#they deserve peace i guess

[hedonistbyheart]

Secret rendezvous

#spideypool #peter parker #wade wilson #spider-man #deadpool #peter x wade #nudity #marvel fanart #my art #they're pretty pg for all that #i don't know why i always end up drawing them so cuddly lol #they deserve peace i guess

[uncanny-tranny]

So much love and recognition to the people who don't know how they feel about recovering. To the people whose scars are fading away, and there's a sinking feeling, despite knowing that it's a good thing. To the people who miss when they were "worse," when they felt "broken." To the people who mourn losing their coping mechanisms, even the ones that were destructive, scary, or unpleasant. To those who feel guilty they're healing because their past self wasn't ready.

Whatever it is, there is nothing wrong with any of those feelings. It's a natural reaction, something you don't have ultimate control over. There is nothing shameful about yourself, and I admire the strength it takes to recognize how you feel, even the parts that do feel like the "wrong" reaction to a Good Thing.

#mental health #self harm tw #self harm mention tw #sh tw #mental health recovery #mental health support #i love you i love you i love you #i admire you and empathize with you and want to be your fellow man. i want to share this wold *with* you #and that includes sharing a world that you aren't sure you deserve or are ready for #the world can wait. humans have been here for hundreds of thousands of years. it can wait #when i think about all this what makes me feel better is remembering how many billions of people have lived #and it makes me feel better to know that there has never been a problem too big to have - to uniquely awful #i have my own conflicted feelings about this because objectively i am healing #but it feels like i have boarded on land after surviving the worst trip to sea ever... #...a trip that was plagued with my ship being flung through hurricanes and lightnight and i'm only manning a sailboat... #...and i have found land and that land is good... #...but my legs feel like they will give out underneath me because this is solid land that i have never stood on... #...and you get used to the constant seasickness and sealegs and wondering *how* you'll make it out - If you will... #...the peace feels like a ruse at times because all you've known was chaos. but it's a good ruse and a comfortable one #and so you learn i guess to sink into the comfort like a spft feather pillow

[pikkish]

I thought it was hilarious, at first, that everyone’s decided Doomguy is still the protagonist of MyHouse.wad. After all, it doesn’t really have much more to do with Doom than gmod has to do with Half-Life 2. But then I remembered, isn’t that a plot point of Doom II? Visiting the burnt out ruins of your hometown on your way to the portal to Hell? Why couldn’t Doomguy take a few minutes to have a nightmare of an emotional journey in a childhood friend’s home to come to terms with everyone and everything he ever loved being destroyed?

#doom #myhouse.wad #lines i did #just to be clear i still do think its very funny that its been unanimously decided that dg is the protagonist of myhouse.wad #man has been fighting demons for thirty years and what does he get for his thirtieth birthday? more demons #except this time theyre mental and emotional demons #myhouse.wad does deserve all the popularity its getting tho #like.. yeah its amazing in its atmosphere n stuff #but its also nuts on a purely technological level #stepped inside the house the first time and just had to stop for a sec bc is that a hecking. BASEMENT?? a SECOND FLOOR in CLASSIC DOOM???? #that shouldnt even be POSSIBLE. #(i mean. it obviously IS possible w clever use of various teleport effects. but still. it was a bit of a :O !!!!!!! moment) #setting a ridiculously high bar right off the bat and then following through for the rest of the game in meeting it #anyway. it was really good. #i guess in this case the good end would be more of a metaphorical/mental state? #being at peace internally as u go to voluntarily enter the depths of hell... #or something like that; anyway. idk man i am still just going :eyes: at the whole thing

[scarapanna]

[Heavy WIP] "Lils have you heard about the beatboxing cakehound ?"/j

[Finished product here!!]

Back on that rendering grind!! I liked the pretty early morning sky in the airship scene of the beast yeast episodes and couldn't resist using it

Doing some bg practice since I need that, I need to make bg's blend in properly and be satisfied with the result/silly

+ stupid bonus doodsie undercut

#WAAAA I GOT SICK YESTERDAY GRRRR/silly #nothing serious #but I had to do chemistry tomorrow so it's a bit upsetting #guess I gotta do it this monday #school aside the pewpaws!!the old coots!!! #they're catching up to what's been going on and bonding after ages #even if the situation is dire they deserve some peace #beetle's ramblings #cookie run kingdom #pure vanilla cookie #white lily cookie #beetle's art

[tbookblurbs]

The Hero of Ages - Brandon Sanderson (Mistborn Era 1, #3)

5/5 - Satisfying conclusion, excellent discussions about faith, intensely vivid world-building

Spoilers below!!

