#just say that you did and thats it no need to get so agressive about it and lecturing me

[mistninja]

Why is this guy acting like i humiliated him in front of everyone because i asked him something in the group chat instead of private. Dude chill

#thank god we work from home and im never meeting him irl #like i already apologized sure i should have done it jn private but hes acting like i was accusing him of doing his job wrong #no dude i was just asking if u had done something or not #just say that you did and thats it no need to get so agressive about it and lecturing me #just came right out with 'we are ALL at the same level you should treat people with COURTESY' #just call me a bitch bro #calling me insensitive #ok. my bad. can u let it go now

[persephone11110]

A Web Of Lies | J. Seresin

warnings: past physical abuse, past domestic violence-> old traditional views of how women are supposed to be,victim blaming—self victim blaming, hurt/comfort, protective jake seresin, mentions of throwing up and being on your period, oc death-> mentions of alcohol abuse and car accident

summary:“Y/n sometimes it best if women are seen and not heard,sometimes its best if you just take the hits and don’t react”. Mama tells you while holding an icepack to her swollen eye.

AN: do i need therapy or do i need keep writing oc’s with childhood trauma?

ocs: Betty L/n, Harry L/n, Darren

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THIS STORY IS ABOUT DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND GENERATIONAL TRAUMA AND MISOGYNISTIC SOCIETIAL VIEWS SO PLEASE BE CAREFUL

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Women are seen not heard.

It’s a phrase you learned as a little girl, it’s an assumption youv’e lived by for awhile, taking it in consideration when saw your dad first hit your mom, when Darren first slapped you. Its always the women fault— it can never be the man fault.

You didn’t learn this lesson until your eight years old, when your father facade cripples quickly. Before this happened he was sweet to you, always calling you his princess, having tea parties with you—throwing you over his shoulder.

His laughter was loud and clear , just like yours until it isn’t. Your dad is everything a man is supposed to be until he isn’t. The loudness that once meant happiness turns into—loud agressive shouting, when it’s him and mama alone together.

Well they think their alone together. Your wandering down the staircase to see were he went as he promised to read you the cinderella story again—like he did most nights, reading to you until your snores filled the room.

They’re fighting again which isn’t surprising to say the least. Your parents always argued whether it was in hushed tones or it was so loud that your neighbors next door would come over and make sure everything was fine.

“Betty it wouldn’t be like this if you just made me happy!”,his voice booms, bouncing off the walls. He doesn’t look like he usually does, his hair was messy opposed to the gel back look he normally wore, his clothes has stains on it- something that was unheard of until tonight.

You swear mama not breathing after you watched daddy ball his fist up, striking her across the face. The cracking sound echoes throughout the living room, mama on the ground holding the right side of her face.

You go to open your mouth, worried for your mama. But before you can your nanny Louisa gently wraps her hand around your mouth. “Shh little one, lets get to bed–theres school remember”. Louisa picks you up and you lean your head on her shoulder, leaving your mama bleeding on the cold floor alone.

It makes mama stop arguing with daddy, his combat boots were heavy aganist the floor as he leaves through the front door— using all his strength to slame it.

In the morning you notice how quiet mama is, how red and swollen her face is. “Louisa taking you to school today Y/n” her voice is small and soft.

“Mama why did daddy hit you?”. She almost drops the kettle onto the ground, mama didn’t know you were there watching the vicious scene unfold.

Thats the day your mama infamous words get stuck in your head,“Sometimes mama makes daddy mad, sometimes women must be seen and not heard”.

It words that stay with Y/n for over an decade.

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Circa of 2002

Your in your junior year of college when the lesson your mom taught you is sitting in the back of your mind.

Just take the hit Y/n, it makes life easier.

Your relationship with Darren is so fresh, yet your already mimicking how your mom acts around your dad. Your already walking on eggshells with him, he already rolls his eyes when you forget to give him the answers to the psychologyhomework—it meant your walking on thin line of his frustration.

Sometimes you think you deserve the bruises that riddle your body, how many times have you forgotten to call him back, when he tells you to. Sometimes he’s annoyed with how much you move in your sleep, “I can’t sleep Y/n if you move so much”.

Your relationship with Darren was the true epitome of Opposite Attracts. Like today you got excited telling Darren about the release of the book Coraline. You remembered him reminding you to calm down, him telling you didn’t care about his day.

Or when your on your period and he insists that your fine, and how you had the tendency to overreact when it came to your pain. How he’s sighs when your own the ground cleaning up your throw up as the cramps had gotten worse. Telling you its 2AM in the morning and he’s desperately trying to sleep, and now he can’t.

The guilt eats away at you for days, now when you get your period you slept on the bathroom floor.

You don’t have friends anymore, as Darren had grown controlling of your social life. “Am I not enough for you, Y/n?”. Your friends grow tired of seeing you so bruised, they grow tired of trying to help someone who didn’t want the help. Its just you and Darren now–at least he didn’t grow tired of you.

It took ten years for you to leave, your about two years into your nursing job. Your a hypocrite, as you stood infront of a woman in a coma, her husband had beaten to her within an inch of her life and the only chance she had at living was a medical induced coma.

Here you were holding her hand telling her it wasn’t her fault. “Sometimes we believe we don’t deserve better and we believe there is no one out there who will ‘love’ us”. You sighed, lifting one hand to wipe away your tears.

You left him-leaving the state and finding a job all the way in Miramar, California—changing your cell number and email. A phone call from your mother makes you almost burst out laughing,“Y/n I’m so sorry for your loss sweetheart he was such a nice boy”. Darren drinking habit has gotten worse, he managed to flip his car over on its side. You didn’t feel like telling her about the break up - there was no use anway, as she’ll tell you to beg for his love again, like all the other times.

Present

You sitting across from Jake, staring at him waiting for him to tell you how much you suck at cooking. Waiting for him to pick up the dish and chuck it over your head—listening to him pop open another beer, the plate and flood sliding down the wall.

It doesnt come, its never going to.

Jake gives you a soft smile, and he reaches for your hand to hold it, as he eats.“God damn darlin, you put your entire foot in it”.

“Thank you Jake”, You push your chair back, moving to collect his dish. He softly grips your hand, stopping you from moving.

“Darlin I have legs—finish your food first”. He drops a kiss onto your head before walking to the kitchen. His southern drawl thicker than usual.

Darren did always say you were stubborn. You were standing infront of the sink washing all the dishes that had been used for dinner. Despite Jake telling you didn’t have to.

“Y/n is cleaning so hard for you?”.

“Is it so hard for my girlfriend to clean up after herself?”, your holding a cold beer to your swollen face.

“Darlin, no”. Jake wraps his arms around you not caring about your wet clothes. “Let me do it Y/n”. He gently pushes you into the kitchen chair.

Jake doing the dishes right now.

Something your dad wouldn’t dare do for your mom,“Betty I’m tired the least my wife can do is clean up for me”. Darren wouldn’t neither—“Goodnight Y/n, or I’m watching the game”, leaving you in the dark kitchen alone.

Jake Seresin isn’t them, Jake isn’t the man you’ve spent majority of your life scared of. It’s takes time for you believe that, it takes time for you to believe his words,“I will never lay a hand on you Y/n”.

It took some time but staring at him washing the dishes singing along with Beyoncé you start to believe him. You know for certain that Jacob Grant Seresin is not like them—he can’t be.

#top gun #top gun maverick #jake seresin #jake seresin x reader

[halsinsnaturepocket]

Gunna complain about a really stupid ABO fanfic thing under the cut

Gunna start with saying I have nothing against ABO / omegaverse fics, I really don't. I'm kind of new to it because I don't seek it out actively. It's not exactly something I'm into but it's not *not* something I'm into - I love the dynamic of A character is SO HORNY IT HURTS and B character is SO attracted to A that it's animalistic/feral and there's this insatiable, primal need between them, i get a little iffy with the "made for each other" trope bit thats totally just a me thing. I think it's fun and neat and if I get uncomfortable with a fic I know how to leave without being mean ((because I'm not a monster and I'm not here to yuck someone's yum))

I ALSO understand that Halsin being a druid who can wildshape easily lends itself to ABO dynamics

WHAT I DONT GET

IS ASSIGNING HIM WOLFISH TRAITS

He is a BEAR not a WOLF. he EXPLICITLY says that wolves mate for life and that's not his style, he's much more like a bear ((bears are very promiscuous, during mating season they can and will court more than one mate - and they are known for biding their time waiting for a female to be receptive and then when they fuck they fuck VIGOUROUSLY and that's why they LITERALLY LOSE WEIGHT DURING MATING SEASON. They usually leave after mating season is done but some bear species do have favorites that they spend time with after mating season is over and favored mates they return to every season. Yes i did research, leave me alone.))

