#theyre literally lunatics

[theosconfessions]

this family is a bunch of psychopaths lolol. dustin is literally in bed crying and theo moved his seat taking his whole bowl of dinner with him so he can watch her dying easier. then the babies and hank showed up and all were exhilarated.

@ohsosims

#anyways now she'll stop walking in on them doing the dirt fr #theyre literally lunatics #theo kline #dustin stephens #eloise stephens kline #cade stephens kline #hank stephens kline #the stephens #the stephens continued

[valleynix]

list of Reader’s original abilities and pros/cons of each, for silly purposes :)

(under the cut because it may be slightly spoiler-y if you haven’t read chaps 8-14 and on)

1. a mutation only Miranda can activate that sends them into a blind frenzy (slightly changed. they can enter on their own, just not yet, and they can regain control of their body if the Lunatic allows it)

 Pros

virtually indestructible 

fast/powerful

stronger connection to the megamycete

other abilities heightened

Cons

...obvious

unable to control what their body does/stuck in their head

oftentimes later remembers what happened in detail

body is weaker to attacks (cannot regenerate wounds, but mold can cover them briefly to get away. the hardened mold does not repair wounds)

2. can enter others’ minds, whether to read thoughts, harm people, control moods, see memories, control people

Pros

can gain valuable information without harming people

can also harm people for information without laying a finger on them

able to see where people are relative to themself

they can find out things others couldn’t through reading thoughts/seeing memories

Cons

depending on the seriousness of the action, their physical body becomes extremely vulnerable while they use this ability

otherwise, it correlates with their mood and can lash out at any time or with strong emotions

it takes quite the toll on them, regardless of their intention, and they typically must rest for a while after 

usually results in a headache ranging from mild to excruciating pain

3. time travel

Pros

also obvious

they can fix their mistakes by entering the megamycete’s consciousness and finding their own memories to go back to

Cons

they can only go back in time, never forward, and only to their own memories

this action can be interrupted, as it takes a lot of focus to do intentionally

it can happen accidentally, but rarely

Miranda feels every shift in time, just as they do

4. “immortality”

Pros

extremely difficult to kill

they can take quite the beating before they pass out and have to regenerate

their body heals quicker than humans’ do, and even faster with rest

for example: minor cuts/scrapes can take mere minutes to heal, more serious cuts can take hours/a full day, chopped limbs can take up to two weeks to fully regenerate, etc.

doesn’t age

can only be officially killed by severing the brain stem

Cons

losing too much blood/using too much energy will make them pass out and be immobilized until their body heals

they feel every bit of pain and can be hindered this way (shooting them through the heart will have the same effect on them as a human, just without the death, for example, and will buy their enemy time to escape)

they are still incredibly vulnerable when injured passed a certain severity

being injured to any severity drains their energy much quicker, as their body is trying (and failing) to restitch those wounds, leaving them more likely to pass out

the mold takes a bit to cover wounds/fill them, leaving them vulnerable to attack while it moves along their body

5. (secret. it will be revealed soon enough :D)

6. bonus mutation ability: eye among their mold (similar to Miranda’s, settled on their forehead)

Pros

ability to see the world through theirs and someone else’s eyes. literally

can get a good idea of where someone is/what they’re doing

otherwise, it’s an extra eye to help with their depth perception and peripheral, since the hardened mold covers their right eye

wider range of vision if normal eye is closed

very spooky

Cons

extremely disorienting

leaves them pretty vulnerable for a few moments after it opens

typically happens accidentally

they still see through their own eye when they’re looking through someone else’s

kind of has a mind of its own sometimes and looks around while they’re trying to focus, which can disorient them further

anyway, i hope i got everything :D these were the abilities i had written down (save for 6) and the pros/cons of each. i may have left something out, but i apologize if i did. my brain is rotting from college :’) <3

@warrior-of-luna (for you <3)

#to promise the moon #so bro is OP but not like #actually indestructible #there are cons to each ability #some are better than others #maybe i shouldnt say OP bc homie gets their shit rocked easily #literally the only reason theyre still alive is bc of the immortality #i think tptm takes place in like the late 70s/early 80s #so the fruit flies would've been hunting for just over a decade #at most #as opposed to their sixty years in canon #but they obviously are very skilled by now and know what theyre doing #reader's/lunatic's ass would be clapped if they could be killed like normal LMAO

[short-and-ugly]

g...guh...

