#Did it hurt?

[that-wannabe-vangoghgurl]

Did it hurt when you forgot your earphones at home and you couldn't romanticize your walk?

#dark academism #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academia quotes #art hoe #dark academia art #art academia #desi tumblr #dark academia books #academia moodboard #dead poets aesthetic #romantize your life #deadpoetswilde #dark acadamia moodboard #academia aesthetic #did it hurt? #romanticism #romanticise everything #romanticise school

[kayurka]

I am a happy rat

#reylo #reylo fandom #rats #the hurricane wars #you again #thea guanzon #kate goldbeck #wishing all reylos a very publish more books and piss people off when they find out the fic is reylo inspired #may they all seethe while you thrive #Did it hurt? #When a bunch of authors from a ship you hate got publishing deals while you were creating nothing and harassing people on social media? #all we do is win

[every-dayiwakeup]

The Rebel's Final Yell

I do not fight without a cause

I fight to protect

Till the very end

Because it's who I am

And now that you see me

As my knees buckle under the weight of life and the waiting embrace of Death

Please don't leave me here

Please don't let me be forgotten

Please don't let me die

*****

The Rebel's Final Yell

Echoes on for ages

For anyone who will listen

Surely

His last shout at the Devil

Will be the one that matters most

*****

I leave you today with a question

I may never find the answer to

Are our deaths really ours?

******

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#billy hargrove #billy hargrove deserved to be saved #billy hargrove deserved better #my poetry #reds writing #finally an excuse to use my first moodboard #did it hurt? #yeah 🧍‍♂️ #any references you see are in fact intentional #😙😎✌️ #the last bit refers to the bibles stance on. #your life is not your life #therefore your death is not your death #according to the bible #why do i know this 🧍‍♂️ #and ofc im using that bc billy didnt die for himself #he died for others #their sins... if you will #the whole jesus thing #jesus didnt die for himself #dammit dacre really got me going with his JC hc

[clockworkbee]

Did it hurt? When you realized no one loves you like they're being ripped in half?

#no one loves you like #julian blackthorn #queen of air and darkness #tda #blackstairs #jemma #did it hurt? #the dark artifices #cassandra clare

[neeksxoxo]

if kit searches up cheesy pick-up lines and try to use them on ty, but ty just looks with a confused blank face, and kits like nevermind, but one day when he tries one, ty says the second line to him, and kit almost faints from blushing like a fool, ill riot but in a good way

#riot #kit x ty #KitTy #kitty #twp #the wicked powers #tda #the dark artifices #cheesy pick-up lines are the way to GO #did it hurt?

[nyikondlovu]

I was on the side of Coffee Theory™, until my friend sat me down and said “I need you to be so fucking serious right now and think. use that thing upstairs!”

So as much as I would love to say the decision taken at the end by Aziraphale was not him… It definitely was. Here’s the whole thing: he’s fighting which he’s been told for millennia is what heaven stands for which is “good” and that hell is for “bad”. 

So they save the world because they love humanity, and they’ve seen it through its triumphs, and it’s defeats and love it, because of its flaws, only for him to have an identity crisis, because if Heaven was willing to let an 11-year-old destroy the world, what is good?

Our favourite Angel’s problem has always been he doesn’t know where middle ground is and it’s very nuanced, I mean he believed that starting with nothing gives you all the opportunities in the world which sounds very right-wing doesn’t it? but he says it out of this hope and belief that if you have nothing, God and heaven will give you everything! it’s not malicious, It’s what he’s held onto and this was the 1800s. 

And then this season comes around, and here is amnesiac Gabriel. Finally! Purpose and a way for him to do good and the entire season we see him give heart eyes to Crowley, but then he remembers “wait - he worked for hell, meaning he might be bad,” but then he also remembers “but he can’t be bad because I know him and I know he is not this villain heaven paints him out to be” so when he finally gets the opportunity to do what he believes Crowley always wanted and where he believes he was happiest, which was when he was an angel, obviously he’s going to take it.

Aziraphale can finally make heaven purely good, and he can have Crowley by his side as an angel. They can finally be an ‘US’ in his mind, because they will be on the on the side of ‘good.’

