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countryclubkook · 2 months

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thinking of topper’s gf cheating on him with rafe🤭

Favorite Secret

Pairing: Rafe Cameron x reader

Warnings: smut, cheating, mentions of alcohol, violence, blood, creampie, unprotected sex, P in V, not proofread

Summary: Your secret affair with Rafe almost goes terribly wrong when Topper decides to call in the middle of a hookup…almost

A/N: omg hii!! it’s been so so long since i’ve been on this account but I got a new job and a boyfriend🤭 life has been very very busy the last like year or so but I got the urge to write for my fav boy so I hope you guys enjoy this quick little fic🤍 and I hope all of you are well!

“Fuck Rafe, feels so good oh my god” you cried out, arching your back as your eyes rolled back when his cock hit the perfect spot inside of you. It was fucked up, screwing around with your boyfriends best friend, especially when Topper treated you so well. He bought you everything you asked for, took you on nice dates, held the door open, complimented you. Never did anything to hurt you…until that night, until that one party changed everything.

“Ugh come on Top, i’m begging you to just come for like 10 minutes. If you still don’t want to be there after that we can leave and just come back here, watch movies or something” you’d been begging for the last hour, it was the biggest party of the year and his best friend was hosting but he said he was too tired to go. You knew it was actually just because there had been whispers on the island that Sarah planned to crash it with John B and their new pogue friends.

As much as he swore to you he was over it, you know that wasn’t true and you were fine with it. You trusted him, after all you were the one there for him when she broke his heart the first time, having to be the one to pick up the pieces every single time he gave her chance after chance, you knew what it’d done to him and his trust. Having to risk seeing her there with the guy she cheated on him with didn’t exactly sound like such a fun time.

“Listen I love you, but I really would just rather stay in tonight okay babe? There will be many more parties that we can go to in the future” he said, giving you a soft smile and cupping your cheek with his hand. He could see the disappointment on your face and felt bad, you were obviously excited about this and here he was shutting it down over rumors.

“Okay, whatever you want to do” you let out a defeated sigh and nuzzled your cheek closer into his palm, not wanting to argue over something like this. It just wasn’t worth it and you did enjoy nights in with just the two of you, plus he was right, there would be another party by next weekend.

“Damn it” he muttered under his breath before shaking his head slightly, “Okay okay, 10 minutes and that’s it, deal?” he barely got out the last word before you were squealing and throwing your arms around his neck He wrapped his arms around your waist and let out a small laugh, the smile on your face lighting up the whole room.

“Thank you thank you thank you! We’re going to have so much fun okay? You’re not going to want to leave by the time those 10 minutes are up, this is going to be the best night ever” famous. last. words.

Everything was great, the two of you were having the time of your life. Drinking and dancing together, talking with Rafe and a few of your other friends, then you slipped away for five minutes to use the bathroom, 5 minutes. Who knew so much could go wrong in just 5 minutes.

You walked out to see a crowd forming around two people and heard shouting, you’d expected to walk over and see two guys fighting like usual. Both of them far too drunk to even make contact with the other, but instead you saw your boyfriend on top of John B, his fist connecting to his cheek over and over and over again. You didn’t even like the kid but seeing blood and spit fly from his mouth and his gurgled wails of pain made you feel bad and you knew you needed to stop it.

You saw Rafe standing nearby watching, small smirk on his face as his eyes darted from the two boys to his sister begging Topper to stop while she sobbed. You walked up to him and touched his arm to bring his attention to you.

“Y/N! What’s up?” he said it so nonchalantly, like the scene in front of you wasn’t even happening. You knew he hates the pogues, hell you know he’d let John B die right then and there and feel no remorse, but he was the only one you knew had even the slightest chance of stopping it.

“Rafe you have to make them stop, it’s over okay? If you guys wanted to teach them a lesson i think they’ve learned it so can you please make it stop?” you could see him thinking about it, his brows furrowing ever so slightly and eyes going from you to Topper and John B to Sarah and then back to you.

“Mmm, I don’t know Y/N/N…kind of feel like he deserves it don’t you? I mean my slut of a sister cheats on my best friend, your boyfriend, with that good for nothing pogue and then they have the nerve to show up here? To rub it in his face? Why should I stop them?” he cocked his head and gave you a smirk, leaning against the wall with one hand in his pocket and the other wrapped around his red solo cup full of god knows what. You knew the only way to convince him was to use the one card you knew would work, the one you hated using against him in all the time you knew him.

“Because you don’t want your dad finding out about it. You’re not even supposed to be throwing parties here, what happens if a pogue ends up dead because of the party and Ward finds out? I couldn’t care less if he dies, i’m just trying to save your ass right now so please” you saw his jaw clench, watched his chest start rising and fall slowly, more heavily than before, and you knew it worked.

“Fuck! Fine, i’ll handle it” he yelled before throwing his cup on the ground and walking over to the two, by this point John B was barely conscious and it’s like Topper was in his own world. Rafe walked over and pulled him off by the collar of his shirt before ushering Sarah to attend to her boyfriend, screaming that the party was over and for everyone to get the fuck out.

People quickly dispersed, whispering to each other about what just happened, until it was just the three of you left at tannyhill. Top was still fuming, veins bulging out, sweat dripping down his forehead, chest rapidly heaving, knuckles bruised and bloody, a crazed look in his eyes. You tried to walk up to him to calm him down but it’s like he couldn’t even see you, he instead turned around and walked to his jeep before getting in and driving away, leaving you stranded.

“What the fuck?!” you screamed, standing at the bottom of the driveway watching the taillights disappear as they got further and further away.

You walked back up to the porch where Rafe was waiting, looking awkwardly at the ground unsure of what to say. What are you supposed to do in this situation other than offer them a ride…or in this case alcohol.

“I’m sorry Y/N, that was shitty of him. Give him some time to cool off and he’ll come back to his senses, if you uh, if you want you could just crash here. I would offer to drive you home but you know…” he said, making a brief gesture to himself “i’m kind of drunk so, don’t really want to risk hurting you. There’s plenty of alcohol if you want to just get drunk and pass out in the guest room, the beds freshly made and I think Sarah still has some clothes here that would fit you.”

“Thank you Rafe, that’s really sweet of you. Do you think you could um, stay with me? Just hang out here and talk, drink a little, I just don’t want to be alone right now” you sounded so pathetic, tear stained cheeks and puffy red eyes.

“Yeah, yeah absolutely”

One drink turned into another and then another, the both of you drunk and giggling while you talked. And then it happened, one little glance at his lips in a moment of shared silence, his hand tucking your hair behind your ear, and you were in his lap kissing him. His hands roaming all over your body until you were pulling away to tell him to take you to the bedroom.

Clothes flying, drunken squeals and giggles slipping out between your moans, the way he made you feel, those were the only things you can clearly remember. And then you woke up the next morning staring at his naked chest, but you didn’t feel guilty for it, instead you wanted it to happen again.

And it did, it happened multiple times a week. Topper did apologize, made up for his behavior that night, but you’d already got a taste of Rafe and now you were hooked. He never suspected anything, didn’t notice the little shared glances between the two of you when you all hung out, the way Rafe’s hand would brush against your thighs, his little whispers in your ear that made you squirm, he was just happy you forgave him. You never thought you’d be at risk getting caught until now, when you were on all fours and Rafe was thrusting into you from behind, one hand tangled in your hair and the other gripping your hip to pull you back into his cock. The both of you were so lost in pleasure that Rafe almost didn’t hear his phone going off, he quickly moved to grab it off the table and answer it.

“Topper, what’s up man?” your eyes widened, panic starting to kick in. You’d thought it was over, he knew, someone had seen something and told him, he put the pieces together, he was calling to tell him he knew.

“Y/N? Yeah she came by to pick something up, said she left it here the last time you guys were over and she had to be out this way anyway. Think she’s still upstairs” you let out a moan when he thrusted back into you unexpectedly, turning your head back to look at him with a bewildered expression. He just gave a a smirk and held his finger to his lips before moving it back to your hip and pulling you back into him to meet each thrust.

You dropped your face into the mattress to muffle any loud moans, pure bliss taking over your body each time Rafe’s cock pressed against that little spot inside your pussy, hoping the call would be over soon. And then the son of a bitch flips you over, puts you on your back and gives you that look. You know, the one that just screams ‘i’m up to no good and you’re about to hate me for this’.

“What are you doing?” you whispered, looking up at him in confusion while trying not to make a sound.

“Actually, she just came down. You wanna talk to her real quick before she finishes up and heads that way?” if looks could kill he’d be six feet under right about now, you shook your head but it was too late, the phone was by your ear and you had no choice.

“Hey baby” it came out shakier than planned and you hoped he wouldn’t question it, it was a lot harder hiding the fact you were cheating on your boyfriend when the man you’re cheating with had his cock buried deep inside your pussy thrusting into you like his life depends on it while on call with said boyfriend.

“Is everything okay? You sound a little winded babe” he was always so concerned, wanting to make sure you were okay at all times if he even suspected something was wrong.

“Better tell him you’re okay princess, don’t let him find out his best friend is balls deep inside his girlfriends pretty pussy” Rafe whispered in your ear, leaving open mouth kisses along your neck and chest.

“Yeah, just a lot of running around the house looking for my ring is a-all” you stuttered out when Rafe pushed all the back into you again, biting your lip and squeezing your eyes shut.

“Okay…well I was wondering if you wanted to go out tonight? There’s this really nice restaurant i’ve been wanting to take you to, finally managed to get a reservation, and there was something I wanted to talk to you about” you weren’t even fully listening to what he was saying to be honest, you were paying more attention to how good you felt and the smell of Rafe’s cologne, the way his skin felt against yours, how your bodies seemed to mold together perfectly.

“Yea-yeah babe. Sounds great” you were about to let out a moan when long ring clad fingers found their way into your mouth and you, on instinct, bit down slightly.

“Great! I’ll be at your place to pick you up in like an hour okay? I love you”

“Great! Love you too bye” you quickly got out before hanging up and letting out a moan, digging your nails into Rafe’s back.

“Fuck baby i’m close, you want me to fill this pretty pussy with my cum? Want a little reminder that even if you’re with him, you’ll always be mine?” you could only nod, small whimpers filling the room.

A few more lazy thrusts before he pushed all the way into you and stayed there, feeling his cock twitch while he filled you with his cum. Your pussy clenching around him while you came at the same time, head thrown back and lips parted moaning his name, a white ring forming on his cock from your cum mixing with his. He pulled out after a few seconds and pulled you to your knees before sliding his cock in your mouth.

“Suck it off baby, just clean it up for me” and you did, licking every drop of your cum off his cock before he pulled out and got dressed.

You went to grab something to wipe the cum away when he stopped you.

“Nah, you go on your little date with my cum leaking out of you”

You gave him a dazed look before nodding and throwing your dress back on followed by your shoes, giving him a kiss and heading for the door.

“That was fun Rafe, i’ll call you later okay?”

“I know you will pretty girl, I look forward to it.” the smile on his face was genuine, not one that he had after a meaningless hookup, but one of true happiness. You brought out the best in him and he couldn’t even have you in any way other than this.

“Me too, I better go now. See ya” you were almost out the front door when you heard him yell your name. You turned around to see him leaning in the doorframe of his bedroom, waiting to see what he had to say.