#i keep making . irken ocs. #TWO are important. two others are. semi-important? but not really. one of those two is never even mentioned by name. #AND I HAVE. A SECRET FIFTH ONE. THAT SERVES NO PURPOSE TO MY STORY.. #literally just thought of them. sprung on a whim. #i cant. say where theyre from. because that would be major spoilers (i think???) but.... yeah #gerry stop ranting and raving you look like a lunatic

[guideaus]

i think i had some post abt fairness vs equality concerning trigun, but its way in my drafts and i dont remember :/

#personal #anyways most of the villains could be sympathetic but are presented as lunatics most of the time #and also happen to be the most different #and their tragedy serves as vash's pain. not that it happened to them #theyre stepping stones to knives and dont intentionally serve a narrative purpose #and unintentionally push that normal people vs these weirdos thing #im absolutely missing something but yeah #probably something abt vash not quite getting a fulfilling character arc ending concerning the characters who dont change #treating corrupt greedy banker the same as disabled poor guy whose family was murdered #and actually yeah the fact the early human ones choosing to be bad usually are spared vs the literal rest #...except livio as wolfwood's replacement in the story ig lol

[koolades-world]

Demons and Humans not understanding each other

Inspired by several other posts I read about this same thing <3 honestly even if the brothers insisted it was safe, I would consult Satan, Lucifer or Barbatos

this is mostly mammon freaking out

Humans think the deadliest things are like, adorable, like Cerberus. Mammon especially does not understand why Mc wants to run towards the very dangerous, very mad three headed dog. A few times he has had to throw Mc over his shoulder to keep them from staying behind

“MC CERBERUS BEING THE BEST BOY DOES NOT JUSTIFY HIS ACTIONS HE WANTS TO KILL US”

“But he’s so cute! He just needs a snuggle buddy”

Humans can also be very stubborn if they’re too hot or cold but refuse to admit it. It’s fine with Lucifer does it because he’s one of the most powerful and therefore resilient demons in Hell, but not so much when Mc does it. Beel and Mammon love playing in the Devildom snow, but given that it’s the Devildom, it’s definitely a lot colder than it is in the human realm. Even after ten layers, Mc is still freezing but refuses to admit it.

“Mc, are ya shivering? I thought ya would be too warm under all that”

“I’m sweating with this one jacket”

“I’ll live! Let’s go back to the snowman”

“no I don’t think you will”

On the same note, sometimes demons forget humans can’t withstand crazy temperatures. Asmo will invite Mc to a popular bathhouse, sauna or hot springs, forgetting that the temperature would literally boil Mc alive

“Hey Asmo this is the place you wanted to go, right?”

“Yes! Isn’t is cute?”

“Everything except the part where I boil alive”

“what!”

Some foods can kill humans just by being near them so imagine how the brother would feel when they learned this, it’s giving that lunatic pudding incident with Diavolo from that one card

“Mc! You’ll love this. Open wide!”

“Asmo I feel funny”

“DO NOT FEED MC THE TAKEOUT LUCIFER SAID ITS DEADLY FOR HUMANS IN LARGE AMOUNTS”

“FUCK NOT AGAIN”

In retrospect, humans probably sleep a lot compared to demons. Some demons probably don’t sleep at all, except Sloth demons. Setting aside about eight to nine hours of the day just to sit idly might not make sense to them until they learn they will shut down without it

“How are you feeling about the exam we just took? Exam week is finally over.”

“Mc? Mc, Satan is talking to you. Why are you on the floor”

“MY HUMAN IS DEAD”

“No, I think they’re just asleep idiot”

“oh. wait, THEYRE ASLEEP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALL lucifer is gonna kill me”

I’d say both demons and humans are social creatures, but humans will go insane without social interaction. Yeah a demon would probably be upset if they didn’t talk to someone for thousands of years but I don’t think a human could last more than ten without losing grip on reality. Humans tend to copy each other, which is probably bizarre to demons. Humans don’t even understand yawning so demons definitely won’t

Going back to the food thing, demons can probably go ages without eating, besides Gluttony demons. Humans need to eat so frequently compared to them

“So you’re tellin’ me that if Mc doesn’t eat for a whole week, their insides start to eat themselves?!”

“Yes. But, Mc ate a few hours ago.”

