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#so we had to go through it once and then rewind it which just made the whole thing worse
castiel-kline · 2 years
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daily reminder that this is a toa merlin hate blog!!
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kaciidubs · 6 months
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#LALALALA_Challenge
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❣ Summary: Minho really wanted to see stays do the LALALALA challenge, so you decided to take a shot at it too. ❣  ❣ Word Count: 748 ❣ Warnings: Fluff, humor, reader can't dance, supportive bf! Minho, appearance of SoonieDoongieDori ❣  ❣ Female! Reader [No use of Y/N] | You/Your pronouns ❣  ❣ Additional Tags: Lee Know is referred to as Minho, Min, and Lee Minho, reader is referred to as kitten and darling, barely edited ❣ Stray Kids Masterlist ❣ General Masterlist
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"Cross, down, cross, down... right- no, left? Left, right, left- up?!"
Groaning softly, you snatched your phone from it's propped position on the TV stand and swiped your thumb across the progress bar, watching the video rewind to the beginning of the tutorial yet again.
Was this your personal hell? Yes.
Were you determined to get this choreography down to impress your dancer boyfriend? Also yes.
You knew the exact moment your fate was sealed for the evening; stumbling across a clip of your boyfriend encouraging thousands of stays to learn the dance and participate in their comeback challenge - and who were you to shy away?
You were a stay, too, which meant you had all the right to attempt the challenge!
Now, if only you didn't have two left feet and the memory of a hamster, then maybe this challenge wouldn't have been so... challenging.
Listening to the extremely familiar song play through your phone again, you watched as the Instagram reel of Minho go on, eyes locked onto every calculated, practiced movement his body made to the rhythm of the song and the mental count of each step.
"Right, left, up-right, left, swing arms down..." A soft meow sounded behind you, the brief interruptions keeping you sane for the past 10 minutes of practicing. "Soonie, you'd think that dating him would give me some magical dance ability, right?"
Another meow, one that sounded oddly sassy, practically telling you that 'We both know that's not how it works'.
"You could've just humored me like Doongie, you know." You mumbled, watching as the clip continued onto the slowed down version of the tutorial, "Okay, let's do this!"
Propping your phone up again, you followed along with his mirrored arm movements, simulating the steps with your upper body as best as you could - you already foolishly attempted the full body test three times, and after nearly twisting your ankle, you decided half your body would suffice.
"Left arm block, chest explode- la, la, la, head nod- la, la, la, la-"
The chorus played out and you sighed heavily, arms sore and your once comfortable t-shirt feeling all too heavy - it had to have been attempt number four, maybe five, and you were finally getting familiar with the normal speed.
"Kitten."
"AH!"
Nearly jumping out of your skin, you spun around to see none other than the same person you were painstakingly following on your phone, watching you with amused eyes and a familiar brown cat nuzzled in his arms.
"Minho?! How long were you watching me?!"
"Long enough to see you miscount the same move three times and counting." He smirked, humor sparkling in his eyes, "You're close though, I'm proud."
Huffing, your crossed your arms over your chest, wincing at the slight strain in your right bicep, "You didn't think to, oh, I don't know, tell me you're home? Maybe even correct me?!"
He gave a few scratches to Dori's head before setting him down on the couch cushion, "I texted you that I was on my way home, you were the one who didn't respond! Plus, you were doing so well, I didn't want to ruin your focus!"
"In other words, you liked watching me mess up."
"It's like watching a child learn that they can move parts of their body in different directions at the same time."
You rolled your eyes, pouting as he pushed himself up from the couch and stride over to you; his hands winding your hips and holding you close.
"I meant it when I said I was proud of you, darling," he cooed, pressing a feather light kiss to your pout, watching your lips turn up slightly. "It doesn't matter if you were the worlds best dancer, or the ace of one step out of the whole song - I saw the effort you were putting into learning it and that's more than enough. I said I wanted to see stays learn and try it, I never said that it had to be perfect."
His soft words melted your heart, your body relaxing in his hold with a soft breath as you blinked up at him with soft eyes. "Can you help me fix where I keep messing up?"
Laughing gently, he nodded, "Of course - next, I'll help you put it together with the steps."
"You have way too much faith in me, Min."
"Or, maybe I want to see you look like a baby deer."
"I love you too, Lee Minho."
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singingcicadas · 3 months
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This scene where Rewind shoots Megatron in the time-traveling arc. I don't understand his logic.
The shooting Megatron part I can get behind. If the price for avoiding 4 million years of war and everything that came with it is wiping the current timeline out of existence, then so be it; it's a defensible argument on both sides, and Rewind picked the one he's on. But his reasoning's ridiculous? "Killing Megatron's dooming the Cybertronians but saving the universe." He thinks that having Megatron start the war is better for Cybertronians than letting the Functionist council take over. wtf why, he's lived through both universes! He's seen what the war did and what they got out of the end of it. In what way could he possibly think that 4 million years of this,
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quoting his own history lesson, is more preferable to the functionalists for Cybertron? The planet's trashed, their race is nearly extinct, Starscream's in charge and everyone's still miserable.
From what we got in the functionalist timeline flashbacks yeah the functionalists were awful. They were genociding people based on alts and forcibly recycling people into new bodies. But Megatron also did pretty much the same thing? Except instead of genociding based on alts he just went and killed half the population. The functionalists had cameras installed in people's optics for spying but Megatron had Soundwave do omnipresent surveillence with his mindreading. The functionalists were legitimizing everything they do as the Will of God and anyone who disputed that should die, but Megatron did one better and skipped straight to the Will of Megatron. he didn't even need the god part. There's no freedom, no choice, no equality in Functionalist Cybertron. well guess what there's none of that under Megatron either. The functionalists killed lots of people. Well Megatron killed more! In terms of absolute control, the Functionalists' version of Cybertron was nearly the same as Megatron's vision of the ideal future, the only difference being that he was stopped before he was able to get to that point.
When it comes down to the lesser of two evils shouldn't it be obvious that the Functionalists are better for Cybertron's future, at least comparatively? The planet and infrastructure are all intact. The population's still full. Yes the people are living in constant fear and misery but at least they'll still have a life, which is more than what most can say once the war starts. No matter how many people died under the Functionalists it's never going to compare to the amount of people who died in the war.
And Rewind's well aware of all this; he's well aware that Megatron's a mass murderer but somehow only cares when he's murdering other species? I can't remember anything before this issue that indicates he cares that much about other species. What do you mean Rodimus you can't argue with that, weren't you the one who made your opposition against staying on earth to protect humans so vociferously clear to the point that it caused your faction to fall to pieces? The value implications behind the whole thing is so strange. Unless Rewind is an admant believer of the "better to die standing up than live kneeling down" mindset and wants it forcibly imposed on everyone on the grounds of "anyone who doesn't want that doesn't deserve to live", then I really don't see how he would think that Megatron, and by extension the war, would be a better outcome for Cybertron than the functionalists.
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transformeroftheday · 26 days
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Simpatico | Brainstorm x Perceptor FIC Recs
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@fascinationex Simpatico Fics
(Literally just all of them. But for my top favorites.)
A Record of the Eating Days | Ongoing | 12/? | E
Summary: In which Brainstorm takes a stopgap job as a cleaner and becomes attached to a very dangerous lab specimen--one he's not even meant to know about.
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The One Where Brainstorm And Percy Go To A Conference | Complete | 1/1 | E
Summary: For the prompt, "🤔 percy and bstorm go to a science conference, no one gets/believes that they're dating, smh"
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The one where Brainstorm sends Perceptor off to work with a sex toy like it's a packed lunch | Complete | 1/1 | E
Summary: :I packed something for you,: Brainstorm commed him, once he was already on the shuttle.
Perceptor's first instinct was to lunge for his pack in case something exploded.
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the sealpatico au | Series | G-E
Summary: Perceptor is a marine scientist working in the Arctic. Brainstorm is a frightfully clever, mammalian polar mermaid. Chromedome and Rewind have a television show on a cable channel where they're supposed to be documenting orcas. This series is heavily focused on the mermaid stuff but we learn about other characters along the way.
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heart's still beating, guess I'm pretty lucky | @sroloc--elbisivni | Complete | 4/4 | T
Summary: Brainstorm was silent, field indicating nothing. Perceptor calculated whether it would be more logical or illogical to wait, and concluded the latter. Brainstorm made rapid decisions, and had not formerly needed encouragement to voice them, but that had been millions of stellar cycles ago. “I would appreciate promptness in your rejection.”
“Who said anything about rejecting?” Brainstorm tipped his head to the side. “I’m just trying to make sure I’ve got this straight in my processor. You performed ethically dubious, untested, methodologically uncertain engineering on yourself. Because you missed me.”
Perceptor deleted all of his emotions for a reason. After the Quintesson threat leads Optimus Prime to push through the Autobot-Decepticon Alliance, that reason no longer applies. Fixing the situation is going to take some trial and error...and a self-proclaimed genius.
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The Left Side of the Lab | prisonmechanic | Complete | 8/8 | M
Summary: Preceptor takes a job in Iacon without reading the fine print. He very much regrets this.
Brainstorm has a large decision to make- expose himself and thousands of others and solve the fuel crisis or stay chained to a lab desk for the rest of his functioning. But Brianstrom Has always been good at creative solutions; Much to Perceprtor's dismay.
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Hazard Light | cerkowah, @eatyoursparkout, @emporianne | Complete | 1/1 | T
Summary: In the aftermath of the time travel incident, Perceptor made a resolution to get to know his lab partner better. He didn’t anticipate that he’d grow so fond of Brainstorm in the process. Blindsided by a rare and deadly illness, he realizes that he’s miscalculated the depths of his regard.
Perceptor is determined to study and cure the disease with Brainstorm none the wiser. Unfortunately, feelings have never been his area of expertise.
(Hanahaki AU)
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and the other | @polyhexian | Complete | 1/1 | E
Summmary: "Wow, you've had new emotion protocols installed for like a day and you're already developing new fetishes," Brainstorm commented, "Lucky thing they're fetishes for me specifically."
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you can touch (you can play) | badskeletonpuns, thevosboss | Complete | 1/1
Summary: “Ah, there you are, Brainstorm. I had a question for you about—ah. You seem…busy.” The lab's sudden guest—Perceptor—came fully into view, stopped in his tracks by the scene of Brainstorm leaning against a workbench covered in interface arrays. Brainstorm tried his best to keep heat from rising to his cheeks, especially as Perceptor cutely tilted his head and quirked a brow. “What…exactly are you doing?”
Fragging myself for science, Brainstorm thought. “Building spike and array mods for the crew, by request,” he said instead.
As an MTO, Brainstorm wasn't constructed with an array. In a fit of inspiration after a Perceptor-fueled recharge flux, he decides to fix this. Perceptor probes at his experiment, and Brainstorm finds answers to questions he hadn't even thought to ask.
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I'm not a fan of Ebina at all but I kind of don't think getting wrapped up in the Aoki parallel is conducive to forming an understanding of him or the story either. I imagine the anons talking about how the epilogue went aren't exactly doing it just to recap the scene, but trying to point out that focusing so much on the things that make you mad may lead you to make bad faith assumptions about the storytelling and miss bigger picture of what it's trying to accomplish.
Because like, that bit in the epilogue isn't really about Ebina's motives. Upfront, it's confirmation that Jo didn't die offscreen after everything; after that, sure, it's potential insight on Ebina, but it's potential insight on Ebina as filtered through insight on Zhao.
Of course it's there in anticipation of the audience wanting an explanation or a follow-up, but it ultimately is just Zhao's two cents on the matter; he's projecting his experiences (conveying insight on Zhao), and it's disputed multiple times through Seonhee saying Jo might be tougher than expected (conveying what Seonhee thinks of Jo), Zhao agreeing that this is the more obvious conclusion (conveying what Zhao thinks of Jo and his own explanation), and Adachi saying only Ebina really knows why. You can say that makes it pointless with regard to clearing anything up but that's dismissing everything else it's trying to do. Also TBH both Ebina's monologue and Zhao's explanation are localized atrociously and lose the nuances of what Ebina was saying while making Zhao sound way more sure of himself than he is (on top of some lines just being completely wrong), but it's not on you for taking it at face value, so...
To get back to what I was talking about, I honestly wouldn't even say this part is asking you to sympathize with Ebina, just explaining what was going on in Ebina's head after he went silent, which is reasonable to want to explain given how quickly things get moving once Kiryu collapses. Zhao briefly touched on Ebina pointing out the futility of his own plans as part of his reasoning, but he was mostly talking about how Ebina was visibly moved by Kiryu's words, even though the sentiments conveyed basically were as simple as "Yeah, I get that you're angry" and "Hey, it's gonna be all right." Ebina could perhaps have been reached through words if someone had tried to sooner, a theme commonly explored in RGG; Zhao isn't really making that much of a leap in thinking Ebina would rather have heard it from the person he's closest to that we know of, Jo, than someone he just met like Kiryu.
