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catboybiologist · 19 days

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March 2024 documentation and transition journal

Just got my levels results back, meaning that the doc is fully updated for March:

This is possibly one of the most exciting and interesting months of HRT since starting, because I've experimented around a lot with injection doses, so let's talk about that! I'm also slapping a couple of old pics in here for reference, so I'll slap some selfie tags on this.

So, lots of interesting HRT stuff. At my last levels check, I was on 4mg injectable EV a week. And… my E actually went down, even though that’s an effectively higher dose than my previous regimen (6mg sublingual/day). Because of this, I talked with my provider, and essentially she told me to fuck around. I probably was way looser with it than she wanted me to be, but she told me to go to 8mg/week maximum, and try and settle on 6mg/week minimum. So….. here’s what I did.

1 week of 8mg.

2 weeks at 7mg.

2 weeks 6mg, during which my levels were checked at mid.

I… can’t really advocate for this. Basically, my logic was that I wanted to see what it felt like to max things out, but have my actual levels check reflect what I’m like at 6mg to know if increasing or maximizing the dose beyond that is necessary at all. Ultimately, I’ve concluded that 8mg feels too high- I start getting a bit of headache and nausea at peak. 7mg feels very comfortable. 6mg, I felt fucking miserable at trough. When I was on 4mg/week, I used a couple of sublingual pills to try and get through that, but I tried to see if I could stop doing that. It went okay for the higher doses, but on 6mg… ugh. Felt like complete shit. I’ll def be using a couple this week to get through that, probably just 4-6mg sublingual on wed/thurs to make sure I’m feeling okay.

Oh. Also. I ditched Spironolactone, against the advice of my provider.

I was getting really, REALLY irritated by the diuretic effects, so I quit it when I tried to 8mg dose just to see what would happen. I figured that 8mg would be more than enough to suppress T on its own (likely true), and so I thought it would be the best time to try that. And… when I stopped spiro, a depressive haze that had been in my head lifted very quickly. I thought it was just depression based on a rough past couple of months, and that’s probably true, but it also felt physical. The diuretic effects have also stopped, and I genuinely can’t imagine going back on spiro.

I’ve heard a lot of theoretical stuff about spiro potentially being able to inhibit growth and development. It's possibly a growth hormone inhibitor, but should be a more potent antiandrogen than anyone else. It’s…. Really hard to say whether spiro actually inhibits growth. As with a lot of transfemme physical developments, there’s never been a comprehensive, conclusive study on it, which is why its relegated to miscellaneous anecdotes that everyone will swear one way or the other on. I’ll have some opinions on this later.

So what improvement to my levels did I get out of all of this?

Well…. Good, but nothing radical. My midcycle estrogen is 159 pg/mL, which is about my target for trough. It’s a good step up from the 4mg dose, but I’m probably going to increase to 7mg/week- that felt fine to me, and I’m pretty confident that that’ll be the dose that nails it. I’m pretty deadset on going forward with that, I would just need a levels check to verify we’re all good there. (Side note, I’m a bit frustrated that my body literally seems allergic to just… stuff. Idk if I have an overactive liver or what, but my T crashed super easily, adderall consistently lasts shorter than it should, and my E is really struggling to go up.)

And did this result in any physical improvement?

I actually think that this last month has been the single fastest month of physical development I’ve ever had. Here’s some things I’ve noticed:

My breasts have become much larger and more developed in relation to my chest, with a much better shape. Comparison pictures to even just the end of January show a wild difference (sorry, not posting that publicly). To be fair, though, I’m still pretty clearly in tanner 2, and I maybe want to wait for just a bit more development before I start progesterone.

Waist measurement is still going down, and hip measurement is still holding steady. This means that, in effect, my hips are getting wider.

And this is one of the most exciting ones- my upper body seems like its getting smaller. I’m floored by this. My underbust is less, my chest looks noticeably less barrel-y, and my ribcage kind of “flows” into my waist better. I wrote a bit about this on reddit just now, but I think I know what’s happening here. Not only is fat burning from the sides of my chest as it builds on the front of my chest, I actually think my costal cartilage might be getting “tighter”, effectively pulling my ribs a bit closer in to my sternum

I have…. No way to confirm the hunches of that last one, other than the images I can show. So for educational purposes (and y’know. Making the funny women in my phone type funny syllables) Here’s a quick timeline where I think you can see the “barrellness” of my chest decreasing:

From left to right, we have September (0-1mo), December (3-4mo), March (6-7mo)

Don't worry, my shoulders are just as wide and athletic dyke-y.

