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3000 year old petroglyph of a man running away from a big snake. With erection. It is one of the many Rock carvings in Tanum, Sweden and was painted red so its easier for tourists to see.

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I slept like a baby the past few nights and now I’m anxious and wish I could smoke but I am MJless in my parents house and I work at 9 tomorrow

#pinterest #roomdecor #wine bottle #guitar #bottledesign #poster

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When I was 16 my sister found my diary. Up to that point I had kept diaries for years and had filled several of them. This particular diary was full of emo drawings, hateful complaints about my life and family, and accounts of my relationship (that had ended by then) with a very unpleasant and unattractive boy.

Reading and gloating to herself about its contents was not enough for my younger sister. She came to me, informed me she had found it, and began reading its contents aloud to me as I begged her to stop. The worse and more mortifying to remember the contents became for me, the more I begged her to stop. I cried, sobbed and tried leaving the room as I couldn’t get the diary away from her. She followed me. Probably would have been funny to watch, I ended up running around as she ran after me. She literally screamed as she read to force me to hear, and she laughed too.

That was the last diary I ever filled and the last one that ever really even made it past the start. I’ve tried multiple times over the 4 years that have gone by since but I just cannot do it. For a long time I had an intense fear of my thoughts making it out of my head and into the mind of another person. The thought of someone reading what I meant to keep private made me want to crawl out of my own skin. Eventually, I think I couldn’t keep it out of laziness or maybe depression and smoking actually killed my brain cells because every time I sat there with a notebook trying to write something, I couldn’t think of anything that I felt deserved to be written down, aside from thoughts I was convinced were very important when I was intoxicated. I can type. It seems like less work than with paper and less real, more destructible but also untouchable, if I want. With a diary I felt it wasn’t work but it was a work, if that makes sense. I don’t know if a collection of tumblr captions can be a work, un obra. Idk 👾

#europe #madridspain #diary #reading diary #sisters #bad boyfriend #emo memes #emo moment #private #privacy #travel #business class

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I didn’t realise how long had passed since I posted on tumblr. It was nice to go through and see my old notes—I loved Madrid and wanted to find out how to stay there and I did, at least for another year. I transferred universities so I could finish my degree in Spain. I have healed a lot in many ways and I love my life there. Currently I am in the US visiting family for a couple months until classes start again. I hadn’t been back in almost a year, hadn’t seen my father at all for all that time.

#madridcity #europe #madridspain #european union #university #transfer #transfer student #new life begins #healing #depresion #twenty #formal #long dress #gala #blond girl #blondie #expat

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I LOVE STAINED GLASS

(Casa Lis Art Deco museum, Salamanca ES)

the reason I started looking at my current university is because I didn’t know what to study and it had stained glass windows—so it went on the list.

#studyabroad #madridcity #aesthetic #europe #travel #delicate #museums #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #art history #clubbing #artgallery #spain photographs #art #girlblogging #collection #food #college aesthetic #outfitinspo #inspo #artcafe #artmuseum #art community #fairy tale vibes #grandmas house #salamanca #1930s vintage #vibrant #color #stained glass #bookshop

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art noveau cafe in the casa Lis museum in the small city of Salamanca, Spain.

Lovely environment in here, beautiful quiet place to sit on old furniture and just bask in the vibes.

#snoop dog acquires death row records cnn #madridcity #salamanca #ciudaduniversitaria #ciudad #artdeco #clubbing #mutuals #inspo #lana is god #retro #aesthetic #ambience #atmosphere #kewpie #jade #green #stained glass #artcafe #tour #travel #europe #museums #delicate #culture #cafe #unique #Nabokov #cassie skins #cassie euphoria

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Art Deco museum in the small city of Spain—such a pleasant surprise 🐸

#artdeco #art noveau #flapper #the great gatsby #art community #museums #artmuseum #1920s hollywood #circa 1930 #studyabroad #aesthetic #kewpie #stained glass #catedral #europe #travel #salamanca #frog #university life #ciudaduniversitaria #vintage #aethetics #retro #classic #beauty

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daily

Smoking on the balcony contributing absolutely nothing to society

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yes.

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Took a walk in the park today

#Madrid #Spain #España #pink #flowers #flower aesthetic #cherry #cherry blossom #coquette #park #cottagecore #spring #March #new #food #walk #pratiecore #inspo

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blue

#madridcity #aesthetic #europe #travel #museums #food #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #clubbing #spain photographs #girlblogging #blue #blue aesthetic #mutuals #holographic #holo #hologram #carbs #soup #Velasquez #Prada #bugeyes #fawn #ufo #neon #inspo

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it’s February and ofc there’s daisies in Spain

#summer #daisies #passion #story #park #nature #cottagecore #cottage #floral #flower #margarita #manzanilla #parque #Madrid #cute flowers #flower shop #grass #calming

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idk

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Cadiz, Spain.

i just need to put it in writing somewhere, I decided to try to quit smoking and every time I go a day or half a day without smoking I spiral and get so sad and cry and think about everything that used to make me so hopeless—it shouldn’t be that deep it’s just cigarettes but I forget that’s why i feel this way. I just don’t know how long I can go without bc I don’t want to feel this way and think about these things. if anyone reads this any tips on quitting would be appreciated

#cadiz #spain photographs #studyabroad #aesthetic #europe #travel #art history #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #art #college aesthetic #girlblogging #quitting #nic #withdrawal #send help

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I’m not going to post the pics but my friends and I went to the beach yesterday and all of us took our tops off—all very wasted lol. Our profesor got us catamaran tickets earlier in the day and the boat had a bar—u can guess how that went.