#yes i combined everything i think thats hot or cool into 1

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so i did a jason redesign :)

#jason todd #my art #dc #red hood #yes i combined everything i think thats hot or cool into 1 #like bodysuits and jackets over them are amazing. #and high waist belts are amazing and pair great with thigh high boots. #also made a new symbol thats a combo of his arkham knight symbol/his rebirth symbol/ and current. #but i did keep his current mask tho i do think its cool :) #also i started this ages ago but only just finished it today. at 1:30 am. i am fine #also his boots gave me neck ache for several days :) #art #character re-design

[batarangsoundsdumb]

guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.

For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell

fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one

i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft

that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you

tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again

as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)

hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s

holy shit yes.

SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe

superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'

does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom

it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.

I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?

as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)

somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.

and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!

babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence

babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to

JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT

again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song

The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian

oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag

soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"

i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage

Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?

don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)

What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk

stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.

This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it

This is canon now @nctxrejects

lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out

idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family

bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another

I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.

yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.

Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings

smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn

Duke was adopted by Bruce?

not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?

True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live

true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?

apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome

ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.

ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut

lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash

oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man

while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.

dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie

magnum hot take

hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth

thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)

why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???

what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones

oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no

I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked

yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends

"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years

i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.

BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them

lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.

I am in love with your posts your honour thank you

omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?

The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john

Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian

yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.

tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.

and what about it?

when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST

oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat

Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes

lmao i do too

I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it

he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.

you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank

babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)

ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something

that's a very good vocabulary upgrade

somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”

steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.

Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious

babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks

In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97

lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)

You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.

bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers

How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?

horrible, next question.

I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid

yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'

I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.

superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time

bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)

lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)

Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje

he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'

I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??

i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way

SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed

'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'

i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam

fair enough

#this is only like half of it #but at least you can get like a few answers #yanno fuck it #bataranswers #ask #asks #anon

[la-li-lu-le-lol]

okay would you be willing to rank the sneaking suits?

Yes, I would, a lot. This is gonna be image-heavy and will go under a cut because I want to at least try to appear dignified and normal on the surface.

In order of most to least favorite.

1. MGS2

This suit, yall. this fuckin suit. Jesus christ. I feel like it's meant to look good more than it's meant to be functional, and BOY HOWDY DOES IT DO A GOOD JOB OF LOOKING GOOD. I think we all know Kojima thinks tactical gear is hot, and that's all kind of here. But like, it doesn't look *trashy*. I'm into ladies too and tbh I don't really mind the whole bikini armor thing, but I will admit that bikini armor is annoying because it’s usually trashy-looking. It is much, much more attractive when someone's gear is sexy while still being tastefully subtle about it and thats what THIS is, on a man instead of a woman too, which gets it rarity bonus points.

Like. For real. and it just looks so GOOD on him too, you know? Combined with the long hair and bandana... /chin-hands/ perfect character design. hottest thing ever. eternal fangirl until I die.

(using a pic of this figma because it’s detailed in a way mgs2 isn’t) You know. It just kinda leads your eye around. There's a way in which his vest slopes down his back with the location of the drawstrings that makes it look like a corset. There's a way in which the straps on his legs extend downward from his vest that makes it look like garters. Like it's all there, and I'm 95.8276 percent sure it was deliberate.

If I can pull my head out of the gutter for a second. I also really like how this suit is kinda ambiguous blue-teal-grey colored. Mgs2 does an interesting thing with the lighting where the color of this suit kinda changes depending on the temperature of the lighting that is hitting it, whether it contains more cool or warm colors, the suit kinda shifts with it. I really like that detail because it feels tactically sound, like a precursor to the octocamo.

Anyway.

2. PO/PW/GZ

Woof woof bark bark. Sometimes I wish that the mgs2 suit was a lot darker in color because I think dark colors are sexy, and this suit takes care of all that for me while still having a bunch of tasty eye-leading design that differentiates it from everything else. The splash of color on the gold bands and green harness is a great touch and almost gives this a sort of "wetsuit" vibe? I also really like the drawstrings on the sides of the arms and legs. This design is super good. Big Boss more like Big Sigh while my eyes turn into hearts.

3. MGS1

The suit that started it all. This one definitely leans a lot more towards the "functional" rather than "sexy" side of the scale in part because of the elbow-knee pads and the thermal vest. TBH for a bit I didn't like this suit a whole lot because I always thought it fit him weird, mostly because the model in Twin Snakes was my only non-polygon reference for it and it just wasn't that good, imo. But then I saw this render...

and this figurine:

my opinion changed and now I love it, it's so COOL LOOKING. All it needs is a bit of a more modern render in order for you to fully appreciate it, imo!!

I think this suit is the most badass out of the bunch, kind of the most "I mean serious business" out of the bunch, and naturally, that = sexy. I think also that Snake having short hair with a bulkier suit is a great character design contrast, similiar to how in mgs2 he grew out his hair longer which contrasted with the sleeker mgs2 suit. Shinkawa knows what’s good.

4. MGS4

Old Snake's suit, oh, Old Snake's suit. MGS4 was the game where people really started noticing and talking about how much emphasis was placed on his ass, which looks fucking fantastic for his age might I add. Besides that, this suit design was always super interesting to me because of how it feels like an All-In-One sort of thing, and how its lines and such kind of mimic muscles and sinew.

(courtesy of our favorite mgs4 documentarian @youlltrytobreakmetoo) It seems like a very carefully-constructed suit with a ton of thought and effort put into its design. It is not as much to my personal taste like more traditional-looking gear is, but it's still very cool looking! The load-bearing vest up top isn't my favorite thing either but I appreciate it design-wise as a contrast in the silhouette. I also love the octo-camo. It's such a neat idea, and all the patterns look great. I particularly like the black Metals one and the really dark navy blue one.

5. MGSV

Venom Snake is a straight up hunky beefcake who will look great in anything you put on him. Absolute legend. I do personally prefer him in his usual outfit but he also looks real good in the sneaking suits. While the GZ suit is an option here, This entry is more about the black and grey sneaking suit that is an option in TPP, which I thiiiink is meant to be a rehash of the mgs1 suit?

(Oh god, that image is smaller than I thought, sorry for the blurriness.) I think it looks good on him but it, in my opinion, needs more color and distinguishing design features. It needs to be a little more design-y and a little less functional. But it doesn’t have anything that I hard dislike on it so it’s still not last.

6. MGS3 black sneaking suit

Unpopular opinion? maybe.

Not saying this doesn't look cool on Naked Snake. It does. It does!!!! But I really don't like the puffiness on the sleeves and legs. I know they were going for an astronaut vibe, but that just doesn’t tick any boxes for me. I think that the design also just feels a little out of place in mgs3 in general, I'm so used to Snake wearing his fatigues that him wearing anything else is just weird. The orange is a cool pop of color though, so it gets some style points. But lose the weird puffs pls, and lose the grey. Put this boy back in his fatigue suspenders, please, or stick him in the PW suit.

HONORABLE "WTF" MENTION: PW suit with the dick suspenders and these... grenade pattern... thigh high boots?! holy shit.

OKAY WHEW THAT TOOK ME FOREVER AND i HOPE SOMEONE BESIDES ME LIKES MY DUMB THOUGHT DUMPS. LOVE YALL, I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP NOW LMAO.

#metal gear solid #i know im missing a few but im tired. lmao.

[plantwalkingamongstmeremortals]

Hi :) for the ask challenge : 1, 4, 7, 11, 15, 21

Obviously you don't have to answer all of them unless you want to :)

1. How long do you hc the travel time between Divinity’s Reach and Lion’s Arch?

I am VERY BAD at time and distances to be honest, something like a couple weeks by foot sounds like a decent distance between two major cities (esp considering how much of kryta is western europe and that doesnt seem completely incompatible with real life western europe) but i have a lot of trouble picturing how much that is, and tbh i'd need to add hundreds of villages and quite a few minor towns in between anyway to get something that feels like RealityTM.

Funny answer is the game is 100% of the reality of tyria. You CAN do the one-hour walk between LA and DR. the whole world is smaller than france. Not what i believe but really funny to think about.

4. How much smarter than everyone else are Asura actually? Is it all just hubris and in the end they just have a better education system?

YES IT'S JUST HUBRIS. The "some species just are Better at x" fantasy trope definitely is rooted in real life racism and i hate it so i really believe that all differences are cultural (because the implications otherwise feel kinda gross). And considering how high and mighty they are about it, them not sharing the education and science cuz "nah you humans/sylvari/charr/norn definitely are too stupid to understand" makes sense, but hopefully with everything that's been happening, asura seeing others make super cool tech and stuff, they'll realize that everyone will profit if they share their knowledge on a deeper level >:3

7. How does an average Sylvari’s average day look like?

im bad at average help. more seriously they don't feel like they have a structured work day like we do (and i assume most other races do too bc that's the vibe they give. gotta work in the fields or make tech or idk what). Maybe the Socialist Utopia where they come give a hand at the Necessary Jobs for a bit (just thinking about how the dream might mean everyone Knows how most of those work?) and then just chill out doing the hobby they feel called to. Overall i think they have a lot of ~empathy~ and respect of other individuals' liberties so theres not much being forced on others and people can just vibe however they want without having to stress about paying rent or shit like that.

11. Are magic abilities learned or are people born with them? A combination of both?

Mostly learned i think! There might be some biological stuff that might help somehow, like how some people learn how to draw way faster than others, and some others struggle A LOT but if the world has magic, i'd let anyone learn to channel it! And I think the way gw1 works might support it, with all the profession trainers who teach us skills..... The captured elites might be some form of "i saw magic used this way, so i am learning from seeing my magic used against me"? I really feel like i'm making shit up on the spot im sorry but also what did u expect from this idiot /lh

15. A headcanon about a minor race, like Quaggan or Dredge.

theyre all perfect. thats it. (more seriously i don't have that many thoughts about any of them i just think we should Learn More). Oh and considering the prev question: yes a necromancer quaggan is a posibility. Baby quaggan walk, followed by corpses, i love ♥

21. Mallyck. Other Trees. Mordremoth’s blighting trees… Are the Sylvari not unique?

hhhh so i was a bit no when i saw the question at first but ive been Thinking so. LETS RECAP THE DATA WE HAVE.

Apparently a dev confirmed malyck did Not Come from a blighting tree during a live or on reddit or whatever i can't check ever gw2wiki source okay, which confirms that whatever the most complicated answer to the question i come up with is most likely true.

The wiki says the seed for the pale tree was a blighting tree seed stolen by Ronan but the source seems to be an artbook i don't have so idk if it's the wiki people extrapolating because i can't check. so first let's assume it's the case: NOTHING is stopping anyone else from having stolen a seed too and planted a tree and theyre all kind of cousins (sylvari/mordrem/other tree ppl) which is very cute and that feels like the most canon-compliant explanation of malyck bUT it's not fucked up enough to my taste so i'm gonna say (for the sake of argument at least idk which option is alex-canon yet) the pale tree came from just something else. Ronan and Ventari planted a lil gay tree and some sleeping mordremoth magic made it Alive (because we need plant dragon connection anyway (we couuld fuck that up but that sounds like too much work for now)) but there were too many good gay vibes so the tree ended up making overall nice and very gay plants. WHICH MEANS. there's nothing preventing sleeping mordremoth power to just vibe with trees that are supposed to be significant in other ways and awaken them to make lil plant beings.

Downside to all this is why haven't we seen them in HoT, BUT maybe they were too far away. Maybe a chaotic neutral quaggan planted a cactus in elona and mordremoth made choya because of that. Idk man.

#gw2 #long post #ask meme

[throwing-summers-at-the-walls]

Hi, i hope you are feeling good! Im better than yesterday so i can finally answer you. First of all: i am so happy that you shared your fanfiction! i had a great time reading it! Im always open for more recs. Maybe your all time favorites? Or if you know some good h/c these are always welcome :) And YESSS please send me a link to your fanvids. -- yeah 13rw was super cursed. haha i also watched season 1 but thankfully i was able to sto watching becaue i could feel it making me feel bad (1)

I agree the suicide scene was just cringe (but i think i remember reading somewhere that they cut it out? idk) and overall this show just gave me the feeling that there was no hope and things are always getting worse instead of better and i hated that. but enough of that cursed show. can i just say i really admire how open you are about your feelings (like being suicidal and that) i realy, really admire this about you. i have so much respect for you that you can just share your feelings here (2)

I have never heard of ace attorney but that story you described sounds really good. and i get reading sth that isnt good for you and still doing it (because im a dumb bitch too :D) -- okay i might accept that Root will never grow on you (but i thought so too and look at me now :D) but i havent fully given up yet :)-- yes thats the girl. i think it was really sweet when she said that to Shaw. and i think Shaw appreciated it that someone tried to figure her out instead of just writting her off (3)

Shaw is really cool and definately also a badass and in combination with John its just great! but you will have to suffer trough some Shoot.  but maybe, maybe you will end up not hating Root. hope dies last (idk how the saying goes in english, sorry). -- Did you ever ship Caresse (in a romantic way)? cause sometimes i do and sometimes i dont and i get so confused about it :) but i think most of the time i like them more as friends. anyway her death really sucked and you are right with (4)

her death and them losing the library it felt like a different show (i mean i guess it was a different show then). i kinda get your feelings about the destroyed library because i also really loved it (and im really bad with change) but i dont think it affected me as much as you. but yeah i still missed the library very much. and while the subway is a really cool new place its not the same. (also the subway is super dark cause its underground and idk it just makes the whole thing less homey) (5)

Yes he is everything! such a great, interesting character and i wish there were more John-centric episodes! (like ones that explored his character more). that was one of my biggest dislikes of the later seasons that John wasnt featured as much anymore. i think he chuckled a few times in the show but a real laugh? i cant remember one :(  -- He did promise Joss to talk to Tyler so @show were is that talk? -- if seen the vid its awesome! thehiddenmemory has some great poi vids! (6)

yes i think so too. Like Grace would probably be relived and thankful that Harold is still alive and maybe they would even try again but eventually she would figure out that she cant trust him after lying to him for so long or sth like that and Harold would ofc realize that he is in love with someone else now. And then he finds out that John is still alive but stayed away cause he didnt want to get in the way of Harold/Grace. But then Harold comes back. And when they meet again John is like (7)

you came back for the machine? what about Grace. But Harold tells him he came back for John not the machine and then they kiss and have a happy live with Bear (sorry i got a little carried away here :D). -- Yeah Zoe is really hot and she needed more screen time! -- i hope you have a good day and i hope i havent messed up the numbers on the asks! :)

Hi ! I'm finally free from the resits, I hope you're doing okay with your thesis 💛

Sorry for replying late, there was the exam resits, and I read a bunch of fics, then I fell into pokémon and started bingewatching it. (Also I had a breakdown during therapy today so I'm gonna finish writing my answer to distract myself - it's been sitting in my drafts for so long rip)

Thank you !! It was a very personal thing, I'm really happy you liked it !! Your support and your comment made me thrive 💛💛

Tbh I was surprised to see it get kudos given that the only intended audience was my self projecting ass 🤣

So, my fav fics (my fav fic ever is in French, rip to y'all bc it's so good):

I am, I am, I am by RavenWhitecastle

Actually check the entire series this work belongs to: The Sinner and the Saint. I haven't finished it yet but I love it (I just skipped the explicit fics bc I don't like smut or sub!John)

Breaking All The Rules by talkingtothesky

Outsider Perspective by Neery

A Really Private Person by astolat

Hamartia (the hero's fatal flaw) by astolat

If Only for Tonight by spacemutineer

From Here, Where? by AKMars

Stroll by TheaNishimori

and the world was gone by lunarcorvid

a light that never goes out by vindicatedtruth

Limitations. by Michaelssw0rd

Reel you in and spit you out by Michaelssw0rd

All I Want For Christmas Is You by richmahogany

By What Power I Am Made Bold by brinnanza

Aftershocks by darringtons

At Certain Hours It All Breaks Down by nogoaway

construction of a kingdom by the_ragnarok

You Take Me Higher Than I've Gone by talkingtothesky

All Together Now by beadedslipper

I'll Let the Waters Still by brinnanza

Birthday Tradition by talkingtothesky

Things My Father Taught Me by KRyn

Truth is in the Eye of the Beholder by infiniteeight

Better Luck This Time by Lisztful

Motivations by JenNova

What's On the Table by cortue

In Another Life by Della19

I Thought We Already Were by talkingtothesky

Misunderstandings by thisstarvingartist

This is already fucking long omg so for the h/c: my bookmarks filtered with Rinch and h/c

Here's my playlist, it's mostly Rinch, but there are a few not Rinch vids, plus some scenes I like

This is long enough already, so it's time for a read more. Also, warning, we be talking about suicide

The portrayal of suicide is cringe most of the time anyway. If my suicidal ass can find a list of suicide methods and their lethality in 2 mins on Google you'd think writers who are supposed to do some research would be able to find them too but no they're like "ah yes slicing wrists" even though it's literally the shittiest method 🙄 (I just don't understand why slicing wrists seems to be such a popular method in the collective imagination ? It's weird.) At least in 13rw she took aspirin and cut herself vertically instead of horizontally but still, no hesitation wounds, and she dies even though she only got 4 wounds iirc ? I know more about jumping off bridges than slicing wrists, but it kinda sounds like bullshit to me. Also Netflix once suggested "beyond the reasons" to me, it's a sort of discussion with the cast and crew of 13rw and the only thing I remember is a moment of intellectual masturbation abt how they "opened a discussion abt suicide" 😬😬😬

They may have cut it out it's not impossible, idk I didn't hear about it, but it's not like I look for info about this dumpster fire lol. Maybe they faced backlash ? Wouldn't be surprised given how shit the show was. And yeah it has a hopeless vibe, I mean that's how it be when you're suicidal, but I didn't like it either.

You're sweet 💜💜 it's interesting that you find it respectable or admirable, I don't have an external point of view, so I'm just like 🤷 it is what it is. I understand where you're coming from though, I guess it's still quite a taboo subject, and suicidal people don't always feel comfortable talking about it, so me throwing around that I jumped off a bridge must be surprising. I'm detached enough from my suicide attempt that I'm able to talk about it without much of a problem, and I'm not really suicidal anymore.

Dumb bitches unite 👏👏👏 we be out there reading shit we shouldn't read

Yeah I think it's nice how the show didn't portray Shaw as a bad person for not having "normal feelings". Well, hope makes one live as we say in French (idk the English saying either lol) but don't hold much hope about me liking Root lmao

I used to ship careese bc they kissed in the crossing, but then I read some Rinch fics and I just ended up falling into it to the point where I stopped caring about careese. Now I think their relationship works better as a friendship.

Yeah all that change really puts me off... It just gives me "bad spin-off" vibes. Especially since there is less John :( and less Rinch :((((

Lmao yeah I just have a lot of feelings about early poi hgkfglrk. Also :/ I'm sad about the subway being less homey pls I just want happiness ?? I swear this show destroys my heart on top of owning my last braincell (brb changing my blog title to this lmao)

Mood I need all the John-centric eps, give me m o r e characterization and development and backstory and feelings hhhhhhh. I love him so much I just wanna spend more time with him. And that's what fics are for ! Yeah thehiddenmemory is so talented ! Astolat made some good ones too, on top of writing really good fics ! (Our fandom has been blessed with the presence of one of the ao3 founders hell yeah)

Also, remember how we talked abt the poi subreddit ? The other day I left a comment on there, wild I know. It wasn't a discussion about the last seasons though, I'm not crazy, it was about the impact poi had in our lives so I said it literally taught me English. Who knows maybe sometimes I'll comment again lol. I just don't wanna meet one of those people who prefer late poi over early poi.