The Metratrain took advantage of the fact that Aziraphale always wants to do what he thinks God, in Her infinite wisdom wants, but I do think he made the choice himself without much influence to believe that from within the system, he can make it pure again, and that Crowley can finally be happy, and they can finally get to have a life together without any moral ambiguity… Forgetting that the same thing that makes him love humanity, ambiguity and the grey area, is where he and Crowley ended up falling in love and ended up deciding to carve out a life for themselves together.

And part of him realises he lost Crowley when he looks at him at the end, but Aziraphale is one thing: stubborn. He’s made his choice and he’s going to stick by it.

Even at the detriment of the one “person“ and relationship that has been good for him, and has stood the test of time for millions of years.

One thing Mr Michael Sheen is gonna do? It’s ACT baby. You just see and feel the conflict within him and then the resolve. the “fine. If you won’t do this with me then I won’t be with you. I will say the thing that will hurt you the most.”

Can’t wait for season eight where they finally get their shit together!

#aziraphale #crowley #good omens #good omens season 2 #I love him but he’s a lil stubborn #michael sheen #fuck the megatron or whatever #good omens speculation #ineffable husbands #did it hurt? #yes #is it in character? #definitely

[gniteruirui]

I have been slapped with a fish! I used to work at a fish store and a large koi had passed away from Old age so I asked a coworker to slap me with it! Incredibly satisfying

….

Noice!

#ask #anon ask #did it hurt?

[makahitaki]

did it hurt? when you spent money on things you needed instead of wanted?

#did it hurt? #my post #niko yells online #nonsense #memes

[saulwexler]

how to explain to non-americans that the better call saul ads aren’t exaggerated for comedic effect they are super normie

#better call saul #[name rhyme] did someone hurt you? I’ll kill them. I’ll make them suffer. i’ll burn the world down until we are the last 2 in it #local lawyer tag

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[ruporas]

your love returns in tragedy (ID in alt)

#farcille #falin touden #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #coming face to face with the consequences of acting out of love - marcille u will always be famous #dunmeshi is really a series that keeps on moving bc it's about so many different characters and centered on the journey #rather than like... introspectively on one singular individual so i dont think we see marcille dwell on it but we can see her fatigue #her shock and surprise in the recent ep “don't hurt her she's just confused” Gah. desperately trying to grasp everything thats going on and #not to lose hope. bc undoubtedly the remains she put together was falin's - that short moment of reprieve the party had was with falin #she was able to bring her back her magic did it!! but the violence the fatal swings was not falin at all. #just pondering about holding that guilt... it's such a huge responsibility to be in charge of life in the first place and yet it is #a burden she'll keep trudging with. defying the natural orders to keep the people she love alive... i Lauv her... #also shared sentiment with the rest of the fandom but God. Chimera Falin... she is Everything.... #ruporas art

[transmascissues]

pinnochio! 🫵🤣 you will never be a real boy!

i mean pinnochio did become a real boy. that was a pretty significant part of the story. i understand that you’re just being transphobic but pinnochio did very much become a real boy.

#this is so silly to me on so many levels. like how did you expect me to be genuinely hurt by this #anon hate #examples of transandrophobia #transandrophobia #transandromisia #transmisandry #virilmisia #virilphobia #anti transmasculinity #transmascphobia

[inkskinned]

the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.

three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.

two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.

their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.

one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.

i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.

i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.

and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?

you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.

a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.

someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.

#writeblr #warm up #this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru #but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist #ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school. #like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it. #was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes. #but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create'' #when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work #part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just #like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent. #speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r #ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week #this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice. #''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism #imagine if we said that about literally any other profession. #''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt? #u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky'' #we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY #''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''

[alphie-in-the-sky]

#yes #did it hurt? #stolen from reddit #hide and queue #r/cptsdmemes

[randomhuman45]

When I see Satan when I die I'm gonna ask them, "Hey, did it hurt when you fell from heaven?"

#satan #devil #hell #when i go to hell #when i die #when i see satan #what id tell satan #did it hurt? #did it hurt when you fell from heaven #funny #plans #future plans #death plans #afterlife #afterlife plans #yall better not take my line #do u think satan would answer honestly? #would they take it seriously? #would i get a date out of it? #i mean ive heard people say “fuck satan” but idk if id pass up the opprotunity to take it literally #like i gotta shoot my shot right? whats the worst that can happen? im already in hell #plus bro prob already knows all my dirty thoughts and shit. u know that would be a 'date' to DIE FOR #its okay. i want to go to hell #the pun is to ensure my plan

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop