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#just a rant. im just tired of seeing all these people shipping stuff like this...
cosmicpoutine · 30 days
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leaving a lil rant here :]
I love Tim and his ships sm. Me personally, I only really ship TimKon. Those two are perfect for eachother and have so much clear queer coding that it’s crazy, and they have dialogue that’s just. gay shaped.
I also get TimBart, I don’t ship it romantically but I get why people do!! Tim and Bart are close as well, and the balance they get between ‘depressed tired wet cat’ and ‘living breathing embodiment of adhd’ is great.
I also get TimBartKon, they’re a trio. They are always a trio, so many people like to bring up how TimKon has so much coding and one of the big examples they use is when Tim tried to clone Kon. You know who else he tried to clone? Bart.
The only Tim ship I don’t get is TimBern, or any ship involving those two. When Bernard first appears, he’s Tim’s bully. He actively makes fun of tim and puts him down and then that character is forgotten about until Tim comes out as bi, then they just rework his character and go “haha guys this is his boyfriend not bully ygs are crazy” and just forget about all the bad stuff Bernard did? Reworking a character is great and all but, it just feels a bit weird and out of place for me. There’s always going to be that certain toxicity for TimBern, at least for me.
homie... bully??? im flabbergasted- im speechless- im jason todd (dead)
okay, im gonna start off by saying you have all the right to not ship them, and im not here to defend timbern as a ship. im here to defend BERNARD DOWD.
first thing bernard does is give tim advice about teachers, and he clearly says they're gonna be good friends.
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if bernard was a bully, tim wouldn't hang around him so much. besides, i hate it when people place tim as a helpless little boy who would get bullied. he has put himself in situations where he looks weak on purpose to keep his identity safe, but he's not a victim at all. tim is a social butterfly because he's really good at masking and reading people.
not to mention, both bernard and darla push tim a lot because they're trying to get him to open up and be closer to them, but he keeps pushing them away. tim is a professional liar.
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and when tim has to quit robin and start hanging out with normal people, he invites bernard over.
and bernard is acting relatively normal, and he wants to play video games and talk about how hot tim's stepmom is.
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bernard is a normal teenager who has no idea one of his friends is the hero he's so obsessed with. he even shows concern for robin dying and makes up an entire conspiracy theory about batman havin a robin orphanage. you can tell he's afraid of robin being gone for real because at this point they haven't seen robin in months bc tim retired.
i dont know what about all of these interactions gave you the vibe that he's a bully because all i see is a normal teenager teasing his friends and being jealous tim gets more bitches.
im not saying that bernard was never mean or weird around tim, but he definitely wasn't actively bullying tim.
bernard is obnoxious and cocky, yes. but thats just because they wrote him as a real person. he's the school's chameleon, maybe even a little bit of a loser, too. he knows everyone but keeps a safe distance so that he doesn't get pushed into a box. im not sure if, at this point, he was already in a cult or being indoctrinated, but when we see his parents and the dowd home in tim drake: robin that just doesn't look right.
also homie talk about "forgetting all the bad things bernard did" (which in my opinion is none but okay lets follow that logic) everyone forget about all the bad things batman did to tim, he was not a kind and loving mentor, he was cruel to both tim and steph. we forget that batman was kind of an asshole to damien in the beginning. all those things are forgotten for the sake of the batfam.
in conclusion: we're just so used to the idea that superheroes can only ever form strong friendship bonds by having near death experiences together that we forget that the secret identifies exist and that the people who know them by their legal name also means a lot to them. after all, these people are the reason why they're heroes.
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medievildead · 1 year
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for the ship opinion bingo kratos/heimdall 👉👈
HOOOO BOY SORRY THIS TURNED INTO A RANT however you did ask for my opinion and this is my blog so you know what. I am gonna post it. And this will be the only time I talk about it.
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I reeeeeally don't like kradall it creeps me out and I don't understand it at fucking all. I see people try to make Hear Me Out posts about them and AUs about them and it just makes less and less sense to me (and I KNOW this is bold ass words coming from me I KNOW) but the canon dynamic that does exist for them at no point to me ever at all in the slightest tipped me off or made me think to ship them. Never clicked.
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Then again you gotta remember that I'm someone who has been autistic about Kratos since 2005 and I am so incredibly damn picky about shipping him unironically with anyone. Shipping Kratos with Heimdall knowing the kind of person Kratos is and what hes gone through to Become his new self in the norse saga just doesn't make sense. A lot of kradall I see (that isn't non/con honestly another huge reason I don't vibe with it is that a bunch of people use it as a bolt for r/pe stuff in the early moments of Ragnarok fandom) is just them in a very ooc marriage situation I can't wrap my head around. Throwing Kratos into a heavy intense relationship is dumb to me like it took him centuries to fucking get over Lysandra and then moving on to Faye and I'm expected to belive the Hear Me Out posts about why Kratos would be in a long term relationship with.... Heimdall? The guy who is a complete prick to giants? Who actively said misogynistic shit about Atreus' mom who Kratos still loves with his whole heart? And threatened to actively kill his 14 year old son? Kratos's son? Kratos who has lifelong trauma about his child dying from war? I'm not buying it im sorry. No way you cook it will convince me.
