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lookingforcactus · 3 months
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Went to a big quilting convention today and am feeling inspired so here's todays edition of
What the fuck do you mean that's a quilt??
Most people have no idea about how much craft goes into quilting or how much quilting as a craft, art, and even a science has been evolving in recent years. So here's my personal appreciation post
And btw the flat images do NOT even do these quilts justice, especially in terms of the absolutely amazing and detailed texture embroidery that a lot of quilters are using these days. Up close the texture and the sheer detail of many of them is just stunning
These are all from the Road to California quilt show 2023
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1st Place: Portrait
Title: Sharing the Moment Maker: Hollis Chatelain Quilter: Hollis Chatelain Design Basis: Maker's Original Design African-American women are a powerful force in motivating their families and communities to vote. I wanted to create a piece about this and highlight the fact that African-American women did not receive the right to vote in all 50 states until 1965 when the Voting Rights Act was passed. I met Phyllis at a rally. I was drawn to her and asked if she would be my model. Without hesitation she said yes. She later brought her friend Loretta with her.
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1st Place: Naturescape
Title: Augustinii Maker: Andrea Brokenshire Quilter: Andrea Brokenshire Design Basis: Maker's Original Design “Augustinii” is a blue/purple variety of rhododendron my momma planted within her forest garden. I was lucky to be home on when it was in bloom. When I see this quilt, I am reminded of my momma and how she loves to tend her garden and “grub in the dirt.”
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1st Place: Pictorial
Title: Leap of Faith Maker: Kestrel Michaud Quilter: Kestrel Michaud Design Basis: Original design In this Steampunk fantasy world, men and women have taken to the skies on ships held aloft by hot air, ingenuity, and luck. Faith’s favorite past-time is bungee-jumping off the side of her airship, with Bubo, her pet clockwork owl. This quilt depicts the photo Faith took on her latest jump to test her brand-new camera and selfie stick.
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2nd Place: Naturescape
Title: Homage to Birches Bare Maker: Jessica Noble Quilter: Jessica Noble Design Basis: Fabric recreation of Kesler Woodward's Birches Bare, acrylic on I fell in love with Kesler Woodward’s Birches Bare painting and knew I had to create it in fabric. I cut about 1,700 pattern pieces out of freezer paper and then fused fabric, through the fall of 2019 until the pandemic started. During this time, I homeschooled my two children and the quilt sat in quarantine. I quilted this freehand on my midarm in the winter of 2021. I managed to take the majority of the summer of 2022 on the binding.
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2nd Place: Pictorial
Title: Toroweap Overlook Maker: Sandra Mollon Quilter: Sandra Mollon Design Basis: Derived from a photo Toroweap Overlook, in the Grand Canyon National Park, is an incredible view of the Colorado River. When John Slot sent me the photo to consider for an art quilt, I realized the complexity of the amount of the pieces it would require, but knew I had to do it. Raw edge fused, machine quilted, small amounts of media.
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3rd Place: Pictorial
Title: Catch it Yuri! Maker: Hiroko Miyama and Masanobu Miyama Quilter: Hiroko Miyama Design Basis: Maker's Original Design Inspired by dogs’ action. Yuri, golden retriever big jumped to catch a ball and Ponta, mix hardly waited his turn. Dogs and girl were fused appliquéd.
Seriously can you believe these are all quilts!!! incredible amazing showstopping spectacular
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futbol16 · 1 year
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No Marshmallows • Barcelona Femení
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The requested alternative ending to Hot Chocolate. Hope you guys like it!
Ps. it has the same beginning, just to clear any confusion
Part 1 Hot Chocolate
Part 2 (sad) Our Sister
Word count: 1,6k
When the bus finally parks near the hospital suddenly the team is filled with dread. The air is tense and no one dares to move a muscle until Jonatan stands up. 
It’s not a pretty sight as the whole Barca team clambers into the hospital’s waiting room and Alexia follows their coach to the receptionist. The lady barely looks up at them and she recognizes them, though it wasn’t too difficult as she recognizes the same crest on their shirt that sat over your heart.  
“You will have to wait a bit sir, she’s just recently been taken into the OR. Have a seat until then and I’ll call you as soon as I can” she kindly smiles at the two then the team as well but only a select few are able to muster up a smile to reciprocate the politeness. 
Half an hour later the team is restless. Ana’s leg bounces up and down as she impatiently waits while Sandra has basically chewed her fingers raw in her anxious state. The waiting room is silent as the team barely exchange words with each other, only looking up from the tiled floor when they hear a nurse walk down the corridor, hoping they are there to deliver good news about your well being.
Mapi suddenly stands, a hand over her stomach and Alexia’s eyes follow her before her legs do.
“Where are you going?” she whispers from next to the defender.
“I can’t do this, I feel like I’m going to throw up.” 
“Let’s go, we’ll wash this off while we wait” the brunette takes in the pale look of her best friend before her eyes drift to the smeared blood on her hands and she grabs ahold of her wrist to direct her to the restroom. 
Mapi doesn’t wait a second as she furiously starts rubbing the red off her skin, angry tears reappearing as she washes her hands. Alexia doesn’t know what to do as she watches on, desperately trying to hold back her own tears from falling. Eventually she lays a gentle hand on her back and Mapi turns to her with a start. 
“I don’t want her to go, I don’t want her to leave us.” the rushed whisper sounds like loud screams to Alexia as she inhales deeply and pulls Mapi into her embrace.
“Me either, but she’ll be okay. She won’t leave us.” the two stand in each other's warm embrace for a few more seconds until a quiet knock echoes through the small bathroom. Ana and Ingrid poke their heads in.
“The nurse is here, they have news on Y/N” instantly the pair spring apart and the four of them rush back to where a nurse is standing with the rest of their teammates. The flash of hope they felt dims as they notice the solemn expression the woman is wearing. 
“Did she-” Mapi doesn’t dare to finish her question fearing that if she would she’d be right. The nurse takes a deep breath and the whole team feels like their world is about to go crashing down. That is until they notice the small uptick of the nurse’s lips.
“No, Y/N is in a stable condition right now-” she’s cut off as the girls erupt in loud cheers, Patri and Sandra jumping up and down next to each other while Alexia and Mapi hold onto the other as they feel relief wash over them. The nurse doesn’t mind though as she takes in their joyous shouts and chuckles at their behavior. 
The team was only lucky they were the only ones in the waiting room at this hour of the night.
“Sorry, sorry. Continue please” they eagerly nod along to Marta’s words and the nurse once again offers them a small polite smile.
“Her collision caused severe bruising and loss of consciousness, however, fortunately she did not suffer a brain bleed. We’ll have to keep her in for the next few days but after that she’ll be up and running before you know it.” she gives the room number to your teammates while Irene and Marta stay back to listen to the nurse’s advice on how to treat your wound and how much you’d need to rest. 
Ana comes back a second later and impulsively hugs the nurse.
“Thank you, thank you, thank you!” she repeats over and over until the nurse is laughing with Irene and Marta, Ana’s antics bringing a lightness to the room.
“It wasn’t my doing but of course. I’m glad she’s okay” she informs the Swiss infront of her who waves her off before running out.
“You brought the good news!”
Alexia is the first to enter your room. The others claimed it was because she was captain but they all knew they were just scared of what they’d see. Of what state you’d be in. She tiptoes into the room as she notices your eyes closed and the others follow. Mapi is barely able to contain her excitement of seeing you but Ingrid’s arm around her shoulder grounds her. 
As Alexia rounds your bed she wonders if you’re actually okay. Tentatively, she slowly places her hand in yours, waiting for any kind of reaction. When you don’t give her any she looks up at the team.
“What?” Jana whisper-shouts from the back of the group and Frido shrugs. 
“Mapi, you try too!” instantly the blonde springs into action, intertwining her fingers with yours. The team hold their breath as they watch on, they wait for a twitch in your eyebrows, a squeeze to either of the girls’ hands holding onto you. Nothing.
“Maybe she just needs to rest more.” Ana points out as she walks closer and places a comforting hand on your thigh, similar to how she had done when you went down after Alexia’s goal. The gesture almost brings a smile to your face.
“Yeah, yeah. You’re probably right.” Mapi clears her throat though making no move to let go of you even as the rest of the team standing by the door take a seat on the floor and the few chairs in the room. 
Alexia sits gently on the little space on the side of your bed as she leans over you. You can feel her warmth as she comes closer before she finally kisses your cheek. Mapi watches with a gentle smile enjoying the sight of her best friend being so caring. 
Quiet giggling is what breaks her out of her staring and prompts Alexia to pull away and she glances up at the defender in question. Quiet giggling soon turns into a full belly laugh as you crack your eyes open and take in the sight in front of you. You’re met with Alexia’s eyes blown wide in wonder, Ana watching from the end of your bed with a goofy smile on her face and Mapi swinging your hand back and forth in happiness. 
The team jumps up from their seats in record time as they realize what’s happening and before you know it they’re crying tears of joy.
“Oh you’re fucking insane dude!” Patri is louder than all as she feels giddy and you flash her a big smile attempting to sit up.
“Ay bebé, easy there.” Alexia springs into action as her and Mapi gently push you back down on your pillow. 
The wide smile remains on your face as they do so and as the girls calm down they smile down at you as well, all relieved to see you. Mapi’s arms circle your upper body in a tight yet comforting hold and the blonde relishes in feeling your breath against her neck. 
She had been so scared when you remained on the ground after the tackle. 
“Estás bien, hermanita?” she mumbles into your shoulder and as you nod into her neck she feels herself let out a breath she didn’t she was holding.
“Okay, Mapi, amor I think you’re going to suffocate her.” she lets go at the hearing of her girlfriends words and she gives you a bashful smile as you squeeze her hand.
I beat of silence passes as you look over the group, all who look at you with love and warmth in their eyes. 
“I’m really thirsty” you croak out which gets the girls laughing. Sandra pushes through, a cup in her hand. 
“I got you your hot chocolate! See, like I promised.” she proudly hands you the beverage and as you gaze into the cup, you give her an embarrassed smile. She looks at you with raised eyebrows, waiting for you to say something.
“Panos, as nice as this is, I don’t actually like marshmallows” 
“Oh, yeah no that’s no problem. Okay, give that to me, I’ll have that.” she plucks the cup from your hands, proving her point as she takes a sip.
 “Someone get the girl a hot chocolate with whipped cream!” she announces to no one in particular before she hurries out of the room to get it herself. Your friends chuckle at the goalkeepers behavior who was obviously overwhelmed with emotions.
Your eyes wander over the group and your heart is filled with immense warmth as each of them show how much they care for you. Alexia and Mapi haven’t left your side since, Irene, Marta and Caro are all smiling at you proudly and even Pina and Bruna can’t take their eyes off you, a reassurance to themselves that you’re alive and okay. 
The urge to yawn breaks you out of your thoughts and Alexia chuckles at your adorableness. 
“Go to sleep, preciosa” she squeezes your hand as you turn to her, your eyelids already dropping.
“Will you stay here? All of you?” 
“For you, always.”
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loveandmurders · 10 months
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hello buddy ol pal! came here to request some billy loomis or stu macher x fem/gn reader who’s like *super hot* but too ditzy to notice? (cringe i know 🤭) if you can’t write it no worries!
Hello love, thank you for this request! It was a very cute idea actually.
Hope you'll enjoy <3
SO HOT & SO CONFUSED (Billy x female!reader)
Warnings: no proof reading, mentions of murders, protective and possessive Billy, mentions of sexual desire, reader is a hot himbo.
You only arrived in Woodsboro two weeks ago, and yet it felt like you had always been there.
You didn’t know how that happened but the most popular people in school instantly brought you to their side, and everyone knew you and treated you kindly. You were invited to every party, you were greeted by everyone and even male teachers seemed to give you better grades.
You thought you had always been lucky in your life, because people were generally kind to you, and you enjoyed that.
You were kind in return.
However you disliked how men could sometimes be creeps to you. But weren’t they the same to every woman on the planet anyways?
This time it felt different, though.
No guy tried to annoy you.
And the one who tried, disappeared soon after and you never saw him ever again. Until his face was on every street of the town with a big “MISSING” beneath his picture.
To be fair, it happened a few times.
It also felt different because of Billy Loomis.
He was the hottest guy of the town and everyone wanted him in their bed at least once in their lives.
And you had to admit that you would also like that.
But you weren’t feeling bold enough to start flirting with him. Especially because you didn’t like drama and you were pretty certain every girl in school would start hating you if they saw you in his arms.
Good thing he was bold enough for you two.
Whenever you would arrive in school, you could be certain that Billy, sometimes closely followed by his best friend Stu, was going to spot you and to walk to you or to gesture to you to come closer.
You were almost certain that Billy was already dating another girl though. Sidney or Sandra or something like that.
You didn’t really care about her, as Billy’s charming presence was always making you forget all about the people around you.
You tried your best to never sit next to him in class or you knew you would never be able to follow what the teacher would say.
But sometimes you failed, because the man seemed to enjoy your presence a little too much for both your own good. He needed to keep an eye on you.
For the sole reason that he had never met a girl he so physically desired before. He couldn’t even imagine how your naked body would feel beneath his, nor how truly gorgeous you were.
He needed to make you his.
And that was why Ghostface was killing whoever was getting a little too close to you for his own liking.
He couldn’t share you with anyone else.
Was it Billy’s fault if you were the hottest gal he ever saw in his whole life?
The first time he saw you, he was smoothly talking to Sidney… and you made him forget his lines. Sidney had been quite pissed at him, and it had been hard to recover from him being distracted because of another girl.
Gosh, you had become his favourite sight to look at. He could watch you all day long without getting bored. You were a masterpiece.
And he needed to have you.
Of course Sidney was in the way, and he really couldn’t wait to get rid of her.
Stu had to remind him countless times that they were supposed to follow the plan or it wouldn’t be as good as they had thought it would be.
But Billy was getting impatient.
You were so hot.
And yet you didn’t seem to notice it.
More than once Billy flirted with you, calling you all kinds of pet names including “beautiful, beauty, gorgeous, hottie,...” but you never really caught on to it.
You were taking care of your body and you enjoyed putting on trendy clothes and a little bit of makeup sometimes too with nice hairstyles.
But you never really thought anything about the way people were watching you. Why would you care as long as everyone was nice to you?
You were used to boys asking you to carry your stuff, and you didn’t see why you should refuse it.
If people wanted to be kind to you, why shouldn’t you take the opportunity?
(Plus your bag always crumpled your tops and you really didn’t like that at all.)
It also often happened that boys tried to kiss you at parties or in your daily life, especially when you were getting along with them or when they were too drunk to realise how stupid they were.
You had to admit that now that you had Billy by your side it was a little bit different. In a good way.
He was protective.
And you were enjoying your time with him. He was cute and funny and intense.
He was so hot.
But you couldn’t imagine that he could want you. He had a girlfriend, anyways.
He was always doing his best to avoid Sidney when you were at parties so he could spend time with you, flirting with you and making sure no one else was talking to you.
He was getting very possessive with you, and the fact you didn’t seem to catch on how much he desired you was only fueling his desire to have you all his.
When he needed to go play with Sidney, he was asking Stu to stay with you. Not that he particularly trusts his friend in the presence of such a hot girl, but it was better than having you with someone he didn’t like or didn’t know.
Billy and Stu often wondered if you were stupid though.
You never caught on to the flirting.
You never seemed to understand their “subtle” remarks about your body.
You never understood either when they were calling you “hot stuff”.
You always giggled and rolled their eyes at them “I’m not hot, I’m just a girl”.
And unlike any other girls Billy flirted with, while being with Sidney, you didn’t play with the situation. It was actually confusing you a lot
“I thought you were dating that girl… what was her name again…?”
