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elliespuns · 3 months

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I was wondering, would you mind introducing yourself a bit? Your age, hobbies (except for blogging of coure), music taste, your favorite movies, etc? I love the content you post and i love you and I don't even know you. I wanna know my favorite blogger.. lol. Only if you're okay with it

First of all, thank you for such a lovely compliment. I love you too and I don't even see your blog, mate!

To answer you; I was answering something similar once. This anon sent me questions and I filled them in, so if you allow me to just copy and paste those so I wouldn't have to type it all again (nothing has changed since then, honestly) then I'll be happy to oblige.

How old are you? I'm 30

Tall or short? Very short, I'm only 5'1 ft, 1,56 m

Sexuality? Eh, I don't like labeling myself but if I HAD TO, it'd say bisexual/demisexual.

Describe yourself briefly I'm an introverted dork that doesn't vibe with most people. I dig music, art, and I love a lot. I either love too much or not at all. I've been vegan for over 10 years now and I love funny people. Other than that, I'm just a very poetic soul that also loves to play video games from time to time and I write. I write a lot.

Something you like about yourself? I'd say it's my knowledge in English. I've been self 'learning' it for 9 years now (never been abroad) and I was able to learn the language to the point where it became a huge part of my life. Like I literally use it more than my mother language. That's a thing I'd say I like about myself.

Favorite hobbies outside your blog? I write; creative writing, poetry. Both fulfil my mind. Then I love reading (ofc). I also draw, play video games, work with graphic programs and I love taking pictures.

Something no one would guess about you I have a very high sex drive, lmao 🫣😂 and people would never say so about me, because I literally look like I have a ribbon buckled to my vagina.

Weird quirks you have Oh, god, I can't stand hand cuts. Like you can literally show me a video of someone having their throat slit and I'll be fine, but then you show me a vid of someone having their palm sliced, or simply just someone cutting their finger and I'll go all asdfghjklsdfghjk.

One talent you wished you had Damn, I wish I could draw from imagination. I can draw but I can't seem to draw anything just by trying to see it in my head. That's so fucking frustrating. And weird. Anyone else having this problem?

A word your friends would use to describe you Idk about one word, but my best friend says I'm the funniest person she has ever met, so does that count? Lol, Idk why she says this. I'm literally a potato.

Craziest thing that's ever happened to you Omg, trauma alert… when my boss (a 70 year old male) caressed the top of my head telling me I'm pretty.

Have you ever been in love? Yes, for over 10 years now (no, it's not a fictional character, lol).

What is your biggest fear? Fuck, it's hurricanes and tornados. I actually have a phobia, it's called 'ancraophobia' and it's a fear of strong wind. (I swear I don't fear normal wind tho, I'm not that weird, actually, ok?).

Why did you start this blog? When I came here one day I realized that there were only a few blogs that were dedicated to the game stuff. So I said why the hell not? I didn't expect to have an actual fanbase here, it's crazy. Love you guys.

Your favorite food? Lentils, that's the shit.

Least favorite food? I'd say meat.

Favorite TV shows? Okay, not gonna mention TLOU cause it's obvious, but the very first show that pops into my mind every time is Breaking Bad. I love this show to bits. Then I also love TWD, OITNB, Better Call Saul, Wentworth, This Is Us, Lost, The Killing.

Favorite movie of all time? My most favorite movie of all time will forever be Ginger Snaps (2000). I've loved this movie ever since I was 11. It's been 19 years ever since and I still love it to pieces. Aaaaah!

Favorite musicians? I love a lot of music, but my most favorite is Damien Rice. I love that guy and what he does. Right behind him are Cigarettes After Sex and Mazzy Star (just pure love). Then it would be Joshua Radin, The Hope Arsenal, Yaeow, The Paper Kites, The Smiths, R.E.M., Blur, BoDeans...

Do you have any pets? My chonky boi guinea pig.

#i guess i'll have to get used to sharing 'myself' with you guys sometimes #get to know your blogger i guess #the last of us #tlou #tlou blogger #the last of us game #elliespuns answers

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saltygilmores · 10 months

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Thoughts While Watching Gilmore Girls, Season 2, Episode 17, "Dead Uncles and Vegetables”, Part 4

There are about 7 minutes left in Dead Uncles and Vegetables, let's wrap this up. Emily got swept up in Sookie's wedding planning because she never had the opportunity to plan a wedding for Lorelai (of COURSE. why didn't that click for me? It's so obvious.) Emily lays on the passive-aggressiveness thickly, "I gave up on you having a wedding a long time ago", "If you ever do get married you're just going to have the wedding in this diner and serve burgers and fries to the guests", "Let me tell you about the wedding that I had always envisioned for you" yada yada yada, typical Emily shit. Despite this, Lorelai is still being unusually patient and reasaonble with her mother. I'm still not convinced she's feeling well.

And there it is.

Dirty. I mean, she did just leave work in the middle of the day to help him look at coffins. And apartments. Just gonna go on the record that the Luke/ Lorelai build up until the point they started going out was SOO GOOD (Teen Girl Squad voice) and then shortly after it finally happened, the magic quickly deflated like a popped balloon.

And then what, they broke up in season 6 and didn't get back together for good until the final 30 seconds of the last episode of the series? Am I remembering this correctly? It's been 3 years since I've bothered with the Yale/Logan/Insufferable Rory/Garbage Seasons. Sadly this is pretty typical in many tv series, the will they wont they is infinitely more satisfying than watching some boring couple have a relationship and get married and wash dishes together and shit. Lorelai is like "Luke did you feed Paul Anka" and he's like "Yeah" and she's like "Okay, can you pick up more dog food at Walmart? And don't forget to take the garbage out.". and Luke is like "Tomorrow's Wednesday, garbage day is Friday." I know you don't want to think about it too much, but the same thing would happen if Rory and Jess got married.

Don't get me started on the precious little I still remember from a Year In the Life.

Friends leave work in the middle of the day to help friends look at coffins for their uncles. Just friendly friend things.

Friends, friends, friendly friends, time to meet my friends!

Oh pity my dear Lucas. What kind of Therapist's Wet Dream did you just walk into?

A crystal clear #TomatosSign and a face that says it all.

Luke: "Whatever you say, mother of one of my customers."

LOL, that squint. You're thinking about killing her right now, aren't you Lorelai?

God help me, I love these two. In the conclusion of the episode, Lorelai is the only person to accompany Luke to Dead Louie's burial, which was awfully nice of her.

Stop! This is so tender. Luke worries that like Dead Louie one day he's going to die alone and nobody will come to his funeral. You're mind is clouded with grief Lucas, that's not you, you must be thinking of Dean Forrester. His own family won't come to his funeral. Clara might but she will kick his coffin. You'll be fine. Just had the thought that Jess is definitely going to be the one to plan his funeral but eh let's not dwell on that.

So am I. You're fine. Lorelai runs down all the ways Luke has showed up for her : Making Rory's birthday cake, helping her around the house, building her a chuppah, taking in Jess. Ugh I'm getting a misty eyed. I'm not used to this show inspiring such sappy feelings in me. The Convention of the Male Karens/War Re-Enactors who just spent several minutes yesterday reminding Luke that his uncle was a piece of shit and that they were happy to see him croak have shown up to send him off. Welcome to Stars Hollow where everyone you meet is a two faced phony. The sign welcoming you into the town says "Welcome to Stars Hollow. Trust no one." This must be the longest weekend ever because Rory has not gone to school in like 4 days.

Hippie has packed up his farmer's market. He tells Taylor he just grows the vegetables in his backyard as a hobby. He sold them off to make money for traveling. Taylor: If this was only temporary, why did you put me through all that hoo ha at the town meeting? Hippie: You bought it on yourself, Taylor. *calmly walks away* If we can't end the episode with Jess taking Rory down a peg over her weird power trip, then fine, I'll take someone humbling Taylor.

I love it when Jess bears his naked forearm like such a saucy strumpet. Good little vegetarian loading his plate with bread and beans.

Jess organized the wake himself? is that what I'm hearing? Is that the reason behind Rory's power trip? Just so in the last 2 minutes of the episode she could be like "Even though you're 17 years old and your work ethic is so ridiculously solid that it will eventually cause you to drop out of high school, a work ethic which surely violates some child labor laws in the state of Connecticut and Luke should be investigated, a work ethic which has arisen out of sheer survival because your mother is an unemployed alcoholic and you had to help pay her bills, and even though I'm Miss Rory No Job Gilmore, you took some breaks, so I thought you were a slacker. But I see you put together this wake, so I guess you're actually capable of doing stuff."

She said it in fewer words, but you know.

I know that voice of unflappable modesty. He claims he only unlocked the door for Miss Patty and then he went back to sleep. Is sleeping code for jerking off now? He's been doing a lot of sleeping.

#AdmireTheBaby

Baby, you did such a good job unlocking that door. I love you. Have a cookie.🍪 And my hand in marriage.

NOOOOOOOOOOO. Do not assimilate!!!!! DANGER. DANGER.

Milo told AmyShermanPalladino he wanted Jess to die after getting stabbed in the neck so I wouldn't be surprised if he floated the idea of a botched liquor store robbery. I actually had to google it because I will swear up and down I read that "killed in a botched robbery" was one of his ideas, but I only found "stabbed in the neck" or "hit by a bus." This episode was so nice. It was funny. It was sweet and touching. There was no Dean. Rory was a pest to Jess but everyone else left him alone. I honestly didn't even recall that this episode existed before I started this rewatch, but now that I've seen it again, I'll stick it in my top 10 episodes (which I should post soon). The end.

#gilmore girls #denise rewatches gilmore girls #lorelai gilmore #dead uncles and vegetables #gilmore girls season 2 #my screen capture application is working again #I had to resort to using DVDs yesterday #treasure your physical media #luke danes #jess mariano #rory gilmore #milo ventimiglia

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exilethegame · 2 years

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since most commanders have fangs (except for phoenix commander if i'm not mistaken), i wonder how the ROs would react to commander accidentally biting them when they're kissing like who would make fun of it, who would end up liking it etc? 👀 and also!! jost and nikke have fangs too, right? imagine commander trying to kiss one of them and like they bite each other or their fangs clash 😭😭 idk it just sounds so funny in my head

There'll definitely be fang shenanigans... I mean, how could you have characters with fangs and not???