In the early points of the ships existence honestly felt to me like people who were into Heimdall just wanted to explore a crutch for brat breaking. But its just genuinley not something I'm into. I'm a firm believer of ship and let ship as long as its harmless and for the most part it is! It's people having fun but it's not for me and never, ever ever will be no matter what and there is a reason I don't talk about it on this blog.
I've been in this fandom a long time and let me say Kratos x Heimdall reminds me a lot of when GoW3 came out and people started shipping and writing tons of Kratos x Hermes dubcon stuff for the sole reason of yaoi fujoshi people wanted to fetishize the gay male power dynamic. Its like I honestly feel some people see a big muscular man and a smaller effeminate man and are like "oh I need to make one a submissive girl" like again I know its just words and pictures on a screen but I have been here long enough to be Very Tired of seeing my sexuality get used as a fetish tool sjshskdnks
And. And ill be honest. And this is petty and trust me this is literally just me and my opinion but I cannot fucking stress how utterly confused and flabbergasted because FREYR IS RIGHT FUCKING THERE. HE IS RIGHT FUCKING THERE. BLATANTLY INTO KRATOS, A COMPLETE KIND SWEETHEART FULL OF LOVE, EXACTLY THE KIND OF GUY THAT WOULD SHOW KRATOS A GOOD TIME AND HAS AN ADORABLE ONSCREEN DYNAMIC THAT DOESN'T EVEN NEED TO BE AU'd OR CHANGED TO MAKE SENSE AND THIS FANDOM DOES NOTHING WITH IT. I see so many AUs where Heimdall survives to get with Kratos and valid but you know what??? I am gonna be angry, WHERE ARE MY FREYR LIVES AUs. WHERE ARE MY AUs WHERE FREYR LIVES AND GETS KRATOS ASCENDED ON THAT VANAHEIM ZA???????
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LIKE FORREAL. I honestly feel like this fandom gets so blindsided by Heimdall and wanting to put him in situations and hell I'm guilty of it too, but I have genuinley met GoW Heimdall likers that straight up forgot Freyr existed and it shocks me. I don't get it!!!!!!
Theres a reason I ship Heimdall x Hermes together and its because their individual dynamics are so unbelievably compatible and I like to explore that. But I get people wanting something more realistic in universe as a muse. When it does come to shipping Heimdall with someone else in canon that makes absolute dynamic sense to me, I gotta be honest, Heimdall x Gná is the only "heimdall gets a dom" pairing that I can realistically get behind. Since they both would actually like each other despite being hated by all their peers for their devotion to Odin. Is it healthy? No, but Kradall isn't exactly peaches and cream either. So we work with what we got babey!!!!
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im gonna rant abt how much i hate the ghost eyes fandom (as a former fan) bc im just kinda mad rn
so uhh yeah major TW for s3lf h4rm, romanticizing mental illness, su1c1de, sadomasochism, infantilization, and rlly just anything related to that
(also sorry if this looks weird idk how to separate stuff on tumblr)
also DO NOT harass the creator or anyone mentioned here, you’re no better than them if you do that
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ok so i read ghost eyes like 2 years ago but i stopped reading about the point where they were on that field trip. i still think it’s a nice comic and i’m sure the author is a cool person, also the art style is awesome. but the fandom is so fucking gross that i’m surprised more people haven’t talked about it. 
for some backstory on this, i used have REALLY bad depression and was cutting myself regularly (i’m much better now, i have medication, therapy, and i’m almost a year clean) i also stopped reading due to the comic severely damaging my mental health and i’m very glad i did. i was younger and immature and thought i could handle such content. this led to me becoming extremely obsessed with the comic to an unhealthy level, and getting severely attached to one of the characters (rudy) because i could relate to him at that time. i seriously thought that i WAS him sometimes.
i understand now that i should NOT have ignored the label and what i did was definitely wrong and if the creator is reading this i deeply apologize. i’m in a much better place now and i’m just glad that i was able to get the help i needed.
ok now to the angry part
if you don’t know what ghost eyes is, it’s a webcomic about a severely traumatized boy attending school for the first time and meeting a bunch of other severely traumatized kids. this comic has a crap ton of triggering/sensitive/disturbing topics (which is not a bad thing as long as you do it right) and like i said before, the creator has kindly put a warning before the comic starts stating that you SHOULD NOT romanticize/idolize/sexualize/kin any of the characters, do not read unless you can handle such topics, and so forth. now i know i should have definitely put the comic down before and not gotten obsessed over it, but i knew damn well enough that it was messed up to romanticize/sexualize any of the characters/things that happened in the book.