This book deserves high praise for its commitment to the plotline alone. Many books (and tv series) that I've read(/watched) find themselves unwilling to commit to the ending that they've set themselves up for. As heartbreaking as it is, sometimes the events set in motion have to result in major character death and despair. Anything else would be unsatisfying.

I can still remember how I felt the first time I read HoA and even knowing the ending, you still feel this sense of dread. How can the characters survive this? How can you fight the end of the world? And yet because I was so used to seeing most of the main characters survive, I remained convinced until the end that Vin and Elend would make it, which makes their deaths all the more heartbreaking. The imagery of Sazed piecing their bodies back together and laying them in a bed of flowers makes me tear up every time.

On the topic of Sazed, I think the bait and switch of Vin or maybe even Elend as the Hero, only to have Sazed fulfill that role is a really earned and satisfying conclusion. It feels good to see that only Sazed could save the world and bring everything back to what it should have been because he's a scholar. Conflict and death couldn't resolve everything in the end.

The journal entries should have tipped me off, honestly. The first time, I thought that maybe Elend or Vin was writing them later on, old and able to look back on these times with more of a curious eye, or maybe that Sazed and the pair were creating it together. But now, reading this for the second time, the hints of Sazed were there the whole time. He's got such a distinctive voice and way of looking at the world.

From a pulled-back perspective, Sanderson is really good at writing the end of the world. I felt similarly reading the Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler (which everyone should read!) and that same sort of sadness and hopelessness bleeds through the page here. However, just like in Butler's work, there's this pervading sense of hope. It's desperate and crazy at times, but it's still there. And that's one of the things I really like about Sanderson's novels. He seems to really believe in the potential for people to be good and hopeful and trusting in one another, which I vastly prefer over the "all humans are evil" schtick that a lot of other authors have going (GRRM).

#this book does drag a little bit #but I think it needs to be this long #the desperation wouldn't feel real if it was solved any sooner #like yeah we're stuck in fadrex city and guess what. the characters are ALSO stuck in fadrex city. we're pissed about it together #kinda makes you feel as one with the characters #vin venture #elend venture #literally can't talk about vin/elend in this book without getting so sad. they deserved to live and be happy in peace #sazed #brandon sanderson #the hero of ages #mistborn #mistborn spoilers #mistborn era 1 #book review #fantasy #high fantasy #cosmere

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

trying to imagine what a Welcome Home ending would look like (which is extremely stupid lmao considering we dont know shit about jack yet), and it's just... huh.

i doubt it's going to take the "the puppets are turned into humans and they join the real world" route (and if it does, then cool! that'd be sick as fuck!), so what would a happy ending look like for them? would they get a little sanctuary to live freely in? is there a secret world of living puppets out there somewhere?

what if its a tragic ending? the puppets either are repurposed for a new show, or stripped of their Awareness, or become inanimate objects - normal puppets? what if they just straight up fade away?

or a bittersweet ending? they renew the show in order to stay alive and together, but they're forced to return to their old lives & routines? or it's ambiguous and we don't actually see what happens after a certain point - where the ending for the audience comes before the puppet's real endgame; it's not for us to see/know, they get an unobserved close to the story.

its simultaneously fascinating and distressing to think about.

#i have an inkling its gonna be that last bittersweet one but WHO KNOWS NOT FUCKIN ME!!! #for all we know theres a secret option none of us will ever consider #and then clown'll pull it outta thin air and we'll all be like OHHHHHHH HOLY SHIT!!!! #yknow? yah? #plot twist: wally turns the entire world into puppets #i just!!! i just have thoughts! #thinking about WH ending gives me that specific bittersweet/nostalgia/dread/anticipation emotion combo i still cant name #i have to shake myself by the shoulders and screech You Have Literal Fucking Years Before It Ends. Probably. Shut The Fuck Up And Vibe. #unfortunately my brain is Incapable of shutting up and i have the compulsive need to guess the ending of everything i watch/read/enjoy #welcome home theory #welcome home speculation #honestly thinking about that last option makes me so emotional #bc it is what they deserve. they were constantly Observed and Watched and theyre still being Watched and they deserve peace and freedom #BUT AGAIN WHO KNOWS!!! WE DONT KNOW HOW THIS STORY IS GONNA UNFOLD! #what twists and turns and Developments and Evolutions it'll take #i need to chill. i need to calm down about this project. i need to go camping for a week with not a hint of cell service #i need to be on a train north. please. please-

[spacedlexi]

so theres these 2 zombie apocalypse daughters and im a disappointed parent who plays favorites