(Mammon was already gone when Satan turned back around)

Demons probably also play game that would definitely kill humans. My brother and I used to play crazy games when we were little (our favorite game didn’t have a name but we would put Barbies in the toy train tracks and see what would happen when different Thomas and friends character would hit her. The train tracks would glow in the dark! I did not let him put my favorite doll in the train track and he had to listen since I was the older one, she was not a barbie and had bendy feet? that’s not for now) but we never seriously got at each other throats. I cannot imagine what games demons and demon children must play. Satan was born fully grown but imagine if he was born little and the brothers had to play his favorite games with him. I feel like they would find the Barbie game I played a little weird too. Like, they would probably tell me that I should’ve done it in real life since that would be better experience or something batshit like that

“Aww, Satan, do you remember all the times we played “Five minute eye stab” with Lucifer? You were so cute. Sometimes I think Luci let you win.”

“Do not talk to me Asmodeus.”

“I’m sorry, you played what?”

“One time we gave him an actual knife by accident and since he was good, he ended up stabbing Lucifer’s eye.”

“You’ll be next if you don’t shut up and let me read”

“HE WHAT”

“Oh he’s fine now, clearly. Only took him a few hundred years to regain normal eye functions”

“Can we not talk about this anymore?”

Babe it is a miracle Mc is still alive

#obey me #obey me! #obey me belphie #obey me satan #obey me asmo #obey me beel #obey me levi #obey me mammon #obey me luficer #obey me x reader #obey me x you #obey me x mc #obey me mc

[dysfunctional-family-fight]

Second Chance Quarterfinals

The Asanos (Assassination Classroom) VS The Hargreeves (The Umbrella Academy)

The Asanos

Members: Gakuhou Asano (father) and Gakushuu Asano (son)

Propaganda:

CW: physical abuse

"Crazy dad whose misguided goal is just to make his son strong (but whose definition of real strength leaves much to be desired), and son who does see the error in his dad's ways but is brainwashed enough to imagine that his "filial duty" under the circumstances is to "take control". No one knows for sure if a mom exists, but she clearly doesn't want to have much to do with these lunatics." "The dad doesn't even consider his son family, just a "student" as he is a principal. Utterly unhumane conditions is where he trains his son in. And worst of all, they compete on who will control the other, leash included. The first time the son even considers calling him father is when he literally abuses him physically."

The Hargreeves

Members: Reginald, Luther, Diego, Allison, Klaus, Five, Ben, Viktor, Grace, Pogo

Propaganda:

"Forced family that cannot spend 3 minutes together without arguing. Has caused the world to end multiple times. Their father is a horribly abusive person who caused them to fight to always prove themselves better than their siblings to earn his love which was futile because he never loved or cared for any of them and also hes a supervillain. They lost and regained 2 of their siblings over the course of the show and straight up adopted alternate universe versions of their siblings against their will. That all said they STILL cant get along. Horrible ♡" "They were raised by a billionare after they were all taken by their families. Five left and ben died young. Now theyre all fucked up, kinda hate each other. Viktor almost killed allison, luther and diego have some kind of rivalry, they all get mad at klaus. Theyre all just fucked up and we love them for it <3" More propaganda here

#polls #the asanos #assassination classroom #the hargreeves #the umbrella academy #tua #second chance quarterfinals

[cadaverdolls]

Edit: I FORGOT TO CLARIFY. What I’m make is a drawing. It’s meant to mimic a drawing that would be used for a plushie company to make a plushie from, the ones that make those chibi ones for games. Usually referred to as cotton dolls online.

Idk how to stop polls earlier but the one for what I should do for my 30th doll are in favor of a LI. So I’m post this poll now since this will literally take forever till the polls end. If the tides to change on the OG pull then I’ll just save the results of this poll for another time.

Which love interest should I turn into a doll? (If you really really really want me to turn someone that isn’t a LI then tell me in the tags or comments.)

Is Ivory Wraith a LI? I can’t remember. Haven’t encountered them a lot since I’m literally always running around like a lunatic. Also for some reason they only bother me when I don’t steal the neckless.

A custom one usually cost 100 or so but to manufactured on a larger scale for consumers it would only cost you 20 or so. I’d need to find a company, send my concept design, have them send me a prototype (each one cost 100-300 so if changes need to be made then I could be looking at spending a lot of money on just prototypes), once decided I’d have to order a stock and that means you need to usually order a huge quantity (300 but some companies probably do a little less, still 300 is on the smaller side). Protyping, buying stock, shipping, website management (or store management if you’re using something like Etsy), and advertising. It’s a lot of time and effort to get plushies made as a single individual and it’s a risky investment if you don’t have enough customers. If I did do something further down the line then I’d have to be sure that it be worth the effort.

Just wanted to break that down so people understand what this poll is about. I have been plushie gun for a bit now and I completely forgot to clarify that this wouldn’t be a physical item. It may be in the future if I ever get an embroidery machine but that’s a what if idea.