there are several scenes in which a character is self harming or harming someone else, and the comments will say shit like “nooo my poor bean” “awww baby don’t do that” or my personal favorite “protect the smol bean.” first of all, the characters are like 16-17, second of all, i cannot even tell you how fucked up it is that people see someone ruining their lives and putting themselves in danger and think it’s “cute” or “anxiety smol bean uwu” THERES LITERALLY A SCENE WHERE SOMEONE IS GETTING STABBED AND PPL ARE DRAWING THIS MF IN A MAID DRESS.
another reason i despise these fans is that they see an abusive relationship and start making ships/kinning them. as someone who has gone through pretty much everything rudy has gone through, i cant tell you how irritating it is to see people shipping him with his abuser or calling him a “cutie patootie masochist boi uwu” cause lemme tell you what-it doesnt feel good to have to put your health in danger and ruin your relationships with others just so you can get off somehow. ITS NOT FUN. the whole point of rudy’s character is to not romanticize someones fucked up mental health.
i could spend hours talking about this group of immature brats, but i’m tired and it’s a school night and i have a test tomorrow. i might add on if i feel like i need to but overall i really hope those immature fans grow up and realize their mistakes like i did, or get the help they need.
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zukotheartist · 11 months
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Unpopular St opinion ig
(Feel free to disagree and discuss just pls dont be assholes about it lol, this is just my opinion.)
I think Robin and Vickie are a perfect example of wlw ships that have absolutely 0 nuance/complexity bc it would require writers to put effort into a ship with no male characters.
There are a lot of complex and interesting (and sure, maybe even "toxic") wlw ships out there but the majority always tends to be the 100% fluffy cookie cutter type bc we're made to think that cishet girls make up the majority of fandom spaces and the only couples theyre usually interested in (on more than a surface level at least) are m/f and mlm couples.
I could be wrong, after all im not one of the writers and we have yet to see the final season (which im assuming will have more Vickie scenes and probably a Vickie x Robin finale) but so far Vickie feels exactly like a quick copy of Robin (but most likely bi instead of gay, or maybe also gay but initially dealing with comphet or smth).
I understand that there are different types of ships and a lot of times there's that one where the people involved are very similar to each other but this time... idk, it literally just feels like they copypasted Robin again.
Ik I'm biased bc I'm a Nancy x Robin shipper but honestly, even just that few seconds interraction between Robin and that girl working at the shelter (/school) in the final episode felt more interesting than whatever's going on with her and Vickie and I was so dissapointed when I realised she wasn't gonna be the new love interest.
I like Robin and I like Vickie (tho I find her a bit boring/repetitive bc she reminds me too much of Robin) and ill be happy with any wlw representation in a show as big as St but still...
Idk, maybe im just a grumpy petty sapphic but im so tired of wlw ships always getting fucking leftovers (and the few times we have nice/interesting stuff like First Kill and so on, those shows get cancelled even when they have groundbreaking records and profits bc god forbid we dont cater to cishet girls 24/7).
That's it for my boredom induced rant ig ajsksksk
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soapycocacola · 3 years
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TW: MENTIONS OF @BUSE, R@PE, INC*$T, AND P*DOPHILIA UP AHEAD!!!
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Just a little PSA: If you think Valentino x Angel Dust (Valdust) is a 'cute and valid' ship...
You are disgusting.
The same goes for ships like Valentino x Vox and St0via.
I don't care if you say "Oh!! I can ship whatever I want, they're just fictional characters, you can't tell me what to do!"
That is no fucking excuse to ship a r@pist and @buser with his victims and a middle-aged father with his teenage daughter!!!
If you ship any of these ships or ships similar to this...
Get. The. Fuck. Off. My. Blog.
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mayadoesfandomstuff · 3 years
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Not a fandom specific thing, but damn I hate it when there's art (not just fics) with non-con or dub-con (dare I say harassment or SA) and it's not even tagged.
Like obv, those things will have their audience and I can't stop them and they'll have their own area in any community, but maybe tagging would be good like in general so people who don't really want to see that show up could properly block the tags? Some of them is pretty tagged, but there's so many that aren't and it's concerning.
What's even worse when there's like really iffy stuff that op doesn't even recognize as dub-con/non-con and just sees it as romantic or super sexy? Like, Character A is already drawn or depicted panicking or freaking out by the uncalled for or forced advances of Character B and it's still not tagged? That very image could really trigger someone in a seriously bad state.
Some of these things could harm people and just being exposed to it even once could end really badly for that person, some even spiraling into really bad panic attacks.
