#it’s just gotten worse

[iwatcheditbegin]

I just wish my trauma and ptsd could all go away I just wanna feel normal and get on with my life without being triggered

#it’s just gotten worse #I’ve always had traumas from child hood but stuff happened in the past few years and I was diagnosed with c-ptsd #tw ptsd #I can’t stop the flashbacks #it’s just exhausting like I’m in therapy and doing the work nothing is changing #nothing helps #I know it makes me sound like a dick but I hate when this comes up in general convo and people say they have absolutely no trauma

[lesbianlotties]

one more sudoku will fix me im so sure

[doom-dreaming]

"when i was your age, i was working three jobs to help support my family" and "when i was in college i was sleeping on a mattress on the floor and living off of soup"

YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO DO THAT. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO DO THAT. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN TO YOU THAT THIS ISN'T A CHARACTER-BUILDING LESSON, IT'S JUST BAD

#have you maybe considered even once that an 8-5 job is not the natural human state #'i never had a job with so much leisure time' #YOU NEVER WORKED A SHIFT JOB #EVEN WHEN YOU WERE SCRAPING BY IN COLLEGE #I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TELL YOU THINGS HAVE GOTTEN EVEN WORSE SINCE YOU WERE MY AGE #screams forever and ever #sorry this is literally just incoherent venting

[sysig]

Two skeletons in a trench lab coat (Patreon)

Bonus:

He’s very careful! Everything was fine before you interrupted!

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #FJdlsafjdsf Handplates fuzzes my brain #I cannot tell you how weird it feels to draw Gaster with the Lost Soul head after all this time away haha #It drops me back into the person I was when I first read Handplates - for better or for worse. It's a very strange feeling #Even drawing Sans and Papyrus again sends me back! Not as strongly but certain little details stand out #Sans' eyes especially... Very strange feeling #Anyhow! Since Fellplates sent me back down the rabbit hole and I've gotten back into rereading lightly - still not a full commitment! #Maybe soon tho 👀 I feel like I always say that haha #But in the meantime thinking of the pre-Plates Handplates time period <3 Since that's the one I'm still most familiar with haha #I love when they're still growing and learning ♪ Scaffolded baby talk! Twin language! Love 'em ♥ #And fearless* mischievous little troublemakers hehe #They're so cute <3 I love the little ways they interact as young'uns - like when Papyrus will just lift Sans by his arms lol #I'd been thinking about and then had to go read the one of Sans as a the blanket/coat tickle monster and then - this ✨ #''Excuse me sir I'd like One Ticket to the R Rated movie I am an adult Monster'' lol #Probably another one of those moments where Gaster is just *nervously sweats in Dad* lol - stop being so cute! #Also there's no particular meaning to when I use WingDings for his text :P Just convenience and if I remember to lol #Comics where he talks a lot are not convenient XP I have enough trouble editing on this paper ugh I will Not miss it when it's done #Even attempted this comic in as few pencil strokes/erasing as possible and it was still a pain to work with! >:0 Rude #Doubly so that I've had a Handplates comic idea for past like - year lol - and /this/ was the first one I finished pfftbl #To be fair to the other I do want to at least attempt making it a look-alike hehe ♪ You know how it is with Ideas™ #I can't be too mad about it haha ♫ It did turn out quite cute after all :3

[chaoswrites]

i feel so sick i hate everything

#it’s just gotten worse #i’m so dizzy and nauseous #i’ve been alseep for like seven hours #idk how i’m gonna get downstairs without falling

[uncanny-tranny]

I just have to say that it's so weird reading how transphobes think of trans bodies as mutilated and gross when they never would have thought my body pre-transition was worthy. The "argument" of mutilated beauty that transphobes have tossed around is just a fear mongering tactic, because they don't tend to actually love or appreciate and see value in bodies that don't "neatly" fit into male and female, with no overlap and no nuances.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #i saw so many transphobes agonizing about a trans guy who developed acne from transition... #...they were agonizing about how he ruined his skin and beauty and how *they* didn't find him attractive anymore (how sad /s) #i read that and i realized... pre-transition i had a ton of acne (it's not gotten worse at all so far) #pre-transition i had very broad shoulders (to the point i was made fun of for how i'd act because of my broadness) #pre-transition i inherented most of the traits of the males in my family... #...and if i didn't transition - if i were cis? those same transphobes would think of me just as poorly and they'd hate my body and my soul #because it isn't about 'saving people'. it's about control. it's about manipulating the human experience into two neat boxes #and that excludes people like me. it excludes intersexness and natural variation in human bodies. #transphobia #transphobia tw #like this is shit i knew ever since i first interacted with a transphobe but it to this day blows me away

[tinyfantasminha]

TWST anniversary commercials over the years be like

1st anni: EVERYONE IS HERE!! IN EVENT OUTFITS!! Grim interacting with everyone representing how far we have come!!

2nd anni: Everyone is still here!! But with slightly worse animation...

