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floofyboi57 · 2 months
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“I’ve always liked to play with fire”
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sophfandoms53 · 8 months
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Striker slowly losing his sanity because no one in this damn show can take anything seriously is so funny to me im sorry😭
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ritasanderson · 1 month
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yea-baiyi · 1 year
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i keep thinking about the odyssey i am THINKING about wei wuxian as odysseus. you were dead. its been years since you’ve seen your family. the child you left behind is almost a man. you wear a face they don’t recognise, you sneak in through the back door. the dog gives your identity away. the world knows it’s you when you draw your weapon. the person you love recognises you by the original symbol of your love—a secret that no one else in the world knows about, still, because they kept it safe for all these years. you get the chance to go back and despite everything, you found home waiting for you; he kept your place and raised your son and he was still there waiting for you when you got back. tell me o muse, about a complicated man i am extremely not okay
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bonefall · 5 months
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May i ask why do you think that Brambleclaw wasn't a good father? not saying i disagree if that is what you think, but why do you? just wondering because i like what you say
Again I hope to have time sometime soon to make a big thing like I did with Breeze, but what gets me about Bramble is that incredibly self-concerned. Like, regularly unable to see past his own feelings to the point where he can't consider his effect on other people.
And Po3 in particular is ALSO trying to frame him like the perfect, most amazing dad in the world. It's for the dramatic irony of the reveal, and to make it EXTRA sad that he's going to abandon his children when he finds out they're adopted... but in the process, they just ignore anything crummy he does. Like he can Do No Wrong.
Particular instances I plan to get into;
When he's angry or disappointed, he's NASTY. He isn't this "super supportive papa" that the Three keep saying he is; he's most supportive when they're making him proud.
He fails to notice that Lionpaw's behavior is getting increasingly violent as a result of his mentor physically abusing him. Is that "Great Dad" material? To not notice your son is struggling?
We eventually learn that Ashfur approached him after one of these savage beatings to butter up to Brambleclaw, insisting that this sort of physical abuse is neccesary because it will give him a strong son.
Stress that again; Ashfur appealed to Brambleclaw's ego so he could keep beating his teenage child. In what world is that "Great Dad" material??
When Hollypaw then tries to tell her dad about how uncomfortable seeing her brother being savaged made her, Bramble tells her... ohh she's So smart, and So so responsible, and he relies on her to keep her brothers in line, and what Ashfur is doing is neccesary.
In any other book series, this would have been a MASSIVE condemnation of Brambleclaw. To be manipulated into allowing his son to get beat, and then turning around to tell his daughter he trusts her to understand it because she's so mature.
But because the Erins like Bramble so very much, it's not acknowledged. Then Ashfur tries to murder these kids later.
And like... again, they want him to be seen as so wonderful and amazing so that it's extra painful when he disowns these kids, but AGAIN, Brambleclaw is supposed to be this incredibly loving, unconditionally loyal, amazingly responsible father...
So how exactly is THAT consistent with abandoning his kids during the most upsetting time of their lives?
Does a wonderful father get consumed by his own pain and humiliation and cut off his kids, one of whom is in the middle of a breakdown? Does he take out his divorce on the children? Is being a "wonderful father" seeing the son you let get abused looking at you, DESPERATELY missing you as his dad, and just turning away?
Or, maybe, being a parent is about being mature. Putting aside your own personal anger or pain or ego to be there for your kids. Something like that???
And yet, he continues to act like that for an entire year. Not improving or self-reflecting at ALL the entire time. When it's miraculously revealed that Hollyleaf isn't DEAD, he's STILL wallowing. The kid he raised came back from the dead but FUCK that, who cares, "what about MY feelings?? Why is no one thinking about whats really important. Meeee."
(Mind you, he was willing to help this same person get away with murder in the last arc. But back then, she was his daughter. Now he doesn't care.)
Eventually SQUIRRELFLIGHT has to tell him that he shouldn't throw away his entire family because he's mad at her. Someone ELSE had to shout it down his thick skull that his bitterness is consuming him and he's ruining his life. Even after a year of punishment, she holds his hand like a big baby and guides him away from his OWN destructive behaviors.