So I don't get why we're out here writing knotting fics and giving him wolf traits when he literally does not adhere to any kind of wolfy way of life.

I keep trying to read abo fics with halsin knotting but I always end up backing out bc it just doesn't feel right.

Maybe I'll write my OWN omegaverse with bear dynamics.

Try and stop me.

Basically this is my call-to-action for ABO writers to be a little more creative. Give me a tav going into heat and halsin carefully approaching and waiting for the right moment. Give me some fun bear/wolf dynamics. Give me a tav that craves to be knotted but halsin simply *cant* because it's just not in his nature but he fucks them so vigourously and so frequently and protects them from other mates so agressively that it satisfies them. Give me halsin courting a tav in heat and literally fighting and chasing off other characters because he's laying claim to his mate. Halsin who literally can't keep his hands off his mate and its almost distracting how often he needs to fuck because she just smells so GOOD to him while she's fertile. Let me see an omega getting absolutely POUNDED by this giant bear of a man trying to knock her up all while fighting off all the alphas that come at her.

"I'm an alpha I have a right to her" "the fuck you do, she likes me more" and he's just so fucking large and intimidating and protective.

O R get really fun with it - Astarion or another character is an Alpha and Halsin is just Bear and there's a threesome dynamic

THERES SO MUCH ROOM FOR POTENTIAL HERE GUYS I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE

Are the rules for omegaverse that restrictive that we HAVE to use these dynamics based off of wolves??? ((Genuinely wondering since I've barely dipped my toes into omegaverse stories))

#shut up carm #this is just me complaining about how Halsin shouldnt be knotting #your opinion may differ and thats okay

[marcyyss]

' Loving at the distance '

Pt.1

Vance Hopper x reader

(Reader and Vance are 15)

Summary: You love Vance Hopper, one day he appears with a girl so you decided to make him jealous, even if he doesn't know about your existence!

It was a summer day, you were at grab and go, not because you wanted to do something, you just wanted to be near him, Vance Hopper, he was yout ideal boy, maybe a little too agressive buy that makes him your type.

As always, he was playing in the paintball machine, everyone can say that you can get bored easy if you looked at him play for hours, but you didn't, you never get bored of his face, hands and "his" paintball machine.

You knew that you weren't the most perfect in hiding that you watch him all day but you never thought that he would notice your existence, when you felt that he was near you you would run out of that place, you were just a little girl in love, in his eyes you probably are pathetic and he wanted you to stay away from him

And one day, he came to the store with a girl in his arms, so that made you jealous, you know that you didnt have any rigth to be mad at him, so your (bad) plan was talk to him, maybe flirt a little and then make him jealous, but for that you needed a boy..

— " No "

— " Come on Bruce! I never ask you for anything "

You and Bruce were friends since pre-school, so he was the perfect option for you! Everyone thought that you two were together

— " Yeah, but this can get me into a figth with that guy that you are obsessed with, please let him go "

— " I can't, im in love with him Bruce, please help me this time and i'll do anything that you want "

— " ugh, fine.. But i don't think this is going to work, and if it does you will pay the hospital bills "

— " Okay! I love you Bruce, see ya later! "

— " i hate her. "

The next part of your plan, was talking to him, but you didn't know how of course, if you had the confident of doing it you two probably would be married with six kids/cats

So your idea was, starting to work in grab and go! So if he needed help, he would ask you (plus you would have some money for your dates with him)

And you did that, fortunately for you, one day the paintball machine didn't work one day so he was PISSED and talked (screamed) at you

— " Hey girl, why did the stupid machine stop working? "

— " Oh, let me call my co-worker to fix it "

You smiled and he looked more pissed then before

— " Well fucking hurry "

He said before walking to his friends again so you did what he wanted, and called your co-worker

— " Hey, can you fix the paintball machine please? Thank you.. "

You hang up the phone and screamed at him

— " Your hero in armor is coming paintball princess, dont worry! "

You were so dead and probably getting fired too but it was worth it, his friends was laughing, everyone was actually and he looked like he could kill you with his eyes rigth now, you didn't know why but that made you blush

A couple of minutes later, your co-worker came to repair the machine and you can go home now, when you were walking out of the shop, Vance grabbed your arm

— " Do you really think that you can stalk me all summer, make fun of me and then leave like nothing happened? Yeah thats not going to happen sweetheart, you are so dead now "

— " DO YOU WANT TO GO ON A DATE WITH ME? "

You were the queen of bad timing and he looked stunned

— " What the fuck? "

— " haha, get pranked bitch. "

You run out of there the fast that you can to your house

— ( Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck im so dead rigth now, he will never accept me now? Im so fucking dumb i hate myself so much)

You went to the phone to call Bruce and tell him all that you did

So yeah, i fucked up writing this

#the black phone #the black phone x reader #vance hopper #vance hopper x reader #robin arellano #robin arellano x reader #finney blake #finney blake x reader #bruce yamada #bruce yamada x reader #fluff #fanfic

[yellowbluemoonshine]

Hello!

I short time before started Hell's Paradise. Actually, I had prejudices.  For example: Chobei is really look like Bakugou and people says He is like Bakugou ( his Character)  actually I love Bakugou but I can't  stand second Bakugou but After watching it, I realized I was wrong because his Character  is so different I love him He is good brother and Caring and good towards those he loves. 

People says Aza brothers relationship like kiribaku and bakudeku but this Sounds stupid

I am  actually angry with those who kept comparing the two.

What do you think? I'm curious.

Sorry for my english.

Hello, thank you for the ask! (And your english is fine) ^^.

Bakugou - Chobei Comparison;

I get you because the same thing happened to me in.

I hate all those comparisons because its not true, people tend to overlook Bakugou's mistakes, he is seen as 'actually not bad guy', 'he has soft side too', 'misunderstood angry boy', even though he is not so i think people are kinda projecting it, they wish Bakugou was like Chobei but its not.

I had the same prejudice about Chobei at first. (I erased Bakugou-Chobei edit-picture but put it in this post).

Here's my old edit-picture and now i think it is kinda trash/useless.

There were some visual similarities with both Gabimaru and Chobei. My first posts in this tumblr was literally about this. Gabimaru who is similar to Shigaraki, is groomed to be murderer since childhood, white hair, red eyes, empty heart, actually kind person but needs to be saved, only difference his redemption starts earlier than Shiggy's. Still different character and i think Shiggy is a deeper character than him but similarities are there. Edit picture is in here.

And here my thoughts about Bakugou and Chobei;

When i first read the manga, when i first saw Chobei, i was like 'Another Bakugou...' because he has a very similar design and that loud, agressive, arrogant behavior with the fact that he is kinda rival to main character made me think he was just like Bakugou. Not even mentioning his little brother blindly idolizing him, just like how Bakugou was idolized but i was so wrong and i am glad that i was because he is actually in fact so different.

1- Character-Story Comparison;

First of all, the origin of their characters is different. They both are aggressive, arrogant, tend to be violent, loud and all but why makes them that way is so different.

Bakugou is just a school bully, he is just a kid with ego issues. He is blessed with power and he gets away with bad behavour that made him the way he is. His define character is his desire to win, being better than others. While competition is good thing, it can be easiely toxic, which is what happens with Bakugou.

Chobei is just a normal kid who wants make his family proud. Especially, he is big brother first, then everything else comes later. He isnt a bully. He is a survivor. He lost his mother at a young age. His father was executed in front of him and his brother. He was the son of samuray but had to live at streets, and no one helped them. Then he was kidnapped by bandits so that they would sell kids for God know what reason so he had to do something about it, to survive. And he manipulated them because whether they were gonna take advantage of them or the opposite. He took advantage of the people around him. Of course, living a life of a bandit would make his ego blow up, it makes sense why he is so self-absorbed because he won, he survived agaisnt horrible people as kid. It makes sense why he doesnt care about other people because noone helped them as kids. Thats why he doesnt believe in the justice of others. It makes sense why he has the mindset of 'us vs others'. Lets be real. If he wasnt like this, he would've been killed years ago.

