#tense muscles

[furiousgoldfish]

I've had non-epileptic seizures for most of my life, I didn't know they were called this until I read the dsm-5 description for the dissociative identity disorder, and they're mentioned in there. The seizures usually mean that I will start shaking, gasping uncontrollably, collapse to the ground, lose control of my limbs and breathing, and start twitching and thrashing on the ground. I'm conscious during this and aware of everything that's going on. It usually happens when I'm alone and trying to relax, I won't have them in front of other people. I can usually feel them coming 10-20 seconds before they happen, it just feels like something is off and I can't breathe properly or feel immense pressure inside and tremors in my body.

They can last from 20 seconds to five minutes, I've sometimes had longer but rarely, and once it's over I will dissociate and go do something else, forgetting I've even had a seizure until later I find I'm not able to breathe properly and remember what happened.

I didn't know why I was getting these, and then I was doing an exercise to try and process a traumatic experience, using the process I found in the 'Overcoming Mind Control and Ritual Abuse' book. The part of the exercise was to take every emotion you felt during the trauma, and put it in a box. I was easily going through emotions of fear, panic, grief and terror and putting them into a box, until I got to anger, and the second I thought of it I got a seizure. Which clarified to me, that the seizures were the product of unprocessed anger.

Learning this information inspired me to try and be more angry, but I haven't had any actual progress, I have trouble getting angry if there's nothing to set me off, and if I am angry, I feel so frustrated and out of control, I just want to calm down. My symptoms of unprocessed anger got worse; my shoulders and neck are so tense and rigid now they're in constant pain, my jaw is painful from the constant stress and I am gritting my teeth during sleep, causing them to hurt as well. I can't physically hit or kick anything because at this point it hurts my neck.

If you've ever deal with such an issue, did you manage to resolve it? Also, does anyone else have seizures like this, and if you do, do you also have the dissociative identity disorder, or osdd, or cptsd? I would love to know more and if there are any treatment options for this. I can tell my body will continue to deteriorate if I don't do anything.

#non-epileptic seizures #osdd #did #trauma symptoms #unprocessed anger #chronic pain #tense muscles #processing anger #pent up anger #non-expressed anger #expressing anger

[chushanye]

if i had a nickel for every time the Rat Grinders killed their party cleric I'd have two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's fucked up that it happened twice

#when brennan said they cant stabalize hm because he's fully dead i was STRESSINGGGGGGGG #muscles tense heavy breathing #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy

[lensoils]

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#clear breathing #Cypress #Did you know guy #Essential Oils #Healthy respiratory function #tense muscles #The did you know guy #The oil of motion and flow

[ziptiesnfries]

Whump dialogue

"You're still fighting me. You need to relax."

#said by whumper or caretaker? #your decision! #:) #prompt #dialogue #whump #whump prompt #(this was what my physical therapist said about me tensing up my back muscles this week LMAO)

[sualne]

the puberty jokes now have a whole new meaning!!

#one piece #koby one piece #my art #described in alt text #WAUUUGAAAHHHHHHH #ok so i know having a trans actor doesnt means he's trans but let me have this. i was litterally joking about how it would be so funny if #they had a trans actor play crocodile when/if they adapt alabasta and then i see... best boy koby.. trans gener actor!! screaming and jumpi #on the walls and all. this is my 'i want to happy stim so bad but im in public so im going to claps my hands so hard and tense all muscles #while screaming internally' pose. that i gave him. because happiness.

[ingravinoveritas]

Inspired by @cloud-based-and-rainpilled: Michael and David being jealous of the other one receiving attention from someone else.

| 2019 vs. 2023.

#michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #i love how Michael manages to convey 'he's mine' without saying a word #and then the little head nod after Chris pulls his arm away like 'Good choice buddy' #he doesn't even tense a muscle and Chris looks terrified #you love to see it #and the wiry Scotsman letting the Oz interviewer know exactly who Michael belongs to #saying a lot by saying very little #david your bratty bottom is showing #iconic #very very married #ineffable lovers #gifs by me

[fatal-blow]

alright its almost midnight n i got another muscle pain tip: the secret to good posture is to be able to relax as many muscles as possible while doing it. if you need to contract a bunch of muscles to maintain a position, it's not a good position.

subtip: make sure you know what the difference is between tension and relaxation of the muscles. it might seem crazy NOT to know this, but if body tension is all you know, then how do you know what relaxing feels like. not like im speaking from experience

anyways i recommend trying those tense and relax exercises some people use for anxiety.

#my sweet summer children if you need to tense every muscle just to stay standing something is not right #once upon a time i could not walk in a straight line with a relaxed posture #because relaxing made me off balance because my shit is wonky #so yeah. putting triple the effort into every task does not bode well for the muscles lmao

[taikanyohou]

HIGUCHI KOUHEI x MASHIKO ATSUKI. Behind The Scenes.

