#100% committed to sucking it up and dealing with it

[deathfavor]

@kyukicho​ said: “Blood? Are you bleeding?” Baji for Kazutora

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    “  Don’t worry about it, Baji...  “  The words feel heavy on his lips even as he answers cheerfully while staring down at the sink and water red from blood. Kazutora has the distinct impression that he’d just answered the other incorrectly.  (  Well, he had. He hadn’t even answered the question.  )  Baji might not be the brightest out of everyone but he sure as hell wasn’t going to miss that fact.

   Kazutora hadn’t expected to run into Baji. It’d been one of the nights without plans with anyone, and Kazutora had ended up out fighting. Not as Valhalla’s number three, (two, really, considering Hanma was essentially the head), but just as the tiger. Violent and wild, who you could hear by the sound of his bell if he wanted you to. And he wasn’t afraid to take on those bigger and stronger. So he’d fought and fought. He’d fought till his knuckles bled and he knew he’d have nasty bruises the next day, besides his bleeding lip and nose. Not to mention the white shirt he was presently bleeding through. But Baji wasn’t supposed to have caught sight of him, it’s why he’d ducked insider the nearest building for the bathrooms - to wash off the blood and avoid someone he’d spotted in the distance that seemed all too like Baji.

   But the elusive tiger wasn’t elusive enough apparently. Because it’d felt like only a few seconds before Baji had come barging in to the otherwise empty bathrooms and spotted the blood in the sink and Kazutora holding paper towels under his bloody shirt. Kazutora hadn’t yet looked at the injury either, just started using paper towels to try to stop the bleeding, but he was sure there was a gash there from a sharp piece of wire that he’d fallen against in one of the fights. It was nothing but sheer coincidence they’d been in the same area, and the luck was against Kazutora it seemed.

   “  Man, blood’s not that unusual ya know?  Don’t get all so worked up. “  He grins and ignores the pain that making the expression causes from his split lip, ignores the fresh drops of blood that raise to the surface of his lips.  “  You’re out with others, right? Don’t worry. It’s not that bad. I can call Hanma or someone if I start bleeding to death or some shit like that.  “  His free hand waves casually as if to dismiss Baji’s concern. Liar, he’d probably deal with it himself. Fuck. What shitty luck, he didn’t want to worry Baji over this or steal his attention from whatever he was doing. “  We can hang out tomorrow, yeah? Or call me later and we can chat.   “  He pushes the conversation forward to distract from his situation.  “  So don’t worry about me. I’m tough. Whoever you’re with will think it’s weird if you stick around much longer. “  He pushes the laugh past his lips, still playing it cool. At least it didn’t hurt that bad.

#kyukicho #blood tw #adding to the list of bad decisions kazutora makes this week #but well intended... doesn't want to worry him #play it cool & not ruin baji's night #100% committed to sucking it up and dealing with it #᛭ — [IC] wounded tiger caught in mania's pit [KAZUTORA HANEMIYA] #᛭ — [RELATION] not even the sun can rival the warmth of your love [KAZUTORA & BAJI]

[antianakin]

I keep seeing this frustrating post about how Anakin wouldn't have fallen if the Jedi made him a Creche Master because "babies need attachments!" No. Babies need support and love. Anakin would have SUCKED as a Creche Master. Because the Younglings would LEAVE. I have a feeling he would have sabotaged as many as he could get away with to keep them with him. Because he STILL has the flaw, he believes people belong to him. Not to themselves. He MAYBE wouldn't have killed ALL the Younglings. But he would have taken them to be raised as Darksiders and in Sith teachings so is that really better then death?

Sure I giggle about Creche Master Anakin as an AU. But when people start insisting it's the RIGHT PATH... yeah no. Those kids would have been miserable.

I've definitely seen posts about how the Jedi were terrible people for "forcing" Anakin to be a soldier instead of allowing him to be a Creche Master, as if Anakin wasn't saying from DAY ONE that he wanted to be a Jedi because he wanted to be a big hero who came back to free the slaves. That's not the kind of work a Creche Master does and the kind of work a Creche Master does doesn't seem like something Anakin would be too terribly interested in.

He reacts pretty negatively to being handed a teenaged Padawan and tells her not to "slow him down," so I don't really see him being particularly patient with little kids, personally, or happy to just sit around being nurturing and cleaning up messes and providing enrichment and dealing with temper tantrums. He'd HATE IT. He's honestly TERRIBLE as a teacher to Ahsoka, too. His early attempts at bonding with her suck, his idea of helping Ahsoka overcome a massive fuck-up that caused several people to die is to put himself in danger and force her to be the only leader in charge and if she fails, they literally all die, and he offers her zero support in that. He's late to what appears to be an important Jedi test and when she does well, he doesn't praise her at all and instead tells her that the test is inadequate. And of course the training he ends up giving her involves shocking her into unconsciousness in an unsafe environment for hours upon hours. When Ahsoka ultimately decides to leave the Jedi, his pleas for her to come back are all about HIMSELF and he practically accuses her of being an idiot for refusing to stay.

Nothing about his one relationship with a child in his care really ever shows that he'd be GOOD at handling children as his JOB. Or that he'd even WANT to. And like a lot of people have been saying about going into jobs like that in real life or about becoming a parent, this is the kind of thing you really should feel 100% committed to before making that choice.

I don't think Anakin would've intentionally sabotaged the Order by trying to make its children leave. He does obviously somewhat unintentionally encourage a mistrust of the Council and a judgment of the Order with Ahsoka, but he never wants her to leave. Like I said earlier, he actively insists that she has to come back to the Order when she tries to leave and makes her choice all about himself. He gets accusatory and tells her she CAN'T just throw this life away even though she's already said she feels like she can't trust herself right now. Anakin refuses to leave the Order himself, he doesn't really want to because he does want the things that come with it, he just doesn't tend to like Jedi teachings or the limitations that ALSO come with being a Jedi. He wants to have all of the positives of being a Jedi and none of what he'd consider negatives. So even if we pretend Anakin might've been willing to become a creche master of some kind, I don't see him intentionally sabotaging them. I don't think he even realizes he's doing that to Ahsoka at all, he's completely shocked when she runs during the Wrong Jedi arc and when she leaves at the end.

But I do think he'd have a negative impact on the kids, I do think he'd end up possessive of them. I think he'd probably play favorites and be overly harsh when having to deal with discipline or just actively neglectful towards some of them. I think Anakin would be constantly frustrated and annoyed by the kids if they weren't acting the exact way he wanted them to. I think he'd have a hard time trying to connect to them and would desperately want to pass them off onto someone else to deal with the worst problems. The concept of Anakin stealing some of those favorites during Order 66 to raise them as Sith or Inquisitors of some kind is absolutely devastating.

This is also why I giggle at those silly little board books about Darth Vader the father with baby Luke and Leia, but also like holy shit the concept of Luke and Leia being raised by Anakin, especially once he's chosen to be Vader, is HORRIFYING as a concept. It would NOT be this cute sweet little thing, Luke and Leia would be so fucking miserable and they'd probably both turn out really badly as a result of such a terrible upbringing.

I don't think anything in ROTS really indicates he wants kids, either. His reaction to Padme's revelation that she's pregnant doesn't exactly scream excited or happy and he never really shows any interest in the baby or their future as a family the way Padme does. Padme will wax poetic about how she wants to raise the baby on Naboo and Anakin's response is "you look so beautiful." He'll have a nightmare about Padme dying in childbirth and Padme has to literally prompt him to consider whether the baby survived or not. Palpatine gets him to turn on Windu by saying "I can help you save the ONE you love." What he yells at Obi-Wan on Mustafar is "You will not take HER from me" rather than "THEM." When he wakes up from surgery, he ONLY asks about Padme and not whether the baby survived. At no point does he ever genuinely seem to give a shit about the baby at all or show any indication that he WANTS to have kids. He doesn't fantasize about their future together as a family, he isn't brainstorming names with her, he isn't worried about how to raise a baby in secret.

And obviously the desire for children of your own is not the same as the desire to be a teacher, but I feel like the crechemasters are RAISING those kids, they're not just a daycare worker who passes them back to their real parents at the end of the day. So if Anakin doesn't even show any interest in raising his own biological children in canon, I don't see that he'd have any interest in raising the Jedi children. And it certainly wouldn't save him from going dark. It just means he's on planet more often and so probably spends even MORE time with Palpatine which means he might actually become a Sith even SOONER.

Even in the nicest possible AU where Anakin gets raised by the Jedi from a much earlier age and has no real issues with authority or attachments the way he does in canon, and he isn't influenced by Palpatine at all and genuinely does love being a Jedi etc etc, I don't see his personality as being someone who would be satisfied just being a Creche master. I feel like he'd still want something more thrilling than that, something that allowed him to go out and travel and do "bigger" stuff. I think he'd likely be a better teacher in general, he might be fine coming by the Creche once in a while to interact with the kids, and he'd be a lot better with his own padawan, but a Creche master as a career? Eh, I don't see it. Maybe once he starts getting really old and feels like switching things up a bit. We know through High Republic that this is an option the Jedi can take, they can move away from rougher field work and take up slower positions if they feel like they need to for one reason or another. So sure, maybe in the nicest possible AU, Anakin might one day in his twilight years decide to slow down enough to be a Creche master. But that's probably the only way I can see it actually happening.

#star wars #anakin skywalker #anakin critical #anakin skywalker critical

[lakesbian]

“She was a solo hero,” Tattletale said, “Vigilante of the night, until she went too far and nearly killed someone, nailing him to a wall with one of her crossbows.  The local heroes were called in, she got arrested, and made some sort of deal.  Now she’s a probationary member of the Wards, with the condition that she uses tranquilizer bolts and nonlethal ammo for her crossbow.” “Which she isn’t,” Brian growled, “At least, not when she comes after me.  That arrow she shot through my side had a fucking arrowhead on it.”

so deeply fucking annoying that sophia is a can of ridiculously racist worms wherein the animalistic black girl is the story's no 1 police brutality doer because on its own this pre-reveal bit is good! the offhanded mention that one of the cops the undersiders have faced is shooting to kill or at least severely maim brian is quite literally a good first indication that the prt sucks, and i would kill for it to be expanded upon properly. i still like my idea for patching it up by swapping sophia's role in the story w/ madison, who is a generically cute and adorable little white girl cape everyone loves in the same vein as glory girl, and who is also 100% committing obscene amounts of prejudiced police brutality on the regular

#wormtime 2 #wormtime 2 arc 3 #i'm backtracking a bit i just wanted to make sure i remembered where i was #worm spoilers #wormblr #parahumans

[cuethediscoandthedrinks]

1hr+ oral on chief jim hopper headcanons ✨

this is obviously nsfw, and i'm gross, so be warned :)

🧡so you wanna suck his dick for over an hour? he's down ofc, 100%

🧡likely his fave thing to do after work, when he's been out all day doing tedious cop!shit, all he wants is to go back home and feel your pretty lips wrapped around his thick cock

🧡and, ofc, you're more than willing to oblige, yk

🧡you've always been more partial to sucking him off than having his mouth on you, and tbh, you both wouldn't have it any other way

🧡something about having a throbbing, swollen dick in your mouth, on your tongue and leaking that sticky precum just makes your pussy flutter,

🧡like, what others feel when giving their partner a massage, legit getting on your knees and slowly, sensually and passionately giving head gives you that same feeling.

🧡as soon as he's come back from work, taken a quick shower and seated himself on the couch, you're right on him

🧡likely sat towards the end of the couch, this is only position 1 of the 2-4 you'll be playing around with as time goes by

🧡ofc, suckling on him for over an hour means edging him for over an hour too, bc you don't want him cumming before you get your hops!worth, yk

🧡he's fine with it, although as time passes likely'll start putting his hand atop your head, thrusting up into your mouth, and letting out little grunts and moans that hitch in his voice just right, after licking that esp sensitive line all the way up his cock

🧡lots of lazy, sloppy slurping too ofc; any excess saliva is going directly back onto that dick, so a lot of slow deepthroating, sucking up that spit, and then dribbling it right onto his pulsating cockhead is the tried and true method here;

🧡adding some light cockslaps to ur cheeks and mouth are a big turn on for him too tbh; rubbing his sticky, pulsing tip all over your pink lips and flushed face ?? he's into it

🧡he's also a bit fan of humming and moaning on his dick too, bc those vibrations really just get him further riled up tbh; so usually ur not just getting your hands and mouth busy with his swollen length,

🧡but also with ur wet, sticky pussy lips rubbing up and down a pillow you've nestled right in between ur thighs; gyrating your hips in circular motions, arching ur back just right to give him that pretty picture that he'll commit to memory to jerk off to later, ofc

🧡alternating hand movements are a big deal here too, bc if you want to edge him but also keep him entertained for a long while, you'll likely need the full roster

🧡that means kitten licks to his now pretty-pink head, slurping extra loudly and lewdly whilst doing your best to make eye contact despite the soft gagging and gargling of his hard, sticky dick deep in your throat, giving your best doe-eyed expression bc u know how much he loves it

🧡some salt+pepper hand movements too, or maybe gentle suckling of his balls while you use one hand to softly jerk his base, and the other his engorged tip, feeling the dribble of his sweetness dripping right out of the head

🧡lots of "such a good girl"s, "my pretty baby"s, "you take me so, so well, sweetheart"s, and good ole' "fuck"s, "shit"s and "jesus christ"s,

🧡likewise, loud, long groans and moans are almost always a treat to hear, and bound to happen. bc after months of dating and months of practice, you're only getting better

🧡and there's no end in sight ofc, other than his sticky, hot cum spurting out of his throbbing length, usually onto your hands, but if ur feeling generous you'll suckle his tip into your mouth, finishing with some pretty cockslaps onto ur lips just to please him the pretty baby

i feel like a hop!whore for writing this, but i needed to get it out. hope you enjoyed fellow smusters, i'll see you in hell! <3

liked that? why not request something here!

#stranger things x reader #stranger things #stranger things smut #jim hopper x reader #jim hopper x you #jim hopper smut #steve harrington smut #eddie munson smut #eddie munson x reader #steve harrington x reader #jim hopper headcanons #stranger things headcanons #steve harrington headcanons #eddie munson headcanons #cuethediscoandthedrinks #cuethedisco #ask answered #drabbles #fanfic #fanfiction #reqs open #requests open #send requests #smut

[somethinglikethatyeah83]

oh my one of the few people who write for campbell bain do you take requests? cuz if so can you do campbell x reader who spoils him like anything he wants they get for him cuz they kinda suck at verbally expressing their love (totally not calling myself out here)

GIFTS: Campbell Bain

Pairing: Campbell Bain x GN!Reader

Warnings: Long mentions of depression but that's it :)

Summary: The request above :)

Word Count: 1.2K

A/N: My first request thank you for sending it in! Yes I do requests, on my masterlist there is a link to a post about who i write for. I hope this was what you were looking for!

Depression was hard. There were so many things that became restricted as a result of it and I thought I had learned to deal with it. I thought that the meds were helping and that I was able to be somewhat normal. Turns out they weren't doing much for my love life, which was the first and main thing that annoyed me. Yes, it meant I couldn’t sleep, and that my appetite went at random times, and that I couldn’t control my smile all the time, but those things had become part of me.

Campbell was also part of me. I loved him so, so much, but just couldn’t show it. Depression just didn’t cater for being in a relationship.

I wasn’t able to be there for him 100% of the time, like he was for me. I wasn’t always available to hang out on the times we got a day pass, and it meant I couldn’t even get out of bed some days. I couldn’t hug him whenever I wanted, even if it was the only thing I could do.

So I had to find a way to show my appreciation for him somehow, because I did appreciate him so much. He was so lovely, and perfect, and exactly what I needed all the time. It took me a while, but I eventually found a way to show this appreciation. Gifts.

Any type of gift. Whether it was handmade, or a little card with a love note in it, or some flowers that magically turned up on his bedside table every few mornings. Giving him something felt like the only way I could show my appreciation for him. Even if he wasn’t the most materialistic person, I could still tell it meant a lot to him, which was the point.

