What the heart wants pt. 2 - Mina
Part 1
Requested: could you do a part 2 of what the heart wants, where after a long time Mina goes to a very famous bar an it turns out it’s y/n’s
Mina x f!reader
Mina never forgot the look of betrayal on your face the day she asked you to not look for her again.
She knew what she did was wrong, but after such a long time with Chaeyoung, her heart begged to have a second chance with her. Mistakes can happen, people learn from them, they grow up and change for the better. At least that’s what she wanted to believe.
So she asked her to move in together, out of the city. Somewhere far enough for her to never cross paths with you again. Mina asked Chaeyoung to build a life together in Japan, where they got married after almost two years of getting back together.
Mina was happy. She loved her wife and was ready to stop looking back, to stop reminiscing about the short time she spent with you going back and forth between the bar and the little road to her house.
Deep inside, she hoped you were happy too. She hoped you would be living a happy life filled with blessings.
But the way her heart fluttered at the thought of you, made her realize how she also hoped you thought of her from time to time.
Mina got a job at a good company in Tokyo. She spent almost all day at the office taking care of the multiple cases that were assigned to her, getting home really late, finding her wife soundly sleeping almost every day.
It didn’t take long for Chaeyoung to fall back on old habits. It started with her going away for a whole day, then a couple of days, until she didn’t come back to the house for a week.
Mina knew she wasn’t a stay at home kinda girl. She needed her freedom, freedom that got cut short the moment they got married.
She was willing to put up with it, for the sake of their marriage, but after finding out Chaeyoung was seeing someone else, she couldn’t step back.
It cost her sleepless nights crying to herself. The life she had envisioned for the both of them crumbled down as she saw the girl that promised her a forever, going away with someone else.
It took a couple of weeks for Chaeyoung to leave the place completely. No trace of her in the apartment they had rented in the best part of the city. But all the memories would come back at night, hurting Mina more than she could ever handle.
She quitted her job immediately after finding out the same position was available in Seoul. After barely over a year of a failed marriage, she was ready to start a new journey from zero. Going back to Korea was also a chance to get reconnected with her old friends, the friends who never let go of her even if she moved to another country.
“I can’t believe you’re finally coming back!” Jihyo squealed over the phone.
Jihyo still lived in their old shared apartment in the town she used to live in. After Mina moved out, her girlfriend moved in and they have lived happily ever since.
“Sana is driving us to Seoul. Nayeon would probably tag along, too,” she informed enthusiastically, “we’ve missed you so much, Mina” she whispered the last part.
She missed them too. She missed the quietness of her old city, the closeness of the neighbors, her old little job.
You.
“The first week of moving is going to be crazy,” Mina said, sighing deeply. “It’s gonna be refreshing seeing your faces over the weekend. I’ve missed you, too”.
From time to time, she let her mind wander around the thought of never leaving you. What could have happened if she never got back with Chaeyoung and decided to set for the good girl for once?
“Have a nice trip, can’t wait to see you!” Jihyo said excitedly before hanging up.
As she guessed it, the first week of moving was hell. Some of her furniture didn’t arrive on time, the internet wasn’t connected yet, she still received the old tenant’s mail. The only thing getting her through was the fact that her friends were coming to the city to hang out with her on the weekend.
“It’s been ages!” Jihyo said, throwing herself to Mina’s arms after she opened the door of her new apartment.
Mina’s eyes filled with tears of happiness at the sight of her friends after almost three years of being away. All the memories coming back to her.
“Please come in”.
Neither Jihyo nor Nayeon liked their friend’s ex wife. They knew the kind of girl she was and were sure she deserved so much better. Even if they tried to warn her for the longest time, it felt like Mina was blinded. Blinded enough to go through all the suffering by herself so far from them. But now that she was back, they wouldn’t let her make any other wrong decision. They were going to take care of her, the way only real friends would.
“Let’s go out for a drink,” Jihyo suggested after catching up on their lives.
“Or several,” Nayeon replied, getting an amused chuckle from Mina.
“There’s this place,” Jihyo trailed off, getting her phone to look for the address, “that opened a few weeks ago… It’s only 10 minutes away from here!”
Nayeon took a look at her phone, “there’s no way we can get there without a reservation, we’ll have to queue for over an hour and yet we won’t be guaranteed to get in”.
Sana did the same. “Oh, I know that place,” she said, taking her own phone and typing something in, “my cousin works there as a bouncer, he can get us in if I ask him”.
“That’s why I love you!” Jihyo shouted, planting a big smooch on Sana’s cheek.
Sana giggled and made a phone call to make sure they could get in.
“Done!” she said, after a minute. “Don’t I deserve another kiss?” she asked Jihyo, offering her lips in a pucker this time.
Mina chuckled at them. After all this time, they were still going strong, supporting each other, living a happy life together. She sighed.
“It’s gonna be alright,” Nayeon said, caressing her friend’s arm after catching her sinking in her own thoughts.
Mina nodded softly before they started getting ready to go out.