#twdg replay got me feeling Feelings....then i remember i have Another zombie daughter i neglect these days >.> #this is not me pitting 2 bad bitches against each other im just thinking abt ellie and her poor life choices lol #clem got Everything ellie threw away : ) fool #ellie im so sorry its not your fault #sometimes i remember how important ellie and tlou were to me before ...... #anyway :) *thunder stops clouds part sun shining birds chirping* #clem is happy at her forever home with her found family and baby boy and co leader girlfriend :) peace and love on planet earth :) #clem does Not get the appreciation she deserves and i stand by that. clementine you will Always be famous. the original. the blueprint. #CLEM I LOVE U BBY GIRL i will give u ur flowers forever #all wlw who stopped playing twdg before s4 go play s4 right now i am no longer asking #the amount of people who havent played s4...wat r u doin....its the final season...pains me #anyway back to my brain hell :) guess i'll just sit here by myself #thats ok :) my house now #it speaks #twdg #tlou

[snivel1]

I'M IN TEARS I AM INCONSOLABLE TEARS AND MUCUS FLOWING DOWN MY FACE WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS IS THE END FOR THEM I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS😭😭😭😭

#lovebrush chronicles #lovebrush cael #lovebrush mc #yes i know it's not REALLY an end and all but it could well potentially be a canon end for the main story #lovebrush chronicles spoilers #yeah cael did. a lot of shit. but can't i just wish a peace of mind and happiness for him😔😔 i mean he does deserve to suffer a lil bit <3 #and he did <3 i still think it's not enough and i still think he deserves a lil bit of peace in the end🙏 #it's complicated😔✊️✊️ my guardian that i want to bite and kill and pat his hair and let him experience true happiness <3 #snively ramblings #god this game holds me captive with its stories i NEED TO STUDY😭😭😭 #i'm sooomewhat dissapointed with clarence's rushed story and ending but i guess it was nice <3 #the other characters are good too!! but cael specifically makes me want to eat glass😭😭😭😭 my problematic malewife <3 #i also like how easy this game is for f2p players!! it's really really friendly and i managed to clear the main story in like two months #WHICH IS RARE NOWADAYS IN THESE KINDS OF GAMES #and the story has unique quality!!! the mc is vey charming smart and funny and the li's are pretty unique <33 #i like this game <33 waiting for more cael info and content with bated breath *I'm literally shaking foaming at my mouth*

[heavenlyeros]

i put our favourite nimbo in some clothes ! in spite of many kind hearted people’s warnings i went onto the bird webbed site and it broke my heart what people are saying about them, so i will now make sure to create so much nimbus content to drown out all of the nasty vibes. doing roller disco and business-sexy next ! suggestions are very welcome. i do high fantasy and scifi outfits usually, i am not cool enough for the thrilladrome-superhero-icon vibes . . .

the first outfit is a combo of solar's yellow costume in honey music video + this fluffy ozlana look. the last outfit is inspired by sana's iconic barbie dress in scientist music video.

(i ramble in tags,,)

#nimbus #lightfall #destiny 2 #destiny the game #destiny #destiny lightfall #nimbus is so... carefully curated. like they put together every detail of how they look to perfectly match what they wanna look like #it is goals #but it also makes me 100% sure that in the cloudark/in an ideal peaceful world they love playing dressup #fun and colourful and youthful statement outfits #stuff to go to the arcade or disco in but also just vibe at the park in #they deserve all of the fun clothes... #and the rhinestones and bright eyeshadows and butterfly clips and crimped gradient hair #i made paperdoll bases but i am scared of tumblr locking me away in a little box if i post them #so i guess i'm just gonna have to come up with some outfits to showcase those abs some more oh woe oh shame #plus the rainbow thread braided hair and the glowstick bracelets . . . #outfits

[stargazerlillian]

Pain and Panic as they appear in "Hades: Horn of Plenty" (Part 4).

(Source)

#🌠 #Disney #Hercules 1997 #Comic Art #Pain #Panic #Last part!! What a ride that was huh? #Honestly seeing Pain and Panic defy and walk out on their now powerless master is SO worth the wait. #Hades 100% deserved to have that happen after all he did to them in this story. I don't feel sorry for him one bit. #But unfortunately for these two they walked away from one bully and into a bunch of other bullies... #... in the form of the other Olympian deities wanting to know where their abusive master is. #Can't have shit in the Underworld I guess. Not even a single day of peace. Ah well.🤷‍♀️ #At least we get a nice little sibling moment between them in the 8th and 9th images. That was pretty funny TBH.

