#life is a series of disappointments

[dailyjournalsblog]

I have given up on love altogether

After trying to love someone else (of course I cannot bring myself to love an inch of me, but that is a story for another lifetime), I gave up on love altogether. It has been so long since I thought that maybe I gave up too soon. The idea that I did not even try that much is not completely lost on me. Some people do assume this very lightly though, they make remarks like, oh you were so young, you could not have been serious, oh there is so much love and loss left in your life. And what not. But really, no one knows that the intensity with which I loved and the courage it took to leave those behind almost broke me.

I loved and loved, I loved like they wanted me to, I loved like they told me to, I loved like I knew how to and I loved like I had never known love before, but nobody stayed, everyone eventually decides that you are not worth fighting for. People give up too soon, on me. I felt ashamed of opening up a little because I never knew how to stop a crack from becoming an endless pit of giving.

#life is a series of disappointments #all people do is disappear and all I do is repent #there is no reason for me to open upm #the world is not ready for the amount of love I can give the world can never be ready for the selfless act of love #all people want is what is good to them for them or happens because they want it #why can no one love me the way I deserved to be loved #honestly i am tired of pretending that love is necessary for survival the way I look at it you can be enough #there is no space inside of me large enough to hold another anymore #i mean come on #the problem is not in loving someone more than you love yourself #that is so damn easy #everyone hates themselves to begin with #the problem starts when we value someone more than they are capable of valuing themselves #spillways #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled words #spilled tears #spilled emotions #spilled truth #spilling my guts #original photography blog #poems and quotes #spilled ideas #writersblr #love #novels #spilled journal #quotes #excerpts

[demigods-posts]

I've seen a lot of discourse about Virginia Kull's portrayal of Sally Jackson in the Percy Jackson and the Olympians TV series, and I'd like to say that I loved her. Don't get me wrong. I love Sally from the original book series, and I, too, would fight the God of War on her behalf. But something that I enjoyed about Virginia's portrayal of Sally that we don't get in the books is the character depth. We don't hear much of Sally's backstory in the TV series, apart from a couple of flashbacks with younger Percy and that scene with Poseidon (Toby Stephens). However, those scenes do an excellent job of showing us that alongside being Percy's mother, Sally is also a young woman who fell in love with a man she could not be with and is enduring the natural consequences of having Percy. She struggles to communicate with him when she's frustrated, gets teary-eyed when she lies to him to prolong the inevitable, and actively sacrifices her happiness to ensure his safety. Virginia Kull's portrayal of Sally Jackson reinforces the character's humanity, imperfections, and determination, and it's everything to me.

#i once saw someone say they disliked the portrayl of sally jackson because she raised her voice at percy and I'm just #*sighs* #sally is essentially a single mom who is constantly being plagued with the notion that her son may not live to see sixteen #she has to prepare him for a life that she knows is going to break him like a bone #except she has to keep some secrets from him to ensure his safety for the time being #all the while #she is plauged with guilt knowing she and poseidon contributed to placing this burden upon him #and it is even more apparent when percy voices his disappointment in her behavior as a mother #and all she wants to do is be there with him every step of the way #but knows that she can't #and you're mad because she raised her voice at him???? #parents do that (and i wish they didn't) but they do #sally is not perfect in any way and i love her for it #give her some grace #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo text post #pjo #pjo tv adaptation #pjo tv show #pjo tv concept #pjo tv series #pjo tv spoilers #sally jackson #sally jackson appreciation #sally jackson appreciation post #sally jackson is amazing #they could never make me hate you #also virignia kull is an amazing actress and i don't know if it was clear that i love her but i love her in case it wasn't clear

[guzhufuren]

Moonlight Chicken (2023) dir. Aof Noppharnach Chaiwimol

#moonlight chicken #moonlight chicken the series #midnight series #earthmix #earth pirapat #mix sahaphap #mine #mygifs #userjap #mjtag #userboots #taggingmarion #usermor #usertph #userspicy #kiwitracks #usergooseras #please p'aof i trust you with my life do not disappoint me

[vegaseatsass]

DFF ep9 spoilers

I love gay revenge, I LOVE gay revenge, I love gay REVENGE, I love GAY revenge, HOWEVER

I also love brothers with an uncrossable chasm between them whose parents compare them who lose each other and their entire family along the way... guess what I'm saying is, I love guilty golden boy brother revenge, too