After a few months, I could tell he was getting suspicious. We hadn’t yet breached the topic of what to do when I wasn’t as affectionate as he was, and so he wouldn’t have known that that’s what the gifts were a replacement of, but he was starting to connect the dots. I didn’t really care, to be honest, but it did mean that I would have to talk about why I wasn’t as touchy and affectionate as he was, which I would definitely struggle with.

This morning I had woken up and dragged myself out of bed in the early hours to visit the florists down the road. The nurses had happily let me out since it was the day I got a day pass, and I returned a few minutes later with a fresh bouquet of tulips mixed in with some long-stemmed roses and daisies. It was the usual group I got, but I also managed to get a bar of chocolate and paired it with a card I had written the night before. It was September, nowhere near Valentines day, and yet it was exactly what I saw other people give each other on the 14th of February. I wouldn’t know what to do on actual Valentines day, since it would definitely have to outshine this, but that was a completely different problem.

I was allowed to borrow a vase from the kitchen crew and once the flowers were popped inside it with some water, I snuck into Campbell’s room with a subtle smile curved into my lips. What I didn’t account for was that he was already awake, which never happened, sitting up in bed as if he was waiting for me.

“Ha!”

I stopped dead in my tracks. “Cam, you’re awake.”

He nodded, grinning and sitting up on the mattress. “Yeah, to catch you, silly! I finally did it. I finally caught you.”

“You’re acting as if I’ve committed a crime, it's just some flowers. I do this every week, s’not like it’s anything special.” I tell him, trying to avoid the question of why, which was the main thing I didn’t want him to find out about. He continues talking while I put the vase down on his bedside table, putting the chocolate and card behind it in the hopes he won’t notice until I’ve left.

“Aye, but every week. You spoil me every single week.” He points out, taking my hand and dragging me down onto the bed with him. “Why?”

I shrug my shoulders, not yet defeated. “Does there have to be a reason?”

“Well, no, but-”

“So butt out.” I snapped, not realising that I had. “Do I need a reason to spoil my boyfriend because that’s the only way I know how to show that I appreciate and love him? Can’t I just be caring without being questioned about every small thing?”

Campbell had a small, loving smile curved into his lips. “Is that it?”

I blinked at him, shuffling around in my spot on the mattress, swallowing deeply and refusing to make eye contact with him. “Is that what?”

“Is that why you spoil me?” He asks, voice soft and like silk as he took my hands in his. “Because you don’t know how else to show you love me?”

The palm of my hand ran up my arm as I bit the inside of my cheek. All I had to do was admit that, yes, that was the reason, but it was easier said than done. I felt his hand rest atop my knee, soothing me. “Depression doesn’t really accommodate relationships. I’m not good at showing how much I love you but when I give you something it always feels easy.”

“And you were, what? Embarrassed about that?”

“In all these shows we watch each night, all the couples are so affectionate with each other, and I’d love to be like that with you but for some reason… I just can’t seem to be able to.” I admitted, shrugging my shoulders as if I didn’t know what I was talking about when in fact it was the one thing that had plagued my mind since I discovered it myself. “It makes me feel like shit.”

Within a split second, Campbell has his arms around my waist and has lifted me into his lap, my back against his chest. Next I feel his chin rest on my shoulder, and his words vibrating against my skin. “Never feel shit because of that. I don’t care that you can't be affectionate, because I know you love me, and I certainly love you, there’s no changing that. I love the gifts, I really do, and you can continue giving them to me if you really want but don’t think you have to spend money on me if you’re just doing it for that.”

“Yeah.” I sighed, resting my head back on his shoulder and pressing a kiss to his lips.

“Thank you, though. I never said that.”

My lips curled into a smile. “You're welcome. I love you.”

“Love you too, honey.” And I can hear the grin on his lips just for those four words. We spend a few minutes curled up in each other's arms, Cam still slightly sleepy, but I sit up slightly when I feel him move his arm away from me and over to his bedside table. “Hey, what’s this?” And I just about see him pick up the chocolate from my peripheral view. “Did you buy chocolate as well?”

I shrug. “Maybe…”

“Y/N!”

#campbell bain #campbell bain fluff #campbell bain x reader #campbell bain fanfic #fanfiction #requested! #takin over the asylum

[catknifetime]

Some Wheel of Time thoughts: the way Aes Sedai treat men who can channel is even worse than it looks at first glance. No I’m not kidding.

I will be using severed instead of gentled or stilled in this post, I just think using 1 term is more simple.

So let’s start with some basic 100% true facts: 1. The men who are channeling out in the world are men born with the spark, they cannot help it. 2. Men who can channel will go mad, and 99% of the time end up hurting a lot of people with the power. 3. Even if men who can channel don’t kill other people or themselves with the power, they will inevitably die horribly of necrosis overtaking their bodies. 4. Severing men who can channel stops the madness and necrosis progressing. 5. Severed men become extremely depressed and suicidal, to the point that they almost always eventually starve themselves to death if prevented from committing suicide in a faster way.

The White Tower knows all of these things, as well as what happens to a severed woman.

Second collection of facts for my argument is what (as far as I can tell) The White Tower’s official plan of action for men who can channel is. And it is this this: 1. Find a man who is channeling, probably through an informant’s network. 2. Sisters from the Red Ajah go and capture the man, shielding him and bringing him back to the tower. 3. The man is tried in the court of The White Tower and severed. 4. The man is kept prisoner in the white tower in pretty nice conditions until he finds a way to commit suicide or starves himself to death. (Note: #4 may not be true for all men, I am primarily basing this off of Logain and he is definitely an outlier. But just letting them go is actually pretty much just as bad)

Now up until the source was cleansed, severing men who can channel was actually the best option to deal with the situation. Both for the men and the world. But the way they treat men after gentling is inexcusable given the information they have.

What is this information you may ask? That they know how to help a severed woman with the depression that comes after severing. In The Shadow Rising, after Siuan and Leane are gentled they either think about or discuss (I don’t remember which) that the best way to stave off the depression from severing is to find a new purpose that takes up all of your time and energy. The impression is that this is common knowledge about how to help a severed woman. I think they even mention some severed women being set up with families by the tower to try and keep them alive.

They do not help severed men. Not even a bit of advice like a “oh btw you should try and find a job or task that takes up a lot of your time, it’ll help.” (Assuming they do let most severed men go). And they sure as hell didn’t try to help Logain with the depression when he was being held captive in the tower. They basically just condemned him to a slow death. Like if you aren’t going to help the guy you’re keeping prisoner and who you know is so depressed he’ll eventually starve himself to death just execute him and speed things up.

So it’s not a “oh this is a tragic necessity, so sad these men just invariably die” like some Aes Sedai present it. It’s actually a “oh this is a tragic necessity, but we’re making it WAY worse for these guys because of the Reds”. Did I mention that btw? That this is all because the Ajah in charge of dealing with men who can channel culturally HATES them. Aes Sedai could reduce the harm of severing for men, but they chose not to. Because even within the Aes Sedai there is an incredible amount of fearmongering about, and among the Red hatred for, men who can channel. Even though they all logically know the men can’t help it, that the ones channeling have the spark, they still hold very uninformed-seeming and uncomplicated opinions on them.

I don’t really have a conclusion. I guess I’ll just say that this isn’t a plot hole, just another way the Red Ajah sucks. And that the more you dig into how the white tower works the more you see how it really doesn’t.

#the wheel of time #wheel of time #wot #wheel of time book spoilers #wheel of time meta #red ajah #logain ablar #the white tower #aes sedai #suicide tw #starvation tw

[cerys-capricorn]

The country I live in is on fire with millions of acres destroyed and thousands of people evacuated. This is potentially the 2nd time in 4 years that people will loose everything they have (as the 2019 Canadian wildfires were also horrendous). Millions are suffering displacement, homelessness, and health risks due to the wildfires across the country. I live in British Columbia and I remember 2019. This is so much worse. The ENTIRE country is pretty much on fire.