#plushie gun #degrees of lewdity

[wiihtigo]

do u have any tips for getting into ocs and developing them tho 🤔😭

Hmm I’ve had ocs in the past and I’ve wondered why I picked and chose favorites among the cast I made and I thjnk for the ones I didn’t gaf about it was because I was forcing myself to make characters filling space because I thought it would make my story look more complete but it just ended up I neglected those ocs because I found nothing about them fun or compelling to spend time on.

With casey I’ve definitely gone full self indulgence which was probably helped by the fact her concept was literally based on a joke self insert character so the fuel for me spending time with her was my intense fixation on booster gold and how much I wanted to destroy hurt kill bite kill punch to death kick kill him 😀

Make things fun for yourself! Don’t shy away from making things that you know you’re already crazy for … I’m not shy about saying casey as a concept is a culmination of a LOT of favorite characters I’ve had in the past like peridot (su), the invader zim and tak storyline, Daffy Duck .. to name a few!

And I spent a long time perfecting her design so that it was fun to draw for me …. I made her a secretary/office lady type character cuz um. I THINK THEYRE HOT? LOL … and I really like that fashion style I draw her in. So she’s almost like a mannequin for me to draw clothes I really like aesthetically. so I really have a lot of fun drawing her ^_^ you can tell by how much I do it LOL

So my number 1 advice in conceptualizing ocs is to make things fun for yourself. Are your favorite charaxters always mad scientists.. you can make one. Do you think rubber aprons are hot. You can give them one. Have you been struggling with your gender identity. You can make your oc a girl with he him probouns. Do you wish columbo was a lesbian.. you can make it happen.

As for development, as soon as I got the basic deets for casey and her role in the story I had for her to paper I found one of those tumbrl oc ask games and just filled out every single question for her. A lot of stuff was made up on the spot but just felt right and most often stuck that way but there’s no shame in making little changes as your oc grows on you and you get better aquatinted with eachother. For example I had the idea initially casey would have rich/well off and well meaning parents who were extremely normal and loved her a lot and it would be kind of a meet the robinsons “THEY ALL HATED ME” dynamic. But I quickly changed it as I thought more about casey because what I have with her and spider feels more.. fitting.

It also helps a ton if you have a friend willing to lend an ear :) and I don’t mean just 50+ messages discord chats (because those are extremely enlightening too) but I mean just posting and posting and posting about your little guy and getting those precious 4 likes on your lore document. I always take this sort of approach with original stuff LOL IF I POST ABOUT CASEY LIKE A LUNATIC FOREVER EVENTUALLY ILL TRICK EVERYONE INTO THINKING THEYRE CASEY FANS…!!!

Sorry for the rambly answer! I hope I was able to say at least 1 crumb of helpfulness

#asks #and old abandoned oc that comes to mind for my failures is dove the boyfrjend of kado #and the reason idgaf about him is because his only personality trait is being kados boyfriend. I made him specifically for that which made h #him unbearably boring. I had a much better time thinking about kado and kite bcuz I developed them as characters separately and then as a #friendship … RIP dove I’m thinking of wiping his slate clean and giving him a new deal next time I feel inclined to visit that o verse #ocverse****

[siriusstardust]

hello its been a while but i have a hc so hear me out

so when james and regulus got together, james is almost ~adopted~ into his friend group - HEAR ME OUT HERE

(regulus is adopted by the marauders courtesy of sirius but we knew that already)

barty takes the piss outta james for everything. like even the good things; exhibit A:

*reg and james get engaged*

barty: *through tears* HA POTTER IMAGINE BEING ENGAGED

anyway, evan. he encourages barty, but he silently taunts james which is worse but funnier,,,

“potter you idiot” every time he passes james for literally no reason THIS MAKES JAMES QUESTION HIS WHOLE LIFE RIGHT THERE ON THE SPOT COS HE DOESNT WANNA MESS UP.

now pandora,,, she FULLY adopts james,,, like the full thing. im talking this;

james being miserable bc hes been bullied by barty and evan all day, pouting and all, pandora is on the sofa, james lies on her lap. she loves to style/mess with his hair and fiddle with his glasses and tell him stories of her day and he LOVES IT.

meanwhile regulus just sits back as rosekiller simultaneously scares the shit out of his boyfriend and then he smiles while hatingthathesnotjealous when james goes to pandora after barty takes the piss about something.

and he just loves it

because he was so worried that the others wouldnt take james in like that cos lions vs snakes and all that.

but they did?