If we're to take what Zhao says as fact, I think you're missing the mark when comparing the concept of Ebina wanting to be stopped to Ichiban and Aoki, too. It's more of a parallel to Jo wanting to be stopped before he had to kill Hoshino (which he does bring up earlier in IW), which I could see adding to Ebina's frustrations if Zhao's right since he almost definitely would know Jo has been in the same position of wanting to be confronted directly and yet he won't do it himself. That also would reflect on Jo, being unable to emotionally connect with any of Arakawa's sons even though that's what they want to varying degrees.
Rewinding, although I obviously would have liked to see another Eye Scene, I don't think it's that pivotal it doesn't happen on-screen, nor do I think it would add much to the existing scenes. IMO there's nowhere to add one in without breaking the flow of how the meeting transitions into the next scene.
Like, Jo being conspicuously missing from the meeting not only sets up tension as to where he is, you soon learn it means Ebina had already caught and begun torturing Jo before it began and get a sense of how premeditated killing Narasaki, holding Jo hostage, and burning down Tojo HQ was. Jo being in the wheelchair is not only ironic, but shows Ebina had already made it so Jo couldn't walk and that he was prepared to wheel him out of the burning building, which directly contradicts the idea he'd have killed him anyway or left him to burn to do death; he clearly wasn't planning to, at least not yet.
All of that already speaks to Ebina's ideology, convictions, and characterization as much or more than another Eye Scene would; that he doesn't have one differentiates this scene from others, if anything. As far as explaining his actions in that scene goes, there would be no point in telling Jo because Jo certainly remembers his past actions and would already know. Kiryu doesn't know, so it makes more sense he'd explain it to him later on. And since he does explain it to Kiryu, I can't really think of any questions left unanswered with regard to why he did all that.
With regard to why Ebina kept him alive, dismissing Zhao's speculation, Jo is the reason Kiryu and Ichiban are involved at all and makes for effective bait as a result. As for why he didn't kill him before Kiryu got there, as you mentioned, Ebina says himself he wanted Jo to see the downfall of the yakuza. It's made clear throughout that Kiryu and Jo are the only remaining figureheads of the yakuza Ebina is concerned with, so I expect he would've killed them in one go. It's the same idea behind the Second Great Dissolution as a whole; gather them up in one place and deal with them at your convenience. Arakawa may also have something to do with it, but this much is pretty easy to pick up from the game.
Outside of that, the simplest answer is that for the past several games RGGS has tried to keep their options open with regard to future games. If they want to do anything with Jo in future, noting he lived means they won't have to contrive a reason for why he's alive in the way they had to for why he's out of jail. I get you'd rather they discontinue the series here because you're worried it's going downhill, or at least that's how it sounded, but that doesn't mean the series is actually being discontinued and therefore there's no point in planning ahead.
I don't want to stray from the Jo topic so I'll leave it there. Much Love and With All Due I think you'd benefit greatly from playing the game off-stream with an open mind and at your own pace. I think if you're at the point you're asking why the party members are reflecting and speculating on what's happened so far end of their journey you're past the point of engaging with the story in good faith and it's kind of. Hm. Not Good
It’s unfortunate my irritation with the story has come across as being purely influenced by my personal feelings, and I do understand I can come across as explosive and reactionary at times. However, I do not imagine my agitation is totally unfounded. You’ve provided a substantial amount of points to cover, so pardon the length of this response as I take the time to go through them.
Full response under the cut for compression's sake.
Before I go in-depth with the character/s aspect of your ask, you make note of supposed translation issues, and I do not doubt they exist; you- alongside many others- have expressed your frustrations with the translation team in the past, and I have no reasons to distrust you on this as I’m aware translation teams in general make differences both minor and major when translating. However, as you are aware, not only do I not fluently speak Japanese and therefore cannot hear the dub/sub differences, but I certainly did not attempt to play the game with Japanese subtitles and could not even begin to attempt to read the dialogue changes. I cannot explore a point I have no knowledge in, and with these factors in mind I wish you had provided some examples of dialogue changes if they were necessary to better understand Ebina’s character, as you’ve usually been generous to provide evidence in the past. I can only provide my opinion in that the translation differences cannot be so drastic as to significantly weaken my stance, especially when no specific quotes have been supplied for me to reconsider.
Now to begin, it’s undeniable Ebina is supposed to parallel Aoki, whether as a whole or in parts. Particularly being a son of Arakawa who harbors ire towards him, his attempts to dismantle the yakuza so blatantly shouldn’t be overlooked (especially when Ebina has- quite literally- taken up Aoki’s mantle with taking Bleach Japan’s name and their mission to ‘clean up Japan.’ Of course their definition of ‘clean’ is varied, but they both maintained the objective to dismantle the yakuza and both harbor a disdain for the yakuza). Their shared goal of diminishing the yakuza, their grudge against Arakawa, and adopting the Bleach Japan organization are fair enough grounds as is to compare the two, and as a result I do not find disconnecting the two to be efficient when discussing Ebina. To add on, there exists contradicting notions to separate Ebina from Aoki yet simultaneously acknowledge their similarities complicates the point attempting to be presented, particularly when citing Ebina putting Sawashiro in a wheelchair and punctuating that as an Aoki parallel. Had Ebina had any unique qualities to him or had been given a chance to breathe as a character on his own to see these supposed qualities, then suggesting to do so would be fair. Yet the screen time Ebina was warranted and what they did with it does not validate this criticism of my observation of him.
To continue exploring Ebina’s parallels and relationships to the Arakawa’s, the supposed integral relationship between Sawashiro and Ebina is questionable. Throughout Infinite Wealth, Sawashiro and Ebina- from my perspective- did not read as anything beyond a superior and his inferior, not unlike Aoki and Sawashiro. However, where Ebina/Sawashiro and Aoki/Sawashiro differentiate, Aoki and Sawashiro had an established relationship that the game provided evidence for. In regards to Ebina and Sawashiro, it remains to be seen how the two are connected beyond banausic purposes and Ebina utilizing Sawashiro for his personal benefit simply because he was a notable yakuza.
A lack of clear connection between Sawashiro and Ebina aside from Sawashiro working for him  could have been rectified with the demonstration of The Eye Scene. RGG has never shied from showing gruesome scenes (lest we need a reminder of the initial Eye Scene), so in doing so this time not only did they evade the opportunity for cinematic irony in relation to Sawashiro losing his eye, but they also neglected the chance to truly explore Sawashiro and Ebina’s dynamic when they were alone. Even more so, it tends to be these gruesome scenes where the most telling bits of drama and characterization are pulled from: the insinuation that including a scene such as this would drag or halt the story goes against what RGG has been able demonstrate in their storytelling prior in carefully combining gore with meaningful storytelling. If believing including an explicit Eye Scene would hinder the story, then that is a critique on Infinite Wealth’s overall capabilities to tell its tale, not as a suggestion that another scene would be excessive.
Elaborating on Sawashiro’s injuries and the details behind them, It goes without noting that removing an eye so violently- among the collection of other bruises on Sawashiro- is an incredibly personal and aggressive action (See: Sawashiro’s Eye Scene). Was Ebina truly that enraged with Sawashiro for helping Kiryu and his crew, and was it just because Sawashiro was hindering his plans? Or was it because Ebina trusted Sawashiro on a personal level and felt betrayed by this? Was Ebina so brutal because of his personal feelings, or because he is sadistic in nature? We can assume this is not the case since he seems to detest ‘dirty tactics’ of yakuza, yet showing this hypothetical new Eye Scene would have done an exceptional job on elaborating on not only Ebina’s mentality, but his relationship with Sawashiro as well. 
Continuing this examination of the two, the comparison between Sawashiro wanting to be stopped after murdering Hoshino is- to put it bluntly- a reach. Beyond the semantic fact it was revealed Sawashiro didn’t actually murder Hoshino and- with this next context in mind- his warning to Ichiban and his party could be interpreted as wanting an out from Aoki’s side as a means to stop Aoki, I neglect to see the purpose of drawing these comparisons together when in relation to Ebina. When it came to Sawashiro’s surrender, this was due to him realizing once and for all he was only a puppet for Aoki and that his attempts to pursue being in his good will would be foolish. Yakuza: Like a Dragon had showcased throughout its entry that Sawashiro was already conflicted about serving under Aoki before his final scene (See: his one-on-one cutscenes with Aoki where he’s both shown to be verbally abused by him and demonstrates hesitance to obey/respond to him). It is much more believable to come to the conclusion Sawashiro’s surrender was a cry for help because of these instances provided by the game. Ebina’s hypothetical cry for help is not only completely executed differently, but it is also unfounded. There had been no indications Ebina was remorseful or had any reservations about what he was doing, nor that he wanted to be stopped. It was only Kiryu’s speech to him at the very end that it would be fair to come to this conclusion.
Rounding off the Sawashiro segment of this response, there’s no reason Sawashiro shouldn’t have died just as there is not apparent point presently in keeping him alive; whether he was meant to be ‘bait’ for Kiryu and his party matters little when his death would have made no difference to the end sequence whatsoever. RGG has made it clear they’re fickle when it comes to committing to the death of a character- at the very least, it can be praiseworthy that they didn’t pretend as though Sawashiro was dead only to bring him back X games down the line like nothing happened. To be sincere, it makes no sense from what was shown in-game for Ebina to keep Sawashiro alive: Sawashiro no longer served a utilitarian purpose to him, and he did not have any personal connections to him. All in all, supposing the alleged connection between Sawashiro and Ebina do exist, RGG had done an insufficient job of connecting them together, and at best only left small hints to hypothetically elaborate on. Pardon their alleged cries for help and putting Sawashiro in a wheelchair (which, truthfully, reads more as irony than anything personal), there had been no other way to connect the characters in any meaningful way to indicate they are meant to be connected in a deeper manner.
Moving on, it is necessary to remember that these characters are objects and if not serving in-universe purposes, can act as mouth pieces for creators. With that in mind, Zhao’s observation of Ebina can be summarized as just that: RGG’s attempt to explore the potential depths behind Ebina’s character without efficiently exploring it throughout the game before the finale. Zhao in his entirety had little to insignificant impact on the overall plot of Infinite Wealth: it’s unlikely RGG had true intentions to elaborate on Zhao’s personal feelings for characterization purposes when he hardly had any meaningful commentary beforehand. Postulating Zhao to be a spokesman for RGG is not baseless when RGG has in the past done similar with other characters (See: Akiyama speculating the true nature of the relationship between Majima and Mirei in Yakuza 5. He comes to conclusions without any evidence- neither from peers or from the game- besides his personal experience knowing Mirei, just as Zhao came to his own conclusions based predominantly on his upbringing).
Moreover, supposing that RGG did intend to explore Zhao’s character in this way, it does not excuse the lack of building up Ebina’s character beforehand. If RGG had done so, then corroborating these two would have been justified and would have had a more credible foundation: we are allowed to verify what Zhao is speculating (or we can disprove his feelings) due to evidence we’ve seen from the game about Ebina. As it stands now- considering RGG’s past of using characters to speak for them- it is justified to observe Zhao’s commentary as merely RGG’s last-ditch effort to add extra depth to Ebina.
It isn’t that Ebina’s backstory is void of potential, but with how RGG executed it, they expect the players to fill in the blanks themselves and then praise them for work they didn’t do when in the past they have done an excellent job of building up their characters, especially in recent entries to the franchise. One of the most basic forms of storytelling is to show and not exclusively tell your audience key, important events, yet Infinite Wealth seems keen on doing just that; therein lies a difference between drawing conclusions from the text, and having to actively hunt for points to build off of. The glaring gripe here is that much of Ebina’s intriguing points either happen off-screen, are treated haphazardly (See: Ebina’s initial backstory reveal being from a lackluster in-game cutscene considering the gravity of the information), they must be hypothesized from minimal evidence, or it is a hope on RGG to do something excellent in the future- which should not be the norm. There shouldn’t be a dependence on sequels and add-ons after the final product to improve or justify previous entries if there’s no proper groundwork laid in said entries, especially in a title like Infinite Wealth where it has a solid conclusion that leaves little for meaningful wonder. Should you want to make a case that there are points worth covering, there are absolutely none left by Ebina: the case that he has more to offer to the franchise cannot be confidently made without excessive theoreticals. As I’ve said before, I already intend to run through Infinite Wealth a second time. Of course, I will be sure to  do my best to approach the story with a more open mind with retrospect, yet I fail to see my opinions on Ebina swaying anytime soon.
Pivoting to the personal ending of this response, suggesting my woes only come from a personal standpoint and not from an objective view of the story as a whole is insulting. I won’t act as though my personal feelings don’t factor into things, however these feelings should not be regarded as a hindrance but should be an example of how much I’ve paid attention to and thought of Infinite Wealth’s story since my initial playthrough and that my dissatisfaction comes from a place of passion for this franchise, not ‘bad faith’. Ergo, attempting to justify Infinite Wealth’s shortcomings by stating it’s simply RGG’s signature style is not only minimizing the growth RGG’s writing team has exhibited in the most recent entries of the franchise, but it is also an insult to players by telling them to overlook insufficient writing just because that was the standard of the past when we’ve been shown greater. Perhaps not perfect stories, but stories with vast improvements compared to their predecessors.
Finally, and looking to the future, my concerns on RGG’s next steps shouldn’t be treated as pessimistic conjecture and instead as sincere curiosity. Infinite Wealth had done a good job on rounding up loose ends from the franchise (tying up those ends well is another topic to touch on another day), so forgive me wondering how RGG will go forward with its stories when there’s little to build on from the previous sagas without repeating itself. The future of RGG is an entirely different discussion- a discussion I’m not concerned with having at this moment, so I thank you both for supplying your own perspective- which I always respect both your time and efforts to do so- and for reading my own.
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Ateez 9th member au
Sunhee x Ateez (mainly Yunho and Mingi)
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Sunhee was in the practice room with Yunho and Mingi. They were coming up with choreography in preparation for the next comeback. This one was special as the group had 2 siblings and put them up to vote for Atiny to choose which would be the title song for the album. 
Sunhee has the mindset of ‘go big or go home’, so as Mingi and Yunho were just pacing it out and doing the moves minimally, Sunhee was going all out. This way, when it came to putting it together, the boys could see what the moves would look like properly. 
“Maybe, if we do the move in time with the drum beats you hear in the back,” Sunhee suggested. MIngi looked at her and imagined it before nodding slightly. Yunho looked confused so Sunhee paused the music and rewinded it to the before and got herself ready. She moved her legs with the beat to show them exactly what she meant. Yunho agreed and they restarted that segment again so they could all do it.
Once they finished that segment completely, they restarted the song to do a run through of all they had so far. It was all going well until they got to the new dance bit they choreographed. As Sunhee was doing the segment she had done, her foot was planted in the spot whilst the rest of her leg moved, letting out a crack. She let out a gasp and dropped at the same time. 
Yunho and Mingi immediately rushed to her side, tears had welled in her eyes as she held the source of her pain - her shin. Yunho and Mingi were frantically trying to figure out what was wrong and what they were supposed to do, chatting quickly to each other before Yunho made the executive decision to call Seonghwa, knowing Hongjoong was most likely busy writing. 
As soon as Seonghwa answered, Yunho told him what happened and asked him what they had to do whilst Mingi was left to distract Sunhee from her pain. He was pulling faces and making panicked jokes, which emitted a teary laugh but when he stopped to listen to Yunho speaking to their hyung, Sunhee was left to her pain and soon began letting out little whimpers.
Yunho adjusted himself and Sunhee, so that her back was against his chest, he wiped her face with his sleeve when he noticed a few tears had fallen down her face and Mingi was still distracting. Yunho called for their manager and for an ambulance as he didn't want to risk any more damage to their maknae if they moved her wrong. When he was done calling for an ambulance, he told Sunhee and Mingi about what was said, and texting the group chat with all of Ateez so they are up to date. It wasn’t that long until the group chat was flooded with messages of concern from the rest of the boys.
Their manager soon came and he had the ambulance crew with them and it wasn’t long until they had Sunhee loaded into an ambulance. Yunho offered to ride with her to which she agreed and the manager was going to meet them there once they had collected the rest of the boys.
Sunhee had been allowed strong pain relief and was left to revel in the pain since Yunho was waiting outside her room for the others. When they finally arrived, San, Wooyoung and Mingi began fighting at the door trying to get in first, that was until Seonghwa pushed passed them gently and went to her side, Sunhee watched it all unfold, laughing lightly under her breath but when she saw Seonghwa start heading to her, she averted her gaze and her smile dropped, she fiddled with the bed sheets. This action was halted by Seonghwa who gently put one hand on hers and used his finger to encourage her to face him using her chin. By the time she could look up at him, tears had formed once more.
He saw the tears in her eyes and climbed onto the bed to sit next to her and brought her into a hug. He cooed softly into her ear, ‘it’s okay princess, just let it all out. Oppa is here now. It’s all okay.’ At his words, she burst into tears on his chest and kept apologising. The sound of her sobs halted the younger members who were still fighting at the door with an unimpressed Hongjoong and Yeosang trying to sort. Jongho stood at the back with a deadpan face but it softened once he heard Sunhee start crying. They finally all shuffled into the room and crowded her bed where she was hidden by her hair and Seonghwa’s chest. He stroked her hair and continued to soothe her.
Once she felt she had calmed down enough to be heard properly, she brought herself out of Seonghwa’s hold and moved so her good leg was tucked to her chest. She glanced at all the boys and whimpered slightly before she spoke.
‘I’m sorry. I am really sorry. I ruined this comeback.’
Hongjoong shook his head and moved so he carefully sat next to her injured leg. He placed a hand on her arm and rubbed it gently to offer her some comfort.
‘Oh, my love, you have not done anything wrong. You have not ruined anything. These things cannot be helped sometimes and the type of injury you have gained? That means you have worked so hard and you need to rest and that is okay. Okay we may have to adjust a couple of positions on the dance but that is nothing compared to making sure that you are okay. You are our top priority, not the comeback.’
She nods at his words, tears still falling from her eyes and she lets out a little sniffle. Her voice cracks slightly as she quietly asks, ‘can I have a tissue, please?’
Her simple request sent four of the boys reeling as they began to pat themselves down and search the room for a tissue. She saw this and laughed slightly before noticing Jongho handing her one. She took it with a smile and thanked him. He stroked her hair gently before grimacing.
‘Yah, Sunhee, I hate to be the one to tell you, but your hair is kinda sweaty.’
She gave him the most unamused look she could muster. ‘Gee, thanks. It's not like I was dancing or anything before this happened.’
The jokiness in her tone caused them all to relax slightly. Soon the doctor came in and explained that she would be taken to x-ray to fully determine where the injury is and it wasn’t long before he was telling Seonghwa and Hongjoong the full extent of her injury and the healing time. They nodded and went back to give Sunhee the news. An orthopaedic doctor came in and began to prepare her for a cast. She chose an orange colour to match the colours they used for their previous comebacks and once it was all dry she got the boys to sign it.
‘You know what, I have always wanted to break a bone for some reason. It has happened at an inconvenient time but at least my dream came true.’ Sunhee explained to San as he signed her cast.
He gave her a bewildered look. ‘Why is that something you wanted?’ He was so confused.
She shrugged. ‘All the children I grew up around had broken a bone at some point and I never had. I always wanted to break a bone just to see what it was like and because the idea of getting people to sign my cast seems cool.’
San seemed satisfied with her answer and kissed the side of her head gently. ‘Fair enough. Now let's get you home.’
She nods tiredly and allows Yunho to transfer her to a wheelchair where she was taken to the car to be taken home. KQ released a statement to say that Sunhee would not be fully participating in the comeback due to injury and would be back soon and she relaxed on the sofa knowing her boys would look after her.
Yunho adjusted himself and Sunhee, so that her back was against his chest, he wiped her face with his sleeve when he noticed a few tears had fallen down her face and Mingi was still distracting. Yunho called for their manager and for an ambulance as he didn't want to risk any more damage to their maknae if they moved her wrong. When he was done calling for an ambulance, he told Sunhee and Mingi about what was said, and texting the group chat with all of Ateez so they are up to date. It wasn’t that long until the group chat was flooded with messages of concern from the rest of the boys.
Their manager soon came and he had the ambulance crew with them and it wasn’t long until they had Sunhee loaded into an ambulance. Yunho offered to ride with her to which she agreed and the manager was going to meet them there once they had collected the rest of the boys.
Sunhee had been allowed strong pain relief and was left to revel in the pain since Yunho was waiting outside her room for the others. When they finally arrived, San, Wooyoung and Mingi began fighting at the door trying to get in first, that was until Seonghwa pushed passed them gently and went to her side, Sunhee watched it all unfold, laughing lightly under her breath but when she saw Seonghwa start heading to her, she averted her gaze and her smile dropped, she fiddled with the bed sheets. This action was halted by Seonghwa who gently put one hand on hers and used his finger to encourage her to face him using her chin. By the time she could look up at him, tears had formed once more.
He saw the tears in her eyes and climbed onto the bed to sit next to her and brought her into a hug. He cooed softly into her ear, ‘it’s okay princess, just let it all out. Oppa is here now. It’s all okay.’ At his words, she burst into tears on his chest and kept apologising. The sound of her sobs halted the younger members who were still fighting at the door with an unimpressed Hongjoong and Yeosang trying to sort. Jongho stood at the back with a deadpan face but it softened once he heard Sunhee start crying. They finally all shuffled into the room and crowded her bed where she was hidden by her hair and Seonghwa’s chest. He stroked her hair and continued to soothe her.
Once she felt she had calmed down enough to be heard properly, she brought herself out of Seonghwa’s hold and moved so her good leg was tucked to her chest. She glanced at all the boys and whimpered slightly before she spoke.
‘I’m sorry. I am really sorry. I ruined this comeback.’
Hongjoong shook his head and moved so he carefully sat next to her injured leg. He placed a hand on her arm and rubbed it gently to offer her some comfort.
‘Oh, my love, you have not done anything wrong. You have not ruined anything. These things cannot be helped sometimes and the type of injury you have gained? That means you have worked so hard and you need to rest and that is okay. Okay we may have to adjust a couple of positions on the dance but that is nothing compared to making sure that you are okay. You are our top priority, not the comeback.’
She nods at his words, tears still falling from her eyes and she lets out a little sniffle. Her voice cracks slightly as she quietly asks, ‘can I have a tissue, please?’
Her simple request sent four of the boys reeling as they began to pat themselves down and search the room for a tissue. She saw this and laughed slightly before noticing Jongho handing her one. She took it with a smile and thanked him. He stroked her hair gently before grimacing.
‘Yah, Sunhee, I hate to be the one to tell you, but your hair is kinda sweaty.’
She gave him the most unamused look she could muster. ‘Gee, thanks. It's not like I was dancing or anything before this happened.’
The jokiness in her tone caused them all to relax slightly. Soon the doctor came in and explained that she would be taken to x-ray to fully determine where the injury is and it wasn’t long before he was telling Seonghwa and Hongjoong the full extent of her injury and the healing time. They nodded and went back to give Sunhee the news. An orthopaedic doctor came in and began to prepare her for a cast. She chose an orange colour to match the colours they used for their previous comebacks and once it was all dry she got the boys to sign it.
‘You know what, I have always wanted to break a bone for some reason. It has happened at an inconvenient time but at least my dream came true.’ Sunhee explained to San as he signed her cast.
He gave her a bewildered look. ‘Why is that something you wanted?’ He was so confused.
She shrugged. ‘All the children I grew up around had broken a bone at some point and I never had. I always wanted to break a bone just to see what it was like and because the idea of getting people to sign my cast seems cool.’
San seemed satisfied with her answer and kissed the side of her head gently. ‘Fair enough. Now let's get you home.’
She nods tiredly and allows Yunho to transfer her to a wheelchair where she was taken to the car to be taken home. KQ released a statement to say that Sunhee would not be fully participating in the comeback due to injury and would be back soon and she relaxed on the sofa knowing her boys would look after her.
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Bonus - what the boys signed on her cast.
Get well soon, Princess. <3 - Prince Oppa (Seonhwa)
My sweet, clumsy marshmallow, get better soon and rest well. - Appa Joong
Get better soon Kitten, dancing won't be the same without you - Puppy Yunho
Love you Bub, get better soon - Sangie
My sunshine is a clumsy baby, get better soon and eat well - Sanshine (he drew his with a sun around it)
Yah, pabo, get better quickly. We need you ;) -  GiGi (mingi)
Baby mouse, you get better quickly or I will have to tickle you forever - Woo
Who knew Peaches would be a perfect name for you. Get better soon - Pebbles (Jongho)
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"Love" was Jon's choice & "Duty" was Tyrion's
I already went into one of the reasons why "Love is the death of duty" applies to Jon, but looking closer at this scene, I wanted to also talk about why Tyrion's line "Duty is the death of love" applies strictly to Tyrion in this scene. (sorry, this got really long)
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Tyrion talks about how he knows how Jon loves Dany. (notice how Jon doesn't say a word here, neither confirming nor denying)
Tyrion then goes on to talk about himself. "Love is more powerful than reason." And then he says "We all know that. Look at my brother."