“You’re my favorite secret”

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cosettepontmercys · 12 days

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I truly can’t pinpoint when/what exactly changed about Taylor’s fans/fandom but the last few years (especially the midnights release) has really soured things for me and it’s honestly quite disappointing as someone who genuinely enjoys her music and thinks she’s a great artists. how did we get to the point of not even being able to voice an opinion about taylor without being crucified online. or if heaven forbid you dislike a song/album or enjoy the work of one of her exes (john mayer, the 1975, calvin harris, etc)

i’ve always been very fascinated/intrigued by the relationship between celebrities and their fans. and i think it’s really interesting to look back and think about how taylor built her fanbase by making herself as palatable/relatable/approachable as possible. like secret sessions, t party/loft 89/rep room, swiftmas, lover diaries, etc — all of which allow for fan interaction — but also relies on people getting noticed which then in turn encourages people to be as vocal? extra? whatever it is. which then feeds into the "who is a bigger / better fan" competition. i'm speaking from personal experience here, as someone who has liked her since debut — but i think a lot of this is also rooted in how much of the world hated taylor swift prior to ... i want to say folklore, really — like it was deeply uncool to like taylor swift, to be a swiftie, etc. and because a lot of that early criticism was rooted so much in misogyny, i think fans felt the need to (over the years) defend her — and i was one of those! i still am, when i feel like people are criticizing her unfairly. but i think that lends into the "taylor swift has never done anything wrong, and she's perfect and if you disagree then you're against us and you're a fake fan" mentality.

and then i think there's an element of ... not necessarily a superiority complex, but a something among fans who have met taylor. it's a genius marketing move, intentions aside. taylor's music is very personal — and taylor's marketing, and persona is very personal, in a way that other artists prior to taylor weren't, i think. relatability sells. you can see it in the way that people talk about her, and her music. which is very different from the way people talk about other artists — and obviously there isn't anyone else out there with the amount of fame/popularity as her, but you don't see the same amount of fanfiction-writing personal-life-speculating-projection onto other artists' lyrics as you do with taylor. and i think that when someone is that vulnerable with their thoughts, it makes it easy for people to think that they know them personally.

and i think that — as much as i love taylor — it's important to talk about her white woman feminism mentality. and i think that also seeps into how her fanbase interacts with her. the ginny & georgia "joke" is what comes to mind the quickest, but there are countless instances of taylor's white woman feminism — and her benefiting from it. and obviously it was in her right to call out a misogynistic comment, especially one directed at her, but not saying anything when the actress got so much hate for a line she didn't write ... made me feel a bit 🥴. it's interesting to see who taylor will choose to align herself with, i guess is all i'm saying.

i've really taken a step back from taylor — not just because the fandom is exhausting ( the amount of things i've seen about her, joe, travis, etc. is ... something! it's all projection! we do not know anything about these people other than what they choose to show us! ) but also because of her saying that she wanted to be on the right side of history and then over and over again choosing to be increasingly passive and silent. she will call herself an ally but won’t even talk about queer rights; she won’t talk about the literal genocide that’s going on. gun control, abortion rights, anything at all. it's just "go vote" but even that is incredibly passive. but she will take time to remind us to buy new variants, and to stream her music, and that her ex sucks.

i think there was a huge shift that started with folklore/evermore, just given that there weren't a lot of albums being put out during that time, the overwhelming public reception to it — a lot of people who previously didn't care for (or disliked) taylor started to like her, to give her a second chance, etc. then we get into the rerecordings era/midnights/etc., which started off with fearless and nostalgia and then became "how quickly can i put out the next thing". and bailey @placeinthisworld posted this earlier, which i fully agree with. it's about the next award, the next milestone. it's just all quantity. it's overexposure.

and then we have the joe alwyn breakup and the public response to that was also ... interesting. like i saw people crying over it, or saying that love is a lie, removing things from their playlists, acting like they were the ones who had been broken up with. which is just ... odd, given that we aren't the ones in the relationship. and now there are all these comments about being a "joe defender". and then with taylor dating travis, it feels almost like some weird american pipe dream unfulfilled fantasy for so many people — the singer and the american football player. and obviously, i want her to be happy! i don't care who she dates! but i do think the public reception about her and travis has been ... incredibly odd, and i think that the way people talk about her and travis is just ... very ... off-putting and is very rooted in some weird ... stuff. "she finally gets to be small :(((((" is such a weird thing to say. it feels like there's even more projection and self-insert-y stuff with her dating travis, which is a level i did not think was possible from her fans (and more so, the general public).

i have not felt this ... detached and impassive about a taylor release, ever, and it just makes me incredibly sad because i love her music, and am excited about the work, just not excited about the public reception, the public autopsy of her and joe's relationship, or the noise, and i know that internet spaces (and spaces in general) are what we curate, but it's also difficult when she is everywhere.

#so sorry this took so long to reply to! i was out of town!#post: answered #ts critical

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broadwayfangirl222 · 4 months

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I don't usually comment on this stuff, like at most I'll just find post I agree with and reblog it but I wanted to share my own thoughts on this:

In light of the leaks and all the spoilers and people commenting on the first two episodes. I'll just say, the anti/critical crowd has lost any and all credibility to me. I don't even mean this in a disparaging or negative way, I just legitimately can not trust their takes anymore. This isn't because I'm a stan who can't stand anyone not liking something they like. I don't care if you like vivziepop's shows or not. Like or don't like whatever you want The reason why I can't can't trust anti/critical takes anymore is because I've seen the most bad faith criticism and takes. I've seen it for the episodes I've seen so since I can't/won't watch the two hazbin episodes yet I'm gonna guess it'll be about the same for those. Like just off the top of my head i've seen takes from ciritics that are like: Somehow it's bad writing for Ozzie to make a whole point about consent, that it's somehow bad for the angels to be similar to the demons (which is the whole point, the point is they're not so different from the demons and the angels are massive hypocrites), Stella never physically abused Stolas 'cause he caught her hand before she could hit him, that somehow this scene between two disabled characters is somehow bad:

not even "it was bad representation because (x,y,z reasons)" Just...it was somehow bad to have this in the episode at all and how the writing for this would've apparently been better if the kid dealt with ableism or was mistreated before this.

And these are from people who at least watch the show/know the basic info about the show since I could be here all day if we go into the misinformation and flat out lies that muddy up the water. Not to mention the harassment being flung at both fans and people working on the shows. I've seen antis/criticals start attacking the people behind prehistoric planet and how the show is now ruined because Vivziepop made a post simply saying she was a fan of it. I've also seen people admitting to lying about working for Spindlehorse so they can lie about how bad the working conditions were. I would genuinely be willing to hear criticism of both the shows and crew if so much of it wasn't obviously done purely in bad faith and there were way less people willing to literally lie and fabricate things to make the shows and crews seem worse than they actually are.

Again I don't care if anyone likes the shows and crew or not. Like I said earlier everyone's entitled to their opinion and nothing/no one is perfect. I just get frustrated about (the lack of) media literacy and care about the very real world consequences that can come from some of the stuff being said/posted. For there to be any kind of actual conversation about this, and not just two camps of people yelling at each other, first, the harassment just needs to stop all together. No one deserves harassment, especially over something as frivolous as a tv show. Next, we need to get rid of misinformation especially when it relates to real people. Actually look into the info you're spreading or see being talked about, make corrections and admit if something ended up being wrong/misinformed.

#hazbin hotel #idk rambling #shut up me #I'm just of media illiteracy and misinfo being spread #might delete later

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s0urw00lf · 2 years

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Hiiii. okay well I had an idea and I thought maby requested it? anyways, can you write a one-shot of mccall!reader that like no one take her seriously and no one really care of her but like one time a new villan come to them and just fight with them and ask them where is reader and wanna kill us and they are like but she is just a human and really stupid andddd then we come and save them and reveal our powers, like scarlet witch powers? and we have a really big fight with the villan anf OK just this. Maybe even a little stiles × reader at the end? 3/> luv your account btw

OMG i absolutley love this! and thank you <3 means a a lot! also i'm gonna make this a stiles x reader because i LOVE stiles. he's the reason i started watching teen wolf in the first place sooo i hope you enjoy this.

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Being the twin sister of scott mccall is not at all what people think. Ever since he got his werewolf powers or whatever its been all about "saving the world" and he never has time just to chill out with family anymore. Don't get me wrong i love the pack meetings but i hate that everybody excludes me. well, except stiles. He always makes sure to make sure i get my point across even when were sitting on limited time.

"No scott, what i mean is-" i said being cut of by a rushed scott. “No y/n you know I love you but we don’t have the time” he said. We’re all standing around scott and i’s table during a pack meeting. I sit back and glare at scott once again from the opposite side of him. I sigh unfolding my hands standing up abruptly making everyone stare at me. “Y/n nows not the ti-“ scott says aggravated with his sister. “No! No I’m so done!” yelled back at him “you never listen to me anymore. I’m not weak! I’m always trying to help but you never listen” I yelled. “You obviously Don’t need me so why bother?” I said backing out of the room. Walking to the front door grabbing my keys and helmet out of the house and onto my bike. Kinda like Scott’s just f/c and not green. I put the key in the ignition and started the bike. I lifted the petal and was about to drive off but a hand on my shoulder stopped me. I turned and saw stiles. “What do you want stiles” I sighed putting the petal back down. “Well I- I saw that you were gonna drive off without your helmet on. Safety first ya know” he said holding up my helmet with a goofy grin on his face. He saw my hurt expression and his face fell. “Look y/n, nobody thinks your weak. Especially not me” he said with the most sincere expression on his face. “You do. All of you do, ever since Peter happened you guys have been on edge with me, you barley even let me talk anymore” I said aggravated. “Y/n I know there’s more to you. Something in me is telling me that your more that we know.” He said avoiding eye contact with me. I looked at him surprised “I uhh- I gotta go” I said putting my helmet on and driving off, leaving the boy standing there sad.

Yn drove to the opening of beacon preserve where all this mess started. She turned off her bike and put the petal down. She got off of her bike leaving the keys in the ignition but taking off her helmet and setting it on the handle of the bike. She stepped over the the chains to the entrance and walked in.

Ever since Peter bit scott and i everything’s been different. Even me. I didn’t turn into a werewolf or a banshee or a kanima. I turned into a witch. Yes the spell casting, mind controlling, telekinetic kind. No wands no spell books just me. I have this overwhelming anger in my heart. Or it could be hurt. But that built onto the power flowing through my veins. As I walked further into the woods I came across an open field. I sat in the middle thinking about my life over the past couple of months. How shit they’ve been. The memories bought tears to my eyes. I continued thinking about the awful things that had happened recently. I lost my best friend Erica to the alphas. I never really had time to dwell on it. My best friend since I was in diapers. Much like Scott and stiles. She was gone. I felt myself break down tears ran freely down my face, my hands shook. My body’s emotions were finally spilling over the edge and I couldn’t stop it. The sadness turned to anger that grew and grew until I couldn’t control it. My body lifted off of the ground as a orange aura surrounded my hands. The anger grew and grew until I blew up. I screamed. Loud. Finally letting free all of the power and emotions I had built up overtime. E wave of energy bursted from my body as I screamed. My body dropped back to the ground after the energy subsided. I felt amazing. Like I had all the control in the world. I smiled looking up to the sky with tears still streaming down my face. I finally had the control I needed to prove myself. Maybe stiles was right. Maybe I am so much more than the rest.

AN: this is short I know but… I’m making this a 2 part because I have a lot for the second part I just need to plan it out so it’s not so rushed. Also I didn’t see your first request idk what it was but I’ll make sure to check my inbox

#stiles stilinski #stiles stilinski x reader #scott mccall #derek hale #teen wolf #teen wolf x reader #scott mccall x reader #xreader

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a-fragile-little-teacup · 10 months

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i wanna talk about the bear

THIS IS MY OPINION! THIS IS NOT ME CLAIMING THIS AS FACT OR DIRECTLY ACCUSSING ANYONE OF SHIT! IF YOUR INSTINCT IS TO INSULT ME BECAUSE OUR OPINIONS DON'T LINE UP, THEN I WOULD ADVISE THAT YOU JUST SCROLL AWAY! I AM OPEN TO DISCUSSION, NOT BULLYING.

Hi.

So.

I love The Bear. I think it's a great show with interesting characters and well done directing and cinematography. It's great.

However, that doesn't mean that I have no critiques. And there is one that I feel a need to mention on the internet.

I am very worried about how the show is portraying Claire.

When the newest season came out and I started seeing some... interesting things being said/made about Claire, I assumed it was the fans getting a little defensive. That commonly happens when a show introduces a female romantic interest. To put it simply, I didn't think that it was something being pushed by the show's creators.