and at the end of the day when james sneaks into regulus’ dorm, theyre having a moment,,,, and regulus is smiling because

holyfuckinghelljamespotterissobeautiful

and james is yapping all about his day

and then regulus says he loves him

so james stops. backtracks, stares at him and then kisses him. BECAUSE FUCK???????

and james says he loves him too and then barty and evan, who were listening in while eating chocolate from honeydukes, open reg’s curtains and barty JUMPS BETWEEN THEM AND IS LIKE “AWWW I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO”

and evan rolls his eyes but calls james a sap even though regulus said it first. but james doesnt even care bc regulus just said he loves him and hes so in love because

holyfuckingshitregulusblackissosoprettyandamazingandperfect

and then when he tells sirius the story the next day (because they DO tell each other everything), sirius just laughs and then cries ? and james is so concerned. and sirius just wants him to know

that if he wants anyone to be with regulus, its james, because no one deserves to be happy like they do.

and then james starts crying bc sirius is crying and then theyre both just laughing at each other like lunatics but they just <333333 and two halves of one idiot has never been so perfect.

anyways thanks lads bye ✌️

#james potter #regulus black #jegulus #remus lupin #sirius black #marauders era #marauders #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #pandora #harry potter #gryffindor #slytherin

[downstairsbar]

Im crying cause the same dilemma with making someone watch iwtv ep1 and being like Awww isnt this so romantic!! and the other person being like Ur a lunatic HAPPENED TO ME TOOOO😭😭😭😭i forced my sister to watch it and when they got married i was like Theyre so cute😢😢😢 and she was like “….. lestat is literally manipulating him” and i had to be like U just dont get it🙄

DJKSJDJSJXJSBSJJSJS I WAS LIKE REASSURING MY FRIENDS LIKE DONT WORRY GUYS LOUIS WAS GONNA KILL HIMSELF‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ so technically lestat saved his life. Aw they’re soulmates🥹 and then after e1 ended and we were making plans to do watch party for e2 and they were like Well that was intense and I didn’t breathe once. I was like don’t worry guys the next episode is so cute 🥰 and they were like cute in the demented way you like or? And I was like 😄😄

And then I explained how Louis is Beyoncé and my friend was like ok when you first said that sentence I thought you were just doing a bit but the dots actually do line up a little too well🤨🤨 aw I chose so well in middle school bc after one of them showed us the self published monsterfucker problematic romance novels she reads and she was like you guys can’t judge me ok for my problematic yaoi and I was like Do you wanna see my ao3 and she was like yes actually 🥹🥹🥹 the other one used to follow me on tumblr back when we were teens and I was a l***rrie so she’s also seen the depths of my depravity so it’s very easy to talk about stuff like this with them…. Ok sorry now I’m just cheesing about loving my friends. All female friendship is romantic

#qs

[fujianvenator]

so context kfcs here have (or HAD) like unlimited gravy and filipinos tend to be. deranged with it. like "using it as a sabaw and literally pouring it all over rice" deranged. literally filling plates full of it. one time some guy literally walked into a kfc i was in filled up a bowl w gravy and left to a different restaurant 💀

"please dont use the gravy as a soup/broth"

so i guess theyre just catering to the gravy lunatics now

#vic.txt #im not gonna lie parang gusto kong tikman #Everyones favorite part of a burger. The sabaw

[moon-lords-lower-body]

CHECK THIS OUT. TERRARIA LORE MADE BY ME

- Gods. four of em. One makes worlds, one appoints heroes from earth, one has control over terrarian world daytime, one has control over night. Theyre pretty chill also

- Earth is kinda just regular earth and evolved like normal btw. Separate from all of terraria

- Gods make worlds because it's fun and also so they can keep trying to improve on what they do (which is make worlds)

- Gods need heroes bc a long time ago they accidentally fucked up making the very first world (that was not earth they did not make earth) and now every subsequent one has those same irregularities that they can’t fix on their own. It's a balance thing

- Heroes are people who go around saving the world. They’re extra cool and epic bc when gods decide on them to be a hero, they blast them with all kinds of magic and gunk that makes them able to do all the cool shit. Doesn’t last on earth

- On earth every time a new world is made theres a transport point made where heroes go to their world and other corresponding worlds. They’re pretty out of the way and you kinda have to know where they are beforehand, but people have stumbled into them before

- Terraria time moves a hell of a lot slower than earth. 2 weeks in terraria is 1 day on earth

- Every single terraria thing cannot be transported to earth. Anything equipped and in your inventory just kinda disappears into light until you go back

