere!!! #but instead if working on it rn i am going to play samba de amigo party central bc its fun and i am currently frustrated with the drawing #as like #a whole process #(i am still sketching but ough) #trash rambles

[soldier-poet-king]

Sunday scaries AND I'm too sad to sleep???

#the duality of fran #anyway im just. keep see sawing around with Scruples ans sadness #and i made the mistake of doomscrolling the news #which is objectively bad and terrible #and has the added bonus of making me unreasonably guilty by triggering my icd #because somehow i am solely responsible for every single tragedy and conflict and evil in the world #and if theyre not fixed its my fault. apparently #i am. so tired #at least work is like. interesting lately #finally starting on a project i actually WANT to be doing #some parts are still boring ofc but thats more just ive been having a lot of trouble focusing lately #and less my job itself #need silly podcasts to listen to while i work #but the problem is i either get distracted by the audio #or i focus on work and miss the audio and then miss the plot #and i dont really go for stuff that doesnt have a through line to be followed #hence. relistening to stuff ive heard a zillion times (taz balance)