3rd anni: Everyone is- No, it's only the third years and the animation has gotten even more even more lazy and worse if that's even possible

4th anni: Fuck you you're not getting any animated bits this year, have a slideshow with pre-existing images from the game AND new dorm leaders art I guess (you like OTHER characters that aren't the dorm leaders??? why would you?? sucks to be you)

#twisted wonderland #twst anniversary #twst shitpost #I wasn't even expecting much after the disappointment that the 3rd anni commercial was but THE AFTER EFFECTS SLIDE SHOW 😭 #plast an otomate logo in it and boom its exactly like any generic otome game opening #crazy how they could have picked any better card but they used leona's whitewashed masterchef groovy too uuh #and this is displex we are talking about its not like they DONT have money for a 1-minute anime commercial #but every year their animated CMs have gotten worse and more lazy like remember when halloween CMs cared to show EVERYONE... #and now its just. the three main SSR boys

[roses-luckride-art]

#luckride's fanart #batman unburied #the riddler secrets in the dark #unburied riddler #riddler #edward nygma #hai hello hai I'm baaack #im gonna be honest i havent gotten passed episode 4 #not because i don't love it. this series is iconic #i just have a bad attention span and even worse memory and forget to pick this podcast back up again #but while i was relistening to the first 4 eps again i decided to revamp my version of eddie #which is to say he looks the exact same as before except this time i actually have a color ref sheet to use in the future

[an-artistic-failure]

Donnie would love Oppenheimer

#rottmnt #rottmnt fanart #digital art #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt 2018 #fanart #donatello hamato #rottmnt donnie #oppenheimer #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #I really have gotten worse at drawing people #I literally just drew this #hank's art

[sunderwight]

had a thought of what if Airplane had leaned a little more into the self-insert idea for Luo Binghe when he was still at the early stages of writing, with an end result that Luo Binghe actually Looks Like That because he basically looks like Airplane but with long flowing hair and a more idealized figure

SQQ going "why the fuck did you make his face so pretty???" and Airplane bullshitting about plausibility while trying really hard not to blush. twisting his fingers and scuffing his toe like jeez bro he's not that good-looking...

which of course sets SQQ off because how DARE!?! not 'that' good-looking?!?! just look at him! he's xianxia Helen of Troy with a face that launched a thousand harems! like okay sure with looks like that it does make sense that half the female population was willing to timeshare a marriage with him, but it's also totally unfair to SQQ, who has no recourse against those looks either! and who could? that is the most beautiful face ever!

Airplane's getting flustered. tries valiantly to make the case that objectively speaking Luo Binghe isn't that good-looking, it's just that SQQ is biased, but boy does that not go over well. SQQ has hitched the tattered remnants of his self-perception as a straight man onto the idea that Luo Binghe is just so devastatingly attractive anyone would want to hop into bed with him, and he is not letting go of it, so Airplane is just gonna get wrecked with inadvertent compliments

bonus if the Shang Qinghua look is actually the result of several illusions because when Airplane first transmigrated in, he got the same face too, and foresaw potential problems if the half-demon protagonist turned up looking like him. so he used illusions. he doesn't actually look all that different, in fact! the illusions just make it so that when people see him, they get a strong impression that he's unremarkable, so they don't really register what his face actually looks like and their brains fill in the assumption that he must just be kinda plain

oooh ooh double bonus if the system inserted a behind-the-scenes explanation for it too, which is that Shang Qinghua is actually unwittingly related to Su Xiyan!

and the whole thing comes to light post-epilogue when Shang Qinghua's illusions get stripped away by some monster-of-the-week, while everyone except Mobei Jun has a freak out about why do you look just like Luo Binghe?! (Mobei Jun isn't freaking out because he already figured out how to see past the illusions and just assumed everyone else wasn't mentioning it for some human cultural reason or something) and then Yue Qingyuan calmly explains that Luo Binghe's mom is Shang Qinghua's matrilineal cousin. Shang Qinghua's mother and Luo Binghe's human grandmother were half-sisters.

what? how does Yue Qingyuan know? you think that Cang Qiong doesn't check up on the candidates for the peak lord positions before handing off power, doesn't make sure there are no conflicts of interest or divided loyalties to other sects? what sorts of things do people imagine Qiong Ding's diplomats do? (I don't know either but, for the purpose of this scenario at least some of it is tracking down this stuff -- YQY handled most of it personally for his generation's ascension because he didn't want anyone else digging into his and Xiao Jiu's pasts) anyways, the connection could have been troublesome for its ties to Huan Hua Palace, but by the time it came to light Su Xiyan was deceased and there was no evidence that Shang Qinghua had ever even met her. so it wasn't deemed significant enough to matter, was just made note of and then mostly forgotten

so Shang Qinghua is like "oh THAT is why you kept bringing her up to me back then?!" because at the time he'd just been fully in "haha how would I know anything about the impending plot and the tragedies I am both partly responsible for and powerless to prevent haha that's so funny shixiong I KNOW NOTHING" mode, which luckily at the time was easily read as him just not wanting a dead cousin he never met to tank his chances of securing a promotion

SQQ is floored. he is having issues about this. Shang Qinghua is related to Binghe? Shang Qinghua looks exactly like him?! wait. Binghe has human family? still alive? like grandparents and stuff out there, who might want to meet him...?