#my personal weatherman #higuchi kouhei #mashiko atsuki #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #asiandramanet #dailyasiandramas #jdramasource #jdramaedit #* #faiza gifs #NOTHING TO SEE HERE! just one bestie giving his bestie an entire leg and foot massage whilst he places his leg on his BARE THIGH. yeah. #NOTHING TO SEE HERE! i CANT lmaooo kouhei looks in SO MUCH PAIN towards the end the SCREAM he let out bfyviibvhyibh #is that perhaps the leg he might have injured due to which he stopped playing football professionally? maybe idk or either his muscles #are just tense. atsuki being an idol would know more lmaoooo.

[columboscreens]

#columbo #season 2 #a stitch in crime #wow he sure is doing that. im definitely watching doctor #columbo tensing every muscle in his body to avoid the vasovagal response upon the sight of viscera #let him faint

[scienceisfood]

Me playing Stray: Haha, yay! I'm a kitty on an adventure!

Me discovering more and more about Zurks:

#stray game #zurks #okay but the sewer chapter dug up hidden Amnesia game memories i buried for A REASON #i gave upi couldn't do it my spouse had to finish the level while i watched with white knuckle horror #the weird part is that the zurks are only in the first half of the game so like??? #i was expecting things to freak me out more after but no i actually really enjoyed the rest #i can't replay though not with that chapter 😭😭😭 #every muscle on my body was so tense i thought i played this game to RELAX. NOPE. #sif personal

[highoncatfood]

@pixelatedraindrops hiii im late but happy bday pixel!!! now i know u dont like him much but.. figured maybe ud enjoy seeing him suffer... lol

#ive never drawn anything for this kinda thing before so dont judge me too hard lmao #he has.. a fever.. i think. maybe. i dontknow #i hav a headcanon that he is always cold anyway so this must be torment for him #shivering profusely #i always imagine that his whole body is tense at all times. he is never relaxed every muscle in his body is like a clenched fist #and he has a habit of grinding his teeth. like all the time #jst full of anger and stress #twitching and shaking a lot #goober #yomi hellsmile #catfood art #rain code #mdarc #master detective archives: rain code

[omo-my-gosh]

someone holding it on a bus or train, telling themselves over and over if they can just make it to the station they can use the public toilets.... but then when the bus/train does pull in to the station, they realize that if there's no way they can stand up and walk to the bathroom without wetting

#omorashi #omo #omo prompts #omo kink #omo cute #I love love the image of them frozen I their seat not knowing what to do #and of course the answer always is: just let out a little bit! just let some leaks come out and then you can try to make it to the bathroom #orrrr have a full accident bc your poor muscles have been too tense for so long and now you can't stop #oopsie #omomygosh #pants wetting

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all, weird question time again! I'm pretty sure I know the answer to this one, but asking anyway: If you are having severe muscle cramps/knots/tension all over your body and go to a doctor/urgent care/hospital for them, assuming the doctor believes it's something that needs treatment, the only things they can give you are anti-inflammatories, pain relief, muscle relaxers, or like an IV to rehydrate you if it turns out to be caused by dehydration, right? I know those are three very broad categories of treatment, I'm not asking for specifics within those categories, just if there are options outside of them (I am allergic to NSAIDs, already on corticosteroids for unrelated reasons, probably shouldn't have muscle relaxers or stronger pain meds for "my blood pressure looks for any excuse to crash" reasons, and am staying on top of hydration and electrolytes, but this round of muscle cramps is bad, even for me)

#the person behind the yarn #injury mention #sort of???? it could just be that I Electrolyte Very Wrong #I think this is because I slept on my stomach (which I never do) and my muscles rebelled #and my body Does Not Handle That Well #but it could be because I stopped taking B12 a few days ago #but my B12 levels are very high! I shouldn't be getting muscle issues from stopping taking it #because I have enough B12! #I really want to be massaging the muscles #but I have learned from the last time this happened #and I can't massage my neck anymore because I am approaching the point where it's been overmassaged #to the point where touching the muscle makes it spasm badly #so. avoiding that this time #but you know that feeling in your face when you clench your jaw really hard and your muscles are very tense because of it? #like actively clenching your jaw muscle feeling #the left side of my face feels like that when I am not doing anything right now #unpleasant! to be avoided! #not even to speak of the smooth muscle cramps! avoid those too if you can

[ganondoodle]

i feel like my validation fueled drive to draw is running low so even tho i kinda want to draw non fanart or game dev stuff i cant get myself to do it bc i know it wont get much attention

#ganondoodles talks #random #not talking about numbers #like i know its wild to think about some shitty doodle getting seen and liked by 100 people #but i need like #direct comments #or something #at least thats whats keeping me going #idk #might also be me dealing with cramps and all the side effects of that shit too #i feel like my body is unable to un-tense my muscles #idk if thats from that issue or something else #but i hate it nonetheless #i cant comit to working on anything bc its not gonna get me the kind of feedback i need right now #perhaps it will be gone tomorrow but i hate sitting around doing nothing #been playing some game a little more but its doing a number on my thumb so i cant keep that up like this lol

