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strawberrytata · 2 years

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falling in love with you ; bts

| gender neutral reader |

seokjin

he notices it when he can't stop staring at you and everything you do

it's like magnetic how everything he sees you do is attracting him

he doesn't seem to stop thinking about you and how good you two could be

how amazing a future would be if he had you like he wanted to

maybe he was a bit ahead of himself but it's like his mind was going faster than him

inviting you over wasn't a good idea if all he could do was listen to you and just stare

you thought there was something wrong with your face or something

but then it made you blushed profusely when it wasn't and it just was

"i actually can't stop thinking about you and how in love with you i am"

yoongi

it was the little actions that you did for him and the rest of the boys

how you were there for him always when he needed someone to rely on

when it was all getting too much, no matter the time or the day he knew he could count on you

it was hard for him to accept his feelings

he never felt that way before about someone so deeply

he cared about you, about how your day went, about how your family was doing, about everything

to everyone else he couldn't be more obvious

but to you it really wasn't even if people told you, you just refused to believe it until he told you

"i think i fell in love with you and it's the most beautiful thing that happened to me"

hoseok

you lit up the room to him when you walked and even more when you directed towards him

it was impossible not to adore you in his eyes

he even felt insecure about how much he wanted to have you but was scared to even take action

but he wouldn't give up, he really wanted to confess in some sort of way romantic way

it didn't end up happening as he was talking to yoongi and you overheard a bit without wanting to

he couldn't stop blushing and you were the same way as yoongi left you two to figure it out

no words were being said until you put an end to it and said that you felt the same way but were as scared as he was

he couldn't stop smiling after that as he gave you a little peck and he whispered

"there's nothing to be scared of if we got each other now"

namjoon

he didn't want to fall in love but it was impossible when he realized that he did

he found his soulmate, you literally completed him and made him a better man

you were there to go to every museum, every cafe, to take every photo of him and cherish the memory forever

he was so lucky to have found a person that blended with him so well

love was such a scary thing to him at one point but right now it burned right through him

as he appeared on your apartment door with a bouquet and one chance to make it right

you opened up the door to find him and immediately know what's coming but you can't help the tears of joy

"i honestly think you're the one & only for me"

jimin

he knew he fell in love hard when he saw you in the crowd at one of their concerts

he wanted to keep you there forever

just cheering for him & the rest of the boys then going backstage to see them and hugging him first

it was all too much and he knew he had to said something right then and there

not caring about anything or anyone he took the chance as you walked towards the tour bus to say your goodbyes

he said he wanted to see you on the rest of the tour

you thought he was joking but then saw how serious he was and that's when you realized

"please join me, i need the love of my life cheering me on in every city"

taehyung

he wasn't used to feeling the butterflies & fireworks

but when they started happening he couldn't stop them as he hugged you

you had just come to visit him on his hometown 'cause apparently he had been missing you (the boys said)

that small thing was such a big deal to him

maybe what he actually wanted was a future with the person who always support him the most by his side

nothing else really mattered as he grabbed your hands

he smiled so bright and it made you smile as well but then not believing when he said

"i love you as more than a friend, i love you on a soulmate level"

jungkook

he chased you around the whole place as he wanted to spend time with you

he couldn't help but be the most obvious of every single one of them but he didn't care

jungkook realized when he just couldn't seem to get enough of you

he wanted you for himself, to know every single detail about you, all the things you love & hate

everyone told him to confess but it was never the right time

until he felt jealous of seeing you with another guy so when he took your hand and dragged you out of there, you were just plain confused

you looked at him waiting for an explanation but all you got was

"i want to be your boyfriend, nothing would make me happier than that"

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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someone flirts with you and he gets jealous ; bts

| gender neutral reader |

seokjin

you notice something is wrong when he suddenly becomes quiet

but then he's wanting to catch your attention with silly jokes

becomes more affectionate to show you that you're his

it's like a million little thoughts going through his head of someone wanting to take you away from him

that wasn't the case but he still felt that way at the moment

was relieved when you two walk away from the person who was clearly flirting as you noticed it as well

when you realize what was happening you can't help but tease him

"just want you all to myself so yeah maybe i am jealous"

yoongi

oh he's not mad but he's getting there

he feels like this person is bluntly flirting with you but you don't see it

so he resorts to being a pouty & bitter individual

he didn't mind going out with you but when these things happened, he just wanted to leave

he wanted to be in his home with his s.o. & no one else

as soon as the person walks away, he turns you around and gives you a kiss

you giggle in the middle of it as you loved a jealous yoongi but then you reassure him he's the only one for you

