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happyheidi · 7 months

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uniquezombiedestiny · 1 month

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come on

please tell me

#link leads to the music used in malks 5th story - alone by dan farley #art #malkuth #lc malkuth #malkuth lobcorp #lobotomy corporation #lobotomy corporation spoilers #made this at like 2-3 am in a fit of 'god i love malkuths story and dialogue so much'#i could go on forever and ever but here ill talk about how much i love her expressions. they way the cognition filter has her with that #constant cheery look #when shes not smiling it looks odd #and in her 5th story cutscene the music really hammers in the feeling of like. loneliness. of the facade fading away or crumbling #'come on; please tell me. so i can feel rewarded; just a bit.'#this final moment when her smile fades hits the hardest of all for me #knowing it doesnt come back beyond that (ofc until post meltdown)#the just... desolation. desperation? it feels so alone. calling out into the void #the entire time it feels so profoundly sad honestly #but this makes it feel hollow. when malkuth truly feels/looks entirely hollow #though here i may have drawn it less empty more like. expectant #i hope it still gets that across - the feeling of hollowness #again i could go on about malkuth forever. my favorite sephirah i love her so much

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katierosefun · 3 months

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my cancelled-able trait from the queer community would be that i really apparently love messy endings. i love u happy endings and i also love u such sad, messy, ambiguous endings . . . i love u endings where u have this weird pit in the bottom of your stomach because you know that there's love here but u have no idea what to do with it and u just have to deal with the fact that someone is profoundly affecting your life and you're not gonna get closure from it anytime soon . . . i love u queer love stories where it's really just "u don't always get to see the sunshine and rainbows at the end of it . . . sometimes all that's left is just one big question mark and the quiet hope that they get their shit together" . . .

#caroline talks #don't get me wrong. i love u happy endings. esp when it comes to queer love stories #but i also just. love endings where it's just like. well. u DON'T know for certain whether the characters #are truly going to ride off into the sunset together.#the only thing u know for certain is that they love each other and that they're going to have to grapple with that forever.#maybe it's also just bc like. idk. i took too many film classes and so my head's forever stuck #on this one essay about how some really happy endings feel lifeless.#like how in some ending shots. the characters look like they've had their happy ending. but there's also some weird unease and confusion #and it's like. well yeah. because for every happy moment u get in life. u are still already thinking 'well what's next. what now.'#which is fascinating to me. but also me @ me: god maybe u can just be happy and it's not that deep.#but also. i do love the wonderful ambiguity of just. 'there is so much more to live. so much more to do.'#and i guess it's not just for queer love stories. i think a lot about the ending of my mister.#with lee ji an and park dong hoon walking away from each other but they're happy. u have no idea how their relationship will pan out but u #do know that they love each other.#or like. columbus. with jin and casey. they hug each other and thank each other for being in the other's lives.#and jin says goodbye to casey and casey says goodbye to jin and u have no idea if they'll see each other again. but u know they love each #other so very much. even if they'd only known each other for a second.#or like. beginners. anna and oliver love each other so much and u get this sense that. they're still a little bit uneasy/nervous about how #the rest of their lives are going to go. but they'll try.#or. god. the swearing jar.#the last shot. i think about it a lot.#there is love!!! but u don't always know how the rest of it is going to pan out!!! u just know that it'll pan out somehow!

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cienie-isengardu · 6 months

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Lin Kuei vs Shirai Ryu characters and teaching/training outsiders

Kuai Liang as Sub-Zero

Sheeva: What can the Lin Kuei teach the Shokan? Sub-Zero: The art of stealth and surprise. Sheeva: Enemies should be met head on.

Jax: So the Lin Kuei train Special Forces. I'll be. Sub-Zero: It was at General Blade's request. Jax: General Blade. Still not used to that.

Spawn: Ready to freeze Ten Hells over? Sub-Zero: First, we must train together. Spawn: Training's over. Time for assholes to die.

Sub-Zero: Back for another training mission? Cassie Cage: Gonna kick your ass in a snowball fight. Sub-Zero: I doubt that.

Jacqui: I've got new gear to test. Sub-Zero: Want to know if it's cold-proof? Jacqui: Let's find out.