And what do the people of the U.S.A immediately say? “Blame Canada!” “We need to invade them bc clearly something is wrong up there” “Canada fucking sucks!” “Ugh, here is my Timelapse of how smokey the sky is, but apparently it will be gone in 2 days.”

Well Americans aren’t the ones who have to deal with the LITERAL GIANT FIRES SCORCHING THEIR NEIGHBOURHOODS AND FORESTS! They don’t have to pack up everything they own and hope, JUST HOPE, they come back and their homes aren’t burnt to the ground. They don’t have to hope their communities aren’t entirely destroyed. They don’t have to worry if their friends, families, and animals are okay. They are not the ones trapped due to roads being closed and heavy debris falling as the fires become uncontrollable. And they only seem to care when it is them on fire. But if another country is? They don’t fucking bat an eye, and yet the rest of the world helps them when they are in need.

So instead of complaining Americans, how about you fucking help for once? We are thankful you sent some of your firefighters to help us, but in the grand scheme of things, this isn’t enough. The U.S.A as a country is the 2nd biggest C02 producer in the world, which heavily contributes to the worsening of climate change, hence the wildfires. But Americans seem to forget this little fact. They forget that their politics and their environmental policies have literally fucked the rest of the world. So stop being so fucking selfish and actually help for once by contacting your local, state, and federal government(s). Stop voting for absolute idiots that want climate change to worsen so their pockets can be filled. Help by spreading information that will help those impacted, volunteer if you can, and maybe consider donating if you have the means. Or at least have some goddamn compassion and sympathy.

Here are some ways you can help:

• United Way for the Northwest Territories

All money donated goes to those affected by the wildfires in the NWT. Every donation is matched by the Federal Canadian and NWT governments.

• The Canadian Red Cross

All donations go towards those most impacted by wildfires across the Canadian Maritimes "with immediate and ongoing relief, recovery and resilience efforts in response to the wildfires, as well as supporting community preparedness and risk reduction for future all-hazard disaster events within Atlantic Canada”. The Federal Canadian and Nova Scotia provincial government have committed to matching each $1 donation to become $3.

• Donate A Mask

This organization ships free N95 respirator equivalent masks across Canada to those affected by the wildfires and for those who cannot afford high-quality and high-grade medical masks.

• Firefighters Without Borders

Firefighters Without Borders is a organization based in Ontario that provides equipment and training to local firefighters and communities across Canada. This helps in fighting current and future wildfires and promotes prevention. It also supports local firefighters to host and provide equipment to international firefighters when Canada needs assistance.

• Odawa Native Friendship Centre

The Odawa Native Friendship Centre is an organization serving the Ottawa-Carleton region in Ontario by helping Indigenous peoples that have had to evacuate their homes due to the wildfires. They accept money donations and usually accept clothing donations as well, but they are not taking clothing items at this time.

• The Central Okanagan Food Bank BC Wildfires Emergency Food Relief Fund

This organization donates much needed food to those impacted by the wildfires who are currently facing food insecurity. They have expanded to helping the entire province as the wildfires have spread.

For more information and to stay up to date:

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[teenwolf-theoriginals]

over the past week, i've gotten some lovely messages asking if i'm okay, where i was, basically kind anons sending love. and then there were a few anons who asked about my peaky fics. this is kind long, so i'll put it under the "keep reading" line.

firstly, thank you to those who checked in. am i okay? not really, that's why i took time away. lately, it has been a real struggle with writing. i know it seems like i'm singing the same old tune. but this time around it felt different. i needed to step away, take time out for me and try to figure out why mentally i wasn't connecting with writing. i haven't completely figured it out, i'm still slowly working through falling back in love with my writing. it's been small steps this past week. i have written a little more for the shelby chaos family, organizing the stories has helped me break them down, it's just a matter of committing to writing them and hopefully not hating what i write. on top of me disconnecting with my writing, i felt really deflated with life in general. short version, i'm just feeling so sick and tired of feeling like nothing is working out for me. it's little things that had piled up, getting my hopes up with personal things, and dealing with up and down emotions.

secondly, the reason why my peaky fics aren't visible is because i have made them private. a large reason why i was starting to disconnect from writing was because every time i looked through my notifications, 99% of them were people mass liking. it made me question what the point was in me stressing over these fics, trying to perfect them if that's how they were going to be treated (if so many think writers should write for themselves, then why not just keep them to myself, which made me feel really sad that i was having that kind of thought). that then led me to self-doubt and i didn't want that to spiral further and end up hating my writing to the point where i stopped writing altogether. so, i made the decision to cut out seeing those mass likes for the sake of my sanity and love for writing (a.k.a overthinking brain making issues more intense and stressful than they need to be). if i wasn't constantly seeing like after like after like after like, i could focus solely on finding that spark again for writing. i know it might seem like a drastic or silly thing to do. i know most won't understand unless you have gone through that as a writer or content creator. it's very difficult to communicate just how mass liking can affect a content creator if you aren't one. it's a struggle writers go through constantly and it sucks. so many writers have shared how powerful feedback, interest, and excitement can be and it feels pointless because it ends up being the same tiresome cycle. there is only so much excitement a writer can harass for their own fics before they need others to do the same. this quote by ernest hemmingway describes it perfectly: "writing, at its best, is a lonely life". writers spend so much time alone with their fics, that sharing them makes us not feel so alone. and i don't think asking for a better balance between likes/reblogs/comments is an unreasonable request (also, i understand tumblr's algorithm sucks and it's hard to get most content to a wider audience. especially if so many are posting and only the popular ones end up on top of the tags. that is why reblogging is so important).

i don't know when i'm going to make the peaky fics public again. i don't think right now i'm 100% in a place where i can do that and not go back into that rabbit hole of self-doubt, frustration, over-thinking, etc. i might do so once i have finished a fic. i might even post later more about the shelby family chaos series, share a little bit of the upcoming fics. i hope nobody is too angry at me for privatising the fics. you will be able to read them again, just please be patient with me. especially since there are a handful of fics that you guys will be getting, so i hope that sorta makes up for not being able to read my older peaky fics right now...

also, in regard to my tommy "sweetheart" series. i made the decision after reading through it to delete all chapters but the first one. i know that may disappoint some people, but i have tried to find something that i like within it and i just haven't been able to. i really love the first part, but the rest i hated. and i know some may think that's unfair, especially if other people did love it, but i wasn't happy with it and i don't think the quality of the other parts matched the quality of the first part. maybe, way way down the road, i will write something new for it. but for now, it's going to stay a one-shot like it originally was meant to be.

i'm sending lots of love to anybody who may be struggling right now, or may not feel good enough either when it comes to writing, personal issues, etc. you are good enough! please, take care of yourself, it is not selfish to do so. life is heavy at times, find some joy and hold on to it. breathe and take it one day at a time. if you ever feel overwhelmed, talk to someone, blast your favourite tunes, go outside, binge-watch your favourite show. just do things that make you feel happy and peaceful. ♡

#personal #writing #peaky blinders

[scottsumrners]

okay, i admit that i went into “love and thunder” a little biased, because i had read the reviews that said it sucked ass, but girl... i didn’t expect it to suck ass this badly. it doesn’t feel like “a movie” so much as it feels like pieces of different movies stitched together in a half-coherent plotline?

the god butcher plotline...works. it works because it’s simple. the character itself has barely nothing in the way of development because he is very one-note, but considering the constant tone-shifts and mismatching vibes, he is the highlight of the whole thing. christian bale sweetie you were NOT paid enough to shave your eyebrows.

100% of the movie (that isn’t the god butcher stuff) is jokes, but... 85% (and i’m being generous) don’t land. almost every moment where it was supposed to be a “joke”, there was dead silence in my session. i heard one guy in the restroom saying that the movie was the second best marvel movie, after endgame, and considering endgame is a shitshow...yeah

the fight scenes are cool, but they are almost entirely cgi. i think all except for one in the omnicity, and even then....eh.

it definitely felt like both a sequel to ragnarok and a taika production, but in the worst ways. it took all the bad bits of ragnarok and made them doubled down on it. also it will be interesting to see their defense of how the russos “undid everything taika did”, when taika also ignored most of his own set ups.

i can see the stans will eat it up though, because valkyrie kissed a “zeuszette”’s hand and the rock monster got gay-married to another rock-monster (he was a dude because he had a moustache!). they did talk about valkyrie’s girlfriend and used the word girlfriend, so i guess that’s a step up!

things i liked:

- the scene where thor makes all the kids little thors

- the final scene with “love” and “thunder”

- the fact that they didn’t censor thor’s ass in the actual theatrical release

- brett goldstein as herkules

things that i didn’t like:

- valkyrie basically plays second fiddle the whole movie

- actually, remember how valkyrie was supposed to be a set up for thor’s love interest? never mind all that! thor has been, still is, and will always be in love with jane! she is, like the fandom wanted, just his lesbian bff!