Allow me to uuuuh write something based on what you said. Don't ask me how John survived with no major injuries, my man got that Thick Plot Armor alright. Hope you appreciate me getting carried away sjdkdksk it's kinda rushed and the first part isn't that good bc idk how to write Grace I'm just here for that sweet sweet Rinch stuff

Harold is eating breakfast with Grace in her kitchen – he can't think of her home as his home – when his phone vibrates. It's a text from the machine. It's a surprise, she barely contacted him since... He blocks the thoughts and the images coming to his mind. The machine sent him a picture. When he opens it, his heart misses a beat. Right here on his screen is a silhouette he thought he would never see again. His phone vibrates again. Another picture, this time it's unmistakably John, wearing his signature suit, Bear next to him. Transfixed, he stares at his phone until he feels Grace gently touching his arm. She goes straight to the point.

"Is it John ?" He looks up in confusion, but before he can say anything, she adds, "I hear you call him in your sleep every night."

"It's him, yes." He doesn't want to explain. He only wants to see John, to touch him, to tell him how much he loves him.

"You should go back to him. I like you, Harold. I am deeply relieved to see you alive. But I've been thinking, and... It's not working. This, us... You aren't really the man I fell in love with, the man I grieved... I can't trust you anymore." She doesn't say 'You lied to me' but Harold hears it all the same.

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Harold sits on their bench. The machine indicated John often comes here. Soon enough, his arms are full of Bear, and John is standing in front of him.

"John. How are you ?" he asks when Bear finally calms down.

"Busy. And you ?"

Harold eyes him suspiciously – John once said he was busy when he was bleeding and way too close to death – but he seems to be well.

"I'm fine." He doesn't have time for awkward small talk." I thought you were dead. Why didn't you contact me ?"

"The machine told me you were with Grace. I thought you wanted to come back to your previous life. I didn't want to crash into it and ruin what you had."

Harold wants to be angry at him, but he understands. He did the same with Grace.

"You would never ruin anything. Besides, my relationship with Grace... didn't survive my lies. She's very dear to my heart, but she's a part of my previous life, as you said."

"So you came back for the machine, and the numbers, like the good old times ?"

Harold gets up from the bench.

"I came back for you. You are an important part of my life. The most important part."

John smiles, finally. He takes a step towards Harold, they're so close they could kiss. Harold reaches out, grips his shirt and slowly inches closer. He's still afraid of being rejected but John wraps his arm around him and kisses him. The kiss is over too soon. John's smile is even wider when they part.

"You're the most important part of my life too," he says before kissing Harold again. "You will stay ?"

"Always."

Damn I live for sappy Rinch stuff.

Bitches decided that Harold saying "always" is peak Rinch. It's me I'm bitches.

Also ofc I had to make a reference to number crunch, who do you think I am

Anyway. I hope you have a good day ! 💛

#half valid anon

[slasherscream]

Oh lord that last ask with the horror movie actress was so good, is it possible to ask for a continuation, if not thats all good. Also huge fan of your work!

A/N: thank you!! if it’s a continuation you want it’s a continuation you’ll get (glad you liked it enough to ask tbh cause it’s a fun one to write). here’s a link back to part one if you missed it.

     billy loomis x reader x stu macher ft. fem!reader who is a horror movie star …. part two

                                                     ——————– 

The very first thing Billy and Stu do once they leave school that day is go and do some research on you. How did they not know who you are? They know Randy wasn’t joking because of #1. your intense reaction and #2. they bullied him for a little more information.

Billy’s first assumption since he (the self-proclaimed master of the horror genre) doesn’t know anything about you is to assume you’re either a very shitty actress or been in really shitty movies. He’s mean so he’s leaning more towards you being a really shitty actress.

Stu’s kinda just excited to have met a “super hot babe” who is famous. Although the horror movie part of that is what double peaked his interest. 

They stop by the video store and Randy’s on shift. Sure enough there are a couple of your movies in stock and he obviously hands them over (even though he wanted to binge them all tonight… #Poor Randy).

They get their snacks and head to Stu’s house ready to be judgmental assholes of course. Billy’s probably already imagining killing you because one of the movie covers is super lame and if this is a total waste of his time someone is gonna pay for it. Stu is the type to watch crappy movies on purpose, however, so he’s fucking ready for anything.

They. Are. So. Fucking. Shocked.

Billy eat your fucking heart out. 

The first movie they pick is super shitty. It’s the very first one where you’re not a kid actually (yeah you’re a regular pro and have been in the game that long) but you        you’re a shining fucking star in it. Everything else about it is shit. The aesthetic. The score. The other actors. The villain. But you’re incredible. Its one saving grace.

If it had been anyone else’s debut movie it would’ve ended their career before it began. Instead it made you shine even brighter.

Every movie they watch after that gets better and better. You’re clearly now able to pick and choose your projects and you’re picking the cream of the fucking crop. 

In almost every movie you’re the final girl, the star of the show, and they absolutely think you deserve it. They’ve never been so into a movie marathon in their fucking lives. Excited screams. Cheering! Actually rooting for you and not whatever monster or deranged killer is after you. 

Then they get to the very last movie you made. It’s recent. Came out within the year, actually, and they both realize the reason they missed it coming out (and all its stellar reviews as it’s your most popular one yet) is because they’d just begun plotting the ghostface killings at the time. They were busy okay!

And yes they did have a small, totally pointless argument over whose fault it is that they missed out on all your fucking movies.

stu: how did you not see these, man? i thought you watched cult classics too!billy: shut the fuck up she’s baCK ON SCREEN - 

They lose their fucking minds when they read the summary for this movie. Because this time Hollywood’s favorite “fresh-blood sweetheart of horror” isn’t playing the helpless heroine. This time she’s the fucking killer. 

Stu physically screams out loud because he knows it’s about to go down and Billy is playing it cool even though “I’m the only other person here, Billy who the fuck are you pretending for?”

Stu won’t stop fucking hitting Billy’s shoulder like an excited teenage girl watching Twilight for the first time. You’re his fucking Edward Cullen and Jacob Black combined. He’s going to pass out if he gets any more excited and if Billy has a bruise on his arm he’s gonna “beat the shit out of you, Stu, swear to god-”

The look on your face during the movie sometimes when you’re covered in the blood of your victims from head-to-toe? Billy has fucking chills. He’s never been more in love or turned on in his life. He’s not ever gonna get scared by a horror movie at this point but if he was         yours would be the one to scare him. Holy fUCK he’s in love.

Every-time you get a brutal kill in Stu starts screaming, “That’s our girl! That’s our fucking girl!” He has already made up his mind on this subject, clearly.

There’s popcorn everywhere because Stu keeps spilling the bowl but Billy isn’t making him make anymore because neither of them are fucking eating at this point let’s get real. They’re fucking transfixed. 

When it’s all over           and that includes watching behind the scenes shit and the gag reels for every fucking movie           they turn to each other and they just start grinning.

Killing the horror movie actress that just moved to town? Ugh, that would be so predictable! Cliche, really! Do they look unoriginal to you? 

hONESTLY they and by that I mean Billy can’t even lie to themselves about why they’re not gonna kill or hurt you. This is love at first fucking scream, baby!

If there was a song playing during this fucking moment it’d be “One Way Or Another” because they’re definitely gonna fucking get ya’. 

The next day you walk into school and it’s a fucking circus. Someone heard Randy of course and now everyone wants to get close to the Hollywood Actress among them. You can see your dreams of a little normalcy slipping down the drain and even though everyone is being oooooh so nice to you (including people who before the reveal had been acting like you hadn’t existed or even been mean to you) you feel close to tears with frustration.

Then you’re yanked into an empty classroom by two sets of hands. You’re about to lose your fucking mind honestly and you turn around swinging your heavy ass math book without a second thought. You’re out for blood.

“Whoa! Put down the weapon of mass destruction, babe!” Stu, you recognize him and do stop swinging because you know these two are friends of Tatum and Sidney. 

As soon as you stop swinging the anger fades too and you’re left with nothing but that bitter feeling of disappointment. You start crying right then and there and it’s a special kind of humiliation. At least you can experience the shame of crying at school like a normal girl.

Both the boys are panicking although Billy is better at hiding it. He’s not even putting on a sympathetic face when he puts an arm around you, he’s actually very upset that you’re upset,  “What’s wrong?”

“It’s nothing! It’s dumb! I’m dumb!” Your attempted brush off does not make them go away like you wanted.

In fact now Stu is pulling your hands away from your face and staring down at you like a kicked puppy. He doesn’t let go of your hands and you don’t pull them away. As much as he’s a stranger you don’t have many friends and you do actually want comfort, “You’re not dumb. Why are you crying? If you’re crying over something it can’t be dumb!”

“I’m gonna sound like such a spoiled brat.”

“Try us.” Goes Billy wearing the most intense stare he’s ever had in his life (and that’s saying something).

“It’s just that …. It’s just that I moved all the way out here to get away from all the bullshit! I just wanted to try being normal for awhile! Go to school! Have normal friends! Be a normal teen! And now because of one dumb kid that’s all gone down the drain!" 

More waterworks are happening even as Stu’s trying frantically to wipe them away while absolutely refusing to let go of your hands.

They both kinda wanna kill Randy now since he’s kinda the reason you’re crying. But if he hadn’t been such a spaz they wouldn’t know how fucking incredible you are so they kinda owe him at the moment. The dork lives to see another day, they guess.

What’s really important to them right now is you, and making you feel better as soon as possible. You’re really breaking their hearts here. 

"Why don’t we get out of here?” Billy suggests smoothly, never one to waste time or a good opportunity. 

“What?” The tears come to a slow and it’s only now you start taking note of just how much these two strange boys are touching you. Billy is behind you, one arm around your waist and the other wrapped around your shoulders. Stu is leaning all the way over you both like some sort of benevolent, concerned giant with his hands still holding onto yours tightly. 

“Why don’t we get out of here! Great idea, Billy!” Stu crows with excitement. 

“Oh I see — lemme guess, the two of you want to spend some ’alone time’ with the big shot Hollywood actress, huh?” Your tone is harsh enough that it’d make weaker men cower. Billy and Stu are the type to rise to a challenge. 

“More like you seem to be good friends of Sidney and Tatum      ” Billy starts,

“      and any friend of theirs is a friend of ours!” Stu finishes, “They’d kill us if they knew we let you run around school crying your pretty, little eyes out.”

“It’s really not because I’m famous     ?” Your voice is so small and insecure it makes them frown. 

“What’s your name again? I forgot it.” Billy jokes and it actually startles a snort out of you even as you slide your way out of their arms.

You take a breath and wipe your face, hoping to make yourself a little bit presentable at least. Finally you turn to them and nod, “You know what? Yeah      yeah then, let’s get the hell out of here.”

You don’t have to tell them twice. They each grab a hand and practically drag you out of the building, you go along easily, laughing your head off all the way. Just the fact that he’s hearing your laughter without it being filtered through a television screen is enough to make Stu laugh too. Billy’s joy is more reserved but the smile on his face is undeniable and much softer than usual. 

This is gonna be the start of something beautiful. They’ll make sure of it.

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#billy loomis x reader x stu macher #stu macher x reader #billy loomis x reader #stu macher imagine #billy loomis imagine #slasher x reader #slasher imagines #stu macher #billy loomis #i've never had so much fun in my fucking life #ngl i'm v proud of part two

[your-localghost]

so um who wants to read a 50 page essay of me and my mom's journey through the IT movies?

too bad you're reading it

so like i saw this goddamm clown, and i, also being a clown, said to my mom, also a clown, "lets watch this clown movie lol" and she said yes. and in the like first five minutes we are already awwing and stuff because??? omg georgie and bill are so cu- oh. oh my god. oh this us not what we thought at all-

so enter Losers. instant RELATE i am also a LOSER hellO?? hAh look at these 2 idiots theyre bickering like an old couple an- oh my fucking GOD of course there are bullies. one of them looks like draco malfoy??? guYs did draco malfoy play in this movie we see him like 2 times-

oh my god oh no poor bill he is trying to find his brother :( but alsO BEV IS SO PRETTY??? IM SO GAY???? and yeah i really feel the New Kid On The Block like same man i didnt even get to meet a pretty girl and a buncho losers who will go jump into lakes with me

OH and the lake scene? it bites me in the ass later. i fucking passed it off as a "theyre bonding" moment and then it transforms into a feelings plane and crashes into my house

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me: they just keep leaving their bikes

mom: well It takes kids, not bikes

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fastforward and??? the fight secene?? the fuckijgn fi Ght SCE ne??? o H M Y GO D

bill was so desperate to find georgie?? richie was so scared he would die??? beN BEING SCARED HIS FRIENDS ARE GONE?

i AM ALL OF THESE FUCKERS

and oh?? bev's dad??? hate the vibe this dude gives to me. like this dude def did more than mentally abuse her and im so glad she beat him up

uhHHH??? WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT EDDIE STANDING UP TO HIS FREAKSHOW OF A MOM??? HOW HE WAS SO MAD????? HE THREW HIS PILLS ON THE GROUND HELLO, HE STRAIGHT UP YEETED HIS FANNY PACK??? MAN the things a gay goes through for his friends

bill's speech on georgie, like, dude just fucking stab me it will hurt way less

fastforward more, the oath??? how scared stan was??? like i ddint really feel any connection with stan other than his actor played my fav character, stan, in ianowt, but uHm? i still love him??? so mUCH???

oOOOH i just realied i didnt talk about mikey

ahem

THE ROCK FIGHT THE FUKING ROCK FIGHT THE ROCK FIGHT OH MY GOD

THESE LOSERS ARE SCARED SHITLESS OF THOSE SHITBAGS BUT THEY SEE ANOTHER LOSER AND THE FIRST THING THEY DO IS THROW R O C K LIKE FUCK YEAH YOU FUCNKY LITTLE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS STAND UP FOR YOUR FELLOW BULLIED I LOVE MIKEY SO M7CH OH MY GOD

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so between the 2 movies we realized it wasnt on netflix and went on various websites to watch the 2nd movie, got progressively angrier until i got my laptop and just watched it blindly because we are both blind

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okay heres the tea yall

they completely erased bev's character in the 2nd movie. in the first it was emphesized SO MUCH just how brave she was compared to the others. she took the first step, she wasnt afraid to go into the house she fought her abusive dad and in the 2nd movie it was all gone. i really liked the fact that bev wqsnt a damsel in distress until in the 2nd movie she was. while in the 1st movue you forgot that gender roles existed in the 2nd it really seemed like they wrote bev as a "woman" rather than "bev" you dig me??? okay rant over. basically fuck the 2nd movie bev and im not just saying this because her 1st movie actor made me realize i was a lesbian. on to the movie

oh mY GOD HOMOSEXUALS??? WILL THEY HAVE A PART IN THIS STORY OH MY IM SO EX- oh. right. oh hey theres mikey :D

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me: who's this??

mom: its bill look, its his surname

me:

me: you remember bill's surname but not richie or ben's names?

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oh theyre all grown up!! oh bevs fighting an abusive man again and uh

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mom: i have a feeling stans gonna kill himself

me: hah can you imagi

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STANLEY??? BABEY BOY OH NO???? and also are we gonna let the spider with the baby head thing pass?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DONT REMEMBER ANYTHI-

"this is like a virus its been eating us for 27 years!" YEA MIKEY ITS CALLED PTSD YOU FOUGHT A FUCKING DEMON AND DIDNT SEE A THERAPIST????

also the whole tribe thing seemed really out of story and like it didnt belong there at all? idk maybe its just me but i dont wanna believe that bill's 3rd eye opened after he got drugged by his friend idk

so like hightlights because ive got many rants about the 2nd movie

what the fuck do you mean bev got out of jer specilized hell after ben recited 1 fucking poem are you kidding me are yOU FUCKING KIDDING ARE WE REALLY DOING THE SAVED BY LOVE BULLSHIT AGAIN OH OKAY

OH OKAY FUCK YOU

SO BEV GETS SAVED IN THE FIRST MOVIE AFTER BEN KISSES HER WHEN AT THE TIME HE PRIBABLY THOUGHT LOVE WAS AT ITS PEAK WHEN YOU GAVE YOUR 2ND GRADE CRUSH A BADLY WRITTEN POEM

AND UFKCING HELL IT HAPPENS IN THE 2ND MOVIE TOO??? DOES PENNYWISE JUST THINK "oh these bitches hetero bettet keep them alive" BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS WOULD ALL BE OKAY IF

IF

IF EDDIE LIVED TOO

FUCK I RELATE TO RICHIE SO MUCH??? HIS FIGHT WITH HIS PEERS AND HIS FIGHT WITH HIMSELF OVER HIS YEARS LASTING CRUSH ON EDDIE?? OH MY GOD IT WAS SO OBVIOUS THIS MOTHERFUCKER WAS GAY AND I DIDNT REALIZE UNTIL THE 2ND MOVIE WHEN HE HAS A BREAKDOWN BECAHSE HIS SOULMATE GETS STABBED BY HOMOPHOBIC FORTNITE DANCING CLOWN WHILR HE TRIES TO SAVE HIMA DN THEN FUCKIN G DIES EVEN THOUGHT THESE 2 IDIOTS HAD MORE CHEMISTRY THAN BILL+BEV AND BEN+BEV COMBINED OH MY GOD IM SO MAD THE HETEROS GET TO LIVE BY TRUE LOVE BUT THE GAYS DONT AND UG G H H G G HH "hes dead" NO HE FUCKING IS NOT THIS ISNT FAIR I LOVED EDDIE SO MUCH

well uh now that we got my love for richie on papet um

the lake scene

i cried and i had to watch heteros kiss underwater while wiping my tears. its only cool when percabeth does it guys

the lake scene aside i full on BAWLED LIKE A BABY at the ending because i felt so bad that stan died already and i felt bad that not only was richie facing years if bullying and homophobia anf the loss of his friends it finally is confirmed that richie had a crush on eddie and i

i just cried man? it hurt me so much as it weighed on me how many jokes richie made, how scared he was when he saw the missing paper of himself, his flashbacks to people calling him names, his speech to eddie and that he had to get dragged out because this fucker obviously couldnt let go of his feelings. and between all of that and stan's letter my brain blocks out everything and focuses on one

R + E

oh my god

OH MY GOD NO

NOW i dont really like watching movies. as a writer myself im really critical of everything involving the world building, the characters, the plot and all that jazz and usually the acting is so bad that i dont feel for the characters but THIS ONE. T H I S O N E

my mom turned to me and was SO SHOCKED to see my flat out CRYING because i just dont do that man, and she just asked my what made me cry and i just made a noise like "hhhnnnn" and she nodded and went "richie's love story" and i, still crying, went "hhhnnnn" but in a higher pitch

and im just so mad? that eddie didnt get to live?? we didnt get an "i love you" or even a "im gay" from richie??? we didnt get to see them holding hands and letting go of their trauma together and being gay and happy yet

yet the fucking bad-writer-white-boy and boo-hoo-i-had-no-friends and not-bev get happy endings??? mike can get a happy ending because he is a well thought out character

thESE 3 ON THE OTHER HAND OH MY GOD

bill had to change his endings which really makes me angry because ima writer yada yada

bill has been bullied his uh what whole life? he got told his opinion didnt matter and from what i remember even his parents shut down his ideas and i feel like he should have made the endings how he wanted instead of changing to what the public wanted. thats what he defended as a kid, thats why he was in the losers club unwilling to change, because they were losers. yet he changed.

ben should have stayed fat or at least have abnornal weight because that also defeats his story with bev. it makes it seem that suddenly and magically when ben is hot bev can BEGIN to consider that she loves him.

i already ranted about bev.

mike is decent i guess? i like that he didnt stay with whoever the fuck that was in the first movie because he seemed very aggreasive to me. im glad the chose to research into pennywise because others were too stupid not to (RICH AND EDDIE GET A PASS AGAIN BECAUSE THEY SHARE HALF A BRAINCELL AND I LOVE THEM)

well stan is just tragic

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me: who the fuck is afraid of spiders why do they keep showing up

mom: its stan?

mom: he brought the hair things and all

me, about to cry: oh m y god

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so TL;DR: we really liked the first film! the acting, the plot, the creepiness is overall better and you get to relate to a bunch of Losers who get abused by their parents

the 2nd film doesnt exist. i refuse to acknowledge it exist EXCEPT for the ending where stan writes a letter about how he would like to meet hks friends again while BREATHING and richie and eddie carve their initials on a piece of wood and get to be gay.

if your name starts with B your opinion is invalid in the 2nd movie

also can anybody give me fanfics where the fortnite dancing clown doesnt exist and richie goes to therapy to heal from the bullying and once he gets over his homophobia he gays with eddie??? specific i know but im willing to write it if it doesnt exist

#ghost reviews movies #i guess? #it (movie) #it (2017) #it (2019) #spoilers #tw abuse mention #tw homophobia mention #tw suicide mention #this is a #rant #AND A #vent #BECAUSE OF RICHIE AND RICHIE ONLY #long post

[rontra]

ANONYMOUS ASKED:

i really like mwot and was wondering, do you wanna talk/loredump/etc about mwot during this blessed month of pride? (if not that's totally cool!!! i really like the au and am curious about it!)