"glad to know cus i don't want anyone else but you"

hoseok

god he doesn't notice at first but when he does he's kind of scared

not because he thinks he's gonna lose you but because he doesn't wanna come across as the overprotective boyfriend

he just stands there awkwardly and waits for all of it to be over

when the person doesn't seem to walk away, he doesn't have another option

he puts his arm around your waist and introduces himself

and then suddenly the person goes so he knew he was right, they were flirting

you find that weird as you didn't notice it but then hoseok points it out and you're like "oh :/"

"jagi you need to realize this, i can't stand watching you with these idiots"

namjoon

he knows what's happening very clearly

he doesn't like it one bit and that's when full on protective mode comes out

you look at him weirdly cus you know the look on his face but don't say anything as you talk to this person

then it hits you when he's cutting the crap and telling the person off to go away cus you have a boyfriend

it was pretty hot you weren't gonna lie, 10/10 jealous namjoon

the person eventually goes away and you look at him, not knowing of to thank him or make out with him right there

he sighs, he hated to be that way but he felt like he didn't have any more options

"i'm sorry, it's just you're mine and people need to know that"

jimin

oh god if yoongi is pouty then jimin is the master of it

he really wants to catch your attention and show in a way that you're his

he can't help but feel overshadowed by the person and the fear of you living is stronger than anything in his body

you love him unconditionally, you wouldn't do that to him but insecurities are a bitch

noticing how he was getting, you already knew were his mind went so you said goodbye to the person suddenly

you hug your poor baby boy as you kiss him on the cheek, whispering sweet words to him

he wasn't the mad type of jealous but he is definitely the most jealous

"don't ever let me go darling"

taehyung

this one is kind of like namjoon, he just stands there watching it unfold and knows exactly what's going on

he doesn't let it go on for too long

he makes it clear that you're his s.o. and that you're not interested

it's kind of hot 2.0 and you blush as you see him

he apologizes to you because he doesn't like when you see that side of him

but you kind of want to make him jealous from now on just to see that

and with that mischievous smirk, he knows what you're thinking

"don't you even dare, i love you but no"

jungkook

confused baby as in "isn't it obvious that we're dating" when he's standing right there

the person won't walk away and that's jungkook's worst nightmare to be honest

he doesn't know how to intervene as he watches the scene unfold

but when he saw the look on your face of pure exhaustion, he introduces himself just like hobi as the boyfriend

and then the person just seems to go away and he felt like a weight off of his chest

you thank him and give him a little kiss but he needs it to be longer as he grabs you by the waist and pulls you closer to him

"what was that about kookie?"

"just needed to remind you who you belong to i guess"

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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you have a crush on him but he's with someone else ; bts

| gender neutral reader ; angst |

a / n: thank you for all the love & support you give my reactions, means the absolute world to me

seokjin ♦

it was the perfect time but it suddenly was washed away with pure pain & heartbreak

seeing someone else stand next to him brought out the worst in you but you hid it under a fake smile

a hug was all you could give him when you needed so much more

but you knew better than that and you hoped in the end that happiness was all that he was receiving

the introduction was subtle and as soon as the words "significant other" were said, it felt like a punch in the throat

you wished so badly for so many years that seokjin would look at you with adoring eyes

it was all left in the dust after that night

yoongi ♦

this was worse than being rejected

you didn't even get to experience him saying "no", you were just replaced without a chance to show your love

the unconditional love that you had for yoongi that made you feel so high was now bringing you basement low

the love in their eyes as they spoke about each other, it was all too much and yet you were feeling numb

numb because you thought you had a chance, numb because you didn't confess in time