But this isn't about Squilf. This is about Brambleclaw.
He enabled his son's child abuse. The abuser went on to attempt murder of his victim. He IMMEDIATELY turned on the kids he raised when he found out they were secretly adopted, because he was angry at his ex-wife. He only changed because the EX-WIFE told him to cut it out.
That's why I think he's not a great dad. I think talk of his Greatly Dadness are narration wank, and when you look closer, you see a FASCINATINGLY flawed character that the Erins hold back out of WEIRD writer favoritism.
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speadrunner · 1 month
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Question for Cookie Run Kingdom tumblr:
Do y’all think Shadow Milk Cookie tastes like pilk?
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nightfall-1409 · 2 months
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like its ok to wish that hunter did more to get crosshair out but i will say PLEASE stop saying that rescuing the literal helpless child from the child murdering fascists was somehow wrong of Hunter.
also like. can we stop undermining the very clear and obvious way that crosshair liked the power that he was given in the empire, especially over others, he was radicalized. he convinced himself that the war crimes were justified in the name of power. that is a far bigger problem and something that is going to haunt him far longer and requires a lot more to undo and forgive (and some people will never and should never do that, and others can't bc they are Dead)
to say it was all the effects of the chips, at this point in the series, its just not true. the events of aftermath specifically are 100% the chip. Everything after that is up for debate. We don't know when it was taken out, but at some point it was, and crosshair's pov is that it doesn't matter when, bc he likes where he's at. Had he not been abandoned by the empire on Kamino for so long, I doubt he would have ever changed, had Cody not deserted after confronting him about what it was the clones were doing, I doubt he would have ever changed. Had he not been forced to see Mayday's struggle and fight to bring him home and still after everything they both gave after everything suffered mayday died not in battle but because someone couldn't be bothered to even try to help him, I don't think he would have changed. I don't think Hunter could talk him out of it, and maybe he didn't try hard enough, or really, at all. Crosshair's version of loyalty, though, is blind, unquestioning, a soldiers loyalty. Obeying what they were doing, things that Hunter couldn't obey, and would have made him a monster to do.
But I can't imagine the disgust I would be forced to contend with if like, my family member came forward like "oh yes we're built to be soldiers, that doesn't mean preserving or protecting innocents, It means power and killing those who get in my way. its my purpose in life and i think you're stupid for not getting over the moral objections" like what do you even say to that. Hunter at that point had SEEN what the empire was doing. They both had, their home planet, (and head canons aside, all clones did in fact, in canon, see it as their home.) orbitally bombarded to secure power. How do you talk someone out of that, if fundamentally what your disagreement is on the value of life. You don't. Hence Hunter's demands in S3E5 to know what changed. What finally made Crosshair realize what he believed, about power and his purpose, was wrong.
Crosshair didn't want out. Crosshair was upset they didn't stay. He saw their purpose as being with the Empire. They escaped and ran and deserted. If they weren't with him, in the Empire, then they should die, like the Jedi, and Crosshair did absolutely believe that.
So this is all to say that. they are not equally responsible for what happened to their squad. Crosshair didn't have a choice at first— but once he did keep running right over that line. And a lot of us hoped that he was lying about the chip, that he wasn't entirely responsible for all that he did. But he was. That's clear at this point.
Even the whole chip matter— it's prolly really hard for Hunter to separate it. logically, he knows it was partially the chip at this point. But at that point in the story he watched someone he was incredibly close to nearly kill them all and at the time he had no idea why. If Hunter'd not grabbed Omega by the leg and tripped her she would be shot dead. If omega hadn't surprised Crosshair by shooting his gun out of his hand he would have killed Hunter. He shot wrecker, to use him as bait against the rest of them? Like, again, we all knew about the chip, but I can understand the emotional toll of such a thing bc he DIDNT at the time. The betrayal in that moment? How do you let it go?
But thats all fine! its interesting its character development and its the story they were determined to tell. But like. we can be honest.
Now if someone thinks that im wrong i'd love to know what exactly hunter needs to be sorry about, and why he's equally responsible that doesn't like either downplay the war crimes and murder and doesn't throw Omega like directly into harms way and under the bus.