REPLY:

YES!!!!

umineko spoilers below and LONG POST KSDJDKSKD i really went infodumping......you got me right in an infodumping mood....

also im being very casual in this post so if something is like weird or vague its probably because i got tired of thinking about it and skipped ahead. SKJDSJD

mwot is an umi au and its very gay and very trans because i, a gay trans, decided it was TIME to INDULGE

LIKE A MOUNTAIN WIND FALLING ON OAK TREES also known as MWOT, MW/OT, Mountain Wind + Oak Trees, MW+OT, or literally any combination of its parts, is an eva/natsuhi au, set in a vague modern big city setting

https://rontra.tumblr.com/tagged/mountain-wind-oak-trees

it’s a comedy, mostly? it has elements of backstory transphobia and  stuff like that but that’s not really the story i want to tell with it, so  i don’t go too deeply into it in the main fic. it’s mostly comedy and Self Care: The  Story (once these nerds get around to acknowledging that self care is  good, anyway!!!!)  

Eva is 20, nb lesbian (though she doesnt know half of it to begin with). generally a bitchard at the beginning but also deeply craving that Validation. Invested in making the fic harder to write due to pronoun shenanigans (shoutout to the lengthy section of intimate emotional scenes that uses no pronouns at all for eva but is narrated by them in 3rd person)

Natsuhi is like 21 i guess because im a sucker for her having like an annoying 1-3 years on eva bc eva would get mad about it. Also she’s trans, gray-ace, hopeless romantic, generally full of “quickly raising your eyebrows and looking away while sipping your drink and thinking Yikes” energy. weaponizes indifference but is no stranger to harder means. she’s a smart cookie

Sayo is also 20, gender clown car living her best life. Presents differently depending on mood and whim

krauss is like 22 or whatever. for housekeeping’s sake, rosa and rudolf are too young to matter (8 and 10, or something like that). dont even worry about it

honestly the weirdest part of the au is eva and sayo being the same age

also this au is the origin point of me & my friends using akikaze as nat’s maiden name. the more you know!

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USHIROMIYA GOLD dishes up that yellow metal like you wouldn’t believe. led by kinzo whos so fuckin good at sniffing out that sweet sweet gold people are half convinced the man has psychic powers. Any piece of land he’s got his eyes on, he WILL get his hands on, no matter who owns it right now.

the land kinzo wants At The Moment is owned by the AKIKAZE FAMILY who have been notably on the decline recently. they’re in the economic shithole so this land is basically all they’ve got right now, so when kinzo wants it and it suddenly Has Value, they’re like “oh, shit,

anyway the deal basically shakes out that like, he gets the land and all the gold that may or may not be in it. he offers his eldest son in exchange for this land, to marry their daughter: in the bonds of marriage graciously ensuring a part of the winnings will spill over on them, while keeping them under his control without money coming into the picture.

Everything’s working out great and coming up kinzo. the deal is closed and everyone’s happy (i guess). until ONE DAY, just a few narrow weeks before the akikaze girl is set to move in with the ushiromiyas,

KINZOS

OLDEST

SON

DISAPPEARS

!!!!!

Krauss dislikes being told what to do, and his father’s ideals never lined up with his own. He thinks this entire thing is sort of fucked up and can’t live under his dad’s thumb anymore. That's why, immediately following Kinzo’s agreement with the Akikaze family, Krauss disappears. He’s just kinda left for greener pastures, to unfold his own life and pursue his own interests independent of the Ushiromiya name. He leaves behind a letter explaining it & basically he forfeits both name and inheritance, and Kinzo’s incredible deal is suddenly in jeopardy.....

obviously this is kinzo though, and all of his solutions are like, 20 times more complicated than they have to be? he’s DETERMINED to have this land so he’s like “i need an eldest son. shit rudolf is only like 9. fuck. well okay i have an eldest daughter with a deeply complicated need for validation and success entirely driven by her overall neglect at my hands“ and the rest. as they say. is history (???)

Ushiromiya Eva always saw Krauss as unworthy of the inheritance, and to her, his disappearance confirms this. She grew up always being made to feel inferior to her older brother, usually being ignored in favor of him, and it's bred a complex need for validation in her. Her values and strengths are more like Kinzo’s than her brother’s, and Kinzo recognizes this in the wake of Krauss’ disappearance.

basically he concocts this really wild scheme where eva has to pretend to be his oldest son and marry this girl or whatever so he can seal this stupid gold deal and she’s like “well lol if i get to be family heir” and hes like “yes that’s what im saying” and shes like “awesome let’s do it”

all of the servants are in on it too of course. specifically kinzo enlists SAYO who works there as normal staff and isn’t otherwise tangled into this family’s mess in any way whatsoever. she’s just here to serve tea and looks. anyway he’s like “you work on this with eva--i mean evan, my son, you must have misheard--and eva you have to listen to whatever yasuda says” and eva is like “that last part will not be frustrating for me at all”.

Yasuda as reigning Household Gender Presentation Expert is like “i think i just got orders from the master to bully eva?” and eva is like “i wish i could fire you but my dad just banned me from doing that” and then gradually...over the course of the project......they become....friends.........

(the au is tagged eva & sayo for a reason. they become FRIENDS!!)

mostly its just various combinations of shkanon dunking on eva and its all VERY good.

during all these shenanigans we make some startling realizations like “gender euphoria is a hell of a drug” and stuff, which is extremely harrowing for everyone (note: not for everyone. just for eva, who makes 10,000 realizations every day, and should not have been counted.)

(ok sidenote did anyone else put on their first binder & go like “hmmm. i live here now” because. mood. im projecting entirely into this fic)

Gender Clown Car yasuda (currently as lion) is like “you know there’s like more than 2 genders” and eva’s like “you fucking wehat”.

i also make a REALLY INVOLVED JOKE ABOUT CASTIGLIONI GOLD, THE RIVAL COMPANY, and how BEATRICE’S KID LOOKS A LOT LIKE LION, and EVERYONE thinks this is all VERY funny

(i would like to see it. also kinzo owes beatrice castiglioni $20 and she’s never let him forget it.)

now wrapped up in this stupid impostor scheme AND full of big wild nonbinary energy AND!! WITH AN INFURIATING NEW FRIEND!! IN THE STAFF!!! this one funky ushiromiya is all ready to get in on an arranged marriage or whatever. provided NO ONE EVER FINDS OUT that they’re faking it and replacing the Actual Heir, which would no doubt ruin the scheme AND bring kinzo’s wrath on everybody involved, of course.

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AKIKAZE NATSUHI IS READY TO PUNCH HER FIANCE IN THE THROAT IF HE EVEN LOOKS AT HER but she understands what’s happening here. she knows she didn’t have a say in this from the very beginning. that the deal was sealed for her as soon as the name “ushiromiya” was said. she knows her family married her off quick in a bid to get rid of her. if she’s humiliated by this ordeal, she is far too proud to show it. she packs her bags and walks into the mansion with her head held high........and immediately has this exchange with her fiance

and this one

so that’s kind of the energy we’re going for with these two.

(natsuhi’s line in the second cap was going to be removed for being Way Too Intense, but everyone i talked to said it was too hot to cut, so i decided to indulge us all. blame the lesbians)

they IMMEDIATELY don’t get along but they kinda agree to like, mind their business, since neither of them are interested in playing house here. if they can get the wedding to go off without a hitch they can basically go back to never talking to each other again.

natsuhi’s entire angle here is essentially: her family was not that good, and this family likely won’t be better, BUT here she has a chance to build something new for herself. she’ll be out of her parents’ house. She needs this deal to stay for her own sake, but she has to get out ahead of her husband and set up a dynamic that favors her. when she meets evan she essentially gauges the kind of person she’s dealing with and picks her approach accordingly: this is not a soft man, and she has to be hard in turn to avoid being steamrolled.

and its VERY hot

anyway some stuff happens and it eventually they both sorta get each other’s secrets. eva is not the firstborn son and natsuhi is not the card kinzo thought he was pulling from her family’s hand and theyre both toast if word hits the public. directly after the wedding they establish a tense alliance of keeping each others’ secrets....

and then they.....fall...in l

there’s some fun tensions and realizations. eva is like “so im quickly catching on that no praise i ever received from dad was on my own merit and he’s kind of a dirtbag all around and his validation is kind of not worth it” and nat is like “word our parents are chains” & they run kinzo over with the down w cis bus. it’s fine. they get postcards from krauss sometimes. he has a motorbike now.

DID I MENTION THE PRACTICE KISSING

BC THEY HAVE TO PRACTICE! FOR THE!! PUBLIC WEDDING!!!!

and thats mwot i guess. it’s my au where natsuhi’s accent color is red and some other stuff happens too. happy pride month

#mwot #second time's the charm

[charlyoddsox27]

its 6am, i havent slept, im bored, so im posting a list of the mercs in order of whom i like the most and reasons why, because thats something i should do i guess?

here goes

(spoilers for the comics down below but either way i think im the only person on earth who has never read them before now)

~~~

~~1. Medic~~

reasons for being my favourite:

• fucking. look. at. him. 👌

• 'mad german doctor' is one of my favourite tropes and he is a pretty bang-on satirical depiction of it

• cute-ass german accent

• he has pet pidgeons hE LOVES HIS PIDGEON PALS THEY KEEP HIM COMPANY

• healers are the most respectable class imo and since Medic pretty much started it he's automatically the best, thats how it works right?

• he sold some random persons soul to satan in exchange for a ***ballpoint pen*** and can i just say, fucking mood??? (he is literally the "i'd sell you to satan for one cornchip" meme)

• "yes, Archimedes...I couldn't agree more." *shudders* b oi .. .

• so many more reasons to love this gross old doctor so little room in Tumblrs posts.

~~2. Spy~~

reasons for being my second favourite:

• cranky, done with everyones shit, just wants to be left alone, fucking mood

• he's a spy i mean c'mon. look at the swanky-ass suit, look at the class radiating from this asshole.

• he may be a dick but he has a soft side he's just too jaded to show it most of the time (see: Scouts death in the comics?? real tears. honestly wish they'd panned that out more.)

• masks are hot tbFH--

• he enjoys a nice glass of whisky by the fireplace and so do i (fun fact: france is the biggest importer of scottish whisky in the world so its a nice touch)

• shapeshifting is fucking cool are you serious like he can just. do that. what a legend

• "i have a cyanide pill in one of my molars, if i break it then spit some in your mouth before i die, we can avoid being tortured." *'heavy' bursts in to save them* "PFFTHBTHF--"

• "SEDUCE ME."

• arrogant frenchman is one of my other favourite tropes and this is the most arrogant frenchman ive ever seen

• he's the only fully sane Merc, maybe apart from Engie.

• people love to hate him bc he's an asshole but...come on. after working with all those other weirdos for years, you'd be pretty jaded too.

• as a gross shipper, he's the easiest and the most fun (imo) to ship with Medic (rip me)

~~3. Pyro~~

reasons for being my third favourite:

• would have tied with Soldier if it werent for that one picture of them in the comics holding a puppy over their head with the most adoring expression on their mask??? good Pyro. goodest Pyro.

• doesn't do much in the comics but makes up for it in pure charm. look at that soulless face and tell me you dont love it.

• ambiguous gender ambiguous gender amBIGUOUS GENDER AMBIGUOUS GENDER. she/he/they? trans? nb? whatever you headcanon, it'll never be confirmed so its literally up to your own imagination. fucking ace, Valve 👌👌👌

• likes to burn things. god damnit. they like to burn things, guys. but they enjoy it so much, you just cant hate them, you can only feel a sympathetic joy that this precious lunatic is having fun in their own little world.

• canonically mentally ill (schizoprenia? it could be hallucinogenic drugs but i like to think its schizophrenia.)

• pretty sure they burned a pair of pedophiles in the comics. at least i think thats what those panels were insinuating. "lets open an orphanage and have an endless supply of kids to--" sounds pretty red-flaggy to me tbh. plus they were the villains so, eh?

• bludgeoned a bear to death until its skull was pulp because it insulted their special interest. you go, Pyro.

• for a few bits in the comics they have a really cute family dynamic going on with other Mercs, Soldier for example."Miss Pauling, Pyros on my side of the car." "Miss Pauling, Pyro cut off my hand." fuckin' cuties.

• when they start putting on like 50 shirts to keep warm in the Russian mountains. chubby.

• a gas mask that can function as both badass, and completely adorable.

• just. everything about them. how could you not love them. they're not in the wrong, you are. stay away from my misunderstood child and let them burn things god damnit.

~~4. Soldier~~

look I'm sorry, I love Soldier and he was gonna be tied with Pyro but that fucking puppy drawing sold me.

• absolute gold every second he speaks. he could sneeze and i'll laugh.

• such a dumbass you cant get annoyed at him for it. like. just agree with him and move on. no point reasoning with a boulder. "haha! silly Miss Pauling, thinking theres different types of blood." Medic: "haha yes! indeed, silly."

• HUTTAH *NECK SNAP*

• i'm not American and even i can see how blatantly his character mocks stereotypical Patriotic Americans™. but its so dumb and laughable, its adorable.

• EVERYTHING ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH ZHANNA IS A BLESSING. EVERYTHING.

• the first "meet the Mercs" video i ever saw was "meet the Soldier" so he holds a special place in my heart

• (preaches about experiencing the horrors of war; has never actually been to war. shh dont tell anyone though--) *neck gets snapped*

~~5. Demoman~~

• I'm Scottish. even though his accent is absolute garbage (no offense to the VA), any representation is very nice.

• Black AND Scottish?? i mean has a character like that even existed before TF2??? amazing example of representation right there. there are barely even any black people in Scotland, how did this happen. I love it. more of this, please.

• he's a drunk guy who blows shit up for shits and giggles and god I wish I could too, sounds like a miracle stress-reliever.

• his sassy black scottish mother. combining the stereotypical black mother with the stereotypical scottish mother is literally the best thing that ever happened.

• the bit in the comic where Medic explains that Demo can't remember what happened to his eye bc he scooped out part of his brain, and the look on Demo's face. just. the look.

• again, he's scottish, he's stereotypical, and he's awesome.

~~6. Sniper~~

• underrated

• piss jars. piss jars everywhere.

• "no dad, im not a crazed murdering lunatic, I'm an assassin. ...well one's a job and the other's mental sickness!!"

• "meet the Sniper" has kickass music

• ruffled gross old man who isn't actually old, he's just seen some SHIT

• actually given development in the comics + some really good scenes with Spy.

• so suave...so...handsome. handsome ruffled bushman. me like.

• he dies first in the comics but gets brought back and gets a cool-ass scar. and then he's just walking around naked everywhere for the rest of the comic. Medic, where the fuck did you put his clothes.

• isn't actually Australian. thats like one of the biggest twists in the comic. "no wonder i was never inhumanly strong and my chest hair didn't grow into the shape of Australia!!" Classic.

• says "bugger" a lot and i love that word

• he needs a hug, let me hug him. and give him a bath.

~~7. Heavy~~

I'm gonna be crucified for putting the big lad so low but i promise i dont dislike any of the Mercs. he'd be higher up but...ive never really liked big huge tank-men tbh :/

• loveable as fuck

• will murder you if you bully his puny little Medic

• i looove Russian accents omfg

• he like big gun. i can respect that.

• when Medic was killed and he went APESHIT on Classic!Heavy and I lost my fuckin' mind over that shit

• he probably has a soft spot for small cute animals. i love imagining him being swarmed by Medics flock of doves and petting them like "good bird...so many good bird..."

• actually smarter than people give him credit for???

• i really really wish his character was a lil more fleshed out but. that's just me. i love him but he doesn't have the same appeal to me as Medic or Spy.

• his entire relationship with Medic...ugh. yes. best friends and/or boyfriends. all good to me 👌

• he named his gun Sasha and that's adorable

~~8. Engineer~~

• gOD, FUCK, I REALLY WISH HE DID MORE IN THE COMICS. i barely know anything about his character. i like him a lot but...god, he...he doesn't...do.....anything.......

• he built a cool robot arm for himself and AI turrets and teleporter machines and guns that fire magic healing powers and immortality machines, in the 1960s. what. some kind of wizard fuckery is this.

• smoothest voice in the west

• "y'all"

~~9. Scout~~

oh god i really am gonna be crucified. i dont hate him i just. like him the least.

• shitboy

• reminds me of a shitty ex but also kinda relateable in a way

• some genuinely funny bits in the shorts.

• gross horny hetero teen boy with a god complex and serious daddy issues. also, he can't read. the "sex bom" tattoo on his chest will be an eternal testament to that. nice job, Spy. you raised him good.

~~~

hoo boy there we go theres all the boys, all the beautiful boys (and Scout) in order of how much i love them. if i made any errors in my info about the canon, feel free to send me death threats 💙 (no seriously tell me though, being a newbie is embarrassing)

so uh. yeah. that took two hours to write. its now 8am. im still bored lol. bye i guess.

#long post #charlyspeaks #charlys cesspool of interests #team fortress 2 #team fortress #medic #pyro #heavy #engineer #scout #spy #demoman #sniper #soldier #zhenna #tf2 #drabble #my opinions #ooooo

[mommydragon-of-all]

OC Interview Meme

This looks fun. Also some answers drastically differ depending on around what time this "interview” takes place. So i got thinking and since I was tagged by@sakurabunnie who’s getting to know my pre-inquisition Soren, i choose to time this before Inquisition. Then i was tagged by dear @hadiden-lavellan too, but by then i was halfway through his post, and hey why not, some looking back :) Thank you both!!!! :3333

For Soren (Lavellan):

1. What is your name?

“A lot of people have called me by a lot of names. You can call me Soren.”

2. What is your real name?

“It is actually Soren. Yep, just Soren. I lost my original belonging and i didnt take any of my families surnames. Not permanently nor in any way official.”

3. Do you know why you were called that?

“Oh well, my parents wanted a pair of short and strong names that ring together, even if they had to get a bit creative. Also, as i learned, a pair of names that can be lilted and growled equally well haha “

4. Are you single or taken?

“i am free like a bird. Does your nest have some extra space on a cold night by the way?”

5. Have any abilities or powers?

“Im a highly trained assassin, among … other things. If you ever get in trouble… *slides over a strange little object* flash this around the shady parts of any city. They will take care of the rest. But for your lives sake, do not try to lie”

6. Stop being a Mary Sue.

“ I dont think i ever used that alias… “

7. What’s your eye color?

“Oohhh you are welcome to gaze into them closer, yes ;) no low light excuses, they have their own, so just lean over… “

8. How about your hair color?

“ Oh yes that is harder to tell in different lights. Its dark red, like good wine or blood from the liver .”