you excused yourself out of the room as the tears started to roll down your face

no spot was being taken from you 'cause you never had it in the first place

hoseok ♦

god you adored how happy he looked and how bright he seemed, over the clouds even as he looked at them

but it was like twisting the knife in your heart slowly as they kissed and shared little laughs

hoseok was your first love, your first crush and you wanted him to be your first everything

but never got to say those simple words to him and now it was an instant to late to do so

you cared more about him and his well being than your stupid crush

but it wasn't so stupid anymore

as you felt like everything crashed down within you and that stupid crush was realizing you fell in love with someone taken

namjoon ♦

how could he not find someone? it was impossible to not love kim namjoon you thought

they were perfect for him in every way, shape or form and you couldn't help but compare yourself

it made everything so much worse and it broke you into millions of pieces

this is what you were stuck being : the best friend who had his back when he would get heartbroken

but it seemed like they were two pieces of a puzzle that would last for eternity and the fact that you might never get to tell him how you felt scared you

you were not going to ruin his relationship because of your feelings

you would just have to get used to being the second choice

jimin ♦

the way they held jimin in their arms as you talked to them made you want to leave immediately

it was making you feel so uncomfortable and out of place or it might be just exaggeration

but at that moment it felt like it was on purpose like they were mocking you

your stupid crush on jimin maybe was obvious to everyone and this was just a heavy prank that you were being put against

that's when you took your things and left to everyone's confusion and jimin's shock

but feelings were too much and everything was messing with your head like a game

taehyung ♦

you were trapped in a cell while everyone including jimin moved on but you didn't, you just stayed there waiting for him when you knew he wasn't gonna release you

he looked so happy to be telling you that he found someone and as soon as you saw them, it all felt unreal

you had your confession letter in your bag 'cause you wanted him to knew how you felt

but then his hands around their waist and the dreamy look in his eyes as they watched them happened

and you were frozen, trying to not stutter your words as you introduced yourself

the best friend you were, from childhood but that's what you were the best friend only

the one who had a crush on him since five years old and never ever got into a relationship, saving everything for him

but here you guys were in the complete opposite scenario and your trembling hands were destroying the letter as you threw into the trash when you left

jungkook ♦

this was the worst possible way to confess

just seeing him make out with them and the suddenly stopping when they see you and just smiling awkwardly

you just smiled and introduced yourself but inside everything was telling you to run the fuck away

and that you did as soon as you could

the cascade of tears were blurring your vision as you tried to walk back home

thinking you weren't good enough for the one you loved and all the insecurities came rushing back like an ocean

this really felt just like a bad ending of a movie

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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you comfort them when they’re on tour ; bts

track playing : butterfly by sody

butterfly, it's a lonely night

i need someone to talk to

jungkook dials your number he usually does this in the middle of the night knowing that you will pick up

it makes him feel kind of guilty for doing this but you told him countless of times that you didn't mind

venting towards you is a way to cope with his stress

he tries his best to let everything out at once with no pauses so that he makes it short for you

it leaves him feeling empty like every word was thrown away so quickly

like he's going to be judged for feeling the way he does

that obviously doesn't happen

you know how to comfort him but the best you do is your will to listen to him

you remember every detail that jungkook just threw at you

that amazing memory & care is what makes jungkook's heart beat faster

it's like you know exactly how to make him feel better

it's a long distance hug

if only he could close the distance gap

so butterfly, can you read my mind?

been struggling again, so

i came to find the wings you use to fly away

i wanna borrow them someday

taehyung calls whenever he has a break

it's when he feels the most bummed

he doesn't rant

he throws different sentences and you pick up the pieces of what his mind is doing

he feels like he's letting others down

like he's giving it his all but it's not enough

it's simply not true

popping up that bubble thought is hard

he really starts to believe himself but that's when you take his hand (metaphorically)

reassuring him that everyone around him knows how hard he works and how much he does for the group

the boys wouldn't like to see him struggle like this

with thoughts that are incorrect and quite literally everyone believes in him

that's what these conversations with you give him

more strength to push forward and believe in himself once again

'cause i've been fighting all the time

i'm kinda feeling dead inside

but you, you believe me

jimin calls when the world's getting the best of him

when the stress & the holding on to no one around him is messing with his head

he doesn't talk regularly about how he feels but with you it feels so easy and he doesn't waste his chance to let the tears flow as he speaks