“Sidney. Yes I'm dating her and…?”
“Oh well, then maybe you shouldn’t invite me to your place at night… I’m not sure she would be happy about that”
“I’m not planning on telling her, you know. And you neither”
“I don’t even know who she is! But really… why do you want me to come over anyways?”
You were really making things hard for Billy.
But because you weren't noticing anything, he thought you might make things easier for Ghostface: you would never be suspicious of him.
He even thought that you would be pretty easy to kill… but he really didn’t want that. It would be a waste.
And one day, you would be his, body and soul.
Or he would go insane.
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mosneakers · 18 days
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Mackenzie Vespertine, Tatiana Salas's campaign manager, isn't an incredibly remarkable character in this storyline. He isn't terribly noteworthy, and he doesn't last very long. Especially when he decides to become entangled within the narrative of Tatiana's eldest daughter, Sandra Landgraab.
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But no one sees her like he does, you see. Sandra doesn't see it yet, but they have plenty in common. What Mackenzie admires so much about Sandra is her dedication and work ethic—the same traits his ex-wife divorced him for years ago. Mackenzie: May I overstep, Sandra? Sandra: Overstep? About? Mackenzie: It's just that I think you're overworking yourself. And that's coming from me. Tatiana is so lucky to have a daughter like you, bending over backwards for her campaign while your sisters are nowhere to be seen.
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Sandra: I... Mackenzie: And the sacrifices you've made... juggling it all. Quality time with your children... your job... it's clear you're tired. Sandra: Mackenzie, I- thank you. Thank you for acknowledging that. I guess it is a lot. But it's for a good cause. I believe in my mother's platform. Besides... it'll all be over soon. And I haven't had to do it all alone. [Friendly smile]
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Mackenzie isn't completely delusional, he knows Sandra is married to one of the richest sims with a pulse. Not that that should be a factor. Perhaps he's just sleep deprived or overworked, but he becomes fixated on the fantasy of he and Sandra being the perfect vampiric power couple; The next Salas and Straud, destined to reshape the nation together. All he needs, is the opportunity to win her— Mackenzie: Why don't you let me take over for the night? You get home to the kids. Sandra: Oh my mod, no way, I can't leave you with all this work. The election is only in— Mackenzie: Seriously. Trust me, k? I got it. Come on, I'll walk you out.
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Sandra: Mack, thank you, really. I've been so stressed about this election. Mackenzie: I know you have. But uh... I think you can relax. I'm... I'm pretty confident about this one. Now go home and pick out a party dress. And tell the girls hi for me, will you?
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Mackenzie and Sandra move wordlessly through the Straud Mansion. He listens to the rhythmic clack of her heels against the ground, sensing their pace slow as they reach the doors and emerge outside onto the cobblestone in the cool night air.
Sandra: I'll see you on election night then? I'll save you a seat at the party. Mackenzie: I wouldn't miss it for the world.
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fizzyginfizz · 5 months
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Someone's Mum
For @hinnymicrofic -Day 20 "Mom"
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The poster unfurled, a Quidditch star winked with sass and smile
“Lucky him,” they’d say in passing
She never cared what they said
But Albus was two and he didn’t speak
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“Are you miserable?” Words raw, a fear hidden, only uttered under the blanket of night.
“No,” she dared whisper, a confession in the dark. “When I’m there, I’m thinking about here. When I’m here, I’m thinking about there. Not miserable… mediocre. I never half-arsed anything that mattered and now I’m mediocre.”
Her fingers sought his, tangled in sheets.
“I catch a Quaffle and I miss the boys and I miss the hoop and I’m not crushed because my dream has become just another day with another Quaffle and another hoop and another number on another board and I miss miss miss when it mattered.”
Who was she without it?
Someone’s mum
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James turned the page
another and another and another
“Again!”
another and another and another
“And down once more, but not so fast- “ *
Her shoulder needed to be iced
“They’re on their way to bed at last- “
How many times did they have to hear this story?
“The day is done they say goodnight- “
How many times would they want to?
“And somebody turns off the light- “
How many nights until they were too old
and she would
miss miss miss when it mattered
“The moon is high- “
Albus was two and still didn’t speak
“The sea is deep- “
Thumb in mouth, his green eyes followed her finger tracing the words
“They rock- “
James nestled closer, elbow jabbing the Bludger-sized bruise on her hip
“And rock- “
It hurt
Her finger trembled as it traced
“And rock- “
Albus, two, not talking, lifted enormous green eyes to hers
“To sleep- “
Green eyes that spoke sonnets
His Mum
He grinned
She was the center of his world
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“What can I do?” Never one for words, he had long ago learned to ask. “What can I say?”
Sheets rustled as their fingers laced.
“What will you see, Harry?” She muttered. “I know what everyone else will see and I’ll pretend it won’t matter. But what will you see when you look at me?”
He rolled on top of her, cupping her face between his hands.
“The woman who bat-bogeys reporters and fought in a war and loves so fiercely her heart swells and splits and bleeds.”
Soft kisses to chin, cheek, eyelid.
“The effortlessly funny companion who can commentate two snails crossing the porch and have us all cheering the one with the hilariously tragic backstory.”
He lowered his forehead to hers.
“The girl who wrote in the diary who married the boy who slept in a cupboard. Neither of them have anything to prove, Gin.”
A tear escaped, rolling into her hairline.
“A Mum?”
She dared to whisper, a confession in the dark.
Irrelevant to the world
The world to three
“I’ll see you, Ginny. And I will love you until my last breath.”
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The day was done, the edges curled
The Quidditch star winked as the poster furled
*Excerpt from “The Going to Bed Book” by Sandra Boynton
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curiositydooropened · 7 months
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Wildfire • Pyre
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Reunions with old friends leads to more information about Vickie's death. You and Steve seem to be growing closer, falling back into old roles. But something dark lingers in the recesses of your mind.
Pairing: Steve Harrington x Reader
Chapter Wordcount: 8,528
Warnings: enemies/rivals to lovers, second chance romance, slooooowburn, unrequited love, so much pining, blood, gore, character death, best friend!disabled!Eddie Munson, character injuries, trauma, PTSD, hallucinations, drowning, concussion, hurt/comfort, fire, panic attacks, insomnia
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September 1988
Everything Rightside Up existed in saturation. Blue skies were blue. The red-oranges of fallen leaves were ruddy and neon. Green leaves of canned spinach were mossy and vibrant. Even the stark whites were brighter, cornea-burningly so. 
Your mouth felt dry as you approached the Med Bay, sneakers squeaking on linoleum beside the steady rhythm of Eddie’s shoes matched with the creak of his walker. His hair and eyes were painted in rich chocolates today, his skin almost as blinding as the walls that surrounded you. 
“I think you’re doing a good thing,” he reassured, raising the fingers on one hand to twinkle a wave at Sandra, the beautiful girl behind the counter who buzzed you in. Disinfectant stung in your nostrils. 
“I think I’m doing a neutral thing,” you argued, holding the door open for him to pass through. “He doesn’t want to see me. He probably isn’t even awake yet. Maybe he’s a vegetable.” 
“Henderson said he flipped him off yesterday,” Munson grinned. “He’s fine, and he does want to see you.”
“Henderson?” You frowned, taking a step backwards from the threshold whence you came, thumbing to a different section of the building, far away from the people in lab coats and the looming threat that lay ahead. “Oh, I better go check in with him then.” 
Eddie caught your wrist and propelled you back toward him. “You saved Harrington’s life. I would kill for an opportunity like that. You get to lord it over him forever now.”
You sighed, faked a smile, tried not ignore the pit in your stomach, tried to forget the sting of ash and decay as you stripped yourself of your pack and ducked beside the brick fireplace, the only part of that little house that remained standing. 
You’d called out for Steve, again and again, panic stinging your lungs just as it had when you’d lost Vickie. Then the adrenaline kicked in, her voice and his, Steve’s, echoing instructions in your mind. Lift here, tug there. Your squats had come in handy. You walkied back to base, got an emergency evac vehicle. 
When you found Harrington, he was unconscious, face caked in ash, blood pooling somewhere beneath him. He was lucky he’d been in the stairwell and not any higher. A millisecond sooner, and he’d have been crushed by a toilet, a vanity, a king-sized bed. You cleared the rubble, checked him for major breakages, and hoisted him onto your back. He was so heavy.
“Just go in and tell him to say ‘thank you’ or you’ll pull the plug.” Eddie was shoving you through another door, but you noticed he hadn’t hurried to follow.
“Aren’t you coming with me?” You hissed, offering a nervous smile to a nearby man in mint scrubs.
“Nope,” your best friend grinned. “Got me a receptionist to flirt with.” He tousled his curls and leaned casually against a long countertop. 
Sandra appeared just over his shoulder, a sweet smile on her round face. “Two doors down,” she gestured. 
With clenched fists, you inched ahead as instructed. You were sweating. You didn’t even know what you were going to say. You just wanted to see if he looked small, if his hair still coifed perfectly against cotton sheets, if his mouth would turn up at the corners when he saw you. 
Your fingertips pressed to the door, and you heard laughing inside, a rasped voice. Your heart sank, stomach rolled. You glanced sideways into an open window and saw dirty blonde and freckles, and you turned heel for the start of the hallway.
Eddie stood on the other side of a closed door, waggling his fingertips, too-mischievous a smile playing across cat-like features. 
Then, she said your name. 
Robin Buckley stood ten feet away. She was dressed in civies, hair crimped and vest buttoned, and her sweet, freckled cheeks were pinched pink to compliment the sad sea of blue in her eyes. Her hand was raised in a greeting, the other arm wrapped around her ribcage, a shield, a nervous stance. 
You swallowed, couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think. But some other force was pushing you forward, one step at a time to split the distance. 
Her arms were around you in seconds, spindly, soft, and she smelled exactly as you always remembered: vanilla and patchouli, weed. She was warm, a bit of home you hadn’t had in months, hadn’t deserved. You didn’t deserve her. 
You pulled away, swallowing the lump in your throat, blinking away any emotional that threatened. “I was just coming to visit uh…” You gestured inwards, at a boy in too big a bed, brow crinkled, hair a riot against stark white linens. His eyes were squeezed shut, jaw clenched. 
“Oh yeah we were just,” she rasped, graveled voice sweet as honey. She gestured inward and paused before you watched her own eyebrow quirk. “Sleeping. He just fell asleep.” 
You settled on, “oh, good.” You didn’t feel right in your body, didn’t feel present, didn’t feel necessary. You’d interrupted a moment. You were an intruder. 
“Lucky for you,” Robin crossed to Steve’s bedside and grabbed her bag, tossing it over one shoulder, “I’m starving. Shall we go get some lunch?” 
You blinked at the invitation, the white walls closing in. She stared expectantly, soft blues and tans. “Oh, one of us should probably stay with…” You gestured once more toward the boy. The frown hadn’t left his face, though now it felt more of a grimace. You wondered if he might be in pain. 
“He’s fine,” Robin insisted, and you felt slender fingers jostle your shoulder. “Come on. Looks like you could use to get out of this Hell hole.”
You turned to look at Steve one last time, as you were herded along the corridor and back to reception, and his face had settled to one of peace. 
She drove you miles out of town, somewhere south, where a dry dirt road met a diner with a view of the lake. Ducks gathered at the banks and a child cried in a mother’s arms, and the sweet smell of maple syrup flooded your senses with some otherworldly nostalgia that ached in your molars and ribcage. 
She chatted the whole way there, as Robin was apt to do, a mess of words about life and her parents and foregoing university for community outreach, and you clutched the belt at your chest like it were a life vest.
She ordered a club sandwich with fries, and promised to share when you ordered a salad, not sure you could keep anything down. Not with the world on its axis like this, not with her cherry-stained smile as if nothing was wrong, as if this threesome wasn’t missing it’s essential party. 
“Thanks so much,” she smiled at the woman setting drinks down between you. The same red plastic cups you found in the Mess Hall made you feel like you were trapped in a simulation, some sort of sick joke. 
Robin stirred the ice in her soft drink with a red-and-white striped straw, and you watched the bubbles fizz through dark liquid to burst at the top. “Before I force you to tell me what the Hell is going on with you and Steve, I have to tell you something.”
You blinked back at her, the water in front of you unappetizing despite the dryness of your mouth. 
There was something uncanny about the way she spoke, too chipper, too soft, but you noticed she was avoiding your gaze, staring instead at the rings she wound around her fingers. Her nails were chipped in navy blues. “And I know you’re going to argue with me, because that’s who you are, and I’m not going to engage with that because this is honestly just my truth, you know? And I’ve spent a long time thinking about this, so I know how I feel.” 
“Robin,” you cut-off her anxious rambling, an auto-response you’d built over the last couple of years, muscle memory. 
Her mouth closed, and you watched the tick of her jaw, sunlight pouring in to cast her in honey and warmth. She was a thing of beauty, and to watch the wobble in her bottom lip as she clamped down it drew the breath from you. 
You sat in silence, wringing the paper napkin in your lap while she chipped more fervently at the blue polish, bits of it scattered across a coffee-stained tabletop. 
“I’m mad at you,” she finally came out with it, and the quaver in her voice punched you right in the stomach. Her eyes shone, harsh, dark. “I’m so fucking mad at you, and it’s so frustrating because it’s not even your fault, not really.” 
You swallowed back the tears that threatened to fall, the ache that clawed your inside with sharp talons and flower-faced teeth. 
“It’s not your fault she was flayed. It’s not your fault she had no other choice. It’s not your fault you didn’t have a choice, but none of that is what I’m mad about anyway,” she continued to ramble, twisting the rings around her fingers. “I’m mad that you left me. You just ditched me, and I understand you’re hurting, and I’m so sorry for that, but did you think for like half-a-second that I’m hurting too? And all I needed for the past three months was my best friend? You left me alone with Steve, for Christ’s sake. Steve! I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love him with all of my heart, but he’s not good with things like this. He’s getting better, but he doesn’t know her like you do, and sometimes I just need to talk about her and -” 
“Robin,” you stopped her again, your breathing matching hers in speed, heart racing, lungs strained against your ribcage. 
Her mouth slammed shut, and her fingers went to her ears like a petulant child. “I’m not going to hear anything you have to say unless its an apology.” 
Your mouth hung open at that, processing her emotions, your own. A bell caught on the breeze, the softest of sounds, and then it felt like fingers carded through your hair, a hand to your shoulder, warmth, comfort, light. You released a sigh, “Robin, I’m so so sorry.” 
The corners of her lips turned up, and she rolled her eyes, reaching for the red plastic up. “I forgive you, obviously. Idiot.” She toed at your knee with the rubber toe of her shoe while she drank, and you both laughed off the emotion prickling in your eyes. 
You picked up your own water with a trembling hand and downed the ice cold liquid, letting it dampen the swell in your throat and chest. 
“Now that that’s settled, please tell me what the hell is going on between you and Dingus. The boy tells me nothing.” 
As the heat of summer fell away into fall, the sun went with it. You awoke in darkness, struggled to pull yourself out of bed after restless sleep. Daylight faded from the farmland too quickly, a mask of yellowed orange that covered naked branches that twisted up through browning leaves. It was cold and dark and reminded you of that place, an unfriendly reminder that loomed over your shoulder as you ran, lap after lap around a track. 
Three days after your lunch with Robin, you’d managed to peel yourself from sweat-drenched sheets to run off the dread that settled from a nightmare. You’d run with a friendly tune in your head, tainted ominous by each thump of footfall against the track, eery by the humming under your breath against the water pressure from the shower, your own voice echoing off tile walls. 
The sun was just coming up by the time you entered the dormitory corridor, dim warmth that seeped from sitting quarters and splashed across heavy steel doors. 