I was wrong.

First of all, let's talk about Claire and what I've seen said about her.

She was introduced this season as a love interest for Carmy. Interesting plotline for this show to explore, honestly.

Once the newest season came out, I saw a scary amount of viewers either pushing for the show to simply be pitting Clarie against Syd or they were blaming Claire for Carmy's actions.

two women of similar ages can exist in connection to a male character without them needing to fight over that male character. It dismisses a lot of both Syd and Claire's characters to only see them as being romantically tied to Carmy.

Carmy is responsible for his actions. Don't let his status as a pretty white boy distract from the fact that he's really kinda shitty as a person. He's unreliable and commonly dismisses a lot of accountability. It is not Claire's fault that Carmy didn't show up when he needed to.

I truly thought that this was just the fanbase, so I wasn't going to talk about it. I don't really enjoy being part of fandom culture at all. It is not usually great for my mental health. The cost of my well-being is almost never worth whatever I get as a result of being in that world.

However, I think the creative team on The Bear played a major role in the opinion forming around Claire, even if it wasn't intentional (which I obviously can't prove either way).

And I wanna explain why I think this is happening.

Carmy name drops her a lot. Especially when discussing the restaurant and the menu, he will push her name all the time. This is often around Syd because Syd's his business partner. This helped form an association.

Claire came up with a lot of ideas for what the two of them did. This made it easier for people to claim that she was forcing him away from the restaurant but I'm going to argue (a) that she didn't know all of the details around the restaurant's opening for most of the season and (b) that it was Carmy's responsibility to say no or explain that he was busy. If he hadn't said anything at all and was simply dragged around, then that would be one thing, but I don't personally believe that's what was shown throughout the season.

The panic attack scene in the last episode. Claire is shown in tandem with Carmy's family, which is largely seen as a source for Carmy's anxiety and panic attacks before it cuts to Syd seeming to be the reason that he calms down. This was such a wild fucking thing to throw in during the last episode. I don't know what the true intention behind this scene was, but I don't think it played as well as it could have.

I don't give a singular shit about who you ship with who or what you want to happen in the next season. That's not what this post is about.

Regardless of any of that, it is not fair to make Claire into this twisted almost-villain when she simply isn't one. She was described incredibly kindly by every character that talked about her (Richie, Michael, Carmy, Sugar, Fak).

She clearly has a personality beyond Carmy, which doesn't always happen when writing a female romantic interest (a discussion that I could write a whole separate post about and tie back to The Bear).

The way her character has been treated is worrying and if she is to return for season 3, then I'm equally as worried about how the writers will treat her.

#the bear #hulu #the bear fx #carmy berzatto #syd adamu #claire the bear #molly gordon #jeremy allen white #ayo edebiri #sydney adamu

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okay watched ep 2 of fhjy and as anyone might imagine I've got thoughts. under the cut.

lots of fun things this episode! haven't watched the AP yet btw. i'm mostly writing these down myself so I'll go character-by-character, but some overall stuff about the episode:

whatever episode one was doing really paid off here. by itself, the full episode of battle, apart from being excited by all the new intros, was a bit frustrating especially since I wasn't sure how they were actually going to be able to reel the night yorb in, but they did it in this one! with lots of time left over for other stuff.

and with both episodes out, (as i suspected) that really frustrating feeling from episode 1 carries a lot more meaning--brennan making everyone fight those minions was perfect icing on the cake. as well as all those personal troubles at the end. but that gets into character stuff, so:

riz:

riz gukgak is one of my favorite characters in the universe. when i watched fhsy baron happened and i obsessively took notes the whole season bc i was like. riz is aroace and i can prove it. as you can imagine i nearly died when my green heaven released

anyways, pretty much everything riz has done has been so, so, on brand for what I'd think he'd do, so that's great--i feel like I haven't gone wrong in understanding him, which is cool

one of the big things that seems like we'll be getting this season is riz's attachment to his friends, by which i mean he feels like he can't hang out with them unless there's a job to be done. he's got this bit in the boys' night extra where riz says "it's usually like we kind of have this whole group dynamic where all of us come together and we solve these problems together. and when I don’t have a problem to solve, I don’t know what to do with myself." which is pretty much exactly what's going on here. as brennan phrases it, riz has basically just told his mother "I have a pretty a hard time connecting to my dearest friends whose lives I've saved many times unless there's a problem, so I can feel useful."

and this like... deep sense of anxiety around being alone, that's kind of a really deep part of riz's character, right? penny luckstone was his babysitter--closest thing he had to a friend. riz cares a lot about the case, but he probably also cared about the only connection he really had. and now the bad kids are his connections. he wants to be with them, like, forever, and half of his worries about all those romantic entanglements is that everyone is going to prioritize themselves and their romantic partners above him, and since he doesn't... want that kind of thing, where does that leave him? alone? forever? with no place to belong? he's already one of the only goblins we ever see in the whole time we've been in the land of spyre.

and I think what's really heartbreaking about this, at least to me, is that riz so clearly and obviously loves and adores his friends. he doesn't have a problem expressing his love! and I don't think he really even doubts that his friends love him, too. it's just that. i don't think he can deal with the possibility of being without them. and he doesn't know if the fact that they like each other is enough to keep them together. but hey, world-saving does.

sklonda was so good this episode, too. was particularly affected by when she told riz "you do everything for other people, and I want to make sure that you don't get your heart broken" because it's just... yeah. also that's such a real struggle money-wise with college in particular... I really kind of hoped we could maybe help sklonda out with her case, but, it is her job, after all. see where riz gets his board from haha. but seriously, she's just... such a good mother. every time the gukgaks interact it's so warm to me because riz and sklonda just... so obviously care for each other, so carefully. like. not a single bit of resentment or frustration coming from riz once sklonda tells him he might need some to put some extra pressure on himself, and it's partially being fine with pressure, partially not acknowledging his problems, and partially that he's just a good kid and knows his mother's doing the best for him. so he'll do that for her, too.

who bets that riz will not talk about any sad feelings in front of his friends this season!!! anyways that was so goddamned long, because I'm crazy about riz. the rest will be way quicker

anyways no one except ME is reading this. haha.

fig:

so, I'm fully convinced that gilear and fig swapped lucks. the sour, curdling feeling? very gilear yogurt. also the kicker was icing on her shirt. real yogurt moment there. and with all these kisses of fortune gilear's getting, I'm convinced that's what's happened for fig. very interested to see how that messes with her coolness

I'm also really interested in fig actually taking bard classes. i do have to wonder how it might go... I know emily like, does music, so I wonder if any of her knowledge there might come in handy

also very interested in seeing how any of the aguefort quangle stuff is gonna mess with things this season! even the little bit of ayda we saw was so good.

kristen:

so, like, obviously, cassandra's not doing so hot, because they've only got two followers. i think it's really interesting how non-pressuring they are towards kristen because like. for all the pestering they don't actually seem to outright mention that they aren't doing so great

also kristen seems in a pretty bad place this semester, but I'm hoping that the stark reality of expulsion is actually going to make her think about like, getting her life together. i'm really interested to see where it'll go because like. i dunno. i'm not much of an evangelizer myself.

more than tracker being away, it must sting additionally that like, apart from being in a possible breaking up state, tracker, right now, is being the like, perfect cleric. like she is reforming and adding nuance to her faith and stuff in a really really big way!! which is the kind of achievements kristen should be doing. but you know. they're world saving and things are... they're pretty tiring. (must've been nice talking about the moon goddess during eternal night, i bet)

ragh is also back and i'm so glad bc i love ragh. also 100% that red crystal lydia barkrock's been dealing with is gonna be relevant. i really hope that he has somewhat of a presence this season because like, he was around in fhsy, but ragh's like... idk, he's cool, and I feel like he's rich enough in character that he's got places to go?

adaine:

loved the little aelwyn mention. that nemesis abjuration is such a deeply aelwyn way of looking out for her sister

i am really excited to see adaine trying to get a job, personally. and i do hope we get to see more of zayn darkshadow bc he's just a really chill and nice minor npc in my opinion

fabian:

i love fabian's parents as equally as i hate them, and this scene exemplified it. they like... give him things, and look after him, but they're not really... supportive, are they? in an emotional way. no time to talk, and he's 18 now, so they're totally fine leaving him alone for months. they can be the cool parents that let him throw awesome parties. and hallariel saying it's a great thing to be his father's son... I don't know, bill seacaster's like, kind of a shithead?

so that'll be interesting. and he wanted to go to dance camp...! i hope he really does get to explore that passion more during the school year. truthfully i have to wonder how his grades are... riz and adaine are doing great, fig and kristen are doing terribly, gorgug is probably not the greatest considering his rage, but fabian? I'd be interested in knowing what's up with that

also they don't directly answer whether they're taking all the staff iirc, but judging by how hallariel mentions that food is just set up with an account, it may be that he can't even like, talk to cathilda or anything. which sucks!! it really does suck.

gorgug:

in some ways, zelda and gorgug breaking up was a little anticipated. still, it does suck. but it's not like he really had the time for anything

i wonder how this interacts with the timeline of the seven: that's in her junior year and sam seems to still refer to gorgug as zelda's boyfriend, and stuff, so I wonder if it's a retcon or I've got the timeline wrong or that I haven't quite finished actually watching the seven. anything could be fine--personally I think gorgug and zelda work really well as solo characters, so like, who knows

edit: in the AP brennan said zelda graduated so the events of the seven have likely already happened... that does bring up the question of why things dont line up but like. i can handwave time shenanigans in my head. especially with the quangle.

could be kinda fun if gorgug and ragh bonded a bit more this season.

thistlesprings are great parents, of course. love that they offered to fix the hangvan, or work on it together, and I'm really hoping their supportive energy is gonna help gorgug out this year. i have to wonder if there's gonna be any strangeness with gorgug meeting any of the thistlespring extended family, now that they're hosting this festival

speaking of this festival, it's the same one that sklonda's working a case related to!! i want to get my claws into this mystery so bad

ok that's about everything. gonna watch the AP now! my final thoughts... it's so frustrating that these bad kids have saved the world multiple times over and done so many things, and it's not like... enough, not even close. but that's a very real thing I felt during junior year of high school and that I'm sure many people felt--that I'd spent all this time developing myself as a person and becoming better and doing some pretty interesting stuff, in my opinion, but when I put it all out on like a resume or a college application or whatever, it looked like nothing. even though it was absolutely meaningful and important, it was nothing.

#kiri.txt #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high #d20 #i feel so weird tagging this bc no ones gonna read this. but the tags are so i can find it. lol #in this essay i will #liveblog

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Oh, I Thought, This Is Gonna Be One Of Those Things

This is not technically fan-fiction.

I hope that’s okay. I figured I might stretch my writing muscles a little bit with a cross between an Original Fiction (ish) and a Reader piece.