That being said, answers are beneath the cut!

Vethna is totally into fangs, but they will never admit it no matter how painfully obvious it is. They're 110% into biting of any and all kinds, and don't mind if a bit of blood is drawn, either. (If you really want to get them flustered, bite their neck.)

Nikke + Jost: Fangs + gorgons go hand in hand, so any fang things are just culturally normal to them. Clashing teeth, accidentally nicking a lip, etc, etc are just normal non-human things and aren't enough to really warrant a reaction other than maybe an amused or annoyed huff.

That being said, I've mentioned in the past that biting your partner as a gorgon is actually culturally common. Committed partners tend to purposely inject the other with venom to slowly build up their partners immunity to avoid any accidents from occurring. It's also just a general sign of trust from both parties-- one trusts the other not to hurt them, and the other is slowly giving up their most powerful defense.

Amilia: ... uh, she can be a versatile lover. There's also two main ways for her personality to go, so depending on how she develops in your game, she can go one of two ways.

1.) Does not enjoy being bitten at all-- doesn't like the pain, is generally scared of blood, reminds her of some not-so-great memories in her past, etc. A bad accidental bite could be enough to completely frighten her for a few minutes.

2.) Doesn't mind being bitten, kinda likes it, but only when things are steamy and you're both worked up. Otherwise, she's just kinda 'eh' about it.

Sabir: Is into the feeling of MC's fangs against his skin but doesn't actually want like... pressure. A little nibble is fine, but nothing rough or painful. Just enough to make the adrenaline start going and to fill the mind with anticipation.

If MC accidentally nicked him or bit him, it'd probably yank him out of the moment a bit depending on the situation and how bad the bite is. He's the one most likely to just brush over it with a little teasing.

Syfyn: Syfyn actually also has fangs-- and honestly, if your teeth kept clashing or something she'd genuinely get all pissed and worked up which can either work in or against MC's favor depending on what MC's into lol.

Otherwise, Syfyn's fine with biting and being bitten-- sometimes she's super into it, other times she's not. She'll be sure to let you know real quick in the moment.

Freedom: Also has fangs... and is also pretty desensitized to any fang shenanigans to the point there's not really much to write about.

That being said, they would enjoy being bitten. They're very big on sensuality of all forms, and aren't afraid of a bit of pain. It's all part of at the physical experience, no? And who says passion should only be expressed through pleasant things?

#answered #spice #this is so late askfdjk #idk why it took me so long to figure out the answers to this

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off-the-heezys · 2 years

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Got any favorite Camp Camp Ships?? :O How about a list of them?? What would be your favorite to least favorite? Any reasons why??

I’ll give you my top 4 and then we can talk about others

Jaspvid (Jasper x David) - MY NUMBER ONE. when i tell you this is my comfort ship, i mean i would literally die for these two. I LOVE THESE DORKS. ive cried over them an embarrassing amount of times and they are so. so. so perfect. the way i view them in my head. they are everything i want. it’s the slow, long pining. it’s the longing. the YEARNING. GOD. of course, it would never happen in canon, for obvious reasons, but they live rent free in my head with my 100000 of AUs where Jasper is alive and well

Kevdan (Dirty Kevin x Daniel) - they’re so awful and perfect together. random crackship that i care way too much about and will explain how their dynamic is epic to the depths of space i have a spotify playlist for these bitches Pikemax (Pikeman x Max) - I blame @gh0stbunnie for this one. would never work out in canon. i can’t see this in canon. but fanon/au? thats where its at babey. also just a way for me to project stuff thats happened to me in the past but pshhhhhhhhh also, this is something that is brought up a lot, but Pikeman is canonically like, 12. miles and jordan brought it on during some commentary on the blu ray. i bring it up because people tend to think pikeman is like, 15

David x Cute Waitress - idk if these two have a ship name but ill think of something later. but omg. these two r so cute in my head. a little sweet southern doll with a silly, awkward camp loving man. i know they make each other giggle all of the time i just. this one hits different.

now lets move on to other ships lol

im pretty open minded when it comes to ships (except for a few) so like, i’ll just give my opinion of ships

let’s get this out of the way, if you ship maxvid, camvid, or anything of that nature, uh, get the fuck off my page. block me, i don’t care. i hope you have a fucking terrible rest of your life

Gwenvid (Gwen x David) - to be perfectly honest? i can’t see this happening in canon. it’s cute though! I have a handful of gwenvid AUs that i love dearly. Gwen is just. so physically and verbally abusive to David canonically. im fine w it, it just urks me when people go around saying its canon, y’know? cute tho in fanon/aus!

Danvid (Daniel x David) - hot take this ship is awful. I barely see anyone portray it in a not sexual light. There’s a handful of people (my friends) who do this ship justice, but other than that, this just isn’t my cup of tea. i love me a good onesided danvid tho

Gwenjaspvid (Gwen x Jasper x David) - I have yet to see a way people have done this in a way I like. so for now I’m rather neutral about it

Sneil (Snake x Neil) - this ones real, you cant tell me they weren’t each others bi awakenings this ones SO REAL TO ME Maxneil (Max x Neil) - tbh? eh. I like to think Neil had like, a little puppy crush on Max, but it never became more than that. it’s a real popular one tho and i can see why

Makki (Max x Nikki) - they r like siblings to me so :( thats gunna be a no for me. if you like it tho, totally cool- i know Yssa likes it

Harrison x Nerris - again, these r like siblings to me so nah, but i get how some people might be into the enemy to lovers they might see in them. personally just no for me Masha (Max x Sasha) - yes. i can so see this. i love how @queeniecamps portrays these two, sasha and her little purse bf, so slay

Sasha x Pikeman - LOOKS AROUND. MOTIONS YOU CLOSER. WHISPERS IN UR EAR. i think about them sometimes. theres untapped potential here and no one talks about it

Presmax (Preston x Max) - I think about these two to “Popular” from Wicked, and it’s epic. and that is it. how did this ship get so popular back in like 2017. where did the spark come from

Tabrin (Tabii x Erin) - yes i participated in the ship week. yes I will again this year. yes, this is a very, very casual ship in my brain. i’ve got like zero aus for it. very very cute tho

Tabii x Neil - no. next one

Neil x Erin - in @dingdongsditch DJ AU, 100%. but also in canon they’d be. kinda cute. wahh.

SpaceMax (Space Kid x Max) - listen. not in canon. but. BUT.

Me x David x Cute Waitress - this ones canon guys idk what to tell you we’re all happily married

and that’s about like, all i can think of right now without getting into like rlly obscure ones if you think of any I didn’t put on this list, feel free to ask me about it

#asks #camp camp #campcamp #yeah #i dunno #im not tagging all the ships

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juniperhillpatient · 1 year

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Violent asks for ATLA: 8, 12, 16, 20 :)

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about:

uhhhh….. I don’t even know what common fandom opinions overall in the atla fandom are these days 😂 I’m too in my own lil corner for this lol

Oh! I know - we’ve talked about this one so much because we feel exactly the same on it but I can never say it enough. Southern Raiders is THEE Katara episode & one of the best episodes of the entire series. People who disagree or who make it about shipping discourse just don’t get it like we do

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them:

I’m not gonna say Azula or Jet because they’re too obvious & both have their own niche fandoms anyway 😂 how about Kiyi? I hate the comics they don’t exist to me but Kiyi exists no other parts of the comics only Ursa having a new child & starting fresh away from Ozai but like, the version of it in my head where it’s well written & the impact of this on Zuko & Azula is explored. As a concept for a character Kiyi is so good & has so much potential & I’ve written her so much she’s beloved to me now ❤️ I just gatekeep her from canon it’s ok.

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc):

I will never ever in my life understand the surprisingly high volume of Azula fans that seem to hate all other characters except Azula & believe Azula should be separated from the narrative & all other characters & never heal her relationships with her friends or family 💔

20. part of canon you found tedious or boring:

eh, nothing really? I’m pretty much always enjoying myself whenever I watch atla. There’s maybe a few episodes I’m not that excited about like uh - “the great divide” & “the fortuneteller” randomly come to mind. but usually there’s generally still enough humor or cute or entertaining moments I’m not like. super bored per se idk lol

#thank you for playing along! mwah <33 #asks #ask games

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levi-supreme · 1 year

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Rei, Rei! How was the pregnancy with Renée? How did you deliver the news to Levi and maman heheh

Lots of hugs :3

🥰

Charlotte my precious I— 🥺💖 I adore you so much TAKE MY LOVE!!!!!!! I'm gonna answer this below the cut because knowing me, I'm going to go sappy and talk too much.

Warnings: Block the tags #levi x rei and #reivi to avoid the cringe. It's EXTREMELY cringey hehe. Also talks about pregnancy and all that jazz so. Don't mind me and my unhinged thoughts.

So. It happened after the events of Dance with Me. It was about two weeks after Levi's birthday, and then I got worried because my period wasn't here. I was paranoid because my period was always regular, so I felt something was up. Levi and I bought a home pregnancy test kit, and oh boy we were so damn nervous when we were waiting for the results. That five minutes of waiting felt like the longest five minutes ever. Levi kept pacing back and forth, and I was just sitting on the chair fidgeting around and..... nervously waiting for time to pass.

And then..... once five minutes were up, we checked the kit and.........

We saw it. Two lines. On the test kit.

It took us a while before we registered that oh. It's positive. It's a baby. WE'RE HAVING A BABY. WE'RE GOING TO BECOME PARENTS. And then Levi and I just hugged each other and cried because we never expected ourselves to be so lucky (like.. oh god. We hit the jackpot on our first try...? hehe >//<).

We didn't know what to do, so Levi called Hange to ask for help because they were a gynaecologist. Hange then arranged an appointment for us at the hospital they work at, and that's how Hange became our gynae hehe. And somehow, Hange got Moblit along too, so they were the first two to know about our pregnancy.

Levi and I decided to wait before telling Maman partly because of superstition haha, and also just to make sure every thing went well, because Hange told Levi that the first trimester is the most crucial time. Once we were sure that everything was going well, we asked Maman over for dinner one night. I was about 10 weeks pregnant and even though my bump was tiny, it was kinda obvious too. After dinner, we told Maman to join us in the living room, and then, Levi just... casually slid over a sonogram on the table XD

Maman was like "eh?" until she took a closer look and realised what it was 🥺 she was really happy for us too!! We all just hugged each other and wept tears of joy haha. And then... knowing my mother-in-law..... she casually commented, "is the baby a birthday baby?" and then Levi and I just went (●__●) because... uh... indeed the baby was the result of some hot steamy birthday s*x LOL. She touched my bump and guessed our baby is a girl XD

But yes!! Aunty Kuchel was so supportive during my pregnancy, and Levi was being so attentive to me too. This was our first child, and we were all so careful with everything. My morning sickness was pretty bad at first, and then it got better by the second trimester. We listened to every thing Hange and Moblit told us to do, and we even started to baby-proof our house. Levi even wanted to buy books on parenting and all that to read.

Deep down, I know he's scared and worried, because he grew up without a father, and he's afraid that he can't be a good father to our baby. I told him I didn't have confidence that I'll be a good mother too. No one is born a good parent, and we learn along the way. I told Levi that I had absolute faith that he's going to be the best Papa in the world.

Come 16 September 2016..... my contractions started in the afternoon. Levi was so worried, he flew me to the hospital where Hange and Moblit worked. I didn't tell Levi, but I was really scared. What was I afraid of? The pain? Perhaps. Levi stayed by my side throughout. He was also really nervous too, but he tried to hide it.

Come 10-ish pm or so... Hange said I was really close, and you know... it's the part where you keep going 'PUSH!!!!'. And let me tell you.....

Ow. The pain??????????? I angrily told Levi that I am never giving birth again. I clenched his hand so hard while I tried to push. And then, at past 11pm, Renée Naomi Ackerman was born 💖

When Hange passed her to me, and the moment I saw her, I felt like all the pain I went through was worth it. Levi and I brought a little angel to this world, and we are going to give her the best we can. Of course, there was lots of crying (from me XD). Levi tried to hide it, but I know he shed a few drops of tears too. Moblit told him to cut Renée's umbilical cord and Levi was like ????? hahaha. Moblit had to guide him on how to cut the umbilical cord and boy let me tell you.... that moment was so precious too.

As much as we don't show our children favouritism and bias, Levi and I both know that Renée will always be our favourite child haha, because she's a (literal) gift to us ❤️

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Okay this is all for my little journey with Renée hehe. Of course, if you wanna know about the twins and/or baby Charlotte, then hehe let me know. I adore you a lot my darling Charlotte, and thank you for sending me this 💘

#charlotteplsdosth.asks #rei.answers #levi x rei #reivi #I AM SO UNHINGED FOR LEVI #please levi just one chance please #i love levi so much #also yes i have renée's origin story and charlotte's origin story posted #you can probably guess.. yes i'm writing about the twins' origin story too hehehe #anyway thank you charlotte #you are always so kind and supportive towards me #i adore you #also i hope i answered your question XD #please send me more if you like too!!!

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princess-pill-enjoyer · 1 year

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I think I fucked my liver up bad

Uh. Soo the jaundice shit never went away. It's never as bad don't get me wrong. But while before I only jaundiced when I was going overboard, I now keep a light shade of yellow pretty much 24/7. My eyes are never fully white

I'm not gonna bother going over all the symptoms I've gained since I oded earlier this month. Shit hurts but no where near unbearable. I've been holding out on talking bout it cause of that. Partially because I didn't want to explain and partially cause I didn't think anyone would take it serious because of how mild the symptoms were at first. Ah well mild aint the word. Expected..? I dunno in my mind knowing that most of that was the leftover dph beating my ass made it feel a lot better. Least I knew exactly what I'd be feeling and around when. Now? So many random pains ;_;

I'm thinking I have hemolytic anemia that was more than likely because of the excess bile shit I never could fully fix. Ik it sounds like I'm just self diagnosing to make myself sound more pitiful but if I went through the shit I've been feeling it'd probably be more obvious. I'm sorry I'm not explaining in detail there either. I'm kinda half sleep tryna write 😭

Either way in my mind that is uh.. ig that's my consequence. I'm hoping it is just anemia from that day and not just the tip of the iceberg. Unless it's not even that heh. Then ima be mad

I feel like shit on and off. I swear it's so random. Sometimes I forget anything happened and I'll just be existing. But then like today it's like my entire body burns and aches. Once again, not unbearable. The burny feeling is moreso uncomfortable not painful. But the burning + the random dull aches everywhere is fucking annoying

I remember in the past being paranoid about what'd bring my lucky streak to an end. Ig this is it. I don't know if it's fair to call it that tho. I'm not hurting too bad honestly. It's nothing I can't handle with it not being constant. Did I get off lucky? I'm still here. My jaundice isn't bad. My stomach isn't horrible. My speech is mostly normal now that I've gotten used to not relying on guesstimating sm lol. Eh. I'll be seeing soon. Guess I really don't need to question it anymore

I'm going to sleep now im actually in the middle of this nonsense rn I'm so tired. My body hurt :[

#dph addiction #dph addiction recovery #im so ready to be done. im exhausted

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friesian · 2 years

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*raises hand* 24, 25, 31-35 from the gw2 asks :Oc - moonlit-grove

HI HI HI!! THANK U SO MUCH!! 24. How many alts do you have?

currently i have i THINK 9. this may change tho in a heartbeat LMAO. listing them; marwyd, canach, antonymph, gyael, tirynan, lochlyne, coylm, caybre, and aiyndreas! 25. How many 80 lvl’s do you have?

out of my 9 alts, 7 are level 80s! canach and antonymph are my only two below it. 31. Your favorite character from personal story?

uhm. trahearne. im generic and i would literally die for him. i think i should keep him in my bookbag for safe keeping and he would also be able to read interesting things in there!!! 32. Your favorite character from ls & hot?

SO. I THINK CANACH OBVIOUSLY TAKES THE CAKE HERE. if i wasn't obvious enough. but my god do i have a lot of narrative ideas since he acts so. different. respectful. sort of desperate??? during HoT and is just very supportive of a sylvari commander it just. MAN!!!! IT GETS MY GOAT SO HARD!!! second runner up would probably be taimi. i love her very very much and i enjoy how strong willed she is and she is a personality to be reckoned with. 33. Your favorite ship?

now if we're talking in the canon of things, kasjory, no stop. if we're talking from the deepest corners of my mind, and will personally run up and down the halls yelling "ITS CANON ITS CANON I SAW IT WITH MY EYES". canach x the commander. canmannder? i think thats what its called. there is nothing more that i love than a begrudged, egotistical man with a crush on someone who is bent on saving the world and never saving themselves <3 34. Have you ever cried because of the story?

ALMOST. it ALMOST got me with soo-won. soo-won reminded me a lot of my grandmother, so it hit a very big personal spot for me. ESPECIALLY doing some of the dragons end things where she talks to aurene afterwards. it very much reminded me of the conversations she used to have with me, laying in bed, very sick. so it was PERSONALLY pretty gut wrenching. but i haven't cried. YET. 35. What was the worst experience in story?

if we're talking about my most begrudged moment. uhm. fighting mordremoth was a pain in my ass. it didn't have the save/checkpoints yet. i also didn't know much about the game yet and was still playing basic engineer with the revolvers. i did not note because i was so freaked out with this being the big boss fight, that he reflects almost all projectiles 24/7. so i kept killing myself and ended up having a panic attack about it LOL. i then found out after slowing down that he reflected projectiles and swapped to scrapper for the first time. would you believe it that because of that experience, i started playing scrapper. and i never went back really LMAO. otherwise if you mean narratively, i'm unsure!! i think my most eh moment was somewhere in icebrood. i feel like the whole thing was kinda rushed compared to the other living world seasons so it felt really weird to go through it so fast and so. oddly. compared to other seasons.

#THANK YOU FOR THE ASK!!! i sooooo wanted to talk about these

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gayspock · 2 years

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ok finished ep 1 :3c randdommm thoughts

firstlyyyy !! hmmm, as an ep? unsure how to feel about this one! in terms of like- progression? does that make sense. idk how to say it... bc it kinda pulls the rug out a few times to the point where im like hmmm idk; i feel like this coulda been done different. does that... make sense? usually i like that abt farscape but here, part of me feels like it was just a "well we're back several steps, and not in a good way that instills frustration, or that was properly exploratory, but just in a this was sort of filling out screentime sort of way" but eh. shrug. it still had a lota lot of good in it:3

ALSO i kind of wanted aeryn to be separated for a good while in terms of what that could do for, like, the story. i think it'd be interesting - because right now, hm.. idk. i feel like crais by himself, with talyn? well im just not so sure!! and again im talking, like, strictly speculatively and in terms of story. so, IM ABSOLUTELY GIVING IT A CHANCE, BTW! especially bc i think farscape does often prove me wrong. however i am GOING 2 speak my truth hereeee [looks shy] ...

i donttt... realllyy... ehrrm.. care for crais and what theyve done with him so far. its not that i dont LIKE him. but he really isnt anything interesting at all to me. shrug. its giving nothing- sorry... its why im kinda glad to see scorpius- bc i was glad to find out crais wouldnt stay "the big bad" because, yeah, it really wasnt working for me. he's nothing interesting, or innovative in terms of a character . sorrryyyyyyy.

and i feel like, by himself, i dont know. like i said- that's speculaitve - but i do sort of... question whether him, being off by himself, is going to be that interesting, because of that. at least, versus him having aeryn there to bounce off of, and inherently kinda tying them back more to the main crew, etc... does that make sense? bc i feel like- yknow, s1, he'd just disappear for long periods of time, and i'd almost forget he was even. a thing. LOL. and his dynamic was also... usually with his subordinates. and idk. they are kind of just npc-types, for lack of a better term. substanceless background guys. i think therefore, whilst you can demonstrate character like that, its never... of the same calibre as when you're actually in scenes with other characters of you know. substance. (and thats not a RULE, ofc, but its something hard to pull off otherwise esp when- well yeah, crais really doesnt feel like anything to me). and that was fine for s1, i think it worked better then, but from now on ehhh idk!!!