- i don’t understand why they changed the gender of gorr’s child from boy to girl? it didn’t really add anything to the plot aside from tacking another OC daughter to one of the original avengers. but i guess if they made the kid a girl it would be more “sensitive”?

- i think it’s insane that in the comics, when jane is dying, she lost her hair, lost weight, and is basically a walking skeleton the more she uses mjolnir. in the movie - because women aren’t allowed to be ugly - she has.... bags under her eyes. that’s it. that’s literally it. maybe her cheeks are a little sunken in some scenes. she has stage four cancer, but you would never be able to tell just by looking at her. not even when she was dying she was allowed to be ugly

- the movie keeps the tradition of introducing a villain who is, by all accounts, in the right, never giving any kind of counter argument to them, and then just killing them off anyway. the gods in thor are shown to be petty, if not downright evil; they don’t care about their subjects, and they just use them to feed while the people who worship them suffer. there’s a brief argument that the gods are protecting the people, but that’s never really brought up to, like, try to change the guy’s mind! it was the same deal with thanos. why shouldn’t the god butcher kill off a guy like zeus? also why is an earth god the most powerful god in the universe, anyway?

overall, if this movie had been put in the hands of a director that could commit to give it the gravity it deserves, it would have been AMAZING. that director is not taika waititi. he’s good for comedy, but this was not a movie that worked as a comedy. hell, it barely even worked as a movie. if anyone was the god butcher, it was taika

#thor love and thunder #love and thunder #thor love and thunder spoilers #thor 4 spoilers

[chuuyascumsock]

hii dambi ᡣ𐭩!! i just wanted to say that i’m sorry for what happened to you, i’ve been in s similar situation before when i told my mom that my cousin sa’d me when i was six and he was ten.

she basically defended him by saying that he was young and his life wasn’t the best, justifying what he did to me.

it really sucks that people have this mentality that it’s okay to romanticize csa and incest because it’s fiction. if you’re going to write dark content, do it right!! it’s so weird that it’s gotten normalize in tumblr and in general (booktok.)｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡

but anyway, i wish you best of luck in moving out <3 if you’re feeling unwell, you could always rant to us. take good care of yourself!! ily ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

I understand completely how you feel, my mom didn’t believe me when I told her a couple of years after it happened and we were split up and then invited him over to stay at our house for a week to show that I was a “liar” (obviously he wasn’t going to do it again because there was more attention on him) and then years later when I got into contact with her again, she acknowledged that she knows it happened and defended him saying that he was abused too and just a kid (he was around 8 years older than me while I was 6) so it was okay. When getting into contact with one of my other siblings, she said that my mom went years covering it up (as well as the SA I experienced from my stepdad) and hiding it from everyone until she found out what he did and confronted him to which he admitted he had assaulted me. My sibling disowned him and told everyone that he was an abuser and to stay away from him.

When you write dark content such as CSA, Incest, and other heavy topics, please keep in mind to not sexualize them and create a safe space for abusers. I understand developing certain interests in those topics because you were a victim (I am aware that those who have went through such things develop sexual interests in SA or other kinks), but if you write a smut about it, maybe keep it in the notes if you know that abusers or people who indulge in these interests in an unhealthy manner would take it as a sign that you’re a safe space and actively support what they’re doing or their desire to commit those acts.

Also, just because it isn’t a picture or video of a child being hurt/assaulted, doesn’t mean that writing smut with children isn’t CP. You’re actively painting a mental picture of minors being assaulted/harmed and sexualizing it which is 100% still CP.

I’m so sorry to everyone who’s had to deal with any sort of abuse or mistreatment in their lives and hope you’re doing better or soon find a way out of your situation. You’re very strong ❤️

#.real talk.

[msfbgraves]

Speaking of what a rat bastard Kreese is (100%), this is why I don't buy the friendship between him and Terry. Kreese probably saw potential in young, dorky Twig (after all, Twig got into the Special Forces Team, which means his appearance and demeanor was totally deceiving), and supported him, perhaps thinking he could make him into something.

But Kreese liked him until Terry didn't live up to his standards, and then totally ghosted him. That seems incredibly cruel to do after going through hell together in war, and having Terry help you out so much with the Dojo and Cobra Kai in general. I feel like the cracks were there even in the tattoo parlor scene. Terry decided to follow his dad's footsteps, and Kreese didn't like that. He doesn't understand how someone could be loyal to another person. He is only loyal to his standards and ideals.

I think it's also a class thing too. Kreese has always liked and respected Blue Collar work/jobs, and seen that as being a "real man". He doesn't respect someone intellectual and brainy like Terry who deals with business, and doesn't normally do physical labor. That's why Kreese will always choose Johnny over Terry; it's almost like reverse classicism or something. He's never going to see Terry as a "real man" somehow.

I think their relationship was doomed from the start, and it's all because of Kreese. Terry values people, and will do anything for those he cares for. Kreese...nope.

Kreese is my favorite character, but as a person, he absolutely sucks. He is a total jerkass for bringing Terry back into the mess and triggering him with his "Daniel interest" just to make use of him. Wish Kreese had died in season 5, I really do.

This is going to sound strange from somebody so very invested in shipping Terry Silver with Daniel LaRusso, but I do feel that there is a lot going on between Terry and Kreese, and I totally see why that ship has such a loyal following too. And Kreese is, well, a terrible friend after Vietnam. But, I do feel that there is something deeper there as well. I don't know how obvious it is for people who write for the two of them, but I always found it rather endearing that Kreese not only talks about Johnny to Terry, but before that he has repeatedly talked about Terry to Johnny. "Look person who is very important to me, I want you to know about another person very important to me." I first saw it as foreshadowing done right, but taken at face value, it means that Terry has been on John's mind, more than once, before we ever get introduced to him in the show.

But John is a user, and so he feels that the people who are dear to him must be of use to him. When they're not, no. He does not like that at all.

And class is a very tough one to overcome, because it leads to a value clash; if only in your environments. Yes, it is easy to try to turn preppy boys like Johnny Lawrence into 'real men'. But even when Terry is the one trying his darndest to do that - going full on out on the Tang Soo Do, much harder than Kreese ever went with it, it's not enough for him. Kreese will always feel that money turns people soft. I've said in other posts that Terry hanging out with Kreese may definitely also be a 'fuck you' to his own background, because a working class man like John Kreese? Thank you for your service, now please remove yourself from the premises, according to Terry's social circle of birth. And I don't think John understands how far Terry went to be able to stay loyal to him, what it cost him, potentially. And then, when he commits himself to Cobra Kai like John wants, he's still made to feel a fool for wanting to take it global. As if the only way to do karate is in the one dojo, and one on one teaching. Terry likes that, he's good at it, but he thinks bigger. John doesn't function on that level. Maybe he disdains it because he doesn't really grasp it, can't control it. John is very good at manipulating one on one, but gosh, So. Is. Terry. And John doesn't see it, because for him Terry never grew any further than that frightened boy in that cage. I'm personally not sure Terry was ever like what Kreese saw him as; that's why he was so surprised at being played by him.

I think the biggest problem between them is a lack of respect. Kreese doesn't respect Silver, and of course Terry resents that of John. But John does value his friendship, just never as deeply as Terry valued his. He also never saw Terry for what he was, though he must have been shown it multiple times. Daniel sees it once and never forgets, never underestimates Terry. It must feel nice to him to feel so seen, because John ultimately sees what he wants to see and what he wants to see is a subordinate. Daniel may fear, hate and resent him, but he does respect his intellect and skill. And he's not reverse classist the way Kreese is. And Terry, I'm sure, would also not feel that Daniel is somehow beneath him. He didn't feel that way about John either.

