#you improved the quality so much

[verflares]

just how long is forever? // not long enough, with you

pssst. check this out on inprnt :]

#pssst also. you should click/zoom on this. for better quality and to see all my silly little details :] hooty hoo #this is my totkversary thing im just too impatient to wait till the 12th LOL. big shoutout to this game tht has ruined my life. and zelink. #zelink #light dragon #link #zelda #loz #totk #princess zelda #totk spoilers #link totk #zelda totk #tears of the kingdom #loz fanart #i had soooo much fun drawing this i really did. i think this is a good capstone piece for how much ive improved so far this year #i still have a long ways to go ofc but. i am pleased ^_^ nd i am glad i can use zink like experiments to do so hehe #anyway. YURI FOREVERRRRR BITCH #my art

[saturnaous]

I think. Alphonse has a lot of dealings with disassociation and being in a body without nerves.

#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fma brotherhood #fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fma #alphonse elric #spenxer lou art #lou is an artist #sigh. this took three days despite the quality of it. I’ve honestly debated about posting it. #I’m not really great with comics but I’d like to get better so I’m pushing through it #grr. you can tell I desperately need to do a new hand study + actually use reference. but I don’t think they look. TOO terrible #all things considered. I had to change up one of the fingers in the third panel last minute so it looks. wonky. but whatever. #grr. . . I need to figure out new ways to lineart and render that like. . .look better #this is soo shoddy and thrown together for how much time is in it. grrr #moving on from my places to improve. I think Alphonse was heavily disassociated when he got bonded from both a lot of that trauma and #not being able to feel things properly as a big suit of armor but he’s gotten better over the years #And it’s another reason he got so shaken up by the idea of not being real. because he already doesn’t feel real so what if he truly isn’t? #anyways. sorry for all the tags. kiss kiss

[slymanner]

2024 really be another year of sonic bangers like sonic x shadow generations looks absolutely fire, the knuckles series looks fun and exciting and is actually funny too??? AND SONIC MOVIE 3 THIS YEAR TOO???

I'M BEING OVERWHELMED BY GOOD SONIC CONTENT!#!$!$!$!

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog #knuckles the echidna #shadow the hedgehog #like c'mon man this year looks so so promising for sonic as a brand AND AS A FAN #its so werid just seeing so much GOOD stuff you feel me? #like I've been in this fandom for years ive seen the ups and downs and the darkest hour's its just cool seeing everybody #LIKE AGREE SONIC IS PUTTING OUT BANGERS #it's good to be in a era of sonic that strives to improve on quality and genuinely seems like everyone is just having FUN. #and i hope the people behind these upcoming project's are having fun as well and not being worked to the bone🙏🙏🙏

[snakes-on-skates]

i fucking love the walten files so much

#can you tell i finally watched 4 #the animation and overall quality has improved so much #def worth the wait #the walten files #twf #twf 4

[izzyspussy]

honestly my real opinion on ai is not even from an ethical standpoint. my opinion on ai is that because it isn't actually artificial intelligence that is a misnomer it's not intelligent and it doesn't think it is therefore just plain not good at most of what we're currently using it for outside of like hyperspecific applications that i know nothing about and never will. it simply can't do the job man.

#jack facts #and this isn't an argument about what constitutes ''real'' art either it's about technical skill #the ability to self correct; improve; make requested changes; do something that hasn't already been done before or do it in a new way; etc #it just. it can't do it. it can't do the job. #and like laymen using it to make fanart or oc art or whatever like i don't really care that much #like i absolutely think you're tacky and a big whiner and i don't respect you but i don't think you're A Bad Person #unless you're dishonest about it and trying to pass off ai as self-made in which case you're the same as someone who reposts imo #but like as far as like industry ai. like the ethics of usage are complicated but i honestly don't care because the stuff is garbage anyway #whether it's ''art'' or not it will never be skillful and it will never innovate. it is low quality and it is boring. #it can't not be low quality and boring. skilled and interesting are literally beyond its parameters that's just the facts. #so truly there is absolutely no point in using it for anything that requires skill or interest. #or like. representing concepts. expressing an idea etc. those things can't be replicated only shapes/color/letters can. #which is honestly part of the reason why i don't even have any interest in caring more about the ethical aspect #it's not going to last for very long because it doesn't work. it just doesn't work! it can't do that! #anyway. #reading process #writing process #soc