ANYWAYS SPEAKING OF

I LOVEEE TALNY I LOVE TALYN THATS ALSO WHY IM CONCERNED BC I JSUT WANT TO SEE MORE OF TALYN .... SORRRYYYY the problem with farscape thus far is theres so many little guys RIGHT up my alley and im bouncing up and down and criyng bC I LVOEEEEE ... WE BETTER GET MORE FREAKING TALYN. SO HELP ME GOD...

also i havent talked abt her much either. i like chiana. BUT i feeel bad bc i wanna LURV her but i think its like... THUS far its kinda obvious they didnt intend to keep her at first. so i really want to see more involvement with her going forward. i dont MIND so much that we havent had a lot of focus on her, so far, even if its like... WELL, i think in general, it was just an odd time to introduce her even if they couldnt rlly help it. like, it was right before all the finale eps and stuff, yknow, so we couldnt have an ep where we get a lot of her!!! but even still, like...

i always said sth i LIKED abt the show was the way they were pretty slow and organically introduced us. so i cant complain that much. :3

IALSO LOVEEE LOVE LOVE THE LACK OF RESET BUTTON ON... EVERYTHING, FRANKLY. IDK IF I SAID THAT YET. but like i love how it HAS been episodic, but things in each episode always actually do have bearings on the show as a whole. even if its just development stuff. like its so refreshing after a lot of trek, and other scifi shows of this ilk - wherein the eps so self-contained...

even in a human reaction. i diddnttt say it at the time BUT yeah im still unsure how i feel abt that one but i really appreciate that even though it was a simulation, they did mitigate the usual failings of that trope- they had the crew in there, and real, so they could actually experience things and it wasnt just crichton going through the ringer. and ofc the other consequence of that ep lol

ALSO speaking of. im kinda glad to see more development with crichton, too, and with all of them but him esp.... babycakes was fucking FRANTIC in this episode, man, holy SHIT.

i liked all of their reactions honestly. help......

idk i feel like iahadosmething else to say oh god what was it

ehrm

yeah d'argo and crichton being WARRIORS together. increasingly obsessed. their rock paper scissors.... oh im obsessseddd

also hate this

OH GOD TUMBLR LOOPS IT FUCKING HELL

#Egg.txt #farscape liveblog

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thetremendous17monstaxgiant · 5 months

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I get the feeling Astarion is like, suuuper manipulative. I just started playing bg3, and it’s really fun, and of course I started romancing Astarion. It took me almost 100 hours but I’m beginning to realize just how manipulative he is.

I probably should’ve noticed it was sooner but I’ve never exactly been the most noticeable when it comes to that. But starting from the beginning when he almost kills you instead of letting you talk, then joins you, then sweet talks you into you letting him bite you, to the constant flirty and generally ‘sweet’ demeanor. But like, there are some stuff that I didn’t notice until I got to act three and ascended Astarion and it made it so much more obvious because it’s so much more prevalent than it was before.

Like his disdain for almost everyone. He jokes about murder so casually and carelessly. Jokes about slavery which was super surprising to me because he IS a slave. Or was rather. Then his pet names. Like I don’t think I’ve ever heard him just save the name or anything just ‘thing’ and of course theirs darling, love, all that but he usually calls you a sweet thing or a generous thing, and now he calls me pet all the time or little love but mostly pet.

Which I have to say is super shocking because of his disdain for animals. Like he basically hates animals and enjoys torturing them. He even likens goblins and koboloids to them and says they’re pretty much good for feeding and torturing and that likes…it…and I’m playing as a high elf but he is calling me a pet.

I know there’s that heartwarming scene in act two but it comes off kinda manipulative too. The whole ‘I don’t know what I’m doing I’ve only done these things on the whim of my master and so you’ll have to be patient with me if I fuck up and I need your help to really understand myself’ which I totally fell for. I’m guessing if you don’t let Astarion ascend there’s a less demanding Astarion, but at the same time I’m seeing people say he goes back to being his regular self but his regular self is incredibly manipulative to a fault, and enjoying the humiliation and shame of the person he claimes to care for

Don’t get me wrong. I love a well done fantasy bad boy. And it was pretty clear Astarion wasn’t a good guy given how much he approved of murder, humiliation, and shaming. I’m not mad or anything in fact it’s almost amazing how well his character is written and I’m somewhat baffled by just how perfect it was. I’m just shocked I didn’t notice how manipulative he was to the main character until act three. The whole master slave relationship he had with Cazador really had him blinding me lol.

I’ve also seen people say he isn’t bad it’s just trauma. I mean, maybe, but if that’s the case why doesn’t he have sympathy for other slaves like himself? If it was truly just trauma he should feel bad but he gets super disapproving if you help the slaves out. And why would he revel in the power he has over other people when scenes like loviatar come up. Even Shadowheart seemed a bit…eh…on that scene but Astarion was practically drooling. Not to mention the whole ‘don’t you dare say no’. I’m kinda curious what would happen if I did say no.

As a whole Astarion is a lot more abusive and dominating and sadistic than I had previously noticed. Not that I mind. I love a good evil character. Especially in games books and tv (not irl of course) but they aren’t usually done with such perfection. And I haven’t don’t other walk through yet but apparently he changes his phrases based off how you come onto him and what you say. Rather than having a generally similar outlook irregardless of what you say, like shadowheart, gale, Wyll, laezal. Pretty much everyone else.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #bg3 astarion #astarion

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Why did you close the door the last time you closed one? The door automatically closes behind me. It was the back door to our office and it remains closed and locked for security.

Stripes or polka dots? Both are cute.

Do you care if people touch you when they’re talking to you? Um, as a general rule, don’t fucking touch me??? But like, if someone is consoling me and talking to me, then I don’t mind if they have a hand on my shoulder or even a hug or something. But even then that’s usually someone I’m close to anyway.

What is your gender? I’m a woman.

Do you think that people think its obvious? Gender isn’t obvious bro. Yes I do realize the irony in saying bro haha.

How long did your first date last? My very first date ever? I don’t remember, that was ages ago.

Is your favorite color within 10 feet of you? Yes, a feature wall and some accents in this office are purple.

Highlight of your day? Finding out not only is John Mulaney’s new special coming to Netflix April 25th, but also Pete Davidson’s new show is coming to Peacock May 4th! What a day!

Would you rather be on a boat or a plane? I mean, travel-wise, a plane. I wouldn’t mind going out on a boat for the day though.

Can you tell when girls (or guys) have eyeliner on? For the most part, yeah.

Can you cook? I get by.

How high is your ceiling? We have pretty low ones in the apartment since we are in the basement. In the office I am in I’d say they are at least 10ft.

Whats the worst job you can think of? I don’t know, that’s objective.

Do you swear a lot? I do oops.

Does the last person you texted have an O in their name? She does.

Is everything working in your house? Our oven has been broken for 3 years now haha. We have just been using the toaster oven lol.

Would you rather have a pool or a trampoline? Uh, a pool, hands down. Does pop give you energy? Eh.

TV show you love with a passion? BoJack Horseman. Do you think you learned anything from the worst night of your life? Blech.

Perfect age to get married? The perfect age doesn’t exist, as long as you feel you are ready (and both of you are legal consenting adults) then fuckin go for it.

Is it safe to say you own over 20 pairs of shoes? Ehhh not quite.

Name a career path that women are known for taking. Any career path they fucking want.

Favorite type of cookie? Those pre-cut Pillsbury sugar cookies with the holiday designs.

A quality you look for in choosing a significant other? Humor.

What would I find if I looked in your pocket? Nothing.

What was your first word? I have no idea.

A musical instrument you wouldn’t mind learning how to play? Piano.

Last time you went to 7-eleven? It’s been a bit. The last time I remember going was maybe the end of summer, early fall?

A fast food restaurant that you hate with a passion? Burger King because the food is gross and Chick-Fil-A because the owners are gross.

Does everyone in your family have a job? My father is retired.

Going anywhere this weekend? I have no definite plans as of right now.

Is your room ever clean? Right now its kind of storage for a few pieces of furniture until my sister moves into her new place and I can put them there so it is a bit of a mess.

What does it mean when youre being quiet? That I’m not talking?

Last person you had a face to face conversation with? My coworker.

Where’s your phone? It’s just right next to me.

Do you know the difference between your and you’re? Yep.

How late did you stay up last night? Until about midnight.

Anyone you’re ready to kill? Yes. Or just make not exist.

Do you need to get a tan? I never “need” to tan because I don’t care if I am or not.

What do you want? To sleep. And also cheese fries.

Favorite TV show as a kid? Oh SO many. Pokemon was a big one. Almost everything on Nickelodeon. Garfield and Friends. Tiny Toons. Powerpuff Girls

Whats a show that you absolutely refuse to watch? The Big Bang Theory.

How many times have you been in love? Twice.

Go camping or go to a party? Camping, but depends on the party.

Do you remember how old you were when you started swearing? My sister used to let me have “swear time” when she’d babysit me. I was like, 4 or 5 when that started, lol.

How many years older than you would you date someone? Mark is 5 years older than me. What was the last thing you pinky swore on? Oof, I can’t remember; but I am sure it was with my nieces.

Would you consider yourself a nice person? Yeah, mostly.

Are there a lot of mirrors in your house? No.

Has there ever been a serial killer in your house? I mean, it’s possible one has lived there before we did? Do you know anyone who looks like Adam Sandler? Yeah, actually one of my coworkers does. It’s WEIRD.

True or false: Glee is annoying. True.

Last thing you cooked? I made some pesto pasta stuff the other day to take to lunch with me.

Do you use slang often? Sure.

Wear glasses? Yep. Cannot function without them. About how old was the last person that hit on you? My husband is 38.

What color are your headphones? I have a purple pair and a blue pair.

Would you make a good teacher? Why? No, because that sounds awful.

Don’t you hate those commercials that try too hard? Don’t we all.