Now rewind to this 8x02 scene:
"You've always known exactly what she was. And you loved her anyway."
These two were purposely linked in this dialogue. Especially since Tyrion has always known what Dany was, but he loved her anyway, which he confirms in the scene above in 8x06.
"Duty is the death of love" - this is more than a clever responding line Tyrion is making to what Maester Aemon (a truly wise man) once said - this is what Tyrion is doing in this exact moment by trying to get Jon to kill Dany. He still loves Dany but he knows she needs to be stopped. Not only is he about to be executed but Dany is the greatest threat to the people in that moment. KL just got slaughtered and she's about to go on a liberation tour. Which is exactly why they made sure to show us this part:
The camera doesn't just stay with him as she talks about Lannisport, they continue to show him even as she mentions other locations. He knows KL was just the start. He doesn't need to understand Valyrian to know the world is in trouble. So in the jail scene, Tyrion is essentially choosing duty over love.
And he was in love with Dany; he didn't just believe in her. There was no reason for this reaction to boatsex to be shown in 7x07 if he wasn't:
They had already shown Tyrion once in this sequence, no need to show him again, or to show us that particular type of reaction.
Tyrion was in love with Dany.
And he believed Jon to be as well, but here we can now switch over to the original saying said to Jon by Maester Aemon, that Jon brought up to Tyrion.
After Tyrion says "We all know that. Look at my brother", after a beat, without looking up, Jon says "Love is the death of duty." Which absolutely applies to Jaime with Cersei. Jaime loved Cersei and that is what prompted him to return to KL for her. (love is more powerful than reason) Jaime and Tyrion were brothers but also heavily contrasted. Cersei and Dany were paralleled throughout the series and the "Mad Queen" arc was split between them in the end. Jaime and Cersei were one of the supposed examples of how the bad form of incest (this is the GoT verse and its rules, just throwing that out there), much like the inbreeding of the Targaryens, were not the desired/healthy choice. Not only that, but the Lannisters were essentially the Targaryens come again without the dragons. They were on top of the wheel (and Cersei was even able to give Westeros its first ever queen who sat the IT). That's why the 1000 year parallel between Cersei and Dany. Regardless, that was not the direction the future of Westeros needed to go in.
So yes, Tyrion saw through Dany much like Jaime did Cersei, and he loved her anyway, same as Jaime did with Cersei. So Jon hears what Tyrion is saying to him about Jaime and remarks on it, thinking back on what Maester Aemon said to him. But this line is also the choice that Jon will have to make, just as Tyrion's line is the choice Tyrion himself is making.
The context for Aemon's line itself is here:
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Jon: "Sam said you wanted to see me?" (Sam, who in 8x01 tells Jon who he really is, a Targaryen, same as Aemon was, & poses this question to Jon: "You gave up your crown to save your people. Would she do the same?")
Aemon: "Tell me, did you ever wonder why the men of the Night's Watch take no wives and father no children? So they will not love. Love is the death of duty. If the day should ever come when your lord father is forced to choose between honor on the one hand and those he loves on the other, what would he do?"
Jon: "He would do whatever is right. No matter what."
Aemon: "Lord Stark is one man in 10,000. Most of us are not so strong. What is honor compared to a woman's love? What is duty compared to the feel of a newborn son in your arms? Or a brother's smile?"
Jon: "Sam told you."
Aemon: "We're all human. We all do our duty when there's no cost to it. Honor comes easy then. Yet, sooner or later, in every man's life, there comes a day when it is not easy. A day when he must choose."
Jon: "And this is my day? Is that what you're saying?"
Aemon: "It hurts, boy. Yes, I know."
Jon: "You do not know. No one knows. I may be a bastard but he is my father and Robb is my brother."
We all already know that Jon did listen to Sansa when she warned him about being smarter than Ned and Robb. (he even wears their armor when making this decision) And I know I elaborated a bit more on this line earlier this morning with this post. But ultimately, Jon's decision came down to be the very opposite of Tyrion's and even Aemon's, and more along the lines of Jaime's (Jaime who has been a Jon mirror) and of course came full circle to Ned's. Which plays back into the 1x09 Aemon and Jon conversation about this line.
And we also get Jon's reaction to Dany's speech:
He doesn't need to understand Valyrian either to recognize that one word and what it means.
Once Dany confirms that those he loves most are in danger by not getting to choose, Jon chooses the opposite of Tyrion: love. And duty dies, literally:
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And after this we have the switcharound. Jon is now imprisoned with Tyrion visiting him. Right down to the shoulder touch.
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Jon asks if what he did was right because it doesn't feel right (which makes me think of that line he says to Aemon in 1x09: "He would do whatever is right. No matter what" and why Aemon responds the way he does) which he ends up getting confirmation from Bran. But the convo between Tyrion and Jon I think is very telling and reiterates their individual choices.
Tyrion: "You shall take no wife, hold no lands, father no children." -> just like that, Jon's three dreams/desires are snuffed out, though Tyrion made it clear that Jon is still a Snow (especially ironic now that he's the Hand of the King again and the only other person outside the Starks, Sam, and Jon to know who Jon really is btw - this is partly why I have such a hard time thinking kindly of Tyrion and his involvement in this whole thing with Dany) with the line of "The world will always need a home for bastards and broken men." (at this point in the show, Jon is truly only one of these groups but he's still being kept as the other)
Jon: "Was it right? What I did?"
Tyrion: "What we did."
Jon: "It doesn't feel right."
Tyrion: "Ask me again in ten years."
Jon is struggling with the decision he had to make (which is why I think it was so important that he saw Sansa, his family, and gets the reassurance from Bran all in one scene btw) and sure enough, he's been dishonored and branded a queenslayer, a kinslayer, and a traitor. He's being sentenced to the Wall and he lost the things he desired most. Maybe he never thought he could really have those things but that doesn't mean he ever stopped dreaming about them. And now, that's gone, too.
But it's Tyrion's lines here that hit the most I think and reiterate the choice he himself made. "What we did." Tyrion still thinks Jon made the same decision he did. "Ask me again in ten years." (he did what needed to be done and he himself is unsure so he can't reassure Jon one way or the other)
Then the shoulder touch is lengthy, as if Tyrion is trying to share/commiserate with Jon's pain at having to get rid of the woman they both love, to do their duty. (even after all of this, Tyrion still hasn't learned; as Sansa once said "I used to think you were the cleverest man alive" but I digress)
Two very different crises. Two very different motivations. Two very different choices.
Tyrion's dialogue from the first jail scene made it very clear what choice he was making. Jon's was a bit more subtle but it's there. The roadmap was laid out, the puzzle pieces are laying on the table - put it all together and it becomes clear: Jon chose love and that line was for him, regardless of whether Aemon telling him that or not. Tyrion's line was simply for Tyrion.
Tyrion was in love with Dany. Jon was not. And even though Tyrion picked up on Sansa being important to Jon (even back in 7x03) and used that knowledge as a tactic to access Jon so he would listen about Dany needing to be stopped, Tyrion is still convinced that Jon loved Dany as much as he himself did.
When I look back at 7x02 with the choking Littlefinger scene and then the wave goodbye scene and Littlefinger's reaction, something hit me:
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(in a scene where Littlefinger attempts to poke and prod, only the mention of Sansa gets a visceral reaction from Jon, the same type of reaction we saw Ned have when it came to Cat)
Littlefinger: "Do give Lord Tyrion my best when you see him."
Then the 7x03 scene:
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We see a bit of Jon's reaction to Tyrion's asking about Sansa as does Tyrion. But it's obviously nowhere near 7x02's above. A bit tempered I would almost say (and maybe that's due to Sansa telling Jon that Tyrion was good to her or Jon remembering Tyrion fondly but the show purposely kept this part of the scene in).
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We then see Jon's reaction to Theon in 7x04 and once again, Sansa is brought up by the other party and this is his reaction to it. Jon has to know (through Sansa) that Theon didn't actually kill Bran (and obviously not Rickon due to season 6 & Sansa) but Theon did betray Robb. And as Jon states, the only reason he's not killing Theon is because of what he did for Sansa. But it's a strong reaction that Jon then realizes is being observed by Missandei, Davos, and the Dothraki as well as the Ironborn. And he backs off a bit. But we are shown Davos' expression here. Tyrion is not present for this (which would explain how he doesn't see through Jon) and I'm willing to bet that this is Jon also realizing he needs to keep himself in check. Because Missandei and the Dothraki still serve Dany.
Then you have the scene in 8x01 between Sansa and Tyrion:
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In this scene, we see Lord Royce talking to Sansa. Tbf, it's multi-purpose, to show us that Sansa now has the KotV answering to her (despite Dany and Jon's bending the knee), and it shows us just how much she's grown as a leader and that she does have power as well as the respect of the Northern allies. By removing the threat of Littlefinger, Winterfell now has the KotV exclusively through her. (which is shown again in 8x02 in the library scene so Dany sees this for herself which begs the question as to why Royce is in this scene, it could have been the Maester or anyone else or just Tyrion approaching her like Littlefinger approached her in 7x01) And sure enough, Tyrion says "Many underestimated you. Most of them are dead now." Plus we get Sansa's line of "I used to think you were the cleverest man alive." Here, she realizes (and says) that Tyrion is not as smart as he would have everyone believe, as smart as he thinks he is. (I would even venture to say that Littlefinger was more clever than he was as well)
And then the 8x04 scene, Sansa realizes that Tyrion is afraid of Dany. Tyrion does see her get slightly emotional when he says Jon has told him that he's not a Stark, but he doesn't think more on it. Sansa also realizes the best way to protect Jon and tells Tyrion the truth about who he is, knowing how he will react (utilizing the lessons she's learned from Littlefinger). Sure enough, in 8x05 Dany even confirms this with: "Why do you think Sansa told you? What do you think she hoped to gain?" "She trusts me." "Yes, she trusts you. She trusted you to spread secrets that could destroy your own queen and you did not let her down."
Tyrion didn't get it. He didn't see what was really going on in front of him. Dany did. Arya did. Even Davos did. And Bran saw all, of course. But Tyrion as clever as he was, missed one of the biggest "threats" Dany would be facing. (not really a threat in the danger sense, but meaning what choice Jon would make when it came down to Dany and Sansa) Which is why he throws Sansa out as a last resort in the 8x06 jail scene to get through to Jon. And even after Jon kills Dany, Tyrion still doesn't get it. Which is why he says "Sansa and Arya wanted to see you freed of course." Again, relegating Sansa back into the sister role. And the Stark goodbye scene follows this scene and we see what happens there.
Tyrion bought the romance just like the GA did. Even though he spoke for the writers in the first jail scene, he was the audience at times (think how he always wanted to hear others' stories for example). But he was the audience that only saw what they wanted to see. That were infatuated with Dany and believed her rhetoric. He became one of her believers and even when he saw her lose her temper or become impulsive, knew the threat Westeros was facing with her, he attempted to explain away or dismiss or distract from it all. Which is why I'm willing to bet that Bran made him his Hand so that he could "fix what he broke". And why Tyrion is not in the "A Song of Ice and Fire" book in the finale. "I don't believe you're mentioned". Which goes in line with Tyrion's "Oblivion is the best I can hope for."
So Tyrion's point of view of Jon's decision is skewed at best. Because Jon always tempered his true feelings/thoughts around Tyrion when it came to Sansa, starting with 7x03. And considering Tyrion saw Jon not willing to stop Dany for the realm, the North, Winterfell, the Starks, Tyrion himself or Jon himself, how could it be love that he thought Jon had chosen? In his mind, Jon chose duty, the same as him.
Had Littlefinger been in Tyrion's place, though... Not only would he have been gone way sooner than Varys but he also saw things that Tyrion didn't.
Starting in season 6, he started to see the effect of Jon and Sansa's reunion on Sansa herself. She rebuffs Littlefinger when they meet for the first time since Ramsey. Even though she calls for his help and to bring the KotV, she still stops him from kissing her (in contrast to season 5 in the crypt) and kindly rebuffs him this time. She then doesn't say a word against Jon's being made KitN.