#that shit was so good #i'm so disappointed in phee for losing FOCUS i could write a whole post about it lmfaoo #i was defending you despite all your red flags for being someone who really really fights for your loved ones n now look at you #but it's delicious tragedy im glad he is caught up in this shit without actually knowing the full scope of jin's crimes #and i'm transferring my affections to new as the person who keeps his focus and keeps his fight #poor joker smiling orphan boy #poor guilty asthmatic smoker who THROWS AWAY HIS ENTIRE LIFE #everything he ever worked for everything his conditionally loving parents ever valued about him #to get some JUSTICE!! phee look at my man then look back at yourself #dead friend forever #dff spoilers #dff the series spoilers #dff

[jam-campasta]

You're telling me that I wasted 15 years not reading this book and instead, middleschool-me went and read the matched and divergent series?? WHEN THERE IS THEM?

#thg #the hunger games #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #everlark #myart #designs super inspired by c-kiddo i really didnt wanna picture jennifer lawrence as katniss lmaooooo #josh hutcherson... you can stay #anyway i just recently finished the first book of the trilogy #im so mad that THIS was the series 12 year old me decided to dodge #and then went and read the most disappointing (/neg) dystopian trilogies in my life #peeta and katniss are everything to me now. i think about them all the time

[give-grian-rights]

i hate surrounding myself with like-minded peers. what the fuck do you mean people on this website and ao3 are NORMAL about Joel and Grian and Jimmy.

what the fuck do you mean you aren't obsessing over edits literally not even posted online of them. what do you mean you dont stop and hyper analyze every lategame interaction between them. WHAT THE FUCK!!

#the friend that wrote that letter to the queen about dsmp lore has been making edits and she just. puts it in our dms. doesnt post it online #and we continue to think about it for and scream #AND THEN I GO ON AO3 AND AM DISAPPOINTED!! #making this non-ship and rbing with a more ship version #the bad boys #limited life smp #secret life smp #traffic smp #life series #smallishbeans #solidaritygaming #grian #mika-posts

[ghostly-groves]

Heard we were all making real life smp all dramatic (click for better quality)

(From 5:00 in joel’s video)

Alt versions under the cut!!

#drew this whole thing and then realised hers supposed to be standing on snow but you know what #it’s fine I’m not mad just disappointed 🥲 #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #joel smallishbeans fanart #real life smp #real life smp fanart #life series fanart #trafficblr #mcyt #my art #my posts #the worst of scar

[bird-inacage]

The Heart Killers Trailer | Kant x Bison (CP Cut)

I think I've finally been able to move past the initial deranged shrieking, and I've now settled into a bliss-induced coma where nothing else matters but THIS. This is everything I could have ever wanted.

#GMMTV part 2 #the heart killers #the heart killers the series #kant x bison #bison x kant #khaofirst #firstkhao #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #my life is COMPLETE #p'jojo did not disappoint #I CANT FUCKING WAIT #WHEN???! #get ready everyone imma bout to sign my goddamn life away to this series

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza series #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #jo sawashiro #masumi arakawa #masato arakawa #akane kishida #SHE GOT A LAST NAME NOW EVERYONE CHEER #ikumi #snap sketches #why do i have class later. EW. #anyways. //vague waving// #cursed drawing arakawa with his pinky but this is B.I. Before Ichi. #i be makin jo lie eveyr day of his life. we all know masato somehow got arakawa's mouth shape like cmon now #confession when I Drink Too Much. On The Rare Occasion. i cant feel my lips for fuck LMAO #uhhhhhhhh yeah i dont have any extra commentary. goodnight. or morning ig #a bunch of people followed me on twitter after that aoki post and i cant wait to disappoint them by never doing anythin like that again LOL #ok bye

[imaginethosedragons]

separating Toothless and Hiccup at the end of HTTYD 3 was a travesty and contrary to the central messaging of the first two movies. also it just fucking sucked. I will stand by that.

#httyd #how to train your dragon #how to train your dragon 3 #toothless #hiccup #hiccup and toothless #the movie is about a FRIENDSHIP for life #also the lightfury? #why the emphasis on romance and a 2.4 family in a FANTASY movie about DRAGONS #the theme of the movies was FRIENDSHIP #don't piss me off #every series eventually disappoints

[munamania]

literally just 5 and a half minutes of erin kellyman as maya in ‘life’