Is the fan on? No.

Any special reason why you’re taking this survey? Nope.

What does the last text message you sent say? It was a sad face emoji.

Your friend needs you to run to the store to get a pregnancy test. Do you? Yeah, in a heartbeat.

Do you log out on facebook when you leave the site? I have not logged out of a website in YEARS.

What color are your underwear? Burgundy.

How short are your nails? They are SO LONG. I am getting them done today and I’m going to have her cut them a little bit.

Do you like the opposite sex to be dominant or you the one in control? Depends.

Favorite holiday? Halloween.

If I asked you to point to Ohio on a map of the US do you think you could? Yes.

Youre locked in a room with spiders. Do you have an issue? Depends on the amount of spiders and type of spiders. Like, black widows? I’d be dead.

Do you wear your most expensive item of clothing often? I don’t even know what that is.

Do you eat a lot of food? Uh huh.

Have your parents ever tried to control your relationship? No.

Have you ever had to give someone directions before? Yeah..

Speaking of which, are you good at understanding driving directions? For the most part.

How many people do you text daily? On average like 1-4. Usually my husband, my friend Lolly, and sometimes my friend Sarah or Ellen, sometimes my sister.

Do you play any instruments? Which instruments do you play? Nope.

Is there anyone who you call by their last name? No.

When was the last time you watched a YouTube video? The other day I watched a couple of Grav3Yard Girl videos.

Have you ever babysat a newborn baby before? Yup.

When was the last time you held someone’s hand? Yesterday I held my niece’s hand while we were crossing the street.

How many meals have you eaten today, so far? Just lunch.

Do you think it’s stupid for people to call others “hot?” Not at all?

Do you personally think Wikipedia is a reliable source? It might be?

Have you ever shopped at Wet Seal before? Did you like it? Nope.

What is your favorite Disney movie of all time? Emperor’s New Groove.

#surveys

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nemeseos-noctua · 3 years

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THIS IS FOR AETHER AND ALBEDO PLS--

May I request for a shy S/O that wants to kiss a certain area (For Aether: his tummy, For Albedo: the spark on his neck) they're just oddly attracted to it and wanna bury their nose against it I'msosorryifthisisweirdaha :"D

𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: aether, albedo (separate) x gn!reader

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: albedo and aether might be a little ooc? does aether even have a character? also not proofread (is that even a surprise anymore)

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒: once again written at 12am! 12am is writing time yall idk what to tell u

he honestly won’t notice at first... and he won’t notice until you tell him

i mean, don’t get me wrong— he’s definitely aware of the way your [e/c] eyes trail down to his stomach... and he’s definitely going to blush and look away when you do

but still! okay! he thinks you’re just, err, looking! not like, you wanted to kiss him! or anything! nope! not at all!

(aether is such a child pls why is he like this just KISS)

“Oh, [Y/N]! Paimon and I were looking for y—“ Aether tilted his head, confused as to why your eyes were avoiding him like the plague.

“... [Y/N]?” Aether repeated once more, waving his gloved hands in front of you as you cleared your throat.

“Ah, Aether! Yes, did you need anything?” You responded, still looking away from the Traveler as he raised his eyebrows.

shuffling to the side so he can stare at you fully, you kept craning your head away from him no matter how much he moved into your sight

cupping his gloved hands over your cheek, aether tilted your head to gaze into his golden orbs, its hues flickering with confusion as paimon’s barfing noises could be heard behind the blonde

“I was going to ask you if you wanted to do my commissions with me... but is something wrong?” He asked, completely oblivious to the way you struggled to not stare at the skin below his croptop... was Aether always this fine?

“Nope! Nothing at all!” You tapped the side of your thigh anxiously, waiting for Aether to let go of you— which he cautiously did.

“Okay... but if something’s wrong, be sure to tell me, okay?” Aether spoke softly, his worry sending your heart aflame as you stiffly nodded.

you felt so bad for staring at aether (even though he was your man) but PLEASE did he have to be this fine?!

you. you can literally see his abs. like. the outline. like. like, like—

anyways!

after the two of you completed your commissions and checked in for the night, you waited until paimon left to eat everything at good hunter to confess your embarrassment to aether

look. if you were gonna stare, you were at least going to make aether aware of such beliefs... because, it was kind of embarrassing otherwise

“Ah, Aether...” You looked away, edging slowly to your side of the tent as the blonde merely hummed, staring up at the roof of the tent.

“Yes?”

“Sorry.”

“Huh? For what?” The Traveler turned over to you, gazing at you in confusion as you fiddled nervously with your fingers.

“Ah... uh, for staring at you.”

Stifling a laugh, Aether merely gazed at you and all of your adorable-ness. Why were you apologizing? You were literally his s/o!

“It’s okay, I know you didn’t mean anything of harm,” The male reassured you, a comforting smile painting his features as your mind blared the most embarrassing thought ever.

I want to kiss you. You thought.

“You can.”

“What?” You yelped, eyes wide as Aether avoided your gaze, his cheeks dusting with a blush so soft he looked like a calla lily under the dim moonlight.

“No, wait! I mean—” Covering your face with your hands, both Aether and you were short-circuiting.

if you really want to kiss his stomach, you’re going to have to tell him... cuz aether ain’t the brightest when it comes to romance cues!

you wanna kiss him? sure! you wanna kiss his stomach? su—wait what?

“... i wanna kiss your, eh... stomach,” you manage to stifle out before faceplanting into the floor of the tent. why? why?! NANDE NANDE NANDE NANDE— (jk lol)

aether was silent. i mean, not that that’s new or anything, but you could hear crickets

“i... okay!” aether sat up, his face exploding a bright red it matched the fire outside

“no! aether! you don’t have to—“

pulling you into his chest, aether looked away from you, closing his eyes as if all of his embarrassment would go away

“Eh?! What the heck is going on here?!” Paimon whisper-screamed, stumbling into the tent— only to see the sight of you and Aether’s limbs tangled together, your head resting atop the blonde’s toned stomach.

“Blegh!!” The mascot rushed out of the tent, vomiting at the sight of her companion being all lovey-dovey.

Disgusting!

he’d notice you staring at his neck pretty quickly

he’s very perceptive, thanks to his alchemy and him having to observe the tiniest of elemental reactions—you staring at the star on his skin is no biggie

in all honesty, he’d find amusement in teasing you about how obvious you’re being. like, oh? you want to kiss his neck? why don’t you tell him so?

BUT HE MEANS IT ALL LOVINGLY!

it’s okay. just kiss him fr and he’ll shut up 🙄🙄

“Is something the matter, [Y/N]?” Albedo quipped smugly, watching your eyes avoid his as you fiddled nervously with the pencil on your table.

“Nothing.”

“Hmm... is that so?”

Finding amusement in your hesitance, Albedo resumed his studies. The hour hand of the clock seemed to move quickly—too quickly for the alchemist to comprehend. He swore the sun rose just two hours ago! What did the clock mean it was midnight?!

Sighing for the nth time, Albedo pinched the bridge of his nose, staring at the letters that scattered the pages, your figure moving like a candlelight in the peripherals of his vision.

Tugging at the hem of his coat, the alchemist turned towards you in an uncharacteristic confusion. Albedo was so used to knowing the ins and outs of everything he laid his eyes upon—it was a part of being an alchemist— but when it came to you, it seemed as though you were some kind of unreadable book that’d take years to translate.

But perhaps, that was your charm.

“albedo needs some sleep” you thought, getting up to usher him to bed

knowing he would decline your invitation, you mustered up the courage to do the unthinkable:

kiss his neck.

“You need some rest, Albedo,” You hummed, resting your chin on his shoulder as the alchemist swore he melted. If it were under any circumstance (if he wasn’t experimenting), he would’ve obliged in a heartbeat. But right now, he was busy! He was about to make a scientific breakthrough and—

The “I can’t,” that was about to slip from his tongue was quickly swallowed back down.

His teal eyes widened once your lips came into contact with the star on his neck, his adam’s apple hanging right above the galactic pattern as his face exploded in a red cascade of blush.

“Okay, I’ll go to bed first,” You shuffled to the bedroom, your footsteps clumsy from the way your mind fogged over with embarrassment, joy, content, and anxiousness.

Covering his nose and mouth with the back of his arm, Albedo straightened up—still suffering from a severe case of love.

Agh—why did you have to do this to him?

Resting his elbows on the table before him, the alchemist stared blankly at the wooden material, the redness on his face never leaving.

Just how was he going to experiment now?

— constellations!

#genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin headcanons #genshin scenarios #genshin imagines #genshin impact headcanons #genshin impact scenarios #genshin impact imagines #genshin albedo #genshin aether #albedo x reader #aether x reader #albedo scenarios #albedo imagines #albedo #aether #constellarations

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DIABOLIK LOVERS MORE, BLOOD LIMITED V EDITION Sofmap Tokuten Situation CD ”365 Days with a Vampire Ayato” Ver. ~A Promise Made in Spring~”

Original title: ヴァンパイアとの365日アヤト編～春の約束～

Source: Diabolik Lovers MORE, BLOOD Limited V Edition Drama CD [CD not owned by me]

Audio: Here

Seiyuu: Midorikawa Hikaru

Translator’s note: I’m so glad I finally got my hands on the audio of this CD! I translated most of the other boys’ versions a long time ago but Ayato and Kanato’s tracks were always missing. I still haven’t been able to find Kanato’s, but one of my awesome followers bought Ayato’s at least.

As for the content of the CD, it’s...mediocre, lol. I believe all of these were just short yet sweet scenarios with the boys. I’ve always wanted a DL CD which takes place in Spring and features the sakura trees but I think it would have worked better as a tokuten CD where the whole group goes on a hanami (flower-viewing) picnic together. ;w;

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“Ahー I’m sleepy...I always get really tired ‘round this time of year.”

*Rustle*

“Nn...Zzー Zzー...”

You try to shake him away.

*Rustle rustle*

“...Ah? What’s your problem, Chichinashi? Don’t be wakin’ me up! Didn’t you hear me when I said I’m sleepy? ...Lemme snooze... Zzー... Zzー...”

