Reflecting on yesterdays post about self care etc.
It just occurred to me that maybe im switching off communication from others because I'm protecting myself from being disappointed again.
Recently I was talking to a guy, he decided to ghost me and later on I found out he was talking to another woman. It hurt because he couldn't be truthful with me. He just let me beat myself up and attack my own self esteem, that was the event that made me switch off
I have been let down so many times by others in all areas of life. Right now I feel like I have to protect myself from falling into a dark place again.
Lets begin with " taking care of yourself is in no way selfish" .
I have started switching off communication to the world every so often. Particularly when I feel I'm overwhelmed from all the moaning and self pitying people do. If someone messages me, they will get a reply when I'm good a ready. I dont care about missing out or being guilt tripped because I wasn't there for someone's crisis (that isn't actually a crisis). I don't care if I missed a good party, telling me so will not make a difference.
Is it wrong to be in a head space where you really just don't give a damn about other people, their lives and problems. All you want to do is what makes you happy and stress free, have some you time and forget the world.
What I do care about, is my wellbeing, and you know what.......thats ok 😊.