9. Have you any family members?

“ I have tons. If you meant blood relation… other than my twin sister i have some distant family. Literally distant even, like few and far between, out in the world. Some of us exchange awesome birthday gifts some years though, regardless of the exact date. Who has time to time that. “

(Scattered by the wind, but firmly standing like the trees)

10. Oh? What about pets?

“ Sadly animals are deadly afraid of me. It takes just a sniff to run for dear life… Even predators… it takes a special blend of proud and crazy to befriend me it seems. I would kill for such treasures. Like that Hart i once fought for an apple in that deep forest and lately rode to far destinations… i think it starts to get even attached!!! If he sticks around im gonna call him Captain. But remember, Dont go close to him! For your dear life, please dont. He is easy to recognize. Big as a mountain and looks like “Oh, Shit”. “

(’Where to, Captain?’)

11. That’s cool I guess, now tell me about something you don’t like.

“ Those things are about to change. Or drop in numbers significantly in the world. Just wait. …as truly as i want to mean that, unfortunately some things never change. Like the darkness in people, festering hearts. There will always be things like betrayal, prejudice, hatred, discrimination, envy, greed, cruelty,... i could go on. People who mostly keep themselves above those shades of their nature are all worth to be protected.“

12. Do you have any hobbies/activities you like doing?

“ Oh there are so many awesome things in the world and so many exciting things to do! I cant even count them. Like there’s hunting dragons for one! Speaking of hunting, there is also treasure hunt and demon hunt and manhunt and wyvernhunt and countless others, the bigger and meaner the better! But then theres also MAGIC! Do you have any idea how awesome that is? Everything magic and everything it touched. Putting together and using magic objects for so many things! And spells??? Potions, lotions, weapons... And there are also PEOPLE! The most magical thing is the warm light in ones heart. And they are so various and unique! There are different languages and codes and symbols and oh the stories! And dance and music and pleasures and laughing and caring and helping and…. oh … haha… im sorry, are you awake? Please ask away. “

(’Ah, what a beautiful day!’)

13. Ever hurt anyone before?

“ I think you snoozed off and forgot about my profession already. :)  “

14. Ever… killed anyone before?

“ Hahaha oh these sharp and pointy things and stuff arent for chopping and cooking vegetables either.”

15. What kind of animal are you?

“Pfffft i am my own species! Hehe! A unique hybrid i guess! But definitely a big animal, yes. Sis’ won that argument long ago, so there you have the answer. “

16. Name your worst habits.

“Hmm? What?” (*Muffs out with one of the interviewers -already leafed through-notebooks between his sharp teeth, booth on table...*) Hey! That is… how did you… *sigh*... nevermind  

(exhibit 99: ‘”I’ll go straight there!”)

17. Do you look up to anyone at all?

“My sister, definitely. She is the best. She is indestructible in every way i swear! Gotta be the strongest person alive. She is also really cool. But hot. I mean explosive! Not that shes not hot, technically... she is my female version after all haha. And caring for me with great big sister love (*mumble*:even if i am like 5 minutes older), but dont spread that ;) Might harm her notoriety.  I also look up to several of my tutors and many other people for many different reasons. People can be so many kinds of amazing.”

18. Gay, straight, or bisexual?

“You can not expect me to label my interests in a world full of so many differently beautiful people with warm hearts.”

19. Do you go to school?

“Yes. Life. 24/7. Got less intense since i learned how to survive and sustain myself, and grew a strong body to back up my needs and will, but there are always new things to learn and lessons you never asked for too. I had some actual teachers along the way too, but lately mostly i just teach myself what i dont just encounter by diving into new things. Which is not only fun by the way, you are bound to learn a few things. Then there are books, theories, researching, digging, honing instincts and reflexes, combining and refining techniques or theories, trial and error... Life is a bottomless school “

20. Do you ever want to marry and have kids one day?

“Wow, wow, you mean like.. babies? Sweet Fade, i wouldnt dare breathe their way, they are so fragile... little young PEOPLE, persons who arrived so recently and understand so little and cant even tell whats up just cry and i cant understand them, i understand every language but i can not understand babies for my life and ... and... thats terrifying! And do you have any idea how EASY it is to kill someone? And then there is that small bundle of vulnerability, my proximity could be lethal to it! And .... *sigh*... sorry just... It all would depend on that special person i might find who would want to keep me for life, for better or worse, and if they wanted kids... even if babies, i would be on board. I would do anything for that special someone. Even learn baby care... Bigger kids, well, i already have :D . In good care. If any of them were to be taken under my constant and indirect care, would depend on a lot of things. Right now they are much safer otherwise.”

21. Do you have any fanboys/fangirls?

“Most certainly ;D.But none of them know much about me, of course. With that comes a transformation of those feelings”

22. What are you most afraid of?

‘Im not afraid of ANYTHING!” *eyes instantly betraying* “Fine, fine, gotta be loss. Ironic, isnt it, for i have but what is on my person. Replaceable come and goes. Im mostly afraid of losses that arent even really “mine”, but others. Loved ones or even barely known ones loosing their lives or their light. Loosing my sister, myself, my heart... that is all i am. The only thing i cannot live without is my heart, i AM my heart, and loosing pieces of it or have it broken or freezing through a hole... I hate how selfish that is. But yeah. There you go. I still tend to leave pieces of it everywhere, and it only grows with that, funny how that works, but it also tends to get wounded on every turn. I fear the numbing cold. I fear the day when i cant hold it together and go on anymore.”

(from “When you are away”)

23. What do you usually wear?

“What you see is my whole wardrobe, hahah. But i shift and change to blend in from the dirt of Orzammar’s dust town to the shining halls of Orlesian palaces. Its fun.  What i like to wear mostly are well covering clothes, that allow a great scale of mobility, but not baggy to catch on things. Made of high quality materials only. My clothes MUST be of great quality materials, more for comfort than durability. Heightened overall senses arent always fun. Oh and for outer wear i like leather, especially dragonskin stuff for light armor, and long boots are the only footwear i acknowledge, some with high heels, and a matching pair of long gloves from soft fine leather are necessary too. Long coats from mostly leather and all the necessary leather straps and harnesses and pouches and belt too of course. If it counts, all my current favorite necklaces with magical pendants and bracelets are a constant wear too. It also doesnt hurt if my clothes look great. But fine materials tailored to my body and my needs usually bring that effect without further touches.”

(*his gear gotta let his smooth ass move*)

24. Do you love someone?

“I love all good people. ...and some others”

25. When was the last time you wet yourself?

"Bahahahhahaa now thats some blunt question! It deserves to be answered truthfully. I wish i could say when i was a baby, but truth is i think it happened a few times during the wilder rides of intense poison training with blood magic assistance, but im not really sure, i was barely conscious through those parts from pain and all kinds of nasty sensations, i came to my senses naked and tucked in after them. I never do extreme limit pushing training alone. There were also times when i was subject to some blood spells and experiments unwilling too. I have some suspicious blurry memories that i have made all sorts of messes. Egh. Lets move on to more fun questions”

26. Well, it’s not over yet!

“Perfect!”

27. What class are you? (High class, middle class, low class)

“I live outside of such systems. But i took part in every class during my life, thanks to current families or goals.”

28. How many friends do you have?

“Plenty, but one cant have too many. Helping each other goes a long way. I tend to make some friends everywhere i go, but i have few close friends. The closest one is my sis’. She knows me more than i know myself, and she is always there for me, at any cost.”

29. What are your thoughts on pie?

“Pie? One of the most fun cakes. It was invented for throwing i swear!”

30. Favourite drink?

“Hmmmm... old, red wine, hot and seasoned, spiced with a nice kick of that special antivan poison blend. I dont recommend you trying it, but you dont know what you’re missing out.”

31. What’s your favourite place?

“Wherever i am welcome.”

(*one favorite place example. It is not Where, it is Who*)

32. Are you interested in someone?

“I am interested in everyone. Are you fishing for some special interest?”

33. What’s your bra cup size and/or how big is your willy?

“Hahahha oh you never disappoint! Well, it was a long time ago when i last i wore a bra, back when i could still pull off the young girl appearance, to get in paces and so on. I always made sure to have a proportional but quite evident bosom. Oh it was such fun, my long hair helped too, and i dished out that act spot on! Like that time in Val Royeaux, when the heads i turned waltzing in as part of a rich antivan court were spinning all around in frantic search in the chaos, while i walked right out as a male servant. Oh sorry, i got distracted. You also asked about my “willy” if i recall correctly. If you would like to measure it so badly we can discuss that later ;) “

34. Would you rather swim in the lake or the ocean?

“Hmmm.... whichever promises more sunk treasures and secrets. Some lakes hide quite the surprises let me tell you.”

(’Looks like a perfect place for some diving..’)

35. What’s your type?

“My type of what, exactly, dear? ;)”

36. Any fetishes?

“I am very flexible in many ways, let me tell you, in case you are planning to bend me to your will. And if id have some suggestions, well, let it remain a little mystery for now ;p”

37. Seme or uke? Top or Bottom? Dominant or Submissive?

“Depends. What would you like me to be?”

38. Camping or indoors?

“Nothing beats a warm bed and a well secured resting place. Especially with my... condition, and experiences”

39. Are you wanting the interview to end?

“Are you kidding me? You have such awkward, uncomfortable questions... Let me get a new round of drinks for us and lets do this till morning!” “What do you mean new round... when did this cup of hot wine get here? It has my name on it??? What the... I better go i think.”

40. Now it’s over!

“What? Oh come on, we just got to some really “embarrassing” parts! Talking about “embarrassing”, would you like to hear the story of my encounter with this qounari dreadnought captain and ended up on board to Ostwick? Maybe you can tell me some stories yourself too in exchange..” *puppy eyes+shining grin combo* “Well, im not exactly in a hurry...” “Excellent!” *shifts closer and pours more wine*

I tag @quizzikemen @pelle-lavellan @hadiden-lavellan @sakurabunnie @elalavella @nipuni and everyone who wants to do it! For those who already did this consider this a tag for another OC! Gotta love them all :D (if you feel like doing it. I always feel like reading it)

#finally i got around to finish this post #soren lavellan #oc meme #dragon age inquisition #dual wield assassin #male lavellan #screenshots

[montpelierhqs]

halloween event full transcript

set in a beautiful, gothic turret adjoined to montpelier academy, the halloween masquarade ball was supposed to be magical. whimsical. for many, the best night of their lives. however, a bowl of spiked punch, a secret or two, and a vengeful ex-student had a little so say about that...

Salem | Rhiannon/HarleyLast Friday at 12:04

Rhiannon felt slightly uncomfortable. All of this was so nice and fancy, she had never been somewhere or even in a place like this. She adjusted the deep green of her lace mask and looked at the poofy gown she rented. It reminded her of poison ivy  the beautiful flowers embroidered in it made her smile.

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Friday at 12:06

Andrea was still high as fuck, but she was feeling good. She smiles when she spotted Rhiannon, heading over. “You look fucking great” @Salem | Rhiannon/Harley

Salem | Rhiannon/HarleyLast Friday at 12:07

Rhiannon looked at Andrea and looked down at herself  "Thank you, you look good too!" Rhiannon felt happier here than anywhere else, even if she weren't as cool as everyone else or as fancy. @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:07

Mason had just finished his drink and he has had so many at this point he lost count. He walked to the dance floor and started to do the chicken dance.

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:13

The music was blaring loudly enough that Ash could definitely tell that it wasn't playing the chicken dance song. They opened their mouth to point this out before the realization struck that the chicken dance required less up and down than what everyone else was doing. So they joined their roommate in doing the chicken dance in an offbeat manner. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:14

@cam // ash mason smiled at his roommate and kept dancing. “Ash yes! Someone else understands that awesomeness of the chicken dance.”

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Friday at 12:21

[montpelierhqs main] @everyone welcome to the halloween event ! we're very excited to have you. this is a reminder to everyone to post your costumes to your character blogs, taggged 'montpeliertask002', as tomorrow an additional task only involving those that completed their costumes will be included. this task will include an in-character reward for the winner, so if you would like to take part, ensure that you have created your costume and have posted it before 8pm est tomorrow. best of luck, and enjoy the dance ! ( but beware the punch... )

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Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:23

Kenya already feeling a little drunk saw Mason dancing and had to join. "A dancer here we stan!" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:27

Mason laughed and shook his head at Kenya. “Come join!” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Pau (Claire & Nic)Last Friday at 12:27

Nic had only a few days to prepare for this masquerade event since arriving at school, and because he didn't really know what else to do, he just grabbed a Peter Pan hat and dressed in boring colors to play the part, looking more like some staff than a student as he stood drinking punch and watching—more like judging—those dancing, amused. "They're actually dancing the chicken dance?" He asked whoever stood beside him.

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Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:28

Noah shook his head and laughed. “I’m baffled that such kids know the chicken dance. Thought they only knew the highest class of dances.” He joked, laughing at the sight of the students dancing. @Pau (Claire & Nic)

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:32

She smile back at him, Kenya doesn't usually dance but she was drunk so what new. "I'm coming, this dress is ready to go." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:32

Cleo was out in her element, drunk and on the dance floor. To say her dance moves weren’t pg-13 would be an understatement but then again, her sense of boundaries no longer existed and she was feeling the music. She didn’t know who was next to her but she didn’t care and she just kept on dancing.@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) Mason smiled and laughed, welcoming the girl into the dance party. “Yes! Let’s go!”

Pau (Claire & Nic)Last Friday at 12:34

Nic just stared at the people engaging in the dance and shrugged, not really one to speak out his mind right away but finding everything too amusing, a light curve shaping his lips at the other's remarks. "It would be better if one of them had come as a chicken." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:35

Noah laughed and laughed hard at the boys comment. “That would the icing on top of the cake. That would make this night ten times better.” @Pau (Claire & Nic)

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:35

Ash threw their head back in laughter, drowned  out by the music even as they did so. "It is a beautiful dance but it certainly doesn't beat the macarena!" To emphasize their point the started dancing to the macarena, complete with the dramatic hip shaking at the end of the sequence. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:36

Mason laughed and shook his head. “Yes! I love the Macarena, but the chicken dance is way better.” @cam // ash

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:39

After moving her body side to side, Kenya was laughing every time she try to do something extra with her dress. "Yo, bad guy! Own the dance floor." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:41

Mason couldn’t remember the last time he let himself be this free and relaxed. The alcohol was a very nice helper to him tonight. “Killing it with the moves.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:43

"I'm telling you now, the punch really kicking in." She said grabing his arm spinning herself.  Today really bring out a loose side of her really. "How much did you drink?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah(edited)

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:44

“Me too.” He said and laughed. “I have no idea. I lost count.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:44

"No way! The Macarena is the best dance aside from the cha cha slide." They exclaimed, hands still doing the dance even as they argued. "Although the chicken dance does have the wings. A fusion would be perfect." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 12:44

After their conversation with Ash, Harper had found their way back to the punch wanting to get so drunk that they didnt remember anything from this night besides the fact that tomorrow the two of them would be discussing the rules to their fake relationship. @everyone(edited)

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:46

"Harper, you do know that you gotta so many drink here right?" She said giving a cup of punch while she was giving some out @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:46

“You are delusional my friend!” Mason exclaimed and continued to dance. He stopped when Ash suggested a combination of the two dances. “That’s ingenious! We gotta do it!” @cam // ash

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:47

"Same, Cam really did put alot." She said  trying to copy his moves. "I seen you came here with Claire." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 12:48

"I need all the fucking punch I can get." Harper replied, their words slurred as they took the cup. "Stupid fucking Ash with their curly dumb hair and rather attractive face." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:48

“He did but it’s awesome!” He said and laughed. “I did. Isn’t she the best? She’s a great person.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:51

"Well then, here some more." she smile hearing what Harper said. She didn't know Harper like Ash or that they were dating. "Ash is a keeper. EVERYONE HARPER IS CUFF NOW, ALL YALL DIRTY BOYS AND GIRLS BACK OFF!" @lattie || Harper and Cam

bee // wyatt & emma-janeLast Friday at 12:51

As concerned as Emma-Jane had initially been with wanting to win the costume contest, her competitive nature getting the better of her at times, she’d all but forgotten about it by the time the dance actually started. A majority of the school had turned up for the event with all sorts of outfits, varying in style and complexity. The upside at the very least was that she had a good time with Holden picking out their Mr. Incredible and Elastigirl  duo. It has taken a fair amount of encouragement and a little bit of pleading, but Emma had persuade him on to the dance floor. Something she instantly regretted upon witnessing what Holden considered dancing. “You’re worse than I thought you’d be!” Emma laughed, practically having to shout to be heard over the noise. “What is that?” She mimicked him, putting her fist in the air and jumping up and down. (@maaria ✨  libby / holden )

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Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:52

"She is and she hot too. Good catch my friend." She took her phone out trying ti record Mason. "Mason dance for the camera." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:52

"It is, isn't it? So do we do both of them just like switching or like one move then another," they pondered, still yelling to be heard over the music. Demoing a little version of the sequence dance, they looked over to punch table and shrugged. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 12:53

Smiling, they downed the glass before taking the second from her. "What? No... Im the catch in the relationship." They replied before shaking their head. "Fuck... relationship. Thats so weird to say." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:54

“Good catch? What do you mean?” He asked her, slightly confused. He smiled and danced for the camera like she said. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )“I don’t know. We can just combine them? I’m too drunk for this kind of thinking.” He said and laughed. @cam // ash

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:00

"Exactly that's why I'm single right now." She laugh making a cup for herself. "Cheer to fuck relationships." @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 13:01

"What? Its not a fuck relationship. We are like proper dating." Harper mumbled looking out in the crowd to try to spot Ash. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:02

"You got a good girl. You're seriously didn't know that?" She gave him a confuse face before hyping him up.  @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 13:03

“I don’t got a good girl. We’re... we’re just friends.” He said and chuckled. “Did you think we were together?” Because boy, did he wish they were. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )(edited)

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:04

"Ahhh Shhh," She said putting her finger to keep quiet. She wasn't uses to getting drunk often really. "I'm drunk so my words tend to get a little crazy." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Zakiyah was sitting at the table eating her cake while trying to keep herself awake. She look to the side seeing someone sitting next to her. She gave an awkward smile before going back to her cake.