And then in 7x01, we see her doing similar to Jon. She tempers her reactions (about Jon) in front of Littlefinger and keeps him close but at a distance, especially when it comes to Jon. She only continues to play the game even more strategically when Bran and Arya come back and it's obvious to her that Littlefinger is scheming (and her siblings may be in danger).
But back to 7x01 (and 7x02), Littlefinger had the opportunity to see more than Tyrion did, not only due to his presence at Winterfell but also because he wasn't blindly in love with a third party. Remember those Ned and Cat shot callbacks we got?
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Which is why we get Littlefinger's look between the direction a departed Jon has gone in and a watching-after-him Sansa. And also why we get Littlefinger attempting to needle Sansa with possible jealousy by mentioning Dany with Jon (7x07). Littlefinger knew and he was seeing Ned and Cat coming again.
Had Littlefinger been in Tyrion's place (or Davos or Brienne or anyone else that has been around the two), they would have known that Jon chose love that day, and Dany was simply relegated to duty.
Which is why in 8x06, we don't get a close up of Jon putting his forehead to Dany's like we did with Ygritte.
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Ygritte was love for Jon. Dany was not. Dany was only love for Tyrion.
Jon chose Sansa. Sansa was love.
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Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 15 Intuition
Spoilers below (And we are finally all caught up so the episodes can be watched in order from 1 to 20th
-Glaciator again?
-DID HE GET BEAT BY A GIANT BELL AND FIRE CRACKERS?
-Wait is this Elation?
-Oh he is using the snake to guide his akuma. That is clever. But with that ability he should be able to win
-WAIT the lucky charm changed! OH SNAP! THE lucky charm changes to be exactly what is needed for the situation. So even with the snake miraculous... IT GETS HARD COUNTERED BY THE LADYBUG!
-I WAS RIGHT! IT IS ELATION! ... Why would he choose the ice cream man of ALL People though. Granted I love Elation so I wont complain
-So Gabriel realizes that the snake wont work against Lucky charm.
-So I really like how it is show all the OTHER ways the akuma got beaten. Implying that Gabriel was using the snake to advise his akuma in the most optimal way.
-So if it isnt lucky charm that stops him, its Chat noir's unpredicatability. Or... BAD LUCK
-So it confirmed that the user doesnt get rewinded by the time shift. MEANING. When Adrien used the rewind 25,913 times. Which means Adrien spent at most 3 months time doing that. So Adrien is 3 months older than he should be
-Gabriel has a weird ass heartbeat from cataclysm. So he has accelerated his death basically. AWESOME.
-Damn so Gabriel has only a few weeks left at most and Nathalie isnt fairing much better. Nathalie is telling him they need to think of a way that Adrien wont be left on his own when they die.
-For once, I almost pity him. Mainly cause Nathalie is there to make him TRY and change.
-Marinette is so adorkable.
-Gabriel is litterally dying right behind adrien and the boy is to engrossed by his cute girl friend to notice. Maybe he really is Gabriel's son XD
-It took him falling for him to actually hang up. I know I should feel bad... BUT its gabriel.
-Gabriel using the miraculous like a junkie.
-He is using the snake to talk with Tomoe to convince her. TRUELY he is sacrificing everything
-SHE CAN HEAR HIS WEIRD HEARTBEAT!? Well i guess the lesson is HONESTY is what is needed when you want to make an evil scheme
-You already know this is going to become f***ing horrible because they are livestreaming a space launch.
-Huh... lila isnt there. How weird.
-ADA! Adorable. Markov has a little sister AI. Cant wait to see her get akumatized
-Kim your your dumbassery is no longer charming to me.
-Gabriel jealous of Ms.Kante's healthy heart.
-She is so cool.
-Oh no! He just removed the sensors so she cant sense her.
-Monarch you evil bastard.
-Ada got depressed
-Markov in the french dub is adorable
-Monarch is preping for war right now.
-He made an ASTEROID!
-What is he doing!?
-Okay see, this is devious. I like this plan.
-Adrien saw an opportunity to be a good boy friend AND get out of class. That is Prime behavior
-Monarch knew they would split up
-He akumatizes his SECOND ai
-OH that looks so slick! its a giant robot!
-OH DAMN! he trapped her in space!
-Wait... if the miraculous gets removed.... OH S***! SHE GONNA DIE
-Oh damn!
-He timed it right this time.
-Chat noir you absolute TROLL! He used the second chance against him by grabbing his ring hand.
-Well now chat noir is gonna get stunned! Oh no!
-Monarch was too hyperfocused on Chat noir to come up with a convincing lie, Thus bugfighter learned the truth.
-Monarch didnt think this through. How many restarts is it now
-He couldnt think of a successful idea and had to give up.
-So he collapsed and Nathalie found him.
-Gabriel told Adrien he would try and spend more time with him it would be sweet if I didnt know it was a LIE
-Ladybug asking chat noir if its weird Monarch never uses Second chance... while Chat noir is like "We lucky he doesnt."
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I think if there was an episode that would make me feel sympathy for Gabriel... it would be this one. Too bad I still dont.
Its a solid episode, explaining the actual negatives of the snake miraculous in his condition. Gabriel so desperate to win that he failed to see the obvious solution.
He is so obsessed with the miraculous he is like a drug addict unable to stop his addiction.
8.5/10.
I think this is the best episode I have seen in terms of writing on the later half of season 5 so far.
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S2 overarching theory
Rewinds, memory and no god
I don't think the present in s2 are memories. It starts the same way that the s1 present-set times start: s2e1 begins in the clouds and zooms across the same landscape just like s1e2, the only difference is that there's more fog in s1 after the zoom into building-level. We literally go through a ton of white bullshit in s1 that isn't there in s2.
In s1, we were explicitly shown that what we were seeing was a recorded narration: the camera bumped into Newt's window, showing us that he can affect electronics, and we saw a pair of fast forwards/rewinds.
We did also explicitly see in s1 that there were different versions of the past/present, interwoven timelines if you will: Anathema's drawing on the title page of Agnes's book changes between when we are shown she made it and when Aziraphale sees it, and the "last" prophecy changes numbers. There is also a boat I cannot identify.
We did not have the fog in s2, and we did not have god's narration, and we had no ff/rw's. In s1, we also saw white mist in the paintball war, which appeared to make the office workers reenact the war in heaven: instead of seeing the ineffables as strangers, they saw them as people they knew.
I think the white mist, and the fog in the flydown to the present, was a "heavenly filter", god's POV. God sees "the truth", she sees things filtered through her demands, her rules.
Not having that in s2 means we are seeing reality as it appears to humans, not objectively, not "adjusted" so it's easy to understand. S1 was adjusted, s2 wasn't. That's why s1 was normal and s2 is a mess.
Imagine if we saw s1 without god's POV. What would it look like from the POV of the humans on the bench after armageddon who were told that their trade delegation got eaten by a mass hallucination?
It would look like timelines were intersecting and memories were being erased and you were reliving time loops. Because you kinda did. Except that's not what happened. It all happened, and it was changed post facto by Adam. That's not a memory wipe, but to the humans that's what it looks like. We are now those humans. Both realities are true: the trade delegation was eaten, and the monster that ate them never existed. That sure does look like a timeloop from the inside.
"Armageddon only happens once, you know. You don't get to go round again until you get it right."
Except they sure did. God shows us they did, because her ff/rw's show us things changed. God went round till she got what she wanted, but we only saw the last version.
Why else change the opening fly down? God said at the end of s1 after the reboot that "there was fallout in the nature of reality".
I think armageddon went round once, god didn't like it, so we went round at least once more, perhaps twice. You know how she likes threes. Maybe the first time Agnes wasn't there. Maybe the second time, there weren't enough prophecies to help. Third, perfect, and that's the one we saw: but there were echoes of the past two tries we didn't see inside the third that we did get to see. Much like how in s2, we see the dirty columns from the demons scratching it in the beginning, and people seem to appear and disappear as if there's sloppy Doylist editing and poor continuity. It got worse from s1 to s2 because we're not seeing the god's eye view, we're seeing things like those people on the bench bitching that a mass hallucination ate their trade delegation: people are literally there and gone between blinks.
God gave us a neat and linear Watsonian story in s1, because god was our Doylist editor. We do not have her anti-bullshit filter for s2, so now we are seeing what the humans in s1 saw: continuity errors.
So in s2, we don't get god's narration, we don't get her truth spell fog, AND on top of those, things are also "going screwy with reality" because of what Adam did.
Perhaps Aziraphale's and Crowley's powers go haywire: just like at the ball, people are now showing up as they wish to be, which would explain why people are dressed so haphazardly on the streets; and they now know something is wrong with supernatural events, instead of living in boring "reality" where they see them but make up a justification and forget. We're seeing what happens to Soho when A+C make it how they want it to be, just like Adam did to Tadfield's perfect weather. A+C never had to learn not to do that because they never had those powers before. The other angels have no idea what earth is like so they don't notice anything wrong.
If what we're seeing is A+C affecting reality, perhaps the people flipping around between blinks happens just like it did for Adam: Tibetan people not digging spy tunnels, then suddenly spying and having no idea why but compelled do to it. Maybe A+C are gaining powers akin to god's, and God is fighting them trying to control it, to put reality back to how it's supposed to be. A 14-second kiss feels like forever and the clock skips 15 minutes because that's how time feels like it's moving when you can MAKE your feelings into reality. Just as time doesn't move when you reminisce about when you fell in love and the days felt like they were melting together.
That doesn't explain Maggie though. She couldn't have bought the record store from its previous s1 owner and just lied about it, because Aziraphale would have said something (probably). Though perhaps she did just buy it, 8 months ago, and never paid rent. Nina is the only person she tells she was always there, but if it's true Nina only just arrived, Nina would not know she's lying. I do still think Maggie's god taken form, which explains all her weirdness: human heads aren't built for omniscience just like Jim's isn't built for remembering who he is anymore, you'd have to cut out a lot of stuff.
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Another new episode!
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Hello and welcome back to The Rewatch Rewind! My name is Jane, and this is the podcast where I count down my top 40 most frequently rewatched movies in a 20-year period. Today I will be talking about number 15 on my list: Columbia Pictures’ 1940 fast-talking comedy His Girl Friday, directed by Howard Hawks, written by Charles Lederer (and uncredited Ben Hecht and Morrie Ryskind), based on the play “The Front Page” by Ben Hecht and Charles MacArthur, and starring Cary Grant, Rosalind Russell, and Ralph Bellamy.
After a four-month absence, reporter Hildy Johnson (Rosalind Russell) returns to the office of The Morning Post to inform her ex-husband/boss, editor Walter Burns (Cary Grant), that she is about to marry insurance agent Bruce Baldwin (Ralph Bellamy), settle down, and quit the newspaper business for good. Desperate to win her back, both professionally and romantically, Walter entices Hildy to write one last great story for the paper, while doing everything he can to sabotage her relationship with Bruce.
I don’t remember any of my first impressions of this movie, or if I had seen it before I started keeping track. I assume it was one of the many old movies I got from the library relatively early in my foray into Old Hollywood, so I might have seen it in 2002. I definitely saw it once in 2003, once in 2005, once each in 2007 through 2009, three times in 2010, three times in 2012, once in each year from 2013 through 2016, twice in 2017, once in 2018, twice in 2019, and twice in 2022. I know that in 2010, I took a class at community college called “film as literature,” in which some assignments involved picking a movie and three different aspects of filmmaking, and discussing how those three aspects enhanced the story of that particular film. The instructor advised us to watch the movie we were writing about three times, focusing on a different aspect each time, and His Girl Friday was one of the movies I wrote a paper like that about (I focused on dialogue, props, and lighting), so that explains the three times in 2010. But I can’t think of a good explanation for why I watched it three times again in 2012, aside from the fact that it’s a great movie that I always enjoy watching. It’s also one that feels particularly appropriate to include in my annual Cary Grant birthday marathon, because it happened to come out on his birthday in 1940, so that’s part of why I watch it almost every year.