*Creaaak*

You walk towards the door.

“Nn...Hm...? ーー Oi!”

You turn around.

“Why are you trying to leave?”

You tilt your head to the side.

“...Didn’t I tell you to stay by my side all day!?”

You protest.

“No buts! Now get your ass back over here!”

You return.

“Geez...Don’t try and sneak out behind my back. You better stay here.”

You frown.

“Aah...? So what if I’m sleepin’...? ...You think that’s borin’ or somethin’? I can’t help it though. ...Pwaahー. I get sleepy when temperatures start risin’. Right now, I can actually relate to Shuu for once. ーー How does the saying again? Springtime...No...In Spring... (1)...”

You help him out.

“...Ah, right. That one. ‘In Spring one sleeps a sleep that something-something...’ (2) Anyway, aren’t you sleepy at all, Chichinashi?”

You shake your head.

“Hmー I guess it’s different for Vampires and humans.”

You ask if he still intents to sleep more.

“Aah...? Yeah, right. I’m gonna hit the hay once more.”

You sigh.

“Haah...? Don’t make your disappointment so damn obvious.”

You pout.

“Ahー Fine.”

*Creaaak*

“Guess I have no other choice but to give you a lil’ attention...”

You smile.

“Heh. Look at that happy expression on your face. Just how bored were you?”

*Rustle*

“So, how will you entertain me? Let me hear it.”

You seem surprised.

“What do you mean ‘eh?’? You’re the one who bein’ selfish here and not lettin’ me sleep because you’d be lonely otherwise. I’m actually listening to your selfish request. Which means...It’s only fair you’ll keep me entertained in return, right?”

You frown.

“Come on. Tell me what you’re gonna do for me. If not...”

*Smooch*

“Nn...”

*Smooch*

“...Hehe. I’ll find a way to have fun myself.”

You bring up the promise the two of you made.

“Haah...? Promise? What are you talkin’ ‘bout?”

You refresh his memory.

“...The cherry blossoms? Ahー Now that you mention it, you said somethin’ ‘bout that before, didn’t you?”

You nod.

“My bad. It completely slipped my mind.”

You seem upset.

“I mean, you can’t blame me, can you!? I’m not familiar with the custom of going to watch the cherry blossoms! For one, what’s so fun ‘bout watching a bunch of flowers? They’re not even edible, so I honestly don’t understand what you find so fascinating ‘bout them.”

You seem disappointed that he won’t come with you.

“No! I never said I’m not going, did I? I did make a promise after all. ...Although I forgot ‘bout it, I will keep it.”

You smile.

*Rustle*

“They’re going to fall from the trees soon, right? Then let’s hurry up and go. ーー Then, we’ll head home real quick and continue where we left off. Hehe...Better brace yourself.”

*TIMESKIP*

“...Heehー I had no idea there was a place like this so close to our house.”

You note how pretty the cherry blossoms look.

“Hmー It isn’t a scenery you see every day, I’ll give you that. ...That bein’ said, there’s barely any blossoms left. We’re the only two people here as well.”

You frown.

“Why do you seem so disappointed? I kept my promise and came here with you, didn’t I?”

You explain that you should have come a little sooner.

“Haah...? I made that promise three days ago? Then why didn’t you remind me back then? I can’t imagine I’ve been asleep for that many days straight. ーー Aah. I remember now. Three days ago means I must that promise back then, no? When my kisses got you all weak in the knees.”

You become flustered and deny it.

“I’m not lying! You had that dreamy look in your eyes...Calling my name with a shaky voice, both arms extended as you desperately clung onto me. You were pretty cute back then, you know? So much so...I almost want to make you pull that face again right here, right now.”

*Smooch*

You squeak.

*Smooch smooch*

You protest.

“Who cares? It’s just the two of us here.”

You insist that he waits till you get home.

“Haah...? Why? There’s nobody ‘round so why does it matter...?”

You tell him to focus on the cherry blossoms.

“The cherry blossoms...? I already took a look at them, didn’t I? Right now I’m more interested in yoーー”

You puff out your cheeks.

“Oh come on, why so upset? Will I gain anythin’ from lookin’ at them? In the end, they’re just flowers, right?”

You sigh.

“What are you sighin’ for now, huh?”

You try and explain it to him.

“Hmph! Well I’m sorry for failing to read the ‘mood’ or whatever. ...Honestly, I would have been better off continuin’ my nap. I don’t get what’s so interestin’ ‘bout a bunch of flowers? Like if you could eat them, then maybe.”

You tell Ayato that they are edible.

“Haah...!? You can? For real!?”

You remind him of all the sakura-themed food items sold in Spring.

“Ahー Now that you mention it. They do sell stuff like sakura mochi.”

A strong gust of wind blows.

“...Ah, oi. You’ve got a cherry blossom stuck on your head. ーー Say, if the sakura leaves are edible, then its petals should be too, right? Shall we put it to the test?”

*Rustle*

“Oi, Chichinashi. Look my way for a sec. Don’t move, okay? ...Nn.”

*Smooch*

You flinch.

*Nom nom*

“...Geh! It doesn’t have much flavor, so I wouldn’t call this good by any means.”

You ask him if he ate it straight from your head.

“Huh? ...Ah, yeah. There was a petal stuck in your hair, so I ate it. But you lied to me. This stuff isn’t edible. It’s gross. I have to cleanse my palate with something sweet now. Right, Chichinashi?”

You ask him what he wants.

“What do you mean? What could I be referring to other than your blood? It’s your punishment for lyin’ to me. Just give up.”

Ayato bites you.

*Gulp*

“Mm...Nn...”

*Sluuuurp*

“...Hah. Your blood really is so sweet...Sweeter than any food out there...Mm...”

*Sluuuurp*

“Nn...Nnh...”

*TIMESKIP*

“ーー Hey, Chichinashi. Did you know?”

You tilt your head to the side.

“They say that cherry blossom trees grow on places where a bunch of corpses are buried underneath.”

You seem skeptical.

“Hehe...What would you do if all of a sudden, from under the ground...BAM! A hand shows up!”

You chuckle.

“...What? You’re not scared?”

You explain.

“Haah...? Idiot. I can’t guarantee that I’ll keep you safe. Aren’t you letting things getting to your head a bit too much?”

You frown.

“...Just kidding.”

You ask Ayato if he could protect.

“I know. I promise I’ll protect you. ...No matter what happens.”

You blush.

“If you’re gone, I wouldn’t be able to suck your blood, and I’d be hella bored with nobody ‘round to pick on. Besides...”

*Smooch*

“I wouldn’t be able to kiss you like this any more either...Right?”

Your blush grows deeper.

“Hey, why don’t we go watch the cherry blossoms together every year from here on out? ...It’s a promise. To ensure you won’t wander off somewhere without my permission.”

You nod.

“Yeah. This time I won’t forget either. Not in a hundred years! ...Never.”

ーー THE END ーー

Translation notes

(1) This was a bit tricky to translate since it refers to the different readings for the character 春, meaning spring. Ayato uses the kun-yomi (haru) first and then corrects himself to the on-yomi ‘shun’, which is how you’d read the character in combination with other kanji. In English, however, the meaning stays the exact same.

(2) Ayato is trying to refer to the Chinese proverb 春眠暁を覚えず which means ‘in Spring one sleeps a sleep that knows no dawn’, but he doesn’t actually finish his whole sentence.

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rayofsunas · 3 years

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nicknames.

A/n: to the anon who said you’d wait centuries, it looks like I got to this “early” lol. I hope you enjoy! I added Albedo for obvious reasons and Venti because like he’s adorable pls... have a good day everyone!

Summary: the boys’ nicknames.

Parings: Scaramouche/Reader, Albedo/Reader, Venti/Reader (all gn)

Warnings: swearing, implied nsfw (18+), crack

Word count: 1k

Scaramouche

Teasing

spinning top: you call him this because of his hat lol. you claim it looks like a spinning top (his hat is smexy)

fandango: for obvious reasons, you just want him to do the fandango dance...

frisbee: obviously, his hat lmao. you wanna play frisbee with it, the only thing stopping you is that you don't have a dog ;-; you may consider getting one just for the sole reason of playing frisbee to bother him

flying saucer: pls, you have so many hat jokes, you could go on all day.

as soon as you whip out the teasing nicknames and claim they’re accidental, he knows they aren’t. especially if they keep slipping out like you’re obviously doing this on purpose... he doesn’t like them. fandango and flying saucer get on his nerves the most.

Angry

bastard: a pretty common mean nickname, it’s not something you commonly use, it just slips out sometimes. he can be a bastard... let's be real

powerless/useless/weak: if you’re really mad at him, belittling his power and strength is a way to get under his skin. he hates this so much because he knows his strength, he has power issues pls.

fatui: don’t do this. he’s not just a Fatui, he's the Sixth of the Eleven Fatui Harbingers, get it straight.

bold of you to call him awful nicknames when you’re angry. very bold. do you want a death wish?!?! if you call him weak, you’re going to feel his wrath and he’ll punish you in the most awful ways. during intimate times he won’t give you the pleasure of release and he’s going to be AWFUL, he has a few terrible nicknames for you. and he’s just plain torturous.

Affectionate

baby deer: coming from his other title, Balladeer, you just think baby deer is a cute nickname that sounds similar enough. he has big doe eyes pls, so cute.

sir: this is obvious. he lives for this like omg call him this in the bedroom or just in general. his ego just gets boosted way up.

master: it sounds so “olden days”, but he doesn’t mind it. he’d rather you call him sir.

okay, he kinda feels eh on the affectionate nicknames. he doesn’t like baby deer that much, only because it sounds girly. he’s not a delicate deer... sir is probably his favorite for obvious reasons. when you call him this on his good days, he’ll definitely reward you ;) and on his awful days, you calling him sir always brings a smirk to his face.

Albedo

Teasing

ash: no, not Ash from Pokemon... you call him that because of his hair, it’s an ashy blonde. so pretty uwuwu.

goldilocks: he’s never heard of a Goldilocks, he assumes it’s something from your world. also, another nickname referencing his hair.

he’s not very fond of the teasing nicknames and much prefers the affectionate nicknames you give him, but he’s not totally bothered by them. he’s meh, 50/50.