- Guides are people in an organization who just wanna study every little thing about Terraria so much without necessarily being heroes. On earth theyre basically just terrarian librarians

- Lunar cult AND SOLAR CULT are just kinda churches that just sprang up bc heroes caught wind of the moon and sun lord’s existence and yknow. You could make a religion out of this. (which they did do). And there’s a lot of differences in how each church goes about teachings and things from world to world and leader to leader, with some of them leaning more towards actual cult than others

- Guides and the 2 cults are pretty connected in that they’re they only groups on earth that know about terraria. They sort of help each other out but there’s a looooot of guides who are pretty apprehensive towards cultists and vice versa

- Once either a guide or cult leader is confident enough in their abilities in either field, they can head to a terraria world to basically beg to get blasted with that same magic and gunk that makes heroes cool, but in a different way (to make them an official Guide or Lunatic/Solar cultist with either expansive knowledge of the world or great god communication powers and Cool Magic)

- But also uh oh with that magic and gunk there also comes a curse! Guides are doomed to become fleshy hell monsters (commonly known as the Wall of Flesh as you mightve guessed) and the cult leaders are so incredibly full of Magic of the Gods and are literally able to hear the god they worship inside their brain at any time and that combo usually either gets to their heads, drives them to madness or both, unless they’ve got a very good head on their shoulders. None of this is intentionally malicious, just more cases of gods wayyy overestimating the limits of humans and making some mistakes whoopsie there. Didn’t mean to drive him to madness or house a wall of flesh inside him

- Uhh what else is there. Umm. most bosses are just a product of the fucked up terraria environment creating huuuge beasts. I like the thing abt the lunar cult forcing the mechanic to build robot cthulhu (moon lord) so that’s still here. Thats a thing some of them do when yknow Driven to fanatical madness. Other npcs either just originate from terraria (witch doctor, goblin tinkerer, etc) or are drawn to those transport points when those in-game npc requirements are met

#terraria #terraria lore #lore tag #i wrote like half of this while either sick or at least verrrrry exhausted so it's a miracle if it's understandable

[coolcoelacanth]

i've been so fucking sad about my ex recently and i feel like a crazy person. it's deadass been 1 year since we last saw each other but it's all just hitting me right now. i was relieved for the first few months after we ended things, then i was sad, then i was doing just fine, now all of a sudden i have been fucking miserable about it for the past month. i really wish i could take my brain out of my head and run it under cold water. i feel like im short circuiting. ive just been overall depressed then ill randomly burst into tears about it for like 30 minutes. i've only been one one date since we ended things, and im starting to feel like ill never find someone i love like that again. he didn't treat me right, and i deserve better, but damn did we work together so well. if he hadn't been an idiot things could've worked out really well. now im back to square one, with all these people i genuinely have no interest in. and im pretty sure he started seeing someone shortly after we ended things and theyre still together. so i just feel even worse, like did all of that really mean that little to him? and why does he get to move on and have a happy ending? i feel like nothing is ever fair bro, i give my heart and soul to this shit and i get the short end of the stick every time. and i really, truly, deeply trusted him. i really really did. i dont know how to get over this horrible feeling of betrayal. it burns a hole in my stomach. it doesnt feel real. i dont want any of it to be real. its all just some kind of sick joke. and i keep playing back all the memories of all the things he did that hurt me, so im just hurting myself over and over again and just crying about it all. my brain is truly putting me thru my own personal hell, for why? who fucking knows. maybe bc i havent had a day off since august and im finally having a nervous breakdown, so my brain is just throwing everything its got at me. and i literally spent 8 hours studying today, then im working 8 hrs tmrw and studying afterward for my exam on monday. but it doesn't end there, it all just repeats on an endless cycle until my semester ends in december. i only have this semester and next semester left until i will only be doing rotations, but jesus christ if this doesnt kill me. and i used to have a reprieve on the weekends when my ex would come over for three days and we would just LOL and eat good food and i really felt like i could completely let all my walls down. now i never get to let my walls down because i dont trust anyone to be myself around. so im just constantly holding everything in all the time until i finally explode one day. this is literally so long but if you made it this far, im literally at my breaking point. and i dont even have time to have a break down, i get to cry about my life for a couple hours a day then i just keep going and going and going like a fucking lunatic. somebody please put me out of my misery for fucks sake

#personal #this is extremely long #but im literally fucking miserable holy shit #someone put me out of my misery #idk how i was so mentally stable literally like one month aho #i feel like completely insane again #i dont understand myself

[defenestratte]

Was listening to the everything everything discography on shuffle (i have spotify poor only ok sorry) and Bad Friday came on right after Violent Sun and it felt like a revelation??? Because ok. Re-Animator ends with Violent Sun, and then Bad Friday is the first new music we hear from EE after that, and I wonder what story that tells??? I feel like a lot of people were drawing parallels on fb when this happened also...