#terry silver #john kreese #daniel larusso

[greatprotector-if]

Hii, I want to make if game but I'm kinda slow writer. Also I have never written so many words like other authors and it's a bit paralyzing. Do you have any advice how to deal with it?

anon i am so sorry this is 100% just rambling. the TLDR; my advice to you is this: comparison is the thief of joy. i know it's hard not to compare yourself to others, it's a super natural instinct for most of us, but seriously, as long as you're doing the best that you can, it doesn't matter how much or how little everyone else is doing. try changing your scenery! write in a different location! write using different materials! don't even bother with proper grammar and punctuation or whether things sound good or make sense for your rough draft. just write. Don't go back and fix things. and it might suck and you might just end up having to rewrite the entire thing in the end but at least now you know what not to do! and i am wishing you the absolute best in all your if writing endeavours <3

i'm fr just a guy so i'm so sorry if this advice is shit. i'm not a professional. idk if you came to me just because you saw the "slow writer" in the intro post and you saw a kindred spirit, but just in case you are not aware.... i am such a slow writer and i'll be so honest when i started tgp by far the longest thing i'd written was 11k words and it took like... 10 months to finish. usually the stuff i wrote was 500 words in Total and i was also the type of fanfic writer on wattpad who'd post three chapters and then never touch the book ever again

so, not a great foundation for a game that requires this level of commitment, and i knew that!! but i dunno i was so excited about the idea and the characters and i felt like i needed to share it with the world so i just went fuck it and started. when i first got that intro post up i had nothing but a handful of characters, a vague idea and a dream.......

basically what i'm trying to say is. I get it.

and my advice to you is: just do it LOL just write your if game!!!

it will be scary and impostor syndrome is SUCH A BITCH. you will encounter authors who will write like 100k words in the time it takes you to write 5k and THAT IS OKAY. I FEEL THIS EVERY DAY. BUT YOUR WORTH IS NOT BASED ON HOW MANY WORDS YOU CAN WRITE IN AN HOUR, SO TRY YOUR BEST NOT TO BE TOO HARSH ON YOURSELF. COMPARISON IS THE THIEF OF JOY. if your best one day is 15 words and they aren't even good words? that's fine. at least you're getting something down. you are doing the best you can in that moment, and that's what's most important!!!

ALSO WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO WRITE. you cannot appeal to everyone. there will be people who simply will not enjoy your game and you know.. we ball anyway because there will also be people who LOVE YOUR GAME JUST AS MUCH AS YOU DO, IF NOT MORE. i find that a lot of the time i'm stuck because i'm so worried about catering to my audience, and while it's okay to be conscious of these things, don't let it paralyze you. do not make your story about a bunch of bullshit you don't care about just because it's popular or something or you will just Never progress because you don't care about writing it. those days i shit out 1k (WHICH IS A LOT FOR ME IN ONE DAY) are because i'm like JUMPING OFF THE WALLS EXCITED ABOUT WHAT I'M WRITING ABOUT. WHO CARES IF WHAT YOU WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IS CRINGE (cringe culture is dead anyway) OR SUPER NICHE OR WON'T GET YOU A MILLION FOLLOWERS IMMEDIATELY. i mean don't get me wrong validation feels so good i'm a bit of an attention whore myself but also you deserve to create things that make you feel good, and this is what sustains a long-term project. You know? You feel me? You pickin up what i'm putting down? plus there will always be other people who vibe with your story, no matter how much you think you're the only one it appeals to.

but just in case you aren't just here for incoherent moral support, i would highly recommend straying away from plain old google docs or whatever it is that you usually use to write and trying new things! pen and paper??? pen and Cardboard box (this one works really well for me for my art block for some reason LMAO)??? write while sitting on the stairs instead of at your desk??? stimuwrite 2.0 (i cannot recommend this enough the bubble wrap sounds are sooo good)???

also. remember that rough drafts are just that: Rough Drafts. just write!!! maybe it'll turn out great, but maybe it'll be complete shit. maybe it'll make you want to throw up just reading it back. DON'T DELETE IT AND WORRY ABOUT HOW TO MAKE IT SOUND BETTER. I DONT CARE IF YOU ACCIDENTALLY USED THE WORD "JUST" 3 TIMES IN 1 SENTENCE. AS LONG AS YOU GOT THE MESSAGE ACROSS ENOUGH FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND IT YOU'RE GOOD TO GO.

ok sorry i am mildly sleep deprived at the time of writing this i'm so sorry if i literally just didn't answer any kf your questions at any point in here. i have no idea what i'm doing i just roll with the punches!!!!!!

#answered asks #anon #I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO YOUR IF GAME ANON #IT WILL BE AMAZING

[litgwritersroom]

The Bobby McKenzie Alphabet

A = Attractive. What do they find attractive about the other?

SENSE. OF. HUMOUR. He can't be with a girl who's too serious. He doesn't have a type per se, he's not into the full makeup-gun look, but he definitely likes when his girl looks good. He likes knowing that every other guy in the room is staring at her, but she's with him. But for him personally? It's about her personality. Loyalty. Laughing at his jokes. Letting him off the hook when he does stupid shit. If she's a mindreader? Bonus

B = Butt or Boobs . Does he prefer his partners bottom or breasts?

Butt? Yes. Boobs? Yes. Thighs? Yes. Feet? Without a doubt.

C = Cuddle. How do they cuddle?

OCTOPUS. BACKPACK. Constant cuddles. Standing in line for something? He wants to be cuddling them. Doesnt even matter who it is. He's a hugger and he's very, very, very, very, very physically affectionate. One of his love languages is physical touch, and he loves expressing that.

D = Dancing. What kind of a dancer is he?

A good dancer, but don't expect him to be anything other than a little goofy unless he's a bit shitfaced. He's step up for formal occasions, and take pride in it, but never expect a sexy dance unless he's 100% completely comfortable with them, and they're alone, and up for teaching him a thing or two.

E = Equals. Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

He can get overpowered by a dominant personality. It's not a relationship dynamic he would thrive in, nor one with a weaker personality, he needs a relationship of equals. Pushovers and doms don't work for him because he's neither, and he wouldn't be comfortable being thrust into those roles constantly.

F = Fame. How does he deal with fame post Love Island?

Doesn't go to his head but after a while he starts really second guessing everything. Do his friends like him for him? Does his girl? Do people actually think his baking's good or are they sucking up to him?

G = Gentle. Are they gentle? If so, how?

Bobby is kind and gentle; not a gentleman in that he does things because he is 'supposed' to or because it's a social construct (like opening the car door or paying for the bill), but he does them because he wants to, because he wants to take care of her, to make her happy, to see her smile, because he cares.

H = Hands. How do they like to hold hands?

Fingers intertwined, never letting it drop, swinging back and forth, kissing knuckles. It's a caress as much as it is a hold; a bond he never really wants to let go of.

I = Impression. What was their first impression?

"I am going to fall so deeply and desperately in love with you, it's stupid."

J = Jealousy. Do they get jealous?

Boy gets jealous, but he does his beast to appear aloof and untroubled, like he's too cool for it, but if it came to someone he really cared about, inside he is dying.

K = Kids - Does he want a family? How many kids? Would he adopt?

Yes, big time. Dad Bobby for the win. A deal-breaking question for him in a relationship. Certainly wants a few, but will be content with however many his partner wants and can have. He would 100% adopt, and when all the kids leave the house, he's got ideas of fostering. Forever wants kids in the house whether they be his own, grandkids, biological or no, or even just kids who are in need of some parental figures. He's having them.

L = Laughter. What makes him laugh?

Pranks, jokes, there isn't anything this guy can't make comical. He loves to laugh and he loves to make others laugh, so he's got the jokes on hand, the puns at the ready, and the impressions faster than you can say, 'hitchhiking dog'.

He thrives in funny and spends most of his day laughing or thinking of ways to make others laugh.