[mewtwo24]

I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!' #i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming) #legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure -> #for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason) #until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

[conundrumrespeculis]

Does anyone ever think about the implications of Barry getting psychologically tortured for most of the crisis before his death in the first crisis and how when he comes back that's likely his last truly clear memories other than his death or is it just me

#barry allen #the flash #crisis on infinite earths #dc #dc comics #and #flash rebirth #I guess #I might be misremembering honestly but there was at least SOME fucked up shit happening to the poor man before he heroically died #they should have let him stay dead honestly #he deserves the peace of being a boggling eldritch force

[moreespressoformydepresso]

So this will be tough to answer considering that carlos's actor is sadly no longer with us and let his memories live on

I was wondering if you ever had to do a story of carlos last few days with jane and his friends how would you do it

Like I love how they payed tribute to him in the royal wedding but I was surprised we never really got to see Jane sadness or her missing carlos

I guess it depends? Whether he saw his death coming or whether it’s as unexpected as the news of Cameron’s death was. If we go with the former, I’d put more focus on how everyone tries to cope with knowing someone is about to die. Specifically the underlying denial of everyone involved. Mostly I’d focus on Carlos trying to make the most of his last days and spending as much time with his loved ones as possible, tying up loose ends and crossing as many things off his bucket list as possible until his time runs out. Then there’s everyone around him coping, The denial, the pain of the truth constantly being thrown in your face, the powerlessness and the constant wondering what you could have done to prevent this. The trying to get everything out of the last few days because you don’t wanna live with the regrets of wasting time. Your deepest fear being that you’ll spend the rest of your life knowing you could have done more, and now it’s too late.

Then, finally, when it’s all over, I’d probably write about the inevitable ending to the story. Those who are left to pick up the pieces trying to stop that constant, niggling voice in the back of their head telling them it wasn’t enough. They weren’t enough. They could have done this that or the other and things might be different. They could’ve stopped it or at least slowed it down. The slow process of realizing that no amount of blaming yourself, justifiably or not, will change the past. It’s done. Carlos is gone. It’s too late to do anything about it now and all anyone can do is learn to live with it.

If it’s unexpected, I’d probably focus entirely on his friends and family. Specifically the different ways people try to cope with grief. The different stages of coming to terms with the fact that Carlos is gone and what forms they take in different people. The extremely emotional and the complete shutdown, the constantly doing something just to avoid thinking about it and the inability to do anything at all. The bottling everything up and the learning to let go. Grief is a slow process and it never really ends. It doesn’t leave, it just dulls to background noise. No matter how far you get, there will always be some kind of pain attached to the memories.

This was honestly hard to write. Apologies but I’m about to hardcore overshare so skip if you don’t wanna read it. I’ve written exactly one published story dealing with grief (fanfic for The Ballad Of Songbirds And Snakes) and that’s for a reason. When I was grieving, I was also dealing with a severe depressive episode, so I had a complete shutdown. I didn’t feel anything. Nothing about the situation felt real to me. But I saw the reactions of people around me and both of the situations I described above are ones I’ve experienced.

Two times, I watched a grandparent slowly die of illness. Years were spent seeing their health slowly deteriorate and trying to come to grips with that reality. It didn’t make the end easier when it came. All it did was shatter the illusion that maybe some miracle would save them and they’d pull through. One of these times happened right after an unexpected death. Everyone thought she’d live longer, and then she was gone. One week of thinking she’d be okay, and then it was over. It happened so fast I didn’t even have time to comprehend what was happening. None of these situations were easier, they were just different. It’s the sudden impact of a train against your heart vs the creeping cold spreading through you with every day you watch someone’s condition get worse. It’s watching someone battle against an illness until they’re so drained they give up the fight vs watching someone slowly lose touch with reality until they don’t even know what’s real and what’s in their head vs not even being able to watch anything at all because they’re already gone and you didn’t even get to say goodbye.

It’s never easy. And maybe the worst part is that you’ll never know if you had a hand in this or not, nor will you ever find complete closure. There will always be something, some regret or “what if”, and it’s inescapable.

#descendants #disney descendants #descendants carlos #cameron boyce #rest in peace cameron #you deserved better #sorry this got emotional towards the end #oversharing #probably #jane descendants #descendants jane #descendants mal #evie descendants #descendants evie #descendants jay #not mentioned but this applies to them ig #grief #dealing with grief #grief/mourning #tw death #i guess #personal experiences #this got really personal #sorry

[badolmen]

Sometimes you dream about the shitty white supremacist on campus getting the shit kicked out of him by an objectively worse (?) person which a friend neutralizes while you make sure the subjectively worst person in your life doesn’t die before the EMTs show up. And in the dream the dickhead has a crisis over having his life saved by a dyke and a Black guy which is apparently resolved by you three ending up in the most unrealistic but oddly satisfying qpr your dreaming brain has ever attempted.