Just, at least common courtesy, ya know? Not saying you can't draw them, but tag them at least so that vulnerable people won't see them in their favorite character's or ship's tags.
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hematomes · 2 years
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WHAT. THE. FUCK.
As a lesbian, I would like to speak on that bizarre rant if I may. This is gonna be long. CW for mention of s//icide.
Yaeyato shippers, or any m/f shippers for the most part don’t just ship m/f ships to be lesbophobic. Myself along with many other lesbians actually quite enjoy some of the m/f ships in Genshin, and were actually talked over—by non-lesbians—when we stood up for the m/f shippers being harassed.
It’s incredibly insulting to compare someone shipping two characters with undefined sexualities to ‘oppression’. The ship is legal, the characters don’t have canon sexualities. Oppression is not seeing a ship you don’t like.
It is not lesbian erasure if the character isn’t canonically a lesbian. Yes, it’s a popular head canon with Yae, but that’s all it is, a head canon.
The anon tried their best to brush over the fact that a lot of m/f shippers have been being harassed—“the w/w shippers who SENT THREATS ‘had good intentions’”. Take it from someone on Twitter, threats are the very least of what m/f shippers get. The yaeyato tag was spammed with irl gore, nsfw, and s//cide baits. A few artists had their art “fixed”, too. I’m not sure how sending death threats and spamming tags with gore can be counted as “good intentions.” I very much hope you don’t condone the harassment. I’m ashamed of every one of these freaks who thinks
How can straight people “take” the characters? Everyone can and does enjoy the characters in the way they like. Through shipping, whether it be gay or straight. Once again, NO ONE in Genshin has canon sexualities.
I guarantee the people who like Ittosara and Jeanluc purely to be lesbophobic are few and far between. They’re cute ships, just as cute as Jeanlisa or Sara x the shogun. Also Jeanluc is my jam, so fight me. I can’t speak on behalf of bi folks, but a close friend of mine who is bi loves IttoSara and went through hell for it, so I could be wrong but there seems to be a bit of biphobia in the mix as well from what she told me.
I’m getting tired of people comparing ships they don’t like to oppression.
The ‘representation’ caters to no one and everyone, since no one has defined sexualities.
“It’s stupid to compare death threats to oppression” no, it’s stupid to send gore and death threats to people over a ship. If you think someone shipping something that goes against your head canon is oppression, then you sure are privileged.
I apologize if this is aggressive, but that post made me SO FUCKIN MAD. I love representation as much as the next lesbian, but this ain’t it. Harassing, doxing, threatening, all because of a character who’s not even confirmed to be a lesbian?! I’ve seen the argument that Yae is based off of a lesbian honkai character, but this is a completely different game. Yae can be straight, lesbian, bi, pan, ace, as can all of the Genshin characters, because none of them have confirmed sexualities. People like this just make us look bad.
Yes there are some lesbophobes who ship m/f ships, absolutely. Some of the stuff I’ve seen is revolting. But honestly my heart goes out to anyone who experiences harassment over perfectly fine ships. I really don’t think it’s fair to say m/f ships exist to spite us lesbians or wlw shippers. From what I’ve seen yaeyato shippers and any ‘straight’ ships get a lot of hate, and comparing a freaking ship to oppression? Touch some grass, Anon. Bottom line, both wlw and m/f shippers are always getting harrassed by each other and I’m so fucking sick of it.
Ship IttoSara. Ship KokoSara. Ship JeanLisa. Ship Jeanluc. Ship Eimiko. Ship YaeYato. But FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING UNDER THE FUCKIN SUN stop comparing harmless ships to the oppression we face. Trust me, we have much bigger issues to worry about than a ship not being gay.
Once again the rage is targeted at that freak who made the ask. I’m very thankful to you for being a good ally and refraining from speaking on our issues.
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i am simply gonna post this for exposure, im glad you took the time to write all of this /gen thank you very much
(edited bc i put the wrong tag like a dumb fuck)
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svgarpills · 2 years
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mini rant im so sorry but my god im so tired of seeing endhawks content be like the vast majority of hawks content, i adore hawks but literally everything of him is either him getting shipped with a man twice his age who he's admired since he was a child, or that mans abusive son (i get fandom but there could not be a healthy dabihawks but i see the appeal, just wish it was so ooc) hawks is a really lonely character like he doesnt really have friends and doesnt interact with a lot of ppl meaningfully but do people HAVE to cling onto some of the worst possible ships for him my god. He literally saw endeavour as his hero as a child, like he 'saved' him, how are ppl not finding that weird??? "hawks is an adult now" he barely is in japan, doens't changed how he's viewed endeavour for almost his entire life, endeavour literally has a kid older than AND the same age as hawks. Isn't there a huge thing abou thow creepy it is for middle aged divorced dads dating women younger than his daughter, is that not the same thing here???? but oh its gay so its fine, its cant possibly be an unhealthy dynamic. At least admit its kinda gross or weird if youre gonna ship it rahter then defend it like its not at all problematic.