Word count: 2,897 words. Notes: ~ Title is from - “Cowboy Like Me” by Taylor Swift. ~ Reader is Female, obviously. ~ Fluffy, flirty, happy? I think! ~ Yes, this does involve Shelly. She’s very versatile and happily bisexual. ~ Obviously, not a lot of research was realllyyyyy done but it’s just a little fun fluff piece, it’s not too serious. So, um... 🌈 Happy Pride 🌈 ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[Setting: Some kinda college setting, in which Shelly is probably some kinda exchange student. You know how this goes with me. I’m a ho for those.] “Shelly?” The blonde on the other side of the dorm room looked up from her books and looked right at you. “Yes darlin’?” “Um,” you paused and hummed a little. You really liked it when she dropped affectionate nicknames like that - there was something about the way her accent made them sound. “Can I ask you something?” “You can ask me anything, you know that.” “Well, maybe it’s a couple of things,” you muttered, getting yourself comfortable on your own bed. “Sure, go ahead.” “First thing,” you glanced up at her - she was still looking down at whatever she was working on, sitting with her back against the wall. “Did you call your family? Your accent is a bit stronger today.” She giggled. “Mm, I did.” “Is everyone okay?” You didn’t know much about her family - you knew that it was her, her mother and her maternal grandparents, you knew what they looked like, and you knew their names but you didn’t know an awful lot else. “Oh, yes! They’re good!” “That’s good,” you couldn’t help but smile a little at her. You didn’t know much, but you knew that she loved her family deeply. “I’m glad about that. I know you miss them.” “I do,” she tucked some hair behind her ear. “But I’m enjoying this experience.” “I’m glad about that!” And really, you were. Shelly closed her book and put her pen down, looking over at you with a curious expression on her pretty face. “What was the other thing you wanted to ask me? Because I think the second thing is the more important of the two. It normally is. The first is normally an additional last minute thought.” Ugh, she was pretty and smart and it was so unfair. “Um,” you moved your own books aside and tried to figure out how to word what you wanted to ask her about. She waited patiently while you gathered your words. “Um,” you started again. “You said that you’re bisexual, right?” “I did and I am,” she nodded gently. “I… And you’re out? At home too?” “Yeah. Though, I am careful when it comes to telling new people, especially over here. I know attitudes are a little different.” You nodded. She wasn’t wrong; you did have to be careful sometimes. “But I’m not overly bothered about telling people outright if they ask,” Shelly continued. “I like being honest with people as long as it’s not going to get me hurt.” “And your family didn’t mind? When you told them? They didn’t have anything bad to say about it?” You asked, your head tilted as you listened to her. Shelly just giggled. “No, not at all. My grandmother’s always been the first to say that I’m certainly pretty enough for ladies and that I don’t have to… Settle for a man unless I want one.” This made you snort a little. “Your grandmother sounds like a very smart woman.” “Oh, she is,” Shelly smiled brightly. “She’s the best. I mean, she raised my mama, helped raise me and keeps my grandfather from turning into too much of a stuffed shirt.” “He didn’t have a problem with you being bisexual?” You had seen a photo of Shelly and her family - and her grandfather looked… Quite straight laced. She shook her head. “No. But, he knew how badly my ex boyfriend hurt me, so I think he was a little relieved to know that I wasn’t shutting myself off from relationships as a whole. And…” You looked at her as she paused for a moment, watching a slight grin spread across her face. “And,” she continued. “I think my grandmother pointed out to him that he wouldn’t have to worry about becoming a great grandfather if I dated girls.” This last bit made you giggle. Maybe not because it was funny, even though it kinda was, but it was more to do with the grin she had on her face as she said it. “So, um… Another thing?” “Sure.” “You know the few times we’ve gone out?” “Mm hm?” Shelly shifted to sit on the edge of her bed, one ankle tucked underneath her as she leant one elbow on her knee, her cheek in her palm. Oh no. She was giving you her full attention. While that was adorable and made you feel so validated it was also a little… Intimidating. Even though she was the least intimidating looking person ever - short, blonde, normally dressed in pastels or something, and almost always smiling. She normally looked friendly but today… Her attention was intimidating. Especially for the next couple of questions you had. Shelly watched you as you paused and fiddled with the hem of your shirt. You sighed softly. “I’m just going to come out and ask it…” “Sure thing.” “Feel free to not answer but… What is it that the girls say to you that makes you giggle and kiss them?” Shelly blinked for a moment before she grinned and giggled. “Oh! Um…” You looked up at her as she giggled to herself, softly, for a moment. It was a really pretty sound and the smile she had while she was giggling was so cute. “They tend to come up to me,” Shelly said with a smile. “They come up to me and talk to my boobs instead of my face.” You could feel heat slowly creeping up your neck to your face. You certainly weren’t brave enough to do more than sneak a look at her chest for a few seconds when she was otherwise distracted, so to stare at them while she was looking and talking to you? Ballsy. “Wh- what do they say?” You asked, pressing her gently. “Something about how,” she looked at the ceiling - something she did while she thought about things or tried to remember things. “How they’re not sure if they like girls or not, and can I kiss them so they can figure it out.” Your jaw almost dropped and you were highly aware of the conscious effort you had to put in so you weren’t staring at her with your mouth open. “And that works?” Shelly hummed and shrugged once. “Yeah, sure, why not? I’m really not against being someone’s sexual awakening, if that’s how it goes. I’ve been told I’m a good kisser so at least they get that out of it.” She paused. “Does that make sense?” “Yeah, I think so,” you said with a nod, trying not to think about this too much. She stayed quiet for a moment, looking at you. “Do you think that makes me easy or something?” “Wh- what?” Your voice came out as more of a squeak. “No! No, of course not. It’s just a kiss. I’ve heard of people doing much more than that in shorter spaces of time.” Shelly seemed to contemplate this for a moment before she relaxed. “Okay. Fine. Good. I mean, I don’t think it makes me easy but…” She shrugged. “I don’t know. Everyone has a different perception.” “Well, I don’t think it makes you easy,” you looked up to see her still looking at you. “I… If anything, I think you’re probably helping people out a lot, which can only ever be seen as a good thing?” She hummed and nodded. “I like to think of it that way.” You nodded in response, falling quiet for another minute before almost whispering your next question; “I… What’s it like?” Shelly blinked rapidly for a moment. “What’s… What like, exactly?” You could feel your face getting warm again, but much faster this time. “K- kissing a girl?” “Oh!” Shelly made a soft ‘hmmmm’ noise as she thought about it. “Well, have you kissed a boy?” “Mm.” “It’s not like that,” Shelly said with a slow shake of her head. “It’s not like that at all.” “Oh?” You swallowed, quickly wetting your bottom lip with your tongue. “What is it like then?” Shelly adjusted her position on her bed, uncrossing her legs and leaning back on her hands as she glanced up at the ceiling for a moment, clearly giving this some thought. “Um,” she said after thinking about it for a little longer. “I’m not entirely sure how to explain it. It’s just… Different. It’s… Better.” This was it - you had to be brave. This was the perfect chance. “Um. Could…” “You want me to show you?” Oh thank god, you thought. God fucking bless her and how smart she was. It was only then that you realised that she was actually expecting an answer, so you nodded. “I would prefer it verbally,” she said, almost sounding shy for a moment. “Oh. Um! Okay, yes, please. Can you show me?” Shelly hummed for a moment before moving off of her bed, pushing herself to her feet. She paused and stretched a little, rolling her shoulders before she padded across the room to sit next to you on your bed. This wasn’t the first time she’d sat there, or on your bed in general, so the fact that you were nervous felt ridiculous. Then again, the last time she sat on your bed, she wasn’t about to kiss you. She gently tucked some hair behind your ear, her fingertips lightly tracing your jawline before she cupped your cheek to lift your face, making you look at her. When your eyes met hers, she was smiling and you were almost certain that a blush dusted her cheeks. “Hi,” she whispered. “H- hi,” somehow you managed to maintain eye contact with her without giving in and looking anywhere but at her. And this surprised you. “Relax,” she continued softly. “It’s not gonna hurt, you know that.” “I- I know,” you decided that honesty couldn’t hurt. “I’m nervous.” Shelly made a soft, sympathetic noise. “You can close your eyes if you want.” “I… Are you sure?” You found yourself glancing at her lips. Was she wearing lipgloss? Shelly nodded. “Mm hm.” “That’s not going to offend you?” You were certain you hadn’t seen her put anything on. Were her lips naturally that pretty shade of pink? That was unfair. “Nope. Why would it? Especially not when I suggested it.” “Oh. Um. Okay,” you closed your eyes. As much as you wanted to keep looking at her, you reasoned that you could always do that later too. “Are you sure about this?” Shelly asked quietly. “Yes,” you replied with a nod as well. “You can tell me to stop at any time, okay?” She shifted on the bed next to you - you were certain that she moved a little closer. “Okay,” you nipped your bottom lip, keeping your eyes closed. “I mean, I’m sure I won’t, but, if I feel the need to, I will.” Shelly just chuckled and gently squeezed your cheek - she did still have her palm cupped around it after all. “Okay then,” she whispered, almost matter of factly. She fell quiet for a moment. You could almost feel your heart thumping away in your throat and it was probably due to concentrating on this, that meant that you didn’t feel the bed dip slightly as she leant forwards. You did, however, feel her lips on yours as she kissed you gently. Just once, one long press of her lips against yours. At first anyway. “Okay?” She whispered, and you could feel her breath tickle your lips. “Mm hm!” You blinked rapidly as you opened your eyes to see her smiling face. “Again?” She moved her hand from your face to play with your hair a little bit, almost petting you. “More?” “Yes,” you weren't sure why you were whispering. “Yes please.” Shelly giggled. “You can touch me, you know. I’m not gonna break.” You felt yourself blush again, your brain immediately making an inappropriate suggestion of exactly where you could touch her, and judging by the giggle you could hear, it was almost like she could read your mind. “Yeah, you can touch me there too, if you want.” If you weren’t red before, you certainly were then. “Oh! Um!” “I won’t mind,” she took one of your hands and put it on her waist before leaning forward to kiss your cheek. “I promise.” “I don’t know if I can do that,” you mumbled, trying not to make eye contact with her. “Nonsense,” Shelly shuffled closer - any closer and she’d be in your lap. “Yeah, you can. Maybe not while I’m sort of watching you but eventually you’ll want to, and I’m not against it. So remember that.” She’d just given you permission to touch her boobs whenever you felt ready. Like you were gonna forget that, ever. Christ. “Um, okay. I’ll try and remember.” “Good enough. Can I kiss you again now?” “Yes, please.” Shelly leant forward and pressed her lips against yours. So gently at first, almost feather light pecks - she was easing you into it again. But soon it wasn’t enough and you slipped your arm around her waist to try and pull her closer, to try and get her to stay where she was. It worked, and there was a ‘mm<3’ sound. She smiled against your lips and it took a little longer before you realised that the sound had come from you. “It’s alright,” she whispered, not moving too far away. “Happy noises are good. I like vocal partners.” Oh. She kissed you again, nipping at your bottom lip and soothing it with her tongue afterwards. Every time you responded positively, she’d kiss you harder or a little deeper, going a little further. Every time she did something a little different, she’d pause, as if seeking your approval to continue with it. And boy, were you willing to give that to her, especially if she kept playing with your hair like that; caressing your cheek when she cupped your face and gently squeezing, reassuringly, whatever part of you her other hand was holding. She wasn’t wrong. Kissing a girl - or at least, kissing her - was nothing like kissing a boy. Sure, the mechanics of the act were the same, if you watered it down, for the most part at any rate. The guys you had kissed could be pushy; they hadn’t been like Shelly with her pauses to wait for your consent for the new steps. Sure, maybe some people could argue “it’s only kissing, what’s the need for that much consent?” but… You hadn’t realised how nice that was, actually. Maybe even how much of a turn on it was. Plus if she was like this, this considerate, with kissing - what was she like with everything else? Even when she was kissing you with more force, it was still so soft - but then again, she was soft. Her lips were soft, her hair was soft, her skin was soft. Her voice, her giggle, her smile. Soft, and gentle. Her touches were the same - even when she squeezed your hip, hand or thigh. It was a slow, gentle, painless pressure instead of the pinch like sensation you’d felt when a man squeezed you. And if her squeezing your thigh or hip over your clothes felt that nice? You would put good money (or bad money, whatever) on the fact that her hands on your skin would feel even better. She even tasted different - even when you confirmed that no, she wasn’t wearing lipstick or lipgloss, her lips were just that pretty shade. There was no taste from any products or anything - there might’ve been a hint of flavour from either the drink she had on her nightstand, or from the candy she’d been snacking on intermittently while she was working (you could see the pop of colour from the packaging standing out against her books). But even then, that wasn’t that obvious. You couldn’t figure out what she tasted like, you just knew it was different. It was nicer. God, it was nicer. Slower, even if she kissed you harder; it didn’t feel as hurried as when guys had kissed you. Like, they were rushing through the kissing to get to the next stage. It didn’t feel like that with her. It felt like she was perfectly content with just kissing, like she was savouring it. Like she never wanted it to end, but also like she couldn’t get enough. Oh. And all too soon the blonde was pulling away, ending with a couple of little pecks on your lips before drawing back and tucking some hair behind her ear. “How was that?” Shelly asked with a small smile. She already knew the answer - that smile gave it away, and you knew it - she just wanted to hear you say it. “You already know.” Shelly pretended to think about it, her head tilted slightly. “Oh?” “Of course it was better,” you confessed. “Of course it was!” Her little smile turned into a bright, happy grin. “See? Told you.” “Yeah, yeah, okay, I didn’t doubt you.” She looked almost nervous for a moment, nibbling her bottom lip. “Did you… Did you enjoy it?” Your eyes widened and you couldn’t nod fast enough. “Yes.” “Enough to, do it again?” “Oh, god, yeah!” “Well, in that case…” Shelly giggled and ran her fingers up your thigh. “You wanna see what else I can do better than the boys?”