Also, he's ticklish. Very ticklish. Especially around his stomach and sides. His natural weakness.

M = Marriage. Do they want to get married? What would the marriage be like?

Yes, absolutely wants to be married. He views it as a partnership, he wants to marry his best friend. Commitment, loyalty, and understanding are some of his best traits and ones he'd want to see reflected in his ideal partner.

N = Naughty or Nice? At Christmas time do they spoil the people they love?

He's practical with his money, but on special occasions he might go a bit all out. For his s/o, he'd want to go lavish, but sentimental. He might not shower them in gifts, so long as the few he does give have meaning in them. Would very much get matching clothes or jewellery, or have them pair up.

Oh so very nice.

O = On Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

He wears his heart on his sleeve. And in his eyes. And on his lips. And in his hands. On his smile. If he loves her, he cannot restrain himself from showing it. He thinks no one else can see it, like it’s his little secret, but it’s the worst kept one in the world. If Bobby McKenzie is in love, it will glow brighter than the sun.

P = P.D.A. How comfortable are they with public displays?

Very. From holding hands to making out in front of everyone. He is a teenager about love. Try stopping him from keeping his hands to himself. If he likes her, he is a sucker for her, and requires constant touching whether it be her on his lap, their arms around one another, or knees and footsie under a table, if he can get away with it, he’ll try to.

Q = Quaint. What is their favourite non-modern thing?

Weird Victorian cakes and all those old school recipes that are just bonkers. It's become a novelty for him. Personal headcanons from Suzi is antiquing, that he enjoys the hidden treasures and imagines it like Aladdin’s cave of wonders; Bia is playing cards, that he’s a secret pro; and Em’s is him learning to do flower pressing which started out as a fun new cake decorating technique, but he fell in love with it.

R = Rainy Day. What do they like to do on a rainy day?

Blanket forts. He'll be building blanket forts. If he's with family or friends, loves to spend the day inside playing board games. Video games and Netflix (and chill if he’s with the right person).

If he were by himself, he'd end up baking up something delicious.

S = Sad. How do they cheer themselves/others up?

Canon that he likes to bake for people who are having a stressy time, otherwise it's generally just finding ways to make them smile again by telling an endless stream of jokes, doing impressions, or whatever else he can come up with to take their mind off of their troubles.

T = Talking. What do they like to talk about?

Anything, everything, whatever is on his mind. he just loves hearing the sound of her voice. he loves making her go off on one about things she loves

U = Unencumbered. What helps them relax?

Baking, but the ultimate destressing part of the process, the bit he truly loses himself in is the decorating. When he puts his mind to it, he'll be producing genuine edible works of art.

Also a good, decent cuppa. And a cuddle. Also if there’s a cupcake, too.

V = Vaunt. What do they like to show off? What are they proud of?

He's that awkward kind of showoff where he doesn't really believe he's that good, but he can't handle asking for serious feedback. So he's all bravado and is just hoping that someone else joins in to hype him up about it.

He would show off his girlfriend, the love of his life, giving her the world to be basked in.

Also, he loves showing off his bakes and his buttercream. Also, if you give him a guitar or a microphone or the chance to show off his impressions, he will take them with both hands.

W = Wild Card. What's one H/C about him?

He loves polaroid's, and taking pictures. He cultivates his Insta for his selfies and food pics.

X = Xylophone. What’s their song?

Songs that remind us of him:

Ariana Grande - Boyfriend

Cardi B - I like it

Cardi B - Money

Chloe Adam – Dirty Thoughts

Frenzal Rhomb - When my baby smiles at me I go to rehab

Hozier - Like Real People Do

Nick Jonas - Jealous

Normani - Motivations

NOTD,  Astrid S - I Don't Know Why

Taylor Swift - You belong with me (Taylor's Version)

Taylor Swift - Jump Then Fall (Taylor's Version)

Train – Drops of Jupiter

Vengaboys - Megamix (Party Bobby)

Y = Yesterday. Does he have any regrets?

Canon regret is the cake he made for his mate's wedding. He sees it as a major regret that he didn't take the opportunity to hide inside and jump out.

Otherwise, missed opportunities for pranks. He for sure regrets his lame, lame clothes swap prank on Henrik and Rocco. Major also is his involvement in Operation Nope. Cringes at the thought these days now that he's got some hindsight.

Z = Zebra. If they wanted a pet, what would they get?

He would probably get any pet, but a dog would be his preferred. Though, he might not vibe with a fish. He'd see them as pretty boring, so unless he can do something cool and flashy with their tank, it wouldn't be worth it.

Prefers a fluffy pet to a scaly one. Won't stop him saying hi to Noah's pet snake (no innuendos intended here).

#litg #litg writers room #writers room #masterlist #litg masterlist #litg character spotlight #character spotlight #litg bobby #bobby mckenzie #litg season 2 #hcs

[choppedmint]

If I commit to talking about Morganville Vampires, I need to share a list of OCs before I start claiming someone exists when they don't. If you see any of the below names (baring certain Goldmans mentioned to be canonical) than they are fictious. I love them, but I made them the heck up. XD

Samuel Salinas: A really new vampire. Like really new. Worryingly new. Part of a plot new. And he's also 12. And also heck it, toss him at Myrnin, because having him deal with a child in mental distress was apparently a good idea to younger me and I'm loath to change my post canon plots nooooow. At any rate, I love him dearly, little sunshine boy. Uses he/him.

Pax Salinas: We repeat, worryingly new vampire. Sam's brother. Uses he/him.

Worrying large amount of Goldman vampires. Why? Because RPs. Do I remember which are my OCs anymore? Nooope. Theo and Patience and Patience Jr, and Jakob are the only four I know I didn't make up out of my head, but if the others are appear in the books, I'm assuming I just gave them names? If there are no mention of them (I think for example I gave Theo another kid in Marcel) than they're just made up.

Anyway. Marcel Goldman: Son of Theo Goldman. He's dead by the time my post-canon stories usually take place. Whoops. I ... really wish I'd fleshed him out more, but we're making up for lost time. We'll get there. he/him

Aaron Goldman: Grandson of Theo Goldman. He's an ass. I love him. Another of Bishop's little messed up 'let's change the children' ideas, along with his cousins Jakob and Patience Jr. So fun times there! He's less of an ass than Aurelia. Will protect his family with his life, thank you very much. he/him

Aurelia Goldman: Granddaughter of Theo Goldman. Also a really angry person. But we love her anyway. she/her

Julius Goldman: Human. Married Marcel and into the family. he/him

Penny Goldman: adopted by Julius and Marcel Goldman. she/her

Bella: She sucks. All you need to know. Sam and Pax's mom and a piece of work. she/her

Harquin Day: Not actually a member of Day family, but sort of adopted on somewhere down the line. Their Protector and occassionally will use their roof for star-gazing. General opinion of him is iffy in recent generations, just as a general reaction to all vampires, but he's slowly improving in their books. Not particularly scary on first look, tends to give off cool uncle vibes. But he can stand up for himself in a way that proves how he's managed to survive in this life. Rather impressive scowl. More 'distant' than anything and totally started using the 'Day' last name without permission, but no body remembers a time he didn't, so there's no one around to fight him on it anymore. He's a therapist, usually reserved for vampires, but has been known to take in the occassional other.

Uses they/he pronouns. Not old-old, but certainly has been around several centuries.

Janus: Officer in the police force. Vampire. Shane partners with her sometimes when he needs vampiric backup. I've only used her once, we'll see if I use her again. she/her Arthur Dee:

Historical figure, so technically exists, so heh? Anyway, was a brief fling of Myrnin's back in the early 16th century. I refuse to believe Myrnin is not queer shaped in some way, so I poked around for an old alchemist and found this man and now I've adopted him and writing a book about him. Please ask me about Arthur Dee, I can tell you how he accidently maybe on purpose murdered his in-law, it's great. ANYWAY he's not a vampire. 100% human and died in the mid 16th century. Myrnin does not like mentioning him. It ended very poorly. he/him John Smith:

Not that John Smith. I just lifted him from another story to briefly use as Amelie's bodyguard. I use him for the same purpose now and again. he/him

One would think I'd have more human characters, but noooo, not me. Though Julius is one of my favs, so like, maybe he makes up for it.