Luo Binghe decides to step in at that point because he does not want to meet any more relatives! no more surprise relatives! no!

luckily this distracts Shen Qingqiu from thinking about all of the things he's said to Airplane about Binghe's looks for long enough for Shang Qinghua to flee the scene

#svsss #scum villain's self saving system #bingqiu #moshang #cumplane #well kinda cumplane anyway #by implication #long post #what if sqh can't get his illusions back up #everyone keeps bothering him even more now to ask why he's hot all of a sudden #it's even worse than when they just used to bother him about fixing broken doors or balancing budgets #sqq is not gonna be normal about this #'you said binghe wasn't a self-insert!!!' 'well by the end he definitely wasn't...' 'were you this hot irl? why were you poor?!' #'wtf is that supposed to mean...?' 'with these looks you surely could have found somebody willing to support you!' #'bro are you asking me why I wasn't a sugar baby?!' 'of course not!' 'you totally are asking me why I wasn't a sugar baby' #'...but you must have gotten offers' 'only from the hot single ladies near me on my computer and they were all viruses' #etc etc etc so on and so forth the usual insane banter those two have

[cyberpunkaddict]

"Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly." - Langston Hughes

“I love you to the moon and back.”

Prologue, Part 1

#cyberpunkaddict.png #oc: villiam bryant #oc: villiam bryant lore #otp: two songbirds #cyberpunk 2077 #songbird #song so mi #male v #virtual photography #masc v #cyberpunk 2077 v #v x songbird #cyberpunk 2077 photomode #cyberpunk 2077 oc #dailyvideogames #v x song so mi #cyberpunk 2077 screenshots #gamingnetwork #dailygaming #cyberpunk v #storytime #im just gonna go cry in the corner real quick brb #if u wanna know why Songbird has a funeral check out part one link is at the bottom of this post #anyone else think rain in this game is weird doesnt look realistic at all lol and im too lazy to photoshop #also tumblr compresses these pics like craaazy wth so i had to add some grain to make them look better ish but didnt really help ughhhhh #if i could pay a monthly sub to not have my stuff be compressed at all i totally would this shit has gotten even worse the last few months #q

[amoritasart]

One of the biggest influence in my shipping taste. Crazyyy

#I’ve gotten worse since then btw #zutara #atla #now it’s their time #I need the Netflix adaptation to do something different #anything idc #I just need them to have their moments #amoritasart #why is this getting notes

[front-facing-pokemon]

#alolan raichu #holy shit these alolan forms are kicking the fuck outta my ass #the things i do for you all. my production value on this blog has increased over the years and i don't think i can get away with the same #weird shit i used to be able to when i couldn't find a good model so now i'm having to learn how to use blender and shit?? #downloading weird scripts off the internet just because i can't find the right models. and now alolan raichu has kantonian eyes #they have kantonian eyes. i know. i'm sorry. i don't know how to fix it and this is the best you're going to get because i had to work for #like an hour and a half just to get to this point. and i know the lighting is dark. it's. it's bad. it'll probably be like this for all #the alolan forms at least. and holy shit when we get to gen 9 it's going to be even worse #this is a wreck!! this is a wreck. i had to use the sv model for this one and it's like #i dunno the eyes in sv aren't textures?? they're procedural. they're fucking. shaders. in sv. which is why espeon's pupils #are no longer pupils and are instead reflections (lie‚ falsehood) #and i'm. dissolving. y'all're gonna have to bear with me moving forward bc i've gotten Very used to the “it just works” nature of #the older models that i was using but this is getting way harder on me as we move into newer generations

[mozzaremi]

[rogueddie]

Unfriendly reminder that quite a few members of the stranger things cast and crew have been openly supportive of Israel and the murder of thousands of innocent people. A few pr statements to try and appease fans for no reason other than making more money does not change anything!

Do not support stranger things! Cancel your netflix subscription! Do not stream season five! Do not buy official merch!

DO NOT SUPPORT ZIONISM AND THE ONGOING GENOCIDE! FREE PALESTINE!

#stranger things #genuinely going to start blocking people if I see them promoting or supporting st financially #I've already left that one group bc they were promoting merch #it's just... I don't understand how some of y'all can do that and not feel disgusted with yourselves #it feels like a lot y'all either don't care or have gotten bored #or worse; you care more about your comfort and enjoyment of a fucking show than the millions living in Gaza #I am giving y'all the nastiest side eyes #I do think you can still be in the st fandom and support palestine- obviously look at me- but you have to SUPPORT PALESTINE! ACTIVELY! #BOYCOTT! SPREAD INFORMATION! DONATE! CLICK THE ARAB.ORG BUTTON! PROTEST! MESSAGE YOUR LOCAL OFFICIALS! DEMAND A BETTER WORLD FOR PALESTINE!

[madame-mongoose]

i really dont post much on here anymore, have some monnley

#im just not vibing with tumblr lately #theres not a lot keeping me here #most of my tumblr friends i either dont talk to anymore or have stopped posting here too #honestly my depression has gotten worse but it's whatever #im still drawing at least so thats something #monnley #self ship #my art