#She Speaks #She Writes #My Writing #Shelly x F!Reader #happy pride 🌈

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A/N: This chapter is actually really funny because it took Ny (@labaguetteisdabest)like two weeks to write the last chapter and as soon as she finished, I wrote all of this in the span of two hours, and then proceeded to text Ny in the middle of the night about it. Needless to say, she wasn't very happy with me 😅. Anyways enjoy~. You can find the masterlist here Warning(s) : Cursing, blood, injuries, Kaeda channels her inner nurse, Kaeda (I say this lightly) snoops around Apex's stuff, mentions of fratricide, Kaeda's a gatekeeper👀.

Pairing(s): Kaepex

I’ve learned a lot these past few days. Especially about Apex and I.

Now obviously, we’re far from friends, the opposite in general. But the morning I spent in Burgunjax Palace made her a little more humane to me.

My heart throbs as I consider the pain she went through. She had killed her brother and had watched a close friend of hers die. I can only imagine the pain she’s suffering.

As much as I hate her, she doesn’t deserve that. Even I lost a bit of my humanity as I came to terms with what I had to do on the way here. But even though there’s blood on my hands, there’s blood on hers too. The only difference is that the blood on her hands was red.

I wondered how long I could go without having to kill another Espyn.

The thought rattled me to the core.

Last night, as Apex fell asleep in her room, I decided to read the book she had about the gods.

My mother used to tell me the myths about the gods growing up before I left to Watarumi, but the book had one that I wasn’t as familiar with.

Parako.

The Goddess of Nature, her ability to give Reyas turned dormant long ago. No one really knew what happened to her. I don’t really think anyone cared really. She was the patron goddess of Watarumi, but given that she hadn’t gifted Reyas to Espyns in millennia, most people just forgot about her.

And thus, Watarumi became distinguished as a neutral territory instead of a kingdom like the others. I guess since it lost its connection to the godly world, it lost its connection to the other kingdoms as well.

I’m not sure how long I was up reading last night. The sky turned a light rosy hue as the sun peeked out behind the large window by Apex’s bed.

My head throbbed a little, I guess I was a little tired, but I still had work to do.

Apex was still sound asleep, but the clothes she was in were still blood soaked from the previous day. So, as anything completely rational person would do, I went into her closet.

And damn. There was a lot.

You’d think the princess of Fujimura of all people would care less about what she’s wearing, but her closet had racks upon racks of pants, organized by material, and blouses that ranged from flowy and silky to sleek and tight. I guess they must’ve prepared clothes for Apex beforehand, because these obviously didn’t resemble the size of a 7-year-old.

Picking out a pair of black pants with a sizeable number of pockets (and gods there were a lot of them), and a nice long sleeved white shirt with buttons leading to the collar, I trudged back into the main bedchamber to see a very disgruntled Apex sitting up with a hilarious case of bedhead.

I decided not to comment on it.

“Here.” I said, tossing the clothes to her. “Go change and call me back when you’re done. Then I’ll check up on your injuries.”

The redhead rolls her eyes and clicks her teeth. “Whatever. Why were you in my closet?” She glares, annoyed I was in her personal space.

I quirked my eyebrow. “Because I didn’t think you would want to leave this place in blood-soaked clothes. Unless I’m wrong and you want the infected animals outside to smell your blood.”

The princess just sighs, flipping me off before telling me to get out, which I happily oblige, taking the book I was reading last night with me.

Leaning against the door to Apex’s room outside, I sit on the floor and open the book again. This is where the book gets interesting.

Now obviously, this book may be centuries old, but it was still relatively the same ones that were read to me as a kid, pictures and all. Regardless, it was nice to refresh my brain after so many years.

The worn-out pages show the intricate painting of a looming tree, with bulbous fungi-like orbs that hang from its branches like glowing blue fruit.

I knew what this was.

I had grown up hearing about this tree, for every single waking moment of my 6 years in Khaenpanii. The Tree of Peremetri, known as the place where the connection between Dodomi and the godly world was the most eminent.

It was where Allaida, the mother of the gods, would crown the worthiest espyn Syla.

But there was something I had never noticed before. I wonder if Apex had too.

By underneath the tree were a series characters painted by its trunk, as if to imitate an engraving.

But I couldn’t read it. Out of the numerous symbols there, I could only make out a few, those of which were known to be from the Ancient Script.

And those who could read it were dead.

But the image of the tree make something click in my mind.

The virus spread through the continent was a task impossibly huge, and absurd for two espyns alone. Even if we had Reyas.

But the power of the gods... it might just work. If one of us could become Syla and use that power to purify the virus, not just everyone, but everything could be fixed. Back to normal.

For that to happen though, we’d had to decide who would become Syla.

And just like that, we were back to square one. But I can’t discount my idea yet. I just need to figure out a good time to tell Apex.

“Hey, I’m done.” I hear Apex’s voice emerge form her room, breaking me away from my train of thought. I'd tell her later.

I stand up, pushing the door open to see her sitting cross legged on her bed, looking at me with a bored but expectant expression.

I sigh, here comes the annoying part.

You know, out of all the people I thought I’d tend to, Apex was not one of them.

I ask her to lift up her shirt and roll my eyes when she tells me to not get used to it.

Her wounds haven’t been bandaged yet, which was kinda bad on my part, but at least the bleeding stopped. Three long angry gashes were splayed across her torso, and I wince, knowing it’ll leave a scar.

“Hey...you don’t mind if I tear up any of your other clothes for bandages, right?” I ask tentatively.

She rolls her eyes for the hundredth time; I swear they were going to fall out of her face. “Yeah, tear up the ones that don’t fit,” she mutters, lying back down to stare at the ceiling.

I go into her closet again, rifling through clothes upon clothes before my hands come across a small cotton dress that could only fit a 6 or 7-year-old. Returning to her, I grab the dagger on her nightstand, the same one she had used to kill her brother.

Note to self: Ask Apex where to get weapons.

Slicing the dress into a long strip, I cut off the excess to keep in my bag for future use, and then sit on the bed to wrap it around her.

It wasn’t too hard, other than the fact, that Apex would flinch slightly whenever my fingers met her bare skin, which made sense considering my hands were always cold. But other than that, it went smoothly, using some of my ice to clean up the crusted blood and now there were fresh bandages that would hopefully last a while.

After I finished, I cleaned up and we sat in silence before Apex broke the silence.

“So, when do we leave?”

#kaeda leona cynet #adrienne “apex” pyracent #kaepex #star crossed haters #kaeda x apex #my writing #creative writing #writers block #writing #writer #writers and poets #writers on tumblr #writeblr #writerscommunity

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It's been a while since I've done a Chortle headlines roundup. I used to do them more regularly, then I did a couple in a row where it was heavy on the post-documentary Russell Brand headlines, and that was so depressing that I cut them out for a while. Let's do a new one. I'll make this one shorter.

Oh for the love of God, Chortle. Please do not make me look at weeks of Ricky Gervais headlines in the leadup to/aftermath of the video release of Armageddon. He could not possibly need the publicity less, for so many reasons. Obviously you shouldn't be a cunt. Everyone who's going to think that already thinks it, everyone else isn't going to change, don't make us fucking read about it.

This looks like a headline that would appear on some sort of parody show. You know, if the BBC hadn't cancelled all its news/topical parody shows in the name of the exact balance mandate that I assume is the subject of that article, though I don't actually know, I'm not clicking on that.

You are doing New Year's Treat wrong, guys. It's supposed to be on New Year's and it's also supposed to have people who are famous (sorry, I'm sure it'll be fun and the people they've cast will be fine, I'm just still mildly annoyed that this year was their one chance to cast John Oliver while he was striking, the stars aligned with him having recently worked with Alex on the Horne Section show, it's gone forever now).

If anyone has the opportunity to see Pierre Novellie's Why Are You Laughing when he tours it next year, I cannot recommend it highly enough. I'm now wishing I had recommended other things less highly in the past, so I could lend more weight to this one. It's amazingly funny, and amazingly well written. It should... I mean, I was thinking it should be a strong contender for the best show (of Edinburgh 2023) award until I heard Ahir Shah's show, and I do now think they made the right choice in giving it to Ahir Shah. But it was the second best Edinburgh 2023 show, of the 40-ish I've heard. It should at least have been nominated.

Can I say something mildly sacrilegious? I'm not sure about this. I am obviously a devotee of Sam Campbell, and my view of Lucy Beaumont has wavered slightly as I've come to realize just how much she's maybe not kidding most of the time, but I do find her very funny. I just think... the proverbial straight man in a comedy group exists for a reason, you know? I don't know how well it'll work to put those two together without someone else to balance it out, they won't have anything to play off. It feels a bit too heavy on Avalan throwing together two fan favoruites from a popular TV show, more than thinking about what pairings would actually work well together. Especially since there doesn't seem to be a planned format or anything. I also don't really think they're as similar as people have suggested.

Having said that, obviously I'm going to listen to this, and I can absolutely picture a scenario in which I finish the first episode and write a glowing post about how I've been proven wildly wrong and concede that I should never have doubted their brilliance. I hope it happens that way.

I know I'm mildly annoyed at him right now, but this show is very good and people should see it if they can. One of my favourite things out of all he's ever done. He did a little preview of bits he's added to it on the latest Bugle episode, and I enjoyed that a lot.

Oh fuck off. No, come on, fuck off. You are not going to force me to engage with whatever the fuck VR is by having Mae Martin do it. It won't work.

...Having said that, is there a way to take a VR set and turn it into nice normal 2D video so I can watch the Mae Martin set? I have no idea if that's possible and I refuse to Google it, no one needs to encourage Mark Zuckerburg. But obviously I want to see what Mae Martin's doing.

I quite enjoyed this little clip. I've never been to Scotland, but this is exactly how I imagine the Edinburgh Festival, I'm currently planning a probably-actually-for-real-this-time trip for Edinburgh 2024, and I will be wildly disappointed if the festival isn't exactly like this.

Weirdly, there was nothing on the Chortle front page about Benjamin Zephaniah dying. He wasn't a comedian or anything, but he had connections to British comedy. I can't lie and say I was incredibly familiar with his work, but I really liked the poems of his that I'd heard and read (I did seek a few out and read them after seeing him on TV, as I quite liked him), and thought he came across very well every time I saw or heard him. And, obviously, 65 is too young and that would be a tragedy even if he weren't a very talented poet.

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Can you do a continuation of the Yuna and Yeji smut you made?

A little more help (Yuna x Yeji part 2)

First of all sorry for taking so long but I really wasn't doing too well but I am better now and just felt like writing. Hope you like my idea of a possible Yeji x Yuna relationship. So this is a longer part of fluff before it end smutty and I decided to make this a whole fic now so if you have any ideas for plot lines, please tell me

After the Itzy members came back from the restaurant late in the evening Lia decided she was already going to bed. Ryujin and Chaeryeong disappeared to the latter's room to watch a movie together after getting some snacks from the kitchen. This left Yeji and Yuna alone in the living room. Yuna had been really quiet the whole time they were out, especially though with her oldest unnie. She felt really awkward about what had happened between them and it left her confused.