His character is intimidating on purpose so people wouldnt dare to hurt him. It is his persona to survive. And all those things isnt just for him to survive. He did all this to protect his little brother and his actions isnt excused but there is something so heroic, so pure about this. And this is the origin of his character. He is a protector. He might not be kind person but he is the type of person who would pay attention the needs of those he loves, even at his worst.

Chobei is tragic and deeper character and his story is very different than Bakugou who just needs to learn not to be awful to people around him for no real reason.

And not just as characters, the way story handled them and how they interact others is very different.

Bakugou is (anti) hero in the story and he doesnt get any real consequences for how he treats others. He bothers people for no reason but most of the time, other characters just endure it. Most characters likes him, even though in real life, everyone would hate jerks. (Like they feel uncomfortable from Monoma's actions but them being okay with Bakugou is weird). The person he bullied brutally still admires him. He gets many screentime, clearly more than he needs because most of the time, it feels very irrelevant (For example, him learning OFA did nothing useful for Izuku, except worse, because he had to endure bakugou's anger). And he kinda gets character development.

Chobei is more like league of villains in this story. I think the way he was treated as character feels a lot more realistic than Bakugou's. Because the thing is, no one really cares about Chobei in Jigokuraku because they have no reason to. The only person who cares about him and who idolizes him is his brother Toma but honestly, of course, he would. Its his family and Chobei literally made many sacrificies for him such as cutting his right eye etc. So he doesnt magically get along with everyone, even when he kinda saved everyone/and kinda died at the end of story but none of the characters (except Toma) cared. He doesnt magically win. There is a logic in his power, which is adaptation. He even loose to mc. The story doesnt even force him to get redemption or character development, though he could get one, story only show that there is humanity in him, just like Gabimaru, which is enough. He is also very relevant to the story since beginning to the end. (I am not saying his writing is perfect but at least, better than other).

Chobei and Bakugou only looks on superficial level (angry blonde boy) and their dynamic with others are different too.

2- Dynamic Comparison;

First of all, Toma's character is different than Izuku and Kirishima. Toma is very silent, negative, feminine boy. If i ever find similar character to him, i would say Kalluto from Hunter x Hunter. Just a dark, silent, mysterious feminine boy. They are very loyal towards people they love, and passive. Compared to this, Izuku is negative but he knows when to scream to others, he is also not necessarely silent. I think as character, he is a lot like Sagiri in Jigokuraku. He is kind, he also empathizes and try to understand world around him and helps people, just like her. And Kirishima is also very different because he is even louder than Izuku and he tends to be more positive and social. I think he is a lot like Tenza in Jigokuraku, than Toma who silently endures and lives in his own world. Kirishima is also have that naive, kind, youth energy, just like Tenza, they both even have the negative old self in past so basically, as characters, Toma is not similar to Izuku and Kirishima.

And as dynamics, they are nowhere similar to another.

Chobei and Toma are very opposite natures, yin and yang, thats why they match perfectly. Well Bakugou is very different than Izuku as character too but thats doesnt make it same because sometimes, opposite dynamic might be toxic. Bakugou is Izuku's abuser. He brutally bullied him, he violated his personal space, he made him feel worthless and even then Izuku continued to idolizes him. Both Izuku and Toma admires their unyielding ego and they both feel inferior and follow them but it makes sense with Toma because Chobe iis the only person in this world for him because Chobei is Toma's protector, not abuser. Chobei might act like jerk but he wouldnt violate Toma's needs. He would do, he does most of the things he did so that Toma would get the best life he could have. Their dynamic is nowhere similar to him because Chobei would never hurt Toma, not on purpose at least, if he knew it is hurting him, he would change it.

Yeah, Bakugou also learn to change but that doesnt change how he treated Izuku. He couldnt care less how much he hurts Izuku, he wouldnt care when other hurt Izuku (in the past, at least) and even with redeemed Bakugou, their dynamic isnt similar. They just have to common point, with their admiration with Allmight and becoming hero and thats it. While Chobei would kill everyone, even himself, if anyone hurts Toma in any way. Toma is his exception. Bakugou met Izuku, looked at his pure eyes and he decided the ruin him while Chobei met Toma, looked at his pure eyes and he decided the protect him at all costs, lol. Chobei also likes teasing Toma but thats the thing, Bakugou doesnt just jokely tease Izuku, he abuses him, thats a big difference. Also i am pretty sure that Chobei actually loves to spoiling Toma.

Yes one is childhood friend and other one is brother but i think even if Chobei wasnt brother of Toma, he would still have same dynamic. Not because he finds some common point or understands him, just that their opposite sides would attracts each others and they eventually get along.

Bakugou's dynamic with Kirishima is a lot healthier than bakudeku dynamic. He is Baku's first friend, he is calmer with him, its like they have a connection but its still different than Chobei-Toma dynamic because Toma and Chobei are yin and yang, they get along so well because they are opposite. Even they are not brothers, they would still would invested in each others and become partners anyway. They do find something interesting about other one while the reason Bakugou and Kirishima come to a sense is that they understand each others better because they are similar. Loud, masculine, positive. Thats how they become friends and of course, this dynamic is okay too. The thing is its just different than Toma and Chobei's dynamic.

I think Toma-Chobei dynamic is a lot more similar to Sam-Dean dynamic in Supernatural than others. (More details in here.)

Bonus; Gabimaru might be kinda rival with Chobei too, they just find a common point but thats it. Though, they could be friends, still i think it wouldnt be their primary relationships. They would just be friends so his dynamic/interaction isnt similar to Bakudeku and Kiribaku either.

It is okay to enjoy any of those characters and ships/dynamics/relationships etc but as characters, Bakugou and Chobei is nowhere similar to each others at all. And Chobei-Toma dynamic is also different than Bakudeku-Kiribaku dynamic. And i hope people understand this.

#crossover meta #crossover #anon ask #bakugou katsuki #bakugo katsuki #aza chobe #aza chobei #aza choubei #bnha analysis #mha meta #jigokuraku #hells paradise #aza toma #midoriya izuku #kirishima eijirou #hxh #kalluto zoldyck #yamada asaemon sagiri #yamada asaemon tenza #aza brothers #supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #writing criticism #fandom criticism #jigokuraku meta #gabimaru #shigaraki tomura #bakudeku #kiribaku

[hirik0]

You always meet twice

Soap/Ghost

CW under age drinking, mention of drug use

Feburary 2013

Sergeant Simon Riley dont do clubs, just like his shitty father he liked rock and not what ever the fuck they played at this shady club, that Tommy learned about from god knows who. They are in a small underground club in Glasgow and the only reason Simon is here is to look after his littel brother. He does it for the piece of mind of their mother, so he spents his leave before he joins his first squad after boot camp in shady techno clubs making sure Tommy dont get any drugs. Hes failing because apearently Tommy is having his secound glas of a colorfull drink in his hand chatting with a teenboy around his age. So they are both 17, but it seems nobody cares about underage drinking in this shit hole. He sighs deeply, knowing he now has to babysitt how ever Tommy is becoming assosiated with. Hopefully this is a better influence on his brother then trash he calls friends. He pushes himself of the wall, time to make sure Tommy is not befriending more people that have a bad influsence on him.

"Really, thats your first rave?", Tommy ask exitet to meet a new person. "Yeah, my da will kill me if he learns i sneaked out", Johnny answers. "Oh, so your a golden boy breaking the rules for the first time?", Tommy ask neither Simon or he wear ever a good child with therie dad and all. "Yeah, with going to church every Sunday", the scot answers. "How did you learn about this place?", Tommy ask, noticing Simon is walking in their direction needing to finish his drink before his big brother is reaching them. "Some guys at the school rugby team talk about it all the time", Soap answers. "You want to try E later?", Tommy ask him hastly as Simon coming closer and closer. "Sure", Johnny answers never having taken drugs in his live but Tommy seams to have experience. "Oh, hey Simon", Tommy say smilling at his big brother, predenting he not just asked a person he just meet to take drugs with him. When Soap looks at up at Simon he feels himself blush a bit. Simon, dressed in all black looks fucking hot. The black eyeliner his wearing making his brown eyes apear more golden then brown. "Johnny", Soap interduces himself asking himself why he finds this guy hot, girls are hot, boobs are hot, guys are not hot. Beeing gay is a one way ticket to hell, but it is probably not forbitten to acknowledge a other man is attractive. The next thinks he notices is the fresh military style hait cut Simon is having. "Simon", Simon intereduced himself before shaking Johnnys hand. "You, eh dont look like you usally go on raves", Soap states his observation, that Simon looks more like he is about to go to a punk concert or something like this. "Just here to look after Tommy, so he dont get in troubel again", Simon explains trying to remove some of the glitter on his black t-shirt just spreading it further. "Thats cool of you, would do the same for my siblings", Johnny states. "Johnny want to dance?", Tommy ask knowing they wont get any E when they dont get rid of Simon. "Sure, see you around Simon", Johnny agress follwoing the younger Riley on the dance floor.