Angry

know-it-all: you only say this if you feel like he’s not valuing your opinion. which rarely happens. if you’re arguing over something work-related and you call him that? he’ll be bothered, cue passive-aggressiveness.

workaholic: it sounds degrading to him in a sense, especially if he has been working hard. but I guess that’s the point right, to show him you’re angry? he dislikes the nickname nonetheless.

he hates these nicknames, one because you’re angry at him when you use them, and two, because they’ll always just get under his skin. he loves his work, he honestly loves what he does, so saying those things to try and burn that fire in him, hurts a lot.

Affectionate

baby boy: do y’all see him?!?! defiantly a baby boy for obvious reasons.

sunshine: also, look at him! he’s a ray of sunshine in your life.

prince: you got it from Kreideprinz and just took the part that sounded like Prince and used it lol. but he deserves that nickname.

genius: he’s the smartest person alive, you think. you admire him a lot, his brain is just woah, galaxy brain.

the great albedo/alchemist: you really respect him, and your love for him aside, again you admire him so much. he deserves the title “The Great Albedo/Alchemist”

chalk boy: for obvious reasons, lol.

when he hears these nicknames he always blushes or smiles. like omg?!?!?! he might combust, he loves the affectionate nicknames so much. you calling him a genius, despite everyone saying it, just feels so sweet (because it’s coming from you duh, and he hangs onto your every word).

Venti

Teasing

old man: he looks like a teenager, but lol he’s thousands of years old and you like to remind him of that fact.

alcoholic bard: it’s a joke, you don’t think he is one (?) but he has an obsession for wine.

trickster: he always tricks you/others into buying him wine, like he will seriously coerce you.

he just giggles at all of your teasing nicknames, like gosh aren’t they funny. especially the alcoholic bard one, he’s not that addicted...?

Angry

useless/ignorant: venti seems to always run off when things get hard, and when that happens and you’re in the vicinity, especially if it’s something serious, you’ll kind of call him out on that.

he’ll playfully make it sound like the angry nicknames don’t bother him as much. but let's be real, any belittling nickname can hurt anyone, even an Archon, he’s not immune to anything like that, as much as he makes it seem.

Affectionate

dandelion: his skin is as soft as a dandelion, like how?!?! and he loves dandelion wine too :) so this is an obvious one.

greatest archon: yes!! boost his ego. if he’s your favorite archon, this name just feels even more special.

pretty/handsome: have you seen those eyes?!? gahhh, so pretty wtf.

ahhh, he falls in love even more/all over again. yes, keep these lovely nicknames coming!! he lives for the affectionate ones, obviously amongst his favorites. he likes being called pretty shhh and the greatest archon :)

2.24.21, rayofsunas

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garbagevanfleet · 3 years

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Brightest Blue (series)

PART FOURTEEN

Pairing: Josh x reader Warnings: mentions of sexual content, feelings, cigarettes Summary: Things are changing. New state. New school. New roommate. You just pray things are going to click into place.

Notes: HI EVERYONE! I’m sorry I’m so inconsistent lately. I promise that the next chaptered fic I write, I’ll only start posting it when I’m done writing it. I hope you like this chapter - its incredibly sappy because I’m on my period lol

As always, big thanks to my beta, @lantern-inthenight <3

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MASTERPOST

“Remind me again why you want to ride separately from your brother?” You looked pointedly over at Josh, who was smiling as he ran a soapy rag over the plate you’d just finished eating off of.

“I already have to spend my whole winter break with my family, no need to rob myself of alone time with you,” he explained like it was obvious.

A huff escaped your lips. You pushed away from where you had been leaning against the counter and wrapped your arms around his neck from behind. You laid your head in between his shoulder blades, feeling him turn to nuzzle his nose against your arm as it laid on his shoulder.

“We spend so much time together - like every day - which I’m obviously grateful for,” you said, half-muffled by the material of his sweater. “But don’t you think it just makes more sense to carpool?”

You couldn’t see his hands, but the movements you could feel told you he was wiping the extra water off of them before turning around and pressing your chests together. His lips lightly brushed your temple as he spoke.

“You’re right,” he agreed, though you knew him well enough to know he wasn’t about to just relent. “It does make more sense - I just don’t want to.”

You let out a breath, frowning as you tried to figure out if you should say what you were thinking. After a moment of working up the courage, you cupped his jaw with your right hand, knowing full well that the sweet gesture would help him swallow the discomfort your words would cause.

“Josh,” Your voice was low and quiet, but as you met his eyes, you chickened out. They were so honest, looking at you like your presence was the only thing keeping him grounded - like if you left, he’d just cease to exist. You made a mental note to have a talk with him about that at some point, but you decided it would have to be after you’d returned from Christmas break.

“Hm?” You must have been contemplating too long, prompting his features into a look of concern. You couldn’t bear it.

“Jake is going to ride with us,” you said decidedly. “I already told him he could.”

That was a bit of a lie - he had mentioned it a few days ago and you had said you’d run it by Josh, but you had just made up his mind for him.

He huffed a laugh as he rolled his eyes playfully at you. “Sounds like you’re already communicating better with my family than I have in months.”

“Well,” you started, giving him a pointed look - the kind you only give when you feel confident that you’re right. “I think that would mean communicating with them at all. Honestly, Josh, I know you-”

You were abruptly silenced as he placed his forefinger across your open lips, a half-smirk on his face.

“It’s okay,” he assured simply. “He can ride with us.”

A smile spread across your face underneath his finger. “Good. Have you started packing?” Your words were muffled under his touch.

“Eh,” he replied with a noncommittal shrug, lowering his hand to brush his thumb across your chin.

“Do you want help with that?” you inquired cheekily. “Because, you know, we leave in two days.”

He appeared to consider it for a moment before nodding. “Actually, yeah, that sounds nice. You can sit on my bed and watch while I pack really inappropriate clothes for the occasion.”

You half-snorted out a laugh, rolling your eyes because you knew that’s the reaction he was aiming for. “How about I just pack for you?”

+++

For the first time since knowing him, you saw Jake Kiszka wearing a jacket. It was long and dramatic and nearly brushed the top of the snow as he made his way out to your car with a leather duffle bag in his left hand.

He opened the rear, passenger-side door and tossed his bag in next to yours and Josh’s before sliding in next to it.

You greeted him cheerily, to which he shot you back a smile as a reply.

“You’re actually wearing a coat,” you noted as he pulled the seatbelt over his form and buckled in.

He hummed amusedly, reaching into his pocket and popping a stick of gum in his mouth.

“I’ve found that he doesn’t usually dress like a slut to go home,” Josh replied instead as he turned a lighter around in his palm, absent of the task.

“And if I didn’t wear a coat home, I’d never hear the end of it.”

Josh nodded in agreement, and then you watched a shit-eating grin spread across his lips. “I’m kinda surprised Kate isn’t coming with us today, to be honest. Are you waiting until Easter just to make sure?”

You were busy pulling out onto the road, so you didn’t see it, but you could imagine Jake deeply rolling his eyes at the question.

“I would bring Kate home - it would make me truly happy to physically see Mom die a little inside when she starts trying to talk about amphibious breeding cycles at length during dinner,” he mused, voice clear of any kind of sorrow. He finished simply and with a smile, “But she isn’t my girlfriend.”

“I don’t know, it seemed a little sus when I showed up at her house in the morning and you were already there, chillin’ with her dog,” you replied in a sing-song voice.

“I wasn’t already there, I was still there.” You felt him place a hand on your shoulder, and slap his other one against Josh’s. “Not all of us have the luxury of just being able to pop down the hall.”

“Fair enough,” you relented, feeling your face flush warm.

“Or the shower. Or the kitchen that one time,” Josh added unhelpfully, making your eyes immediately pop open.

“Josh,” you scolded and quickly considered reaching over and slapping him, but decided it was unsafe to drive and strike a passenger at the same time.

“No, this is good,” Jake assured through a smirk you could hear. “Let him get it all out before we get there.”

Josh snickered back, “You’re such a prick.”

+++

The Kiszka homestead was almost impossibly cozy. There was a basket of blankets by the big sofa (much nicer and fluffier than the blankets at your apartment, which had been flattened and matted to the point of complete defeat) and the furniture was centered around a glowing, stone fireplace. Josh’s mom had hugged him for a long moment upon your arrival - a gesture that made your throat feel tight as you watched her fingers flex in the material at the back of his shirt.

She was sunny and kind to the point that you could clearly see Josh’s mannerisms reflected in hers, and the dinner she laid out on the dining room table seemed impossibly large to you, having come from a home with just three people in it.

When she asked you how you liked Midwestern cooking, you gushed about it for - what was undeniably - too long. You’d never say, but you weren’t positive that part of it wasn’t just not having had a real home-cooked meal in months.

You had come to decipher that Josh had told his family that you were just a roommate that didn’t have a place to go for winter break, but you were pretty sure you’d be able to tell the nature of your relationship if you were on the outside looking in - you seemed to be magnetically drawn to wherever Josh was these days.

Everyone cleared out of the living room pretty quickly after dinner and conversation, and you finally got the chance to ask the question that had been on your mind all day.

“Do I sleep out here?”

You were posted up on the couch, your legs crossed one over the other with Josh staying a few inches farther away from you than you were used to.

“No,” he replied. “You can take my room and I’ll sleep out here.”

You had asked mostly as a formality - you hadn’t figured that you’d actually have to sleep separately. Through a slight frown, you said, “Oh, man. It’s been a while since I’ve had to sleep alone. What if I freeze to death?”

He flashed you a smile. “I thought ahead and laid a heated blanket out on the bed for you.”

“Heated blanket? This whole time heated blankets were an option?” you whispered harshly.

“Okay, in my defense, by the time I remembered that they existed, we were already sleeping in the same bed every night.”

The suspicious way you stared at him for a few moments had him biting back a laugh - one of those unguarded ones that seemed to be reserved for people he was really comfortable around. Which seemed to just be you most of the time.

“Will you at least come get ready for bed with me?” you asked, subtly looking up at him through your lashes.