[magniloquent-raven]

thinkin about billy....bein soft.

about him not being able to relax most of the time. constantly being on edge, muscles tense, whether he's flexing intentionally or not. there's always this undercurrent of anxiety thrumming through him like a live wire, despite his best efforts to appear unaffected, he's always taut as a bowstring. planting his feet. bracing himself for a hit. and it got worse after the mind flayer, when he realized nowhere was safe, not even his own head.

the first time steve gives him a friendly pat—because that's a thing they do now apparently, they're friendly with each other—he pauses, resting his palm on billy's shoulder for a moment too long, warmth bleeding through thin cotton.

"you really are built like a brick wall, huh."

billy preens but there's a furrow between steve's eyebrows.

the first time they kiss it's a whirlwind of a thing, push and pull and gripping each other so tightly their knuckles ache. when steve slows the slide of his lips and gentles his hands, billy shudders, groans, freezes in his tracks for a split-second before throwing himself back into it with a press of his mouth that's as much a shove as a kiss.

there's a silent tug-of-war between them after that.

the first time they make each other come steve ends up pinned to a wall, billy caging him in, all teeth and heat and heavy breaths. they rut against each other, til billy's legs start to shake. steve is putty in his hands, loose-limbed and biting his lip harder with every drag of billy's hand against the damp spot on the front of his jeans. billy lets out a breath when he comes, but never relaxes.

steve kisses his shoulder, his arms wrapped around billy's waist. it's an invitation. a request. he'll hold billy up if he needs to.

but billy drops to his knees instead.

then he starts to notice steve inviting him over more often. he pokes fun at steve for being a priss. too good to fuck in alleys, public bathrooms, bent over the hood of a car, wherever the goddamn mood strikes. no, he needs his high thread-count sheets and real lube and fucking mood music.

it's not entirely true, he knows it, steve's always willing, no matter where they are, but still. his obsession with being in his own bed while they fuck is weird.

billy finds out exactly what that's about after four months of whatever it is they're doing.

when steve asks "do you trust me?" billy says yes before he even has time to think about it, and steve's grin in response is blindingly beautiful. "okay, tell me if you want me to stop. just. whenever, alright."

he doesn't tell steve to stop.

not when he sucks marks into billy's neck, teeth grazing his collarbone, soft lips dragging across his skin, slick fingers circling billy's hole while he works.

not when he sinks his cock in slowly, too slowly, muffling billy's groan with a kiss.

not when he refuses to let billy touch himself, threading their fingers together and kissing every scarred knuckle, pulling billy's searching hands away from his neglected cock with a sly smile.

not after the first orgasm that rips through him and shoots up his stomach in thick streams of white, that rocks him to his core and leaves him trembling under steve, oversensitive and biting back gasps with every spark that races up his spine as steve continues to fuck into him.

or the second, coaxed out with murmured praise, accompanied by a sharp cry and tears clinging to his eyelashes.

his limbs feel like jello. he's sweating in places he didn't know he could sweat. and steve's running his fingers through the mess on his stomach with a tiny, exhausted smile pressed into the crook of his neck.

"love seeing you like this," steve says, almost shyly. the smile in his voice is bigger than the one on his face.

"hm?"

"relaxed. y'know...comfy."

billy scoffs quietly.

"you know i've literally never seen you not flexing before now right. i had no idea your tummy could be soft." neither did he. his abdominal muscles twitch under steve's hand, but steve gives him a light tap. "don't you dare, i worked hard for this."

and billy...doesn't know how to feel about that. he shifts a little, discomfort tickling at him, buzzing under his skin. now that he's aware of how mellow he was feeling, it's hard to just sit in it and let it happen.

it takes practice. with steve petting his hair and talking about nothing, nails gently scritching his scalp, letting his mind drift. or steve wrapping silk around his wrists to keep him still while he tires him out, has his way with every inch of him. eventually he figures it out. lets himself be soft. comfortable.

he lets himself relax.

~~tag list @growup-thatbeautiful @spreckle 💕💕

#billy hargrove #harringrove ficlet #harringrove #stranger things #a raven's writing desk #yall know that one video of the person like. showing the difference between muscle when it's flexed and when it isnt #yeah #i havent even seen it recently it just popped into my head and i got to thinkin about squishy billy #and how he WOULD be tense all the time because. yknow. trauma. #but he deserves to squish a lil

[junkjounral]

May 10, 2023

Devotion

“When your values are clear to you, making decisions becomes easier.”

#junk journal #junkjournal #journal #art journal #gluebook #quote #aesthetic #bullet journal #scrapbooking #devotion #bujo #been a while since I’ve made anything so I tried warming up my creative muscles #been thinking abt intense emotion and how it feels consuming #had a v tense day td so I wanted to imagine smth else to feel intense abt #das me