Bi-Han as Noob Saibot (MK11 intro dialogues)

Noob Saibot: I could make you the perfect killer. Terminator: By improving my programming? Noob Saibot: By teaching you to embrace darkness.

Mileena: Out of the shadows, Bi-Han? Noob Saibot: To teach you the power of darkness. Mileena: My father has already taught me.

Frost (MK11 intro dialogues)

Frost: I can train you in the assassin's art. Sindel: Dear, I'm several millennia your senior. Frost: Which hasn't made you wiser.

Hanzo as Scorpion (MK11 intro dialogues)

Jacqui: Any chance of a Shirai Ryu training mission? Scorpion: Training outsiders is Sub-Zero's passion. Jacqui: Huh. Takeda thought you'd be interested.

Erron Black: Don't s'pose you'd teach me that rope spear. Scorpion: And divulge Shirai Ryu secrets? Erron Black: I can make you share, Scorpion.

Kuai Liang as Scorpion (MK1 intro dialogues)

Kenshi: Why won't you help train the Taira? Scorpion: The Shirai Ryu's methods aren't to be shared.

Johnny Cage: Now what's the harm in me riding along? Scorpion: The Shirai Ryu's secrets must remain so, Cage.

Ashrah: I'd do well to follow your example. Scorpion: Then start by studying my kombat.

Raiden: You honor me with this lesson. Scorpion: Pay attention. There is much to learn.

Tomas as Smoke (MK1 intro dialogues)

Smoke: "Let's go, Kung Lao. Liu Kang wants us to do this." Kung Lao: "What could this fight possibly teach me?"

Smoke: "Sareena wants to train with us." Ashrah: "She has good taste in instructors."

#mortal kombat #sub zero #bi han #kuai liang #noob saibot #tomas vrbada #frost #hanzo hasashi #scorpion #scorpion kuai liang & smoke improved a bit the shirai ryu will to teach / train outsiders #at least a bit #but you know something is truly fucked up when frost and noob are more willing to each others than hanzo #and i will be forever angry at hanzo how he denies jacqui a chance to train with him #and will forever find it funny that jacqui can and did train with sub zero kuai liang #and sure all characters meet and presumbly fight/interact but like old lin kuei seems the most comfy with teaching & sharing their knowledg #compared to shirai ryu especially hanzo's version of clan #and dunno if the shift between former lin kuei changed into shirai ryu doesn't come from their lin kuei roots?#man hanzo looks so bad compared to others

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francesderwent · 1 year

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come to find out. when people see me as I am, faults and all, and still see something there worth caring for, what they’re seeing isn’t just in their head. it’s in me. the Scriptures say I will be made a new creation, my crimson sins as white as snow. did I think that was imaginary? did I think God’s promise was just pretty words, ineffective to change me? the version of me that’s worthy of love is the real one, because that’s what the Lord did for me when He forgave me—as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed my sins from me.

#it’s not NEW information okay I KNOW that #but if I’d read this on somebody else’s blog a week ago #I would have said ‘yes but that doesn’t apply to me because I keep my wounds forever’#and like I DO and I WILL but are they not truly transformed??? can they not be looked upon with love??????#isn’t God’s new creation real enough to be visible???????????????#in which cate tells stories #i will still not be elaborating at this time

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anxiously-sidequesting · 11 months

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I know we as a fandom all love to shit on Duncan whenever we get the chance (see: me posting Duncan GruncanWuncan) especially since the like, two times we ever see him he's shitting on us for being ourselves then tries to kill us because of his own delusions of grandeur but I thought about it and I was like, "......man that's kinda Sad actually"

BECAUSE seeing this from Duncan's perspective; he's The Best, he always has been the best, but reality constantly shows him that isn't true (Malorn, The Wizard, anyone else)

Like imagine how painful that can be when you think something that you truly deserved and something that you've fought for, maybe for your entire life, is seemingly handed to others who aren't nearly as deserving as you

And yeah WE know that Duncan has neither worked (very hard, at least) for his perceived greatness NOR does he truly """deserve""" it (Duncan has been shown to be shirking his duties off to us and possibly others for his own gain), but DUNCAN doesn't know this. Like in his mind he truly, honestly, genuinely believes with his whole fragile heart that he is just above everyone else and puts more effort in trying to convince others of that rather than literally just trying to work towards that himself