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Spooky Month 6 but with no context cause I'm obsessed with the new episode. It's actually so good. God, I love this show so much.
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synonymroll648 · 3 months
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headcanon that as sophie ages, she gets more and more off-put by how she still looks twenty at some age past 40. the only wrinkles she has are smile lines and a barely-there crease between her eyebrows that never leaves. no gray hairs. it doesn’t feel like there’s any physical evidence of how much stress aged her too fast.
(maybe she dyes more grays into her hair to feel better about her reflection, the more time passes by. maybe, on bad days, she contours wrinkles into her skin with makeup. maybe the bad days get more frequent as she ages outside the human lifespan. maybe.)
#i feel like fitz and dex are the only friends of hers that really get it#since fitz understands more surrounding human cultures than most elves thanks to his firsthand experience in the search#and dex grew up with his mom’s romcoms#which would probably show some human perspectives on aging#and his mom explaining some things that didn’t quite make sense to Smol Dex#but i’ve always imagined sophie turning up on fitz’s doorstep in the middle of the night#with tears running down her face and saying she didn’t know who else to talk to about almost-immortality feeling so so so wrong as she#gets older. not necessarily just because he knows more about humanity than most of her group#but also because like. there’s some part of her that says ‘if he can help you through learning to be an elf at 12 maybe he can help you at#42 too’. and they’re cognates. and they’ve gotten old enough to set aside teenage grievances with one another#and i like the idea of them sitting on a couch together by lamplight and trying to navigate the cultural and personal differences#in how the two of them and humanity and the lost cities view mortality#and not really reaching a concrete conclusion. but rather. a conclusion that keeps the two of them sane until they reach triple digits.#and then they have the conversation again. and come up with a plan to stay sane in their triple digits. and the same thing pops up in their#thousands. idk man the whole thing screams trust down to the bone and that’s what they should have when the war is over#is there anything more Cognate than talking through wildly different fears surrounding the same thing that make both parties#super vulnerable??? down to how your minds work in the face - or lack of - death?#maybe so but i can’t think of them off top of my head#kotlc#sophie foster#kotlc headcanons#keeper of the lost cities
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seuonji · 4 months
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THISBIS THE MOST BIYFRIENF SEUNGCHEOL TO EVER BIYYRIENF LIKE ITS QUITE UNREAL. ICL. I TEARED UP WATCGING THIS LIVE BECAUSE WHY IS HE SO CUTE. LIKE. I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHY PEOPLE LIKED TO PINCH CHEEKS BUT I GET UT. I GET IT NOW. SECOND OF ALL. I ALSO NEVER UNDERSTOOD THE HYPE ABOUT WEARING GLASSES (i ocasionalky wear glasses and it’s meh to me) BUT I GET IT NOW I GET UT.
HIS. HAIR LOOKS SO GOOD I LOVE HAIR BUT I WILL STILL LOVE HIM THE SAME WHEN HE HOES TO MILITARY AND GOES BALD. EVERYTHING IS OKAY I LIVE MY BOYFRUEND SO MUCH.
I WRITE FANFICS I KNOW BUT I HAVE NEVER SAID I WANT TO MARRY OR DO THIBGS WITH AN IDOL BUT. I WOUKD LIKE TO MARRY AND CUDDLE CHOI SEUNGCHEOL.
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plutoniuminjection47 · 2 months
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watching beyond re-animator and I see why people don't talk about it.
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nonotranslates · 10 months
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Owen Wizard's Party 2023 SSR Card - [A Mocking Laugh for the Forest Where One Dreams] - Card Story (ft. Akira), Card Episode, Home Screen Voice
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====== Card Story: Chapter 1 - Flames To Vanquish Those Thoughts ======
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Akira: Haa, haa…… Owen, please wait……! I can’t catch up to your broom on my feet……
Owen: Why do I have to be the one to match your pace? Who is the one who will be in trouble if my protection magic broke off? If anything happens because you strayed too far, I’m not gonna bother about you. 
Akira: Eek, sorry……! I’ll do my best to catch up with you! 
‘Lately, voices of people speaking could be heard from the Forest of Dreams.’ Hearing such rumours, we came to investigate. 