it breaks your heart to hear him and how down he puts himself

how he seems to think that he's bringing everyone down by mistakes that weren't even there in the first place

you're not there with him but you know he tends to make things a bigger deal sometimes when they're small details

it's hard not to do that when your head is fighting your body & your heart

you calm him down, give him time to think, to process what actually happened and to talk it out with the boys

they would never be mad at him over anything and mistakes can happen even if it's a lyric or a choreography gone wrong, you're sure they'll understand

jimin feels like a weight is off his chest when talking to you

he didn't wanna fight anymore, he wanted to pull through

and he was going to 'cause you believed in him like nobody else did

and when i'm feeling down

you're always around

and you remind me how

real growth takes time

namjoon doesn't have a time to call but when he does he always calls you

being a leader can lead to an amount of exhausting requests that make his mind go crazy

he never takes time for himself, he's always busy trying to drown himself in work that sometimes isn't even that important

but to him his job is everything and he didn't wanna lose that

today wasn't a particularly good call since he felt like crying and breaking the stuff around him but as soon as he heard your reassuring voice, he just sat there

he just sat there listening to you, to your comforting whispers through the phone

how he needs to take time to process what he was doing

he was an amazing leader but everyone around him would want him to take care of himself, of his mental health

he feels so lucky to have you in his life

to be able to have someone who sees him as much more than just bts' leader

to love him unconditionally for being namjoon and just namjoon

and when i'm feeling low

i see you and i know

still got a way to go

real growth takes time

butterfly

hoseok takes his time when he needs to call you

he wants everything to be perfect but today when he wasn't feeling the most perfect at all, he couldn't put an effort

when you pick up and hear the tone of his voice, you know exactly what he's gonna say and what the rants are gonna be about

it's about feeling left out & out of place

when he's with you it feels like you two fit together like pieces in a puzzle but being so far away now, it complicated things for him

it simply felt like he was trying to follow a group dynamic that wasn't built for him anywhere except with the boys

sometimes he found himself crying over the fact that he couldn't seem to find a group of people that wanted him there

you knew clearly that hobi was insecure about something that he was only feeling cus you talked to everyone around him and you knew that having him in any room lit it up

you were gonna be there to listen to him and tell him the truth and that is that he was being listened to and adored by everyone cus you simply cannot hate him

you missed him like hell but you knew he was in good hands

and that brought a smile to his face and some unexpected tears

he felt on top of the world with such a supporting s.o.

butterfly, sit by my side

'cause lately i've been falling

from heights and i'm terrified

i'm always gonna feel like this

yoongi wasn't one for calls but he loved hearing your voice

specially right now when things seemed to be going downhill

he didn't express himself the best way but you still caught glimpses of what was going on in his head

how he was exhausted beyond words and how sometimes his mind was left blank, no ideas, no thoughts, just zero inspiration

he felt bad saying those things when he had the most beautiful muse by his side but the tiredness in his body was making him give up on everything

if you could you would be at his studio right now dragging him but as far away as you guys were, you couldn't and you knew the boys were just as exhausted as he is

you told him that he didn't need to be doing work 24/7, he didn't need to be inspired because the inspiration comes from different places and he was gonna find it

he couldn't sit around and hope for things to get to him

those would find it's way naturally to him and to those amazing lyrics he always wrote, to those beats that he produced, to everything he did

yoongi felt the tears run down his face as he listened to you

you knew exactly what to say all the time

that might be why he loves you the most and why he feels invincible with you

how did you learn to trust that

you'll become what you are destined to?