You scrubbed excess water from your ear with the towel draped over your shoulders and rounded the last corner, halting when you saw shadow framing your door. Tall, with broad shoulders, hand-raised in a knock. 
You sidestepped, tilted your head to get a better look, and nearly screeched to a halt when you reached an angle that let the light shine in. 
Steve Harrington waited for you to answer your door, jaw clenched, sporting short hair. It had been buzzed around his neck and ears, but remained long on top, parted down the center in adverse to his signature coif, a mess of brown that he tousled in one hand. 
You blinked back at him, taking in his stance, tight and uncomfortable, before it all sunk in. 
He was awake. He was standing. He suffered no broken bones, only a concussion and several bumps and bruises, so you shouldn’t have been surprised. He was waiting at your door.
“Shit,” you snapped yourself out of it and crossed to him.
He startled and spun on his heel to face you, eyes alight with surprise. He looked good like this, more adult. Maybe that was the official nature of his stance, or the stack of documents he held under one arm. “Um… hi.” He greeted, scratching at the back of his neck. You wondered if he missed the locks back there that were so easy to sink your fingers into.
You swallowed, blinked back at him. “Hi.”
“Are you okay?” He asked, extending a hand your direction, although the look on his face was less comforting than perturbed. 
“Your hair,” you gestured, biting back a sarcastic smile aching at your cheeks. “Are you okay?” 
That famous Harrington eye roll greeted you, and he shifted to expose the stack of manila envelopes under his arm, wrapping his knuckles against the top. “I brought you something to look at. Could we uh…?” He nodded the closed door to your room. 
“Oh, shit, yeah,” you shuffled with the key in your pocket, the little brass thing tethered to a decade old friendship bracelet that had long since fallen off Vickie’s wrist.
Harrington stepped out of your way, and you fumbled with the lock until the door popped open to reveal a mess of dirty laundry and dishes strewn about. You cursed under your breath and scurried to kick things into their appropriate corners. You winced at the crash of plates in your sink, and scurried to the bed to pull the duvet up and over two scrunched pillows. 
Harrington set his haul on your rickety table.
When you’d finished your tidy, you turned to face him, a bit flustered, but you hadn’t anticipated catching him in the act of sizing up his own reflection in the mirror. He frowned, running his fingers through his hair in an attempt to flatten the sheer volume peaking the fringe pieces. 
“It looks good,” you offered, delighted when he jumped at the sound of your voice, hand snapping back to his side. 
“They um… they had to do it for the stitches.” He gestured to the back of his head. 
Following the curvature of his skull on the left side were ten tiny stitches, black thread holding his flesh together where there’d been a gaping wound. You’d wrapped something around him to stop the bleeding, your shirt, maybe. You couldn’t remember much from that horrible morning, only the aches of your muscles as the exhaustion willed you to sleep on a cot in the Med Bay that first night you’d been asked to quarantine. 
“How’re you feeling?” You asked. 
Harrington nodded. He watched his own fingers dance along the tabletop. “Good. Nothing broken. They released me about an hour ago.” He glanced up at you, a shadow cast from the bridge of his nose as morning light began to seep in from frosted windows. 
“Good,” you managed a soft smile, hoped he could feel the relief that relaxed your shoulders. 
“Hey, um…” He scratched at that stubble on the base of his neck once more. “Thank you for uh… saving my ass.” His eyes found yours, humble and honest. 
You took a few steps forward and hesitated to reach for his arm until he put his hand out to catch yours. You gave his fingers a gentle squeeze. “Guess those squats were worth it after all.” 
You bit back another smile, stomach swooping as one again his eyes rolled back into his head. You released his hand and swatted at his stomach before pulling out a chair at your little rickety table to seat yourself at. “You need to lay off the brisket, big boy. I nearly threw my back out.”
“You need to quit hanging out with Munson,” Harrington slid into the seat next to you, spinning the stack of files your direction. “You’re staring to sound just like him.” 
You cocked a brow. “You threw Munson’s back out?” 
Watching him fight back sass tickled you more than you thought it might, the same relief you felt pulling Robin into a hug after your day out together. It felt like your axis was righting itself, like maybe your world was staring to feel a little less Upside Down. 
Harrington tapped two fingers to the top of the pile in front of you. “Erica stole these for me. If anyone finds out, we’re screwed. And we owe her our dessert cards for the next two months.” 
You snorted and flipped open the soft manila folder to find the face of a bright-eyed girl with red hair and freckles. Her jaw had been tightened, eyes a little wild, determined, and God, she’d been so young. Instinctively, your fingertips trailed the glossy coating of the photograph, and you wished you could feel the softness of her skin, smell her mom’s detergent on her clothes. You wished you could wrap her into your arms, like you’d done with Robin, and make her laugh, Hell, make her roll her eyes like you did with Steve. 
“These are her files, anything Erica could get her hands on. I peeked through them, but I didn’t want to get too far in without you.” Steve said, voice achingly soft beside you. “They’re in chronological order. Psych eval, medical tests.”
You thumbed through the first few pages, her enlistment form. Perfectly typewritten was every historical accuracy about your best friend. Her full name, the street she grew up on, her blood type. And after a few pages, you’d come across a picture of yourself, your information labeled under PARTNER. 
“If anything’s too hard to get through, let me know.” Your new partner leaned forward on his forearms, staring at your upside down photograph, his hair falling into his eyes. 
You swallowed, nodded, and turned another page. 
Hours had gone by, you weren’t sure how long, but the warm light cast upon Steve’s face suggested it was mid-afternoon, broaching evening. You’d learned much about your best friend and at the same time nothing at all. You’d choked upon all of the times she defended you, or told a higher up how wonderful you were, how worthy, how competent. Never once were you disparaged. Never once had she fought or fallen out of line. 
You wondered if you should have started at the bottom of the pile, worked your way back to the moment she’d been flayed, but when you’d mentioned, Steve halted your wrist and told you he’d take the bottom half. You thought to argue, to protest, but the look in his eye was soft, not scolding, and the grip on your wrist was loose.
You caught yourself watching him work, both of your voices hoarse from passages read aloud. When he concentrated, his brow crinkled, and the tip of his tongue stuck to the corners of his lips. You’d caught him, on several occasions, harrumphing over hair fallen into his eyes that couldn’t be tossed back like it used to. 
Now, as you glanced up from another mission log transcription, you saw the wave of warmth fan his features, and immediately he winced at the glare, fingers rubbing at bloodshot eyes. 
“Are you okay?” You asked, alarmed at the grit of his teeth. 
“Yeah, just um…” He squinted your direction. “Eye strain, I think. I should have been wearing my glasses.” 
You leapt up, if for no other reason than you cover him with your shadow, the frosted glass above your bed lacking curtains. “The concussion probably doesn’t help. Let’s take a break.” 
He emitted a soft groan and rubbed at his eyes again, pinched the bridge of his nose between his forefingers. “You’re probably right. Is that okay?”
You wrapped your arms around yourself and glanced down at the heft of his pile still remaining, hidden pages calling out to you. “Yeah, totally. It’s all kind of blurring together at this point anyway.” 
“Yeah, right,” he inched his way up and out of his chair, retrieving a sweatshirt he’d shed toward early afternoon off the back of his chair and stuffing his head into it. He’d unintentionally crowded your space, all limbs, and he smelled clean and a little sterile.
Somewhere in his reflection, a flash of orange caught your eye. You glanced sideways at the dingy mirror, the expanse of his back, the stitched scar at the base of his skull. 
“Do me a favor?” He muttered, running his fingers through his hair for the dozenth time. 
You hummed and tore your gaze from the mirror image.
“Don’t look at that stuff without me.” 
The piles sat between you, typewritten notes on stark white pages that beckoned. You glanced downward and caught your name, a conversation with Owens post-mission. Just a handful of pages beneath that was the log you knew you were looking for, maybe images taken post-mortem, maybe a death certificate. 
“We just don’t know what it could kick up. What if it triggers something?” Harrington wrapped his knuckles against the tabletop, recapturing your attention. 
You swallowed, eyes a little glassy from exhaustion, and nodded. “Sure, yeah. You want to take them with you?” 
He shook his head, shrugged. “I trust you.” He turned and clicked open the door. The hallway beyond was quiet, dark save the glow of a red EXIT sign. Before he left, he turned to offer a squinted smile, the faintest upturn of his pink lips. “You going to be alright?”
“Yeah, I’m fine,” you reassured. Something had shifted, crashed apart with the stairs of that house. Moments that bond often have this affect on relationships, you’d discovered that much over the past few years. 
Steve nodded and left, door closing softly behind him.
As he did so, the papers on the tabletop fluttered closer to you, an unseen force shifting things back into your line of sight. A label slipped out of the bottom stack, and typed in careful letters you read the word ‘FLAYED’. 
You left in a hurry, shoving all of your dirty clothes into a basket to haul downstairs. You took a turn on the track as your pants dried. You avoided your room like something had begun to grow in the walls, a pitch black ooze that spread with every footstep.
You couldn’t be there, couldn’t read it, and yet every inch of you itched to know the truth, to get answers. 
When you’d exhausted most avenues of distraction, you finally found yourself in the corridor just south of the Caf. Moonlight pooled in through windows along the hall, casting everything in sterile whites and soft greys. Your stomach rumble was louder than each footstep. The kitchen staff had locked the pantries to maintain rations, but this wasn’t your first excursion sneaking in for a midnight snack. 
Your laundry basket released from your hands and fell with a thwack to the linoleum before you elbowed through one of the swinging double doors, port hole window catching your reflection in the moonlight. The kitchen was otherwise pitch black, and you hadn’t needed a flashlight for the laundry room. 
Taking careful steps in the darkness, you narrowly avoided a butcher’s block, but smacked your hip bone against a wide, metal stove. Pots and pans clattered above you, and you scrambled to keep them afloat, cursing yourself for definitely waking anyone sleeping at least five floors up.
“Hello?” The seam to the walk-in split open, and you were suddenly blinded in a thick beam of warm light.
You held your hands up to shield your eyes, and when you heard your name, you peered into the darkness to make out the broad-shouldered silhouette of your new partner. “Harrington?”
He tilted the torchlight from your vision, and you saw he had a baseball bat over his other shoulder, of which nail spikes were sparkling from the end. “Jesus, you scared the shit out of me.” He grumbled, turning back into the refrigerator as though this was a perfectly normal occasion. 
“What the Hell?” You sighed and followed him. “What’re you doing down here?” 
He shrugged, spinning the flashlight in his hand to give you the handle. Then, he pulled a three gallon tub of ice cream off a nearby shelf and hoisted it under his arm. “What does it look like I’m doing down here?” 
He pushed past you in a fog of steamed breath, and you followed before the door slammed shut. He dropped the tub onto a countertop with a hollow thud and the bat scraped along the ground as he propped it next. 
You watched him search a couple of drawers for two spoons, illuminating his path back to you.
“I haven’t had ice cream in like three years,” he explained, taking the flashlight from you to prop on a windowsill near him. Reflected light illuminated the hollows of his cheeks, the bags under his eyes. “But I’ve had this crazy hankering since that house fell on me.” 
You snorted and hoisted yourself onto the countertop beside him, ice from the tub melting against your bare leg. “Why the aversion to ice cream?”
Steve sighed, peeling the lid from the top and handing you a spoon before diving in himself. “When you spend half a summer slinging cones and banana splits, the smell of it gets a little sickening.”
You’d almost forgotten, memories of Starcourt Mall feeling like another lifetime. Vickie and you had gone every weekend after it opened, delighting in the comfortable seating at the movie theatre and spending far too many hours pouring over albums at the music store. She’d insist on scoops from Scoops just before you left, and you’d initially thought she was fawning over the sailor boy, with his voluminous, highlighted hair, his doe eyes, his glossy lips. Turns out, she wanted to gawk at her pep band compatriot, the pretty, awkward girl with band-aids on her knees. 
You watched over the tub as he took his bite in shadow, eyelashes fanning his cheeks, brows furrowed against the cold. “How is it?” You smiled, reaching in near to your elbow to take a scoop for yourself. There was no way to tell what flavor it was at this point, but knowing the quality of food at the caf, you had a feeling your options were limited to chocolate or vanilla. 
“It’s no SS Butterscotch,” but he went back in, spoon clanging against your own. “What’re you doing down here?” 
You shrugged, spooned frigid cream into your mouth. You winced at the cold, but the sweet vanilla cream melted against your taste buds, and you sighed, leaning against the wall behind you. “Couldn’t sleep.”
“Did you read any more of Vickie’s file?” He winced around the cold, brought his fist up to cover a cough. 
You frowned back at him. “You told me not to.” 
His eyebrows raised at that, and he shrugged, shoveling himself another spoonful. “I didn’t think you’d listen. I use that tactic with the kids.”
“Hey, fuck you,” you growled, mouthful. 
In the silhouette, you swear you caught a smirk flash across boyish features. “So… I heard you talked to Robin.” 
You hummed, the chill from your ice cream and the metal countertop creating a small shiver. You shifted your thighs, unsticking them from the surface, and tugged down on your shorts. “Yeah, we had a really nice lunch the other day.”
He avoided eye contact, licking his spoon clean. 
Over French fries, your heartfelt apologies turned to chatter, the two of you falling back into old rhythms, humming old ear worms and gossiping. Robin vented about the try-hard team lead in her gardening society, and you, with matched eye rolls, vented about Steve’s overbearing demeanor when it came to the mats, the pool, the turf. Robin ensured you he was like that in the beginning, and that he’s just protective. You couldn’t help but feel the fizz of your stomach when she mentioned he cared about you. 
You wondered how much she’d shared. “I uh… I apologized for going AWOL.” You spun your spoon between your fingers, the cool metal glinting in dim light. 
“Why did you,” he asked after a long moment, voice cutting the stillness in the air, “go AWOL?”
You glanced up at him again, and this time he was watching you, eyes hooded in shadow, but the glint of them traced your features. You swallowed and looked away, stared instead at his silhouette on the adjacent wall, the curve of a strong brow and nose and jaw, the dip of his throat. 
You struggled for words, feeling the heat of him staring you down, but finally you settled on an explanation that felt right. “Because I’m a coward, and because I didn’t feel I deserved her friendship, not after all of the heartache I caused. Still don’t.”
He didn’t respond, and you sat in silence for a long while until you felt brave enough to look at him again. His shoulders were slumped, and his lips were parted as if he were going to ask something else. 
Terrified he might spill some truth that you weren’t ready for, you spilled out a question that had been lingering for months, a year. “What did I do to make you hate me?” The words felt sticky, your throat coated with vanilla ice cream and regret. 
His jaw slammed shut, eyes tracking yours once more. 
“We used to be…” Bets placed on the Scorch field, the sparring mats, shot-for-shot from the whisky glass snuck out of Hopper’s office desk drawer, truth or dare whispered while Robin and Vickie slept in an adjacent bed, the exchange of steamed breath watching the stars, nose-to-nose, the flutter of lashes. “Friends. Then we were all up for Scorch Leads, and you just… went AWOL.”
You picked at the rolled paper lip of the ice cream tub, focusing on that spot instead of the eyes watching you. “Is my competitiveness really that annoying?” 
“Yes,” he said, snapping your attention back to his mouth, and the corners had curled every so slightly.
You warmed, rolled your eyes. 
He scratched at the stubble on the back of his neck, rolled his shoulders. “You want to know why I was such an asshole when we were up for that promotion?” 
You nodded. Another shiver wracked through you, and you realized you’d been leaning against the tub. 
Steve sighed, picked the lid off the counter beside you and replaced it, the top puffing with air when it was sealed. “Remember that first mission? When they dumped us in the middle of nowhere and we had to find our way back? And you and Vickie took twice as long as everyone else?”