Because Owen is familiar with the forest and happened to be free, he was chosen for this task. Though he looked annoyed from the bottom of his heart, somehow, it seemed as though he had a clue what’s going on. 
Akira: But it really is strange, for voices to be heard so frequently in a forest as empty as this. 
Akira: Though Snow and White both thought it’s likely just spirits or the like hanging around……
???: ……Eee……
At that moment, as the wind blew, I heard something that sounded like a person speaking. 
Akira: Just now, that was...
A man’s voice: ……go…. was it…..
Someone was muttering something. I turned around to look, but all I could see are bushes that reached as far as my knees, with no signs of another person in sight. 
Akira: (D-Don’t tell me it really is a ghost……!?) 
*Rustling sound* 
Owen: Ahh, as I thought. 
Even as I turned pale, Owen paid no attention to me and peered nonchalantly at the bush. 
Owen: That whole ‘voices from the forest’ business is the doing of these things here. 
Akira: This is……
On the other side of the bush, was a patch of mushrooms with caps in the shape of flowers, glowing brilliantly in all the shades of a rainbow. 
Akira: My, what unusual-looking mushrooms. But, what does it have to do with the voices just now……? 
At that very moment, a breeze whirred across us and I could hear voices coming from the mushrooms at my feet. 
A woman’s voice: Oh my, it’s so warm here, I don’t even need a coat anymore. 
Akira: !? The mushroom spoke……!? 
Owen: These things here have the ability to mimic the sounds of humans and animals. It’s so that they can attract creatures to come closer, so that the spores they spread in the wind have something to attach itself to. 
Owen: Its roots can grow in anything, so you should be careful not to let them stick onto your clothes or head. 
Akira: Eh!? T-That’s scary…… 
Owen: Haha. Well, there’s no need to pat your clothes so frantically. 
Owen: After all, it’s not often you get the chance to experience the sensation of something sprouting from your body by piercing through the skin, along with a horribly unbearable pain.  
Akira: That’s not reassuring to hear at all…… That said, to be able to mimic sounds, this sure is a marvelous mushroom. 
Owen: As a result of the influence of the miasma of this forest, there are lots of strange plants and animals here. That said, this mushroom originally wasn’t that much of a talker though. 
Owen: It should’ve been capable of nothing more than the likes of ‘So cold’, or ‘I’m starving’, at most. 
Akira: Is that how it is? But just now, it felt as though I was listening to someone’s conversation…… 
Akira: Could it be that, this is due to the calamity as well? 
Owen: Probably. Having received powers from the moon, perhaps it gained the ability to remember longer sentences now. 
Owen: To remember words from those having their so-called ‘blissful dream’ as they die after arriving at this forest with their lives barely hanging. 
====== Card Story: Chapter 2 - Flames To Vanquish Those Thoughts ======
A frosty wind blew across the forest. 
As if awakening from its slumber, the forest was filled with voices of people on the brink of their death. 
A youthful voice: What’s going on? This strange, wondrous feeling... Even though my legs can’t move, it feels as though I could run to any corner of the world….. 
A hoarse voice: Ahh, how comfortable. I’ll take a nap here and get back to working hard again once I wake up. Gotta do it so that the kids get to eat a nice hearty meal…… 
Akira: …… 
Hearing all that, I was at a loss for words and stood there silently.  
Owen: Haha, they’re all just some worthless, trifling dreams. 
Owen: Those people died miserably just like that, without even having such trivial wishes realized. 
Owen curled his beautiful lips upwards into a wry smile, and laughed in amusement.
Owen: It feels like it’s starting to get somewhat interesting. Guess I’ll listen for a while longer.  
Seemingly in a good mood, Owen hummed as he conjured a teapot and chair, and gracefully took a seat. 
Akira: (He’s going to sit back and relax at a moment like this?!) 
Akira: O-Owen. We came here to investigate in the first place, so we’ll need to prepare a report. If there’s anything we can do to resolve this, I’d love it if you could let me know……
Owen: Some mushrooms just got mutated thanks to the Calamity, that’s all. There’s no particular damage to anything either. 
Owen: What more is there to be said?  