Am I delusional? Is this anything? Maybe. Pictures are hard to make consistent with changes this small. But I do feel like its noticeable, and it seems like women’s cut shirts and tanks have fit me in a way that’s a lot more consistent with a cis woman’s body. Again, there’s also nsfw images, and I think they show a lot of progress, and I think I can pretty definitively say that this has been the single month with the most physical changes since, well, my first month back in September.

Why did this happen? Well, I’m working with a sample size of one here, and multiple variables have changed at the same time. There’s really three things that could be happening: increased injection dosage, ditching spiro, or the general come and go of physical changes. It’s impossible to completely know what’s going on because of this, unfortunately- I’d need way more data. That said…. This is the first new “wave” of development I’ve had since I started, and my actual blood levels didn’t increase that much. I really, really don’t want to conclude anything, but I’m kinda thinking that spiro had something to do with it. It has broad effects on physiology which aren’t entirely characterized, that could easily theoretically be inhibiting generic growth and development. That said, I think starting with a strong antiandrogen is basically necessary for HRT. It’s extremely difficult to get E levels up without robustly inhibiting T first. Obviously don’t take this as medical advice, or even a scientific opinion. This is nothing more than a hunch.

Idk. I’m happy. I feel like I finally am starting to break through the progress stall I’ve been growing increasingly frustrated with. And I think getting the proper injection dose actually worked to break through it. I’m feeling a lot better with my transition in general too. I won’t elaborate much here, but I’ve been coming out to a lot more people, and its been tentatively going about as well as I could ask. We’ll see what the future holds, but I’m excited about it.

#trans journal #hrt #transfemme hrt #mtf hrt #trans selfie #trans #transgender #trans timeline #trans progress #transition #transitioning #trans woman #trans female

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zerosuitsammie · 1 month

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Pre-shower pic really proud of how my boobs look

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uraniumdaydreams · 1 month

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ATTENTION EVERYONE

It is my pleasure to announce….

#meeeeeeeeee :3 #mine #trans #transgender #transfem #transfemme #trans woman #estrogen #mtf hrt

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akamaru01 · 1 year

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Taking HRT as a trans women is like getting regular updates where the patch notes usually look like this:

Increased chest size

Added Jiggle Physics

Serotonin increased slightly

"Feeling Beautiful" special ability cooldown timer reduced by 5 minutes

"Breasting Boobily" special ability unlocked

Softness level increased slightly

Feel free to add your own patch note updates below

#transfemme #trans woman #hrt #trans #transfem

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sagasolejma · 22 days

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I don't care if it's tacky and slutty, I'm absolutely in love with this dress haha

Also bonus pic of my face because I actually didn't totally hate it today🥳🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

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genderqueerdykes · 1 year

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if you want to be a girl in a high testosterone body, love you. if you want to be a boy in a high estrogen body, i love you

#nonbinary #trans #transgender #transsexual #transmasc #transmasculine #transfeminine #transfem #transfemme #intersex #hrt #hormones #testosterone #estrogen #mtf #ftm #our writing

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myfriendgoo94 · 2 months

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Is tgirl tummy tuesday still allowed?

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mhouse95 · 1 year

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#trans #transfemme #transfem #mtf #hrt #estrogen #transgender #trans ganer

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peacejamesworld · 10 months

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Hi besties 🥰😍🤍

Can I get a reblog 🌹🤍

#trans rights #trans nfst #transmasc #transgirl #transbeautiful #transisbeautiful #transgender #igbtqcommunity #transparent #lgbt #intersex #queer pride #queer romance #queer nsft #mtf hrt #transexuelle #trans #transfemme

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callistoscorner · 2 months

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got a super cute tube top 🖤

#calliepost✨#mtf nsft #trans nsft #queer nsft #transgender #girlslikeus #trans girl #transfem #transfemme #trans is beautiful #mtf #mtf hrt #trans #trans woman #transgirl #trans positivity

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ladyofspoons · 2 months

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ooooooh spooky scary transition timeline oooooh

2021 (pre hrt) 2024 (1 year hrt)

going from fairy tale giant that eats misbehaving children to fairy tale princess whom small creatures approach and whose footsteps grow small flowers

#trans #transgender #transfemme #hrt #transition timeline

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catboybiologist · 7 months

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Omfg. Okay. I'm not updating my progress spreadsheet quite yet bc I want it to be about monthly, but I was curious about a couple of things bc of growing pains I've felt (esp on my chest), so I cracked out the tape measure. This isn't part of documentation this is just journaling.