[moregraceful]

you know what's cool, there was a vote by mail ballot drop box right out the sap center last time i went by there. like drop off your ballot, go to a sharks game, come out of the game to the worst results of your life. ideal

#I HATE THAT MY OPTIONS ARE LIKE GUY WHO SUCKS OR GUY WHO SUCKS MORE #I HATE VOTING BUT I HATE NOT VOTING EVEN MORE!!! #MATT MAHAN....FIX THE POTHOLES IN MY STREET YOU ASS...MY QUALITY OF LIFE IS NOT IMPROVED BY MORE POLICE ITS IMPROVED BY NO POTHOLES... #the one thing i miss abt the library was we were an early voting site so i was WAY more keyed into what was going on politically #bc we'd have patrons whipped the fuck up about their ballots coming to rant about everything they'd just voted on #and then i'd be googling all the batshit things they were saying to fact check and i was just so much more aware #voting today was just like fuck who do i hate the least on this list of jackasses #also the guy who came to the desk and was like 😔 i sealed my ballot envelope without putting my ballot in it 😔 what do i do 😔 #that was like. my favorite thing that ever happened at the library i think #he came to the desk holding his ballot envelope and his ballot and he was like 😔 i need help 😔 can you help me 😔 #i was like buddy what happened 😭😭 and he was like 😔😔😔 #fresno oilers.txt

[bri-wolfer]

have you FELT how hot it is outside lately? literally nothing could be worse than going outside in these conditions. aside from the eggxectueidhdns I don't remember how to spell the dumbfuck's name

yes i go on walks daily for an hour lol i usually go when the sun is setting so i can enjoy the sunshine and that's when it starts cooling off as well or you can do morning walks before it gets hotter optimize your time

#anonymous #ask #for further context i was born in panama and now live in the southern parts of the US so ive been living in damp heat for all my life lol #you very much get used to it #alternative: just sit on your porch or balcony? enjoy the air at least #i know not Everyone can do it but if you can you gotta try #it'll improve your quality of living

[tealchameleon]

#like why is this shit so hard to get #I am disabled in several ways and yet it’s #never been ‘enough’ for them to approve me #and so I work like dog until I burnout and have a breakdown #and since I have bills to pay I go back to work #rinse and repeat #can’t describe to you how much my quality of life would improve if I could even just work part time instead of full time #but that’s America for ya! #fuck america #disabled #polls

[menstits]

this is a 100% slash gen question but how do you stay motivated to keep playing genshin after this long? i first got it back when it was still pretty new, around the second ever banner, and played it for a good year but the more things they kept adding the more overwhelmed it started to make me. i do miss it tho, so i wonder how you manage to still play it so consistantly

In all honesty for most of my time playing genshin i've been obsessed with a handful of early game characters (kaeya and his ugly brother and childe mostly, and they're still my faves) and largely didn't give a shit about everyone else, so up until like halfway through sumeru i was playing like. Waiting for kaeya/abyss and khaenri'ah related lores to drop mostly. Like in all honesty especially during inazuma it was dire i didn't give a shit about 90% of the cast and the environment was unpleasant to explore too 🧍‍♂️ but after getting past the samsara part of the sumeru archon quest i started getting genuinely more invested in the storyline. When i got to fontaine i expected it to be a bit of a filler region honestly but the writing quality has been steadily increasing after inazuma imo and the conflicts have become more engaging too... Like i think the main issue for me in inazuma was that they kept trying to get me to give a shit about some npc whereas several of the playable characters felt underutilized and their presence kinda pointless. From sumeru onwards they've started writing the playable cast as more fleshed out and interconnected to one another which is something that i was really missing from early game, and this is even more apparent in fontaine's writing too where everyone has some kind of beef going on with everyone else (it was really fun imo how everyone in mondstadt knows each other because it's a small town and i wasn't really hoping to see that degree of characters being all up in each other's business again in later regions so fontaine was a nice surprise in that regard).