Thematically both songs are similar - something about a relationship taking you out of reality, and while on one hand, violent sun feels a whole lot more positive than bad friday - "and she's saying you don't have to be a lunatic or an error or a prisoner of your terror" - there's violent imagery in both of them.

VS: obviously the violent sun, the violent arms, "the flesh in the machinery jams" - a fairly visceral image (but also i wonder if u could ponder cough cough's cog next to a cog next to a pit???? Someone should do webweaving for machinery imagery), "they come to take away the rest of our hands" - removing part of your body is quite violent? But also maybe the removal of agency....

In BF, the violence feels less abstract and more ominous... "looking for me"/"coming for me"/"hunting me down" vs "running for my life"... and "bust me out of my head" both as a literal statement of a wound but also the sense of becoming unconscious or unknowing - you're no longer you when you don't know what you're doing... and of course the "blood all over me!"

And theres this concept of not being able to put your finger on it -some vagueness in VS's explicit statement of "and you realise you don't know how long", and the almost slurring imagery in listed items: "dreams and the colour and the moment" "and the tears and the venom and the plasma". In BF, there's the repetition of "I could not remember in the morning" "I'm wondering" "I can't remember", "You must have" (where it's more of a guess than a statement), the lack of surety of whether it was a Friday or a Saturday night and the fact that the speaker keeps asking questions...

Also the key-est parallel in 'you know this will be gone in the morning' vs 'i could not remember in the morning'?? One feels like youre still in a dream and havent realised whether its bad or good yet (the fact that at the end of the day despite the tender imagery of her taking [you] into her arms, they're still 'violent'), and the other really feels like youre waking up from a (potentially lived) nightmare...

I guess these songs are so interesting to look at in parallel because they have pretty similar imagery but are executed in such different ways - i think the sonic choices have a lot to do with it but i do not have the expertise in analysing music to bring that into the argument. (Somehow they're sister songs to me - there's something about the driving rhythms and the feeling that you're running (toward? Away??) from something) and also the fact that theyre on the poppier side of ee's discography???)

Violent Sun closes off an album that deals with feeling in a more abstract sense with so much monster imagery - making it feel a whole lot more fantastical. Bad Friday, while not the album opener, does bring us into the world of Raw Data Feel - one where personal/interpersonal relationships are dealt with more directly (see the Kevin/Jennifer/Raymond narrative situation) and also life in the digital age (think about how the only way the speaker in BF has proof is the photos theyve got on their smartphone? Though it's not the most obvious theme in the song) which kind of brings us back down to earth... (and away from the sun???)

#ok im using my b grade in h2 literature at the a levels... #sorry if this is incoherent i typed it out at midnight on my phone #but i had thoughts for once! wow! #ee #everything everything #can u tell my most commented on albums on genius are RA and RDF? #also if anyone else has written lyric analysis please feel free to yell at/with me!!!!! #thank u for reading if u did !!!!

[imhereformr]

S2e2: Up To Their Old Trix

It's been 4 days and their still in the same clothes as when they found Aisha? 🤨

I know this is a rehabilitation place, but you really think they'd split up the coven that tried to take over the world

"this same [weather] can be expected for the next several years" 😂 can I get that? I would kill to be free of winter.

This montage making me wish I could feel the rush of power that comes with magic. Proof I shouldn't have any...

Stormy: I'll disconnect you then. Is disconnect more positive than obliterate?

Speaker: that's good, stormy. You're making progress. 💀

Musa standing with her arms behind her head! I think @charmixpower is the one that pointed out that she starts to stand like Riven and now I'm gonna notice it everytime. God, theyre so fucking precious 🥹🥹

Love that Musa's first impression of Aisha is this girl's a fucking lunatic. And then they proceed to become bffs

But I also love that they had Aisha know it's been 4 days by looking at her hands (which makes no sense) and then promptly called themselves out for making no sense.

AGAIN: HOW DOES STELLA NOT KNOW WHO THE CROWN PRINCESS OF ANDROS IS??!!?!??

Aisha calling Piff baby 🥹🥹🥹

Aisha not knowing Stella either... FFS.

I should never have left them? Um, Aisha darling, I don't think being thrown off a bridge constitutes leaving them.