And then there's the extra added insult that even in his own class he's pretty mediocre. Duncan INSISTS that he was Malistaire's best student and that he praised Duncan maybe once and that all other Death students only wish they could be like him, but... Malorn. And I bet deep down Duncan KNOWS that in fact Malorn was Malistaire's best and most talented. And Duncan can't even really twist that in his mind because it was made solid when Malorn took over Malistaire's duties instead of him. It was proven as a hard fact that Malorn was more suited to the job than Duncan was and is widely recognized as being The Best Death student (if the YW isn't a Necromancer)

Okay so fine. Whatever it's just Death right? At least Duncan can be the best at ANYTHING ELSE, maybe he's not the most talented Necromancer but there's 6 more types of magic to excel in!!!

But then another person ruins that. The Young Wizard poofs in from another world and suddenly, Duncan is overshadowed once more because a literal child prodigy and Local Hero arrives and literally saves their world and then, the universe. Multiple times in fact

Like bro I can imagine that could be at least a little bit painful for anyone, but imagine with Duncan's already low self-esteem and his fragile, large ego, he literally and genuinely took that personally and a hit to your pride is devastating for anyone, no matter who you are. That was like, Strike Three for Duncan and it was so very personal and important to him that it left him in a deep and vulnerable state

But I think the absolute saddest part of Duncan's downfall is that near the end, he was ultimately manipulated by an adult. A grown ass adult noticed and acknowledged his insecurities and purposely struck where it hurts the most, in his weakest state. Duncan already wasn't thinking clearly from the start but when everything went to shit for him and he was clinging, Gretta DarkKettle approached him and completely broke him down to make him into something else entirely for the Schism's benefit.

Of course Duncan was a piece of shit from the start but he truly didn't have any malicious intentions until Gretta messed with his mind. Like, he went from a pretty much harmless bully to an actual criminal of the state and a threat to the literal universe. Duncan was CORRUPTED and all of his worst fears and delusions were solidified the moment Gretta """validated""" those feelings Duncan had.

Is Duncan completely blameless? Fuck no he did some fucked up shit actually and I'm glad he was held accountable for it by the narrative and the fandom!!! But I think it's something to be said that at the end of the day, Duncan was still a child that was suffering from many type of issues before being recruited and manipulated by a powerful literal cult. Wizard101 does have a theme of malicious intending and less than responsible adults using children to get what they want (Malistaire, Morganthe's brother, GF Spider, GM Raven, coughcoughAmbrose) but unlike the Young Wizard who successfully stays true to themselves despite that, Duncan had a more Morganthe-like route and ultimately succumbed to it. Of course their situations are a lot different since the YW wasn't brought in by a cult, but you can't help but feel bad for someone so young being preyed on by older people who are supposed to look out for them and protect them from something just LIKE that.

I will always shit on Duncan because it's funny and hold him accountable for his actions because he should, but I also feel bad for him and I hope he had a better ending after he was defeated

#this isnt like a callout post btw LMAO everyone is free to feel how they feel #this isnt me like shitting on the fandom or anything pls dont feel that way #i just think duncans situation is really interesting and kinda important to look at beneath all the memes and stuff #duncan is a loser in my heart but he's a victim in my soul. poor kid #also think about the fact that he STILL wasnt strong enough even after all that. we still defeated him #he spent most of his young life having all that resentment and anger and hatred in his heart-#-and thought it would all finally be worth it once we were dead but that also fell apart #my fave types of villains are the ones who trult believe they were right/were wronged by the world #duncan literally had delusions of granduer. thats super tough to get over #the feelings and belief of self can be so so important to someone #what you truly believe about YOURSELF is like the core. it can even be more important that religion/family/etc. for some people #it personally makes sense to me that duncan would feel so broken after having that 'taken' away from him #because if you dont have yourself to count on then who???? what else is there #also sad because literally the wizard did nothing to him. we were just minding our own business but duncan still took it personally #it didnt have to be that way at ALL and i hope he gets some therapy and gretta gets locked up forever #anyway. im normal #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #duncan grimwater #long post #text post

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anthyies · 11 months

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she’s so cute. before the horrors start