By far the best and most noteworthy aspect of this movie is its rapid-fire dialogue. Yes, a lot of old movies are very dialogue-heavy with people talking pretty fast, but like, His Girl Friday takes it to a whole other level. A typical movie averages around 90 words of dialogue per minute; His Girl Friday averages around 240. Many lines were specifically written so that the beginning and the end didn’t matter, allowing the actors to talk over each other, as people do in real conversations, without preventing the audience from understanding what was going on. All the fast, overlapping talking is particularly impressive given that multi-track recording hadn’t been developed yet, so they couldn’t adjust the volumes of different speakers separately in post-production; they just turned different overhead microphones on and off so the primary speaker was louder when they were recording, with some scenes reportedly requiring up to 35 switches – shout out to that sound department. At the time, the record for fastest film dialogue was held by the 1931 version of The Front Page, and director Howard Hawks was determined to break it with this adaptation, which he later proved he had done by screening the two versions next to each other. He also encouraged the actors to improvise, which made filming take longer – as it had with his earlier Bringing Up Baby – but helped the conversations feel even more authentic. Rosalind Russell felt that Cary Grant had more good lines in the script than she did, so she hired her own writer to help enhance her dialogue. Apparently at one point, after she did something unscripted, Grant broke character and said into camera, “Is she going to do that?” which Hawks really wanted to keep in the movie, but ultimately didn’t make the final cut. But several noteworthy ad-libs remained, including at least two, possibly three, amazing inside jokes. One is when Walter says, “He looks like that fellow in the movies…Ralph Bellamy” about Bruce, who did, in fact, look exactly like Ralph Bellamy, the actor playing him. And then there’s the part when the mayor says, “You’re through,” and Walter replies with, “The last man that said that to me was Archie Leach,” in reference to Cary Grant’s birth name – yes, he had the same birth surname as me, but we’re not related as far as I know. And the third, which has not been officially confirmed as an ad-lib or intentional reference but might have been, is when Walter calls the man hiding in a desk a “mock turtle,” which was the character Grant played in the 1933 Alice in Wonderland movie.
So basically, this film was made specifically for Cary Grant fans, and that’s a big part of why I love it. Walter Burns is one of his less likable characters – he’s selfish and deceptive and manipulative – but also one of his most fun to watch. Grant nails every beat of the breakneck-paced dialogue, knowing exactly when to pull focus toward himself and when to fade back to let his scene partner shine through. He still keeps going in the background, though, which helps make this movie especially rewatchable. As you can probably tell from the mere existence of this podcast, I enjoy rewatching movies anyway, but with His Girl Friday in particular, there are so many excellent moments that I didn’t notice until I’d seen the whole film many times, and I’m still noticing new things with every rewatch. While you don’t need to hear the overlapping bits of dialogue to follow the movie, once you’re familiar with the story it’s very fun to go back and listen for the parts you missed before. And several actors – Grant in particular – make some great reaction faces in the background that are worth watching out for. So if you’ve only seen this movie once, I would highly recommend revisiting it.
And it’s not just Cary Grant – Rosalind Russell is absolutely fabulous in this movie. Hildy Johnson was a man in The Front Page, but when Howard Hawks heard his female secretary reading the lines during auditions, he thought they sounded great coming from a woman and decided to turn Hildy into Walter’s ex-wife. It would have been nice if they could have changed one of the main characters into a woman without making her automatically romantically involved with the other main character, but we can’t have everything. Many actresses were considered but ended up either turning it down or being too expensive to hire. Russell knew she was not a top choice and was apparently very insecure about that, but she had no reason to be because she was perfect. All the reporters in the movie talk ridiculously fast, but she leaves them in the dust and makes it look easy. It took me many takes just to quote part of one of her many rapid monologues at the end of last episode without tripping over my words; I don’t know how she did it. And while she’s talking a mile a minute, she’s also portraying an incredibly layered and nuanced character. The wonderful character actors playing the other reporters do a great job of conveying that they have embraced the cold, detached mindset of caring more about the scoop than the story itself. Hildy shares this to a certain extent, but she hasn’t completely lost her sense of empathy the way they have. She fits in with the guys, but she’s also better than them, both as a journalist and as a human being, without seeming too perfect to be realistic, which is an incredibly complex and difficult balance to strike, but again, Rosalind Russell nails it. Much as I love Grant’s performance, Russell is really the glue that holds the whole thing together, and she commits to that role completely.
Hildy is such a strong character that I’m always disappointed when she goes back to Walter at the end. She is clearly a much better match with him than with Bruce, whose slow, deliberate speech contrasts rather jarringly with Hildy and Walter’s snappy patter. But Walter has learned exactly zero lessons by the end of the movie, and there is no reason to believe that any of the problems with their first marriage will ever be resolved. Throughout the movie, Hildy is torn between wanting the domestic life of Bruce’s wife and the more hectic life of a newspaper reporter that still has a hold on her. When Walter tells her she can’t quit because she’s a newspaperman, she replies that that’s why she’s leaving, so she can be a woman. But as much as she complains about it, she makes it pretty clear that she does love being a reporter. I think there is a part of her that genuinely likes the idea of settling down as a housewife, but it seems like the main reason she wants to do that is because society is telling her that’s what women are supposed to do. So I’m very glad the movie doesn’t make her marry Bruce. I also recognize that at the time it was rather radical to suggest that a woman should pursue a career in something other than homemaking if she wants to, let alone suggest that she doesn’t have to completely give up the idea of having a husband to do so. In 1940 it was highly unusual to show a man wanting his wife to also have a career like Walter does. So from that perspective it is kind of nice to see them get back together. But at the same time, he treats her pretty terribly, and it kind of feels like it’s saying that a career gal should be happy with any man she can manage to get, regardless of how slimy he is. Not that Hildy doesn’t also treat Walter pretty terribly too. I guess they show their affection by hurling insults at each other, which is a type of relationship that makes no sense to me, but they seem to be on the same page about it. Still, I would love to see Hildy walk out on both Walter and Bruce like the strong, independent woman she is. At least the movie makes it clear that, despite its title, she is nobody’s assistant, or “girl Friday.”
The progressive for 1940 but doesn’t quite work now theme extends beyond feminism. Besides the Walter/Hildy/Bruce love triangle, the other main storyline in the movie involves a man named Earl Williams, played by John Qualen, who is about to be hanged for killing a policeman, despite some legitimate questions regarding his sanity. Walter wants Hildy to do one final interview with Earl to show that he definitely wasn’t responsible for his actions, and that he’s being strategically executed a few days before an election so the incumbent sheriff and mayor will look tough on crime and win. Most of the reporters don’t seem to care, asking the sheriff if he can move the execution up a few hours so it can make their morning editions. The sheriff refuses, but it is very clear that he could not care less about upholding the law, and same with the mayor, because when a messenger from the governor arrives with a reprieve, they try to bribe him to leave and come back later so they can still execute Williams and pretend the reprieve arrived too late. And it’s not just the politicians who are corrupt. Hildy bribes a prison guard twice: first to get an interview with Earl Williams, and then to find out how he managed to get a gun and escape. Then when Hildy and Walter find Williams, they hide him, not because they think he’s innocent and want to save him, but because they want to be able to turn him in after they’ve written the story of how they captured him. The movie’s statements about the way American society treats working-class people on the fringes, like Earl, and the way the criminal justice system is easily manipulated for political or financial gain, are honestly still pretty accurate, for the most part. But in a bizarre twist, Walter tells Bruce and Hildy that the policeman Earl shot was black, and that the politicians are trying to get votes from black people by executing his white killer, which is just, so completely backwards from how anything actually works that it kind of detracts from the legitimate points the movie does make. Everything about this story just screams late 1930s/early 1940s, from the characters’ world views to the costumes to the current event references, which makes sense given when the movie was made, but is completely inconsistent with the written prologue at the beginning, which states: “It all happened in the dark ages of the newspaper game – when to a reporter getting that story justified anything short of murder. Incidentally, you will see in this picture no resemblance to the men and women of the press today. Ready? Well, once upon a time—” It’s like, nice try, but in 1940 you can’t pretend this is set in a bygone era and then talk about Hitler and the European war. I don’t think they were really fooling anyone, but at least this allowed the filmmakers to get away with criticizing journalists without getting sued or censored.
Speaking of being censored, one of the few female characters in this movie, Mollie Malloy (played by Helen Mack), kind of seems like she’s supposed to be a prostitute, but of course they weren’t allowed to say that so it’s not super clear. What we do know is that she befriended Earl Williams shortly before he was arrested and has visited him in jail, and that the press has been inaccurately representing the nature of Earl and Mollie’s relationship. I don’t know if it was partly because of the Hays Code that they specifically state that Earl and Mollie haven’t slept together, but regardless of the reason, I’m always a fan of platonic male/female friendship. And the way the movie shows that they care about each other deeply in a non-sexual way, while portraying the reporters as wrong for sexualizing their relationship, feels almost like it’s saying “asexual rights” and we love to see it. We don’t really know what’s going to happen to Earl and Mollie after the events of the film, but I hope that Earl gets the mental health care he needs – he won’t because it’s 1940 but we can pretend – and that Mollie fully recovers from jumping out of the window – we know she’s alive but not how badly she’s hurt – and that they remain close friends.
While this movie touches on a lot of dark themes, overall the tone is lighthearted. It feels like it’s exposing the world for the hellscape that it is and laughing at it. And while some of its attitudes feel very outdated and problematic, that mood is still relatable. His Girl Friday is hectic and chaotic and screwball, but it manages to remain at least somewhat grounded and real. So watching it can feel like either escaping from the real world or looking into a mirror held up to the real world, depending on what the viewer chooses to focus on. This makes it an appropriate movie to watch in many different moods, which helps explain why I revisit it so often. That and the incredible fast-talking performances that I’m still in awe of. And, of course, Cary Grant’s presence always helps.
Thank you for listening to me discuss another of my most frequently rewatched movies. Next up is the fourth and longest movie I watched 22 times in 20 years, which is also from the 1940s, so stay tuned for another oldie. It is also probably the most disturbing movie on this list, just to warn anyone who may be watching along. As always, I will leave you with a quote from that next movie: “Are you suggesting that this is a knife I hold in my hand?”
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georgiaheartsdilfs · 2 years
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Hi , I was wondering if you chould take my request .The reader and Lucien Castle are into a relationship and they have an argument. Lucien thinks that the reader has cheated on them with Tristian and he yells at them and it makes the reader cry and then he understands that they didn't. And he makes up to them by hugging them tight and kiss their forhead.Ofc if you want and have time ❤.Have a nice day ❤ 😊
It was just a misunderstanding, I'm sorry love. | Lucien Castle x Reader
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"This dress, or this one?" I hum holding up two different dresses, my boyfriend Lucien looks up at me. We had been going through my tons of dresses for almost an hour, this party Tristan was holding had to make me seem powerful, so I had to look the part.
"I don't know, dear, they both look good." he mumbles, Lucien had mentally left this situation maybe twenty minutes ago when I was stuck between my blue matte dress and my red, sleeck sequenced dress.
I ended up choosing a different pair of dresses, my grey long dress and my black long dress. They were basically identical "I don't understand why you have to look so good for everyone else." he sighs rubbing his dome annoyed at me.
"Well babe, if you wanted to seem powerful, powerful wife equals powerful life." I shrug "just pick one" I raise them once more "fine the grey one" he says "hm but I liked the black one." I look between the dresses.
"Fine choose the black one, you'll look ravishing anyways." his tone started getting more agitated with each word "don't pick that tone with me Tri- Lucien" I sigh, I had been stressed from the copious amounts of messages coming through from Tristan, the wardrobe malfunction didn't help.
"Rewind, did you just almost call me tristan?" he stands up "what no, Lucien you know Tristan has been blowing up my phone since his stupid party started." dropping the dresses realising Lucien's obvious jealousy.
"no you just said his name, why would you be thinking of him are you cheating?." Lucien raises his voice slightly "Lucien, baby it was just a simple slip up anyone could have made that mistake." I try to reason with him and he storms off "LUCIEN" I yell out to him but he had slammed the door behind him.
I burst into the room "GET OUT, TRISTAN OUT OF ALL MEN Y/N YOU ARE A FUCKING ATTENTION GRABBING W-" but before he could get that final word out, a tear rolls down my cheek.
I run out of the room crying, Lucien hadn't possibly thought through his words before saying them out loud and he wasn't that type of person which made me cry.
Falling onto the sofa, crying into it.
It took twenty minutes until I hear footsteps approach me, the sofa slumps towards one direction as Lucien sits down placing a hand on my back.
"you uh, you didn't cheat on me didn't you." he said in a polite tone, I look up at him with puffy red eyes "of course not, who do you think I am." I sob, Lucien wipes my tears away with his hand.
"I'm sorry, y/n, i just thought. You know these prophecies have me in a frenzy." he apologises "I know you would never cheat but I just get worried, maybe you would leave me." he continues "I'd never leave you" I say still sobbing.
"oh y/n, hunny." he said feeling bad for me, pulling me into a hug. I cry into his chest.
He pulls away looking at me, wiping my tears once more before gently placing his lips on my forehead. "It was just a misunderstanding, I'm sorry love." he mutters and I nod "I forgive you." I whisper "You know I don't like you crying, go get dressed and we can show them up." he smiles gently and I nod getting up to put my dress on.