“It was not twice as long,” you rolled your eyes. It took you so long because you had to be thorough, you had to prove yourself, no one wanted it more than you. When you’d heard about Team Lead promotions, it was the first time in years you felt like your existence was made for something. Your expertise paid off.
Your new partner lifted the tub and carried it back across the room to the walk-in, catching the swing of the door with his shoe.
You hopped off the countertop and tossed metal spoons into a massive metal sink. They clanged near the drain. 
Steve’s voice was muffled from inside the freezer. “Robin and I waited at the Gate for you. She wore a hole in the pavement pacing, and I sat with my back to a big tree and realized I’d do whatever it took to win, or at least to make sure you guys didn’t.” He returned with a banana, which he placed into your palm before going for his bat and flashlight. 
“What’s this for?” You held up the fruit, cold to the touch and followed him out the swinging double doors.
“Potassium’s good for muscles, and it helps your body process calcium.” He said, like a info doc on the Public Broadcasting Station. 
You sighed and tossed it to the top of your laundry pile before hoisting the basket back under your arm. “Wait, are you saying you thought Vickie and I wouldn’t make good leads?” 
“No,” he swung the bat over one shoulder, beam of light illuminating your joint path upward. “I’m saying that by becoming leads, there’d be a higher chance of you being in danger. All I ever wanted was to keep you safe.” 
You tried not to lose pace with him, feet fumbling, stomach swooping, and you glanced up at him through your eyelashes. You couldn’t make out his features in the dark, but you felt him watching you, felt the brush of his bicep against yours. 
“Eat your banana,” he said, and you continued up the stairs in soft, surrendered silence.
The yard was clean, grass long-since browned, and leaves swept into a large pile. The cars in the driveway didn’t belong to her parents, no, these were new. In fact, the entire home didn’t feel like home to you anymore, not like it used to. A porch swing creaked on the wind, stark white paint cracked and cushion oozing ichor from a rainstorm long since past. 
You heard a scuffle from the garage, swung right, calling out for her, searching a greyscale landscape for a shock of orange. You took a step forward, tripped over an unwound garden hose. 
“She can’t come to the phone right now,” she said, only it wasn’t her, wasn’t her voice, something deeper.
You looked up, but when you tried to scream her name again, a hand was covering your mouth, a strong arm lifting you backwards, away from the scene. Your friend lay, lifeless before you, skin melting into the concrete driveway like plastic. You screamed, kicked, clawed, bit at the hand cutting off your airflow, to no relief. 
Suffocating, drowning, the world around you blurring with blue lights, a face peering through the swell, that menacing grin, all teeth, no lips. You screamed, bubbles rising before your eyes. You kicked, vines tangled around your ankles, dragging you downward, darkness all-encompassing.
The fluorescents buzzed and the tape whirred in its recorder. That distant throb in your skull hadn’t receded in days. Your chair creaked with each bounce of your knee, an energy you’d picked up from your partner, and you rubbed at tired eyes, squinting across a large table. In a chair at the other end was the pitied frown of one Dr. Sam Owens. 
“We did find a small laceration on her ankle, and her falling into this creature would account for that.” He explained. He was being gentle, as if you hadn’t snuck into the files, as if you hadn’t stared at the photographs of her lifeless corpse, as if you hadn’t seen the black liquid oozing from her skin. 
You nodded, picking at a scratch in the tabletop. 
“And you’re saying this virus had been gestating for a month before she showed any signs of being flayed?” 
You shrugged, picked a little harder, until it bent your nail at the corner. “You’re the doctor. I’m just telling you what I remember.” 
“Okay, alright, I appreciate that.” You heard the click of the tape deck, glanced up to find two fingers on the stop button. When you looked up, Owens had sat one leg on the tabletop. “How’re you doing, kid?” 
A shiver wracked through you, some twisted all-knowing presence that had given you away. Maybe it was the squint of your eyes against the lights, maybe your nose had begun bleeding again, you couldn’t be sure at this point, couldn’t feel much for the buzz in your skull and fingertips. 
“Do you understand why Hop and I picked you and Vickie as our team leaders?” He asked when you hadn’t responded, folding his hands over his lap. Crisp checked sleeves were rolled over the cuffs of a brown sweater. Everything about this man was soft and cleaned, so far removed from the grit and grime that surrounded your day-to-day. “It’s because you understood our mission here.” 
You frowned, unsure where this unprompted speech was coming from, unsure what he was talking about, unsure how long you’d been in this room, how long you’d been awake, how long you could cling to the sliver of sanity holding you together. 
“You understood that all of this,” he gestured to the room around you. Two massive windows looked out at the expanse of woods, everything tinged ruby red and honey yellow, that nightmare-fuel flash of orange. “This isn’t about redemption. It’s not about righting our wrongs, of which, we’re all guilty.” 
His eyes were deep blue like the waters of a pool, but soft, careful. You thought of Vickie, of the mournful look on her face when she plead for you to snuff out her light. You thought of the lifeless corpse on a slab, photographed with naught but a sterile sheet maintaining her modesty. 
“No, it’s about renewal. It’s about ridding this world of this festering sore, this virus, so it can learn and grow, so we can learn and grow and restart our lives. Not pick up where we left off, but pull ourselves up from the ashes and create something better.”
You blinked back at him, the wall in your mind, in your heart, fighting with his words. That competitive nature you’ve been biting back all week threatening to escape. Instead, you grit your teeth. “Anything else you need from me, Doc?” 
Owens sighed, gave you that pitied look you’d received since Vickie died, since you killed her, since you gave up on her. He shook his head and gestured to walk you to the door. “Take care of yourself, kid.” 
How could you build a new life without her when she was always home? How could you rise from the ashes of her funeral pyre when you lit the match? 
The bass was low, a rattle in your bones arhythmic to your heart. You were hyper aware of your heartbeat, it having clambered against your skull for the past three days, maybe longer, you didn’t know anymore. Neon lights buzzed against newspaper clipping covered walls, all-encompassing, a tornado of information about Indiana’s State Fair and blue ribbons and reds and yellows and blues and greens. 
A shove to your shoulder drew everything back into focus. Eddie’s brows were stitched together, jaw clamped shut. He was pissed. At you, specifically. He’d bullied you into joining the gang at Roadie’s tonight, blackmailed you, in fact. Now, here you stood, knocking back tequila to no lasting affect, receiving a pool stick from your teammate’s hand. 
“We’re solids,” he instructed, nodding toward the felted green table. 
“I got it,” you snapped. 
The seven was lined up for an easy left pocket, and you sunk it before going after the three. The felt was soft under your finger tips, and the lamp heated up over your head, and something about the angle of your elbow nearly cleared someone’s beer from the lip of the table. They caught it, but your cue ball missed the three entirely, whiffing itself into a tailspin. 
You cursed under your breath and stood back up into a full conversation you’d somehow missed, laughter and crinkled eyes. You frowned at Eddie, passing him back the stick. 
“Argyle whistled at your ass, and you knocked his beer off the table,” he muttered under his breath. “You’re actually doing quite well for not being here.”
You glanced over his shoulder at Argyle, who held his hands, and a bottle, up in surrender, brown eyes wide. “Hey, man, please don’t kick my ass. I was just complimenting a beautiful woman.” 
It took a second for his words to set in, for the blur of the roadhouse to dull, and when they finally clicked, you plastered on a smile and plucked the remainder of the boy’s beer from his hand. The liquid was room temperature at best, the glass coated in condensation.
Your group erupted in laughter. 
Argyle was harmless, and only ever flattered, and you felt that if you were really present, if your laugh was genuine, things tonight might feel exactly as they had before. 
“I’m getting waters,” Steve ran a hand through the new curtains of his hair and turned for the bar. Robin rubbed between his shoulder blades. Nancy knelt over the pool table, sinking thirteen, twelve, eleven. It was Jonathan’s turn to whistle, and she hip-checked him with a smug look on her face before sinking fifteen and nine. 
“I’m so glad you came out,” Robin appeared at your side, warm and perfumed.
“Me too,” you smiled, avoiding the glares you were receiving from Eddie across the table. His incessant knocking pulled you out of bed, and he practically had to force you to put real clothes on. 
“Quick, before Steve comes back, tell me a secret about him no one else would know.” Argyle grinned behind another bottle he’d scrounged up table side. He’d also extended a basket of fries to you. 
You took one, a little soggy, and thought behind your hand as you chewed. 
“Oh my God, he wears glasses at night like an old man.” Robin snickered. 
Argyle gasped, the exact kind of scandal he was fishing for. “I bet he looks good in glasses.” 
“He does,” Nancy confirmed from the table. Jonathan seemed less impressed at this revelation. “Eight ball middle pocket.” And with a sturdy clack, it went in. 
Eddie cursed and peeled a couple of dollars from his wallet. 
“We get winner!” Robin declared, nabbing the pool stick propped near Eddie’s walker. 
“Aw man, I wish I had a partner,” Argyle lamented into his fries.
“No, you don’t,” Steve appeared, taking the neck of your bottle from your hand before replacing it with a plastic cup full of ice water. 
You rolled your eyes, but sipped, the frigid water a nice wash against the buzzing under your skin. His warmth beside you was welcoming too, the smell of his cologne.
“Sure I do. You get to learn all kinds of things no one else would know. Come on, tell me something about her.” 
Your heart sank under Steve’s gaze. You had one big secret, one looming bad guy that only Steve and Eddie knew about. None of you had told Robin. None of you could tell Robin. You tried not to focus now, tried to keep the nightmares at bay. 
“She’s a terrible swimmer,” he settled on. “Like one of the worst I’ve ever taught, and I used to teach toddlers… and Robin.” 
“Fuck off, Harrington,” Robin cackled, breaking the rack with an immense thwack. “You are just the world’s worst helicopter mom.”
“I’d back off if you could walk up a set of stairs without tripping,” he snapped back. 
“Says the guy who had an entire staircase fall under his weight,” you commented.
Everyone laughed. You even felt the rumble of Steve’s chest against your bicep, that warmth slowly thawing the freeze. 
“Jonathan, what do you guys think? Having a partner all it’s cracked up to be?” Argyle mused to his best friend. 
Jonathan sunk the first ball of the game and shrugged. “It’s nice when someone has your back. Nance can get a little bossy though…” 
Nancy rolled her eyes and took a long swig of her beer. She wiped the corners of her mouth as she swallowed and said, “Jonathan hums, constantly. No matter what we’re doing, he’s humming.”
Just as she said it, he stopped the tapping of his hands to his thigh, and you all pointed in glee at the discovery. 
“Hey, nothing wrong with a man with rhythm,” Eddie grinned, slapping a high-five to his friend. 
“God, Vickie does that too,” you chimed in, enjoying the camaraderie you’d been missing for so long. “She just gets these like ear worms and she has to sing them. Drives me up a wall.” 
You hadn’t realized what you’d said until Steve stiffened beside you, until you made eye contact with a sad smile from Eddie. Your blood ran cold. 
“Oh my God, I know! She was constantly getting things stuck in my head,” Robin pitched in to help you recover, but you noticed the waver in her voice, and it crushed your insides a little harder. 
“My go?” Steve cleared his throat, stepping forward to take the stick from her hands. You noticed she’d been wringing it. You felt sick.
When Steve bent to strike another ball, Eddie whistled, and the tension was quickly diffused with another round of laughter. Everyone began to chatter again, but the noise had faded under the dull thrum of bass and the buzz of neon, and the ice cold terror that lingered there between your shoulder blades. 
You muttered an excuse for the bathroom, but walked straight out the double doors and into the cold autumn air.
This time of night felt like being there, in the Ether. Sun set, everything went to grayscale save the sign attracting moths overhead. The red cast over the gravel parking lot, shimmering off chrome tailpipes and the hood of Harrington’s car. That same lingering damp clung to the air, steaming your breath, chattering your teeth, and you propped yourself against a corrugated tin wall. It smelled of iron and cigarette smoke, and your tongue tasted of tequila and regret. 
Your head spun, eyes ached and dry with exhaustion. No sleep felt easier than sleep these days, but you noticed each came with a price. Your muscles twitched, like a shiver, but incessant. Either way, you couldn’t escape them. 
She was always out of reach now, concerned features just past the focus of your view. She donned the same face as in the photograph: sad, frightened, determined. Her hair was crispy at the ends, a shock of orange burnt black, and soot coated the fingers of her extended hand. 
He was there too, less visible, but somewhere in the recesses, always lingering behind, waiting for the opportune moment, a terrifying face above rippled water that beckoned. 
You heard the crunch of boots against gravel, a noise from reality that sucked you back, wracked a shiver through you. You wiped at a running nose and plastered on a fake smile to ensure you were alright. 
But Robin hadn’t come to check on you, as you assumed she might. No, in her stead was Steve, face knotted up in worry, fingers carding through short hair. 
And you didn’t know what made you do it, maybe these unseen forces, maybe the embarrassment from inside, or maybe you’d just been dying to do it for well over a year now, but you swung on him. Full fist, knuckles connecting with cheekbone, and he stumbled backward in surprise before blocking your neck swing.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?” He growled, grasping your wrist in his hand. 
“What’s wrong with me?” You called, tearing your arm from his grip to shove at his chest. “What’s wrong with me, Harrington? I had to murder my best friend. I had to take a torch to her living, breathing, screaming body and not let go of the trigger until she stopped. I have to relive it every single day of my life, and I’m just supposed to be strong about it and okay with it because this is the life I’ve chosen to live.” 
You accentuated each thought with another shove until he was backed against a wall, his Member’s Only jacket fisted in your grasp, and then, he was wrapped around you, arms tight, the pressure of his large hand relieving the throb in your skull as your body wracked with sobs. You nearly crashed to your knees, but he stumbled and held you upright. One strong arm swung around your ribs, while the other stroked your hair. 
“You were supposed to protect me. To keep me safe,” You couldn’t breathe, couldn’t see, gasping for air as you sunk your fingernails into his shoulders, desperate for his help. 
Heat fanned your face, soft lips pressed to your temple to draw your focus, and you felt the steady inhale, exhale of his broad body against yours. He guided you to match his breath. “I know. I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry.”
You finally relaxed into him, face tucked into a warm neck, his presence all-encompassing, a splash of water on a puffy face, and when you felt grounded enough, you released his jacket, allowing your arms to drop at your sides. 
His release was slower still, and large hands came to cup your face, to thumb away your tears, but you couldn’t bear to look at him, embarrassed or heart broken or angry, maybe all three. 
He spoke your name, soft, tender, and you brought your hands up to pull his wrists. His hands fell away easily. 
You glanced up at him, avoiding eye contact, and noticed a splash of red against his white t-shirt. “You’re bleeding,” you mumbled, fingertips trailing the small patch of blood, maroon spreading across the cotton fibers. 
“No, you are,” he said.
When you met his gaze, something happened, a shift you couldn’t explain. You felt the world rumble beneath your feet, saw the gaping maws of gates flash behind your eyes. Like the drop of a bass, the dull throb in your skull shifted to searing pain. You mopped at the blood on your upper lip with trembling fingers. “Something’s wrong.” 
You thought you might tumble over, equilibrium changing. 
Steve caught you in his arms. “What do you mean? What’s wrong?” 
You heard your name from somewhere close by: her voice, a warning. You glanced to your right and saw Nancy and Jonathan rushing out of the double doors. 
“Steve!” Nancy called. “Massive seismic activity detected. We have to go right now.”
Argyle was rushing to start up his truck. Eddie and Robin were closed behind, hugging leather and denim jackets to their bodies. 
“Take care of her,” Steve and Eddie spoke simultaneously, pointing at their perspective best friends. 
Steve rounded on you. “Are you good?” 
Unsure, but determined, you nodded, and he slipped his hand in yours to hoist you into the truck bed. As the five of you sped off into the night, you could just make out Robin and Eddie under the glow of the neon sign, a shock of orange lingering behind them. 