As for your question honestly i think that. In order for genshin to be enjoyable at some point you have to allow yourself to not give a shit about whatever doesn't compel you and instead try to focus on what you do like, for example i kinda hate doing spiral abyss so I don't really touch it unless I'm pressed for primos and instead run around and explore a lot. For story quests i prioritize ones for characters I'm already invested in and leave others for whenever I don't have anything better to do. I'm an insane completionist about this game but it's genuinely fine to focus on the parts you personally find more engaging. I guess sumeru was annoying because long as fuck world quests gate the exploration of certain areas, but fontaine is MUCH better in that regard and the world quests feel much more manageable.

Also tbh i think the increasing relevance that khaenri'ah/abyss and celestia-related stuff has both in the world quests and in the main story along with more harbingers making on screen appearances also contributed to keeping my interest active because that's what I'm mostly invested in other than kaeya-centric stuff 👍

#sorry for the rambling answer tl;dr is that the writing quality improved a lot and sumeru and fontaine the open world areas are #significantly less eye strainy and annoying to traverse so the open world is also more pleasant #AND you can dive in pretty much every water body of fontaine I'm super obsessed with that it's so fun #asks #anonymous #but yeah also honestly this game is literally kaeya impact to me #i literally cannot get into any other hoyo games because they don't have kaeya in them. #and even at its most dull they brought him up just often enough that I didn't ever feel inclined to drop it because i was like #next kaeya crumb is just around the corner

[fakeasmr]

trying to redo the clumsy necromancer series for the millionth time listening to the originals like "damn bitch you really thought these were acceptable to post???"

#the acting #the sound quality #the breathing #the white noise #girl this is embarrassing #i redid one part of it in 2021 and i refuse to do it again and it's going to be the worst part of this half hour video #bitch why do you breathe so much and so loudly!???? #the thing about improving is you can't tell day to day #the difference between my acting then and now is staggering and I'm not even that good now

[seravphs]

I’m scared to post knight Gojo thank you for being so nice to me about it bffs 💛

#I’m nervous! I’m so nervous!! #thinking about the John Green quote about potential and fear of failure #knight Gojo is really scary to me because the last project I think people really liked from me was Teen Dad Gojo #which I've made my peace with even though I used to be really embarrassed of it but if I peaked at sixteen #I could not continue to live with myself that's so embarrassing #knight gojo is my attempt at showing how much I've improved but what if I finish it and I realize I actually haven't improved at all #you don't understand how much this idea horrifies me #I don't want to be frozen in time like any living thing I want to grow! #I'm not normally this insecure about my writing because I am at heart just a blockhead who just bulldozes through life driven by impulse bu #I think Mao talked about this once but there's a chart for growth and at some point your ability to criticize your own work exceeds your #ability to create because you're good enough to recognize quality but not good enough to manufacture it #anyway! knight gojo is going out tomorrow and I'm going to stop being a baby about it and if it sucks it sucks and I keep learning #thanks for being here with me guys <3 let's have a sleepover after I drop the fic <3

[journey-to-the-attic]

IVE JUST FINISHED THE NEW CHAPTER AND

GOOOOOOOD

IM SOBBING SO BAD

IT DOESN'T HELP ETERNAL STARTED PLAYING ON MY SPOTIFY AUGHAUAGAHAUGAGAU

it's okay.. take my hand.. remember that they'll be in each other's hearts forever....

jokes aside thank you for reading!!! <33

#answering asks #tellodona #the mention of eternal reminds me #there's a sort of pattern with the brother ensemble songs where it goes like #1. a more upbeat dance-y number with more whimsical lyrics #then 2. a love song #it goes like #it's my party / eternal #on your way / with you #and to a lesser extent spooky night parade / magic moment #as much as the production quality has improved over the songs i have such a soft spot for eternal #it just feels so earnest

[uncanny-tranny]

Congrats on the 2 years in hormones my dude! Fuck yeah!