Dex || SawyerLast Friday at 13:11

"So," Sawyer started, sliding next to Zakiyah, dressed as Dr Facilier with a cup of punch in his hand "Since you're the first person I saw, I have a few questions for you. One, I'd like you could rank your top five Halloween costumes at this party and two, what flavor is this punch?" He asked, tapping his finger on the brim of his cup @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

maaria ✨ libby / holdenLast Friday at 13:13

Holden was an absolutely atrocious dancer. It was a shame, seeing as his mother had spent the majority of her life as a trained ballerina. She'd always joked that Holden had inherited his fathers two left feet, and her own charming looks. He was fairly sure that she was completely correct in this assumption and it was validated any instance he found himself on a dancefloor. Without even realizing, he dancing ridiculously as Emma-Jean, his kind of sort of date and friend, was gawking at him. Too proud to blush, he just grinned stupidly down at her and shrugged, carrying on with his hopelessly fist-pump action. "Oh, don't be such a critique! I don't see you dancing, Ems," he pointed out, reaching out for her hand to twirl her. "What're your moves, huh? The sprinkler? The macarena?" ( @bee // wyatt & emma-jane )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:16

She chuckled seeing that the punch is having an effect. "The punch is strawberry but my brother spike it so you'll get drunk." She look at his costume and around to see which was the best. "My favs are, Cassidy & Andrea outfit from clueless. You of course because Dr.Facilir gave me the creeps in the movie. I saw someone dress up as Jessica Rabbit and Blue a power ranger so that all I can think of right now." @Dex || Sawyer

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 13:17

Mason shook his head and laughed. “Trust me, if we were together, I’d probably be telling the world.” He said and laughed. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Salem | Rhiannon/HarleyLast Friday at 13:21

Rhiannon held the cup her hand, weaving through the people at the ball. She was having fun for once and it was kind of a release to be out and away from the dorms. "That is a very nice top hat " she was trying to place the character. She knew it was Sawyer from the yearbook, but was unsure what he was dressed as. "Who are you dressed up as? A magician?" @Dex || Sawyer

bee // wyatt & emma-janeLast Friday at 13:38

The extent of Emma’s hand-eye coordination was being able to raise her hand the fastest in class. When it came to actual physical activity, saying she was clumsy was being generous. She had a habit of not only tripping over flat surfaces, but bumping into things or people as if they hadn’t been directly in her line of sight. Leave it to Holden to call her bluff about not actually being able to dance. “That is so rude!” She gave a very unconvincing scoff, sticking her arms out in front of her and rotating them in a circular motion. In a very poor attempt at doing the twist, she added her hips into the motion. “You don’t know anything about this.” Bright and full of mirth, Emma-Jane went into a rendition of the Charlie Brown dance that was even more poorly executed than her first one. “I’ve got rhythm for days.” ( @maaria ✨  libby / holden )

Dex || SawyerLast Friday at 13:44

Sawyer's eyebrow quirked up as he glanced into his cup. So that was why it tasted weird. He should be surprised but he knew this school too well, "Well, I should be glad this is my first cup then. I'd rather not puke all over my  nice new shoes. And, I'll keep your choices in mind. It's for science reasons, of course and I'm glad you like the outfit. Maroon, wide-shoulder suits aren't the easiest to come across."  He turned to look at the new comer, taking a hesitant sip of his cup now that he knew what was in it, "I'm Dr. Facilier. You know the guy who goes," Sawyer jumped into an exaggerated Dr. Facilier voice, "the cards, the cards will tell! That guy. So while you're wrong, I do you give points for being close. Have you never the movie the princess and the frog?" @Salem | Rhiannon/Harley  @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )(edited)

maaria ✨ libby / holdenLast Friday at 13:58

Holden was well aware of Emma's clumsiness, in fact, he had witnessed it with his own eyes many times. It wasn't like this behavior of hers was a secret, it simply was who she was. Holden found her stumbling and staggering endearing, the traits provided balance for her clean, and pristine personality. It gently reminded him that despite her collection of fun facts and tidy clothes, she was still a human being. As he watched her attempt to dance, he couldn't help but laugh. Not to tease her, but simply because he could not hold it back, the mere sight of it just being too much. The dance was completely uncoordinated and messy, however, it was apparent she was trying her very best. It was adorable, really. "Rhythm for days, huh? You do know you're supposed to like, match your movements to the song, right?" he quipped, wrinkling his nose at her and getting closer to her height to better read her expression. "You're like that one vine. The freestyle dance instructor one." ( @bee // wyatt & emma-jane  )

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lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Saturday at 08:59

Blue could be considered a king of bad decisions. He'd made enough of them  so he should know better, but here he was in a power rangers outfit, his lipped affixed to a flask he'd hidden in his 'utility belt', everyone keeping a healthy distance from the lad. Where Blue was independent, no one was there to stop him from doing the things that usually your subconscious tells you not to do. But in that moment - Blue was simply too inebriated to care. He wandered over to the stage where a local band was playing music, before scrambling onto the stage like a spider fighting a hairdryer. Some students looked up at Blue, others were lost in their merriment. Blue looked to the band and whispered into one of their ears, before floating towards the microphone. The band began playing a track behind him. "Now.... I'll tell ya what I want what I really really want..."

lily / char&theo&vivLast Saturday at 10:10

charlotte made her way to the dance floor, twisting a strand of her brown wig around her finger. she’d had a few cups of punch and lost her friends somewhere during the night. “spice girls! my jam,” she laughed, busting out her most ridiculous moves.vivienne stood on the edge of the dance floor, nervously playing with the hem of her dress. “you know, two days before the biggest party of the year is probably the worst time to start a new school,” she said to no one in particular.

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Saturday at 10:14

Noah was a few cups of punch deep and was having a time. He was on the dance floor and was kind of dancing if you could call it that. “This song is always a classic!”

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Saturday at 10:21

Blue watched a sea of people form as he drunkenly began his best spice girls rendition. No one had seemingly stopped him, not even the band, so he continued to sing. And even to Blue's surprise, he was actually quite... good at it. Not great by any space of the word, but good enough to warrant a room-wide evacuation. He let the song continue, surprisingly still standing upright. Blue looked into the crowd, looking further out to try and make out any faces. "Come on, sing along with me!" He beckoned to someone, he hoped. Nathaniel was reluctantly amidst the festivities. He had forced the ball for one reason only - should any pictures be taken for the yearbook, he was in them. It looked good at prospective colleges to be part of school life. So, sullen with hit plights, Nate had resorted to reading on his phone. He could feel Vivienne in his peripheral vision, and in that moment he regretted his decision to come at all. Nate ran a hand through his hair, not meeting her gaze. "Well, it's not much of a party really. But then again... I'm not a huge party person, so...." he awkwardly trailed off. @lily / char&theo&viv

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Saturday at 10:27

Cleo was having a great time at the dance but was feeling like she needed to do something wild. “We need to do something crazy! Something wild!” She said to whoever was next to her.

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Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 07:02

Zakiyah was sick of it already, someone threw up on her. After punching someomne in the face she had to change. Thank god for drama teacher having any costumes legt from previous plays She was able to change. "My night is shit, I'll be honest though. I look good in blue."

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 07:31

Blue’s solo had finished, and he found himself swaying as he left the stage. Some people clapped, some people laughed, but most people ignored him. Still heavily inebriated, he scampered to the drink table to grab something when his eyes fell on the person beside him. “You look good in me? Wait, you mean the colour...” It was very clear Blue was drunk. “Weren’t you a cheerleader before ? What happened ?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 07:37

"Well the punch amd food doesn't match for some people so they threw up. I gotta find out what my brother put in the punch." She sigh as she was wearing a prirate costume on. Seeing everyone one having a good time she was upset, she still kept a good mood throughout the whooe dance. "I was a hot cheerleader, now i look like a girl verson of captain hook." @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 07:44

“Bloody lightweights ruining it for everyone.” Blue probably wasn’t far off that stage in all honesty, but he was too numb to care. “Also let your bro know he’s a hero!” Blue thought to himself that Zakiyah was still able to smile. Said a lot about her. “I think the costume’s great,” Blue giggled. “But the colour is better.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 07:50

She smile at his remarks on the color since it is his name. "You like it because it your color. " She yelled eyeing him on the stage. "My brother is an ass but he knows how to make a party more fun. I want to fight someone, you'll down?" @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 07:56

viv turned in surprise hearing nate’s voice. “me either,” she agreed with him quietly. “i mean, i’d honestly just rather be curled up with tea and books,” she spoke slightly embarrassed. “but i have to meet everyone, you know?” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 08:21

“Maybe I like it because it’s a good colour. Maybe the fact my name is the same is only a coincidence.” This conversation was like rocket science to Blue - with his intoxicated state, he was finding it difficult to pay attention. “F-fight ? Why would you wanna fight somebody ? That’s not very nice...” he drunkenly drawled. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) The fact that Viv was here was still so lost on Nate. It was like the child inside him had been beckoned, and years worth of nostalgia struggled between them. Nate, for once, had no idea how to proceed. “Thank you, finally, someone who gets it.” Nate couldn’t help but look at his feet, the awkwardness tenuously pulling the pair together. “I mean... I’d offer to introduce you to people. I only really know people on debate or decathalon though...” Nate had no idea how to tell Vivienne, the girl he had admired for so long as a kid, he grew up to be surly and mostly disliked by his peers. The sinking feeling in his stomach wouldn’t go away, and he wondered if maybe tonight was the night that he had a drink. “Can I get you something from the beverage table? You must be, uh, parched.” @lily / char&theo&viv

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 09:11

after her little adventure with Nate, Kennedy had decided to head back to the dance and socialize a bit. It was fun, sure, but when she spotted Nate again later, she decided to go over to him. “There you are,” she smiles, stepping up and taking a sip of her drink. “I lost you when we got back” She paused. “Who’s your friend?” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 09:15

"Well I'm nice when I need to be sweetheart." She took a sip what was in they cup and hand it back. "I want to get rid of some anger plus I want to use the braids as weapon." @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 09:38

Noah was getting a bit bored with the dance and was seated at a table. “I don’t think the punch could make this dance not boring.” He said and sighed.

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 09:41

“don’t you remember when we used to do that? drink hot cocoa and read the harry potter books?” viv teased nate. “i guess nothing’s changed for us,” she added, knowing nearly everything had. “i’m okay, thanks. not sure i want to end up doing... whatever that is,” she shrugged, gesturing to the boy drunkenly singing spice girls with a sly smile. “i’m vivienne,” she smiled warmly at the girl who had approached them. “i’m nate’s-“ she paused, not exactly knowing how to describe what they were anymore. “uh, nate and i knew each other when we were younger. we were like, best friends.” she explained. “are you one of nate’s friends?” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @paige || catalina&kennedy

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 09:46

Blue had gone from drinking his alcohol to chewing the cup. He wasn't sure why, it was all his mind was capable of at this point. "B-but... punching people isn't very nice." He looked at the girl seriously, and felt bad that someone had thrown up on her. But he was also somewhat terrified of her imposing physical dominance, and Blue was a football player. "Why can't... you just hug people. It feels great." Blue looked to his left and saw someone kitted out in a costume he didn't quite understand, and Blue beckoned him over ( not wanting anyone to be on their own ). "Aw, dances are fun ! Don't be harsh," he looked at Noah seriously, as he started to refill his cup. "You know, I know how to fix BOTH your problems.... the dance floor." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )  @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah Nate wanted a piano to fall out of the sky and squash him. He watched as Kennedy and Vivienne looked at each other. Sure, it was civil, but a strange feeling swirled around in his chest as he saw them interacting. He didn't understand why he cared, or why he felt so damn awkward. But he couldn't help it. "Kennedy Pritzker, daughter of the headmistress and quite the intellectual, meet an old friend of mine, Vivienne Hugo. Also an intellectual." Nate wanted to punch himself in the face. He desperately scrambled to change the subject, because the last thing he needed was these two girls discussing him. "Uh, so the dance.... Viv, you enjoying it ? Prtizker, are you... also having fun ?" @lily / char&theo&viv @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 09:49

Noah rolled his eyes before moving closer to the boy and girl. “No, no, no! I will not be going to the dance floor. Are you kidding? That’s the worst thing at this dance.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 09:49

Kennedy could feel the thickness in the air when she approached, and with Nate’s formalities and vivienne’s uncertainty, she felt like she was interrupting something. she felt awkward, and she wanted to dip out and never come back, but she didn’t care. she was too drunk to. “Uh, nice yo meet you,” she said, nodding her head. “What’s with the full name, Nathaniel?” she asked, tilting her head. @lily / char&theo&viv @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )(edited)

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 09:59

“nice to meet you too,” vivienne spoke with genuine enthusiasm. even so, she couldn’t help the growing feeling of dread in her stomach looking at this girl with nate. “so you’re on the debate team? do you two argue against each other?” she questioned.

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 10:04

Blue furrowed his brow. "The worst thing at the dance... is a dance. I'm confused." It's not like Blue was keen to get on the dancefloor either ( especially given everything ), but he wanted others to have fun. He felt guilty that there seemed to be a radius of sullen individuals surrounding him. "Okay, why did you come tonight ? I promise we'll find something you enjoy... it's my mission." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah "Arguing. Against each other. Well, it's something we have certainly done !" Nathaniel tried to laugh, but it only made the situation more tense. There was a lot to unpack in this situation, given everything. Nathaniel wasn't always as arrogant and self-absorbed as people believed him to be. In fact, there once was a time he was considered kind and somewhat jubilant. That's the Nate that Viv remembers, and that's the one he wanted her to remember. But then there was Kennedy, a girl that... well, Nate couldn't describe their relationship in any capacity. But the very foundation of their relationship was the fact that Nate was kind of an asshole. They both knew Nate as different people, and Nate... it was complicated, but to say that his feelings for both were mixed would be an understatement. He had found himself in a live mind-field, with no reverse button to save him. "So, uh, Viv, you're new. Um, let's talk about that! Let's just, talk about you. And Kennedy, we can talk about you too. And just get to know each other... I mean, we all know me ! So who cares ! Let's talk about you guys." @paige || catalina&kennedy @lily / char&theo&viv

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 10:05

“I came because I figured it was better than sitting in my room.” Noah said and shrugged. “I’m just not big in the whole, everyone dance to this weird music.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )(edited)

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 10:09

Kennedy tilted her head, still completely and utterly confused. She wasn’t sure why he was acting like this, and it made her uncomfortable. “Yeah, we do debate together,” she said“So you’re new. That’s cool. I’ll probably give you a tour at some point, that’s my job, according to my mom” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @lily / char&theo&viv

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 10:11

“classic nate ramble, right?” viv teased the boy, remembering the times when they were younger and nate would get so excited about a topic that he’d trip over his words. “i mean, me being new isn’t exactly that interesting,” she shrugged. “but that sounds good. i’m glad i met you now - i’ve been getting so lost every time i try to go to class.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 10:20

“Uh... right...” Kennedy couldn’t say the same, knowing nate that way, but she had a feeling that she was... interrupting something. She bit her lip, looking between the two of them. “So you know each other from childhood?” @lily / char&theo&viv @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 11:16

“yeah, we grew up in la together,” vivienne explained. “i moved from paris and nate was my first friend. he was the only one who didn’t tease me about my english,” she spoke with a small smile. @paige || catalina&kennedy @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )theo stood next to the punch table, taking a sip of his drink to steady his head. “i feel really sick,” he spoke to no one in particular. “i think i’m gonna go get some air.”

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 11:19

Cleo was standing next to the boy when he said he didn’t feel well. She followed him outside with a bottle of water and pretzels. “Hey, Theo you okay?” @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 11:20

"Yeah I on Noah on that," She said while getting another cup and drinkimg it. "Fucm people, they never do shit. They might as well stab me in the back." @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 11:22

“Right....” Kennedy said, looking up at Nate. “You know i think i’m just gonna... go. Leave you two alone. it was nice to meet you, vivienne.” She looked at Nate again,  hurt look in her eyes, and turned to leave. @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @lily / char&theo&viv

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 11:23

“yeah.. i just... i don’t know,” the boy spoke, sitting down on the ground. “i feel dizzy.” @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 11:24

“Ok I think she has had enough to drink. You’re getting to the stage of aggressive drunkenness.” Noah said and laughed. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )“Okay, here I grabbed a bottle of water and pretzels.” She said and sat next to him, holding out the two. “How much did you drink?” @lily / char&theo&viv(edited)

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 11:40

Blue took another long sip of his drink. “Noah, your bedroom can’t be fun. I’m sure your room doesn’t have skeleton,” he giggled, wiggling a decorative skeleton that dangles before them. Blue then turned toZakiyah, his face a little more solemn. “Sounds like you’re hanging with the wrong people. You really need to hang around some party masters. Like me!!” He declared, downing the rest of his drink. “Come on guys, let’s get smashed.” @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) Literally beads of sweat were forming on Nate’s head. He had long since removed his snorkel mask, but soon enough he may need it again. But the thought of Kennedy leaving made Nate’s chest hurt. “Kennedy, wait,” he rushed out, looking at the two. “Please don’t... please don’t leave. Hey, I’m sure Viv has lots of questions only you can answer. And I don’t... we don’t want you to leave. It’s early. Plus we gotta see if we can get Viv to join debate with us.” @paige || catalina&kennedy @lily / char&theo&viv

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 11:57

vivienne was nothing if not observant, and she saw the hurt look in the other girls eyes. not wanting to cause trouble, she chimed in with nate’s protests. “no, nate’s right, you should definitely stay,” she spoke, nodding her head eagerly. “i’m sure i can come up with a question or two for you. and i’ve been meaning to ask someone about debate,” she tried, offering a kind smile to the other girl. @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 11:58

Noah groaned and shook his head. “Why can’t we just sit here and hate everything? It would be nice. Better than dancing.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:00

theo shook his head. “i don’t. i don’t know,” he slurred out, stumbling to his feet. “i’m gonna take a walk,” he decided, heading off in the direction of the woods and disappearing into the dark trees.

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:02

Before Cleo could stop and run after him, it was like he disappeared. She was scared that he’d get hurt and ran back inside to get someone to help. “Uhh can someone help, Theo just ran off into the forest and I will be no help in these heels. He’s very drunk too.” She said out loud hoping someone would hear her.

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 12:05

[ montpelierhqs admin ] the power flickers. the light dims. the music stops. the faculty of montpelier look around in confusion as students remain blissfully unaware of what had just occured. suddenly, everyone’s phones start to beep. an alert from the gossip blog. panic sets in. rain starts to pour. @everyone

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:12

"WHAT THE FUCK, MY HAIR." Zakiyah yelled as she push people out the way trying not to be wet. "Sorry not sorry,"

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:12

vivienne glanced out the window at the dark sky. "uh, is this like a normal thing here?" she spoke nervously, the truth glaring out at her from every phone screen in the room. "i mean, he's okay, right? this is a joke, right?"

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:13

Cleo was shocked by what she read on the phone, letting it drop as she ran for a trash can, feeling like she was gonna be sick at the thought of what Troy or Hallie was doing to Theo.

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:14

charlotte noticed her friend making a break across the room and went to her. "oh my god, cleo, are you okay? what happened?" she asked her, hand on her shoulder. "was it the punch?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah(edited)

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 12:14

Kennedy went to protest when the lights flickered, and she looked around confused. “Uh, no, it’s not a normal thing,” Kennedy said to Vivienne, looking to Nate with big eyes. @lily / char&theo&viv @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:15

"V this is Montpelier, nothing never normal here." She look at her with a angry face. She wants to know what happen to Theo.  @lily / char&theo&viv

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:15

Cleo looked up at Charlotte and shook her head. “I was the last one to see him. I just let him run out to the forest.” She said and shook her head. “He didn’t look good so I followed him, but..” She said and ran a hand through her hair. @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:16

"Noah I feel you on hating everything." She said while laying down on a chair feeling a little sick @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:16

Noah looked at the girl concerned. “Are you okay? Do you need water?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:30

"I might need some." She close her eyes trying to gain conscious. She wasn't having a good time at the dance the only thing she doing is drinking really. "Blue I hang with you but I'm still crazy as thier is." She said falling on the chair bumping her head. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:33

Noah was just about to turn to go and grab water for the girl but stopped. He ran to her side, looking at her concerned. “Zakiyah are you okay? Blue, you need to go get some water please?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

bee // wyatt & emma-janeLast Sunday at 12:34

Earning a genuine laugh from Holden is enough to make Emma-Jane not care that she’s making a complete fool out of herself. That isn’t to say that he takes himself too seriously or has given her the impression that his usual amusement is dishonest in anyway, but there’s something about this laughter that entirely changes his face. His smile appears brighter and there’s a sense of enjoyment between the two of them. “Yeah! You heard me!” She wrinkles her nose back, fighting the urge to stick out her tongue. Childish, yes. Emma is so rarely allowed to be so carefree though, this whole night feels elating. Again she scoffs, only stopping her dance at the flicker of the lights. Her initial thought is that someone must be playing a prank. It is a Halloween dance after all, and what better way to enjoy it than scaring a few people? With the music gone, a ripple follows through the crowd, until everyone has stopped dancing. There’s a momentary stir of confusion, until the buzzes and the pings starts. In the darkness of the ballroom, everyone’s phones start going off. Almost instantly, she goes rummaging through her purse. “It’s Troy,” she says flatly, expecting the latest blast from the gossip blog as she reads. “That’s so not funny.” Her laugh is slightly shrill, as she shoves her phone in Holden’s direction for him to see. ( @maaria ✨  libby / holden )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:38

"If a big headache and a bump counts as fine..... then yeah." She smiling as she laugh it off. She put her hand on her head when she feels her bump. She sees Noah near her side, raising her hand up to get help. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:43

Noah picked her up, not wanting her to get up. “Come on, let’s get some ice and water for you.” He said and started to walk toward the table with drinks. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:47

“oh my god.” charlotte spoke, her mouth open in shock. of course cleo was upset, everyone knew her and theo were friends. “cleo you have to know it’s not your fault. don’t blame yourself,” she said softly. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:49

Cleo could feel tears starting to brim at her eyes. “But what if I could’ve done something? I shouldn’t have let him run off. God, what if he never comes back Charlotte? What if he’s just gone?” She rambled and sank to the ground. “I feel like punching someone but also emptying everything from my stomach.” @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:49

Walking with Noah, she sat in a chair and lay her head. Today wasn't her day she just wanted to get this over with and she haven't seen her brother any where. "Thanks, I literally hate this and the damn blog made some shit worst." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:51

Noah grabbed water for her and make an ice pack with ice from a cooler. “Seriously. How this person is getting away with this is nuts. Keep your head up and put this in the bump.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:57

"I don't know but she is and bitch bring revenge." She grab the ice pack from Noah and slowly put it on her head. She got the water too and drank some of it then left it on the table. "I honestly don't know what people going to do at this point. Pretty sure those tasks are real hell is coming." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:00

“Well she needs to kindly fuck off.” Noah said and sighed. “Well hopefully they find her before anything bad happens.”@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:09

"Let pray nothing bad happens or else it be like the purge." She gave a small chuckle and drank some water. "I feel like hell." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:11

“I swear, nothing like this happens in North Carolina.” He said and sighed. “Maybe you should see a nurse?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:14

"No I can't because my my intoxicated level is through the roof I think." She shake her head a hard no, she rubbed her eyes trying to fight through the headache. "North Carolina sounds peaceful,  New York is lowkey hell." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:22

“Yeah and I’m sure all the teachers here are as well. It’s more about you being healthy. You could have a concussion.” He said and sighed. “It was.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:32

She could care less about the teacher knowing about her getting drunk. The only reason why she caring because her name wasn't going to be drunk bitch. "Health never normal, it's called life beating your ass." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Pau (Claire & Nic)Last Sunday at 13:32

Nic had enough that night between coming face to face with his past and his present—neither of which he was all too excited to see at Montpelier. Everyone else seemed to be having a far worse time than he, though, the moment all phones went ringing. He was so confused, and to be fair, he wasn't even sure which one was Theo in the first place. At least he recognized the name.  And Troy. He found it ridiculous but  it was, apparently, a thing. But the other name... "Who's Hallie?"