And uh. Oh. My. God. Someone pinch me. Someone correct me. I'm dreaming, or doing it wrong. But I've triple checked, and checked against other metrics to make sure I'm invariate with how I did it before.

So compared to my pre-HRT measurements, here's a couple of interesting things:

Hips: unchanged (unfortunate).

Waist: -0.5 inches (yippee, but easily explained by higher activity level).

Total weight: +nearly 4lbs.

Where did that weight go? Well.

Band: unchanged.

Bust: +1.25 fucking inches.

Y'all. Y'ALL. I have been on low dose, sublingual extrogen montherapy for three. Weeks.

Lemme repeat that.

Three. Weeks. To be exact, 45 doses of 2mg estradiol taken twice daily. What the FUCK. My chest was getting wildly sensitive and the texture seemed to have changed, but holy shit, actually noticing a change in numbers now?

Fuck me. Holy hell. An inch is a cup size. What the fuck.

And considering the women in my family... oh my god. I think I'm gonna make it. The shit post about C cups might be a reality, because I literally just started... and I already have quantifiable growth. I noticed something was up, but I thought it was paired with generalized weight gain, but it's not going anywhere else. I thought I had a bit of noticable something going on, but just bc of random weight gain tbh.

Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. This is incredible. I'm 99% sure that if I'm measuring wrong, I'm at least *consistently* measuring wrong, so at least the delta should be accurate.

I THINK a huge part of this explanation is that the area around my chest feels like it kind of "swelled", esp with heightened nipple sensitivity, without actual fat accumulation or breast tissue forming. From my limited knowledge, this kind of indicates the start of growth, but isn't really growth itself? But it can't account for all of that change. What the fuck. I'm so fucking happy.

Please someone give me a reality check. Is this real? Can it be real? Fuck if I know. I don't think it'll be consistent. But fuck I'm so happy for the moment.

#trans #trans progress #trans woman #trans breast development #transfemme #hrt #transfemme hrt #transitioning

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zerosuitsammie · 4 days

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Random bullshit

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cosmic-muses · 6 months

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Just got back home and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

#my mortal flesh #it's nervewracking wearing a skirt #selfy #transfemme #hrt is a fudgin miracle

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gaycrashbandicoot · 29 days

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Happy trans day of visibility to all trans and nonbinary people, I hope everyone is feeling very visible <3

I think trans day of visibility can be hard if you aren't where you want to be in your transition because you are bombarded with other people celebrating their transition and you feel behind. like I've been out for 9 years and the first trans day of visibility I celebrated was literally last year because I was out as trans for 7 years before I started testosterone and every year pre t I just felt hopeless and like I was behind in life because I was no closer to medical transition than the year before.

this year I feel a bit hopeless because I'm still no closer to top surgery than I have been every TDOV for the last 9 years and also its hard not to feel upset or like everything is shit because of the state of the world. like it is hard for trans ppl rn and the future sometimes does not feel bright.

so it is definitely okay if tdov is not happy for you or whatever but the community we have is incredibly important and if there is one thing we can do as trans people it is live and thrive despite it all bcs they (transphobes, which feels like everyone) do not want us to live or be happy or succeed.

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sagasolejma · 2 days

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I really don't believe in gendered socialisation that much, or at least I don't believe it affects trans people the same way it does cis people BUT I will admit as a trans girl on hormones who is starting to get some noticeable visible changes, a part of me does sometimes feel like I'm some kind of weird gremlin creature who knows nothing about how to girl, who was then very suddenly shoved into a woman's body.

People will be like "omg you've worn a sports bra for more than three days??? Don't you know those get super sweaty and stinky easily and it's bad for your skin!!!!" and I'm just sitting there like no literally how would I even know that😭

Or like today I'm sitting in my chair kinda autistically scratching my nail polish like the little goblin I am, and one of my friends goes "no don't scratch your nail polish it'll look terrible, did your mom never teach you that???" and once again I'm just sitting there, feeling like a skin walker that was just exposed to society's expectations of what I'm supposed to already know about a gender I've been living as for like... 4 and a half months lol.

#trans #trans people #transgender #transitioning #mtf girl #trans joy #trans positivity #mtf trans #trans goddess #trans pride #trans rights #trans community #trans women #transfem #transfeminine #transfemme #mtf hrt

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