#made this cause i was sick and sad yesterday and wanted to hang out with her again <3 but i figure there's gotta be some other dork #out there that started this show for erin and then went wait this is like. good. lol. and it was i had so much fun! #everyone was so good and erin's such a brilliant actress and well. maya hit a little close to home emotionally wrecked me etc. anyway. #erin kellyman #willow cast #life 2020 #a.og #she's so good in dramas and her comedic timing is like impeccable. i wanna see her in a horror put her in a Situation! #i love talking to myself as u may be able to tell with this video which is. just me commenting. um but i lit thought this series had #two more episodes so u can imagine my disappointment when that finale fucking happened and i was like... wait... but it was good #i. love love love love maya and annabelle and i wish i had more of them. im glad this show isn't like prone to fandom that was peaceful but #yeah

[dailyjournalsblog]

I have found my peace and solitude, is it. Nothing in my life calms me more than the realisation that while I want a few people in my life, there is no one that I need for survival. The trick is to be content with your own company. The trick is not to show desperation for anything in life, for what you desire so desperately can be seen as your weakest point and can be touched oh so often by so many unknowns that it would be a shame to have desperation.

Before the world can decide where to hurt me, I will shield my whole life with an exterior harsher than the judgements passed upon me.

#life is a series of disappointments #quotes #poems and quotes #spilled journal #excerpts #writersblr #spilled ideas #love #spilled emotions #life is a journey #life is a mess #life is a game #life is a simulation #life is a beach #spilled ink #novels #I might have been too desperate while asking for some things #rookie mistake #never tell anyone what you desire #there are times when I feel ashamed of wanting something so bad because I know the universe has so much power over me #why do i feel shameful of doing things that I like #what a cruel life to live #what am i doing #what a babe #why #what the fuck #what do i do #really #what a hunk #what have i done

[theoldandnewfirm]

I don't think people realize that if a piece of media no longer brings you joy you can just stop engaging with it.

#lore olympus #i dropped gunnerkrig court when the story started veering in a direction I didn't like #and moved on with my life #same thing with Once Upon a Time #it's disappointing when a series you've invested time and emotion into shifts in a way you don't like #but 🤷🏿‍♀️ #that's life #and a good opportunity to go find something you'll actually enjoy

[zeldasadork]

ok my brain is still so full from today's session so I'm going to be blorpo posting georg here for a second but. man I have been SO invested in lizzie and joel's arcs this season (both individually and how they intersect, and also the mounders' WHOLE dynamic is so fascinating to me through the lens of joel main) and I am consequentially pulling SO hard for a joel win this season. there's SO MUCH there to poke and prod at. and. and he said he'd win it for his wife guys.................

#secret life spoilers #dragon rambles #smallishbeans #ldshadowlady #secret life #life series smp #mcyt #(...but I'm also trying to convince myself it's Not gonna happen because I'd rather be thoroughly surprised than thoroughly disappointed) #weird brain quirk of having too many feelings about oddly specific things could 1000% backfire on me here LOL #but even if he does crash and burn. genuinely this season's been SO fascinating for him as a character #rotating him in my mind at a high velocity. I strive to make art about it

[sprucewoodmpreg]

watcher lore dislikers are reported to be mildly scared and afraid during this season of life series

#discourse #SPOOKY SOUND EFFECT......TAG RANT AHEAD..... BEWARE !!! #you have no idea how worried i am that they're gonna pull some ''lore'' stuff #storytelling does not always need supernatural Mega Powerful Beings for the stakes to be high or for the story to be interesting #sometimes the interesting parts come from the clear Lack of those elements #sorry to martyn but i do not exactly fuck with his lore. and i'll be a bit disappointed if it becomes ''canon'' #i say that like i wont just ignore it and then get on with my life LOL #i guess it's like. i enjoy the life series for the narratives it tells in regards to people and their choices #brushing that all aside to be like ''there's big evil space guys in control of the whole thing who are EVIL!!! or NEUTRAL MAYBE!!!'' - #- just feels really disinteresting to me. you don't need to invent a Big Bad. let the players tell the story on their own #this is a lite version of my actual frustrations with it but i'm not going in depth about it because like. #i've got more important things to worry about LOL

[probablyaseamonster]

You know, if Jimmy's Hunger Games prediction comes true a 3rd time... the Jizzie fanart potential is gonna be off the CHAIN

#secret life #secret life joel #secret life lizzie #life series winners #you know if Martyn was the ocean than Joel should be the earth #and when cleo SOMEDAY wins she can be the fire #if i do not see jizzie fanart after this season I will be extremely disappointed with the fandom #... i hate that name #smallishadows is way nicer #but Lizzie apparently likes the former because of COURSE she does #jizzie