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A/N: Finally, a reunion with Robin! As I was writing her at the diner, I was like uhhhh... I think I'm in love with her. So that's fun. And the Reader and Steve are finally getting closer, finally getting over their issues... kind of? Please come yell at me about it. Thanks. Love you! Thanks, as always, for reading xo xo xo
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sapphyreopal5 · 6 months
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This is an older interview with Jared Padalecki and Nicholas Knight from the Supernatural Magazine issue #2 (Feb/Mar 2008), pages 10 to 15. [x]
"Another reason why Padalecki felt at home so quickly is his relationship with Jensen Ackles, who plays his onscreen brother, Dean. It's common knowledge that both of the actors are from Texas and that certainly helped them relate to one another, but it's their personal relationships with their siblings that truly set the foundation for their relationship. 'I have an older brother and a younger sister. And Jensen has an older brother and a younger sister as well', Padalecki points out. 'My brother and I are super close. When Dean and Sam get along, that's how my brother and I get along. We definitely tease each other. My brother and I will rib each other all the time, but there are no punches thrown. It's pretty laid back'.
'I think the reason Jensen and I got along so well was because we really didn't go about bonding', Padalecki continues. It didn't feel like a blind date. It felt like we were continuing a relationship as opposed to saying 'Alright, we're supposed to hang out with each other, so let's go play Basketball or something.' We just sort of hung out. It was really lucky. We just hit it off immediately. There's no rhyme or reason to what happened.'"
Hmm, are you possibly referencing this blind date story you mentioned a couple issues later, Jared?
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Family Man
"Whenever Padalecki does get a rare free moment, enjoying the sites of Vancouver isn’t the first thing that comes to mind. That honor goes to his family, who are much too far away for the actor's liking. 'I remember I had a conversation with my father one time, and he said, ‘Well, can’t you just call me for five minutes?’ And I was like, 'I don’t want to just call you for five minutes. If I’m calling my father, I want to talk to you for a while. You know what I mean? I want to know how your life is going and I have a good hour conversation at least.’
You act for free- you get paid to wait.’ In a 14 hour work day on set, you're waiting a lot, but you can't just go running around like a chicken with its head cut off. You have to keep in character, and you use that time to try and make the scene better, not make phone calls and stuff. So, when I’m working. I definitely put everything else on hold.”
That “everything else” includes Padalecki’s love life, although the actor still tries to see his longtime girlfriend, Sandra McCoy, whenever possible. “She and I visit as much as we can," he discloses. “I'll come back to L.A. on the weekends, or she'll come up to Vancouver. But it’s not as easy as it could be.” Padalecki and McCoy met on the set of the movie Cry Wolf. And while they enjoyed working together at the time, they have differing views about repeating the experience.
"I’d [like to], but I think she probably doesn’t feel the same. I think she’s like, 'You do your thing. I'll do my thing.’ It’s definitely not as easy as it was when I was on Gilmore Girls and living five miles away from her, but we make it work. Spending time with his girlfriend, chilling with his friends and family, hanging out with Ackles… all these things take time away from something else that Padalecki bves - sleep. “I really like to sleep,” he chuckles. ‘That's the first thing that comes to mind because that’s what I’m most deprived of! I remember I used to watch my father go to sleep watching television and I was like, ‘How can you sleep? It’s not even dark in here.'"
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Green Screen
"For Padalecki, keeping in shape isn't the most challenging aspect of working on Supernatural. “It’s definitely the green screen.” the actor states. It’s one thing to sit and talk to somebody and have a conversation - I’ve done movies and plays where you’re performing a monologue, and that’s always easy. But when they say, ‘Right, look at this wall. This X mark is the face of a visual effect that we haven’t made yet. so you're just going to have to imagine something scar>’ - that’s definitely the hardest part. It’s not like pulling teeth or anything. but it’s definitely weird. I always find myself thinking, ‘I hope they make this thing look scary because I’m going to act scared, so I hope they don’t sell me out."'
Of course, behind the scenes of a show like Supernatural, it would only seem natural that strange things would happen, and Padalecki confirms that there are inexplicable things going on in the shadows. ''You always say, "Oh. It's just a breeze.'” he laughs. “But I remember one time we were filming an episode called Skin, which is one of my favorites. We were filming in this house, and there was a clock on the wall and it just fell off and everybody was looking around and all the crew guys were like, ‘All right, back to work.’ When things like that happen, you just don’t want to look any further into it, you know?"
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koirian · 28 days
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I just want to post my silly little OC’s somewhere :D
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Credits for picrew(cause I haven’t drawn her yet and im not good at drawing.)https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/114808
Her full name is Sandra Elizabeth Fitzpatrick or Liz, Lizzy, Sandy, Lucky
Military Nicknames/Callsigns: Shadow 7-77, Lucky, Peaches
Sandra is a military sniper for the Shadow Company (Small girl Big Gun!!!). She usually just wears Shadow Company uniform, Helmet, face mask, and tinted eye protection.
Personality: A bubbly gremlin, optimistic, cuddly, is short acts short(5’3), info dumps on anyone and everyone(Even the commander sometimes)
BACKGROUND!!!!!: She was born in Georgia, USA. Her father was born in Ireland while her mother was born and raised in Georgia. She grew up on a peach farm in the countryside. Her family likes buying lottery tickets every now and then. Sandra wanted to scratch one and ended up winning the lottery as a young child. It wasn’t a big lottery, but her family started calling her Lucky or four leaf clover. Her Papa liked hunting and occasionally took her and her siblings out which is where she learned how to use a rifle. She took to guns like a duck to water. Her grades weren’t the best so in the end she decided to join the military instead of college (AMERICA RAHHHH🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅). She eventually got recruited (Cough Cough stolen) by Graves into the Shadow Company.
Silly little facts:
Occasionally climbs people like a tree and perches on their shoulder to get a higher ground. It got so common that some of her taller teammates got an accessory on their armor that provided her with a more steady and flat place to perch.
After leave when she goes back to visit her family she’ll bring home crates of peaches for the company. Only the best and sweetest peaches make their way into those crates and she personally picks out the peaches herself straight from the trees. (Reason for the nickname peaches)
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remidyal · 4 months
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Bad Ideas of the Day Part 6 - Can't Stop Won't Stop
The monthly-ish roundup of bad ideas of the day! If you haven't seen these, I often put a bad idea of the day into the ideas channel in the fic discord; this is a monthly-ish roundup of them. The prior month's is here and then links further and futher back go.
As always, if anyone does something with one of these lemme know, I wanna see! This month's list is a little bit shorter than normal with fifteen prompts; I've been busy with holidays and all.
Bad idea of the day, you are what you eat edition: After the first day of school, Adaine is shocked to find out that an ancient bylaw of the school states that any student who kills a member of staff automatically inherits their position, and so she is in fact now the lunch lady, sworn to somehow provide quasi-edible meals to the students by the fourth bell of the day.
Bad idea of the day, strength in numbers edition: Fig turns up at the start of junior year claiming to now be a mathemagician, someone who wins in battle through the power of math, profoundly annoying Adaine who knows that's not how that works at all right up until the point in their first battle of the year where she yells out a complex equation, then stabs the person in the face while they're trying to work out what the hell she's doing.
Bad idea of the day, important life lessons edition: Worried that they're going to end up malnourished as adults, or at a minimum living on whatever they can pull from an interdimensional city within a magical jacket, Sandra Lynn, Jawbone, and Lydia start trying to teach the various children of Mordred Manor how to cook, mostly directed at Adaine and Aelwyn (who have 0 knowledge or skill in it) but expanding out to showing Kristen the wonders of various non-corn based cuisine, Fig how to use spice in a slightly more restrained way when cooking for others, and also the three of them going to a great deal of effort to learn the magic needed to cook ghost food so they can teach it to Zayn. (Ragh attends but is already a good cook.)
Bad idea of the day, hearts and crafts edition: Learning that it's a tradition among the devils of the hells to bring any romantic interest they might wish to pursue a trophy of their enemy, Fig drags the rest of her friends into a quest to cut out the heart of Ayda's greatest foe, the ancient pirate treasurer in charge of Leviathan's budget.
Bad idea of the day, winter wonderland edition: A fic covering the first snow day in Mordred Manor, up to and including all-out magical snowball fights, one of the ghosts possessing and bringing to life the snowman that gets made, and Ayda feeling kind of left out because she can't really play in the snow without it melting until, Rudolph-like, that becomes very useful when they really need to shovel the driveway but nobody wants to. (remember, kids, it's fine to make fun of someone for their differences unless that difference has a utility to society (???))
Bad idea of the day, It's 3 AM in a werehouse edition: The month after Tracker has a bad full moon and starts chewing on the walls, the denizens of Mordred manor are extremely alarmed to discover in the middle of the next full moon that a) their house is sentient and b) their house is now a werewolf and they need to go.
Bad idea of the day, class swap edition: Fabian Seacaster arrives at Aguefort hoping to turn around his family fortunes after his father was driven penniless out of Leviathan and off the seas, and is lucky enough to quickly find himself in a party that seems destined for finanical greatness. After all, other than the refugee high elf girl, his party consists of the heir to an invention empire, a girl who has been part of the leadership of a megachurch since she was a small child, a princess of Hell, and Riz Gukgak, son of THE Pok and Sklonda Gukgak.
Bad idea of the day, movie magic edition: The Dream Team has to deal with a sudden sequence of threats from movies coming to life, which is particularly not great for New York which now must deal with threats like King Kong, the alien ships from Independence Day, climate change, and an ungodly number of bad sequels like Home Alone 2 or Friday the 13th part 8
Bad idea of the day, hell is other parents edition: A fic that's just a meeting of the Aguefort PTA
Bad idea of the day, true art is petty edition: Driven by a need to out-do Lucienne's alleged fiancée, Margaret devotes herself to becoming a universe-renowned artist and poet, culminating in her spending the entire duration of the battle of the brands painting scenes inspired by the fight while ducking bullets and plinth mental blasts on-camera.
Bad idea of the day, rat race edition: Learning that New York is planning on putting forth a bid for the Olympics that will include plans to 'clean up' the city by further displacing the homeless without actually helping them, Kugrash decides to be the rat in the soup that will blow up the bid during the olympic committee's tour and presentation of the city. Can he be gross enough to derail it, or will New York City end up with a bunch of white elephant buildings and debt for a brief party at the people of New York's expense?
Bad idea of the day, oh now you've done it edition: Freshman year, Adaine speed runs getting kicked out of her house in one of the fastest ways possible: She befriends Zayn and becomes a goth.
Bad idea of the day, it's im-portent edition: Sometime during the time between freshman and sophomore year, Fabian catches on that his party's wizard is using her limited control over the very nature of fate itself to try to make him successfully meet cute with anyone - ANYONE - who isn't her sister.
Bad idea of the day, the easiest way to elevate your fantasy setting is to make something weird happen to the moon edition: Convinced that Galicaea is behind the eldritch monsters suddenly attacking Solace since Cassandra took up residence there, Kristen talks the rest of the Bad Kids into her plan: Get Gorgug's parents to make a Hangrocket so they can go to the moon and blow it up, shattering both the moon itself and Fallinel's faith in Galicaea to reduce her power enough to make the monsters stop.
Bad idea of the day, I'm Getting Fantasy High Ones Out Here While I Can edition: In a fit of paranoia, Riz decides that his friends are in terrible danger of being assassinated by Fallinel/the Helioic church/Hell/Whitclaw's children/Sam Nightingale and that he needs to keep an eye on them at all times, resulting in everyone else getting annoyed by him doing things like hiding in the secret passages of Mordred Manor
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SECOND; sydney lohmann x fem!reader
Summary: in which sydney started flirt with reader during the game.
Warnings: fluff.
Note: English is not my first language.
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Germany against Spain.
The match that could decide the position that they would stay in the third match.
Y/N jumps on the spot, behind Mariona. They are waiting in the tunnel, alongside them was Germany's players.
Ones of the referee came to check if everything was in order. For Y/N's lucky, it was.
"Y/N." Patri turned towards her, calling. The mentioned raised her head and looked at her. "Look to your left." Y/N furrow confused.
She did what Patri said and to her left was their rivals. Y/N doesn't understand what Patri means, until she saw how a player was looking at her from time to time. Ironically, she was in the same line than Y/N, it only changes that they are on different teams.
Y/N blushed a little, looking away. She saw how Patri wiggles her eyebrows subtly. Mariona turned towards her questioningly, Y/N shrugged, trying not pay attention to the other side.
"Why has she done that?" Mariona muttered, leaning a little towards Y/N.
"Because is silly." Y/N muttered back.
Mariona raised an eyebrow, smirking. "I know that. But why exactly is she dumb this time?"
"VAMOS CHICAS! PODEMOS CON ELLAS!!" The captain's voice interrupt the conversation, starting walk outside of the tunnel.
"For now it stay here, but later I'm going to ask." The Balear hummed, patting her shoulder and turning to walk, Y/N following her.
They positioned in horizontally when they approach the center, waiting for the anthems to sound. The first anthem to sound was that of Spain. All the players put together, the first chords sound, making the people chant it. Since this anthem has no lyrics, the players listened to the anthem in silence. Once it finished, they applauded and separated a little from each other, waiting to sound Germany's anthem.
When it finished, Spain's players went to greet the referees and rivals, wishing them luck. Y/N shakes hands with them, smiling politely. When she approachs the girl that was looking at her in the tunnel, the German player winked, smirking when she saw Y/N's pink cheeks. Y/N shakes her hand rapidly and passed to the next, hearing how the brunette laughs softly.
Once they finish to shakes hands, Spanish players went to take off their jackets, throwing it towards a member staff team. Then they take the photo quickly and Irene went with the referees and the other captain.
While, the Spanish players went to hug each other. Y/N hugs Ona and successively until she reached Patri, who once again wiggles her eyebrows this time more noticeable. Y/N shakes her head funnily, patting her back. Then the last one was Mariona.
"I saw that interaction." The Balear comments on her ear.
"What interaction?" Y/N asks innocently.
They separated from the hug and Mariona looked at her smiling. "You know what interaction." She kissed her cheek and went towards her position.
Y/N puts herself next to Aitana, who wink at her. In front of her was the German player that winked her before.
"Du siehst süß aus, wenn du rot wirst." She muttered at her.
Y/N clearly didn't understand what she told her.
"Si vamos a jugar a ese juego, yo también puedo hablar en otro idioma." Y/N said to the woman.
"Or we can talk in English. I'm Sydney but you can call me Syd." The German introduced herself, smirking seductively.
Y/N furrow. "You understood what I said?"
Sydney shakes her head. "No, but I can have an idea."
Y/N looks to the center and saw how Aitana turned her head to the other side, clearly she heard everything because she have a smug smile on her face.
Soon, Lucía García moves the ball towards Laia Aleixandri, searching in a long ball some of the striker catch the ball, failing.
When she saw that Sandra Paños at the time of clearing she accidentally gave the ball to Klara Bühl and this one scored, Y/N bites hard her lip. In the 2nd minute Germany scored and it was another team that scored on the first minutes of the game.
Y/N puts herself in her initial position, waiting for Lucía to moves the ball.
"Don't hurt yourself, hertz." Sydney muttered, signaling with her head to her lip when Y/N turned to look at her.
The Spanish player remained quiet, releasing her lip between her teeth. Sydney smiled when Y/N released her lip.
"That's better." The brunette said.
Soon Lucía moves the ball, starting a new play. Spain was dominating it, creating occasions that finish on nothing. Y/N, Mariona and Aitana was creating many occasions, they are being a real nightmare for Germany. They are all trying but the goal was resisting and it didn't help when Alexandra Popp score the second goal.