OH DW ANON I GET IT
I'm not a huge fan myself (don't hate him, just not a character that automatically clicked w/ me) but man gets stuck with the shittiest ships /hj.
Db/hwks i kind of get, i guess? I can see the appeal in the fanon version & it has cute fanart, even if it's not for me. That 1 is more of me being very specific with how I like my enemies-to-lovers ships & the canon version making me go :/. But like- they're both in the same age range so it doesn't squick me out quite as much.
But him & end/eavor just seems so weird to me, especially because he's around the age of his daughter. Like sure they're both legal but there's a clear...i dont wanna fully say weird power dynamic but there's a difference in stuff like experience & other things like that. Hawks has looked up to End/eavor since he was really young so i just..can't see their dynamic ever working out in a completely healthy way.
(p.s if this shows up in the main character or ship tags i'll fix it)
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volfoss · 2 years
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Hmmmm rant about weather report and anasui >:)
ok this will NOT be long bc i do not remember a lot of SO (thus do not consume a lot of fanon for it) and ill have some stuff under a readmore bc the whole spoiler thing:
weather first: i rly hate how people treat him as a soft boy who has done no wrong (when spoiler!! he has!!!!) or just like again using him to ship (it rly seems like thats all hes used for fandom wise). like i dont consume a ton of weather content so i dont have a ton to say for him sorry :(
anasui however, i have a lot to say about him. first off holy shit can the fandom not be transphobic for one moment!!! sick and tired of seeing genderbends of him (and in general tbh <3), but i am not getting into that a ton rn. however what i am here to discuss is jolysui <3 so in canon its not rly super healthy until things happen, and in order to get into that, i am going spoiler mode under the cut:
so imo jolysui is a kind of weird relationship esp for a main jojo ship that is canon. like until things become, well, annakiss and irene (does not want to get into the ending). but before that, the behavior is quite honestly rly uncomfortable. jolyne doesnt necessarily want anything to do w him and anasui is just pursuing her nonstop. Ive found a lot of the fanon (that ive seen which again isnt a ton bc i dont seek it out) really erases that and just makes their relationship normal, completely erasing how jolyne literally doesnt rly pay much or any attention to him. (sidenote- the way u portray it is like the closest to canon ive found) i think a lot of people really just want it to be something its not, and kind of force the characters into a box of super healthy relationship instead of anasui quite literally mostly caring about jolyne and practically using FF to get to her. also holy shitttt ive had enough of people acting like jolyne is head over heels with anasui when its literally the opposite way around. the way their relationship is handled is like my biggest fanon pet peeve bc idk its honestly pretty uncomfortable how hes just pursuing her. not to get personal on main, but ive been in relationships that are somewhat like how theirs is and its a horrible feeling. i rly rly hate how its romanticized so so bad to the point where its like omg happy family and theyre so healthy and normal. yasugap is right here guys...
also while im at it, how fanon rly reduces anasui to harmless little guy when the behavior hes exhibiting is very very gross, and also really reduce him to stupid when hes not. thats all <3
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kraviolis · 3 years
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this is me prompting u to talk abt hlv/rai fandom problems (mostly for a second opinion on some things i been seein tbh)
man y’all really want to hear me go off kjdsgsdfj
im putting this under the cut cus im not sure i want people actually spreading this around, its legit just all my own opinions and i dont expect anyone else to feel the same way
the main thing is that people dont use their brains and think everything is either bad or good and that theres no such thing as nuance. they change their opinions entirely based on what tumblr post they see circling around that day OR they hold onto their original opinion and refuse to think abt it any more than that. you gotta figure out the middle ground here, folks.
relating to the above, ppl forget to listen to other marginalized voices and opinions on shit like transphobia, racism and antisemitism because they dont realize that these groups arent a hivemind or share the same opinions on this stuff. seriously, please GOD actually search and ask for other opinions from specific oppressed groups because believe it or not, sometimes people from these groups can be completely wrong about these topics. (crazy, i know!)
another thing is ppl love to harass the crew. they Love it. its their favorite thing to say/do weird things to the crew just to make them uncomfortable. im not just talking about sending asks to holly about shipping her with her friends, or making creepy sexual comments at scorpy, y’all know that shit is bad already. but you also need to stop harassing them about your ships or kinning or AUs completely unprompted.
also stop harassing them about shit they’ve already said they dont care about, and honestly more importantly: stop harassing other people about shit the crew has said they dont care about! dont care =/= horrible and bad, it just means they dont have an opinion on it either way, they just dont wanna see it. its fine to care about things the people you look up to dont care abt.