With a safe distance from each other they sat on the couch, an awkward silence between them. The maknae watched Yeji, unable to get what she saw of the older earlier out of her head. She felt herself grow wet again and a slight blush made it's way to her cheeks. Before today she had already guessed that she had a crush on their leader but had always tried pushing it away. However now she just wasn't able to.

Her mind was completely occupied by Yeji. By them holding hands as they walked to the reastaurant but even more so by what she had said earlier. "Whatever you want it to" Yeji had said, meaning what the older showing her how to masturbate meant for them. Yuna knew she wanted for it to happen again but of course she was too shy to tell her unnie. She let out a small sigh which Yeji used as her opportunity to finally speak up.

"What's wrong Yuna? Are you uncomfortable because of what happened earlier?" she asked, her tone obviously worried but also soft, not wanting to push Yuna if she didn't feel like talking about it. The younger girl slightly shook her head, mumbling "It's just... a lot... You know I've never really done this stuff and... I feel a bit... of shame I guess. It's something people don't... talk about and even more if I uhm.... think about girls...". After that Yuna stopped her rambling, head a bright red and eyes fixed on her hands in her lap.

Yeji had a lot of sympathy for the younger girl and gently asked "Can I hug you Yuna?" which was quickly answered with a small nod. She then scooted over to the younger girl and wrapped her arms around her shoulders, pulling her close with a small smile on her lips as she softly said "It's fine Yuna. I get it. I had no one to talk to so I used the internet a lot to learn about these things. And it's also okay if you're attracted to girls. It doesn't change a thing for me"

Hearing those words from her unnie made Yuna calm down a little and she relaxed into the embrace, thinking for a moment before whispering a small "thank you" before some tears rolled down her cheeks. Yeji quickly but gently made sure to wipe them away before returning her hands to stroking Yuna's back. She let her cry it out in a now comfortable silence.

After she stopped crying, the maknae was the one to break the silence by asking "What did you mean earlier? When you said this can mean whatever I want it to?". This was a question Yeji had been afraid of. She had hoped Yuna wouldn't ask and she took a moment to think before answering "I meant... that uhm... I am fine with whatever you want us to do now. If you... don't wanna mention it again... or if you need time... whatever you need really".

This answer somehow managed to calm the younger girl down and make her nervous at the same time. Did this also mean her unnie would be okay with her crush? Or did she just mean this as a good friend's advice? Could they do it again? So many questions were flooding her mind and she didn't realize she had been looking deeply into Yeji's eyes while biting her lip.

Of course the latter wasn't stupid and had picked up on it, but she didn't wanna push something Yuna might not be ready for. However her heart began pounding like crazy with the younger's eyes fixed on her own and only now did she take the time to really study her eyes, take in all the different shades of deep and warm brown in them, how perfectly long her lashes were, how perfect her skin was even without makeup. Without realizing it she had held her breath and was embarrassed as she started breathing again.

Yuna also slowly picked up on all the signs Yeji's body language was sending and decided to lean forward a little. Not enough for their lips to touch, but definitely enough to make her intentions clear. This was all it took for Yeji to finally give in to her urges and she connected their lips. This time it was a bit slower, more confident as both of them were more sure about the other girl wanting it as well. The kiss only lasted a few seconds but felt like the world to both of them and it didn't take long for them to kiss again.

Their kisses got more intimate with time, both of them putting all their feeling that had been supressed for month into them. Without either of them thinking about it, their bodies moved closer together until Yuna was seated completely in Yeji's lap, arms wrapped tightly around each other and their cores only a few inches from each other. Both of them were beyond turned on and eventually when they pulled away to get some air, Yeji softly asked "Wanna go to my room?". She got her answer with a small nod but then Yuna asked "What about the others?".

The leader chuckled a little and said "Be quiet and listen". Yuna did as she was told and soon heard the familiar snores of Ryujin coming from her room. They got up and Yuna peeked through the door just to see both of her unnies deep asleep. Quickly she turned of the light and quietly closed the door before joining Yeji. The older girl had already gone to her room and was seated on the bed, changed into her pink pyjamas, a set of light purple ones laid out for Yuna already. The latter quickly took them and hurried to the bathroom to get changed before joining her unnie again.

Without a word they lay down, cuddling under the blanket with a few kisses exchanged between them. Slowly they got more heated again, both of them laying on their sides and hands slowly travelling over each other's sides, sometimes grabbing a bit of ass but mostly staying harmless. That is until Yeji pulled Yuna's hips closer and her thigh brushed against her core. With this unexpected friction the younger one couldn't help but moan into the kiss a little.

Immediately she pulled away, completely embarrassed but Yeji stroked her cheek lovingly and whispered "let me hear you. You sound so hot". She gently took Yuna's wrist with her free hand, making sure it was obvious she could always pull away, and guided the younger girl's hand to the small wet patch on her pyjamas. When Yuna felt this her eyes went wide as she realized just what they were doing and that Yeji actually felt the same or at least found her hot.

This boosted her confidence for a moment before she remembered that she knew nothing about how to please herself, let alone someone else. Almost inaudibly she mumbled "I really wanna but... I don't know how". Hearing this made her unnie's heart melt before gently pecking her lips and mumbling "You want me to teach you?". Instead of answering Yuna just gave a small nod.

Yeji then leaned over to her bedside table and opened a drawer, getting out a soft pink vibrator. She then began kissing a line down Yuna's jawline and put the toy to the side for now. Her hands made their way to the buttons of Yuna's pyjamas but the younger girl gave her a quick shake of the head. This made Yeji remember how fast they were moving and she said "We really don't have to, okay? Only if you're really comfortable and ready."

To the maknae it meant so much that Yeji made sure she was fine and she gave her a small nod before shyly answering "I want to... I'm just... insecure about you seeing me. Sorry unnnie". Yeji immediately shook her head and said "nothing to be sorry about. I can still show you without you needing to take anything off. Just touching if you're fine with it, no looking". The younger gave a small nod and smile as she leaned forward for another kiss.

The older then took the toy again and took a deep breath before slowly pushing her hand with it into Yuna's pyjamas. Yuna didn't stop her and buried her face in the other's shoulder as Yeji began circling her clit with the still turned off vibrator. Small moans escaped her mouth and soon the toy was turned on, leaving her mouth gaping as her hips bucked into it. The feeling was incredibly intense to her because it was so new and seeing her reaction made the other girl smirk as she kept going like this for a bit. Soon her hips were moving against the toy and the two of them found a steady rhythm that sent Yuna to cloud nine, eyes closed and not a care for the sounds she released into her unnie's shoulder.

The latter soon began humping the maknae's thigh and let out soft moans, too. Eventually she turned the toy up a little and moved it away from her clit, spreading her juices before pushing it into her and started rubbing the other's clit with her fingers. Yuna felt herself get clsoer and closer, overwhelmed by all the new feelings and the feeling of Yeji getting off on her thigh. Not long after the toy was pushed inside however her body did something it had never done before and she panicked, saying "stop Unnie. I need to... bathroom".

Yeji quickly turned the toy off, but after hearing the reason for Yuna's concern she said "trust me Yuna. You don't. Just let go I promise it's not what you think". She then turned the toy back on and the younger girl decided to trust her unnie, even if it was hard to relax again. But soon she managed and the feeling came back, growing more and more intense before she was pushed right over the edge and let out a a louder moan, trying to stiffle it by softly biting Yeji's neck. This sensation combined with riding the other's thigh made her come as well and they both lay entangled with each other, Yeji making sure they both rode it out before pulling the vibrator out and stop grinding.

Hoping it would look sexy she brought the toy to her mouth and licked up it's whole length, cleaning off Yuna's juices. She let out a small moan at the taste and hoping it would be just as hot, Yuna grabbed Yeji's hand and began licking her own juices off her unnie's fingers. After they both finished, they kissed again. It was different now, more daring, more passionate as the both let their hands wander beneath the other's shirt and squeezed their tits, flicking the nipples and moaning into the kisses. They went on like this for some time before ending it with a more gentle kiss turned off the lights.

Still entangled they cuddled, not caring about getting clean right now but only wanting to be with each other. The new darkness gave Yuna a new wave of confidence as she shyly asked "Would you like being my girlfriend, unnie?". At this the older only chuckled a little before pecking her lips again and softly saying "Of course! I would love to"

#Yuna #Shin yuna #Yeji #Hwang Yeji #smut #yuna x yeji #itzy

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silviawrites · 2 years

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Writing characters properly

Characters are obviously a very important part of our writing. They're what the story centers around (other than the plot) and play a very big role in a lot of the books and other writing we read.

A lot of the characters, however, are not written properly. And I especially mean the characters that are way too perfect. The kind, gentle, energetic and optimistic character who can do no wrong. They. Are. Annoying. Or maybe the MC is depicted to be the good guy, but he's completely selfish and condescending.

So how exactly do we make a character, unlike the ones we hate? Easy. Write characters properly. That's easier said than done though.

Let's see how we write them!

Give them good and bad characteristics

Personally, I like to give three good characteristics and three bad characteristics to my characters. For example, let's say we take a character, "Mara". Mara's good characteristics could be she's assertive, hard-working and brave. But her flaws could be she's impatient, sensitive and can't handle it properly when she doesn't get what she wants.

This here is a flawed character. She isn't 100% good, but she isn't 100% bad. She's somewhere in between, describing real-life people in real life. Of course, you don't have to do this exactly, writing is different for every person. Just do what's comfortable for you!

2. Character development

While it isn't that bad if a character remains stagnant/flat throughout the writing, it is very satisfying to see a character begin to develop and mature throughout whatever you're writing. Maybe a character is completely selfish and condescending in the beginning but as the story progresses, they begin to become a better person. Of course, don't remove all the flaws at the end of the story, but it would definitely be enjoyable to read about a character who slowly begins to change and mature.

3. Make them struggle

Struggles, struggles, struggles, struggles. We all go through them in our life and is completely normal to be challenged as our life goes on.

So imagine how annoying it is to see this perfect character just get everything they want in life. They want to get an A for an exam they didn't study for? They got it! They want to defeat an evil, powerful queen in about one day without struggles? They got it! They want to be the richest person in the world overnight without doing anything? They got it! You get the point.

Using struggles to make your character's journey harder is one great way to make the reader sympathize for your character and it makes the reader root for the character as well. This character has worked so damn hard for this, so do you know how depressing it would be if they didn't get it? That is what readers want. Characters who struggle to get what they want because it shows how much the reader wants it, it can make the reader sympathize with the character and can make the character relatable.

Sorry, I hope this wasn't too long! Feel free to add some more ways to properly write characters, whatever I've written definitely isn't all of them!

#writing #writer #writersadvice #writingadvice #writeradvice #characters #characterwriting #creativewriting

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kdramacrybaby · 1 year

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Alchemy of Souls (2022)

Season 1 + Season 2

Genre: Fantasy, Romance, Historical

Synopsis: When infamous assassin Naksu finds herself cornered by enemies, she performs a forbidden spell called the Alchemy of Souls to switch her soul into a different body. Her soul ends up in the body of a blind beggar with no powers, so suddenly Naksu has to survive without her strong magic. She meets Jang Uk, a young mage who wants nothing more than to learn spells, but with his energy channels blocked, he is unable to do so. They strike a deal - she teaches him all she knows, and he will help protect her. Their lives are now forever entwined, and their actions will have great consequences for the world as they know it.

Episode info: Season 1: 20 ep. | Season 2: 10 ep. / Runtime around 65 minutes

Lead cast: Lee Jae-wook (Jang Uk), Jung So-min/ Go Young-jung (Naksu),Hwang Min-hyun (Seo Yul), Yoo In-soo (Park Dang-gu), Arin (Jin Cho-yeon)

Link to watch: You can watch on Netflix or Dramacool

Drama rec masterlist | Drama rant thread (beware of spoilers)

I want to start with the good things for this drama, because despite what I might complain about later, I actually loved this drama!