'cause i can't seem to find a way to get out of my bed today

but you

yeah, you believe in me

seokjin find it hard these days to call but when he did, it was because he really needed you by his side

it wasn't going well for him, it was hard to get out of bed and to make things possible for him to be excited about

he felt as if everything around him was changing constantly and he was so lost

everything moved on so fast and he was getting older and more self conscious of what he was becoming

he didn't know where to go or how to ask for help about this

you listened to every word as he ranted about everything & nothing but understanding exactly what he meant, you've been feeling it too

that sense of change in your relationship, with your friends and you told this to him

that he wasn't alone when he was being brought down by these thoughts

that you were right there beside him when the world was crashing down on you both

but asking for help wasn't wrong even if it was hard

he needed to get out of his bed and to talk to the boys about what was going on,

he couldn't be hooked on his insecurities and even if he did present himself as the most confident man, he had his breakdowns about not being good enough

he felt less alone knowing you were experiencing change with him and that you would be by his side

it wasn't perfect but he knew that with you it would be

you two were becoming untouchable

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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𝒂𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄 ; 𝒋𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒌𝒐𝒐𝒌 + 𝒎𝒂𝒇𝒊𝒂

fireside ; arctic monkeys

gold rush ; taylor swift

tear of god ; onlyoneof

fuck em only we know ; banks

it’s no good ; depeche mode

russian roulette ; the boyz

undisclosed desires ; muse

ride or die ; kai

mirrored heart : fka twigs

out of this world : the cure

tell me you love me ; sufjan stevens

the beach ; the neighbourhood

blue jeans ; lana del rey

playlist available here

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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you have an attack over your insecurities ; bts

tw : insecurities but it’s mostly just comfort & so much love <3

seokjin

the reassuring one

tries to fight your mind and makes you remember how strong & proud of you he is

even if you didn't believe him, he would simply be there for you trying to make you understand how he sees you

scared that you would continue you, he hugs you

and that's when everything seems to ground itself, when you feel his embrace

"you turn everything into something wonderful jagi"

yoongi

the comprehensive one

understands what you're going through and takes your hands in his to make you feel safe

gives you comforting words like how he views you, how you turned his life upside down and made him a better person then he could ever be

doesn't pressure you into anything

once you've calmed down he would hug you and kiss your forehead

"don't be so hard on your own beauty"

hoseok

the warming one

reminds you that you're home and that you're safe with him

wants you to know that he cares so much about you and that he's always gonna be there if you need him just like you were for him always

holds you, wiping your tears away and kissing your cheeks

shows you unconditional love with his actions

"i am the luckiest person just because i have you"

namjoon

the patient one

he would talk right back at you when you were going through a monologue over how bad you were

he didn't wanna push it but he simply lets you be until you're exhausted to the point where he goes to you and holds you

reassures you that you're none of those things, that you're so much more than words or actions can describe

sits you down in your bed and kisses you slowly but with all the love in the world

"stop giving your insecurities a chance, they're ruining darkening your shining light"

jimin

the embracing one

wouldn't want to let you go, would feel like his world is coming down when he hears you

he would shush & whisper everything you made him feel

just reminding you how happy he is with you and how everything is okay, with you, between the two of you and what the other people felt about you

would end up cuddling with you as the tears stopped

"no one comes close to what you make me feel"

taehyung

the consoling one

would listen to every single one of your words, would let you be like namjoon and would wait

would sit you down and look at you in the eye just making sure you realize that it isn't the way he sees you or anyone for that matter does

he tries to remind you of the good times, the bright moments between the two of you just to see your smile

he would love to hear your little laugh when he reminds you of your first date accidents

"everything's gonna be okay and nothing is going to stop us darling"

jungkook

the softening one

would try to slowly pick up the words you were saying and giving you a reason why it wasn't quite like that

would kiss your hands and hold them against him, would also kiss the tears away

also ends up cuddling you as your words are stopping and his are the only ones you can hear

the confidence in his voice as he speaks to you clearly on how you make him feel

"i want you to know that you're the only one i see"

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he sees you with your new s.o. after the break up ; bts