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:33

Noah sighed and shook his head. “Fine but no falling asleep okay? That isn’t a good thing to do after hitting your head.”@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:43

"I can't promise you that. The headache is hell, my feet hurts, I'm cold and I just really wanna get out of here. I can't because I can't leave without Cam." She vent trying to stay up after walking all night. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:49

“What if I walk you back to your dorm and then come back for Cam? That way you’re both taken care of.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:57

"That would be nice but I'm staying at my house during weekend." She said putting a fake smile on her face. "Cam has the key to the house. Your my hero right now thanks." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:58

“Oh well you don’t have a spare at your house?” Noah asked, ignoring the hero part. He was just concerned for the girls well being, especially after the blog post.  @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:14

"I did but I lost it. I really don't remember what happen to it." Zakiyah mind had been a blur throughout the whole night and the rest of her life apparently. "I'm mess right now huh?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:15

“Ok well, then lest find Cam.” He said and smiled. “You’ve just had a rough night is all.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:19

"Please do, I really looked for him all night and he not texting me back." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:23

“Maybe he’s with a girl?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:25

"I don't know where or care whoms he with. I really don't want to feel drunk and alone." She pouted resting her head on her purse on the table. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:25

“Hey hey, no laying your head down.” He said and helped her head stay up.@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:27

"But it hurts," she said keeping her eyes close while Noah trying to keep her head up. "What can a laying down do to me anyway?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:28

“I know it does but if you fall asleep and you have a concussion, you could accidentally slip into a coma. Now we don’t want that right?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:31

"No we don't." She said shaking her head agreeing with him. "Can we get away? My head hurts with all the yelling." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:32

Noah smiled and nodded. “Yeah, here grab your water and ice. We can go sit outside.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:35

Cam was well within his high at this point, the edibles and molly keeping him in a great mindset as he searched out Cleo. "Hey... hi.. hey." He commented softly before smirking. "You still warm?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:37

"That all I want really." She smile slowy getting up and get her water and ice pack to head outside. "I will probably freeze my ass off with the skirt." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:38

Cleo looked up from the floor and smiled at him. “Yeah, still warm thank you again.” She said and stood up. “I’m just a little freaked out right now is all.” @lattie || Harper and Cam“Don’t worry, I have a jacket you can use as a blanket. Plus the cold will wake you up a bit.” He said and started to walk towards the doors. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:39

Cam nodded slowly before wrapping his arms around her again. "I was serious when I said Id kill them with they hurt you." He stated softly before nuzzling her neck. "You want to go somewhere else?"

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:43

Cleo welcomes his hug and hugged him back, nuzzling herself into him. “I know.” She said and squeezed him. “Yes please. I need to clear my head.” @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:43

She walk towards to the door and took off her heels during the process. "New york weather will kill you. My head feels like a bitch." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:45

Noah took his jacket off, thankful for the long sleeves under it. “Yeah well, it’ll probably hurt for a few days.” He said and handed her his jacket. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:47

She gratefully took his jacket and put it around her. "I don't even remember how I fell. Pretty sure I slip." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:48

“I’m not sure, my back was turned when it happened.” He said and shrugged. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:48

Pulling away, he took her hand and moved for the door. "Im great at helping people clear their minds." He reasoned before looking at her. "It will be okay." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:49

Cleo followed him and sighed. She didn’t know how much she needed fresh air till it hit her. “Will it though? Theo got taken by Hallie. If it even is her.” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:50

Stopping as they got outside, Cam bit his bottom lip. "Things always work out how they are suppose to." His voice soft before he leaned in and kissed her. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 14:50

Andrea was outside, getting some fresh air when she saw them—Cleo and Cam. Her heart broke, seeing him with someone else, especially after telling her they’d have tonight. @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:52

Cleo at first was caught off guard by the kiss but then all the worry and negative thoughts slipped away and she kissed him back. She snaked her arms around his neck and played with the hair at the nape of his neck. Se hey notice that they weren’t alone. @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:56

Wrapping his arms around her to pull her in close, he smiled softly as she kissed him back. Pulling away from a moment, he smirked. "You feeling better?" He went to say something else before he noticed Andrea. "Shit." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:57

She smiled as he pulled away and nodded. “Much.” She said but then looked at what he saw and looked back at him confused. “What?” @paige || catalina&kennedy @lattie || Harper and Cam

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 14:58

Andrea had tears in her eyes—it was stupid, she knew they were broken up, but it still stung. Wiping her tears, she walked past them, purposely bumping into the two of them hard. She wasn’t normally like this—not the jealous type—but the weed and alcohol in her system was making her do it. “Sorry,” she mumbled, not sincere. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:58

"Me either," She said right walking with Noah before heading outside seeing her brother. "Oh shit." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:59

Noah stopped and looked at who she was looking at. “Why do I feel like we just walked into drama?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:00

Cam closed his eyes tightly before watching Andrea. "Drea.... im sorry. I..." He knew no apologies would help fix this as he looked back at Cleo. "Sorry." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @paige || catalina&kennedy

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:00

She turn to Noah then back at Cam. "Shit, every drama has a damn love triangles." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:01

“Don’t call me that” she snapped instantly, still looking like she wanted to cry. “You broke up with me, remember? you don’t owe me anything” she said, walkingoff  @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah(edited)

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:01

Cleo stumbles a bit as the girl bumped into her and Cam. She instantly felt awful, not wanting to be that girl. “Seriously Cam?” She said and shook her head, more mad at herself than anything. “Go talk to her.” She said before storming back inside. @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy“So I’m guess this is Cam?” Noah asked and looked at the scene that was unfolding. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:02

Flinching as she snapped, Cam nodded slowly. "Yeah.. yeah, we are broken up." He mumbled before shaking his head. Hearing Cleo, he moved to walk after Andrea. "I didnt want... I dont know what I wanted." @paige || catalina&kennedy @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:03

Andrea saw Zakiyah and headed over towards her and Noah, sniffling “I guess i did this to myself?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:04

Cleo walked back inside and slammed herself down at a table. Holding her head in her hands, she let herself start to sob for all the messed up stuff that happened tonight.

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:05

"That my brother," she said looking at him with a guilty smile. She saw Andrea coming towards her with tears in her eyes. She gave her a hug trying to get to the bottom of this. "Cam what the hell happening?" She ask walking towards him. She forgot she was wearing no shoes other then socks. It was right before she step on something making her fall. "Fuck sakes." @paige || catalina&kennedy @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:06

Noah looked at the girl and back at Cam. “Seriously? What the hell dude? You made one girl cry, I’m pretty sure that other girl just went in there to cry.” He said and walked over towards him but stopped to see what happened to Zakiyah. “What’s wrong?” @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:07

Cam watched his ex and his sister before shaking his head. "I dont.... I dont know." His voice small before he huffed, trying to ignore the other boy. "Shut the fuck up Noah." Turning to Andrea, he bit his bottom lip. "Im sorry Andrea. I really am." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @paige || catalina&kennedy @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:08

Andrea flinched when Cam snapped, arms wrapping around her middle. “No you’re not” she mumbled, looking down. @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:10

"All of yall shut the fuck up." She yelled right before turning to Noah trying to get up. "My foot is in pain." She sees Cam and tries to get up but her ankle couldn't cooperate. @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:11

“Look dude, I’m not the one making people cry!” He snapped at Can and shook his head. He looked back at Zakiyah and nodded. “Ok you sit here, don’t try to get up. Let me look at it. Is it ok if I take your sock off?”  @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @paige || catalina&kennedy @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:12

Cam looked away from her for a moment. "Can we just like go somewhere to talk or..." He didnt want to be around his sister and Noah right now. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:12

Andrea shrugged, looking down. “I guess,” andrea mumbled, looking up at him through long eyelashes @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:14

"Yeah sure." She said sitting down moving her leg towards him. "What a shitty night, Im supposed to turn 17 in a few days and today hell. Sorry for dragging you down with me. " @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:14

He took off her sock carefully but looked up at her. “Hey don’t worry about it. We all have bad nights sometimes.” He said and smiled. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:15

Cam moved to take her hand, wanting to go somewhere away from everyone to clear his mind and figure out what he is doing. As they walked away, Cam looked at Andrea. "Look... I am sorry and I know that doesnt mean much... not right now and im sorry for that too." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:16

Andrea pulled her hand away instantly, still following him. “You just don’t care” she’d say “About me. you act like you do but god—cam i fucking love you and you’re making out with other girls” @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:19

"Yeah it does," She gave a small smile before realizing a tear about to come out. She wipe it away before Noah could see it. "What wrong my foot? It is bad that I can't feel it." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:20

As she pulled away, he let his hand drop, instead moving to wrap his arms around himself wishing he had his jacket back now. "I dont fucking care. Its just hard.. I can't explain it.." He didnt want to explain it. "There is a lot going on up here and I dont know." He mumbled, tapping his head. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:20

“Then talk to me” she’d snap at him “god, i’ve dumped so much shit on you, you can do that with me cam. don’t you get it?” she was crying now, yelling at him @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:21

Noah looked down at her foot and noticed it was bleeding. “I think you just stepped in some glass. Shouldn’t be too bad.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:22

"I cant." Cam replied quickly, looking up at her. Fear present in his eyes for a moment before he looked away. "I can't talk to anyone. I cant let it all out because then it fucks everything up and I cant deal with that." Letting out a shaky breath, he sighed. "I didnt mind... I dont mind carrying that stuff for you." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:23

“it doesn’t fuck everything up” she’d snap “do you not understand how much i love you, cameron?” @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:23

Zakiyah nodded after hearing what Noah said. Thank god it wasn't broken, or else she be in crutches for a few days. "Thanks, why was there glass here anyways?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:26

"It will though." Cam replied before shaking his head. "I know. I understand how much you love me, Drea. Love me enough to know I can't talk about whats going on with me." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:26

“But do you lvoe me?” she snapped “No, you don’t. and that’s the problem” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:27

"I do... Fuck, Ive never been sure of anything else." Cams voice raw as he looked back up at her. "Im sorry." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:27

“fuck you” she snapped at him, clearly crying, turning to walk away @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:29

"Fuck me because I wont tell you things I cant tell you?" Cam snapped grabbing her wrist. "Thats real fucked up Andrea. You wouldnt love me if you knew. You wouldnt.... no one can know." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:30

“of course i would lvoe you!” she’d shout “but fuck you for telling me we have tonight and making out with cleo” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:32

"You wouldnt." He replied after a moment before letting her wrist go. "I am sorry. You dont deserve that." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:35

“don’t make decisions for me!” shes shouter at him @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:38

Cam looked at her. "Im sorry." Was all he could say at this point @paige || catalina&kennedy

Jaimie (Wil)Last Sunday at 15:44

Wil was in a panic now. The shitty things that had happened throughout the night, the message from the gossip blog, the chaos of the crowd, and whatever the hell was in that punch were all combining into something bigger than Wil could bear. His breathing became heavier. Tears stung his eyes, but didn't escape. He felt like he was going to explode, or implode, or collapse. He pushed through the crowd, not caring who he rudely shoved aside. He just wanted to get out. He pushed open the doors and breathed in the cool air from outside. He paced frantically in the dark, trying desperately to collect himself and his thoughts. The tears were running now, and he didn't really even know why.

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:50

“you’re sorry?!” Andrea shouted at him, voice cracking @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 16:55

"For everything." Cam admitted softly looking away from her. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:55

“God Cam,” Andrea breathed out, full on crying at this point. “Why can’t you just lvoe me like i love you?”

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 16:56

"I dont know. I love you. I do." He mumbled trying to hide the hurt in his voice. "Just not enough, I guess."

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:57

Hearing him so hurt, Andrea hated herself. She was too drunk to be responsible, taking his hand and tugging him towards her @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 16:58

Looking up at her, he let out a soft sob. "I dont think I know how to love something like that, Drea. I dont think I know how to love you like that." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:58

“Oh Cam,” she breathed out, cupping his face in her hands and wiping his tears with her thumbs @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:00

"Im sorry. I really am." He mumbled trying to blink back the tears that dared to come.

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:02

“sh sh,” she whispered, shaking her head as tears fell down her cheeks “it’s ok” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:02

Cam wrapped his arms around her, letting out another sob. "Its not okay. You deserve better." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:03

“I don’t want anyone else” she whispered, holding him close “don’t you get it cameron?” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:11

Cam looked at Andrea before rubbing his eyes quickly, trying to wipe away the tears. "I dont get it. I dont get why you want me but I want you too." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:12

“Then be with me,” she practically begged him, pulling him close. “If you want me, be with me. we can figure the rest out later” @lattie || Harper and Cam(edited)

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:14

Cam watched her for a moment before nodding. "Oh-okay." He trusted her, only hoping his secret didnt ruin everything when it came out. "We will figure it out." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:15

“Okay?” she whispered, a hopeful look in her eyes as she nodded. “Yeah, we’ll figure it out” @paige || catalina&kennedy

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:16

Cam gave a small smile before nodding again. "Yeah, okay." Wrapping his arms around her tighter, he rested his head on her shoulder. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:17

Andrea let out a soft sigh, wrapping her arms around his neck and running her fingers through his hair “everything is going to be ok” she whispered, kissing his head @lattie || Harper and Cam

29 October 2018

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Yesterday at 07:52

Zakiyah was mad she couldn't control her anger. She was walking around school with glass in her foot, she could careless about it but her adrenaline came through the roof. "WHERE THE FUCK IS WYATT?"

#montpelierevent001 #( i had begun... removing all time tags and changing names to characters buT) #( ITS SUCH A LONG CHAT ) #( so feel free to edit it and reblog with just your own characters <3 )

[awkward-whiteboy]

1-200

200 Questions to Ask Me!

200: My crush’s name is:  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 199: I was born in: Michigan198: I am really: Depressed, bored, hungry, lonely197: My cellphone company is: Verizon196: My eye color is: Brown/ugly195: My shoe size is: 11194: My ring size is:8.5193: My height is: 6″3192: I am allergic to: Medicine, tree dust191: My 1st car was: The piece of shitmobile190: My 1st job was: Illegal  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 189: Last book you read: How to Think About Weird Things Critical Thinking for a New Age. (Yes it’s a college textbook, but if you love debating with people on the internet [ though this is pointless] this book is a must read).188: My bed is: a college loft that I fear is going to fall any second. 187: My pet: Pet no, mascot my HARAMBE FLAG! 186: My best friend: @rinkatai @aesthetichalestorm @bookerdewiit 185: My favorite shampoo is: Whatever I have in the shower when I’m showering184: Xbox or ps3: either, but Mario Kart trumps them all183: Piggy banks are: cool if they aren’t the break ones182: In my pockets: wallet, room keys, a “Thanks asshole” note someone graciously wrote me 181: On my calendar: Peoples birthdays, and predictions for stupids shit. (5 for 6 on them being right)180: Marriage is: dumb, combining debt together over a stupid ceremony. Why not just say fuck it and save the money for a sweet house and lots of animals179: Spongebob can: keep coming out. I love that show. If given the time, I could probably quote almost all the episodes178: My mom: is my mom177: The last three songs I bought were? People buy songs? I can name albums: Reaching into infinity, Begining of the End, One More Light176: Last YouTube video watched: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsx0d3p4SMQ

175: How many cousins do you have? That I talk to, 3,4. total like 22+

174: Do you have any siblings? Youngest of 5

173: Are your parents divorced? No

172: Are you taller than your mom? Yes

171: Do you play an instrument? Guitar and Trombone

170: What did you do yesterday? Stayed up til 5 am playing Garrys Mod

[ I Believe In ]

169: Love at first sight: Sort of, doesnt work out though

168: Luck: Luck is an undeclared claim.

167: Fate: Nope

166: Yourself: Never. I always fail

165: Aliens: Hard to say, 

164: Heaven: No

163: Hell: I am a living hell

162: God: not a god, but a something

161: Horoscopes: Nope

160: Soul mates: Yes

159: Ghosts: No

158: Gay Marriage: Marriage is Marriage, IMO calling it Gay marriage is trying to make it different than regular marriage.

157: War: Yes

156: Orbs: YEs

155: Magic: No

[ This or That ]

154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs

153: Drunk or High: Both.  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

152: Phone or Online: Phone

151: Red heads or Black haired: Red Heads, but thats just from my experience

150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes

149: Hot or cold: Mild

148: Summer or winter: Winter

147: Autumn or Spring: Spring

146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

145: Night or Day: Night

144: Oranges or Apples: Apple

143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly

142: McDonalds or Burger King: BK

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate

140: Mac or PC: PC

139: Flip flops or high heals: Flippers

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and Poor

137: Coke or Pepsi: Don’t care, just gots to be diet

136: Hillary or Obama: Norm is my OTP  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

135: Burried or cremated: Cremated, that way I’ll still be around people when im dead because no one would come willing if I was buried

134: Singing or Dancing: My singing is 1 of a kind

133: Coach or Chanel: Chanel because meme

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Kat McPhee, only because I don’t know any of them and Hick is a bad name with my life.

131: Small town or Big city: Both

130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller

128: Manicure or Pedicure: Pedi

127: East Coast or West Coast: Weast Coast  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Birthday, people notice me :)

125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers

124: Disney or Six Flags: Datknee… Disney

123: Yankees or Red Sox: Neither

[ Here’s What I Think About ]

122: War: Pointless, but happens, Realistically, will never end.

121: George Bush: All politics have goods and bads, we’ve had better, but we also had far worse.

120: Gay Marriage: Always said

119: The presidential election: Popular vote and the current way are both fraud by the way America is. A completely new system is needed.