Akira: That’s true, but……
*Sound of wind blowing*
Every time a breeze blows, we hear the voices of someone who is about to meet their end. 
Speaking amid their dreams about those wishes that are lost forever… about the fragments remaining in their hearts. 
Akira: ……Umm, Owen, don’t you feel anything when you hear those voices and what they say? 
Owen: I feel happy, and I can’t help but laugh. Because I love people’s agony.  
Owen: The final moments of insects exhausting all their strength is so meaningless and miserable, it’s just truly delightful. 
Akira: I…… feel a little sad when I hear them. 
Akira: Though each of them have their own different circumstances, when I think about how their lives ended in this forest while having a dream that couldn’t be realized…… 
A young voice: Wow, what a beautiful forest…… 
Suddenly, an innocent voice filled my ears. 
Akira: A child’s voice……? 
A young voice: Even though it was so painful and unbearable just a while ago, I don’t feel any pain anywhere now. I'm not coughing anymore, and my body feels so light. 
A young voice: I wonder who brought me here. I have no memories of who it was, but the one who brought me out of that dark and cramped home, has to be a hero……! 
Owen: ……
Akira: (......I wonder if that child rarely went outside? That child hadn’t even had the chance to grow up, and just like that, in this forest…… )
That young voice was so bright and joyful, I could almost imagine just how tender his smile was. 
A young voice: It’s surely someone strong and cool, isn’t it? I wonder if it’s Sir Prince, or perhaps Sir Knight….. Or perhaps a seasoned warrior. 
A young voice: If my body gets better, I’d love to meet them someday. At that time, I need to tell them properly, ‘Thank you for saving me’......
Owen: Haha…… Just like a fool. 
Saying that, a dry laugh escaped his mouth.
====== Card Story: Chapter 3 - Flames To Vanquish Those Thoughts ======
Owen: Humans really are a foolish and naive bunch. 
Owen: No one will help you. All you do is pray and wait to be rescued, it’s no surprise that no one bothers giving you a single glance. 
Owen: Cur memini. 
*Sound of fire burning*
As his cold, indifferent voice chanted the spell, the mushroom that replayed the child’s voice just now started burning voraciously. 
Facing the rising flames, Owen smiled at it mockingly. 
Owen: Dim-witted losers won’t survive. All they’ll become is sustenance for the forest, gone without a single trace left on this world. 
Owen: Without even meeting that hero they dreamed of, too. 
The flames spread, and the entire patch of mushrooms was engulfed by the flames in no time — turning into a shimmering, brilliant scarlet within the heat. 
It was an intense, yet calming sight. The singed mushrooms turned into black clouds of smoke, continuously rising into the sky. 
Akira: (......It’s as if the souls are ascending into heaven.) 
Though I’m sure that wasn’t Owen’s intentions at all. 
But to me, it seemed as though the thoughts of those people that were smouldering within the forest got their burial thanks to his flames. 
(Some time passed in the forest) 
Akira: Looks like the mushrooms are all burnt. ……Huh, Owen, what are you doing? 
Owen: *gnaws*
Owen picked up the burnt mushroom and nonchalantly stuffed it into his mouth. 
Akira: Ehh!? Is that thing safe to eat!? 
Owen: I only ever put edible things in my mouth. You see, this mushroom here becomes sweet and tasty once it’s roasted. 
Owen: If you’re curious, why not give it a try? Even if a human ate it, it probably won’t kill them. 
Akira: I-I see. I think I’ll pass on that….. 
Owen: Hmm okay, whatever. 
Turning away from me, Owen started stuffing his mouth with the mushrooms, savouring each bite of the beautifully roasted fungi. 
*Sound of wind blowing*
Even if the wind blows, no voices could be heard any longer. All that filled the forest was silence. 
Akira: Even if it’s just the natural trait of a mushroom, when you hear the echoes of the voices of people who are long gone, it felt as though their souls were trapped in this place. 
Akira: So that’s why, by setting those flames upon them, it feels as though you’ve helped out a little there, or perhaps I could say, brought some relief. 
Akira: Though perhaps it’s just me getting above myself……  
Owen: That has nothing to do with me. I just returned the forest back to how it should have been, that’s all there is to it. 