The world they build - the lore, the magic-system, the locations - is fantastic. Absolutely magical and I would gladly accept any other seasons, spin-offs or whatever else they would give me in this world (not gonna happen, but I can at least dream). I do wish we actually saw a bit more of the magic happening, but I do also understand that special effects aren't cheap, and they used a lot in this drama.

Mostly, the special effects were absolutely gorgeous, though whenever there was heavy use of a green screen it became a lot more... idk, obvious? Didn't really ruin it that much for me, but there were some scenes that ended up looking somewhat goofy because it was so obviously green screened. Everything else, however - perfection.

I adore the characters in this drama - some were better developed story-wise than others, but in the end, I really did care about them. Season 1 did the best at this, where season two kind of lost its focus at some points, so I felt less connected to the characters in the end. (And I'm very sad about it). There were some character decisions I didn't really agree with later in the story, but I can't touch on that without spoiling, so you'll have to read my rant posts linked somewhere above if you're curious.

Now for what bugged me about the drama - the overall story / writing. They created this world with so much potential, and instead chose to spend most of the time on different types of love stories. So much of - this person likes this person, but that person likes another person, only that person likes... and so on. It was exhausting, and it felt like the involved characters never actually moved on or dealt with these feelings in any way. Someone pines for a person in season 1, still pines in season 2 and then never get a satisfying resolution. So even with all that focus, they still didn't get it right.

They never did actually specify that all of these people had romantic feelings for each other, so in theory they could be just platonic, but there were definitely romantic undertones that I really could have just done without - they brought absolutely nothing to the story.

The story was overall better in season 1, as they made some decisions in season 2 (especially later in the season) I really do not understand or like. I feel like they had so many opportunities to create this huge fantastical drama, but they tried to do so many things at once, that none of the things were actually good in the end.

Also, the main couple was never actually my favorite couple, and already there the drama is doing something wrong, I feel like. The vibes were just not there for me - the actors were amazing, and the chemistry good, but the writing and the story just didn't do it for me. (They were cute, don't get me wrong, I just didn't cheer as much for them as for some of the other background couples).

I guess what I'm just mainly trying to say, is that I feel like this could have been my favorite drama of all time... if they had just actually created a better story in this world.

The very first episode is dark and intense, and I was so hooked, and then the tone just switches completely to light and humor - and while I don't really mind after watching it as a whole, I feel like they didn't really nail the balance. They wanted to be both dark and light so bad that they just overdid both.

All that said though, I have given the drama a high score, cause even with all these things bothering me, I had a blast watching it - and the score is mainly for the world building and the characters.

If you like fantasy dramas, you will definitely like this one!

#alchemy of souls #alchemy of souls: light and shadow #kdrama #kdrama review #kdrama rec

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dizzydizney · 2 years

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I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again. I am not ignorant to the problems this franchise has. I can hate the bad parts while still loving the good parts. I can say “this isn’t right” and “here’s how it could’ve been better” at the same time. I can love Uma and Mal, honestly. I’m a grown fucking woman, I contain multitudes :P

I know this series has a horrible double standard when it comes to race. Colorblind casting, female driven stories - great! Casting nearly every antagonist as a black girl, obviously not great. They really didn’t think about the optics of what they were doing and it came off in a terrible way.

I wish Uma and Audrey were treated better. And believe it or not, I have lots of problems with the way Mal was written. The movies kind of fell apart and failed to deliver on a satisfying story over all. Each movie has its high points, and they obviously all have their low points too. I mostly wish the movies were written with a lot more (read: ANY) thought and care. That any character felt like they had a satisfying arc in the end. But, that’s something we’ll never get!

You wouldn’t know it these days but fandom is not politics. Liking a “bad” character does not make you a bad person. Liking a movie or a show with shitty writing doesn’t make you a shitty person. You can say “Yes I recognize the issues with [character/movie/show] but I still choose to engage with it bcoz...” whatever! It has bad writing but you like the songs, the characters, one particular relationship, etc.

Liking something with faults doesn’t magically make you ignorant to said thing’s faults!!

If you get an inkling of things like, in this case, the racist optics and double standards, pay attention to that! You need to be able to spot these things. Bcoz there is absolutely no such thing as pure, perfect, unproblematic media. Any and everything you can consume has SOME issue with it. Just be smart, listen to what people (especially POC, especially here) say about it. You can learn, be aware, be critical, be smart, consume, enjoy, have fun, praise the good parts, scorn the bad parts. You can do it all at once!

And I mean it’s easy to see the issues in Descendants. And it’s also easy to not want to engage in the constant negativity surrounding it. Especially in this case, and I’m sorry, when a lot of the times the argument seems to just be “If you like this character then you’re racist” end of story. It’s not accurate, and it doesn’t paint a good picture of the whole fandom when there’s no room for nuance.

Yet again the only reason I started the whole “poor little meow meow Mal did nothing wrong” in the first place is bcoz I was fed up of all the negative takes on her. Calling her a killer ?? pretending that she’d done all sorts of evil and fucked up stuff like it was canon when there was NO evidence to suggest it. And I’m tired of that. Sure the story was unfair and she got off easy, but people are basically just writing fanfic about all her made up misdeeds so they can have MORE reasons to hate her and MORE reasons to get angry at this fictional little Disney child that doesn’t really exist! CHILL

And I’m sorry but choosing ONLY to focus your anger on Mal and saying it’s because of double standards in the story, and then turning around and excusing other characters for the same shit that Mal does... That’s funny.

Anyway long story short to answer your question Nonny. I don’t think H is singling me out but I’m sure I’m lumped in there with everyone else. Like it’s not even funny anymore. But nothing anyone says is going to change anyone’s minds so. Everyone feels how they feel and we’re all just screaming into the blue void of tumblr

#descendants #disney descendants #mal #mal bertha #mal descendants #dizzy speaks #qna #anonymous #i screenshot this bcoz i dont want anyone finding it when they look up H haha #also obviously but no shade to H #she seems like a cool person and is obviously a great content creator #its just the fandom in general

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lovesforever · 2 years

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AOT and their college majors

one day i will write a college au series, but today is not that day. so here’s the prep for it.

Eren: Political Science (Minor in Criminal Justice maybe?)

when they have to do a practice debate, he wears this light gray suit and his hair is up in a bun

and for someone who barely puts any effort into his work, he dominates the room

when he and annie take the same classes, they’re always going head-to-head

those will be the only classes he puts all his effort into

Armin: Marine Biology Or English

okay so i feel like marine biology is just a given. he loves traveling and exploring and all things aquatic animals

he would probably intern at a aquarium and wear the khaki get up

can tell every single fact about a specific species like that one guy on tiktok

BUT ENGLISH ARMIN maybe it’s because i’ve considered english but

he would go for his doctorate to become a professor

writes some top tier essays bruh and loves classic books

ARMIN IN GLASSES THE CIRCLE ONES AND HE WEARS LIGHT ACADEMIA AESTHETIC CLOTHES

Mikasa: Sociology, minor in Child and Family studies

she’s the sweetest

idk i just see her wanting to do social work to take care of people especially children in systems or such

takes classes very seriously and tends to overexert herself

prefers to study in her dorm, mostly with armin (sorry eren but he never gets any work done)

Jean: Finance OR Nursing

i’ve considered finance simply because he would mansplain everything whenever he got the chance

oh you don’t know what crypto is? don’t worry your little pea-brain, honey. i got you.

but i do see him majoring in nursing because male nurses get it on

not really tho. he tries to pick up the girls in his classes but they’re obviously too caught up in studying and working towards their own goals

JEAN IN SCRUBS

definitely vomits on the first day of clinicals

Connie: Architecture

tbh i don’t know but i could see him with some blue prints

i actually don’t know much about architecture i just think he would work very hard and do very well

pencil behind the ear kind of thing

is always sketching and getting tips and ideas from jean

has a pinterest board

Sasha: Agriculture conc. Animal Medicine

you thought food science? too obvious

i could see sasha wanting to be a vet

she grew up on a farm back in her small town, waking up at the crack of dawn everyday to feed the animals

would make her family very proud, which she craves

sasha in a white coat and scrubs! hair up in a ponytail!

people tend to doubt her work ethic but i don’t think she gets enough credit for how much effort she puts in. yea she doesn’t really make the best grades in her classes but she gets praised by teachers a lot for how much she obviously cares

wants to open a clinic in her town one day :”)

Historia: Pre-law

i think she would be absolutely badass

she met eren in one of their shared classes and offers to help him out alot

he denied at first but after the first test he desperately needed help

will definitely become crazy good and top in the class and whatnot. she slaughters in the courtrooms and practices.

lives in one of those “day in my life” videos where she wakes up at 5AM, eats breakfast, meditates, stretches, studies, goes to classes, studies again, works out, and lives that aesthetic life

i’m jealous but whatever

Ymir: Barber school

usually can be found cutting connie and jean’s hair

she doesn’t go to the university but can always be found in historia’s classes and eating in the cafeteria

when men deny her service for “being a woman” she proves them wrong with her sick ass instagram page

honestly she could do some tattoos too, maybe on the side tho…. might not end up too well though

Marco: English or Piano

OK IM TORN BC HE PROB HAS THE PRETTIEST PIANO HANDS

would def be a great pianist with great musicality omg

writes music about his friends </3

but english because literature

he always has like 3 books in his bag and loves to edit people’s papers

would probably become a writer or editor for a big company

maybe even journalism??? hmmm

Reiner: Mechanical Engineering

he’s one of those STEM fuckers

i don’t know much about engineering i just know that it’s hard and it’s math and i hate that

can be seen running around campus to get to class, biting off more than he can chew his freshman year

always has bags under his eyes poor baby

doesn’t wear a booksack. absolutely raw dogs it everyday and just carrie’s his shit

athletic clothing everyday. never anything different. at a party? joggers. a fancy dinner with friends? nike sweatshirt.

Bertholdt: Computer Science

once again it’s hard and has math and idc for it but HE WOULD

loves everything about it, is very passionate, would explain coding if anyone ever asked

can be found carrying his stuff in a canvas tote, with a button up shirt and some flattened trousers

he wears them men shoes. the fancy ones. y’all know the ones. maybe not but figure it out

builds PCs with ease. has every step memorized and if you ever have any questions he will be the best person to go to

Annie: Criminal Justice minor in Applied Forensics

she would probably become a private detective or something along those lines

does really well in her forensics classes which is like ?? damn bae u good

when classes show dead bodies she doesn’t even flinch no matter how gruesome

gets a job offer immediately out of college, which can be strange for a criminal justice major. she ends up working in a forensic lab and on scenes.

im jealous of u bae

#aot fics #aot #shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #aot college au #aot college majors #armin arlet #eren yaeger #jean kirschtein #connie springer #mikasa ackerman #sasha braus #ymir snk #historia reiss #reiner braun #snk bertholdt #annie leonhart

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Part 2

Okay so Medea doesn't hate Psyche anymore, and she wants to support Psyche and do better by her.

Medea is so obviously gentle when dealing with Psyche compared to literally everyone else. That doesn't mean she would let Psyche get away with whatever she wants. Medea still confronts her

Uh...whoops. This doesn't seem very gentle.

But really, compared to how Medea talked to Pell and everyone else, she's gentle with Psyche. Medea can be straightforward with Psyche but she would find one way or another to soften her words. It could be a caress of Psyche's hair, or a change in wording, or a touch on her hand, whatever, Medea tries not to bring Psyche unnecessary pain.

Which brings me back to my original point:

Psyche would've been sad about Medea fucking Eros, but she wouldn't fault Medea for anything. She knows how Eros is.

If Medea had directly spoken about that Psyche would've just smiled sadly, teared up a little and went: "It's alright. You couldn't have refused even though you wanted to. He was always like that."

And Medea would have to exert a lot of effort not to throw a table or just go ahead and stab Eros repeatedly with a knife. 'Cuz that's just how much she hates seeing Psyche helpless.