Question: What has your personal timeline for changes in T been like?

I'm 2 months away from starting it myself, so I like hearing what/when other people experienced changes. (I know it's different for every person)

It's times like these where I wish I'd have been much more attentive and documented changes much closer. For anybody about to go on hormones: take pictures, write about all the changes you notice and when. It's actually something I regret not having done, even if it would have been really hard.

I'm going to break down the changes into sections in the order of when I noticed them start, since I personally think that's easier! I'll try to remember all the changes I can, but I might miss some.

MENTAL HEALTH:

Within the first month or so, I was already starting to feel shifts in my mental health. It would be a while before those changes settled, but it felt like I went from being exposed to a construction zone for twenty hours a day to being in a silent room.

As the months went on, I've started being able to actually feel normal, and while I still have other mental health issues beside dysphoria, I'm not clouded by the dysphoria. I'm able to feel a much fuller range of emotions - before, I pretty much exclusively felt sad, bitter, depressed, numb, morose, and like I was always in danger. Now, I'm able to feel happiness, contentment, even sadness and anger. The difference is that now, I'm not trapped in the sadness and anger. I'm so much less a danger to myself. The stereotype that testosterone turns you into a rage monster is false in most cases, and it severely underestimates and misrepresents how feelings are changed on testosterone.

SEXUALITY:

I noticed around a few months in that my body was developing much differently, and of course, that bottom growth was starting. I was nervous that it would be as painful as some others have described, but I have never once felt pain because of this. The closest I would say is that it was uncomfortable when I noticed it, such as if fabric brushed against my body too closely. It's also a stereotype that bottom growth is "gross," and this is also uncharitable to say about other peoples' bodies. It's simply the changes that some people experience as they transition, and for me, it affirms my maleness.

I also started to finally realize and accept I'm aroace because I'm on testosterone. A lot of my denial came from this idea that my dysphoria and transness were things I must atone for and that I was worthless as a person because my manhood was through a trans lense. Now, I don't give a fuck, and I am a bit bitter that I even thought that my transness was a sin I must atone for with things I didn't need or want.

VOICE:

A lot of my vocal changes happened pretty suddenly. Within the first month, I think I started noticing vocal cracks. It was painful sometimes, and honestly, it could be embarrassing when I was around other people or when I was at work. That dissipated once my voice settled, and I'm confident that I will unlikely see more drops in my voice.

This is what my pitch has done throughout my documenting of it:

On a somewhat related note, everybody has what is called the "Adam's apple." It is a feature of the human neck, and while some people have prominent ones, others don't - regardless of sex, regardless of gender. As my vocal chords had thickened, my larynx became more prominent, and my Adam's apple was also more visible than it was before. It feels very weird if I accidentally whack it with my hand (something that's happened far too many times).

Vasculature:

My veins started being more prominent than before - especially in the hands. My arms are only slightly noticeable with regards to veins. Of course, I notice it most strongly when my blood is flowing, like at work, or at the gym. My veins are something technicians have complimented me about when I am doing lab work, though, and whether that is directly because of testosterone is something I'm not sure of. Regardless, changes in my veins have been very much a blessing for me.

Musculature:

I found that around the year mark, I was gaining much more muscle than before. I noticed it mostly in my arms due to the fact that I do a lot of lifting at my job. It's a lot easier for me to gain muscle, but I do still have to train them. Since I have been going to the gym much more frequently, I've been noticing that my calves and thighs have been gaining a lot in terms of muscle. It's kind of weird to feel how hard my muscles have gotten at times.

BODY/FACIAL HAIR:

I've always had a bit of body hair, so it only became more prominent on testosterone. I've noticed that I've just recently been growing more stomach and chest hair, though.