(inspired by know it all by the band camino)

seokjin

tries to avoid you but can't help looking and wondering what you saw in that person

was waiting for time to heal so he could ask you for a second chance

looks like he was beat to it

makes conversation with everyone except you two

it's like he's trying his best to make it seem like you're not there

but you are and you moved on

and you seemed so happy, he's never seen you this joyful before

and it breaks him into millions of pieces

yoongi

doesn't even notice you're with someone before approaching you to talk

when he does realize, he's embarrassed as hell

he becomes all jealous in an instant

but knows he can't do anything about it

he walks away and maybe even leaves the place

he simply cannot stand how his emotions are working against him

he takes a moment to breath, to remember that everything is okay

but he knows nothing is fine at all

hoseok

honestly heartbroken to see you moving on

it felt like since you left he was stuck in the same place (right where you left me starts playing)

he was waiting for you to come back to him

but now you were in someone else's arms

you looked so happy but he felt so betrayed by that happiness when he shouldn't have felt that way

it wasn't over for him

he would do anything to try and get you back

even if it meant waiting for someone else's turn to be over

namjoon

approaches you and tries to make casual conversation

it was all to pretend that he wasn't hurting and he knew it was for the best

being there and seeing you with someone else made him realize he needed to move on

despite it hurting so much, it felt like a dagger on his heart

but he knew what mattered was seeing you happy after all that you've been through

it ended for a reason

he felt a weight off of his chest

this was a new beginning for him and he needed that

jimin

now he wouldn't get it at all

how was he replaced so fast? like nothing happened?

he would struggle and would have to leave as well

tears would consume him as he remembered the good parts of your relationship

those highlights in his life wouldn't leave him alone

it's like he needed you in the worst kind of way

somehow knew you weren't coming back to him ever again

but there was always a flame of hope, a spark if you will of your love that lived with him

taehyung

oh he was jealous as hell

wouldn't want to walk over to you and just like jin, he would avoid you at any costs

he would try to make you as jealous as you're making him

it would be useless, you wouldn't care and he knew you didn't care

it finally tears him apart the fact that he doesn't get to touch you, love you, have you...

now it was someone else's touch you were lingering

when he himself couldn't even imagine being with someone that wasn't you

but he would have to do it for his own sanity

jungkook

he was so lost when he saw you walk in with them

it's like 100 realizations came in at once and he didn't know how to process any of them

he would 100% leave cus he couldn't take the pain

he wouldn't want to have a breakdown in the middle of a crowd

he saw the pity in your eyes as he walked away and it was worse

that moment of anger hit when he knew he should've done better

he could've saved the two of you, your relationship

he just simply chose not to and now he has to live with the consequences

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒐𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕?

𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅?

‘𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒅𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒕𝒆

hobi as reputation

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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faded moon ; jungkook

track playing : tiffany blews by fall out boy

cw: smoking & drinking ¡!

she had too many drinks & the dance floor was her best friend. i stared across the room as i waited and waited for this night to be over, being obviously dragged by her and her magnificent black dress to the endless loud music and the chanting from the crowd. it was an attempt to try to forget her ex and move on at least for tonight and if i said it was working i'd be lying. i could see the tears stained cheeks as the eyeshadow & the mascara were mixing themselves up on her lovely face and i wanted to stop her, to show her that this wasn't the way to do things, that moving on shouldn't have to be so painful.

i found myself dragging my feet towards her as i bumped into everyone but didn't care, just muttered a soft "sorry" and kept going and as soon as i got to her, i said:

"let's go home yeah?" we weren't that far away from our apartment complex, she had been my roommate for at least a year and god knows how fast i fell for her.

"kookie please let me stay! i'm having so much fun," she mumbled and her breath was pure alcohol in all it's glorious form. i was debating if i should throw her over my shoulder and just take her out of the damn place but i was probably gonna get called all kinds of things for that. "you can go but i really wanna stay," she said more clearly now even though i couldn't just leave her drunk and alone.

"i'm not gonna leave without you," i said firmly and hoped that would change her mind but i knew it was no use against the drunk (y/n) whose head was stuck somewhere else.

"i just need one partner to take home tonight and i'll be fine," she said, giving me thumbs up as she went to get herself another drink but as soon as i saw what she was doing i stopped her. "come on, you're no fun!" she said pouting and i dragged her outside even though she refused to move but then let herself go thinking we were going to the dancefloor probably.

the starless night felt so empty as she lit up a cigarette that she found god knows where and i couldn't stop her this time. we sat down on the pavement as we watched the taxis pass by, the drunken crowds living their best (or worst) life and felt the wind rise up. i slowly took my jacket off and put it around her shoulders even though she refused at first, i knew her better than the palm of my hand and she was shivering.