118: Abortion: Not a women so my opinion is not valid or needed. Honestly I hate kids. so Pro

117: MySpace: Last i checked (like a year ago,) its pretty much a Soundcloud.

116: Reality TV: Stupid

115: Parents: Do what they do. Different generation so their ways of parenting are theirs.

114: Back stabbers: Too many in my life… DAMN… MAYBE THIS IS WHY I AM FUCKED UP.

113: Ebay: I spend too much money on it

112: Facebook: Fuck the Zuck

111: Work: Never had a legal job

110: My Neighbors: Can go shove a knife up their asses 

109: Gas Prices: Better than the past

108: Designer Clothes: I’m making a separate post about this.. I might be in a bit of trouble with my college over this.

107: College: I don’t fit in anywhere. only friends I have I went to High school with. 

106: Sports: Really wish I played football in High school. I know I wouldn’t play at my school, but a smaller one I would.

105: My family: Family is family

104: The future: WIll not be brighter. 

[ Last time I ]

103: Hugged someone: Too long ago

102: Last time you ate: yesterday (2:00pm 12/13/2017)

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Emotional abuser has a drug dealer that lives in my colleges town. Saw her :/ cried for hours.

100: Cried in front of someone: Summer 2017

99: Went to a movie theater: whenever IT came out. Got in trouble with my colelge cause of roommates

98: Took a vacation: too long ago

97: Swam in a pool: summer 2017

96: Changed a diaper: never

95: Got my nails done: never

94: Went to a wedding: Spring 2017

93: Broke a bone: with a doctor knowing never, but like 6 years ago

92: Got a piercing: None

91: Broke the law:  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

90: Texted: I stubbed my nose on the elevator

[ MISC ]

89: Who makes you laugh the most: Doc

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Nothing

87: The last movie I saw: Cure For Wellness

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Going home so I wont be alone with my depressing thoughts and questionable music

85: The thing im not looking forward to: going to the meeting

84: People call me: Davie Crocket Davy Divad Garbage, fucker loser, pretty much every name in the book

83: The most difficult thing to do is: pretend to be normal

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Talked the cop out of it with my mindfucking bullshittery

81: My zodiac sign is: Scorpio

80: The first person i talked to today was:

@rinkatai

79: First time you had a crush: 9th Grade

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Rink

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Last week

76: Right now I am talking to: Myself 

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Good question  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)  

74: I have/will get a job: No, I cant do interviews I alwasy fuck them up or never get called back

73: Tomorrow: hopefully do something better

72: Today: Watched 9 hours of netflixs

71: Next Summer: Too far to determain

70: Next Weekend: Too far to determain

69: I have these pets: None

68: The worst sound in the world: College kids screaming because finals when they are just being cliche

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: myself

66: People that make you happy: Happy? whats that

65: Last time I cried: Today

64: My friends are: Rin Doc 

63: My computer is: Fucked up because everything I own always gets fucked up

62: My School: College sucks, High School : IN A LOT OF HOT WATER

61: My Car: is a piece of shit

60: I lose all respect for people who: treat me bad… damn thats like 95% of the people I see

59: The movie I cried at was: The Producer

58: Your hair color is: Ugly Brown

57: TV shows you watch: The OFfice

56: Favorite web site: Higher or Lower Youtube

55: Your dream vacation: Somewhere with the right person

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: The emotion and things I live with everyday.

53: How do you like your steak cooked: However it is cooked

52: My room is: MY STUFF IS CLEAN roommate 1 is not

51: My favorite celebrity is: Too many to name

50: Where would you like to be: A better state of mind

49: Do you want children: NO

48: Ever been in love: Sadly

47: Who’s your best friend: Rin Doc

46: More guy friends or girl friends: Girl Friends

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Dark humor

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: :’(

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I only plan 5 minutes in advance

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No, honestly asking 10th grade me, i only planned up till graduation

41: Have you pre-named your children: NO KIDS

40: Last person I got mad at:  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

39: I would like to move to: Sanity land

38: I wish I was a professional: Musician

[ My Favorites ]

37: Candy: Sour Skittles or Mega Sours

36: Vehicle: Piece of Shit Mobile

35: President: Suliman with the Onion hat

34: State visited: Iowa. 

33: Cellphone provider: Verizon

32: Athlete: Cardale Jones

31: Actor: Bill Mother Fucking Murry

30: Actress: Emma Watson

29: Singer: Davey Jones, Davey Havok, Chester, and many more

28: Band: Too many, but I will say I’ve personally met one of them

27: Clothing store: cheap ones

26: Grocery store: cheap ones

25: TV show: Office, Simpsons South Park TWD

24: Movie: Cure For Wellness Clockwork Orange, Cant remember the name, but the original hunger games… the japanese one

23: Website: youtube

22: Animal: panda pugs

21: Theme park: cedar point

20: Holiday: leif erikson day

19: Sport to watch: hockey

18: Sport to play: football

17: Magazine:  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

16: Book: Too many

15: Day of the week: Monday. Because I play a game of what sucks more… I win a lot

14: Beach: na

13: Concert attended: Alice Cooper 3x, Deep Purple, Stone Sour, Skillet, Motley Crue 2x, FFDP, Wayland, Valraven, Alterbridge, Iron Maiden, going to see Judas Priest with someone in April

12: Thing to cook: Pasta and muffins

11: Food: ^

10: Restaurant: places with spicy chicken nuggets rice pudding and chicken noodle soup

9: Radio station: 101 WRIF Q106

8: Yankee candle scent: N/A

7: Perfume: N/A

6: Flower: Idk Roses or Marigolds

5: Color: Black orange green

4: Talk show host:  ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

3: Comedian: A lot

2: Dog breed: PUG

1: did you answer all these truthfully? Like 4 are not :/

[pyojihoonmoved]

0-44 owo

wow, this is payback isn’t it. okay let’s do it.

0: Height

5′11″

1: Age

21, 22 in a month i cry.

2: Shoe size

like… 9? 9.5??

3: Do you smoke?

no thanks.

4: Do you drink?

very rarely tbh.

5: Do you take drugs?

no thank u again

6: Age you get mistaken for

I don’t know? I usually am guessed to be my age or maybe a little older?

7: Have tattoos?

no

8: Want any tattoos?

yes please.

9: Got any piercings?

yes, just 2 in each lobe.

10: Want any piercings?

cartilage and maybe more, but i’ve tried my cartilage twice and they failed each time so idk.

11: Best friend?

you can’t make me name just a single one.

12: Relationship status

technically single but unavailable as hecc.

13: Biggest turn ons

yeah you’d like to know that wouldn’t you, ya nastea .

14: Biggest turn offs

🤔🤔🤔

15: Favorite movie

I don’t really have one??

16: I’ll love you if…

you feed me .

17: Someone you miss

no one, atm. well there is someone that comes to mind, a friend I had from middle school to high school

18: Most traumatic experience

I honestly can’t really… think of anything like outright… traumatic ? ? ? so lucky me.

19: A fact about your personality

i’m a pretty resilient person, ig?? i mean if smth gets me down or whatever i’m able to move on from it fairly quickly. there are better things to do than to sit and stress over some shit that happened that you can’t change.

20: What I hate most about myself

a n x i e t y.

21: What I love most about myself

I’m funny? ? ? at least I think so.. 

22: What I want to be when I get older

uhhh… still working on it lmao !

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

better than it used to be, since we’ve gotten older. then again, it was never really bad to begin with, but you know how siblings are with each other when they’re kids. like one time i threw my heavy ass binder at my brother when we got onto the school bus and it hit him in the back bc he was talking shit bout my best friend at the time LMFAO. i was like 10?? at the time?? maybe 11? and he was 12/13?? good times lmao.

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

it’s neither here nor there? so i guess its a good one? I don’t really feel comfortable talking to them about anything but we don’t fight anymore so it’s cool.

25: My idea of a perfect date

you know in all my 21 years of life this is something i’ve never sat down and actually thought about and visualized? i think just being with the person I like and spending time together and enjoying each other’s company is enough to make the date perfect. 

26: My biggest pet peeves

when people smack their food/gum loudly!!! holy shit!! or when people wanna leave ur door open when they leave. being late as a result of other people like i can’t stand being late . people who ask you what y’all should get for a meal then say ew when you pitch ideas, even though they hadn’t contributed in any other way besides “hey what do y’all want” and “ew”. anw i’ll end that there i could go on all day LMAO.

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

WOW where to even. pushing aside like obvious things about how cute/hot she is bc like she’s all of those things (((im very gay))), she’s makes me laugh, makes me feel better when I’m feeling bad mostly over stupid shit, and idk, i feel comfortable with her, to where i can talk to her freely and discuss how i’m feeling without being made out to be the bad guy or anything like that. i could spend literally 24/8 talking to her without getting tired of it, which is saying something because there are very few people I can just not only consistently talk to but like look forward to talking to them on the daily. 12312/10 do not regret liking. she’s a very important person to me and even if things don’t go further than where they are now, I’d be okay with that as long as I still have her in my life. and i hope she knows how much i love her and one day believes she’s every bit of important as i think and make her out to be because she is, maybe even moreso. 

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

honestly there isn’t anyone that I like… severely dislike?? people do shit that annoys me and what not but idk there’s no deep seated hatred, only annoyance. ig if I had to answer then the description would be someone that needs to grow the fuck up lmao anw. 

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

I don’t think i’ve ever lied over something serious. like the only time I ever lie is when i make up excuses for why I can’t hang out or whatever, and thats only if they’re not a close friend. if they’re a close friend I usually just tell them straight up lmao hey nah im not feeling it.

30: What I hate the most about work/school

school since I’m in it right now, uhhh. everything lmfao. but specifically that’d be the fact that my class starts at 8am. and the textbooks are boring af.

31: What my last text message says

tbh idk bc i delete mine daily and sometimes several times daily so whatever I said last or someone said to me last it isn’t there.

32: What words upset me the most

“card declined” :(((

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

honestly any compliment makes me like c: but when people tell me i’m funny/have a good sense of humor i’m like extra cccccc:

34: What I find attractive in women

everything . i’m gay. i fucking love girls.

35: What I find attractive in men

are they pyo jihoon? if not then nothing lmao .

36: Where I would like to live

I mean?? I don’t know?? I’m good with anywhere as long as I’m allowed to have pets and it’s like, you know. a decent place.

37: One of my insecurities

tbh I’ve been feeling a little insecure about my weight again these days. and it’s not like I’m really overweight or anything, like not at all. I’m pretty sure I’ve got a normal BMI or whatever for my age but. i got a lot of shit when i was younger for being overweight, mostly from my brother and his friends and even the rest of my family and so on, so i’m a bit ehhh about it. 

38: My childhood career choice

I don’t remember?? I think I wanted to either work with the police or be a lawyer or something, I don’t know.

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

cookie two step by my love blue bell. aka cookies and cream combined with chocolate chip cookie dough

40: Who I wish I could be

uhhhhhh. i don’t know?? I’m alright w/being myself, idk.

41: Where I want to be right now

at home, with blu.

42: The last thing I ate

chick-fil-a. which was several hours ago so i should probabaly make myself food.

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

@pushzeen ;)))))

44: A random fact about anything.

UHHHH. UHMMMM. i.... used to want to learn how to sew?? my grandma even bought me a sewing machine when i was in like 5th grade so i could learn, and we started off by making barbie clothes but then family drama happened so i didn’t see her for years. and then a few years back everyone started talking again and so she gave me that sewing machine to take home with me but??? a bitch still can’t sew cause she has no idea what she’s doing on her own lmao. so it’s just chilling in my closet. 

#answered #pushzeen #zayra

[pastelmae]

BIAS TAG GAME

I was tagged by @taeboos , thanks bby~

Rules: Go to this site and enter in your top ten biases from any groups and randomize them. The order they are displayed to you becomes their number (this just ensures that the process is random) and you just have to choose between the biases for each scenario!

Biases: (as given to you by randomizer)

Sana (TWICE)

Yoongi (BTS)

Taeyeon (SNSD)

Seolhyun (AOA)

Jackson (GOT-7)

Momo (TWICE)

Jimin (BTS)

Chanmi (AOA)

Yerin (Gfriend)

J-Hope (BTS)

Scenarios: (don’t worry, there is a question for every combination of biases (also, I randomized the pairs) and you don’t have to explain your answer, that’s just the way I am lol)

Go to a baseball game with 4 or 10. Seoulhyun or J-Hope.   jhope for sureeee, He’d have so much fun!

Play a game of twister with 1 or 7. Sana or Jimin Sana, her body is so much more slender, I love Jimin but his thighs would get in the way, omg but being that close to Sana might cause my heart to burst!!

Eat ramen at 2am with 2 or 8. Yoongi or Chanmi

I wouldn’t eat ramen at 2am, my face would swell up so much omg, but id say i’d do it for Yoongi, because i’d do anything for him, he is my ultimate~~

Watch a Disney movie in theaters with 5 or 10. Jackson or J-Hope

omg J-Hope again, he’s such a child at heart he’d love it!

Go hiking with 5 or 9. Jackson or Yerin Omg i feel like both would complain a lot about hiking, but between the two i’d say Yerin, because shes so cute and i can just imagine hiking in the cold morning with her nose a little red and i just want to kiss her cute little face on top of a mountain >^<

Swim with the sharks with 4 or 5. Jackson or Seolhyun

It better be whale sharks, i’d never put any of my biases in danger. Omg but i think watching Jackson freak out would be really funny lmao. Swim with the dolphins with 7 or 10 Jimin or Jhope

Jimin, Thatd be so cute, I can just imagine his cute little giggles while playing with the Dolphins

Fall asleep talking a 4am with 3 or 9. Taeyeon or Yerin

Yerin, I can actually see us having deep conversations on aliens and shit

Wake up next to 2 or 7. Yoongi or Jimin

omfg if this aint the most dangerous question!!! Of Course Yoongi tho, My baby!! I would wake up feeling like the luckiest person alive, id just want to bury my face in his chest and sleep next to him forever,  i am so straight for him >^<

Be stuck in rush hour traffic with 4 or 9. Seolhyun or Yerin

Seolhyun, I can just imagine soft conversation and drama osts playing on the radio

Build a snowman with 7 or 8. Jimin or Chanmi

Omg both would be super fun, but i’ll go with Jimin, I feel like we’d make it really funny

Spend a day baking with 5 or 7. Jackson or Jimin

omg Jackson would be interesting, Id have to witness that

Be stranded on a desert island with 2 or 9. Yoongi or Yerin

I’d never want any of them to be in that situation, but if im going to be selfish here. I’d want to spend the rest of my life with the coolest person ever, Yoongi. Although he’d make a terrible surviving partner I wouldnt mind dying next to my favorite person in the world.

Be hit by a car by 1 or 9. Sana or Yerin

SANA PLEASE RUN ME THE FUCK OVER

Hit 3 or 4 with a car. Taeyeon or Seolhyun

Oh shit this has gotten dark real fast.... none of them, I wouldnt want to hit either. But i’d go with Taeyeon, sorry Tae. I love you tho

Kiss 4 or 8 in the moonlight. Seolhyun or Chanmi. 

Why must you make me pick between my AOA biases???!! Okay but Seolhyun is literally a 10/10, I’d die to kiss her

Dance in the rain with 2 or 4. Yoongi or Seolhyun

Omg I want to pick Yoongi, but that is clearly something he wouldn’t do. He would complain and think its cheesy. But Seolhyun would do it! So even though I’d love to do everything with my UB, I can literally imagine Seolhyun and I doing this. Oh god why are there so many cute things im think of with Seolhyun, why must you guys do this to me?? >o<

Be kidnapped with 1 or 5. Sana or Jackson

oh my god, both would not be good. Jackson would probably die immediately, Sana wouldn’t be able to stop crying in order to brainstorm, but I guess thats better than immediate death, so i’ll choose Sana. I would try to comfort her and find a way for us to get home safely.

Arm wrestle 1 or 3. Sana or Taeyeon

I feel like since Taeyeon is smaller, maybe it’d be easier

Go to an art museum with 3 or 5. Taeyeon or Jackson

Taeyeon, she’d enjoy them, we’d take aesthetic pictures there. Jackson would probably knock something over and get us kicked out

Have a picnic with 2 or 3. Yoongi or Taeyeon

Yoongi, we probably wouldn’t have the classic picnic. I feel like we’d buy cup noodles at a gas station and sit at a park bench and call it a “Picnic”, but It would still be fun, and I’d just be happy being with him and talking to him.

Buy a puppy with 1 or 10. Sana or Jhope

Jhope, omg can you imagine. He’s be so excited and he’d play with puppy and itd be the cutest thing!!! Get a forehead kiss from 7 or 9. Jimin or Yerin

Either one would kill me! I’m going to say, Jimin. Idk why. I feel like its something he would do but then get all shy over after

Pick up 2 or 6 from the airport at 5am. Yoongi or Momo

Yoongi, I’d do anything for him. I feel like my heart would flutter the whole drive there, just thinking about seeing him. He’d probably fall asleep in my car and omg this is too precious!! WHy am I so StraIght fOr ThIs BOy???!!

Go on a roadtrip with 3 or 8. Taeyeon or Chanmi

Chanmi, I could imagine stopping at a souvenir shop with weird hats and stuff and trying them on and laughing at each other and taking weird photos

Have an all night study session with 6 or 8. Momo or Chanmi 

Momo, she’d be so patient with me, like a mom. Omg she’d be such a good tutor. Sing karaoke with 8 or 10. Chanmi or Jhope

Jhope!! OMG OF COURSE. SOPE WHO? We will become the ultimate vocal duo!!

Climb a tree with 6 or 9. Momo or Yerin

Yerin omg, she’d be fun. I worry that she would fall and hurt herself tho. Hopefully not.

Go to the zoo with 2 or 5.  Yoongi or Jackson

Yoongi, although Jackson would be interesting. I can imagine Yoongi pointing at all of the ugly animals and saying “that’s you” and omg lmao

Go bowling with 3 or 6. Taeyeon or Momo

I’m indifferent? Momo??? i guess

Have 1 or 8 do your make-up. Sana or Chanmi

this is like asking me who’s make up I like better lol. I’ll say Sana, i feel like she’d use a lot of pinks, and thats close enough to my make up style

Swim in the rain with 4 or 7. Seolhyun or Jimin

Jimin. Jimin would be about that. Idk why I think that, I just do. He would play around and not want to leave even when it started raining.

Share your favorite food with 6 or 10. Yerin or J-Hope

idk... i mean whichever one likes H.E.B tortillas more??? Maybe Yerin? Everytime BTS travels they seem to stick with Korean food. Idk.. hmm

Go ice skating with 1 or 4. Sana or Seoulhyun

Sana would be so cute, but she’s also very clumsy , so i’m going with Seolhyun

Get lost on vacation with 2 or 10. Yoongi or Jhope

omg yoonseok! Of course Yoongi tho, I remember Yoongi went the wrong way once and he was like “well the world is round” lmao. We could find some cool places tho by going our own way.

Get locked out of your car in the middle of nowhere with no cellphone signal with 4 or 6. Seolhyun or Momo

I feel like they’d react the same way. I’ll say Momo, idk

Rob a bank with 5 or 8. Jackson or Chanmi

lmao lets go rob the bank I got fired at, JKJK lol. Id definitely say Chanmi, Jackson would be a hot mess. Can you imagine??

Have 8 or 9 write a song about you. Chanmi or Yerin

Yerin, Omg I can imagine it being really cute, maybe with a music box in the background. 

Be embraced by 9 or 10 after you cry. Yerin or Jhope

Jhope duh, he’s my hope, my angel, Jhope!!