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qhostqizmo · 4 months
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Love and Loss and Found Again
whoopsie doo, this is ur fault Ammy
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He opens his eyes, and all is bathed in a pale luminous glow. No identifying features stand out; the outline of trees that lack definition and color, buildings, roads. He isn't sure if it's just the realm in which he has found himself in, or if it's because of her.
Her presence; filled with color and vibrancy as he knew in life. Her expression; astonished to see him once more. There is no blood in her hair; no scars, no wounds, no discoloration or crusty pieces of her scales rotting off flesh. She is here, and she is just as captivating as he'd seen her in life.
The silence is deafening. Amon was never certain if he would see the sanctuary of this sort of afterlife- not after what sins he had committed and the silence that held his tongue for so many years. But even his questions on how or why were short-lived; a flash like a firefly blinking in the dark. If she was here, then this was paradise.
Without knowing he does so, the nobleman races for her. She does not move; wide-eyed and slack-jawed. When they collide it is rough; panicked, the wind knocked out of the both of them as he embraces her on impact, staggering. She wheezes against his chest out of breath, with fingers digging into his shoulders.
"Essatha," he breathes; her name like forgotten ambrosia's nectar on his tongue. Such a sweet sound; such perfection breathed into each syllable. He'd only spoken it with such loneliness for so long, now; ached with it, drowned in it.
"You're here," the sorceress rasps. Her voice is both staggering with emotion, and gasping in the strength of his arms wrapped so tightly around her. "You're here-- but you shouldn't be here, it's too soon-"
A broken and harsh choking sound escapes the Lord as he buries his face in her hair. "It was too soon for you, too. The world lost something grand, and beautiful, and exquisite the day it lost you. I was lost, without you."
No longer does he know if he's shaking like a life, or if she is, or if they both are simply too overwhelmed that their limbs and ribcages have tuned to the same overpowering force. His sobs become hers-- or maybe it's the other way around. They lost. They found. They lost again- and found, even here. Even now.
"I'm so sorry-"
"Don't," she hushes; voice softer and sweeter than any songbird melody. "Don't. Don't tell me you're sorry. Don't be sorry for things we couldn't control; for events we couldn't rewind."
"I should have protected you better," Amon mumbles; the guilt even now like lead in his chest.
"You did. You did, m'lord you aren't to blame for what happened to me, you never were. You did everything right; everything you should have, everything you could. I don't blame you. Please don't blame yourself. Please."
Heavy, agonizing moans tore through Amon's throat as he clutched to her with everything he had. He knew better than to think he deserved her, after he failed her so totally, but she didn't just forgive him-- she never put the blame he so rightfully deserved on his shoulders. As much as he wanted her to be furious with him; he wanted her to upset, or hurt; he was relieved by her generosity; her compassion. His Essie, still too good for him; kind, considerate, seeing the best in him, seeing the shades of gray in scenarios he insisted were black and white. After all: he was a failure, a weak boy, and a monster; a killer- but she never stopped insisting on the good in him, on his heart, on his spirit being unwavering.
"I missed you. I was lost without you."
"I know, beloved, I know. But this… this may not be your end-"
"I won't go back," the Briarton Lord sobbed. He heaved for oxygen, burying her into his ribcage, into his skin. He wanted her closer; needed her closer; needed her in the safety of his arms and in his heart forever.
"I'm never letting you go again."
Her breathing shuddered, in and out. "But Amon-"
The desperation in her voice made him whimper, pathetic, needy. A hiccup shook his chest as he peeled himself off her just enough to look her in the eye- hers such as bloodshot as he expected his own to appear.
"Essie; my Essie," he crooned, shaking on each breath, "I could have been a race with lifespan to last a millenia, and it would still have been worthless without you in it. The life I had been leading before you was no life at all; walking from point A to point B, trying to uphold a family legacy, mechanical, desolate, meaningless. It held no value. I was pointless. I looked after my people, and the Emerald Expanse, but anyone could have done that. I had nothing- I was nothing.*"
"I know that look, darling- please let me finish, I beg you. I know you would want me to go on. I'm selfish, I'm stupid- I'll be any kind of fool the world wants to call me, I don't care. I want you. I only want to be with you- I have missed you in every way, in every day; in the ruddy evening sunlight, in the bed we'd share, in the place by my side. I saw you in every sunrise; I longed for your touch in ever triumph and failure; that warm reassurance, that soft smile. Gods you're so beautiful, I feel as if i've forgotten every fond crinkle by your eyes when you smile-"
He reached for her cheek and Essatha shuddered, a fresh spring of tears meeting his palm as he cupped her face. The heat of her beneath his touch; the softness of his skin, it was all the same here as it had been in life. Bright, like a sun going supernova.
She turned into his hand to kiss his wrist. He wiped at the wetness beneath those golden butterscotch eyes, a dull throbbing in his heart. How he hated to see her cry; it mattered not the reason, tears did not belong in his beautiful gentle Essatha's eyes.
"I want to be with you," Amon murmured. "*I need you. I- I love you, Ess'. I could operate the Emerald Expanse; I could move through a daze in life doing as I'm needed, as I'm told; doing what's best and good but it's not what I want. I want you- I wanted you there Essie; I wanted you there for all of it. I want to live for myself a life *worth* living, and without you there… Without you- holding your hand, balancing my flaws, encouraging me, living with me…"
His throat jumped, swallowing.
"I would have married you, if you'd have taken me."
"… Why not, now?" she asked; voice faint and soft as she peered into his gaze through her long lashes.
Breath hitching, Amon trembled from head to foot. "M-… Marry you?"
She nooded, lips slightly parted.
"I love you, Amon."
Like himself, she had said it so simply; effortlessly. It was as wonderous and enchanting as the way she said his name; matching it in euphoria.
He should have asked first-- he'd laugh with embarrassement and berate himself later-- but the nobleman leaned in as he cradled her cheek, both tender and protective, and kissed her with delicate yet loving passion.
And to his delight, she reciprocated with a measure of equal enthusiasm and tender heat, wanting of him.
"I need you, too," she mouthed against him; her words barely audible even pressed nose to nose. "I would have come back to you, if I could have."
A grunt escaped him; his lips ghosting against the suppleness of her own. "I have you again, in my arms. Let me love you if- if you'll have me-"
"Always. Always and forever, my beloved m'lord Amon."
Her lord. Her beloved.
Feeling as though he was being strangled; so full of emotions surging and ebbing in hope, anguish, elation, hurt, comfort-- Amon tugged her in once more, meeting her in the middle with exact shades of adoration, and respect, and love he'd always wanted to share with her in life; listening to the sharp inhale of anticipation through her mouth before he claimed her in another kiss.
His. His darling Essatha, back in his arms, where she belonged.
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vintagegoddess12 · 2 years
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The Ever After (4)
Relationship: Agatha Harkness x Reader
Summary: Agatha is getting more thirsty for the reader. Billy hears something.
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The 50s
The 60s
The 70s
The 80s
Agatha laid her confusion to rest when she realized Wanda just pressed rewind on the whole town.
As she’s sitting in the backseat of the Vision’s family car, she thought back to your glitch moment. It looks like the town is on the fritz when Wanda is under stress - more so if it’s labor. The witch did not know if she was relieved that your memory slipped just because of the anomaly, or scared that you would remember her. She decided it was the former.
The new parents decided to bring their kids to a Westview resort for a little rest and recreation. Wanda also reasoned that they should celebrate five years’ worth of birthdays. The kids did nothing but cheer and zoom around their house before their departure, a fact known by Agatha since she can hear them all the way down to her basement.
“Aunt Agnes,” the 5-year-old twins rushed to hug her when she met up with them on their front lawn. Kids are a lot better when they’re not touching her, she thought to herself.
“How are my cute, oh so cute, boys?” She pinches their cheeks which made them giggle. 
Billy continued clinging to her while his twin answered, “I’ve got my floaties, Auntie.” Tommy reached for his inflatable donut and presented it to her. She pretended to be surprised as if she has not seen those so many times. Not two minutes into the trip but she’s already losing energy to deal with them. How are they so energetic? They’re only 9 hours old!
“Are we ready to have some fun in the sun?” Wanda cheered as she approached their car. Agnes feigned excitement and joined the kids in squealing. 
Vision eagerly loaded their luggage in the car and asked everyone to hop in. They all ran and took their seats, the nosy neighbor sandwiched between the kids on the back seat.
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Their vehicle came to a stop when they reached the resort near the edge of town. Bringing the whole family here is pretty bold for the young ingenue, Agatha thought to herself. She decided it’s not up to her to ensure their safety from the surrounding force field, she might even be the cause of its breakdown. 
As the group walked inside the hotel, the kids who are full of energy once again zoomed around the hallways. Vision ran after them as Wanda took their keys from reception. Agnes trailed after her friend, making snarky comments about, you guessed it, her husband.
“Ralph insisted on staying home,” she puffed her now-era-appropriate curly hair while leaning close to Wanda, “says he’s not in a good mood to be under the sun.” 
“Oh no,” the young witch said half-heartedly.
“One of these days, I’m going to poison him with garlic and kill the vampire man that I think he is,” she affirmed with a laugh. Agatha, of course, knows that the food condiment doesn’t really kill vampires. You do it with a stake to their heart, but Agnes is not supposed to know that. 
“Maybe he’s just planning a surprise for you,” Wanda thought of all the sweet gestures Vision had prepared for her and smiled to herself. Always the romantic.
“Oh honeybun, the only way he can surprise me is if he washes his own dishes over the weekend,” Agnes was about to laugh at her statement when her eyes landed on a breathtaking Westview resident. “Speaking of surprises, who do we have here?” She called to the incoming figure, who immediately caught the flirty inflection in her voice. 
“Wanda, Agnes,” you beamed at them, missing the way Agatha appreciated your view. 
She watched as you approached them in the reception area, sunglass in your eyes and a summer drink on hand. Her eyes traveled from your head to toe, not missing the magenta one-piece swimsuit peeking through your black lace coverup. It was modest enough for the time period but not enough skin for the Salem witch. 
“[Y/N], I didn’t know you were here?” Wanda wondered if she had somehow instructed her closest friends to come and follow her here. She’s still confused as to how everything works in her Westview. 
“I needed a break from the mourning atmosphere in my house,” your attention darting between the two housewives, “so I decided to get some sun you know.” You took a sip from your drink, eyes meeting Agatha’s.
“By the looks of it, you can definitely get it,” Agnes winked and continued to hold your gaze, smirking at the spit take you did with your drink. 
“Agnes, you’re so naughty,” Wanda remarked, still not used to the flirty and forward nature of her friend. It made her remember Natasha, who was also flirty but for mission purposes. Agnes, on the other hand, uses it for fun which was definitely refreshing. 
The young witch wondered what her life would be like if she had met Agnes and you before all of this. Would you have been friends the same way? Traces of fear crept into her mind when she realized the two of you would either be dead because of her or loathe her. She feels like she’s found her tribe here, just like she did with the Avengers, but that too ended the same way: losing the ones she loved and fighting with the ones she cared for. 
She shook the feeling and focused on what was in front of her: Vision running around with their kids, friends who get her and are always beside her, and a town where she belongs. 
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Settling in her room, Agatha can’t help but feel excited for her weekend. She’s spending time to know Wanda’s powers and she can keep you safe beside her. It’s as if this town is working in her favor. Or maybe Wanda is just an excellent scriptwriter. 
The witch was putting on her swimsuit, careful not to wear anything out of this time period when a knock from the door took her out of her reverie. She tried to determine who the person was but somehow her magic can’t identify who it is. Taking one last look in the mirror, making sure she’s still the hottest witch in town, she opened the door. It definitely showed on her face how surprised she was to see the woman who’s been plaguing her dreams recently.
“Wanda said I’d find you here,” your face scrunched up with a smile. 
“I didn’t know you were aching to see me.” Agnes pouted cheekily which made you smile even more.
“I was just going to ask you a favor.” She stepped aside, letting you into her room. “I don’t think aching is the word I would have used.”
  After closing the door, she turned to you and asked, “And what would you use, baby?” Her voice was low and sounded like a challenge. You opened your mouth, thinking of a reply, but no words come out. You blame it on the heat on your cheeks when she called you ‘baby.’ 
Agatha surely did not miss the sudden redness
“Can you let me finish?” you ask in between giggles.
You noticed how Agnes’s eyes darken, solely looking at you. It’s like watching a predator set its sights on its prey. You two were stuck in a staring match, both unwilling to first let go, when she stepped forward pinning you against the door.