other than that, im tired of ppl making benrey out to be a sexual harasser. im tired of ppl making gordon out to be irrational and angry 24/7. im tired of ppl thinking they have the right to demand someone’s entire life story to figure out if theyre oppressed enough or not.
im tired of ppl disrespecting their fellow content creators day in and day out (looks very specifically at y2k) and ppl trying to tell others that a HARMLESS thing they enjoy is horrible and bad when it is, in fact, harmless but they just dont like it.
you can not like things without trying to put yourself on a moral high horse for it. its fine to not like things for no reasons or just petty reasons or just because you’re a person with different tastes than other ppl? on the flip side, other people having negative opinions on things you care deeply about is not a personal insult or a reason to make them out to be a bad person.
anyways theres no moral of the story for this rant im just peeved about a lot of stuff and also think people should stop drawing tommy looking like he’s pushing 20 instead of pushing 40 and start drawing more of alyx with a sucklet
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supertransural · 3 years
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supernatural made me realize a bunch of shit about myself, specifically identity and it’s part of the reasons why i think it’s an inherently queer story.
allow me to clarify. once upon a time, 6 years ago, i found supernatural. back then i was mostly in the closet, even to myself. i’d gotten to that point of “hah wouldn’t it be nice to be like guys on tv and kiss the pretty girls” but not much further than that, because in most of the movies i had watched with my parents, the personality of the guy wasn’t really explored in the way supernatural (mostly unintentionally ngl) does with its characters.
so picture a teen, finding my first tv show to watch alone, being able to think my very own comments about it and not fear any repercussions from those thoughts because hey, i’m alone in my room i can think what i like about what i’m seeing. and feeling.
and here enters dean. complicated, comes from a rough childhood, parental expectations weighing so heavy on him it’s bleeding through his smiles, has a brother he feels is his duty to protect, is stuck in a loop of denial repression depression sublimation denial repression depression sublimation den-
you get the gist. i related to that guy. and then here he goes getting bi-coded (didn’t know what that was at the time but looking back, i could sure as hell feel it) and then kissing girls on screen, despite his wavering self-confidence. little ol’ gay me was like “yoooo i relate to this character on most of his character points, do i also relate to like..... wanting to do what he does??? do i wanna kiss other girls????”. fast forward one season and i’ve already figured out i was maybe bi. literally thanks to season 1 dean.
so, having figured out this “minor” aspect of myself, i went on youtube to find some other people like me and try to see if i was right to be homophobic towards myself or not. figured out, hey uh, definitely not. so you can also add “it ended up making me try to put a stop to my internalized homophobia” on the list of things that shitpost of a show helped me with.
i went back to the show for another season, relating even more to dean, and “blah blah blah queer coded character blah blah blah gay me could feel it before i knew what it was blah blah blah happy gay stuff”. several seasons passed by before anything new came up on my “hm this show rly out here bringing out all the queer aspects of myself huh” journey, but anyways i was still slowly but surely thinking holy shit i wanna be this goddamn man i want to be dean.
then comes season 4, walzing into my questioning little heart. oof ok, this season hit ALL the right spots for me. because i could feel what was going on between cas and dean and even though everything was still blurry as fuck, the parallel between sam/ruby and dean/cas was clear as day. and i was like “oh so you’re saying there’s a love here and it’s like that tarnished love between sam and ruby and it’s forbidden so that’s why we’re not seeing it and it’s like... gay”. so it made me realize “holy shit, i wanna see more gay content, and it’s ok to want that.”
then cas became another extremely relatable character, because i just kept thinking “he doesn’t really have a gender the same way other humans do” and i shit you not, he started me questioning my own gender. because again, a relatable character that you somewhat identify with that makes you ask questions about their identity INEVITABLY makes you ask questions about yourself. queue me going on youtube yet again to understand this shit a little better. i went through a few months of thinking “maybe i’m nb”, joined a few more gay communities on the internet, started learning about lgbtq+ things, watched a few more gay shows, and basically just grew a little more into my queerness.
fasforward several seasons, a couple gap years where i stopped watching it, and you’ll get to me a year ago. i thought i was a gay woman, fairly happy in that mental space and identity. but then. the whole “i wanna be dean” thing came up a lot again. because he just kept on being more and more visibly queer coded as i kept on learning more about this shit.
lo and behold, i jumped straight into the idea i was trans. and wouldya look at dat, i was right. quarantine happened, so i had to get even more of my interactions through online platforms, and quite obviously hovered around the gayer ones, or at least the lgbtq+ sides of them. and as i kept watching the show on and off, binging the first seasons for the 4th time, i kept learning more and more about myself. and those acts of gay frenzy were always started by seeing something relatable or strange in that show and looking it up. like, legitimately every time.