Having turned around towards me, Owen threw a mushroom into his mouth and gulped it down his throat loudly. 
Owen: The people who come to this forest are just so preoccupied with themselves, that other people’s voices become mere noise to them. 
Owen: This is the forest of dreams. A place where one has cruel, blissful, selfish dreams about themselves and no one else. 
Owen: Dying while the body and mind is engrossed in a dream… Tormenting these people at their final moments is what I love so much after all. 
Owen spoke on, his tone as if singing a sweet melody, and slowly narrowed his eyes. 
The smile on his face was a cruel one, yet even seemed to harbour a hint of gentleness within it.
====== Card Episode: Seeking That Flavour ======
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*Sound of fire burning*
Akira: Huh, Owen. Are you making a bonfire? 
Owen: Something like that. But not for warmth though. 
Akira: Ah, there’s some rougeberries inside the flames….. I see, so it was for roasting them.  
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Owen: Sort of. That day, I ate those mushrooms in the Forest of Dreams, remember? The one that tastes sweet and yummy after roasting. 
Owen: I was thinking that maybe there’d be a fruit with a similar taste to that, and tried roasting a few other fruits to see. But somehow, every one of them had a different taste from it. 
Akira: I see…… That mushroom you were talking about, how exactly does it taste like though? 
Owen: Burnt clay. 
Akira: C-Clay……? 
Owen: Yup. It’s sweet and sticky, and sticks to your mouth. But its skin is like some rough, old paper full of scabs, 
Owen: And then, sometimes as I eat it, my throat gets stucked with it, causing me to almost suffocate. 
Akira: (Something so sweet and sticky that you’d suffocate……?)
Akira: ……Ah, I think I got it. I guess it’s probably something similar to roasted potatoes? 
Akira: I go see if there’s still any sweet po…… Nougat potato left in the kitchen. 
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Owen: Oh? Looks like you can be useful at times too. Once I’ve roasted that potato, shall I let you have some? 
Akira: Eh, may I? 
Owen: Yup. Since it’s not often we get the chance, I’ll use illusion magic to make its appearance similar to that of that mushroom. 
Owen: Since at that time, you seemed uncomfortable and wouldn’t put it inside your mouth.  
Owen: Shall I add on the voices that we’ve heard so much of at the Forest of Dreams as a freebie? I’ll be happy to reproduce your favourite one for you.  
Akira: J-Just normal roasted potatoes will do……!
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Owen:……The people who escaped into the Forest of Dreams, is just like the me of that time. That’s why, I want to torment them.
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I love how we got more official confirmation that Owen is a shitposter who will start flaming shit, then grab a cup of tea to sit back and watch the world burn. that's my boy
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leafydoesthings · 11 months
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In another universe we're in our kitchen cooking together with music playing in the background.
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krakenshaped · 7 months
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for the expression template -- ryo marufuji in 1B if you want :O ?!? :-)
This ask made me realise how FUN it is to make Ryo pull funny faces. It's SO fun. This man was BUILT to pull the ugliest, most rabid, most unhinged expressions alive, his smile makes small children cry
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Channeled my inner Higurashi no naku koro ni (2006) through this one, but additionally I drew some rabid Kaiser just to warm up. It's too fun. It's just too fun
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Which is incredibly funny because any time in the anime he's not pulling a sinister expression™️ he looks like this
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I love you Ryo Marufuji
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yuri-manga-archivist · 9 months
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Chainsaw man the good ending
(Voice reveal 😳) would like to add I am in fact 21 years old and still made this
Script below for deaf and funny reading lol
P: Kobeni I love you
K: Buh But Power we're women
P: No Beanie I'm Fiend Demon Blood? Love you
MWAH (kissing sound)
P: Sorry for wreaking your car
K: It's okay power you're worth a car
mwamwahwmwhwammhhmhmhmhwmahmhwamhhwmahwmahmahhmjmhwhamwmwmwmwmwhamw hjwmwh
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amoneki-ramblings · 4 months
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this is a pass to do a couple things:
finish the manga!!! u can do it so u can follow all the other blogs without getting blindsided by a spoiler
do the ship ask thingy for amoneki :]