“That depends, sweetie.” Her closeness clouding all your senses, “will you beg for it?”
You remained still against the door, feeling the heat consuming your body and the stark contrast of the cold golden metal on your ring finger. You tried to gather your thoughts, clearing your throat. 
“I think we have very different ideas of what favor means,” you say as you try to remain upright. The lack of distance between you two makes you wanna fall directly into her arms. 
Agatha gave you a once over before replying, “I bet we do.” She grinned, placing a hand on your waist, seeing how unsteady you have become in the past minute.
“Okay,” you pushed Agnes lightly to regain space, “I just came to ask if you want to get a massage downstairs because they said couples can avail of it for a discounted price. Wanda and Vision are getting it and I was supposed to get it but Herb sort of bailed on me.” 
You were visibly catching your breath when you saw jealousy paint Agnes’ face. 
The Salem Witch felt a pang of pain run through her, especially with the idea of Herb wooing you. She wanted to claim her territory right there and then. She can just push you to the bed or have her way with you against this very door. Any way to remind you that only she can touch you best. She was taken out of her thoughts when you shook her body a little. 
“Did you hear me, Agnes?”
It was her turn to gather her thoughts, to remove the images of you deep in pleasure that only she can cause. 
“Yes,” Agnes smiled, trying to regain the upper hand in the conversation, “massage downstairs.” You nodded as she continued. “What about Herb?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t seen him since…” you trailed off, trying to make sense of the gap in memory you’re just realizing. When did you last see the guy?
Agatha can see the confusion you’re currently wrestling with, no doubt caused by the unstable magic of the young redhead and her affinity for sitcoms. 
“So should we go downstairs and get this massage train going?” Your neighbor enthusiastically reeling you back in reality. She offered her hand and you accepted. You both strut down the hallway, all care thrown into the wind.
You also passed by the twins' room, where Billy is in distress about the voices he keeps on hearing. They all scream one thing: he’s coming.
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And so, you have walked through the end. How was it? The walk, the final dungeon/trial, and that last fight. Lay it all out on the table for us
Ohhh gosh. This is going to be a long one, bear with me. Naturally, major end-of-Endwalker spoilers incoming
So we picked up the game at the Omicrons' section and went through to the end of 6.0 in a sitting. I bawled from the moment Alphinaud said the only way forward was for the two of them to sacrifice themselves, so I could walk on, to the moment Hyth and Emet showed up. All my friends' sacrifices cut deep but those were my KIDS, my BABIES, I told myself if nothing else, I'd make sure they were safe ;-; And there they are, throwing themselves into the void to keep ME safe.
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Destroyed me. The endwalk was beautifully done. It really drove home that even when you're totally and completely alone...you're not alone. You have friends and allies and people who love you, all pulling for you. I was openly weeping through that whole section--up til a certain pair showed up
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(Hyth applauding from an upper box like BRAVO, BRAVO)
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(Look. Okay. I cannot interpret these comments in any other way than Partner A being lowkey resentful that you spend more time with Partner B. For the love of the star, my guy, just ask Azem to spend more time with you, that's all you gotta do here)
(Narrator voice: he would not)
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TEARS AGAIN
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HI BABY BIRB I'M HERE TO SAVE YOU
This part's a lot of screenshots so I'm gonna link to the post instead but. The part where Emet gives you a whole list of places to go and things to see. That was him going "you're not my Azem. But you're an Azem, and I know how to handle those. I'm going to motivate you the best way I know how to survive this fight. Because part of them has to live on."
Quick break to cry and gpose in the flowers
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(This game gave me glowy rainbow flowers it's so good to me)
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I am going to think of this the next time I see a massive flock of tiny birds in the sky. Okay, let's fight
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Oh you are KIDDING me, I exclaim into the call with my raid group, who are helping with this part
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KAY GUESS WE'RE DOIN THIS
The fight was VERY cool, especially the part where you have to block her big hit with a tank LB, and she goes to rewind it--only to meet with your friends helping you out
And then YOU get to enrage for once!!! Finally!!!!!
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Of course we can, baby bird <33333 We have never not been friends. Welcome home <3
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DON'T MIND ME I'LL JUST BE HERE CRYING FOREVER
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;u; <333
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AND THEN THERE'S THIS ASSHOLE
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I have a feeling that is a lie
Man. I genuinely do feel for Zenos. Imagine being him. Imagine not having a single other person to connect to, because you were never taught how to make connections with other people. How very lonely his life must be. This is the fictional overpowered high-fantasy version of the dude who gets in fistfights because that's the only way he knows to achieve physical contact with another person.
How sad his life must be.
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Kay, guess we're doin this
Y'all. They made that fight SO cool. The multiple-lives mechanic, the way everything flowed, it really did feel different from any other part of the game. Now I get the "A TEST OF YOUR REFLEXES" memes I've seen around. Delightful.
God damn I've actually hit the photo limit for a single post, which I had no idea existed. Continued in a reblog, I guess!
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OKAY GONNA START SCREAMING
I think wish you back, like volcano, contains a deeper meaning besides missing a lover. THE ENTIRE SONG IS A EUPHEMISM FOR WANTING YOUR OLD/CHILDHOOD SELF BACK SHSHDJDJEK TELL ME IM WRONG
firstly, the chorus. "you were my story" is his younger self, his past self, which is why it's his story - it's his life. he gathers those memories and looks at the photographs of him when he was younger, and cherishes them because he can't go back. he's reminiscing about the past, the good times that he once had, when he had no worries and was happy.
the first verse is even more obvious: maybe he's going through something, or in the process of growing up, he slowly lost the sense of carefreeness and happiness he once had. and it makes him think back to those times when he still had those feelings. he wonders if he'll lose that memory, too. "put your small hands together" is an even more obvious hint that he was a kid then. "in the days when every moment was beautiful and splendid" is EXACTLY the feeling you have as a child where you're not consumed by worries and anxiety. "you were the main character in the movie called me" JUST CONFIRMS IT. because ONLY HIS PAST SELF CAN BE THE MAIN CHARACTER OF HIS MOVIE AHSJEKKEKE
and he says that even if he travels around the world, fill his mind with other thoughts, he can't outrun it, because this feeling is inside of him. he can't escape it.
he wishes his old self back. he's tired of "sitting in a room all day long and turning off the light". he doesn't feel okay, but he knows that he can't go back to the past. you can't rewind time, and even though maybe his past self made a promise to himself to not be defeated, it falls forfeit when he had to say goodbye to his past self as he grew up.
and even though he knows this, he's still holding out for a chance that one day, he can be as happy and carefree as his past self was again. he looks at the picture of his younger self and himself right now, and he wants to be able to see himself smile so brightly again in the mirror. he doesn't want to feel this way anymore. so he holds out hope, and waits.
IDK IT COULD BE A SONG ABOUT A LOVER THAT GOT AWAY OR STH,, but idk the lyrics are kinda way too ambiguous for me to think that way, especially the parts about the main character of his movie ajsjsnsm
OKAY BUT ALSO IF WISH YOU BACK IS ABOUT HIS PAST SELF CLOSE COULD BE ABOUT HIS FUTURE SELF AHSJJSKWKS OK ILL STOP
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE AND I ADORE YOU FOR THIS. I CANT TELL YOU YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!
I absolutely love this analysis. Because I truly believe Jisung is very good at self exploration and introspection HOW CAN HE NOT BE. This man overthinks everything I'm pretty sure about it and his medium is song writing. SO DEFINITELY!!!!!!!! That makes so much sense I don't even know what to tell you except stand up and CLAP
i think all of his songs have double, triple, multiple meaning, it's the beauty of his story telling, he writes about so many things so you can apply it to what speaks to u. that's also just good narrative skills in my opinion. if your story is too obvious it can be good but for me somethng that is open to interpretation is even better, and ji does that so perfectly he understands that i think. or if he doesn't he's just a genius WHICH IS ALSO TRUE
like definitely a past self. his past self. but also his other selves?? all the people he could have been?? and sometimes you change but you want to get that person back??? "the photo engraved in my heart"... i also love how he's able to portray that when we miss someone (or ourselves) it is triggered by things in our day, it doesn't happen in the same manner. it's about being haunted by something but also "you're on my mind MORE TODAY" like. some days you wake up and you're inhabited by something. and that speaks to it SO MUCH. and THE WAY HE SINGS THAT DESPAIR AND FEELING HIS VOICE SENDS ME EVERY GODDAMN TIME THERE'S SO MUCH IN IT AOISFHASF
i also love that he talks about missing something and that it hurts and that we accept this hurt because missing someone also means we care, we love, we are human. and that's so beautiful. THE HUMANITY IN HIS SONGS
I mean I can imagine how someone like Ji could miss previous days... it must be a tough life sometimes, going back to being "carefree" or being "no one"... I get that. That makes me emotional because it's not that he doesn't like his life now, missing our younger self is not about hating our life now, it's just about nostalgia and that's so ok. ANYWAY WOW I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS FOR SO LONG IMMA STOP NOW but thank you for sharing that. truly. i appreciate it so so much, thank you for trusting me with your thoughts
LOTS OF LOVE
(CLOSE NEXT?????)
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allxthingsxglxtter · 1 year
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@lcnelylcves​ || For Hamish
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“Good.  You’re here.”  Caradoc hadn’t even knocked on the door to Hamish’s creepy house, or on the door to his office, just striding in like he was welcome even though he knew he likely wasn’t.  He likely wasn’t even a face his brother wanted to see today, but in this particular moment Caradoc didn’t care.  He put his hands down on his desk, bracing himself against it as he looked him in the eye looking more angry than Caradoc had ever visibly been.
He’d decided to spend his free day yesterday in the Library, wandering the shelves before deciding to try and look up his family.  See if they had stories that had made it in.  Caradoc had admittedly tried looking up Gennie first, but the last name turned out to be enough to lead him to Hamish’s story.  He hadn’t read the description, didn’t know anything going into it, so imagine his surprise when his mom appeared early in.  As head of a weird, magic group.  That was enough to wrap his head around.  He would’ve skipped ahead until he recognized one of the guys from the med school, Randall also being in it, and then when Hamish finally did show up..Caradoc had had to rewind the scene and rewatch it.  Leader of a freaking werewolf club?  And casually talking about murdering someone like that was normal.  Which, it turned out, it was.
He watched every moment, without stopping, for the whole 17 hours straight.  It was a nightmare, Caradoc learning so much tragedy about his brother’s life he’d never had any idea of, as well as the rather ruthless nature of the club he ran out of the creepy house that was somehow here in Sydney.  But that wasn’t even the worst of it for Caradoc, and that wasn’t really what had him openly emotional in front of his oldest brother. 
 “I get it.  We’re not close, never have been, and that’s due in part to just, being a Duke in general how we are, and then the other, obvious reasons for why I’m not close to any of you.  So, I’m gonna start this rant by stating I’m not mad you didn’t tell me, I wouldn’t have expected you to, and I honestly don’t give a shit your...what, possessed by a werewolf?  I guess? And sleeping with my mom, which is weird?  That’s beside the point.”   He shook his head, trying to refocus on what he needed to say.  “I just spent the last 17ish hours watching just some of your life on a tv which is strange as it is, but in those 17ish hours I fucking lost count of how many times you nearly died.  Lost count Hamish. I also lost count of how many people died and how much..death you’ve lived through, which, is also super concerning but the reasoning on most of it was...legitimate so that’s not...as bad to me.  It might be, once I’ve slept and actively thought this through, but you nearly fucking died.  A lot.  And you signed up for it!  You joined the “short is the life” club, and that’s...that thought was enough to spin in my brain fast enough that I’m here yelling at you for scaring the shit out of me.   Yeah, we’re not close but you’re my brother and I love you and I don’t have to know everything about you to know that losing you would never be okay.  No matter how good the cause is, you’re not worth it.  So, you’re not allowed to fucking die or open up anymore hell portals or get stabbed or...any of that because you’re my brother and I can’t..I can’t fucking fathom a world where you’re not in it.”
Tears were welling in his eyes by the end of it, heartbroken and wrecked by how much pain Hamish had lived through and scared of how close and how often he’d come to losing him and had no idea.  But feeling the tears in his eyes brought him back to reality a little, straightening to stand straight in front of Hamish’s desk and tense a little as he realized that not only had he swore more than ever before in his life, but he’d said a whole lot he really didn’t have any right to say to a family member that likely didn’t actually care what he thought or felt about any of it at all.  Caradoc took a breath before taking a step back towards the door, deciding it was best to leave.    
“I...sorry.  It...I shouldn’t have just burst in here with that..I promise not to tell the others, I’ll just..I should go.  Sorry.”
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