Y/N shakes her head, really annoyed. It angry her why they was having bad luck and why the rival arrived less and scored. Mapi patted her back when Y/N passed next to her. With her jaw clenched, once again put herself in the line, Sydney accompany her in front.
"I'm sorry..." The German whispered, seeing Y/N's mad face.
"You're sorry because your team are winning? That make you all leaders?" Y/N scoffed. "Because if I was winning, believe me when I tell you that I will don't feel sorry." She whispered.
Sydney smiled playfully. But surprisingly she stayed quiet.
The first half finished and they all went towards their respective locker rooms. Y/N sat down in her bench with a water bottle on her hands while heard how her coach was giving them a speech. Mariona was by her side, her free hand on Y/N's knee, trying calm at her friend. Their coach after gave them some new tactics, he went away giving them some space.
"We have this second half. We can." Mariona encouraged Y/N.
This one bites her lower lip, unsure if she shares what exactly she thought about it, but decided stay quiet and not be negative. So she nods with her head, bringing the indelible smile on her face.
"I saw you talking with Lohmann." The Balear comments, sipping from her bottle.
"Mainly she talked at me." Y/N muttered.
"She was flirting with you?" Mariona asks, laughing softly when Y/N blushed rolling her eyes. "I guess that is a yes."
"She is cute." Aitana comments sitting next to Y/N, drinking water.
"We are talking about Lohmann?" Patri came too, putting herself in front of them.
"No, they are." Y/N answered, the other two snorted.
"I bet that she would ask you on a date when we finish the game." Patri said convinces.
Y/N rolls her eyes. "Well, it would be a no for my part." She said, standing up.
The other three disagree with it, standing up too and following her.
"Come on! She seems nice." Aitana said.
"And have an interest on you." Patri said too. "I think I never saw you with someone in a relationship." She comments to herself, blushing when she notices that she said it loud. "Sorry."
"Anyway." Mariona said, coming back to the topic they are talking before. "Give her a chance. Aitana have right, she seems nice." Mariona spoke with some knowledge.
They are walking back to the pitch, just like the German's players and like if the brunette know that they are talking about her, approached in the room. Patri and Aitana nudged her sides, making Y/N hiss from the blow.
Mariona grabs they both for their arms and bring them with her towards the pitch, letting behind Y/N.
"Hey Spanish girl!" Sydney greeted her, approaching by her side. "You never told me what is your name."
Y/N looked at her, seeing a smirk on her face. "My last name was on my back, but my name is Y/N." She said shyly.
"Nice to meet you, Y/N." Sydney said, pronouncing her name slowly. "Good luck." She said, extending her hand towards her.
Y/N furrow, shaking it. She notices that Sydney's hands was soft. "Thanks, I think you don't need it." She muttered, laughing softly.
"Maybe we need it." The German said, shrugging smiling.
They let out their hands and went outside, Sydney going with her teammates and Y/N with her teammates.
"Alright, since when you and that player are talking?" Leila muttered by her side, passing her right arm for Y/N's shoulders.
"Yeah, I thought that you and I had something." Ona said, putting a hand on her heart.
"Leave me alone." Y/N mumbled, walking fast to her initial position. She heard how the other two laugh.
With every minute that passed, Y/N was getting frustrated, pissed. She almost score in the 58th minute, it was so clear that really angry her.
"Stay like that." Mariona muttered on her ear, hugging her briefly, giving her support.
Y/N huffled, jogging.
When she turns look to the German goalkeeper, she notices someone put her hands on both sides of her waist. Y/N looks behind seeing Sydney's intense gaze, looking at her.
"Almost, schatz." The blue eyed girl muttered, squeezing briefly her sides.
"Stop calling me pet names in your language." Y/N said blushing, her gaze focusing in the goalkeeper that moves the ball in short.
"Okay... bebé." Sydney said, snickering when Y/N rolls her eyes, but was hiding a smile.
"Que idiota eres." Y/N said before running to steal the ball that Lena Oberdof have in possession, winning it and passing the ball to Aitana.
Sydney let out a small smile before she runs to steal it, mission imposible when Aitana pass the ball to Mariona and she almost score again. For her dislike, the Spanish coach subbed off Y/N, the girl clapping to the public who were chanting her name. Sydney clapped shortly too, earning some weirds and curious looks from her teammates.
"I hope you ask her out later after follow her throughout the match." Mariona whispered by her side, going away after say that.
Y/N watched the game from the stands, to her right was Olga, who sometimes they comment about a play. For their bad luck, Spain lost and they need win in the last game against Denmark if they want pass to quarters finals that it surely be against England. Y/N stood up and went to shake hands with the rivals, hugging to her teammates too, giving support.
Sydney avoided Y/N to shakes hands with her the last, hopefully to have some time to talk with the shy girl. She saw that the girl have now a messy bun, some strands of hair adorned her face.
"Take it easy there, Lohmann." Leila muttered on her ear, tending later her hand to shake. Her face was serious.
Sydney shakes it, swallowing hard feeling a little intimidated. Leila notices it and give her a small smile, patting her shoulder.
"What did she tell you to make you have that face?" Klara asks, passing an arm around her shoulders.
"Nothing." Sydney lies, giving her a lipped smile while grab a bottle that Lina was offering her.
"It's about that girl that you can't stop flirt?" Sara joined the three girls, snorting when Sydney blushed. "You spoke with her now?"
The blue eyed girl shakes her head. "I left her for the last." Sydney confess, removing Klara's arm around her shoulders and going to where Y/N is talking with Merle.
Her blonde teammate saw her and greeted her with her head, it called Y/N's attention, who looked to where Merle was looking. Her cheeks burned when saw Sydney walking towards them, hugging to her teammate first.
"Wir haben bestanden!" Merle exclaims.
Sydney smiled, looking at Y/N. "I hope you pass too." She said after separate from the hug.
Merle looked at them, specifically at her teammate with a raised eyebrow.
"Thanks." Y/N muttered shyly, accepting Sydney's embrace. "Congrats by the way. You pass like leaders." They separated from the hug, but the brunette remained her hands on both Y/N's sides.
"I guess we have luck, everything can happen in quarters finals now. But thanks." Sydney stayed with that silly smile while she looked intensely at her.
Merle watches the interaction with a smug smile. The blonde goalkeeper was trying hard to hold her laughter with Y/N's red face. Actually she thought that the Spanish girl was too cute and sweet.
"Sorry to interrupt you. But Syd, we need come back with our team." Merle said, feeling a little bad for take away her teammate from clearly her new crush.
Sydney grunts, not wanting to go. But she lets her hands fall and in a bold move, Sydney kiss Y/N's left cheek and follow her teammate, leaving behind a speechless Y/N.
This one walked to her teammates with her cheeks like her jersey, red. She puts herself between Laia and Lola when their coach was giving reassuring words.
"I saw that." Mapi whispered on her ear when they hugged after the speech.
"Only you?" Y/N said ironically.
"Nope. A lot of us." The blonde said giggling when she saw Y/N's face. "Don't worry, I think we can accept that German. But not other, you hear me?" She says jokingly.
Y/N pushed her softly, earning more laughs from her. Soon, they are walking back to the locker room after clap to the people who approached in the stadium to support them.
Once there, Y/N sat down with Mariona and Claudia to talk. In the background muffled noises was heard, but Ona managed to listen when someone from outside knocked at the door.
The Catalan walked to the door and opened it, her furrow was replaced by a smug smirk. "Well, hello alemana. Wanna see someone?" Ona leaned in the doorframe with her arms crossed about her chest, looking at Sydney mischievously.
Sydney blushed when Ona asked her. She cleared her throat and with confidence nods. "Can you call Y/N, please?" The German asked in a low voice, her gaze on Ona's.
The freckled girl made a grimace with her mouth and giving Sydney another smug smirk, the defender went inside, closing the door.
Ona walked to where Y/N is sitting. "Someone is asking for you." She states in front of her, crossing her arms once again.
Y/N furrow, confused. "Who?" She asks, standing up.
"Sydney Lohmann." Ona answers, smiling widely. "I let her enter or you are going?"
Y/N grabs Ona's wrist when after a moment she was to start walk, probably to let the German gets inside. Y/N cleared her throat and with a warning look towards Ona and Claudia, she walked to the door.
Sydney's blue gaze was the first that Y/N saw when she opened the door. She closed it and stood in front of her, crossing her arms timidly.
"Hi." Y/N greeted in a small voice.
"Hallo." Sydney said, smiling softly. "Look, I want say it from once." She started said, grabbing Y/N's hands when she asked with her eyes and this one nodded. "I like meet sometime with you... To drink a coffee or have lunch time. Like a date. I don't know if you notice it but I was flirting with you and... You don't look to reciprocate it, so I'm asking directly now. Do you want go on a date with me?" The blue eyed girl bites her lower lip nervously when she finished talking.
Y/N pass her tongue for her lips, nervous too. Her gaze wondered for the wall behind Sydney.
"We can try that date..." Y/N muttered, smiling timidly when she saw Sydney's big smile.
The German nods with her head and letting out a hand, she grabs her phone and extended it at her.
"You can put your number there." Sydney explained, unblocking her phone on Y/N's hand.
Y/N nods and typing her number, she gave it back to the owner, who was smiling toothy towards her.
"Alright I let you alone now." Sydney said, letting her other hand fall.
Y/N in a brave move, she hugged the girl. She passed her arms around her shoulders, making the other hug her for her waist, surprised.
"I will waiting that text or call." Y/N whispered on her ear.
Once they separated from the hug, Sydney's smile widened when Y/N this time, kissed her cheek, going inside of the locker room.
"I told you!" Patri was the first on speak, going towards Y/N hugging her.
"Our Y/N is going to go to a date with a German? Leila are you alright with it?" Pere asks, like if Leila approves, the others too.
The Catalan defender walked towards Y/N and puts an arm around her waist. "We can let her go to this date and if it goes well, we need deal with a German." She said the last part faking being defeated.
Y/N punch her on the arm jokingly while the others laughs.
"Wait! We need another approval from another person." Pere once again talked, grabbing her phone and calling someone. "Hola reina! How are you? Well I know we lost but later we speak about that. I don't know if for tv you watch how our Y/N had a German enthralled and right now that German came and ask her on a date! We need your approval if not, Y/N can't date this cute girl." She fastly explained.
Y/N rolls her eyes, but the truth was that she was nervous.
"Pass her the phone." Andrea approached Y/N and extended her phone towards her. "Holaaa." She greeted her when saw her shy face on the screen. "Look, if you accept that date it's okay. I just ask that she treats you well." Alexia said, smiling when Y/N did it.
"Thanks, capi. I think she is a good person." Y/N confess.
"That's all that matter." Alexia said.
"Who would spy on them?" Aitana asks loudly, like if Y/N wasn't there.
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“But it isn’t a serious injury, is it?”
“It isn’t. Just a very painful sprain.”
“I wish I was there to take care of you.”
“I have Sandra keeping an eye on me, don’t worry.”
“But she can’t take care of you the way I do.”
“Mason…”
“It’s the truth and you know it” he says with a big smile. “And that must be Chilly. It’s time to go back to training.”
“Enjoy. And try not to die. Wearing long sleeves with the temperature you must have in LA…”
“Meh meh meh” he says, sticking out his tongue. “I love you, gorgeous.”
“Love you too” I say before hanging up.
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“I can’t wait for the moment he sees you. He is gonna be so shocked!”
“I just hope everything works out.”
“It will. I helped you plan it, didn’t it?” Leah says.
“That’s what worries me” I say, teasing her.
“Oh, you are so lucky I can’t kick your ass right now because of your condition.”
“Leah! What if someone hears you?” I whisper. We are waiting for Mason in the room they have for family and friends after the games. Today it’s been his first game of the season at Stamford Bridge, which makes my visit even more special.
“They all believe you are injured, so” she shrugs. “And you are so lucky his family couldn’t come today. I’m sure his mum would have noticed, they have like a sixth sense for these things.”
“Oh, I know. My mum asked me the other day if I was sick because my face looked different, but I told her it was just the phone’s camera, that it probably was dirty.”
“Mothers” Leah chuckles. As she says that, the door opens and Mason walks in.
“I don’t know why I’m here, no one was coming today” he says to Chilly.
“You sure, bro?” he says, nodding towards Leah and I.
“What the…” he says when he sees me. “What are you doing here?”
"Surprise!” I say. “Can I get a hug or something?"
"Of course you can!" he says, finally moving towards me and lifting me in the air.
"Careful, Mase."
"Oh, your injury. Sorry, love. How is that they let you come?"
"I don't have to rest anymore, and since I can't play and the girls are away, they didn't mind."
“Remind me to thank Real Madrid for the surprise."
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"God, I've missed you so much" Mason says.
"We saw each other a month ago."
"I know. But I got used to kissing you all the time, whenever I wanted. And you know how much I struggle with that."
"Then you better make the most of these days."
"Oh, I plan to. Starting now" he says, lifting me from the sofa where we were cuddling.
"Mason, careful."
"I know, I know. I heard Leah when she said no brusque movements."
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"I'm serious, Mount. Treat her like the queen she is, no Money Mase today."
"Money Mase?" he asks.
"That's how I call you when you go feral on her."
"Leah! He didn't need to know that!" I say, my face burning.
"Sorry" she says, trying to look innocent.
"I'll be gentle, I promise. She just has to relax and let me do all the work. I'm pretty good at it, am I not?" he smirks.
"Maybe too good" Leah says.
"Uh?"
"Oh my God, shut up. Both of you" I say, hiding my face behind my hands.
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"Wait" I say as Mason starts undressing me. “I have a surprise for you."
"Another one?" he says, arching a brow.
"Yep. I have to go get changed."
"Oh... Is that type of surprise..." he smirks. "Should I start thinking about colours?"
"Maybe" I say, leaving the bed and going into the bathroom.
"A dressing gown again?" he says when I show up again.
"Yes. But there is something underneath it this time."
"Something I will like?"
"Hopefully. Do you want to see it?"
"Please" he says, sitting at the end of the bed.
"It's very special... I've had it for 4 months now. Are you ready?"
"Ready" he says, licking his lips.
"Surprise!" I say, my hands shaking a bit as I let my dressing gown fall to the floor, turning to the side and touching my belly so he can see the small bump.
"What the..." he says, his eyes going wide. "No. That is... You..." he says, pointing at my belly. "You are..."
"Pregnant.”
"You... are... pregnant. You are pregnant!" he says, getting up from the bed and taking a step closer towards me. "This is real, isn't it?"
"Very real, yes."
"Can I touch it?"
"Of course."
"Wow" he chuckles. "You are pregnant. Like... this is real. There is a baby there. My baby. Our baby."
"Yep. Our baby" I say, trying not to cry.
"We are having a baby... I'm going to be a dad!" he says, finally smiling while caressing my bump.
"You are going to be a dad, Mase. The best dad" I say, not being able to keep my tears away anymore. He looks so happy.
“I’ll try” he says, still smiling. “But how? When? Like..."
"Why don't we sit down and I tell you everything?"
"Yes, yes, you must rest. Wait, is this why Leah said that I should be careful?"
"It is."
"So she knows… Anyone else?"
"Sandra and Marco, but he knows just because he had to stop me from hitting the floor when I fainted after finding out."
"You what?"
"It’s not that serious. Sit down and I’ll explain everything.”
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General thoughts about the reveal on who the Maggie in the Toronto arc was?