"you know this isn't going to bring sangyeon back," i said softly as she laid on my shoulder and she just nodded with no energy left in her tiny body to fight me back on this one. "i just want you to know that this isn't the way to go about things & that i hope you don't regret the damn hangover you're gonna get after this," i said and she just laughed and my heart skipped a beat.

"i promise i won't bother you in the morning," she said laughing and i knew that was a lie but honestly i couldn't care less about taking care of her, it was a pleasure if anything that she trusted me enough to do so. god i was getting sappy again, it's like my head can't stop. "let's go home kookie," she mumbled, taking my hand not knowing how much the gesture meant to me and i intertwined our fingers as i got up and helped her.

the moon lit up the way as we walked back home and i couldn't help but look at her and think: how clueless is she to not know that i've waiting for her for what feels like my whole life. i knew better than to confess right now when she was hurting but i hoped one day i could do so and could see that bright smile back on her face and hoped it would be the start of something wonderful for the both of us.

"stop looking at me, i know i'm a mess right now," she said as she tried to cover her face but i stopped her. she might've not known why i did that but it was enough to make her blush.

"you always look beautiful," i barely whispered as she walked into the building and knew she didn't hear me.

but she actually did and that forgotten smile came back to her face.

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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♡ we can slow dance to rock music ♡

♡ kiss while we do it ♡

♡ talk till we both turn blue ♡

(taehyung as lana del rey’s honeymoon)

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strawberrytata · 2 years

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i remember it all ; bts

track playing ; all too well (10 minute version) by taylor swift

'cause there we are again on that little town street

you almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over at me

wind in my hair, i was there

i remember it all too well.

taehyung was a distracted kind of lover. i could still see him staring at me and mouthing "i love you" every two seconds making me blush & giggle as i told him to stop and focus on the road. i wish everything could've been like that moment, simple little things that could give me a smile to remember everything without a broken heart. no matter what happened, all came crashing down for us like a spiral of endless catastrophic moments. i was hoping he would come back but at the same time i didn't want him to come through the door at all.

"if this is what you want then fine, leave! but please don't think i will fix you once you come back," i said and all i could feel was his glare piercing through me like a thousand bullets.

"then i won't, you won't ever see me again (y/n)!" he said and i knew that's when i lost him for good or for bad i didn't know yet but all i felt was pain at that moment in time. nothing would ever make me forget of sleepless nights, endless car rides & sweet little "i love you's"

'til we were dead and gone and buried

check the pulse and come back swearing, it's the same

after three months in the grave

and then you wonder where it went to

as I reached for you, but all i felt was shame

and you held my lifeless frame.

yoongi simply wasn't there. he was like a ghost in this relationship, well that's at least what i called it. i don't know how he felt or what i was to him. i just know that i tried my damn hardest to make it work, to be the good significant other that he desired but nothing ever seemed to work out. nothing was enough or everything was too much, not enough love, too much affection, not enough words, too many actions. i broke down in the middle of the night as he held me and tried to calm me down but i couldn't even bring myself to care.

"we will find a solution to this won't we?" i said with a hopeful, false smile invading my face as i tried to get an answer. some kind of sign that this was worth fighting for.

"i honestly don't know and to be honest (y/n) i don't know if i care enough," there it was, the breaking point. the fall from grace, the erased memories that he somehow brushed over with all the things i tried doing for him. nothing was enough like i said and everything suffocated him too much.

'cause there we are again in the middle of the night

we're dancin' 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light

down the stairs, i was there

i remember it all too well

hoseok loved to make up excuses. it was this or that, black or white, golden or buried in the ground like our love had been for as long as i could remember. even if we did have our moments where we could be with each other & feel that burning love that i desired so much, it wasn't enough and we both knew the end was coming near us, creeping in on us. i found myself slow dancing with him in the middle of the kitchen and with no light except for the one coming from the refrigerator, enjoying the sound of his heartbeat.