May 2013

Johnny and Tommy are now meating regulary at raves all over britain. Tommy more influancing Johnny to break rules then Johnny is able to influence Tomy to dont do drugs and finish school. "How's Simon", he ask while they are eating burgers at a McDonalds both waiting for the first train back home. "Shiped out, Iraq probably", Tommy says rather uninterested. Johnny picked up real fast that the relationship between the brothers as not as good as he origanly thought. "How are thinks with your dad?", Tommy ask knowing that with every rave they are going thinks get worse for Johnny. "I dont know, he stops beeing angry as if he just gave up on me." "Thats good right?" "No, it feels like he just stoped carring about me, making sure that my sisters are not ending up like me." Tommy is not really able to relate to this. "There is this girl in my class", Tommy start to change subject, so they dint have to think about their dads. "Oh." "Her names Beth, but i dont think she would ever look at a lost cause like me." "I think if you would just do your homework you would stop being such a lost cause." "You sure?", Tommy ask as if Johnny said the most outlandish think. "Trying wont hurt.", Soap says before eating some fries. "I guess." They sat in silent for a why but its clear that Johnny has something on his mind. "You think that being gay is a sin?", Johnny ask out of the blue. Tommy is thinking about it, mostely because the drugs are slowly wearing of. Being in the rave sceen defently changed his thought on sexuality and its clear this is something that Johnny strugels with. "Pretty sure people go to hell for worse think then beeing gay Johnny. If its a sin god can go fuck himself." "Tommy, you cant say think like that about god.", Johnny looks scandalised at his friend. "God, clearly didnt helped or cared about us in our fucked up home, I can talk about him how I want", Tommy says shrugging his shoulder before bitting in his burger again.

November 2013

"Johnny, you are walking on thin ice here", Tommy hisses clearly concerned that he will get hurt. "I can handel these guys", freshly turned 18 years old Johnny assures. Tommy already sees Simon walking over to them in a incredibly speed with how packed the dance floor is. "Just drop it or the party is over", Tommy trys to end the situation before Simon does. Simon is reaching them observing the situation critical. Tommy looks apologetic at his big brother, clearly knowing that Simon will end the situation very soon and drag both of them out of the club. He just steps behind Johnny, looking with a death glare at the dealers and then just pick Johnny up like hes weighting nothing and throws him over his shoulder. Johnny face is burning because of a mix of emberesment and hornyness. Oh god he has a crush on Tommys brother, hes pretty sure that Simon is of limits. He just resently came to terms with being bisexual. The only time he ever ask Tommy about Simons sexuality he got a annoyed look and 20 minutes monologe why Simon is not that special and the final answer of Simon beeing straight. Tommy is follwoing them outsite where Simon puts Johnny down near the people standing outsite for a quick smoke. They clearly are catching a lot of attention from the smokers. "Johnny, when I see you talking with dealers again the party is over", Simon say with a angry voice, it's already bad enough he can't keep Tommy away from drugs but Johnny? Johnny has a bright future ahead of him unlike Tommy or himself. "Yes, of course. I will stay away from them." "Good lad", Simon says before pating Johnnys head like he would pet a dog. The blush on Soaps face is getting darker fuck, fuck, fuck. The people start to stop paying attention to them, seeing that nothing interesting is happening. Tommy is just puting his hands over his eyes being embarrassed for Johnny. Its the last night these 3 will see each other.

Al Mazrah 2022

Ghost watches the mariens jumping out of the trucks before boarding the plane. Then he hears Shepard over radio: “Marines are loading in now. You and the Sergeant are leading the way on this.” “The Sergeant?”, Ghost ask confused, there was no meantion of a Sergeant in the files. Price would have told him if he had a colead for the mission. “Soap MacTavish”, the General just says as if Ghost should know this. A young looking soilder is walking in his direction and Ghost has the feeling that he knows these blue eyes and big smile from somewhere. “Let's get ourselves a win, yeah, L.T.? Save ye a seat, sir...”, Soap says before punishing his shoulder and jogging up the ramp to the plane. "Fucking hell...”, Ghost muters to himself, forgetting his still on line with the General. "What was that Lieutnant?", Shepard ask. "Nothing, Sir", Ghost says before boarding the plane himself. Why does Soap look so familiar to him, he has the feeling a long buried memory is about to resurface from a time before Roba, a time when Tommy was still alive. MacTavish, MacTavish... Johnny, the realisation is hitting Ghost like a truck. Tommy is dead for nearly 7 years now and he still finds new ways to haunt him from his grave.

#call of duty #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #john soap mactavish #soapghost #soap x ghost #tommy riley

[cmncisspnandmore]

I just need to tell you about this amazing little writer,@cordeliawhohung.

I stumbled across this account by total accident okay? Like 100% had no intention of reading the fanfictions she wrote for. I had only ever heard of Call Of Duty from my husbands late night gaming escapades. But yet, i took a chance, I googled "Simon Riley" and was like "oh okay, bet, military man who wears a skull mask. Lets give it a try," So i did.

I read her fanfiction series called Soft Spot, with basically ZERO context. I googled more in the hour it took me to read her work than ive ever googled in my life. But i was NOT dissapointed. Did i have to reread scenes to figure out who was talking because i was clueless on their names? yes. Did it discourage me one bit? no.

BECAUSE. this girls writing is something else. it captivates you, throws you right into being the main character which is EXACTLY what you're looking for when you read these things. Without fail Core had me hooked. So i did the thing that most anyone does, I left a little ask/message for her. Explaining how this piece of UNPAID, UNOWED work left me on the edge of my seat. How the wrods jumped off the page to try to become reality. Because thats what they did.

And this percious little bean, offered to message me about the characters, to help me understand the things i didnt. She not only eagerly, but kindly informed me of the beautiful characters of Call of Duty Modern Warefare 2, but she also showed me how beautiful her very soul is.

She became one of those people i wanted to talk to all the time. (I probably annoy her with how much i message her, and Core i am sorry, but i cant help it.) We started talking more regularly, and in the few weeks we have been talking, i've come to consider her one of my friends.

Although we dont get to talk a lot, due to her work, time differences and life just being hard. ANY time i see her username pop up in my notifications im thrilled.

I could go on for hours about her, i should. Because there are so many amaizng things i could say about her.

Her writing is next level, if we could all legally publish fanfiction without the whole legal rights thing, Core's story "Soft Spot" would be a best seller. I firmly believe that she would be NYC Best Selling Author her first year. Her way of writing hooks you from the first few words. I honestly get a little jealous of how well she writes, but she was quick to tell me that if we all wrote the same then the world would be boring. Which is true.

So to conclude this post. If you havent, check her out. send her an ask, and get to know the amazing person who runs @cordeliawhohung. You won't regret it.

Also be kind to your fanfiction writers, they do this without pay. For YOUR entertainment. Reblog, like, share, interact with them. They write 100+k fics because they love the same characters as you. They write the works that some people need, that they crave, all on their own time. Be appreciatve and understanding when they do upload and when they can't. They're humans too. Be kind to them. Dont demand things from them.

Core, i appreciate you. I care for you. I will agressively love you from hundreds of miles away. Take care of you, take whatever time you need. And NEVER apologize to anyone for feelings like you aren't doing enough. Because just being you, babes, thats enough.