“Of course - no puppy eyes necessary,” he assured with a snicker.

This room was decidedly different than the one back in Ann Arbor. Josh’s space back in the apartment was mostly made up of Earth tones - either picked by choice or having just dulled over time. There were little pops of color scattered around the room, like the golden yellow rug that spread across almost all of the wooden floor, or the string of flags that spanned the entire wall above his bed.

This room was different. You could tell that his parents had tried to clean it up since Josh had moved out, but there was still evidence of spots where posters were hung on the maroon red walls. A stack of comics laid on the dresser - the surface of which was covered in residue and paper where he had placed stickers and then tried to peel them off.

You eyed a well-used keyboard placed along the far wall, and what appeared to be milk crates full of sheet music and the idea of him sitting in front of it and practicing for hours brought a smile to your lips.

He hauled both of your bags up onto the bed and you both picked through them for the sleep apparel you’d packed. You watched him change into a short-sleeved tee and a pair of loose flannel pants through the bathroom mirror as you brushed your teeth across the hall, and when he caught your eyes, he gave you a smirk.

You’d been half expecting him to change his mind and just crawl into bed with you, but instead, he helped you clamber under the covers and pulled the comforter up to your chest.

“Wow, full service tuck-in and everything,” you teased, but quickly shut up when his thumb brushed over your lips.

“Well,” he mused, voice low. “Not the full service.”

You gave him a sour grin as he backed up to the door and flicked the light off.

“Good night, Joshua.”

+++

The next couple of days came and went easily. You were starting to get actually acquainted with his family - chatting with his mother and sister over morning coffee, and getting pinned between his brothers on the sofa while Christmas movies played in the background.

You really hadn’t realized how much you missed being around family until it hit you at dinner one night. You watched out of the corner of your eye as Josh unscrewed the lid on the salt under the lip of the table and then asked Sam if he wanted any.

Josh was just about to slide it across the beat-up wooden surface when you snatched it out of his hand, pointedly tightened the lid, and then slid it over.

When you peeked over at him, Josh was glaring at you, but he wasn’t able to stop the mischievous smirk that his mouth took the shape of.

Sam huffed a laugh that sounded more like a scoff, having figured out the plot quickly after seeing the look on Josh’s face.

“Samuel, do me a favor and dump the whole shaker of salt on your potatoes,” Josh requested in a faux-sweet voice. “Please and thank you.”

“Piss off.” Sam’s reply came through a mouth-full of food, but somehow, he still managed to look lovely while saying it. However, that didn’t save him from his mom’s scolding look - though whether that was in response to the harsh language or speaking with a full mouth was anyone’s guess. You guessed that a person never got to grow out of being “the baby”.

It was then - that simple moment - that you realized how oddly welcomed you felt in this setting. It hadn’t been awkward or uncomfortable even once. You’d never felt out of place despite how different it was from your own home experience.

After you were settled into bed that night, you laid awake thinking about nothing and everything. You didn’t feel particularly tired, but you had decided to turn in when Josh started dozing off on the couch while you were watching the tv on low volume.

You had no clue what time it was, as your phone was charging across the room, but at some point you heard the distinct sound of a door creaking open. It was just down the hall - that you could distinguish - but you weren’t positive which room specifically. The person made their way down the hall, and then up a creaky set of steps, though you could tell that they were trying to move quietly when they got to the next floor and the cadence of their steps changed to something lighter.

You thought about it for a moment before pushing the covers off of you, crawling out of the warmth of the nest you’d made, and slipping your feet into a pair of Josh’s fuzzy slippers that were just barely peeking out under the bed frame. Trying to be as quiet as the last person had been, you crept up the stairs in the low light, having to strain to see the steps in the unfamiliar space, lest you lose your footing.

The room at the top of the steps was a study, and on the other side of it was a large, sliding glass door. And on the other side of that, was Jake, sat out on a covered patio with a cigarette in his hand.

You crossed the room, grabbing a blanket off of the worn leather sofa and wrapping it around yourself as you moved.

He barely turned his head to look at you as you slid the glass open and stepped out onto the porch. The brisk air hit you hard enough to nearly knock the breath from your lungs, so you pulled the blanket up your body until only your head was showing.

“Sorry if I scared you.” The volume of your words were just above a whisper as you bent to sit next to him on the cold wood. “Or if I’m intruding.”

He hummed around his cigarette before ashing it into a Coke can. “You didn’t, and you aren’t.” He looked you over for the first time then and frowned deeply at you. “You are going to freeze to death though. Where the hell is your coat?”

“I’m fine, I’ve got the blanket, see?” you assured, though you had to admit that the cold cut right through the thick material.

He ran his eyes up and down it, rolling them affectionately at you. “Okay,” he replied, though it sounded nothing like he believed you. After a few silent moments, he spoke again.

“How are you liking it here?”

A genuine smile spread out over your lips. “Michigan is lovely, if that’s what you mean. Cold to the point where I’m not sure why anyone would want to live here, but. Lovely, all the same.”

He smiled back at you, oddly warm in nature for him. “And what about the family? Do you find all of us lovely too?”

“Absolutely,” you agreed, pulling your knees up to your chest like you were in a cocoon. Another few long moments ticked by as you watched the snow fall. The night was so still that you swore you could hear the flakes as they settled on whatever surface they happened to land on.

“Can I ask you something?” You flicked your eyes over at him to assess his expression. You knew your brows were threaded close together in worry, which he seemed to take into account before he answered.

He nodded as he took another drag. “Sure,” he replied, smoke and steam glowing with the light of the cherry on the end of his cigarette as he exhaled.

You were silently trying to figure out how to word it for long enough that he looked over at you expectantly.

“Do you think Josh would have come home for Christmas if I...weren’t around?”

He met your eyes and huffed a humorless laugh. “I think that he would have spent a week or two anxiously deciding whether he could handle it and then, ultimately, he would feel too guilty to say no. And from there, I think it would have been a repeat of last year - he would have come home here, found it exhausting, and then screened everyone's’ calls for a couple of months again.”

You weren’t sure what to say, so you just stared at his face, your teeth pressed into your bottom lip until you could feel they’d left an indent as you ran your tongue over it.

“But it’s weird, right?” he continued, biting back a smirk that made you a little uneasy about what he was going to say next. “He seems to be almost blissfully happy this year.”

You held your breath for a moment as you tried to organize your emotions, and then exhaled in a rush once it became uncomfortable. “Look, I. He’s obviously a lot of things to me. A best friend, a room mate, a...romantic partner?”

Jake shot you a disbelieving but highly amused look at your wording.

“But I’m worried that he’s tying himself to me too tightly.” With your eyes, you tried to portray the emotions that that thought evoked in you - how compressed it made you feel.

He seemed to chew it over as he stubbed out his cigarette on the damp wood and then - near instantly - materialized another from behind his ear like a magic trick.

“I love seeing him happy, but I’m scared that I’m the only thing making him happy,” you finished, voice admittedly a little shaky. You didn’t ask first - though you should have - but you slid closer to him until your shoulders were touching, and despite not knowing him all that well yet, it still managed to make you feel more grounded. “It’s not that I expect this to end - whatever we have - but what if it does?”

Jake’s eyes flitted around your features like he was trying to map your face as you anxiously waited for him to tell you everything would be alright.

“You know,” he started, voice low. “When we moved away for school, he was the one that decided we wouldn’t room together. I mean, I didn’t blame him or anything, but I always just assumed we would. He used to be so outgoing. I mean, he never missed a party. People would trip over themselves to be next to him. He used to take his ex out any time he could - it didn’t really matter where, because he’s always had a way of making even the most monotonous task seem fun.”

You didn’t try to suppress a smile as it found your lips.

“So, his ex broke it off with him. I don’t know what happened really - only what I’ve been able to pry out of him - but it fucked him up pretty good. And then as he was just starting to get over it, his roommate had some kind of mental break and just moved out one weekend while Josh was gone. It’s not like they were best friends or anything, but they got along.”

“Fuck,” you whispered, resting your head on Jake’s shoulder and not caring whether or not it was polite to do so anymore.

“Yeah,” he agreed, simply. The tone of his voice was something very somber - the kind you’d use if you were giving a eulogy. “I tried to help. I offered to move in with him. I showed up at his apartment all the time, but he got pretty effective at dodging me. Not just me, actually, but everyone. Worried the fuck out of our mom.”

“What then?” You were not-so-secretly hoping that Jake was going to find a way to make you feel better, and the pitch of your voice reflected it. The core of your body felt like it was stuffed full of stones, weighted and heavy. “What happened?”

Jake hummed. “Well, he started to level out a bit. After a good couple months he started at least answering the door when I came to see him. Sometimes he’d text me back after a day or two. That went on like that for a while.”

He titled his head to look over at you then for the first time in a while. You felt oddly vulnerable after hearing all of that, but you tried not to duck away from his eyes.

“But then, suddenly, you were there. He didn’t tell me a thing about you, or even that he was getting a new roommate until well after you were already moved in.”

You huffed a laugh. “If it makes you feel better, he didn’t tell me anything about you either really. Imagine my surprise when I open the door and you were a twin. Uncanny valley territory.”

“I think he learned how to compartmentalize the people in his life. Seems like it’s easier to manage relationships that way when you’re an extremely guarded person like he had suddenly become.”

He took a pause to take a long drag, simultaneously running a hand through his silky hair.

“But to answer your question - I don’t think you’re the only thing making him happy,” he continued, meeting your eyes with an intensity that you understood to your core. “I think you’re just reminding him that there are things to be happy about.”

You weren’t sure what you were expecting him to say, but you were suddenly choking back tears and a tight, hot feeling in your throat.

“You’ve just got to give him time to remember what it’s like.”

When you opened your mouth to reply, you realized you’d been holding your breath for a moment too long, causing you to suck in a shaky breath. “I intend to give him all the time he needs,” you promised.

Jake offered you back a smile as he moved to stand, stretching out his muscles and then extending a hand for you to take. He helped you clamber up off the floor before tucking his lighter back into the pocket of his fleece sleep-pants.

“Good to hear.”

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