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i think i have a crush on you once again, the chances are slim because i just seem to like the “wrong” people? but i think i handle it better this time it takes me over a year to sort of get out of that mess, i definitely learn a lot from that horrific experience

like that snail in the picture, slowly but surely

#finding love again #crush #overcoming heartbreak #unrequited love #moving forward #iloveyou #emotional trauma #trama

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left me a scar for the rest of my life

#i miss you #unrequited love #iloveyou #broken #moving forward #life

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this too shall pass.. right?

#grief #recovery #healing #broken #heartbreak #life #moving on

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finding myself again.

#toxic situation #destroyed #holding on #letting go #memory #i still love you #attachment #unrequited love

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where do i stand in this world? still searching still healing

#broken people #Broken heart #unrequited love #push me away #emotions #moving on #healing #unmotivated

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one of my flashback staycay and at my place, i couldn’t shake that off

i was strong and hustling for 10 full days but alas, one flashback and i wasted my day doing nothing but crying and trying not to kill myself

#imissyou #cuddling #iloveyou

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it’s not you.. it’s me honestly if i wasn’t serious about you, your rejection towards me definitely won’t hit me this hard till today i still can’t be happy for the both of you no matter how hard i try i feel so unfair, how he’s treating you, i can do the same in a heartbeat i cannot be around people anymore, i don’t want to be too attached and get hurt like this over again. i am not your garbage, i don’t get thrown away after you are done with me. i don’t appreciate getting ignored at ; yeah it suits best for them. oh wait yes we are all selfish. 

people like us get left behind, for the much stronger ones, they crawl out of it

#trauma #childhood #love #appreciation #too much #rejected #dismissed #past

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my head:

- super unmotivated - not having the will the live - suicidal thoughts  - still in so much pain despite trying my hardest to be “okay” - avoiding the world because i’m just too mentally drained - trying not to cry when i saw the love of my life with someone else - but who am i kidding? i still cry for hours - genuinely in love with you but it’s so unfair because i was different  - i try to hate you but it didn’t work  so mess up but life still goes on

who else is feeling this right now?

#unmotivated #thoughts #suicidal #depression #iloveyou #hope #mental breakdown #love

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another sleepless night cranky me, my eyes are so painful but my day has to go on </3

#heartbroken #broken #Broken heart #mindbodysoul #iloveyou #healingjourney #letting go

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how can i make my brain understand to stop trying, to stop feeling that things will turn around to stop blaming myself for being inadequate  to stop feeling ashamed for my behaviour to stop reminiscing the good time, for wanting more, the impossible i knew and there’s nothing more i can do to stop these mental torture

she isn’t the one you knew anymore she didn’t choose you your heart is so broken there’s nothing more you can do you deserve to be free try

#emotions #needs #needy #this is depressing #life #love #letting go

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I'm Cake turned 1 today! That was cute. I started this because i couldn’t tell my crush everything escalated well and i was all over the moon but what was i thinking? loving somebody who kind of don’t feel the same way towards me and was in love with someone else my world was crushed for the past year, i wasn’t myself anymore if i am going to feel like this for any longer, i really don’t wish to live anymore have i tried to live differently? i did.  but it’s never enough. it’s broken, everything is broken

#tumblr birthday #tumblr milestone #iturn1 #birthday

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constant hamster wheel i like this, emotionless moment is this progress?

#letting go #hurt #impossible #love #meh #life

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assigning me a drop-off that requires me to glance through your window really gave me a lot of anxiety if it’s dark i wonder where you are, are you on your way home or are you with your love ones or stuck with work if there’s light, i wonder what you doing and if you would like to grab an ice cream with me or you could be busy with work.  i cannot expect you to talk to me frequently no matter how much i want to. but the anticipation doesn’t make my anxiety go away and i really want to know more. i dare not text you because i am afraid of being a creep. judging by your behaviour towards me, it’s obvious  and now im just sucking it up by crying all night and try to feel better because i’m suppose to let it go because i’m suppose to NOT fall in love in with you because you don’t feel the same way sad blobs 

#love #missingyou #feeling #anxiety #One-sided love #life #complicated #unfair #hanging on

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last night was one of the roughest night i had so far non stop tearing and extreme sadness managed to get some sleep and woke up hours later and ... repeat i am really trying to love myself more, giving myself the attention like i would for her but i’m so exhausted managing all this crap and feeling so darn broken  i know it wasn’t fair and she won’t like me the same way if the universe is not going to let me die soon what more can i do to feel “normal”?  this version of myself really suck, no one should ever feel this way i really don’t want to live like this. not another day.. please

#tears #love #letting go #feeling #rough #depression #hurt

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i can’t be around people, they make me sad they reminded me of her convincing myself that i don’t need her/anyone to be happy i can do this on my own even if i feel like giving up even if i feel like i don’t deserve anything everyday i wonder when will be the day that i can be free where i don’t have to cry about the same thing for the past year i should be proud of who i am. 🌈

#rainbow #queer #love #acceptance #rejection #bisexual pride

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you know what helps? being by my side resisting that for over a year i hasn’t stop crying what happen to time will heal i have this wound that never heal and it’s bloody painful every single time

#sad #letting go #happy #time #love #frustration #loving you #chance #choice

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Please calm down No matter how much that hurt you You need to be strong Yes you failed again... Take a few steps backward and slowly work towards that “base line” You don’t need her to make you happy She didn’t accept you, she didn’t want to talk to you anymore Walk away.. Be free.