*
“I told you, this is the biggest deal these days,” Jihyo said as they found a parking spot near the bar. “Only the best people get in there, and we’re about to!”
“Where’s your cousin?” Nayeon asked.
“He’s over there, we gotta pretend we have VIP invitations tho. He’s gonna scan our phones and we can get it”.
Everyone in the queue looked at them with envy. Only top influencers, idols and public figures were personally invited to the place. So when they took their phones for the bouncer to scan the QR, people knew they were a big deal.
“I’m loving the attention,” Jihyo said as she stepped into the bar.
As soon as Mina stepped in, a lot of things seemed oddly familiar. The way the bottles were scattered behind the bar, the colors of the lights and even the kind of music that was blasting through the speakers hanging from the roof.
“I’m gonna get us drinks,” Mina said. She wanted to relax, to forget everything that was on her mind so she knew what to do.
Making her way to the bar, she noticed there were also a lot of people waiting for their drinks. It took her a while to get the bartender’s attention but she made it at the end. She came back to the table with four tequila shots.
“To our friendship,” Jihyo said, wrapping her arm over Mina’s shoulder.
“To our friendship!!” the other girls replied with the same energy.
After a couple of shots, the girls were already on the dancing floor. Mina wasn’t a party girl under any circumstance, in fact, the nights she spent at the little bar you worked at were the most nights she was actually at a bar. However, the place she was at was ten times bigger, there was even a live band and dancers.
She smiled at herself just thinking about how different things would have been.
“Uhm… Mina?” Jihyo said, her eyes widening at something she saw in the distance.
Mina followed her gaze and as soon as she realized what surprised Jihyo, her own smile faded away.
“Y/N…?”
*
“Congratulations, Ms. Y/N,” the investor said, clinking her glass to yours. “This place is exactly what we were expecting in a business. I’m sure the board will just quickly review your balances but the outcome seems to be very positive”.
You took a zip of your drink and smiled widely at her words, taking a look at everything you had worked so hard for. The bar was a success, there were hundreds of people waiting to get in not only on the weekends, but every night. The investment you were being offered was the final push to get the brand overseas.
For everyone at the bar it was any other Saturday night. For you, it was the beginning of a journey.
You excused yourself and made your way to the bar, to check on everything as you used to do every night. The bartender was serving four tequila shots.
The transparent liquid brought a smile to your face. A smile that turned sour after a second, remembering how everything went down.
From time to time you still wondered what you did wrong. Time had passed, yet her soft smile and her beautiful eyes would somehow sneak into your dreams to remind you of everything that could have been.
You sincerely hoped she was happy, even if it wasn’t with you.
“A shot of tequila, please,” you asked the bartender.
“Yes, boss,” he answered immediately, pouring the liquid on a small glass for you.
“This place is yours?!” a voice shouted from your side, almost making you choke on the drink.
“Uhm, yes?” you said, trying to remember where you knew that face from. It seemed really familiar, yet you didn’t want to give a wrong name.
“I’m Jihyo, remember me?”
Mina’s roommate, was the first thought that crossed your mind. Did that mean Mina was there too? A wave of nervousness crossed your body.
“I do,” you simply said, expectant of what she was going to say.
Part of you hoped Mina wasn’t there. Your life was starting to take off and seeing her would only bring you back to the dark place you were a couple of years ago after she broke things off.
But your heart hung onto the thought of her finally being available for you to love unconditionally, for her to give you the tiniest hope that you could be together.
“How’s… How’s Mina?” you blurted out, regretting immediately asking the question. You couldn’t help but check her socials from time to time and knew she was married and living happily with her wife in Japan.
It would only hurt more to have that information confirmed by her best friend.
“Uhm,” Jihyo trailed off, “well, she just moved back and…” she continued, “why don’t you ask her?” she asked, signaling to a table with her eyebrows.
You followed her gaze and froze on the spot.
Mina’s eyes were fixed on you as if she had been expecting you to look her way. Her fingers were fidgeting on a champagne glass.
Your heart skipped a beat. Out of all things that could happen, seeing her was not something you expected.
She looked beautiful, as always. Even if it felt like you haven’t seen her in ages, the feelings came back to you as if it had only been a day.
Your feet moved on their own approaching the table where she was sitting with two other girls. None of them seemed like the one that took her away.
She stood up immediately to walk towards you and it gave you the chance to notice there wasn’t a ring on her finger.
It only brought hope to you.
“Mina,” you whispered, not knowing what to do.
“Y/N,” she breathed out, “I’m so sorry,” she whispered, her face filling with sadness.
You shook your head hurriedly at her words, trying to make them go away.
“Can I buy you a drink?”
Mina nodded, her anxiety being replaced by calmness once you showed her a sincere smile.
Not a hint of anger, resentment or anything she knew she deserved.
“A shot of tequila, please,” she said, her eyes not leaving yours.
You smiled at her, getting behind the bar and serving two shots by yourself.
Maybe this was life giving you a second chance to start all over again.
And this time you were going to make it right.
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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
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