Gahh I'm trying !! I'm so busy with school and life stuff so it's hard to squeeze in time to read but I'm trying! I'm getting through volumes very slowly but hey, I'll get there ! Just. Well. There's 16 volumes so. Okay it might take a bit orz
For now I'll just be in my little fandom limbo corner I suppose orz, as for the ask thingy:
when I started shipping it if I did: Several months ago, probably a few months short of a year? It's a bit complicated, Basically I decided to rewatch the anime (because my original exposure to tg was. the anime :') ) and vaguely remembered that I really liked Amon (honestly the encounter at Kanou's Lab/Cochlea was one of the scenes I remembered the most), and after rewatching and seeing Amon and Kaneki's interactions they piqued my interest again. Then I got into the manga and. Yeah that interest turned into insanity and now i'm here
my thoughts: Well I have a 119-slide 15K+-word google slideshow for starters. But I'm taking that to my grave so I guess I gotta condense that somehow. On one hand I feel like everything needs to be said about these two to the point that there's too much to talk about but also nothing needs to be said at the same time. They parallel each other in just about every way possible, it's impossible to ignore the ways that they foil each other. They also have had irreversible effects on the others' character. Kaneki finds resolve in Amon's words ('the world is wrong'), and turns to them at pivotal moments (when he leaves Anteiku, Kaneki's own mantra is also basically a derivative of Amon's, wishing to take out the "bad/wrong" things in the world, and he basically takes them to his grave, "The world is wrong", Amon's own words, being his opening to his final dialogue in the last chapter of the original series)
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Similarily Amon is just haunted by Kaneki. Like. In general. He thinks about him constantly (even under more mundane circumstances, in the novels he gets reminded of Kaneki just by staring out a window because it reminded him of the Aogiri raid. lmao). Kaneki is basically the catalyst to his character development, and Amon is constantly bothered by his presence/existence, and even comes to recognize how they always encounter each other at important moments. Amon is so haunted by This Guy (creature) it's both a little funny but also makes me very insane. He's basically being a failure of a ghoul investigator, and it's even more ironic, given his hatred of himself for being raised by and potentially caring about a ghoul (also he's catholic, something something religious guilt), yet he seems to have a lot of faith in Kaneki, even to a faulty degree (I'd daresay it's almost to the point where he puts Kaneki on a bit of a pedestal/idolizes him to an extent. I have a whole other ramble about Just that on the self-rb'ed half of this post. Like I'm sorry but Amon definitely fell hard for this guy I'll die on this hill and I'm going to poke fun at him endlessly for it, he could've done so much better, he starts off the manga hating ghouls with a passion and his mentor's disdain for ghouls runs ten times as deep but nope now he's chasing after the dangerous somewhat unhinged (/affectionate) half kakuja guy and it's not even to fight/kill him like okay, sure.) They have affected each other in irreversible ways. They reflect each other so much even if they don't know it. They just want to sit down and have a conversation. They didn't get to. And instead They Killed Each Other (okay not really but it was very close and they absolutely could, not that they want that) ((It's also partially Kaneki's fault for losing control of himself and he feels awful for that (sidenote but any scenario with Centineki and Amon make me lose my mind))). They're also married by first-encounter marriage bite, apparently. I think we should talk about that more that's kinda?? Donato approves btw
What makes me happy about them: Everything that makes me miserable about them makes me simultaneously happy about them because I am an Angst Guy but honestly just how much they clearly respect each other. While they're not allowed to understand each other because of their circumstances they still very much Want to. They recognize that they probably share a lot of views and could really have a meaningful conversation with each other, and it really shows, even if they're fighting. Amon again has a surprising amount of trust in Kaneki (not assuming he's fighting for Aogiri when he saw him during the ward 11 battle, having faith in Kaneki as a person even if he just saw him potentially killing his superior and being presented with the possibility that maybe he was just being fooled all along, when he's nearly dying at Kaneki's own hands but says he won't die because that would make Kaneki a murderer, having faith still that he hasn't turned into one). They recognize that they're equals (well technically they're not, obviously Kaneki is much stronger objectively, being a ghoul, and a kakuja at that), but they treat each other as equals and that's what really matters. I just think it's a very neat dynamic and their roundabout way of caring about each other despite their positions makes me happy :)