#im a mushy mess #fanfiction #cod #call of duty modern warfare 2 #no but seriously shes amazing #read soft spot #simon riley #i love you

[konata-izumi-kinny-writes]

Swerve, Tailgate, and G1 Arcee x Scene GN Human reader

Learning about Halloween

(Seperate)

[A/n: okay i'll admit it. This is completely self-indulgent Lmao!]

Warnings: none

Context for Tailgate and Swerve's parts: The Lost Light stops by Earth for supplies and to get you a life time supply of food, clothes, and other stuffs you'll need.

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AAAAAAAAAAAA-

🕷Swerve🦴

You both were on a drive in a neighborhood which was near where the Lost Light was, nothing was really happening so you were both enjoying the fall scenery. You both drove towards a nearby mall in comfortable silence until Swerve spotted some Halloween decorations outside the walls.

"Sweetspark? What are those unsettling lawn ornaments for?"

"Oh, those are just Halloween decorations."

"Whats that?"

"Well... Halloween started off as a tradition during harvest season where people would carve pumpkins to scare off demons, but later on it somehow evolved into dressing up and getting free candy during the night cycles.. Its also a way to celebrate fear."

"....THATS SO COOL!! Are you gonna dress up? Can I dress up with you? How scary is it? What are you gonna dress up as? Whats your favorite candy? How scary is it?"

You chuckled as your conjunx rambled on with all of his questions and opinions, happily listening to and answering everything he had to say or ask.

After you both arrived at the mall, He activated his holo-form, and you two went inside. Ypu both visited all of your favorite stores and gathered clothes, snacks, and other things to keep you entertained.

Near the end of it, you both stopped by your favorite place to get food. It was then when Swerve said something that made your heart melt.

"I'm so glad to have you as my conjunx, ya know that? You're so different and learning about you just blows my mind. I love ya, Sweetspark."

"I love you too Swerve.. i think thats the sweetest think anyone has ever said to me, not gonna lie."

After you finished eating, the two of you rode back to the Lost Light. Swerve put you in some pajamas and set you down on the little nest of blankets and pillows on his bar. He sat down, resting his arms on the bar and just stared at you as you did your own thing.

".....Swerve, you alright, bud? You're staring at me."

"I'm alright, I just like watchin ya. I love ya, sweetspark."

"Lova ya too, big boy."

You give him a kiss before you lay down and stare at the skylight and watch the stars with Swerve.

👻Tailgate🎃

You stepped into the passenger side of Tailgate's tiny alt mode with your Invader Zim backpack and started putting on your rubber spike ball earrings. Despite how small he is, Tailgate's alt mode is surprisingly comfortable.

"Where are we going, honey? We got your clothes yesterday."

"Oh its nothing much. I just wanna introduce you to a tradition of ours." You reply as you make a few touch-ups on your eyeliner and hair, making sure its out of your face with a Gir hair clip.

"...What do you mean 'its nothing much', that sounds fun!!"

"Aight lets go then!"

You give him directions to a nearby pumpkin patch and park nearby. You put on the baby sling as Tailgate activated his holo-form. You pick him up and put him in.

"Hey Tail? If you're over 6 million years old, why'd ya chose a baby as your holo-form?"

"I didn't.. i think it was completely randomized."

"...that explains the bad outfits the others have."

You walked around with Tailgate on your chest as you looked at all the booths containing treats, face painters, and other stores. Tailgate's gaze was all over the place, taking in his surroundings as people looked back at him with cute agression. He then spoke up when you sat down in the middle of an entire area of pumpkins.

"So whats the tradition?"

"Well, every harvest season we pick out a pumpkin, hollow it out, carve a scary face into it, then light a candle in it at night."

"Thats kinda weird.. but fun!"

"Yeah! It stared like 200 years ago when people did this to 'scare off demons' and stuff like that. But now we just do it for fun."

"Nice... hey can humans eat... 'pumpkins'?"

"Yep! In fact, theres lots of pumpkin flavored things, some of them are just flat out gross though." You chuckled to yourself.

Tailgate picked out the largest one he could find and you picked out a nice, medium, round one, along with a few mini pumpkins.

After that, you and Tailgate got your faces painted and you ate some lunch as he sat on the picnic table. You two also went on a hayride around the corn maze, it was at this time you decided to tell him more about harvest season activities.

"Pumpkin carving isn't the only thing we get to do this month either."

"Mind elaborating?"

"All of this builds up the the very last night of the month. The holliday we call, Halloween. Ya basically dress up and go for a walk where you get free candy. It can be scary though."

"Are you gonna dress up?"

"Yeah! And i have a halloween costume for you too if ya wanna join."

Tailgate's expression lit up at those words.

"Really?! What is it? Is it a turbofox? A pumpkin?"

"A worm on a string!"

Tailgate's visage went from excited to confused.

"Whats that?"

You show him a picture on your phone and he starts giggling and flapping his arms.

Your time at the pumpkin patch ends when you start yawning and Tailgate insists on going back to the ship so you can rest. You place Tailgate's holo-form back into the car and put the pumpkins in the back. You tell him the rest of the basics about halloween, like the history, why we need to keep black cats inside, other interpretations of it, etcetera.

Tailgate then carries you and the pumpkins into your shared room on the Lost Light. You grab the tools and newspapers, and the two of you start carving while disney halloween classics play on the tv.

Tailgate's costume (except blue) credit goes to Ashleigh McGuire on tiktok

🕸Arcee🦇

Its Halloween, and Arcee finally got a Holo-form. You figured inviting her over for the holiday would be a great way to celebrate, not to mention so you can give her the stuffed plushie you made for her. You put on your Gir costume while waiting for her to show up. You put on the costume's hoodie as you hear the doorbell ring. You grab the candy bowl just in case its kids at the door.

You open the door and see a lady with short white curly hair, pillowy red lips, and striking blue eyes. Shes wearing a pink sweater, red grandma glasses, and the cutest pink skirt you've ever seen.

"Hello, wait- Arcee is that you?"

"Hello, dear, how are you?"

Her voice is as sweet and melodic as you remember. You set aside the candy bowl and hug her with excitement as you kiss her on the cheeks.

"Arcee!!! Oh odds i missed you, you look amazing!"

"Aww, you flatter me, sweetspark."

Just then you notice a group of kiddos in costumes, you grab the candy bowl as they all say the well known line almost everyone says on Halloween night. You hand out two pieces of candy for each kiddo as you compliment their costumes, and with a 'thank you', they move on.

Arcee seemed a bit confused at this.

"What was that?"

"Its part of a tradition that's happening tonight, I'll explain when you come inside, its awfully cold out here."

You two sit down on the couch and hand Arcee her gift. She thanks you then scoots closer to you so she can hear better.... and because she wants snuggles.

"So, what just happened is a little tradition called Trick or Treat-ing. Basically kids dress up as monsters or whatever else and walk around at night gathering candy."

"Oh! Thats fun, mind if i ask why though?"

"Its a long story. It started out like 200 years ago when people started carving pumpkins and dressing up to scare demons and other evil creatures off. It soon enough evolved into this. In my opinion though, Halloween isn't just about candy and costumes, i like to think its a way to celebrate our fear."

"....wow.. thats really interesting, and fun! Can we do that?"

"Yep! I actually have a few costumes for you to pick from if you'd like."

"Yes please!"

She jumped off the couch and started peppering your face with kisses before you lead her to your room and bring out the costumes.

You leave her be so she can get changed, you pass the time by getting the rest of your makeup and costume on. You finish just as Arcee trots out of your room wearing an adorable Sandworm costume.

"How do I look, Sweetspark?"

"Amazing..."

You approach her and take her hands in yours, they're soft.

"You're so beautiful, you know that?"

"I can say the same for you as well, my spark."

She kisses you before you grab some glowsticks and other essential things you'll need.

"What's the glowy things for?"

"So we don't get hit by a car, and so we can spot eachother."

You explained as you put a pink glow bracelet on her arm, and a green one on yours. You put the candy bowl on the front porch with a note telling the kiddos to only take two. And with that, you head out with Arcee.

You two trick or treat for a while until you decided you have enough candy (yall got a lot btw). You stop by your house and drop off the candy before wandering off into the night for more things to do.

You go into a haunted house then join in on a Halloween party, since Arcee can't technically eat human food, you packed her some Energon which she enjoyed while the two of you vibed at the party.

Two hours later, you arrive home with an empty candy bowl on the front porch, but more treats you've gained from the party, along with two worms on a string matching you and Arcee. One green one, and one pink.