i found this community on tumblr a few weeks ago because i was tired of having my own little hypotheticals in my head and not knowing if anyone agreed, and the more i’ve been here the more i’ve learned about myself. the more i’ve let go of a lot of internalized hatred. the more i’ve been really ok with myself, as a trans guy. BUT ITS NOT FINISHED YET.
because, as we all know, it is common understanding here that dean is bi. WELL, i’ve been re-binging the show with that mindset finally clear in my head, and the “haha dean relatable lol” thing came up again, except it was really a “haha dean (who is bi) super relatable lol” thing now. so i paused, yet again, to think about that a little more. AND FIGURED OUT I WASNT STRAIGHT, IM BI AS FUCK.
that happened 1 month ago. i thought i’d grown fully into my queer self, that i’d gone through enough realizations and coming outs (to friends only, god forbid i come out to my parents (unfortunately quite literally god forbid lmao) before i’m out of here) for a lifetime. but apparently not. AND IT WAS STILL BECAUSE OF SUPERNATURAL. destiel and trans!dean fics helped with my internalized transphobia and homophobia, they helped with acceptance of those parts of myself. something that helped was also seeing the fact that shipping two guys in a tv show wasn’t just “being greedy with my grubby little gay hands” and wanting to think of a character as trans wasn’t just “being delusional and ridiculous”. and reading fics wasn’t cringy, it was nice and comforting.
so to try and sum up this unhinged gay rant, what i meant by my initial statement is this.
looking back on this entire self-discovery journey that i went on, it really felt like i was in the impala with the boys, except i was on a different kind of route (just picture this giant road painted in rainbow colors with baby driving at 80mph on it, that’s what it felt like). i grew with those characters, but most importantly i grew THANKS to those characters. their story was queer enough to make me, a fairly homophobic, traditional, conservative kid into a lib trans bi dude. and not in a “i got converted by the fandoms” way. i found the fandom waaaaayyyyyyyy later. i stumbled upon the fandoms looking for answers about this gayass goddamn show that i could FEEL was like me but couldn’t verbalize yet.
their story felt like a queer self discovery story and i could already see that before i went on it myself. no other shows have ever done that for me, and i’ve watched shows that had lgbtq+ characters in them, scripted gay scenes, not just subtext but text. and they still didn’t do that for me.
so this is why this show is so meaningful to be, and incidentally so very gay. like genuinely.
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winchesterxxi · 3 years
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hai Sam! soooo lemme just say that your fics are ✨sooo good✨like what are you doing to me🤌🏽-
id like to request a ship! im latina, im 5'6 and a quarter (that quarter is very important to me😅) andddd ive got some curves and chubs. got long black hair that goes past my waist and eyes that are almost black cuz of how dark brown they are
im my free time i just like to chill, and i am in no way a sporty girl whatsoever, like i dont even work out which is uhm...
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yeah anyway....
i use humor to make everyone think that im okay so that people dont worry about me. i couldnt care less about myself, but if someone thats close to me isnt taking care of themselves im always there to make sure they are okay. my personality type is INFP. some people that ive let into my life just used me as their comfort object (since im very good at connecting w people emotionally and they just use me to get hugs or rant which is uhm fine i guess 🤷🏽‍♀️) so i now have MAJOR trust issues. im a very romantic person, like i always find beauty in everything i touch or see, anddddy head is ALWAYS up in the clouds.
THANK YOU SO MUCH I HOPE IM NOT ASKING FOR TOO MUCH
excuse me while i go and simp over your fanfics-
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SHIP REQUESTS ARE NOW CLOSED
This request absolutely sent me 🥺👉👈 you’re so adorable agghhh 💕
I ship you with Din Djarin!
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I JUST KNOW the man will be practically close to ripping his hair off whenever you go with him on a hunt through a planet, always dragging your feet behind him and whining about how tiring this all is and always asking if the destination was still too far.
“JUST MOVE YOUR KRIFFING FEET. Or I’m going to drag you.” he hisses through gritted teeth stomping through the ground ahead of you.
“Please do.” you sarcastically tell him. Well, kind of sarcastically.
You are the comic relief in the kid’s life, seriously. Weren’t it for you Grogu would spend his days terrified and confused but the subtle jokes that you threw around and your banter with Din always made him happily giggle.
You are so used to taking care of other people that when you meet Mando you just expect him to ask you to do practically everything for him, but you soon find out that isn’t quite the case, as he had been doing everything alone in his life up until that point, and he really only needs you to help out with the kid.
And it becomes hard. You being two people that are just so used to dealing with your emotions on your own, when you’re not repressing them, never trusting anyone else with personal stuff and you just need to slowly learn to let the other in.
So basically your love would stem from a slowly cultivated strong trust and respect which I think is just absolutely beautiful!