What makes me sad about them: I was gonna put images but then I quickly realized that I'd basically be pasting almost all of chapter 133-134 just uh. The fact that Kaneki really lost control of himself and the parallel with him biting Amon's shoulder escalates to him cutting off his entire fucking arm, the way that Amon's first thought in regards to that is simply that Kaneki is strong, how he doesn't reprimand him for it whatsoever (also Amon's blow pretty much takes out the entire area of where Kaneki's kakuhou should be, which is a detail I find Extremely Interesting and I think it should genuinely be talked about more). This fucking line that happened literally the panel before all of that despite their mutual wishes for the other to simply Not Die:
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Amoneki divorce. Absolutely life ruining :thumbsup:
(Also just. Again Amon Please. This guy bit your shoulder (probably gave Amon rabies honestly) and almost ate one of your colleagues; when he loses control of himself for the second time you just tell him to take a break, and now he's cut off your whole damn arm and you're Still not complaining and are instead praising him by calling him strong. I just. Yeah that's Not Normal. It's kind of impressive, really /derogatory)
Oh yeah also the fight at Kanou's lab also kills me and takes over my brain constantly but I wouldn't classify that as making me sad I would classify that as making me lose my mind, laugh hysterically and start climbing up and clawing at the walls (like Centineki, actually)
things done in fanfic that annoys me: Maybe I'm just extremely picky but I feel like people tend to fumble Amon's characterization a lot. It's kind of a fine line, and Amon has a lot of conflicting feelings as is, so I get it, but I'm especially bothered when Amon is written as way too harsh. When he's first introduced he has a strong hatred for ghouls, and it's not like that just goes away, but when he's written as especially harsh or even cruel towards Kaneki, especially if it's just because for him being a ghoul it feels like it kind of defeats the point, as Kaneki is supposed to be the reason why Amon starts changing his mind. When Amon sees him for the second time he doesn't think about fighting him at all, even that early on he decides he wants to talk instead, 'cause He's Different. I don't see this kind of characterization too often but I don't really vibe with it at all when I do (Also this is definitely just a me-thing but I wish there was more angst in the tag. Which is ironic considering these guys are surprisingly normal most of the time and have so much potential to be actually Happy but uh *vague hand gestures*, hurt-comfort would also be a decent compromise)
things I look for in fanfic: I love pre-:re fics that explore the complicated-ness of their dynamic. I'm really fond of fics where they kind of dance around each other in a sense, they won't just straight up completely directly interact because that's Still a bit dangerous but they see each other in passing, maybe Kaneki watches over Amon sometimes, etc. Also you probably saw this coming a mile away but yeah religious references mean instant bonus points from me. I could go into some (too much) detail but. uh. stares down at my feet look I'm normal I swear
Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:  Saying Amonhaise is definitely cheating but I'm not really invested in any other Amon ships. I'm not particularly against any I'm just neutral. As for Kaneki, like I mentioned in a previous post, I see potential with Etoken, and it's pretty hard to go wrong with Hidekane, though neither drive me to insanity like these two do at the moment
My happily ever after for them: Let them finally officiate their marriage ghsfdljbhf
who is the big spoon/little spoon: Well that's pretty easy huh. Kaneki small spoon he is a Little Guy just let him feel comfortable and secure y'know? Kaneki is probably someone who runs very cold and Amon is very warm so it works out :) If he's super tired he very carefully (and cautiously) wraps his kagune around Amon he will now be Trapped there until Kaneki wants to get out of bed (good luck)
what is their favorite non-sexual activity: Well I would say that Kaneki loves cooking for Amon probably. He makes food at home and tries to make new sweets following recipe books. It's a bit of a mess because y'know, he's a ghoul, and at first Amon tries to hide that, unfortunately, his previous experience with cooking does Not, in fact, hide the fact that he cannot taste or smell human food, but eventually Kaneki is able to get a hang of it (with Amon's help) and it's very nice :) That's what I would say but. well. Amon is Also a Ghoul now so that doesn't really work :')
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