You lock the front door behind you before Arcee all of a sudden picks you up and carries you to your bedroom. She gently sets you down on the bed and snuggles up beside you.

"Its been a fun night, hasn't it?"

She nods in agreement as you yawn.

"Maybe we should recharge?"

"Definitely."

You wrap your arms around her as she does the same to you.

"Goodnight, Arcee, I love you."

"I love you too, Darling."

The two of you drift into unconsciousness rather quickly due to how eventful tonight was. Even if one or both of you have a nightmare from that haunted house, you have eachother.

Arcee's costume:

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Thanks for Reading

#tranformers #transformers x reader #mtmte x reader #g1 transformers #g1 arcee #G1 Arcee x reader #swerve x reader #swerve mtmte #tailgate x reader #tailgate mtmte #fictober #flufftober2022 #spooptober

[guppyscolita]

Does Reiko have any specific triggers for his werewolf form?

Cool question hah. This might get a bit long so I'm going to put a crop here and continue bellow

Since Reiko is not originally a regular human, and he belongs to a different realm, Outworld in this case. It's interesting to think in what way does lycanthropy translates to his scenario.

To talk about his triggers, I feel it's better to start with which are NOT triggers for him

* The lunar cycle doesn't affect him in any way

* no type of metal (silver for example) affects him/ trigger him by it's own

*wolfsbane has no special effects on him (tho I do imagine he could get poisoned like any human would)

* some strong emotions are not a trigger in his case (he is a soldier, he lives with the adrenaline on top all the time. He is a bit used to strong emotions, at least the ones you'll say a soldier like him would constantly feel)

You see most of the usual werewolf triggers are related to things You find on earthrealm, such things I'm not entirely sure if they are also on Outworld, or if they work the same so I just took them out haha.

Now about his actual triggers and how does his lycanthropy works. He was at some point cursed/infected with it, how? Probably in some battle it got passed to him by one of his enemies, he probably doesn't Even remember the person who did that.

*The main trigger is his metabolism, diet and activity. Being a Lycanthrope in his case means to eat and spend the same amount of energy a big beast would. So he actually eats quite a Lot of protein and does a lot of exercise, not only because his discipline as a soldier, but because if he does not satisfy that, it will trigger the change. And he needs to do it everyday, but thats not difficult because he was alredy used to it Even before getting cursed/infected. Tho after the curse he did increased both things considerably

*Once every now and then theres an obligatory change (I can't really tell an exact time lapse because idk if months in outworld are the same than months on earthrealm. But just know that it would be a time lapse similar to that) Reiko knows when it's going to happen because he just feels it, his actitude also changes and overall he's just much MUCH agressive and emotional.

*Some emotions can also trigger him, specially fear. Which it's weird because he doesnt fear often but when he does, oh it gets bad

*Sometimes magic trigger him too, but it needs to be very specific and directed towards him.

And thats all for now haha, these could change in the future but as for now, this is the situation for werewolf Reiko

#questions

[light-koe-pinsky]

Man we need more high budget looney tunes bc I miss bugs and daffy particular comedic body language.

So much of their charm is based on their movement. Daffy is more wacky and energetic and bugs usually has more subtle ademants, therefore in a less careful animation i get that is way easier to save the looneyness for daffy and the calm and collected pose for bugs, but they add so much to his characterization that when you take those details away he feels kinda watered down.

I feel like ive been over this way too much lol but I still don't feel like I get the point across that Bugs IS actually supposed to be funny AND have fun.

He's a clown.

Daffys charm comes from him being a mess up, he's clumsy, accident prone, slapstick is his forte, guy's a living elastic band.

While bugs also posses this quality is not quite as often that this happens so in the meantime his charm comes from his grace, his movements are graceful but silly, because of his TIMING, thats what makes him a good clown.

While I love how these two characters complement eachother, bugs doesn't exist solely for the purpose of making daffy the joke of every sketch (argh looney tunes show I love you but you have your flaws) they're both individual characters that can shine on their own and not one is zanier than the other if you think about it. Like bugs status didn't became a thing just to shit on daffy.

Actually Im not that sure of the historical accuracy of this but the status of bugs is more of a response of the actual public?

Bugs wasnt created to be loved by everyone in the looney tunes universe, lmao if you watch the classic cartoons you realize that bugs is often hated by everyone, he's annoying, loud, an inconvinience where he goes, tex Avery and the other directors before the Chuck Jones era versions were like that.

Bugs just doesn't give a fuck, in fact he craves for more, like that one cartoon where hes trying increase the recompense on rabbits.

Thats where his charm comes from, he doesn't let people tell him who he is, he's this kind of anti hero, who sometimes does good deeds but is a) out of Pitty or b) to inconvinience the bad guy.

What Chuck Jones did was subvert bugs's priotities, suddenly bugs was mostly this hero godlike figure, he took this heroic version of him and just sometimes shows the antihero part in subtle passive agressive outbursts, and it WORKED.

BUT seems like he got encaged into that characterization. And I feel like is because CJ scalated on how untouchable he could be and then didn't know/care how to de-scalate.

But truth is hes not so funny when you don't have the whole picture and THIS is where I think people who write him off as someone boring/always the voice of reason get him wrong, so let me tell you what I mean

Is not just the clothes, this character is so funny:

Because You know deep down he's this character:

I'm often saying how he needs a transformation from hero to villain bc it gives both characters (him and daffy) what they need but he has already gone through an evolution before which just goes to show that the idea can work

Anyways i'm losing the track here, hope i somehow make sense

What i'm trying to say is either through dialogue, body language or the enviroment, bugs is a cunt, i mean clown.

#bugs bunny #oh god is morning already #what the HELL am I doing #anyways #analysis time

[redxblueihateloveyou]

I'm so very happy w/fs2, but a small part of me is tinitiny (very tiny) bit salty about the reconciliation going your way (that's not a beef, I love you tremendously!). you were so sure that rin should be the one to step up, even though majority seemed to disagree (on my dash), but they still went your way. it makes all the sense now to me that it happened and I'm just wondering if that's my bias-ness for rin that blinded me, since I was one of the idiots politely arguing with you after the fs1

LOL I think it's perfectly fine that you feel that way, bc it's kinda a forever debate between to say tsunderes/antisocial ppl/silent types who watch such couples and the social ones. I'm just saying it bc I myself when watching such ships with my hommies, it's literally EVERY TIME one part of the couch goes (aka my mom) "but he (Haru or Lan Zhan or Qiling or Sangwoo or etc) doesn't talk, how's he supposed to know" or "that doesn't count unless u say" or "he should've…lalala" and the other part of the couch (aka me and my sister who don't talk but show things other way) start to agressively disagree and it literally always ends like this:

And I mean, ofc depending on your personality you would watch things differently and feel things differently bc we express our feelings differently. Like I've only recently watched this korean gay dating show where there was a guy who also didn't talk but I from other things from the start guessed who he liked and then at the end turned out that none of the participants there "saw it coming" which to me was pretty wild lmao. So my point is, I got it a long time ago from real life harshly and in many comments under different shows that most people find it hard to understand these signs or even see it. On behalf of "my species" I apologize, but sometimes thats the best we can do really.

I always due to this try to look at these (my favorite) types of pairings from both sides, even tho I know I'm clearly biased too. And my main argument in this cases (as in who must "step up" as you say) is that if one despite of who he is tried as hard as he could to deliver his feelings even painfully so surpassing his comfort zone and the other didn't, then the one who should be stepping up is the one who didn't. I think thats how it usually works at the end. I just know from my own feelings that for them it was very hard to step out of their comfort zone and thats why in such stories writers always reward them at the end for that I think.

That being said in that particular case also I think you have to watch it from the point of who in his way did everything he could when it comes to their relationships and was fully invested without lying to himself and who wasn't. And it was Rin who constantly backtracked due to being scared (for respectable reasons, but still), Haru was fully in for a long time. I just think bc of all the metaphors about swimming and water and the fact that they also want to be together everywhere for life including their profession, some mixed up a bit here the professional and personal aspects.

Like when it comes to their way in professional life goals it was Rin who had no fear and Haru did (also for his own respectable reasons). But when it comes to their feelings it was Haru who had no fear, since the very beginning, but Rin did.