With regards to my facial hair, it is mostly collected in the middle of my chin, and I find I have to shave it either weekly or biweekly because I personally don't want it there. My mustache is still very fine in colour in many places, though there are dark spots of hair forming.

Body Fat Redistribution:

I've noticed that my body fat has only recently moved a bit. It's gathered toward my stomach and only slightly moved away from my hips, so now, my hip bones and structure are more visible. However, I don't think I will see my body shape change drastically as I am already built like the other men in my family. We all have thicker thighs and hips and broad shoulders, and these are quite literally all things I had pre-medical transition.

Throughout my transition, my testosterone levels have been steady after the first six months. It sits at roughly 600NG/dL nowadays, though I am well overdue for labs again. I am well within the healthy range for a male my age and weight, and I have never felt more at peace with this.

Your journey will be uniquely and unequivocally yours, and it is painted with the colours of not only you but your familial history. That's a beautiful thing, and I hope you are blessed with all the changes you could ever want.

#ask #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #transition timeline #long post #this took so long lmaooo #but i can't understate how much testosterone improved my quality of life #if you asked me to rate my life 1-10 pre-testosterone i would have said 2 in a heartbeat #now i'd rate it like... 8.5? only because i still Experience The Horrors of Life #dysphoria tw #and thank you!!! <3

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

i want it known and i say this in full sincerity

u could make the best point about something rise-related in the world in a post. u could say something very interesting and funny and cool.

but if at any point u try to draw a line from a thing to the conclusion “raph is/was not fit to be leader” im gonna disregard everything else about that post, bc there is a base level fundamental misunderstanding there

#rottmnt raph #rottmnt #like...... he was not any more OR less suited to it than any of the bros would be.... tbh #and he ultimately did a genuinely VERY good job #we watched him learn and grow and improve and always try his best! #with the primary motive of keeping his brothers safe! #like idgi people love to say that and then make a point about XYZ qualities in leo that make him Really More Suited or whatever but #does leo not uhhh #not spend whatever timeskip between the series and movie not being a very good leader #does he not spend most of the movie not being very good at it and have to learn and grow and improve? #like just bc they both have different strengths and weaknesses AS leaders doesnt mean one is better or worse than the other #its so so so so not a competition like in rise so much of the POINT is the lack of contention about this EXACT thing #you can like leo as a leader and his good qualities without trying to sell that raph wasn't amazing too

[yellowhollyhock]

Day 2 of tmaynt, here's 1987 April! well, sorta XD

She's such a queen! Daredevil feminist career woman lesbian. What's not to love? My favorite thing is when she's caught somewhere she isn't supposed to be, either by bad guys or law enforcement, and defends herself with "I am a member of the press!" She's just utterly fearless.

look she wears boots and a belt AND a watch? She got pockets she got the time, she probably got a camera, she can literally go anywhere and do anything.

#tmnt #tmnt 1987 #1987 april #tmaynt #strongly recommend doing art that you aren't good at im having so much fun coloring #soon i will do it from laptop instead of phone and the quality will improve significantly

[hippo-pot]

C through G got smudged and didn't photograph well (I really have to draw stuff darker if I don't want it to lose all clarity when it smudges, or buy better pencils I guess), and there's only so much I wanted to mess with photo settings tonight, but having never really tried to draw hands before, here's how it's going. I've been drawing these over the past week or so, I guess 11 in total since that's how many letters there are from A to P

she can be taught

#i feel like the photo manipulation did some work in the last one. like no way did I draw the O that good #or no you know what. it's more that the photo smooths stuff out because my phone camera just isn't that powerful #like in my actual sketchbook you see the pencil marks so much more #it would actually be nice to have a good phone camera #my husband's phone camera is probably literally 100x more powerful #maybe more. idk how you measure camera #but with mine it looks grainy the instant you zoom in a little. and with his you can zoom in soooo much #also wait i just wanna add. the quality is improving but it still takes so long #and if it's the first drawing of the day? spend forever just figuring out where to start. end up erasing all my initial line attempts #that's where i'm at now lol #took photos of my other drawings so i wouldn't have to start q