"i love you with all my heart (y/n)," he whispered and if it would've been at the beginning of our relationship i would've believed every single word but i knew who he was, i knew him like the back of my hand.

"let's just stay like this for a little longer," i mumbled sleepily and stupidly. this wouldn't fix anything, no wounds would patch themselves up for one magic moment but i knew the clock was ticking. this wouldn't last much longer as my tears fell from my face and nothing else was said during that night.

well, maybe we got lost in translation

maybe I asked for too much

but maybe this thing was a masterpiece

'til you tore it all up

running scared, i was there

i remember it all too well.

jungkook didn't know what he wanted. it was tearing us apart slowly & building itself up like a wall between us. he and i had been in a long lasting relationship until suddenly his feelings faded away with the wind and i was left holding on to nothing while in the middle of a cliff. i thought he would hold my hand forever, whisper sweet nothings to my ear and play video games with me even though i was terrible at it. but as i found myself looking at him with no spark in his eyes, i knew it was over for me, for him, for both of us.

"i'm sorry to do this (y/n)," he said but no regret was felt in his voice and all i could do was choke on a sob as i ran away from him.

he wasn't gonna chase me, i knew he would just stand there like a statue without knowing what to do. but this time it hurt the most 'cause i wasn't gonna see him again begging for forgiveness in our living room, i would have to get used to the presence of jungkook being gone from my life.

and you call me up again

just to break me like a promise

so casually cruel in the name of being honest

i'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here

'cause i remember it all, all, all.

jimin was done with me before i knew it. a damn phone call was gonna be the thing that was gonna end me and cancel out all my feelings that ever appeared for him. it wasn't even the first time he did this, he loved to play tricks on me, in my mind, how delusional could i have been? to go for a second, a third chance even. what was i expecting from him? to change? i didn't even know at that point and i couldn't bother myself to think of the possibility of what could have been.

"it's not you obviously but i think we both need to move on," he said calmly while all hell broke loose for me and before i could answer, he hanged up. he hated fighting, hated my comebacks, hated that i was right that he couldn't just do this to me but there was no us anymore. it was just me fighting for myself as the sobs escaped from my body and i found myself hugging my knees.

"i feel so stupid," i whispered to myself as i tried to stop the tears but there was no way to do so as i poured my heart out for a man who didn't care.

they say: all's well that ends well

but i'm in the new hell every time

you double-cross my mind

you said if we had been closer in age

maybe it would have been fine

and that made me want to die.

seokjin's love was a permanent scar on my skin. the age difference wasn't a big deal until it became a joke around his friends & family, he would laugh along but i didn't find it funny. then he wouldn't find it funny either when he realized that it was gonna be our deal breaker, that i was too immature for someone like him, that i wasn't up to those mature standards and that i wasn't thinking of the future, no wedding, no kids for now and he just wanted everything that someone his age would ideally want.

"i don't think you understand, we were not meant for each other! we were both blinded by something that never existed," he tried explaining to me as i crossed my arms not believing his bullshit. i had to walk out of the apartment and rethink everything that happened, that got us to that point in particular. i didn't know that when i would go back every single one of my things would be packed and there would be a note saying "i'm sorry but this won't work out"

you, who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes

sipping coffee like you were on a late night show

but then he watched me watch the front door all night

willing you to come

and he said: it's supposed to be fun turning 21

namjoon never showed up. i waited & waited but nothing happened and this wasn't even the first time that this happened. all my text messages weren't even appearing like they were read from him, all my calls would go straight to voicemail until it was already midnight and the millions of apologies and excuses showed up at me through the phone but not even at my door. i had it all planned out with my family and it was going to be perfect but it was all gone now, the candles were off and my dad was there to console me through the whole night.

"i didn't even notice the day it was (y/n) please i'm so sorry," he begged and that's when i decided to be the one who would turn off my phone. i've had enough lies, i've had enough of waiting around and had enough of him. but apparently my heart was still holding on as the tears wouldn't stop falling from my face, trying to collect myself as i looked at my dad again.

"i think i'll go home now," i said, not knowing if there was a home waiting for me in the first place and most likely knowing he wouldn't be there at all.

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