I have ART. These characters live on Art Fight, 'cause of course they do. I don't have anything for Harquin, Pax, Aaron, or Aurelia, despite having pages and pages of writing about all of them. Whoopsy. One would think the length of description equated to how much I liked them, but if anything it's the reverse. Don't get me wrong, love Harquin, but I've used them as a character (RP or stories) all of ... three times give or take. While the others are, like, practically main characters. But whatever.

#the morganville vampires #morganville vampires #morganville #arthur dee #but they're OCs #Just to give an idea of what's fiction and what isn't #Like the amount of these characters who were created for the sole purpose of RP is ... all of them #Anyway they're amazing and I love them #MV needed more characters in my book #I cooooould have RPed with the Glass House characters #but noooo #why not create a whole new set of characters #Or my love for Theo knows no bounds that too

[saintlesbian]

as an Esme enjoyer (NOT APOLOGIST!!!!) I have lots of conflicting Thoughts ™️ on her current character rn. maybe it’s bc AKP is such an entertaining actress or maybe it’s bc I only started watching recently (so I kinda missed out on most of her really unethical behavior) but. there’s something about this fucked up little skrunkly animal of a girl that draws me in sorry.

like esme’s sociopathic snark was funny to me. the whole thing of her being manipulated by her father into manipulating the cassadine men in order to try and break up Ava and nik’s marriage was entertaining to me as a supporter of Women Who Scheme… and she’s doing all of this to gain the attention and affection of her father who is kinda Incapable of Love and is preoccupied with his Ava obsession at all times. like I can get why she would fuck nikolas to try and screw over Ava since to Esme, Ava is the main obstacle standing between her and her father’s love. and Ryan’s manipulation def bled into the way she interacted with the rest of the people she supposedly cared about since she literally alienated herself from the entire rest of the YA friend group by COMMITTING A SEX CRIME???? AND FRAMING TRINA FOR IT???? all to sow discord among them, isolate them, and ESPECIALLY to isolate spencer so she could keep manipulating the shit out of him.

like i think she saw trina, being friendly and reasonable with Spencer, as a threat to her relationship bc she’s insecure as hell and doesn’t have a model of healthy attachment to base her experiences on. and she sees joss and cam being happy together (maybe still wanting cam a little bit bc he was one of the few people she showed a softer side to??) and gets jealous as fuck bc she doesn’t have that kind of happy relationship. so she kills two birds with one stone, records the caoss revenge porn to sabotage their relationship and pins it on trina to isolate her from her friends… except even with all that reasoning behind it it’s still like GIRL??? you really didn’t need to do any of that??? like Ryan didn’t even order her to do that she just picked up a little sociopathic side project for herself. the crazy roots ran deep with this one. god forbid women have hobbies I guess

so to have those roots ripped out of Esme with the amnesia plot, it’s kinda like they sucked out all the meat and left behind a shell of Esme, this panicky waif, this sopping wet animal in the rain, directionless and loveless. I kinda imagine this is just what she was like before she started communicating with Ryan, and with the recent death of her adoptive family she just latched onto the first family she could find, with Ryan, modeling all of her behaviors after his orders. and even after the amnesia she still latches onto the first family she can find, with Laura the maternal figure and Kevin her uncle, who looks just like the father she can’t really remember.

she’s def not a victim tho, despite the two different hostage situations she was in recently. those were mostly her own fault lol. I think for Esme to have any shot at a meaningful redemption she does still need to face the consequences of her actions, whether she remembers them or not. jail time 100% for the revenge porn thing bc even I can’t make an excuse for how yucky that was. but what would really seal the deal for me is if she actually got her memory and a little of her personality back. scared animal Esme is fine and all but I’m starting to miss her snarky side… I think her redemption would be more satisfying if she had to deal with the guilt of her past atrocities and come face to face with everyone she hurt and have them all lay into her.

and I think the specter of Ryan should haunt her. like how she used to hallucinate him telling her to hurt her baby… I think that should be an ever present threat in esme’s head. like esme should def keep her snark and mild criminal behavior, but also when faced with the chance to fully revert to her old ways, she should be actively choosing not to be evil, rather than it just being a byproduct of her blank slate status. also this bitch needs therapy for sure but I’m wondering what impact talking to Kevin would have on her fractured subconscious…

#general hospital #pentababbles #long post #hi sorry for the rant about everybody’s least favorite bitch in the world but. I like her sorry #some of my fave character type are literally just scared animal failgirl woman who schemes & girl w/ smth Wrong w/ her #and esme is currently a confluence of all of them. I think she needs to be tormented more 😊 #I just think we’re at a crossroads with a lot of potential okay!! #if the writers could just do this right then we could have an interesting multifaceted character on our hands!! #also I think even if Esme apologizes for all that shit she did I don’t think she should be forgiven. #or at least not forgiven quickly or easily since did shit that had lasting traumatic effects on people. #like she fucked with Spencer’s self worth real bad. had trina deal with the horrors of the criminal justice system. #major invasion of privacy for caoss leading to the rift in their friendship and joss seeking the love of a dangerous man #while cam deals with the feelings of violation and insecurity from having that sex tape leaked #also Esme did kickstart a chain of events leading to Ava divorcing and KILLING her husband #like shit dude that’s a lot to atone for. bitch good luck!

[renagato]

So here I am, coming back from the dead of every possible social media app (maybe expect pinterest..).

- rising from the dead to write a post about how I absolutely suck at posting.

Note: I'm writing this on a whim, without even making notes, so I might NOT make sense at moments. But I will write this sht anyways. No one can stop me.

So here's my short story:

I started posting art more than a year ago on insta, it wasn't that bad actually. But I was posting the kind of art I had no connection to (to make more likes) so,, i burned myself out and stopped posting. After a year of break I decided to start sharing my art again (art that I actually enjoy creating) BUT I suck at posting. And it's not like I don't have art to post but I'm still doing horribly..

Then, du-du-du, what is it? What's stopping you? What is your problem?

Well, the first answer is "tf I know" but let's ponder on this a bit.. What makes it difficult for me to post and run a proper account?

Reason number one! The sole act of posting is stressful (and also bothersome in a way?). It's stressful because I already think about how many likes I'll get (or how I won't get any bruh), plus I have to write a shitton of hashtags to even hope to get some. To add to that, there's that thought that I'm sharing my art with complete strangers in the back of my head and I get scared of judgement.

Stop! You can fight this fear, and put up with hashtags somehow, right? Actually, I did pretty well for some time. But alas, then comes the reason numberrr-

Two! The algorithm (maybe not here on tumblr but you know the deal). If you're irregular, it'll take you years to build your account. And I'm irregular af. I draw irregularly, and thus post even more irregularly or I don't do it at all. So I can say goodbye to a proper account, I guess, and chances of somebody finding me.

Well, I could go back to the "posting" part as I got a random thought - the act of posting somehow kills the fun for me? Firstly, you have to watermark your piece if you don't want it stolen (and it doesn't guarantee its safety in 100% anyways, bruh) and I don't watermark my arts AT ALL. Thus, even if I know I should, I end up forgetting to do it anyway and I get frustrated over a pretty much silly thing that a watermark is. Secondly, the stress that I talked about already.

Let's go to reason number three! And maybe this one is my main problem? I get discouraged easily and I struggle with keeping up with things (being irregular, as I mentioned before + simply forgetting to do things). And well, I can only blame myself on that, I guess 💀 I have lots of ideas but committing to anything is a big pain for various reasons - everything I discussed above + a bit of perfectionism too, I'd say. That's kind of a bad mix,,

So, we got 3 big reasons and everything in-between I probably didn't think of! If anyone has read all of this, thank you.

And since I'm struggling but still would like to run some sort of account/blog, I'd like to ask for any sort of advice! Or maybe you relate to what I wrote. In any case, feel free to share your thoughts and ideas!

Ahh, now I need to put the tags, good heavens..

#artist struggles #struggle #artists on tumblr #personal #running a blog #running an account #my struggle #artist things #vent