Stupid ass decision to have all 4 parts of the codex in the same realm. Even stupider decision to hide them in high schools instead of somewhere with high security. One of them is literally guarded by a fucking pixie and her pixie seahorse.

Icy saying good behavior is beneath her dignity 💀 my favourite form of the trix is them just hanging out and bitching.

Darkar refuses to let them ask questions to serve the forces of evil and these three morons are just like yeah okay 🤷🏻‍♀️

The sounds Stormy and Darcy are making as they get their gloomix just sounds like they're having a really bad shit.

I wonder what would've happened if the trix had succeeded in taking over the world... Would Darkar have reacted?

#alex watches winx #winx club #winx #winx musa #winx riven #winx stella #winx tecna #winx bloom #winx flora #Winx Aisha #Winx Layla #Winx Timmy #Winx Brandon #Winx sky #Winx Darcy #Winx icy #Winx stormy #Trix

[pyjamaart]

"sometimes i forget that youre a robot."

"whaddya mean?"

"every time we talk and you mention things like 'gears' or 'metal', the realization hits me that youre not actually made of flesh and blood. im just not used to this. before i met you, the only exposure i had to robots were science fiction movies."

"i get that a lot actually. dont know what to make of that tho. is it a good or a bad thing?"

"im not sure. but if i didnt know you were a robot, i never would have guessed. i remember when honoka and the others first met you and she thought you were just a guy dressed in a mascot costume, hehe…"

"mascot for what? greenpeace? a manifestation of the dying forest? a guy posing as a tree whos actually made of metal and wires? reminds me of the mother 3 logo actually lol."

"whaaat? haha, no. i thought of something like a super market or a football team. i could picture you holding up a sign for a sale in the produce section, hihihi…"

"now that you mention football, reminds me of the time our dad forced us to play football against the light bots. shit was wild."

"i wonder, what were you originally build to do? before we all met."

"uuuhhh… destroying megaman. dont laugh, but im actually a killing machine."

"you- what? are you serious?"

"yeah dude. im dangerous."

"do i have to remind you of the time you tried to fight me back when we were still enemies?"

"it wasnt that bad."

"you lost an arm when you tried to land a punch on me. i didnt even have to do anything. you quite literally destroyed yourself right in front of me."

"i was just going easy on you dude. smh."

"of course you did."

"even tho, to be honest, when my arm went flying i was actually concerned for a second. i hate looking at my insides. seeing all those wires and tubes makes me feel like my thoughts dont belong to my body. like theyre too human to belong to a machine. idk man its kind of hard to explain."

"like your thoughts dont belong to your body?"

"yknow, i used to look different. since all of this shit with the channel went down, i sometimes feel like ive become an entirely different person. or robot, rather. i still have the memories from when i was built, when i fought megaman, the time i spent with my brothers… but all of it feels kind of disconnected from me, as if they were actually someone elses memories, not mine."

"maybe this has something to do with all the dimension traveling youve been doing?"

"maybe. hell if i know man. i remember back when i was still working with the voice, he once told me to my face that my existence was an accident. back then i just didnt care about it. i just said 'nice', like i usually do and moved on with my life. but the more i think about it now, the more sense it makes. am i even who i claim to be? or am i just some fucked up glitch that stole some poor robots identity and memories? i feel like i dont belong when im with my bros, like im just an imposter who acts like their real brother. lol yknow like the game."

"woah woah woah! youre getting a little too existential there for my taste! of course youre the real you, who else would you be? youre talking to me right now, arent you? your not 'some fucked up glitch' and youre definitely not an accident either. youre my friend. and i cant believe he said something like that to you…"

"thanks. i guess i really needed to hear that right now."

"of course. thats what friends are for, arent they? grounding you when you start to question your own existence."

"i guess. lol."

"that reminds me, you keep mentioning your brothers. are they at all similar to you?"

"heh. no, theyre nothing like me. theyre all fucking lunatics. but the lovable kind. they dont even know what i get up to behind their backs. feels bad lying to them this much all the time."

"they dont know?"

"dude what do you expect me to tell them? 'yeah listen im actually a dimension traveller, i manage a music channel in my free time and also all of you are actually fictional characters from some video game lol' i think you and me having existential dread over that fact is enough. no reason to make them worry about that stuff for no reason. that wouldnt be nice at all."

"well, youre right about that. i… try not to think about it. its kind of a scary thought. being the product of someones imagination."

"yeah, not thinking about it might be for the best."

#idk man. just take it. #text gets a little existential sorry. #tw robot gore #siivagunner #woodman #smol nozomi