Maybe this ain't canon or whatever, but it was made by the author to show the personality of her characters and well...Medea apparently hates it when Psyche is being messed with. She even hated it when she did it herself.

That is not the face of someone who wants to harm Psyche.

Anyways, Psyche already expected that Eros and Medea would've eventually banged.

Eros probably gets bored and horny when he's not out killing people, and hey, would you look at that! A pretty doll that I own and can fuck is right there!

If Medea in Psyche's body had refused Eros, Eros would've went: "Do you not love me anymore, Psyche? You don't want to touch your lover anymore? Are you having second thoughts about me? The basement..."

OKAY. FOOK OFF EROS YOU FUKIN MANIPULATOR. I made myself angry.

Anyways, Medea would've still ended up in bed with Eros. Psyche knows that.

Hell, I bet their first time happened something like dis:

Psyche: (as Eros puts his disgusting fekin hands on her body) What are you doing?

Eros: What lovers do. Don't refuse me, Psyche, you love me right?

Psyche: (young, slightly scared, and confused, thinking her savior does no wrong) O-okay. I love you.

Eros: (goes ahead and just do whatever the fuck he wants)

👊( 　-᷅_-᷄)==👊)`-') Gawd I hate him so much.

UGH. ANYWAYS,

Medea was just doing what Psyche would've done. She was just trying to survive.

And although the idea Medea also did that to spite Psyche could be in character for Medea, the fact that Medea was also pissed with Eros for playing with her destroys that idea.

Medea isn't the type to deal 1k damage to the enemy but suffer 800, especially when she couldn't rub it in her enemy's face.

To do it for spite, would've meant Medea was planning to expose herself like: "Sht, Eros ur so stupid. You didn't even notice it was me in Psyche's body, even when we fukked u didn't notice. haha. U fukin moron."

No way Medea would do that though. Eros and Medea are the same in that they like to keep their cards close. Pretty good writing for characters considered as smart strategists.

Alright, so that's my take for reason no.1 why people hate that fekin panel.

Medea had "consent" from Psyche. Consent "wasn't" an issue with Psyche, cuz she didn't have a choice from the start anyways.

Why is consent in quotations? Because even though Psyche expects them to fuck and even if she wouldn't resent Medea when they did, Psyche did not verbally consent to it. Even if they had a mutual understanding, that's not consent, just acceptance. But the thing is Psyche has allowed Medea to do whatever as long as it was for her survival, and vice-versa. If body autonomy was the issue then it's just the same as Medea not getting mad at Psyche for breaking her legs, or when Psyche and Heli pretended to make out at the birthday banquet to escape capture (which led to a city wide rumor that affected Medea's reputation which was important to her). Medea didn't chide Psyche for any that because Psyche had no choice, it was her only way to survive.

Why is wasn't in quotations? At that time, Psyche didn't exactly think much for herself, it was mostly her submitting to Eros' whims, so she didn't think there was an option of saying no to Eros for anything. "Wasn't" because Psyche didn't know wtf consent was.

If anything, Psyche might've even felt bad that Medea had to sleep with Eros. At least later on when Psyche finally understood Eros didn't care for her.

And Medea would've been pissed if she found out Psyche thought like that. 'Cuz Eros was the one at fault, okay, okay?

It was actually pretty jarring when I found out people were saying Medea's character development went to sht,she was unreedemable, cuz of that disgusting scene, and that they pitied Psyche cuz her best friend was fukin toxic and she had no real allies.

Oh, just don't get me wrong Medea is toxic. She's pretty toxic but not for that reason, and not to Psyche.

Like, ugh, I was trying real hard not to put the dam pic but urgh, just to make it clear.

Those scratches on Eros? Not the sexy kind. Those are definitely barely disguised 'I-want-to-hurt-you' scratches.

Many say this whole Medea-in-Psyche's-body-fuckin-Eros part is unnecessary and just fanservice/kink fulfillmemt or some dumb sht. I disagree.

Do I hate this panel? Yes. Do I wish I never saw it? Yes. Did I feel the strong urge to drop Your Throne because of this? Yes.

The whole point of that scene was to drive into the readers' heads that Eros is a fukin villain.

I don't know how y'all saw that pic and went "Oh sht Medea, how could you?! You betrayed Psyche!" when y'all should've went "Eros get your disgusting hands off Psyche!"

I mean Eros literally tried to have Psyche tortured and killed, but then goes ahead and beds Psyche AND the first thing y'all attack is Medea and her morality.

When I saw the spoilers first I thought it happened either the night before the assassination attempt or after. And my friend and I thought it was gross of Eros to want to fuck someone he essentially considered dead, or just tried to kill.

The fact that many people thought Eros and Psyche has never fucked before means that scene was very much needed. A man who is willing to manipulate and kill an innocent girl and countless others simply because he can is capable of taking advantage of a girl's love and just doing as he pleases.

All the media or manwha y'all consumed about those "cold blooded killers/villains" but actually innocent and inexperienced were all lies or just portraying the absolute minority of villains.

Villainy or being "evil" is not just about killing or physical torturing. Honestly, the worst villains are the ones that prey on the weak and the innocent.

Eros is a well written villain. His actions actually show that he is ruthless, intelligent, manipulative, narcisstic, and selfish.

It's also why I find it weird that y'all think him simping for Medea is out of character.

Just because the word Medea used to describe Eros' feelings for her was "love" doesn't mean she actually meant the love most people think of. Eros is not simping for Medea, he is keeping others from touching what he deems as his. He would like it if Medea was by his side, but he also wouldn't mind getting rid of her if she becomes a threat.

Eros only serves himself, everyone else is collateral. (I'd argue he actually has some kind of feelings for Psyche but I digress, I don't want to talk about him)

Right so reason no.2.

Medea disrespected Psyche by fukin Eros. Nahhh. That's not completely right.

I really really really feel bad that Eros being an S-grade asshole manipulator keeps going over everyone's head.

Oh, Medea could've said no, she could've made excuses if she didn't want to have sex with Eros...bro. THAT'S THE FUKIN POINT.

That whole scene was to cement and solidify, to shove in all our fuckin faces that there was nothing else she could do!

Yo when Psyche tried to reason with Eros cuz she didn't want to distance herself from Medea, Eros immediately pulled the basement and the lover card. And people think he wouldn't stoop lower???? That wouldn't make him a very 3D character. I would've laughed at him, would've gotten bored of Your Throne pretty easily. Thankfully, SAM wrote well and drew.

The colors, and expression, Medea does not look happy at all. SAM does not make those panels look happy at all or even sexy or something. It's dreary. It makes it look like a chore or something being done just for the sake of doing it.

Saw spoilers for the translation and it said something about Eros asking why Medea wasn't saying "I love you" while they were doing it,and Medea answered something along the lines of "Because you already know."

And fukin hell people! THAT WAS MEDEA BEING RESPECTFUL OF PSYCHE'S FEELINGS.

Sure it was partly because she disliked Eros,but if she was having sex with Eros because that was what Psyche would've done then she should've acted like Psyche all the way. But she didn't. She could've said I love you after Eros pointed it out so he wouldn't be suspicious, but she didn't.

That was the one thing Medea could choose to do in that situation and she did it.

Medea was in Psyche's body but she was not Psyche, and even though she can act like Psyche perfectly at any times, she chose not to during sex with Eros. It seems like a minor detail but coupled with the illustration that Medea is on top instead of bottom, something that probably didn't happen normally with the real Psyche, meant Medea had no plans of doing sexual things with Eros the way Psyche did.

'Cuz Medea knows Psyche thinks of sex as an intimate deed. Things in the bedroom was an act of love for Psyche, but Medea has no love for Eros and it's why she couldn't impersonate that part of Psyche.

If Medea did it Psyche's way then she really would be cheating Psyche, that would be Medea disrespecting Psyche's beliefs.

Like can y'all get that?

It's a bit weird- no, it feels like an incredible reach, but acts of kindness and respect for Medea's character is all about doing what isn't logical or reasonable or the most efficient action.

Medea has always, always, always done what was needed to gain the most benefits and have the least losses. Before she met Psyche, she never risked a loss that could be avoided. That's why her go to when she had enemies, was murder. If they're dead then there was no need to worry about them coming back and retaliating.

But after meeting Psyche, she allowed herself to take a risk, first by not killing Psyche when she had the chance. Then the more obvious scenes, like going with Pel to help with children, not killing the spy, not murdering her easily swayed servants, etc. (I consider Medea not throwing and destroying things as character developmemt also influenced by Psyche but we don't have to talk about that)

So hmm yeh. No.2 isn't true.

Medea has always respected Psyche, the only time that respect faltered was when she murdered Psyche's knight...then again I would also argue that Medea showed her own twisted form of respect by personally killing Psyche's favorite knight when she could just order Helio to do it.

Anyways dam this and dam it all. I haven't slept for nearly 30hrs now so Imma just stop here.

Main takeaway is Psyche and Medea's relationship is close and strong enough that they'd get through ep.122 flashback without much resentment, cuz they trust each other and both believe the other would never intentionally harm them.

At a certain point of maturity or at a certain point of a relationship, saying everything becomes unnecessary.

Open and outright communication is good and all (I encourage most people to do that 'cuz majority of people have trust issues and need the clear assurance) BUT it isn't for everyone. There are people who prefer not talking about issues directly instead they show that they've changed or show their understanding. Or delay the date they talk about it.

Medea and Psyche will probably talk about it someday, maybe when they're both safe and Eros is dead. Medea will genuinely apologize and she will be solemn about it. Psyche will accept it then laugh and say "I already knew about it.". It won't make Medea happy so Psyche will joke about asking Medea for compensation for it, and Medea will promise her anything. (this is not me romantically shipping them, this is me trying to put how comfortable Psydea are in their friendship into words.)

Medea likes clarifying things but when it comes to Psyche she tries to show some emotional tact.

When your friend is breaking down cuz someone is trying to kill them and nobody wants to listen or help them, would you go and say "btw I fucked ur bf" knowing that would worsen their condition? No you won't. You shouldn't. If you're a good friend you would do your absolute best to de-escalate, you'd wait for a better time to tell them but you would hint at it.

Not everything is black and white, it's not always all or nothing. Handling people's emotions and mental stability are some of those aspects that are a grey area.

You can do that if the other person is relatively mentally and emotionally stable. Like if it was the other way around and Psyche had to tell Medea she fucked Helio while in her body.

Medea can handle that kind of news, she would want to know about that immediately so she can arrange her cards right.

Psyche does not want to know. That's the difference between them.

I am still annoyed with that panel tho. It pisses me off to no end that Eros saw and touched someone as nice and pretty as Psyche. Ffs Psyche is 19 right now in the story which meant she was 16 when Eros became her lover. 19yr old Eros fukin played a clueless 16yr old. How fukin lower can you get?!

Also sheesh. Medea would not resort to rape/manipulating others for sex. She doesn't really get anything from sex. Her FUBU relationship with Helio was framed like a business transaction. They had an agreement. I bet she made it clear to Helio that their relationship wasn't going anywhere, Helio probs entered their FUBU agreement thinking Medea would change her mind. That's on him and his ego.

So why in the fuk would she intentionally spite Psyche in that manner? Medea loves Psyche like she really does.

The way she comforts Psyche, encourages her, tries not to push Psyche too much when it comes to her trauma and stuff...yeah. Medea loves Psyche.

And vice-versa.

Psyche used to be the kind of character that would choose the world over their beloved, but that changed.

Now both these women would choose each other over the world. Although Medea is trying hard to at least consider the world as an option.

They'll probably be single by the end of the webtoon (or dead. I hate myself for saying that but I gotta look at the facts. As much as I want a happy ending for the two, it seems unlikely).

Psydea will stay strong tho. If YT has a happy ending, even if it's not explicitly stated Psydea (romantic) will be endgame. A bad ending probably means a dead Medea (I am mad at myself for that conclusion but ugh).

Hmm that's all. I am open to questions and violent reactions just shoot. A bow, gun, canon, whatever

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