Have 6 or 7 cook for you. Momo or Jimin

Momo, I trust her cooking more... sorry chimchim

Have 1 or 2 be your sidekick. Sana or Yoongi

This is a hard one, I keep thinking about sana dressed up as wonder woman and i’m like yes, but also she is a goddess and im a potato.... Yoongi and I would make a good team but were both extremely unmotivated and the town would really be in jeopardy..... hmm.... Ill go with Yoongi and we can be the most useless lazy superheroes ever

Star in a K-drama with 1 or 6. Sana or Momo

oooh my Twice biases, well lets just have the classic kdrama love triangle. Lol Sana tho, but seriously We be bringing the LGBT representation! Hell yeah

Build a dresser from Ikea with no instructions with 3 or 7. Taeyeon or Jimin

Lord help me if I have Jimin as a partner. I’m actually good at putting Ikea furniture together, but I think Taeyeon would be more patient and follow directions.

Be in a zombie apocalypse with 5 or 6. Jackson or Momo

Momo, Jackson would be the first to die, he wouldnt be much help.

Run a YouTube channel with 3 or 10. Taeyeon or Jhope

JHOPEEEEEEE, obviously

FINALLY DONE

This takes a while but it was so much fun, so I’m gonna tag: @gizi-bae @peachyjihoonie @lesbiantae @syubbed @13lhg @yoo-a @namgin @ctrbl @jungkook-e @rosiitea @mywonho

#tagged #biases #kpop

[survivorwakea]

Episode #3: “New Tribe New Tribulations.” - Ben

That joint tribal went almost perfectly besides the fact that a dean voted for me for whatever freakkkkiing reason, but I really came out of that tribal with close allys in Johnney and Chloe from the other tribes so I really think that is dope I would type more but I’m shot

wow ladies so im sitting on the toilet rn and i am fucking shaking in my boots. do u know how worried i am rn. im so worried. johnny said at the joint tribal that we were SOMEHOW not a part of that the 13 of them had already gotten to know each other and meet each other and everything that hit me rly hard bc like.... shit. shit shit fuck. fuck fuck shit. fuck. they’re friends already and more likely than not lono is gonna get picked off one by one at the tribe swap or whatever im literally so scared

Omg omg omg I just went to like my first ever live tribal and it was soooo exciting omg omg omg. I really loved having the chance to sort of better connect with these people and have a moment with them that you wouldn't otherwise have really. And, I survived so that's a massive plus as well!! Eek I'm just so excited right now to be playing this season and everyone on the other tribes seem so active and happy and I'm really looking forward to getting to know them more throughout the season. It sucks I had to lose Dean but we all have to make sacrifices somewhere.

Just got on new tribes and I’m pleased. I think I should be able to make some strong connections here. Elmo’s on my tribe and that really helps. Also talking to Joey and he seems pretty cool. Hopefully we do a good enough job on whatever song we choose so none of us have to go home. Hopefully Johnny, Justin, and Taylor are alright. I still kinda don’t know what I’m doing or where I am. Didn’t realize until half way through the last round that all 3 tribes were at the combined tribal. I thought there were 10 of us and that it could be a split vote. True flop? Yes. Maybe I’ll decide to get it together.

After a really crazy tribal council, we swapped and to be honest I don’t feel as bad about this as I probably should. I feel like during the joint tribal I bonded well enough with Chloe, Thomas and Taylor where I think that if we go to a tribal I have enough bonds started that will keep me safe at least for another round and on top of that we also got Cullen on our tribe which is honestly the best case scenario because that could honestly be a free round!

Trust Rankings (Early AF) 1. Chloe 2. Thomas 3. Taylor 4. Randy Who’s Cullen?

Well I knew I was going to be talking about the swap eventually. Cullan just got evacuated which is sad and I hope he is doing okay. I'm glad I swapped with Chloe and I feel Adam and Taylor are staring to see me and Chloe as a duo, which can be either good or bad. Randy I need to talk to more. Taylor and Adam both said they would be a number to me and Chloe if we need them, but I hope to hold that off for a little while.I just want to win this next challenge and avoid tribal :)

WHAT IN THE ABSOLUTE FUCK DOES THOMAS THINK HE IS DOING RIGHT NOW?   Taylor has messaged me saying last night they spoke to Thomas about maybe us 3 working together and that Taylor thought maybe Thomas should message me first about it. But here I am with Taylor messaging me about it and no word at all from Thomas. I've given Thomas a chance to bring it up, I've been sat talking to him about how he's now finished school so he has more time to play orgs. This could so easily lead into a conversation about how Taylor messaged him. But instead he's just said "Im gonna go get a slurpee" well while you're out go find someone else to work with you because you're gonna need all the help you can get because I'm fucking coming for your bitchass now and I'm not gonna stop until it's red raw from taking all these hits from me.

New Tribe New Tribulations. I stayed with Elmo which is good, and I have been chatting up the rest of the tribe. Jared seems nice and I've floated the idea of working with him at a potential tribal. I've talked less with Lily, but she seems nice. People I've talked the least with are Ian and Joey. Joey never responded to my messages, and Ian I just don't talk to lol. I'm pretty confident ian would stick with me and elmo and I think we could successfully target Joey, especially if we hold the milo 3 over their heads and threatened rocks.

So, my premonition was most indeed correct. We ended up swapping from 4 tribes to 3 tribes. Not that that’s a totally bad thing. I mean, looking at OG tribes on Haumea 2.0, I’m in a 3-2-1 majority. And we had a music video challenge. My tribe lip synced to I Write Sins Not Tragedies. The question is, will we be pouring the champagne in victory? Or will the goddamn door be closed on one of us at tribal council?

whew. sorry i haven’t made a confessional yet i’ve been busy. but now i feel like i’m gonna leave out important info so let’s hope i don’t. we swapped tribes and that was... a bummer. i had my 3 person alliance over on my other tribe and i had elmo! i miss elmo so much and just hope we meet again soon. i don’t really loooove my new tribe.. i like justin of course and i think i’ve been hitting it off with johnny. and strayed talking to anbel a bit. tried to talk to bodhi and asya but nothing really clicked. here’s something interesting.. justin told me he went idol searching and he looked where i looked round one and where i found the idol. he told me that a power was there but it’s now gone and he told me that johnny told him he looked there but said he just drowned in the vortex and didn’t say anything about a power being there. so i think johnny just messed up his words but now justin thinks johnny has a power and i’m just letting him think that and throwing scenarios out there and i can let johnny take the blame hehe. i also went idol aka advantage searching somewhere and i got somewhere asking if i’d be willing to give up 2 votes. i thought about how during the joint tribal a vote was missing so i assumed whatever power is there, somebody has it. so i said nope bye i want my votes! i told justin about this so i can kinda pin asya having this power since she was at the joint tribal and she’s on my tribe now so it could be a good excuse to vote her off if we ever go to tribal and i can be safe another round.

so now justin thinks johnny has the idol or some kind of power even though it’s really me who has it. and thinks asya has whatever power she got for giving up 2 votes. idek if asya is the one who got that power but i needed someone to pin it out so we have an excuse to vote her out and i can stay safe.

i also wanna apologize for whatever spelling mistakes i make and if i literally don’t make any sense at all. it’s so hard to type up exactly what i’m feeling and put it into words kdkdkdkd.

Trust List:

1. Joey 2. Anabel 3. Elmo 4. Ben 5. Bodhi 6. Lily 7. Randy 8. Ian

so we swapped which is great! the initial numbers are 3-2-1 and im in the 3 so that's great! however ian isnt the most socially active player so i think he could easily be the target of the 2 and the 1 and i dont think either ben or myself would want to pull a rock for him right now

i think i will hint him to get close to like lily or someone so in case we ended up losing a challenge she'd want to target joey instead of him. thats the goal. i dont want to lose ian bc basically if lily sides with joey in that situation, jared will be the decider and while i do trust jared, i think it gives him too much power yanno and it might be enticing for him to stick to his OG tribe ally rather than two ppl he met at the swap

im not sure how that will go but i hope well hehe! ALSO I FOUND AN IDOL, ZACK'S INFORMATION PULLED THROUGH!!! i havent told anyone yet, in fact host made a mistake in the beginnin sayin that it was already found and then said like 1h later, oh u actually have an idol and that got me SHOOK TO MY CORE! the awk thing is that i told ben already that i didnt find it so hdiasfahsdif! i just hope that when / if i tell him, he wont be too upset with me bc i right now i consider us p close!

It’s hot as hell where I am right now. Better to be sweating over the heat than sweating over tribal, I guess.

I got tribe swapped fucked and im annoyed.

So i got put on a tribe full of STINKY stinky players. And the challenge is a lipsync so im like "submit the lipsyncs ASAP" and theyre practically more than useless and do nothing. So we submitted practically nothing because theyre so fucking bad at time management. And now we're at tribal.

Nobody talking to me about the vote, so I'm going home. I'll try and pull a stunt but idk. Wish me luck

Milu 2.0...hmmm... Where do I begin? 🤔 So my feelings on the tribe are mixed. Adam, Tom and Chloe were all part of the previous joint tribal so I had already had conversations with all of them. It made it easier to socialize when the swap actually did happen. Tom seems like a cool cat, and I had approached him with the idea of him, Chloe and I grouping up. Chloe seemed more than okay with it, but Tom never talked to Chloe about it like he said he would. That raised some red flags for me and Chloe. Adam and Randy I didn't feel as comfortable to begin with, but in the past day or two Adam has really came around and proposed we work together. Thus CAT was born. It's maybe not something long term but I think I could have great allies in Chloe and Adam individually. Tonight's vote is probably the most uncomfortable yet. Nothing feels solid, everything feels very much in the air, even if I have a majority alliance. This game is a rollercoaster and tonight I'm teetering on the edge and I have that sinking feeling in my gut. All I can do is put blind faith in my people and hope for the best.

Milu 2.0...hmmm... Where do I begin? 🤔 So my feelings on the tribe are mixed. Adam, Tom and Chloe were all part of the previous joint tribal so I had already had conversations with all of them. It made it easier to socialize when the swap actually did happen. Tom seems like a cool cat, and I had approached him with the idea of him, Chloe and I grouping up. Chloe seemed more than okay with it, but Tom never talked to Chloe about it like he said he would. That raised some red flags for me and Chloe. Adam and Randy I didn't feel as comfortable to begin with, but in the past day or two Adam has really came around and proposed we work together. Thus CAT was born. It's maybe not something long term but I think I could have great allies in Chloe and Adam individually. Tonight's vote is probably the most uncomfortable yet. Nothing feels solid, everything feels very much in the air, even if I have a majority alliance. This game is a rollercoaster and tonight I'm teetering on the edge and I have that sinking feeling in my gut. All I can do is put blind faith in my people and hope for the best.

This confessional is for the Third cycle where the end result was 4-1 (Randy, Tom) Loosing this challenge as honestly a rally hard pill to swallow I was absolutely pissed if we’re being honest, pissed at the fact that the final product was my video that as supposed to get snipped and trimmed because I didn’t know legit anything about that song or even lii syncing. I think me competing and being the one that submitted helped me when it was time to vote somebody out because I was told by basically everyone that sending me home would have been a silly decision. I honestly think my only option was too got out Randy because I think I’m solid with everybody else individually where I was trying to force something with Randy. If we lose again things will honestly go from 0 to 100 real fast as I don’t think anybody knows if Tom and Chloe are actually tight or what the deal is there but that will one hunger percent come in to place. All in all very successful round for me in my opinion. I think I need to be careful not to build this huge target on my back but I’m staying focused and just plowing through

https://soundcloud.com/bodhi-small/week3/s-0kmTB

I’m doing wonderful! As far as this game is concerned, Jared and I are tighter than Ralphie May’s(RIP) pants. We know what each other is doing, and we communicate CONSTANTLY. Ian is tricky to get. He just says “Oh, okay” to everything, its as if he’s building up a wall to prevent me from having a social game, it’s highkey INFURIATING. I LOVE LILY, she’s an actual angel, and she’s a good player. I like Elmo alot, he’s definitely at a disadvantage due to his timezone. As far as everyone else, I’m getting closer to Asya as we’ve put our “beef” aside and we realized we’re friendly. Johnny and I have known each other for 3 years, he was the first person I knew in this community, he was the first person who hosted me and got me into this community, he’s going to always be like a brother to me.

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Cullan is removed from the game. Randy is voted out 4-1.

#episode #sailaway

[throwing-summers-at-the-walls]

Hello half valid anon here (i like my nickname 😂). I got through all your fics and they were all great. Right now im just reading a lot of poi fanfics and watch fanvids cause i can't accept that the series is over 😂 --- i know what you mean about fics affecting you negatively. I had this with 13rw (the Show and some fics) everything was so dark and hopeless that i had to stop watching it. I also love to seek out fics where someone is hurt so i can feel my pain through the characters (1)

But i try to read only fics with lots of comfort so it kinda feels like i get comforted as well (dont know if that makes sense). If it makes you uncomfortable or if its unhealthy for you to write about this i completely understand and i dont mean to come of as pushing you to write. I just hope whatever you do will be the right decision for you! As for you feeling suicidal im sorry to hear that. Let me know if there is ever anything i can do to help! I wish i could say sth more comforting but Im not super good with words :( i just hope you have people in your life that support you! 💛

maybe root will grow on you too? Or maybe you can skip her scenes and enjoy John, Harold and most importanly Bear! 😂 Yeah Shaw definately looks really good. She is a bit like Reese minus the caring. At first it seems she doesnt care about anything at all but thats not exactly the Case. There was an episode with Shaw and a little girl (3x5) and i really loved it (have you seen that one?).

I really think Shaw would grow on you (especially since in the beginning she does a lot with John) but then again a lot of her later scenes include Root so im not sure. Yes i love that there were never any romantic undertones with her and John!!

yeah the core four were great. I was so sad when Carter died! :(

i guess everyone sees chemistry different, i think Shoot and Rinch post have great chemistry ☺️

as for John being good with people: YES!! he is always so compassionate and such a great listener as well. I especially like him with children. John and the baby were so cute or John with the boy who offered to pay for him. John + Kids was always a great combination and i wished we would have seen it more often. Also regarding children we did we never got to see a John Taylor scene after Carters death? I needed that!

yes John the badass is also amazing! His character has so many different sides and i love him so much!!

i think Grace Harold was really cute but i dont really see a future for them, i mean he lied to her for so long! but then again they really loved each other so idk maybe they work it out. Im also not into John/Harold/Grace but like you said good for the people who like the ship :)

John and Zoe were great! i wish Zoe would have appeared more often!

I have so many things to say about John and the boring therapist but i think i better not say them :D i wish i could just erase their relationship from my mind!

of course he didnt die! i didnt see a dead body so i refuse to believe he is dead! i also just wanted them to be happy. what kind of an ending is it to let the main character die? i refuse to accept this! -- thank you for the rec i will check it out :) while i do like fluff i mostly read h/c (with the focus on the comfort) cause i just want John to get his much needed comfort :D -- i have no idea where season 1 is supposed to be boring. but idc the people can live with their wrong opinions :D

(today: tumblr user nourann3 discovers the option to indent text after almost 5 years on tumblr...)

Hiii !! It is a very valid nickname 😂 That's nice !! Hmu if you want more recs ! Lol same honestly, I can't believe it's been 4 years since the show ended ! I can give you a link to my poi/Rinch fanvids playlist if you're interested 👀

Oh boi 13rw is so cursed, can't believe I watched all of the 1st season 😬 I remember being afraid of the suicide scene making me uncomfortable but it was so cringe, unrealistic and just bad that I wasn't even that uncomfortable, I cringed when she cut her arms but that's it.

Yeah big mood I project a lot on comfort fics as well. For suicide fics, I think it also depends on how the fics adress the subject. It's something that is complicated to write. If I read a suicide fic with no recovery I'm gonna project but feel like shit. But with recovery, I can project into the recovery as well so it's better ! I read a really good ace attorney fic showing Miles recovering after a suicide attempt, it was thoughtful and didn't fall into the pitfalls of magical super fast recovery/love heals everything, and some lines stuck with me, it was really good and comforting. But yeah if it's just a suicide/suicide attempt then I don't think it's good for me (but sometimes I still read it bc I'm a Dumb Bitch).

Dw you didn't come off as pushing 💜 I'll see how I feel about continuing it or not. I have to figure out if writing about suicide is positive or negative for me 🤔 I mean I'm not portraying John's suicidal crisis as a positive thing, and he reaches out to Harold, and considers he might get better so I don't think it's bad for me ? Another problem is that I have a tendency to drop my wips to write a new shiny idea I get, and then I never finish anything gkgkffjfjf I dropped the suicide fic for the body horror fic which I dropped for the time loop fic, and there's also the hanahaki fic I started last year but I haven't touched in months, plus a bunch of random shit floating around OneDrive lmao someone stop me

What helps the most is venting, just getting that shit out is helping y'know. I appreciate your support ♥️ at least it's not as bad as it used to be

I doubt Root will grow on me, catch me watching her scenes at 1.5 speed lmao, also yes you bet I'll enjoy watching them !!

Yes I remember that ep ! Iirc the little girl tells Shaw she has feelings but the volume is lower than in other people or smth along those lines ?

I hope she'll grow on me bc she seems cool. I remember I was a bit afraid of her just becoming a sort of hollow copy of John, like "look we added another badass to the show". Seems to be more than that though ! Also I'm curious about their mayhem twins dynamic. But yeah if she has a lot of scenes with Root idk how much it'll annoy me

I feel like I wouldn't be able to get the Shoot chemistry bc I'm too biased against Root lol

Ikr the crossing hurt me so much. But thinking about it takes me back to my careese days and my first fics lol. I feel like the death of one of the core four + the abandonment of the library really alienated me from the show (did I already say that before ?). And here I'm gonna shamelessly derail from Carter to the library bc boiii do I have a lot of feelings about the library !! And you're here, talking about poi, so you're the perfect subject to throw these feelings at. This post really says what I feel about it (I'll put the link at the end as well if you wanna read it after you're done with this l o n g reply). It was in a way its own character and its forced abandonment/destruction really hit me (fucked me up when they broke that glass board). It says something that it's one of the few things I remember from S3 along with Carter's death and 4C. I loved it a lot, it was a cornerstone of the show. It was a safe place, a home for Harold and John (and Bear !). I love when they're together in there, I love this cracked glass board, this yellow stained glass in the windows !!! (at least I assume it's stained glass ?), these lights, Bear's cushion, the whole cozy/safe/isolated feelings, just absolutely everything. And yeah later they have the subway, idk when it's introduced I don't remember if it's early enough for me to have watched it. And maybe it's nice, I can't judge rn. But it's like trying to give me a new MC after a MCD, make him as nice as you want I'll be clutching the previous MC until I die. Gkfkfkff I went overboard and off topic but I just love the library ok

Ikr I love how he's badass but also gentle and understanding and nice to people ! I love him !!! Yeah wolf and cub is really good, also I love when John smiles to Darren at the end !! I use this moment as my pfp bc I love it so much. He's just so cute ! I wish he smiled more (did we ever hear him laugh in the entirety of the show ?). Baby blue is so great, Harold and him are such a married couple in this ep ! Yeah same more content with John and children would have been nice.

I never thought about how much we needed a John Taylor scene but yes !! We were robbed :((((

Speaking of John being a cool badass. Here's a badass John vid rec it's super good

Yeah they were cute in the past. I think it's good he went back to her bc it gives closure to both of them. But I don't see their relationship working again. She grieved, probably started to move on after all these years and knowing he lied all this time probably won't make her want to go back with him. I've never been in love so what do I know lol, but were I her I probably wouldn't want to go back with him and I'd just be happy knowing he's alive after all.

Same I need more Zoe (also she's hot)

Lmao let's just forget about that weird relationship shall we

Aren't we all the same, firmly believing he's alive and happy out there ! It was foreshadowed since the first ep and it made sense but do I care ? No, fuck that shit John is very much alive

You're welcome ! John needs all the comfort and the love !!! I think I have a preference for fluff bc he gets hurt enough in the show lol

Indeed they can, veryyy far away from us

Sry if this is shit I have like half a functioning braincell today

The post abt home bases I mentioned

#half valid anon #look you have your own tag #person of interest #tw suicide #i thought I was done but then i got feelings abt the library