#the horrors :( I hope everyone who signed off on war games goes to hell and dies forever. amen.#The only person I respect is the batgirl writer that kept cass out of it apart from looking for and caring for Steph :(#esha.txt #steph #dc #Truly. Like. Ugh also annoyed at her becoming Robin here because of miscommunication + seeing darla kiss tim like this off the heels of #lewis’s steph character work AND Lewis’s alt universe Steph robin is like 😶🥲. can you please give her some respect oh my god

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kenobion · 2 years

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Andrew Garfield and Dakota Johnson for Vanity Fair

#I love his expressions so freaking much #andrew garfield #my gifs #I just want to look at him forever #I've gotten used to the beard but I like him best like this #so I can see all of his lovely face 🥰#andrew my beloved . . .#he truly is the most beautiful person both inside and out #please let me love him 🤞🏻#and watching this dakota johnson has the most lovely calm voice too #it was kind of hypnotizing listening to her #and the story he was telling in this part was so funny please go watch it

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lunarharp · 1 year

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some illustrations/vibes from my uhh 29k memory trauma/disability focus orufrey fic, into the deep end.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #idk what more i'll draw so i'll just put these here. i think my failing eye qifrey will be with me forever now.#yesterday - i realise this is probably weird - i BURST into tears for ages like hot tears bc i just suddenly was overwhelmed #by oru's feelings rather than qifrey's. i was just in my orufrey mindscape as usual teehee and i just. oru wanted qifrey to be able to look #at him so much suddenly. and realised that can't ever happen again. i could literally cry a lot again now. i wrote oru trying so hard #to focus on the good qifrey can still have from living and i felt bad and HE felt bad in that moment for being SO sad about it #but until then i/he hadn't processed the truly painful parts of disability that you can't deny. sometimes it hurts so bad and it's unfair #the thing is i do feel that shirahama is leading up to this. disability is so central to witch hat and as for qifrey's narrative...#mm. i can't really believe the powerful and desperate emotions orufrey give me lol anyyyyywwaaayyyyy read my fic haha #i want more ppl to read it and tell me they enjoyed it..but you can't beg for such a thing. no matter what orufrey is..god they are so much #i am so glad from the bottom of my heart that i encountered this manga.#the first drawing is meant to express the feeling of pain coming from one place in your body. and feeling like a conduit #*oru voice* You are a human being.

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nashvillethotchicken · 2 months

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And when I get my all black interview with the vampire remake ala the wiz then what

#listen there truly is so much you can do with blackness and itwv #even what we get with louis and his own struggles with race and racism in the show like lets not stop there #and i thunk it is a great way to get more black fans 1) involved 2) in creative spaces cus imma be real. i dont wanna see more white lestats #like lestat as an alexander dumas type has been rattling around my brain for months i need people to see the vision #i also just see it more as a way to look at how slavery and its legacies have forever warped how the Diaspora interrelates #not only slavery but french colonialism as well. what does it mean to be a free man of color when your cousins are being sold off?#what does it mean to be Haitian in spaces like aristocratic colonial france?#how does the arab slave trade factor in?#like there are so many good points of meta we could do if people weren't obsessed with woobyfying white men in this fandom #hell even the notion of passing in itwv is deeply intriguing #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv

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thebramblewood · 9 months

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Lu: "So, uh, you gonna help me down from this thing?" Bonnie: "Nah. Looks like you've got it under control!"

After an intense morning of hacking away at prairie grass, it's time for Lu's first horse-riding lesson. Despite her obvious nerves, it actually went pretty smoothly. She and Bonnie got separated for a bit and she had trouble dismounting, but at least she was never thrown off! (It would've been a different story if she were riding Willow, but Bonnie isn't that cruel.)

#ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 gameplay #sims 4 gameplay #ts4 horse ranch #gp: bonnie & lu #i will definitely be breaking my rule about using poses for some future rides hehe #i just want it to truly look like they're riding *together*!#also i still have yet to figure out how long a full ride is because they seem to be even longer than the ridiculously long dog walks!#they were out from afternoon until dark (as you can see) and i still canceled partway through #do they just go forever if you don't? lol #bonnie mcdaniel #lu kemp

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derpinette · 2 months

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i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of