Also general thoughts on the arc?
i think its fun that she and blake are both connected (& she's the last tether blake has to anyone knowing he exists) via having both slipped through the cracks due to Whoopsie-Daisies. also say what u will about literally everything else in wb's writing but i like how girls in wildbow novels are more often than not grungy and a little weird. already talked abt the goblin thing some in the last maggiepost but i do really like the goblins. "pure distillations of the dirty abandoned scraps of the world which exist solely to kick you when you're down" is an extremely coherent and fun spin on goblins. the constant "fat = gross" associations are insufferable but the rest is solid. the padraic thing isn't one of the iterations of maggie's prophecy but it does feel fitting for her character that the girl who was initially inducted into being a practitioner via living somewhere that was slipping thru the cracks was fucked over for a Second time via slipping thru the cracks. i hope she is fucked over a Third time by it for rule of three. also i was in fact correct previously when i said this:
i also think she’s probably still in over her head without realizing. she’s manipulated into ordering someone’s murder and then is like “you know i think i can make up for this one AND go on a fun little adventure to add to my scrapbook of knowledge at the same time.” that’s not how reality works! you killed someone! and then tried to semi-earnestly befriend slash mooch from their cousin! she’s only been a practitioner for six months–i think there’s a very fundamental disconnect btwn the maggie that’s lucky enough to still have parents she can be a normal silly teenager with and the maggie that’s making forays into The World Of Backstabbing, Horror, Murder, and Fates Worse Than Death. and i think that disconnect will result in strain for her as the fact that she’s sort of doomed to do some really awful things, have some really awful things happen to her, and/or both sinks in.
except instead of just Strain. that fact had to sink in via her doing, as sandra put it, the magical equivalent of crashing a car 2 learn respect for the road. YA protagonist maggie holt died in the crash now it's just wannabe goblin queen mags scrambling 4 purchase in the wreckage. i believe in her i hope she captures sooo many crass little creatures. i'm glad that buttcheeks stuck around he's fun to watch :)
i don't feel like we actually know johannes yet. the thing about the really successful practitioners is that they're doing less Desperate Violent Scrabbling to maintain their positions and subsequently have more luxury of ostensible niceties and lofty philosophies. they should throw a bucket of mud on him and toss him to the wolves so i can see what he's like when shit gets real. also the entire arc is a really funny demonstration in how severely being a thorburn has fucked blake over. everyone is sooo much nicer to maggie than him he's out there playing on hard mode. this is what i mean when i say that alec would b a diabolist, diabolism is fundamentally abt when you are marked Rotten by the world by virtue of the family you've been born into, defined more by their legacy than by anything about yourself, even moreso than the other brands of practitionerism.
hmm anything else. oh yeah i think we should flog wildbow for crone mara. ok thats all. OH yeah and Not Being Maggie Holt Anymore is a really funny way to skip out on the other iterations of the prophecy. its that fairy bitch's problem now. i have a lot of thoughts on pact faeries but that's a post for one of the "why are pact creatures good" asks just know i'm rotating them in my mind rapidly
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April 8, 2023: Neither Time Nor Grief is a Flat Circle, Christina Olson
Neither Time Nor Grief is a Flat Circle Christina Olson
The camellias are blooming in the rain, red and pink, real-life Valentine’s Day decorations. Their petals are not confetti or streamers, their petals are decaying organic matter that will fall and rot and feed the ground. And whoever said that grief was a flat circle was wrong, too; our friend Andy is dead now, and my grief is not flat. My grief is a sharp, hot thing that pokes me in the spine whenever I am crabbily unloading our dishwasher or I spend another Saturday sleepwalking the internet. Your one precious life, says my grief. Huh. I tell my grief to get lost but it stays here with me, wedges itself between my hip and the arm of the couch, like a dog that wants to be close but doesn’t really understand physics. Like it is a dog, I push my grief away and then I feel bad and invite it back, pat the cushion next to me, smell its wet breath. It’s oppressive, this grief, yet without it I feel terribly alone, wandering through the pandemic. The virus didn’t kill Andy—his heart quit. He went into a coma and he died. One day he was alive and now he’s not. The camellias are wet in the rain, no one told them about Andy. One day I’ll have more dead friends than living ones and people will think I’m lucky because that means I’ll have lived a long time. And that I had friends. I thought that writing this poem might help, but it didn’t. And so I tip this poem into an envelope and I mail it to you, reader. It’s yours now: the grief, the dog, the shuddering flowers. When you are lonely, this poem falls out of the book you’re not reading. You’re crying now, or maybe it’s just the rain.
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(Did you catch the Mary Oliver allusion?)
Other poems on COVID and on grief.
Today in: 
2022: Pippi Longstocking, Sandra Simonds 2021: Waking After the Surgery, Leila Chatti 2020: Gutbucket, Kevin Young 2019: Insomnia, Linda Pastan 2018: How Many Nights, Galway Kinnell 2017: The Little Book of Hand Shadows, Deborah Digges 2016: Now I Pray, Kathy Engel 2015: Why I’m Here, Jacqueline Berger 2014: Snow, Aldo, Kate DiCamillo 2013: from The Escape, Philip Levine 2012: Thirst, Mary Oliver 2011: Getting Away with It, Jack Gilbert 2010: *turning, Annie Guthrie 2009: I Don’t Fear Death, Sandra Beasley 2008: The Dover Bitch, Anthony Hecht 2007: Death Comes To Me Again, A Girl, Dorianne Laux 2006: Up Jumped Spring, Al Young 2005: Old Women in Eliot Poems, David Wright
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🐈‍⬛BLACK CAT🐈‍⬛: A DC's T.T. (2003) & Y.J. (2010) X-Over Imagine
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PLOT: The Team finds out the biggest fears and most shocking truths ever kept from the Black Cat by accidentally reading her secret diary about how she feels about herself. This bad little kitty got some lucky charms and some diamond claws to sharpen out once she comes back from her mission in Tokyo, Japan. How will they react to her changes? Will they uncover her lies about her past? Can they win back her trust?
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MAIN CHARACTERS: Felicia Drusher | Evelina "Eva" Gwendolyn Nelson, Freddie Dinardo | Richard "Dickie" John Grayson, Kaldur'ahm | Jackson "Jack" David Hyde, Wallace "Wally" Rudolph West, Kon-El | Conner "Con" Jonathan Kent, M'gann M'orzz | Megan "Meg" Marie Morse, Xena | Ophelia "Helia" Shauni Trevor, and Artemis "Artie" Lian Crock.
Mentioned Characters: Phoebe Starr | Zatanna "Zee" Zorina Zatara, Raquel "Rocky" Sandra Ervin, Matthew "Matt" Noah Jordan, Lorenzo "Enzo" Kevin Carter, Cyberion Technis | Victor "Vic" Anthony Stone, Craig Wyld | Garfield "Gar" Mark Logan, Abigail Constantine | Rachel "Raven" Angela Roth, and Koriand'r | Korra "Kory" Scarlette Anderson.
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Catgirl was sitting in front of her godfather Batman and spoke to him in sign language. He was listening to her explanation of why she won't talk about her grandmother's powers, the Lucky Girl was half alien and was a magic user. The Dark Knight held his hand up, which made the young girl stop immediately and nodded with an understanding look.
Batman knew her mother and father so well. His friends were loyal and nice to him that they let him hold their daughter, who's sitting on a chair in front of him at a conference room. The billionaire playboy was the first person who saw the symptoms and kept a sharp eye on his godchild, because Catgirl was staying silent about her pain.
"Eva, it's not good for you to hide your powers away and contain them against your will. That inhibitor collar has to come off your neck or they'll be no missions for you anymore, you're hurting yourself and not trusting what you can do. They saw how you can use magic, but this is what made you special and unique like your mother. Let me see your left arm," the Lucky Girl was hesitant and complies, rolling her long sleeve to reveal that the transformation has begun due to negative feelings and emotions. "I do truly appreciate your decisions of getting therapy from Dinah, yet you're still hiding yourself from the Team and not letting them have their pain back Eva. Your mother and her family was excellent help to you...just trust me on this and stop doubting yourself. Your insecurities will haunt you for the rest of your life if you don't tell the Team why you haven't been doing missions with them since wearing the Mask of Destiny and Helmet of Fate...please for the sake of your loved ones. We'll always love you for how caring, kind, loyal, and supportive you've been with all of us...including me."
Catgirl hugs him after pulling her sleeve down and covering the proof. Batman pats her back as she begins silently crying and sobbing. The Dark Knight let her break down into tears and hide her face from the view of Justice League members, who were part of the meeting about the Lucky Girl.
Once the meeting was over, Batman held her hand in his and ruffles her hair. Catgirl smiles sadly up at her godfather and nods. He lets her go back to Mount Justice and hears her designation number being called out.
"Bruce, I know you're worried about her like I am, that's why she got us and the rest." The Dark Knight sighs and hugs his best friend Astro Woman. "We gotta hope for the best and pray nothing bad happens over in the mountain, especially when Wally tends to surprise her the most."
Catgirl walks through the Boom Tube with her bag on her back and tired eyes. Her platinum white wig was miraculously stuck in a high ponytail and her matte black lipstick wasn't stained around her soft lips. The Team heard their teammate walking and saw the Lucky Girl still exhausted from last mission, which almost cost her life.
"Hey Cat, how's your meeting at the Hall of Justice?" Catgirl grumbled softly underneath her breath and tiredly plops onto Wonder Girl, who caught the Lucky Girl on time.
"You want me to carry you to your room Kitty?" The Lucky Girl nodded quietly and clung onto the female demigod's front.
Wonder Girl carries her back into her bedroom and gently set the younger girl onto her bed. Catgirl hums in appreciation and purrs softly as the Amazon warrior pets her head, coaxing her to fall asleep hard. As soon as Wonder Girl heard soft snores and deep breathing from the Lucky Girl, she smiles and puts a blanket over the young girl.
The female demigod carefully left the room and closed the door. Wonder Girl heads back to the lounge, raising an eyebrow at her boyfriend Aqualad and shaking her head no with a deep frown. The Atlantean soldier understood that look and knew it meant there's something wrong with their youngest member.
Ever since the Team was formed...Catgirl was the first heroine to be part of it, she lived in the mountain and was always doing her work at her bedroom due to personal spacing. The Lucky Girl got used to the Boy of Steel and would be his support system whenever he's having problems with Superman, which shocked the Justice League cause the young mute girl rarely let people rather than them and Red Arrow be close to her. The rest of the original members in the Team will treat her like a baby and always adore Catgirl for being independent.
For example...the Team came back wounded and hurt, she sprung from her chair in front of the Super Computer and took them to med bay. Wonder Girl managed to heal herself and helped the Lucky Girl with treating their comrades, though an appreciative comment from the Boy Wonder threw Catgirl's brain off so quick that she went redder than a strawberry. The three teenage girls never stopped pinching her rosy cheeks since that incident, what got the Lucky Girl on her feet and running away into her hiding places from the trio will be the words "DRESS-UP", and all four boys will chuckle from how the mute girl showed fear for the first time.
"Is Cat okay?" Superboy asked the female demigod, worrying about the mute girl who became a baby sister to him.
"The League took her to an important conference meeting this morning, based on her reaction...they wore her out." Robin answered for the Boy of Steel.
"Roy did claim to me that Cat's been keeping a secret from us, he thinks she's the mole...but seriously? If she was the traitor, how come she'll always return back in the mountain stressed out and exhausted? That's the most dumbest thing I'd ever heard," the Amazon warrior explained to them.
"Unless...we could...you know," the teenage speedster suggested, earning raised eyebrows and confused looks until they realize what Kid Flash was trying to suggest.
"Baywatch, Cat will never forgive us if we do that. That's her private diary, it has her personal life in it." Artemis told him, smacking him upside his head.
"First off...Ow! Secondly, don't act like you wanna know what she writes in it." Robin nodded in agreement and the rest was hesitant, but they finally agreed to their plan. "Now who's getting it and the key?"
The Team said "NOT IT" at different times, Robin groans in defeat s the rest gave him pointed looks and the Boy Wonder does the deed. He slowly hacks into the room and slides the door open, seeing the Lucky Girl curled up asleep in a tiny ball. Robin smiles and quietly awes at his crush's cuteness.
'Alright Robin, it's just a book. My crush's book of secrets, it can't be that bad.' The Boy Wonder thought as he sneakily took her book case with the key and leaves the dark bedroom without being noticed. 'Cat must be dead asleep from that meeting with our mentors, poor little kitten must be tired from all those mission reports as well to stack that much stress on her body.'
Robin silently closes the door and resets the password to her grandma's name. Kid Flash immediately takes his best friend to the living room and they high-five with proud grins on their faces. The Team sat down on their chosen spots as Miss Martian takes the book and opens the case with the key.
"This is so wrong in so many levels guys," the female archer said while seeing the front cover has a picture of her with the Team on it. "She got us on the front and the back...let's hurry and agree not to do this anymore."
The female Martian takes the personal book out from the case and sets the diamond box down. Catgirl's private diary was themed with black words, gray covers, white paper, and silver lining. Miss Martian gulps nervously and passes the book to Wonder Girl, who gave her best friend a wide-eyed look of disbelief.
"M'gann," the female demigod said with an offended look. "How could you? I'm not dying in the hands of a twelve year old girl...here Rob, you read it."
The Boy Wonder pouts at Wonder Girl and opens the book. Robin begins reading it out loud to his comrades, blushing when he finds out Catgirl got a crush on him and saw many insecure thoughts she has about herself. Red Arrow was wrong about the Lucky Girl, but they were beginning to feel concern on the mute girl's issues and problems.
"Ever since the League found out what was happening to me within the Helmet of Fate, I've been contacting my grandfather Kent through Nabu with my grandma's help and assistance with the Mask of Destiny. All the stress, fear, and pain was causing negative reactions to my powers and humanity. My father fixed one of those problems...that golden collar on my neck, it was containing my alien side from losing control and it sorta helped me. After twelve years of it on my neck, it's not working and was making it worse. The Team are starting to see signs of it, I've lost my appetite with food last week, I couldn't get sleep since a few months ago, and becoming much sensitive with my emotions on a daily basis that Batman forced me into therapy sessions with Black Canary. I'm afraid of the rejection and betrayal the people I cared the most think of me. There's five stages of it, I went through four of them, the fifth one will be most painful one cause this will damage me inside out and turn me into a monstrous freak. I got many anxiety attacks and went into panic mode during the meeting. I'm not relieved from it, not because my grandmother injected me with my painkillers and antidepressants...I had almost hurt the League. I know they're scared of me...who won't? After all, I'm nothing but a burden and a monster. Nobody can change that, not even the Team...I should probably run away and never return to Earth after tomorrow night when everyone's asleep. They won't be hurt anymore...especially when I'm gone far away from my grandmother's home planet." Robin read, closing it and putting it inside the black box.
The Boy Wonder locked the box shut and hung the key back onto its hook behind the case. Robin got up from his spot and walks to his crush's room. The Team watches their youngest male teammate slowly opens the door and sees that Catgirl was still resting.
Kid Flash ushers Robin out of the room and freezes when the Lucky Girl moves in her sleep. The rest drags the two boys out from her room before letting Superboy close the door shut and hearing it lock itself automatically. The Team frowns sadly as they stared at Catgirl's bedroom door and felt guilty for how they assumed that she's the mole.
The next day inside the mountain, Catgirl wakes up and does her daily routine before taking her prescribed medication. The Lucky Girl rolls up her long sleeves and gasps silently when she sees it got worse than ever from the nightmarish thoughts echoing her head. The mute girl takes a deep breath and hides the proof from view.
"Kitty, are you up yet?" Wonder Girl asked the Lucky Girl.
The young child quickly grabs her baggy jacket and a pair of black sweatpants to conceal how her casual clothes she loves wearing the most have vanished. Catgirl puts on her wig and applied her makeup before putting on her shades. The Lucky Girl heads out of her room with her bag strapped on her back with her diary case hidden inside it and walks to the kitchen for some fruit.