#ra speaks #personal #tbh it reflects my personal internal standards…I guess #those being: even objectively shitty people are still people and per y’know human rights they deserve medical care #and that objectively shitty people can become better people if they choose to do so. #not that I’m sure I’d forgive someone like him irl but…eh it’s a nice dream #(dream was unclear why tf o forgave him for [redacted] but I shan’t question the dream logic for being dream logic) #me for the last month: I know harboring this much personal recentment for this guy is unhealthy and unproductive in the long run #I wish I could make my peace with it and move on because he clearly didn’t care about the people he hurt :( #my brain: say no more *gives him a redemption arc in a dream*

[finnycore]

finny in the real world now . what wonders shall he experience

#a separate peace #finny asp #asp #blart #also??? ?????? palm reveal i guess LMAO #and yes. i did set up a little photo shoot for him. he’s so special to me and he deserves it

[blindedguilt]

//Was thinking about posting this on my alt, but since I figure I've spoken about this frequently enough on this blog and it's THE dedicated Leonard Space™️... //I'm throwing up and crying thinking about how leonard had never gotten to experience romantic or sexual attraction (or will ever GET to experience those things, unrequited or not) without complete dread and self-blame and guilt and how that must have been growing up with the hope and expectations of "Being in love must be so nice, I hope I'll be able feel that one day" and not ONLY having that hope gradually dwindle as he grew into the "expected marriageable age" watching those around him go on with their lives and attain those things in a way that seems so natural but is so foreign to him and the absolute sadness of the point the notion of "attraction" and "falling in love" turned to complete and abject horror and disgust when he realises that this is what his mind has decided is "Normal" for him, and all possibilities and aspirations he may have had of a child, teen, young adult, etc. up to that point of even the bare minimum is now a complete impossibility. //how it fully sets in he'll never experience love. never find his own family or someone to be interested in and care about in such a way or even feel attraction without that weight attached.... like idc, actual relationships are one thing but if ANYTHING you should at least be able to know the joy of falling in love if even for a SECOND without any strings (Disgust, guilt, self-hate, etc.) attached!!!! guys!!!!!!! //HE'S WAY TOO KIND AND GENTLE AND HANDSOME AND CARING AND HUMBLE AND A GENTLEMAN AND HANDSOME AND HIS VOICE IS WAY TOO SEXY FOR THIS SHIT, HE DOESN'T DESERVE THIS!!!!! LET HIM LOVE!!!!!!! HE'S SHOWN TO HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS (Parental, familial, just being an empathetic person towards his "enemies" in general) AND YET HE DIES HAVING NEVER KNOWN IT...... WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO HIM........... ouuugughhh.........

#||ooc|| #||relevant|| #{/having feelings about leonard again someone kiss him or beat him up with a lead pipe rlly quickly how do we process this.....} #{/there's just something about leonards SPECIFIC iteration of the 'beyond help' and 'guy who doesn't deserve this gets the worst of it'} #{/tropes that REALLY hurts in how he deserves it the LEAST and is so UTTERLY beyond hope ur like 'idek how i can make this better'} #{/the more i think about it the more insane 1.3 is to me in the idea that in its own completely fucked up degenerate way} #{/leonard may have been the only one of that group to have a POSITIVE bend to his character and how he carries himself} #{/where arioch; caim; furiae; etc. are either made more negative or are the same but with different context} #{/and the reason for that is is that is takes away the strongest thing that makes leonard so compelling and GUT-WRENCHING as a character:} #{/that caring demeanour is still TECHNICALLY there on the surface; but beneath that this leonard just let himself go COMPLETELY} #{/by becoming what would be the absolute NIGHTMARE of DOD1 Leonard and tossing the morals connected with his guilt out the window} #{/he's 'fixed' himself mentally; and no longer is completely miserable and wracked with guilt (perhaps grief!! but thats another thing)} #{/BECAUSE HE'S CONVINCED HIMSELF HE HAS NOTHING TO BE GUILTY ABOUT ANYMORE} #{/i guess to sum it up nicely} #{/the only way for leonard; who's tried his best to love and care for SO many people; to be happy with himself} #{/is to hurt other people. specifically the most vulnerable he fought more than anything to protect} #{/otherwise; his only solution to be happy with himself - or at least; no longer suffering - is to DIE} #{/just..... oooooogh........ *curls up into a little ball and explodes*} #{/i miss him.... i wanna write him again..... i want to put him into a situation he can feel at peace and Normal....}