Also personally for me actions always speak louder than words, but at the same time I do understand that hearing some things are also very much needed. So I think its fine to feel both ways, I personally don't really get mad when ppl don't get it.

The only thing that gets me going into a heavy debate sometimes is the fact that some throw around stuff like "well he must express himself more normally" or smth in the orbit, indicating that if you don't express yourself with words specifically, you're an asshole/insensitive or smth like that, nevermind the fact that someone there cut their leg to save his future husband's life you know haha. Which to me is hilarious since its these types of characters that in my opinion are more sensitive and deeper head over heels than others. Bc at the end they due to the fact that for them its ususally the only exception thing, if they enter this territory, they usually drown very deeply and unrecoverably. Meaning once they're in they're all in, there's not gonna be any denial/stepping back an etc.

And I just also don't see the point (when it comes to love) of forcing people to express themselves in a way they don't want to. For example, I'll never serenade to someone who I'm in love with, bc I'm just not that kind of person. I wouldn't want to be someone who expects this from me or will get upset that I don't do such stuff. I myself think random little things like that time Rin was talking about Haru's birthday plans and Haru going "I'm not gonna listen untill you'll change your wet clothes, I'm scared you'll get sick" is much sweeter and to me personally enough. I'm not trying to demean here any huge romantic gestures, I just personally do not care for those. But I know all people are different and that's okay.

So I'm just saying that these kind of characters express the feelings in other ways (which to me for some reason are the most touching). So expecting Haru to do stuff from some of the people's wish list that were voiced after fs1 would be just not Haru. Also the problem there was that Rin was scared to dive into love. And what else in your opinion Haru should've done to show him that he's his safe haven I do not get no matter how much I thought about it. Bias or not but after all that patience and understanding, you gotta admit that the only option here already was a shock therapy of maybe taking it all away haha.

So when it comes to love you gotta judge everyone depending on their own scale. Like you certainly can expect us once in love turn from a cocoa bean into hot chocolate just for you, but we won't magically turn into a sugar syrup, if you know what I mean here lmao. And Rin also doesn't want that, bc he loves Haru. If he wanted to pick someone else, he would've LOL

Also I think being biased is also fine (we all are when it comes to our faves) as long as you admit to it and don't start this thing some people start where they seem to only care about one person in a ship. That's already not a shipping in my opinion haha. Like idk why but I seriously hate it the most. Bc even in times when you're certain you're right, you gotta try to see things from both points of views. In all of your own relationships too.

P.S. also forgot to say" haha I win". I'm kidding lmao. Love you too.

#answered #anonymous #rinharu #harurin #free! the final stroke #free! #rin matsuoka #nanase haruka #in this particular case I really don't think there was other option #thats why I was surprised so many started the whole haru should fix this #really not in this case lol #and as much as some yell how some must talk I can yell how some should pay attention to obvious things xD #but thaats fine we're all biased #just be fair

[oscill4te]

system responsibility is hard to put into practice because it can feel so easy & and convenient to place all the blame on one alter and absolve yourself of any responsibility for your actions. but really it's not fair to that alter who probably is already dogpiled on in yr headspace and its unfair to the people in yr life to say 'oh this alter did it, its not my fault'...

you still did something that may have been hurtful, its okay to explain that it was that alter who did it and why they did (assuming you are open about being plural with the other party), thats totally ok. but everyone in a system needs to take responsibility for what your body said or did and help each other out, not dogpile the one alter and say 'yeah its her fault shes so impulsive/hypersexual/agressive/ect'!!... it can make that alter feel exposed and unsafe too if you keep blaming them like that too and not trying to make things right. Its definitely not easy but its so important to keep practicing system responsible and not just point fingers at one alter.

Try to wrk with your headmates to make a concrete plan to get better, try to talk to your alters and understand why they may be doing these things, make amends with people in your life you may have hurt and take responsibility instead of blaming it on another alter. It is a much better way to live i promise

#dogpiled alters rise up i guess #not sure if this will resonate with anyone; even systems. but posting anyway #osddid #plurality #actually traumagenic #txt

[ihonestlydunnowhattocallmyself]

Chapter 4-23:

I find it hard to pen down my thoughts now after reading this excelent classic but I'll try to compile them.

First off I'd say it was definitely worth the read however you should probably keep your expectations somewhat low as even though it is a fantastic story it is very episodic with several set pieces and more so short arcs of around 3 chapters at most intercut by various descriptions of fish! It is surely a must read for fans of marine biology and while it does have the very heart of adventure novels its story is much more serialized and I don't think everyone will like that.

Secondly though the set pieces are quite exhilarating and enticing! Especially when they find Atlantis or their adventures in the north pole. They always keep you at the edge of your seat and the constant theorizing and descriptions of fish add an authenticity to the story its trying to tell. I really like the angle through which it approaches it especially with the devil fish chapter.

And on the devil fish chapter, oh my god I love this chapter! I originally got the book because I heard it had the kracken and quite honestly after reading basically three quarters of the book with it not coming up once, I was starting to think it wasn't there! The start of the chapter comes in is also not too encouraging as its pretty standard with the fish descriptions once more. But then they start to dwell on the existence of devil fish. And thats when its name is spoken, 'Kracken'. I just loved that moment! Even if it is only called that once I loved it! The proceeding fight was also pretty nice.

One more thing I really liked is how Nemo is characterized through the reader seeing how he views himself! Mainly with the picture of all the famous people in his room. Its just a really good moment that tells us all we need to know about how Nemo thinks about himself and really works well when the portrait of his wife and children (?) are revealed letting us know why he hates people on the land so much! I like how he is shown to have a complex morality as all his actions makes sense from him supporting revolutions, not wanting to kill more agressive fish, keeping Ned, the professor and Conseil on board because he doesn't want his secret to get out and his massacre of the war ship sent after him. It makes him that much more of a compelling character! I also love how many mysteries still revolve around him. Where did he come from? Who exactly is he fighting against? It all is just so interesting and I love all of it!

I also really like how the ending left up so much to interpretation with a cliff hanger that is unlikely to be resolved! I personally believe that the nautilus survived because well, its the nautilus. I also think that even though Nemo is somewhat sorry he is still on a war path against his enemy.

Overall, great read.

#20000 leagues under the sea #book review #book thoughts #jules verne #twenty thousand leagues under the sea #classic literature

[one-abuse-survivor]

my mom is literally impossible. everything i want to do, enjoy or experience she finds some way to demotivate me or go crazy enough to deter me from it for good. im still really struggling with how to deal with it. physical stuff is so much easier to deal with than mental/emotional. tonight, for example, she starts yelling at me for not having a job, having a horrible attendance at college, and just being in bed all day, which, as i lay them out like that, they’re reasonable things to be asking your seemingly bum of a child. she goes further into comparing me to my cousin. hes doing much higher level things in college, and not only does he have a full attendace there, he has a job too, so his schedule is almost always booked. mine is not. he is an entire 9 months younger than me, which ofc gives me full seniority over him and should put me much further in life than him. at least thats what mum has consistently held over my head since the ripe age of 8. i decide to play along and question back, why doesn’t he have 3 jobs? my friend, who is 5 months older (which is a lot obvs /j) has 3 part time jobs, whilst attending full college (at a high level), and still has time for extra ciricullars. she was confused and was like ?? why are you bring this up? i tried to tell her that, theres always gonna be someone better than you, and worse than you, so its very unfair to compare yourself to others in a way that makes you both feel guilty for doing things most cant, and for not doing things most can. she very quickly changed topic but continued to bash me over the head with my constant horrible attendence, that i should be at a better place in life if I had just taken my exams and got on with things. when she says things like that it hurts and throws me into a spiral. it feels like she has all the control over whether or not i fall into the pit of depression again or not. ofc she never chooses that i don’t. im not sure if i really should be asking you for advice on how to deal with this as you arent a liscened therapist, but i really need some. every time we have one of these arguments, i feel like im 15 again, back to being suicidal and wanting to sh and just wanting to not exist anymore. i truly hate it because thats not me anymore, ive tried so hard to pull myself out of each depressive episode alone and i hate that all my hard work can be undone with a sentence from her. i cant do to her what i did to my dad. practically pretend they dont exist, never speak to them and ice them out until now we only speak once a month, if that. it sounds awful, i know, but im very proud of myself for getting to that stage with him, its hard to go no contact when you live with them. (he was very abusive, as is my mum, but he quite literally ruined my life and i have to pick up the pieces whilst he gets to enjoy himself every day. i have to watch the man who wanted to beat me, hurt me, and who yelled at me until i became suicidal, have the time of his life having a redo with my cousin, spending all of his new money on any and all his interests, and becoming closer with my sister. its literal torture.) unfortunatley still have to deal with mum. to put it coldly and horribly, shes the one with access to the heat, clothes, food, bedding, electricity,etc, i need her until i can move out. i cant really break that bond just yet as i still need her so i dont die. (ik i can be homeless and be in foster care but im lucky enough to have the choice to say no to those things so im taking advantage of it) i am sorry if this in any way comes across cold, mean, or passive agressive. the argument mentioned above happened just 20 minutes ago and its still pretty raw, and im not the best at processing my emotions lol. thank you so much for your time, i hope your evening is going great (:

Hi! Don't worry about your tone, nonnie. You're allowed to express your emotions, and especially to be frustrated and upset after what happened with your mom. All I ask is for people to remain respectful to me and anyone else who might read their ask, which you definitely did :)

I'm sorry you're in this situation, it sounds really tough 😔 of course you'd rather stay with her than be homeless! I really hope you're not downplaying what she's putting you through or doubting your trauma and abuse because you're choosing to live with her. All you're doing is trying to keep yourself safe. There's nothing wrong with that.

And I also don't think it's awful that you managed to cut out your dad so successfully! It's very similar to what I did with my mother, and I honestly think you ought to be proud of yourself for taking so many steps to protect yourself in spite of how complicated it can be to cut out a parent like that.

Regarding your mum, while it's not unreasonable to want you not to be in bed all day, it IS unreasonable to verbally and emotionally abuse you because of it. She's putting you down, constantly comparing you with others, triggering you, and worsening your mental health. If she really wanted you to have a better life, she'd be offering her kindness and support—not contributing to all the reasons you're struggling right now.

I don't really have much advice, other than to tell you it's okay to set boundaries and to take any steps you can to protect yourself even if you can't cut her out yet. You're not awful for being affected by her words. You're not weak for getting triggered around her. You're not cold or mean for standing up for yourself. You don't owe her anything just because she gives you a roof and a bed, and it's okay for you to acknowledge that. Please, try to be as kind to yourself as possible until you can get out of there. You're doing your best right now. Your best doesn't have to look like anyone else's, because no one else is living their life under exactly the same circumstances as you, so please try to remember that when she compares you with others.

Sending all my support your way ❤️

#ask #abuse #abuse tw #abusive mother #emotional abuse tw #physical abuse tw #verbal abuse tw #suicidal tw #self harm mention #self harm tw #abusive father tw

[sevi-just]

How ya doin' girl? I'll give you some questions from "questions I think would be fun to be asked". Numbers will be fully random. I did not read the questions, so it will be surprise for me also. 7, 9, 15, 19, 21, 23, 28, 32, 36, 40

Thank you.

Hi. 😊

I am really happy to have some questions, especially from you. Its like whispering to you my deepest secrets and thoughts like old days.

I am doing fine. Having ups and downs as usual. As you can see i finally bought a bike (my new love). Its a huge thing for me, because its a big 'up' that keeps 'downs' in a shaddow.

Okey, okey. Going to questions. [Its just that tonight i am in mood when i want to talk with someone but have no one.]

Answers:

7. Whats scares you the most and why?

Uuuh. Starting hard, good question. I am really scared and getting uncomfortable at darkness when i am alone.

But being honest - the most i am scared of myself. Because in some moment the feelings and thoughs are so dark. Yes, every month i am going to therapy, but even with that the depression hits so hard. I am scared of some moment who will happen at future and will hurt me and i will just kill myself no matter what. Yes, thats dark but thats me. I havent tell this anyone. But yeah.

9. Tell a story about your childhood.

Hmm. What would be interesting?

I will tell story of my first memory of myself. I remember my mum took me from kindergarden. We drived home. It was summer. And my dad has bought for me and my sister small swimming pool (it was red with dog pictures of dalmatians). And when i get home and saw the pool i really fast undressed myself and jumped in water. It was fun.

15. What do you think when you heard word 'home'.

- the safe, warm place where i can be just for myself. Its the place where i feel freedom and have felt loved. I immediately think about my cats and dog.

19. Favorite thing about the day.

When everyone have falled asleep, its starts to be dark at outside. Its just me, quite and World. Its silent time, no phone call, no messages. Just me, listening music, watching some tv series. My guilty pleasure is to go to sleep really late.

21. Are you a spiritual person?

Nope.

23. Say 3 things about someone you hate.

I dont think that there are someone i hate.

No comments.

28. Do you collect anything?

Nop. Nothing special. But sometimes i like to collect beautiful small rock or some shelfs. I throw them in my aquarium for my fishes.

32. How many tabs do you have open right now?

None. I am answering from my phone.

And on my computer i have just opened few tabs which are important for me. I hate having many tabs. When i dont need them, i immediately close them.

36. Are you an open book or do you have walls up?

Definately walls up.

40. Any bad habits?

Uhh. Driving too fast, dinamic and agressive.

I am trying to discipline myself. But .... just some day police will give me a speed ticket with punishment points. Maybe then i will be more careful.

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

i actually always have weird dreams about whatever media im stupidly obsessed with and that acosf dream reminded of this one that i had that was actually so weird that it momentarily snapped me out of my obsession

so im a big fan of elisabth: das musical which is a musical about empress elisabeth of austria, idk how familiar your average presumably american tumblrperson is with her but shes a big cultural icon in germany and austria so obviously they made a musical about her. but whatever, all you really need to know for the sake of this post is that elisabeth has a son called rudolf and theres a gnc af personification of death/everyones suicidal thoughts kickin around. Death is my favorite character bc if im weirdly obsessed with him and him only thats technically not rpf, and then rudolf is my favorite non-death character even though he only gets 3 songs and a dance number during which he kills himself. and basically the main reason for that is that hes got a lot of homoerotic tension w/ death because death is a romqntic character and he has suicidal thoughts so obviously theres a spark there. Thats not actually relevant to my dream i just needed to tell you bc anytime someone talks about this musical i feel like theyre like "oh its about this woman having a romance with the hot and sexy grim reaper" "oh the emperor of austria gets cucked by a guy who looks like THIS" and thats all true but also, idk man go on youtube and type in mayerling walzer and watch some of the videos and tell me what you think, content warning for suicide, guns and gay shit

anyway, so the dream that I had was a tv show, i wasnt like watching it, i did bot exist in that dream my mind was basically a streaming service. Its a full episode of a cw/abc family type show, for some reason i get once upon a time vibes from it even though ive never watched that show, but i only remember the very end, all I remember about the rest of the episode was that it was rudolf (whos the pov character btw i havent mentioned that yet) going around a bunch of places trying to solve some kind of mystery. And the very last place he ended up at the end of the episode was in front of my catholic elementary school, catholic in the sense that it was right next to a catholic church and was named after that church i dont think we learned much more about religion than your average "secular" elementary school. Now, the school was a little bit behind the church and between the two buildings theres this gap where the ground is all cobblestone and theres a fountain that doesnt work and some bushes and benches and irl theres a busstop there with one of those electrical signs, but since this dream took place in the 1880s there wasnt a busstop yet. so rudolf comes to this kind of inbetween space and goes up to this big person-sized copper jesus statue (which is accurate to real life btw) and Im sure this is meant to be some heavy-handed symbolism or visual metaphor or something but unfortunately i dont have the context of this tv show that my brain made up so i cant be sure. he stands there for a while, not really doing anything until an older woman suddenly approaches him. And that woman? queen victoria. yknow, like victorian england. whatever, shes like the catty woman antagonist of this show and she and rudolf have this really vague and passive agressive confrontation, i dont remember anything they said, just that it was passive aggressive bc thats how royals b like i guess. But somehow through the vague bullshit theyre saying the audience finds out aboutvthe big shocking end-of-episode twist: rudolf is not elisabeths child, hes actually victorias child. They did a baby switcheroo. for some reason. and then it CUTS TO BLACK

And I wake up and im like "huh. maybe i should stop thinking about that musical so much"