Once she found a green apple, the Black Cat vigilante took a bite from it and passes her teammates with a greeting wave. Catgirl pets Wolf and rubs Sphere gently with a softened look while going outside to the beach. The Lucky Girl begins absorbing some solar energy and feeling it generate some pure cosmic mana for her to devour by consuming the life-force phoenix within her inner self.
Inside the mountain, Robin begun hacking into the cameras and managed to get full access to the beach's ones. The Team watched Catgirl meditate by herself on a large rock and levitating, which made them shocked cause they thought it was all something she wrote behind their backs. The Lucky Girl used her mana to grab a bottle of nectar and drank the liquid, humming in content while she takes pure magic energy from the Sun and use the life-force from the Moon to try fixing her issues.
"Everything in that book was true, she does have powers." Kid Flash said.
The seven heroes noticed something glowing from her left side, the Team gasps in disbelied when Catgirl rolls up her long sleeves to reveal that her right arm was scarred and her left arm was encased with some kind of cosmic ice mana. They continued seeing the Lucky Girl getting distressed and on high alert. The mute girl begun taking deep breaths and slowly tries to calm down.
"That was her secret," their leader told them after understanding why she wore long sleeves and anything baggy.
"Recognize: Catgirl; B-0-0."
The Team froze to hear their beloved comrade's designation number called out by the Super Computer and knew she's behind them now. Wonder Girl slowly turns and sees Catgirl, who was looking scared and was actually frightened. The rest followed and knew by her scared expression that the Lucky Girl was caught red-handed.
"Cat, it's not what it looks like. We're worried about you," the Lucky Girl immediately flinches when Superboy takes a step forward and tries not to lose her composure.
"What was that on your arm?" Catgirl shook her head no while backing away and panting with a horrified look on her face.
"We're not gonna hurt you Kitty, we wanna help you get through this...just trust us okay?" Wonder Girl told her, following the mute girl and walking closer to the young child's personal space.
'Get away Opal, stay away from me.' Catgirl thought while shaking like crazy and trying not to lose control of her powers. 'Stay away from me, stay away from me, stay away from me...'
The Team could see that Catgirl was sweating from the fear and discomfort while she cuffs her hands together to keep her powers in check. The Lucky Girl's inner self was trying their best with her host and attempting to comfort the mute girl from the tension. As soon as Wonder Girl got closer, their six comrades grew concerned and wait for the next move.
"I said...STAY...AWAY...FROM ME!!!" An energy wave of mana was shot through her hands and hit Wonder Girl hard along with their loved ones, who groaned in pain from the magic blast.
'I hurt them,' the Lucky Girl thought with fear and guilt. 'I really am a monster...'
Robin watches Catgirl rushes into the Boom Tube through blurry eyes, hearing her call number and passing out with his six best friends. The Lucky Girl made it to her stop at the nearest subway station and luckily got herself a ticket. She sat down on the bench and wait for her subway train to come.
"Excuse me miss," the Lucky Girl turned to see some little kids and gave them a wave. "Do you got some food and water for us?"
Catgirl nodded, she begun taking out some sandwiches and bottles of water from her duffle bag. The kids thanked the mute girl and hugged her, which she responded with a pat on their backs and ruffling the hair on their heads. The Lucky Girl got her violin and thought about something to do for the children.
The selectively mute girl put her duffle bag to the side with a protective mana shield around it and stood on the bench. Catgirl thought about the hard times and good memories she have with the Team. The Lucky Girl takes a deep breath and begins playing her song.
Once the song ended, the people surrounding her applauded for her performance and put some money into her backpack. Catgirl bows for the crowd and hands some candy to the children, who cheered for her generous gifts to them. The Lucky Girl put her violin back in its case and heard her train number.
'Great, Raven and the rest are going after me too.' Catgirl thought as she heard her crow cawing ring tone for Raven, hanging up and setting her phone on silent mode.
Meanwhile near New York City, the Team couldn't find their Black Cat and won't give up searching for the mute girl. Catgirl's icy aura left some trails that leads to her and the seven sidekicks followed them to reach the fixed subway station underground at Manhattan. The Lucky Girl must've gotten down there for a train ticket and go somewhere else.
Around Broadway, Catgirl stepped onto her destination and gave a sincere smile to the people who helped her with her things. The Lucky Girl walked upstairs and saw the lights in amazement. The mute girl was relieved that her clothes she wore was back in her bag, but her gym clothes was affected by the transformation and was worrying her a lot.
The transformation was almost done, Catgirl got until midnight and the pain will fade from her body by replacing it with euphoria. Her inner alien side was keeping her stable from the toxicity of every environment and person she walks into by accident. The Lucky Girl tightens her cloak and vanishes into the shadows of night.
"Cat? Cat, where are you? Please come back home, we miss you." The Lucky Girl froze to hear the worry and saw the concerns of the Team's faces.
Catgirl gulps while looking at the mirror, seeing that it was getting darker and the metamorphosis was getting close to completion. She checks her watch and went scared...it was around eleven fifty-five at night, which meant her travel through New York City and its famous place must've been lasting longer than a hour. Catgirl kept her breaths silent and her heart couldn't stop beating like crazy.
The Lucky Girl suddenly shivers from the cold air and tries not to sneeze, which will trigger Superboy into finding her first. She held back the noise while sneaking away and going between a billboard. Catgirl sighs in relief until she lets out a sneeze, which sounds soft and cute like a kitten.
The Cadmus clone heard Catgirl's adorable sneeze, freezing and snapping his head at the billlboard. His six teammates followed his glance to the billboard where they were having a music award show and realized that she was in Broadway. Catgirl begun panicking with distress while her ice mana went into waves of energy and kept glowing bright like the stars in the sky.
"Kitty, please...for everyone's sake, just show yourself and we'll take you home...safe and sound." Catgirl scoffed from Wonder Girl's words in response, she sees a clear opening and takes a deep breath. "Cat...I don't wanna chase you all through morning, it's Saturday now and all I wanna do now...is sleep."
Catgirl's black pupils turned into slits and she let her transformation consume her completely after hearing her watch beep, signaling that it has struck midnight. The Lucky Girl starts flying in the air and the Team begun chasing her. Catgirl dodged the signs and construct some cold mana to block her loved ones from grabbing her.
The mute girl found herself flying to Central Park and hiding inside one of the cherry blossom trees, shifting into a white cat with blue eyes and black collar that has a silver bell on it. The Team reached there, they didn't see her use her witch arts to turn into a cat and climb up the blooming tree. Robin and Artemis saw ice footprints of a cat leading up to the tree they saw in front of them.
"Cat, please come down." Robin said, desperately begging for his crush to come down the tree.
"No! Go away!" Catgirl replied, refusing to come down and face her fifteen loved ones. "Y'all went through my book and spied on me to see my secret! I just wanna be left alone...like I'm always been."
The Boy Wonder begun climbing up the tree, seeing Catgirl as a domestic white feline heal herself with her mana to close the scars and burns away. Robin sees the burns on the cloak and knew they accidentally hurt her during their chase, which led to her using her magic for a portal as a transportation route to Central Park. Not only that, Catgirl took off the cloak and left it behind after it made her feel uncomfortable.
He kept his eyes alert while she shifts out of that form and reveals something...beautiful. The Lucky Girl was looking extraordinary within her final alien form and was trying not to have another anxiety attack. Catgirl felt a familiar presence close to her space, which meant her crush and destined mate have found her.
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The younger vigilante slowly turns and grew scared to see Robin staring at her form. She saw his hand reaching out for her and flinches out of fear. The Boy Wonder shushes her soft whimpers as he pulls her in a hug and she breaks down into tears.
"Shhh, it's okay Cat, we're not hurt, you're not alone." Robin said, comforting the Lucky Girl as she hiccups and sobs in his chest. "We're sorry for what we've done...please, just come home with us."
Catgirl closes her eyes and lets the Boy Wonder carry her out of the cherry blossom tree. The rest of the Team freezes to see the Lucky Girl went through her final transformation and became her true form. Robin cradles her close while she cries softly in his chest and clung onto him tight.
Catgirl slowly relaxes and turns to face the Team with her head down. When she raises her head up, Miss Martian was shocked to see an Anodite for the very first time and realized that bedtime stories about that alien species from her uncle were true...the Lucky Girl was one of them. The female Martian walks over to the shy girl and hugs her tight, causing Catgirl to freeze with shock and accidentally release a wave of mana from her body that made the rest of the Team relaxed.
'Oh you poor little thing,' the female Martian said to Catgirl in a telepathic link while holding Catgirl.
'Why M'gann,' the Lucky Girl whined while blushing and hugging her back. 'Conner, help me...she won't let me go now.'
Superboy joins the hug with the rest of their friends, Catgirl pouts at the alien couple in betrayal for their friendly affections on her and how it spread towards them. The Lucky Girl's inner felt the trust and safety within all fifteen sidekicks, leading for the shy girl to close her eyes in content. As soon as the Team pulled away, Catgirl opens her eyes and felt somebody holding her hand in theirs.
Robin squeezes it in reassurance before kissing her forehead and she squeaks, flustering madly while the rest smiles at the two vigilantes. Catgirl crosses her arms and grew a bit confident. The Boy Wonder sees the mischievous smile written on her lips and was suddenly floating around her cyan mana hair, staring at his crush in amazement for pulling that trick while their loved ones watched the two from above.
"You're beautiful Cat, I wish I could've help you with your pain." Robin told her softly while she hugs him and hums with a bright grin on his face.
"You and the Team did that, I can actually sense the genuine worry and concern y'all have for me. I finally realized that I wasn't alone anymore, I have all of you...especially you pretty bird." Catgirl replied before kissing him passionately and smiling when Robin kisses her back.
The two pulled away as the Lucky Girl helped them both safely on lower ground and smiled at each other, chuckling at the romantic scenario with amusement. Robin was about to kiss her again when Kid Flash cheekily takes Catgirl and zooms away from his best friend. The Boy Wonder gawks at the speedster in shock as he storms after him and tries to grab his Black Cat back.
"Did you get your picture now Artie?" Artemis nodded with a victorious smirk and sends it to Roy with the money signs on it.
"Told that jerk Robin will be her first kiss, he lost big time." Her four comrades chuckled before heading into the Bio-Ship with their female archer.
Robin came back with Catgirl over his shoulder and back in her human form at last, setting her down by his side. Kid Flash sped up and went in the ship next. The two vigilantes smile before stepping into there and holding hands together...as a young couple.
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WARNING: FLUFF, ANGST, MUSH, HURT, COMFORT.
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gleesongtournament · 1 year
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Glee Song Tournament Round One Part 19
Tributes (3/3)
I Look To You vs Let’s Wait A While 
Drive My Car vs Hold It Against Me 
Sgt Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band vs Superstition 
Lucky Star vs You’ve Got To Hide Your Love Away
Never Going Back Again vs I Will Always Love You
So Emotional vs What It Feels Like For A Girl
America (WSS) vs Hopelessly Devoted To You
Over At The Frankenstein Place vs Toucha Toucha Toucha Touch Me 
Look At Me I’m Sandra Dee vs Science Fiction Double Feature 
Born To Hand Jive vs There Are Worse Things I Could Do
Somewhere vs Whatever Happened To Saturday Night
A Boy Like That/I Have A Love vs Greased Lightning 
Beauty School Drop Out vs Something’s Coming 
Summer Nights vs Look At Me I’m Sandra Dee (Reprise) 
Time Warp vs Cool
Sweet Transvestite vs One Hand One Heart vs Damn It Janet
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The Third and Final Volume of Have Yourself a Merry Indie Christmas is Released Tomorrow
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So, I've reached the end of a rather wonderful journey. When I had the idea of curating a Christmas album, almost two years ago now, I didn't really have a specific project in mind at all. However, the best decision I took early on was to ban cover versions (I adore all the great Christmas classics, from Bing and Nat to Noddy and Elton) but anybody can round up a crappy cover version of an all-time classic. I wanted to see if there were undiscovered Christmas songs floating around in the ether that had simply never had a fair hearing, songs good enough to be future classics, at least within the genre of Indie music.
That meant a lot of back breaking and heart breaking (there are still moments when I full-on curse a record company for not consenting to the release of a track!) work along the way. I must have listened to every Indie Xmas compilation ever recorded - day after day spent trawling through Bandcamp, Discogs, label catalogues, you tube, Xmas podcasts and blogs.
On the subject of the latter, it was chancing upon the phenomenal Christmas Underground – We are the War on Christmas (Music) that allowed the fanciful vision I had of compiling the 'Best Indie Xmas Album Ever' to crystalize into a realistic proposition. I was discovering song after song there that I was falling in love with. These songs were from bands (mostly unknown to me) from all parts of America and all over Europe (Scandinavian Indie Xmas songs is a really flourishing sub-genre), it was incredibly exciting and lead to dozens of punch the air moments as, one by one, bands agreed to participate.
In addition to discovering new songs, I also set about tracking down bands that I admired and who I knew had an Xmas song in their back catalogue. I was lucky enough to get hold of songs from Dodgy, Girl Ray, White Town, bis, Pete Astor and many more. It was around this point that my idea for a 20-30 song album began to trend to the mammoth 108-track compilation that was released last Christmas. There were just so many unbelievable songs that I had to try and track down.
An example of the obsessive hole that I was digging for myself came when I read a write up on a Minneapolis band called GLOSS (who became Poshlost) before splitting up. Christmas Underground called their song 'Gifts Received' 'the best Joy Division/New Order Christmas song of all time! From the baseline, to the vocals, to the lyrics, GLOSS have hit the nail on the head when it comes to writing a dark, pulsing, disturbing Christmas song'. You can imagine, as someone whose favourite band is JoyDivision/New Order how much I wanted that song, because, unbelievably and against all the odds, it did sound like a Joy Division Christmas song. The band had long since split up though (the song dated back to 2015) and my bandcamp messages met with silence. In the end, I tracked down a band member on Facebook and received an immediate and favourable reply. That wild goose chase was repeated dozens of times through 2022.
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Volumes I and II succeeded in raising £5,800 for Crisis, nearly treble the target I had set myself, having been played on BBC6 Music, BBC Scotland, Radio X and BBC Radio Wales (each volume was named Album Of The Week by Huw Stephens). In addition, the songs were played on "indie" stations around Europe and America (thanks to Sandra and Alice for constantly playing the albums on their shows from Berlin) but also in Canada, Hong Kong and Australia. Have Yourself a Merry Indie Christmas was also shorlisted as a (Welsh Origin) AOTY by Wales Arts Review.
The main aim accomplished then, but what of my personal ambition to compile an album that would be played at Christmas for years to come? Here is the verdict: A REMINDER OF THE INCREDIBLE REVIEWS FOR HAVE... (tumblr.com). I don't think there is anything else to touch it. For example, Rough Trade, as good an Indie label as there ever was, released a Christmas comp this year (some five or six tracks are on HYAMIC too), but it comes nowhere near the quality of any of the three volumes that constitute Have Yourself a Merry Indie Christmas.
Speaking of Volume III (you may have read the tracklist already at Have Yourself a Merry Indie Christmas Vol III: Line Up Reveal - Wales Arts Review), it matches the standard of its predecessors, featuring The Wedding Present, The Futureheads, Helen Love, Euros Childs and Buzzard Buzzard Buzzard.
The project closes then, having rounded up 143 distinctive, thrilling Christmas earworms into a three volume compilation that raises money for a cause which demands urgent support. This is the 21st Century and no one should be homeless in the United Kingdom. Thank you all for your generosity in helping others and for giving these forgotten songs a home too.
A track from Volume III "Xmas Trip" by Run On
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You can purchase all three volumes here Music | Various Artists (bandcamp.com) If you do that on December 1st (after 8.ooam UK time) bandcamp waives its commission, raising more money for Crisis at Christmas.
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