And despite at the beginning him absolutely hating the previously mentioned on-foot missions, with time he starts to notice that you stay behind because you are taking in everything around you, slowly mesmerizing at either the sky or a pattern you found on the side of the trunk of a tree.
It does start to change him, having someone that can find beauty in everything making him see those same things, after a life spent only thinking about survival.
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sanchoyo · 4 years
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You wanna gush about the LoV?
ALWAYS.
DID YOU MEAN FOR THE UNPOPULAR OPINIONS, OR. IN GENERAL.
(I’ll do the unpopular opinions bc I assume that’s what you meant, if I’m wrong, I could do more. always.)
-spinaraki is a better ship than shigadabi. I said it. I LIKE all three characters! But every single time I’ve tried to read a shigadabi fic, they always have them wildly ooc?? either they make Tomura a Weirdly uwu waifish type or they totally swap their personalities. The day I find an in character shigadabi fic... But I loooove spinaraki dynamic SO much, it’s so interesting to me!!! And you know what? if Spinner was a typical prettyboy itd be more popular 🙃
-I cringe when people make the lov ~pretty~ like removing scars n stuff. I can kinda understand with Dabi because they’re like ~what if he got away from Endeavor in time~ or those kinda scenarios and they could just be curious to see what he’d look like in that sort of au, or wanna see how much of a todoroki he looks like, but when people do it and are like ‘omg theyre actually hot under all that!!’ as if people with wrinkles, scars, burns, can’t be hot??? 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫 
-when people sexualize toga I lose it. 🔫🔫🔫👁_👁 (this includes in canon. or all the young girls tbh, not just Toga)
-speaking of toga!!! I wanna see more toga-centric fics!!! or shippy ones with her that are actually the other person reciprocating just bc I love to imagine how she’d react and act in a relationship. ajkdfhkj 
-^adding on to that, why are all the lov fics so centered around either dabi, shigadabi or villain!deku???? I want...fics of the other characters!!! (the lack of shigaraki-centric fics drives me nuts all the time. WHY!!! HES LIKE. THE MAIN VILLAIN NOW!!! HELLO???)
-villain!deku bad 90% of the time. i swear I JUST ranted to my good friend abt this. and I’ve ranted about it before on this blog, I looked thru my tags for a min and it was a rant in my tags, but it still stands:
#ppl always try to give deku in that au shigs backstory everytime!!!! like its always he gets orpahned and taken in by villains or smth!!!! #you want a sassy bratty smart villain!!! shig is there!!! #ppl really just mesh shigs personality/backstory with kurogiris aesthetic and slap dekus face on it!!! #that might as well be a fandom oc bc its SO FAR REMOVED FROM IZUKU!!! #tell me im wrong bc im NOT #this isnt me saying u cant enjoy it its just me Saying…#IM NOT GOING TO STOP SCREAMING ABOUT HOW FUNNY THIS IS. Deku villain au is just #shigarakis backstory and personality + kurogiris aesthetic in a trench coat…..
I could go more in depth about this and write a full essay why I think villain!deku is sooo poorly written and thought out and just...not good. But if people enjoy it, idc. I’m just tired of trying to find lov-centric stuff and seeing Him Everywhere. He’s already the main character. Why do u gotta shove him into the villain group too. JFC. 
-I wish we saw more of Mustard!! wheres that funky little gun boy. What if we never see him again??? makes me sad... I don’t care much about moonfish or muscular, but the lov could’ve had a 14 yr old baby which is SO funny. Gun son. Him and Toga could’ve had a fun sibling relationship where she teases him endlessly and bothers him all the time and he pretends he hates it. COME ON. WHY IS THERE NO CONTENT OF THAT.
-this is gonna be a REALLY unpopular opinion. I almost didn’t include it, but fuck it 4 am time for REALLY REALLY unpopular opinions. Aside from Muscular, Moonfish, AFO, and the doctor, (basically the lov ppl most people don’t care for...) ...Twice is my least fav in the league. 
Gonna say it: he is a REALLY good character...a compelling backstory, relatable, funny, full of heart!!! But that weird pervy stuff Horikoshi adds for no reason!!! If he didn’t hit on Toga I wouldn’t say that!! Most people say just try to ignore it, and I do when writing him bc who cares about canon, right, but it’s hard to look past!! I KNOW it’s the Horny Lens this manga has a gross undertone of, but god!!! 
Him and Toga could’ve had a fun bff dynamic where he tries to make sure she has the family and care he didn’t get at her age!!! Why!!! It makes me so sad and angry. That I struggle to fully enjoy his character to what I know is his full potential. Bc of a few lines that were totally unnecessary and gross and added nothing at all, that were intended to be funny but were just fucking gross. >:”( 
Ty for asking again!!!
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